#the title is based on the song kiwi | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

blairwaldcrf · 3 years

Text

but i’m into it (driving me crazy)-nate/dan/blair

summary: two boyfriend’s and their very pregnant girlfriend

gossip girl. 1k. part of a series. please comment on ao3!!

-----------

Of all the times in their lives that Nate thought he would end up waking next to Blair Waldorf, it had never been with Dan Humphrey on the other side. This is his new normal now, a bed large enough for the three of them having been installed a week ago, despite the fact that they still more often than not end up on the couch.

“You two are comfy,” Blair complains. “Being able to lean while I cuddle is so much easier.”

Whichever one of them she’s trapped into being her pillow for the night usually sighs, puts the other on Milo duty, and soon Blair is snoring loudly. Blair with a full night of sleep is much easier than a cranky third term pregnant Blair who had none as they find out.

“You know how much money we spent on that bed, right?” Dan asked them to blank expressions, Nate understanding only a little more than Blair what it means to not have a trust fund. “Not to mention it took forever to even get into this place--,”

“That’s because we need a new place .” Blair chided, nagging them consistently now that she was in nesting mode. “I don’t even care what zip code anymore, Humphrey, but as much as I will always hold nostalgia for this three bedroom hovel, we need more room.”

“We don’t need more room, all we need is to downsize your closet.” Dan fought back illogically, still stubborn. Nate wondered if at this point he was only fighting her to fight, because even he agreed.

“Dan. Come on. Don’t you think at least one of us needs an office?”

Blair waved a hand at Nate. “There. A logical compromise. We get a new place, you get your own office. Dorota can stop complaining about fighting with you anytime she needs to clear books from desks and tables.”

“I don’t have time to write anything anyway.” Dan mumbled, but he gives in later that night when Blair throws out every take out menu in the loft and replaces them with housing listings.

The place is much more modest, than Nate had thought Blair would ever settle for (Despite being everything they needed). Dan had spent the day with a real estate agent showing them houses and by the late afternoon and walking the city, weeks-from-labor Blair breaks down on the staged couch of the last five-bedroom home and tells the real estate agent, “We’ll take it”, before promptly falling asleep.

“Dan,” Nate says, chuckling at the sight of her. His boyfriend pauses his conversation with the agent to turn to him. Nate can’t help but shake his head with a finger to his lips, walking over to whisper in his ear. “Blair is going to murder you when she realizes what you did.”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” Dan whispers, a smirk coming loose from the corners of his lips. “It’s not my fault the real estate agent showed us six houses out of our budget until this one.”

“Yeah, and I’m sure it was the agent who circled this one in red pen at home when I threw the paper in the trash before she could see it.” Nate replies.

Dan is caught and he knows it, but he asks Nate, “Wait, you knew. Does that mean you like it?”

“Yeah, I like it.” Nate nods, smiling. “She’s still going to kill you.”

“Well at least with this place you can afford a nice funeral for me.” Dan jokes back, and Nate laughs, shaking his head. Sometimes the three of them worked together in ways Nate could never expect.

--------------------------

“God I’m so hungry,” Blair complains in the middle of the first football game of the season. Usually Nate sucks it up and does a food run but he’s trying to watch tv and if he misses this potential goal-- but she turns off the television in the middle of a pass and he thinks he might murder her. “Please, Nate, save me. Pick me up some of that Indian food we used to get.”

“Blair, that's halfway across town now.” Nate argued. Of course Dan had to choose now to be at some stupid writing conference.

“It’s not my fault we moved!” She tried, but when Nate glared a little rudely at her-- still not dumb enough to try and take the remote back-- she caved. “Okay, maybe a little my fault, but--,”

“I will give you my phone to order food on my card, just turn the game back on, please .”

So she does and he gets to shout at the tail end of the goal being made only for her to throw his phone back at him, hitting him squarely in the chest. At first he thinks it might be some dirty pic from Dan that she wasn’t expecting, but when he looks up at her there are tears in her eyes and his stomach drops as he rushes to check his phone-- only to see a text from Dan asking Is she driving you crazy yet?

“Come on, Blair, it’s just a joke,” Nate tries to tell her, hoping that her pregnant brain will hear him even as she hops off the couch in an unglorified hop. “You know we both love you.”

“No, Dan loves charity cases,” she says, beginning to cry and stepping back when he gets up and tries to step forward to hug her. “You just put up with me for him.”

“That is not true.” Nate replied, thinking he might see the root problem. “...Well, Dan is way too giving sometimes, but him falling for you was not something he would have wanted to do if he wasn’t head over heels for you.”

Blair rolled her eyes, not arguing, her bottom lip still full in pouting.

“Are you really upset about Dan, or is it me?”

Chocolate brown doe eyes turn directly back down and to him as she tears up even further, barely able to croak out, “You never loved me, why would you now?”

“I loved you back then and I love you now,” Nate said, wishing she would just let him hold her. “We’ve known each other since we were kids. You fell in love with plenty of people after me and I’ve never thought that meant you couldn’t love me now if you wanted to.”

“If I wanted to?” She asked with a scoff. “Like I had a choice.”

“Do you not want Dan and I--,”

“Oh no, Nate, that’s not what I meant at all.” Blair said in a rush, looking flustered and squinting her eyes like she tended to when she wanted least to admit something. When she opens her eyes, she looks both sweet and forlorn as she admits, “I meant I’ve always loved you. A tiny bit of me never stopped. How could I? You’re you.”

“A tiny bit of me never stopped either.” He admits, kissing her on the forehead, but she pulls him in for a kiss on the lips and he gives her a slow kiss in response. Smiling, he asked, “Does this have anything to do with finding my old sweater and your sewn heart from unpacking?”

Blair gasps in offense. “Dan told you about that?”

“He might have said you snapped his head off when he told you the heart should be kept somewhere less easy to lose in the washer. And then added you broke down in tears over snapping at him.” She gives an angry humph, clearly planning an ‘angry’ call later, but for now she finally lets him pull her closely into him, head fitting perfectly under his shoulder like when they were teens. “He figured you would bottle it up until it came out of nowhere, but I was right. It didn’t take that long.”

“I am driving you two crazy, huh?” she asks, sighing into his chest.

“Hey, at least now you have the excuse of creating life.” He jokes, and she laughs a little as she pulls back.

Blair smiles a little, looking up at him. “I don’t mean to be a handful anymore. Usually.”

“I know.” Nate smiles back. “It’s worth it either way.”

“Well then, that being said, you could have gotten me my Indian food by now.”

“ Blair.”

------------------

No one in their right mind would want to be on the other side of an angry sixteen year old Constance school Blair Waldorf, but Blair twenty hours into labor was another thing entirely. No makeup, sweat rolling down her forehead and turning her dark hair into ringlets, and the angry screams at anyone and everyone in sight.

“Humphrey, this is your fault!” She went for Dan yet again, who was sitting down beside her bed opposite Nate and icing his broken hand. Unlike Nate, he had thought it wise to hold her hand before the epidural. Nate, who had helped her through vomiting and period cramps when they were growing up, had been way too wary of the pressure force she could cause now.

“How dare you let me keep this baby!”

Rolling his eyes at this point, as out of his mind tired as Nate is as well, Dan stays silent. Dan and Nate had stopped asking for answers to her warped logic around hour four. Nate goes to say something, but then her angry eyes lock on him. “And you helped him.”

“I had nothing to do with this!” Nate argued helplessly. “You were already into your second term when you told me.”

“ Yes , but you looked cute with Milo.” She accused, and Dan gave a tired snicker despite the fact it turned her attention to him. “It’s not funny! Do you know how much this hurts? ”

Dan waves his iced hand. “I’d say about one hundred times whatever pain this is?”

“One thousand times.” Blair spat back, less angry this time, in a lull of the contraction-- but then it’s hitting again and she’s yelling, “I swear to God if either of you ever get me pregnant again I will castrate you!”

It’s a very, very long twenty-eight hours, but in the end they have Audrey Ella Waldorf.

#nate x dan x blair #nate x dan #dair #gossip girl #gossip girl fic #mine #the title is based on the song kiwi #iykyk

22 notes · View notes

oligbia · 3 years

Text

Kiwi

Bakugou KatsukiXReader SFW, Fluff

TW: Mild swearing

Based on: Kiwi by Harry Styles

The dorms were mostly quiet, students had long settled into bed for the night. Another long day of training and learning was to follow the next day, the class content of a hero course student at UA was no surprise a mental drain. The academics were rigorous, the materials being taught quickly. So, it was no surprise you and your friends were struggling to keep up with the various lessons being taught.

The studying had started out like any other night would have. Kirishima, Denki, Sero, Mina, and You all gathered in Bakugou’s room after dinner to study together. It always started with studying, asking Bakugou questions, but eventually it turned into watching Denki, Sero, and Mina horse around while Kirishima tried to keep Bakugou at bay. You had never expected to find such a rough and wild group of friends while attending school, but they were perfect for you. After some hours, Denki, Sero, and Mina all turned in for the night. You stayed around with Kirishima and Bakugou, asking some extra math questions as Kiri watched. You’re laid on the ground next to Bakugou’s desk, legs above your head as they rested against his desk. Your hoodie layed disregarded on his floor somewhere, his room always was warmer than the rest of the dorms. Kirishima was laying on Bakugou’s bed, ideally scrolling through his phone. Bakguou was checking your practice problems, scribbling over them in red ink. A pair of glasses sat on the edge of Bakugou’s nose, adding on a new level of maturity and sophistication. When he was alone with you and Kirshima, it was one of the few times he was much quieter and calmer. The three of you were close friends.

Kirishima stood up from the bed, stretching his arms over his head. “Well, I think I’m going to call it a night. Thank you for the study-sesh Baku-bro. I’ll see you guys tomorrow.”

Bakugou mumbled his farewells under his breath, still scanning over your work. You wave Kiri a goodbye, smiling at him as he left. Kirishima closed the door with a smirk that you and bakugou both missed.

Bakugou turns to look at you. “God, get your feet off my desk, would ya?” He shoots you a slide glance, one that looks even more vicious through his glasses that were resting on the edge of his nose. You groaned, kicking your legs in front of you, repositioning yourself to an upright position. “You missed all of them except one. I really don’t know how you manage to do that.”

You threw your head back, grimacing at the extra work. “I don’t know, math is hard.”

“It isn’t hard, you’re just a bunch of dumbasses.”

You frowed, pouting your bottom lip out. You snatched the paper from his desk, smacking it onto the floor in front of you. Half a dozen algebra problems were in front of you, most of them covered in red pen where Bakugou had marked and circled your mistakes. His writing was slanted and consisted of light strokes. It was the kind of writing you expect from someone who writes fast and aggressively. You took out a pencil and started to rework some of the problems, but kept getting the same answers. You knew that you had made mistakes, Bakguou had written them out, but you weren't really sure what they were. You gave up, throwing the pencil at his wall, crumpling up the paper and throwing it at the ceiling, landing somewhere unbeknownst to you. “I quit! This is dumb! I won’t be a prohero anymore if it means I have to do algebra.”

The last part of your rage caught bakugou’s attention, drawing him out of his manga. He looked at your scowling figure, the steam practically radiating off of you. He felt himself grow angry, he knew you were too good to waste yourself and not be a hero. Unlike most of the other “extras” in class, you had potential. You were someone he thought he could work with- or even work for. He groaned under his breath, trying to figure out what to say. “Only a dumbass would quit over some stupid math problems.”

You turned over his shoulder to look at him, his eyes avoiding yours as he marked his place in his manga and closed it, sitting it back in his bedside drawer. He grabbed the math textbook off his desk and threw it to the floor next to you, it landed with a thump. He sat down next to you on the floor, your knees brushing against each other. He threw a notebook down and flipped the textbook to the page of problems you had been doing. “Do this one step by step and I’ll show you how to do it,” He glared away from you, “or don’t, I don’t care.”

You looked at his face, his glasses suiting his face in quite a lovely way. They made him look more like his father. You scribbled out the first few steps of the equation. “I can do this part. I get stuck here.”

He drew some lines in red ink. “You take the extra number here, and you just distribute it like this…” He led you through the steps of distributing and multiplication, the problem starting to make more sense. You did the next practice problem alone, Bakugou watching the way you bit your bottom lip when you were focused, the same way you did during sparring practice or during a rescue practice. You finished the problem and slid the paper over to him. He checked over it, not moving the red pen this time. “That's right. Good job or whatever…” You threw your hands up in victory, whooping in excitement. Bakugou hit you in the shoulder, shoving you over a little. “Shut up, dumbass, people are sleeping. And I would be too, if you weren't still here.”

You chuckled, and hoisted yourself off the ground. You reached a hand out to him, lifting him up to. He rolled his eyes at your hand, but took it anyways as he lifted himself off the ground. “Well, thank ya Boom Boy. I’ll see you tomorrow, yea?”

Bakugou walked you to the door, quickly checking to see if the hall was empty. It was long past curfew, and while the two of you were just studying, he wasn’t about to deal with the extras bothering him or you. “Tch, whatever.”

You showed yourself out, and Bakugou closed the door behind you. Once you were gone, he started to clean up the study materials left on the floor. He came across the hoodie you had left behind on the ground. He rolled his eyes, making some sarcastic comment about how forgetful you could be. He went to fold it up to return tomorrow, but watched as your earbuds and music player fell out. He rolled his eyes, fumbling with the device in his hands. He noticed it was dead, and figured he could at least charge it for you. In his mind, you would have forgotten to charge it yourself and this was his way of being nice. He wasn’t sure why he wanted to be nice to you, but he felt like he had to be.

During the night, Bakugou found himself tossing and turning in his sleep. He couldn’t get his mind to settle, it jumped from topic to topic. The topic it kept returning to, however, was oddly enough- you. He kept thinking about how you looked laughing at Denki that night, the way you were so comfortable around him, the way you were biting your lip…

He shook his head, noticing your music player blinking a green light. It was fully charged now. He took it off the charger and scrolled through the music on it. Most of it was stuff he didn’t know or recognize. It was a jumble of genres and types, none of it able to be conformed to a certain genre. With little second thought, he slipped your earbuds in his ears and pressed shuffle.

The vocals on the first track felt like something old, something recorded through an old microphone or telephone. The guitar was strong and rhythmic, the groove reminiscence of rock music he listened to growing up. But what he liked were the drums and the lyrics. The drums had a loud kick to them, something flashy he could play. The lyrics had a spunk to them, a little attitude and a little risque- bad ass. They reminded him of you somehow.

He turned the lamp on in his room, padding over to the desk to scribble the song title out on a piece of loose paper. Kiwi.

A few evenings later, you went to find Bakugou, excited to show him your test score. You had gotten a B on the math test, and it was really all owed to him. What you didn’t expect, however, was hearing a familiar sound coming from his drum set. You knocked one the door a few times, but when he didn’t answer, you opened it slowly. He had headphones in his ears, you watched as he finished the song, dropping his arms, puffing and sweating a little. He was all or nothing, all the time.

“Bakugou, was that Kiwi? Never pegged you as a Harry Styles fan.” You looked closer, his attention finally on you. “Wait, is that my music player?!”

Bakugou’s eyes widened, realizing you caught him. He threw a drumstick at you, it barely missing your head and tumbling into the hall. You laughed as you took off running, calling out for the rest of your friends to come see what Bakugou was doing. Bakugou got up, chasing after you down the hall, his other drumstick and your music player falling to the ground behind him.

#my hero academia #bakugou x reader #bakugou katuski x reader #my hero academia x reader

66 notes · View notes

kiwicherryallaboutharry · 3 years

Text

Harry Styles Songs Ask Game

Here’s some asks based on Harry’s songs (thank you @soullikestyles for the idea). I hope you like them!

Self-Titled

Meet Me in the Hallway: What always helps you feel better?

Sign of the Times: What’s a good thing that’s happened to you this year?

Carolina: Where would you like to travel to?

Two Ghosts: Do you have a lucky number?

Sweet Creature: Who is the sweetest person you know?

Only Angel: Are you more of an angel or a devil? (take that any way you’d like)

Kiwi: Favorite fruit?

Ever Since New York: Favorite place that you’ve traveled to?

Woman: Who’s a powerful, inspiring woman in your life?

From the Dining Table: Favorite thing to eat for dinner?

Fine Line

Golden: Favorite time of the day to take photos?

Watermelon Sugar: Favorite flavor of sour patch kids?

Adore You: Do you have any animal friends?

Lights Up: Ever ridden a motorcycle? Or do you want to?

Cherry: Can you speak any other languages?

Falling: Do you play the piano? Or any other instruments?

To Be So Lonely: What do you do when you feel lonely?

She: Are you a daydreamer?

Sunflower, Vol. 6: Favorite flower or plant?

Canyon Moon: Have you seen any of the 7 wonders of the world?

Treat People With Kindness: What is your personal motto?

Fine Line: Are you more of an optimist or a pessimist?

Unreleased

Medicine: Do you like going out or would you rather stay in?

Anna: Favorite female name?

#ask game #harry styles #harry styles ask game #pls send me some of these #i hope you like them i think some of them are cute #also pls feel free to share and do it on your blogs too

28 notes · View notes

hoochy-coo · 3 years

Note

The sentiment that having a man open the show somehow goes against their attempt at “giving women their flowers” is just a lazy attempt at criticizing the Grammys any way you can. Literally nobody cares if a woman or a man opens the show LOL that’s actually ridiculous. And by the way, how have they marketed this year as “giving women their flowers”???? That’s literally not true. Just because Dua and Taylor got a lot of nominations doesn’t mean that. Last year Ariana, Billie, and Lizzo were everywhere in nominations.

Harry is literally a decade into his career. His solo career has been 5 years long and he’s been performing for 10 years. To act like he’s “not ready” is based on zero merit. Go watch his Kiwi performances or his Medicine performances, or his Only Angel performances. He knows how to keep a crowd entertained and he’s also clearly going all out with opening the Grammys, so I don’t know why you think he’s just going to stand at a mic and sing. Also saying that his music just isn’t the sound you’d expect to open the Grammys is very weird. First of all, why does only one type of music merit Grammy opening status? Secondly, Lizzo literally played the flute to open the show last year - is flute playing considered typical Grammy opener style? No. She sang a ballad also. There’s many ways you can open the show and I guarantee Harry will bring it visually as well.

Harry had the biggest pop album of the last year by the numbers, look at the Billboard list and IFPI list if you don’t think that’s true. He had 2 huge hits, one of which went #1 and the other which peaked at #6. He has also had one of the biggest breakthrough years we’ve seen in a while. Lizzo had a breakout year in 2019 and then she opened. Nobody complained then because it made sense then also. Harry was also snubbed from the general field so having him open is a nice make up gift for that all time robbery. He knows how to perform and has been doing it for years. Taylor Swift throwing her hair around and singing off key doesn’t merit an opening act yet she’s gotten it plenty of times, so I don’t get your argument there either.

There’s no reason he that he doesn’t deserve this nor is there any reason that somebody else deserves it above him. He had a massive year, and on top of that he’s going to draw in ratings, it’s as simple as that. If you’re bitter he’s opening the show, just say that.

Ok firstly, you’re coming at me very aggressively when my answer to you was perfectly respectful to your opinion and polite. I literally said I didn't Harry was ready to open for reason A, B, C, D, E, so I don’t know why you felt need to tell me “YOU’RE WRONG!!!” just because I responded with why I personally felt this wasn’t his year. If you think it is then that’s perfectly fine. Some of us just simply don’t feel that way and that’s okay.

Secondly, considering that this is a MASSIVE year for female artists across all genres, I can see why a bunch of people was looking forward to a female opening act. That’s not weird imo. If you don’t care about who opens then that’s perfectly fine too, some of us do, obviously.

Thirdly, I apologize I misspoke and said he's 2-3 years into his career. What I should have said that he was 2 eras in and his first era wasn’t an all-around/global hit. (In terms of his career as a part of 1D, performing as a group vs. performing as a solo should not be comparable - 5 people carrying a stage and captivating an audience is simply shared work. Being a solo artist means having to do all of that by yourself.) FL is undoubtedly his breakout era, and I don’t think this era has really showcased his skill as a performer all that much either. Hence, I said that in my prior response that I didn’t think this was the era for it. Had the self-titled era been as big as this era and he’d been asked to open with ‘Kiwi’ or ‘Only Angel’ or even ‘Sign of the Times’ then I would have actually thought that was a good fit musically. No one type of music is suitable for the opening performance but FL’s songs, in general, don’t have a climax point, the bridge is stagnant. That’s not a critique on the music itself but when there is no peak in a song, that can dull down a performance. Also, no one ever said they thought he was gonna stand there and sing. We simply didn’t think he was going to deliver to the standard of let’s say, Bey, Kendrick, Lizzo, Adele, and this included if he danced around the stage. No one ever called him a bad performance, but we just doubt he could put on a show because again, that takes experience to figure out what works. Speaking of Lizzo, she is a songstress. Her performance hinges on her vocals and her music showcase her vocal. If she’d given an opening performance that consisted of dancing around and fancy props/effects, then it would have taken away from her strong point as an artist and that’s what people want to see from her. Harry does not excel as a vocalist to that level - most of us aren’t looking to him for that. Also, saying that there is ‘zero merit’ to is convenient for you when all of this is subjective. Hence, I said before this that if you think he’s ready/the right fit then no one can tell you you’re wrong just like you shouldn’t be dismissing anyone else’s opinion just because it contradicts yours. Also, I looked up the numbers for the biggest selling pop albums of 2020 and Billboard tells me it’s ‘folklore.’ I’m unsure how accurate that is but that’s what the site says. I won’t be getting into what you said about Taylor as a performer because that’s your opinion and you’re entitled to that.

Fourthly, we all acknowledge that Harry will be drawing in an audience due to his fanbase. This was never brought up at all and we were all simply focusing on his skills when discussing how suitable he is to do the opening performance.

#ask #answer #Harry styles #music

6 notes · View notes

thesimpanions · 4 years

Photo

⭐️ N E W V I D E O ⭐️ The Sims 4 | MAKING OVER MY SUBSCRIBERS SIMS #6! | CAS & Lookbook + CC Links

Hey there! Today I'm back with my subsribers sims makeover series, featuring two beautiful sims created by the community! Let me know what your favourite outfits are! ♥

▶️https://youtu.be/8kDxwdtxXuo

CC Links

SIM 1 (JOYCE)

GENERAL Skinblend: https://lamatisse.tumblr.com/post/616843396742512640/rosewater-a-skinblend-with-a-little-bit-of Skinblend: https://smellslikepixels.tumblr.com/post/623553381780291584/rosemary-skinblend-non-default-four-swatches Face Shine: https://nesurii.tumblr.com/post/182508085171/amaryllis Eyebags: https://tamosim.blogspot.com/2015/10/ts4-basic-10-eye-bags-set-for-all.html Moles: https://angels-simblr.tumblr.com/post/185547620752/pretty-nervous-about-these-but-also-reallyyyy Eyes: https://baieyu.tumblr.com/post/179216040640/still-feel-eyes-previews-heavily-insp-by Catchlights: https://simulationcowboy.tumblr.com/post/183759640852/inspired-by-okyio-and-the-eyes-in-her-edits Hair: https://okruee.tumblr.com/post/611595760593698816/london-hair-u-kno-like-that-young-thug-song-i Hair: https://www.patreon.com/posts/savvy-x-grim-36916128 Edges: https://setsuki.tumblr.com/post/178360831744/full-scalp-with-edges-100-followers-gift-7-8

MAKE UP Eyebrows: https://adiec.tumblr.com/post/185708180915/eyebrow-set-1-some-cute-lil-eyebrows-i-made-in Lashes: http://kijiko-catfood.com/3d-lashes-version2/ Eyeshadow: https://love4sims4.tumblr.com/post/182986216598/tiredeffect-red-moon-eyeshadow-simblreen Eyeshadow: https://crypticsim.tumblr.com/post/613974349191561216/the-blossom-collection-this-collection-is-a-collab Eyeliner: https://caelhinn.tumblr.com/post/190809835077/heart-shaped-wing-an-eyeliner-by-caelhinn Eyeliner: https://crypticsim.tumblr.com/post/190594545470/the-lotus-collection-inspired-by-the-lotus-flower Lipgloss: https://maxismatchccworld.tumblr.com/post/611190364141944832/sunlitcrys-a-gift-bundle-just-for-you-my-1000?is_liked_post=1 Lipgloss: https://alhajero.tumblr.com/post/183442871240/i-love-lip-glosses-i-have-nothing-more-to Blush: https://virtygo.tumblr.com/post/614483757330776064/sunbloom-a-blush-can-you-tell-that-my-branding Nails: https://simlaughlove.tumblr.com/post/163327412088/sll-rainbownails

EVERYDAY Top: https://greenllamas.tumblr.com/post/621824553903177729/thebratzcollection Pants: https://www.thesimsresource.com/downloads/details/category/sims4-clothing-female-teenadultelder-everyday/title/trillyke--more-and-more-pants/id/1494882/ Shoes: https://sims4sue.tumblr.com/post/189049580531/download-madlens-mantova-shoes-these-clogs-are Earrings: https://backtrack-cc.tumblr.com/post/613966020802166785/look-me-earrings-3-swatches-hq-compatible-shadow

FORMAL Blazer: https://www.thesimsresource.com/downloads/details/category/sims4-clothing-female-teenadultelder-everyday/title/trillyke-sassy-me-blazer/id/1488642/ Pants: https://www.thesimsresource.com/downloads/details/category/sims4-clothing-female-teenadultelder-everyday/title/corrin-pants/id/1484061/ Acc Top: https://www.thesimsresource.com/downloads/details/category/sims4-clothing-female-teenadultelder-everyday/title/trillyke-drip-accessory-top/id/1469251/ Shoes: https://www.thesimsresource.com/downloads/details/category/sims4-shoes-female-teenadultelder/title/madlen-zannone-shoes/id/1345408/

ACTIVE Top: https://www.patreon.com/posts/savvy-x-grim-36916128 Pants: https://fluffusnow.tumblr.com/post/190839269172/1000-followers-gift-tori-jeans-7-swatches-please Shoes: https://tunayegit.tumblr.com/post/616484713367060480/chonk-sneakers-so-i-didnt-like-how-the-sneakers

SLEEP Set: https://joliebean.tumblr.com/post/182787987096/st-valentines-day-gift-a-set-of-clothes

PARTY Outfit: https://www.thesimsresource.com/downloads/details/category/sims4-clothing-female-teenadultelder-everyday/title/pixelette-poppy-outfit/id/1489515/ Shoes: https://www.thesimsresource.com/downloads/details/category/sims4-shoes-female-teenadultelder/title/madlen-pegamon-shoes/id/1304603/ Earrings: https://www.thesimsresource.com/downloads/details/category/sims4-accessories-female-earrings/title/lo-earrings-christopher067/id/1452355/

SWIM Top: https://aharris00britney.tumblr.com/post/187194346870/axa-2019-official-release Bottom: https://www.renorasims.com/product-page/sulani-swimwear-collection

HOT WEATHER Dress: https://clumsyalienn.tumblr.com/post/617009480946810880/solar-waltz-pack-bgc-all-lods-shadow-maps Shoes: https://www.simsdom.com/downloads/176175/dr-martens-blaire-sandals-sims4 Earrings: https://nords-sims.tumblr.com/post/190566165246/hoops-leaves-earrings-v1-hey-guys-i-made-a-new

COLD WEATHER Dress: https://kumikya.tumblr.com/post/616690230560538624/kumikyas-follower-gift-hello-heres-a-small Shoes: https://www.patreon.com/posts/mmsims-dr-molly-25334773 Jacket: https://volatile-sims.tumblr.com/post/171609992940/jadia-oversized-puffer-mega-oversized-puffer Earrings: https://www.patreon.com/posts/abstract-set-30673641

SIM 2 (CARINA)

GENERAL Eyes: https://baieyu.tumblr.com/post/179216040640/still-feel-eyes-previews-heavily-insp-by Skinblend: https://lamatisse.tumblr.com/post/619294350635106304/fresco-face-skin-by-stretchskeleton-is-one-of-my Nose Shader: https://simfileshare.net/download/977930/ Eyebags: https://ratboysims.tumblr.com/post/188237560445/kiwi-eyebags-updated-1110-2019-by-ratboysims Face Shine: https://nesurii.tumblr.com/post/182508085171/amaryllis Freckles: https://joviean.tumblr.com/post/186573920181/maple-freckles Hair: https://glumbut.tumblr.com/post/623201373160390657/golde-another-bun-i-just-make-bun-variations Hair: https://glumbut.tumblr.com/post/621650033342906368/winslow-simple-sleek-hair-in-three-variants-comes Bangs: https://atashi77.tumblr.com/post/180214908218/famous-accessory-bangs-these-are-the-other-bangs

MAKE UP Lashes: http://kijiko-catfood.com/3d-lashes-version2/ Eyebrows: https://adiec.tumblr.com/post/185708180915/eyebrow-set-1-some-cute-lil-eyebrows-i-made-in Eyeshadow: https://crypticsim.tumblr.com/post/613974349191561216/the-blossom-collection-this-collection-is-a-collab Eyeshadow: https://crypticsim.tumblr.com/post/164869725175/the-kyshadow-bronze-palette-this-eyeshadow Eyeliner: https://caelhinn.tumblr.com/post/190809835077/heart-shaped-wing-an-eyeliner-by-caelhinn Eyeliner: https://crypticsim.tumblr.com/post/190594545470/the-lotus-collection-inspired-by-the-lotus-flower Lipgloss: https://alhajero.tumblr.com/post/185072913035/nice-gloss-ugly-gif-or-at-least-i-think Lipstick: https://alhajero.tumblr.com/post/184959100825/a-little-hi-how-have-you-been-hopefully Lipstick: https://love4sims4.tumblr.com/post/162450531523/ghardenia-grandma-lipsticks-since-these-amazing Blush: https://simbience.tumblr.com/post/617337374459002880/d-o-w-n-l-o-a-d-patreon-free-info-below Highlighter: https://ridgeport.tumblr.com/post/611820044593381376/rosebud-dress-a-fun-little-dress-crafted-from Nails: https://simlaughlove.tumblr.com/post/163327412088/sll-rainbownails

EVERYDAY Top: https://waekey.tumblr.com/post/188862902338/vintage-blouse-new-mesh-ea-mesh-edit Bottom: https://dyoreos.tumblr.com/post/184993342522/dyoreos-seeker-jeans-female-t-e-base-game Shoes: https://www.thesimsresource.com/downloads/details/category/sims4-shoes-female-teenadultelder/title/madlen-marius-shoes/id/1407602/ Earrings: https://chonkypixels.tumblr.com/post/619484680614543360/novocaine-earrings-100-followers-gift-new

FORMAL Dress: https://viiavi.tumblr.com/post/170436702873/lana-my-first-dress-yayy-enjoy-28-swatches Shoes: https://www.patreon.com/posts/35228475 Bracelet: https://veranka-s4cc.tumblr.com/post/142800259050/claire-necklace-bracelets-i-did-some-simple Earrings: https://nach0sims.tumblr.com/post/187201760442/sutton-earrings-basically-the-earrings-that-my-mom

ACTIVE Top: https://mousysims.tumblr.com/post/182712684887/bgc-custom-thumbnail-disabled-for-random-18 Bottom: https://pixelunivairse.tumblr.com/post/190603475073/one-of-many-other-cc-that-i-created-and-i-was Shoes: https://goobsims.tumblr.com/post/161041800731/kedluu-kedluu-simple-sneakers-monochrome

SLEEP Top & Bottom: https://ridgeport.tumblr.com/post/171436973602/calliope-undies-a-counterpart-to-my-calliope Glasses: https://www.patreon.com/posts/remove-makeup-29396235

PARTY Top: https://trillyke.tumblr.com/post/622733037619314688/sun-moon-top-tumblr-exclusive-many-of-you Bottom: https://maxismatchccworld.tumblr.com/post/187353486400/thealienships-corduroy-collection-1000 Shoes: https://tunayegit.tumblr.com/post/187577862556/better-than-mosc-boots-hoi-guyss-welcome-to-my Rings: https://www.christopher067.com/glimmer-rings Socks: https://kumikya.tumblr.com/post/160196037178/i-made-some-mid-calf-socks-because-i-want-some Earrings: https://alexaarr.tumblr.com/post/188033074071/glimmerbrook-earrings

SWIM Top: https://www.thesimsresource.com/downloads/details/category/sims4-clothing-female-teenadultelder-everyday/title/trillyke-latata-bra-with-straps/id/1419657/ Bottom: https://www.renorasims.com/product-page/sulani-swimwear-collection

HOT WEATHER Top: https://casteru.tumblr.com/post/189271949227/cropped-ruffle-top-tou-in-lovechild-palette Bottom: https://dyoreos.tumblr.com/post/183412740317/dyoreos-2k-followers-gift-i-reached-2000 Shoes: https://sims4nexus.tumblr.com/post/184857327879/caroline-sandals-for-ladies-of-all-ages-go-to Earrings: https://houseofabsurdities.tumblr.com/post/190605590004/feeling-kinda-tired-considering-i-have-mock-exams

COLD WEATHER Top: https://clumsyalienn.tumblr.com/post/189977341005/lucky-girl-cc-pack-bgc-all-lods-shadow-maps Bottom: https://tajsiwel.tumblr.com/post/168013107850/erin-28-swatches-custom-thumbnail-disallowed-for Shoes: https://sondescent.tumblr.com/post/181715407975/s-ugg-boots-perfect-for-the-autumn-winter Earrings: https://www.thesimsresource.com/downloads/details/category/sims4-accessories-female-earrings/title/lo-earrings-christopher067/id/1452355/

44 notes · View notes

abundanceofsoph · 3 years

Text

SkyFire 3: Chapter 9

BBC Radio 1 Breakfast Show with Nick Grimshaw : October 2017

Word count: 3.8k

SkyFire 3 MASTERLIST

Please for the love of god, if you like the story just hit the reblog button. I’m starting to run out of motivation to post since no one ever shares these chapters.

>Instagram posts

After the Phoenix show, the band took a weeklong break before meeting back up in Paris to kick off the European leg of the tour. During their break, Adam returned home to his young family and Sarah and Mitch took a short vacation together, while Aurora and Harry joined Niall in celebrating the release of his debut album, Flicker. They, along with Liam, Louis and some of Niall’s friends and family all arrived at his London house for dinner and drinks to celebrate the launch after Niall had spent the day doing press. It was a really casual evening, with everyone scattered throughout the living room, kitchen, and heated patio. Later in the evening Aurora found herself sandwiched on the sofa between Liam and Louis while Harry was off being the social butterfly he was, flitting from one conversation to the next. Rori loved that about the two of them, as much as they loved each other they never felt the need to be glued to each other’s sides when out with friends. She had just finished filling the boys in on the excitement of the first leg of the tour when Liam posed a question.

“I noticed you guys have a 2 week break between Milan and Singapore,” he said. “Got anything planned?”

“We’re planning to be home for 8 or 9 days and then fly to Singapore a few days early to hopefully explore a little,” Rori explained. “Why?”

“Well I was wondering if you wanted to get in the studio with me,” Liam replied. “Lou and I wrote a song a few months back and the demo I put together got selected for the next Fifty Shades soundtrack, but they want it to be a duet. We thought you’d be the perfect fit.”

“Oooh, that sounds like fun,” Rori smiled. “Do you have the demo on your phone?” Liam nodded and Rori fished her AirPods out of her purse and quickly linked them with Liam’s phone to listen through the track. “I love it!” she declared once it reached the end. “Oh, this is going to be so much fun.”

They were interrupted from continuing by a slightly tipsy Niall calling everyone’s attention to where he was standing on the coffee table.

“EVERYONE!” Niall yelled. “I just wanna thank ya all for being here to celebrate all of this. It’s mental that after so many months my baby is finally out in the world and every single one of you played a part in helping make this happen.”

“TO NIALL!” Rori yelled, raising her glass in the air. Everyone echoed her words, cheersing the jolly Irishman.

xXx

A week and a half after Niall’s album launch, after shows in both Paris and Cologne, the Styles’ were back in London for two back to back shows in Hammersmith. The day after the shows, before they headed up to Manchester Harry was due to appear on Nick Grimshaw’s breakfast show on BBC Radio One as Kiwi was releasing as a single that day. Unfortunately, when Harry came of the stage after the second show his voice was in shambles. The tour doctor headed straight for Harry’s dressing room and after a quick consult he was placed on vocal rest for the next 36 hours in preparation for the next show. Aurora immediately called Grimmy to explain the situation while Jeff attempted not to panic before joining her on the call. After much discussion between the 3 of them and many eye rolls from Harry, it was decided that Aurora would attend the interview the following morning so that Nick wasn’t left hanging without a guest and Harry would stay home to rest before travelling up to Manchester in the afternoon.

xXx

“Good morning you’re listening to BBC Radio One, I’m Nick Grimshaw and this morning I was supposed to be joined by Mr Harry Styles but unfortunately Hazza’s come down with a bit of a cold so he’s sent along his wonderful wife to fill in for him. Aurora thank you for joining me.”

“Thank you for having me Grimmy,” Rori replied. “Wish it was a bit later in the day, but you did buy me a coffee so I’ll let you off without too many complaints.”

“How generous of you love,” Nick smirked.

“Only for you,” she giggled, throwing a wink across the table towards her friend.

“So, I had all these fantastic, insightful question for Harry about the album and the tour and the release of Kiwi as a single today, but alas I’ve had to throw all that out the window. Figured since I’m bluffing the questions, we might have a bit of fun today and given that it’s Hazzas fault you’re up this early, what do you say we have that fun at his expense?”

“Are you gonna get me in trouble when I get home Nick?”

“Wouldn’t dream of it love. Besides we both know he’d never get mad at you, that boy is smitten with you.”

“We’ll see about that. What sort of fun did you have in mind?”

“How about we throw to a song and when we come back, I’ll start with a few softball questions.”

“You’re going to play nicely, aren’t you?” Rori asked as the mics were muted and a song started playing for the listeners.

“Of course,” Nick smiled. “I know where your boundaries are, and I text Harry last night to see what he was comfortable with us discussing in regards to song meanings and he gave us the all clear.”

“Alright then,” Rori sighed. “I guess it’s too late now to back out.”

“Oh, don’t be like that,” Nick laughed. “We’re gonna have a fun morning. You ready? Song’s almost done.”

Aurora nodded and readjusted her headphones.

“Welcome back, if you’re just tuning in, I’m joined this morning by the one and only Aurora Styles. Now Rori, your husband Harry, he’s a good mate of mine and the fans listening at home will be very aware that our boy H doesn’t like to talk about his private life much but between us gals I’ve got a few questions.”

“Oh god.”

“Now, now. We’ll have none of that. I’m wondering what married life is like?”

“It’s wonderful,” Rori answered. “We’ve been married for a little over 7 months now and it couldn’t be better.”

“And you’ve been together for what, 4 years now?”

“Something like that,” Rori agreed.

“What was it that first made you fall for him?”

“Oh um... I’m not sure what the first thing was, it just kind of happened. The dimples certainly didn’t hurt,” she joked. “But in all seriousness, I think it was just how genuine he was.”

“Boring,” Nick replied, rolling his eyes dramatically.

“No, I’m serious,” Rori laughed. “We met at the AMAs right before my first ever solo performance and I was in the middle of a panic attack and he just sat down next to me in the hallway and talked to me until I calmed down. We’d never met before and he just saw me freaking out and thought ‘I’m gonna help her’. You don’t find a lot of genuinely kind people in this industry and he’s always astounded me with how selfless he is.”

“That’s too cute. It’s disgusting. How do you manage being in a relationship with someone who is idolized by such an intensely loyal fan base?”

“Honestly, I love Harry’s fans. How could I not? They love the same things in him that I do. They recognize his talent and his kindness and they’re so supportive of everything he does. I’m honestly just so proud of him so of course I love his fans because he deserves to be adored.”

“You’re very sappy this morning sweetheart,” Nick replied. “Don’t get me wrong I’m loving it, you’re normally much sassier with me when you’re more awake. So how has it been being on tour with Harry and being a part of the band?”

“Oh my god, it’s so much fun. We have the best time when we’re all playing together, and we all get along so easily that it never feels like work. The tour has been incredible so far, getting to play this fantastic album to so many fans. I’m very lucky. There aren’t a lot of careers where you get to spend every day with your husband doing what you both love.”

“Speaking of the incredible album let’s play the new single Kiwi and when we come back, we might have a bit of a chat about the other tracks.”

After Kiwi finished, Nick grinned cheekily across the desk at Aurora as he welcomed the listeners back. “And we are back everyone, now before the song break, we were discussing Harry Styles, the self-titled debut of Harry Styles and Aurora I’d love to pick your brain about it since you were involved in the entire creation process, weren’t you?”

“From writing to recording,” Rori agreed.

“So which track is your favourite?”

“That’s tough. There are a lot of very personal songs on the album and in one way or another they’re all my favourites for very narcissistic reasons, but I think if I had to pick one, I think I have to pick Sweet Creature. It’s just a beautiful song.”

“You would pick a song written for you as your favourite.”

“I mean in my defence every song on the album is either about me or I wrote it so there was no humble way to answer that question, and also Nick,” she paused, smirking in anticipation for the rest of her sentence, “who said it’s about me?”

“Wait. Are you saying you’re not Harry’s Sweet Creature? Well who is it about? Did he step out on you?” Nick joked.

Aurora chuckled. “No, he didn’t step out on me, and I’m not telling you. She knows who she is and all I’ll say is that not all love is romantic love. Besides everyone who assumed it was about me didn’t even really listen to the song. I mean how could we have started out as ‘two hearts in one home’?”

“Well I’m sure all the fans listening are having a bit of a breakdown right now over that,” Nick laughed. “I want to come back to talking about the album later, but since you’ve never been shy about addressing fan theories, I thought it might be a bit of fun to look at what fans are talking about online. I’ve taken to Twitter, Instagram and Tumblr overnight to find out what's on their minds, what do you say Rori?”

“Let’s do it,” Rori replied.

“Excellent. Let’s play a song first and when we come back, we’ll be addressing fan questions, and speculations. This is Taylor Swift with Look What You Made Me Do.”

While the song played Rori and Nick talked and joked around about what he had found online and he promised, once again, that he wouldn’t put her in any uncomfortable situations.

“Welcome back,” Nick said. “This morning we’re answering the internets burning questions with Aurora Styles. First ones gonna be a soft ball Rors. It’s from twitter user @IwouldSellMyLeftKidneyForAuroraStark, who tweeted: My life is in desperate need for an Aurora Styles solo album/tour. Who do I have to kill to make this happen? So, when are we getting your solo work, love?”

“Oh wow, that’s very sweet,” Aurora replied with a blush, “But please don’t sell your kidney for me, you’re gonna need that. As for the solo work, while I appreciate the support, I don’t think I will ever go solo. I enjoy the collaborative process too much and a solo tour just wouldn’t be as much fun as touring with Harry. I will continue posting covers and demos to my YouTube channel and we have been tossing around the idea of a demo tape album so maybe you will get an album from me at some point.”

“Well I for one would be first in line for a vinyl of your Demo Tapes series,” Nick replied. “I found a tweet with a theory about some of your songs from twitter user @HarrysSuits. How cute is it that Aurora Styles has like 5 Songs that she’s written either about or with Harry that have the same or very similar titles to 1D songs? I mean there’s The Little Things, Just You and I, Still I Fly, Where I Belong, and All Night.”

“I mean when you lay it out like that there’s definitely a trend,” Rori admitted with a chuckle.

“You didn’t do it intentionally?” Nick asked.

“Not at all. Yikes. Makes me sound like a bit of a fan girl doesn’t it? Naming all my songs after theirs?”

“A little bit,” Nick chuckled, holding up his hand with his thumb and forefinger pinched together.

“How embarrassing,” Rori said sarcastically.

“Very embarrassing,” Nick replied with a matching tone. “I hope they don’t notice because how awkward would it be if they know you’re a fan?”

“I’d die.”

“Thank god this is a private chat that no one else is listening too,” Nick laughed. “Ok so earlier in the show you hinted at the story behind Sweet Creature and I was hoping, since Hazza isn’t here to stop us, we can dive into the rest of the album. The fans and I couldn’t help but notice that there seems to be a bit of a common theme throughout the album with it being tied into the Columbia shooting and I've got a fan observation here from the account @18monthsTheySaid, it’s quite an in-depth thread but I’d love to get your take on it so here we go:

Whatever you do, don’t think about the fact that at least 4 tracks off HS1 are about Aurora and the Columbia shooting. These are obviously just my interpretations of the songs and I might be wrong but I’m gonna say it anyway.

Meet me in the Hallway: I think this is about the immediate aftermath. He’s roaming the hospital hallways, needing pain relief and he’s ‘gotta get better’ because he feels the need to pull himself together and be there for Aurora. He’s begging her ‘Just let me know…’ because he’d do anything to fix it or make it easier for her.

Sign of the Times is probably one of the most overt ones on the album, I mean ‘why are we always stuck’n running from the bullets’? and I’m pretty sure ‘we don’t talk enough… will we ever learn?’ is about how we can never seem to have an actual conversation about gun reform in this country and until we do we’ll never change.

Two Ghosts: ‘we’re not who we used to be’ is obviously about the fact that they both changed so much in the wake of the shooting and I think the idea of them being ghosts is Harry examining the alternative reality where she didn’t survive and maybe he wouldn’t have survived it either.

Ever Since New York: I mean the title says it all really. ‘Tell me something I don’t already know’ is maybe asking the doctors for better news because she went through so many surgeries and the results were always the same. And ‘Brooklyn saw me empty at the news’ I think is reference to Rori’s dad, Steve Rogers who’s from Brooklyn and some of the Avengers call him that occasionally in interviews.”

Aurora remained silent for a moment once Nick finished reading out the twitter thread. She was so often blown away by how observant the fans were and how much they picked up on. “When we sat down to write the album in 2016 we were so heavily stuck in the aftermath of Columbia that I don’t think it’s a surprise to anyone that a lot of the album is in reference to what happened to me and the fallout from that,” she explained. “This album was about us piecing ourselves back together in many ways and I think if you listen to the whole thing you can hear that entire process of us healing together. The incredible thing about Harry as a songwriter and as a performer is that he’s always been so good at making you feel exactly what he’s feeling when he sings, and clearly people are picking up on that tone and over-arching theme.”

“Was it difficult to write about what happened?” Nick asked.

“Some days,” Rori admitted. “There were a lot of tears but the thing I love the most about music, and the entire song writing process, is that it’s the best form of therapy. When I’m writing I can admit to feelings I wouldn’t otherwise be able to talk about. You can be really vulnerable in way that feels safe and comforting and then when you’re able to share that with the world and you let them in, it’s an incredible experience.”

“And I think I speak for everyone when I say how much we appreciate you and Harry letting us in. Now before either of us get too mushy, let’s throw it over to your favourite track off the album. This is Sweet Creature.”

While the song played, Nick looked across the desk to where Aurora was taking a deep breathe to steady her nerves after talking about something so personal. She loved talking about song writing and the meanings behind her lyrics, but she always got a little nervous when it was Harry’s songs she was talking about, knowing that he felt the opposite about sharing the stories behind the songs. He had told her countless times that while he wasn’t comfortable having those conversations he would never stop her from talking about it, but his silence on the topic always made his fans desperate for information which put a lot of pressure on her when she spoke about his work.

“Alright,” Nick said, “you ready for the last one?”

“Is it what I think it is?

“It is. Not too late to back out if you don’t want me to ask. We can just talk about the BBC recording or about the tour some more.”

“No, it’s ok,” she replied. “It’s about time I say something. Just nervous about the response.”

Nick nodded in understanding and turned back to the microphone as the song reached its end. Aurora felt her heartrate rising and her hand started to shake as anxiety clawed at her throat.

“Now we’ve been addressing fan theories and answering the internet’s burning questions here this morning and we can’t really have a segment like this without touching on the biggest theory surrounding Harry that dates back to the very early days of his career and I know neither of you have ever addressed this publicly but when we were chatting last night about you filling in for him I asked if it was ok to bring this up and you both agreed I could ask…”

Aurora shifted in her seat hesitantly, her palm growing sweaty as she anticipated the next question. She’d avoided commenting on it publicly ever since she and Harry announced their relationship, which was not to say she didn’t have strong opinions about the topic. She just knew that it would cause a stir amongst the fans.

“For years now, fans have speculated that Harry and his bandmate, Louis Tomlinson, are in a secret relationship and that they’re management forced them to hide it so as not to alienate their fan base. In the past both yourself and Louis’ girlfriends have been accused of acting as beards for the lads, but you’ve never addressed the overwhelming online presence of what the fans call Larry Stylinson.”

“I really don’t like talking about it, Grimmers,” Aurora began. “But I guess by staying silent a lot of fans have taken that as an answer, so what I will say is that I’m not angry at those fans. I am sad though. I’m sad that they think it’s ok to harass myself or Eleanor or Danielle or anyone else in Harry and Louis’ lives. I’m sad that they saw two boys who saw each other as family and loved each other and that those fans couldn’t accept that two men could show affection for each other without it being romantic love. What worries me are all the boys out there who see the way these girls have acted over the years and how much that has reinforced the toxic masculinity in their lives. The fear of being seen as gay stops so many boys and men from telling their friends that they love them. My best friend Ella and I act the exact same way as Lou and H did in the early days of the band but because we’re women no one has ever accused us of being lesbians. The harassment has affected all of us and I know that the fans are acting out of a place of love. They love the boys and they want them to be happy, but it’s honestly just gone too far, and it needs to stop. The Directioners are such wonderful people who are so inclusive and loving and I think they need to remember that and remember that we see the things that they say online. I guess if there was one thing I would say to those fans if they’re listening it would be that I know you love Harry and Lou, but by attacking myself and the other women in their lives you are hurting them and I’m certain that that is not what you want, so instead I ask you to channel that love into supporting them and lifting them up.”

“Thank you love. I know you don’t like talking about, but I must say I completely agree with you. Now we’re going to go to one more song and then when we come back, we’ll wrap this up and let you get on with your day. How about you introduce this next track, Rori?”

“Thanks, Grimmy,” Rori said. “From his incredible new album which dropped less than 2 weeks ago, here’s Niall Horan and myself with Seeing Blind.”

“You handled that well,” Nick told her once the mics were muted. “Kept your cool and explained yourself clearly.”

“Thanks,” Rori replied with a small smile. “Think I might stay offline for the next few days to avoid the worst of it.”

“Probably a good idea love,” Nick agreed. “Ready to finish this off?”

“Let’s do it.”

When the song ended the pair chatted for a few minutes about the rest of the tour before they reached the end of their timeslot. “Well thank you for joining me this morning for a bit of a cheeky gossip session Rors,” Nick finally said. “For those of you listening at home that are missing Harry this morning, tune in to BBC on Thursday night for Harry Styles at the BBC, an hour long show with live performances and interviews with yours truly.”

NEXT CHAPTER

OR CONTINUE READING ON AO3

#skyfire fic #Husband Harry Styles #harry styles fanfiction #dad!tony #ptsd #domestic fluff #iron dad #step dad steve rogers #aurora stark #harry styles #tony stark

4 notes · View notes

selfcareparker · 3 years

Note

(lovely anon) ok so this may sound so dramatic but; let me paint you a picture: i’m responding to your latest message, sitting on the edge of the sofa. i type in “lovely anon” into the search and see this longgg post come up and i’m like uhhh... i scroll down and see the people you tagged and literally. when i saw @ lovely anon. i . cried . like full on tears. my brother goes “what are you doing” “she tagged meeeee” and he continued what he was doing and didn’t care LMAOO but i was so emotional? i love and appreciate you too and aAH IM CRYING!! you’re just really sweet and i didn’t expect it at all and it was really lovely to be a part of something :’)

the kermit pic sent meee but yes yes yes!! when you start uni let me know, lol i’m so excited for you!! let me know how it goes cuz i’m literally hype hahah & yes we will be in our sad corners of the world, missing england but you’re right it’ll be sooooo worth it in the end!!! and oH i’m glad you talk to them lol i truly thought you like haven’t seen them/haven’t spoken to them this whole time😭 that would’ve been awful!

also i totallyyy get what your saying about the english speaking thing. and idk why you’re insecure (well i *knowww* bc it’s not your first language and you’re studying it in college so yuh) but your english is great :)))

lol yeah that makes sense.. my mom took french in college and she remembers NOTHING HDJSHSJ (the fact that you wanna learn MORE languages i- ahh i so admire you.. you literally know so many languages🥺) yea i mean you know a bunch of languages bc you know the base of words lol, but i wonder if because you know latin it’ll be easier for you to learn french? oh- oh wait you said it’ll be easier HAHHAHA

THERES SO MUCH EXCITING STUFF TO TALK ABOUT HDGSJSJSL it’s so wild to me that you can’t watch chaos walking :( i’m a professional hacker tho so i’ll try and find a way for you LMAO (by professional hacker i mean i literally have gotten multiple free trials and i’m pretty sure the hulu police are after me bUT ITS THEIR FAULT BC WHY IS IT SO EXPENSIVE???) i mean the movie was good? and cute? and funny? but yea don’t think it’s gonna be the most fantastic thing haha AND THE DOGGO AWWW (i saw it again today- or my today lol, saturday, aND THESE OLD PEOPLE CAME AND SAT IN FRONT OF ME AND MY FRIEND LIKE ITS A LONG STORY LMK IF YOU WANNA HEAR IT)

SHARK FILMS?!?!! PLEASE READING THIS I HAD NO IDEA YOU WOULD LIKE SHARK MOVIES TOO FHSKSHSHDJDJGAJAYSJS ok so i haven’t seen any of the classics (i’m working on it) but i would probably watch jaws to laugh at it? not like that lmao but like comparing it. OKAY BUT HONESTLY I BARELY KNOW ANYONE WHO LIKES SHARK FILMS AHHH OKAY im adding “the shallows” to my watchlist bc it sounds super good AND SAME AHSJD ANY BODY OF WATER IN A MOVIE I JUST KNOW ITS COMING LMAO watch me not go in the water anymore after seeing that picture HHDJSJ

WHEN I READ THIS I JUST GOT DONE TALKING TO MY MOM ABOUT THE MEG AND THAT SCENE WHERE THE SHARKKK JUMPEDDDD AND ATE THE OTHER ONEEEE AND THEN JONAS HAD TO DO- bro i cannot (i think that one is my favorite because i love me a bit of romance and the subtle romance hAD ME) 47 meters down PHEW could you imagine?? i try not to think too hard about it i’m like “don’t be dumb catherine, don’t put yourself in a dumb situation” (not autocorrect having “dumb bitch” ready i am not lying) and i literally understand... there is no other way to explain 47 meters down

i CANNOT watch horror movies, can’t can’t can’t, i literally hate them i cannot do it!!! the thrill is tempting and it’s cool in the moment but i cant lmao. i don’t have nightmares about scary things (for the majority of the time) but going to sleep i’m like oooohhhhhh shit 🥲 literally what you explained

music !!!! music !!!! music !!!! (u ever write a word and now it looks weird lmao) MY BROTHER DOESNT LIKE MUSIC AND ITS SHIT IM LIKE WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU- anyway, my music taste is all over the place i mean......... it’s crazy. earlier today i was listening to meghan trainor’s album “title” oUT OF NOWHERE, but just a few minutes ago i was listening to fall in love with me by earth wind and fire soooo lol .. megan is *chefs kiss*, i’m not familiar with stormzy🙈, harry styles.... IM SORRY IM THAT PERSON but i don’t listen to his solo music EEK i only listen to adore you... and not that frequently... the music video freaked me out... i like niall’s solo music a lot more, which i listen to a lot more. now. one direction. favorite. please & thank you. i have a playlist called “boy bands” and it consists of one direction and the vamps (obsessed with cherry blossom btw) but as you can see my taste is all over the place!! fr fr if i sent you what apple music has as my “favorites” it went from ariana grande to carrie underwood to glee (OBSESSED DONT LET ME TALK ABOUT IT) i mean please if you let me i will nonstop (hamilton HDJSH) talk about music all day😩 & NOOO UR MUSIC IS GREAT HAHSK IM NOT A BIG RAP PERSON BUT DOJA CAT IS MY FAVORITE!!

okay good, i’m glad :) i was just nervous that you did feel that way <3 and GOT IT HAHAJ healthy pressure is always good :’) my friend got me these pens cuz i love stationary and school supplies lol and was like “now you have to write something” soooo yea i feel that! and i saw you posted the ficcccccc literally so proud of you 🥺🥺 i’m trying to decide if i read it tomorrow or tonight..... sleep or a literal beautiful creation made by the sweetest person and is v v nice smut and college!peter and 4.7k...... sleep aint really calling no more.

GIRL ALL OF MY SENTENCES ARE TOO LONG HAHAHAH IN FACT THIS IS TOO LONG SOOO (also why am i 3 days late..😑) anywho it’s 1 in the morning so <33 lovely anon

🥰

oh my god the fact that you cried nearly made me cry too😭😭🥺🥺 (also, your brother LMAO), i wasn‘t even sure if you‘d see it but i immediately thought of you so of COURSE i included you <333

the hulu police lsjsjaiaik, girl i was ready to get a hulu membership when i wanted to watch big time adolescence and i couldn‘t find it anywhereee, and when i got to the payment it said i need a bank account that‘s based in the US or whatever. like bro i was about to pay you!! but i was forced to find it somewhere (and i did, on levidia,— not that i‘ve ever used it because it‘s illegal 😤 i would never!!! i‘d rather support billion dollar companies and spend my money on watching films that i can find for free 🥰🥰🥰 not

i‘ve found chaos walking online so i‘ll watch it som time this week!! also YES TELL ME THE STORY

okay so idk if you watched/are planning on watching falcon and winter soldier but i watched the first episode the other day and they were speaking french (just a few seconds) and I UNDERSTOOD SOME WORDS DLDJDJ and i was so proud of myself. i‘ve only ever learned french with duolingo lol (i only do like 5 mins a day and that‘s why i was so surprised that i understood some of it!!). and yeah apart from latin i feel like italian, german, french and english are all similar in a sense.. i mean obviously they‘re completely different languages but for example there are some grammatical constructions in french that i think i wouldn‘t understand if i only spoke english? so when i translate those things into english you can‘t directly translate them bc you say things differently, but when i translate them into german then it makes more sense to me. idk that‘s something i noticed so i feel like if you already know multiple languages it‘s easier to learn another language compared to if you only know one language and are trying to learn a second one. even if the languages aren‘t similar then i think you get the hang of it easier.

ikd slsjsjs also i don‘t want you to think that i‘m a linguistic genius or anything lmfao, like i‘m only fluent in english and german and i‘m just a wannabe (ew that word) polyglot sksj (yes i had to google polyglot— i do think learning ancient greek would be super cool tho? like imagine studying latin AND ancient greek, whew). and honestly i don‘t think i‘ll ever be fluent in another language bc i don‘t plan on living anywhere other than germany or possibly england and i‘m not dedicated enough to properly learn any other languages esp if i don‘t have anyone to speak the language with. but i still try my best and i just love language/languages as a whole so yeah i‘m happy & just learning as much as i can dkdjh🥰

(I guess language/linguistics are/is my passion (which sounds sooo lame lmaoooo) and the word passion comes from the latin word pati (i think💀) which means to suffer, and in german passion is called Leidenschaft which basically means suffering too, idk why i‘m telling you this maybe you know it already. but ok dumb fun fact, in german you can make compound words with as many words as you like, and the longest official german word is Rindfleischetikettierungsüberwachungsaufgabenübertragungsgesetz which is a law for the monitoring of labels on beef... this is such a dumb fact but i think about that word like once a day idk why dodjsjsj so... 👁👄👁)

but i‘ll stop boring you with my linguistics talk because truly i don‘t know much about languages but i am interested omg i‘m gonna shut up now.

now water + sharks. (so in non-covid times i always go to croatia with my dad during the summer, and even before ever watching a shark film i was always kind of scared in water.. but after watching so many shark films wldjdj HELP Like you know when you go deeper into the ocean and you can‘t see or feel the ground/floor? anymore.. then i just start imagining sharks. like i can‘t help it i just imagine a shark sneaking up on me or feeling something graze my foot ABD I JUST START FREAKING OUT SSKJSHSJ. idk. anyway kdkdh i do love the ocean/swimming though but the older i get the more i realise how fucking scary the ocean is ( even if we’re gonna disregard sharks)

your brother... what‘s wrong with him? HOw CAN YOU NOT LIKE MUSIC LIKE WHAT THE FAWK

OKAY BUT SAME ABOUT THE ADORE YOU MUSIC VIDEO DLDKDJSJSKSLSLKSKSJSHSH and yeah i have to say harry’s style (styles lol) as a solo artist isn‘t reaaally my cup of tea, and i only like the popular songs from his second album and the first album is only good when i‘m in the right mood (haven‘t actually listened to it in a while though, but kiwi is one of my all time favourites along with only angel but i hate the start, like it takes 40 seconds to actually begin properly). i like mgk and because of him i watched the dirt which is a film about motley crue, and now one of my favourite songs ever is same ol situation and i‘m into rock now lol. +++ justin bieber. I had a justin bieber cardboard cutout thingy😭 i was the biggest Belieber on earth when i was 13-16, but i didn‘t like his last album and tbh he‘s become a bit weird lately, BUT OH MY GOD. i Listened to his new album yesterday and i‘m in LOVE with the song hold on

i really like niall‘s music toooo!!!! And doja cat 😌😌😌😌 And THE VAMPS OG MY GOD. i got to see them live bc they were the opening/support act for little mix and ajdsjskslslsjsjsj. (Also i love concerts, some of the best memories of my life are concerts, i‘ve seen nicki minaj live 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 and justin twice and my heart fills every time i think about how excited i was, it was my first concert ever (16th of September 2016 😌) and i was the happiest person alive seeing justin drew fucking bieber (even if i‘m not tooo sure about justin nowadays)

i have a confession? Idk what hamilton is. I mean I‘ve heard about it and i keep googling it but i‘ve never watched it (is it even a film???? or like a proper musical? also pls tell me you grew up with high school musical. i have a few friends who didn‘t and it makes me so sad 😭😭😭 hsm is the best thing to happen to my childhood , the sooooongs— i still listen to some of them every week or month lool they make me so happy)

(Okay wait i was about to recommend some stormzy songs but you said you‘re not that into rap so i won‘t dksksjl)

What you said about my fic AHSLSLSJB (i wasn‘t sure if you sent an ask about it earlier? idk that might have been someone else, so if it was (and you‘ve read it already) i hope you liked it sksjsj i was...... unsure about it. and i have this reeaaallly long peter fic that i started writing in december and that‘s the only peter thing i currently want to write but also i can‘t because idk how to continue kddjj.) but I’m definitely getting back into writing i have a few blurbs that i want to write so 🥰🥰🥰

Oh and pls as soon as you read this let me know: violet or yellow? (it‘s just a tiny thing for my new theme slsksj)

#lovely anon #BY THE WAY: do not feel bad or apologise for not answering straight away #you can take your time i know it can be exhausting (not bc its anything bad but just because its so much and so long) to answer to my shit #all at once*#so really i don‘t mind if you take a few days or a week or whatever to respond #or if you want to you can respond bit by bit/topic by topic whenever you feel like it #so you don‘t have to concentrate on an ask and my post for like AN HOUR DLSKJ but rather do it in smaller chunks #if you want <3 #btw i‘m always so scared that i‘ll type lonely anon instead of lovely dldjdjsksk so if i ever do that i‘m just being #(cue your autocorrect dldkdj) a dumb bitch #its 1 am now sorry if there are any mistakes (i‘ll stop apologing from now now lol but i still am sorry you have to read my word vomit lmao)#*apologis #*from now on #omg

2 notes · View notes

imbellarosa · 3 years

Note

B what's your interpretation of Girl Crush?? I legitimately could listen to that song and pore over those lyrics until I'm ancient and still have absolutely NO IDEA WTH it's about. I mean Kiwi=bizarro too lol until I recently found out that it's likely about bg. At least others are in the same boat, in the MV's comments for Kiwi everyone's like wth is going on in that kid's brain to write a song titled a fruit and throw fruits & have kids & pups but it's evidently got nothing to do with fruit??

I mean H didn’t write Girl Crush! Lori McKenna (who also co-wrote Changes!), Liz Rose, and Hillary Lee Lindsey did, and they gave it to a band called Little Big Town, who does the original version of the song. Harry did a cover of it (brilliantly, I might add) and uploaded his cover to Spotify. Originally, the song is about a woman who is in love with a man and is talking about how they’re obsessing over his new partner because they’re sad and also jealous. It’s a “what does she have that I don’t” kind of thing.

Why do I think he chose that song? Well, I think for different reasons, but none of them being the original intent of the song. In fact, he’s talked before in interviews how he has definitely connected with songs for meanings that were likely not the original intent, and how it’s important that other people do the same with his art! So I think he connected with the song because, when a MAN sings that SAME SONG, the meaning sort of shifts. Now it’s a MAN who is looking at someone he loves desperately but can’t have, and he WISHES he were the other woman, not because she HAS something that he does not, but because she REPRESENTS something else. For him, it could represent how he can’t kiss the people (person) he wants to in the same way that a woman could. It could represent how much easier life could be for him if he was her (like literally her), it could represent how desperately he wants the connection with the other person and how he wants it to be okay and public.

I think that it’s a great song for him, but as he didn’t write the words, I can’t make a direct A to B connection like I would be able to otherwise, because people like different stories for different reasons, you know? And the ones I gave are just based on how I think the song changes when the gender of the singer changes, but like. Please tell me what you think!

#anon asks #i answer #hs #song lyrics #i meant for this one to be shorter lmao i don't know how to not write essays im so sorry #Anonymous

5 notes · View notes

seoultraveller · 3 years

Note

hiii sorry for getting back to you so late, I was simply too lazy to write back😅😅

Exactly!! I hope this comeback gives us some answers because I’m so clueless all the time and i only have a bunch of theories 💀 Thank you so much, you’re totally correct about it all. Growth is a process and I also have my own writing style🥰

Honestly same here, I’m doing fine in online classes so I wouldn’t mind having it for a longer time. I’m going to school next week for two days though, and possible for the week after that (they don’t know yet) so we’ll see😬 I hope it turns out good for you with your students;(<3

They cut your check by $200 ?!?! OMFG ?? I can see why that would make it a difficult week omg... Whew I’m sorry to hear all of this - Mercury is in retrograde atm so it could be why so many things were crashing down during this week😪 I hope next week become much much better for you, I can only guess how stressed it has been :((

I slept amazing last night whew and I’m so ready to go sleep later !! How have you been doing and sleeping?

SAME !! The Utopia performance was very sneaky tbh I think there are a loooot of clues and spoilers there 👀 omg what if they release a song called “Dystopia” instead ?? I saw atiny on Twitter saying that Oasis might be a clue to the album too, maybe a title track or the album name etc etc OOOH

I feel like they returned to some bad place after after Incpetion and Thanxx 🤔 We’ll see aghhh I’m so excited. I’m happy Mingi is on the album too <3<3

Heeeeyyyyyyyyy~!!! I understand lol. However, I should deeply apologize. I was focusing on coming up with storylines for a writing contest the winner gets $20,000 and I am honestly so desperate for it. I’ve been crying over how to make things work together and within the guidelines and word count range.

I think a lot of theories come across as quite interesting and seem to make a great deal of sense dealing with numerology, looking towards the stars for navigation, and parallel dimensions! Even those that create stories based off of these theories, are so creative and fascinating (aka - you 😉). I know for sure I will still be lost in it all. I still think about how Treasure Epilogue: Action to Answer was supposed to tie up the loose ends and give us some answers, but it had ATINY asking one of the STILL most poignant question(s). WHO IS THE WHITE MASKED MAN? WHAT HAPPENED - Did ATEEZ and HALATEEZ fight it out over that elaborate dinner... table? Not only did we not receive answers, they took us all the way back in time. BACK TO THE BEGINNING!!!!! I’m pulling my hair out just thinking about it.

I hope that you’ll be able to stay safe next week during school 🥺. Thank you. I hope so too!

And my card was denied today when I used it... 🤦🏾‍♀️ AND MERCURY IS RETROGRADE!?!? (I had no idea) Let’s just fast-forward to late April already. Please 🙏😩 I hope that your weekend was much better than mine. Was it? How did it go? Is Kiwi still her crazy little hyperactive self, or has she settled in properly now?

I AM SO HAPPY TO HEAR THAT YOU HAVE BEEN SLEEPIG WELL!!! That honestly warmed my heart a little bit as I read it. 💕✨👍🏾 I think I’ve already expressed how not so great my things have been going... My sleeping... not the greatest. Maybe it’s a seasonal thing. Around this time of year in 2020, I would only sleep about 4-5 hours. Sleep at around 9 PM, wake up at around 1 or 2 AM and just stay up until I have to get ready for work. However, these days I have been falling back to sleep, missing the ability to have mornings to myself...

Oooohhhhhhh~ 😲 Oasis seems to fit, now, since looking at the most recent album concepty photo. hmm... 🧐 You’re probably on to something. Look at you being all detective-like 😏😏 aye~

I’m honestly so confused... the album art is unique~ but the concept photo with the members is bright and lively... in fact, they all look very very serious in the photo. 🤔 The contrast... striking.

#seoultraveller responds #thorsdreams asks #thorsdreams #dee asks 💝#also #I read it! I read part 4! but the screen froze and i remember the last time that happened i reblogged something 13 times yelling in the tag #and i didn’t want to do that to you. so expect something coming shortly 😏

1 note · View note

girls-scenarios · 5 years

Text

Ain’t Together

Idol: Heejin (Loona)

Prompt: loona heejin scenario where her and reader kiss all the time and do coupley things but for some reason heejin still thinks they’re just friends?

Writer: Admin Kiwi

A/N: This title is based on one of my favorite King Princess songs “Ain’t Together” so go give it a listen! I ended up making this kind of angst-y at the beginning, but I hope this is what you had in mind, anon!

♡ Tip Jar♡

You were the one who’d gotten yourself into this mess. Really, it was your own fault. But had anyone else been in your shoes, they would have fallen for her too.

Heejin was beautiful. Anyone could see that. She had a small face, soft, long hair, sparkly dark eyes that crinkled at the sides when she smiled, and a cute excited smile that made her nose scrunch up just a little bit. Not to mention her low, dulcet voice and charming laugh, or her slender fingers, lightly calloused from guitar, and her soft hands. Or the way she always smelt like French perfume. She was the most perfect person you’d ever encountered, and this perfect person had smiled at you like you were the only person in the world. How could you not fall for her?

You should have said no the first time it happened. She’d been a little tipsy from the cocktails she’d had at dinner, and had invited you over for ice cream at her place. But as soon as you’d sat down, she’d turned to you with her cheeks flushed and her lips parted just slightly.

“Can I kiss you?”

Your face had turned red and you’d felt yourself stuttering, not knowing what to do. You’d been tipsy too, so your brain was jumbled, not responding when you wanted it to. “Uh,” you’d said, and she’d turned up her lips to pout at you.

“Please? I wanna practice.”

Practice? What had that even meant? But it had been impossible to say no. You’d always been whipped for her. So you’d nodded your head, voice stuck in your throat, and let her kiss you. Her lips had been slightly chapped, but still soft, and she’d tasted like the Lavender Lemonades she’d had at dinner, those slender fingers coming up to play on the back of your neck.

That was how it had all started.

Heejin was hard to figure out. One minute, she’d tell you that she loved you or she’d grab your hand and hold it in public, and then the next, she’d laugh and call you her best friend. You never knew what she was actually thinking. Sometimes, you wondered if she did it all on purpose. How could she really not know what she was doing? But she always gave you such a sweet, innocent smile, making you doubt yourself.

She was a sweet girl. There was no way she’d lead you on. Not on purpose.

Right?

At first, it had only been when the two of you were tipsy. After parties, or after nights out together. It was stumbling into one of your apartments, laughing and grasping at each other without a care in the world, smelling of alcohol. Those nights always ended with her lips on yours, her hands tangled in your hair, and her eyes hooded, staring into yours and driving you crazy.

When it was just drunken make-outs, you were fine. Sure, the smell of her lingered on your sheets and on your clothes and in your head, and sometimes you’d wake up with a vivid picture of the night before playing in your head, but it was fine. It meant nothing. There were no feelings involved, it was just fun. You could face her again and know that it didn’t matter.

Then she started to hold your hand.

At first, you hadn’t thought much about that either. Friends held hands all the time, right? It left you flustered and nervous, but she meant nothing by it. It was just friendly.

It was when she pulled you down to kiss you and she didn’t taste like alcohol but like coffee and pastries, that you knew you were screwed. You couldn’t keep the feelings bottled up inside anymore, not when she was showing you affection sober. And now it hurt, because you knew she’d pull away and seconds later call you her friend.

But you couldn’t say no.

“(Y/N), look, I got us matching phone charms!” She smiled as she spoke, holding up two cute little characters dangling from a string. “A token of our friendship!”

Because you couldn’t do anything else, you smiled and accepted the charm she handed to you, looking down at its little winking face. “Thanks, I appreciate it.”

“Now everyone knows you’re mine,” she said, with a giggle and a wink, and your stomach twisted. You knew she didn’t mean it. “Aren’t they cute?”

“They are. Where did you get them?”

“This guy from my class took me to the aquarium.”

You raised your eyebrows. Felt your heart sink. “A date?”

“Yeah, I couldn’t say no.” She shrugged. “It was fun, but I think he knew at the end of it that I didn’t want him.”

“Oh.” So she’d gotten you a couple gift while out on a date with someone else. That didn’t settle well with you, but you said nothing. Because you knew you had no right to. Heejin wasn’t yours. She could go on dates if she wanted to. “Well, I’m glad you had fun.”

Heejin did this a lot. The amount of couple items she’d bought for the two of you was astounding. Your closet had plenty of matching sweaters and hoodies and shoes, and the two of you wore matching necklaces every day (at least, you were pretty sure she wore hers). But she acted like it was no big deal. This wasn’t the first time she’d bought matching items while on a date with someone else. It made you wonder if she was leading them on like she was with you.

“It would have been more fun if you were there.” She smiled as she spoke, reaching out to grab your hand, and you melted. You couldn’t be angry at her. Even if she always followed up that phrase with “because you’re my best friend!”

“I heard that Heejin went on a date the other day. Did the two of you break up?” Sooyoung was pretty and friendly, but the two of you weren’t close. You only knew her briefly, through your friend Jiwoo. So her question wasn’t that surprising. Even so, you couldn’t help but feel annoyed as you looked at her over your lunch. Was this what she’d invited you out to talk about?

“We were never a couple to begin with.”

“Really? But the two of you are, like, always together! You’re wearing a couple necklace right now. And Jiwoo said-.”

Your head snapped up. “Jiwoo said what?”

“She said that you liked her. So I just figured that the two of you were dating.” Her eyes were wide as she peered at you. “You’re seriously not?”

Even people around you had noticed. It didn’t help that Jiwoo had always known about your feelings for Heejin. With a sigh, you rubbed your face. “We’re seriously not together.” It hurt a bit to say, but you choked it out. “We’re just friends, Sooyoung.”

“Oh.” She looked like she wanted to say something more but she didn’t, pursing her lips instead. Even so, you knew what she was thinking.

She was confused. And honestly, so were you.

Eventually, it all began to build up inside you. The feelings, the secrets, the lies. They all grew and grew until your chest and shoulders felt heavy. Heejin occupied your thoughts at all hours of the day, and no matter how you tried, you couldn’t stop thinking about her. It was too much to handle. Too much to keep inside. Too much to keep quiet.

So one night, as the two of you sat on the couch, you let a little bit slip.

“Heejin, are we still just friends?”

She blinked, turning to look at you from where she was watching the movie, her eyes big. “Yes? What do you mean?”

Your heart shattered and you shook your head. “Nothing. It’s fine. I was just being silly.”

“Yes, you were. I’ll always be your friend.”

After that night, you found yourself avoiding Heejin, ignoring texts and calls and staying inside unless you had to go to work or to get groceries. You just couldn’t face seeing her again. Your heart hurt too much.

You knew it would probably hurt her. She was probably confused, wondering what she did wrong. But you still couldn’t bring yourself to pick up her calls or answer her questions. You were a coward, and you coped by ignoring the situation at hand.

After a few weeks of running and hiding, there was a knock at your door. And standing there when you opened it was Heejin. For a moment, you couldn’t breathe, just staring at her. It felt like it had been forever since you last saw her. She had her dark hair up into a ponytail, and her eyes were red. Like she’d just been crying.

It was the first time you’d seen her where she didn’t look perfect.

“You’ve been avoiding me.” She crossed her arms. “I’m not leaving until you tell me why.”

A million things ran through your head, and you found you were still afraid. Afraid of getting your heart broken, and afraid of ruining the friendship that you had with her. But you stepped aside anyway, letting her inside with your head hanging low.

“I’m sorry.”

“I want to know why.”

You bit your lip. This was it. You had no where else to run, no more lies to tell. You had to tell her the truth. “I was scared,” you said truthfully, not looking at her as you spoke. “I’ve liked you for a long time, Heejin. More than just as a friend. And it all got too much to handle. So I ran away. And I’m sorry that I didn’t tell you sooner but you always talked about how we were just friends. I couldn’t tell you.”

She was quiet for a moment. “You like me romantically? That’s why you ran away?”

“Yes.”

“You should have just told me. You dummy.” She let out a little half-sigh, half-sob, and you looked up to see her shaking her head. “I was so sure we were just friends because you never brought up anything. I kissed you and you acted like it was normal. I was so scared after that first kiss that you’d cut off our friendship, but you acted like nothing happened. So I just went along with it. I thought that you’d rather just be friends with benefits. I even tried to make you jealous but nothing worked so I thought you didn’t care about me that way!” She wiped at her eyes, and you panicked a little, grabbing the tissues and handing them to her.

“Don’t cry, please don’t cry. I’m sorry, I was dumb, I didn’t realize-.”

“You were dumb.” She sniffled. “But I still liked you. And I still like you now, even though I’m mad at you for disappearing on me like that.”

“I’m sorry,” you repeated, your shoulders drooping. Then what she’d said hit you. She still liked you. More than as a friend. She wasn’t going to break your heart.

“Do you understand now?”

“I do.” You nodded slowly. “We were really on different pages.”

“No kidding.” A little smile made its way onto her lips. “I’m so annoyed with you, but I can’t help wanting to kiss you.”

A flush made its way up your neck and cheeks, and you awkwardly cleared your throat. “Um, should we start over? Do this the right way?”

“What do you mean by that?”

“I mean.... Heejin, will you be my girlfriend?”

The smile widened. “Yes (Y/N), I will be your girlfriend. On one condition.”

“What’s that?”

“Promise me that you’ll never run away from me again.”

You were still a coward. But she held out her pinky finger, eagerness in her eyes, and you committed. For her, you’d become strong. “Never again,” you promised, locking your finger with hers.

“Can I kiss you now?” Still smiling, she moved to hold your hand instead, grasping you tightly, like she was still a little bit afraid. But so were you, just the tiniest bit. So you held onto her in return and nodded your head, diving into the deep end with her.

Maybe it would take a little bit of time to talk things through, and to mend the broken relationship. But things were looking up. The two of you were together. And you were happy with that.

#loona #heejin #femifics #loona scenarios #heejin scenarios #girl group scenarios #kpop scenario #girl groups #kpop girl groups

126 notes · View notes

stylesnews · 5 years

Link

Harry Styles rose to fame as a member of boy band One Direction, but in recent years the 25-year-old has broken away from his teen roots to forge a successful career of his own.

In 2017, Styles' hotly anticipated self-titled album debuted at the top of the Billboard 200 chart, featuring the hit singles “Sign Of Times” and “Kiwi.” Trading in polished pop songs for ones more reminiscent of ’70s British arena and classic rock, Styles’ newfound sound won over critics and fans as his supporting solo tour went on to sell nearly one million tickets.

Although Styles tends to steer clear of social media and any money-making sponsored content, he did make a rare statement in April on Twitter. Proving that his fame has kept him humble, Styles celebrated his gigantic fanbase and the birthday of his viral hit “Sign of the Times." He wrote, “Sign of the Times turned two today. Thank you for all the love since then, and for everything you’d done before. Love you all very much. H.”

Styles made his film debut in Christopher Nolan’s 2017 World War II drama Dunkirk. Now, it's rumored that he's in talks to star as Prince Eric in the live-action remake of the classic The Little Mermaid. He certainly has the luscious locks required to play a Disney prince.

The "Sweet Creature" singer is lauded for his fashion choices. He landed his second Gucci campaign for the Cruise 2019 Men’s Tailoring collection. Gucci isn’t the only sartorial powerhouse to have come knocking at his door, as Styles was the co-chair for the 2019 Met Gala alongside Anna Wintour, Serena Williams, Lady Gaga and Gucci designer Alessandro Michele.

He was executive producer on a short-lived CBS show called Happy Together. The show, which was canceled after just one season, was based loosely on his early One Direction days which saw him crash on his filmmaker friend’s couch for months despite his massive paycheck and celebrity status.

All of this success and the devotion of his fans converted to a pretty healthy bank balance - but how does it all break down?

What is Harry Styles’ net worth?

Since signing a solo deal with Colombia Records in 2016, according to the Sunday Times Rich List Styles' worth has accumulated to nearly $75 million.

The numbers make sense, considering the 24-year-old singer’s debut album was a mainstream success. Billboard reported that the album topped the charts with 230,000 equivalent album units earned in the first week alone. Even better, 193,000 of those units were in traditional album sales, earning Styles the biggest debut sales week for a U.K. male artist’s first full-length album since 1991.

While touring is the most lucrative income for musicians, Styles has used the opportunity to help others. Not only did his massive 90-show world tour sell nearly one million tickets, with the first leg of the tour selling out in 29 seconds, but it also raised $1.2 million in charity donations.

How much did Harry Styles earn from One Direction?

Right before One Direction announced their split, Forbes declared the band to be the highest paid celebrities under 30 in 2015. They collectively earned $130 million that year, beating out superstars Taylor Swift and Lady Gaga respectively.

And back in 2014, One Direction was reportedly walking away with $280k per day.

Did Harry earn more than his One Direction bandmates?

While each 1D member cultivated their own loyal fanbase that followed them on their solo ventures, Styles has reportedly earned the most.

This past October, Styles (once again) was named one of the richest celebrities under 30 in 2018, joining the ranks of Adele and Ed Sheeran.

It was determined that Styles was the richest One Direction member with his approximate $75 million net worth. He was followed by Niall Horan ($58 million), Louis Tomlinson ($56 million), Liam Payne ($55 million) and, perhaps surprisingly, Zayn Malik coming in last with $47 million.

Horan, Payne, and Malik have all released their own solo work, while Tomlinson has released a few singles and carved out a TV career as a judge on The X-Factor - though he's hinted that there's more music to come.

Where else has his money come from?

Outside of releasing music and touring, Styles earned money for his acting role in the war drama Dunkirk. It was one of the top-grossing box-officefilms of 2017, grossing $500 million worldwide. While many were skeptical of Nolan’s decision to cast the inexperienced singer, the director defended his decision and compared it to casting Heath Ledger in The Dark Knight.

“When I cast Heath Ledger as the Joker it raised a lot of eyebrows and caused a lot of comment,” he told Entertainment Tonight. “I have to trust my instincts, and Harry was perfect for this part. He pulled it off with incredible grace and reality.”

Outside of his signature red carpet style of playfully printed suits, Styles has courted the attention of the fashion world. The singer has fronted two menswear campaigns for Gucci (autumn/winter 2018 and Cruise 2019), with both becoming social media sensations thanks to his co-stars that included dogs, chickens, and pigs.

Styles also co-founded the company HSA Publishing Ltd. back in 2014, alongside Irish accountant Alan McEvoy.

How many properties does Harry Styles own?

Like most jet-setting celebrities, Styles has snapped up homes in New York, London and LA. Back in 2012, he purchased a $3 million four-bedroom bachelor pad in London that was dubbed a "Party Palace" by the press.

In 2017, Styles reportedly bought an $8 million condo in New York’s Tribeca neighborhood in the same building that houses celebrities including Justin Timberlake and Jennifer Lawrence.

When Styles began to split most of his time between New York and London, the singer decided to put his LA Sunset Strip mansion on the market for $8.45 million in May 2017, though he shaved a cool million off (plus a little more) a year and a half later when it didn't sell. He's currently listing the home for $7.495 million.

#harry styles #article #standard uk #aug19

28 notes · View notes

alwaysxyou · 5 years

Note

You know, what if Harry Styles tweeted that Kiwi walked so Watermelon Sweet could run, but its a slow song like Sweet Creature or something? I see you, harry styles, and anything regarding your music, i trust you as far as i can throw you

the only thing i feel confident in is based on kiwi, the title watermelon sugar has absolutely nothing to do with the song

#hs #asks #anon

6 notes · View notes

sharpiefaceontangerine · 5 years

Text

Harry Styles’ New Direction (Harry’s 2017 Feature in Rolling Stone)

(because apparently I didn’t have the full text on my tumblr and u can never be too careful)

January 2016. There’s a bench at the top of Primrose Hill, in London, that looks out over the skyline of the city. If you’d passed by it one winter night, you might have seen him sitting there. A lanky guy in a wool hat, overcoat and jogging pants, hands thrust deep into his pockets. Harry Styles had a lot on his mind. He had spent five years as the buoyant fan favorite in One Direction; now, an uncertain future stretched out in front of him. The band had announced an indefinite hiatus. The white noise of adulation was gone, replaced by the hushed sound of the city below.

The fame visited upon Harry Styles in his years with One D was a special kind of mania. With a self-effacing smile, a hint of darkness and the hair invariably described as “tousled,” he became a canvas onto which millions of fans pitched their hopes and dreams. Hell, when he pulled over to the side of the 101 freeway in L.A. and discreetly threw up, the spot became a fan shrine. It’s said the puke was even sold on eBay like pieces of the Berlin Wall. Paul McCartney has interviewed him. Then there was the unauthorized fan-fiction series featuring a punky, sexed-up version of “Harry Styles.” A billion readers followed his virtual exploits. (“Didn’t read it,” comments the nonfiction Styles, “but I hope he gets more than me.”)

But at the height of One D–mania, Styles took a step back. For many, 2016 was a year of lost musical heroes and a toxic new world order. For Styles, it was a search for a new identity that began on that bench overlooking London. What would a solo Harry Styles sound like? A plan came into focus. A song cycle about women and relationships. Ten songs. More of a rock sound. A bold single-color cover to match the working title: Pink. (He quotes the Clash’s Paul Simonon: “Pink is the only true rock & roll colour.”) Many of the details would change over the coming year – including the title, which would end up as Harry Styles – but one word stuck in his head.

“Honest,” he says, a year later, driving through midcity Los Angeles in a dusty black Range Rover. He’s lived here off and on for the past few years, always returning to London. Styles’ car stereo pumps a mix of country and obscure classic rock. “I didn’t want to write ‘stories,’ ” he says. “I wanted to write my stories, things that happened to me. The number-one thing was I wanted to be honest. I hadn’t done that before.” There isn’t a yellow light he doesn’t run as he speaks excitedly about the band he’s put together under the tutelage of producer Jeff Bhasker (The Rolling Stones, Kanye West, “Uptown Funk”). He’s full of stories about the two-month recording session last fall at Geejam, a studio and compound built into a mountainside near Port Antonio, a remote section of Jamaica. Drake and Rihanna have recorded there, and it’s where Styles produced the bulk of his new LP, which is due out May 12th. As we weave through traffic today, the album no one has heard is burning a hole in his iPhone.

We arrive at a crowded diner, and Styles cuts through the room holding a black notebook jammed with papers and artifacts from his album, looking like a college student searching for a quiet place to study. He’s here to do something he hasn’t done much of in his young career: an extended one-on-one interview. Often in the past there was another One D member to vector questions into a charmingly evasive display of band camaraderie. Today, Styles is a game but careful custodian of his words, sometimes silently consulting the tablecloth before answering. But as he recounts the events leading up to his year out of the spotlight, the layers begin to slip away.

It was in a London studio in late 2014 that Styles first brought up the idea of One Directiontaking a break. “I didn’t want to exhaust our fan base,” he explains. “If you’re shortsighted, you can think, ‘Let’s just keep touring,’ but we all thought too much of the group than to let that happen. You realize you’re exhausted and you don’t want to drain people’s belief in you.”

After much discussion, the band mutually agreed to a hiatus, which was announced in August 2015 (Zayn Malik had abruptly left One D several months earlier). Fans were traumatized by the band’s decision, but were let down easy with a series of final bows, including a tour that ran through October. Styles remains a One D advocate: “I love the band, and would never rule out anything in the future. The band changed my life, gave me everything.”

Harry Styles reveals the inspiration behind his new music. Here’s five things we learned about Harry Styles’ new album.

Still, a solo career was calling. “I wanted to step up. There were songs I wanted to write and record, and not just have it be ‘Here’s a demo I wrote.’ Every decision I’ve made since I was 16 was made in a democracy. I felt like it was time to make a decision about the future … and maybe I shouldn’t rely on others.”

As one of the most well-known 23-year-olds in the world, Styles himself is still largely unknown. Behind the effervescent stage persona, there is more lore than fact. He likes it that way. “With an artist like Prince,” he says, “all you wanted to do was know more. And that mystery – it’s why those people are so magical! Like, fuck, I don’t know what Prince eats for breakfast. That mystery … it’s just what I like.”

Styles pauses, savoring the idea of the unknown. He looks at my digital recorder like a barely invited guest. “More than ‘do you keep a mystery alive?’ – it’s not that. I like to separate my personal life and work. It helps, I think, for me to compartmentalize. It’s not about trying to make my career longer, like I’m trying to be this ‘mysterious character,’ because I’m not. When I go home, I feel like the same person I was at school. You can’t expect to keep that if you show everything. There’s the work and the personal stuff, and going between the two is my favorite shit. It’s amazing to me.”

Soon, we head to the Beachwood Canyon studio of Jeff Bhasker. As we arrive, Styles bounds up the steps to the studio, passing a bored pool cleaner. “How are ya,” he announces, unpacking a seriously cheerful smile. The pool cleaner looks perplexed, not quite sharing Styles’ existential joy.

Inside, the band awaits. Styles opens his notebook and heads for the piano. He wants to finish a song he’d started earlier that day. It’s obvious that the band has a well-worn frat-house dynamic, sort of like the Beatles in Help!, as directed by Judd Apatow. Styles is, to all, “H.” Pomegranate-scented candles flicker around the room. Bhasker enters, with guru-length hair, multicolored shirt, red socks and sandals. He was initially busy raising a new baby with his partner, the singer and songwriter Lykke Li, so he guided Styles to two of his producer-player protégés, Alex Salibian and Tyler Johnson, as well as engineer and bassist Ryan Nasci. The band began to form. The final piece of the puzzle was Mitch Rowland, Styles’ guitarist, who had worked in a pizza joint until two weeks into the sessions. “Being around musicians like this had a big effect on me,” Styles says. “Not being able to pass an instrument without sitting down and playing it?” He shakes his head. It was Styles’ first full immersion into the land of musos, and he clearly can’t get enough.

Styles starts singing some freshly written lyrics. It’s a new song called “I Don’t Want to Be the One You’re Waiting On.” His voice sounds warm, burnished and intimate, not unlike early Rod Stewart. The song is quickly finished, and the band assembles for a playback of the album.

“Mind if I play it loud?” asks Bhasker. It’s a rhetorical question. Nasci cranks “Sign of the Times,” the first single, to a seismic level. The song began as a seven-minute voice note on Styles’ phone, and ended up as a sweeping piano ballad, as well as a kind of call to arms. “Most of the stuff that hurts me about what’s going on at the moment is not politics, it’s fundamentals,” Styles says. “Equal rights. For everyone, all races, sexes, everything. … ’Sign of the Times’ came from ‘This isn’t the first time we’ve been in a hard time, and it’s not going to be the last time.’ The song is written from a point of view as if a mother was giving birth to a child and there’s a complication. The mother is told, ‘The child is fine, but you’re not going to make it.’ The mother has five minutes to tell the child, ‘Go forth and conquer.'” The track was a breakthrough for both the artist and the band. “Harry really led the charge with that one, and the rest of the album,” says Bhasker.

“I wish the album could be called Sign of the Times,” Styles declares.

“I don’t know,” says Bhasker. “I mean, it has been used.“

They debate for a bit. Nasci plays more tracks. The songs range from full-on rock (“Kiwi”) to intricate psychedelic pop (“Meet Me in the Hallway”) to the outright confessional (“Ever Since New York,” a desperate meditation on loss and longing). The lyrics are full of details and references – secrets whispered between friends, doomed declarations of love, empty swimming pools – sure to set fans scrambling for the facts behind the mystery.

“Of course I’m nervous,” Styles admits, jingling his keys. “I mean, I’ve never done this before. I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing. I’m happy I found this band and these musicians, where you can be vulnerable enough to put yourself out there. I’m still learning … but it’s my favorite lesson.”

The album is a distinct departure from the dance pop that permeates the airwaves. “A lot of my influences, and the stuff that I love, is older,” he says. “So the thing I didn’t want to do was, I didn’t want to put out my first album and be like, ‘He’s tried to re-create the Sixties, Seventies, Eighties, Nineties.’ Loads of amazing music was written then, but I’m not saying I wish I lived back then. I wanted to do something that sounds like me. I just keep pushing forward.”

“It’s different from what you’d expect,” Bhasker says. “It made me realize the Harry [in One D] was kind of the digitized Harry. Almost like a character. I don’t think people know a lot of the sides of him that are on this album. You put it on and people are like, ‘This is Harry Styles?’ ”

Styles is aware that his largest audience so far has been young – often teenage – women. Asked if he spends pressure-filled evenings worried about proving credibility to an older crowd, Styles grows animated. “Who’s to say that young girls who like pop music – short for popular, right? – have worse musical taste than a 30-year-old hipster guy? That’s not up to you to say. Music is something that’s always changing. There’s no goal posts. Young girls like the Beatles. You gonna tell me they’re not serious? How can you say young girls don’t get it? They’re our future. Our future doctors, lawyers, mothers, presidents, they kind of keep the world going. Teenage-girl fans – they don’t lie. If they like you, they’re there. They don’t act ‘too cool.’ They like you, and they tell you. Which is sick.“

Styles drives to a quiet dinner spot in Laurel Canyon, at the foot of Lookout Mountain Avenue, onetime home to many of his Seventies songwriting heroes. He used to have a place around the corner. As the later tours of One Direction grew larger, longer and more frenetic, he offers with irony, “It was very rock & roll.” He’s not a heavy drinker, he says, maybe some tequila on ice or wine with friends after a show, but by the band’s last tour there wasn’t much time even for that. John Lennon once told Rolling Stone that behind the curtain, the Beatles’ tours were like Fellini’s Satyricon. Styles counters that the One D tours were more like “a Wes Anderson movie. Cut. Cut. New location. Quick cut. New location. Cut. Cut. Show. Shower. Hard cut. Sleep.”

Finding a table, Styles leans forward and discusses his social-media presence, or lack thereof. Styles and his phone have a bittersweet, mature relationship – they spend a lot of time apart. He doesn’t Google himself, and checks Twitter infrequently. “I’ll tell you about Twitter,” he continues, discussing the volley of tweets, some good, some cynical, that met his endorsement of the Women’s March on Washington earlier this year. “It’s the most incredible way to communicate closely with people, but not as well as in person.” When the location of his London home was published a few years ago, he was rattled. His friend James Corden offered him a motto coined by British Prime Minister Benjamin Disraeli: “Never complain, never explain.”

I mention a few of the verbal Molotov cocktails Zayn Malik has tossed at the band in recent interviews. Here’s one: “[One D is] not music that I would listen to. If I was sat at a dinner date with a girl, I would play some cool shit, you know what I mean? I want to make music that I think is cool shit. I don’t think that’s too much to ask for.”

Styles adjusts himself in his chair. “I think it’s a shame he felt that way,” he says, threading the needle of diplomacy, “but I never wish anything but luck to anyone doing what they love. If you’re not enjoying something and need to do something else, you absolutely should do that. I’m glad he’s doing what he likes, and good luck to him.”

Perched on his head are the same-style white sunglasses made famous by Kurt Cobain, but the similarities end right there. Styles, born two months before Cobain exited Earth, doesn’t feel tied to any particular genre or era. In the car, he’ll just as easily crank up the country music of Keith Whitley as the esoteric blues-and-soul of Shuggie Otis. He even bought a carrot cake to present to Stevie Nicks at a Fleetwood Mac concert. (“Piped her name onto it. She loved it. Glad she liked carrot cake.”)

This much is clear: The classic role of tortured artist is not one he’ll be playing. “People romanticize places they can’t get to themselves,” he says. “That’s why it’s fascinating when people go dark – when Van Gogh cuts off his ear. You romanticize those people, sometimes out of proportion. It’s the same with music. You want a piece of that darkness, to feel their pain but also to step back into your own [safer] life. I can’t say I had that. I had a really nice upbringing. I feel very lucky. I had a great family and always felt loved. There’s nothing worse than an inauthentic tortured person. ‘They took my allowance away, so I did heroin.’ It’s like – that’s not how it works. I don’t even remember what the question was.”

Styles wanders into the Country Store next door. It’s a store he knows well. Inspecting the shelves, he asks if I’ve had British rice pudding. He finds a can that looks ancient. He collects a roll of Rowntrees Fruit Pastilles (“since 1881”), Lindor Swiss chocolates (“irresistibly smooth”) and a jar of Branston Pickles. “There’s only two shops in L.A. that stock all the British snacks. This area’s kind of potluck,” he says, spreading the collection on the counter.

The clerk rings up the snacks. In the most careful, deferential way, the young worker asks the question. “Would you … happen to be … Harry Styles?”

“Yep.”

“Could I get a selfie?” Styles obliges, and leans over the counter. Click. We exit into the Laurel Canyon evening.

“Hey,” shouts a grizzled-looking dude on the bench outside the store. “Do you know who you look like?”

Styles turns, expecting more of the same, but this particular night denizen is on a different track.

“River Phoenix,” the man announces, a little sadly. “You ever heard of him? If he hadn’t have passed, I would have said that was you. Talented guy.”

“Yes, he was,” agrees Styles, who is in many ways the generational opposite of Phoenix. “Yes, he was.”

They share a silent moment, before Styles walks to his car. He hands me the bag filled with English snacks. “This is for you,” he says. “This was my youth …”

Harry Edward Styles was born in Worcestershire, England, in true classic-rock form, on a Tuesday Afternoon. The family moved to Cheshire, a quiet spot in Northern England, when he was a baby. His older sister, Gemma, was the studious one. (“She was always smarter than me, and I was always jealous of that.”)

His father, Desmond, worked in finance. He was a fan of the Rolling Stones, Fleetwood Mac, a lot of Queen, and Pink Floyd. Young Harry toddled around to The Dark Side of the Moon. “I couldn’t really get it,” he says, “but I just remember being like – this is really fucking cool. Then my mom would always have Shania Twain, and Savage Garden, Norah Jones going on. I had a great childhood. I’ll admit it.”

But in fact, all was not perfection, scored to a cool, retro soundtrack. When Harry was seven, his parents explained to him that Des would be moving out. Asked about that moment today, Styles stares straight ahead. “I don’t remember,” he says. “Honestly, when you’re that young, you can kind of block it out. … I can’t say that I remember the exact thing. I didn’t realize that was the case until just now. Yeah, I mean, I was seven. It’s one of those things. Feeling supported and loved by my parents never changed.”

His eyes moisten a little, but unlike the young man who wept over an early bout with Internet criticism, a powerful moment in the early One Direction documentary A Year in the Making,Styles tonight knocks back the sentiment. Styles is still close with his father, and served as best man to his mom when she remarried a few years ago. “Since I’ve been 10,” he reflects, “it’s kind of felt like – protect Mom at all costs. … My mom is very strong. She has the greatest heart. [Her house in Cheshire] is where I want to go when I want to spend some time.”

In his early teens, Styles joined some school friends as the singer in a mostly-covers band, White Eskimo. “We wrote a couple of songs,” he remembers. “One was called ‘Gone in a Week.’ It was about luggage. ‘I’ll be gone in a week or two/Trying to find myself someplace new/I don’t need any jackets or shoes/The only luggage I need is you.'” He laughs. “I was like, ‘Sick.'”

It was his mother who suggested he try out for the U.K. singing competition The X Factor to compete in the solo “Boy” category. Styles sang Stevie Wonder’s “Isn’t She Lovely.” The unforgiving reaction from one of the judges, Louis Walsh, is now infamous. Watching the video today is to watch young Harry’s cheery disposition take a hot bullet.

“In that instant,” he says, “you’re in the whirlwind. You don’t really know what’s happening; you’re just a kid on the show. You don’t even know you’re good at anything. I’d gone because my mum told me I was good from singing in the car … but your mum tells you things to make you feel good, so you take it with a pinch of salt. I didn’t really know what I was expecting when I went on there.”

Styles didn’t advance in the competition, but Simon Cowell, the show’s creator, sensed a crowd favorite. He put Styles together with four others who’d failed to advance in the same category, and united the members of One D in a musical shotgun marriage. The marriage worked. And worked. And worked.

You wonder how a young musician might find his way here, to these lofty peaks, with his head still attached to his shoulders. No sex tapes, no TMZ meltdowns, no tell-all books written by the rehab nanny? In a world where one messy scandal can get you five seasons of a hit reality show … how did Harry Styles slip through the juggernaut?

“Family,” answers Ben Winston. “It comes from his mom, Anne. She brought him and his sister up incredibly well. Harry would choose boring over exciting … There is more chance of me going to Mars next week than there is of Harry having some sort of addiction.”

We’re in Television City, Hollywood. Winston, 35, the Emmy-winning executive producer of TheLate Late Show With James Corden, abandons his desk and retreats to a nearby sofa to discuss his good friend. More than a friend, Styles became an unlikely family member – after he became perhaps the world’s most surprising houseguest.

Their friendship was forged in the early stages of One D’s success, when the band debuted on The X Factor. Winston, then a filmmaker and production partner with Corden, asked for a meeting, and instantly hit it off with the group. He became a friendly mentor to Styles, though the friendship was soon tested. Styles had just moved out of his family home in Cheshire, an inconvenient three hours north of London. He found a home he liked near the Winstons in Hampstead Heath. The new house needed two weeks of work. Styles asked if he could briefly move in with Winston and his wife, Meredith. “She agreed,” Winston says, “but only for two weeks.”

Styles parked his mattress in the Winstons’ attic. “Two weeks later and he hadn’t bought his house yet,” continues Winston. “It wasn’t going through. Then he said, ‘I’m going to stay until Christmas, if you don’t mind.’ Then Christmas came, and …”

For the next 20 months, one of the most desired stars on the planet slept on a small mattress in an attic. The only other bit of house-dressing was the acoustic guitar that would rattle into the Winstons’ bedroom. While fans gathered at the empty house where he didn’t live, Styles lived incognito with a couple 12 years his senior. The Winstons’ Orthodox Jewish lifestyle, with a strong family emphasis, helped keep him sane.

“Those 20 months were when they went from being on a reality show, X Factor, to being the biggest-selling artists in the world,” recalls Winston. “That period of time, he was living with us in the most mundane suburban situation. No one ever found out, really. Even when we went out for a meal, it’s such a sweet family neighborhood, no one dreamed it was actually him. But he made our house a home. And when he moved out, we were gutted.”

Styles jauntily appears at the Late Late office. He’s clearly a regular visitor, and he and Winston have a brotherly shorthand.

“Leaving Saturday?” asks Winston.

“Yeah, gotta buy a cactus for my friend’s birthday,” says Styles.

“My dad might be on your flight,” says Winston.

“The 8:50? That’d be sick.”

Winston continues the tales from the attic. “So we had this joke. Meri and I would like to see the girls that you would come back with to the house. That was always what we enjoyed, because we’d be in bed like an old couple. We’d have our spot cream on our faces and we’d be in our pajamas and the door would go off. The stairwell was right outside our door, so we’d wait to see if Harry was coming home alone or with people.”

“I was alone,” notes Styles. “I was scared of Meri.”

“He wasn’t always alone,” corrects Winston, “but it was exciting seeing the array of A-listers that would come up and sleep in the attic. Or he’d come and lounge with us. We’d never discuss business. He would act as if he hadn’t come back from playing to 80,000 people three nights in a row in Rio de Janeiro.”

“Let’s go to the beach,” says Styles, pulling the Range Rover onto a fog-soaked Pacific Coast Highway. Last night was his tequila-fueled birthday party, filled with friends and karaoke and a surprise drop-in from Adele. He’s now officially 23. “And not too hung over,” he notes.

Styles finds a spot at a sushi place up the coast. As he passes through the busy dining room, a businessman turns, recognizing him with a face that says: My kids love this guy! I ask Styles what he hears most from the parents of young fans. “They say, ‘I see your cardboard face every fucking day.’ ” He laughs. “I think they want me to apologize.”

The subject today is relationships. While Styles says he still feels like a newcomer to all that, a handful of love affairs have deeply affected him. The images and stolen moments tumble extravagantly through the new songs: And promises are broken like a stitch is … I got splinters in my knuckles crawling ‘cross the floor/Couldn’t take you home to mother in a skirt that short/But I think that’s what I like about it … I see you gave him my old T-shirt, more of what was once mine … That black notebook, you sense, is filled with this stuff.

“My first proper girlfriend,” he remembers, “used to have one of those laughs. There was also a little bit of mystery with her because she didn’t go to our school. I just worshipped the ground she walked on. And she knew, probably to a fault, a little. That was a tough one. I was 15.

“She used to live an hour and a half away on the train, and I worked in a bakery for three years. I’d finish on Saturdays at 4:30 and it was a 4:42 train, and if I missed it there wasn’t one for another hour or two. So I’d finish and sprint to the train station. Spent 70 percent of my wages on train tickets. Later, I’d remember her perfume. Little things. I smell that perfume all the time. I’ll be in a lift or a reception and say to someone, ‘Alien, right?’ And sometimes they’re impressed and sometimes they’re a little creeped out. ‘Stop smelling me.'”

If Styles hadn’t yet adapted to global social-media attention, he was tested in 2012, when he met Taylor Swift at an awards show. Their second date, a walk in Central Park, was caught by paparazzi. Suddenly the couple were global news. They broke up the next month, reportedly after a rocky Caribbean vacation; the romance was said to have ended with at least one broken heart.

The relationship is a subject he’s famously avoided discussing. “I gotta pee first. This might be a long one,” he says. He rises to head to the bathroom, then adds, “Actually, you can say, ‘He went for a pee and never came back.’ ”

He returns a couple of minutes later. “Thought I’d let you stew for a while,” he says, laughing, then takes a gulp of green juice. He was surprised, he says, when photos from Central Park rocketed around the world. “When I see photos from that day,” he says, “I think: Relationships are hard, at any age. And adding in that you don’t really understand exactly how it works when you’re 18, trying to navigate all that stuff didn’t make it easier. I mean, you’re a little bit awkward to begin with. You’re on a date with someone you really like. It should be that simple, right? It was a learning experience for sure. But at the heart of it – I just wanted it to be a normal date.”

He’s well aware that at least two of Swift’s songs – “Out of the Woods” and “Style” – are considered to be about their romance. (“You’ve got that long hair slicked back, white T-shirt,” she sang in “Style.”) “I mean, I don’t know if they’re about me or not …” he says, attempting gallant discretion, “but the issue is, she’s so good, they’re bloody everywhere.” He smiles. “I write from my experiences; everyone does that. I’m lucky if everything [we went through] helped create those songs. That’s what hits your heart. That’s the stuff that’s hardest to say, and it’s the stuff I talk least about. That’s the part that’s about the two people. I’m never going to tell anybody everything.” (Fans wondered whether “Perfect,” a song Styles co-wrote for One Direction, might have been about Swift: “And if you like cameras flashing every time we go out/And if you’re looking for someone to write your breakup songs about/Baby, I’m perfect.”)

Was he able to tell her that he admired the songs? “Yes and no,” he says after a long pause. “She doesn’t need me to tell her they’re great. They’re great songs … It’s the most amazing unspoken dialogue ever.”

Is there anything he’d want to say to Swift today? “Maybe this is where you write down that I left!” He laughs, and looks off. “I don’t know,” he finally says. “Certain things don’t work out. There’s a lot of things that can be right, and it’s still wrong. In writing songs about stuff like that, I like tipping a hat to the time together. You’re celebrating the fact it was powerful and made you feel something, rather than ‘this didn’t work out, and that’s bad.’ And if you run into that person, maybe it’s awkward, maybe you have to get drunk … but you shared something. Meeting someone new, sharing those experiences, it’s the best shit ever. So thank you.”

He notes a more recent relationship, possibly over now, but significant for the past few years. (Styles has often been spotted with Kendall Jenner, but he won’t confirm that’s who he’s talking about.) “She’s a huge part of the album,” says Styles. “Sometimes you want to tip the hat, and sometimes you just want to give them the whole cap … and hope they know it’s just for them.”

In late February 2016, Styles landed a plum part in Christopher Nolan’s upcoming World War II epic, Dunkirk. In Nolan, Styles found a director equally interested in mystery. “The movie is so ambitious,” he says. “Some of the stuff they’re doing in this movie is insane. And it was hard, man, physically really tough, but I love acting. I love playing someone else. I’d sleep really well at night, then get up and continue drowning.”

When Styles returned to L.A., an idea landed. The idea was: Get out of Dodge. Styles called his manager, Jeffrey Azoff, and explained he wanted to finish the album outside London or L.A., a place where the band could focus and coalesce. Four days after returning from the movie, they were on their way to Port Antonio on Jamaica’s remote north coast. At Geejam, Styles and his entire band were able to live together, turning the studio compound into something like a Caribbean version of Big Pink. They occupied a two-story villa filled with instruments, hung out at the tree-house-like Bush Bar, and had access to the gorgeous studio on-site. Many mornings began with a swim in the deserted cove just down the hill.

Life in Jamaica was 10 percent beach party and 90 percent musical expedition. It was the perfect rite of passage for a musician looking to explode the past and launch a future. The anxiety of what’s next slipped away. Layers of feeling emerged that had never made it past One Direction’s group songwriting sessions, often with pop craftsmen who polished the songs after Styles had left. He didn’t feel stifled in One D, he says, as much as interrupted. “We were touring all the time,” he recalls. “I wrote more as we went, especially on the last two albums.” There are songs from that period he loves, he says, like “Olivia” and “Stockholm Syndrome,” along with the earlier song “Happily.” “But I think it was tough to really delve in and find out who you are as a writer when you’re just kind of dipping your toe each time. We didn’t get the six months to see what kind of shit you can work with. To have time to live with a song, see what you love as a fan, chip at it, hone it and go for that … it’s heaven.”

The more vulnerable the song, he learned, the better. “The one subject that hits the hardest is love,” he says, “whether it’s platonic, romantic, loving it, gaining it, losing it … it always hits you hardest. I don’t think people want to hear me talk about going to bars, and how great everything is. The champagne popping … who wants to hear about it? I don’t want to hear my favorite artists talk about all the amazing shit they get to do. I want to hear, ‘How did you feel when you were alone in that hotel room, because you chose to be alone?'”

To wind down in Jamaica, Styles and Rowland, the guitarist, began a daily Netflix obsession with sugary romantic comedies. Houseworkers would sometimes leave at night and return the next morning to see Styles blearily removing himself from a long string of rom-coms. He declares himself an expert on Nicholas Sparks, whom he now calls “Nicky Spee.” After almost two months, the band left the island with a bounty of songs and stories. Like the time Styles ended up drunk and wet from the ocean, toasting everybody, wearing a dress he’d traded with someone’s girlfriend. “I don’t remember the toast,” he says, “but I remember the feeling.”

Christmas 2016. Harry Styles was parked outside his childhood home, sitting next to his father. They were listening to his album. After lunch at a pub, they had driven down their old street and landed in front of the family home. Staring out at the house where Styles grew up listening to his father’s copy of The Dark Side of the Moon, there was much to consider. It was a long way he’d traveled in those fast few years since “Isn’t She Lovely.” He’d previously played the new album for his mother, on a stool, in the living room, on cheap speakers. She’d cried hearing “Sign of the Times.” Now he sat with his father – who liked the new song “Carolina” best – both having come full circle.

Styles is moved as he describes how he felt. We’re sitting in Corden’s empty office, talking over a few last subjects before he returns to England. “I think, as a parent, especially with the band stuff, it was such a roller coaster,” he says. “I feel like they were always thinking, ‘OK, this ride could stop at any point and we’re going to have to be there when it does.’ There was something about playing the album and how happy I was that told them, ‘If all I get is to make this music, I’m content. If I’m never on that big ride again, I’m happy and proud of it.’

“I always said, at the very beginning, all I wanted was to be the granddad with the best stories … and the best shelf of artifacts and bits and trinkets.”

Tomorrow night he’ll hop a flight back to England. Rehearsals await. Album-cover choices need to be made. He grabs his black notebook and turns back for a moment before disappearing down the hallway, into the future.

“How am I going to be mysterious,” he asks, only half-joking, “when I’ve been this honest with you?”

#HOW AM I GONNA BE MYSTERIOUS WHEN IVE BEEN THIS HONEST WITH U #thank u rolling stone #delivering us the harry content we deserve #i reread this whenever im down #and u should too #sigh #thanks cameron #and rob #haz #harry styles #rolling stone #harry styles rolling stone

3 notes · View notes