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napping-in-the-buried · 1 year

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Even though I tend to believe the rusty quill medium article since most of it does not come as a surprise to me, of course everything that has been said today should be read critically and still doesn’t warrant any harassment.

That being said, I do not like comments that react to the news by saying “OF COURSE a company under capitalism is shitty.” While I do understand where that comes from and it is technically true, it is still important to hold rusty quill accountable for the way they treated employees and not hide the responsibility for their actions behind the general shittiness of life under capitalism.

I have worked in the creative media industry (not podcasts and not in the UK though) and a lot of my friends still do but there are very good reasons why I left. I have been in situations where I have wondered when and where my next paycheck will come from even though I thought I had stable prospects and I have worked for toxic and abusive employers that have negatively impacted my mental health so I do feel the pain of everyone who spoke out in the article. But even for the toxic workplace standards that I have encountered, the behaviour described in that article is shocking to me. And when a company is as influential as RQ is in the UK fiction podcast scene, their labour practices does influence the industry.

I am not saying people should quit RQ content and demonize the whole company and for the love of god, do NOT harass anyone. The actual creators and workers are the ones most negatively impacted by the conditions under which they are forced to labour. But if you care about labour rights and the conditions under which the content you love is produced, please reflect on how you want to spend your money and take into consideration what signal it sends. I have not pledged myself, but I have heard there is still the opportunity to revoke your kickstarter pledge if this is an action you want to take now. At the same time, many people who have been involved with rusty quill have other projects going on so this is also an opportunity to check that out and support them if you want to.

#not telling anyone what they should do #and it's not like rq is exceptionally evil #the whole industry is Shit #but they should still be held accountable #rusty quill #rusty quill negativity

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trans-michael-shelley · 1 year

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jsyk while I'm disappointed as hell in RQ (and am unlikely to buy any more merch, not that I've really done that more than a few times anyway) I'm not, like. going to rb anything shaming people for still liking to their stuff. I'm a tma fan (who will continue to be), after all, and it'd also be incredibly hypocritical considering the amount of animated shit i watch (another industry where most of the people within it are underpayed and overwhelmed). this is also especially bc RQ's people-at-the-top being shitty doesn't mean the all the people lower down who put time and love into RQ projects don't deserve what little compensation and fan adoration they get.

i never really trusted RQ in the first place (they're a company. i don't tend to like companies) so I'm more "disappointed but not surprised" and saying . ah. capitalism .

I hope this is coherent. I am so incredibly sick and headachey right now. TLDR rq is disappointing but this is still a TMA blog, because TMA is more than just a RQ product and RQ is more than just a company with shitty people up top and I genuinely believe this fandom can force them into acting better anyway

#nico posts #rusty quill #tma #negative cw

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unusualshrimp · 1 year

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The Article is questionable and presumptive but now that we're talking about it, did the timeline of "All tma creators insist the show is over and they're glad it ended -> RQ has financial troubles -> The creators of tma suddenly decide they want to keep continuing the story. for no reason 🥰🌸" not seem suspicious at all. the Kickstarter goals situation terrified me

#literally i had to take A Break from seeing any RQ or tma related content for a bit because THE AMOUNT OF MONEY PEOPLE POURED IN #despite the highly suspect situation. it terrified me #i know it's distressing to see negative talk about smth you like but. you need to recognize when that reaction being used against you #i felt insane after the tma 2 announcement because IS NO ONE ELSE SEEING THIS?? everyone genuinely believed the creators just woke up one #-day and changed their minds on continuing the show. like #if NOTHING else about the article is true - are you telling me the tma creators just conveniently decided to bring it back #right after a bunch of layoffs?? can anybody hear me #im gonna get too into this and get weirdos in my notes again and have to leave for a bit i can already see it #rusty quill discourse #<- for blocklist purposes. sorry

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gabelish · 1 year

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Ignoring some of the questionable things with Newt’s article for a moment, if it is in fact correct that all current and past RQ employees signed NDAs that specifically bar them from saying only positively about the company,,, then like yeah, they’re going to go on Twitter and say that the article or wrong or doesn’t represent their beliefs because otherwise they will be financially and legally penalized if they support it.

#this situation is very complicated but keep that piece in mind #that alone shouldn’t be enough for anyone to decide if the allegations are all false #personally I’m betting the allegations are true and Newt saw an opportunity #but I also know that was supposedly written without the knowledge of Fable & not at their discretion #dunno how that could be proven #and yeah ofc the people sharing their negative experiences have pseudonyms to avoid retaliation esp by RQ for breaking the NDA #rusty quill #don’t cancel RQ just maybe don’t donate to the patreon for TMA

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arithmonym · 1 year

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Journalistic Integrity RE: Newt Schottelkotte’s RQ Article

This section of Schottelkotte’s article struck me as strange:

Then, I read the full version of the quote Schottelkotte used from Callum Dougherty’s Medium interview. Schottelkotte writes “TMA wasn't nearly the smash hit Dougherty describes until about 2019,” but in their quotation, Schottelkotte selectively omitted a middle paragraph in which Dougherty specifically acknowledges TMA’s growth in 2019 in order to paint Dougherty (and RQ by extension) in a negative light.

The Dougherty interview (Emphasis mine — italics show the omitted paragraph):

BC: A back catalog so large can be overwhelming for a listener, but I think that’s actually been a key part of your success and why people keep coming back. Magnus Archives has been around since 2016, but I’m curious to know when it started gaining traction?

CD: Believe it or not, Magnus was something of a hit right out the gate. Comparative to I guess what would be considered a popular audio-drama podcast now. It found an audience quite quickly.

Though what I would certainly say is that it was in 2019 that the show began to grow, and it went on what I would describe as a 10-month journey from being considered a very popular podcast, to the most popular fiction podcast in the world. That was a line of growth that looked pretty much like a straight line upwards, where we were finding month-on-month listenership doubling at a point. Every single month you could see it — there were hundreds of thousands, now there was a million this month, and it would go in that direction.

To borrow a phrase from Alex Newall [Rusty Quill CEO and founder], I’d also mention that nothing at Rusty Quill — despite what it might seem — has ever happened by accident. And the factor that I would consider — and this may be my own ego — is the show began to grow really dramatically because this was the point that I came in.

In contrast, this is the portion of the Dougherty interview quoted in Schottelkotte’s RQ article:

Schottelkotte’s selective omission gives the reader a VERY different impression of Dougherty’s words, and bends the truth in order to support their narrative. Personally, I’d even go so far as to call it a deliberate misquotation.

TL;DR: Journalistic integrity requires (among other things) fairness, impartiality, truth, and accuracy. As a result of this twisting of the truth, in addition to Schottelkotte’s initial failure to identify themselves as Marketing Director for Fable & Folly Network, I would not trust Newt Schottelkotte as a credible source.

#rusty quill #the magnus archives #tma #the magnus protocol #newt schottelkotte #id in alt text #m speaks

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pod-bastard · 2 years

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Dude not to be too negative about how podcasting works now a days but to the people who are freaking out over staff cuts at Rusty Quill; let me just ask you; how many of you permanently picked up another one of their shows after Magnus ended? I know I tried but ended up not being able to stand how depressingly British their ttrpg podcast was. After the show ended I went from listen to them every week to eventually unfollowing them in my podcast app. And I know that I’m nowhere near alone on that. From a creative perspective TMA ended exactly how they wanted and then they walked away from it. From a financial decision perspective that couldn’t have been a worse move if you were doing it on purpose. None of their other shows had even half the draw and influence that TMA did. I think they had to recently let some people go since they’ve obviously suffered financially since but are trying to bring TMA back after a lot of the hype has already died down and after they’ve repeatedly stated that they were creatively satisfied with the story. Personally, I’m probably not returning to listen but I hope that they manage to regain the fans they lost in the pause and that people don’t judge them as “Going back on their creative integrity” or whatever just because they found out they’ve been typecast and audiences just want one thing from them now.

#do not archive #tma #the magnus archives #rusty quill

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zolf-loadsahitpoints-smith · 1 year

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so here’s the thing,

i listened to where the stars fell a few months ago and absolutely loved it. i started to admire newton schottelkotte as someone who started in the fiction podcasting industry quite young and is now trying to impart wisdom onto the future generation of creatives.

i felt compelled to believe them over rusty quill because:

1. rusty quill has been known to do shady things in the past and it’s not so hard to believe they would do it again

and:

2. i generally trust the word of independent creators over companies (though of course newt is not as “independent” as they first presented themself in the article)

but god this whole thing is a mess. other people have articulated way better than i ever could why newt’s article is just bad journalism all around and i appreciate the critical thinking coming out of the podcast community at this time.

i’m mostly just afraid that magnus fans will see this as an opportunity to look down on independent fiction podcasts. most people reading newton’s article have never heard of them or their work before. maybe it’s the gatekeeper in me but i’m worried this may lead to negative attention on the fiction podcasting community as a whole. of course that’s not rusty quill’s fault, or magnus fans’ faults necessarily, it’s newt’s, and that’s what makes it so much worse.

that’s just my two cents as someone who’s a fan of both camp’s work. i don’t think it’s worth anything but none of my real life friends know what the hell i’m talking about when i bring up podcast drama and this is my blog i’ll do whatever the hell i want.

#the magnus archives #tma #rusty quill #where the stars fell podcast #where the stars fell #wtsf #wtsf podcast #magnus pod #inkwyrm

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theglockwizard · 1 year

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Regarding the article that came out recently, my ground is that ae need more info.

The article was written by a competing company marketing person, used 3 anonymous sources(As they should remain to be because something like that has had people blacklisted before, and I don't want that for people) and nothing else besides a Rusty Quill tweet, and "public data" which isn't elaborated upon nor correctly sourced in the article proper.

The article, I think, has a lot of truth to it, because it seems exactly the kind of bad practices and chaos a company suddenly sky rocketed into a medium to big status would have. It also has some... bad faith? Like, it says the TMP guest writers would be the remaining few creators left untouched by Rusty Quill so far, but it's not true, the majority has interacted with RQ before and some even have a podcast on the network!

Then we have official reactions to it. Ben Meredith retweeted the article, which to me indicates he agrees with it. He would now what he's talking about, since he was a VA and has a show on the network.

Other podcasts have shared negative reactions to it, like Malevolent writer Harlan Guthrie asking people not to drop the show for "an article that presumptively and poorly attempts to speak for me".

The feeling of not appreciating being spoken for(with also some people lamenting not being contacted before the article) is also mirrored into The Town Whispers, woe.begone and the cellar letters so far.

So my feelings on the matter is: No matter if the experience shared by the three sources are an exception or the rule, they are valid and should matter. Rusty Quill has also to do better. You might not know how to lead a company at first, and growing pains are to be expected, but that's not an excuse not learn how to do so. What works with a bunch of friends just starting out won't work with several teams of creators starting out, and there's a responsability in being the source of people's income.

But we also shouldn't harm creators over it, and we should keep our ears open for both the other side's story and other people's statements on the matter. Like, if other people shared the three sources' experiences and comes forward, or if someone else comes and disproves something from the article. There's also the possibility of various degrees of misinformation being in the article, as a RQ editor seemed to hint at, so yknow.

Also, for other creators out there: If you are proposed a bad contract and the company says "we won't enforce it", don't believe them. There's a old latin saying that goes "verba volant scripta manent", spoken words fly but written ones stay. When push comes to shove, they will enforce whatever they want. Have the contract changed or go to someone else.

#rusty quill #rusty quill uk

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anxietytwist · 10 months

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𝐁𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐲 “𝐁𝐞𝐯” 𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐰

[ 𝟹𝟻 | 𝟺'𝟷𝟶" | Agender | Bisexual | ❤︎Elias ]

⟨Personality⟩

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𝘊𝘰𝘮𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 & 𝘱𝘳𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘭

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𝗗.𝗢.𝗕. [April ⁃ 𝟷𝟺 ⁃ 𝟷𝟿XX]

ᴘʀᴏɴᴏᴜɴꜱ‣ They/Them ʙᴜɪʟᴅ‣ Soft

ᴀʟɪɢɴᴍᴇɴᴛ‣ Chaotic Good ᴘᴇʀꜱᴏɴᴀʟɪᴛʏ ᴛʏᴘᴇ‣ ISFJ-A ᴄʜᴇꜱꜱ ᴘɪᴇᴄᴇ‣ Pawn

ᴄᴏᴘɪɴɢ ᴍᴇᴄʜᴀɴɪꜱᴍ‣ Medication (𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘪𝘱𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯) ᴘʀᴏꜰᴇꜱꜱɪᴏɴ‣ P.I. (𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘵)

They curb-stomped the swamp creature after shooting it multiple times 💀🔫

Their hair started greying once they reached their 𝟸𝟶s

𝐁𝐞𝐯 has 𝟷 brown eye & 𝟷 hazel eye

They try their best to lock away negative emotions ... to totally deal with "later"

Their medication is prescribed for their depression & panic disorder

“𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘦 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦, 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘪𝘦𝘳𝘤𝘦.” describes 𝐁𝐞𝐯 to a T (many an aggressor has learned this the hard way when underestimating them 👊😠)

𝐁𝐞𝐯 is the eldest of 𝟺 (by 𝟽 years for their brother & 𝟷𝟸 for their twin sisters), because of their experience growing up somewhat responsible for their siblings, they're good at handling kids (& even enjoy being around them)

They drive a Ford Maverick truck

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They used to do track & field when they were younger (& still do some running whenever they have free time) 🏃💨

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makesometime · 7 months

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twenty questions for fic writers

I was tagged by the lovely @icescrabblerjerky

1. How many works do you have on AO3? 396! I had no idea I was so close to the big 4-0-0.

2. What’s your total AO3 word count? 1,161,641 since 2011

3. What fandoms do you write for? The top five above the ‘expand fandoms list’ section on my dashboard are: Rusty Quill Gaming, Terra Nova (the terrible 2012 TV show), Assassin’s Creed (Odyssey), Stranger Things and Baldur’s Gate 3. Honourable mention to Final Fantasy 14 which is likely to inspire more in me at some point.

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

You are the reason I stay alive (Stranger Things) at 1,557

Hold me deep beneath your waves (Our Flag Means Death) at 1,237

Broken Regrets (Castlevania) at 1,219

Swallow my breath and take what is mine (Castlevania) at 967

You kissed me just to kiss me, not to make me cry (Our Flag Means Death) at 936

Amusingly, none of these feature in the top 5 for comments. Those are all Rusty Quill Gaming, which doesn’t surprise me at all. Of all of them, only 2 feature in the top 10 for comments.

5. Do you respond to comments? I always do, yes!

6. What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? I don’t think I ever write an angsty ending, because I am a happy ending queen. In fact if I search my almost 400 fics for the word angst, it only features in 7. I suppose Shield (An)other (RQG) would count but it was written from a place of bitterness so the angst is really all self-imposed.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? This is actually a harder question to answer, because that’s what I always aim for. The first one that came to mind though was I don't know where this road will end, but I'll walk it with you, hand in hand (RQG) because it was probably the last time I was truly happy with what was happening in RQG and I think it shows in the story. Everything since has been me fixing canon, with equally happy (blissful) endings.

8. Do you get hate on fics? I am very lucky - I’ve only ever had one comment that tended towards the negative and that was because I mentioned a canon female love interest too much in a m/m fic. That one got deleted.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? Heck yeah I do. Of all my fics, 179/400 are rated E and 39/400 are M. I write all sorts - from soft to hard kink and everything in between. It’s also the far easiest thing for me to write.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written? I only have two, my favourite one is probably 34 Tite Street which is a TMA/RQG crossover. I did write a Hades (game)/RQG crossover which is probably a bit crazier.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? There was once upon a time that I’m pretty sure an RQG fic was heavily inspired by one of mine. But that’s okay, I don’t think it got much attention and I wasn’t going to throw my weight around about it.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? Yes! One of my favourite fics for a very small fandom (Appropriate Punishment from And Then There Were None) was translated into Russian.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? Very many things, with some truly wonderful friends <3<3

14. What’s your all-time favorite ship? Absolutely Zoscar from RQG. Nothing has inspired me quite like them, and nothing has got me so many wonderful friends.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will? I only have three on ao3 and tbh I don’t really want to finish any of them.

16. What are your writing strengths? Characterisation - I have been writing long enough that I can trust if something isn’t working, it’s because I’ve fucked up the characterisation at some point. Whether that’s a line of dialogue that doesn’t sound right, or a whole section of ‘they wouldn’t fucking do that’, I have to fix it to make the fic work.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? Like Miri, I hate description so very much. I feel like I’m bad at it and I make it boring.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? I don’t mind unless it’s not translated. There have been a few fics I’ve seen in my time where another language has been used as a purposeful exclusionary tactic and no translation was given. (An RQG one comes to mind - the smugness radiating off of it was repulsive.)

19. First fandom you wrote for? Gosh, probably Stargate SG-1. Many many many years ago, you’ll forgive me for not checking ff.net to get a precise date for myself, but it was at least 20 years ago…

20. Favorite fic you’ve ever written? This is very hard to answer! I love all my children equally. Most recent favourite? Not broken, just bent, and we can learn to love again for Baldur’s Gate 3. Overall favourite is probably Pieces of me are pieces of you for RQG <3

I'll tag @sky-kiss, @wordsandstrangeways and @gorgongorgeous if you would like to!

#fic writing

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kd-heart · 1 year

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I posted 19,562 times in 2022

That's 2,768 more posts than 2021!

149 posts created (1%)

19,413 posts reblogged (99%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@prigorie

@lvlbeginner

@peppermintquartz

@thriceandonce

@dreamyplatypus

I tagged 8,984 of my posts in 2022

#our flag means death - 1,249 posts

#the sandman - 1,107 posts

#dreamling - 300 posts

#punnery - 261 posts

#malevolent podcast - 217 posts

#dracula daily - 199 posts

#goncharov - 198 posts

#the magnus archives - 169 posts

#rusty quill gaming - 151 posts

#language - 141 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#who's gonna go to the police if they don't speak the local language and all they know is 'sex work is illegal i don't want to go to prison'

I sent 2 gifts in 2022

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

fandom exists in the negative spaces (between episodes, unspoken words, meetings that never happen, post-canon, pre-canon, could-have-beens, and would-bes, alternate universes, roads not taken, etc) and we've made ourselves a nice little void to expand endlessly into out of a movie that doesn’t exist

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#4

I love a fandom that gives me some nice imagery to work with! And the Kraken and the Lighthouse were irresistible.

81 notes - Posted April 19, 2022

#3

I'm pretty sure someone has already done this, but I couldn't get the meme out of my head after I rewatched ep6 this weekend.

This is why Death was trying to get him to take his shoes off :)

119 notes - Posted October 24, 2022

#2

I regret to inform you that there seem to be no xmas movies shot in Romania, this year. At least, none that I could find. (Did we finally make one ourselves? I'll have to do more digging)

158 notes - Posted November 23, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

"You wear fine things well"

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Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #that was *a lot* of posts...#and a lot less punnery than i expected

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heavilypregnantdatasoong · 1 year

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Been relistening to the magnus archives on my hour walk and its so funny.

Like. The sombre music. The fact that its called Rusty Quill. Jon's intensely annunciated dark and discerning tone. How Bri'ishly aggressively and articulated (without shouting) he delivers the bit about the creative commons license. it nearly comes off as parody. gotta be other people who find it absurdly funny just hearing the "Rusty Quill Presents..........." or "CREATIVE-COMMONS-ATTRIBUTION-NON-COMMERCIAL-SHAREALIKE-INTERNATIONAL-LICENSE."

this isnt meant to be negative btw.

#the magnus archives #tma

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raichukaiju · 1 year

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I've been trying almost too hard to make what I what I wanted to say about The Magnus Archives into the perfectly worded eloquent essay, but if I stay on that train of thought then I'll never get anything written, so I'm giving myself permission to make it a bunch of jumbled dot points. It's me writing down my feelings, not a graded essay. It doesn't have to be perfect, it just has to be out of my head and on the page.

I have put it under a cut though since it's going to get long and I don't want to clog up people's dashes.

Before that though I really have to say thank you to @petticoat-swashbuckler for insisting that I listen to The Magnus Archives in the first place and then for letting me message you my live reactions to almost every episode (some at some truly awful hours), and thank you @jonnywaistcoat and everyone at Rusty Quill for the story you created that will always be a powerful gift and experience that I'll treasure forever~💚

Now Statement Begins let's go~ ⤵️

Never has a character spoken to my heart like Martin Blackwood. I see SO much of myself in him, even - especially - the messy parts. But he grows, he learns to set boundaries and take up space and stand up for himself, even if sometimes it's one-step-forward-two-steps-back sort of thing. But watching that character growth happen, as someone trying so hard with similar issues - it gives me a lot of hope for my own future. Also the fact that he's canonically fat and people celebrate that in fan art means so much, it's really helping me learn to love my body more, seeing this character I'm so close to drawn so often with a body like mine!!

Bouncing off that a bit, Recollection (ep 170) is the first episode that made me truly cry - full on sobbing on the couch, no exaggeration - and also feel a nauseous kind of fear rather than spooked or squicked, because it was so real. I get stuck in that fog too, more than I'd care to admit, and the way those emotions and experiences were layed out in that episode really hit hard. Martin's firm declaration "I am not lonely anymore" is something I'm carrying forward with me as a mantra. I'm not alone, I'm not lonely, I have friends who love me and want to see me get better and even in the thickest of fog, I will find a way out and back to them, back to myself. The temptation to eventually get that quote tattooed somewhere is very strong.

The fact that Jon is canonically asexual still makes my heart swell to bursting to think about - even if it isn't a major part of the story, it still means the world to me to have that representation, especially in a character so dear to my heart

Jon just means so much to me in general. I don't relate to him quite as heavily as I do Martin, but I still see connections. Though mostly when I think about Jon, to me he's my friend. He's my friend and I love him and I trust him and the podcast ending - aside from breaking my heart with what happened - felt like saying a goodbye I wasn't ready for to someone dear to me.

TMA is a story about a lot of things, but a big thing to me is that it's a story about choices. About how even decisions made with good intentions can still have negative consequences, but that doesn't make you a bad person. That making a decision at all can be just as important (if not more-so) as what you end up choosing. That don't have to make all the hard decisions alone. It's definitely something I needed to hear.

I've started slowly working on my fear of ants/swarms thanks to the Corruption episodes, so that's something!! (I did skip half of Pest Control (ep 55) and read the transcript of the rest though, it was making me want to crawl out of my skin. But I listened to Like Ants (ep 184) all the way through so yay for progress)

Speaking of the Fears, I'd absolutely serve the Vast!! Space, the deep sea and giant monsters don't scare me, though I definitely can the horror element in them. But to me, they're fascinating because of all of the potential there, all the beauty to see and learn about!! In that regard, I'm also certainly marked by the Eye - I need to know things! I love learning and researching and there's just so much in the world to discover and I know realistically I can never learn everything, but that doesn't mean I don't want to try. Another friend of mine said I was seeking a "Vastness of Knowledge" when we were talking about it and that's definitely an apt description!!

The existential side of the Vast does scare me though, that idea of cosmic insignificance is terrifying. I definitely agree with what Martin said to Simon - "I think our experience of the universe has value. Even if it disappears forever." - even if we're only here for a short time in the scheme of things, what we do in that time still matters because it's ours, and we still make an impact that ripples out even when we're gone.

It's re-sparked my interest in wanting to write horror (honestly just my desire to write in general) and reminded me how much I genuinely enjoy horror as a genre - it's just something easier for me to consume as a written or audio medium than a visual one, that doesn't mean I don't or can't enjoy it at all! Jonny's manner of storytelling is so compelling, and his descriptions - especially the statements in season five - have really lit a fire in me to up my game and work on my own creations

"Feed it, fearlessly and without hesitation, or it will feed on you" I know Jude Perry was talking literally about feeding the Fears, but this one stuck with me thinking about the idea of working on/with the things that scare me - "feeding" them - rather than letting them consume me. Maybe that doesn't make sense, but in my head it does and it's helpful to me which is the main thing.

Seriously The Magnus Archives has been so good for me in terms of helping me rethink/reframe a lot of my fear, anxiety and trauma. I'm so grateful for that, and even if it's hard to articulate (seriously not sure where to begin explaining it to my psych), it's something special to carry with me and help me push through. Part of me wishes I'd gotten into the show a lot sooner, but at the same time I think it truly came into my life when I needed it most and would get the most from it.

..... Ok once I started writing this was actually easier to get through than I initially thought it would be. I've still got a lot I want to talk about, but most of it would probably just end up being me posting quotes that ruined me and explaining why. But if anyone wants to talk about any aspect of TMA with me, please drop into my inbox!!! I'm usually better at answering questions than I am being left to ramble directionless (it's why I like writing essays so much, it's easier to keep focused on what information I'm presenting) and I'm not going to tire of talking about this series any time soon!!!

#the magnus archives #tma #personal #it's been a long time since I've made big posts about fandom feelings and things but this is me being brave in 2023 and living my best life #and sharing more of what matters to me even if it feels like it's messy

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lilliebabie · 2 years

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tw: self condescension, loneliness, general mental illness and negative subjects (possibly psychotic thoughts)

This is not something to read if you are regressed

i dont feel good. i feel ill right now. its really embarrassing because i know its childish and unimportant and no one else would care like this but basically ive been a huge fan of the magnus archives since summer 2020 and its been a big part of my life, i was genuinely hyper fixated on it for a while like it was what i was thinking about seventy percent of the time. its still the only piece of media I consistently read fics for. I prepared myself well for its end and coped with it remarkably well for someone as pitiful as myself. i accepted it and felt okay. i really really felt ok, and satisfied and satiating and an appropriate amount of sad. i thought it was a good ending. a well written one. anyone with any good media literacy skills can probably know that an melancholy yet ambiguous ending was best for a show like tma. one of my biggest pet peeves is when pieces of media that closed their stories extremely intentionally and cleanly open it up again for more money and because there out of ideas. And tma isn’t even doing an extra thing like I thought they were suggesting with an arg they released. It’s a full on sequel. I feel so sick writing this. i know it’s pathetic. i know it’s embarrassing. but it feels like the corpse of something I loved was buried nicely within me and I’ve been through the stages of grief and I’ve accepted it, but now my acceptance has been broken because the corpse has been dug up and desecrates for money and a lack of ideas. seeing the worst parts of capitalism and of media and art within it taint my favorite art is really really hard right now. And it’s so rough because I think I recall Jonny sims emphasizing that this was the end point blank period. And it should have been. But nothing I love can stay nice. I don’t know. i can’t handle it all again. All the stress. This is also so so so embarrassing, no one looks at my posts so at this point I’m putting it out in tot he void which is fine by me, I just need to get it off my chest, but i am so so so painfully lonely and understimulated and uninterested in life too that ive been trying to imagine that Martin from tma is my friend. I try to hear him taking to me and being next to me because I feel like I’m losing my humanity and my connection to human being and my very being will literally cosmically unravel if I can’t put myself in delusion that I have a friend who loves me on a deeper level than is possible. I don’t know. I don’t know. They’re messing up my equilibrium. Everything was laid to rest. It’s a terrible decision writing wise too. The finale has lost all meaning. Rusty quill has been laying off workers and taking breaks on other works for this dumb arg bc I guess nothing was making them money so just bring back the FINISHED series you promised you wouldn’t bring back I guess. Nothing means anything anymore. When I found out about all this, like when it came out that this new content would be tma2 and that they were firing people if felt like k was losing it and I had to start calling out for people who don’t exist to keep me existing. I hate them. I can’t do this. It’s hard to watch such a well written thing become shut writing for money. HE SAID HE WOULDNT BRING IT BACK. i need to sleep now and I guess I’ll pretend there is another person here and I’ll make it real.

#rant #tw #vent #babbles #text #mine #tw mental illness

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gertruderobinsonscat · 4 years

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TMA Merch

Can some kind soul please direct Rusty Quill to the merch page for Old Gods of Appalachia? Because they have some Edgelord this is a Serious Horror Podcast designs (that aren’t also fuck ugly) but they also have jokey ones, stuff that references in-universe entities, and stuff that acknowledges their queer fanbase.

Like, I’ve seen countless creepy and cool designs for the Fears here on tumblr that don’t require trigger warnings and give a better idea what the show is about and that I wouldn’t be embarrassed to wear out in public. Give me a Breekon and Hope Moving company shirt, a Grifter’s Bone reunion tour shirt, a poster advertising the Circus of the Other* done in the style of vintage Soviet circus posters, “from the library of Jurgen Leitner”, or a WTG logo. Give me a asexual pride shirt referencing the Archivist (seriously, just slap “Statement Begins” over an ace pride flag) or a bi pride one referencing Tim.

*actually might fire up adobe illustrator and attempt to draw this one

#tma negative #rusty quill negativity #mugsy bitches #merch discourse

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tiabwwtws-art · 2 years

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Posts that are made for Me. My Mother. And no one else. Mdzs with stellar firma audio

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