#that I'll be damned if I don't give this masterpiece a 10/10

[saph-yells-into-the-void]

did I pull a all-nighter binging the entirety of Blue Flag in one sitting? Yes, yes I did.

Do I regret it? Nope, not in the slightest.

#its so so good y'all #yes I got like 3-4 hours of sleep but it was completely worth it #just... so much emotions #this manga made me cry. multiple times #not because it's super sad or anything but because God fuck some of those panels hit me a little too hard #just... so much about the queer experience and queer pain and what it means to feel lost bc of your identity... #it was just all so intimate and relatable and as a queer person- I SAW myself in some of these characters #fuck bro #like I just wanted them all to be HAPPY #bc queer people deserve happiness #the ending was a bit rushed yeah #but everything else was just so masterfully done and the impact of this manga on me was just so strong #that I'll be damned if I don't give this masterpiece a 10/10 #I don't think I've related so much to a manga as much as this one #so yeah #just thoughts ig #blue flag

[shadale-s-safe-space]

I don't know much about you as a person, but from what I can gather you've had a long journey with art, but still have the motivation to continue even when its rough. I'm sure you didn't start out making masterpieces, so if its not too much trouble, do you have any advice for a 16 year old artist losing motivation? i feel like im stagnating right now and its awful

Idk man, all I can say is, draw watchu want without the care who's gonna see it or what they gonna say , commit to new ideas and care less about pleasing everyone, because I know that way too well, I started learning by drawing animals, flowers and nature, "you should draw something else", switches to furries " No you must do human portraits", draws humans *no one fuckin cares*, and I felt miserable drawing what I didn't want all the damn time just trying to please everyone and be liked, hell, I still do that sometimes cuz I'm a dumbass. When in reality, when you do your own thing is when you're the happiest, this internet bullshit? Yeah don't trust the likes and favs, people like what they find relatable, no one really knows how much time you've spent on your drawing or how much you love it, when a 5 min doodle you did could do more than a painting that took 2 whole days to complete just to be scrapped in a new speedy record, paint what you love for yourself and you only.

Don't be shy to learn new things, I have tons of stuff I don't post here cuz I know people wouldn't care about it, but here for this post, have this that I practiced when I felt too depressed to think of anything good and wanted to step back from the MD artstyle

You'll see, you'll thrive when you draw what you want, and get yourself a drawing buddy! That way you'll stop focusing on the internet and more on each other, and each other's improvement. Tbh I struggled with that one. Since everyone I had were not into art irl, I somehow managed to find someone after 10 years of drawing alone. I honestly wanted more people to join in and make an improvement circle, but unfortunately that never happened.

I found myself twice as productive now than ever, even though I'm not active here as much I am still drawing and making things, ofc giving you more comics! And other fun things in the future I hope.

If you're struggling to draw something just do it, man commit, i was uncomfortable drawing men and male characters for years, I've wasted so many years being "too uncomfortable" and draw a naked person like yeesh who fucking cares, it's for studying.

And ofc if you feel like you're not improving at all please, please experiment with your artstyle and try something new, please refresh your mind, I was stuck for years doing the same thing over and over, same colors, same 2px brush, drawing like a machine same shit over and over, I felt so stuck and lost, but also afraid to do something new, idk why, I guess I never felt good enough or deserving of it. I also didn't go to art school, I am NOT a professional, nor will i ever be in my opinion. Hell, me feeling like I'll never be good enough left me afraid to try and apply for art school, they were asking for sculptures, different mediums all that scary stuff and I was like, I don't.. know.. how to do those things... I can't build a portfolio in less than 3 months?!?! I don't even know how to use half of what they're asking for!!

In reality at the end of the day, art is what you make of it and no one can stop you, search for inspirations and don't be afraid to try, yes you'll fail fist 2 or 10 or hell even 100 times, but you'll come back with more knowledge than ever.

For ending I give you the most confusing drawing to ever exist [dw he's just sleeping on top of her and she's just ghasping for air but awe romance or sum lol] is it weird? Yeah but I had a fun time making it hahaha

Idk I'm bad at putting my thoughts together, but hopefully some of this helps.

#murder drones #murder drones oc #artists on tumblr #digital painting

[rynnthefangirl]

My Top 10 Favorite Breaking Bad Universe Characters

1. Howard Hamlin - this one is kinda silly bc he is much less developed than other characters, but I can’t help it. His tragedy hits so hard, it took a character whom I didn’t really care about and made him my absolute #1 fave. Rest in peace Howard you deserved better🥺💔

2. Jimmy McGill/Saul Goodman - Gilligould really took a look at their whacky comic relief lawyer in Breaking Bad, and said “hmm, what if we made him the absolute most complex and fascinating character in our entire fictional universe”. And then they did.🙌

3. Jesse Pinkman - God his story hurts. He had one of the best hearts in the whole show, yet he suffered more than ANY other character. His character goes from loveably silly to absolutely heart shattering. I hope he found some peace in Alaska.❤️

4. Walter White - I just can’t help but love this horrible horrible man. He’s goofy and ridiculous, but also insane and egotistical in the most entertaining way. What a great protagonist, he’s compelling when I am rooting for him and compelling when I am praying for his downfall.

5. Chuck McGill - IMO, the best antagonist in the whole BrBa universe. The Jimmy vs Chuck storyline was TOP TIER, Chicanery was a masterpiece of an episode, Lantern and Winner are just dripping with tragedy and sorrow and what-if's. And it's all because of Chuck. Rip Chuck, you may have been a prick but damn if you didn’t make this show the brilliant piece of television that it was.

6. Kim Wexler - no character gives me more mixed feelings than Kim. I always liked her in the early seasons, then I despised her in s6a, then my heart broke for her in s6b, and now I retroactively have so much more love and sorrow for her earlier self because there was so much good there and she could have been so much better and GOD Kim is such a tragic, amazing, well written character.

7. Skyler White - oh my god, my poor wife. You deserved so much better than what the audience gave you all those years. You were a queen, and so right about everything, and I am so sorry I didn’t see it before but now I will defend you until my dying day❤️❤️❤️

8. Lalo Salamanca - he’s just so insane and silly and entertaining. He steals every scene he’s in, and in my opinion added some desperately needed charm and charisma to the cartel side of the show. Legit was rooting for him against Gus, even though he killed my boy Howie and I knew he was doomed to fail.

8. Nacho Varga - Like Jesse, he went through so much despite having one of the most decent hearts on the show, and it all culminated in such a tragic yet powerful death scene. And I love love love the idea of the curse of Nacho Varga dooming Gus, the Salamancas, and the Cartel for their sins. His ghost looms over Breaking Bad, and makes both shows much richer as a result.

9. Cheryl Hamlin - she fascinates me, we see very little of her and yet I loved her scenes and want to know more. I'll also not tolerate Cheryl slander, we don't know what was going on in her and Howard’s marriage, and in the end she stood up for him when nobody else did.

10. Mike Ehrmantraut - to be honest, I'm not the biggest Mike fan. Not because there is anything wrong with his character per se, but I find it a bit annoying how the fandom idolizes him as a loveable grandpa/moral criminal when he actually is kind of horrible and not all that different from Walter. That being said, I do love what they were going for in BCS, showing his slow corruption as he keeps going back into the world of crime to avoid dealing with his grief for his son's death, culminating in that amazing scene where the show calls him on his hypocrisy and Manual Varga tells him 'you gangsters and your justice, you are all the same'. I just wish it was explored more explicitly in the narrative and fandom the way that Walt and Jimmy's moral corruptions are.

#breaking bad #better call saul #howard hamlin #jimmy mcgill #jesse pinkman #walter white #chuck mcgill #kim wexler #skyler white #lalo salamanca #nacho varga #cheryl hamlin #mike ehrmantraut

[netherfeildren]

wait wait you like minari too? your taste is impecabble<3 just wondering, do you have any other favourite movies/recs?

sat on this bc I wanted to give a detailed response lolz I love minari so much I thought about youn yuh-jung's performance in that film for such a long time after watching it she was so gorgeous and so phenomenal and when she won the best supporting actress Oscar I about lost my damn mind, so so deserved

other things I love in no particular order:

-the favourite (I love Yorgos Lanthimos' work the lobster is another favorite and his new one coming out poor things looks AMAZING and like it was constructed specifically with all of my own personal tastes in mind - I'm so excited for it and need to read the book immediately)

-not to be a film bro but interstellar is top two of my favorite films of all times idc Nolan is a master and I watch and love everything he makes (ive watched tenet like 10 times and still have no idea wtf is going on and I LIKE THAT about it )

-not to be a basic bitch now but pride and prejudice is my favorite movie ever ever I watch it at least once a month every single month it'll never get old and yes I do cry at the end every time

-to go hand in hand with my love of historical romance novels I am also a great lover of period dramas obviously I love Emma (2020) so much it's a gorgeous work of art, Jane eyre (2011) I love Mia wasikowska, Marie Antoinette and anything else Sofia Coppola has ever made, Anna karenina (another Joe wright masterpiece)

-anything Wes Anderson but particularly Rushmore (1998) which is one of his lesser known films I feel like but it means a lot to me for various very personal reasons and I wish more people talked about it (I need to watch asteroid city immediately)

-PHANTOM THREAD greatest romcom of all time (jk hehe) but fuck Paul Thomas Anderson I don't like that dude

-everything guillermo del torro but particularly crimson peak (guillermo my man pls pls pls plsssssssss do Dracula and cast Adam driver I'll give u my first born plsssss splsssssss guillermo father pleaaassseeeeee!!!!)

-the green knight !!!!!!!!!!!! changed my brain when I watched it dev Patel is so fucking hot but also like it was just so gorgeous and such a wonderful adaptation and the monster fucker in me low key liked the green knight himself likeeeeeeee idk what to say I am the way I am

-Robert Eggers the light house, the man from uncle (I love most guy Richie films I love his high paced action and all that fun stuff), park chan-wook's STOKER !!!!!!!! I fucking love that film omg, everything Denise villeneuve too but particularly arrival is a goddamn masterpiece and it's so wrong that Amy Adams didn't win the Oscar for that (poor Amy with the no Oscar curse)

-for like comfort movies stepmom (1998) - devastating but I watch it all the time if I could live in any house from a movie ever it'd be Susan Sarandon's house in that movie, billy elliot (2000), 20th century women (2016), lady bird, funny girl - BARBARA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!, howl's moving castle, this is 40 (my favorite comedy ever), paterson (2016), uptown girls, the rocky horror picture show

-oh and more recently the banshees of inisherin moved me so incredibly deeply I actually recently got in an argument with someone who said that it was pointless and stupid and I was SO OFFENDED devastating funny introspective all the things I was very sad when Collin ferrel didn't win the academy award for it I thought he was so ... I don't know what the right word is I guess like changed? in the role of padraic and GOD BERRY KEOGHAN there goes that dream I cried so hard so beautiful Kerry Condon also they were all so spectacularly devastating in that film I could go on about it for days

sorry this was so long you guys know I love to run my mouth when given the opportunity hehe

#vic replies #film recs

[analogskullerosis]

The lovely @poppy-ghost tagged me to put my spotify repeat playlist on shuffle and post the first 10 songs. So, here we go!

"Please Don't Go Girl" - New Kids on the Block

This is tied with being my favorite NKotB song (1st place is "Tonight") and I love everything about this song and it's absolutely batshit stupid video. First, I think all five boys are dating the same woman?? Because the video starts with her leaving Danny's house, then she gets into a cab and Joey (who is a child holding a flower to a woman clearly older than him) starts singing at her, then Jordan chimes in with "I love you, I guess I always will." There's a point where Jordan is singing to her while she's waiting for a train but also the other four are there with him? I just like to imagine they're all in a polycule, except the boys aren't dating each other, they just have joint custody of one woman and she's leaving all of them at the same time.

Also, I always like adding a comma to the title so it reads "Please Don't Go, Girl" implying that the person they're singing to is named "Girl." 80s pop is wonderful. I love this song. I should do a full write-up of it someday.

2. "Slow It Down" - Kim Petras

This was done years before she unleashed the masterpiece Slut Pop into the world and I like this song a lot because it's sensual and intimate and I don't think there are enough songs anymore about taking things slow and finding a comfort zone with someone you have a lot of affection for. Disregarding her habit of choosing to work with people that land her in hot water (Dr. Luke and Nicki Minaj in particular) I genuinely think she's a trailblazer and someone who is doing really good work.

3. "Nice to You" - Vulfmon & Jacob Jefferies

The combination of pop punk vocals and low-volume funk has been one of the greatest things I've heard this year. Jacob Jefferies is wonderfully obnoxious with his vocals and this whole song is wonderful. This is coming from somebody who absolutely hates this style of vocal but hot damn he just makes it works. It sounds genuine but there's just enough tongue-in-cheekness to make the thing remain funny. It's good stuff.

4. "2 Wheel Drive" - Magdalena Bay

I've written about my love for Magdalena Bay before, so I'll keep this brief: This song is very fun and when those synths kick in at 1:45 I am transported to another world, mini mix vol. 3 is very good and worth your time, I absolutely adore their video editing work and I wish I could make something otherworldly like this, I want to give Mica Tenenbaum a nice, shiny quarter and ask her kindly if she would kick me in the head.

5. "SWEET / I THOUGHT YOU WANTED TO DANCE" - Tyler, the Creator

"Still on the boat!"

"Call me if you get lost!"

This is still Tyler's best song (although "WHARF TALK" and "SORRY NOT SORRY" are fighting for that title for me). I think this is one of those songs that just shows off everything people love about the guy and what he's created. Every part of this is just wonderful and it's the biggest standout on CALL ME IF YOU GET LOST for me. While I'm on it, The Estate Sale was very good and is worth your time if you haven't given that a listen yet.

6. "Arcadia" - Goose

I just started listening to Goose and I think they're pretty cool. This is their best song that I've heard so far. That chorus is very infectious and earwormy. Fun to sing along to when you're driving somewhere in your car. I also think "Arcadia" is a cool song title. Iss good.

7. "Best of My Love" - The Eagles

The Eagles are responsible for a lot of shitty corporate boomer radio rock. They're a seventies band that are never getting the Pink Floyd or Led Zeppelin critical reappraisal (they were reviled then and unlike Floyd and Zeppelin, they still are. It's deserved). This one is really good though. Has a lot of heart to it and I don't think the band ever harmonized better than they did on this song.

8. "There Are Worse Things I Could Do" - Sophie Ellis-Bextor

During the days of Covid lockdown back in 2020, famed British pop singer Sophie Ellis-Bextor did a series of Instagram livestreams that she called "Live From the Kitchen Disco." In these livestreams, she would decorate her kitchen (and sometimes other rooms in her house) and sing songs in her house. Usually she sang her own songs, but sometimes she sang disco songs she liked. The instrumentals were always provided via karaoke versions. Her husband would be behind the camera and sometimes her kids would make appearances and dance around and do stuff in the background. It was a really cute series that I loved a lot and it was a nice way to keep going through tough times.

Anyway, she brought that concept with her on stage when concert performances and touring became possible again and it's just as good and fun! "There Are Worse Things I Could Do" is one of my favorite songs from Grease and I think this is a good performance of it.

9. "New Guru" - Vulfpeck

If you want my full, unbridled thoughts on one of the best funk songs of this decade, you can find it here on my other blog. :)

10. "Freedom! '90" - George Michael

There's so much I love about this song. Every note of this thing is infectious. Every second of this song just feels empowering and if you're leaving a shitty situation (bad relationship, bad job, etc.) then every time "freedom" is chanted just feels all the sweeter.

One thing that has always fascinated me about this song is how much of its existence is owed to the success of the Faith album in 1987. I don't think there are a lot of "response songs" about an era that brought you more success than you could ever dream of. I always got the feeling that George Michael grappled with wanting to be a successful superstar but never wanting to be constrained by all the trappings that being a superstar brings.

"Freedom" is a song (and theme) that followed George for his entire career. "Freedom" was originally on Wham!'s Make It Big album in 1984 during his carefree younger days (freedom from responsibility), then the chorus melody reappeared on a church organ in the beginning of "Faith" for his big solo pop move (freedom from Wham!), and then it reaches its final form here (freedom from needing to cater to what people want you to be). Listen Without Prejudice era George is my favorite era of his career to study because it's a giant superstar shying away from the spotlight and letting only the music speak for him. He's nowhere on the album cover, doesn't appear in any videos from this time, and he didn't really give a ton of interviews for this album. He was a fascinating figure and I think there's still a lot to learn about the guy.

Anyhoo, those are my 10! Thanks for tagging me! I want to tag these friends: @cowgirliee, @memento-more-tea, @wolf-tree, @themarvelousinterrobang, @xrinsohma, and anybody else who sees this and has interest (you can say I tagged you! :D)

#tag post #Youtube

[theoncomingdoo-dah]

I wasn't the biggest fan of 11s era. I feel like it was a spit in the face for the most part. But I did give me some things that I actually really enjoyed.

>Rose being the projection from the TARDIS'S emergency program hologram in Let's Kill Hilter. (But fuck everything about that episode URGH.)

>The opening that that Amy and Rory and 11 hanging out in the console room while Super Massive Blackhole is playing. Yes. Absolutely yes. 11 would listen to Muse. Thank you show.

>The entire existence of ✨️MR. CLEVER ✨️like nightmare in silver was kinda mid but thank you Neil for the CYBER PLANNER. 🥵

>Dinosaurs on a spaceship. Not the episode, just the concept of dinosaurs on a spaceship and the Doctor interacting with them.

>11 wearing cool hats. And losing said cool hat in the same episode.

>I never thought 11s whole "*blank* is cool." thing to be annoying. I thought it was cute and charming. (I literally just had him say to Rose, "Waterbeds are cool." in a fic. I'll let your imagination fill in the context of that. 😏

>BUT WIBBLY WOBBLY CAN DIE IN A HOLE. I HATE WIBBLY WOBBLY SO MUCH.

>“Think about it, Doctor. One last day with your beloved. Which day would you choose?” (DONT TOUCH ME THEY KNEW WHAT THEY WERE DOING)

>Clara's theme. It's so gentle and sweet. I only wish the show gave as much of a fuck about their character as they did her theme.

>The Long Song. But it's Murray Gold. That doesn't effect the show as much. EXCEPT WHEN I LISTEN TO IT AND JUST GET FUCKING DEPRESSED. And not like Vale Decem where I get depressed because "I don't wanna go" regeneration scene CRYING

but depressed because holy FUCK 11 did not deserve that good of a send off theme.

>Hand fasting being a thing in Gallifreian weddings. It's celtic. but on God, the wedding of river song....UGHHHHHHHH 0/10

But it's okay that's why fix fics exist, hehe hoohoo.

>The entirety of Vincent and The Doctor. No notes. This episode is a god damn masterpiece and has some of the best Amy characterization.

but Moffat almost shat it all away when he included a MENTALLY UNWELL MAN IN HIS FUCKING TIME CRACK BULLSHIT.

Maybe he was salty because the best episode of his era isn't even written by him. Haha, seethe. Cope.

>That part where 11 is sitting in the throne in Vampires in Venice. God he is such a *brat.* I never wanted to break a man so much in all my life on god pleas

>Mr. Clever again.

>that part where 11 chugs a bottle of wine just to spit it back out.

#dw #the doctor shitposts #anti moffat

[vanosslirious]

BBS Dialogue Prompts #205

BBS Dialogue & Sentence Starter Prompts: [ 10 ]

SMII7y

I knew you were going to say something about it.

Okay, do it!

We are trying to do this as quick as possible cuz this place is a death trap and at any point, someone could throw a C4 and ruin our content.

No, they just shot a rocket.

Get out of there, please!

There's like nowhere safe to do this.

Watch out, there's going to be a roadblock.

The government's trying to stop us!

They're going to be fucking tracking us!

We're trying to do something for experiments here…

We can still make it work.

Oh God, what's happening.

Drop me your money.

Oh shit, this is not good.

It's probably going to break.

Stop the man from shooting!

There's people here just looking at us.

We literally can't move.

Frick off, fricker!

Just kidding, they had parachutes, nothing happened.

FL0M

That was not my stomach.

They eat us, we eat them.

Some things are better left alone, this is one of those things.

He's in a mood today.

I'm a person with feelings, guys.

I got it in my mouth!

He just killed me in cold fucking blood.

This union is falling apart.

This was a workplace accident, don't tell anyone.

You guys need some assistance?

ELILIKESRICE

They don't use bullets.

Cleaning is cool.

How do we leave?

That's the same guy who knocked over my buckets, let's get 'em.

You can say whatever and you'll get a reaction.

You look like a Canadian.

Where are we right now?

Oh shit, they're amassing an army.

I don't know what that meant.

Is that what they're doing?

JERICHO

I'm covered in blood!

I hope so, so you can stop complaining.

I know same team, we're both trying to get him killed.

I just made a bomb!

Now you grab something.

Why are you putting heads in the bucket?

Does it even fit?

I think we're done in here.

No, I'm using that!

They're making love.

GRIZZY

On the bright side, I’ll make it blue.

Damn, leave some cards for us to pick up too.

Do you want to play ring-around-the-rosy?

I fucking hope not.

Sometimes, you have to trust the process.

These are worse than mine.

I'm gonna go out and say it, I hate you.

I don't love that, I don't love you.

I saw a shiny button.

Yeah, I want to go…back to bed.

BLARG

You guys…that was his kidney you ripped out.

How do I fly?

Hey, you can’t do that!

Bro, you were using me?

And I’ll do it again, bitch.

I was thinking of this kind of sacrifice.

Why do I deserve that?

Give me your fucking shit or I'll rip your head off.

I didn't cheat, I didn't manipulate him.

This one’s so stupid.

PUFFER

We're never going to finish.

Stop looking at me while you're going backwards.

What a perfect time to get back.

I got timed out.

Way to go.

I can’t catch up, slow down!

I’m fine with waiting.

You’re blowing us up!

Oh no, I’m so slow.

Don't worry, I'm here now.

KRYOZ

Do you not see this?

Spit on me.

I’m trying not to let you down.

To be honest, I’m not looking at you right now, so I’m not too sure.

I felt like I started floating.

Is there anything I care about?

Looks like I got it, bitch.

I bet they’re on your side.

Once again, that’s probably going to be a you problem cause I can’t afford the wood cleaner…

It's going good…

BIGJIGGLYPANDA

Someone else figure this shit out, I don’t fucking care.

Yes, I’m giving you the answer.

Right, but now I may not ever want to play it again.

Oh, that one is just nothing.

Aw, that’s unfortunate.

I think mine is perfect, to be honest with you.

I don't know what I'm looking at.

Adding anything else will make this masterpiece worse.

I don't even want to look at it anymore.

Oh, I forgot I had to do that.

BYZE

There is no way you're on a loop.

I'm on the spooky one again.

How does this happen to you?

It’s me, who do you think’s behind you?

See if we can make a train.

Did I get you off too?

Are you going to lock in, bro?

Yeah, that's a good idea.

You guys fucking suck at this now.

This game is so shit.

#banana bus squad #bbs #banana bus squad prompts #bbs prompts #bbs sentence starters #smii7y #fl0m #elilikesrice #jericho | tucker #grizzy #blarg #bigpuffer #kryoz #bigjigglypanda #byze #rpf prompts #tw swearing #writing prompts #prompt list #text #words

[box-dwelling]

Day 3: Interview with a vampire

Tw: discussions Sa and Pedophilia.

I DIDN'T GIVE UP AFTER 2 DAYS I SWEAR. Yeah this is super late sorry illness happened. I'm 3 days behind on reviews and 1 day behind on films so we're going to catch up one night soon and I'm going to review the two other films tonight. I'll be using the same review system I wrote out in my Lake Mungo review so check that if its confusing.

So this was @ungulatejunction's choice and also a film I'd been wanting to check out for a while. I loved it but had slightly mixed feelings. The film is gorgeous, the acting, set design, cinematography, costume work, direction, effects work, everything is basically a masterpiece. But, I did unfortunately have a few issues with the screenplay. From what my GF has told me, it's pretty damn faithful to the book and a lot of the issues I have with it are fixed there. My main problem is that I kinda felt like it lacked theme and purpose. There's a ton of deeply interesting ideas there. Claudia is an insanely facinating character who I just adored. Her actress did an excellent job especially given her young age. The literal concept was interesting but I also found that it worked as a deeply interesting metaphor for a child rasied in a sexually abusive household. Basically all the feeding scenes were framed in a deeply rape like way imo. So her being turned at a young age, regarded as something she could never be ready for and would lock her development in one area in a childlike state, it sounded a lot like stories of sexual trauma at a young age stunting development. The lead up to her killing Lestat feels like her coming to terms with the fact her abuse was wrong and that he was also abusing Louis. And that was really deeply interesting to me. But then the rape stuff kinda doesn't go anywhere from there? I maybe wrong. I may have missed stuff but, it then just felt like I was watching women be brutalised for no reason.

My other main issues was with Louis who I found pretty bland and uninteresting. From what I've been told this is a case of what I've deemed "author screenwriter syndrome" where an author is too dedicated to book accuracy and doesn't make the necessary changes for adaptation. From what I've been told in the book he is the pov character and a deeply introspective one. This works excellently for a book because we can hear his thoughts. In a film it's a lot harder so he just feels mopey and bland. By the end of the film all the characters with interesting themes and characterisation are dead and it leave the ending a touch empty to me. This was also compounded by very much having a chapter like structure instead of a films traditional 3 act one.

I don't want this to sound like I'm shitting on the gay vampire film. I'm not, I did genuinely love it. There is a shocking amount of talent and beauty here. It was just less than the sum of its parts to the point that the flaws were more what stuck with me because I was just thinking "god it was so close to perfect, if only they've done these small things" Ironically given the author I do deeply want to expand on the themes in a fanfic setting.

Score

Artistic merit: 6/10- It had the talent on board to make this a 10 but for me to give a high score in this category I have to be able to cohesively decipher what the film is trying to say. This film has a lot of interesting themes and really doesn't go anywhere with any of them

Scares- 7/10- I was expecting this to be way lower but this baby has so properly disturbing imagery in it

Atmosphere: 9/10- all I can say is beautiful and Iconic

#interview with a vampire #31 movies for halloween #day 3

[bitchofedensgate]

<<A night with The Baptist>>

[Fluff, comfort, GN Reader x John]

You've been laying on that damn table for so felt 10 hours already, the Tattoo Gun massaging all of your skin layers and pumping the colors in it. In pain you try to flex and point your feet to distract you, but it is barely takeable for more hours of pain. "Already giving up Darling?" John chuckles, being Highly concentrated to finish his masterpiece on your back. With a groan in pain you answer:"Shut the hell up, this HURTS, when are we done here?!" "Tsk, so unpolite today, aren't we~" John teases, wiping off the Last excess of color and blood from his work:"But well, we are in fact done. Good Job~". He pats your head and let you stand up. In agony you stretch your sore back, every muscle seems to protest against the sudden movement of your body. "Let me see it, I wanna make sure you didn't fucked up" you grin, playing with Johns heat driven personality. With a hurt face (which he always does if he got "insulted" by you) he guides you to the mirror and holds up another one so you can see his artwork- Edens Gate Cross with Bliss Flowers, lingering around it with a Aquarell of their smoke. A wide grin forms on your face and you spin to John:"Wow. Just wow" "Hah, I know, I know, I am GORGEOUS at what I do" he praises himself, his chest swollen with pride. You snuggle against him, trying not to ruin his Shirt with maybe dripping blood or fluids:"Thank you John" you whisper and press some kisses over his neck and cheek. He smiles soft at you, brushing gently his hand trough your hair:"Don't thank me yet my dear, I still have a surprise for you" he chimes, pressing a small kiss on your forehead. "A surprise?" "You will see. But First let me tape your back--"

20 minutes later, both of you sit in Johns car. Even if Joseph is against the modern Pop Culture, John couldn't resist in downloading Music from Britney Spears, Bruno Mars and other 2000' Music Stars. Jamming to "Gimme more" you don't realize the yellow M in the sky until John stopped. "What is it...?OH-" your eyes sparkle and your stomach instantly growls. It has been AGES when you Last went to MCDonalds, and John can't really stand Fast Food. Questioning, you tilt your head, grinning at him:"What's that for?" "Don't make a big Deal out of it. It is going to be a one-time experience" he scoffs, but also grinning to himself. He loves seeing you happy, even if it are small, banal things for him. "Wait here for me, yeah? I'll be back in 10 Minutes my dear" "Oki Doki" you chirp, wiggling in your seat with a hungry stomach. John got you almost everything of the menu, and now you both are back at Hope County, sitting infront of the YES sign and devouring your food. John softly tugged you in his Coat, letting you rest against him and watching out for Shootingstars. "I love you my dear...this...I don't-" he seems to struggle hard, so you grab his hand:"It's ok...breathe" you instruct him, giving hime time to find the words he wants to say:"What I wanted to say...I am so thankful having you...I don't really deserve your kindness and love" "Hey...John..." you whisper, crawling on his lap and laying your hands in his hair. Kissing his forehead, Temples and nose you hold hin thight:"You DO deserve this...I love you for who you are, and nothing is going to change that!" you assure him, knowing Johns struggle with himself and his past. He just nodds, not able to speak in fear his voice cracks. He lays his head against your chest, breathing in your scent and Listening to your heartbeat. He loves you. He needs you. And every cell of his body whispers YES.

#far cry 5 #jacob seed #john seed #joseph seed #gender neutral fanfic #oneshot #hc #comfort #seed brothers

[geekgemsspooksandtoons]

I finally rewatched Infinity Train book 3

Well...I finally did it. I'll just say right away like the last two seasons. It's still a masterpiece. But also...this was the video I immediately decided to watch after finishing it.

Granted before even rewatching it and making this post. I have kept wondering of using Koichi's scream from that one scene of Godzilla Minus One. I'm not spoiling the scene, but if you've seen the film. You likely know what I'm talking about. But I feel like using that scream would seem inappropriate and way too overdramatic. So, using this scene from Courage seems appropriate in a sense it's from a cartoon yet still tragic.

And let me discuss more about this. While I believe all of Infinity Train needs to have a physical release. "Cult of the Conductor" is the one that deserves it. All of them too, including "Duet". But I think why feel like book 3 seems to really deserve it because it's the one that...really sticks with you. Even though I know what happens...the pain doesn't stop. Even if I don't feel overly emotional like I want to.

I still understand why they went with the route they went with book 3. I do applaud them for being that ballsy. Yet it still hurts...and I still dislike it. I love it, and I hate it.

No wonder I made an alternative take on episodes 9 and 10 to help myself. Yet it still deals with the same stuff but gives it a happier ending in a sense...yet I know I strangely made something worse than what happens in episodes 9 and 10. And rewatching book 3. Holy crap, I really did do my homework when writing "The False Prophet" and I'm glad grateful I wrote it. I still want to add/change little things to make sure I got things right.

I'll be honest, I don't know if I'll rewatch book 4. I still love it. But I don't think I'm in the mood. Maybe it's the feeling knowing while that's before all the seasons...I don't want to finish the show again with that.

In fact, while I still want a book 5 movie. I'm hesitant to have other seasons. But alias, the show was cancelled, and Cartoon Network and WB don't give a damn about it. They really don't care about the fact they had what was likely one of the greatest shows that debuted on Cartoon Network. And I feel like book 5 focusing on Amelia would've cemented that fact.

I want to admit while Hilda is my all-time personal favorite show. The one show that gets close to that is Infinity Train.

Fuck, listening to Naoki Sato's "Elegy" as I write this really sells the mood. Anyway, I will be watching Hazbin Hotel sometime later. Despite hearing that show is going to be somehow "Darker" than Helluva Boss or something intrigues me. But I question if it will..."Break" me like Infinity Train book 3 did. Yet I hope the series cheers me up. If it makes me emotional, alright then. I've heard episode 4 is a tearjerker.

And I literally just made my Twitter version of this as I was making it.

#infinity train #Youtube

[lust444men]

700 followers celebration!!

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🌶send me your favourite fantasy, your character of choice from my list down below, and I'll do my best to make it happen for you! as little or as many details as you want, but more details means more accuracy for u <3

🔪give me a kink, character, and I'll write it for u! no matter how dirty you think it is. nastier the better! <3

💦give me a character and I'll tell you how I think they are in bed, their kinks /fanasises, and how they do aftercare!

please note I only write fem!reader or gn!reader, sorry to my possible boy followers, but you can still request if you're okay with gn!reader <3 love you all!

prompts

fluffy <3/lil bit angsty

#1 "please, please do not make me watch the notebook again."

#2 "this is all you fault, you know i hate horror movies!"

#3 "it's a children's movie! what could there possibly be to cry about?!"

#4 “a picnic?! have you swallowed a romance novel?”

#5 “you know, mimosas get less socially acceptable when brunch takes place at seven in the morning.”

#6 “you’re so warm, i never want to let go of you.”

#7 "you look so cute in pastels.”

#8 “i’ve got you, i swear. nothing’s going to happen to you when i’m here.”

#9 "bend down a little so i can give you a kiss.”

#10 "this will only feel like a home when i'm sharing it with you."

#11 "you get to curl up in my lap, and i get to watch a cinematic masterpiece in peace and quiet. i think this is a pretty sweet deal."

#12 "please don't ask me if i'd still love you if you turned into a zombie."

#13 "i wasn’t going to leave without a kiss goodbye.”

#14 “this is the part where you’re meant to kiss me.”

#15 “i wanted to kiss you so damn bad.”

#16 “am i dumb for thinking there’s something here? something that could be real?”

#17 "you're soaked! take my jacket." "but then you'll get drowned!" "better me than you."

#18 “you don’t have to do anything. just being here, with me, that’s enough.”

my characters i write for.

spiderman: across the spider verse:

Hobie Brown,

Miguel O'hara,

Peter B. Parker,

Miles Morales 1610,

Miles G. Morales(42), only fluff/angst!!

Gwen Stacy, ^^

Call of duty:

Captian John Price,

Simon "Ghost" Riley,

Keegan P. Russ,

König,

Kyle "Gaz" Garrick,

Valeria Garza,

Alejandro Vargas.

The last of us

Ellie Williams,

Abby Anderson,

Joel Miller,

Jesse,

Dina woodward

Criminal minds

Aaron Hotchner,

Spencer Reid,

Emily prentiss,

Derek Morgan,

Penelope garcia,

Outer banks

JJ,

Rafe cameron,

Sarah Cameron,

Kiara Carrera

Pope heyward

requests open <3

© LUST444MEN 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟒.

#hobie brown smut #pls dont bully me #hobie brown #hobie smut #hobie x reader #spider punk #astv spidersona #hobie brown fic #hobie spiderverse #spider man: across the spider verse #astv miles #miles morales smut #atsv miguel #miguel o'hara smut #könig call of duty #ghost smut #simon riley smut #keegan russ smut #gaz cod #könig smut #valeria cod #valeria mw2 #könig mw2 #ghost mw2 #ellie williams smut #joel miller #joel miller smut #aaron hotchner smut #spencer reid smut #emily prentiss smut

[liberty-barnes]

hellooo! i'm new here on tumblr and i was just wondering if you had any good blog recs that are larry-related? i'm noticing that people on here have way more info than on twitter (as well as just being overall less confusing haha) so i wanted to check out some blogs to just make my experience in the fandom a bit better. thank you so much!!

Me trying to decide between being helpful and gatekeeping my favourite blogs:

Alright, the helpful side won, damn my parents for raising me to share and be kind.

So first off, quick disclaimer: please try your best to follow Tumblr fandom rules when going to these people and don't be rude to them because they're amazing and I love them so if you mess with them I will track you down and make Hell look like an all-expenses-paid trip to Ibiza.

Now that that's out of the way, here are my favourite blogs, the ones I check every day and got me through the research stage when I actually started to get involved in all things fandom:

@twopoppies: queen of fic recs, always has good discourse, her anons can be very sus sometimes so we keep an eye out for those, perfect mix of kind and sassy, wrote this absolute masterpiece that everyone should read and I couldn't resist mentioning

@daisiesonafield-blog: our lord and saviour, her blog is so organised it can only be the work of a witch because no ordinary human has as much patience as she does to keep it all so neat, pretty much every resource you could need as a Larrie can be found on her blog, it's like having your mom give you a little pamphlet with the location of every single item in your house cause you always forget that the red shirt is in the bottom left drawer. As if that wasn't enough, she's also smart, kind, and runs the @larrytimelines blog, so that really just proves my theory that she isn't actually real, just a figment of our imagination

@indiaalphawhiskey: the Biggest of all the Brains, she puts things you only vaguely imagine into coherent words, just God Tier theories and discourse that blow my mind every time I read them. She also wrote Our Lives, Non-Fiction which is fairly well-known on Twitter, at least in my circles, although my personal favourite is Barefoot In Blue Jeans. Overall, if it has words, she's amazing at it.

@awesomefringey: the nicest person I've ever had the pleasure of interacting with, and I sincerely admire her patience. Leading expert in all things thirst over Larry, but scrolling through her blog will also cause you breakdowns 9/10 times cause she's always putting Larry gifs on our dash. She's the dramatic aunt at family gatherings that'll sneak you vodka when your parents aren't looking while also offering to get you to bed when you inevitably get smashed.

@lesbianslovelouis: the SASSIEST and we LOVE IT, she says things like they are, no filtering, no bullshit, just so genuine and honest you can't help but love her. Also at the start of some very important discussions such as Louis' very soft elbows, the Broli secret relationship, and the "Harry is a mermaid, Louis is a cat" ongoing investigation. quick disclaimer tho, if you want to go to her blog, you better follow Tumblr rules and not be an obnoxious and entitled dick otherwise she'll eat you alive and I'll enjoy every second of it

@skepticalarrie: yet another one with a super-organised blog (seriously which demon did you make a pact with to keep it that nice? I don't understand how). Smart, smart, smart, I've been going through some of her lyric analysis from HS3 lately and it's just so well-done, it makes you see things you maybe hadn't noticed before but make SO MUCH SENSE. Also has a bunch of explanations for things that make us scratch our heads like the "Louis and Harry are mortal enemies" narrative

@genuinemusic: my go-to for all things HS3. Her analysis of AIW is an absolute masterpiece and I can't wait for the rest. Also so cool to read her first listens to the album cause you're already getting a taste for the analysis and I'm nothing if not a whore for deep thinking, it's the English student in me.

@cuethetommo: business queen, the best blog to go to for anything ticket-related, whenever I'm sad I just go through her ASK ME WHY I LOVE HARRY STYLES and MOST BEAUTIFUL BOY tags and then I'm good again. Also has a really organised blog, and her HARRY MERCH tag always makes me feel better when I get angry that Harry's merch honestly sucks

@hellolovers13: my big sister loml, they have the greatest fics (we beta each other's fics too so they're a big part of mine), number 1 niall fan, also a big taylor fan so obviously we love. just overall an amazing person that everyone should follow. they keep me updated on pretty much all things fandom bc I've been very out of touch lately lmao

@lovingstheantidote: literally an amazing blog, joins me sabine and co for thirst time, always has very good opinions and thoughts, and just such a sweet and lovely person (except for when we're thirsting in which case it's time to sin). 10/10 blog, love it

@ladychlo: another amazing blog that I check on the daily because they're just hilarious really and if they're not making posts that make me smash the reblog button, they're reblogging them themselves which makes for a very nice dash for me. a must-have, I would say

as for update accounts, the only two you need are @dailytomlinsonson and @stylesnews which also happen to be the larry love story of tumblr, we ship them so hard as we fucking should tbh

Those are the ones I keep up with the most, even tho there's tons of good people out there that you should definitely check out, so don't be afraid to just branch out on your own, check out random blogs, see if their blog is something you could keep up with.

Since you're from Twitter, there's one main thing you should know about this: NO ONE CARES ABOUT FOLLOWERS. We believe in curating your experience, so follow whoever you want, unfollow whoever you want, and don't worry about saying the wrong thing cause it won't bring in more followers. Tumblr is the best place for you to just be yourself without the fear of being judged or cancelled.

Edit: here is a list of general Tumblr guidelines, and here is a list more catered to the 1D/Larry side of things, I recommend reading both.

#libby answers #larry blog recs #blog recs #seriously all these people are awesome #but you better be good if you go to them #and don't try to change yourself or their blogs cause the vibes don't fit #if the vibes don't fit go vibe somewhere else #also enjoy me unabashedly gushing cause they deserve love and appreciation #they're the kind of people who should get paid #that's how much work they put into this

[alltoolewis]

August (Taylor Swift) : Lando Norris

Finally getting through my song requests!!! Hope you enjoy this angsty little imagine based on the masterpiece which is August by the talented queen herself... Taylor swift (Listen Here!) It is mainly based on the first chorus of the song but I tried to include different elements of the song in it!! Enjoy lovelies ❤

p.s yes I did indeed skip a smut opportunity.... apologies hehe!

Summary: After flirting with each other all season, (y/n) and Lando get carried away after one too many drinks... but despite (y/n) hoping it was more than a one night stand, she soon discovers that her hopes and dreams of being in a relationship with him will never come true!

Warnings! bad writing alert!!!!!! (Also hasn't been proofread!)

You knew it was too good to be true... wishing you could just rinse away all your wishful prayers that for once you were going to be that girl! The girl that somehow wins the heart of the boy who is way above her league! The girl that everyone asks 'how on earth did you get him?' but none of that would happen... because he yours... and you were his!...

Some may say you were being dramatic... that you were just tangled in your own fantasies and your mind had just wandered off again! But they weren't there for the late-night calls... the secret glances across the room... they weren't there for it all!

You tried your best to not get carried away with it... your close friends telling you that it was just a season fling, that it meant nothing to him! But for you... it meant everything! It meant so much that you allowed your emotions to give away the one thing that could never be returned...

Two weeks ago...

"Lando what are you doing?..." You squealed, throwing your head back laughing as he lifted you through the crowd "There going to notice your gone!!" Obviously, they were going to notice he was gone... they were all there for him!!! "Nonsense!" He chuckled, placing your feet back on the ground as he pulled your hand up the stairs "I'm sure they won't miss me for 10 minutes!" Lifting you back in his arms once he realised the coast was clear he kicked open the bathroom door, locking it behind you as your shaking hands desperately searched for your back zipper... it was finally happening!

"Is that all you last for....?" You giggled, a smirk pulling against your lips as you watch a cloud of lust coat his hazel orbs "I knew you were the fast on the track... but damn... only 10 minutes... I expected more Norris!"

Having enough of your teasing, he pushed up against the door, twirling you around as he left kisses on the crook of your neck "I think both know that I can last way longer than that darling!" His fingers danced along your bare shoulders before pulling down your zipper exposing your back "But for the thrill of it all, 10 minutes are going to have to do!"

Spinning your back around, he took a step back, admiring your almost bare body. "Your so fucking beautiful!" He muttered before pulling you back into him, lips getting carried away as you both fought for dominance, him obviously getting the advantage as he bit onto your lip roughly causing you to gasp. Pulling away from you for a second, his hands worked quickly to undo his belt, looking up to you once last time with a softer expression

"Are you sure (y/n)?... I know this is your first-time Darlin... I don't want you to regret this!"

Pulling him closer you lock your lips back to his, smiling onto his lips as you feel him kiss you back "I won't regret this Lando... Never have I been more sure of anything... I want it to be you!"

"Glad we're on the same page then...!" He smirked against your lips, pushing his forehead against yours "don't worry... I'll be gentle... I will never hurt you"

Apart of you wanted to believe his last words... that he would never hurt you! You trusted him! Giving him the one thing that you would never be able to get back... the one thing that would be constantly engraved into your mind forever! How could you not trust him... the endless months of constant flirting... the messages of unspoken lies telling you how much he cares for you, that this season would have never happened if he never had you by his side... but it was fake... it was all fake!

Your mind constantly flashed back to the days where you were both enchanted in your own love spell. But as the season came to an end, it was clear that you were the only one casted... He never cared about you! He didn't love you! It was all a web of lies... and somehow along the way you got trapped!

The secret meeting behind the paddocks... LIES!

Nights on hotel balconies talking about what the future would hold for the two of you... LIES!

Car rides across unknown locations... LIES! LIES! LIES!

Because if he did care about you... if he did love you like he said he did... he wouldn't have his arms wrapped around her! The girl he told you not to worry about... the girl that was just a friend of Max!

In your story... it was supposed to be you... the one standing with his family at the finishing line! The one joining his friends on yachts across Mykonos! The one he won ridiculous sized stuffed animals for a winter wonderland! But there was never a us...

And the truth is... you couldn't even say you lost him or that he was the one who got away... because he was never truly yours to lose!... and as time slipped away from the two of you like a bottle of wine... you knew that eventually all of the months you carried so deeply in your heart will become a lost memory...

and that's what hurt you the most...

#lando norris #lando norris blurb #lando norris blurbs #lando norris imagine #lando norris imagines #lando norris fanfic #lando norris fanfiction #f1 blurbs #f1 blurb #f1 imagine #f1 imagines #f1 fanfiction

[blksuwie1]

RivaMika FanFic Rec List Part 1

Hi friends!

I decided to make this rec list because I've been consuming so much RM fic lately that I've been having a hard time keep tracking of which ones I'm recommending. So, I decided to make this for my selfish reasons lol but I figured this would be good to share since it seems we have some more incoming RM fans our way.

We're currently at 916 RM fics as of today. When I first started reading about this wonderful duo, there were only about 600 or so and it just exploded over the past years. It's so awesome to see our little ship gain some headway.

As always, feel free to add in your own recs! This is merely a beginning list. The links to the fics are attached to the title. I'll include some ratings and brief summary. See the tags below for quick info:

Tags

+ = Completed work

- = WIP

* = nsfw

The Song Remains The Same by MoraLeeWright. Rated M, * and +. What can I say about this masterpiece that hasn't been said already? This is probably the best intro to rivamika that you can ask for. Really good rival to lovers done in a realistic manner. So damn good, you'll consume it in less than three days. Recommended to anyone who is a bit iffy about this pairing and needs some convincing. The smut is beautifully done too. Fantastic slow burn.

Just Until The Storm Has Gone by MoraLeeWright. Rated E, * and +. When I tell you I screamed at some of these scenes! A much more angsty composition to the post canon au fics out there, but done so well. You almost forget how much angst the characters feel when the sweetness of their actions outweigh them. Author is incredible and has more works, but these two are just *chefs kiss*.

Surviving Peace by die-forellex (heatinfreezing). Rated E, * and +. This fic was my first RM fic, and I'll never forget it. It's hot, sweet, and oddly comforting. There's a particular, ahem, mouth on private part scene that always me fan myself in chapter 2. The satisfaction you feel when these two are finally finally happy, it's so wholesome. Just mind the tags--ackerbaby and pregnancy is big in this one.

To you, five years from now by a_sassin. Rated E, * and +. A different take on a post war au that has Eren and Armin alive, trying to navigate their last years as Mikasa returns to them. Oh, and she's pining for a certain captain *grins gleefully*. This is angsty but not as heavy as you'd expect. Very spicy but sweet. Definitely give this a try.

The Sound of Lightning by LycheeGreenTea. Rated M, * and -. Ackerbabies? Ackerbaby. This cute but action packed WIP is such a worthy check out. There's something about Daddy!Levi and Mommy!Mikasa that eats at my rm heart. Another take on a post war au that leaves you wanting more. A spicy scene and some domestic fluff is all you need to want more from this author.

After The War by loneackerman (aka the wonderful @rivaille-13) Rated M, * and -. THIS STORY. Anyone who is reading this can attest to just how amazing the plot and development of these characters are. There's a delicious slow burn element to it, and it's recently been resolved...let me tell you, worth the wait. Author is almost done with the fic I believe, but please check this story out. It's one of the best post war canon healing au's out there.

Same Old Thing by Raewyll. Rated M, * and -. Did someone say underground adventure? This was one of the best stories I had the pleasure of following along for a while now. I think the author has one more chapter left over. This is great for those who want something kind of spicy but not too spicy. The tension, plot, and action are all still there though.

I am from a burning village by @valya-azucena. Rated M and -, possible *. There's so much I want to say about this fic but can't coherently describe how amazing it is. The tension and build up of these characters is so SO good, and I screamed at the last update. 10/10.

Inexorable by @alienheartattack. Rated T and +. Hello modern au! I devoured this fic during work shamelessly. It's short and sweet, and there's just something so hot about the secretary/boss trope that eats me up.

Paths in Constellations by LamentableBrat. Rated E, * and -. HOLY SMOKES. This fic has torn me apart, y'all. When I tell you I cried AND am hotly bothered, no one else can do this but this author. It's an incredible fic and am so excited to see where it goes.

Soldiers Don't Get Happy Endings by heretosayhello. Rated T and -. I had to do a double take when I saw this was rated T because holy heck, this author just writes the tension between them like no other. There's a lot of Ackertalk and new plot lines I'm incredibly jealous of that I didn't think of first. SO GOOD.

Deep Sea Running by @linaxlight (shameless self plug). Rated E, *, and +. Post canon AU of what happens when the old Levi squad comes back to Paradis Island. Everyone else seems to have moved on three years after the ending of the war, and they make their peace saying goodbye to Eren. But Mikasa chose to stay behind back then, and she'll need to face Levi eventually. Sequel has Ackerbabies because I love them.

That's all for now folks! I'll do a part 2 next time.

#rivamika fanfic #rivamika #levimika #fanfic #fanfic list #rec list

[cassierobinsons]

it's no worries! i'm delighted you're answering my asks at all lmao. i really think you and i are on the same wavelength about this show, you're really cool, and you have really good and thoughtful takes.

i blocked that kitsune episode from my memory ugh. it really shouldn't have been a surprise what dabb ended up doing to billie even when she was his character considering how consistently racism creeps into his work.

i'm very sorry you're having to experience season 9, you're very brave to not just skip it. 10 i think is slightly better mainly because it introduces rowena who's a lot of fun and gets some depth as the show goes on (being a hot milf witch also helps a lot) but also mark of cain is not a good time. 12 is a trainwreck in terms of like. watching it as a form of television but the dean and mary scenes hit super hard and feel like they belong on an earlier season that would give them a real resolution.

"like i do not like s8 sam at all but at least there was something going on there! he was a hayes code homophobe and had the haircut of a premade sim but it was something!"

he was soooooo wack about benny lmao. i think it was meant to be portrayed as him projecting his own experiences with ruby but benny literally never did anything wrong so it just made sam look like a dick. which i prefer, i think sam being initially weird about dean being bi as something he never considered is more IC than ex-gsa member sam.

very much agreed on gamble-genuinely interesting ideas but not great execution. i can't think about what happened with lisa without wanting to bite. maybe it's for the best he wasn't paired with cassie instead post swan song because i can't imagine the awful shit they'd pull with her.

(following on from this ask THIS CHAIN IS GETTING LONG LMFAO)

aw thanks anon 😊 i'm enjoying the chance to longform chat about this terrible show.

dabb's racism is easily his worst quality. he's a dean anti and his writing is often mean-spirited but WOW does his racism dwarf everything else.

i've been stuck on s9 since early december and plan on going back to it once i've made some progress catching up on the shows i'm watching rn (namely search party s5, the expanse s5, hacks, AND yellowjackets) so like. realistically i'm not going back until feb lmfao. even then i don't give a shit about the plot rn so i'll only watch eps for cas or when minor characters pop up. i've said this before but the decision to kill kevin off reaaaally weighs on me as being spn's nadir, a real No Melanin Allowed moment. jeremy carver can meet me in the pit, idgaf.

yeah the mark of cain plotline sounds so 😒 and i know what i'm about to say sounds WILD considering the last 3-4 days of dean apologism but ultimately. i am a casgirl who loves dean but not a deangirl so while i love s4 dean's noxious era the prospect of a season and a half of it bores me to tears. toxicity? from a man? groundbreaking. i am looking forward to meeting rowena though. she sounds so cool as a character it's genuinely baffling that a show like spn came up with her.

12 is a trainwreck in terms of like. watching it as a form of television but the dean and mary scenes hit super hard and feel like they belong on an earlier season that would give them a real resolution.

there are a plethora of moments i hear about in the later seasons have me like. damn. this would've been Masterpiece Theatre if it happened 5 years earlier. still, i'm looking forward to watching some of the motws in s12. regarding dean will probably revive brainworms that have lain dormant since my s1-2 deangirl days.

sam was so fucking terrible about benny jdsfdjkfjs and i get that they were trying to parallel it with ruby and especially amy but man. the whole point of the slice girls is that sam killing emma is meant to cancel out the amy thing like pemdas. and it's an evil and wrong point! but it's a point. so having sam get pissy over benny makes him look so bad because bro you literally put a bullet in his daughter, you DO NOT get to be precious about this. but it does lend credence to my personal theory that it's hard for sam to draw from his supposedly deep well of empathy for other supernatural creatures if he cannot directly project his issues onto them 🤭

i've posted briefly about the queer subtext in citizen fang (bonus commentary by @softbrah) and yeah, it is strong evidence that sam has no fucking clue dean desires men carnally. in the secret good s9 that exists in my head dean & human!cas start fucking after like 3 weeks in the bunker and sam is sent into a tailspin.

the lisa&ben thing was gamble being at a 10 when she should've been at a 2. or like a 6 tops. you can tragically bury dean's dreams of being a dad without having him do this horrible thing to his exgf and her son i promise! you don't have to make a writing choice this evil! makes me extremely glad that he didn't go to cassie in canon because gamble handling a black female character is the stuff of nightmares. i do want more deancassie in fic though, stat!

#asks #anonymous #i'm going to bed now bye

[justherefortaylorswift]

there’s glitter on the floor after the party...

Taylor,

*About 9 days ago, on May 22nd, 2018, I had just arrived home from your Seattle show at CenturyLink Field. It was 4am and I couldn’t sleep. I had so much on my mind and was still on a high from your show. So, in the early hours of the morning, after my friends had long gone to bed, I began to write. I’ve revised my original note quite a bit since then. I’ve also had the opportunity to do some additional reflecting since tour, and I have some thoughts. So, I guess this is the end-result of a mash-up of 4AM overly-emotional rambling, combined with well thought-out, fully coherent, mature writing. I feel like I really over-explained this. I could have been a lot less-awkward in setting this up. Let's just get into it:

[SO. I just got home from your Seattle show. It's 4 am and I can't sleep. This was my 6th tour, and I made what seems like an infinite amount of unforgettable memories with a group of incredible people I call my ‘Swiftie Fam” (the name needs work...). There's Cecil (my long-time, Canadian Swiftie friend, you’ll see him in earlier posts), Wanda (Cecil’s wife), Kaeden (7. Cecil & Wanda’s son. Major Swiftie. His first concert!), and finally the beautiful Maile (a recent addition to the fam, and now a life-long friend!).  It’s hard to explain in words, but we all have developed a connection that’s special and unique because of what we experienced together. I couldn’t have asked for a better group of people to stand by my side tonight. We danced, laughed, and cried together… I don’t think I’ve ever felt more understood. These people ‘get’ me.

Not surprisingly, I screamed every single lyric at the top of my lungs and subsequently lost my voice almost IMMEDATIELY. With that in mind, I suppose a more accurate description would be: I wasn’t so much singing, as I was gasping for the remainder of the show. I literally danced with until I was out of breath. I cried (ok, SOBBED) all of my make-up off (a Long Live/NYD mash-up… are you kidding me?! I FEEL ATTACKED). 

By the end of the night, I resembled a pathetic, overly-emotional, glittery, drowned rat.

and I was living my absolute best life.

Also, I was REALLY proud of our outfits this time around! I think we did a decent job of recreating your Direct TV commercial, with my rainbow two-piece, and Cecil’s interpretation of Olivia Benson dressed as a Caticorn (I can’t say I ever thought I’d use that in a sentence). It consisted of around 8-10 hours total of gluing, painting, and hand-sewing, leading up to the show. Everything turned out awesome, way better than expected. Totally worth the man hours! Wanda hand-made matching these adorable matching t-shirts for her and little Kaden (Big Rep & Little Rep), and Maile constructed a beautiful MASTERPIECE from the mountain LYWMMD outfit- it was freakin’ incredible and HOT!

There was something a bit different about this tour for a couple of reasons:

[The production.] I don’t think I’ve experienced such sensory-overload in my LIFE. The whole time it was like a constant stream of frantic, internal dialogue with a lot of run-on sentences, like, “WHAT IS HAPPENING SHE’S GIVING US CHOREO OMG YAAASSS WERK HONEY IF A MAN TALKS SHIT WE DON'T OWE HIM A DAMN THING OH MY GOD ITS RAINING CONFETTI I MUST COLLECT IT I HOPE THESE MULTI-COLORED FLASHING LIGHTS DON’T GIVE ME AN EPILEPTIC ATTACK WHERE THE F-CK DID THESE GIGANTIC SNAKES COME FROM THERE ARE LITERALLY STAGES EVERYWHERE I’M OVERWHELMED OH SHIT SHES PULLING A SPEAK NOW BY WALKING THROUGH THE CROWD WHAT'S GOING ON OH GOD F-CKING FIREWORKS THESE VOCALS ARE LIT THO I'M SWEATING I’M DEFINITELY GONNA NEED THERAPY AFTER THIS NEW YEARS DAY/LONG LIVE MASH UP IS THAT A FOUNTAIN WHATS HAPPENING OH GOD IT’S REAL WATER AND SHE’S IN THE FOUNTAIN I’M HAVING A 2008 SHOULD’VE SAID NO ACM AWARDS FLASHBACK MOMENT HOLY SH-T MORE F-CKING FIREWORKS SO MUCH PYRO IS THIS EVEN LEGAL” I’ve gotta say, you have BEST band (Paul, Amos and Mike..OGS), vocalists (Eliott and Kamilah…the TALENT), and all the dancers. Every single person on that stage was on FIRE, and their talent, passion, and individual personalities made the night sparkle.

[The fans.] I freaking adore this fan culture. I’ve never met a Swiftie who wasn’t ridiculously friendly, welcoming, and super relatable. The vibe was so positive. I’ve never smiled, waved and taken pictures with so many random strangers in my life. It felt as if we were literally in a different world that day. It felt like home.

[YOU!.]  We need to talk about this major GLO UP you’ve got going on, honey. You exude SO much confidence and you're just pure sunshine. When I think about the way you’ve carried yourself these past couple of years through all of the BS drama, I can’t help but feel damn proud. You’ve successfully converted pain into art, into music. Real music, that’s poignant, raw, and just BAD ASS. Your lyrics continue to foster a special connection you maintain with the audience...a connection that often times breathes life into brokenness.

I felt like the luckiest girl in the entire world tonight. 

This may have been my best concert experience ever, which is actually pretty ironic because:

Unlike Red, I wasn’t in the Pit

I didn’t have VIP seating, like 1989

You weren’t close enough for any potential high fives, waves, or eye contact like I experienced at Speak Now at B-Stage

We were not chosen for Rep Room (or T-Party, Club Red, or Loft 89)

…But, it was OK. It was way more than OK. It was truly a dream.

Listen: Something I've always deeply admired about you is that you make it a priority to maintain a personal relationship with the fans.  It’s clear you want to meet as many of us as possible, and you make a conscious effort to do so. You get to know us as individuals and you CARE, and that means everything us and makes such an impact. I mean, you invite us into your HOME for crying out loud, you walk through massive crowds and give high-fives, you lurk our Instagrams and Tumblrs and interact on social media, and you always make a notable effort to meet as many of us as possible at tour.

However, this can sometimes turn into a bit of a "Catch 22" situation for people. The downside, is that it’s honestly SUPER easy to fall into the “trap” of being consumed with the possibility of meeting you after your shows. Due to the fact that the “selection” process is both intentional, yet also random. To be transparent, it's quite difficult to not obsess with the idea of ‘trying’ to get chosen. I witness this behavior so often, in others and in myself just as much, if not more. Selfishly, I often feel not only jealous, but UPSET when I see photos/read experiences of other fans meeting you. I sometimes feel like the only one who hasn’t yet gotten the opportunity.  It can quickly turn into a mind-game if you're not careful, which has the potential to become toxic if we allow the idea of meeting you to rule supreme over what it's actually about...which is the MUSIC. And, this amazing show you put on for us night after night. And somewhat understandably so, I've witnessed the obsession with being chosen to meet you become a main focus point for a lot of us (including myself a bit!). It's pretty stressful, and can easily dampen or cheapen the concert experience, if you're not careful. As dramatic as this probably sounds, Tumblr (and social media) can be brutal within this fandom, and dare I say ‘cut-throat’ at times. It's easy to get upset watching (what seems like) literally EVERYONE get that opportunity, except you. 

That said, I had a wake-up call/mini-epiphany recently, which manifested while driving home from your show at Midnight on May 22nd with my friends, feeling so amazing and so grateful for what I just experienced…but also a little guilty because I feel like I’ve spent way too much time worrying about the possibility of meeting at you when you come to Seattle, how to get the attention of Taylor Nation, where to find Mama Swift, getting that guitar pick from Papa Swift, and this time was no different. Granted, my intentions are 100% pure and it’s only because you’ve meant so freakin much to me for so many years, and it's almost as if my life won’t be complete until I finally get to tell you in person. That said, there is certainty a valuable lesson to be learned here. I am confident that you and I will come face-to-face one day (hopefully with my Swifie fam!). The stars will align at the exactly the right time, and I will have my moment with you, and it will be SO worth the wait. You can't "force" stuff like this, you know? The privilege of meeting you is almost ‘sacred’ in a sense. At least in my opinion. Anyway, my point is: I refuse to a continue to attempt to “create fate” by attempting to "earn" my worthiness in fandom. It’s not productive, it's not healthy, and it’s not cute.

Alright, this is getting out of hand. I need to wrap this up. 🤣 I’m not sure whether or not you’ve seen any of my throwback photo-posts I posted the week leading up to the show. They definitely explain a lot more about me, and my history being a fan. Either way, I must reiterate how grateful I am to have you in my life, and that support you 100% and will always be here. The amount of hope, joy and comfort you've given me over the past 10+ years is insurmountable, and I'll never be able to repay you for that. And I mean that in the most sincere way. Not a lot of things make me as happy as you make me (especially lately). This experience was the ‘boost’ I needed, I think. And like I said, the relationship I have with my friends/Swiftie Fam is invaluable, and I look forward to making memories with them at your shows in the future. You’ve brought the most random group of people together and created a bond that’s unique, unconditional and unbreakable, and I think that’s so cool.

This was A LOT longer than I originally intended it to be. This escalated quickly. Haha. Thanks for listening. 💗

Don’t read the last page…]

Love you, T

Crystal

@taylorswift

@taylornation

@ceunit

@maileswiftie

[photos]:  1) The whole crew: Cecil, Wanda, Kaeden, Maile and myself at our seats. 2) Kaeden the night before the show. SO EXCITED!! 3) Testing out the Caticorn onesie w/ Cecil 4) Cecil and myself FULLY DECKED and ready to go. 5) Wanda and Kaeden: Big Rep & Lil’ Rep! 6) the girls! Maile, Wanda and Me pre-show 7) Us at the end of the show! And yes, that’s me in the middle..in disbelief, exhausted, sweaty, and a physical and emotional wreck (see also: ‘drowned rat’ description above). 8) All of us after the show literally in a hotel lobby (and glitter on the floor after the party!), waiting for traffic to die down before we headed home.

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