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zielshindo · 9 months
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the prince
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that was a wip from march waaa it was almost like the current state but i couldn't finish it and even now it doesn't feel finished but idk...
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synthe4u · 1 month
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The stress was beginning to seep in. Your eyebags becoming more visible by the day. No one could tell you were more tired than the past week.
You were more quiet and less aggressive in your talking. You seem to have lost your spirit in a way, but of course, the man in the mask figured it out.
Ghost eyed you on the other side of the room. You were bobbing your head, nearly falling asleep before being shaken awake by the slight fall of your body.
You were being distracted by the lights and paid no mind to Ghost's wandering eyes.
It wasn't until around 2100 (9:00pm) when he knocked at your door. You weren't asleep yet. Your light was still on.
Opening the door you asked, "Is something wrong?"
You hadn't changed out of uniform and still seemed out of it.
"Why aren't you asleep?"
"Why are you awake?"
You snapped back at him. You weren't in the mood. You've been tolerable all day, no arguments or fights, but it's clear he came to ruin that.
He stared at you in silence. The mask made him more intimidating which caused you to fess up.
You ran your hands through you hair, frowning in disgust at the knots in your hair.
"Just some family problems is all."
"Losing sleep over your family?"
You sighed, "What do you need?"
"Need you to sleep so we could complete this mission."
"I'm not broken, I can still do the mission."
Silence permeated the hall, other than the occasional fizzle from that one light the base swears isn't broken or haunted.
"Can I come in?"
The door widened a foot further, allowing the masked man inside. You didn't understand why you would let him in. You don't let anyone in your room, at least, not for silly matters like this.
He followed you further into your room after shutting the door, and settled on the side of your bed. You didn't have time to question it before you fell.
Collapsing on the spot, Ghost caught you before the ground could do actual damage to your body.
I guess the sleep had caught up to you, just as Ghost had caught you.
Sleep truly is not for the weak. Stay healthy, guys.
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thanK you aIMee | Taylor Swift
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daz4i · 1 year
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wait so chuuya has angel imagery about him in stormbringer. and dazai is referred to as a demon on more than one occasion. and. hold on. wait. I'm going insane. hold on.
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wosemi-sama · 7 days
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Hey !! may i request ageneral dating hc with vbs boys x fem!reader..?
so the reader is apart of an online group (like nightcord) that makes slower paced songs..? like the song pipopipo by seranji poji or perferably the group lamp ? and she plays guitar and sings (also if possible may the reader also work at a small cafe) thx !!
hey nonnie!! hope u enjoy :3 (also i went WAY over the deadline for this im so sorry ashshshs...)
akito shinonome
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This boy is SHOCKED to say the least.
What do you mean you sing??? And you play guitar??? AND you make music online??? Is there anything you can't do?
You never told him at the start of your relationship, and so once he found out he basically became your group's number one fan.
Song premiere? He's there. Cover? He's already in the YouTube waiting room. Merch drop? He's actually refreshed the page countless times, simply to buy a hoodie with your group's logo on it. Song teaser? He's watched it over two hundred times, admiring the pretty visuals, with you in the back of his mind.
Akito though, like he is with most things, would rather explode than admit it.
Akito will bashfully ask if you can sing to him. He just likes your voice, is all. He can't get enough of it.
Will sometimes show up to the café you work at (SPECIFICALLY during your shifts). Akito always asks you for a stack of pancakes and some coffee, just the way he likes it.
Overall, he really loves you and how talented you are.
toya aoyagi
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He's actually heard of your group and their songs even before you started dating. He wasn't a superfan per se, he just enjoyed the music. He discovered it while branching out towards other genres of music that weren't classical. It was interesting to him.
Toya was definitely surprised when you told him. Not complete, utter shock, but it was still slightly surprising to him.
Likes to listen to you playing the guitar. He'll even request songs at times, humming along with each string your fingers strike. Same goes for when you sing, he compliments your voice. He chuckles seeing your face turn red at his words.
Like Akito, Toya enjoys coming to your café during your shifts, but unlike Akito, he's more blunt about it. He just had the urge to see you, you know? He always orders the same coffee anyways, so when you catch a glimpse of his hair at the door, you're already preparing the plain black coffee he always drinks.
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macroglossus · 4 months
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being evaluated for adhd by having one of those full psych evals that last like two hours. scared frightened etc.... last time i took it i lied extensively bc i was 13 and thought they might tell my mommy if i said i had suicidal thoughts. and i still have a habit of lying to therapists bc i'm embarrassed......... AGH idk. what if i take it and they tell me that the reason im Like This is bc im genuinely just weird and shitty and not bc im mentally ill at all. SCARED
#which is dumb bc i have been formally diagnosed with multiple mental illnesses i dont think they can just take it back right?????#this is so stupid and cliche but what if i have been faking it........ all along........ Argh.#when i was in res i was put on adderall (bc the house psych just kind of experimented w meds LMFAO) and i had to go off them after like#two weeks bc it was affecting my appetite in a way i couldnt afford at the time lmao. but i do genuinely feel like it helped during that#time.... which is why i want to go on it again!!!! but im scared theyll just be like nah and i wont be able to take any of my meds anymore#is that crazy. am i being crazy rn. idk i truly do think most of my experiences w school and like. life could be explained by adhd and#when i was a kid they thought i had it but the two meds they tried didnt work for me so they just. kind of gave up#and i was really extremely unable to do school and graduated hs w an insanely low gpa and then dropped out of community college. LMAO. not#that people w adhd cant be good in school i just couldnt make myself do homework and couldnt listen in class bc i was too busy focusing on#listening. if that makes sense#IDK. idk. i know it's become like. a trend to have adhd is the issue and everything is being attributed to having it so im worried that ive#like. accidentally fallen in w that? even though ive thought i had it for forever and everyone has been like girl do you have this. IDK!!!!#idk. idkkkk im just like. genuinely scared. it's not the end of the world if im not diagnosed obviously but that means that#im just like this for no reason at all. and there's no way of helping it bc it's just the way i am. and i actually am just shitty n lazy.#epic. which incidentally is the proper name for how fucking long these tags are my bad. if you read this far sorry for being insane 👍
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iceeericeee · 5 months
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I wonder how many tags i can add on to this
#there must be SOME kind of a limit otherwise posts would get suuuuuuper duper long like is it just 30?#idk but i'm going to find out by simply maxxing out the character limit for each tag and finding out the limit of tags for each post lololo#this is gonna be great. i just have to remember to type without ever using the comma. it shouldn't be too hard right? fuck i almost typed#the comma i'm already bad at this smh my head. also if your still here i commend you. you have a better attention span than i do.#i'm already starting to get bored holy shit this is not happening. i gotta power through this. FOR SCIENCEEEEEEEEEE. or somethinggggggggggg#but fr idk what else to say. maybe just saying that i don't know what to say will be good enough? but does that even count?#I don't even know anymore. ffffffffuck. this is gonna be a while huh? also holy shit if you're still here omg u deserve like. a prize or#something because u definitely didn't have to stay and read all of this bull shit. lololol i typed out bs but decided to just spell the who#thing out just to make it go by faster. i'm so lazy. this is only the nineth tag HOW will i make it to 30. i am sobbing the adhd is adhding#very hard rn. are you still here? bruh this is insane. i have somehow managed to keep ur attention this long and it's just me spouting#absolute balderdash. wait do you know what balderdash even means? i don't care if you do already i'm gonna tell you anyway. balderdash is#basically just another word for nonsense. boom. you learned something new today. balderdash equals nonsense equals this damn post.#why did i decide to do this in the first place. it was a dumb idea. i don't know if i can even keep going. this is only the *counts tags*#it's the 14th tag. we've got a long way to go boys. men. soldiers. comrads. friends. besties peeps. marshmallows.#where was i going with this? oh yeah. trying to max out the limit for tags. dang i almost typed a comma there. i haven't done that since#i think the third or fourth tag. dang that feels like such a long time ago. not for you guys probably. it feels longer because i have to li#type it all out and stuff. so it's definitely gonna feel longer for me. are you still here? good lord don't you have better things to#be doing than reading all of this? we're already on tag number 18. it feels like i should be on the thirtyeth by now. or however it's spell#'toast' you might be wondering 'why are you typing out the names of the numbers instead of say '9' or '5'?' well you see. young one.#this is a strategy i'm using to make each tag slightly longer. even if i don't know how to spell it. it'll make it just a little bit longer#anyway. i got off topic. not that there was ever a topic to begin with. unless it's about making this as long as i can.#which i am apparently good at doing. i guess. are you STILL here? do you seriously have nothing to do? i guess i'm flattered you stayed thi#whole time. instead of reading something else you stayed here. with me. listening to me talk. on the twenty-third tag. oh yeah its tag 23#except now it's tag twenty-four. how crazy is that. this little talk is almost over. only 6 tags away if memory serves right. this's strang#i kind of don't want this to end. but i know it should. after all there is a limit. but all things must come to and end at some point i gue#i'm running out of things to say. it's probably a good thing it's almost over. hahahahah............... but i don't want to go. i don't wan#to leave this post. i've worked so hard on it. and for what. just for it to end. are you still here? yes? good. i'd hate to end this alone.#thank you for indulging me and my craziness. the end is only 2 tags away now. you can go ahead and leave. i'll be okay on my own. really...#...you're still here? i- i don't know what to say. i suppose a toast is in order. perhaps. for this journey. this stupid dumb post i though#would be fun. i'll make it short. it's the last tag after all. this was fun. but i will never do it again. so long as a i live. i'll miss y
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peachyninjago · 2 years
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anyways congratulations to this post for making me create this
this is how my fellow Akita stans can still win
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lfcrobbo · 2 years
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sewis “table”
"Guess the tables have turned a little, eh?" Lewis says, a small, amused smirk playing on his face as he hands Sebastian a glass of water.
Seb takes the glass and chugs down the water. He shoots Lewis a confused look over the edge of the glass.
"Normally I'm the one forgetting my keys and you're the one letting me in," Lewis explains.
It's the middle of the night - 2:42 AM to be exact, at least according to the clock on the microwave. Lewis had woken up roughly ten minutes ago to rapid knocking on the front door, and when he'd opened it he'd been met with the sight of one very drunk roommate.
Sebastian rolls his eyes. "I didn't forget my keys," he says, putting his glass down onto the counter. "I just- I lost them."
Lewis laughs at that, big and bright. "How is that different?"
Seb opens his mouth, and Lewis can tell that he's about to be ambushed with one of Seb's signature rants, that are even worse when he's drunk.
"Never mind," he says quickly, and without really thinking about it he reaches up and covers Seb's mouth with his hand.
Seb's eyebrows shoot up at the sudden contact, his eyes huge and surprised. Lewis' heartbeat picks up, and time seems to slow down just a little.
They're close; Lewis hadn't even realized until now, and he can feel the heat coming from Seb's breath. His thumb is resting just underneath Seb's chin, and he can feel the stubble that's growing there. He has to resist the urge to stroke it.
He tries to shake himself out of it. This is dangerous territory, one he's been actively trying to stay away from for ages now. He blinks, wills himself to remove his hand and step away, put some space between them again.
In the end it's Seb who moves first. He reaches up, circles his fingers around Lewis' wrist and gently tugs it down.
He doesn't push Lewis away, though. In fact, he shuffles closer, his grip on Lewis' wrist tightening.
It's quiet around them, the only sound in the flat being a low, electrical buzzing coming from the fridge and the sound of their breathing. Lewis doesn't dare to close his eyes, too scared to find out what will happen if he does.
Then - a loud crash from outside, a car honking aggressively. It pierces through the weird trance they seem to have found themselves in; Seb's fingers loosen, and Lewis steps away quickly, looking away. He clears his throat, grabs Seb's glass from the counter and moves over to the dishwasher to put it away.
"Who'd you go out with, anyway?" he asks. He doesn't look at Seb. "I thought Daniel and Valtteri were out of town."
A few seconds pass before Seb replies.
"Just - some other friends."
Lewis is about to dig further, eager to get back to some form or normality after whatever that had just been. If he acts like everything is normal then surely everything is. Right? But before he gets the chance to, Seb speaks again.
"How was it with Nico?"
His tone is neutral, if not a little on edge. Lewis flinches a little at the mention og his boyfriend. He hopes Seb doesn't notice.
"Uh, good," he says. He turns around again, leans against the counter and crosses his arms over his chest. "Yeah it was - it was good. We went to some fancy restaurant, it was nice."
Seb nods, his gaze fixed on the floor in front of him. "That's good," he says. He scratches at his chin, and Lewis is reminded of how it had felt against his fingertips just moments ago. "I'm, uh - I'm going to head to bed now, I think."
Lewis nods. "Sure."
He watches as Seb heads out of the kitchen, towards his bedroom door, right next to Lewis'.
Lewis lets out a breath he hadn't realized he was holding.
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kittysherbatsky · 1 year
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I think there are a lot of other people who felt they don't see their dad's flaws when they were little but grew up to slowly see their dad not as great as they used to think
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chibishortdeath · 7 months
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Aaaaaaaaa every year I wanna do the Draculatober but every year I am too stressed out, burnt out, or otherwise to do it (;w; ).
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pepprs · 1 year
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not to be a pain-crazed wild animal. i KNOW i do this every time. but p*riods are so fucking crazy. like my cr*mps are so bad my body is trying to strangle itself but im awake and i need to be at work in 2 hrs and get thru an entire 9 hr workday as if im not in excruciating pain and im gonna bring my heating pad and my p*in r*lief cr*am if you catch my drift (💀) and i’ll need to use them DURING a busy day in which i will not see any other ppl who get periods in person and using them is gonna be a whole awkward thing. like omg. this is not fucking normal lol
#purrs#it is normal obviously. but it’s SO fucking frustrating like omfg the amount of time i lose every single month to being in pain like this#FOR NO REASON and like half the global population has to deal w that and it’s like it’s nothing. idk. despair and suffering and misery#delete later#menstruation tw#the thing that really gets me abt it is how my mom (ik i said i would stop complaining abt her on here but we have been fighting all month#LOL so im giving myself permission) gets so fucking pissed at me and my sister when we’re in too much pain to do chores bc she thinks we’re#being lazy / making excuses and then she compares us to o it brother like.. omg um YOU should know how painful this can be first of all and#second of all why would you even make that comparison when he doesn’t lose a third of his life to his body trying to tear itself apart! lol!#and yes i could work from home or calll out sick but consider: i am mentally illabout not being at work. which * is gonna be on my ass abt w#when they hear me say that bc i know im gonna make a whole awkward big deal abt my heating pad. UGHHHHH embarrassing lmaooooo#like why do people have REGULAR B*DILY F*NCTIONS!!!!! REGULAR!!!!!!! that REGULARLY put them in this amount of pain and we have to just deal#with that like it’s nothing and be discreet about and whatever. ew i sound like um… someone who cares too much abt stuff like this lol but I#im so mad abt it rn like oh my GOD can the pain just not be part of it can we just evolve to get rid of that or put structures in place in a#society for ppl to be more accepting / supporting / whatever of it. please please please please please#(also goes for more than just p*riods btw. like imagine if as a society we had things in place for ppl who are regularly in#chronic ​pain of any kind 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 what a world that would be 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 wow i sure hope it happens in my lifetime 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍)
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shortcakezzzz · 1 year
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HIIIIII
SO UHM IM NOT FULLY RECOVERED YET BUT HAVE SOME DOODLES I DREW ON MY SKETCHBOOK DURING MY RECOVERY:D
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for those who dont know i burned my hand
im okay now.
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corrupted-miii · 9 months
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new theme go brrrrrr (please read the tags)
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tomaytow · 2 years
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everything
— afab reader, angst, established relationship with venti, alternate universe
“i’m sorry, i… i should have told you—“
“it’s okay.”
or: a conversation between two lovers.
“Where are you going?”
[Name] pauses from the doorway. She’s not hearing things, isn’t she? It’s Venti who spoke just now. He’s asking where she’s heading off to, right?
She’s not hallucinating or anything, yeah?
She turns around, her hands still carrying the bags. In the dark, [Name] can see him sitting quietly on the sofa.
(He was waiting.)
[Name] swallows. Her throat feels rough. “I… um. I’m going on a business trip.” The picture frames, her collection of trinkets, and her books that are hiding beneath all the mountain of clothing in one luggage beg to differ. “I’m sorry, I… I should have told you—“
(I wasn’t going to tell you.)
An immediate response. “It’s okay.”
[Name] ducks her head down to the floor. Her heart sinks. Keep it together, she says internally. Do not fall apart. Do not fall apart.
The sofa—the sofa that they bought with their own savings—the sofa that witnessed almost everything (their memories with one another), creaks. Venti stands up, feet padding the fluffy carpets, the wooden floorboards. 
And he stops in front of [Name], to put a hand on her jaw, so they can look each other in the eye.
His emerald eyes are always filled with so much fondness. With so much affection.
(With so much love.)
His emerald eyes always bring great comfort—[Name] won’t be surprised if those eyes hold the wonders of the world.
(And yet.)
“You’ve always been so busy, aren’t you, love?” Venti chuckles innocently. [Name] tries to keep her guard up. “It’s okay, though. I understand what you have been going through, what you have been sacrificing… what you have been doing. But…
“You’re coming back, right?”
The moonlight that’s been peeking through the blinds is suddenly gone. The room is darker. [Name]’s throat constricts and her palms get moist with sweat. The straps of her bags will drop if she won’t tighten her grip.
Don’t shy away from his gaze—don’t avoid contact. Don’t look at his sleeping robe. Focus on his face.
“You’ll be quick, right, Windblume?”
Her eyes start to sting. Windblume, huh. [Name] likes hearing Venti’s voice so much, and for him to even call her an endearing term makes her fall even more.
(But.)
Keep it together. Keep it together.
The bags feel heavy in her hands and [Name] desires to shatter.
And of course, Venti notices her discomfort. He always does. He’s perceptive like that. A worried frown appears from his delicate features, and [Name] wishes to wipe the crease between his brows. 
(But.)
Venti tugs on her sleeve. He seems to be slightly upset from her silence. “…W–Windblume?”
Keep it together. Take deep breaths. You’re doing the right thing. You’re doing it for the greater good.
“Answer me.” It’s a desperate plea. “...Please.”
[Name] shuts her eyelids. Keep it together. She inhales through her nostrils, mentally counts for five seconds, then exhales the weight on her shoulders.
She musters a weak smile, “Of course I will.”
(The weight returns anyway.)
Venti smiles back. It’s a soft and tender one—that’s always reserved for her—for his very special someone.
“Okay.” Venti whispers, satisfied. He strokes her cheek with his thumb gently. “I trust you.”
He leans in for a kiss. His lips meekly meet with hers, as if he’s silently asking for permission. [Name]’s heart squeezes more, and she kisses him back, with much ardor and passion—
—because this is going to be their last, she knows. So she’s going to savor it.
(No matter what.)
Venti elicits a surprised hum, but accepts it all anyway. Venti is never one to back out from [Name]’s touch. Venti always cherishes it whenever [Name] initiates the first move.
However, when Venti encircles his arms around her waist, [Name] figures that she has to go.
So albeit a little hesitant, she withdraws from their kiss—creating a loud smack—and spins hurriedly. She knows Venti is confused. She can hear him murmur another questioning Windblume.
It’s not enough. Venti wants more.
“I–I’m going to be late.” [Name] says.
(Even if there’s no one waiting for her. Even if she can go on her accord, since there’s no appointed schedule. She’s in no rush.)
There’s a light giggle from him. “I see.” [Name] opens her eyes and twists the doorknob. She has to go. She pushes it open, but halfway, Venti says, “See you soon. I love you.”
It takes a moment for [Name] to form a response.
Then, she curtly nods and pushes the door wider.
The cold temperature bites her skin. It’s way more warm in their shared apartment, or in Venti’s arms, but the desire to leave… the desire to go—it’s much stronger.
See you soon.
I love you.
Venti is still staring at her from behind. Expecting. Waiting.
But [Name] walks. And walks. And walks. 
And walks. 
(She doesn’t look back.)
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keeps-ache · 2 years
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i literally deleted this piece by accident so you're seeing the remnants of my work
(different ways to cover the face)
(opaque version below)
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