#w-i-p

[jenrenfieldhandmade]

I feel like we've had too many wednesdays lately...

I've also recently received my Duchess Milianda JSK in the mail and deciced I'd make a cutsew for it.

(Full review hopefully coming soon!)

I have this leftover piece of floral chiffon that would go pretty well with it I think:

I'm trying to draft the pattern myself as I have a specific style in mind:

The style is based on a dirndl blouse, waist-length with front ruching and a rather low neckline, imitating the neckline of the dress.

Will either have a shirring back or a side zip (or both) and either elbow-length puff sleeves or short fluttery sleeves, depending on what I can squeeze out of the fabric.

#handmade #sewing #diy #handmadelolita #lolitafashion #wip #w-i-p #work in progress #work in progress wednesday #jenrenfieldhandmade

[bulbtree]

i actually worked on this sketch since i posted birthday gifts for pau and shad

#w-i-p

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail'' #ah tumblr... #writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" ..... #no.... not really..... #idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing... #this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey. #idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me. #i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

[stuckinapril]

lived my whole life in guilt bc i thought i was responsible for people's feelings. newly realizing that other people are responsible for their feelings and reactions, even if they make it seem like i'm the problem. a lot of the time it really has to do w them and their own emotional regulation. i can't keep thinking i'm not allowed to have space bc of other people's insecurities. like i literally refuse to dim myself. other people are responsible for their feelings just as i'm responsible for mine.

#like i'm always gonna operate from a place of kindness but i've had to deal w so many people who're bad at communication/confrontation #which led me to think i'm the problem #that i deserve to be given the silent treatment or dismissed disregarded belittled etc #that's j not true. i'm far from perfect but i think so few people deserve that kind of reaction. and my biggest revelation is i do not #even if people want to make me think i do / that their reaction is justified / that i'm a burden etc #my biggest problem is i humor people like this for too long bc it's been normalized behavior to me #does this make any sense to anyone. it's the end of the year and i'm reflecting on so many things #p

[kaogens]

static

#vocaloid #hatsune miku #miku hatsune #i live for making her unsettling.. had this concept in my head for a few years now im so happy w how it came out #will be up as a print during my new shop update this month too :P #i havent been updating much on tumblr but im cooking up something good for this months shop update IM EXCITEDDDDDD

[saeiken]

🔆🔆🔆🔆

#pls click for quality :] #one piece #luffy #straw hat luffy #monkey d. luffy #roronoa zoro #zoro #zolu #one piece zoro #animation #my art #was hit w the strong urge to do this and got it done in abt 4 days lol #could spend forever nitpicking it but im not gonna overwork before the semester even starts so its done!! #nothing big but im happy w it and i think its cute :> #drew zoro p differently than i have in the past in this and yknow its ok #i think i like drawing my version better but this one (closer to canon) is p good

[crxmes]

@crxmes

#v a p o r w a v e #grunge #goth #pastel #pastel grunge #robots #digitial #cyberwave #cybercore #weirdcore #oddcore #weirdcore aesthetic #pastel goth #goth goth #goth aesthetic #grunge aesthetic #pastel aesthetic #w e i r d c o r e #butterfly #butterflies #nature #aesthetics #alt #alternative #a e s t h e t i c #retro #retrowave #crxmes #upl

[eternvlsound]

Neon street lights to guide you home

ig: space.ram

#v a p o r w a v e #vaporwave #a e s t h e t i c #vaporwave aesthetic #vaporwave art #aesthetics #dream core #vaporart #art #dream aesthetic #dreamcore #dreamwave #neon lights

[united-under-skyfall]

leverage is so fucking funny. man manages to find the most mentally ill and neurodivergent group of thieves on the market + an even more mentally ill guy whose literal job description was trying to chase all of them, and forces them into a found family speed-run by trying to blow them all up. they lowkey stage a full fucking country wide coup and are like eh 🤷 just another wednesday. this might be a fun place to vacation tho i guess. sophie shows up to her own funeral twice. they're so good at convincing people of their shit that they make a guy's body start reacting to an illness he doesn't have because it isn't real. go completely out on a limb and basically hand this one guy a new password for his computer so they can get into it and he goes with it. parker and hardison have straight up just "fake it 'till you make it"d into the fbi without even attempting to cover their tracks beyond just These Two Guys. half their clients never asked to be their clients and don't know they're their clients, and the other half are random people who find them who fuckin knows how, meanwhile no government agency can track them down without selling their soul to sterling. they make a point to have a dramatic scene w a Big Bad Shadowy Government Guy who doesn't actually get caught or brought to justice or anything telling them he's going to hunt them all down, and in any other show this would probably earn at least a minor arc later on but he literally never shows up again. an entire season finale hinged on a cake and a bunch of clams. they accidentally made eliot a celebrity not once, not twice, but three times. parker blew up her foster parents' house when she was like. nine. and it's hardly a footnote. hardison is just casually an artistic prodigy but it's only ever brought up for the most background of background gags. eliot's biggest beef with parker and hardison for like two and a half seasons is that they won't stop making weird food with lasers and refuse to realize they can't make a decent beer to save their lives. sophie's immediate response to being shot is to call her shooter a wanker. there's a character who has literally killed a man with a mop and they had the audacity to only put her in one episode.

#leverage my beloved <3 #ramble #leverage #i also feel the need to point out that. while yes sophie did show up to her own funeral twice. she also technically was the driver to bring #her own ''corpse'' to wherever interpol was sending it lmfao #re: eliot being made a celeb 3 times bc some people are confused—country singer; baseball player; hockey player #didnt count the knockout job bc i think that was p local focused? could be wrong #re: character who killed a man w a mop = mikel dayan (hitter from the two live crew job) #this post is getting people interested in leverage lets goooooooo #this post has also officially surpassed the number of people i expected to ever know or care about leverage by several thousands #bc even though logically i know it aired as an actual tv show over several years and a lot of people probably saw it #that does not compute in my head #leverage spoilers

[violet-cinderella]

AGAIN

#w-i-p #aaaaaaaa its turning out so decent im excited

[soracities]

i dont know how else to put this but to approach books (or any media, really) solely for the sake of relatability is genuinely incredibly heartbreaking......to have such little (or such unwilling) imaginative scope that you cannot stretch yourself, even marginally, in a different direction to what you’ve known or are used to knowing when the very POINT of stories is to transport you somewhere else, into someone else, so you can do just that........when fran lebowiz said a book “is supposed to be a door!” and george saunders said good prose “is like empathy training wheels” they were right!!! they were so so so SO absolutely entirely right!!!!!

#thinking about that last post still and i'm having so many thoughts #that people have relatability as the sole criterion is astonishing to me #like how else are you going to develop variegated textures in your relationships w others? #not to be dramatic but it seems like a little death to me. truly. #everything i read as a child and teenager was expressly something as different from my world as possible. bc i wanted to relate as something #other than me #once again it is. heartbreaking #truly it is #p #book talks #idir lúibíní

[jenrenfieldhandmade]

Just a small w-i-p this week:

The world's weirdest bonnet?!

That's possibly because the pattern is actually for a vintage sun hat! the pattern is by Mary Nishimuta.

This is what the finished product should look like:

(source)

These things are awesome! They are reversible (although mine won't be) and can be stored flat or rolled up! A convenience you don't get with regular lolita bonnets!

So I really couldn't stop thinking about turning this into a lolita-style bonnet so that's what I'm trying to do.

Luckily this dress still needed a bonnet (and I had all the materials for that on hand):

#handmade #sewing #diy #handmadelolita #classiclolita #lolitafashion #w-i-p #wip #work in progress #work in progress wednesday #jenrenfieldhandmade

[pintsofguinnesmakeyoustrong]

NPMD best line deliveries

oh shit! oh fuck!! i didnt think thered be a skele'uhn here ?!? im so fucking scared of skele'uhnz!!!

dont frighten him pokey you nasssssty boy

were going to jail...and with my luck no one will even B O T H E R making me their bitch...

🐦 heyus the thing about a bãrbĕqüe...it brings folks together...from awl wawlks of laife...theyres a storhé behand everyh burrghurr...everyh kehbahhb...

but I...called God a sonofa B word...who am iaieEUGHAHuhuuuh...

#honourable mention FUCK YOU CLIVESDALE GO GET FUCKED YOU'RE FUCKING LOSERS AND WE'LL KILL YOU #and ofc W E D O N T G I V E A S H I T A B O U T Y O U R P H O N E #nerdy prudes must die #npmd #starkid #starkid npmd #hatchetfield #hatchetverse #hatchetfield trilogy #tgwdlm #black friday #lords in black #max jagerman #peter spankoffski #grace chasity #richie lipschitz #ruth fleming #steph lauter #nick lang #matt lang #jeff blim #will branner #lauren lopez #jon matteson #mariah rose faith casillas #joey ritcher #kim whalen #angela giarratana #corey dorris #curt mega

[critai]

4321

#kagerou project #kagepro #mary kozakura #kano shuuya #kido tsubomi #seto kousuke #my art #critai mine #WAUGHHDH !!!!!!! #happy 15th from the jst timezone #IM NOT DONE YET I SITLL HAVE 2 DRAW AYANO #bro this file crashed sm times AUGHDHH #edit: WAGH I FOUND OUT THIS WENT ON THE RADAR WTF #i remember when i first posted this i didnt have time to explain the comp process for this 1 and not that it was anything big just #felt like i had to explain kano's framing bc it does look wonky #p much that it's actually the outline of the yobanashi graffiti title in his mv :-) !!! #not sum fucked up hole lol #everything else i think it's p self explanatory www was abt to do mekakushi code for kido but i felt like shissou word highlighted her #character more so i went w that..!!! #and originally i was to draw mary as a separate piece and have the meka trio in another but i didnt have time... #which is fine bc sidu did the same thing in their art book also LMAO #mary's og concept was also the curtain idea but behind her would've ben her mom + maybe seto (imagination forest stuff) #thank u for the nice tags :"-DDD

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !! #& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

[tangledinink]

so you should go vote to tie the gemini w/ @cupcakeslushie's feral!leo because i think they'd be friends, actually, and here's why-

the gems spend most of their time fighting in the nexus, slamming on the 'survival instinct' button, which happens to be right next to the 'animal instinct' button. as a result, they are far more Creechur than their typical posh personas would have you believe. so they got 🤝 solidarity

... so long as no one else is around to see, i mean.

#well either they'll be friends or they'll bite each other #one of the two #i just think they'd get along shOCKINGLY well to everyone around thems surprise #and i think its funny #check the replies to see who needs votes atm p plz u _ u #tmnt au competition #propaganda #also uhmmm cupcake and i are BESTIES so you shouldnt make us fight u w u obvs #rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt disaster twins