#this looks so ugly on mobile but if i keep looking at it i won't post it so <3

[julianavalds]

EMMA MEYER & MARIE MOREAU

GEN V (2023 -) 1.05 | "Welcome to the Monster Club"

#tvedit #genvedit #gen v #marie moreau #emma meyer #jordan x marie #limoreau #dailyflicks #cinemapix #cinematv #userbbelcher #chewieblog #*m #*gifs #*500 #idk i cant with marie's face in this scene i had to aksgdh #this looks so ugly on mobile but if i keep looking at it i won't post it so <3

[20dollarlolita]

I hope this doesn't come across weird but...Thanks for posting pictures of you being pretty while using mobility aids! It has genuinely been really helpful to me in terms of convincing me that I can and should use them and that they won't make me look bad or take away from my outfits when I do. I've got a roolator and a wheelchair coming soon. :)

Thank you!

It's really inspiring to know that posing with my mobility aids can help someone else feel more comfortable using them. I really like posing with them and showing that the beauty of an outfit isn't changed or detracted from by the presence of mobility aids.

But, full honesty, I pose with mobility aids to show myself that the beauty of a look isn't detracted from or changed by my mobility aids. I spend way too much energy worrying about how I look to other people when using my mobility aids. The reason that I got home from buying a rollator and immediately made this post was to convince myself that it looked okay to use.

And my mobility aid choices should absolutely not be influenced by how it looks to other people, but I've got a crazy amount of internalized ableism that gets in the way of that. I've also been wearing EGL fashion since 2011 and so, while I'm really self-conscious about people staring at me for being a younger person with a rolling walker, I'm absolutely used to people staring at me for being the most extravagantly and beautifully dressed person in the entire Dollar Tree. This has led me to believe in the existence of the Emotional Support Coord. If I don't feel confident going out with my mobility aid, but I feel okay doing it if I have an absurd dress and some petticoats to act as a buffer, that's an Emotional Support Coordinate.

Having pink hair helps too.

Anyway, I'm super honored to find out that what I do for myself is helping other people. Thank you for telling me <3.

I do like posing with my mobility aids. Pictures are images of where and what and who I was at the time it was snapped, and my mobility aids were there, so they should be in the image.

And just remember, your mobility aid is never going to ruin a picture or an outfit. You're not doing anything wrong by not having it in the picture, unless you're putting your health or safety at an unacceptable risk by posing without it (and that's between you and your care team, honestly, and isn't the business of any stranger on the internet). But in this picture, I opted to pose with a cane instead of my rollator entirely because I wanted to keep the all-black look going. My rollator was sitting next to my friend taking the picture, and I went back to using it as soon as the picture was done, and I was just carrying the cane around uselessly since I brought it JUST for the picture.

But if someone ever says that my mobility aids are going to ruin an event or a picture or a moment, I always want to ask them to get my perspective, and just sit in my wheelchair for a second.

So that I could push them off the cliff like they deserve. Your mobility needs are not a burden. Your comfort and safety is not a burden. It's not ugly and no one has the right to ask you to hide it.

#20dollarlolita on wheels #lolita fashion #20dollarcoordposts

[maleficentmrsofallevil]

Using Koreanbuddies proxy shopping service

Buyee (Japan proxy) review here.

Website: koreanbuddies.com

Fees: 12 percent of order, $12 (USD) minimum.

What I bought: 2 Mimi World dolls

Total order: $42.94 for dolls, $12 for order fee, $62.50 for DHL shipping from (South) Korea to me in Midwest BFE USA. I did have the option for them to unbox the dolls and put in a smaller, cheaper box, but I wanted the boxes (may explain the higher fee).

Look! I cleaned my desk! A little...

This is (per the website) Fashion Mimi/Pose Mimi Newface Chic Mimi, and my little problem child. I provided the link to order her direct from Mimiworld, but apparently, she was out of stock. I ordered her on June 17. The other doll arrived to the proxy right away, but her status was listed as "shipping to proxy" until I emailed the website on July 6, 2023. I read some online reviews, and this is a bit of a recurring theme. Seems like you have to pester them.

Turns out she was out of stock, and Mimiworld cancelled the order. The proxy did find a replacement doll for me at another Korean toy shop, and the doll was on sale. I did not see a refund or credit for the reduced price.

She arrived today. The box was a little crushed in one corner, which, for $62.50? Meh.

Koreanbuddies doesn't offer the lovely PDF download of your order like Buyee does, so that was a disappointment, too.

In summary, it seems like Koreanbuddies is a smaller proxy, and one you have to keep an eye on. Probably won't use them again.

Newface Mimi is STIFF out of the box. She creaks a little when you move her joints, and it takes a little force to move her arms. She can shake her head no, but her head doesn't move up and down or side to side (swivel joint versus ball joint). Her legs are a little more floppy, but she remains upright nicely on her stand. She's around $13 USD, and I would say the quality of her plastic is a little lower than Mattel/Barbie, but the clothes are nicer. That bum bag tho... (blech)

She comes with a plastic necklace, earrings, sunglasses (translucent), a hat, a watch (black), a bracelet (ditto), a mobile phone (plastic with a phone sticker), top, pants, shoes, and itty bitty teeny tiny socks. Oh, and the ugly bum bag. Earrings are on posts and easily removable. She was held in place with plastic-coated wire (not plastic jibbers). Her hair is soft, but it feels a little greasy. She's cute, and I'm glad to add her to my collection.

#dollblr #proxy shipping #south korea #mimiworld

[art-i-know-yes]

I have feelings and I have to talk about them.

in my head only thoughts about the sheriff.

a lot of thoughts btw. this is loooooong.

Spoilers for Jimmy's Empire S2 recent eps.

*breaks down into tears*

anyway. poor pathetic man is (hopefully) getting a villain arc and i think he needs it. he deserves to snap and hurt and use Lore on the others. so *so* badly i want them to listen to him but i know it's unlikely. and *gem* being the one to kill him. one of the few, few people who at least pitied him.

and then *the past sheriff.* let me tell ya, my brain is riddled with angst by him.

because the moment i saw him, after getting excited about it being martyn, i was like 'oh. oh. Jimmy is going to *idolize* him.' and i was like i can see where he could end up like a positive figure but then. *but then* he started explaining how he was the most respected sheriff so my brain took a curve to be like 'oh, he's going to be like Jimmy. lying to people about respect.' and then he explained that "people were so in awe of me that they'd run inside and shut their doors." and i don't know if my brain has ever taken a sharp turn so quickly. generally, i try to see the fluffy things and those are my comfort, but when i tell you my next thoughts were 'oh no. he was feared. people respected him bc he was scary.'

and it *kept going* with the alcoholic tendencies, people trying to keep him away, R.E.S.P.E.C.T, *ricky*. bc in the stream (i only watched a little) he says that ricky was his ex-deputy that did nothing but cause trouble. my next few thoughts went like this;

'he was a corrupt sheriff for sure.'

'they trapped him on purpose. they wanted him to be gone.'

'he's going to ruin Jimmy.'

and for the life of me, i couldn't stop thinking about how the past sheriff would probably be super manipulative in that nice way so that Jimmy could only rely on him for any positive reinforcement, Jimmy is willing to do *anything* so someone will *just stay*, and in the end, i genuinely think the past sheriff is going to try and take his spot. bc Jimmy already is listening to everything he says and of course, everyone already likes the past sheriff more, just to mess with Jimmy.

and, of course, the sheriff likes other people more too.

bc tumble town is empty. what do you mean it's empty? he's got villagers, yeah but he doesn't interact with them. he, in general, probably forgets they're there. but like that literally broke my heart bc he's alone. and people only visit him to taunt him.

so yeah i think Jimmy deserves to be a little bit mean. he probably won't be. he'll probably be manipulated and ignored and we're all going to go crazy. he's probably going to end up like how pearl was in double life.

[sidenote: it sucked to type on mobile and try the italics. so the asterisks are italics for the parts it didn't work. except that first sentence. i am in tears. i spent like 20 minutes faffing with the italics. and i can't get rid of them otherwise the entire paragraph changes so. yeah. it looks ugly.]

(i do want to mention that i nearly died laughing at the beginning of the stream where fwhip just chases the past sheriff around asking if he needs a deputy.)

#you could and should absolutely ignore this #mcyt #empires smp #empires s2 #jimmy solidarity #rambling #i can't wait to see what Jimmy does #i can only hope that he goes feral #I'm sorry that this is so long #but like none of my friends watch Empires and i have to say this stuff somewhere #i usually only go on huge rants for dnd so yeah lmao #also typing on this app is a fucking bitch sometimes #lowercase

[thecloudsofficalreborn]

Cloud's FNF GIF Making Tutorial

Hello there, have you ever wanted to make FNF GIFs like this for example?

Well, your in luck, because in my personal guide, I'll teach you how to do so. This is for desktop users by the way, I don't know how to do this on mobile.

1. Getting Started

You'll need the following program to make your GIFs. I personally use.

Spr2PNG (Highly Recommended | Automated, Simple Process)

Java (Needed for Spr2PNG to work.)

EZGif (Needed for GIF Making.)

But there are other options such as FnF-Spritesheet-and-XML-Maker but I personally use Spr2PNG as that is more simple.

To download Spr2PNG, first go to the releases tab and click on the Latest release you see, then click the zip file to download it automatically. You'll want a ZIP Extractor like 7-Zip, which I recommend, but WinRAR is another good option.

Now, once you have your programs, you'll want to download the FNF mod you want to rip the sprites from, like for instance; VS Sonic.EXE, or basically any other FNF Mod and download that either from GameBanana or GameJolt, depending on where it is.

2. Ripping the Sprites

Okay, now, to make the GIF, you have to rip the sprites. To do this, go to your FNF Mod that you downloaded and go to either mods\images\characters or assets\shared\images\characters. It depends where all the [charactername].xml and [charactername].png files of that character is located so you might have to do some digging around in the mod files. But once you find those, you want to copy & paste them into a separate folder, I recommend creating one to store all your ripped sprites at, aswell as your gifs.

3. Making the GIFs

Okay, now that you have your sprites ripped from the mod files. You'll want to open SprToPNG.bat or SprToPNG.jar. It doesn't really matter what you choose to open. It should show a small window that says “Select XML or PNG Files to Open” and you'll want to locate the files you ripped from the mod files. Please keep in mind that the .png and .xml files of that character must be in the same folder together otherwise it won't work. Just double-click on either file, again, it doesn't matter. Then, SprToPng will do the rest and separate the animation sprites into one folder that is named after that character, aswell as all the sprites.

Now, click on the folder of the sprites that you want to animate, it might say "Idle Dance" or any of the character poses, aswell as the special animations if the character has them. There should be some PNGs that are ranging from 0000 to random, depending on how many animation sprites that animation has.

Now, open EZGIF.com and click on "GIF Maker" and then click on Browse and then locate the separate PNG files of the character. A good tip is that you can select the first PNG with 0000 and then the last by shift-clicking, just click the first png and then the last one with shift-click and it'll select all the following PNG files and then select "Open". It might take a couple of seconds, depending on the file but it should show all the PNG Sprites in order.

Set the delay time to either 4, 5, or 6. You want it to act like how the actual in-game sprites would. If it's too fast, increase the delay time, if its too slow, decrease the delay time. Optionally, you can set the last PNG to 30, then select "Don't Stack Frames" so the sprites don't overlap over each other and make it look ugly.

I'll show two examples, one with "Don't Stack Frames" on and off.

On the left is with it on while on the right is with it off. You see how on the right the sprites are behind the ones that are displayed? Yeah, you don't want that. So I highly encourage and recommend you to turn on "Don't Stack Frames" on.

Now, select "Crop" and then scroll down and select "Trim Transparent Pixels around the image" as this will remove any transparent pixels we don't want, while also reducing the file size, either a tad bit or a lot, depending on the sprite.

And once you're done, click save, your sprite should look like this!

Now that you made your Sprite, you can upload it to the Funkipedia wiki to help out with pages and such that need sprites.

Fin.

Feel free to leave any suggestions in reblogs or comments, they'll really help out. Also, make sure to reblog this so more people know how to make GIFs in the future (on desktop or laptop).

#fnf #fridaynightfunkin #friday night funkin' #friday night funkin #tutorial

[saviourkingslut]

On one hand, I do want to keep a somewhat open mind on Engage, and I don't want to bring down other people's hype for it because it has things I personally don't like. On the other hand, ngl... there's also a weird amount of pushback to even criticize what we're seeing?

"We don't know everything!" How much new information could possibly come out that makes me like the ugly art style more, or not acknowledge the clearly mobile-game aesthetic Engage is gargling (the aforementioned art style, the - hopefully - faux gacha mechanic, all the minigames), or how lifeless everything looks, or how it's clearly binging on nostalgia bait? Ah yes, Uglygard will look better once I know what her stupid Ring does, surely!

So seeing people say "people who have 3H as their first/fave game go play Gen/shin and never return" or shit like that just because people have complaints is, ngl, annoying (and elitist) as hell. And a spiteful part of me is glad that the game that makes people say that is looking more and more like a FE mobile game on the Switch because of that lmao

"we don't know everything" we have been bombarded with videos about the units, the world building, the game's mechanics, now the hub, and i haven't liked at least a solid 90% of what's been shown. literally how much more content do i need to see before im allowed to say something negative about this game. i mean, the fact that i hate the art style and think the environments look bland was clear to me from the very first few vids already, and not liking how a game looks is a pretty vital aspect. everything else is just solidifies my opinion.

im not entirety sure why people are so aggressive about people criticising the game. like, obviously you can enjoy it if it's a game you like, but that won't stop me from being honest abt it? i have a lot of love for this franchise, and that's why im being so vocal. because it seems to me that fire emblem is deviating from its core aspects more and more - the core aspects that i love so much! engage, from what im seeing so far, looks much sleeker (and in a way, imo, cheaper, making it seem like a mobile game, which is not a good thing), it has a ton of minigames and side... stuff, and a lot of the attention goes out to cultivating your support chains with other units through shared activities... all this stuff in the margins (is it even the margins anymore) puts the focus off the battles themselves, which it should be all about. and honestly it's not a development i like.

between the pushback from people who do like the game and don't want anyone to be critical abt it, and the game seeming so far removed from what fire emblem should be in my mind, in my heart of hearts i honestly kind of hope it flops. if only to make sure the next entry does not go even further down this new easy marketability path. probably makes me seem like a bitter old hater but it is how it is.

#obviously people are gonna say 'if you don't like it then don't play' but that's like. the point #a franchise that i love takes such a turn for me in it's gameplay and presentation with this game that i might have to skip an entire entry #you don't think that makes me feel sad? of course it does. im disappointed about it #and my fear is that the next entry might be so much like this one that i won't be able to play that either #THAT'S why im so critical. #asks #engage critical #don't go where i can't follow

[nextinline-if]

Why wasn't mc allowed to fight in the war? also what skills and personality can mc have? I'm also abord the identical twins train, I just love imagine them looking the same, the jokes between them, also knowing what the other thinks with one look.

So, "why" MC doesn't fight in the war will be addressed in the game, sorry :( Also, duly noted about the twins lol.

I'm working on a "stats" page for the blog with a thorough explanation of personality attributes.

The explanation that you are about to read is really not a good explanation but I will post an update to my blog when I update the stats page with a thorough one.

I will say, right now there aren't going to be skills (like combat, etc) or a "choose XYZ personality."

Instead, some of the choices made in-game give the MC new attributes which unlocks various choices throughout the game that would otherwise be locked out. I think it's easier to show with visuals so....apologies for my ugly stats screen below lol. sorry for any errors I'm still editing stuff....(probably looks grainy on mobile sorry)

In the image above, you can see that my MC has unlocked the family creed "Family Over Everything" and the "Suspicious" attribute. This means in-game, I will have unlocked choices pertaining to MC's family creed or being suspicious. Example:

As you can see in the second choice above, it's unlocked because of MC's family motto.

So, you won't have every choice available in a single playthrough. There will usually be 2-3 regular (non-romance) choices always available. How locked choices get unlocked:

Family Creed - there are 3 available as of right now (will probably keep that number)

Attributes - unlocked through various scenes and flashbacks based on the choices your MC makes

If you choose to have faith in one of the 5 gods, you will get access 2 other attributes

I already have a list of the planned attributes but they won't all get used because there are too many.

For the demo, there will only be a small taste of attributes but more will come with future versions of the game.

#does this make any sense at all lol???? #feel free to ask follow up q's for clarification #interactive fiction #nextinlineif #stats #attributes #anon reply

[theorist-influencer-untitled]

10.27.23 Friday

3am

The Leopard is still here, done showering at 3am... Still,having windblow...

What will happen to me? Whew! Thinking of money and my rewave in Iqor... I need to get the certification of calling in Iqor, I will not stop until I can beat that fucking call!!!

I feel bitterish and I feel bitter....Still, wanna have SEX but can't find anyone now... I hate being stuck in the house....Can't even go to Starbucks...

I'm planning to get an eyebrows tattoo.... hmm... hmm... No fundings yet... hmm...

Again,this is not my ideal life with Uncle Jun, so flat and plain and boring for 16 years....

3:21 am

I have maturity... It is just that the timing and my situation won't let me grow but I'm mature and I have maturity.

I need to find you, fucking soul-mate.... Everyday I never forget a single thing about my maturity... But like what I posted I always have my child-like heart and it is normal for people to have their child-like character from time to time...

3:43 am

I don't have a problem angels... I'm genuine! I know how to love but there are some people who don't know how to love... Those people are selfish! They only want me for their movement... Yeah! Yeah! I love to do movement... I'm into positive movement....I know how to love,I'm not guilty at all angels...

I didn't hurt anybody... I'm easy to read coz I want to be transparent coz I'm genuine!

16 years fucking flat plain stage.... Fuck you for the guilty you! 16 years you gave me a "Plateau"! Years of nothingess... I feel bitter!!!

There are some " spanish words" ouchie! I got murdered by some spanish on t-mobile, remember???

It was a weird day but I have cousins and some aunts in the province who look like spanish coz of some percentage of blood line, on ancestor...

4:18 am

I feel bitter angels... I feel HURT and USED by them for 16 years.... I'm HUMAN! I feel JEALOUS!

10:47 am

Still having windblow.....Still, thinking of money and my rewave... I'm panicky coz of money... I still feeel fat,old and ugly but I'm a good person... I know how to love, I know how to chill but this windblow trap me on a weird dimension...

Still, thinking of SEX and still feeling frustrated!I can't find a mature,clean penism to show care and love and to walk on the play ground to learn and make a pattern for something... It is like a heaven on earth, like what I said walking is sometimes healthy than running....When you walk with someone and with some genuine people who truly like me as me and genuinely want me to be their friend, you can make precious moments together. I feel bitter coz I lost that "precious moments" I mean time to capature memories with someone and with real FRIENDS!

11:16 am

I hate being a 2nd choice angels... I feel bitter,I have windblow!

Grrr....16 years, I'm super suppress!!!

I need to get mature friends most specially male friends!!!

11:29 am

Then, I realized coz I'm shawty girl... I don't wanna dwell ( to keep thinking ) on my height but now coz of that fucking 16 years on the "plateau" ( reach a state of little or no change after a time of activity or progress ). I feel this strange personal insecurity...

I feel that coz of me being shorty I don't have the right to be on the first position...

I wanna buy starbucks! I wanna buy cheesecake...I need to buy new yoga mat, I miss AF! ( still have my key fob )... A lot of things I miss to do... I'm thinking of money!!! ARGH!!

I need SEX! My system needs SEX! I need a relief!!! I need love and care!!!

4:37 pm

It is depressing inside me angels... It is a weird feeling... I feel bitterish...

6:08 pm

It is so good to stay on a high-end farm house castle where you can have these cute animals...

But it is not bad to walk for awhile, to learn something and for the ground pattern... Still, on uphill movement...

But I know, my theme these days is to hell with love...

6:12 pm

My pelvic/ S-bones are aching, I need a push on it and a touch or pressing with love and care...

6:19 pm

Can I be 16 again angels???

6:28 pm

My pelvic is really aching....Argh!

7:41 pm

I still have windblow and I still feel bitterish...

I wanna meet a soulmate and someone mature and mutual on me on wanting to have SEX and I really wanna walk and make a pattern for something... I want someone who knows how to love and care...

I'm not kidding ,I feel irritated if I can't have SEX soon....It is a complex for me... Aging for nothing and on the serious side my money, my botux and my future...

I still feel jealous on people having SEX... Coz I don't have it for 16 years... I feel bitterish... I feel ugly if I can't have SEX!

I feel irritated, I have windblow... I wanna buy Starbucks everyday... After 2 years will definitely leave Cavite, wanna see sand-dunes and some plastics....There are so many plastics everywhere...

I really want black penis or paint it black....

8:07 pm

I love this song,that wild damn thing! Bounce back yo!!!

Now, you can understand??? Bounce Back... Bounce Back Yo!

9:09 pm

Grrr.... I feeel bitter and panicky.... Waiting for rewave!!! I need money!!! I feel ugly and fat and old! I wanna have SEX! Can't find someone I want and will be mutual on everything.

I can't find a new friends for me who will truly like me and treat me as an adult but I'm always used to be a baby of the group, most specially men...I feel bitter nobody wants me angels...

I'm really having a hard time to find someone and to find friends.... I feeel bullshit! I have windblow!!!

9:32 pm

Fullmoon angels!!! AWOOH!!!!

9:53 pm

10:05 pm

Sssh.... Love me.... Love me...

#Youtube

[qqweebird]

i think its kind of funny that both men and women on the internet will say something along these lines:

woman: men aren't held to the same standard as women! they just have to be rich and we are expected to be beautiful, wear makeup, shave every inch of our bodies, subservient, slim-thick, fit but not muscular, be a housekeeper, have kids...

man: women aren't held to the same standard as men! they just have to look nice and we're supposed to be 6' tall, earn 6 figures, be muscular, live on our own, have good hygiene, do chores...

and like, both of them are right, we arent held to the same standards. we are both held to many standards but these arent equal standards!

the most equal standards are the ones that are physical. no, you can't do that much to change your height without surgery, but thousands of women undergo really dangerous cosmetic surgeries to fit a standard of beauty set by male-run media. you have to go to the gym to be fit, but that's also an equal standard for women with roughly equal difficulty of being achieved by either sex. fatphobia is a problem for both women and men.

however, the standards that are NOT equal are... largely beneficial to a man's quality of life. men get upset because women want them to… wash their face? wipe their ass when they shit and clean it in the shower? take care of their nails?? those are things that are going to make a man's life better. AND THEY GET MAD ABOUT IT. not shaving isn't at all detrimental to one's hygiene as long as they, like, shower properly. wearing makeup doesn't improve your hygiene either and can actually cause worse acne and irritation, aka, "ugly" and "dirty" things.

additionally, when a man doesn't look like the Beauty Standard, he's not going to be harassed NEARLY as much as an Ugly Woman. woman are absolutely torn asunder online for not being sexually attractive to men. they're denied jobs and shit for not wearing makeup. a man who never wipes his ass could be a fucking CEO while a woman who doesn't wear lipstick and mascara might be rejected as a receptionist for the same company.

a woman might want a man to have a high-paying job, but... does any man... NOT want to have money?? does any man not want to be financially independent?? being expected to be rich IS shitty like most people won't be able to earn 6 figs but barring physical capabilities and assuming only lack of desire to do it, if you Gave In To Your Gender Role you would be stacked. like ohh no the horrible women wanted me to make money! im so oppressed! grow up dude

the traditional jobs women are expected to have are mother and maid. obviously, these can be extremely fulfilling and rewarding jobs, but they don't pay well or provide any financial freedom. not every woman wants to be a housekeeper. if a woman is pressured against her desire to be a stay-at-home mother, she's not benefiting from that in any financial way. it's stripping her of freedom and mobility!

so anyway the thesis here is that the typical standards for men vs woman are extremely biased against women and largely serve the purpose of keeping them subservient, out of public influence, and always available for the sexual pleasure of men. men are free to address the shitty standards they are held to but if you imply that you somehow have it WORSE than women with these standards you are not worth listening to. the end

#this is of course purely based in the cisgender sphere of interactions #and though im Not a woman i say 'we' when referring to women because im for all intents and purposes part of that demographic #i just think about stuff a lot and wanted to write it down im not saying this shit is law. just my observations. im not perfect #birdsong #misogyny

[yanderememes]

which of the yandere jojos will be affected by a darling's tears? like, they wont lock darling in the basement if the darling is crying too much about it, or something? Which of the yandere's will be unaffected by darling's tears? hell, will any of the yandere's actually LIKE making their darling cry?

hope you have a great day :)

OMG I LOVE THIS Ask! 😭❤️

Crying is apart of the darling lifestyle 😂

Thanks for the ask! I had a lot of fun writing this and it's under the cut. Hopefully it's not too short. I did this on mobile so idk how the length is for each jojo but I tried to keep it fair 😊

Jonathan

Affected by darling's tears

He would feel terrible

He didn't mean to make darling cry! A gentleman never makes anyone cry!

Jonathan would apologize profusely and try anything and everything to make it up to darling

He'd start off by hugging them in his bear hug

Jonathan isn't the type of yandere to punish his darling, so he'd give them a bit more freedom to make it up to them for making them cry. Like allowing them to go out (but only under the condition that he's out with them and with little to no convos with others)

"I can't believe what I've just done. I have no right to call myself a gentleman. I should go, but... I still love you a lot, y/n."

Joseph

Affected by darling's tears

He might not seem the type, but he does care and would be affected

He just wants to have fun with darling, not have them sad and cry

He'd try to cheer you up by being more goofy and comedic than usual. Try and get you to laugh

When that doesn't work, he'll cave and give you more freedom. Not as restrictive as Jonathan, it's the closest thing to freedom you've experienced thus far with Joseph

But if you use this chance to escape then he won't give a rats ass if you cry. He wants to see you suffer after you manipulated him

"tsk tsk. Nice try, y/n. You actually almost got me there. But now I'm actually really pissed. I'm gonna make you cry for weeks"

Jotaro

Not affected by darling's tears

Darling is feeling sad and crying? For what? Jotaro will wonder

He will understand if he physically hurt them like punching or kicking them for being disobedient

But if darling is crying because of emotional pain, then you've lost him

Jotaro ignores you for the rest of thr day until you stopped crying

He doesn't know how to comfort people when crying, let alone with darling

Jotaro may not be affected by darling's tears but that doesn't mean he likes seeing you cry. He loves you after all so he does want you to stop

"dry up your tears quickly. It makes you look ugly."

Josuke

Both not affected and affected by darling's tears

With Josuke, it really depends on what mood he's in

If he's angry then he won't care. Darling can cry all they want. He's justified in his reasoning (even though he's delusional)

If he's fine, then he will care and try to comfort darling. He'll shower you in more affection than he usually does (which is 1000x at this point)

If josuke is in a good mood then he MIGHT not lock darling up.

"don't cry, y/n! I know! Let's go out on a date! You can also sleep with me tonight. You don't have to sleep in the cold basement, that's what you wanted right?"

But if he's angry, then no tears will work on him. For example, he might be angry because you tried to leave him. Which leads him to punishing you and you start crying. At that point, he likes you crying cuz then you'll understand his pain

"why are you crying, huh?! This is what you deserve!"

Giorno

Affected by darling's tears

Giorno is the reason for your tears but he's also the one who dries them off

It hurts to see you cry. He never wants to see his precious darling unhappy. He wants them to smile all the time

But he's nothing without his resolve. Giorno wouldn't lighten your punishment or give you more freedom outside the villa. Cuz he still thinks he's right to keep you here

Instead, he'll keep you company. He'll work from home for a few days until you've calmed down. If you cry in your room, he'll work in your shared together right across the bed to always check in on you.

He'll give you a strong but gentle hug to comfort you

Will have your favourite dish prepared to make it up to you and speak to you in a very soft manner

"come here, cara. It's alright. Shh, no more tears, tesoro. I hate seeing you cry."

Jolyne

Affected by darling's tears

Jolyne will think that your crying is a sign of dissatisfaction with your relationship with her

It freaks her out and gives her anxiety.

She takes this as a form of rejection and she somehow messed it up.

Or rather, YOU don't love her

She'll beg you to stop crying and make several failed attempts to get you to stop

From trying to be funny, apologizing profusely, hugging you tightly, and giving you gifts and kisses

If you don't stop crying then Jolyne will be on the verge of tears herself

She'll go to pleading puppy dog eyes to playing victim and blaming darling if the crying persists

"hey, y/n. Please, please stop crying. I don't know what to do! I'm trying so hard but you just won't cooperate. If you love me back then you won't have to cry again!

Johnny

Not affected by darling's tears

Johnny just doesn't understand where you're crying. It doesn't make sense to him

Johnny is a bit of a sadist yandere so he likes seeing darling cry

In fact, out of all darlings among Jojos, Johnny's darling is the one who cries the most alongside Jotaro's darling

So this is a typical day for him.

*rolls his eyes*, they're crying AGAIN?

He thinks it's cute and makes them appear helpless. Kinda a power thing for him given his physical condition

Will tease darling and won't really comfort them

"aw, come on, darling. Dry those tears off. Are you upset cuz I forgot your birthday?"

But if you keep crying and he's done teasing, he might get pissed. Like he's done with this charade

"hey! How much longer do you plan on crying? I never took you for a crybaby."

#yandere jjba #yandere #yandere jojo's bizarre adventure #yandere jojo x reader #yandere giorno #yandere jonathan joestar #yandere joseph joestar #yandere josuke #yandere jotaro #yandere jolyne #yandere johnny joestar #jonathan joestar x reader #jonathan joestar #joseph joestar #joseph joestar x reader #jotaro x reader #jotaro kujo #giorno giovanna #giorno x reader #jolyne kujo #jolyne x reader #johnny joestar x reader #johnny joestar #ask #sluttbuttsstuff

[retronamic]

Arcane Women (Oddly Specific) Hobbies

Г Vi |

- If I said boxing or any vigorous activity would be tooo damn obvious. Sooooo I slept on it, and vi definitely collected and trained bugs (yes i said trained)

- I mean look at her and tell me she wasn't the type of kid to have some random bug on them

- Ik it sounds gross asf but hear me out.

-In Zaun there isn't much to do to pass the time that won't result in you running for your lives. Soooo the kids of the Undercity held underground ✨bug fights✨ (kinda like dog fights but for bugs)

- Here you brought your best bug didn't matter the species and you made them battle till someone was eaten or turned over

- Vi was the undefeated champion since she snagged herself a stag beatle, who she named Caesar.

- Caesar was a big boi soo was no surprise he became the undefeated champion of the bug fights

- She loved tf outta that bug. So much so that when Caesar sadly passed away, Vi was devastated. They held a funeral procession at the back of the Last drop. Everyone gave a eulogy and paid their respects (No one really cared bout the damn bug they just wanted to make Vi happy)

- It took Vi 3 months to recover. During those 3 months Vander had to help her do the basic tasks of life like eating and showering

- She thinks of him every now and then when she goes collecting. She collects for fun. She finds them, admires them, tries to guess the bug and takes a pic or two. No more bug fights for her, plus it wouldn't feel the sameeeee

Г Sevika |

- Miss Sevika can sewwwww (I prolly saw this from some other creators blog posts yet sadly I can’t remember who they were s but yea she definitely sews)

- Embroider, patch up or make a whole as dress, she can do it allll

- I see her developing this skill as a means of survival. In Zaun, clothes ain't cheap. Sooo it's best to keep the ones you have now for as longggg as you can

- Later on in life, when she began working for Silco, she suddenly could afford more clothes than she needed

- Being one to be stuck in her ways, she still prefers to repair or make her own clothes cuz, one it helps her relax and 2. her body portions like her arms and thighs makes it hard to find clothes that fit her well and still her enough mobility to fight 

- If yall have been together for a while then she would make you a scarf or two and that's onlyyyy if yall have been together for long. She’s not going to wasting her yarn on a one night stand. 

- Those stitches are made with loveeeee ok and you better wear them even if the designs are ugly asf (since sev is more the dress maker rather that the stylists) 

Г Grayson |

- Lovesssssssssssss wood work

- I can see her as the type to make bird houses or build her kids a whole ass tree house from scratch

- All her cupboards, dressers and even the bed frame are hand made by yours truly

- She doesn't do it much as she is the sheriff and duty calls. But sometimes, you catch her wilding a piece of wood to make a cute little animal sculpture

- When she proposed to you, she presented the ring in a hand crafted wooden box (you only noticed that after cuz the diamond on that ring was blinding) 

- THAT SHIT WAS SOOOO CUTEEEE THOOOO 

Г Mel |

- Ik she's the residential arts and crafts bish of the show (she had them 64 Crayola crayons on stand by) but have you seen her family, cause I have (Hiiii miss mel’s mom~)

- Girlie can fighttttttttt. She’s definitely trained in hand to hand and long distance combat. Perks of having a warlording family yk?

- But Mel being the girl boss she is, I feel she would take it a step further and do something like capoeira

- Capoeira is a martial art-infused dance thought to have originated in 16th-century Brazil, which draws attention for having an acrobatic, athletic style. 

- To me that screams Mel, it’s elegant yet deadly (and smth her mother probably hates soooo all the better fit for her)

- You would sometimes watch from a distance and admire how she delivered powerful blows yet graceful blows to the sand bag, all without breaking a sweat

Г Caitlyn |

- Runs a tumblr blog. That’s it. 

- Most specifically a Lana Del Rey tumblr blog (pppfffffttttttt ahhahahhahaa)

- Daily Lana quotes, gifs, and she even used Lana song lyrics as words of daily affirmations (the projection is really shining through with her)

- She mainly did it in her past time as a way to interact and talk with people who shared her love of the goddess Lana herself

- On a date, she accidently slipped up and mentioned it to you and you beggggeeeddd her to show you. Ofc she said “Absolutely not.” She was not bout to relive her tween cringe years, she rather get run over by a freight train than show anyone her blog

- After an hour of begging, she caved and you saw it

- Make fun of her alllll you want, but she had a color palette. The pics were on point, man every post correlated with the main page’s theme

- DON'T PLAY WITH HER INTERIOR DESIGN SKILLS

#arcane #sapphic #mel medarda #sevika #vi #caitlyn #arcane hcs #arcane women #enforcer grayson

[suometar]

Power song of the day: Wake up by Smash into Pieces

You can not resist, like a moth to a flame -- You know it will burn, but sometimes you enjoy the pain

This is your favorite game -- But you're gonna be defeated -- And you're never gonna beat it -- Controls you like a slave -- But you gotta stop pretending -- You won't get a happy ending

(Chorus) Someday you're gonna wake up -- Gonna wake up -- From a life in fantasy -- Someday you're gonna wake up -- Gonna wake up -- And realize it's not meant to be -- You stumble in the dark cause you close your eyes -- Guided by the sweet talk lullaby -- But someday you will wake up -- You will wake up From a life in fantasy -- Wake up!

You try to cut everyone out of your life -- So no one can question how you can believe the lies

This is your favorite game -- But you're gonna be defeated -- And you're never gonna beat it -- Controls you like a slave -- But you gotta stop pretending -- You won't get a happy ending

(Chorus)

You're in the fire, what do you do? -- You wake up -- The final round is waiting for you

(Chorus)

Why? Well...

I'm coming down from mania.

Which sucks. And here's a glimpse into my 30 or so years experience of this nonsense.

But before I say more I want to say to everyone who I have been venting during the last month or so:

Please don't think that you have contributed in making my situation worse. You haven't. The fuel for all of it comes from within myself. I am nothing but crateful that I have had a chance to vent to someone because otherwise it all would've just clumped inside me and that would've made the situation worse.

And besides, not all venting has been caused just by mania. When I'm manic it doesn't remove the normal thoughts and feelings I have.

When you're stuck in a tar pit created by a certain person for who knows how many years in a row it's obvious it's not just the mania. I think you guys know what that's like :D

Coming down is like a really really really REALLY bad hangover

Except that you can remember every single thing you've done, the things you've felt, the things you've planned, what you thought of. EVERYTHING.

And you KNOW they're all just a result of the chemical imbalance of your own brain.

Coming down doesn't mean necessarily that I'm now depressed. It's just getting back to your normal state from mania.

But the bad hangover is real. If you've experienced that you know what it's like. Regrets after regrets.

What's mania like

That ecstacy of mania is an immense rush you don't really know unless you've experienced it yourself.

It's difficult to describe, but I think falling in love really hard and fast is the closest that describes it best. You have butterflies in your stomach all the time, you're hyperfixating on that one person and you feel invincible, like everything in your life is finally perfect and you're in control like never before.

Or even better: It's like being on speed, except without the drugs. Overstimulated 24-7-365.

Hyperfixation is typical for mania

In my case the hyperfixation can be basically anything from men (real or fictional, doesn't really matter lol) to any action, hobby or even work, totally depends on the situation.

What I do is I dedicate all my time to that one thing and one thing only even though I know it's not healthy.

Thank god I've learned to control it so that it won't take ALL of my time anymore, but it still is there. And I need to cater it to some extent or I won't be able to do anything.

It's like having a parasite you can't get rid of but you can make it behave if you give it some attention from time to time.

What's real and what's not? That is the question

When you're having mania it's sometimes super hard to differentiate what's a real thought and what is based on the illusion created by your own mind. And even though I am nowadays capable to tell the difference of my real thoughts/feelings and the ones fueled by mania the later ones do have an effect on me even though I try not to react to them.

The tricky thing is that your body can't tell the difference of a so called real/normal thought/feeling and one created inside my head fueled by mania.

A manic person wants nothing more than get more of the dopamine that fuels the ecstacy. Which easily can lead to a psychotic episode/period.

The saddest part is that manic person usually looks and behaves exactly like any normal person. You can't tell from outside if someone is having mania unless they choose to show it. Psychotic then usually is clearly psychotic and erratic and behaves totally out of character.

Triggers for mania

Anything can basically be a trigger for mania and they vary from person to person. For me it's usually one of the following:

an extreme negative change in life (such as death, divorce or other big things like that),

finding a new crush,

intensive concentration on some activity,

social media, or

as surprising as it might be: music. Especially any with a faster tempo.

Usually though I have already been somewhat hypomanic before the real mania hits. Hypomania though is very hard to notice because I'm somewhat easily excited and impulsive already by nature.

But I've lived with this so long that I know when it's going overboard. My manic mind just usually chooses to say it's nothing and I believe it like a fool - because it feels so good.

This time the trigger for me was intensive concentrating on writing. While the writing was crucial in easing my general anxiety this time it had this unfortunate side effect.

Nonetheless, I'm not quitting writing. Because the anxiety has eased significantly from when I started. I probably need to change the subject for a while and not to write daily or limit it just for 30 mins a day.

How a new crush can happen when you're married, you ask?

Oh, easily. See, with a manic mind a marriage is nothing but an obstacle. Nothing is but an obstacle that is designed to limit you. Because you're omnipotent. And obstacles - well, they're made to be conquered or plowed through.

In my case I've chosen to keep my crushes online and physically as far away from me as possible. I've made a mistake of crushing into someone irl and that was UGLY for all parties involved.

Thirsting over someone from afar online while remaining happily married is by far a better option.

How to control mania or turn it off

Yes, you can turn it off. The problem with that is that usually manic person doesn't

feel like something is wrong, and

doesn't want to get down from the high.

But there are things you can do to get it end sooner.

Log off from all social media. Seriously. Don't just turn notifications off - LOG OFF.

If that's not enough, remove all the social media apps from your phone. You can always install them again.

Turn off your phone if it's possible.

Don't use computer unless it is absolutely necessary - like for paying bills. You don't need to find out what age Barbara Streissand is at 2:30am - or, well, ever.

Social media is by far the biggest contributor for mania. The apps are designed to give us a dopamine rush each time we scroll down any feed and see a new post. That's how they keep us stuck on them.

When you already have an issue with the dopamine rush using social media just makes it worse.

You won't miss anything if you log off for two days or a week. SERIOUSLY. But it will improve your well-being tremendously.

The absolutely best thing you can do is to create as dull environment to yourself as possible. That there's nothing artificial you can drown yourself into. Best place to be in mania is in the middle of the woods without any mobile signal - trust me.

Take up an activity where you do something with your hands. Hands-on approach is crucial.

Doing things with your hands will root you into the real world.

It doesn't matter what it is: cooking, cleaning, handcrafts, drawing or painting (NOT on a computer or ipad but with real pencils/crayons/paints/brushes/etc).

Remember not to do just that though. Go out (without your phone). Enjoy the nature. Listen to the sounds of the outside world. Don't close your senses with headphones. Read. Watch out of the window. Stare at the wall. Watch the paint dry.

LET YOURSELF GET BORED.

Just stay away from any electronic devices.

The hangover is horrible but it'll pass. And you will feel better afterwards when you're functional again.

------

It's not easy. None of us chose to live with bipolar. It's always inherited. But there are ways to work through it.

I hope this helps at least someone.

Thank you for coming to my TED talk.

#bipolar disorder #bipolar #bipolar mania #coping skills #mental health tips #thoughts from the crypt #long post

[angelsswirl]

Been Through

Chapter 2: Did the heartbreak change me

Notes: Hi, this story has been completed since I last posted on here. Sorry that I haven't been keeping up with posting on here but I wasn't aware people were reading it. But nevermind that. Here is the next chapter. PS. I'm on mobile so it's ugly.

Don't show up, don't come out. Don't start caring about me now. Walk away, you know how.

Lily poked at the bag of fish with a curiously sticky finger. You had told her to stop, lest she stress out the fish, but telling a four year old to do anything only yielded a 45% positive result.

You were barely in the house 10 minutes before your phone rung. You made the mistake of answering without looking at the caller ID.

"Hello?"

"Hey, Y/N." Rosé's voice is soft, a lot less accusatory than Jennie's was. That was something you greatly appreciated.

"Hi, Chae."

There was a pause on the other end. Then, Chaeyoung started to frantically whisper something to someone else. You raised an eyebrow, but before you could question anything, she spoke to you again.

"Let's meet up for coffee."

You feel as those you don't really have a choice, "That sounds...nice."

Lily is happy to spend some time with her babysitter, while you go out. You assumed she's a bit tired of just you all the time. And surprisingly, that doesn't make you feel bad.

The coffee shop is some out of the way hole in the wall. You're not sure how Rosé found it, but you're glad she did.

You laughed as your companion sat down in front of you. The four years hadn't changed much of anything, other than maybe her hair.

"Why are you laughing at me? Do I have something on my face?" She's wearing a mask, so even if she did, you wouldn't be able to tell.

"No. It's just funny to see you without your gaggle of managers, and screaming fans."

Rosé hummed and took a sip of the coffee you had ordered for her.

"Yeah, we've been let off the leash so to speak. It's great."

You nodded, then frowned.

"So, Jennie told you."

"Told me what? That I have a niece that I knew nothing about?" Chaeyoung doesn't seem mad, maybe a tad disappointed but she does well to keep it off of her face.

"...Yeah. Did she tell anyone else?" You're trying to be subtle, but you've never been very good at that.

"You mean did she tell Lisa? I'm sure she overheard. Jennie doesn't whisper." Chaeyoung shrugged.

"I'm so sorry. I didn't mean for any of this to happen. I wanted to stay, I really did, but then I found out I was pregnant and I didn't want to ruin anyone's career with the inevitable scandal that would have been. So I left." Your hands wrung in your lap.

"I'm not the one you should be apologizing to."

"I already told Jennie-"

"I'm not talking about her."

"Then who?"

"Her." Chaeyoung pointed to behind you, toward the entrance of the cafe.

Lisa stood there, searching the place for Rosé probably.

"Why did you invite her?" You snarled.

"I didn't. She follows me around. But she's here and you might as well say what you need to say."

"I don't have anything to say."

Lisa spotted Chaeyoung and started to bound over to your table.

"Well then, you have three seconds to come up with something. I don't think she saw you, but she saw me and that's more than enough for her."

You rolled your eyes and flopped back into the booth.

"Chae! Why'd you leave me alone with-"  Lisa's breath caught in her throat. Cutting off her sentence. Her eyes were stuck on you like she had seen a ghost. And maybe, she had.

"Hi, Lisa. You can sit if you want." You said. Only looking halfway up her face.

Lisa didn't move until Chaeyoung yanked her down into the seat.

"Y/N..."

"In the flesh." This was suddenly terribly awkward.

"Jennie said that you-but I didn't-Y/N?" Lisa seemed more confused than anything. Confusion you could deal with, anger you could deal with, but the underlying layer of sadness it seemed both Lisa and Jennie were harboring is what you couldn't handle. Or rather, didn't want to.

"I had to get away." Your eyes stay glued to the spot just left of Lisa's light brown hair.

"From me?"

You sighed heavily. Rosé was pretending not to listen if the sounds of Candy Crush coming from her phone was anything to go by.

"No."

You're not lying. You hadn't been running from Lisa. Not really.

"Then why'd you leave me-us. Why'd you leave us?"

Your brows knitted together, you figured by now it would have been obvious why you left. Was Jennie meeting your child not explanation enough?

"Jennie and I broke up. I went to a bar got piss drunk, pushed myself into an early heat, fucked you, then I ran back to Jennie out of guilt, fucked her. Found out I was pregnant like three weeks later. You expect me to stay after that?"

Lisa stayed silent. Rosé played Candy Crush faster. If that was even possible.

"Jennie had just gotten over the Kai thing. What were people going to think when I showed up pregnant and Dispatch or someone else did a little bit more digging? That would have ended bad for Jennie and even worse for me."

"And if she's not Jennie's?" Lisa nibbled at her bottom lip. Your eyes traced the movement with a scowl.

"Oh, you wanted a scandal too?"

Lisa rolled her eyes at that, "You do know, don't you?"

"The way you said that made me sound like a whore, but, yes I do know. Thank you for the concern." You blew out a breath before grabbing for your purse.

"Wait! That's it? You're not going to tell me?!"

"No. It won't change anything. Just because we're not in South Korea anymore, doesn't mean the same things won't happen. All four of you are still my friends, but...Lily doesn't need any of that confusion right now."

"Lily doesn't need that confusion or you don't?" You were wondering how long Rosé was going to stay quiet. You're proud of her for lasting as long as she did.

"I'll see you guys some other time." You stood up from the booth and made to leave.

"Can we at least see her? Hang out like we used to?"

Your face softened, and your shoulders hunched, "Of course you can. I'm mean, not evil."

Lisa chuckled at the inside joke, "Cool."

You turned toward the door once more.

"Y/N!"

You turned back around.

"You're going to have to unblock my number if you want to arrange that playdate."

You winced and nodded, "Sorry."

Lisa only smiled softly, "It's okay."

~~~

"You're going to a special type of Hell."

"What? Why?"

"Because you have the hots for your friend's ex-girlfriend."

Lisa scoffed, a bit too loudly, "I don't have the hots for Y/N."

"Do you think I'm stupid? You know what? Don't answer that. Anyway, all I know is that you like Y/N, and so does Jennie. Though, she's a bit too pissed to realize it at the moment."

Lisa crossed her arms, her eyes never left their spot on the door that you had just left through.

"I don't like her. Like that."

"Then why'd you sleep with her?" Rosé asked as she typed furiously. She was currently fielding questions from Jisoo on their whereabouts.

"That was four years ago. She was in heat. We were both drunk. It was pretty hard to fight my instincts."

"That's not the only thing that was hard." Rosé mumbled.

"Chae!"

"All I'm saying is drunken minds speak sober thoughts."

Lisa rolled her eyes at her company.

"Whatever."

#blackpink fanfic #blackpink #lisa fanfic #lisa x reader #jennie x reader #jesssica's fanfic #been through #jennie fanfic #alpha beta omega #g!p

[meetmeatthecoda]

Lately, I've found myself drawn to stories ( and I mean drawn to as in envisioning those stories in my head, thinking them through to the very last detail, not reading, let alone writing them down, because I've long since accepted that they will never turn out quite the same on the paper ) where Red is the one who'd been seriously hurt and, therefore, rendered unconscious for an indefinite amount of time and worried Liz is the one who doesn't leave his side, hoping and praying and pleading that he would wake up. Probably, something that has to do with how unfair it is that we've seen Red keep vigil by hurt!Lizzy's side – playing music for her, holding her hand, reading to her etc. – a number of times and yet, over the course of 8 seasons, never have ever been allowed the pleasure of seeing Liz do the same for him ( not even when he was shot – because she left to retrieve the Fulcrum and couldn't come back until the fight was over – or when he was poisoned – because she'd been waiting to be cleared to see him and he ran away the moment he wasn't actively dying, because that's Red for you all ), even though she loves and cares about him as much as he loves and cares about her.

I mean, just imagine the possibilities!

Liz pacing around the waiting area of Red's mobile hospital while he's in surgery, unable to think about anything else other than how he looked – battered and broken and barely alive – when they've found him and how his head rested in her lap ( she could almost convince herself that he was merely dozing, if he wasn't so deathly pale and still and there wasn't so much blood on his clothes and her clothes and her hands and the backseat of the car ) and his hand was limp in her death grip as they rushed him to his doctors and she whispered words of reassurance and encouragement to him even though she knew he couldn't hear her and how she had to fight the instinct to curl around her lover and snarl at anyone who would come close because she can't let him be hurt further as the medics took him away from her, exchanging observations and orders that didn't sound particularly reassuring. She's also acutely aware of the fact that Red is fighting for his life – there, just a few feet away from her – and, though he's the strongest man she's ever known, he may not win, and so she makes a promise to the empty air in front of her that she will kill him herself if he dares to give up on her and Agnes like that now, when they've just reached the good, right place in their relationship, just confesses their feelings to each other. At some point, Dembe most certainly pulls Liz in for a hug, letting her cry in his shoulder, doing his best to comfort her ( even though there's nothing that can bring her more comfort than Red's hug, when he – alive and whole – wraps his arms protectively around her and holds her close and lets her hide from the whole world in his arms, his chest, his shoulder and neck – wherever she prefers to burrow her face at the time – and the memory itself makes her cry harder, because there's a possibility that he will never hug her like that again ), even though he's just as worried and scared as she is, and Mr Kaplan helps Liz clean up, washing away Red's blood from her hands and producing seemingly out of the thin air fresh clothes for her to change into.

Red, of course, pulls through the surgery, beating all odds, and Liz's heart floods with relief at the good news before sinking when the doctor explains to her and Dembe and Mr Kaplan the extent of Red's injuries and that it's impossible to say when – or even if – he wakes up.

And so the waiting game begins. Liz doesn't leave Red's side, holding his hand, stroking his knuckles with her thumb and never letting go, constantly talking to him and reading to him and even asking Dembe to bring the record player and some records from the Bethesda apartment to play to him, hoping that it would elicit some kind of response from him. Yet, as they days go by, there's not a single, smallest sign that he's aware of anything that's going on around him, that he's still there somewhere and is trying to find his way back to her, to them – he doesn't stir, doesn't so much as flutter his eyelashes, and Liz grows more desperate with each passing day, even though the doctor assures her that Red's slowly but surely improving ( but she can't see it with her own eyes, and if she can't see it, she's less likely to believe it, the more time passes with him just lying there, undisturbed by the loud, chaotic world around him ).

And then there's Agnes... While Liz keeps vigil at Red's bedside, the babysitting duties are split equally between Aram and Samar, Charlene and Cooper, Ressler and Audrey and Dembe and Mr Kaplan. Yet more often than not whoever picks little Agnes up from school and / or her ballet classes brings her over to the safe-house where Liz and Red are. She doesn't seem to be as unnerved by Red's state as her mommy is, climbing on his bed each time she visits ( after giving her mommy the biggest hug, of course ) and leaning in close to him, examining his face thoughtfully before half-asking, half-stating "He's still tired, mommy?". And Liz usually replies with a hoarse "Yes, baby" because she doesn't trust herself not to get choked up if she tries to answer more eloquently. Agnes simply nods then, satisfied with the explanation why he hasn't woken up yet, and settles against Red's side – mindful of his injuries and the spider web of wires and tubes connecting him to all sorts of monitors and machines – and either naps ( especially, on ballet classes days ) or tells her mommy and Red ( she talks to him just like Liz does much too easily – promising him to show him the new moves she's learnt when he wakes up etc. – as if she's already done that before or seen anyone else do that... unbeknownst to Liz, she did both – when Liz herself was in a coma, Agnes both saw Red talk to her mommy and was encouraged by him to talk to her, too, because it may help her mommy sleep easier and maybe she'll get better sooner and finally wake up ) about her day or does her homework or draws ( more often than not, she draws either cards for Red to read when he wakes up or just things she wants him to see ). And when the time comes for her to leave, she always kisses Red on the cheek, wishing him "sweet dreams" and to get better soon, and then gives her mommy, who tries so very hard not to tear up but fails miserably, a hug and a kiss, too, and tells her frequently that she shouldn't cry because Red is just too tired, just like she – Liz – once was, and that he just needs to sleep a bit more.

And when the door behind Agnes closes and Liz is sure her daughter won't see / hear her, she breaks down hard, in big, ugly sobs, because her little girl shouldn't be acting so naturally in this kind of situation and because she wishes so hard that Red just woke up, because she can't do this, any of this, without him.

In the end, once his body has healed itself enough and he regained enough of his strength, Red, of course, does wake up. It's a slow process, and Liz thinks she might either faint or go mad from the overwhelming feelings that are swirling inside of her when Red moves for the first time in what seems to her like forever – squeezing her hand feather-lightly – and when he leans slightly, unconsciously into her touch when she strokes his cheek – out of habit, without even expecting any sort of reaction from him and being pleasantly surprised – and when he opens his eyes for the first time – it's a brief occurrence, with his eyes slipping shut tiredly again after just a few moments, and he's still pretty much out of it, apparently, not even noticing her presence by his side, but for Liz it's a major event – and when he finally, finally looks directly at her – alive and conscious and alert – and calls her "Lizzy". He's still weak and his voice sounds terrible and Liz knows she shouldn't let all of her pent-up feelings – the fear and despair and frustration and love and relief and exhaustion – out on him like that – he's just woken up, after all – but she can't hold back the tears nor the jumbled mess of "thank you"s and "I love you"s and " "I've missed you"s and "I'm so so happy you're back" and "I was so worried" and "Don't ever scare me like that again" that spills from her lips as she leans in to kiss him lightly and give him the gentlest of hugs...

(Since I'm not a ficwriter and, therefore, have no intentions of using this pile of ideas/images/feelings myself, I wouldn't mind at all if you or any other writer drew inspiration from this rambling of mine)

Ahhhhh 😭😭😭 Are you sure you're not a fic writer, anon?? Cause this reads like some quality hurt/comfort to me!! 🥲🥲 Honestly, this is a lovely scenario to imagine & it gives me a slightly bitter sense of satisfaction to think of Liz suffering through just a fraction of the time Red spent by her side while she was in her coma... especially if it's the catalyst for fEeLiNgS to emerge tee hee bc, you're RIGHT, we were woefully deprived of those situations in the show & I'll never not be sad about it tbh. More specifically, things I love the most about this in no particular order: Liz having to "fight the instinct to curl around her lover & snarl" *swoon*, Liz swearing she will kill him herself if he dies LMAO, Dembe hugging her for comfort & Mr. Kaplan helping her get cleaned up 🥺🥺🥺, Liz playing records for Red yasss, AGNES & everyone taking turns babysitting her while she misses her Daddy desperately but deals with the situation with a maturity & grace beyond her years in an effort to help her grieving Mommy through it cool cool mkay mkay, Liz only breaking down once Agnes leaves OWWW, anddddd Liz being a blubbering mess when Red finally wakes up & calls her "Lizzie" & they kiss *whispers* it's fine, i'm fine 🙃 IN CONCLUSION, I love this anon, thank you for sharing this lovely little AU with me!! 🥰 And much, much love to you, of course, my friend!! ❤️

#The Blacklist #Lizzington #Agnesgate #thoughts #headcanons #mine #ask #anon #ughhhhhhhh #this mini fic is packed with feels #and punched me right in the face #thank you for this gift anon #:') #much love!! #<3

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UPDATE FEB. 5

Hello!

As this is a character archive, there is a corresponding character directory. However, it is old & ugly outdated, so I'm currently concentrating on an updated version that follows the theme of my personal carrd closer. This allows for more cohesion between both of my blogs, plus it's prettier.

Some mobile sneak peeks (subject to change):

As you can see, it mimics the 'choose your own adventure' set up of Choice of Games. Since almost all of my public OCs are from this company, I figured it'd be more fitting. Hopefully the joking tone of the new directory won't throw anyone off too badly! I'm having fun with this & have to at least keep myself entertained, haha.

I'm excited to continue working on the layout & am looking forward to sharing the rest of it soon!

Enjoy your weekend, visitor!

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Love doesn't ask why

Rhaenys Nymeros Martell and Jon Stark: "You're a Stark by Lyanna, a DNA. You are not a bastard. You are Jon Stark or Jon Stark-Targaryen as you like. Nobody has the right to call you a bastard", he kissed her, "Jon Stark."

"Thank god that the Iron Throne is gone and that the kingdoms are independent, thank god Rhaegar burned the Iron Throne", said Jon.

"You're just shit sometimes, a bitch and scary Rhaenys. You're a real shitty little bitch sometimes. You and Daenerys are just total shit sometimes. Actually we wanted to end incest, Arianne fell in love with Robb and we both have feelings for each other. Fortunately, Daenerys doesn't want anything to do with incest. Fortunately, Aegon doesn't want anything to do with incest. House Stark, Martell and Targaryen should be burned down. Ideally, all houses in Westeros should be burned down. Burn House Stark down and I wouldn't care. I don't want to live north of the wall for the rest of my life, this world is so big and has so much to offer."

Elia looked up, "you have to put up with that from Jon, Rhaenys. You didn't make Jon your brother when you were older. I would have freaked out if you were intimate when you were kids. Lyanna would have freaked out if the two of you had been intimate when you were younger. You show affection and great love for one another, that's ok. You are really scary sometimes. There is no reason to hate Rhaegar, Lyanna or me, we can remain unmarried. You two can stay unmarried. Nobody here has stolen anything from anyone, like names, titles or claims."

Rhaenys nodded, "I also don't know who thinks something is stolen here, I'm a Martell and Targaryen like Aegon and Jon is a Stark and Targaryen. Never, I would never make Robb a king consort, before I would resign as queen. There will never be political marriages again, fuck the realm, when the undead are defeated Jon and I can move to Norvos and have a quiet life if he wants, he doesn't want to live north of the wall for the rest of his life. I don't have to be a queen, Arianne has proven herself to be the best queen in the north. Aegon calls himself Targaryen now, Sansa is now a Targaryen, I call myself Martell and Jon calls himself Stark. Where is the problem, right there is no problem. I would never hate Jon, hate is aversion; and I would never dislike Jon! Jon is not just a hero, he unites people of different languages ​​and skin colors, nations, races, through empathy. Nobody here needs an Iron Throne to show something regal, Sansa and Arianne are wise queens. This Iron Throne definitely had to go, Rhaegar did everything right. Aegon and Robb are good kings but there is more. I don't hate anyone, I love Jon more than my own life and we support Arianne, Robb, Aegon and Sansa in everything. My goodness it's just sex at first. Ok, incest is always wrong, but then Robert Baratheon is liable to prosecution as soon as he threatens us with death. I feel threatened by him every time he calls me, Aegon or Jon dragonspawn and screams that he wants to kill us. Even Myrcella feels threatened by Robert because he calls her a lion cunt. Jon told me that he sees Sansa as a sister and not me, and I also see Robb as my brother, I didn't make Jon my brother either. Aegon, Robb and Jon are brothers. Arya makes me, Sansa, Jon and Aegon siblings. Myrcella is like a sister to me.

This world must finally understand that there are no bastards. Jon is no damn bastard. What nonsense is it that Jon is supposed to be a bastard? I was also north of the wall and saw the undead. No, I will not accept that he swears an ugly oath to hunt wildlings, he already gets honor from others. Lock Mance Rayder away and it's good. The wildlings can stay in the north until the undead are defeated, as long as they don't loot. I also know where my duty is, I'm already tired from all the work and fighting, Jon is tired, he needs a break. We have children together and I won't let anyone claim that love is death of duty, certainly not. Others can move north of the wall to attack the undead, we are all Westerosi. No, Jon will take care of his weapons again in the near future, we won't be moving north of the wall any time soon. He's fed up with knowing that Robert Baratheon wants his death, Aegon's death, and my death, and now Sansa's death because he calls her a bitch. I also lost like Jon north of the wall against the undead, why should I command armies, others can too. The kingdoms can mobilize over 100,000 soldiers, but the emphasis is on together. We are on vacation with Lyarra and Visenya in the south."

Jon smiled and kissed her, "thank you Rhaenys", Rhaella, Aerys, Robb, Catelyn, Arianne, Rhaegar, Aegon, Sansa, Elia and Lyanna smiled, "so beautiful. Yes, we will take in the Wildlings in the north and Westeros will welcome them and Mance Rayder will be locked away. Take a vacation to Sunspear and get in the sun, you two. We will attack the undead soon. Tywin is also there. Cersei also wants to fight."

Rhaenys smiled, "Jon and I show affection and love and that has to be enough. Robb makes too many, massive mistakes. I just hate the Baratheons and Lannisters who think they have to start usurpations even though the Iron Throne is gone and independence prevails. It has to be over, I don't need to be a queen when Robb pulls himself together in the north, Arianne keeps saving his ass because he has to learn politics. Jon is a Stark and Targaryen, I'm a Martell and Targaryen, Aegon is a Martell and Targaryen, that's the way it is. Jon can call himself Stark on his own. Jon come to me if you want to cry, that's ok, men can cry. Ok honey here we have the truth. Listen carefully, you are no power to me, you know that too. I would never have a toxic relationship like Cersei does with Jaime, you know that very well, Jon. Someone should dare to say you don't know anything, my boyfriend knows a lot. Cathelyn, Myrcella, Sansa, Aegon, Robb and Arianne said several times that they like it when the two of us are together. Even if you had sex with Sansa, it would be incest, Jon. What should I do if you see me as a woman and not as your sister. You're already handsome Jon. I had your sweat and blood on my hands when we were little, you sat by my bed and we weren't intimate. You comforted me when I cried. You make Sansa your sister and not me, I'm always there for you, Jon. I was always there for you, what did I do wrong? You will always have my heart no matter where you are. It doesn't matter if you make me your sister or Sansa, she is a good queen by Aegon's side and Arianne is a good queen by Robb's side. Jon, like you, Arianne, Lyanna, Elia, Myrcella and Aegon, I'm scared of Robert. Jon, I've never been possessive of you or Aegon. You have never been possessive of me but the two of us have always had the closest bond because I can see how much you suffer. You have always been a good man, it's not difficult for me to fall in love with you either. You always played with Balerion. Myrcella or Arianne didn't want you, Jon, you have to understand that, they want you as their best friend, you're a cousin for Arianne too and she would never fuck you. Myrcella was more drawn to Trystane than to you, and she worships you as the best and strongest man in Westeros, you and Myrcella built the alliance and not me although Trystane is one of my cousins. Myrcella loves to travel with you to the wall or to the north. We are all not blind, you are damn good looking but they didn't want you.

Love doesn't ask why, it just has to be strong and the two of us have always spent most of our time together. You know what Aegon looked like, he had severe acne, and Sansa still liked him. If Sansa was a little bird, Aegon was a little worm. Arianne wasn't attractive when she was younger, and Robb saw that too. And Robb wasn't as handsome a few years ago as he is now. Your relationships didn't work, and mine didn't work either. Aegon's relationships didn't work out, he and Sansa weren't promised each other, they studied politics and the Game of Thrones together in Sunspear, like at school, Jon. Sansa was attacked by snakes in the desert. Sansa's relationship with Quentyn didn't work out.

The three of us weren't as attractive a few years ago as we are now. If we're going to be honest, you've always been the most handsome of the three of us. You have always been the sportiest and strongest of the three of us. I had extremely flaky hair as you know Jon."

Jon nodded. "Yes, I'm afraid of Robert. Yes, I know how Aegon looked a few years ago with severe acne."

Rhaenys groaned.

"Ok the truth hurts. Yeah you're right. I might be a manipulative, power hungry bitch sometimes, but I would never be your enemy, let alone hate you. You know that I don't hate our father, on the contrary, I love him, he is the best father, you know that too. Why should Aegon, you or I hate Rhaegar, there is no reason, Jon. If you want to be a monster hunter then others should know that too and see why you are fighting, they will cheer you Jon. But we won't make you a man of the Night's Watch. You already have love, friendships, affections, honors, what more do you want? You can train men and women yourself to hunt the undead.

Peace? Unfortunately, we won't be able to get there anytime soon. Yes the kingdoms are independent but there is still fighting going on, there are still wars between vassals and big houses.

The vassals of House Baratheon are in open rebellion against Robert, they call him evil, Brienne's father rebels against Robert. The hill tribes in the Mountains of the Vale rebel against House Arryn. The Boltons rebel against House Stark. Tywin plans to attack Highgarden. Tywin has no chance at Highgarden, Margaery is pregnant by Quentyn, the Dornish army and the Tyrells will push the Lannisters away. Balon Greyjoy calls Robert warmonger and usurper.

Our safest spots right now are Riverrun, Sunspear, Winterfell and King's Landing Jon.

Power must grow before wars and fighting on a broad front stop. Yes, fights are already coming to a standstill, but it will take some time until it stops completely. Nobody ever knew peace; the great houses of Westeros have already fought each other before Aegon the Conquer. The Iron Throne is gone but there are still fights because it was like this before Aegon in Westeros. Alliances are still needed to stop bloodshed.

I'm not a heartless bitch I am not evil, mean or vicious but we have to do something with your life, you have to want something, you have to want something more than defeating the Night King or you will always suffer, Jon, you are in your early twenties and you have your life ahead of you. Jon it doesn't matter if you make me your sister or girlfriend or if you make Sansa a sister or girlfriend, you always have my heart Jon. You suffer Jon. Aegon sees that, Robb sees that, Arianne sees that, Sansa sees that, I see that, never fight for others Jon, never. Incest is always wrong but if you perceive me as your partner that's fine. You're already handsome, that's the way it is. It's not difficult for me to fall in love with you either. You've always been a good man, you know things, we can build on that, Jon. But then we just can't get married, with incest we both have to show affection for each other. You also have Sansa's heart, she may learn slowly but she learns, she is not a little bird, she is a good queen, Sansa is always there for you too. Arianne is a good queen in the north. Arianne is always there for you. When you make me your girlfriend that's fine. I am always with you, no matter where you are, I am always in your heart, you are always in my heart. Yes, we all don't want you to swear this oath on the Night's Watch because this oath is ugly like the pitch black night. Jon, you'd die because of that oath, don't swear an oath that's ugly. There's enough to do in Westeros before we all attack the Night King together. The wall is also known in Dorne. When you swear an oath on the Night's Watch or move north of the wall now, you will die Jon. You already unite people, we can make so much more of your abilities. You could be the greatest man ever, you could be the best of all, you know things but what you know is not enough. And when you make me your girlfriend now I'll get you to the point that you know enough, that's my job now to get you there."

"Love doesn't ask why, it speaks from the heart and never explains. Don't you know, that love doesn't think twice? It can come all at once or whisper from a distance. Don't ask me if this feeling's right or wrong. It doesn't have to make much sense.

It just has to be this strong, because when you're in my arms I understand we don't try to have a voice. When our hearts make the choices there's no plan, it's in our hands. Jon is no power to me. He will always have my heart and I have his", thought Rhaenys

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