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"we got to get her out of here, okay? it's really cold in here for her and i just don't--"

𝓲𝓶𝓪𝓰𝓲𝓷𝓮 - "we got to get her out of here, okay? it's really cold in here for her and I just don't--"

𝔀𝓪𝓻𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓼 - depressing, grief, grieving husband, widower, character death, hysterical crying

𝓭𝓮𝓼𝓬𝓻𝓲𝓹𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷 - jared's wife lennon padalecki, a real-life texas ranger is murdered in cold blood. jared is then called after a day on set for his tv show, walker, which is a show about texas rangers, and has to visit the coroner's office to identify/see the body for the first time.

𝓪𝓾𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓻'𝓼 𝓷𝓸𝓽𝓮 - i am writing this for jared once again but i'm changing his wife's name from maisie to lennon and that she is a real life texas ranger cause then it makes sense because he plays a ranger on tv but his wife is the real thing. so, i thought, if he has a wife in the texas rangers that gets killed in the line of fire during work it could still follow episode nine of season one of walker. because, season one, episode nine shows us through flashbacks the night that emily walker, the wife of jared's character cordell walker, gets killed. and in this episode, jared's character cordell and odette annable's character geri brussard travel to the coroner's office to identify the body. so, yeah, that's why i decided to switch it around and make it a jared one-shot and not a walker one-shot. italics will be used and the present time will be written in the normal font. it'll also be written in lowercase

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her body, from head to toe, was shutting down, slowing itself as were all of her vital organs. the exact ones that were usually so good at keeping her alive during moments of immense panic. she was trying so hard to breathe in and out but she couldn't. laying on the ground, in the muddy grassy field she couldn't help but pray and hope that help was on its way. that was if help had even been called since she was no longer with her garda partner. every time she tried to breathe in, she'd start choking and gurgling on the blood that was rising up in her throat from the gunshot wound to her stomach. and this was due to the fact that she was lying down on the floor as though she was paralyzed.

trying to keep her eyes open, she tried so hard to stay alive. even though she knew that in a matter of minutes, maybe seconds, she would be dead. because, even with every piece of texas ranger training she went through, nothing would ever really prepare her for a moment like this. this was when real life texas ranger, lennon padalecki's phone started to ring again. this wasn't the first time her phone had rung though since earlier on, before this happened, she was on the phone to her husband before she hung up on him mid-gunshot. as she moaned in pain at her incoming death, she just as about looked at her phone one last time, looking at the contact photo of her husband, jared padalecki as it flashed up on her iphone. the photo was of the two of them laughing as jared had tried to go in for a kiss on lennon's lips. however, he had missed her lips entirely whilst their twin boys, kai and ethan, who were only a few months old and their daughter aurelia, aged sixteen were seen in the background. the twins and aurelia were also pictured, just like their parents, laughing at their silly antics. all of this was happening whilst tears, blood, sweat and every other bodily fluid bubbled in lennon's throat and down her face. this was when she came to the fate that she was going to die and that no one was going to find her. and, this for some reason gave peace to lennon. even though she and jared had just become new and first-time parents to their aforementioned twin boys, kai and ethan who were only a few months old, making sixteen-year-old aurelia an older sister for the first time. due to the fact that sixteen-year-old aurelia padalecki was born from a previous relationship of her mothers. and, for some reason, lennon never thought that during her time as a texas ranger that she'd die like this, on the wet, dewey, muddy field of grass looking up at the beautiful austin night sky. a huge gunshot wound overflowing with blood in the middle of her abdominal-stomach area. lennon had no clue that she got accidentally tangled with an iilegal drug trade at the border.

she was never told that important piece of information in the brief of her and her partners case. all the information they were given was that they were just driving to the border to deliever clean bottled water to a different crew of rangers who were finishing up a more serious case. with lennon's breathing starting to slow, so did her panic and worry of dying. her entire life from a little girl to the first time she met her husband to then watching them get married to then having aurelia and then kai and ethan along with all the other happy moments she spent with the rest of jared's walker castmates and their partners played through her mind as though it was a mini highlight reel of her life - which it was.

this put her at ease, she found herself taking her last breath, a smile on her face with her eyes focused upon the gorgeous austin night sky. her eyes fluttered shut as though she was just falling asleep and she wasn't bleeding out, covered in sweat, tears and various other fluids. she was calm and at rest even though the way to this moment was anything but calming and restful.

back at the set of his tv show, walker, that revolves around his wife's real life job as a texas ranger, jared couldn't contain his worry. thankful though, for the fact that walker was even filmed at their home state in austin, texas. meaning that he was closer to home than he would be if he was in vancouver or los angeles. this then inadvertently meant that the least of his worries was having to get on a plane to rush home to his wife. however, it still worried him that his wife didn't pick up the phone call after the first time she called originally. this made him think that she was in trouble - of course it did. this entire sitution gave jared a feeling that he didn't want to trust or worry about. but, he knew due to his wife's job as a texas ranger, he always had to worry about every and any phone call he could receive from his wife, boss or work partner. that phone call and missed phone call genuinely gave jared the heebie-jeebies but because he was on set for walker with his castmates, he desperately tried to forget about it.

it gave him the complete full body shivers to think about the possibility of something bad happening to his wife whilst she was at work. especially when all of her cases lately had been rather tame and nothing too scary. which then sent another full body shiver down jared's spine, giving him the thought of why would his wife call him while she's on shift if nothing was wrong?

this was when jared's phone started to ring again. the number was from the travis county coroner's office in regards to a body that needed indentifying. however, obviously, just from a number, jared didn't know that immediately like his wife was able to. in jared's mind, it was just an unknown number that had rung him but, truthfuly, he did assume that it was a law enforcement/government official number. so, it gave him all the wrong feelings that it was the coroner's office.

for a moment, jared was confused why they would need him when it was his wife that was the real-life texas ranger. why would jared need to identify someone...his blood then grew cold as his eyes began to water and he started to feel sick in the pit of his stomach.

what if that gut feeling was because of that strange phone call he received from lennon. what if something bad had indeed happened to his wife?

"...hello, am i speaking to a mr...jared padalecki?" the male on the other side of the phoneline queried

this made jared's anxiety anything but better about where his wife was, "umm, yes...yes, this is he. who...who am i speaking with, sorry?" jared stammered out in confusion and worry, his heart beating out of his chest - just hoping it was the rangers or--

"--this is the travis county coroner's office, sir. a lady in her early to late thirties has just been brought in to us and we're still unsure about her identity. but with the information we received, we found out that you are an emergency contact. we're just asking for you to come down so you can identify this woman. this is because as of right now, you sir, are our only possible lead as to who this woman is," the man spoke softly and with empathy

jared felt as though he had been thrown to the floor and kicked in the stomach. his breath was gone in a second as he then realised, the woman from what he had been told wasn't a ranger- maybe he wouldn't be identifying his wife after all.

"oh...oh, okay, yeah of...of course! i...i'll be on my way soon i just gotta--"

"--oh, sir, wait, before i forget, sorry, was the woman brought into the coroner's office a texas ranger?" jared stammered out

completely out of his director's seat now, showed his boss, anna, his phone with the now shown coroner's phone number. immediately, no questions asked, anna allowed jared to grab his things. also letting keegan, coby and odette go with him. not having a single care in the world that the four of them had a tv show to film.

the other man on the other end of the phone then responded with a soft gasp of remembrance, "ahh, that's what i had forgotten. i am so sorry mr padalecki, the woman that's been brought into the examiner's office was indeed mentioned to be a texas ranger. and now, i think we have a firm belief as to who it is. hence why you've been our first point of contact, so please be careful mr padalecki. we will see you when you arrive, thank you for your time," the man spoke as he then hung up to do what jared assumed was to ring the other three emergency contacts of who he didn't know was his own wife, lennon

because, all of a sudden, jared didn't seem too worried. he had suddenly remembered a rule in regards to what happens when a texas ranger dies whilst they are in active service. the rule is or was that the first person called is not the wife/husband/parent of the officer but the last person to be contacted. so, because of jared remembering this rule that was actually switched to the wife/husband/parent being called first, his worry and anxiety of him being told his wife had been killed in active duty just slipped away.

so, because of this, jared went straight to autopilot thinking it was lennon's partner, elliot that had died. as soon as the phone line went dead, jared rushed to his car, keegan joining him whilst coby and odette went in coby's big car. coby driving right behind jared as they sped down to the coroner's office, the two of them most likely breaking a ton of road rules. all the while just hoping that the person he was going to identify wasn't someone he was related to, let alone elliot or his own wife. and even then, he'd still be confused and equally as heartbroken as to who this person would be and why he'd be an unknown ranger's emergency contact since he was already elliot's second point of contact after his own wife. in the same way that elliot's wife was the second point of contact of lennon after jared.

as jared, keegan, odette and coby arrived at the travis county coroner's office, they all stepped out of their cars. jared now feeling dizzy and stressed out.

"jared, man, what's going on, do you know?" odette approached her nervous castmate and best friend as she notices him shake his head no

keegan, odette and coby watched as panic seeped through jared's eyes as keegan's jaw tightened. it seemed as though keegan already figured it out who it was that needed identifying, odette and coby as well.

the four castmates who were best friends leaned against coby's big car, jared's mind starting to wander. he tried to think up of all the people in his wife's team that had him as their emergency contact other than elliot. as he wracked his brain, by the time he fully remembered that he was his own wife's first point of contact, a voice that sounded like the man who rang jared was heard from the front door of the building. this voice had caught the cast's attention.

"...mr padalecki...they're ready for you," the man who had rung jared opened the door, shivers spreading through the body's of jared and his castmates

this threw jared back to the strange phone call from lennon. it truthfully just gave him the creeps and rightfully so.

"we love you jared, it's gonna be okay!" odette spoke softly as she placed her hand on the shoulder of her older best friend

turning around, jared nodded his head before turning back to the examiner and walked into the coroner's office.

only keegan had followed the examiner and jared into the office. odette and coby waiting outside since they didn't want to crowd the office or overwhelm jared. besides, keegan had offered on the ride there since he was jared and lennon's other point of contact after each other. keegan was best friends with lennon so to even think that they were possibly having to identify his best friend's wife's dead body haunted him and they hadn't even been shown the body yet. they hadn't even been escorted into the exam room yet. keegan had been in jared's trailer originally when the first phone call from lennon was given to jared and he was probably feeling that weird feeling again when it hit keegan. why else would they be called to the coroner's office and not the hospital if lennon died in a more natural way like a car collision or stroke? because they wouldn't. if it was a stroke or car collision, the call would have come from the hospital.

this now made keegan nervous and sick to his stomach as they were then brought into the exam room about to identify the body. the medical examiner and elliot...wait, if it wasn't elliot that jared and keegan needed to identify then who was it...

...no...it couldn't be...no, jared was asleep...he was just taking a quick nap before the show... it can't be her...but it was...because next to the medical examiner, standing at the head of the body was elliot, the partner of his wife, lennon.

keegan noticed the tears that elliot had been and was still crying due to the tear marks on his cheeks. it was clear that this was anyone but elliot's fault because he wasn't crying tears of guilt. he was crying tears of losing his best friend who just happened to be his work partner.

it was at this moment that keegan had to bring jared out of his haze. especially since it was clear that if they waited any moment longer, it wouldn't get any easier than it already was to have to identify jared's dead wife. all the examiner needed was a head nod from either jared or keegan for him to shed the sheet that covered lennon. but, it was jared's confirming head nod that the examiner knew for sure that it was time for them to identify the already known body of his wife, the dead texas ranger that had been found.

almost immediately, jared's entire body locked as he fell forward against the pulled out shelving unit that had his dead wife laying on.

once he realised that it wasn't elliot he needed to identify, tears immediately filled his eyes as he tried to memorise every single piece of his wife. it was his wife that he needed to identify for the coroners, not elliot. it didn't take keegan any longer than it took jared to realise who it was they needed to identify. just like jared did when he saw elliot, keegan immediately realised who they had been called in to identify.

without realising he was doing it, keegan started to move his body over to the far wall as he watched his best friend become a widower and single father within minutes. jared had become a widower and single father to aurelia, kai and ethan within ten minutes from the phone call to the drive from the set of their tv show walker to the coroner's office. ten minutes it had taken for jared to lose his whole entire world in the woman that was his wife and the mother to his three kids.

straight away, jared lost his composure. of course he did. how couldn't he? he wept, whimpered and wailed like never heard before as they echoed across the small office to the parking lot where odette and coby could hear it. hearing his wails gave coby and odette all the information they needed to know that it was indeed lennon that was being identified. jared then started to lean against the cold, metal shelving unit to keep himself steady so he wouldn't collapse to his knees.

he just couldn't seem to make sense of this entire situation his head. he couldn't understand as to who would do something like this to his wife, the woman who had just given birth a couple of months ago to their fraternal twins. even then, what did they do to his wife? the examiner didn't even mention it as it had been decided that it would be more efficient to have them identify who it was before revealing the cause of death.

"oh...oh my go...gosh!" jared wailed as he panicked, what had even happened to his wife?

what was she even doing? why didn't she ring him back the second time he had called? he had so many questions going through his mind but not enough clarity to sort through them all. he couldn't focus on anything but the fact that he wasn't going to allow himself to collapse to his knees on that floor.

"i...i got-gotta call my-my family! got to call...oh, aurelia...kai...ethan...our babies!" jared whimpered, sniffling as he found himself falling into hysteria at the fact he was now all on his own

this was the moment it truly, properly hit jared that he had lost the love of his life and that his three kids had lost their mother. and the thing that shattered jared's heart even more was the fact that they had no clue at all. the twins not even old enough to comprehend their mommy not being here anymore and aurelia just getting old enough to truly comprehend the possibility of her mom not being here anymore.

it tore keegan's heart into pieces to hear jared collapsing into hysteria and grief as keegan struggled as if it was himself. lennon had just given birth to kai and ethan and had only just returned back to work with the rangers after maternal leave.

"we...we got to get her out of here, okay?" jared panicked, not willing to accept the news that lennon was dead as keegan could only watch

keegan's own tears unwillingly streaming down his cheeks ever so quietly, jared's wails the only ones heard. his teats streaming quicker remembering that what jared was saying were the exact lines he says in the upcoming episode of walker.

"it's really cold in here for her and i just don't--"

"--doctor, *sniffles*, sir umm how...how did lennon die? what...what happened?" keegan blurts as a way to calm jared down knowing he wouldn't be able to ask himself

this being the moment that odette and coby knew they couldn't wait outside any longer. neither of them caring that they were potentially crowding the small viewing room. they just couldn't stand by any longer, they had to be inside of that viewing room and comforting their distraught best friend.

"now that it has been verified that the body is texas ranger lennon padalecki, i can now confirm that it was a gunshot wound to her abdominal-stomach area in the midsection that was her ultimate cause of death. the rangers are now building a formal investigation as to who lennon's killer was and whether or not there was an ulterior motive. or if, as we suspected originally, it was a wrong place right time situation and didn't realise until it was too late. an investigation into whether or not the texas rangers purposefully put mrs padalecki and elliot in a dangerous position that led to her untimely death is also being formed," the examiner spoke softly with a tilt of professionalism as keegan nodded his head

jared at this point was barely able to move let alone tilt his head in an up or down motion. his gutwrenching wails still being the only other thing heard as his legs slowly started to give way. he was starting to heavily rely on applying pressure to the shelving unit to keep himself upright.

it devastated keegan, odette and coby just as much as it devastated jared that they identified lennon's dead body. all their minds were filled with many questions as to what lennon was even doing that caused her to die from a gunshot wound and being so far away from elliot who was completely free from physical harm.

how on god's green earth did she get shot? was she doing something suspicious or that seemed suspicious to the person or people that shot her? was she aware that she was maybe accidentally walking through territory that wasn't her jurisdiction? or was she like the examiner mentioned, in the right place at the wrong time?

but then, a completely different thought went through all of their minds. did the rangers do this on purporse? purposefully send out one of their rangers who had just returned from maternity leave and just hope with the pure negligence that she'd come back home safely?

or was this situation like what lennon would show jared in a crime show when they first started dating and lennon tried to explain to jared what her job was...even though he didn't need it to be explained since he definitely had heard of chuck norris' original version of walker, texas ranger before he'd ever end up playing the said title character in a reboot many years later.

were the people who shot lennon worried that because she was a uniformed texas ranger but had her personal phone with her, not her professional work phone that she was going to rat them out to elliot and the other on-shift rangers? so many questions yet it seemed as though they were no possible answers to fill the void that jared no longer had his wife by his side anymore. his children, aurelia, kai and ethan no longer had their mom there to watch them grow up or be there for them when they needed her help when it was something dad couldn't fix.

this whole time of silence, jared hadn't stopped wailing. it was still loud and just as agonising as before. of course it was, it was a dagger to the hearts of the examiner and his castmates to hear the greivous wails. it seemed as if despite the amount of tears he was producing, he wasn't ever going to run out. it actually shocked everyone that he was still standing, though it was with the help of the shelving unit that was cold as ice with some of it covered with puddles of dried-up blood that he was leaning on. because, truthfully, they all thought that jared would have immediately collapsed to his knees. however, they quickly realised that jared still wanted to have some control over himself and his body if he couldn't control the wails that shook his entire body.

present time

a little under four months later and the families of lennon were having the righteous funeral for their texas ranger. the reason for the four-month long wait was due to the double investigations that had taken place to figure out who had done it and whether or not the texas rangers were responsible for the death of one of their rangers. finally though, with the long and tiring court process finished, thankfully in favour of the family, lennon's murderer getting the maximum penalty which was life without parole. going back to the investigation regarding the ranger's part of this homicide, they were put under a little bit of fire for their negligence for one of their rangers. but most especially for the fact that it wasn't just any regular ranger but one that had just returned from maternity leave.

however, that specific court case was ultimately acquitted because it turned out that the commanding officer that put lennon, elliot and the rest of that ranger task force on that case was genuinely told incorrect information. the information that they were just supposed to be giving out water to the other texas rangers, not actually informing them of the dangers of the case that the other task force was handling. it was someone else within the rangers, in a higher position in the ranks that was sentenced and found guilty of negligence, not lennon's captain.

but, once that was done and all the stress from that was over, that was when they could finally organize the funerals. and yes, there was two funerals. the first one was a state texas rangers funeral because of the fact that lennon was a ranger within the texas rangers and she was on active duty when she got killed. and the second one was the one that had just finished. the first one was planned by the texas rangers and the second one was planned by the two families, the padalecki's and the castellano's, the families of jared and lennon.

at both funerals, jared gave a eulogy for his wife and they were both heartbreaking and beautiful. mentioning that he had been in love with lennon since they were twelve. also mentioning that whilst he was terrified of being a single father to aurelia, kai and ethan, he was confident in knowing that he had the support from not only his and lennon's family, his walker family but also the family of lennon's rangers team. this was when mentioned in elliot's eulogy that was said straight after jared's at the state funeral and reiterated again at the private funeral that had just ended.

due to being an actor and currently starring in a show about being a texas ranger, this experience and heartache was then turned into the newly reworked scene of cordell going through the same thing that jared went through in real life. because of this, he went as far as to ask if he could refilm the opening scene of "rule number 17" which has the opening scene of cordell seeing his wife's dead body at the coroner's office. exactly how he had to see his real-life texas ranger wife, lennon. of course, everyone on set was hesitant but, they all knew to not argue with the executive producer which also happened to be jared himself.

so, whilst it was a heartbreaking scene to refilm for everyone om the set, it was a scene that didn't take too long and wasn't too hard to get into the headspace of to film in one clean take.

during the service, jared just wished he was somewhere completely different. course he did, why would he purposefully choose to be in a funeral home when he could be on set filming walker where his real-life and pretend tv life didn't merge into one. but, he couldn't do that. he couldn't run away. not from his kids after they had just experienced the loss of their mom. he knew he couldn't hide away from the truth of his wife's loss. he knew he couldn't run away from his kids to hide his cries so, he didn't. he sat up at the front of the church, aurelia sitting next to him with kai asleep in her arms and ethan asleep in his arms as he wept as he farewelled his wife and the mother to his kids.

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sitting in silence, the padalecki, castellano and families of the walker members just twiddled their thumbs trying to distract themselves in any other way that wasn't twiddling their thumbs. the silence was then broken by aurelia padalecki, jared and lennon's eldest daughter. the girl speaking up as she took notice of the way everyone made eye contact with her.

"...mom would totally be saying a joke right now because she hates awkward silences," she spoke bluntly, trying to keep her voice airy, everyone looking at the girl to continue

"umm, okay, yeah, joke sorry...what did the ghost say to the bee?" she almost smirked as she regained her composure, everyone shrugging their shoulders not knowing the punchline

"boo, bee," she struggled to keep her laughter in which made jared, her dad, who was still in tatters tearfully giggle

"what...what's brown and sticky?" violet, jared's tv daughter spoke up with a small giggle as immediatey, jared's real-life daughter aurelia rolled her eyes at her tv sister's dad joke

"a stick," the "sisters" said at the same exact time, violet giggling softly whilst aurelia was monotone, a joking roll of her eyes, her smile sad and small

"what kind of music do chiropracters like? hip pop" jared spoke up tearfully with a chuckle as the room filled with giggles

not all the giggles were identical. some were tearful, others wholehearted, a couple were nervously laughing but it didn't matter. all that mattered was there was still laughter filling up the room which was a good step in all of their grieving processes.

"that was awful, dad. mom would not have been impressed by that at all," aurelia whispered, glad that her dad was here with her and her brothers again

for context, the castellano's had been taking care of aurelia, kai and ethan during the four months during the double investigations and court proceedings.

speaking of the kids, aurelia noticed the way her dad's face changed. it was like a switch had been flicked and he was suddenly teary. it was clear that to aurelia, her dad had become overwhelmed with everything going on around him. especially with this being the second funeral for his wife and mother of his three kids, aurelia being one of them.

"dad, are you okay?" aurelia decided to ask, jared pulled out of his stupor and nodded his head

"uh...yeah, i'm-i'm fine! i just need some fresh air, alright baby?" jared stammered out as aurelia nodded her head

"yeah, sure daddy, that's fine," aurelia's tone of voice was filled with worry, there was clearly something wrong with her dad but she didn't know what

as jared stumbled out of the gathering room everyone was in, it felt as though he could finally get a breath of air into his lungs. for a while, it felt serene for jared in the fields of the funeral home. until jared felt a breeze passing against his cheek and what sounded like little bells in his ears.

turning around, he heard what he thought was a female voice, " you can't walk out on them like that..." and it was a female voice but it just wasn't any female voice

it was lennon's voice. and jared thought he was going crazy and he probably was as he furiously looked behind him just in case he had been followed. when he saw no one was behind him, he spoke up.

"...i...i don't want them seeing me like this," jared sniffled as lennon's ghost softened from her stern facial features from before

"well they're in pain too, and the only way through it is with them," lennon begged as jared wept, turning his head to the side

"this wasn't part of the plan, you...you weren't supposed to die," jared's voice shook from his cries

"it happened and the only thing that matters now is helping our kids. i need you to promise me that you're gonna be there for them," lennon's voice was exasperated as jared still found it difficult to keep eye contact with the ghost of his wife

"i don't know how. lennon, i don't know what to do," jared sniffled, if anything, he didn't know how to take care of the twins, he was perfectly capable of taking care of aurelia and lennon knew that

"do your best," lennon spoke for one last time before fading away

but, because jared looked away, he didn't see her disappear until he looked back over at the spot where her ghost was. it threw him off slightly at what he just saw and heard. now this was really creepy because this is the exact same thing that happens in "rule number 17" in walker. the fact the ghost of his wife had returned, telling him off for running out on his family but then soothing him and comforting him was a solace for jared.

by the time jared had started his journey back into the funeral home, he could hear footsteps. it was clear that just like him, this moment was very overwhelming someone else. it wasn't until he noticed the striking brown hair that he realised it was his daughter, aurelia. it was clear that her brothers were being taken care of, either by one of the walker guys or one of the castellano's which gave her the opportunity to run away outside.

as she ran outside, it was then that aurelia felt as though she could finally let go and just cry. her cries were almost as loud as her dad's were when he had to identify lennon's body at the examiner's office. wrapping her arms around herself as a form of self-protection, she had no idea that jared had found her. and it was due to her own cries sounding in her ears that she hadn't realised her dad had come to look for her let alone find her, though accidentally. she thought she was slicker than a buttered otter since her dad was already outside and it seemed as though everyone else was preoccupied with the twins. however, apparently, aurelia cannot be secretive and slick around her dad as much as she likes to think she is.

aurelia was about to turn around from her little breakdown to go back inside, only to look up and match the tearful eyes of her dad.

no words were even needed to let jared know that his daughter really wasn't as okay as she had made everyone believe she was. it was clear to jared at this point that in aurelia's world, it felt as though everything was crashing around and on top of her all at once and today was her breaking point. she couldn't keep it in any longer but she didn't want to be in the presence of her family. just like her dad, but especially didn't want to have her breakdown in front of her dad because of how painful it would be for him to witness it. so, in aurelia's mind, the only smart option to her was to cry alone where no one could see or hear her.

"aurelia?" jared only whispered before his daughter broke again, falling into her dad's frame as he immediately pulled his daughter into his arms

"i...i can't...it...it hurts so much dad...why did mom die?" aurelia panicked, the same way which jared himself panicked that day four months ago in the examiner's office whilst aurelia and the twins were non the wiser

"i know it hurts ellie. it hurts like hell and truthfully it'll feel like that for a while, that was your mom, i'm never going to lie to you. and, she...she died because it was a situation of right place at the wrong time. she had veered away from uncle elliot and she got caught in the crossfire of a drug deal gone wrong. the drug dealers at the field where elliot found her mom had noticed she was walking towards them. your mom, obviously oblivious to what was going on in front of her because she thought she'd be meeting up with the other group of rangers, when they saw her uniform and the phone in her hand, they thought she was going to rat them out to her fellow rangers and possibly me. not like i'd be able to do anything but, they thought that because of the phone in her hand, that they'd get caught. and, because of that, they thought the best way to stop that possible scenario from happening was to essentially eliminate her so, that...that's what they did," jared's voice shook towards the end, that had been the first time in months that he had explained to his daughter how her mom had died

"why are we so unlucky?" aurelia whimpered as she hugged her dad tight and he scoffed, sniffing as a tear of his hit aurelia's cheek

"i'm not so sure love but, i think this is where our luck turns around," jared muttered, only hoping that he didn't just straight up lie to himself or his daughter

"how are you so sure?" aurelia whimpered again as she took a deep breath in, jared doing the same before making eye contact with his daughter

"because darling, the shooter, whilst showing utter remorse and guilt for the murder of your mommy, is in jail for as long as he shall live as is the person high up in the rangers for even instructing mommy's captain to give her and elliot that task. even though we did forgive them both, they are both still responsible and still took away the life of an innocent texas ranger who was just doing what she was simply told to do. but, ellie, just know that i'm not going anywhere and i'm always going to protect you and the twins. even if i end up say, falling in love with someone else, you and the twins will always be an important piece of me as will mom's family and they will always be loved by me and i'll always call them my family, you understand ellie?" jared was stern with his daughter in the knowledge that even though he may fall in love with another girl after the loss of his first wife, that the family of his first wife will never be forgotten as his first

and that was something that aurelia was pleased to hear as well as something that the rest of the castellano family would appreciate. because no matter what, jared will always be their brother and son-in-law and the aunty's, uncle's and grandparents to his kids. and that was because they needed it right now during this time of grieving, it was needed more than ever.

"i understand daddy. i'm glad that mommy's family will still stay ours no matter what happens even without mom with us," aurelia whispered as jared clenched his jaw as he held his daughter tightly

then the father and daughter both broke down into tears as they stood in the wooded area for what felt like an eternity. when in reality, it was almost an hour before kale and violet, alongside kai and ethan, had come out to look for their "sister" and "dad". only to find the two of them still crying their eyes out as the six of them embraced. kale giving jared kai whilst violet held onto ethan. the second they got into the group hug, it seemed as though the tears didn't stop as jared held his twin boys tight after violet carefully gave him ethan.

the four remaining padalecki's cried over their mom and wife, kale and violet over their "tv mom" and over the fact that they'd never see her smile, hear her laugh, hear her sing in the kitchen or play with their dogs arlo, koda and bridger. they cried over the fact that dad jared was a lot more vulnerable without mom than when she was alive. and they cried over the fact that kai and ethan would have to grow up without their mom and have little to no memories of her and only very few photos of the five of them as a family. whilst aurelia had also lost her mom too, it was obvious to her and everyone else that most of those tears were for the twins since aurelia had sixteen years whereas the twins only had months. this meant that when jared cries over lennon, the twins won't be able to understand why since they're still babies and won't really be able to comfort their dad or understand why they are. they also cried over the fact that the only things they have left of their mom and wife are the videos and photos of memories that were gonna spare a lifetime but were still not enough in the means of never getting new videos and photos of her with her children and husband.

"dad?" aurelia speaks up, her voice raw and scratchy from her crying

"yeah, ellie?" jared speaks up as well, his voice also hoarse from the tears, his arms tight around his little kai

"are you okay to go back to work, to walker?" aurelia's soft words brought comfort to jared that had never happened before as he found himself slightly smiling at his daughter's question

"yeah, i am darlin'. it's been four months, your walker family need me back for filming and things. if you wish and want to, i'm sure it wouldn't be a problem if i could bring you and the boys with me if that's what worries you," jared smiled softly as his daughter smiles and the faces of his tv children, kale and violet light up as if all their previous grief slipped away

ethan getting handed over to jared so he could cuddle both of his boys at the same time was soothing jared as well as it was soothing kai and ethan. because aurelia was so caught up in getting hugged by her dad and brothers, violet spoke up.

"that sounds perfect, jared. you were already an amazing father to aurelia and the twins but you'll be an even better father to them with the assistance of us, the walker family," violet smiled as did kale, nodding their heads in agreement as jared smiled back

"thank you violet and kale, that means a lot," jared smiled, trying to escape aurelia's grasp so he could hug violet and kale as he hugged the twins close, taking a deep breath

during this entire conversation, the family had been walking back to the funeral home that they had left hours earlier. sitting down on the steps as they faced each other again and smiled at one another.

"you guys ready to face everyone again, you as well aurelia?" jared questions his children, real life and tv as they stay close to one another

violet holding the hand that aurelia wasn't holding of her dad's as she and kale smile down to the ground. they knew there was going to be a lot more tears but that they were hopefully going to be less intrusive.

"i mean, the world continues to turn, right?" aurelia chimes in as jared smiles at his daughter and nods his head

the father and daughter made eye contact with violet and kale before taking a quick glance at the now-sleeping twins before they decided to head back inside.

"you are correct ellie, the world does continue to turn," jared smiled making his daughter laugh as they walked back inside with kale

violet however, stalked back but not too far behind as coby, another one of the walker family stood waiting for them.

"you alright darling?" coby whispered as he held his fellow costar violet tight as she smiled, nodding her head into her costars chest, kale getting a hug from molly

"uh-huh, more than alright coby," she whispered back as coby smiled, closing his eyes tightly

"that's good darlin', but, maybe give jared another hug? he's not as strong as he thinks he is. he's struggling without lennon's help with aurelia and the twins. he's scared, vi. he needs to know the castellano's will still be there even if he does end up with someone else," coby whispered as violet nodded her head and walked back over to her tv dad

catching him off-gaurd since aurelia had since left to hang out with uncle keegan and kale, he was thankful he was now only holding one twin, kai. jared's tears seemed to begin again when violet pulled him in for another hug. this broke violet's heart all over again as jared closed his eyes. only wishing for this whole scenario to just be a really bad dream and that he'd be walking back onto the walker set and his wife was still alive.

"you sure you're okay, jared?" violet whispered softly, asking her tv dad again who cried softly, hugging his son kai closer, the other grip on violet

"in time," jared sniffled quietly, letting violet understand that he was admitting he was terrified as violet nodded her head in agreement

"in time," violet repeated because it was true

- - -

so, i did say this was gonna be depressing so, i do like how this turned out like, still, that opening scene for that episode of walker, hurts like a fucking bitch like, why would you do that to us jared? why would you start an episode of walker like that?! especially when it's your real-life wife as your tv wife like dood! please pay for my therapy thank you, it's only fair (also, just in case no one took the hint, that last sentence was pure sarcasm as i actually do go to therapy and it is not paid by jared padalecki but by australian healthcare and my mum!)

ily xx

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#walker cast #angst #jared padalecki #keegan allen #odette annable #molly hagan #coby bell #jeff piere #violet brinson #kale culley #mitch pileggi #sorry this isn't spn related

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Thoughts #17 Girl Best Friend

I have been MIA here lately [not like anyone's checking]. However, a lot has happened in the past few months... years, rather. Damn, it's really been about two years since my last rant.

~~Well, here I am again. You know I'm only here when I'm not okay or if my life is at its lowest of lows. And I am currently at it again. I thought I was finally getting better. But no, life is fucking me again in the ass and asking if I like it. Geez, when am I really gonna be genuinely happy?

So let me start this off by saying, I finally found a man who has been treating me really well, beyond well but really great. I can't find the words to describe how amazing he has been to me. We were bestfriends since 2013, and who would've thought we'd end up together after 10 years. But unfortunately (yeah there's something in this for me to be here).... he has a girl bestfriend.

A girl (who is married at a young age), that he has been bestfriends with, long before we were even became close 10 years ago. They were so close that she has been part of his family while he was single for the past five years. She calls his mom "mama", knows what's going on in his family, she helps him with his vices like buying cigarettes and alcohol for him, knew his embarrassing moments, has been introducing him to girls she thought he'd like (I'm not one of those because he's the one who rekindled our friendship without her having any idea), sleeps in his room, he gave her a fuck buddy while her relationship with her husband was on the rocks, he became her daughter's second dad; basically if I didn't know them I'd think they were actually husband and wife.

My boyfriend works abroad, he went home last year and that's when we became official after nine months or LDR. I was head over heels, damn fucking happy, I was on cloud 9. But soon cut short when I noticed how she was around me when we met again with him. We used to be friends back in 2013 but not really that close cuz we're only friends when I'm with him.

It all started when she went to my bf's bar, crying because she said she and her husband are officially over. We comforted her, bought her cigarettes and just listened, I wanted nothing more than to go home and just sleep because I was tired from work but I really felt sorry for her. Her first red flag was when she asked me after crying why I knew he was going home first, before her, who is HIS BESTFRIEND. I laughed dryly thinking she was just kidding but when I looked at her, it felt like backhanded comment.

Second encounter; they both picked me up from work. She was at his place first and was planning on drinking because she was heartbroken. When I met up with them in his car, she congratulated us, and I can feel she was genuinely happy seeing us; however, what took me by surprise was her telling me not to get jealous of them cuz apparently my boyfriend is overly clingy to her. Like seriously? Do you really need to tell me that? I just fake laughed and made an "okay" response. At this point my boyfriend changed the topic and I was quiet the whole ride back to his place. I thought that was the only thing she'd say but no... bare with me, this is gonna be long and full of her toxicity.

When we got back at his place, I have no fucking idea what's going on. Although my boyfriend told me that they'd be drinking, but I didn't know who "they" were at that time. So when we got there, we waited for their two other friends to show up. As we were waiting, they were talking, me in the middle of them. She was opening topics that I have no fucking idea what it was. She was talking about his family issues, like really, infront of me. What threw me off was when she said "what is she even doing here?" referring to my bf's sister in law. We were at his parent's house. She then realized what she said, and asked him if I knew, in which addressed me like I wasn't even there. My bf got angry obviously but just let it go, but I was really uncomfortable during that time.

A few min, the people they were expecting arrived so my bf brought out an alcohol he had for them to drink. They asked me if I'd drink, though I would. I was overwhelmed, I knew I'd get drunk quickly if I would but my ego was pushing me to just go with it and took a shot of what they're having. I stopped and asked to go home when I felt I was such an outsider in their circle. Excluding me in their conversations and basically talking like I wasn't even there. My bf was constantly asking me if I was okay, in which I kept saying yeah. But now, I was not. I can't even stand to be there anymore.

He drove me home, and told me what his girl bestfriend meant earlier, I was just quiet. He knew something was wrong. I was not feeling it the whole night as he continued to send me messages updating what was going on. Apparently, she got drunk. Insisted to drive home, so he convoyed her to make sure she gets home. His family insisted for her to sleep at their house, I don't see anything wrong with it. What is wrong was her drinking beyond her capacity and making a scene. After finding that out, I realized I can't make myself like her. I will never like her being involved in our relationship cuz for sure she's gonna do it again, and he's gonna be there to be with her. I was not wrong.

Third encounter; me and my bf were quietly celebrating our first month together. It was so simple yet perfect just what I like, it was just me and him watching a movie and I was about to fall asleep when she kept on chatting him to bring some of the vape he is selling to her. My house is a few miles away from where she is. My bf insisted she pick it up at his vape shop but no. She just have to ruin the day. So we went out and drove to her. I didn't leave the car, I let him go to her. While I was at the car, I was overthinking and was about to snap but I kept my cool. I promised myself I will never allow her to do that to him and us again.

I told him what I felt a few days after. we talked it out, he realized what he did and that their friendship should have limits now cuz he's taken now. But his girl bestfriend doesn't seem to understand this because she would still have attempted multiple times to ask him for a few favors, like driver her to places, bring her for something. My boyfriend shuts her off with a few excuses and she would stop.

However, he did admit to me how he used to like her and stopped because he realized she's not the type of woman he really wants to be with based on her life decisions and how she treats men. But what hurts me the most is finding out how he confessed to her that if he didn't pursue me, he'd go for her and shoot his shot in which she didn't dismiss.

I'll cut this short because this is now a resolved issue between me and my boyfriend. I cut her off, unfriended and unfollowed her in all social media platforms. He is still friends with her on facebook but is not holding conversations with her anymore, unless it's for business purposes. But I sometimes wish she'd finally disappear from our lives.

#thoughts

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wonderwomanfantasy · 4 years

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Tendou NSFW alphabet

No one Requested this but I wrote it anyway

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

He lightens the mood the the best of his abilities. He can be pretty mean durring sex so he makes sure you laugh a little and know that he really does love you. also lots of cuddles.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

He likes his hair!! He likes how it stands out both because its color and becuase of how he spikes it up. Mostly he likes his hair because you like his hair. you’re always playing with it and scratching his scalp, it melts him.

On you he likes your hands. they are wayyyy smaller than his and just so cute!! he will be holding your hand 25/8

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

loves loves loves to watch his cum drip off of you. His cum is a little wattery so it runs and drips every damn where. he loves to bust over your chest and watch you try and to catch it all as to not make a mess but its too late his cum is all over the place and you should probably wash the sheets.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self-explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

He loves to make you drool. kinda gross but here me out. its because it’s gross that Tendou is into it. He will put his fingers in your mouth just to feel you drool down the side of his hand or make you choke on his cock just to see your spit dribble down your chin. gets him rock hard everytime.

You get your wisdom teeth pulled and you end up drooling a little in recovery and Tendou is trying so hard to be a good boyfriend and take care of you but he’s turned on as fuck.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Not very. in fact he’s probably a virgin when the two of you meet. Most people are scared of him, or just think he’s weird so unless it’s like a one night stand he’s probably never done the deed before.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

something like this where he’s stratling one leg then has the other pressed to his chest. He likes seeing your face when you have sex so he can stick fingers in your mouth and he also likes that this position hleps him hit all the sensitive spots inside of you.

that being said Tendou is into some weird shit so if you are flexable he’s going to put your ass in some straight up bonkers poses while you two fuck

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

oh you KNOW he’s cracking jokes the whole time wich is kind of jarring because he is also belittling you all the time so he might give you whiplash

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

Got into manscaping as a joke and is very poud that he has the prettiest pubes on the team also yes the whole team has seen his pubes because Tendou.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

Not very romantic tbh like I said he’s into degrading the fuck out of you and he’s got truble expressing how much he loves you at the best of times so don’t expect him to scatter roses for you or something </3

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

all the time babie. he’s horny all day everyday and also jerking off just helps him relieve stress so he’ll do it even if he isn’t in the mood. Not ashamed if you catch him either if anything he enjoys you watching. very into mutual masturbation as well.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

BDSM- Tendou is a sadist. that's it that’s the post. Tendou lives to see you crying or in pain that he caused. it’s just so much fun spaking you then belittling you and humilating you for getting off on it of course this is made all the better becuase you like it just as much as him.

He also loves making a reall mess of you, your hair will be tangled, any makeup you were wearing smudged and your whole body trembling as it’s covered in unnameable fluids. in Tendou’s eyes you’ve never looked better.

letex- Is this a kink? I think so. Tendou loves seeing you in tight-fitting black letex. he loves watching you jiggle in the tight fitting outfit and how your plump skin fills the costume perfectly, and if you were to dom him you better do it in a letex dominetrix suit

food play- please imagine chocolatier Tendou pouring melted choclate all over your body so he can lick it up. Like I said he loves to make a mess of you. whipped cream, carmel, strawberries, icecream, Tendou would use you as a buffet table tbh

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

in theory he likes doing it outside, thinks its romantic to blow your back out under the open night sky, but tbh it’s hard to have kinky sex outside so he usally holds off on sex to the bedroom.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

when you use your “baby voice” like your voice pitches up and you hit him with the pout and the puppy dog eyes and he is putty in your hands. one time you found a stray kitty and started cooing over it as the poor thing. Needless to say, tendou had never been so jelous of a cat before. God forbid you baby Goshiki that way

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

not into roleplay He thinks it’s just cringey to pretend to be someone you’re not and it just takes him out of the experience. He also isn’t really big on sharing. He may threaten to let the whole world see you at your sluttiest if he’s humiliating you, but he’s bluffing that is a sight for his eyes only.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

tbh? not into oral that much. Not that he would ever turn down a blow job mind you, bt he would rather fuck you properly or just jerk himself off.

that being said he still goes down on you fairly offten. He’s a big tease and loves to torture you with his tounge edging you over and over again. or tease you for humping his face like a desprate little slut. He also likes it when you sit on his face, it just feels intemet you know? it’s also a good way to show his control over you. Even though techincally you are setting the pace as you ride him, you still do what he asks cus your obedient

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

it depends. if he’s still in teasing mode, he’ll be painfully slow, until you beg him to speed up, wich he will of course almost brakeing the bed in the process and if you tell him to slow down he’ll go back to slow and teasing.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

He doesn’t like to have a full quicky but he will absolutely pull you aside to get you worked up before leaving you high and dry. before pouncing on you when you have a little more privacy.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

He’s down for pretty much anything he’s pretty chill when you bring something up you want to try and always makes sure to bring up anything he wants to do in advance to make sure you’re comfortable and onboard.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

in the beginning he has no stamina homeboy busts in like a minute flat lucky for you he is willing to train and he can go for rounds on end imma say this for every one of these boys stg but his stamina is through the roof never going to stop having sex just because he’s tired. and if he is feeling low energy it manifests with less kinks rather than less sex.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

HA. yeah <3. Ushi found his box of sex toys once and hasn’t recovered since. Ball gags, nipple clamps, and handcuffs are some of Tendou’s personal favorites.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Do I even have to say it? is it even really sex with Tendou if he doesn’t make you beg?

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

He’s not loud but he talks a lot. He looms over your body and mummers into your ear all the dirty things hes going to do to you, or wants to do. he’s also highkey going to mock you if you’re too loud

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

When he gets drunk he gets very sweet and clingy he also gets very touchy and drunk Tendou is one of the only times you’ll have sweet sex with him.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

his cock is very long with a redish purplish tip. He has a small case of pencil dick cus it’s not very gurthy rip Tendou

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Very high he wants you every day basically whenever you’re horny it’s safe to assume Tendou is also in the mood.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

like I said he dones’t get sleepy after sex really, but he does like to cuddle and he likes to watch you sleep while you’re curled up in his arms. 100% kisses your head while you sleep.

#tendou #tendou satori #tendou x reader #imagine tendou satori #tendou x reader smut #haikyuu smut #haikyuu!! x reader

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wiypt-writes · 3 years

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Does kids know about peter's identity? And I'm loving these drabbles so much❤ SSF is my fav fam fic here!!

Aww thank you so much...and here, have a little drabble from a little earlier in the timeline...with a much younger Jamie/Emmy...

*****

“Daaaaaad!” Jamie yelled, “Come on, throw the ball.”

“He’s just scared Pete can throw it further than him.” Emmy quipped back, winking at Katie who had just choked on a mouthful of soda. She glanced over to where Pete and Jamie were both stood at the other side of the garden, waiting for Steve to throw the football.

“No I’m not.” Steve sighed, shaking his head, tossing the ball lightly in the air and catching it again.

“You know, Soldier you’re older now…” Katie shrugged, bouncing Rori on her knee “You said the effects of the serum would start depleting as time went by.

Steve glared at her “What you think I’m losing my touch, Sweetheart?” he asked sarcastically.

“No, that’s not what I said.” she replied innocently “Merely that you might not be at the pinnacle of human evolution anymore…or the strongest person I know…”

The nerve in Steve’s jaw twitched as he looked at his wife, and then to Peter and back again.

“I mean, he did steal your shield off you once, dad…” Emmy teased “He told me.”

“Did he now?” Steve turned to look at Peter.

“Ahh Steve…Mr Rogers…that’s not actually what I said…” Pete said loudly, holding his hand up.

“Who cares!” Jamie shouted “Daddy just throw the ball!”

“Fine…” Steve pulled his arm back, and then a wicked grin spread across his face. “QUEENS!” he yelled, “Heads up…”

Peter grinned, recognising the phrase and watched as Steve sent the ball flying towards him.

Now, at first Katie thought Steve had just overshot Pete by accident, proving to everyone he could throw the ball as far as he wanted to…but it was only when Parker began running backwards that she realised what Steve had done. Pete was backing up, straight through the open fence around the pool area. And he was still going backwards, meaning at any moment now he would run out of ground and end up falling into the pool.

As both her and Emmy shouted a warning, Pete slammed on and caught the ball to his chest, but the force of Steve’s throw meant the momentum pushed him backwards. He teetered on the lip around the pool, arms flailing before there was whoosh, accompanied by a thwack and quick as a flash Parker had shot his webbing out of his wrist and catapulted himself into the large oak tree in the garden. There was a rustle of leaves before he dropped gracefully to the lawn, ball clutched to his chest.

Steve’s mouth dropped open as Katie and Emmy looked at one another from where they were sat as Jamie blinked.

“Wait…why does…is…is PETEY SPIDERMAN?!” he whipped around to look at Katie, then Steve who gave Pete an apologetic look.

“Sorry kid…” he scratched at his neck. Pete’s identity wasn’t exactly a secret anymore, but they hadn’t told Jamie, preferring to keep him as away from all of the superhero stuff as possible.

“No worry Mr Rogers…” Pete shrugged.

“EXCUSE ME!” Jamie bellowed “Will someone tell me…”

“James, stop shouting!” Katie said sternly. She looked at Pete who crouched down to show Jamie his web slingers on his wrists.

“I am yeah buddy.”

“Why did no one tell me?” Jamie demanded indignantly “That thing with the ball and the tree just then…that was the COOLEST THING I HAVE EVER SEEN!”

“What cooler than my shield?” Steve scoffed and Jamie turned to look at him.

“Dur.” he said, before he switched his attention to Peter once more.

Steve turned to his wife and eldest, who both started to laugh at the look on his face as he swept Rori up into his arms, giving her cheek a kiss.

“Well that backfired.” Katie deadpanned.

#wiypt answers #stark spangled

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the-fiction-witch · 3 years

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Control P7

TV SHOW: THE QUEENS GAMBIT COUPLE: BENNY WATTS X READER RATING: SWEET + SCARY AF!

I sat at the table finishing up the paperwork, "All done?" she asks as she brought me a cup of coffee

"All done, did you want to go and send it?"

"maybe tomorrow Benny, I don't wanna go out today" she says sitting across from me,

"Okay well send it off tomorrow." I smiled

"and buy an extra lock for the door"

"why?"

"You know... just incase"

"Mikey is not going to come all the way here just because he's mad at you y/n. I'm sure he'll get the news drink himself to sleep you have nothing to worry about" I reasured her holding her hand

"and if he doesn't"

"Then I promise, I'll protect you."

"you can't protect me from everything benny."

"Yes I can. I won't let anything bad happen to you"

"Thank you benny" she smiled

"You're welcome. and as soon as its all clear I promise we can go out and find you a nice pretty ring" I told her

"I'd like that" she smiled getting up and cuddling me so I happily hugged her close to pulling her to sit on my lap so I could hold /her as close as possible "I love you" she smiled into my neck

"I love you too y/n." I told her giving her nose a kiss "Now that's all done, you wanna play chess before bed?"

"No thank you benny, I think I'd like a nice big bubble bath"

"Ohh? would... mind if I joined you little lady?"

"What in my bubble bath?"

"Yeah"

"I'm not sure the bath is big enough for us both benny"

"I'm small" I shrug

"Yes and I'm not"

"Y/n. will you get this propitious notion out of your head. you are not fat. you are not large your a size Y/C/S for goodness sake"

"So, that's still bad" "It's not bad, it's lovely. I like you just the way you are, your lovely and comfy" I smiled laying my head on her chest "and squishy" I smiled pulling her closer to me "and... how could I forget about these" I smirked grabbing my breasts

"Benny!" she argues giggling the whole time "You wouldn't want me to be skinner?"

"Not unless you really wanted to be" I shrug "would you rather I was.. more muscular? with Budging muscles and a six pack?"

"No, I like you how you are Benny" she smiled giving me a kiss

"Good, I like you how you are too" I told her "However I do need to get more in shape"

"why?"

"Because somebody, keeps feeding me delicious cakes and things." I told her "I have a tummy now" I complain moving her hand to the little bit of a stomach I now had due to eating so many sugary things that she keeps baking me

"I'm sorry benny" she giggled

"It's fine there all lovely, and very delicious the issue is you make me a plate of cookies or a cake every day, and there is only two of us little lady. You make a big delicious plate of your triple chocolate cookies and you put them in front of me there's nothing to stop eating them, That and I have to get in shape and stuff for the tournaments"

"Ummm, you are the most attractive chess player in the world" she giggled

"Second, only to you little lady" I smirked giving her a kiss "Maybe I don't have to anymore, not like I need to impress anyone. When I'm marrying the most beautiful girl in the world" "Awww Benny" she giggled "i know how you could work out" she giggled

"Ohh? how is that?" I asked her she got up and pulled me up with her

"I'll be your weight" she giggled

"will you now?" I laughed "alright, but you can't complain where my hands go then. I like to... have a firm grip on my weights" I smirked slightly ticking her

"Benny!" she giggled pushing my hands off her "Alright, but you drop me. I am never, Ever, letting you have sex with me again" she warns

"Alright y/n" I smiled "Ready?"

"Yep" she giggled

"One. two. three" I smirked picking her up holding her like a bride "Fuck you are heavy"

"Hey!"

"What you are! fuck your heavier then my chair" I complained slightly regretting this decision

"Benny..." she whines "That's not very nice" she says looking like she was going to cry

"No no no don't cry little lady, I didn't mean it, I'm just a weakling" I told her making her smile a little I did a few lifts of her but she was way heavier then what I was use to lifting so I carefully put her down on the chair

"Good work out benny?" she giggled

"Yeah, My arms feel like they might drop off, and I got to feel so boob so. Good day"

"I know something that's very good exercise?" she giggled

"Ohh do you now? and what would that be?" I asked her

"I think a smart boy like you already knows the answer to that benny" she smirked grabbing my belt and pulling me down onto the chair with her...

I wondered around the supermarket basket in hand and the list in my other hand, y/n wanted to stay home today said she was going to work on roast dinner for this evening, and I was excited. But I had shopping to do today, I was meant to send her paperwork off today but I left it at home by accident, I'm sure I'll do it tomorrow. I think to some extend y/n just wanted me out of the apartment I don't blame her if she did, I don't know why but I've just been really horny today. Not sure why just one of those days I guess, I could barely keep my hands off her in bed, barely stopped kissing her as she was making breakfast, and I could barely stop myself when she had a bath this morning. I think she knew and that's why she gave me an intricate list and kicked me out the apartment, and after her bath she put that little white dress on, the clingy one with the cut out back... Umm she knows what that dress does to me. The moment I saw her in that dress I grabbed hold of her and all but humped her sexy ass as she cooked until she kicked me out to go shopping.

Once I had got everything on the list or as much as I could find anyway, seriously? what is a scotch egg and where do I find it! God damn brit. Ehh I love her, just means I have to live life unsure what half my food is. as soon as I payed I took the brown paper bags and hurried down the street to the apartment, pushing open the unlocked door and setting the shopping on the kitchen side Instantly I spotted y/n still in that little white dress now with her cardigan over her I smirked and grabbed her giving her a playful tickle kissing up her delicate neck slightly grinding against her

"Benny- Benny please you don't understand" she says pushing me away but, I was worried that wasn't her playful giggly pushing like she didn't want to be tickled or even that she didn't want my kisses, she was upset, she was stressed, something was wrong.

"Y/n? Are you okay little lady?" I asked and she froze as our bedroom door creaked open...

"Hello watts." He smirked leaning his tall muscular body in his white vest, and completely open blue button down, his rough black jeans and working boots

"Hello Mikey." I said my blood running cold, "Y/n what's going on?" I asked her

"Y/n. Go get me a pack of cigs" He told her handing her a few dollars

"Mikey I-"

"Go, I'm dying for a smoke" He told her slapping her arse

"Go y/n, I'll deal with this" I whispered to her and she nodded taking her bag and heading to the door

"Mikey what are you doing here?"

"Just checking up on things. You've had my wife here a while." He says "Training her? I'm thankful for getting that fucking chess board out of my house but... You can't blame me getting a little worried about my wifey sleeping on your air bed" He smirked

"Mikey-" Y/n began at the door

"Y/n!" He yelled at her "Men are talking." He says

she nodded and left shutting the door behind her

"I told you what I'd do if I ever saw you near her again"

"You did. Go on then Watts. Hit me" He smirked digging though the shopping bags in the kitchen "Hit me you little weasel" He smirked as he found a beer

"You will not hurt her" "she's my wife, I can do whatever I want to her"

"Not anymore you fucking can't"

"why not!"

It then hit me, he hasn't seen the paperwork. He doesn't know. He doesn't know y/ns divorcing him, he doesn't know anything me and her have done as far as he's concerned she's been sleeping on my airbed training with me for the championship

"Not In my house" I told him I didn't want to tell him, I knew if I did. y/n wouldn't be safe. she wouldn't be safe with him here either but, at least I'm here to protect her.

"Whatever" He laughs "I think, I'll stay a while, until the championship. Me and y/n will take the bed. you can have the air bed" He says punching my shoulder as he went past going to the leather chair sitting there with his beer, I tried not to smirk thinking about last night, the last thing y/n and me did on that chair. "I was a little worried when I got here, she didn't know I was coming ans she had dressed up so beautiful for me. But I guess she just knew I was coming having been married so long you know these things" He says

"Yeah"

"she got comfortable I notice, her stuffs pretty laid out, the bed's not even out?"

"we pack it away durring the day, more space you know"

"Yeah I get that, nice of you to let her stay here, and hang all her clothes in your wardrobe and her soap in your shower"

"Just wanted her to be comfortable you know"

"Yeah, Yeah. I get it." He smirked "Ohh and benny?"

"Yeah?"

"If I find out you have laid a finger on my wife. make sure you give her a kiss goodbye Because I'll make sure you never see her again." he warned

"Are you threatening me Mikey?" I warned him

"No. simply saying that if someone had touched my wife. I'd make sure they never saw the light of day again. we clear benny?"

"Yeah, were clear Mikey"

I stood trying to clean up the beer cans around the leather chair where Mikey sat listening to a game of something on the radio. Y/n in the kitchen making the various foods he asked her for.

"I need to piss. Then we need more beer in" He says getting up and going to the bathroom, the moment the door shut I carefully wrapped my arms around y/n pulling her to my chest

"shhhh shh shh it's okay, he won't hurt you. I promise" I whispered

"what is he doing here?"

"he's suspicious, Y/n the paperwork's on the table. say the word and I'll give it to him."

"No, it's not safe, we have to wait"

"If your sure" I nodded "He didn't hurt you before I got home did he?" she only nodded pulling back her hair to show a cut on her head she hand put a band aid over he had clearly slapped her it broke my heart I gently kissed it better and held her hand "I promise he won't lay another finger on you, not if I can help it"

"I know, its okay benny, just have to wait a little while until he's less angry" she says

" anything happens you call for me okay?"

"I will" she nods holding me close I could feel in her grip she was scared, more so then I had ever known her to be, I wanted to kick him out, I wanted to beat the living day lights out of him for what he has done to her, But my priority above all else was making sure she's safe. I couldn't bare for her to get hurt, much less because of me.

"what are you two talking about?" Mikey asked as the door opened and I put space between us

"Just about dinner" I said quickly

"Yeah, I am waiting for my dinner wifey" He smirked slapping her ass as he walked past "Hurry up with it Fat ass I wanna get to bed I'm jet lagged as fuck."

"Just a little longer Mikey" she says

"Alright, come on then keep me company" He smirked to her she looked upset, disgusted but she went over anyway and let him sit her on his lap, I sat at my table watching him like a hawk his hand often wondered around her dress but she would always put his hand back to her waist each time he looked more annoyed with her for stopping him my blood boiled every time I saw him touch her like I wanted to go over pull her into my arms and kick his ass.

"Mikey no" she told him as he slipped his hand under her dress

"Oi! I've had a long day and I want a little sugar" He smirked trying to pull her closer

"I said no" she says before I could blink he threw her to the floor hard kicking her stomach hard as he got up

"I wasn't asking!"

I bolted from my seat and stood between them y/n got to her feet so I pushed her behind me "Leave her alone"

"Get out the way watts"

"No"

"This doesn't concern you"

"I'm not letting you hurt her"

"Watts. Don't interfere. this has nothing to do with you. Not take your skinny little weasel ass and fuck off back to your sissy chess board. While I deal with my Wifey"

"No." I told him "I'm not letting you hurt her."

"Get out of my way Watts"

"Never"

"Fine" he smirked "Much more fun" He grabbed y/n by her hair and dragged her to the corner he took of his belt and used it to restrain her neck like a dog around her and then tied around the pipes along the wall of my apartment the more she struggled the tighter it would get I tried to stop him but it was too late "There, now wifey's out the way, just you and me." He smirked "Go on I'll be sporting I'll let you throw the first punch" He smirked I built up all my anger, my rage at him for everything he had ever done to hurt y/n I swung my first but he grabbed my fist and crushed my hand as hard as he could making me scream in pain falling to my knees he punched my face hard making me fall to the floor trying not to let on how much it all hurt, holding my hand close to me, I was almost sure I had at least a broken finger "Yeah that's what I thought, she's my wife. you stand between us again you'll get much worse" He smirked

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sovonight · 3 years

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unspoken | soulmate au

✧ — ✧

"Atton. Atton Rand," says the man in the force cage. Something about the name resonates with her, but only in the hazy, distant way that reaching out to the Force once more had. "I'd shake your hand, but--"

"Do we know each other?" Cela asks, peering through the shifting barrier of the cage between them with a frown. His face is that of a stranger, she's sure, but his name--his name just sounds... important.

"I'm flattered," Atton says, and only now does she realize she'd murmured her thoughts aloud. "Now, can you tell that to the guys in charge? Maybe that’ll get them to let me out."

✧ — ✧

With an energy shield in her hands, and Atton's voice in her ear, she remembers who he is.

"Got all that, Jedi?" Atton says over the comm, ignorant of the realization that has washed over her and frozen her to the spot. "...Jedi?"

"Y-yes," Cela says, breaking free of her thoughts, and back into life. "Yes, I have it."

"Good. You're going to need it if you're going to get us out of here alive," he says. "Somehow."

She should have realized it earlier. She's traced the name upon her heart countless times, let the words echo within her mind as she wondered when, and how, and who. She can't believe that it had slipped from her memory when they had met; the sedatives must have made her mind more sluggish than she thought.

Cela activates the comm to speak--but hesitates in its ambient crackle. She's found him, but this is not the time or place; she needs to stay focused, as does he.

"Your comm stuck?" He asks. "Or just testing the buttons?"

Though he jests, Atton clearly sounds tense, and she shakes her head free of lingering, sentimental thoughts.

"It's nothing," she says. But, unable to resist, she signs off with, "Cela Pace, out."

✧ — ✧

Back in the communications hub, all Atton catches is, "It's no--th--. C--- ---ce, out."

“Jedi?” He asks. No response, but the display shows she’s started moving again--she’s fine.

"Peragus equipment," he grouses, when the static of the terminal has died back down. "Must be the interference."

✧ — ✧

With Peragus behind them, and Telos ahead, Cela finds herself alone with Atton once more. She's given him her name--he must know who she is--and yet he appears so unfazed, as though her existence does not mean much to him at all.

She's not sure what to say.

"Are we on course?" Cela asks.

"Yeah," Atton says. "If you want, you can check that map back there, see where we are."

The words are recited and dismissive, like he's flown for many an impatient passenger before. She's not making a very good impression.

As she stands there longer still, unwilling to just leave him but unsure how to act, Atton turns in his seat with a puzzled glance back.

"Something up?" Atton asks. "It's still a while to Telos--you might as well get some rest. I would."

Yes--he must be tired, and here she is, waiting like some hopeful, idealistic padawan, for him to be glad to have found her. Gathering what energy she has left, she manages a smile.

"Of course," Cela says. Her smile wavers, but lucky for her, he has already turned away.

✧ — ✧

She carries trouble everywhere she goes, these days. After a glance to make sure Kreia has stepped safely out of her deactivated force cage, and helping Bao-Dur exit his, she turns finally to Atton.

"Are you alright?" Cela asks. She extends a hand to him, which he ignores, preferring to pick himself off the floor of the cage alone. He almost stumbles a little as he steps out, and on reflex, she tries to catch him.

"Woah! I'm fine," Atton says. His hands are up, almost defensive--though after a look at her face, he relaxes with a huff. "Just a little on edge from the ambush."

He doesn't look fine. He looks disoriented, and troubled, beyond that. But it's more than she can voice, especially after the way he'd taken that hasty step back to dodge her, as though her touch were poisonous.

"How did things go with the Jedi here?" Atton asks. "Are you all done?"

"Yes. We have to leave, immediately."

"Things went that well, huh?" He says. "You make friends wherever you go, don't you?"

It's not like this, usually. But then again, she's been alone for a long time. If she thinks back... yes, when she had her friends, she had her rivals, too. When she acts, she meets opposition--and when she approaches her soulmate, she finds disinterest. Leave it to her to have always been so consistent.

"Well, nothing like a steady stream of people who hate us or want to kill us to keep the heart pumping," Atton says.

"You can go," Cela finds herself saying, against the tightness in her throat. The wound in her heart aches, but she is used to it now, and cannot see the point of trying to lessen the pain much more. "You've done enough, Atton. If you want, you can go."

In the background, Kreia shifts, and Atton puts on a silly grin.

"Nah. I was just complaining," Atton says. He chuckles, giving her the warmest look she has ever seen from him; basking in it feels like the warm sunlight of her childhood, from hazy memories of a family she was instructed to forget.

"Really?" Cela says, faint. If she had had her doubts before, they are gone now: he is the one meant for her.

"Yeah," he says. "I'm with you until things start going better for you."

Her sunlight shatters.

"We need to stick together, you know?" Atton continues, oblivious, as the cold promise of that one word, until, echoes and drowns the rest of her hope out. "And who knows... I might be able to help you out of a tight spot at some point."

She doesn't know what she expected. She turns from him, ignoring the confused look he gives her when she dismisses him so abruptly.

"Thanks," says Cela, hollow. "Let's go."

✧ — ✧

"You're laughing at me?" Atton says indignantly, throwing his words at the smug T3 unit shaking with simulated laughter before him. "I'll put you on the scrap heap, you walking tin can!"

The droid trundles away. Atton crosses his arms with a huff, leaning back against the jamb between the hold and the hallway.

"Fine, I don't need your answer," Atton cedes at length, as Bao-Dur shows no signs of looking up from his work. "Just tell me one thing?"

Bao-Dur sighs, long-suffering.

"What is it?"

Atton hesitates, playing back the way they'd left things at the academy. Before their capture, his Jedi had been doing fine, but after it, she'd just gone cold. He recognizes the sharp cut of her emotion then, the same way he remembers the name of the one destined for him, faded to a dead gray at the pulse point on his wrist.

"Her soulmate," Atton says. "Do you know if..."

"If you're asking that, you're more serious than I thought," Bao-Dur says. "But no, I don't know. How would I?"

"You're right," says Atton distantly, as Bao-Dur returns to work. "...I'm just a little out of it, today."

✧ — ✧

I'm as Atton as Atton will ever be.

As deep and as dark as his other secrets were, this--the most innocent--is the one she cannot shake. She supposes she's overestimated herself, hearing so many confessions from him in so little time. She finds herself, once again, tired: of remembering, of knowing, of being.

She takes a breath. One piece of the puzzle at a time, she thinks. Her hand comes to her heart, but rather than linger there wistfully as it had in years past, she finds herself gripping the cloth of her robes tight within her fist.

How foolish she was, to have held his name in her heart for so long. To have held hope past the answer every record and roster had shown her: that no living Atton Rand exists.

To find that he is an invention--to find that he has hunted Jedi--

No, not yet.

To find that he must utterly, truly hate her.

Yes, there is the first point on her list. To mourn, the way she had not let herself after Telos. The rest of his secrets, and his request, can wait.

✧ — ✧

She trains him. She can do nothing but.

"All right," says Atton, picking up the lightsaber she has lent him once more. "But I tell you, I think you're carrying this teacher thing too far."

"You address me as Jedi, I will treat you as such," Cela says. "If you want to be more familiar, call me by my name."

"No need for that," Atton says quickly, just a little too fast compared to his earlier words. If she didn't know better, she'd say he looked a little sheepish--embarrassed, even. "I'll take whatever you've got."

So would she, she's found. Despite the promise she'd tried to make herself--that outside of combat, outside of training, they were to be little more than strangers--she keeps letting Atton back in.

Though he doesn't love her, he feels bound by his debt not to leave her; this is a motivation that she can understand. If she could be heartless, she would push him to leave--but for once, selfishness and selflessness align themselves together, and she can only let him stay.

She directs him, imparting on an old technique, one she knows he'll find useful. Inside, silently, she both dreads and anticipates the promise of his “until”.

✧ — ✧

"Because you'll be right here with me, playing pazaak, where they can't reach you."

She hates the way her voice sticks in her throat, unable to say anything as he deals their next game. She watches the cards emerge between them, placed one by one by Atton's steady hand, until the colors of their hands blur as the sight of the world wobbles before her eyes.

"Your move, Jedi," she hears him say. Then, "Jedi?"

"Say my name," Cela says. She cannot even face him now, too scared to blink. "Please, say it, just once. I need to hear it from you."

Perhaps, if Atton says it now, she can live off this memory for the rest of her life. It is as Kreia says: events are drawing her to their center. Soon, he will part ways with her, and she will know him no more.

"Uh, Jedi, I..."

"Do you hate me so much that you've struck my name from your heart?" Sadness turns to anger; Cela lets herself feel it. "You must know it, or I am truly unfortunate. You must, or the Force has taken its revenge for Malachor on me from the moment I was born."

"I really don't--" Atton stops short, panic filling his eyes when he sees the look on her face. "Don't, don't cry. What did I do? What should I do to fix it?"

"Acknowledge your soulmate."

Atton looks thoroughly confused now, beyond anything he could fake.

"My--My soulmate? She has nothing to do with anything, anymore. She died, before I even got to meet her." He hesitates for only a second, and adds, "Like yours did."

"Like mine?" Cela says. Her tears have fallen, cool on her cheek, but the emotion that had summoned them has vanished. "My soulmate is alive. As is yours."

Atton gives a sharp little laugh, paired with a bitter smile.

"No, I remember it well. I remember, she died with..." His expression slackens, as the realization dawns on him. "...With Malachor V."

His eyes meet hers. And here, at last, Atton says her name, with more breathless reverence than she could ever have imagined--not as a child, missing the warmth of home; as a padawan, collecting her dreams for the future; as an exile, hoping beyond hope that her soulmate would accept all that she is, and all that she has done. He says her name, and he holds her face in his hands, looking upon her, at last, as something precious.

"Cela," he says. "Cela Pace. Why didn't you tell me?"

No--she's not going to let him place this whole mishap on her. She flips the question back to him.

"We have traveled together for so long, now," Cela says. "The others, they might not use my name, but they know it. Why didn't you?"

"I... I don't know. I never caught it," Atton says, "And you never said it. By the time I thought I'd just ask you for it, you seemed to hate me--I didn't want to ruin my chances."

"...But I did say it," Cela says. "On Peragus, in the mining tunnels."

Atton smacks his face with his hand. "That damn interference!"

A laugh escapes her, light and breathless, because after the range of emotion she’s experienced, joy might as well be the one that comes next.

She pulls his hand from his face; he lets her, and then their gazes linger. She hasn’t allowed herself to truly look at him since she first thought she’d received his rejection, and she’d never known the neutral gray of his eyes could appear so warm.

"Can I see it?"

In the silence of Atton’s puzzled expression, Cela realizes the words had been her own. She stumbles, dropping her gaze from his, and finishes, "My name... where it's written."

"You have it," Atton says. His hand is still in her grasp; he turns his palm up. "It's under the leather."

She takes hold of the edges of his glove, to pull it gently off.

"Let me do it," Atton says, as he watches her move so carefully. In one movement, he tugs the glove away; his head is ducked, as though to focus on the action, but the tips of his ears are pink. "You don’t have to be so gentle. It's not like I’m--well. Here."

There, on his bare wrist, lies her name. He returns it to her, and she runs a fingertip over the text, so similar to her own. Sure enough, her name is dead-- but she is more captivated by how it is real.

Atton rubs the back of his neck with his free hand, embarrassed.

"Don't tell me you believe what they say about the locations of these things," Atton says.

"What?" She's never heard of this before. "What do they say?"

"For me, they'd say some nonsense about how I'd do anything for you, and--well, you know." Always one to shift the subject away from himself, Atton lifts his gaze to hers. "Can I see it, too--my name?"

"Ye--no," Cela amends quickly, once she realizes what that would entail.

"No?" Echoes Atton, obviously disappointed. Then he sees where her hand lays, over her chest. "Oh."

"Your name is upon my heart," Cela says, apparently nervous enough as to say something so obvious. Atton just nods, face pinker than she remembers it, and she asks, "What... what would they say about that?"

"J-just--uh, something about how you love," he says, conveniently skipping over what it is, although it’s clear that despite himself he’s touched. "That's all it is, really. Endless ways of describing love. That's what makes it so meaningless. I mean, ultimately they're just trying to spot patterns out of data that's all just random to begin with."

"I see," Cela says, amused by watching him ramble along. She smiles. "You have much more to say about soulmate marks than I would've thought."

Atton merely shrugs.

"Just stuff I heard, a long time ago. Kids are sneaky little things, you know--they absorb a lot more than you might think,” Atton says. He continues, a little distant, “But then you grow up, and you realize there’s no point in thinking about soulmates anymore. It's a big galaxy. The chances are slim."

He closes his gloveless hand, pressing the underside of his wrist against his thigh to hide it; Atton seems to take the action without really registering it, no longer meeting her eye.

“I never looked for you,” Atton says. “Not once. Even after Malachor, when I realized I missed my chance, I never made the effort to find out who you could’ve been.”

With a forced laugh, Atton gives her a weak smile. “Who knew you had been so close? Do you think I could’ve run up to you, back then? Would you have taken me?”

“I don’t know. You weren’t Atton then--though I’m sure I would’ve given you a chance,” Cela says, with a teasing smile. Atton, surprisingly, does not tease her back.

“Not Atton?” He says. “Then--is that how I’m written? Atton Rand?”

“Of course. I have never known you by another name.”

Atton’s lips take on an uncertain curve; he looks like he needs to be convinced. Cela grasps the edge of the wrap of her inner robes, wondering if this weren't a moment in which modesty should be brushed aside, but before she pulls it so much as a centimeter, Atton stops her with a word.

“No need. I believe you--I was just surprised.” To himself, she hears him add, “I don’t think you know how you look to me right now.”

“How is that?” Cela asks. Atton’s resulting expression clearly says he hadn’t expected her to hear that.

“You know those... Well, you know...” Atton strings her along in suspense until he finally relents, “In those “forbidden Jedi” love stories--”

“In what?!” Cela says, barely able to contain her surprise, as Atton splutters, “Don’t laugh!”

“And don’t ask,” Atton continues, very seriously. “It used to be a popular genre, it’s not like I could’ve escaped it if I wanted to.”

“Of course not,” Cela reassures. Then, “So I am your forbidden Jedi.”

“Don’t start,” Atton groans.

“Am I meant to pull you close even as my words push you away?”

“Cela, come on--”

“Atton,” she says at last, all mirth in her voice lost, “...Say my name again.”

Atton looks at her, abandoning the defensive posture he’d adopted to endure her teasing. “Just your name?”

“I have been “the Jedi” to you for so long. I wish to be myself.”

“Cela,” Atton says, more warmly and more familiar than he had the first time. She wraps it up and stores it away in her heart, used to keeping memories as though they are numbered, but he’s not done. “Is that what you thought?”

He reaches out to her, taking her hand; she can see, upon the curve of his wrist, the glimpse of her name once more.

“You haven’t been just “the Jedi” to me since the moment I loved you.”

“You love me?” Cela says faintly, barely able to believe her ears.

“From the moment I first saw you.”

She feels close to crying again. She had been practical, when they resolved their misunderstanding--she had thought she would ask nothing of him, give him time, and simply hope quietly that one day their feelings would align.

“Not again,” Atton jokes, though his voice trembles, as though he’s feeling close to crying himself. “I won’t know what to do.”

“It’s alright,“ she says, closing the distance between them. “I do.”

#sovo writes #cela pace #atton x exile #soulmate au #soulmate au take 3 let's goooooo

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crashcitycentral · 3 years

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I might as well make this series Bart and the Batboys.

So we all know Bart and his dynamic with Tim, but honestly there's so many possibilities. Hi, if you're new here, I rant a lot about how Bart and Jason would get along wonderfully.

Anyways, Bart and Damian. So we all know Bart, once he dies, for some reason always comes back younger. (That reason is probably cause DC creators only see him as comedic relief and keeping him young keeps his spark but I'll leave that for another time). So eventually, When he comes back from death as Impulse, same age as Damian, after previously being as old as Tim (which is just weird), we have a blooming friendship.

Now obviously, Damian- bless him- is our snobby little prince with serious attatchment issues and good sense of humor. I feel like Bart would bring out a totally different side of him tho. We all know About Damian and Colin, or Damian and Jon, but Bart is just different from them.

As I've stated in my JayBart rants, Bart and Damian would definatly hold that sort of mutual understanding of what it's like to die and come back.

But other than being a total prankster and fun loving kid, Bart has his moments when he's got this off-shore wise part of him that has great advice. (such baby) I feel like Damian trying to shed away his teachings from the LOA and trying to fit into his newfound clusterheck of a family would be really hard for him. Obviously Bart knows a thing or two about that, seeing as him and his own family didn't get along either and they had no idea he existed until he showed up one day too, so Damian would see this side of Bart whenever he gives the Robin advice or just talks that no one else really sees and thats just so... hgggn

Also, Bart would definatly try to teach Damian how to have fun and invite him to tag or hide and seek and only get Damian to play when he says it can help in tacticality and training. He'd be very patient the entire time with him, and ends up having fun anyways. (Accidently breaks more than a few vases in the manor durring tag, oops)

Bart is also basically immune to rude comments since he's just too aloof to either notice them or care. (Legit, joker calls him an "obnoxious, fleet-footer, super brat" and all Bart does is think for a moment and say "no I'm not") Anything Damian throws at him he'll laugh along too. Also, 90% sure Bart would get Damian to smile a lot when people aren't around and he calls it a win.

Since Bart was trained in combat by Timmy and the LAPD and he has superspeed reaction time, he's a great spar partner for Damain. Dami uses him mostly for hand-to-hand or vent sparring and Bart is completely okay with this. His reflexs to all the punches and kicks are perfect for a moving target and keeping the fight going for longer.

There's a lot more I can say on this but I'll end it here. Y'all are probably like "Who's gonna read this long heckin thing" and I'm wondering the same.

#Damian Wayne #bart allen #damibart #robin #impulse #i love them #BatFam #Flashfam #Batboys and Bart series

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classic80sand90smovieloves2 · 4 years

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Meeting and Dating Don Dawson

(Not my gif)(requested by anonymous)

- Don and you first meet when you’re walking through the halls during class time to go deliver something for your teacher. He was ditching class with a friend when the two of you “bumped into each other” and by that I mean you passed them while they leaned against a group of lockers.

- He does a doubletake when you walk past him for the first time. He isn’t shy about his leering either, he full on turns toward you and stares. After he’s gotten a good look, he turns toward his friend, waggles his eyebrows, and tails it after you.

- It kind of spooks you a little when he comes up beside you with an enthusiastic “how ya doin!” but you smile awkwardly and greet him back. He tries to chat you up while you walk back to class; he’s kind of cute so you don’t exactly mind.

- You pause outside of your class to talk a little more but your teacher cuts your conversation short with a teasing comment to you and a cocked brow to Don. He in response starts to flirt with your teacher, earning himself a smile and giggle from you. He winks at you one last time before he disappears back into the hallway and your teacher closes the door.

- He catches you when you’re walking to your car after school and propositions you in his usual fashion. You say “yeah, no thanks” and get in your car, leaving him in the dust. It was at that moment, watching your car disappear down the road, that he decides he has to have you.

- You thought the ordeal was kind of funny so you aren’t too bothered when he approaches you while you’re out with some friends. The two of you just so happened to go to the same place with your individual friend groups. He doesnt proposition you this time, thankfully.

- Now Don, at first, just thought you were hot and was trying to shoot his shot and to weasel his way into your pants. But as he’s talking to you he realizes that he really likes you, like you’re fun to talk to and you’re really interesting. He starts to feel this connection with you that he’s never really had with anyone else.

- Even though he doesn’t want to “admit it” he forms a little crush on you. He starts to talk to and hang out with you more; making it kind of obvious that he likes you with his flirting and innuendos. And you like it, him and the attention, so when he says “Hey why don’t we go grab a bite to eat sometime.” You tell him to “name a date and you’ll be there.”

- It takes him only a few seconds to respond.

- For your first date he gets a few beers and sodas and takes you out to a field where you sit in the bed of his truck and stargaze. He goes to kiss you once or twice but you don’t let him, you know how he is with girls and want to test him a little before you give in. Either way everything goes well and you agree to go out with him again.

- Although he accepts your refusal he probably still complains to the guys that you aren’t letting him “do anything”. But your refusal is more entertaining rather than anything else, he likes you as more than a lay so it doesn’t bother too much. He’s more determined and excited than annoyed.

- For your third date you’d gone to a concert together and the two of you had your first kiss as the band played. Definitely a very memorable experience and one you’re glad to remember. After your first kiss he knew for sure that you were the one.

- For the most part you have a very playful relationship.

- A lot of nicknames although most of the time he’s joking when he uses them. Like he’ll say a bunch of them in a row to get your attention or when he’s smothering you in affection.

- A few genuine ones still slip out sometimes.

- He kind of just lets you do whatever you want to him. Put his hair in pigtails, put make up on him, do his nails, crawl all over him, climb him like a monkey, anything you want as long as the evidence can be erased or go unnoticed.

- He loves affection and touching you and all that but he isn’t all that into pda. He likes the joking, quick funny stuff but keeps most of what he does behind closed doors unless you’re hanging around some of his good friends who also have their girlfriends there.

- He likes to lay his head in your lap and have you play with his hair.

- Lots of hugs.

- Piggyback rides.

- Double dates with Simone and Pink.

- Matching overalls.

- You’ve probably put flowers in the pocket of his overalls and he secretly finds it so precious. You’ve definitely snuck little notes in them without him knowing and when he finds them he can’t help but smile.

- Smacking his arm and giving him looks to get him to behave, you try your best to keep him out of trouble even though he makes it pretty difficult.

- He watches you a lot, especially whenever you walk away...he likes the view.

- He’s usually pretty animated and goofy, its kind of just how he is so you get to observe all of his adorable and funny quirks.

- You’re nearly always smiling or laughing when you’re with him.

- Playful flirting.

- Him trying to jokingly yet not so jokingly proposition you.

- Lewd jokes, he laughs hysterically whenever you grimace at them.

- Going to his football games and cheering him on.

- Meeting him after football practice and kissing behind the bleachers.

- Hanging out in the back of pickup trucks.

- Dawson’s kinda cool with everyone so he has a lot of friends around the school and subsequently everyones pretty friendly to you. All your friends probably like him.

- Going to parties with him and getting invited to others just for being his girlfriend.

- He always has a beer ready for you or shares his own with you, if you’re into that sort of thing.

- Going on little adventures with him.

- Hes pretty much down to do whatever you have in mind.

- Concert dates.

- He’ll play tackle/pounce on you and start kissing all over your neck and face; he’s pretty fond of that move.

- Secret handshakes.

- He’s a good listener, he likes hearing about what’s new in your life and things that you’ve done recently.

- He hates seeing you upset; he’s not very good at comforting you but he tries to get you to forget about whatever’s bugging you.

- Play wrestling.

- If you mention wanting something he’d 100% go out and grab it for you.

- He’s got major big brother vibes, do with that what you will.

- He gets involved in a lot of crazy shit so be prepared for some killer stories. He thinks its cute when you look worried for him.

- Constant compliments.

“Looking good.”

- Making fun of each other.

- Play arguing and punching.

- Tricking you into doing something suggestive; mostly when you’re alone, he doesnt want to completely embarrass you...or give his friends a free show.

- He admits he’s an asshole so be prepared. Although to be fair a lot of his asshole behavior is just a front. He’s actually really sweet once you get to know him, especially when you’re his girl/he likes you.

- He does think its kind of funny when you get mad at him...well it depends on how mad you get and how mad you stay. If you grumpily trudge off, rolling your eyes at him in front of his friends then he’ll probably laugh and joke with them.

- A lot of “oh come on babe it was just a joke!”

- It isn’t until you really stay mad that he no longer finds it as funny. He doesn’t like fighting with you but you always inevitably do. In a fight you’ll argue for a while before he tries to just end it as painlessly as possible. At that point he isnt even really sorry nor does he think you’ve settled things, he just doesnt want to fight anymore.

“Okay, okay,okay, alright, so-”.

- Sometimes his attempts to calm things really just backfire for him, like if you feel like he isn’t really listening and just trying to brush you off. It really depends on what you’d fight with him about.

- When you’re holding a grudge he’ll make jokes and bets with his friends, condescendingly saying how you “think you’re mad at him”. He says it himself: he’s an asshole. Although in these moments a lot of his asshole behavior is just him being spiteful because he’s hurt that you won’t talk to him.

- He does know how to apologize when he’s done something wrong or upset you. Like I said he’s usually really sweet even if he doesn’t act like it sometimes. It’s the reason you can come to forgive him especially during the “trial” part of your relationship (up next).

- He flirts too much, thats always been his problem, that and he’s sort of a hypocrite about it; he thinks he can flirt with other girls but you arent allowed to flirt with other guys. He doesn’t understand the injustice but after your first really big fight and subsequent breakup; most likely where he sees you go out with another guy, he finally learns his lesson.

- He’s a pretty coolheaded guy but he definitely doesn’t like people flirting with or having a thing for you even if he’s a playboy and would usually partake in the locker room talk with them. When you came along he was kind of like “Well I’ve finally settled down and I like this one a lot so back off.”.

- He gets a lot of girls coming after him so you’ll probably get a little jealous every now and again. He tries to assure you as best as he can that he isn’t interested in them.

- He’s a football player so there’s at least a little pent up aggression in him. He’s ready to bust a lip to get a guy off your back or stop him from trying to get with you.

- He wants that nuclear family type of future, with a nice house, picket fence, and son to play catch with in the yard. He never thought he’d imagine a future with a girl before but here he is, and he... kinda likes it.

- He’s definitely dropped a “Mrs. Dawson” on you after you teasingly called him Mr. Dawson. You’d just been trying to mess with him but then he had to go and make you all flustered and giddy.

- Dawson will probably go to college on a football scholarship. Before you came along he was planning on screwing a lot of chicks but now thinks “I’d be pissed if she screwed a guy while I was gone” and stops the temptation where it starts. He comes a long way during your relationship.

- I can see him proposing to you after he gets out of college and settles down with a nice job. He’d make a personal kind of special occasion out of the proposal, something that involves a sentimental part of your relationship.

#90s movie headcanons #90s imagine #dazed and confused x reader #dazed and confused imagine #dazed and confused headcanon #dazed and confused headcanons #dazed and confused #don dawson imagine #don dawson #don dawson headcanons #don dawson headcanon

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what-is-your-plan-today · 4 years

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What The Stark Spangled F**k?

Drabble- Spiderman, Spiderman...does whatever a spider can.

Summary: A simple game of ball goes a bit wrong…

Warnings: Bad language words…

A/N: This came to me over the weekend and it’s short enough to post on a mobile…so whilst I’m waiting for Broadband to be fixed…here you go! @sweater-daddiesdumbdork hope you're feeling better.

“Daaaaaad!” Jamie yelled, “Come on, throw the ball.”

“No I’m not.” Steve sighed, shaking his head, tossing the ball lightly in the air and catching it again.

“You know, Soldier you’re older now…” Katie shrugged, bouncing Rori on her knee “You said the effects of the serum would start depleting as time went by.

Steve glared at her “What you think I’m losing my touch, Sweetheart?” he asked sarcastically.

“No, that’s not what I said.” she replied innocently “Merely that you might not be at the pinnacle of human evolution anymore…or the strongest person I know…”

The nerve in Steve’s jaw twitched as he looked at his wife, and then to Peter and back again.

“I mean, he did steal your shield off you once, dad…” Emmy teased “He told me.”

“Did he now?” Steve turned to look at Peter.

“Ahh Steve…Mr Rogers…that’s not actually what I said…” Pete said loudly, holding his hand up.

“Who cares!” Jamie shouted “Daddy just throw the ball!”

“Fine…” Steve pulled his arm back, and then a wicked grin spread across his face. “QUEENS!” he yelled, “Heads up…”

Peter grinned, recognising the phrase and watched as Steve sent the ball flying towards him.

Now, at first Katie thought Steve had just overshot Pete by accident, proving to everyone he could throw the ball as far as he wanted to…but it was only when Parker began running backwards that she realised what he had done. Pete was backing up, straight through the open fence around the pool area. And he was still going backwards, meaning at any moment now he would run out of ground and end up falling into the pool.

Steve’s mouth dropped open as Katie and Emmy looked at one another from where they were sat as Jamie blinked.

“Wait…why does…is…is PETEY SPIDERMAN?!” he whipped around to look at Katie, then Steve who gave Pete an apologetic look.

“No worry Mr Rogers…” Pete shrugged.

“EXCUSE ME!” Jamie bellowed “Will someone tell me…”

“James, stop shouting!” Katie said sternly. She looked at Pete who crouched down to show Jamie his web slingers on his wrists.

“I am yeah buddy.”

“Why did no one tell me?” Jamie demanded indignantly “That thing with the ball and the tree just then…that was the COOLEST THING I HAVE EVER SEEN!”

“What cooler than my shield?” Steve scoffed and Jamie turned to look at him.

“Dur.” he said, before he switched his attention to Peter once more.

Steve turned to his wife and eldest, who both started to laugh at the look on his face as he swept Rori up into his arms, giving her cheek a kiss.

“Well that backfired.” Katie deadpanned.

#what the stark spangled fuck #steve rogers #katie stark #steve rogers x oc #steve rogers x original female character

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where-the-ligtning-strikes · 4 years

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Okokok I only have, like, 3 followers (thxs ya’lls! Love ya) but my family is done with my star trek bullshit and I have shit to DISH OUT, especially with the alternative movie series. I get that it still made some people happy and it introduced a lot more people into star trek and I Respect that but GOD. What The Fuck. What the fuck?

For example, movie 1 AOS, (spoilers, I guess) I really, REALLY fuck’en hated about how Kirk, motherfucken, CHEATS on the test and Spock is the one who looks like the one wrong in this??? Like I know Kirk’s whole reason was about how immoral it was to send a Bunch Of People on the command track with the training and expectation to Die if shit gets too tough but it was just how it was done in the movie that really Jars my Pickles. Because he betrays a fellow officers trust, cheats from the get-go as soon as he finds out its rigged and then the writers were like “BTW, kirk was totally right about cheating lol.” NO. Did you know what I saw kirk as? I saw him as a spoiled asshole who couldn't lose. And thats not the kirk I’m supposed to see! Thats not the kirk I want to see. It could’ve been handled so much better.

Like, alright. Lets say that I’m a Star Trek writer for these new movies (sweet). The writing team and I want these things to happen;

1) Kirk takes the test.

2) Kirk loses

3) Kirk cheats.

4) Kirk was completely right to cheat.

Ok. Cool. So instead, this is what happens. Kirk studies and he studies hard, he does everything right. And He Loses. Again. And again. He’s done different things in different ways and the crew, even if only artificially, die. In the last (2nd to last really) try, he kinda just trying to do whatever, and then one of the people in charge come to him like, “hey you finally passed.” And kirk, rightfully, is very confused because the end result is the same to Every Other Damn Time He Took The Test. And the guy giving him the results just kinda laughs and goes “Oh no honey, its rigged to lose.”

And Kirk goes, “Hey. What the fuck.”

But then!!! Then kirk goes to the people in charge of the test, he goes to them and tells them, “Hey what the fuck. this shits messed up.”

And the people in charge of test goes “yeah, but its the Council‘s choice, some of us think the test is valid for X and Y bullshit reasons, also fuck you.”

Kirk basically goes. “Wow. Alright.” And after such goes to the council and is like, “Hey. Uh. This test sucks ass because telling people to expect to die rather than, you know, doing shit is really, extremely, fucked up.”

And the council goes “Didnt you pass? We’re dicks, fuck you.”

And kirk, well. Kirk aint going without a fight! No sir-ee. Nope. The issue isn't getting enough attention, no one is taking Kirk seriously or giving him the time of day. Except for Bones, whos reluctantly but an absolute bro, BUT kirk remembers a bunch of stuff about the office/lab whatever of the pepes who made the test and kirk decides that hey, if no one is gonna give him the time of day then he’s gotta force their hand by cheating because with cheating theirs a court and with a court there's Media and they cant just kick him out because they have to decide and agree if Kirk Actually Cheated and if or if not he gets to stay at the academy. If kirk wins, they’ll have to change the test. If not... well, he leaves in disgrace. And he’s, obviously, taking a huge risk because he doesn't want to get kick out and the last thing he wants to do is to stick out like this but he really does believe that there is no such thing as a no-win situation, he really believes in this, and he’s going to fight for it.

And so, he tries one more time and he cheats. he makes it to where no matter what, he wins and he WANTS everyone to know that he cheated. So he doesn't try to make it subtle or make it look like there was a bug that just Happened to Let Him Win. No, its obvious and as clear as day that James T. Kirk cheated. Everyone knows, their grandma knows, and Spock knows. Spock charges him on such and the movie proceeds.

2nd movie! Star Trek Into Darkness! What gets under my skin is that Kirk! Lies! And he’s all, “ Dur Dur Spock you betrayed me for telling the admirals the truth in the report.” Even though??? Spock and kirk never discussed it? To lie??? He wants Spock and his CREW to put their careers ON THE LINE??? Also just to lie is, extremely, fucked up that does not vibe with me and it does NOT have me like kirk. And I want to like kirk! So, once again. I’m a writer for Star Trek Into Darkness, me and the writing team want these things to happen;

1) Kirk saves Spock from a volcano.

2) Kirk breaks the prime directive to do it.

3) Spock ‘betrays’ kirk and

4) Kirk is justified in feeling betrayed.

5) Fuck it, for shits and giggles, lets say that kirk also still has to lie and gets demoted

So, the mission to stop the super volcano is going well, everything goes right and they should be done soon. Sweet. But wait, what the fuck. Spock’s equipment bugs the fuck out and Spock, is still, in a fucking super volcano.

What the fuck.

So, kirk is doing mental gymnastics in his head trying to see if theirs a way to save Spock without getting seen by the natives. And finds that, there isn't. It’s violating the prime directive, or losing Spock, which, its not even a competition. So kirk goes to the crew and is like “Hey. I’ll take the blame, but we’re going to have to violate the prime directive cuz we’re already low on officers thanks to that huge attack Nero did and at some point we’re going to lose everyone if we keep leaving people behind and Spock is an extremely talented officer that we can’t afford to lose. He’s also my friend And I love him.”

He’s the captain and people are more likely to listen this time cuz he saved the world, so the crew goes. “Ok so Spock is the bitch who’s a terrible loser, strict as fuck and wouldent know ‘fun’ if it ran up to him naked and slaped his ass, but he’s our bitch so we’re in.”

And kirk goes, “Sweet.”

They save him, but Spock gets into a Huge disagreement Publicly On The Bridge as soon as he’s back cuz he went through the mental gymnastics too and knows that theirs no way he could’ve been saved without Jim violating the Prime directive and, for a legitimate reason that would be Bad because lets say that the Klingons and the Federation are in a Cold War like state and one of the agreements they had so that 2 halves of the known universe wouldent blow out each others brains was that Nobody could find new planets and manipulate them to fight for “their side”. Not only would this risk a galactic war with a race itching for an excuse to fight and come out on top with an already weakened Federation, even if Jim didnt leave or actually do anything other than accidently show his ship to the natives.

And thats completely excluding the fact Jim can lose his captaincy and spock could be separated and lose jim. So Spock Loses His Shit (In his Vulcan way, naturally) And Jim is hurt and betrayed by this because he just risked everything and thats ok but Spock all but verbally slaps him in the face with consequences he’s already well aware of and does so Publicly in FRONT OF THE CREW. And a captain and a 2nd in command is supposed to Agree on stuff, 2nd in command can make all the corrections and adjustments needed but its a thing in Star Fleet where 2nd in command is supposed to ultimately have the captains back even if the captain in question is Wrong.

Everyone is upset and everything is dicey at best.

Kirk and Spock dont write a report yet, they call the admiralty and tell them what happen. No lies, completely truth. The admiralty basically say all the stuff Spock says and they can’t afford to give the Klingons an inch and Kirk didnt… actually violate the prime directive, not the spirit of it. He didnt introduce himself to the tribes as a Star Fleet officer, he didnt accidently nor purposely leave any futuristic tools or weapons to be found. He didnt try to influence the culture, at all. The only thing that happened was that the tribe accidently saw the ship saving Spock.

So, grimly, the admirals have it where Kirk and the crew lie in the reports. The mission succeed. Completely. The Klingon ambassadors, nor anyone else not even by word of mouth can ever find out about this and because its not recorded or on paper in any way it and it Did Not Happen. There's a lot of political tension at the moment and this was a huge stunt that Kirk pulled and he took the blame like he said, so he’s demoted on the spot, and his last moments as captain was Spock, publicly, ripping him a new one. The rest of the movie happens.

I’m just- this is just 2 things. Legit, it doesn't even change the movie but I’d feel so much better about kirk if it went like this or something like this and IM SO BITTER These movies could've been SO GOOD and had so much potential and so much Good Shit and they Ruined it! I couldn't even bring myself to watch the 3rd one. Anyway, Thanks for coming to my ted talk

#aos star trek #star trek into darkness #star trek #Ramblings #jim kirk #spock #Full respect to the thing Spock and Nyota have going on i get it its a good ship #but... nyota is Gay #Spock is Gay #personal headcanon #u know how it is

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