#this happened yesterday but haven't had time/energy to post yet

[fictionalred]

having irl friends has irl consequences

ephron got made best man (and so has to give a speech at wedding and organise bachelor party) and I got put in charge of the partner's bachelor's party

We are honoured and stressed and (apparently???) loved and we fortunately have over a year to plan

#fr #people? like??? /us/????? w h a t #this happened yesterday but haven't had time/energy to post yet #also met up with some friends originally met on tumblr today and like <333 #impressive & lovely friends! #like I am socially exhausted #which sucks cause ephron's parents will be over tomorrow #but also really happy rn

[sirilush]

☆Sweet☆

♡Akutagawa x GN!Reader♡

♡Oneshot♡

Warnings: possible bad grammer/writing, You/Your being used to address reader, Slight angst (?) But has fluff at the end, implied injures, bandages, casts, possible OOC Akutagawa, and definitely not proofread.

This takes place right after the end of season 1. This can be read as platonically or romantically.

A/N: This is my first one-shot I'm posting ever on my tumbler. It's probably wattpad material since I don't think I'm the greatest at writing stories to be completely honest. I haven't written all that much, probably the last time I wrote a fanfiction was like when I was in middle school. I was also writing this at midnight, so it's most likely pretty bland. I mostly wrote this since I had an idea in my mind in the middle of the night, and I just went for it.

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Annoying birds could be heard chirping this bright morning and the high-pitched beating from a heart monitor, too. It was not usual to hear each morning to many, but it has become too familiar in your daily routine.

The sickly white bedsheets blended with Akutagawa's complexion, as he lay on an uncomfortable-looking bed. He was wrapped with bandages, and you could have sworn that he would be able to beat the infamous bandaged wasting machine from the Armed Detective Agency. It has been a few days since Akutagawa came to be here. And only a couple of days before he had awoken. Yet he hasn’t said a thing, not even to the nurses that had been nursing him back to health. Nor to you, who have been coming to visit every morning and every night.

It wasn’t uncommon for Akutagawa to not speak to his fellow peers, but something to you felt off about his silence. It was like he had something on his mind, yet he dared not say what it was. Although recently, there had been some progress, even though his only responses were groans and annoyed huffs.

Another day of you sitting on the chair beside the port mafia’s black dog. He still doesn't dare to speak up or take any action to look at you. He just stares at the wall in thought, as his mind goes into turmoil. His mind went to his last confrontation with the weretiger that happened not so long ago. Even he couldn’t deny what he had felt. Once Atsushi brought his final blow to Akutagawa, he felt like he failed again. He failed again to take down Atsushi. He failed to live up to Dazai’s expectations. And he failed himself. He was foolish and weak. At least, that is what Akutagawa told himself.

Even though he thought he was secretive about his own emotions, you could read him like a book sometimes. Not all the time, but that face he made as he looked at that boring old wall that had chipped paint across it, could tell you all you needed to know.

“You look a little more sour than yesterday.” You leaned your elbow on the armrest of the dingy chair you sat on. Your hand prompts up your head as your gaze meets the side of the pale man's cheek. “And I thought yesterday was already sour enough.”

Akutagawa rolls his eyes in annoyance. You always had the weirdest ways of explaining his emotions. If he could, he would slap his hand to his forehead if he had the energy to. Yet again, he stayed quiet as you rambled about.

“How have you been so far? Feeling any better recently?”

No answer.

“Can you shake your head yes or no? If it’s easier for you…”

Yet again, no answer. It seems like he was completely absorbed in his own thoughts. It looks like another day of him not speaking to you, or anyone for that matter. Even if Dazai came into this room right now to give him praise, Akutagawa won’t even acknowledge his mentor's presence.

You let out a small sigh as you realized there will probably be no progress for today with Akutagawa. You reached into your bag, bringing out a small box, placing it on the side table nearest to his bed.

“I got something for you. I don’t know if you would like it, since I’m not sure how they taste… Make sure to not let the nurses know I snuck it in, okay?”

He gave you no reaction to the sudden gift, maybe he was still stuck in his mind. So you gave up for today, of finally being able to talk to the man. You got up and headed to the infirmary door, but not before looking back, hoping that maybe, just maybe he would say something to you. Just something, anything, even if it was just one word.

But yet still nothing.

“I’ll come back later to check up on you. Don’t try anything while I’m gone, okay?”

Still no answer. You then left the infirmary, carefully closing the door as you headed out.

As you left, Akutagawa finally looked somewhere other than the wall in front of him. First, he looked at the door you left through, and then his gaze went to the box that sat on the bedside table. With his one free hand that wasn’t in a stiff cast. He reached over and picked up the small box. He shook it a bit, to hear rumbling inside like there were small little pieces jumping around. As he opened it up, it was small pieces of lightly coated sugar figs inside.

He took one out of the container and popped it into his mouth.

“...It’s sweet…”

He mumbled out while taking another small fig peice out of the small box.

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A/N: If you made it this far, thanks for reading! Idk if this was any good, and if you have any constructive criticism, I would like to hear it. I definitely want to improve on my writing skills and make some small fanfics every now and then.

#akutagawa x reader #akutagawa ryunosuke x reader #akutagawa ryuunosuke #ryunosuke akutagawa #bsd akutagawa #gn reader #akutagawa fluff #akutagawa angst #bsd fanfic #fluff #angst #bungo stray dogs #siri's fanfics

[thequietsoliloquy]

I'm currently in the process of teaching myself to be bored again. I get pretty easily taken by the mindless scrolling/clicking on the next video and I decided to block/delete the apps and websites that have been problematic that way for me for a while. Yesterday was the first day and went pretty well, but today? All I want is to let my subscriptions and the algorithm tell me what to watch (which happens more often on my low energy days). It's not to the point that I won't do anything else at least, but the desire is there.

I know staying away from apps that bring us momentary distraction but no significant joy is a struggle for a lot of people and it sucks that it feels like it's a failure on my part when I feel this way. But it doesn't matter really whether the failure is mine or not. I want to use my creativity more often, be bored enough that chores don't feel like chores but like things that actively improve my quality of life, read more, etc. Tumblr isn't a problem for me because I curated the shit out of my experience here and I genuinely enjoy posting on my little blog but the rest? Unnecessary for my happiness. Actively bad for my happiness in fact. An hour or so here and there can feel fun, especially when I've been doing my own thing for most of the day, but I did notice that the more time I spend scrolling, the lower my energy gets and the lower my energy gets, the more time I end up scrolling. Vicious circle. And I want to feel lasting happiness and contentment, damn it.

I did the "quitting for a week" thing before, and it helped, but the quitting for me is like anxiety medication: going back to normal because I feel fine is *not* the good way to go. So I want to avoid the whole thing for longer this time. A month. Three probably. A year. I had thought about allowing myself to use them on the weekends, but even then, for what? So no, no weekends allowed either. I want to see how I fill up my time on the daily, weekends included, without using those apps. I got dozens of books on my shelves I haven't read yet. Stories I want to write. Skills I want to learn.

So fuck the noise, my time here is limited and I intend to truly enjoy myself. Even if I get bored in the process.

#personal stuff #social media struggle #boredom #fomo #journaling #I suppose

[fledglingmaster]

I don't like putting a lot of negativity out and I prefer balance...so I'm going to highlight the good that has happened as well lately. (Mostly talk of birds.)

My stress relief is being in nature. After last week I needed to spend time outside. Plus, I need to get back into the habit of walking. Most of the snow has melted for now.

A few days ago I went for a walk. The place I usually go has some main paved trails that take you around but there are also more natural paths in wooded areas. I enjoy walking both.

There's a local witch that likes hiding crystals for people to find and keep every once and a while. It's just a nice thing to do and it's business promo. She puts them in areas that people usually walk, so not super tucked away. Because of this I haven't found any myself, early bird gets the worm as they say. But I did find a tiny pink dyed heart! I believe it's quartz though it could be agate. Such a small thing but I about cried.

Then I saw my first wild bald eagle. I was seeking a pileated woodpecker, they're fairly elusive around here. I spotted one some months back. My mom also spotted one a few days prior around the same area. As I was looking for a woodpecker, maybe a hawk if I was lucky as they like the same area, an eagle flies over my head! I was in shock! I'm nearing 32 and I've never seen one in the wild, let alone have one fly over. I didn't get a photo but I had the experience, it meant a lot considering everything I've recently gone through.

I continued my walk and ran into the herd of 5 deer that I've been missing dearly. (Thank you, I'll see myself out.) I was able to get pretty close. I think I took my best deer photo yet from one that decided to rest in front of me. I felt so honored. As I'm walking back on the paved trail I hear the eagle vocalizing. If you know what bald eagles sound like, it is the weirdest, dolphin-esque, "that is not a bird" sound. In media, for whatever reason, most birds of prey you hear are actually dubbed over with the cry of a red-tailed hawk. I mean their screams are impressive...still I'd rather hear the bird's actual call. Anyway, the sound came from the river. I've been sharpening my location skills, I'm decent at finding where sounds are coming from. I was able to follow along the river and spot the eagle on the other side. As far away as the eagle was, my photos are poor quality. But once again, just seeing the eagle was magical. I haven't taken the pictures off my camera yet, once I do I'll post them on here.

With all of that happening in one day, I'm taking it as a sign that things are going to be okay.

So yesterday, I went back hoping to see the eagle or deer. If not, just being in nature is lovely. I did find the deer again. I swear it's like they have a gps on them as I'm just pulled to where they are. Deer energy is different from any other animal or human. I never knew how much I connected to them until this summer. After I spent some time with them I heard a woodpecker knocking. I followed it hoping for a pileated but expecting a downy as we have many of them. They're very cute. It was neither! It was a red-bellied woodpecker. They were too high up to get a good photo, but I was able to positively identify them. I'm starting to think I should have an official list to check off for birding.

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Also, I'm so close to being done with work on my teeth. I'm really hoping I can have my smile back by summer. If not, at least I'm closer and I should have my denture this year for sure.

#personal

[froqgy]

tunic spoilers (not finished game yet) (long post ahead)

i wish i could've added more logs so far but i never got around to it.. i made a lot of progress 👍 i went so far with a stick 💀i headed toward the frog domain and stealthed around to unlock the place where u need to put the orb.. with a stick...yeah it was grueling. it was a mad dash for opening the gate though it was insane that i pulled it off... and then i realized i wasn't streaming for roger so i reenacted it with stuff i had on my desk.. i explored probably most of the atoll with a stick 😭

also i was worried whether or not spending the items at the altars would upgrade or sell.. initially i assumed it was the first but then i was like what if it was the second.. i finally got around to upgrading oh my god. also equipping cards. also estus flasks. i went through these two areas with a stick and no upgrades of any kind it was insane but now i can kill anything (not true) and i went mad with power (semi true).

since i forgot where the orb was i headed back to the first area and lo and behold made some actual progress -> east garden -> beneath the well -> dark tomb.. now i'm trying to figure out how to advance in the west garden so... also i need to use more bombs so bad so i can figure out what the prize is.

i don't have much thoughts or speculation for the story.. here are some bits and pieces. i went in only knowing that it was wayneradio's game of the year and that it's a game you have to go in blind and he was really insistent (and defensive) when someone said the game was awful or something that they didn't "play enough".. so i went in expecting this to be a time of subversion of le genre and/or something that would blow my mind i wanna knowww

also i watched a trailer of tunic in some indies game list video a little while ago and the only thing i remember was this

so 👍 the manual is very cute and how it has pen marks and stuff and that you can lower it to see the crt(?) tv that you're playing the game on.. i think that probably would have some relation to the Big Thing this game will do.. i'm glad the game has an invincible mode as an option shout-out to game accessibility (shout-out to celeste and oneshot).. hollow knight should have that. tbh.

anyways seeing the tricolor symbol and obvious homage? reference? inspiration? to loz games although i've only botw but i'm sure it's doing something there. the symbol is in the load up too so i wonder.. all the mechanical bits of the world (autobolts.. that sometimes turn into tuning forks? they die with a mechanically musical sound.. the purple energy coursing through the network around the world and the leaky bit that had a similar autobolt death sound to them that made my vision purple.. the broken down triple eyed robots and the towers with the tricolor symbols) give me the impression of a computer or tv so i wonder if anything will happen to the crt or person playing. maybe they are parts of a circuit or motherboard (thinking of it since yesterday i played intense spot the difference with my friend and one of them was a stupid circuit board). i kinda expect to go off the rails at some point so i wonder if there'll be anything dramatic as a forced changed perspective from the game to the person playing the game. there's also the "hero" who died and looks awfully similar to me.. is that the fox ptorag? does that fate exist for them? are the awesome giant skull shopkeepers me from past lives (fox shaped)? is the shopkeeper related to the fox deity seeing as they are both foxes and have blue eyes? is the fox deity actually evil? is the hero actually evil? are the rudelings reincarnations of the fox's past lives? is "the wall" from which the fairies are from trying to stop me from changing a fate or hacking the world? the map has an image on a conjuror (an enemy?) who hold candles, and that "candles can be put out". that could be referring to just them, perhaps because they attack with they candles (i haven't met one i think). or do they also mean the candles on the map that mark the hero's grave/altar.. i really wanna put them out but i don't know how yet. i wonder if this game has multiple endings, though i don't get that impression..yet..

it's very interesting that you have to decipher the manual at least visually, if not textually. forces the player to rely on previous rpg and video gaming experience. perhaps its the devs experience on playing games and reading manuals they don't understand the language they are in. i really wonder if you can decipher the text, but i don't know how to go about it so i gave up. also they keep telling me to use items but i don't want toooo idk if they replenish.

the game is very fun so far, especially since i got the ball rolling and don't find myself dying as much.. still am dying though and i've had some scares and anguish my last session (last night). tried and finally got past the two birds (one eating slorm) in the atoll by killing them, but then the little squirming white big eyed thing that i remembered exploded before was following me very slowly so i looped around a bit near the birds before heading off to advance in hopes of losing it but that thing followed me so far and i went up the spiral tower trying to keep in mind not to get cornered by the freak to deal with the bird but had little magic points and health left and couldn't kill and the FREAK advanced up the stairs and cornered on the part sticking out i was screaming (never actually too loud bc i play late at night..but i do) thankfully the bird killed me instead of the little freak. i got past then on little health and ran into the 5 fairies and survived but got too scared to continue bc 1) low health 2) there was a purple moved like a spidery THING on a nearby island that immediately ran when i got close and i got so scared that it was going to either 1) run around and KILL me or 2) it was a planned event/sighting that wouldn't happen should i respawn monsters. i think if it's not the second it's probably the first or similar since everything loves killing me. i also got freaked out by the tentacles under the well.

i'm looking forward to playing more.. i think i'm doing a good job of inspecting and looking around as i tend to try to do when i play games.. be very thorough is my aim of the game. the cards and knowing whether or not the items with numbers are consumables (likely) is the most tempted i've been to look up a little info.. but i must resist so i can say i played the game without a guide.

#tunic lb #that's it for now.. very long and many thoughts on the fair bit i have played so far. #i wonder how far i am into the game.

[michpat6]

;w;; do you have any Fi headcanons that you haven't gotten to spend much attention on in fics yet?

hiiiii @novantinuum, thank you for the ask!! I absolutely do have fi headcanons :)

um so if anyone sees these headcanons and wants to use them  in any way absolutely go for it

i can’t explain it but she really loves pineapple. i think she’d find the way it burns your mouth and tries to eat you back fascinating. whether or not she can feel the burning sensation is up to creator choice, but it’s my other headcanon that she doesn’t have tastebuds but would try her best to imagine what the burn feels like and let out a monotone “Ow” every now and then to try and relate to everyone else (whether this is funny or sad is up to the vibes. i think it works best as both)

more about food, Fi can cook anything perfectly, but can’t season it. There’s no way to predict how much garlic or salt to use in a dish because that’s all up to your heart’s desires, and Fi is still learning how to use hers. Yes Link is her test subject. 

she’s also on a quest to develop tastebuds because she really wants to taste pineapple.

i feel like her skin/body is really cold?? because she’s vaguely metallic?? so she loves sitting out in the sun like a cat just to bask in a warmth that, in her eyes, she’ll never be able to achieve on her own

she may or may not start to warm up the more she accepts the way she’s changing and how she has emotions/a newly-developed heart

despite all the heart talk, she doesn’t exactly have a pulse the way humans do. it’s more like a constant humming because of all of the divine energy that’s stored up inside of her (you can’t convince me that skyward strikes aren’t because of fi. you can’t. she’s an insanely powerful eldritch alexa who wants to eat pineapple okay)

she can remember anything she’s ever seen and heard, which always helps in an argument or when she’s doing her best to be sarcastic/tell jokes (another learning curve), but this also means she’ll just sit still and stare off into space/at a wall for hours at a time and when someone asks what she’s doing she answers, “Watching a play from fifty thousand years ago. Would you like me to restart it and tell you what’s happening?”

in a post-botw2 world where this could be happening, this leads to Zelda, Purah, and Robbie inventing a screen that can show Fi’s memories so she doesn’t have to orate all the time, possibly a new rune on the Sheikah Slate. Yes they invent television and Fi is the very first channel guide/remote. They make her go stare at Hyrule Field for seven hours for a nature channel, but she ends up “recording” over it because she got distracted by a wolf and started thinking about the Hero of Twilight, remembering how strange it felt for the Master Sword to melt into his wolf body whenever he transformed. Zelda instead asks if Fi can show her some different Heroes and their quests so they can correct any history books/write new ones. 

I feel like Fi and any of the Impas would be besties. I can’t explain it they just would absolutely dance together because Impa has perfect balance and the want to learn how to move her body in a way that isn’t fighting and Fi has never been all that close to Zelda’s protector and she wants to change that. They bond over laughing about how dumb Link can be sometimes.

“I had to tell his first incarnation not to eat lava.” “No! I had to tell him not to eat a muddy rock just yesterday!” THEY’RE BEST FRIENDS 

Despite how much she enjoys it, Fi doesn’t sing a lot because “There are no Goddess songs you have not already heard, Master. I do not know any other music.”

Link pulls out his ocarina and makes up a new song just for her to learn and sing, and once she’s mastered it the humming of her “pulse” matches the notes of Her Song.

I just think Fi being untethered from her duty and learning how to be a person is cool :’)  

#fi rights! #asks #it's blorbo hours #I think I wrote a fic instead but honestly??? im not mad about it

[slayerzach]

Devil By His Side

A/N:A little late, I know, should have posted this yesterday, but the holidays have been quite busy, so here it is. Just another Hope drabble and venting about how the holidays make me feel, while dreaming about what I wish my reality was. I didn't really proofread this, so there may be some errors here and there. Also really wasn't sure how to end this, so it kind of just...ends. This is based off the song "Devil By His Side" by Jerry Cantrell. I'm hoping to write an actual full length fic soon, but I just haven't had the time to do so. I hope you enjoy.

Hope and James sat side by side on the couch, watching the flames in the fireplace, arms wrapped around each other.

They knew how tough the holidays were, but they made sure to make the best of it for each other's sake.

With Hope's family being either dead or mostly absent from her life, and James and his family having an extremely difficult and complicated relationship, they knew how lonely the two of them were.

The two of them thought about how many families had either company over, and if not that, had phone calls coming in non stop wishing each other happy holidays.

Hope and James had neither. Nobody had cared enough about them to do so.

They watched the landline phone in their motel room on and off again to see if anyone would get a hold of them.

The two of them had contacted certain people out of courtesy. With a new found friendship with Clarke, they contacted him and wished him and Trudy a Merry Christmas.

At least he knew what it was like to be lonely, so he might have the decency to contact them as he did before.

Yet Hope and James began to doubt that more and more, as they thought more of his behaviors since he began to date Trudy.

It was almost as if he had forgotten about his two "best friends". They found it quite hurtful and a disgrace to the friendship him and Hope had established. They understood that most of his energy and time would go to his girlfriend, but to just completely disregard the two of them, it just seemed a little odd.

Hope even went as far as to contact the Saltzman family, which was a very difficult thing for them to do after their difficult history together, especially with Hope nearly killing Alaric not too long ago.

Her and James knew they most likely would not contact them back, but Hope still did it to be nice, and because she felt bad about what had happened.

James was so proud of her for working up the courage to do so. He gave her a big hug and told her how he knew how hard it was for her to do that.

But despite the fact nobody was contacting them, and how lonely they felt because of it, the human and tribrid duo knew they had each other.

Nobody else understood their feelings throughout their life, nobody had the childhoods they had, nobody understood their feelings for one another.

Nobody.

Nobody but Hope and James.

He was the regular blonde haired human who gave the tribrid, who was known as the strongest being in the world, and had been roaming around Mystic Falls killing people, a chance. He was the one who knew there was good still in her who changed her life. With the love in his heart he had for the world around him and his empathy, he made her learn how to deal with her emotions without harming anyone. He gave her the chance that nobody else did.

And she? She was the devil by his side.

The devil who despite all the things she had done to other people, and the killings she had done, loved one person.

Her beloved James Sullivan.

She showed him that sometimes, fighting back is necessary, and violence is sometimes the way to go about things.

And the two of them, rather than harming the people who didn't deserve it, like Hope was once doing, they were now going after people who deserved it.

"Say Hope", James began, "there's this mall Santa who's been using his job as a way to do things with kids...you wanna show him the Mikaelson and Sullivan way?"

"Boy," Hope replied, "I sure am hungry. I could use a Christmas dessert after our dinner."

"Well, he's quite the fat bastard, you'll be delighted to feast on him," James remarked.

"Oh, how splendid!" Hope exclaimed.

The couple grabbed each other's hands, kissed next to the dimly lit Christmas tree, and opened the door to the motel room. They felt the cold Virginia air breeze against their faces, and the snow began to fall on them.

They closed the door behind them, and walked towards James' blue pickup truck.

"I love you, Miss Mikaelson."

"One day, I hope to be Mrs. Jimmy Sullivan, my love."

James grinned at that remark, and Hope smiled up at him. She hugged him on his side, and felt his long blonde hair brush up against her cheek. He moved his head towards hers, and felt her auburn red hair brush up against his chin.

"A Christmas pedo, who would have guessed," Hope commented, as he opened the door for her.

"People are terrible, what's the shocker there," he replied.

"Ugh, don't bring up shockers, he might like that," she teased.

"Shit, you're right," James answered after taking a moment to think about what the joke was.

He hopped in his truck, turned on the radio, grabbed Hope's hand, and prepared for quite the journey.

Hope's excitement consumed her as she anticipated to consume a sick motherfucker who had it coming.

#legacies #legacies fanfiction #hope mikaelson #hope mikaelson imagine #hope Mikaelson fanfiction #legacies imagine #fanfiction #fanfic #drabble

[zendyval]

i agree with you 1000%. the only thing i thiiiink others on here and on twitter are mad about regarding comments like these “Hate to break out to you anons but all of your faves won’t be working either” are because their faves (while not actually filming) are still having casting announcements made on their behalf. for example, deadline just broke the news that hunter was cast in a movie with anne hathaway yesterday. sydney, jacob and maude all had casting announcements within the past 8 weeks for new projects. there were comparisons on twitter because timothee’s bob dylan biopic is in preproduction and schedule to begin filming in sept.

so not agreeing at all just clarifying what miiiight be the perspective of some of these posts.

my personal thoughts are zendaya always planned on waiting to see what scripts and offers came her way after challengers. since it’ll be a different light that audiences will see her in, maybe then changing roles that come her way. m&m was still dramatic and broody while challengers is supposed to be slightly comedic and more witty. idk? maybe i’m totally off.

I understand their point but it's still dumb because Z is doing fine and it's always used as some sort of gotcha to say that she sucks, can't act, isn't ambitious enough, nobody wants to hire her and frankly that is all not true. Also people are not washed up at 26, especially one that has two big movies coming out this year (I think, I've lost track of release dates). Like she has two movies in the can that haven't even come out yet and I know I know, just a love interest argument which is also very tired.

Also signings aside, one thing that happens when writers strikes and actor strikes happen is some of these projects will never happen or see the light of day.

Like I just have such a hard time getting worked up over the state of Z's acting career and people passing her by when she's got 2 Emmys, one from as recently as the last Emmy awards, and has two big release movies coming out this year.

Other thing is people are allowed to take time off and pursue whatever the want as also as we've covered Z is in a place where she makes so much money from brand deals and such that she is not in a place where she has to work 24/7.

Just the energy people try to put into make her seem like some lost ingenue who can't book a job and who nobody wants to work with is crazy.

[iamyelling]

today was a hard day. feeling overhelmed. tired, stressed. dissociated a bit. feeling something else that i don't have a word for.

started out feeling weird this morning. i made a bowl of rice crispies but i had a mere thimbleful of almond milk so used annah's (old) soy milk but it was so sweet and gross i had to throw the whole bowl out i couldn’t stomach it. it might be so old it's gone bad idk. so i only had my tea this morning.

then i left to go get my booster, and pick up my prescription that was ready but when they asked for my covid vaccine card i realized i forgot it at home. so i drove back home, picked it up, drove back. then i could get it. and i haven't gotten the flu shot yet so they did that too. boom boom one in each arm. then i went grocery shopping. then put the groceries away, then took sol to pee. then i was gonna eat something but my body was feeling too stressed to eat, so i brushed sol, to calm down. but then found i found 2 fleas on her and oh then it was flea crisis time

i texted annah and figured out what i needed to buy. texted our friends to let them know for their dogs and since we're seeing them this weekend going camping. and for advice from one friend who is an animal expert. and then another friend is texting me to invite me to go accompany them to bellingham next week for them to get a tattoo. and im receiving texts from this person i went on a weird date with on sunday about what theyre interested in. not gonna talk about that right now that's a whole other thing but yeah. ive been posting horni stuff on lex and i know it's always overwhelming getting the responses but the thing i posted yesterday or whenever it was, is particularly overwhelming and aghghg i feel weird

so i make myself some food at it's like probably 2 or 3 by now, eating some yogurt and granola. then i pack my stuff back up and go to the pet store and get flea meds for the animals which is like $140 bc flea meds are fuckin expensive. then i go to qfc and i can't fucking find the baking soda which annah asked for and i'm going up and down the aisles and no workers are around to ask for help and i just fucking give up and check out and i ask the lady at the register if they have it and she's like yup it's just hard to see and i'm like mhm well i really looked but ok. anyways i just fuckin leave im like trying not to just have a mental breakdown in the fucking baking aisle of qfc and annah can go find it on her way home from work. so i finally get home. then i need to medicate all the animals, and i do that. it's topical and i need to make sure nobody ingests any of it so fingers crossed yall.

finally that's done and i can just relax until annah gets home which is honestly at that point pretty soon.

when annah gets home it's immediately chaos energy of course right. she's all like saying she's itchy because of the fleas just hearing about it while she's at work so lord you know it's going off when shes here. so she had ordered something from amazon and it was supposed to get here but it didn't and it said delivered but it's not here or in the mail room and she was very rightly mad about that. it's happened to her multiple times now that it'll say it'll be here rush prime shipping or whatever and it says its delivered and it's uh nowhere to be found. anyways

then begins her cleaning. she pours this huge box of baking soda all over the carpets everywhere. leaves that to like .. soak in? idk how powder works but it's there. she cuts up the lemon and rosemary she requested i buy for her, puts that in a pot of water to boil with peppermint essential oil. which does admittedly smell nice. then she sprays that all over the house, on the carpets on the blankets on the animals (they were very confused and did not appreciate being misted). oh and at this point i remember that the old comforter my parents gave us that we use as an extra dog bed, which i'm washing for obvious flea reasons, (oh yeah i put that in the wash before getting the flea meds) which did one round in the dryer needs another go on the dryer so that's going and loud and overstimulating of course. then begins the vacuuming. so now annah's vacuuming and needs me there to help move things for her. oh also her thumb is flaring up lately and she has been texting me today that it's super painful. but she needs to do the vacuum, not me. ok so we're doing this, we can't hear each other, its stressful. eventually we finish vacuuming. the vacuum needs to be emptied frequently i think due to all the damn powder clogging our very fancy vacuum up. anyways. for the record i did vacuum almost the whole apartment on sunday because annahs sister is in town from nyc! she took the train all the way here! so i was trying to help get things in order and tidy so annah doesn't feel worried about anyone showing up.

but we get through it. and the dryer is still going and annahs putting the instant pot in a cupboard and i keep hearing this beeping! annah is hard of hearing so can't hear it, it's this inconveniently high pitch tone and she is no help in locating it because she can't hear it. and so i'm going CRAZY trying to find it. i think it might be the dryer ? no. it sounds like its coming from the instant pot but that doesn't make sense because it's not plugged in. i check outside if it's maybe a neighbor and i'm hearing it through the walls, nope its louder inside. i give up and accept that i'm going crazy. i sit down and see on my phone a notification from this app from a company our landlord company hired to give us these sensors for leaks and apparently a leak is detected under our sink. wait no this was before we started vacuuming. anyways. so i am trying to mark it as a false alaarm but it keeps going off! so i just accept that this is gonna go off. whatever. it's not going off anymore but idk it doesn't make sense. maybe some maintenance guy will show up tomorrow to deal with it

finally i am resting now. and i'm hungry but i don't even want to make food im just. ugh

#personal #unsanitary m??????

[3ip04ka]

I am severely sleep deprived and stuck in another flat so I don't have better things to do than write personal posts which is usually something that doesnt happen

So today, at our Independence Day, I planned to sit it through in my comfy basement (I am one hell of a lucky cunt to have one because my mom worked her ass off almost her whole life to build a house) due to high chance of r*ssian attack again, since fuckers just love significant dates apparently. But yesterday started some plumbing issues on our old flat that we rent out to my friends for a low price (again, thx mom)

I had some serious amount of work to do because previously I made a decision to postpone it since a good friend of mine visited Kyiv (we used to live together before full-scale attack, then she moved to Lviv and I haven't seen her for half a year), but then this shit happened, I had to go to old flat yesterday, I spent hella a lot of time there and thought that all is done but later in the evening was informed that it went to shit again and my presence was needed today also

I had to work through almost entire night after my sleeping schedule was shit for almost a week (missed sleep Friday night entirely and then had not enough hours other days) so I would have time to let the plumber in and out today, who also managed to be late for one and a half hour (which could be even not his fault since above ground transport is stopping during air attack warnings and we had those).

I am sitting here totally exhausted to the point where I don't even have energy to be angry and thinking how much time am I wasting, how much work I have to do and probably will be working into the night yet again, how my anxiety issues make my innards feel quite wobbly all this time because I am over ground during sirens instead of being home and safe as I planned originally, how I currently function on nicotine and shitty coffee alone, how much and for how long my mental and physical health gonna drop after all of this

And it's Independence Day - a big thing for all of us even before war, as our nation struggled to have it for centuries and it's only 31st year of it today, such a small amount of years barely older than I am, and instead of feeling uplifted since I am proud of my people fighting for so long and even now, never giving up, going through so many hell's in our history, I am left with this frozen state of a soul, thinking and thinking and thinking

[lunarflux]

"i promised i'd forget, but you're all i see when i dream the night away"

bang chan x reader

genre — drama!au

suggested background music: x

note: like i said - i put a lot of my life into writing. something similar to this happened to me today, and i'd like to think that music is getting me through it. i wanted to add more of a "post credits" scene for chan and o/c, but this is how my day is going and how this situation ends.

The world never felt so heavy.

You'd never thought that scrolling through social media could create this bleeding ring in your ears, yet somehow here you are, unable to look at your phone. The photo you stumbled across had already been burned into your memory. There were times when you could forget what song you'd just listened to, and yet this one image had suddenly been burned, a permanent nightmare in your mind.

Your ex looked happy. It wasn't a bad breakup, but after a year, you couldn't expect him to stay single forever. You'd both agreed to move on, and while you swore you had, seeing the photo of him with a beautiful girl kissing his cheek made your shoulders heavy. Staring at your blacked out screen, it was like the photo was still there, and no matter how hard you tried, you couldn't keep yourself from seeing it. Every time you closed your eyes, there he was.

Happy.

You fumbled with your cell phone, placing it face down on your desk before your boss could catch you. It was hard to hide the look on your face. It was pain, sadness, and confusion. How was it that after all this time, you hadn't succeeded in moving on, but he had?

Was it you? Or was this girl really so special that you were worth forgetting?

The feeling of being forgotten - it's seeing the dust gather on photos and the doorknob that he will never open again.

It's over.

"Do you have the paperwork for the meeting tomorrow?" Chan popped into your office, placing a fresh mug of coffee on your desk. You'd started here only six months ago, but he already knew that you liked your coffee light and sweet. "Jisoo wants to make sure we're not missing anything before -"

"Yeah, I have it." You said curtly, looking back at your computer, typing away at your report. "I'll bring it to you later."

"I mean, I can wait for it if you have it ready."

"Chan," you looked up at him. "I said I'll bring it to you later."

Chan looked at you with mild concern. Sure, there were a lot of women in the office, and the men had eventually learned when not to step on toes in the case of any mood swings because of work stress. You weren't one of those people though. You were the type of person who'd rid the stress with a bar of chocolate and be done with it. You'd never snapped at him before.

"Okay." Chan backed out quietly. He ducked into the next office over. Knocking on Minki's office door, he peered in.

"Hey," Minki stood up. "I gotta bring these to the fourth floor, can you watch the phone for me?"

"Yeah, no problem." Chan smiled before taking a seat.

Ping

He knew that you and Minki were office best friends ever since you got hired. While he didn't mean to see it, Minki left his messenger open and slowly your messages came flooding in.

x: he moved on x: am i supposed to be upset? x: we broke up a year ago, so why do i feel so defeated haha x: maybe i'm just decomposing. why do i feel like this x: can we get drinks later? i know you hate it when i drink to drown out my sorrows, but i just can't be here right now.

Damn.

Chan swore he didn't mean to see all that. That would explain the mood though.

x: i didn't think i'd miss him this much. i just want to forget about it.

Taking in a deep breath, Chan pulled out his phone and made a call.

**

"Chan, why did you need me for this stupid client dinner? And who the hell has dinner at 4PM?" You continuously complained as he drove you down the road into the next district.

"Just relax, it'll be fine."

You rested your head against the passenger side window. As your breath fogged up the glass, you scribbled little hearts, peppered over the skyline as Chan drove. It wasn't until you started seeing signs that you realized you were at Banpo Bridge. Chan pulled into the empty parking lot.

"The client wants to have dinner here? What are we doing - getting takeout?" You jested.

Chan opened your door. "Go sit over there, I'll be right back."

You took your seat right by the edge of the water. The weather really was perfect today. The fresh air helped clear out your thoughts. Even though the breakup was a year ago, seeing that photo really made it feel like it just happened yesterday. Your heart broke twice, and yet you couldn't bring yourself to think that you hate him now. You loved him as a memory - a beautiful, happy memory, and it was time to let go now.

Chan re-emerged next to you, a bag with four bottles of soju and piping hot ramen in his hands.

"Um -" You nearly laughed at the sight of him struggling to carry everything. "Am I missing something? Are the clients your drinking buddies?"

"Sit, sit, please." Chan arranged everything down on the ledge.

"Not that I'm ungrateful, but I am confused."

"I, uh." He sat down next to you, removing his jacket. "I'm sorry. Please don't be mad at me."

Stopping halfway from opening a bottle, you looked up at him.

"y/n, Minki had me watch over his desk, and I... I'm sorry, I saw your messages."

"Chan, that was private." You looked down at your shoes, feeling the heaviness in your chest again.

"I know. And I'm sorry." He grabbed the bottle from you and opened it himself. "Minki had to run to another meeting, and I saw how sad you were. I just figured I'd help you escape for a bit. I called in a favor from the interns to watch your stuff, so we could... do this, I guess."

You'd always known Chan was a softie. He was that guy in the office who never forgot about birthdays and important events. He was never late, and he would do everything he could to help out the new people. Even to you, he was a big help whenever you needed it.

"Again, I'm sorry." He poured two shots and handed you one. "But you looked like you needed it, so - cheers."

You watched him as you threw back your soju. You stifled a smile, "Pitiful, isn't it. Still feeling like you've been dumped even after an entire year."

Chan winced as the alcohol hit the back of his throat. "Not at all. Who said that a year was the right time to get over someone? There's no rule for that."

You continued to sip slowly, watching him open up all the snacks.

"I haven't had a girlfriend in years, and I swear, after my last girlfriend and I broke up, I couldn't stop thinking about her even because of the littlest things. It wasn't a bad breakup, but when you have so many happy moments with someone, you can't help but feel sad when you see that person making new moments with someone else. It makes you wonder if that could've been me, y'know?"

It couldn't be stopped. One deep breath and suddenly all the tears started pouring out. You couldn't control your breathing, and it felt like the weight of the world finally came crashing down on your chest, reminding you of every little happy memory that had to be released into the ocean like confetti.

Chan rushed over, placing his jacket on your shoulders. He hushed you, rubbing your arms to warm you up. Crouching down in front of you, he pulled you up and brought you into his chest.

"Wait, I'll get makeup on your shirt -"

He laughed at your childish worries. "It's just a shirt. Just go ahead, it's okay. I can get it dry-cleaned, and you're worth more than some shirt."

Feeling your tears soak up in the cotton, you just cried, and Chan let you until it felt like there was nothing left. You chest was still heaving, but you felt the weight lift slowly. The sea air started filling your lungs again like an icy burn.

"I'm sorry." You finally looked up, mascara stained on your cheeks. You smeared what you could from your face before sitting.

"Stop apologizing." Chan sat down beside you again. "Do you feel better?"

"A little."

Placing his hand on yours, Chan smiled. It was a warm gentle smile. He squeezed, "It will get better. I promise."

"I just feel like everyone keeps moving on, and I'm just stuck here."

"Where is 'here' to you? 'Here' to me is existing with a good job with good friends and a good life. 'Here' is anything you're doing happily without him." He reached up to cup your cheek. "I know you feel miserable, but your body won't let you feel this way forever. And neither will I. Please don't feel as if 'here' is an awful place. 'Here', you have me, and I'll stay until you're not sad anymore."

Peering up at him with red eyes, you smiled with whatever energy you had. Sadness still sat on your shoulders, but it didn't feel so awful anymore.

Chan nodded towards you.

"Until you're not sad or until you ask me to leave - I'll be here for you."

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[missbecky]

Okay, time for another long post about a cool weird thing that happened with my cards last night. I still don't know how I feel about deities, I don't know that I'll ever worship one, as that's just not me to worship. But I have felt as though there was an entity, goddess, force, something trying to reach me. Any time I've tried to glean information on who it was, I kept getting a door slammed in my face. I kept getting messages that I wasn't ready. And I was totally fine with that.

I'm unemployed right now, I'm a single mom, and I live with my disabled mother to help take care of her. With COVID-19, we don't take chances as my mom is in the high risk category. What that all means is that I've had way too much time on my hands. So I've been like a sponge, soaking up all the knowledge I can when it comes to witchcraft. Not being ready wasn't that big of a deal, because it just meant I got to do more research and keep putting off stuff I didn't really want to do.

Yesterday, I did my daily card draw, and the message was suddenly way different. Change has always been in the messages, but also the stopping in order to be ready for the changes. Yesterday morning I drew the the star, the chariot, and the hanged man reversed. I took that as a go for it.

Later that day I was prowling all the research servers, and the went to Google something about deities, and found an article/blog post someone had written about wishing people would stop using a very specific tarot spread for deity identification. Naturally, I decide to do that very spread. It was a five card spread, I wrote down what I wanted to know, and started shuffling. I shuffled for what felt like forever, and then when I laid the cards out, without thinking, I laid out 7. At first I was going to put the last two back, but decided to leave them. And the cards were all over the place. But I looked at it, and thought, "whoa, whoever this is, is not messing around.

So this is what I laid out.

Before I get into breaking down what these cards meant and how each one directly correlates to one specific deity, I want to point out where my head was at going into this.

I basically really actually got started with everything like 2 weeks ago. I'm basically still a newborn, right? Anyway, as soon as I start researching, I keep getting drawn to Deities. That's weird because I'm an agnostic and basically have no interest in higher powers. If they're there cool, if not cool. I have always believed that if there is some kind of being that could mold and shape the world, then my puny human brain can't comprehend them anyway, and it's really none of my concern. So, it's been really strange that this repeatedly keeps sticking out for me. I get the distinct impression that whatever energy is reaching out to me is female, a tie to the moon, the feeling of 3 was there, I knew it had to be associated with motherhood, and just a general overall feel of the empowerment of women. Naturally, I just kind of assumed Hecate, but that never actually felt correct to me.

So the 3 of cups being the first card just kind of reinforced the sense of 3 to me, and the whole sisterhood aspects of women empowering women. I wrote down 3, sisterhood, and good times. In the spread that was supposed to be 5 cards (and I did 7), the first card was supposed to sum up who the deity was.

I love my tarot deck for the strength card the most, I think. Strength is a mama bear. Again, this confirms my feeling of being tied to motherhood. The second card was supposed to represent the deities weakness. I wrote mama bear, power, and overly protective.

The third card was the chariot, and according to the spread this was their strength, their power. I wrote down action, strength, determination, will-power.

Then I get to the 4th card, the lovers. This is supposed to be what they rule. This one had me scratching my head. Now the author said this one will be harder to figure out, because the deities could even try to be snarky with this. I didn't even know what to do with this card, but like it made sense later. As I was going through each card individually, however, I came up with nothing, and in turn wrote nothing.

Card 5 was to be their symbol or association, and I had drawn 7 card. Anyway, I began analyzing the reversed hierophant, and the reversed 2 of cups. By that point I'm feeling personally attacked. And then the King of swords felt like a slap in the face. Words like logical, smart, level headed came up, which is honestly the person I've always prided myself on being. What was that person doing trying to contact a deity? I basically had to stop and ask myself wtf I was doing.

Like all shadow work, I decided to go browse the internet to distract myself from having to think about it too much. So I start googling triple Goddess and love, even though the lovers definitely didn't feel right, I'm like what the hell? Why not? Hecate and Diana come up, well that's not right. So I decide to take away the triple deciding I could just be way off base with the whole 3 thing. So I Google goddess of female empowerment and found a list of badass goddesses, and Artemis stuck out to me. But I'm like, no, that can't be right. This peace loving hippie couldn't possibly identify with the goddess of the hunt (which was the extent of my knowledge about Artemis). I then Google goddess of sisterhood, envisioning a woman running with a girl gang fucking shit up. What the fuck do you know, but that is Artemis.

After that Google search, I decide I clearly don't know enough about Artemis, and had recently downloaded some Greek mythology books, have never had the slightest interest in Greek mythology, but I saved them in my Google drive just in case. After finding out a bit about Artemis from Google, I turned to the digital books I had.

It was crazy how each of the cards began actually tying into the mythology of Artemis. She traveled with like a gang of nymphs, which I'm sure there was some sisterhood there. She helped her mother deliver her twin brother, and became like the patron God of childbirth. She defended babies and Young girls. She only ever wanted to belong to herself and so she requested everlasting virginity. From what I read she was very protective, straight up murdered rapists, and she was strong to a fault, which made sense why the strength card was listed as weakness. Apollo challenged her to hit a target way out in the ocean that she couldn't see, telling her she couldn't do it, she did it to prove she could and there was no better sharpshooter than her. The target was Orion, the only person she ever loved. So the reversed two of cards made sense. The reversed hierophant made sense because she was not traditional, she went against the grain. Her story is far from ordinary, even by mythological standards. She was a straight up badass that lived life on her terms and no one else's. There's nothing more rebellious than a woman with such control of her own life and destiny. And of course the chariot would be her strength identification, she was nothing but action oriented. The lovers could be interpreted several ways, but I take it as a woman who loves herself so fiercely she had no need for any other kind. But also when I think of love, I don't think of romantic love, I think of the bond i share with my daughter. She fiercely loved her brother, and maybe because she helped with his birth it connected her to him similar to that of a mother and child? That of course speculation. But the lovers card could also be a jab at her eternal virginity. And the King of swords sounded exactly like Artemis.

So I'm convinced this spread is talking about Artemis, but I can't shake the aspect of 3. Can't let that one go. Don't know why. So I'm looking through the l The Greek Myths by Robert Graves, and in it he speculated that Artemis was in fact a triad/triple Goddess!!!

Needless to say, I lost my fucking shit after reading that one. I was right in what I felt about what traits I felt the energy having, and the fucking spread related with every gd card.

Oh, and apparently Artemis chose to spend most of her time in the mountains. One of my favorite thing in all of the things is the mountains of Colorado, second only to my daughter, and I even identify as connected with earth elements the most because of my love for mountains. Makes me wonder how long Artemis has been trying to get my attention 😉

Anyway, I don't know what this all means to me personally yet. I've been ridiculously drained today, it's already 11 pm, and I only just now felt like I had enough energy and focus to write this out. So haven't had much time to sit with everything I experienced and felt last night.

However, it was very exciting! And I had to share my experience!

#witchcraft #witch community #tarot #witchblr #magick #Artemis #deity #deity work

[daveofcamelot]

It's been a good day I woke up about 12 and I got to spend some time with Weston and then I took him home at 5 sat on the porch and talk to Robbie Wayne and daddy Wayne seems to be doing well he says he's gone through this before and he got better I hope so then talk to Robbie too much he was talking about the shingles on the roof don't know I never really knew anything about Roofing except for Jerry used to be the best at it and so I gave Western a big hug and left I'm stopped by my house the key to the mower was here I forgot it yesterday I ran into Joey he's going to job at McDonald's that's awesome because he really needs the money with all he's going through I worry about him a and after several tries of getting everything together I finally went over to Mom and Dad's ot finish up all the mowing that I didn't finish yet today but that was already done so instead of spend some time with my mom watched a little TV talk about bad and I always not going so well he's mine slips isn't really getting any better verdeleon just got out of jail are was supposed to I'm pretty sure he's the one that made the yard either way though yard work good mom said Felicia had a microscope taking down her throat at the doctor that had that happen hey there with a surgery and ripped the inside of a stomach makes me a little scared okay that's kind of thans got a ice cream sundae from Sonic's that was awesome I haven't had a ice cream sundae in Forever I didn't get the motor yard so I decided to get out some energy by walking someone over to a walking trails that Mandy and Steven and all the kids well all of us used to take it all the way down to the tunnel and then walked back it was peaceful I did a little bit of Pokemon go as I walked it was pretty good I came on washing dishes how to Austin about putting the vehicles in his name under a loan watched a little bit of the avatar Legend of Korra Debar asked me what was wrong with Dad I posted on Facebook that he need a predator so she asked me and I was telling her about that asked me what was wrong with that I posted on Facebook that he need a prayer so she asked me and I was telling her about that I'm worried about now I'm just laying in bed its 12:52 and I should have went to bed earlier this is just going to make my sleep schedule go Haywire again but I really need to try to get some sleep

[straybrightwin]

Six Moons and JoongNine 🍓🥑🌚

2020 seems like it’s going to be a jampacked year! Just think about it... We’ve still got 2moons3 which most likely won’t come out until near the end of this year since they haven’t started shooting yet. Plus we have the travel show coming up very quick in February and plenty of fanmeets!

Speaking of fanmeets... 2moonstheseries posted on Instagram about the upcoming international fanmeets which is super exciting! I’m happy for those who get to meet our boys! And don’t be sad if you don’t live where the fanmeets are being held because at least we’ll all get to see plenty of content and fanservices through photos and videos! Which means we get to see our favourite ships together, creating cute moments and being all happy. 

Not only do we have those international fanmeets to look forward to (as well as other fanmeets/events), it was also announced yesterday by Moonlight Entertainment that there will be a fanmeet in Myanmar for J9 (without the other two pairs). They haven’t posted any further details yet, although we should be getting informed today! 

So, we have all these fanmeets, events and the travel show, plus we also still have 2moons3 to look forward to! Although, they haven't started filming it yet. Which I'm okay with and there are a couple reasons for why I’m happy to wait. 

1.) We get to see them all together for longer since they still have to film the show and then the promotional period. Which really makes me happy because I love this cast so much and it means we get another full year (longer if the season doesn’t release until December) of them doing events and interviews together.

2.) This is the biggest reason for me honestly. I’m so glad they didn’t shoot the third season straight away and have waited until this year because now the main cast have grown so much closer than when they filmed that initial season. It’s been almost a year since they finished it and during this past year, they’ve had to spend most of their time together.  With that first lot of filming plus this past year of being together, I have no doubts that they will all be more comfortable with each other and closer than before which will show a lot in 2moons3. The chemistry in 2moons2 is so great and I think they paired up the actors beautifully but I just have a feeling that the chemistry between each couple in 2moons3 will be OFF THE CHARTS AMAZING. Especially JoongNine (or MingKit). Those two are probably the closest out of all three pairs. They spend almost every day together (outside of work too and they can’t even go a day without missing the other - as you can see all over their IG and Twitter when they start whining lol), Joong is close with Nine’s family and have gone on vacation with them and overall, the intimacy and affection they express is 100% more common than the other pairings. Plus, a lot of it isn’t forced and because they want to. Considering we haven’t reached their first time yet in 2moons, I assume it will happen in 2moons3 (unless it happened outside of the onscreen story) and I think their closeness will really shine here. I just can’t wait to see all the couples again and the chemistry between them 🔥😍

Now, speaking of JoongNine, I have something to point out haha. I’ve already talked about this a couple times on my Instagram (offgun.j9) but I want to repeat myself on here too:

JOONG IS GIVING OUT BIG POSSESSIVE ENERGY LATELY. Okay, for real though, in the last couple months Joong has been increasingly possessive of Nine. Before, I feel like it was more Nine who was the possessive one but OH how the tables have turned. Maybe it’s because they “haven’t gotten to see each other as much these days” (literally Nine said this but no one believes him because everyone keeps spotting them together and they’re only ever a couple days when they’re not with each other.) So maybe Joong is severely missing Nine but our boy basically has a sign above him at all times screaming “NO GHOSTSHIPS, NINE IS MINE”. The fanmeet in Myanmar yesterday is a perfect example. If you want to know everything that happened at the event, you’ll be able to find clips and photos on IG or Twitter. But, an iconic moment was when they were playing musical chairs and there were only three of them left (Earth, Joong + Nine) and Nine lost. Nine teased by Joong saying “The thing is, Pavel protects Dome, Ben protects Earth, *implying Joong doesn’t protect him*” and then he walks across the stage a bit where Joong is and says to the audience sarcastically “Nice partner” and starts to run away when Joong gets up to chase him. Joong catches him and TRIES PINNING HIM AGAINST THE WALL when Nine says “we’re in public na~” 😂😭

credit to the owner of the photo (I have no idea who took it, sorry)

Honestly, JoongNine makes my soul so happy. They make it hard to believe that they’re not really a couple 😅 but whatever they are, I’m happy as long as they’re happy. Love is love and whichever form of it they share, it’s beautiful and valuable.

Just like them 💎

- just another BL fangirl

credit to the owner of the photos, all I did was use layout lol

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[anieelmo]

What a trip

So I went to Disney California Adventure, or DCA, for the first time since the pandemic happened and since it first opened up again. It wasn't too bad actually. I enjoyed myself very much. We went first thing in the morning so we were able to do Guardians of the Galaxy with child swap. I got to ride it twice since my cousin in law, CIL, wasn't feeling that great after the first time. What's funny is that I don't normally do rides at all, but the energy was really different this time around. CIL's friend met up with us while Hubs & I were riding, and we just had an overall food trip around DCA. We also rode little mermaid for my little one & he even got to ride Webslingers with us! It was an overall fun day spending time with my little family & my CIL.

We had some interesting conversations honestly. While Hubs & CIL were getting soft serve, they talked about a mutual friend of ours. Let's call her, home girl, or HG. CIL is best friends with HG, and I used to be good friends with HG back in elementary school until she left. Hubs, CIL, & HG are all the same age/grade, but I'm one year younger. Here the story; In highschool Hubs & I were together but ultimately broke up and decided to stay best friends but still acknowledge that we still liked/loved each other but didn't want the title of being held down together just yet. Well, he didn't wanna be tied down just yet.. So we dated each other and other people.

During one summer school, Hubs was just simply talking/getting to know HG. But once Hubs saw me really dating another dude, he realized that he still liked me and didn't continue talking with HG. He's a modest guy and he told her that he didn't wanna lead her on or anything while he still had feelings for me. & yes, Hubs & I kept flirting with each other a lot during this time. I got into a real big fight with the guy I was dating, but i ultimately ended up ending that a few months down the line after I left the country for a couple weeks because I realized that I still loved hubs.

FF to now, CIL and I have been friends since middle school, but once we graduated high school we haven't really talked/hung out until this year. We got closer and honestly, i missed her a lot. So when the topic of HG came up, Hubs asked CIL if HG brought up that they talked for a brief time, and CIL told Hubs that she asked HG if she wanted to hangout with me & Hubs and HG said she doesn't think I like her because she was talking to Hubs for a brief time & tried to steal hubs from me. Honestly, I thought she didn't like me because I was the reason why Hubs didn't pursue her anymore.

It's all very weird, but at the same time relieving. HG is really such an amazing friend when we were younger and there was no ill will or anything. We only grew apart because of time. I added HG/CIL's dog account since HG doesn't have socials and she goes on that. CIL was saying HG will bring it up when they hang out, and I told CIL to tell HG that I do not think anything bad of her at all.

Also, HG, if you're reading this, I'm serious. I have no hard feelings or anything. Plus it was in the past, over a decade ago, and I was dating someone at the time too. You're good, honest. Let's be friends again <3

Another trip was that Hubs reminded me about the things he used to do back in high school. Which makes me feel so lame. Apparently according to some of my friends i still talk to from high school thought I was intimidating because I was seen as one of the popular girls, but I was honestly the girl who literally went home after school and went on here to blog, reblog, and find music. But that's another post to talk about....

Anyways, that's what yesterday was. A trip. A fun DCA trip with my little family & CIL.... as well as a trip down memory lane.

[quicksilver-rain]

Woke up to see that @devotedlystarstruckartisan tagged me in a thing, so here we go!

Rules: answer the questions in a new post and tag 10 blogs you would like to get to know better

Age : Twenty-Something. I'm sure I've mentioned somewhere, but you gotta work for it.

Birthplace : Hell, almost literally

Current time : 1002

Drink you last had : I haven't had anything yet this morning, but I'm making tea as I type this

Easiest person to talk to : Probably the Brother and Parents to be honest

Favorite song : Uhh, Just My Type by Saint Motel, Sloppy Seconds by Watsky, I Love You Like an Alcoholic by the Taxpayers, Home by Edward Sharp and the Magnetic Zeroes, the Roll the Bones album by Shakey Graves, and Tenuousness by Andrew Bird, also I unironically like Wonder wall by Oasis, provided it isn't actually performed by Oasis

Grossest memory : Once I panic-punched my first boyfriend (ex-boyfriend shortly thereafter) in the face for attempting to French Kiss me without giving me a heads up to say yay or nay (I would have said nay)

Hogwarts house : Every time I take a Hogwarts House quiz, I either get Slytherin or Ravenclaw, so I guess it depends on whether or not I can tell which answers are the "evil" answers (because all Slytherins are evil, amirite?)

In love with : Myself. Have you met me? I'm a fucking delight

Jealous of people : Not really, sometimes it'll happen, but I'm already low energy, I don't need to waste any on things I can't change

Killed someone : Oh my God, yesterday I almost hit Sewer Cat, if that counts. They're fine, but they're lucky I'm not one of those assholes that goes 50 down our street

Love at first sight or should I walk by you again : If you're in it for the bedroom fun times, probably just find someone else, but it's a valiant effort

Middle name : Haha, not today Techno-Fey

Number of siblings : One blood sibling. But I tend to adopt people by force, so if we're counting those too, I've got Norbi and Woof as well

Person you last called : I had to check, and it was Voicemail, because I live in a dead zone and wanted to see if the people at the comics shop ever called me back about part time work. They did not.

Question you are always asked : "When are you going to finish The Turning?" Not anytime soon, man, I wish it was otherwise but I'm Lame, please leave me to my misery.

Reasons to smile : Man, anything can make you happy if you let it

Song you last sang : Chandelier by Sia, I've been singing it a lot because Uncharted 4 has a lot of Chandelier swinging in it

Time you woke up : 700, but I refused to get out of bed till 930

Underwear colour : Why is this a question?

Worst habbit : I pick at my cuticles and its a bad time

X-rays : They're pretty cool, I guess. Don't give you any super powers, tho.

Your favorite food : Steak, Sushi, or a really well made Burger

Zodiac sign : Capricorn, they never get any love, which is rude because they're basically sea monsters

I tag : Man, I can't even name ten blogs off the top of my head. Uhh, @wooferdill, @willowriverspiritwriter, @spicynorbi (or @spiceeh), @lu-n-gs, @sakujen and I'm tagging the Brother even though I know he won't do it: @toxicrain23

That's all I have, so please accept this picture of my dog to make up for not having 10 blogs:

#tag. i'm it