#what am I telling u

[carbonateds-oda]

I feel the need to tell you that, every so often, your "voice" pops into my head. I don't know how to explain it. It's like I can hear it. I CAN'T EXPLAIN IT 😭

sorry I’m new to astral projecting I was just trying to ask u for directions

#ok no but fr this is so funny to me #like wdym you hear my voice 😭 #what am I telling u #and more importantly what do I sound like I’m curious #candy box

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!! #my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her) #hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet. #i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!! #i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art. #i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

[warriorrazor]

“It feels… weird though… having a funeral for someone not even real…”

“Hey, this whole circus is weird. Besides, he’s real to you. So he’s just as real to us as well.”

#can u tell I am not over gummigoo #I may not be for the rest of the series tbh #but y’know what if him becoming confetti paves the way for some amazing found family #I will come to terms w it #the amazing digital circus #tadc #tadc Pomni #tadc Ragatha #tadc gummigoo #Ragapom #Buttonblossom #jesterdoll #pomni x ragatha #pomni #Ragatha #gummigoo #tadc spoilers #the amazing digital circus spoilers

[puppyeared]

What did they do to you

#first image is botw and second image is totk #this did confirm my hunch that Link kind of.. matured? got more formal?? #I noticed his dialogue options in totk are shorter and more formal compared to the funny ones in botw :( #it’s a very subtle change. he is a little silly sometimes when he says stuff like saying ‘I am indeed’ when a kid asked if he was a voe #or a very enthusiastic ‘nope!’ when asked if he used a sand seal to get to Gerudo town #anyway don’t mind me I’m rummaging thru my notes and screen recordings because I’m chewing on this fucker like he’s a chew toy #It makes me wonder if this is him falling back into his persona from pre calamity #but he already went thru botw with amnesia and he doesn’t need to be as stiff anymore.. if anything he’s more relaxed abt it #tell me what u think #botw #totk spoilers #tears of the kindom spoilers #tears of the kingdom #totk #legend of Zelda #loz #yapping

[obsob]

beloved!!!

#neither of these characters r women >:3 #mine #fan art #rote #fitz and the fool #fitzloved #realm of the elderlings #i was screaming reading golden fool let me tell you that. 'you thought i was bringing you flowers?' fitz what if i bit you #i am on . fools fate now. oh dear #after this im gonna. wait a long time before reading fitz and fool trilogy...good lord #also. u would not believe the amount of GRIEF. this drawing gave me. ive been staring at colour variations for like an hour #th pose is based off an Artus Scheiner drawing i saw n was like. thats fitzloved #i hvent read liveship traders i know i know. smite me down. listen. i dont care for boats i really dont. #i started reading it n was like i dont respect any of these people and then. stopped skdfbsdk #anyway. why is it 30 degrees. relax. its cooler next week thank god. this better b th last of th heat or im gna start biting

[sleyu]

omg i wouls sell my soul for more mean bf sirius with corruption kink💔💔💔

mean bf sirius who introduces you to the marauders and lets remus and james fondle ur tits and ass whenever they want, patting your cheek when u look up at him with those maddening—thoughtless doe eyes :(

“they just really like you, puppy”

or or or waking up to the marauders low groans and the tip of their cocks slapping against your naked body and face, sirius laughing breathlessly at how flustered and helpless u look :(

“this is what good girls do, pretty. just lay there n look dumb for us, yeah? helps us cum faster,”

#cw dubcon #is it rlly mean bf sirius without him wanting to preserve ur innocence #he tells u all these lies about ‘love’ and ‘this is just what family does stupid!!!’ #rlly he just wants to condition u into being his plaint pretty doll 24/7 #need him #even tho this is shit why am i still moaning #sirius black smut #remus lupin smut #james potter smut #poly!marauders smut #poly!marauders #sirius black x reader #mean bf! sirius

[justaboutsnapped]

thinks long and hard about this

#yes i did pick back up gif-making just for this #i am abnormal about the little squeeze. mr. “mind games” what were u thinking at this exact moment pray tell #nico rosberg #michael schumacher #ami's gifs #f1 edit #*mine: gifs

[findafight]

Robin chose Steve. Robin made the conscious and deliberate decision that she could and would trust Steve. She already liked him! She had fun working and bantering with him! They were already on their way to being weird little bffs and the torture just expedited the process. Steve chose Robin just the same! He thinks she's fun and cool and likes her so much! He chose to be honest and open with her too, putting himself out there.

Even though their interests on the surface level don't match why wouldn't they share them? Steve clearly caves when Robin wants to watch a movie he doesn't think he'll like, Robin can watch a March madness game or five.

Stop trying to take away their bond oh my god people can be close to more than one person!!! Their best friend doesn't have to be dismissive or mean or whatever in order for a romance to be special to them!

#if i have to see another fic or whatever that makes it seem like robin doesnt give a shit about what steve likes and talkes about im going #to scream and maybe even rampage #its nice to sit down and have someone who knows explain who the players are and what the stakes for this particular game!! #just because yall seem to not think anyone can be nutral towards sports doesnt mean people aren't #literally why is it so hard to believe robin would like to hear steve talk as much as steve likes to hear her talk #i am so close to telling some steddie shippers to not look at steve or robin or their friendship because some of yall do Not get it. #its like you can see them go 'have to make sure eddie is the most perfect specialest boy for steve...well that means robin doesn't Get Him ' #or 'robin ignores him/dismisses his interests/isnt told everything happening in his life' like okay dont ever touch them again thanks #robin is steves specialest sunshine cupcake goober girl. steve is robins bestest happy times sweet funnyman. dont u dare take that away. #omce again tsgs longer than the post but ah well. #stobin #platonic stobin #robin buckley #steve harrington #stranger things #finda's rambles #steve and robin #this is a scheduled post just to jazz things up i guess #but seriously some of yall need to STOP MESSIGN WITH STOBIN

[ria-starstruck]

actually, this is why the vessels don't have mouths

from this:

#sorry if the caption doesnt make sense i couldnt make it funnier </3 #hollow knight #hollow knight fanart #idk what else to tag this. whatever i didnt even intend to draw it #i drew this in like <30 minutes can u tell. maybe even 20 minutes or something. or could it have been 10...nah surely not. or could it have #yes i am aware this is a case of ''he would not fucking say that'' given that pk made vessels specifically for the sake of ''kill that big #rat'' but uhhhh consider this: your m— #...no....i shan't say it...

[chai-and-cherries]

aftg top three dripping in sex moments™️ no particular order - kevin you-know-i’ve-never-been-skiing day tapping the butt of his racquet on the floor before passing it to his other hand, andrew don’t-nothing-me minyard telling wymack to pick a number and letting the opposing team score that many before absolutely obliterating their offense, neil me-and-kevin-talk-about-your-intricate-and-endless-daddy-issues-all-the-goddamn-time josten telling the king of exy on national fucking television risking the wrath of his father and the fucking japanese yakuza that ‘pity only gets you so many concessions and you used yours up about six insults ago’ bc wHO is doing it like them not a goddamn soul

#can u tell i am feral at the moment #literally #tier character designs #idk what tier #but there’s certainly one #aftg #all for the game #kevin day #neil josten #andrew minyard

[hallowclave]

Small but knowing wxs

#project sekai #tsukasa tenma #emu otori #nene kusanagi #rui kamishiro #wonderlands x showtime #my art #u can tell who got drawn first and who got drawn last that’s all I’m saying #based on their initial unit outfits but with many creative liberties taken #tsukasa was a pain in the ass bc his outfit is boring but I mainly focused on his gay little Diamond belt #originally his costume was darker hence the dark outlines but it didn’t read as his initial costume so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #emu got stripes bc 1 her sock 2 her dress skirt. had to include the orange and red in her hat tho lesbian dress reigns supreme #nene got polka dots bc they’re cute that’s it #& rui I just had fun with #oh their makeup is based on their world link card suits 👍🏻 does not read well w the hair but what can u do #one day I won’t draw super tiny on a canvas that is normal sized and have to do the crop of shame #but it is not today #one day I will also make a serious drawing again probably but I am lazy

[inkskinned]

oh you know it's all latestage capitalism but the thing is. how are you supposed to be a person inside of this. a person trying to be a better version of yourself.

oh, you started working young, which was kind of hard, but it's just the way stuff works sometimes. and it was 2008 and your family couldn't afford heat. but it's fine, you grow a spine and get used to the professional world and besides it was the suburbs we're talking about here, like, your life could have been actually hard, so what if your father lost his job and you can't afford to move or turn the lights back on. and once you start making money, it's good. you keep doing that. because now they're relying on you. so you have to do that.

oh you were in thousands of dollars of debt at 17 years old so that you could go to school, because you have to go to school if you want to get a "real" job. you even did it "right", you worked parttime and attended community college before you transferred to a public school. you were under so many merit scholarships.

which is fine. you pick yourself up and you say like, okay. i graduated college. i'm holding down a job. i'm doing the Adult Thing, which looks and acts like this, according to all the books i've read. you start with the shitty job and then you climb that corporate ladder.

but the shitty job doesn't cover rent and you stretch yourself too-thin so you get sick. good luck with that. the shitty job no longer pays for your meals. everyone asks why you don't just move, but there's nowhere to move to. and with what money are you going to be moving? and then the loans come back, because they were never going to forgive them, because you were 17 and trying to do the right thing, which was stupid. people are now saying you shouldn't have even gone to school.

which is fine. but because you have no other option, so you do the shitty job, and you apply every day for like 5 new ones, and despite the fact everyone says "there's no one who wants to work!" it's actually just that nobody is fucking hiring so you can either work for 13 dollars an hour in the shitty place you know (where at least you have a passingly friendly relationship with the manager) or you can start from scratch again with a different 13 dollars an hour without knowing how much abuse from the new job you'll be taking.

and if you quit you lose your insurance. if you quit you lose your housing. if you quit, you'll be another burnout kid. the lazy ones. these assholes, look at them!

and you come home to a family dinner and you hear from your father the same old thing. how he worked hard at his job and yes it sucked for a while but he was able to provide for the family and then the house and the dog and the rest of barbie's dream vacation. how the insurance did cover some of it. how you just really need to start speaking up more in manager conversations so they know you're a go-getter. you want to tell him - did you know we're actually doing more now hourly than any previous generation? - but you can't remember where you heard that statistic, and you're far too tired for the fucking argument. and then he starts in on his usual bit. where's the house? where's your kids? where's your ambition.

the same job the same money the same hours doesn't do it anymore. the same nose-to-the-grindstone now just shreds your face off. there's no such thing as upwards mobility, not really. and as far as you're aware, the money certainly is not trickling. you do the soulless stupid shit you signed up for because you fucking have to or else you literally risk your life (food, the apartment, the insurance), but it's not getting you anything. you download the stupid "save more" app and you budget and you do every right thing and then the price of eggs is 7 dollars and you say - oh great! another thing i have to fucking worry about now!

and you go to your stupid job and everyone in your father's generation just tells you to be better about being an adult. they have their homes and their savings account and their bailout and they say. well have you tried not drinking starbucks. well your generation just spends too much on clothing. well you might just be too addicted to travelling. and you - because you need the job - you bite your tongue and don't say i am being held prisoner and you're suggesting i stop pacing my cell if i don't like the scenery and you don't say what the fuck do you think i've been doing with my money and you don't say i haven't spent a cent on something nice in literally forever much less coffee you arrogant asshole. you open and close your bank app and check your loans and check your credit score and check fucking zillow and ziprecruiter and apartments.com just one time more. and still they give you that demeaning little grin and say - see, what you need is -

what you need is for your meds to stop being so fucking expensive. what you need is for the housing bubble to explode into dust. what you need is for billionaires to choke on their wealth. what you need is actual help. what you will get is more economic advice from people who are older-and-wiser.

and above you, almost in a glimmer, you can see the wedged smile of your debt getting toothier, wider.

#i hate when people try to tell me i didn't do it right #what should i have done better #i did it ALL the right way #(not that there is a right way) #it's just that others feel comfortable believing that THEY did it the right way and that's how they made money #whereas i must have just committed a sin somewhere in there! i MUST be doing it wrong!!! #and i'm not a victim!!! im simply experiencing consequences! #and im like. where . where. wherewherewherewhere #i graduated top of my class. i was almost the student speaker. #i have always excelled at work and i work hard #i have been working since i was 13 #WHERE !!!!! IS MY FUCKING !!!! MONEY!!!!!! #ps please do not make the assumption i am ablebodied or neurotypical. #i am neither of these things. #it DOES get worse if u are either of those things. so fuckin much #but @ the one anon who was like ''u could be X that would be worse u don't know how lucky u are'' #.... don't i? #do i need to be luckier than someone else #or is it possible we are BOTH victims? #and that we need to work TOGETHER to resolve it #not just wave it off since it COULD be harder for someone else... it can be true we BOTH deserve better

[speakofcompersion]

Still Shining - Taemin

#i love how he extends his dancing into his hands and feet. i mean i know that's what dancing is lol but he's very lyrical with it #not many people are as aware of how ppl see them as he is. he gives so much attention to it you can tell he thinks deeply about it <3 #love my little artist guy~ #also i am Attempting something with the colour changing...but she's a half formed idea. Maybe i'll pull it off better in the future heh~ :) #shinee #taemin #mygifs #speakofgifs #kpop #lee taemin #shinee taemin #STILL SHINING - taemin video #TAEMIN teaser #stillshiningvid #analook #goodnesss~ pls don't thank me for tagging you i feel like i should be thanking you for letting me tag u haha!! <3 (thank u)

[p4nishers]

WHAT DO U MEAJ WE'RE GONNA SEE CROWLEY BEFORE HE FELL WHAT THE ACTUAL FUXK DO U NEAN????!!!

#HUH????!!! #WHY WOULD U TELL ME THIS I CAN'T BE NORMAL ABOUT THIS #WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WHWYA #I AM GONNA CLIMB THE WALLS WHAT IS THIS #good omens #good omens season 2 #good omens season two #ineffable husbands #azicrow #crowley #aziraphale

[undressrehearsal]

something i see people talk about often is adhd paralysis aka when you have things you need to/want to do but it all seems overwhelming and you can't seem to get up off the couch even though ur screaming in your head to just do something

this, basically

what i want to know about it the physical sensation. yes, there's the mental struggle where you are yelling at yourself and berating yourself to do something, anything, but what does it feel like physically? because to me (and i'm not being hyperbolical) it feels like suffocating. if you have ever experienced sleep paralysis, it feels like that: this suffocating weight on me and the overwhelming feeling that I can't even move and it makes it almost hard to breathe.

what does it feel like to you?

#adhd #am i crazy? #i mean i doubt it there are so many ppl w adhd #pls tell me what it feels like to u #and if u have any tips on beating it i'm all ears #actually adhd #adhd problems #neurodivergent #adhd paralysis #personal

[personwholoveschocolate]

people

I have to inform you that everything had went just as we thought it did

kazuki really saw rei and said

his swagless looks and cringe fail personality have captivated me

#buddy daddies #buddy daddy spoilers #rei suwa #kazuki kurusu #guys i dont know how to tell u this but #is any1 else actually terrified about next eps? #bc i surely am #what the fuck buddy daddies i thought u were my nothing-bad-happens-to-me comfort anime and not ill-tear-your-heart-apart comfort anime #i love it tho #my post