#she’s giving novel

[sctumsempra]

going insane and i need to infodump about severus snape’s patronus being a doe for a second. i personally don’t think it changed, or lily necessarily influenced it- i think it’s always been a doe, casting the charm in dumbledore’s office was meant to show that he and lily were supposed to be viscerally aligned with each other and he knows he fucked it up and that’s why he’s spent almost two decades trying to atone for what he did. on a representative level, the doe symbolizes peace, protection, and innocence, and no three words could possibly represent severus snape more.

all he wants is peace: a peaceful life for himself, a peaceful world, a peaceful school. everything he’s ever done has been to create as much peace as possible. some of it can be considered misguided from a black and white moral standpoint, but it’s what created peace for himself. for example, aligning himself with the purist views of his housemates made him less of a target for bullying- he’s not a pure blood, and they’d know, and having powerful ambitious students on your side instead of alienating yourself from everyone means you have at least a semblance of protection from harm some of the time. he becomes a double agent for dumbledore to help bring about peace from voldemort’s reign. it might not have been peaceful for him per se, but it was still with the intention of peace in some form. he tries to give other people peace- he takes a vow with narcissa to protect her son because she’s crying and scared for him, and it gives her peace. he doesn’t throw draco under the bus to save his skin when voldemort accuses him of being the elder wands owner, giving draco and narcissa peace even if they weren’t aware. it’s either for himself, or for others.

he’s the most protective teacher at the school- would mcgonagall have thrown herself in front of three kids facing a wolfsbane-less werewolf? would flitwick take the burden of an unbreakable vow to protect draco malfoy from voldemort? would any of the DADA teachers have run towards the sound of a screaming woman? he consistently vows to protect everyone and everything he can. and, leading into his innocence, when he realizes he’s only been protecting harry for him to die, it breaks him.

he’s not necessarily innocent in that his hands are clean and he’s never done anything wrong in his life, but he’s innocent in that he’s naive. he trusted voldemort enough to be drawn into the death eaters, he trusted dumbledore enough to be manipulated into his bidding. it feels like he forgets that dumbledore screws him over constantly, dangles things in front of him and takes them away, makes crude assumptions, and has left him to fend for himself essentially their entire relationship. the times that dumbledore abandons him- physically, mentally, metaphorically- he gets very upset. like it’s new information to him that dumbledore treats him like shit. from an abuse perspective, he probably had to spend his childhood mentally erasing what his parents and home were like so he could feel safe and normal, so the constant ebb and flow/back and forth of his and dumbledore’s relationship is familiar to him. when dumbledore draws him back in with whatever method, he’s right back to behaving as dumbledore wants, doing what dumbledore wants, and believing what dumbledore believes. the times that he remembers that dumbledore doesn’t care that he let the guy who’s tried to kill him or assault go, or that dumbledore thinks he wants only lily saved because he desires her romantically or sexually, or that dumbledore has only been using harry and, by extension, him (as he’s been the one protecting harry) to play the long game of destroying voldemort are the times that he’s emotional in the books. he cries, he’s vulnerable, he raises his voice, he begs and he pleads and he defers. he doesn’t do that any other time, other than when he found harry watching his memories. he trusts and he forgives (or he forgets, or he feels safer pretending he doesn’t care what’s been done to him/how he’s been treated.) a doe is perfect for him. reducing it to something like tonk’s patronus being changed as soon as she’s in a relationship with lupin or that it’s only a doe because of lily evans completely erases his entire way of thinking and behaving and being.

also, in a self indulgent addendum, it’s a very feminine animal, and severus is consistently aligned with femininity. hermione calls the half-blood prince’s writing feminine. he wears his mother’s clothes as a child, and lupin encourages neville to dress his boggart as his grandmother. he’s quiet and docile and tries to be non-violent unless he’s pushed to his breaking point, and even then it’s screaming or crying or getting animated. he’s emotional and frequently painted as hysterical. he gets the “woman character treatment”: to the average viewer who doesn’t think about him long enough to understand otherwise, he only desires lily. the consensus is that he chases her, he only thinks about her in the context of attraction. the line about looking at her greedily is constantly understood to be lust, and not a desire for love or a desire for a peaceful relationship for once in his life (and a relationship that only ever seems to be platonic at that). he even backs off and all but disappears from her life when he’s asked to, while james (the one with the stag patronus, the classic triumphant male character) harasses her and pursues her and behaves in a way that makes his son decades later wonder if he forced lily into a relationship. he’s behaviorally aligned with what femininity in the eyes of misogyny is supposed to be. he keeps to himself, he’s quiet, he sacrifices every bit of himself for students and coworkers and superiors and expects nothing in return, he pushes his students to be the best they can. (i’d say nurtures with my whole chest, but as the narrative comes from harry, we can’t really be sure. in my view, his house won the house cup for several years in a row which was only interrupted by dumbledore awarding a fuck ton of points to his gryffindor prize pony, his classes are seen as high performing and advanced by even dolores umbridge of all people, he only tries to punish students albeit a bit violently after several attempts of getting them to understand why what they did was wrong, which seems to be pretty nurturing in comparison to what other teachers allow and do). whether he’s trans, or had been influenced more by eileen, or he was intended to be deeply complex and contradictory and that meant that he had to have these traits, or any other of the multitude of reasons for snape being an inherently feminine character, it’s there. his patronus wouldn’t be a stag, he wouldn’t be anything overbearing and he wouldn’t be anything aggressive. it doesn’t make sense with his soul and his personality and his life. the peaceful protective innocent/naive doe, however, does.

#severus snape #snape #pro snape #patronus #snape meta #severus snape meta #i’m going insane #i wrote this at work. i couldn’t sit with all of this in my head anymore #he’s the character ever #he deserves the coziest quietest little life ever. i hope he gets it in his next one #he’s so tragic and misunderstood and villainized. i might be crying a little #i could literally talk about him and all of this for hours i just figured i should stop where i was #she’s giving novel

[mathildejr]

going back to gouache after about 10 years of leaving it alone 👀 here's Mariam as a kid

#the kitten's pose is an hommage to chickpea my own cat #who's letting us give her belly rubs now!!! it's only been a couple weeks #she's loving it #it makes her space out lol #no more brain behind these huge eyes of hers #anyway I've got a pdf ready presenting Birds of the Storm to make a graphic novel out of it #waiting on publisher's opinion... #URGH hadnt noticed the typo #living it alone lol #oops

[moonilit]

Tifa’s doodles, with Cloud knowing full well she is an excited chief ✨

#I need more people to notice Tifa genuinely enjoy developing recipes #She is so proud of her bar menu lol #Give her new ingredients let her experiment #Which make the little random detail about how cloud bring her exotic vegetables in the novels heartwarming #Aww #tifa lockhart #cloud strife #ffvii r #final fantasy vii #ffvii rebirth

[murasaki-cha]

Tcf part 2 chapter 255

The great and mighty Raon Miru. "We're going to smack the Dragon Lord in the back!" "......" Cale was speechless.

"Nya!" Hong stepped forward. "You shouldn't say that!" Then he added: "We're not going to hit the back of the head, but the front and the side of the head too!" Then he confidently pointed at Cale.

"This is our leader!" What? Cale's mind became dizzy. On the other side, On sighed and calmed Hong and Raon down. Then she spoke calmly to the elf. "We are a group of about a hundred people made up of humans, beastmen, and dragons. We are currently preparing to fight the Dragon Lord, and we would like to discuss this with you, so we would like to invite you to visit. And Wisha said there was a way to reach the origin of the world, so we came together. I'm sorry if you were surprised by our sudden visit." "What is this again?" Cale looked at On with a blank face. In response, On leisurely flicked her tail and approached Hong and Raon.

I've said it before and I'll say it again. On holds the entire braincells of this found family. That 12 year old girl is the backbone of the calefam. They'd be goners without her

#give her a raise she's tired of taking care of these adults #tcf #trash of the count's family #cale henituse #lcf #lout of the count’s family #tcf novel #tcf on #tcf hong #raon miru #tcf part 2 #laws of hunting

[olivexing]

Becoming human 🧜‍♀️

Does the shrinking hurt, like being squeezed and split in half? Or is it like being hugged all over?

I don’t draw usually shrinking because it freaks me out! What do y’all think??

#giant tiny #size difference #gt #g/t #shrinking #size shifting #size shifter #merman #mermaid #transformation #this is inspired by a Lindsey Ellis take- she likens Ariel’s transformation to a gender euphoric transition and I was like :o #I wanted to give euphoria at the end; that this process was novel and terrifying but he came out the other side something new and beautiful #uncharted territory!!! #body horror?

[spicyet]

fem!Shuro from that one panel

#dungeon meshi #shuro #nakamoto toshiro #toshiro nakamoto #shuro dungeon meshi #laishuro #implied anyways #Sam’s doodles of the day #I like to think Fem!Shuro is talking to the other girls about how Laios keeps ‘complimenting’ her when she’s training or using her sword #Or she’s a bit upset because Laios said something close to ‘I need you!’ And while she’s fawning he adds ‘and so does the party!’ #Queue her heart shattering bc she didn’t wanna hear the last part #and is complaining to the other girls about how Laios is giving her mixed signals #or just plain and simple Laios compliments her to no end and she’s been waiting for those compliments to turn into a confession #(In my mind Shuro only has romance novels as dating reference lolololol) #Also thank u to my wife for helping with the kanji that makes for fem!shuro’s name #Kiyomine nakamoto #and rather than a mistake she thinks Laios calls her ‘Inne’ as a cute nickname like couples would do #anyways she’s hopelessly in love

[desnaa]

realized that all of aang’s, korra’s, and kyoshi’s father figures and closest mentors were airbenders 😭🥺

it makes sense because i think airbenders are the more kind and gentler spirits whose selfless principles involve knowing how to take care of others and to give so much without expecting anything in return. i think that's why gyatso, tenzin, and kelsang were so effortlessly nurturing: despite these kids being strangers, they offered their love and support to them as if they were family. so it feels very natural that aang, korra, and kyoshi connected with and looked up to them, especially as avatars who strived to be as selfless as their mentors.

#airbenders fr have the most love to give and are the most open to giving it when i think about it #glad all three of these kids had someone like them in their lives because they needed it #even tho kyoshi kelsang literally needed kelsang to save her because she probably would've died if he hadn't #also yangchen flew in too at the end of the first kyoshi novel and offered that same comfort to her too #i mean second novel lol #it was so natural for her and very natural for kyoshi to accept it #love and appreciate all of them for this #kyoshi #aang #korra #tenzin #kelsang #rise of kyoshi #avatar generations #avatar the last airbender #legend of korra #mine

[finelythreadedsky]

wait i think actually madeline miller's circe is the heir to margaret atwood's penelopiad, unintentionally, in the way it thematizes the impossibility of real solidarity among women.

bc it's such a major part of the penelopiad how penelope creates what she thinks is a real community, a sort of family, with these young women in her household only be to reminded and continue to reinforce that they are slaves over whom she (among others) holds the power of life and death. and penelope ultimately does not or cannot hold a lasting grudge against odysseus on their behalf. she aligns herself, or circumstances force her to align herself, with odysseus instead of with other women whose positions are even more dangerous than hers. the world they live in does not allow solidarity between women across lines of class and enslavement, and penelope is also complicit in maintaining that world and her place in it.

and then the thing i found so frustrating about circe was that at every turn miller forecloses the possibility of real connections between women-- but the thing in this world that prevents that is just, like, jealousy over men. and totally needlessly. the other nymphs are prettier. glaucus loves scylla and not circe. her mom never liked her. hermes doesn't really think she's hot. athena is a rival for odysseus' attention. and the book doesn't do anything with this, it's not due to structural power imbalances or a society built on enslavement or even how patriarchy pits women against each other (circe lives alone on an island outside of society that could be another writer's lesbian separatist utopia!), it's just that circe doesn't like other women and they don't like her. end of story.

much as i don't love what atwood does with helen, it does make sense in the context of the penelopiad! thematically and in terms of characterization. atwood's penelope has internalized this idea of what it means to be a good woman and, willingly or not, she's staked everything on being seen by men as a good woman. it makes sense that she's desperately trying to pull herself up or even just cling to what little she has by dragging other women down. she does to helen what she ultimately does to the maids. she's with and for odysseus, always, not helen, and not the maids. that's the kind of world she lives in, and while she likes to think that she's resisting it with a sort of radical female community, in the end she is its agent. even if she feels bad about it. she's here to tell a story about odysseus, not about the girls he killed.

#makes me think of how emily wilson translates φιλη Ευρυκλεια as 'the slave who loved her master' or something similiar #which is the same sort of characterization atwood gives eurycleia. an enslaved woman who puts her master above other slaves and other women #and on the one hand of course she does! that's how she survives! can you blame her? #she lives in a society that pushes her at every turn to betray her fellow enslaved women! #but on the other hand it's still sad and somehow you can blame her #mine #reception #retellings #i think i finally get the penelopiad now. after reading the novel twice and seeing the play three times. #long post

[sleepyorchidmonster]

Wait a minute.

If visions are basically Celestia keeping an eye on people that might one day ascend to be gods/ become threaths to Celestia.

Then now that the Hydro Archon is no more and Neuvillette is the one giving visions, does that mean he can watch over all hydro users??

Now all I can think of is Neuvillette acting as Furina's guardian angel. Hurt her and a literal dragon descends from the skies to beat you up!

Also Albert is FINALLY getting arrested!!

#neuvillette about to give visions to all melusines #and spy on the fatui #he also becomes interested in light novels when he finds out xinqiu is a writer #and by that i mean he buys all volumes of legend of the sword and starts a book club with furina and the melusines #hydro dragon accidentally adopting everyone #genshin impact #4.2 spoilers #neuvillette #furina #barbara #in this house we hate albert #after killing albert neuvillette is now worried about people stalking furina back in fontaine #no need to worry though #arlecchino killed them all #so she could almost assassinate furina

[marzipanandminutiae]

you know what I stand by my decision to write Charlotte Canda (1828-1845), 17-year-old polymath prodigy and carriage accident statistic, as the queen of a vampire coven with a secret high-tech lair under her own self-designed Gothic grave monument, in my attempted 2015 NaNoWriMo project

I should write that more actually

I feel it's a fitting tribute to what I know of her

#she was helping Carmilla (novel version) track down clues about what happened to Laura #there was a running bit where she kept putting off Carmilla's questions by remarking on how cool Keurigs were #writing #I don't normally do historical RPF but #girl died ON HER BIRTHDAY. it's the least I can give her

[intyalote]

the thing about doctor/river is that the blatant romance is a defense mechanism. it’s playacting it’s how they sketch out the boundaries of their relationship because they can never be sure of how the scales of intimacy are balanced - they love each other, sure, but they are so rarely in a place where they both know enough about each other for mutual trust. so you get these really interesting juxtapositions like how eleven is in full flirty mode for impossible astronaut/day of the moon to the point where it feels like they’re about to make out every time they’re in the same frame but at the same time he dismisses her with “trust you? seriously?” and is shocked when she actually kisses him goodbye. in let’s kill hitler they flirt like hell when she is literally trying to murder him but not at all when they save each others’ lives. in the wedding of river song kovarian complains about them being lovey-dovey in front of her but right after that the doctor attempts to reset the timeline and river has to drag him kicking and screaming into respecting her enough to tell her the truth. in angels take manhattan we get both “just you wait till my husband gets home” (flaunting their relationship to grayle) and “never let him see the damage” (she doesn’t trust him to love her as a flawed, mortal person). they’re out of sync all the time, so sincerity is off the table except when it’s a necessary shortcut to trust that doesn’t exist yet - river whispering his name to him in the library when he doesn’t know her yet, their literal wedding being a tool the doctor uses to convince her to let him “die.”

the thing about “hide the damage” in particular is that river was responding to the doctor’s own fear of seeing the damage. she lied to him because she was trying to give him what he wanted, even if he couldn’t admit it. and it applies both to the broken wrist and to their relationship in general. every time he looks at her all he can see is the pain of her death, and she can see that he’s holding back even if she doesn’t exactly know why. this was always going to be a barrier to true intimacy between them unless they could be linear for long enough to know and see each other as they are, not as they’re going to be or as they were.

that’s why husbands of river song is such a perfect resolution for them. the only way river would ever be honest enough to let him see her insecurities is if she didn’t know who he was, so it had to be twelve and not eleven. and it specifically had to be twelve fresh from losing his memories of clara, so that he’d stop running away from confronting her death and just give them those 24 years together on darillium to really get to know each other, to see the ugliness and the imperfections and stay together anyway. it makes perfect sense that after that they could reach the level of love and trust river has for “her doctor” in the library, in a way that just isn’t possible with a relationship built on whirlwind dates done out of order and nothing else.

#there's a scene where ten is thinking about how every time he meets river the memory of her death hurts more #so he decides to avoid her because he thinks somehow if he can change their future she won't die for him #(of course she didn't only die for him but he's too arrogant to see that) #and i think though eleven kind of gives up on avoiding her #he still flinches away from loving her because he knows it'll hurt (name of the doctor my beloved <3) #river song #doctor who #dw meta #dw rewatch #dw #my meta #oh the ten thing is in the day of the doctor novelization. forgot to mention that lmao. #highly recommend reading it #adds a lot of depth that wasn’t there in the episode #meta #mine

[kittykatrattie]

Seriously tho no one ever talks about this. Like that SOUNDS like a horror title MAX READS HORROR NOVELS!! He reads as a hobby n no one ever mentions it :( lil nerd

#camp camp #max camp camp #headcanon that he stole it from gwen #she got it cuz the font made her think it was a romance novel #but the book does a twist or whatever and its actually horror #max reads the summary and decides to swipe it #OR gwen GIVES IT TO HIM because shes like ''hey this seems like the kind of thing ur into'

[fintan-pyren]

anyone else getting nervous about the lack of info about the book 10 title?

#she ALWAYS GIVES US A DAY'S WARNING #and she ALWAYS ANNOUNCES IT ON A WEDNESDAY OR THURSDAY #so if she was planning to announce it this week she would've said something by now #right? #and in the past when she's gone past feb 1 without announcing the title it's because there isn't a normal book coming out #unlocked/the graphic novel/no book #this book has already been delayed a year so i don't think she'd delay it again but she DID just have a new baby #maybe she'll do the book of short stories that she's mentioned wanting to do? #i'm extrapolating based on extremely limited data though #so there's no reason for me to be coming to any conclusions #but i'm the king of overthinking

[greyhands]

Still working on my Eldris concept ! It's (finally) settled, masc Eldris will have the long hairstyle, and femme Eldris the short one.

#sketch #character design #art #artists on tumblr #OC #eldris #visual novel #visual novel art #I showed this irl and some dumb guy told me she is too muscular to be an attractive woman.WTF? I'm tempted to give her even more muscles no #my art

[anewdaywilldawn]

Average fujoshi behavior:

Update from ep 13 on Maomao’s bi Jinshi agenda:

#honestly girl I can totally see you #maomao is so relatable tbh #also she gives off aro/ace vibes soo #gotta love her so much #the apothecary diaries #kusuriya no hitorigoto #maomao #renshi #new anime #crunchyroll #manga #light novel

[pdalicedraws]

When you have an opportunity to draw a rolling kitty, you draw a rolling kitty, even if she’s doing it to deflect an emotional conversation.

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By the way, I have slightly more of a buffer than usual and I’m excited about this conversation so we’re doing THREE pages this week! There’ll be another one on Thursday before the usual update on Saturday. I am impatient haha

#nimona #nimona movie #nimona comic #nimona film #nimona webcomic #nimona netflix #nimona graphic novel #nimona crossover #nimonaverse #pd alice draws #nimona nimona #ballister blackheart #this is the first time I’ve drawn the teensy scar I give nims and no one in the comic is going to notice/bother to ask about it #so I’m just gonna explain it in the tags lmao #yes that’s where she got stuck in the leg with an arrow #no she didn’t develop a scar then— she heals too efficiently to scar #but I think a while later after her return she decided to shift it on #bc it reminds her of boss acting like a grandma about one little arrow #(which was the first time in a LONG time anyone cared for her)