#trying to get more comfy posting unfinished stuff

[marsipain]

I love the way you draw kai !! :^) it's so leng man

I don’t know what leng means but thank you!

Have a Jiang siblings bust practice

#trying to get more comfy posting unfinished stuff #heh #jiang siblings #nya ninjago #nya jiang #kai ninjago #kai jiang #ninjago fanart #marsipain doodle #marsjago

[horce-divorce]

Update for interested parties: the last few days were frought, the situation in Wisconsin was not what we had hoped it would be at all once we got here, and it ended up not working out. Too many people with not enough space and too many clashing needs. it ended up feeling very unsafe for everyone.

We're staying with a different friend instead now, and today their mom/owner of the property not only said we could stay here for the winter if we need to, but also was scheming to try and find us a pop-up trailer this morning which we were totally blown away by, she's wonderful. We still want the kind of mobility where we could take off again at a moments notice, so I'm sorting that out, but we're with friends and thankfully not in a rush to leave again anytime soon.

i'm not sure if a camper is what we'll end up with. It isn't quite as stealthy as i'd like (if we need to urban camp at all it doesnt really work), but it would certainly add a lot of space and be more than doable, and Bel really liked the idea. If that doesn't work out, I'll look at trading our current vehicle for a used camper van in a comparable price range. I've never done that before but I have time to do research.

Thanks to the donations this week, we were able to fill the tank and get Bels meds on the way out here, which was such a huge relief. That gives us at least another month to try to find a prescriber for another refill. We also got a great haul from the food pantry out here, which was fun because the lady we're staying with actually runs it and it's inside an abandoned building.

the pantry was already in the building when it wasn't abandoned. my friend's mom took it over and was allowed to keep it in its original space, but everyone else moved out. My friend had the keys, so they took us in thru the back and this series of totally unlit, crowded corridors with random appliances, furniture, books and clothes, all of it donated. it was one of the most surreal experiences I've ever had. I asked to go back to take more pictures, which is why the 2nd pic is lit better.

Their house is also really cool. It's an old farmhouse, much bigger, with fewer people here, and we have a proper room upstairs rather than in an unfinished basement. there's a super comfy bed in here, too. I actually haven't had back pain in the morning here, for the first time since my surgery in May!

Also, absolutely wild shit in the world of drugs: nary a weed dealer to be found in this area, because delta 8 has completely taken over the market. I was deeply unimpressed when I tried it a few years ago, but my friend got us a live resin hhc/cbd/cbg/thcp cartridge and........... I am stoned. Like PROPERLY stoned. I haven't been this properly stoned since like 2013. It does kinda give me a headache, but it also helps the pain and gives me munchies and helps me sleep just like real weed. I even remembered my dreams a bit better than with d9.

Anyway I'm very grateful for my queer community today, for my friends mom who has come to my rescue more times than my own mom, and for everyone who's been invested, sending us money, advice, locations to scope out, items, and links; everyone who's been reblogging; and even everyone who's just listening to us talk and post, watching quietly from the sidelines.

We still have to go retrieve the rest of our stuff from the last place (on Monday), and things always change in an instant. We still have a lot of complex feelings, and this week was especially hard for Bellamy. He's never been through all this before this year, and the 19th was the anniversary of his worst trauma, losing the only good and loving person in his life 6 years ago. To be kicked out specifically on that anniversary was brutal. it made me wish I'd never brought him here. I really thought we'd be better off with that friend than on our own for the winter, and I made a mistake.

But we will still be okay. For now, we aren't alone, we're with good friends in a safe place, we've got food and meds and gas. We even have another place to stay if we change our minds. We check in with each other and process our feelings multiple times per day. It's still hard to get used to coming and going all the time; we stay in one place just long enough to get comfy and then we take off again, which is never long enough form a routine. So we're trying to learn how to do that for ourselves, based on our own needs, rather than around the location. But we're getting used to that, and each other's habits. When I go out to the car for supplies it smells like home in there.

It's hard feeling like we don't belong anywhere, like strangers care more about our wellbeing than our actual families. My dad did give us the car, and six months of insurance. He even renewed my license for me. But neither of my parents checks in on me, asks where we are or how we're doing. My mom seems to be getting more reactionary in her old age; not only did my transition cause a rift between us, she's now doubling down on trying to "cure" my autistic cousin when she knows that for both of us (and for Bel), our autism is a source of pride. She knows my disabilities and neurodivergence are what started this housing instability 10 years ago. She knows my health has been worsening. She doesn't text or call. All of you following this story on here know more about how and where we are than she does.

But times like this show us who our real friends and family are, and it's not the people who've left us to our own devices out here. It's everyone who's been stepping in to ask, "How are you doing? Can I send you anything? Do you need to talk? I love you. I want you to make it." The random guy we met hiking who never told us his name but who told us, "I hope you guys thrive. I really do." It's everyone who's sent us another $10 for our supplies because I haven't spent long enough in one spot to get any work done. It's the people who have never even met us before who offered to take Bel's cats indefinitely, or to let us come stay with them across the country. It's everyone who's pitching together to buy us more time when we need it. Everyone who sees us and bears witness and feels something about it.

At the end of the day, we sort of are choosing this lifestyle; if we wanted out, we would have to stay in one place longer than winter, get jobs, save money, find our own housing. But we kind of don't. Despite the hardships, despite what this journey is revealing about ourselves and the people we thought we could trust, we feel like it suits us to live out of the car. We go where we want, when we want. We don't have to answer to anyone else's schedule. If we want to go south or west when it's cold and visit our friends, all we need is the gas money and the OK to come over. We love the woods and we love living out there. It feels distant and lonely sometimes, but so right. We like getting to bounce around and meet each other's people. We want to see the old growth and the redwoods and the mountains and the seaside and the grand canyon. We want to go to Cuba and Vietnam and Iceland and Denmark. Maybe our health won't allow for us to do absolutely everything we want, but working underpaid jobs and paying rent absolutely won't allow for it. We have a better chance at our dreams now. We can lose our place to stay again and be fine and just keep going; it's not the end of the world. It's what we planned on doing, anyway. No big deal.

Living in the car has already allowed us to do more and have more adventures in just 3 months than we did in 2 whole years of us both being housed. We do have a lot to process emotionally and there's a lot on our plates; it's hard, and we do need a lot of help. It's not always good. Not having access to the internet when we're running out of money and gas and food; not having anywhere to bathe; having to go long distances to collect water even when we're not feeling well; losing things because i put them in the wrong place and drove off; that doesn't even begin to scratch on converting the car for stealth camping, choosing our routes and places to scope for campsites in new areas, or trying to figure out which supplies would actually be more helpful and cost effective in the long run.

But it's still not really any worse than the rat race to stay employed and be good renters. It's just different. And after 10 years of housing instability, and waiting for something to change, it hasn't. I'm growing more and finding more peace by just leaning into it. Trauma and bullshit never ends. Life doesn't ever stop for you so you can think about what just happened; there's never gonna be a perfect, calm time for you to digest everything and then move on strengthened and changed for the next main event. You have to learn how to do all that and keep living no matter what bullshit is ongoing. That's what "rolling with the punches" means. The punches dont stop, you learn to expect them, you move with them. I cant put my life on hold just because I'm homeless. It's not stopping me from doing the things I want. It's not stopping me from being the kind of guy I aim to be, or from making the kinds of choices i want. My life before did that.

Tl;dr thank you for all your help and concern this week, we made it to a different space and are taking some time to breathe. We are feeling more than a bit bruised, this week has been awfully triggering, but we also feel very held right now and we have space to calm down. For another few days at least, it's gonna be okay.

✨️🛸✌️

#me #prsnl #car living #keeping reblogs on bc im putting this on our travel blog. just for reference #long post #do u like my delayed reaction selfie. rofl. #gpoy

[the-real-team-galactic]

since Boss Saturn said i could post whatever the fuck i want, i think its time 4....

✨Monthly Galactic Horoscope!!!✨

and b4 ANYONE says anything i know astronomy and astrology r different!!!! we can have both shut up !!!! >:/

but anyways!!! it's time for your monthly horoscopes :3 !! were in Fraxure season atm n mercury is coming into retrograde soon !!! :D communications r gonna be all weird when that happens so remember 2 be patient babes !!! ~☆

♈ Whimsicott: the sun's moving thru a fellow fire sign :D so expect good vibes and high energy coming ur way!!! with Mercury in retrograde it's a bad time for u to start new things BUT!!!!! :O best time to tie up loose ends lets gooo !!!! ~☆

♉︎ Bouffalant: ur gonna b ambitious and work SUPER hard this month !!! dont forgor to pay attention to ur money problems tho!!! >:0 cuz those r gonna be real major for u. if u can reach out to others n tell em u love them !!! <3

♊ Klink: sun is moving away from u so expect to b real fucking tired !!! sorry lol :P shit is gonna be all messed up n weird so be patient and take time to recharge !!! now's a good time to be creative too :3 keep going and do ur best!!!!!!! yahoo !!! :)

♋ Crustle: ruh roh ur gonna be super busy !!! be sure not to stretch urself too thin :P you don't hafta help literally everyone all the time even if u want to!!!!! make sure you don't miss your appointments too !!! :O also !! now's a good time to get all your stuff organized: not just ur house, ur physical and mental health too!!! you got this :D !!!!

♌ Braviary: fellow fire sign hell yass!! ur gonna get a nice energy boost this month too >:D you WILL get more rizz this month, the masses will love u !!! be sure to accept invites that come ur way and reconnect with old friends!! don't start any new projects and beware of poor communications ~☆ !!!

♍ Gothorita: the sun's moving to the base of y'all's charts which means it's time for family (if ur family sucks ignore that part LOL) !!! ur gonna gravitate a lil more towards your comfort zone, and now is a good time to reconnect with old friends !! try to focus on reorganizing ur home and your head :3 make some space 4forthe new year !!!!

♎ Lampent: brighter days are in ur future this month !!! be sure to expect a better mood, and try to put urself out into the community or something !!! maybe that's your thing who knows?!?! ur attitude will light up the room and any projects you might pick up so be sure to share that with others !!!

♍︎ Scolipede: ur gonna be stuck on familiarity and that's ok !!! try visiting people and places you're super extra comfy in <3 financial troubles r coming w/ Mercury so don't take ur eye off that stuff it's important !!! save ur money and wait till after delibird day sales start to get the gadgets u want !!! keep it real n simple boiz u got this :3

♐︎ Fraxure: it's ur month let's GOOO !!!! good things are coming for ur birthdays y'all !!! good strong vibes are in ur future and people are gonna dig it !!! if parties and big events are ur thing then GO FOR IT!!! great time to get all ur energy out n have fun with ur buds :D make sure to get on top of all your shit soon !!!!

♑︎ Sawsbuck: time to look back on the year and get ready for the next !!! u may end up hypercritical of urself but cut yourself some slack !!! things are changing and it's natural u wanna change in a way that will make things better but you gotta b patient!!!!! tie up loose ends and make sure to take care of ur mind !! <3

♒︎ Simipour: you've got places to go and people to see this month!!!!! it's a great time to get out there and be social so go have some BLAST !!!!!!!! pinch ur pennies and do ur best to settle unfinished business too :) don't force urself to go too far tho !!!! >:0 especially since u may b getting hit w/ stronger emotions and selflessness but don't push urself !!! take care of YOU first!!!

♓︎ Alomomola: last but deffo not least, it's time to get to work !!! expect TONS of motivation in ur career and eagerness to get shit done !!!!!!! look back on ur methods to see what works and what u should get rid of and focus on finishing things before starting shit !!! structure and security r big for u rn so take care :3

#[ note: mod doesn't know jackshit abt horoscopes i am just looking this up on a website ] #☆ ~ vega's silly posts #☆ ~ Monthly Galactic Horoscopes #pkmn irl #pokeblog #rotomblr

[lipglossanon]

funny you should mention writing our own fics because i am veeerrryyyy close to writing for leon (+ others that would join him 🤭). the only thing really stopping me is that i have ideas a lot but im not always good at writing them out fully. i find it really difficult to write the details of getting from point a to b. which is why i just send you a lot of blurbs and unfinished thoughts

but maybe im trying too hard and i just need to accept that it wont be 100% perfect every single time. hm.... maybe i just convinced myself to do it 😜🤔

💭 anon

(i should thank you for all the inspiration and encouragement, even if youre not talking to me directly, seeing you encourage other anons help me too!)

💭 anon, hiya!!

Oh my gosh, how exciting!! 👀 🤩 if you ever do feel comfy with posting please share! I’d love to read them 🤭

But I totally get that. Before Leon brain rot, I didn’t really write anything anymore and had some random blurbs and thoughts written out for various fandoms that were super bare bones. So I know the struggle!

And def don’t feel pressured to post! You’re always more than welcome to share your stuff here! 😉 like my therapist always says: perfect doesn’t exist! We’re all human and making mistakes is perfectly normal 💜 (that goes for writing too 😘).

Oh my gosh 🙈 🙈 I’m glad I can help! I’m just saying what I do/what works for me. No point in being a butthead and trying to gatekeep (there’s nothing to keep gated haha).

#ask box #💭 anon #lipglossanon #lipglossanswers #sorry I start rambling lmao

[harpywritesfic]

I write Ironstrange fics. Current wips, request info, my tag system and more are below the cut!

You can also find me on AO3 and Twitter!

A bit about me: I'm chronically online because I have no job. I'm twenty, just sort of pathetic. I’m an atheist and whenever I say god, you can replace ‘god’ with ‘Andrew John Hozier-Byrne’ and it will work as intended. I’m always tired and I like to spend my free time in bed or on my computer.

Policies (harpy's house rules):

18+: I do post about smut and make some truly awful dirty jokes. Not that I’m really bothered if minors follow me, it’s more of a, yknow, do what you want just don’t tell me sort of thing. Curate your own online experience.

Tagging (@-ing me): go for it! I oscillate between seeing every post on the dash and not being active for days or weeks. If you want me to see something, tag me! I’d appreciate it.

Related works: I welcome fanart, podfics, playlists, anything inspired by my fics! Yes, even other fics! Just please, please, PLEASE tell me so I can see it, because I can guarantee you it would get me higher than a line of coke. I don't even need to try coke to know it would, because the fact that someone would be that inspired by my writing is just insane.

Constructive criticism: If you ask first and word your criticism politely, I'm open to receiving it. Otherwise, no thank you! Writing fanfic is a hobby, whether I'm enjoying myself is more important than making a masterpiece.

Spam-liking: go for it! Reblogs are much appreciated but I won't be offended if you don't! I'm just here to have a good time, I try not to take anything too seriously.

You can also reblog anything I post. I say things because they’re funny, it’s all fair game. If I don’t want it reblogged I’ll turn off reblogs.

Messaging: feel free! I don’t bite :) tumblr messaging sucks, so if we're mutuals, we can move to discord instead!

Please know that I’m nuerodivergent and my brain works in mysterious ways. You might have to tell me if I’m being annoying or if I’ve said something that bothered or offended you. I’m not so good at reading social situations, and I would rather you say something than not! You won’t hurt my feelings, and I’d hate to upset someone by accident.

Current WIP list:

(Keep in mind, I am a very slow writer! These are the pieces that I'm pretty sure will get done. If they're still here, that means I'm still planning to finish them even if I'm not actively working on them.)

Anon request (brainwashed Stephen)

Anon request (Tony loves hard)

Occupational Hazards

Requests are currently closed!

The requests on my wip list are from October 2022 and I have yet to write them, so I'm not taking any more at this time. I have a dreadful time working on anything that I'm not really excited about (damn my dopamine deficient brain) and I'd rather not disappoint when your request becomes one of my fifty unfinished wips.

I’m not comfortable writing (subject to change):

character death

nsfw

AUs (mostly)

Bingo Cards and Events (outdated)

(These include my October stuff, since I've got two more fics to go before I call them done!)

Each event has its own color, and a key to any other spaces it works for. (Bingo cards have a letter for the column and a number for the row, Whumptober just has a day number). Completed + posted fics are marked with a star.

BTHB: Bad Things Happen Bingo (purple)

ISB: Ironstrange Bingo (red)

ISST or ISHB: Ironstrange's Stangely Spooky Time or Ironstrange Halloween Bingo (green)

Whumptober (orange)

Tags I use: 

#harpy's fics (my fics)

#harpy's wips (snippets and progress updates)

#harpy overshares (personal life, shitposts, that sort of thing)

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At some point I need to go through and tag all my pet-related posts. I love my pets.

Updated 2/18/24

#masterpost #events #harpy's wips

[take-the-moon-take-the-sun]

Hello heres the only other thing im a post from my unfinished stories folder (rest is too spicy) it’s also for @intistone scars and scales story.

It was just labelled “Y/N passes out from exhaustion” lmao a a title that really tells it all xD

This one isnt as fleshed out as the other post cause this one is how all my longer posts start and is just the bullet points. But they get the point across.

YN passes out from exhaustion

Taking care of two traumatised kids is hard

YN is trying their best

Too much actually

One day after Sun and Moon have Lready been stealing. A lot of their food for a while they pass out

Like a “oh hey guys i dont feel so gold maybe ill lay down” and falls over konda style

Sun and Moon recognise the symptoms of exhaustion and starvation pretty well

Since ya know

…

Anyway

They try to get YN comfy

When YN is up again and walks off to get something for their meal the boys r about to get their thirds ahen it clicks.

Its their fault

They have been hurting YN

Stealing the food

Taking all their time

When one kf them wakes up with a nightmare YN is there

When does YN sleep

When does YN tale care of themselves

Spoiler alert they dont

And then they go out and get stuff for Sun and Moon and how do they thank Yn

By stealing their food and attacking them

God they suck

Now that they think about it YN seems to stress over them a lot

Man YN really cares about them

Holy shit they actually do care

And Sun and Moon have been hurting them

Well no more

Family of the found time baby

But (idk how this but got here it’s not in my notes and I didn’t type it)

#sorry for the spam inti #scars and scales #im just getting these out there for everykne else I guess #I feel bad constantly for not finishjng them #last post I was gonna have moon get mauled by a dog lmao im so kind to him #normally sun is my go to cause it’s so silly to see the happy cheery one go silent and empty #liz rambles #not really a liz writes cause liz didn’t write

[kittyfluffies]

Drabble: Finding out your tough boyfriend’s weakness | Gavin x Youran/MC (Mr. Love)

Author’s notes: Oof, been a very long while, has it? So much stuff to do, ended up procrastinating sometimes, school started last month, and now suffering from a cold… All of these kept me from posting for a while, but I got it now! Before we start, I would like to clarify that MC in all of my fics, tickly or not, will be named Youran, simply because I love it, okay? It fits her just fine and is a good default name for her! Um… Anyways, time for me to get to the plot…! This will also be unfinished at first, but don’t worry, I will try to finish this one day, and I will not put a deadline for myself to not stress myself out! Anyways, time for me to start! Hopefully, it’s not too OOC… Oh, and one more thing, this also contains mild but unspecified spoilers, please be warned of it...!

Plot: While doing a cuddling session, Youran accidentally discovers that Gavin is ticklish, and decided to start a tickle fight over it.

On a sunny day, Youran decided to come to her boyfriend, Gavin’s, house, it’s where they usually do things like talk about Sparky, plan some dates (and keeping Youran safe at the same time, considering he is a police officer), take care of some plants, the list can go on. Today, she just wanted Gavin’s warmth, not just from his wind, but also, from how kind he is under that cold and serious face.

Then, she knocked on his door, which Gavin, as usual, opened it. “Good afternoon, Youran, are you staying safe right now?”, said Gavin. Which, Youran responded with “Yes! Still taking your advice!”, Gavin gave off a soft smile for a moment, before going back to his usual calm expression. “That’s good, so… What do you want to do today?”. Youran really wanted some comfort, after some stress from the past few incidents, though still decided to smile, because he’s around. “I wanted to just be with you, sometimes it can be lonely without you, especially after all the times you protected me…”.

Gavin, knowing that she is honest about it, with some blush on his face, decided to let her in. His home is simple and yet neat, and while not as comfy as Kiro’s, not as refined as Victor’s, and not as calm as Lucien’s, it’s still a nice home to live in, and Youran is always happy about it. “As usual, it is looking nice! I love the fresh smell of the plants too!”, as Gavin walked in with an enthusiastic Youran.

“So, what would you like to do?”. As Gavin began to wonder what would she like to do. Youran, hungry for love today, decided to say this. “Maybe we could cuddle on the couch, I am always happy with you around, but especially if you hug me! I hope you don’t mind!”. Gavin, while blushing, decided this could work, after all, he is protective of her and doesn’t want to see her sad, so cuddling can help her feel better. There, they decided to get on the couch, with both removing their shoes, and Youran hugging him. Gavin did smile and hug back, however... What he didn’t expect was suddenly laughing during a cuddle session, much to Youran’s confusion, “Hehehehe... Pfft... Hahahaha...!”. Sure, he does smile sometimes, and tends to giggle when in a good mood at times too, but DOWNRIGHT laugh? She can expect that on Kiro, but not Gavin, as he’s usually as cool as a cucumber, even when fighting crime and protecting Youran...

“Huh? Gavin? Is something funny? Did you remember a funny memory...?”, questioned Youran, who stopped cuddling as if wondering if this was why. Gavin’s response after recovering a bit from laughing was rather unexpected. “Sorry, it’s just that you were tickling me... I am not afraid of tickling though, don’t worry.”. This would ultimately prove to be a mistake, as after Youran recovered from her shock about discovering it, she decided to say this. “So, a tough police officer like you is ticklish? This is gonna be so much fun!” “What’s fun about it, Youran? Why are you staring at me like this?” “Oh! You’ll see!”.

She pushed him down on the couch, and started tickling his stomach after pulling up his shirt. “Gahahahaha...! Whahahat are yohohohohou doing...?!”, as Gavin was not really used to laughing like this, and it’s been a while since he last laughed too. Youran was at the start having fun, she felt this was a sight to behold as he’s not often like this, and can’t help but want to continue this.

She just giggled along, finding his laugh very cute and not willing to stop, “Hehe, this is just so much fun, I wonder which else should I tickle~”, she teased while she thought of what to target next, before ultimately deciding to go for his sides. “Right here, coochie coochie~!”

#mr love #tickling #Gavin #Youran #first try my apologies #drabbles #mr love gavin #mr love queen's choice #mr love queens choice

[thatpinkbetch]

Bkdk Fic Rec

I’ve been inspired to write a fic rec! This one goes out to you @lonely-rabbit

At like, the end of 2018 and the beginning of 2019 I stayed up until 4am every night reading fics, and because I’m such a loser, I made a word doc to keep track of all of them so I wouldn’t forget them.... I tried organizing it by length but it got messy cause I’m ridiculous and cluttered, so sorry! (I’ll save my own for the end alskdjflsdkfj gotta self promote you know). This is going to get...really long, so I’ll put it under a read more! Also, just a heads up, these are all on ao3, in case that’s important to anyone!

Disclaimer: Any fics with mature or explicit content I will add a bolded warning for, even if it’s only a little bit. Normally most fics will be tagged as such, but some fics that are rated as teen I’ve found to be more suggestive than some of those rated as mature, so I will try to point it out where it feels necessary, for anyone who wishes to avoid it.

Fics under 1k:

Illuminate by TheQueen (269 words)

Summary: Bakugou watches the first firework launch and fights to keep his face neutral

Very short, plot is about a case of amnesia, also very cute and well written for that length! Not angsty at all imo

sweaty hands holding secrets - shounentwink (563 words)

Summary: Someone said Midoriya holds secrets in his hair.

It’s not true: He holds it tightly in his hands. Bakugou’s seen it.

I really like this writer! You’ll see quite a bit of them in this post alkdsjfalskdjf

Fics 1k - 10k:

Many sunflowers later - Jeka (2395 words)

Summary: Scholar Midoriya Izuku comes back to the person he left behind after his journey through the kingdom, the mighty dragon clan leader Bakugou Katsuki.

Day 1 of Twin Stars Week 2020: Fantasy AU.

First of all, fantasy au!!! Second of all, jeka!!! (I need to read more of your stuff!!) Anyways, so cute, such lovely, pretty writing, wonderful story telling, and they’re so in love TT_TT

Boom Badoom Boom - warschach (3429 words)

Summary: Izuku's working the kissing booth at the school fair, it just so happens Katsuki has been crushing on him since the first grade.

“Did you—“ Izuku parted his mouth with no sound leaving it, “Did you pay?”

“Yea.”

“For a kiss?”

This one’s a little silly but I love it still. It’s got a “kids in the 80′s over summer vacation” vibe, I think. I love warschach! I should read more of their writing... They have SUCH good bakudeku content! *It’s rated teen but there’s some suggestive content, just a heads up!

Hopeless Ramen-tic - lalazee (7155 words)

Summary:  Midoriya is a cute guy who works at a ramen stall and Bakugou is thirsty as hell, but has to hide it by being an asshat. Another love story.

Ah, so good TT_TT so much sass, such good plot development and story telling for a simple concept *It’s rated as teen but again, it can be suggestive at times!

I’ll share this with you, so leave it behind - yabakuboi (3508 words)

Suammry: For the sake of the story, All Might is never in need of a successor, and, when Izuku saves Katsuki from the sludge monster, encourages young Midoriya down a different path. Thus, Katsuki and Izuku part ways after junior high, as Katsuki enters U.A. and the Midoriyas move overseas. It’s later that Katsuki realizes that there’s something missing, that he drove that something away.

Years after, Katsuki finds him in the last place he looks, in the cereal aisle at the local grocery store of their childhood neighborhood.

So soft, so sweet, so good if you just want to curl up in a comfy blanket and drink hot cocoa and feel warm and cozy and a little in love

The Secret Deku Box - yabakuboi (2241 words)

Summary: “Y’know, Bakugou never, ever talks about girls,” Kaminari says, his voice thoughtful.

“And I wonder why that is.” Ashido rolls her eyes.

“I’m just curious!” Kaminari whines. Kirishima drags the box out, unlabeled and unassuming, the lid not even fully clasped over the edges. “The guy has to— Whoa, what’s that?”

Kirishima realizes a little belatedly that this is a serious breach of privacy, and Bakugou will actually murder all of them. “Nothing!” he cries, attempting to shove it back under the bed, but Ashido snatches it away.

“Please be his porn stash!” Kaminari whispers as she whips the lid off.

Cute, funny, in canon, in character, and a must read I would say! 

daisy bunches and heather branches - halcyonwhispers (5862 words)

Summary:  izuku falls in love with the foul-mouthed tattoo artist next door.

Not another flower/tattoo shop au.... aldskjflaskdjfd Okay but punk!Bakugou is ALWAYS a smart move imo

the best part of me (is the worst I can give) - halcyonwhispers (5668)

Summary: Whole sentences usually make up people’s Words, but Katsuki got stuck with a name instead.

Izuku’s name.

I am such a sucker for soulmate aus when it comes to these boys TT_TT *There is some mature content, just a heads up!

Hard to Say - halcyonwhispers (8390 words)

Summary: Izuku is a Halfling, born after his faerie father spirited away his mom and then left her behind. Never quite fitting in with the humans or any of the supernatural beings in his small town, Izuku hoped that going to a diverse college in the big city will help him finally make friends.

Katsuki’s family has been powerful witches for generations, and he’s no different. Talented and a proclaimed genius to boot, he knew he shouldn’t waste his time on this dumbass (disgustingly cute) half-blood.

Or,

two idiots fall in love and don’t get that the other’s awkward cues are just a result of romantic tension.

I am ALSO a sucker for fantasy/mythical creatures au and I LOVED this one - Bakugou absolutely unable to handle how cute Midoriya is? Perfection - but it’s unfinished, and I don’t think it ever will be continued, unfortunately TT_TT

lots to unpack (throw away the whole suitcase) - shounentwink (4315 words)

Summary: “How’d you know?” Midoriya asks.

There’s a hunch to his shoulders that wasn’t there three hours ago. Freckled shoulders are kissed sunburnt and red: he looks like someone ran him over and left him like roadkill in the sunlight. Bakugou’s working with insurance today, but he could see the sparks of green lightning even from his elevated position in their shared agency. Midoriya’s holding his thumb, cracking it over and over — it looks like he’s rubbed it raw.

“Dunno,” Bakugou says. “Maybe you’re just easy to read, nerd.”

I love this one so much, it was one of the first ones I read, it’s so good, and it’s another that really affected how I view their relationship! Idk this one just hit for me

hang the moon from us (it’s a no from me) - shounentwink (1200 words)

Summary: Midoriya’s gonna get sick of Bakugou one of these days, and then the whole ruse will be over, and the balance of power will tilt beyond salvation, but that day isn’t today and it looks like Bakugou knows it.

What an asshole.

Once again, I’m a sucker for the fantasy au... But even more, the diction, the details, the imagery...it’s absolutely all stunning here. I wish I could write this pretty

In Which Bakugou Finds His One Tru Luv - Erina (5862 words) This is the first one of a series called The Misadventures of Explodo-kill Agency!

Summary:  Welcome to the Explodo-kill agency! We can destroy your buildings, crash your cars, and help you solve one of the seven mysteries in life: who is Bakugou Katsuki's mysterious boyfriend?!

I’ll admit I’ve only read the first three but by god they are the funniest fics I’ve ever read in my life. I see that Erina has added more since the last time I checked it out! Tbh I was only interested in reading the purely bakudeku ones... (My favorite was the second one!! SO funny and cute!)

i still do - raeryn (9646 words)

Summary:  He’s losing him to pieces, but Izuku still tries to make them count. In which a battle leaves Bakugou Katsuki with amnesia, and Izuku finds himself picking up the pieces.

So, this one makes me cry. TT_TT

One Thing Straight - winningshot (9899 words)

Summary: They totally aren't.

Hints of their relationship is found in all of their friends’ social media accounts, but majority of their fans still think that Katsuki and Izuku are in relationships with anybody but each other.

It was amusing up until it became sad.

Lmao it’s a little salty but I guess I can be too. This is a social media fic! There’s multiple ships in this one, too

A Demolition Boy & his Cryptid BF - kewltie (8472 words)

Summary: Bakugou of the Demolition Squad is famous for running one of the most popular Youtube channels on the web that regularly blow shit up and jumped off a perfectly good building for shit and giggles. He's also famous for his Cryptid BF™, never appearing on camera except for a few bodyshots and all information on him is kept locked up tighter than Fort Knox, therefore drawing all sort of attention and curiosity toward his mysterious boyfriend.

Deku from Deku Explains is a hopeless chatterbox who is known for uploading 20-30 minutes video that talked about his favorite shows and comics and have one of the most devoted following on Youtube. He also can't seem to shut up about his boyfriend Kacchan, who regularly make his presence on the channel as a disembodied voice.

They should theoretically have nothing in common except a shared platform to host their content and an army of fans with an endless curiosity and devotion to their Youtubers. Vidcon is where we lay our scene and the internet is about to get a rude wake up call.

Okay kewltie is SO GOOD and very creative! The formatting is phenomenal, it’s like you’re actually experiencing a social media melt down in real time lol

be my good luck charm - writedeku (6785 words)

Summary: See, the thing is, Midoriya Izuku had been born with a curse. It’s not a curse that’s particularly visible. He doesn’t have horns, or a tortured face, and it’s not the kind of silly curse like a friend of his had way down south in Diagnor, wherein the girl had been born without the ability to say the word duck. Midoriya Izuku is just extremely unlucky.

(Or the AU in which Izuku's the world's unluckiest travelling merchant, and Katsuki is someone who may be able to help him. For a price, that is.)

Oh I adore this one! It’s so cute and such a good narrative! Nice and warm, and Bakugou trying his damnedest to be suave, and it somehow working because Midoriya is just as flustered. *Another one rated as teen but some suggestive content.

Smells Like Victory - majjale (2377 words)

Summary: Bakugou takes two steps into the room and stops, clapping a hand over his nose. “Ugh, what stinks like Deku in here?”

"Good afternoon, Bakugou. That would be the amortentia."

I must admit, not a fan of HP, but majjale...TT_TT majjale writes these two boys so well. This one is really, really good!

Cherish Me - Justaperson1718 (2376 words)

Summary: “What?”

Izuku looked back down at his menu and flipped the page, a small smile on his face. “Nothing.”

Katsuki glared at Izuku from across the table. “If it was nothing then you wouldn’t be staring at me.”

“It’s just a little funny watching you try to look your best for our date when you always look great anyway,” Izuku explained. He wouldn’t look up from his menu while he spoke, but his words remained ingrained with confidence nevertheless. He considered what he was saying to be fact, and nothing else. “Even when you’re not trying in front of the cameras, it’s still hard to take my eyes off of you.”

This is a sequel to a fic that’ll be in the next section, because it’s longer, called Manage Me. Please read that one first before this one! (Not part of a series, but they’re the same story line)

Fascinating - Justaperson1718 (1556 words)

Summary: “I’m not staring at you,” Izuku replied, his eyes focused intently on Katsuki. He’s still wearing his pajamas, sitting on his knees in their shared bed. He was awake moments before Katsuki, and waited eagerly for the other to awake.

Katsuki glanced over his shoulder after his shirt was on and glared. “You’re fucking staring at me right now.”

Izuku shook his head, humming his disapproval quietly. “I’m watching you.”

“That’s the same damn thing,” Katsuki said while searching for a pair of pants in the dresser. “Your eyes are fixated on me like I’m your life’s fucking goal or some shit.”

“I just like watching you get dressed.” Izuku tilted his head to the side and smiled softly at Katsuki’s confused stare. “I know, it’s weird. But I like it.”

*There is a little bit of implied mature content, but overall, it’s just so sweet and intimate, and I just simply adore this one.

in a place once filled with gold - dorenamryn (9226 words)

Summary: It felt strange to remember such details, for they were things a friend should know, and as far as Katsuki was concerned, he and Deku hadn’t been friends in a very, very long time. He could admit, with reluctance, that they were on the path there, now, even though they would never make it. Katsuki would die before they could get the chance.

or: There is a garden growing in Katsuki’s lungs, and he is helpless to stop it.

“Hanahaki disease” okay, I can explain myself. Okay, I can’t. In any case, you got angst with a happy ending if that’s what you’re into!

Kaleidoscope - DPRenFTW (5141 words)

Summary: Izuku is a witch. He just needs to find his familiar. Enter a boy that is a wolf, and a wolf that is a boy - with wild red eyes and sharp smiles.

And Izuku thinks:

"Oh, it's him."

Just as beautiful and fascinating as the name implies! I seriously recommend for the beautiful writing, the gorgeous world, the mythical creatures au, and the lovely bakudeku romance!

Learning Curve - sensiblysilly (4222 words)

Summary: Deku and Katsuki’s first kiss goes rather differently than planned.

And Katsuki’s quickly learning that relationships can be unpredictable - especially when taking into account the variable that is Midoriya Izuku.

This really is just a careful handling of a teenage romance where perhaps one of them may have shit they’re still working through. It’s really sweet, and a careful study at boundaries and the building of a relationship. I actually stumbled across this while looking for another with the same name and ended up pleasantly surprised. Kacchan can has a little validation, as a treat.

4/20 is a national holiday - Ereri_Garbage (

Summary: Izuku is a drug dealer that doesn't really accept the fact he's a drug dealer, Katsuki is hot as hell as shouldn't be allowed a facebook.

Happy (Late) birthday Katsuki and happy (late) 4/20. I actually half assed an edit on this one so it took longer to post than I thought it would.

Uummmm lmao yes I have a sense of humor. ;ALDSKJFLSKDJF Okay, I say that, but this is not a crack fic, it’s a good story that I enjoy with good writing, and *it has mature, content, obviously for multiple reasons here. It’s rated as mature but there are borderline explicit moments imo. It’s a fun fic and funny, too! And, ngl, it really does remind me of college... But forget about me, the bakudeku is wonderful too of course :)

Drinking Watermelon - warschach (8906 words)

Summary: For whatever reason, maybe divine fate, Izuku turned and looked over his shoulder and waved to them.

Katsuki’s heart full on stopped right then, and his fingers forgot their duty on the rails, and his body neglected its job to keep Katsuki balanced.

Izuku’s summer sweet smile fell into concern as Katsuki went airborne and cracked his skull on the porch.

or Katsuki works as a camp counselor, and Izuku is a boy made of summer heat and sunlight.

Love it when people have Bakugou as absolutely enamored with Midoriya; it’s so good and true. Anyways this one makes me like summer camp story lines. It’s funny and also cute and great writing! *It’s got explicit content, just a heads up. Warschach stories just have this youthful 80′s vibe, I don’t know how else to explain it.

there are listed buildings - semiautomatichearts (3309)

Summary: Katsuki first sees colors bloom when he is only three years old. It is timid Izuku, hiding behind the cover of his mother's leg who looks upon him with wide eyes, and Katsuki's world explodes in shades of greens and pinks and blues, and he is so startled, he begins to cry.

His life is then on defined in color, in shades his peers can't see, by the forlorn, timid stare in Izuku's eyes that always lets off more than he is willing to tell. There is a schism driven between himself and his fated other, and Katsuki strives to be better than fate, better than what is defined for him. He is more than the written pages of a book, to be cracked open and read by the gods.

He wonders if it is possible for colors to bloom for someone who will never love you back.

Ah...soulmates :) So interesting how bakudeku fits into soulmate aus like this one when they’ve known each other as kids! And when they’ve had this complex push and pull thing going on all their lives! The writing is beautiful, and so is the story!

Promise Ring - bkdkwritingsdump (3579)

Summary:  The midwest in the 1950′s is no place for boys who like kissing boys: something Izuku and Katsuki know all too well growing up there. However, the undeniable bond between the nervous science geek and the aloof delinquent will still find a way to blossom in such a desert.

Cute, sweet, makes my gay heart ache. Longing not just for the one you love, but just to feel right loving them. Very pretty story line, lovely story telling!

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Fishy - warschach (19417 words)

Summary: Izuku’s convinced his hot co-worker/neighbor, Katsuki, is a mermaid-or merman- you gotta consider genders even with mythical creatures- and plans to prove it.

(or this is kinda like the show ‘Monster Quest’, except Izuku actually finds said monster, falls in love, and have sexy times.)

Another warschach! I love this one, I love how they write bakudeku, particularly as college students, their stories (at least, the ones that I’ve read) always feel so warm, like a summer’s day, but not a lazy one, one that’s playful? If that makes sense? *This one is explicit, another heads up!

Manage Me - Justaperson1718 (10756 words)

Summary: Izuku caught himself moving forward, his head tilted somewhat to the side, and his eyes shot wide open. His gaze met Katsuki’s half-lidded eyes now that he was no longer in a dreamlike state, and seeing the way Katsuki was looking at him—waiting for him—made him realize Katsuki would’ve let him do it. He might have even wanted him to do it.

“You’re both doing fabulous!” the photographer called out to them, packing his camera into his bag and getting ready to leave. “I just got word that what we have now should be good, so we’ll stop there. Thank you for your time! Lock the door on your way out after you change.”

The pair stayed frozen in place, with Izuku’s arms around Katsuki’s neck and Katsuki’s hands resting on Izuku’s waist, while the photographer and his supervisor left.

“Kacchan,” Izuku cooed once they were gone. “Did you want to…?”

Love the story, love the bakudeku! Very, very good bakudeku TT_TT very sweet *There is some mature content in here as well

point to a map (we’ve been there) - cosmicfuss (10589 words)

Summary: Serendipity / sĕr″ən-dĭp′ĭ-tē Serendipity is the occurrence of an unplanned fortunate discovery. Two men find themselves on a subway, hot coffee on one while the other is in the middle of a screaming match. After that they can't seem to stop finding each other, no matter how far they go.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again; this fic owns my entire soul. I love the story, the ease of their relationship, just how lovely they are together. It’s another kind of nice, fluffy fic you’d read on a bad day where you come home and curl up in a blanket and listen to a ten hour video of thunderstorm white noise. *Again, some more mature content in here

Partners - tsukithewolf (13619 words) Another series! Two parts to this one this time

Summary: It is said that in Musutafu there is a charm that one can buy at a temple that will lead you to your destined partner. They say that if the charm works, you would be able to follow the red string of fate to the person you were meant to be with. And if the person returns your feelings, they would be able to see the string as well, proving that both were meant to be.

Three-year-old Katsuki and Izuku misunderstand what the word "partner" means and discover the charm and the rumor behind it is not only true, but more than expected.

Gets a little heavy, depression, bullying, suicidal thoughts, etc. But it must get worse before it gets better, that kind of thing. I also just adore the second part (called Bond) - maybe because it’s much fluffier, what about it?

Learning Curve - iknewaman (10304 words)

Summary: “Izuku.” Uraraka repeats as she motions at the person stood next to her. Green curls, average height, and, well. Up close, not such a bad smile. Uraraka points a thumb at Bakugou and enunciates slowly, “This is Bakugou. He can speak sign language too.”

Wait. Sign language?

The stranger— well, Izuku— looks at him with a raised brow. Their free hand lifts up as they make a slight motion of the hand.‘

Really?’

*

Bored out of his mind at a house party one night Bakugou is introduced to Izuku, a deaf student who offers to help teach Bakugou sign language in exchange for a favour-- or well, is prompted into asking for a favour.

Ah, I really want to explain this one a little bit? I’d never been into fanfiction ever, only really getting into it with these boys. This was the second one I read, I remember, and it caught me off guard, and it intrigued me. It really surprised me as to what fanfiction could be. Ngl I had biased perceptions of fanfics - I used to be one of those people who thought fanfiction could never be good writing - and this one slapped me in the face with it’s subtle beauty and creative story and heart melting capabilities, and very, very real relationship and growth. Anyways it’s so cute how happy Deku is to teach Kacchan sign language TT_TT Make sure to read the tags!

The Keeper and the Sun God’s Heir - SurelyHeavenWaits (12746 words)

Summary:  The Titans' have stolen something important from Izuku, heir of the Sun God, and he wants it back.

This one, this one, this one, this one, this one, this one, this one, this one this one- Oh my god this one. Okay so what, I was a Percy Jackson kid, what about it? I love the mythical aus, particularly the god ones. But beyond that, the writing is so beautiful, just like the world, and the imagery. The bakudeku...absolutely stunning. The story itself? Incredible. Cannot recommend more. *There is explicit content in this, though I will say, it’s all in the last chapter, and all of the story is in the first two chapters. There’s also a second part as it’s a series and it’s short but it’s cute and sweet TT_TT

seven days - aaAAAaaahhhhHHHHH (10094 words)

Summary: There’s something about the green haired boy, an aura that just drew Katsuki in before he even knew his name.

[Sometimes your mind forgets, but your heart remembers]

Heed my warning: DON’T read this in front of other people. I bawl every time I read this one TT_TT I know I said I don’t like angst but AJLSKDFJALSKDFJ it has a hopeful ending! I mean yeah you’re gonna cry but...hope? :’) (that username really says it all tbh)

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Notice me, nerd - useless_donut (40000 words)

Summary: Bakugou is in love with Midoriya. He doesn’t hide it, in fact it’s so painfully obvious that the entire class of 3-A has him figured out in a matter of months (days, in some cases). Too bad Midoriya is the most oblivious motherfucker out there, and Bakugou is too damn stubborn to actually ask him out.

Will the class of 3-A survive the sexual tension? Who will snap first? Someone put Bakugou out of his misery, please, before everyone else dies of second-hand embarrassment.

(a love story as witnessed by the class of 3-A)

Love the idea of Bakugou being brazen and brash, cause yeah, he is. So fucking funny though how that translates to him flirting. Gotta say, thought I was gonna cringe, but his “I’m gay af” outfit really ended up being A Look. Love the mutual pining, it really is strong in this one. *Okay, mature content in this one lads.

While You Were Sleeping - Belkacaramelka (71197 words)

Summary: The one where quirkless fanboy Midoriya Izuku rescues Pro Hero Todoroki Shouto, gets mistaken as his fiancé while he is in a coma, and gets caught up in the most unlikely fake engagement... until his childhood enemy and Todoroki's classmate Bakugou Katsuki tries to catch him out, and they both end up discovering a lot more about each other than they'd expected.

Quirkless AU based on the film; endgame BakuDeku. -- Katsuki didn’t know when the change had happened: how he had gone from asking why Todoroki chose Deku of all people, to wondering why it was Todoroki that Deku chose. Troublesome Deku, who cooed like an idiot at cats, tripped at a random catcall and sang badly. Who, despite everything, proved that it wasn’t the quirk that defined a person. Deku, who was too much, not his, and undeniably off limits to begin with.

Update: Epilogue added

*This one has mature content. If you can, please, for the love of god, read this fic. It’s like, tied with my favorite bkdk fic perhaps ever. It’s based on the movie of the same title, a nineties romcom with Sandra Bullock, but Belkacaramelka has so effortlessly made it into it’s own story, fit it so perfectly inside of the bnha world. I definitely stayed up until 6:30am reading this one. It’s got such good badass Midoriya, who is also sweet, and really really good reconciliation between bakudeku.

All Gifted - fitzefitcher (39129 words)

Summary: The thing about gifts is that they're meant to be given, they're meant to be shared; so Izuku will take his gifts, so freely given to him, and share them with all he holds dear.

Izuku is born without any gifts, as his kind often are, to a witch mother and salamander father, on one sweltering night in July.

This one is unfinished...and I highly doubt it will ever be. But what has been written is incredible. Once again, I’m a sucker for the magic/mythical creatures aus. But the relationship is great! The characterization is great! The found family trope that was building up is great!

under a hollow sun - umbrage (40572 words)

Summary: Midoriya is cursed with emptiness.

Misfortune leads him to a man of ancient magic and endless rage.

To stop an unfathomable evil, their mismatched halves must become whole.

Uuuggghhhh this was so good! I don’t think it’s going to be finished either :( Once again, fantasy au, more amazing writing, on point characterization, incredible pacing, makes you hungry for more story.

all the savage soul requires - majjale (58032 words)

Summary: Bakugou seems to have exhausted his patience for words and no longer acknowledges that Midoriya exists, so Midoriya crosses his legs, stares down at his hands limned in firelight, and makes a list of things he knows.

One. His name is Midoriya Izuku.

Two. He is a Godmarked, future god of life, heir to the divine throne.

Three. The gods have been fighting Death for eons, and now he's coming for recompense with everything he’s got.

This is majjale, so of course, the writing is more than beautiful; it’s absolutely breathtaking. This may be my favorite fic ever - unfortunately I don’t think it will ever be finished either TT_TT There’s the gods/fantasy au, which you know by now I love. But the characterization of our two boys is absolutely perfect, and I mean that as literally as possible. And the story being crafted between the two, the memory loss, the obvious history muddled by it all, it was so dense, and the PINING, so incredibly written, flowing so naturally. It wasn’t even close to being done, but it was wonderful, still is wonderful. 

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You’re too damn flicking cute (1815 words)

Summary:  Bakugou is certain his shitty boyfriend is instigating kisses. Maybe it doesn't help that he keeps giving them away like it's a damn going out of business sale, but the stupid nerd is too fucking cute. Either way, like everything else, this is a competition, and he's going to win it.

Please don’t read this unless you’re going to the dentist afterwards! I’ve been told it’s so sweet it’ll give you instant cavities >_>;;;;

Bakugou Katsuki, you smooth motherfucker (10118 words)

Summary: Everyone around him knows that Bakugou Katsuki has a very special way with words. To the untrained ear he is loud and crass; to those that speak Kacchan, he is caring and inspiring. Yet there are rare moments, moments so fleeting you blink and you miss them, where Bakugou’s words pierce straight through Midoriya’s chest, and surprise everyone around him.

Goddammit, if only he would say them to Midoriya’s face.

Or, the five times Bakugou said something nice about Midoriya, and the one time he said something kind to him (but that was too long of a title).

I think most would consider this my best published fic; it’s one of those snapshot fics, “the five times where x did this, and the one time where they didn’t.” The recurring comment I get on this one is both of them being super in character, so I think that’s it’s defining characteristic! Bakugou and Midoriya have never known a life without the other, and in a perfect world, they never will.

Here, let me fix that (11247 words)

Summary: Bakugou honestly never thought he’d see Deku ever again. And now that they were together in this tiny compartment, alone for the next two and a half minutes, he had no clue what to say. He’d just apologized, right? So perhaps he could leave it at that and carry on with the original plan to never see the green-haired man that reminded him of dense forests, late night adventures, and tear-stained faces, ever again.

Ha! Who is he kidding? These bitches are soulmates.

I’ve gotten some critiques on this one, so sorry in advance if it’s not to your liking! Basically, what if Midoriya never got his quirk? Obviously, life would find a way to put them together because, as previously stated, these bitches are soulmates.

Plenty of Time (16654 words)

Summary: Bakugou found what little sleep he got restless and filled with nightmares that he forgot the second he opened his eyes. Tonight was the first time in a long time where he just had a normal dream - and it happened to be about Deku.

How fucking typical.

In other words, two dorks realize they have feelings for each other but don't know what to do about said feelings.

Ah, my first fic. Very simple, boys being boys, kinda like a slow burn? Idk how to explain this one, just boys figuring out their feelings and trying to figure out what to do about them. Been told these two are a little stupid but I think that’s valid.

We’re all time bombs waiting to explode (39223 words)

Summary: We have now entered the slipstream of time, into an alternate dimension where it neither is, nor isn’t, the 80’s. Two teenagers, burdened with the weight of adolescence in the modern world, find themselves struggling side by side, in part because of each other.

Bakugou, the most popular boy in school, has everything he could possibly want; status, power, and an unbreakable will. Having been dragged along behind him all the way to the top, Midoriya can’t help but wonder how (and why) he ended up standing beside his childhood friend-turned bully-turned friend again, weighed down by their complicated past and present. As the tension between them grows every day, and the arrival of a new, pretty face causes it to peak, it won’t be long before something - or someone - snaps.

I am...very bad at titles, and summaries apparently. This was my Heathers au, but it very quickly diverges from the original (I don’t do sad endings....) *This one has mature content, including implied sexual activity, drug use, and underage drinking, along with other heavy topics; please read the tags! Though tbh Midoriya is 17 for a couple weeks before it hits his birthday halfway through, so keep that in mind I guess? I kind of went heavy with this one, but I think the pay off was immense. This is the one with the most amount of comments stating it’s their favorite bkdk fic ever (and I cry). It’s a rough start, with a rough journey, but so is bakudeku! There’s a lot of petty drama, and then all of a sudden it’s Not That Petty and very much Far Too Real. Many have cried reading the ending, I cried writing it. My sister says it’s her favorite of mine. Now, I did kind of push this out without polishing it so much because I was losing my willpower, so if it feels lacking, that’s one hundred percent my fault.

Okay that was a lot! It took me a couple days...I hope I wasn’t too annoying with all my opinions! Please have a nice day. and enjoy some good reads, even if they aren’t the ones in this post!

#bakudeku #katsudeku #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #mha #bnha #bkdk #fics #my writing #god i really hope i didn't fuck up any of this #i spent a long time on it alksdjflaskjdflkasdjf #this is 39 fics without my own #and 44 including mine #i can tell i've forgotten some but #idk it's hard TT_TT #anyways it's 2:30am #if i go to bed at 4am one more time i'm gonna throw myself down a flight of stairs #i hope this is good enough as is! #most of this was written very late so I hope it doesn't sound...crazed

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You know what, I watched Moriah Elizabeth's yearly wrap-up where she ranks everything she made that year and explains why and just. It just looks like so much fun, to take everything you've made in a year, pit them against one another, see how your opinions may have changed since you first made them, and just... line them up.

(Yeah, I was one of those kids who played by putting all their stuffed animals in a line. And now I'm doing it with my own fics. I can't be stopped.)

But anyway. Let's do this!

My 2021 Fics, Ranked!

(from least to most favorite)

27. Living in Color — Eh. I was trying to power through a lack of inspiration, but I also desperately wanted the dopamine of posting something, lol. Just kind of feels like a mash of half-baked ideas.

26. Imagine When We Met — It's cute, I guess? To be honest, cute little shippy things just aren't my jam. I was trying it for Edwin week and just coming off Former Alchemist's Guide, but... Yeah, it was me experimenting, and I learned what I needed to learn from it.

25. Secondhand Yesterdays — I really like it, but I'm still kind of frustrated I couldn't hack a way to turn it into a full story, more like 2k instead of less than 200 words.

24. Broken Things — I think this one had more meaning to it than Imagine When We Met, but a lot of the same things apply to this one. Still, I'm glad I finally wrote something about Ed still having his right arm giving him trouble.

23. To the Parental Unit — This was a really important fic for me to write. I really needed to say it at least to myself, but I don't know if it added much to the story.

22. Beautiful Ghosts — I really liked the concept of this, I love being able to read things that add a new dimension to events we've already seen, but... I didn't super enjoy writing it. I wanted to move ahead, not rehash stuff I'd already written.

21. It's Not My Fault! — I still read this and smile, I think it's fun and good for what it is, absolutely. I just tend to favor the fics that ripped my heart out at least a little bit.

20. Becoming Bruno — I definitely like this one and it was fun to actually stretch outside of my usual fandom, but... Yeah, it's not the most fun to put minimal effort into something and get waaaaay more kudos than usual just because it's current and mainstream, heh.

19. How to Turn Gold into Lead — I like this one a lot, I really like how it shows some of me practicing making characters say something without them or the exposition saying it. But I wish it went a little longer so it could get a bit more in-depth.

18. Detached — I really like how this one flows, it's very emotional. Kind of reminds me of back when I was just starting out and wrote Lost Brother. But I had no idea where I was going, so it's a bit of a hot mess and I don't know what I want to do with it.

17. What I Learned on the Road — I especially like this one because I know how far it's come. I mean, this thing started as an unfinished draft from 2012, and I still managed to take it and completely rewrite it so it actually reflects my current skill. And some of the tips are even genuinely useful (I hope)!

16. The Light We Let In — Ack, this one's just a joy to write. It's not my deepest work, but sometimes you just need some fluffy goodness about Ed being a dad. I don't entirely like that it's my one set one oneshots in one story, but... I didn't want a million oneshots to take over the series otherwise, either.

15. I Am Your Way Home, You Are My New Path — Okay, this one is pretty funny. I'm a little desensitized to it because it's been my headcanon for, like, a decade, but I love that I actually got around to writing it.

14. Just Alphonse — This is just one of those fics that I reread for myself every now and then because it's just... comfy. I dunno. It reminds me of my LGBT family and when I first started playing with gender expression, and seeing Ed and Al having a chance to be happy in modern times is just nice.

13. It Started With a Stomachache — I'm kind of proud of writing a closer Al POV than usual with this one. It was a bit more work than usual because it was just out of my comfort zone, but I think it was worth it. Could be a little more subtle, though.

12. Inconvenience and Pimples — Admittedly, I didn't think much of it when I wrote it at first. It was just one of those inspired pieces where I got the idea and sat down and knocked it out immediately, in one sitting. After a few rereads, it's grown on me. I think it explores some interesting stuff for a character study.

11. Delicate, Petite & Other Things I'll Never Be — It's hard not to be attached to things that I write when my heart is being absolutely ripped apart. There's just this raw energy to this fic that I really like. I really feel like I captured a lot of what being a trans man means to me.

10. Mirror Man — I can't fully explain why I like this one, but I just... like it. I'm a sucker for anything CoS-related, I swear. But something about the unfamiliar familiarity in this one just hits hard.

9. The Lost Years — Agh, I already have such a soft spot for anything from the You've Become a Meme series, but I especially love the depth and feelings this one added to the series. I'm mostly just frustrated because I kind of keep imagining this becoming a multiple chapter / long fic thing, but I haven't gotten around to it yet.

8. A Former Alchemist's Guide to Dating — Holy crap, this one took me by surprise. I thought this one wasn't going to be more than 10k at the absolute worst, and it ended up being three times that. It came out of me so quickly, and it was just such a fun rush to post it every week and see everyone excited about the shenanigans. And referring to baguettes as "long bread" has also just become the standard in our house now. The amount of people who have told me that this is just canon as far as they're concerned... I love how it turned out, and I love that everyone else loves it too.

7. Sehnsucht — This one was a test of my writing! I had to try and figure out how to write German for it, and then as if that wasn't enough, I also tried to task me with imitating the style of Capra/Marelle. I don't think it really got close enough to read as the same style as SirryGray, but... I'm proud I managed what I did with this one.

6. The Grief That Does Not Speak — It only barely missed the top five! It's honestly a really hard choice between this one and Last Few Steps. I think this one ended up ever so slightly lower just because it's a little shorter, which makes less for me to pick apart. I do like all the little bits of worldbuilding in this one, but it does feel a little more... static.

5. The Last Few Steps (You Must Take Alone) — This one just has such a fond spot in my heart. Anything with Ed and Trisha interacting just sqooshes my heart so bad. And I got a lot of reflection in with this one while also looking at the characters a little differently than I'm used to.

4. The Other Side — Agh, my baby. I'm so sorry you didn't get finished this summer like I hoped. I love working on this one so much, but trying to switch between BH and Shamballa lore and having that many little bits... It's more work than I initially gave it credit for. I feel like I always have a million tabs open on 1920s Germany when I'm working on this.

3. Labyrinth of Shadows — Because Aurora. This one gets ranked this high just because I freaking love writing Aurora so much. I love writing the relationship between her and her dad, I love the single-dad college-professor vibes Ed's got, I love all the world and plot building I did for it, I loved being part of a big event, I love the art that went with this... I love what I'm plotting for the sequel... I just don't want to let go of writing about Aurora. I know people loving their OCs is... Well, whatever it is, but I don't care. I love her so much.

2. Dark Enough — This one took so long to try writing and rewriting and rewriting before I felt like I'd finally managed to get the feeling across and that it was worth posting. And then posting it brought about a whole new wave of fear. It still feels like it could be improved, but I feel like it was really important for me to write, and it's really touching to see people saying that it was important for them to read as well. It's maybe not my most skilled writing, but it's some of my most authentic writing.

1. Complimentary Colors — Honestly, I can hardly even believe I wrote this one. It's dark and chilling and has parallels pointed out in this way that feels so natural to the story, and the shift in tone right towards the end is so jarring, and it just fits in canon, and... Yeah. It was so painful to write, and I'm so glad it paid off that well.

Overall, it was a good year of writing. I made a lot of things I'm pretty proud of. And even the things I'm not proud of taught me something important. And ranking all my fics for the year was kind of eye-opening, so if this makes you want to do it for the things you wrote, I highly encourage it. I have a lot better idea now of what makes me really love a piece of my writing even long after I've finished it.

#long post #fanfiction #writing #i made this #oof i'm sorry i rambled that much #i did NOT mean to I swear #ao3 wrapped

[melwritesbadly]

With Wings in All Black

After a tragic turn of events,  Kazama Kaori , AKA Hex, has her  investigation swept out from under her by the #2 Pro Hero. Reluctantly  she joins Hawks in the pursuit of justice. On top of trying to solve the  biggest case of her career, Kaori is still a young woman struggling to  find her place in the world. Life is turned upside down as her  professional and personal lives start to blend.

Rating: T (subject to change)

Content Warnings: slight language, implied violence/death

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‘Are you aware of the hour?’

                       ‘As if you were sleeping. ANYWAY, I’ve got another one for you!’

‘We’ve discussed your cryptic messages, another one what?’

                         ‘Why another little bird for the nest. I think you’ll like her.’

‘Somehow I doubt that.’

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Two for Some Luck

Hex decided to take the 20 minute walk back to her apartment rather than the much shorter flight. It was thankfully peaceful. No assaults, no muggings, just bustling city life despite the late hour.

She thought about her next steps and her current situation. Despite her perceived annoyance she was grateful for the help. She just hated that it cost Kenji’s life to get it, and that was not ok with her…

So why now, after weeks of posting to the Hero Network? And why him. When now, in all honesty, it seemed like a case for the police.

Pro Heroes usually didn’t investigate murders, at least not top charters like Hawks.

Heroes like Hawks were better suited for grandiose villains, not the everyday kind of monsters. That’s what the underground was for.

Because people like Kenji’s mother didn’t get happy endings, no heroic flourish at the end of it all. No triumph. Only grief.

Hex couldn’t protect her from that, just like she couldn’t protect Kenji, and she is no closer to helping all the other missing people either.

Some Hero she was…

The walk was not as calming as she hoped as her mind swirled with guilt and more questions she was not going to find the answers to, at least not that night. Instead she decided on a shower and hopefully a few hours of sleep before she went with the police to the Takei house…then to wherever Hawks decided to meet with her.

From the front of her building Hex could see the light on in her apartment.

Mayu must have got home early from the bar.

Soon her key was slipping into the lock and opening the door to her small shared apartment.

Kaori didn’t have much in the way of money when she left her father’s agency. Without an agency supporting you, hero work did not pay well, if at all. The odd jobs she took around the station were barely enough to cover her portion of the rent and her groceries but bless Mayu. Her roommate didn’t complain when her payments were late or if she had to pick up some extra costs. Her new job at the swankiest Hero club in the city paid big bucks and Mayu was a generous young woman.

“Kaori?” her roommate called from behind the closed bathroom door.

“Yeah, it’s me Yu.” her voice tired as she called back to the other woman.

“You’re early!” a muffled gasp “Bad night?”

“You have no idea…What are you doing in there?” Kaori kicked off her shoes and placed her black coat on the simple rack Mayu kept her various jackets and purses on.

“Oh you know, having another identity crisis”

“Are you dying your hair again?” Kaori asked sitting on the small but comfy couch Mayu had ‘acquired’ during her brief stay at University.

Stretching out along it Kaori pulled one of the colorful throw pillows over her face and briefly contemplated screaming into it.

She heard the door to the bathroom open followed by the barest hints of hair dye and floral shampoo that snuck under the decorative square.

Mayu lifted Kaori’s legs high enough to wiggle under them, setting them back down over her lap.

“What’s wrong pretty bird?” Mayu asked in her sweet voice then gasped “Wait don’t tell me-” she reached for one of Kaori’s hands and held it in her own.

[Glimmers of hope, new links on a chain, soft, red, light as a feather]

“You met someone!” Mayu gasped.

“You know I don’t like it when you use your quirk on me.” Kaori’s voice muffled through the pillow and wiggled her hand free from her friends.

“Sorry PB, you know I can’t help myself. Anyway back to the matter. You met someone!”

“It’s not like that. It’s work stuff” Kaori finally pulled the pillow from her face holding it to her chest instead.

Mayu’s head was wrapped in a ratty dye stained towel. Her round face and large blue eyes made her seem like one of those painted cherubs.

“What color this time?” trying to redirect the conversation away from herself.

“Baby blue to match my other baby blues” she clasped her hand and fluttered her lashes for effect. “And what do you mean work stuff?! Didn’t feel like work stuff.” she prodded, tickling her fingers along her friend’s shins.

“Yu” a sigh “I don’t want to talk about it right now. It’s probably going to be on every tabloid by the end of the week anyway…”

Kaori pulled herself up and stood up from the couch and made her way to her bedroom forgoing the shower tonight and resigned herself to wake earlier while Mayu was sleeping to avoid further questioning or quirk prodding.

“Tabloids, what? What?! PB!”

“Too tired, going to bed.” Kaori ignored her roommate who had jumped from her spot and charged at her rapidly closing door.

Mayu drummed her hand along her door and whined.

“You never go out with anyone and now you tell me the media is involved. What did you dooooo?” she whined dramatically, scratching along the door.

Kaori stripped her dark clothes and slid out of her flight suit and brushed out her hair.

“It’s nothing Yu, just… let me sleep, I’ll talk to you in the morning.”  she paused  “Don’t touch my stuff!” knowing her roommate could use her quirk on inanimate objects too.

“No fun” came one final whine from Mayu who then admitted defeat, for now.

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The next morning Mayu waited until Kaori had finished her breakfast and headed to the  bathroom to shower. On the kitchen table was a box filled with various pictures, notes, maps and other handwritten details. Mayu held one in her hand not so much reading it but feeling what that paper represented activating her quirk.

She felt the hopelessness, the frustrated exhaustion. The perseverance. Strings and connections winding and wrapping leading nowhere and everywhere.

‘I will save them’

Mayu pursed her lips and placed the paper back in the box.

If Kaori had taken down her pinboard was she giving up? No, there was no way. In the 2 years she had known her if someone needed help Kaori would help them. Hex would help them.

[New links in the chain, hope, feathers] she recalled from last night. Hmm, the first part was easy to decipher. It had to represent whoever Kaori had met, someone new. The chain could maybe mean she was trapped, which would explain why she was so gloomy last night. Hmm, hope and feathers…

As Mayu thought through the abstraction of her quirk she noticed the unfinished cup of coffee and Kaori’s phone which just emitted several pings indicating she had just received messages.

Mayu knew she shouldn’t look but…

It’s not like she was snooping through her phone (it has a passcode and she could not for the life of her crack it)

She would just- check her lock screen for the time and…

Mayu hit the button on the side lighting up the screen. Kaori didn’t have a custom  background, just whatever came default with the phone but it did show a preview of the texts she had just received. The sender’s name caused her to make a confused but amused face.

The nosy young woman was not paying attention and did not hear the shower switch off as she scanned over the small blurb of text. Mayu gave a startled jolt as Kaori swung open the bathroom door and came out in a towel. Kaori was equally shocked to see Mayu up.

“What are you doing?” Kaori asked, eyeing her roommate suspiciously.

Mayu hastily grabbed the used mug and brought it to the kitchen under the guise of washing it.

“Oh nothing, couldn’t really sleep so I figured i’d clean up a bit.” She was a terrible liar and knew it.

“Yu…” the tone of her voice was enough to make Mayu fidget.

“Err, well” Mayu scratched her nose then twisted the ends of her hair. The now blue hair is a little frazzled but fluffy from letting it air dry.   Kaori stood arms crossed waiting for her to continue.

“You see…” she reeled “I was…cleaning up,” she gestured to her the mug in her hand “and well your phone went off and I just happened to see the screen when I was leaning over and…” She spun the mug between her hands, a small smile sneaking onto her lips “Who’s ‘Unsolicited dick pics’”?”

Kaori blinked confused.

“What?”

“That’s who texted you- well that’s their name in your phone!” Mayu giggled.

“My phone?”

Who could possibly be named that Kaori thought. Then stopped when the obvious answer hit her, face falling with an un-amused expression. She shook her head and picked up her phone and flicked it on going to her message app to see the full message.

She replied,

Hawks’s response was immediate and Kaori shook her head setting her phone down.

Mayu was watching her expectantly.

“Well?”

“Well what?” Kaori crossed to her bedroom and closed the door enough for some privacy but enough to continue the conversation.

“Who’s dick pic guy?!” Mayu asked, leaning against the wall next to Kaori’s door. She heard Kaori click her tongue.

“He’s not ‘dick pic guy’. Just some smartass who thinks he’s cute.”

“Ah, so he’s cute now.”Mayu teased “Who is he! You said you’d tell me in the morning!”

From inside her room Kaori sighed adjusting her bodysuit making sure the fabric wasn’t bunched before slipping on the rest of her clothes.

“If I tell you, you can’t make a big deal because it is NOT a big deal and this is strictly for work. Pro Hero business”  A dressed Kaori- rather Hex stepped out and pointed a finger at Mayu.

“Super secret and super dangerous!”

Mayu blinked but nodded.

“I’m serious. It’s no big deal” now it was Mayu’s turn to roll her eyes.

“You keep saying that but It’s making me think it is a big deal. Now spill!”

Kaori breathed in and touched her fingers to each other in front of her face at the brim of her nose.

“Hawks” Mayu’s mouth dropped.

“What.”

“I’m not saying it again.”

“No I heard you, just- what, as in, WHAT? Isn’t he mega hot and like the number 2 hero.”

“Yup, that’s the one” Kaori grimaced, speaking through her teeth.

“So you finally agree that he’s hot?” cheeked Mayu recalling a tipsy conversation they had when the popularity ratings were last posted.

“Just because I’m a bird and he’s a bird doesn’t mean I automatically find him attractive.”

“Attractive you say” Yu tried to fish further casting her a lewd look raising her eyebrows suggestively.

“Stop.” Kaori moaned, annoyed reaching up to smooth over the feathers at the back of her neck. They tended to tense and puff up when flustered, or in this case, annoyed.

“He’s not my type- too flashy” This caused Mayu to scoff.

“So says miss ‘I’m black as night spooky-spooky bird lady!”

“I’m not flashy and I certainly don’t like the attention!” Kaori waved her hands to maybe try and physically dismiss the subject. “This is why I didn’t want to tell you. I’m late already, I need to go.” brushing past Mayu and started to pull on her gear.

“We will continue this conversation later young lady” Mayu mock scolded,wagging a finger at her, Kaori shook her head

“Yes mom… I’ll see you later Yu”

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Hex met with two officers just outside of Takei’s apartment complex. They did not speak to her but offered her a curt nod before gesturing to her to go on ahead of them.

She had never done something like this. To tell someone that their loved one… had died. It wasn’t something Hero’s did. Hero’s swooped in, stopped the bad guys and swooped back out. In and out of people’s lives, never lingering, never personal…

She hesitated, knuckling inches above the door, letting out a tense breath but finally rapt her fist against the worn door.

A soft ‘just a moment’ was heard beyond.

It seemed like an eternity but finally the door swung open and Kenji’s tired mother was revealed.

“Oh Hex.” she said softly, almost surprised to see her at her doorstep. Mrs. Takei’s eyes drifted to the officers who stood formally behind the Pro Hero. She gave a sad, knowing nod.

“Please… come in.”

They had waited for Mrs. Takei to make herself a cup of tea and settle into a seated position before speaking.

“Mrs. Takei…” Hex paused trying to find the right words “Your son- Kenji” She looked down unable to meet the woman’s gaze.

“Kenji’s body was found last night.” Hex said softly. A sad sigh came from the older woman.

“I see…” was all the woman could muster, Hex saw a slight sad shine at the corner of her eyes.

Hex stood and bowed her head low.

“I promised you I would find your son and bring him back to you. I not only failed you. I failed him. I beg for your forgiveness.” the officers bowed as well.

“Oh, no, please.” Mrs. Takei sniffed “Kenji, my son, he died the moment he went missing, I could feel it in my heart. At least now…” she paused again to compose herself. “Now I can lay him to rest properly.”

“I’m so sorry you are going through this Mrs. Takei. If there is anything I can do?” Hex offered a soft and sympathetic look in her eyes.

“You’ve done more than anyone Hex, I’ll be ok.” She sipped her tea.

“I can do more, for Kenji, for the others. Us Hero’s are not giving up-I’m not giving up.” Hex leaned forward and took Mrs. Takei’s hands and spoke sincerely, meeting her eyes “I will get justice for Kenji and for you.” It was a sad but welcome comfort to the woman.

“I know you will Hex, thank you.” Mrs. Takei squeezed the younger woman’s hands and finally let a few tears slip out.

“These officers will help you as best they can with any questions you might have and you can call me anytime you like ok?”

Mrs. Takei nodded sniffing once more then released Hex’s hands and brushed away her tears.

“Before I leave, I wanted to ask you…” Pulling out her phone Hex opened the picture she snapped the previous night of the business card “Does this mean anything to you?” The older woman examined the picture but shook her head no.

Worth a shot.

______

After excusing herself and leaving the apartment Hex made a quick stop back at her apartment to gather her evidence, she loaded it into a knapsack snapping it to one of her buckles and took flight to the hotel just in time for lunch.

Here we go…

Taking a deep breath is Hex strode into the hotel lobby. A quick stop at the concierge pointed the way to one of the conference rooms on the upper floors. The elevator ride was spent admiring how ritzy the place was and how she would put forth her evidence without sounding like a conspiracy theorist.

The conference room had frosted glass preventing her from seeing anything but shadows.

Should she knock? No- Jeesh why was she so nervous?  She felt the feathers on her neck creep up. She shook her shoulders working out the jitter and opened the door.

An impressive spread of food was laid out on the long table. She felt all attention on her as 3 sets of eyes took immediate notice of her intrusion.

Duke Amazing had a mouth full of some sort of sandwich and lifted his bread in salut and continued to chew, a few crumbs in his mustache.

“Hey! It’s the star of the show!” Hawks called out.

He was kicked back in one of the executive chairs, legs propped up on the table and a can of some sort of energy drink in his hand. His other hand gestured to the projector screen at the front of the room showing videos of… well her.

The other person in the room sat next to Hawks upright and smartly dressed in fitting business attire. Her eyes meeting hers seemingly stared at something Hex could not see. Just at a glance she was certain this woman never smiled.

Hawks noted his manager’s dead eye stare and casually elbowed her causing the woman’s focus to drop and lose whatever it was she was looking at.

“This is June, the agency manager.” Hawks gestured to her then to the table “Take a seat, grab some grub, I think we’re getting to the good part.” he swiveled in his chair a bit, rocking himself side to side as he turned his attention back to the screen.

Hex placed her pack on the table and took a seat opposite to Duke.

“This data is old.” She commented idly picking through the food to find something she liked.

“Well,” the manager clicked a remote rewinding a certain part of the video and letting it play again “You’re about as underground as someone can go. The name Hex doesn’t even register on any hero chart. A nobody” she played the next bit in slow motion.

Every beat of her black wings taking up a frame. The familiar motions slowly rolling through her shoulders and hips as the Hex on screen slowly spun and let loose several pointed feathers as projectiles into the villain on screen sending them back and into a wall subdued. June rewound it and played it in real time, the motion as fast as a blink.

“However…” fast forwarding again and video Hex zoomed along the screen, and two other figures joined her. June paused it. Hex frowned as she started at the on screen version of herself.

“Aello,” the picture zoomed in on the blond in the middle. She fluttered in the air, quirk similar to Hex’s but her wings were white and blue.

“ Ocypete” June zoomed in on the other fair haired winged woman on screen. Her wings were green with sparse flecks of black.

“Finally, Celaeno.” June zoomed one final time, this time on Hex. Her jet black wings a stark contrast to the white and green of her partners. Her dark hair is also in conflict with their uniform blond-ness.

Hex did not speak and only stared at her past self posed perfectly behind her flashier partners. Their costumes matched in every way but color. Blue, green, and black. The black of her suit  and her headgear were the only thing she had retained from this past persona.

The only thing worth keeping

Hex though as she eyed her past smile and eyes, perfect for the camera. Remembering how she had felt presenting herself that way.

“The Harpy Sisters- affiliated with King Crow Agency. Currently holding the number 112th slot on the boards despite missing a member.” She let the footage roll again switching to ground combat.

“Celaeno’s such a pretty name.” June mused more to herself then resumed speaking to the room “Still you’re very on brand for this agency.”

Take your brand and stuff it. Is what Hax wanted to say but felt that was a bit unprofessional. But still wanted to make sure the manager understood her stance on the matter.

“I told Hawks last night I don’t do agencies” Hex shoved a bunch of chips into her mouth making a point to crunch loudly.

“Well, as much as it is his agency. I handle all the logistics. And I’m telling you,” she paused folding her hand neatly on the table “We don’t ‘do’ Freelancers and since you don’t ‘do’ agencies  we can’t ‘do’ a team up.” using the same tone to match Hex’s.

“And why not?” Hex questioned trying her best to not let her tone get too uneven “You said yourself I’m nobody. You have nothing to gain by trying to brand me- no one cares. No one cared that I left King Crow, and no one cares now.”

June tutted and had a constrained grimace on her face.

“True no one gives a damn about you Hex. But people care about Hawks. And it’s my job to protect his image so people continue to care about him. I know things are different working underground but topside? This is his world.” She gestures to hawks who simply shrugs “He’s the number 2 hero. Society chose him to be their hero- whoever is represented by his agency is a reflection on him. If we have ‘nobodies’ skulking around his agency it could make a bad impression”

Hex stood abruptly and walked towards the other end of the table.

“June, look now what you’ve done. Scared the poor girl off.” Commented Duke finally brushing his face free of crumbs.

Instead of leaving, Hex grabbed her bag and stomped to where June and Hawks were sitting. Locking eyes with the woman, Hex undid the fastening and dumped the contents out on the desk before her creating a mess.

“This is what I think of your stupid charts and pretty pictures of Hero’s.” quickly rifling through the paper and pulling out the pictures.

“ Taichi Mizo, missing 6 weeks. Ochiro Honda, missing 4 weeks, Ben Darma missing 7 months.”

Hex listed about a dozen people holding a picture to correspond to the names.

“I have been begging for help for weeks on the HN. For one of your ‘top charters’ to notice. To do something about this. But no.” she tossed the pictures on the pile “You were too busy posing for pictures, and worrying about what others think about Hero’s rather than being an actual Hero. Then you get caught with your pants around your ankles. Go “Woops, my bad.”

“I think you’ve made your point”

“Have I?” Hex huffed “Someone died because the only person who cared was me and I was too much of a nobody to help. Then you come at me and tell me how to do things when I’m the only person who’s done anything to try and fix this problem!” The room was awkwardly silent. Hex felt puffed up but resisted the urge to press down her neck and stood firm eyes never leaving June’s.

Duke stood silently and tip-toed out the room, an extra sandwich and bag of chips in his hand closing the door with a soft click.

“Well, that was intense!” Hawks tried to break the tension taking a loud sip from his can. Hex sighed in frustration and began collecting her papers.

So much for being cool.

“Listen, Hex. It’s bullshit, it’s all bullshit.” Hawks started fiddling with the tab of the can “The glitter, the glory. You’re right, we’re caught pants down, dick out-”

“Language” chided June causing Hawks to gesture towards her.

“See what I mean I can’t even tell it how it is without getting my wrists slapped.” June swatts his hand away “Anyway. I asked you to help. I want you to help. Because you care. I admit I have to drink the kool-aid every now and then but that’s the price we pay as Hero’s. The trick is not to chug.” He sips at his own drink “A sip here, a sip there and even bullshit is bearable if it means I can be the Hero I want to be. Now you said last night you needed resources. If it’s one thing this kool-aid man has is resources.” Hex tutted and  finally smoothed down her neck.

“So It comes down to ends and means huh?”

“Seems so Chickadee”

She placed her hand on her hips and looked up and let out a deep breath.

“Fine then. Limited term contract- my previous conditions still stand. Full access and availability to this case.”

“Very good, a 12 month term with the agency.”

“6 months and I retain and manage my own promotional material” It was June’s turn to tutt.

“Unacceptable, the agency manages any and all images associated with the Hero’s under its employ. 9 months with lodgings.”

“I like my apartment, commuting isn’t so bad. 6 months and I can Veto any publicity I deem unnecessary.”

“8 months and you get 1 veto.”

“8 months and I get 2 vetoes” Hex stood firm and crossed her arms.

“8 months, you get 1 veto, and you get to retain your costume and persona. Even though Celaeno would be better branding for the agency.”

June pulled out a pen and pulled out a folder that was buried under the mess of papers Hex had dumped out.

“8 months, 1 Veto, Hex stays and you,” she pointed at Hawks, “no longer call me Chickadee.” It was his turn to tut resuming his twisting in his chair.

“Ah, there is no way I could sign off on a ‘no Chickadee’ clause in your contract Chickadee. Then I’d have to think of a new nickname for you and frankly that’d be too much work.”

“Worth a shot.” She nodded “Ok, deal”

“Fantastic, welcome aboard Hex.”

June quickly filled out the form then handed it along with a sort of stamp to Hawks. He didn’t bother looking over the contract and simply put his stamp to where it needed to be signed then  used a feather to move the contract over to Hex letting it hover until she grabbed it. Once she did he made the feather do a lap around her prompting her swat it away like a fly. Pleased with her annoyance he recalled it and it zoomed back into place among his other vibrant plumage.

She read through its entirety making sure the agreed upon terms were fairly stated. Those stale management courses she took finally came in handy it seemed.

She was as satisfied as she was going to be given the situation and put a pen to the paper.

“Bottoms up Kool-aid man” she said and signed her hero credentials

“Cheers” chimed Hawks cracking open another can.

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End Notes: I hope you guys are liking this so far. Sorry if it seems a little slow right now.  Chapter 3 is almost done, and four has some agency fun. Also the text parts might seem a little weird since I’m on android and there is no good social dummy app to make fake texts. Anyway, I’m planning to do little fun half parts in between the larger chapters to give myself some time to work on the next parts so looks for that next week.

Thank you!

#wwiab #hawks #bnha hawks #hawks bnha #mha hawks #hawks mha #hawks x oc #hawks x reader #keigo takami #takami keigo #original character #boku no hero academia #my hero acadamia

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2020 Favorite Anime

I am sure I don’t have to exactly spell it out that 2020 was a different year, we all know the spiel now. It was in particular a bad year for me for a lot of personal reasons on top of the whole world wide pandemic thing killing millions and shutting down business and and all our hobbies--so I really was straight up not having a good time. It’s because of that I honestly didn’t really keep up with a lot of my hobbies this year so when it comes to choosing my favorite anime and games of 2020, I don’t have as much as I usually would. 

So this year I decided to just say screw it, there are no rules. I usually try to impose some on myself every year for my lists: rules like no sequels, no long running shows, no shows that technically started last year, only new content from this year and not older stuff I watched/played this year but came out from a prior one. This time, there are no holds barred. I am just going to list my top whatever the hell I feel like listing. So starting with anime and in my usual alphabetical order; here we go.

The 8th Son? Are You Kidding Me?

Maybe a guilty pleasure? Maybe I just enjoy some trashier shows? It’s hard to say. There is nothing that great about 8th Son, it’s very bland and doesn’t stick out amongst the million other isekai (another world) power fantasy series that are all the rage now and yet there is a strange draw to it. Perhaps it’s because almost all the isekai elements in the series feel more forced than anything else, like they are just tacked on to appeal to modern audiences. 

8th Son honestly feels more like a good old fashion fantasy series from the 90’s that just had to add isekai elements in it to appeal to kids today. I really enjoyed it for that aspect. The power fantasy isn’t too out of control (although the protagonist is quite strong), and there is no real end goal or attempt to return to your previous life. The protagonist Wendelin is more or less just cool with how things are now. Instead it focuses on his growth as a mage and how he tries to navigate the political intrigue of this feudal world being one of the youngest born in a noble family with no clear line of succession to take over yet being the most talented and magically gifted child of said family. 

Ascendance of a Bookworm

Proving that not all isekai series have to be a power fantasy, Ascendance of a Bookworm plays out more like an educational take on medieval times, think something among the lines of Spice and Wolf, if you will. One day Motosu Urano wakes up in the body of the small child Myne in a fantasy world much like medieval Europe but with a few other elements like magic and sorcery. While at first that may sound like a high flying adventure it really isn’t. The series is more about following the average life of a peasant in this world and how far out of reach literature is to them, given the lack of printing press and the like. Urano now Myne tries her best to create books for the common people and spread literature, a herculean task considering the insane douchebaggery of the higher caste in this world. But armed with modern day knowledge of the 21st century Myne is able to create modern conveniences and wow most people around her.

Black Clover

So I am going to include long running shows now this year, get over it. Black Clover has been a favorite of mine in recent years. Out of the modern Jump battle series I find myself more and more drawn into Clover (and also my one true love, the ever underappreciated World Trigger) than the other more popular ones that seem to rule all the anime conversations today. Since I was following the series dubbed as it aired on Toonami this year brought me the end of the first part of the series; finally seeing the epic conclusion of Clover Kingdom’s long standing battle with the Eye of the Midnight Sun and revealing some pretty great and shocking twists behind the war of elves and humans along the way. 

This finale was fantastic and honestly while I am glad to see the series continue on and grow from there, and look forward to seeing more of this new second part of Clover that focuses on a war with the Spade Kingdom, I absolutely would not have complained if the whole thing ended right here with this story arc. It wraps up so beautifully and is a compilation of three great years of episodes. 

BOFURI: I Don’t Want to Get Hurt so I’ll Max Out My Defense

Bofuri is not a series I thought I would enjoy as much as I did but it really won me over. Essentially just a ‘cute girls do cute things’ kind of show but with a twist of it being in an MMO game, there is something about it that made it so comfy and easy to watch. There’s always something enjoyable about watching the protagonist Maple, an absolutely clueless newbie at video games continue to be the bane of existence to the developers and admins of the game as she constantly breaks it and becomes insanely overpowered on a regular basis all from her own cluelessness. 

As the title suggests she is the only person in the world to get scared of taking damage in a video game and puts all her stats into defense and literally nothing else entirely. After so much grinding the girl is such a tank she can just walk through enemies to kill them. It’s fun little things like this that make the show always worth a chuckle as her legendary player status continues to rise while in reality she just has no clue how to play RPGs whatsoever. 

Boruto: Naruto Next Generations

If you think Black Clover had a great run of episodes this year in 2020 just wait until you see what Boruto had to offer. While not a perfect year, the series did take off for about 2 months thanks to a pandemic hiatus, once it came back it was stronger than ever. We came out of the gates running and kicked off the return of Boruto with a fantastic 20+ episode long story arc centered on introducing the main group of villains in the series, the Kara. The world of Boruto became much bigger and much darker, and the series in the last year has started to bring in a lot more manga content and moving at a brisker and faster pace, changing the status quo up quite a lot. Watching the New Team 7 grow so much and rise to these challenges was rewarding and I am so excited for the vessel story arc teased at the latest Jump Festa this December. 

Ultimately though their first encounter, crushing defeat, and subsequent rematch with Deepa; a new anime only member of Kara meant to introduce the organization to anime viewers was an insane show de force of animation and one of the best battles in 2020 anime, dare I say. These kids are growing into great warriors and the stakes have been raised so much.

Cardfight!! Vanguard Gaiden IF

The 2018 reboot of the Vanguard series saw not only the card game get refreshed but the television anime as well. Dubbed the V Series by fans thanks to all the new card serial numbers starting with a V post reboot, these last two years have been fun and full of fan service for long time viewers of the anime. Gaiden IF is the final season of this reboot before the fourth entry of the franchise Overdress begins in 2021, and was a very strange and experimental one at that. Gaiden IF holding true to its name was a gaiden, or spinoff of the series that wasn’t necessary in the same canon as the regular show and more fascinating had zero card fights during the entire show--instead being one huge parody of card game animes in general and the beloved cast of characters the series has built over its ten year run. 

It’s quite hilarious and a great round of fun, especially since there isn’t a main character in sight. Gaiden IF is carried entirely by a cast of side characters and former villains now taking over the role of protagonist. I’ve never seen a show go for an entire season with such minor characters playing such a huge role and that is one of the best aspects of it. Every week watching Ibuki Kouji, one of the most feared and powerful villains in the series being tormented and kicked around as a would-be hero now honestly carries the entire show. 

But really, this was one of the first anime to air post pandemic hiatus and it was so refreshing to have Vanguard back. Every week it reminded me how much I loved the franchise and anime in general, it was such a delight to finally have something enjoyable back in my life after such a grueling pandemic hiatus of nothing. 

Dragon Quest: Dai no Daibouken (2020)

Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think there would be a modern adaptation of Dai no Daibouken, or The Adventures of Dai as it is being called in English now. This was one of my all time favorite Jump manga growing up and I always thought the original unfinished 1991 anime was the best we were ever going to get as far as animation goes, so to see this beautiful new series with its fantastic storyboarding and animation, great use of CG mixed in with hand drawn, and what seems like an outright declaration from the series itself that it will adapt the series in its entirety this time, it’s all too much. 

This new Dai adaptation is like a dream anime that was made just for me. Every Saturday morning I giddily log on to watch the new episode just like being a kid again with Saturday morning cartoons. If you are sleeping on this show, don’t! You won’t regret watching it, Dai was one of the all time great Shonen Jump properties of the 90’s and is ready to show kids today what that era has to offer!

Gundam Build Divers Re:rise Season 2

Rerise was hands down one of my favorite shows last year when the first cour aired, and this year is no different either, dare I say once again this was probably my favorite show of the whole year. It’s hard to really go into what made this second cour so good without flat out spoiling all the best parts, and all the character development, and all the amazing battles, but suffice to say, this may be one of the best Gundam shows of the entire decade, Build series or not. Hell I ain’t afraid to say this kicked G-Tekketsu (Iron Blooded Orphans) ass this way to Sunday, I don’t care that this is a toy commercial for a much younger audience. Basically, watch Rerise, it’s going to be a great time. 

If My Favorite Pop Idol Made It to the Budokan, I Would Die

This was another series that I expected very little from but ended up really enjoying each week. The basic premise is pretty simple, a super fan obsessed with an idol (singer) goes to insane lengths to support her and thinks her love will never be reciprocated but maybe it just might be. It’s kinda strange and an unusual romance series that isn’t really all that big on romance. In fact it seems to be much bigger on being informative about idol fan culture and nerd culture in general and poking fun at that while never being too mean spirited. 

I think that’s the charm of this one. These are by all extent weird kinda creepy people that are obsessed over young girl singers but it never demonizes its cast for that nor does it ever go too far in the power fantasy of them ‘getting the girl’. It’s about the struggle of fan life and the tightknit and utterly bizarre groups of friends you can make in a fandom--and also maybe some love might happen along the way.

Jujutsu Kaisen

Another big modern shonen jump battle manga got its chance to be animated this year, and this time courtesy of studio Mappa who are the real stars of this party. Everything about Jujutsu Kaisen feels like Mappa throwing down the gauntlet and trying to one-up the highly praised and beloved Demon Slayer: Kimetsu no Yaiba from last year that wowed everyone with UFOtable’s signature beautiful animation. It’s very fascinating to see the insane levels of gorgeous jaw dropping action set pieces between these two series, both raising the bar to ridiculous levels in their own ways. On top of the animation front though are some very easily lovable characters, a much darker feeling supernatural story than one may expect, and probably Crunchyroll’s best dub produced in 2020. 

Keep Your Hands Off Eizouken!

Keep Your Hands Off Eizouken is another series from beloved auteur Masaaki Yuasa. Bringing with it his signature style and wonderful animation, his hardworking compatriots at studio Science Saro deliver something truly special, an anime about why anime is great and just how the heck it is made to begin with. I think one of my favorite aspects of Yuasa’s work is just how sincere almost his entire output is, and how you can really feel a certain kind of emotion and vision behind each work that is unique to it. For Eizouken it is definitely the joy of creation and what it means to pursue something creative. Easily one of the best watches of 2020 for both its visuals, sound design, characters with great chemistry that have to deliver very heavy and technical dialogue but do so in a really natural and enjoyable way--and hey the shows within the show that the girls make are also usually pretty interesting and good too.

MAJOR 2nd Season 2

I think my favorite aspect of this new middle school arc of MAJOR 2nd was seeing just how much Daigo has changed over the years since we last saw him in elementary school in the first season. No longer in little league and now trying to save his school’s baseball club, Daigo has grown into a strong leader and really feels natural with everyone he talks to. It’s a huge departure from the bullied and reclusive selfish kid he was in the first season. Seeing the kid grow up into somebody reliable and caring like this almost brings a tear to my eye. 

It’s an old cliché but saving the falling apart club in your school is a classic underdog story and the fact that Daigo built his own team from the ground up really sells it. The team is largely made up of girls too which brings a really great girl power aspect to it as well. With just 3 boys and the rest of the positions being filled with females, the haphazard team Daigo put together not only has to show that nobodies can make it but that girls are just as good as the boys.

Rent-a-Girlfriend

I love trashy romcom harem anime, I will be the first to admit it. I am not even their target audience, in fact I am probably the exact opposite of their target audience yet I can’t get enough of this kind of garbage, and Rent-a-Girlfriend brings in the garbagest of garbage it can! The name says it all right there, our hero is literally so pathetic he has to pay girls money to go on dates with him. And he just continues to ruin everything around him with his constant lying and all around patheticness. He is like a blackhole of suck that will drag down any and all that go near him. What more can you even want?! 

I am half facetious here of course, but to an extent what I said about Kazuya isn’t wrong. He’s the biggest loser around, and I love him. It’s fun to watch him squirm, and it’s nice to learn more about him and see he has a good side deep down too. In a lot of ways he’s probably one of the more relatable leads in these kinds of shows as he’s just as pathetic as all the rest of us who watch these kinds of shows are. But besides Kazuya there are plenty of nice leading ladies too and probably most surprisingly a fairly well fleshed out circle of friends that he hangs out with. Usually these kinds of shows will sideline the male friends of the leads and only focus on time between the lead and the girls, so it’s refreshing to see so much time spent with other boys in the show too. 

Also as an addendum to anyone who watches the series dubbed, Aleks Le‘s performance as the lead role is maybe some of the best casting in modern anime dubbing I have ever heard. He kills it in this show. It’s a performance that carries the entire show. 

Shadowverse

You might say, I saved the best for last, but honestly this was a coincidence. Shadowverse is a by-the-numbers card game anime. It starts very slow and very bland, and offers nothing new to the genre instead sticking entirely to the classic tropes and clichés of sports anime and Yu-Gi-Oh clones alike. That is for the first 12 episodes or so. It begins to evolve and gets a little more interesting from there, then something happens. Something I cannot explain. Something that makes no sense. Something that the production committee probably should not have allowed to occur. The show just goes absolutely, positively, certifiably, fucking insane. 

Out of nowhere, the plot suddenly turns into a straight Neon Genesis Evangelion knock-off, complete with plugsuits, random nonsense mysticism from exotic religions, and soul crushing nightmarishly harsh treatment of the child protagonists. Suddenly time freezes for everyone but the main characters, and the totally original not Kabbalah, Tree of Woe, begins to end the world. Now armed with their new psychic powers (that they just have now out of nowhere!) the kids have to fight brain washed former enemies and loved ones alike that seek to destroy the world via assimilation into the darkness. 

Suddenly we have moments like the above where Luca, the coldhearted and cool Shadowverse player who only ever began fighting in tournaments to earn money for his younger sick sister’s treatment has to face off against a possessed evil version of his sister who bemoans all the isolation he put her through, never being there with her, always away trying to earn money. She berates and destroys the young man’s heart for his well intentions. Luca with no other options has to put her down for the good of the world. 

You know, for the 12 year old kids in the audience that signed up for a show about a cellphone app.

I haven't even gotten to the best part yet, the show isn’t over! There’s still 12 episodes left in the series and do you wanna know the best part?! The heroes already failed! The world blew up and everyone got sucked into a blackhole and died! That’s not a joke. The bad guys won. And there’s still another season worth of episodes to go! I am not kidding, this is how the show ended the year 2020! This is legendary, no fucks given status if I ever saw it. The best way to end 2020 if ever there was one:

Every week I anxiously log on to watch Shadowverse after it jumped the shark just to see what insanity happens next. This is Tommy Wiseau The Room energy levels of pure insane dribble. Shadowverse might be the biggest disaster of a card game anime of all time, and I simply cannot get enough of it now.  

BONUS THOUGHTS For 2020

Random Anime Collecting: This year saw Discotek release three Case Closed/Detective Conan movies on blu-ray. Detective Conan is a series near and dear to my heart, and one I spent a lot of my college days obsessed over. This is a franchise I really went to great lengths to collect after Funimation reprinted many of the long time out of print volumes of the series back in 2013, and I bought them all back then. Buying new Detective Conan movies in 2020 felt super surreal, and also wonderful. I really hope I can keep buying more in 2021.

Hidive for these hard times: I didn’t include anything really from Sentai, I am not sure why, maybe none of what I watched this year would count as a favorite of mine, maybe I was just lazy and didn’t want to add to my list anymore. Honestly though I watched a lot of series this year on Hidive. I think my favorite has been the new dub of Pet Girl of Sakurasou. 

A Lost Classic: Nobody is talking about God Mazinger finally getting released in English from Discotek and that kind of bums me out. The series was one I obsessed over when younger, especially because it was rare to find even raw footage of it lead alone subtitled. It was never subtitled in fact, so Discotek’s release is the first time it has ever been in English. 

#anime #The 8th Son? Are You Kidding Me? #Ascendance of a Bookworm #Black Clover #Boruto #Boruto Naruto Next Generations #Bofuri #Cardfight!! Vanguard #Dragon Quest #Dragon Quest Dai no Daibouken #dragon quest the adventure of dai #Gundam Build Divers Re:rise #JuJutsu Kaisen #Keep YOur Hands Off Eizouken #MAJOR 2nd #Rent-a-girlfriend #Shadowverse

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how about 20 and 37 ?? 💓

ooooh thanks for the ask love, let's get to it

20: Describe your perfect writing conditions

That's a tough one bc I usually just write when I'm inspired, but my best days are when my led light is on and playing some music, I'm in my bed all comfy on my big ass pillow and usually my monthly playlist is on or one of these:

inspiration, may 2nd or 27/05

it's july?????

Barely Legal August

Hopeful September

July October

37: Talk about your current wips

This is a very exciting one, bc I only talk about this stuff with my best friend

I have a lot of unfinished projects but actual wips I only have 4: two harringroves, one about steve and robin and one about draco malfoy. It actually really surprised me that although Steve is my favourite character in any media, both of my harringroves are Billy-centric so that's interesting, I would like to understand it.

California Sunset is the first harringrove fanfic I ever started to write and it kinda was born of a mix up of ideas I had. Mainly it is about how Billy tried to find his way through Hawkins and navigate his broken relationship with Max after his suicide attempt that made them leave California. I love this one because it is basically around a concoction of misunderstandings and it's really nice to see Billy and Max heal back to what they used to be in San Diego after Starcourt. This one actually has a different take on Heather which leads to a friendship between Robin and Billy and I love to see a friendship between Robin, Steve and Billy.

To be alive (the title is still not definite) is my favourite work ever. It was inspired by Vaya Con Dios on ao3 and it came from the premise that Billy used to have a lot of queer friends back in California. The first chapters are mainly about Billy's trauma from the Upside Down, his past, his mending relationship with Max and new found chance of becoming friends with Steve, while he has had a crush on him ever since Halloween. Towards the middle of it, it will gravitate to be heavily about the Aids epidemic and Billy's traumas from California. I love this one because I'm really putting my soul onto it, I decided that I would finish before posting anything at all and I already have 27k but I'm still on chapter 4 so. This one has a LOT of Heather and Billy's mom and I really like the way I'm building up his past through the structure (every chapter has 3 parts and on the even ones, the 2nd is always about his past). Also, Steve on this one is a real treat and there is just so much hurt/comfort.

empty walls can't hear you scream, can't see you languish is the only one that is published, it was technically a oneshot but there was still stuff I wanted to write about so. This one is centered mostly around Steve and Robin's friendship post Starcourt and how in one night, Steve lets Robin into his insecurities about love and tells her about his eating disorder. This one is very much an emotional hurt/comfort one and I just love writing about Robin and Steve so it was really lovely to make this one. Still, I want to dive a little bit into Steve's recovery path, so there is at least one more chapter, probably some more.

speak of her over my grave and watch how she brings me back to life is the third part of my series adoration is letting love consume you that started with a Albus Potter/Scorpius Malfoy soulmate!au and this one is about Draco Malfoy and Astoria Greengrass. I started writing it before I stepped away from the HP fandom, but I'm still trying to finish it. Although they are not a fanfic favourite, I really like them and they fit really well into the soulmate!au, especially on the way they shaped Scorpius' view of love. I really like the way this one goes around Draco's blatant depression in year five and six and the anticipated grief that came with finding out that Astoria was cursed. Throughout the series, Scorpius and Draco have a really sweet relationship and this one brings a little more depth into it, especially after Astoria's death. Also, this one has some of my favourite headcanons about the slytherins e.g. french Malfoys, asian Pansy Parkinson and really loving husband and parent Draco so.

That's it! It took me so long to write this bc I wanted to be clear, but really thank you sooooooo much for the ask, this one was probably the best one I've ever got!

#asks #my works #deaif #imjustapoorboi #dave writes

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Playing tw tag game w/ my oc

I haven't been tagged, yet but this looks fun. I've seen people post this from @edda-blattfe and they're pretty honest with their answers, so why not try it, myself. Also, I brought my oc to answer with me (I want to spice it up a bit) Taniya: happy to answer ^-^

~Dire Crowley appears before you~

Question 1: Welcome to Night Raven College! Did you enjoy the trip here?

Me: i don't know how did i get here but wow

Taniya: hmmm...yes and no

Me: why?

Taniya: if you were me, you know why -_-

Question 2: Wonderful! All students here must choose one of the seven dormitories to reside in during the school year. Which one do you choose? Why?

Me: I’m mostly interested in Ignihyde because of technologies and stuff

Taniya: look at my ears and tails, it’s obvious I’m from savanaclaw

Question 3: Now that you’re officially a student, what would you like to learn first?

Me: history about magic, I luv magic

Taniya: LEVITATION! SO I CAN USE IT TO CRUSH MY EMEMIES BY LIFTING A GIANT OBJECT AND THROW AT THEIR FACES!!! *gives out a cute evil laugh*

Me: 0_0'

Taniya: also I can easily get things from up high since that I'm short and I can easily clean my messy dorm room just like one of the movies *smiles*

Question 4: I’ll leave you to settle in now. Before I go, do you have any questions about the college?

Me: one question, *fangirling scream* why did you accept hot guys in your college?

Taniya: is there a potion for making me taller? 0w0

~Crowley out~ 

Taniya: hey! I’m talking here!

Question 5: Which dormitory leader are you excited to meet? Why?

Me: ALL BECAUSE THEY'RE SO HOT!!!

Taniya: I'm fine with everyone *whispers* except Leona and Azul

Question 6: Azul offers you the chance to fulfill your heart’s desire. What is it, and do you accept?

Taniya: don't you dare go near with that sea demon

Me: why? he's going to make my wish come true

Taniya: yeah but I'm warning you that guy is bad news

Me: just because you hate fish, doesn't mean you hate him, as well. Also, what about you? do you want something in your heart's desire?

Taniya: of course not! I won't make deals with someone who can impossibly grants people's wish and I still don't trust him, especially the twins

Question 7: Which of the boys are you friends with? Why?

Me: of course, Taniya!, ortho, ace, and kalim are cool to hangout

Taniya: most of my friends are Leona, Ruggie, Jack since we lived at the same dorm and the rest are ortho, idia, trey, kalim, lilia, and silver because they're ok to talk to

Taniya: aww

Me: ur welcome~

Question 8: C’mon, we all know everyone at the school is attractive. Is there someone (or more) you’re crushing on?

Me: WELL DUH! EVERY BOYS ARE ATTRACTIVE! and *looks at Taniya with a smirky face*

Taniya: what?

Me: is there someone you have a crush on?

Taniya: me? nah I'm not interested with guys

Me: ohohoh but there is and I know who~

Taniya: oh yeah tell me

Me: it’s obvious you two are like almost a couple but you just don’t realized it. He’s tall, cunning, handsome face and he's a third year

Taniya: dude every third year are tall, cunning, and handsome

Me: but you know him, right? you're always with him whenever he needs you *smiles*

Taniya: I’ve been hanging out with bunch of guys in my life and even if I do, none of them are my type but what you're refering to....

Me: *waiting for her to realize it’s Leona*

Taniya: hmm....nope doesn't ring my bell

Me: girl you need to learn more about love life

Taniya: no thanks

Question 9: The hallways are a terrifying place to be after hours. Who’s the last person you wanna be out there with?

Me: ready?

Taniya: ok

Me & Taniya: 1, 2, 3...GHOST!!!

Me: nailed it

Question 10: Would you rather listen to Jamil’s puns, work at the Mostro Cafe with Jade and Floyd, or clean the dungeons with Lilia?

Me: I'm fine with Jamil's puns

Taniya: I'll just go help cleaning the dungeon with Lilia

Question 11: Everyone loves karaoke night at the Cafe! Do you sing? If so, which song would be your go to?

Me: yeah I can sing but I don't know which song that fits me, I guess It'll Be Alright by Cody Francis

Taniya: I can sing as well and the song I would sing is Faster Car by Anders Lystell.....wait a minute! since when did the Cafe have karaoke?

Question 12: Riddle invites you to a tea party with the rest of Heartslabyul. Do you attend?

Me: yes, I love tea parties

Taniya: me too, so we don't have to get our heads cut

Me: oh yeah....

Question 13: Choose a champion!

Me: I know who's a champion

Taniya: same here

Both: ME!!! *looks at eachother*

Taniya: actually we're the champions

Question 14: Favorite headcanon(s)?

Me: I don't have a favorite but I like all of it

Taniya: canons x self-insert/oc's

Question 15: Unpopular opinion?

Both: nope/nada

Question 16: You forgot to send Maleus an invitation. Your survival plan?

Me: pretending I'm not invited either and next time, I will invite him to my "I'M SORRY FOR NOT INVITING YOU" party

Taniya: who's that?

Me: you know that horned guy that lives in the diasomnia and always been forgetten in every invitation.

Taniya: oh that guy, was he in the party, last week?

Me: idk but it's better to not mention about it to Maleus because he might gonna zap you with his spinning wheel staff like a grilled potato

Taniya: .....ok, I'm with your plan

Question 17: Be honest, would you trust Rook to shoot an apple off your head?

Me: ohhh yes, I want to see if he really shoot that apple

Taniya: no, I would probably be dead for 1.5 second -_-;

Question 18: Lilia, Ace, and Kalim invite you to hang out with them. Do you go?

Me: Absolutely

Taniya: eh why not

Question 19: Where is your favorite place to chill on campus?

Me: chilling at the Mostro Cafe while wearing my headphones on

Taniya: outside the campus roof or I could do parkour for fun

Me: ohh can I come?

Taniya: sure, if you know how to climb a high building before

Question 20: Ortho asks if you’ll help him drag Idia out of his room so he won’t skip class. How does that work out?

Me: I would convince him to go out because he’ll miss everything that is going on

Taniya: why not we use Idia’s unfinished vr headset then trick him that you, me, and ortho help fixing his vr and telling that we created an adventure virtual reality game called “NIGHT RAVEN SIMULATOR” for him, as a test subject, to practice interacting with other students. We just have to remove the lenses, make very convincing that everything is just a simulator/game, and lure him out from his room to attend his classes

Me: but what if he notice our trick?

Taniya: don’t worry I’ll tell the other students/teachers that we have to play along with his virtual fantasy and not let Idia to suspect anything and everything that is reality

Me: but what if it fail?

Taniya: *sighs* if it fails, well at least we can do is getting him to experience of going out for one last time

Taniya: at the end of class, we’ll send him back to his room and tell everyone never mentioned about our “getting idia out from his room” plan

Me: ok that really is too much work but that’s actually smart of you

Taniya: well it’s that least I can do to help a friend to boost his confidence

Me: aww *hugs her*

Question 21: Who would you rather train with, Jack, Sebek, or Ashton?

Me: is it alright to say none of them?

Taniya: training with Jack, ok but with Ashton, no way

Question 22: You’re locked up in Mr. S’s shoppe after hours, who’s with you?

Me: do I really have to pick? then ace and kamil, we’ll get in trouble in the morning

Taniya: Ruggie, I guess? he’ll help me find a potion that can grow my height

Question 23: Leona fell asleep…again. This time on top of you. You have potions in 15 minutes; what do you do?

Me: I don’t mind sleeping with him, he’s kind of cute and comfy to begin with

Taniya: I’ll gently push him off and draw his face with a permanent marker while he’s asleep. When he wakes up, I’ll pretend nothing happened until someone notice his face

Me: that’s kinda devious

Taniya: that’s what he get for sleeping on me

Question 24: Would you rather go on a magic carpet ride with Kalim, let Vil give you the Pomefiore spa treatment, or play on Azul’s grand piano (with his supervision)?

Me: magic carpet with kalim!

Taniya: a spa treatment would be nice

Me: why don’t you join us?

Taniya: you know I have aerophobia! I won’t go anywhere that involves flying

Me: *whispers* you’re no fun

Taniya: I heard that

Question 25: Grimm feels a little left out. Comfort him?

Me: yes, I’ll give him a stuffed mouse to play with

Taniya: I’ll bring him along with me on a journey

Me: ohh like what?

Taniya: as a dorm assistant, I’ll hire him as my helping buddy to do the work in my dormitory    

Me: that’s nice

Ok that's all you want to see here and wow this is really long. For the tags, I bet almost everyone are already been tagged since I've been posting this kinda late so.... I guess @nerdgod555 , @ocean-water-tea , and @mint-sugar-1121 if anyone wants to do this game just go to @edda-blattfe and you can find that mention tw tag game. Hope u enjoy our crazy journey bye~ 

Taniya: good bye~ *waves her hand* ^-^

#twisted wonderland #oc #Taniya Kalisha #featuring me & my oc #man this is fing long

[imitationpersonne]

8, 11, 13 Because I know the answers to a lot of the other ones already

AND @stonecoated said: 11

(Roleplaying Habits Questions)

8. How does tiredness affect your writing?

Hmm. I tend to not write if I’m feeling tired, to be honest. I have five million excuses for not writing, and that happens to be one of them. But if I had inspiration earlier and am in the middle of the post, I really hate to leave it unfinished, so if I get tired, sometimes I go ahead and be such a hardy lil’ champ and try to power through it. In my experience, being tired makes me lose enthusiasm, and a loss of enthusiasm means loss of inspiration. So I’d say in general if I’m trying to write tired, what I wrote is never going to feel right, no matter how hard I try to fix it, and I would say I come out with sub-par work. Stuff that isn’t interesting or doesn’t feel as IC. I try not to complain too openly about what I write, because it just makes others’ opinions of my writing worse, too, but it’s hard for me to not be hyper-critical of myself. What I’m saying is, maybe nobody notices when I write a crappier post than usual, and it’s all in my head, but. I just really want to write posts I feel good about, so writing tired probably isn’t the best idea if I can avoid it.

11. When you are writing a reply, how much ahead in the thread do you plan?

Almost not at all, actually? Like maybe I have a few potential ideas of how to respond if my partner writes their muse’s response a certain way, but overall I find I am much less motivated to continue a thread if I already have a good idea of how it’s going to go, even if I absolutely love it. Did you know Leonardo DaVinci repeatedly got in trouble for not finishing his art pieces? Because he already envisioned what it was like completed, and that was what satisfied him, so he got restless and wanted to move on. It’s pretty much that feeling (except instead of restless, I’m just lazy). Did I just compare myself to the quintessential Renaissance Man? Yes, I did.

13. Does writing roleplay things in public spaces make you uncomfortable?

It depends on certain circumstances. Is my screen visible to other people. If yes, then I will absolutely not write anything at all, whatsoever, nope. I am hugely neurotic about people watching my screen as I use my computer. My paranoia for being judged/embarrassed is kind of out of control. If they can’t see my screen but they’re talking to me, or even if there’s a lot of chaos around me, it’ll probably be too hard to concentrate very much. I’m very particular about the feeling of the space I’m in when I’m doing my various hobbies on the computer. Even if I’m downstairs on my laptop, I’ll feel more out of sorts, less comfortable, and more distracted. So trying to write good posts in a public place (and not in my comfy recliner in my room with my big screen TV for a monitor on my desk) can be pretty hard. But! There have been times, after I got comfortable with being on my laptop at school with hours between classes, with people around but not being disturbing, where I got some writing and various internetting done, and I find it hilarious how my face will tend to be really expressive when thinking or experiencing other posts. Imagine, a person just sitting there, making faces at their computer and having a grand ol’ time. Somehow that doesn’t embarrass me, LOL!

#I've been having depressions lately so I'ma be a downer lol #OOC #asks #galaxythixf #stonecoated

[utimagines]

Unfinished Fic #3

Ok this one I started AGGEEEESSSSS ago but haven’t touched in so long. It’s the longest one I’ve posted today. Basically, reader falls into the underground but finds out something surprising!

tw: sexual assault/rape (not graphic but it’s there)

- Mod Erica

You’ve been underground for what seems a while now. You haven’t exactly been keeping track of time with the whole, everyone trying to kill you thing. It got better though. You befriended Papyrus quickly after leaving Toriel in the ruins. You even managed to be friendly with Sans at the beginning, now finding yourself great friends with him (and even wanting to be more than friends with him). Undyne and Alphys quickly became your friends without violence but with a lot of persuasion from Papyrus.

Now though, you find yourself sitting around the skeleton brothers kitchen table having a fun lunch time with them. You’ve been staying with them since you befriended Undyne since you couldn’t afford to keep staying at the Inn. You didn’t mind though, their couch was surprisingly comfy. Sans cracks a joke about lettuce, holding a piece that fell from his sandwich and you snort out a laugh.

“NOOOO! SANS STOP WITH THE PUNS!” Papyrus cries dramatically. You laugh at his cry with Sans and take another bite of your sandwich.

“ya know bro, i think these sans-wiches could use with some ketchup,” Sans winks as he uses his blue magic to summon a bottle of ketchup from the counter and over to him.

You’re about to let out another snort when suddenly the scent of the ketchup hits you. You feel your stomach drop and your face pale. You drop your sandwich to your plate and quickly run to the bathroom, leaving the skeletons confused at the table. You barely pushed the door open in time to empty the contents of your stomach into the toilet bowl. You heave as you vomit everything you’ve eaten in the past 24 hours. You feel a hand on your back and some frantic yelling coming from down the hallway.

“whoa kiddo, you alright?” Sans asks from behind you. He gently pulls your hair from your face as you let out another heave of sickness.

“SANS OH MY GOD WE BROKE THE HUMAN!!” You hear Papyrus yell from down the hall. You shake your head and just gag at the taste in your mouth. You pull your head back from the bowl and lean your head against the seat, reaching over weakly to flush the toilet of your sick. You close your eyes as you feel Sans press a hand to your forehead.

You hear Papyrus enter the bathroom and push Sans to the side, replacing Sans’s smaller hand with his own larger, gloved one.

“SHE DOESN’T HAVE A FEVER!” Papyrus exclaims. You open your eyes and pull Papyrus’s hand away from your face. You go to stand up but feel two sets of skeletal hands grip you, assisting you up.

“I don’t know what happened sorry guys,” you apologise with a frown. Sans frowns at you, his eyesights low. Papyrus looks concerned and a little bit scared.

“uh, i think you should take it easy for the rest of the day ok? see how you feel.”

And with that, you spent the rest of the day wrapped up on the couch watching MTT with Papyrus. Sans walked in and out of the room, making sure you were ok. You told them you felt fine now, the honest truth, but they wouldn’t accept it. Your mind wandered constantly, what made you sick? You had no clue.

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A week passes and everything seems to be running smoothly. You haven’t thrown up since then although you do feel a little bloated. You’re upstairs putting a book you were reading back into Papyrus’s room when you hear him talking loudly to someone over the phone.

“HELLO UNDYNE! IT IS I, THE GREAT PAPYRUS! I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW IF YOU AND ALPHYS WOULD LIKE TO JOIN SANS, THE HUMAN AND I FOR DINNER TONIGHT!”

Theres a pause.

“OH I SEE!”

Silence.

“WELL HAVE FUN WITH YOUR TIME OF THE MONTH THEN! I SHALL SAVE YOU SOME SPAGHETTI FOR WHEN YOU’RE FEELING BETTER!”

Time of the month?

Time of the month.

Time. Of. The. Month.

You feel your face drop and your hands barely brush over your stomach before your heart starts beating wildly. You put the book in your hand down and leave Papyrus’s room, cogs turning in your head as you make your way over to Sans’s room. You knock twice on the door.

“who’s there?”

“Sans I need to ask you something it’s urgent,” you say with a slightly shaky voice. Sans obviously gets the fact that you’re not participating in a knock knock joke and opens the door. He looks concerned and reaches forward to you when he sees your face.

“are you feeling sick again? are you going to vomit?” he asks with a panicked tone.

“How long have I been here? Underground that is,” you ask, taking a deep breath. Sans frowns slightly and scratches at his skull, thinking.

“ah, almost three months now, why?”

You let out a curse and shake your head. Sans just looks more confused.

“Do you think you could blip me to Alphys, please. I promise I’ll explain later,” you plead.

“uh, i dunno kiddo, think you could give me a little bit more information?” Sans asks. You take his hand in yours and step a little closer to him.

“Please Sans, I need to see Alphys. I promise I’ll explain everything once I have some details confirmed,” you tell him. Sans must see how desperate you are and nods.

“ok, ok but let me tell paps first,” he says. He releases your hand and you step back so he can leave the room. You follow him downstairs and to the kitchen where Papyrus is beating down a tomato.

“hey paps, i’m gonna take y/n to alphs but we’ll be back for dinner ok?” he says. Papyrus turns and looks at your pale face before nodding.

“OK! I HOPE ALPHYS CAN MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER Y/N!” He says promptly before turning back to the tomatoes. Sans turns around to face you and wraps an arm around your waist. You lean into his body as you both take a step forward and appear out front of Alphys’s doors. The heat of Hotland hits you immediately and you huff slightly. Sans doesn’t release his hold around your waist as you lean forward to knock on the heavy metal doors.

It takes a moment for them to open but Alphys soon appears at the doors, a cup of noodles in her hand.

“O-oh h-hey y/n, Sans, I wasn’t expecting you!” She stutters slightly. She makes way for the two of you to enter and you feel relief at the cooler room.

“Alph I need your help with some stuff,” you say. Alphys’s eyes widen and she looks at Sans who shrugs.

“O-Of c-c-course! What do you need help with?” She asks. You turn to Sans and send him an apologetic look.

“Can you give us a moment Sans? I promise to talk after ok? I’ll call you when I’m done,” you say. Sans frowns but nods, blipping himself out of the room. As soon as he’s gone you turn to Alphys with a look of desperation.

“Alphys do you have any pregnancy tests?”

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Two hours passed and you can barely feel anything around you.

Pregnant. You’re pregnant.

You’re sitting in Alphys’s bathroom, back pressed against the wall staring at the test Alphys made for you. Of course it would be positive. You feel tears sliding down your face as you stare at the positive test. You can hear Alphys pacing outside the door, talking on the phone to Sans.

“S-s-she isn’t coming out! Y-you have t-to come help!” You can faintly hear her say. It takes all of a moment to hear a knock of the bathroom door.

“hey, y/n? let me in please? alph is freaking out out here and tibia honest, so am i,” sans says softly. You stare at the door for a moment before taking a deep breath.

“Doors unlocked,” you say softly. You watch the door open and Sans step in, shutting the door behind him. He takes one look at your face before he’s on the floor with you, pulling you away from the wall and into his lap for a hug. You wrap your arms around him and sob into his jacket collar. He runs a hand up and down your back in a soothing manor, gripping you slightly tighter.

“hey, hey, whats wrong? what happened?” he asks softly. You shake your head and let out another sob into his shoulder.

“hey shhh, it’s ok. whatever it is we’ll work through it,” he coos. You shake your head again, emotions running wild throughout your body. You pull your head back from his shoulder and wipe your face with your hands, the test still being gripped. Sans gently takes the hand with the test in it and you sit back a little, so he can see it.

“whats this?” he asks, trying to figure out the homemade device. You take a deep breath, trying to calm your tears.

“It’s - um.. i-it’s a p-pregnancy test,” you manage to stutter out. As soon as they leave your mouth though, you let out another sob and drop the test onto the ground, covering your face with your hands. Sans pulls you back into his body, letting you cry onto him. He doesn’t say anything, but he holds you tight and rubs your back. You hear the door click open and you just hide your face from the door.

“i’m gonna take her home alph, i’ll update you later ok?” sans says softly. You don’t hear Alphys’s response and just cling to Sans as he teleports you onto a soft surface. He lays you down, still hugging you and just holds you close. You don’t know how long you cry into his body before you pass out.

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When you wake up, your eyes are sore and your throat is dry. Sans is still with you in his bed, arms cradling around you protectively. Your back is to his chest as you spoon under the sheets. You gently roll around in his arms and look over to his sleeping face. He stirs at the movement and blinks a few times before looking at you.

“hey, you ok?” he whispers softly. You shake your head and rub your eyes with a free hand.

“Did I ever tell you how I ended up in the underground?” You ask softly. Sans shakes his head as a negative. You take a deep breath for courage.

“I know most humans fall into the underground but I didn’t fall… I jumped,” you begin. Sans takes a sharp breath of air but you continue to talk before he can interrupt.

“A week before I jumped, I was walking to my car after finishing work. It was late and dark and I didn’t even see them coming,” you pause, Sans’s arms tighten around you, “I don’t know how many there were. They grabbed me and pulled me away from the carpark and into some van. They held me down as they drove away and….” you stop.

“you don’t need to keep going,” sans whispers. You shake your head, you have to tell him.

“They drove away somewhere, I don’t know where and started,” you gulped, “started raping me. I couldn’t fight them off, there were too many of them and - and now I’m-,” you stop talking and let out a sob.

“They dumped me off a while away from my work and I just couldn't bare it. I couldn't deal with what happened so I went to the mountain and just jumped. I didn’t expect to survive, I didn’t expect this,” you cry. Sans hushes you and you hide your face into his bony chest. A long while passes, Sans comforting you as you let out your emotions onto him. When you start to calm you just keep your body pressed against his.

Your chest feels heavy with emotions and the air around was filled with so much tension you could cut it with a knife. Downstairs you can barely hear Papyrus banging around in the kitchen, no doubt stress cooking. Sans runs his fingers through your hair and down your back in a repetitive motion.

“hey y/n?” sans asks softly.

“Yeah?” you whisper back.

“i’m here for you during this ok. i want you to know that you can count on me and i want to help you in any way i can,” he confesses, “paps and i will always be there to help you whenever you need it, and if that means raising a kid then we’ll do it.”

You feel your chest swell with love and you look up at Sans who is looking at you.

“Thankyou so much Sans! That means a lot,” your eyes fill with happier tears and he wipes them away with a light chuckle.

“hey now, no more tears yeah? we’ll work through this i promise,” he caresses your face for a moment before scratching the back of his skull. “wanna go downstairs and tell paps the news? i should probably call alphys and let her know you’re ok.”

You just nod and untangle yourself from his warm body. You sit up slowly to avoid a head rush and stretch your muscles carefully. Sans sits up beside you and reaches over the side of the bed before sitting normally.

“here, you dropped it at alphys’s and i thought you might want it,” he says. He hands you the pregnancy test and you take it with shaky hands, staring at the positive sign. He rubs a hand down your back and you tuck the test into your hoodie pocket. You both stand from the bed and you make your way downstairs, leaving Sans to talk to Alphys in the bedroom. You walk into the kitchen and stand in the doorway, watching Papyrus cook some breakfast spaghetti. You stand at the doorway for a moment, watching him stir the sauce vigorously.

“Hey Paps, can we talk for a second?” you ask, pulling Papyrus out of his cooking frenzy. He turns around to face you, spoon in hand. He drops it onto the counter and walks over to you, pulling you into a hug. You hug around his large frame, feeling comfort in his large bones, then pull away, leading him to sit at the table with you.

“Y/N, You Left Quite Suddenly Yesterday. Are You Ok?” Papyrus says in a surprisingly softer tone than his usual volume. You take a deep breath and put your hand over his.

“Papyrus, there’s something I need to tell you…” you trail off. He moves his chair closer to yours and puts a comforting hand on your shoulder.

“Whatever It Is, I’m Sure We Can Work Through It,” Papyrus whispers gently. You just nod and reach into your pocket to pull out the pregnancy test. You grip it in your hand and look down at it. Papyrus looks at the test confused but before he can speak you break the silence.

“I’m pregnant Paps,” you croak out, more tears swelling up in your eyes. He gasps and you feel some of the tears fall down your face. You feel yourself being pulled onto the taller skeletons lap and you just bury your face into his chest. His arms wrap around you and he strokes your back just like Sans did in the lab. Maybe you’ll be ok with them around.

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9 Weeks

It’s been a week since you found out about the pregnancy and you’re slowly accepting the fact that you’re not alone in this and that Sans and Papyrus are here to help you. You haven’t been back to see Alphys since you found out but now you, Sans and Papyrus are getting ready to go get a check up. You’ve been sick a handful of times since finding out and you could now calm the boys down by saying it was natural. They still worried and you had to give them the bare bones of what morning sickness is and the fact that no, it doesn’t only come in the mornings.

You’re now standing in between the two skeletons on the river persons boat on your way to Hotland. Your head is resting on Sans’s shoulder and Papyrus’s hand is in yours. It’s comforting to you. When you arrive at Hotland it’s a race to get out of the heat as the three, er four, of you walk briskly to Alphys’s front door, Papyrus giving it a hearty knock with his free hand.

The doors open quickly and Alphys lets you all in. She looks a little nervous around you but you give her a smile.

“Hey Alph,” you greet the yellow dinosaur.

“Y-y/n are you feeling ok?” She asks anxiously. You release your hand from Papyrus’s and give her a friendly hug.

“I’m getting better. Is it possible to discuss what’s going to happen in the future because I’m gonna need a doctor,” you ask her.

“O-of course! Let’s go into one of the examination rooms!” Alphys says, leading you all down the all and into a room that looks a lot like a doctors office. Theres a table in the centre of the room and a few chairs. You can see various posters and notes hanging on the walls and some monster medical books in a pile on the table. You all take a seat and Alphys pulls out a note pad and pen from seemingly no where. Sans sits beside you as Papyrus sits opposite you.

“How much do you know about human pregnancies?” You ask Alphys.

“Nothing, the only exposure to humans prior to you were children,” Alphys admits.

“Well, I suppose I’ll tell you what I know then. A human pregnancy lasts 9 months and moves through three stages called trimesters,” you begin to explain. Alphys writes this down on her note pad before speaking.

“Um, if you don’t mind telling us, how does a human become pregnant? I know it’s different to the way monsters um reproduce,” Alphys asks with a flush. Sans rests a hand on your shoulder comfortingly and you try and suppress the memories of your attack.

“Um, well for humans it takes a man and a woman to have a child. A woman goes through a monthly cycle where we release a microscopic egg into our uterus ready to be um, fertilised by a males sperm,” you blush.

“How does this fertilisation take place?” Alphys asks as she writes down more notes.

“Um, sex. For a female to get pregnant she has to be um…” you flush and look away from Papyrus and Sans gaze, “she has to be ejaculated in since sperm, which is what fertilises the egg which then creates the foetus, is found in their semen.”

You look up and see both Papyrus’s and Sans’s faces blushing. Sans’s hand on your shoulder does give you a reassuring squeeze.

“What happens if the egg in the uterus isn’t fertilised?” Alphys asks, pushing her glasses up her nose.

“Well when girls start puberty this cycle starts to happen and we get what is called periods. It’s a menstruation cycle that happens roughly every 28 days. If the egg isn’t fertilised within this time span the lining of the uterus and the egg is excreted and a new lining egg is released,” you explain.

“how is it excreted?” Sans asks, looking interested. You groan and cover your face embarrassed. You can’t believe you’re giving the period talk to three monsters.

“Um we bleed it out through our um, lady bits. We have sanitary items to help with the process,” you are met with gasps. You just flush and continue to speak.

“Me missing my period was one of the reasons I asked you to make the test, I should have had two periods whilst being down here but honestly I forgot since time got away from me,” you admit.

“so that’s why ya asked me how long you’ve been here,” Sans realises. You nod and watch as Alphys scribbles down some more writing, having to flip over to a new sheet of paper.

“How long do periods usually last?” She asks.

“Anywhere from 2 to 7 days,” you answer.

“C-continue with how the pregnancy works please,” Alphys asks, now in full scientist mode.

“Ok so as I said a human pregnancy takes 9 months, or 42 weeks to be specific. The baby grows in my uterus over this time and my body gets bigger to accommodate for them. There’s a lot of factors that go into creating a baby and I’ll experience morning sickness, mood swings, cravings and just a bunch more weird stuff. Um, the end of the pregnancy is the part I’m nervous for though,” you explain.

“WHAT HAPPENS AT THE END?” Papyrus asks worried.

“Well, I have to give birth to the baby and it’s gonna be very painful,” you answer him, “When I go into labour at around the 42 week mark, the amniotic sack that holds the baby in the uterus will break and I’ll start getting contractions. They’ll be very painful and if I’m anything like my mother, they will take a long time. Usually you get strong pain killers at the hospital which is what I’m really hoping you can help me with there Alph.”

“Of course! I-I’ll do anything I can to help! Now the birthing process, how does it happen?” She asks.

“Well, I have to push the baby out of my um lady bits,” you wince. You rest your hands on your stomach and look up to the ceiling. The labour isn’t something that you’re looking forward to.

“WHAT!”

“what”

“How does that even work?” Alphys asks, writing notes more frantically now.

“Listen, female genitalia are built for this kinda thing. During labour it’ll stretch and it’ll stretch even more while delivering the baby. There is always the risk of um, tearing, down there but lets hope there isn’t,” you pause to wince at the thought, “anyway, the baby will come out head first and will have his umbilical cord attached to them, which will need to be removed but we’ll get to that later. After they’re out I’ll have to deliver the placenta which is what essentially gives nourishment to the baby in the womb,” you explain.

Theres a stunned silence in the room as Alphys scribbles down more and more notes. You get the feeling that monster pregnancies involve a lot less pain.

“no wonder you’re scared holy fucking shit,” sans curses, mulling over the information.

“LANGUAGE SANS! BUT I AGREE, THIS DOES SEEM VERY EXTREME,” Papyrus cringes.

“Yeah, plus after the baby is delivered I’ll get a period that lasts for a month afterwards,” you tack on, grimacing at the thought. Sans and Papyrus wince and you just nod with them. Sans takes you hand in his and laces his fingers with yours.

“we’re gonna help you through all that ok? you’re not gonna have to do it alone,” he says seriously.

“THAT’S RIGHT! WHATEVER YOU NEED, WE’LL HELP YOU!”

The rest of the day is spent with more in-depth pregnancy discussions. You give Alphys all the information you know that you learned in health class and she asks a lot of questions back. She takes a break from the discussion to take your vitals and to take your height, weight and measurements around your waist. As she takes your details you have a passing moment of wishing that Toriel was here to help you.

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10 Weeks

Another week has passed and Alphys had managed to find a textbook in the dump about human medicine. It luckily had a chapter in there about pregnancy and she has been studying it non-stop. You on the other hand, are currently laying down on the couch in the skeletons home, staring at your fingers. You’ve noticed that your hair had started growing a lot more recently and your fingernails have been growing as well at an impressive pace. You figured this was one of the side effects and you begin to let your mind wander.

Would your baby be a girl or a boy? What would they look like? You hoped they looked like you and not like…. whoever the father is. You’re brought out of your thoughts to the sound of the front door slamming open and two loud voices walking in. You see Papyrus standing there with Undyne, the two of them shedding their snow clothes before walking fully into the house. You go to push yourself up into a sitting position and you quickly feel skeletal hands helping you sit up. You give Papyrus a thankful smile even though you haven’t grown a belly yet.

“Hey punk! Haven’t seen you in a while! Too scared to face me again? FUHUHU!” Undyne greets with a loud laugh. You laugh with her and gesture for her to sit down next to you.

“Yeah it has been a while, um actually I need to tell you something but you have to promise me to not tell the king ok?” you ask her nervously. She sits down next to you and Papyrus takes up the free space on the couch. Undyne’s expression turns serious and she sits up straighter.

“It depends on what it is punk,” she says honestly. You sigh and feel a reassuring pat on the back from Papyrus.

“Well, I’m pregnant and I would really appreciate if the king didn’t find out becausehestillwantstokillmeand-,” you’re cut off from your rambling by a hand covering your mouth. Undyne has a large grin covering her face and a bright spark in her eye.

“SERIOUSLY! YOU’RE PREGNANT!?” She yells. You nod behind her hand and she lets out a scream.

“NGGGGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA”

You flinch at the sound but laugh as when she finishes screaming. She grabs your hands in hers and looks at you intently.

“So when are you laying the egg?”

********

After a while of giving Undyne the run down of how human pregnancy works she turns to you with a serious expression. Papyrus had long since left the room to make a meal for the group of you and you wonder if she held back for this moment.

“So if you get pregnant with sex, does that mean you have a boyfriend on the surface waiting for you?” She asks seriously.

“No, I um, god,” you feel yourself get emotional and tears well up in your eyes, “I was um, assaulted sexually before I fell down here and um that’s how I got pregnant,” you confess to Undyne.

She goes silent.

Then she rages.

“WHAT THE FUCK! HOW COULD SOMEONE EVEN DO THAT TO ANOTHER PERSON! HUMANS ARE DISGUSTING, apart from you of course, BUT AGGHHHHHHHHHHH,” she screams, summoning a spear in her anger. Papyrus rushes in from the kitchen and runs over to Undyne. He calms her down and she sits back on the couch. Papyrus excuses himself once more to attend to the cooking.

“I can’t believe you had to go through that, UGH,” Undyne grunts.

“Yeah, humanity’s pretty shit,” you say. Undyne nods with you and the two of you take a quiet moment on the couch.

“I won’t tell King Asgore,” Undyne promises softly.

“Thankyou”

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12 Weeks

More time has passed and you’ve been experiencing pregnancy symptoms in full swing. You’ve found out that you become nauseated at the smell of flowers, but have found a weird craving in crunching on ice cubes. You’ve also found out, much to your dismay, that you’re running to pee what seems like every 20 minutes. Your weekly meetings with Alphys continue to happen and she reveals that she is working on some machines that work like ultrasound machines and other machines that she read about in the text book. She’s also been working on the pain killers for the labour.

You’ve been spending a lot of time with Sans recently. He’s been taking his word seriously and has been by your side every step of the way. The two of you are currently in a booth at Grillbys having a nice afternoon. Sans is sipping on a ketchup bottle and you’ve got a glass of apple juice. The two of you have been joking around and talking about your days.

“so, i don’t think i’ve told ya this but theres this door at the end of snowdin thats perfect for practicing knock knock jokes. anyway, theres this lady on the other side who answered one day and now we just tell knock knock jokes to each other. oh man, you shoulda heard the one she said today it was pure gold,” Sans tells you with a grin.

Door at the end of Snowdin? Could it be… Toriel?

“Wait, you said a lady at the door right? Is it the same door I came out of?” You ask.

“yeah, that door, why? do you know the lady?” he asks. You nod.

“Yeah, it’s Toriel! Do you think we can go there and talk to her? She never answers her phone!” You wait for his response desperately, he seems to be mulling it over.

“i mean, i don’t see why not? i wanna be there with you though,” sans says seriously. You nod and move to slide out of the booth. Sans, somehow, moves faster than you and appears at your side to help you stand. You don’t even have a belly yet but both of the brothers are being very helpful with helping you get up. Sans wraps an arm around your lower back and waves at Grillby as the two of you exit the building.

“i’m just gonna short cut us there, is that ok?” sans asks you. You nod and lean into his body, you feel the buzz of his magic surrounding you and you appear at the door to the ruins. Your heart pounds in your chest and Sans rubs his hand along your back. He takes his other hand and knocks at the door.

“knock knock,” he calls out. It takes a moment before hearing a familiar voice.

“Who’s there?” Toriel says, her voice muffled through the door.

“nana,”

Theres a snort.

“Nana who?”

“nana your business,” sans snorts with the punch line. You hear Toriel’s laughter from behind the door and you bite your lip. You think of a joke and reach forward to knock on the door.

“Knock knock,” you say. Toriel’s laughter dies down and you hear her voice closer to the door.

“Who’s there?” she answers.

“Al,”

“Al who?”

“Al tell you if you open the door,” you finish the joke and lean into Sans. Behind the door is quiet for a short while and you anxiously put a hand over your stomach.

“My child is it really you?” Toriel asks.

“Yeah Tori, it’s me. Can you open the door? I have something I need to tell you,” you ask her. Sans continues to rub your back comfortingly as you wait for the response. Suddenly, the door opens and you gasp happily. You and Sans move out of the way so the door can open up fully, revealing Toriel standing there in her purple gown, arms anxiously fiddling in front of her. You walk away from Sans and stand in front of her.

She opens her arms up to you and you immediately step in to hug her tightly. Her warm body is welcoming from the cold of Snowdin and you can hear her heavy breathing. She rubs at your back and you can feel her crying quietly.

“Don’t cry, I have something I need to tell you. You’re the closest thing I have to a mum down here and I need you through this,” you say, stepping back from the warm embrace.

“What would you like to tell me, my child?” Toriel asks, wiping away tears from her eyes.

“So, a few weeks ago I found out that I’m…,” you take a deep breath, preparing for her reaction, “…pregnant”. Toriel gasps and looks down towards your stomach. You rub at your eyes, willing your unstable emotions to keep their shit together, but alas you feel a stray tear run down your cheek.

“My child… This is wonderful news, is it not?” she asks.

“Um, I don’t know but my emotions are wild at the moment so,” you explain. Sans wipes a tear away from your cheek and stands closer to you.

“you ok? need me to go get you a tissue?” sans asks softly. You shake your head and wipe your face with the back of your hands.

“I’ll be ok, oh! Um, Tori, this is Sans, I’ve been staying with him and his brother,” you explain, realising that this is their first meeting.

“It is wonderful to finally put a face to the voice! Greetings Sans, thank you for watching over y/n like I asked,” Toriel thanks.

Where I want to take the fic

Honestly I abandoned this so long ago that I need to re-read, edit then re-plan. But enjoy what’s there so far!

#mod erica #unfinished fic

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