#today was hard. very hard

[im-still-watching-anime]

apollo’s confidence in court: oh my god i’m the worst lawyer ever my client is going to go to JAIL because i can’t even do my JOB

apollo’s confidence outside of court: i’m the only smart one here, i’m the most normal guy in the world and NO ONE is doing it like i am, investigations are EASY, klavier gavin wants me carnally

#ace attorney #apollo justice #klavier gavin #klapollo #ace attorney incorrect quotes #the last one isn’t even his confidence tbh it’s just a fact #he says it like he doesn’t ALSO want klavier gavin carnally though which he does #alternatively: #apollo at klavier in court: *sweats* he’s so hot and competent #apollo at klavier outside of court: um…hello….you are kind of really nice🥺👉👈 #disgusting #im obsessed with them #preordered the new trilogy of three games i already own today😌 #$60 of my very hard earned money right into that #and i cant even regret it im SO excited #all the extrassssss #PLEASE go look at the aa twitter account to see the art extras btw #they’re SO fun #apollo justice trilogy really being about 75% of my will to live rn

[inkskinned]

but they don't care about the burnout. everyone is burnt out, they tell me. who isn't burnt out!

the good news is they don't say depression is a choice as much anymore, but the symptoms for burn out and depression are so hand-in-hand that they are mirror images of each other. but depression is serious. you're not depressed, you're just whiny. they barely change the script - don't be lazy! burn out is for people with real problems. burn out can be resolved with some fun candles and a day off work. burn out only happens in adults - no kid can be burnt out, after all; they've barely even had a life to live!

do you have a roof over your head and a steady job? you're not burnt out. so what if every night you wake up with a panic attack frothing inside your chest. you're lucky your problems are small. get back into plants or into yoga. shut up about it.

rich people get burnt out and go to fancy places. they get burnt out in their fancy offices with their real-people problems. they get burnt out and hire an assistant to help them never burn out again. you don't have the money to burn out. you don't have the two weeks to recover in a local spa. the job you come back to will still be stressful and hard.

you find yourself often wondering - does nobody remember about the pandemic? it seems almost like a joke or a punchline. being burnt-out was okay "during" the pandemic. now that people are back to ignoring covid, burnout is just-an-excuse again.

you google how to know if it's seasonal affective disorder or burnout. you google how to know if it's anxiety or it's burnout from working. you google how to know if my depression is back or i'm burning out badly.

coming back from burnout just leaves you covered in ashes, not new growth. you struggle to get back basics, and then - you're just supposed to get back up and keep going. every day the amount of tasks you are able to do seems to dwindle even further - where does the time go? why is everything moving so-fast-and-yet-so-slow?

my therapist and i were talking about how many people had latent mental illnesses that were triggered by the pandemic. how depression can be environmental and situational. i am annoyingly logic-driven about my own recovery - i like to be sure i'm working on the "right" thing. i tell her i feel like i'm lying. that it just might be burnout, and i need to stop complaining. she asks me what words come to mind when i think of burning.

oh, i guess i see.

we casually ignore the violence of being left empty.

#employers for 2 weeks during the pandemic: we know it's gonna be so so hard and we're here for you #week 3 day 1: now that we have been nice to you fucking get over it you weakling #do not worry this is not me romantically recalling the ''we're here for u'' overhead announcements #this is the opposite #side note #the new options to post????????? huh #gonna go write something VERY gay just to test it #(eventually. i skipped my meds by accident today so im nowhere)

[floccinaucinihilipilificationa]

#sherlock #it might be the cough medicine but I'm really feeling the bbc sherlock wedding episode today #a good feeling ₍՞◌′ᵕ‵ू◌₎♡ #like finding an old block of cheese in the back of the fridge you forgot about and its gotten super hard and chewy #i currently have half a block of gouda curating in the vegetable cupboard #waiting #how are you doing friends!! C: #I'm good! I still have the cough but I also got a new scarf #I'm still thinking about buying window colors as well but I am waiting if that is also just because of the cough medicine #I can't believe it's already been a year since I have moved! last year I was doing everything here for the first time #and now everything is happening for a second time! that year was both very long and also happened very fast #our floor in the “office” my father wanted to install still is not completly done but he threw up last time he tried #he did not threw up because of the floor but because every time he does a home renovation project he drinks 3 liters of Cherry Coca Cola #we are trying to not make him drink 3 liters of Cherry Coca Cola but he doesn't want anyone else to finish the floor I think so we just do #not mention the hole in the floor #have a nice autumn day friends!! I hope you're doing well! ( ´͈ ◡ `͈ ) #♥

[wherewolf]

the responses i’ve seen to shiv’s ending seem very quick to write her off as just another sad victim of the cycle, which isn’t without truth BUT!!! that is not even remotely the summation of shiv’s story.

i don’t think she votes yes to “save kendall” or to try to finally set her brothers free. and i don’t think her main concern was that ken was becoming their dad. she absolutely noticed and didn’t love it, but that was not her motivation in betraying him. she was thinking about herself.

it’s tempting to make a martyr out of her as she is the only female child and we see her suffer the onslaught of misogyny that comes with that. but to make her into a saintlike figure who got beat takes away the power and intelligence behind her decision.

at this point she’s stuck between two non ideal choices, but she recognizes that they have accidentally made her the single most important player in the game. because while she can’t have the outcome she’d prefer, she has the power to decide the fates of everyone else. the written off lone woman now holds in her hands the fate of every man in her life.

so she thinks about the long term benefits of both options and realizes that one side leaves her completely without any leverage.

her brothers have proven to her multiple times in the last few days alone that they will cut her out and walk all over her the first chance they get. siding with them leaves her nothing to bargain with. she would just have to hope that ken would actually take care of her. and that level of vulnerability is not only unacceptable to her, it’s stupid. and shiv fuckin roy is not stupid.

so she thinks about the other side and about what she actually wants for her life. and against her better judgment, it’s becomes unfortunately clear that she wants tom. the way she wants him is not altogether loving or even good but it is necessary to her. she sees relationships as having winners and losers and she chose this man specifically so that she could be confident in her ability to win. except now he’s grown some balls and made himself unavailable to her.

she may not like the way her husband is evolving but she already placed her bets on him, so she’s sure as hell not losing to him now. there’s also a part of her that feels intrigued by this new man she’s married to. it’s interesting to have a sparring partner in him instead of having to looking for excitement outside of their marriage.

so for maybe the first time ever, she processes what tom has said to her and thinks about what he actually wants.

he needs her to prove that she cares. he needs to know that she is capable of sacrifice. if she can’t find it within herself to do this for him, then she will lose him, and by extension, she will lose.

siding with tom gives her the opportunity to once and for all make a grand-stand gesture of love, but more importantly, it creates leverage for her. never again will he be able to hold the moral high ground over her head. never again can he say she doesn’t love him. never again can he call her selfish or uncaring. above all, he can never betray her again, because she just removed all of his moral justification for turning on her. he doesn’t realize it yet, but she’s just taken back all the power in their relationship. just in a more subtle way than she’s used to operating.

and just like that, she has the ceo of a multi billion dollar company in her pocket, while situating herself as the only descendant of logan roy to still be playing the game, having removed her brothers from the equation permanently. she may still be far from the top but she’s creating a path for herself to climb.

so yes, she’ll let tom play king for a day, and she’ll have his baby and say “congratulations,” and play the gracious wife, but tomorrow is a new day with lots of room to maneuver. and when her husband puts out his hand, she’ll place her own on top. but she won’t grasp it because she doesn’t need to.

#🐺 #shivy’s gonna be just fine #okay this ended up being a very long post but #i feel like someone needed to point out her wins #also i’m fully aware that remaining in the toxic world of the family business is not a win rly but #i think her ending is being interpreted as powerlessness #which it is NOT #she chose her spot. she’s calling shots #she may not have won today but she sure as hell didn’t lose #let’s not work so hard to sanctify her that we remove everything about her that makes her such a brilliant character #succession #shiv roy #siobhan roy #scn #tv

[pcktknife]

drawings i did on the train :]

#it was HARD. that thing was schmoving today very bumpy ride #ib #danganronpa #junko enoshima #aoi asahina #mary guertena #myart #there was also mini junkos + kotoko but the pics werent good so they got scrapped

[panthermouthh]

And I said, “Hello, Satan

I believe it’s time to go.”

#my art #southern gothic #been too depressed to create anything but I’ve made this today #the little rhyme has been in my head for a few weeks #spilled ink #I guess do people still use that tag for poetry or am I old lol #I’ve been writing in my journal pretty much daily and sometimes spitting out little poems like this #not much energy for art #so I’m not gonna pressure myself to keep it up #I’m just gonna enjoy the fact that I made this #I hope ur all well <33 #the devil #by the way this isn’t meant to be fan art of Robert Johnson #but it’s inspired by him and the stories of musicians who sell their souls to the devil #I am still thinking very hard and have mostly drafted a cornstalk fiddle comic #god knows how long it’ll stay in a notebook haha #my comic #comics

[tsundozer]

Marsha Lineham once said that borderline is like having third degree burns over 90% of the body. With all due respect to the most important woman in dialectical therapy, I can’t say that I agree.

sometimes, borderline is like rediscovering Everest. You are soaring to impossible heights, your fits of mania become beating wings taking you to peaks that you are certain no man has ever seen. each new elation simply has to be better, truer, than the last.

sometimes borderline is like a retrograde amnesia. each emotional experience is the first, the best, the strangest, the newest emotion that you’ve ever had. or sometimes it’s dementia, floating by in an empty fugue until you’re swept up in an agony from a decade ago when a song by an artist you don’t even like streams on your Spotify just a fraction too long before you manage to hit skip.

It can be like discovering muse, an outpouring of inspiration and creativity in a bold and beautiful and perfect world. Or it’s ennui, abruptly sapping away the inspiration you held as the colors wash away.

But it is never being a burn victim. Each touch is not agony. I am not some pitiable creature that mewls at each attempt at applying the salve. I am not ugly. I am not frightening to look at. I am not charred and hard and my empathy for others is far from a deadened nerve.

There are days when I feel everything is hopeless. There are days when I feel like things couldn’t be better. The world paints itself checkerboard white and I skip across to be dubbed king and then do the same in reverse.

Borderline is many things. I, am many things.

But I do not shy away from being held,

And I don’t believe that loving others, experiencing others, connecting with others, necessitates pain.

#personal #today was hard. very hard #but I took myself to the Fremont farmers market #and I talked to my rats about how everything is going to be ok #and I spent some time angry about how people talk about people with bpd #and then I went to the gas works park #I sat on the wall and kicked my feet in lake Union #and I don’t think it has to be all bad #because seeing the sun sparkle on the lake was like seeing the sun for the first time #and I got excited at getting to see the sun for the first time tomorrow too #poetry #second poem in the tags apparently

[lazylittledragon]

blueberry cinnamon rolls with the recipe because people on the bird app wanted it <33

#ramble #baking #this is not tried and tested i just made it up today based on things i've made before #i was worried it wouldn't work but they're really good #they're not very pretty but they're delicious #i tried to separate out the text bc i know it's hard for Me to read it when it's all lumped together #i've never done a double rise before this (usually only once with the rolls in the pan) and it WORKS they're super fluffy #@ any pro bakers. am i doing ok #ratios are hard but i'm trying

[domirine]

i'm unwinding!!

#art #polnareff #i've been working hard with an incredible team on a very cool gig painting set pieces for twenty-sided tavern!! announced today~! #ergo: sillies #everyone say thank you tristan as per tradition when they provide me with sillies inspo

[gender-trash]

when will i stop seeing posts of the genre "ah! you were supposed to automate away the BAD jobs, not the FUN CREATIVE ones! why not simply just [solve like 8 incredibly hard open problems in robotics] instead of [LLM thing]!"

like. sorry i apparently have to be the one to break this to you but the amount humans enjoy a task has basically zero correlation with how difficult it is to automate

#the trashcan speaks #today it was 'just make an ai that will remove plastic from the ocean :)' #ROBOTS IS VERY HARD AND MANIPULATION IS ESPECIALLY VERY HARD #AND SALT WATER MAKES EVERYTHING 10X WORSE #professional robot torturer

[favoure]

heyyy <3

#desert duo #grian #goodtimeswithscar #hermitcraft #mcyt #favourarts #mcyt fanart #hermitcraft s7 #ok to tag as ship #DREW THIS IN AN AGGIE A MONTH AGO . N LEFT IT UNFINISHED #SUDDENLY GOT POSSESSED N WORKED ON IT TODAY N YESTERDAY #NOW ITS DONE !!!!!!!! #im still very much insane over them btw #just found it hard 2 draw for like a few months <//3 #maybe bc it was the last few months of high school n i was GRADUATING #n got busy w ENROLLING #oh but like yk its not a big deal /s JHSKFJSFDSJDF #anyways hope u enjoy ^_^ hope that my love for these two is still apparent in this drawing even tho its been 3 months ^_^

[obsob]

sending emails but sniffling and whimpering after typing each word

#mine #original #this is a self portrait today i sent 3 emails then had to go hve a warm bath #i hate emaisl i jhefb f hasf iw ant to bite emails as hard as i possibly can once really hard #im manifesting an illustration agency wanting me its going to happen i can feel it #pls pls spls plslslsp spls #i had more ot write but all gone from my head.....too many emails made brain fried #one of th cats has decided that her food is disgusting and is refusing 2 eat it .....little beast #shes been eating it very happily for like 3 weeks and now is like? kill yourself actually #anyway. am cold. going to go hve food.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

MDZS x ISAT part 1: In Stars and Necromancy.

(Part 2)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #MDZS AU #In stars and time #ISAT #wei wuxian #lan wangji #Double comic feature for today because they are both small. #I had a hard time coming up with a good crossover for these two series for a while but once the idea hit - Boy did it hit! #I've got a longer comic coming. The angst potential is very...very good. #Ghost YLLZ helping out mxy was painful enough but I can make it so much worse for everyone. #I can't say much without crossing into spoiler territory but I will be back. #Other notes here: LWJ is rock type. WWX/MXY are paper type. Thought it fit well B*) #YLLZ in the starry bath is 100% a reference to Eris in the sinbad movie. Her hair animation still haunts my dreams. #I'll have some 'other side of the crossover' doodles after posting a few more main comic pages. Thanks for the patience this week! #I really needed to just...draw some very self-indulgent art. I'm feeling much better now though!

[shepscapades]

can I boop xisuma? I'm in love with him

Thanks for all the boops everyone :]

#tasking today was very hard but I’m glad to be done!! time for silly doodles :3 #dbhc #dbhc ask #dbhc sillies #dbhc xisuma #xisuma #art escapades #hermitcraft #xisumavoid

[rosalie-starfall]

Everything Everywhere All At Once (2022)

#Michelle Yeoh #ke huy quan #jamie lee curtis #stephanie hsu #Everything Everywhere all at once #evelyn wang #Warmond Wang #This is my all time favorite movie #It is giving me so much strength during a very trying time in my life #Life is hard but the events that have led you to where you are today #don't have to dictate where you can go tomorrow #I wish I could help you see yourself the way I see you #I want to show you your strength #but you're in such a dark place I don't know how to make you see the light #my gifs #my edits #myedits #eeaao #eea@o #movie edits #movies : Multiverse #movies : comedy

[northstarscowboyhat]

The go to ship for destressing doodles

#undertale yellow #uty #north star #uty starlo #uty north star #ceroba #uty ceroba #staroba #starlo x ceroba #the cowboy hat draws #Had a very upsetting experience today so they are the remedy always #Sorry about all the uncleaned doodles as of late. Promise I'm trying to get better art done life is just hard LOL