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meiiie · 4 months

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Hi hope your doing great today :) maybe a dave lizewski x reader period comfort fic? got mine this week and it sucks and i need one with my best nerd <33

omg so sorry i just saw this now anon, but yes of course!

cramps&cuddles — dave lizewski

pairing: boyfriend!dave lizewski x fem!reader

words: 0.6K (I wish I could make this longer, but I've run out of other ideas…)

fluff, comfort :) not proofread

You and Dave decided to have a sleepover after school since your parents goes to a vacation for a day, but your period just had to start at the worst timing. When Dave arrives at your house and sees you what seems to be (physically dying) on your bed, he immediately knows something is wrong

During the past week he’s been too busy being ‘Kickass’, this has been one of the first time in a while since you’ve seen each other, so seeing this sight brings a sudden rush of guilt inside of him. “hey, hey, baby, are you okay?” Dave asks, dropping his school bag with panic, approaching the bed to check your forehead with the back of his hand. “ughhrdhrdhhrfh, no I think I’m dying- oh gosh” you groan while hugging your lower abdomen. “ohmygodohmygodohmygod don’t worry I’m here- what do you need? I- what’s happening. Your forehead isn’t so hot??? What could be the reaso-” while Dave was squirming around your room in hopes of finding something to help with your suffering, you cut him off saying “Dave, don’t stress out omg it’s just that time of the month”

Despite Dave being the huge nerd he is—/that time of the month/ is the only thing he hasn’t researched about. His mom passed away while he was young, so with the amount of knowledge he knows about women… you can tell he was internally panicking. You turn to look away, then when you glance back- POOF, he magically disappears. He’s SPEEDING to the nearest store while on his phone, waht do wpmen need for thst time odf monsht typed while bursting into the store. When safari finally loads, he buys the listed items:

Pads

Tampons

A compress

Your favorite snacks

“wait… pads with wings or without? you know what, I’ll just buy everything” is his mindset while also not thinking of his safety right now because how did bro almost get RAN OVER 4 times in a row. Despite his survival of multiple possible car crashes, he also goes to the nearest market to buy oranges because, according to a website, they help with cramps… or something? At this point, he doesn’t know if any of the items he has bought will help with anything, but he’s just praying you aren’t dead yet by the time he gets back to your house

It’s been roughly about 5-6 minutes, and he SWINGS YOUR DOOR OPEN with an almost burnt meal he made inside your kitchen with any ingredients he could find, hot chocolate, and a bowl of already peeled oranges. (a/n: I know that food combination sounds disgusting, but I’ve had all of that at once in one seating during my period, and it tasted amazing so what can I say) “here hun, I don’t know if any of these helps but how are you feeling so far?” he gently places the set of food on your bedside table, while also settling the hot compress on top of your stomach. He goes to cuddle beside you, caressing your back while handing you paper bags full of all the snacks you love.

“I think I’m feeling a lot better now, thank you so much for this” you say getting comfortable in his embrace, kissing around your forehead from time to time. He looks straight into your eyes, so deep, whispering apologetically “I’m so sorry I wasn’t able to spend this past week with you, I promise to make it up to you.” nuzzling his face into your neck, which makes you feel, warm, like your cramps have suddenly disappeared. “It's okay, please don’t worry too much about it, okay? Plus you’ve already made it up to me, thank you for being here, I mean it.” you both laughing at the sight of how any plastic bags he brought full of at least 15 different versions of pads and tampons. You both hold each other peacefully, while you both feel the breeze from your open window.

“Can you hand me those oranges?”

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lilac-cherie · 1 year

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astrology observations

ppl w pisces venus are the real self-sacrificing martyrs in their relationships to the point that they lose sight of themselves

capricorn sun women are the girlbosses of the zodiac fr

ppl w 6H placements either have problem sleeping or sleep a lot. no in between

i luv my earth moons (esp taurus and virgo) bcs their energy is just *chef’s kiss* they give off such calm, gentle, and warm energy even though they might not be feeling that themselves. the stability they bring <33

i’m sorry but having both gemini AND scorpio in ur big 3 can make u seem like a red flag. if undeveloped, then you really embody what a red flag is in a person. i don’t make the rules 🤧

libra sun women and their randomness 🤝🏻 (guilty for this)

scorpios and their love for the color black

leo moons want attention but selectively (only from our loved ones)

aquarians and their detachment

i believe that if one lacks earth placements or does not have earth houses, they are unstable in some way

#lilac-cherie 2023

#astrology #astrology observations #astrology opinions #astro notes #lilac-cherie

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beanghostprincess · 6 months

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well since you asked so nicely, what are all your straw hats sexuality (and gender identity?) headcanons :D

ps you dont have to explain them all if it's too much for you ^^

I love you so much for this mwah mwah /p I love when people send me asks like this <33

: ̗̀➛ [Luffy] Sexuality: Aspec. I'm very, very specific with this so I would have to write a whole paragraph to explain it well, but I'll try to do it in fewer words. I used to headcanon Luffy as asexual but the demi-sexual headcanon is growing on me. Only sexual with Zoro, though. Like- I ship Luffy with more people but imo he only feels sexually attracted to Zoro. Something something 'the bond between a captain and his first mate'. Romantic attraction: I can see him being demi-romantic (once again only romantic with Zoro. Or Sanji, even) but I personally see their relationship very Aroaspec QPR. Aromantic and Demi-sexual with a very deep bond with his first mate and his cook. Gender: Transmasc. Demi-boy. He/They. I think he, like, resonates more with being a boy but still doesn't fit the binary enough to be one. And transmasc because. Well. Have you seen him?

: ̗̀➛ [Zoro] Sexuality: Homosexual. Gay. The gayest man you've ever seen. I think he's demi-sexual too in the sense that only Luffy or Sanji would make him go insane and aroused, but he would sleep with other men just because. Like fr, just because he can. Idk. Homosexual behavior everywhere. He's so fucking gay. If there was a gay contest between OP characters he would probably win or end up in a tie with Nami, Law, and Kid. Romantic attraction: Demi-romantic. This dude is obsessed with his captain only. First mate things. I seriously believe that being a first mate makes you inherently unable to fall in love with somebody else. Well, perhaps Sanji too, but I'm not that much of a Zosan so I don't think about how they would work. And still, he'd be Demiro anyway. Gender: Transmasc guy because, once again, have you seen him? Dude even has a scar on his chest. Man tits. Love him. He/Him.

: ̗̀➛ [Nami] Sexuality: Graysexual Lesbian. Some might argue with me on this because she has a different girlfriend every arc, but I honestly think that she only feels genuine sexual attraction sometimes and it's not often. Playfully flirting doesn't equal genuine sexual attraction. Romantic attraction: Grayromantic Lesbian. Because, once again, people might not agree with me, but I think she doesn't have crushes often and she falls into more of a romantic gray area. Never with men, though. God forbid. Never with men. That much is clear, I hope. Gender: Demi-girl. She/They. My babygirl. My girlboss. Like I said with Luffy, I think she embraces being a girl but still doesn't fall into that term exactly and doesn't mind They/Them or more androgynous looks/terms at all. In fact, she loves them.

: ̗̀➛ [Usopp] Sexuality: Bisexual. I love him. He be pulling blonde bitches everywhere and by blonde bitches I mean Kaya and Sanji. Something that always makes me and my BFF laugh is the fact that he's canonically very normal about women's bodies, unlike Brook or Sanji or even Franky. Like, he's pretty decent and respectful and he's, well, a normal human being. I appreciate the bare minimum when half of the characters are perverts sometimes. Romantic attraction: Birromantic. Pretty much the same thing I just said. Simple guy. So true, king. Although I like the Demi-romantic headcanon and I think he doesn't really get love at first sight and would be bothered by Sanji's view on this. I think Usopp is somebody who needs intimacy to develop a romantic crush on someone. So, yeah, I also like the demi-romantic thing but this could be just me trying to make everyone Arospec for no reason other than projecting. Gender: Non-binary. He/They but prefers They/Them, he just doesn't expect people to use those pronouns, and it isn't that big of a deal. Also transmasc. I'm obsessed with that, honestly. However, I think he wouldn't use the term Non-binary? I think he'd just use Unlabeled, perhaps.

: ̗̀➛ [Sanji] Sexuality: Bisexual with a high preference for girls. For obvious reasons. Romantic attraction: Birromantic too. He's a hopeless romantic. Believes in love at first sight and everything. Gender: Transfem. Genderfluid. Any pronouns. I love you, Sanji. You're real to me. And I'm not explaining my reasons for these headcanons because watching the show is enough for you to understand this, but between his trauma and Momoiro Island... Like... I know what you are, girly pop. The closet is glass and the egg is hatching and you need to come out. Oda, please, let her ou-

: ̗̀➛ [Chopper] This one's just, like, Chopper. Chopper is Chopper. I don't think about this much. He canonically likes female reindeer. I have nothing else to say. Gender? Little guy. Sexuality? Honestly, if somebody gives him a reindeer boyfriend I support that. So bisexual and birromantic, I guess. I don't know how it works for him. I don't think he cares. It's not that he's too young because he's canonically a teenager already, I just don't think they've encountered enough reindeer for me to form an opinion on this. Why the hell am I writing so much to say something so fucking stupid. I'm sorry. Let's move on.

: ̗̀➛ [Vivi] Sexuality: Demi-sexual Lesbian. I don't think she's ever thought about sex as something she wants or feels attracted to. At least not until Nami shows up. Romantic attraction: Lesbiab. Lebanese. Dyke. Bollera in Spanish. Girl kisser. Woman liker. Homosexual. No men allowed between her legs and her heart. Friend of Ellen, as Annie Edison would say. Gender: I think she's a cis girl. She/Her. Would literally punch violently anyone who misgendered somebody from the crew. My princess. My girlfriend, actually. Her pronouns are loveof/mylife.

: ̗̀➛ [Robin] Sexuality: Bisexual but also probably Graysexual because I don't think she feels attraction often and doesn't really get aroused if it doesn't come with other emotions. Preference for big, and gentle men. By big, gentle men I mean Franky and Jinbe. And by gentle I mean Brook. The four of them together, btw. Romantic attraction: Birromantic. I think she's just, like, vibing. Learning to love. She has so much trauma she deserves to be in a tender relationship and she just happens to be with four men but she knows how to appreciate a woman. Gender: Transfem. She/Her. You know those older trans women who give the most comforting, calm, mature energy in the world? That's Nico Robin. Gonna keep it SFW but she tops Franky 100%. And also helped Sanji with her transition. I love this. Please adopt me, Robin. She's perfect.

: ̗̀➛ [Franky] Sexuality: Bisexual. If a man doesn't know how to appreciate another man's beauty, then he isn't manly enough. Women are perfect. Men are perfect. He's wonderful. I love him. Romantic attraction: Birromantic. I swear to fucking god he has something going on with Jinbe and Brook and Robin. I am so not normal about them- Gender: Cis man but he'd probably consider being a cyborg a third, secret gender, so I'm gonna let him have that too. He/Him.

: ̗̀➛ [Brook] Sexuality: Bisexual classy grandpa. The fact that he's a gentle grandpa has a lot to do with his sexuality (no it doesn't). He might be a pervert around women but at least he supports consent, so, he's better than Sanji here. Romantic attraction: Grayromantic because I feel he doesn't get real crushes easily. Especially since his boyfriend (his former captain) died. The trauma he probably has around romance now, damn. Gender: Hear me out he's the most Unlabeled thing ever. He/They. He's just bones and most people don't even know how to tell the difference between sexes when it comes to bones. Robin is actually the only one who knows his AGAB and she doesn't care anyway, so. Gender norms are bullshit and he's just the Soul King.

: ̗̀➛ [Jinbe] Sexuality: Graysexual and Bi. He's somewhere there in the Ace spectrum. I just don't know where. I think he's, like, not that interested in bodies and sex? He would only have sex with somebody he loves and it wouldn't even be for the arousal and the attraction. Romantic attraction: Demi-romantic, which is not the same as gray. Because I think he'd need, like, to spend time with Robin/Franky/Brook to form a deep bond and then he'd slowly and gently start falling for them individually. I swear I am so normal. Please, they should adopt me. I want the four of them to be my parents. Gender: Cis man. He/Him. Biggest trans supporter in the whole fucking world.

The Going Merry is actually called the Going Liberal and the Thousand Sunny is technically the Theysand Sunny and with the help of their ships the straw hats are trying to find the Woke Piece.

#one piece always saying trans rights #okay you might notice that i'm projecting on most of them but i like aroaspec characters #one piece #strawhat pirates #monkey d. luffy #roronoa zoro #nami #usopp #black leg sanji #tony tony chopper #nefertari vivi #nico robin #franky #brook #jinbe #not gonna tag the ships but yeah it's zolusan/sanuso/namivivi/and whatever the adults of this ship have going on

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alackofghosts · 6 days

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got tagged by tumblr user @fourteenthz (loved reading about thesa, by the way <3)! thank you very much!

— B A S I C S

name: lil guy i'm very shy, don't worry about it

nicknames: none based on his name, as it's quite short already, but will also respond to a fond and/or slightly exasperated "hero"

age: 33 as of 6.55

nameday: 27th sun of the 4th umbral moon

race: rava viera

gender: cis man

orientation: gay

profession: adventurer

— P H Y S I C A L A S P E C T

hair: black, naturally wavy, very thick and soft

eyes: dark brown

skin: warm brown, freckles easily, especially his face

tattoos: none

scars: burn scar on his left shoulder from his fight with ifrit, another burn on his right thigh from nidhogg. a few other scrapes here and there. notable lack of any significant scarring from shb and beyond, because that's how i see astrologian healing working - he feels particularly strange about not having a scar from his fight with zenos in endwalker

— F A M I L Y

parents: he has not been back to his home village, for obvious reasons, so doesn't know - but assumes - his mother is still alive and well; never met his biological dad. but because he showed signs of. however the viera would call/conceptualise the inner beast, one of the women called in a favour with a wood warder who was also a warrior, to take him under his wing to train. said wood warder, however, was wholly at a loss what to do with a child, having never taken in a ward before and decided to seek out an old friend, who had since left the forest. ...long story short, he ends up being raised by an all-viera dalmascan resistance cell, who end up packing up and leaving with him in tow after almost being rooted out by garlean forces. he views most of them as Parental Figures and loves them dearly, even if some of them have scattered into the winds after he left to become an adventurer

siblings: he isn't aware of any biological siblings, but the village took a very communal approach to raising kids, so at the time he definitely felt like the other kids were his siblings, regardless of any blood relations. one of the men in the resistance cell was a 'mere' 30 or so years older than him, so he also counts more as a sibling than anything else in his eyes

grandparents: he has definitely met his maternal grandmother, but as with his mother, he's not been back home and doesn't know if she is still alive (but in all likelihood: yes)

in laws and other: THE TWINS. putting an exact name to what alisaie and alphinaud mean to him would honestly not be Good or Close Enough, but they are absolutely like family to him and a reason to keep on going. he also has a very sibling-like relationship with lyse, who is always ready and willing to match his energy, tag along for workouts and tease the hell out of him

pets: he befriends an amaro hatchling at the crystarium during shadowbringers and during a later visit, her handler notes that she's been looking glum without him around. he loves animals, but his living situation has been far too chaotic after becoming an adventurer to accommodate an animal (that isn't his chocobo, who, at least, is much easier to house) and hasn't felt particularly inclined to change that. but after endwalker, he finds himself actually wanting to change that and has the time to do it... so, with a little bit of help from feo ul, he has a little amaro friend with him now

— S K I L L S

abilities: war + drk + pld and all that that entails. skilled and formidable fighter, good at navigating/strategising through a fight on the fly, quick study (as far as fighting is concerned, anyway)

hobbies: working out (especially running and swimming), hiking, he's been learning to enjoy fishing after endwalker

— T R A I T S

most positive traits: protective, caring, insatiable lust for life

most negative traits: too willing to let other people do the talking for him, impulsive, stubborn

— L I K E S

colours: warm red, gold, the bright green of sunlight filtering through leaves

smells: fresh earth, cinnamon, a meadow in early summer, the savoury smell of the stew one of his dads used to make

textures: soft grass under bare feet, tree bark, skin on skin, the scratch of ardbert's beard

drinks: water, pineapple juice, lemonade

— O T H E R D E T A I L S

smokes: no

drinks: only socially, and even then it's fairly rare. he did drink a little more often as a baby adventurer, mostly because he simply had more opportunities to do so: mingling was useful and it wasn't uncommon to have a rowdy bar night to celebrate a job well done. he is a bit of a lightweight and tends to withdraw when tipsy/drunk, so he actually has more fun when sober

drugs: also no (unless we're counting medicine for this. he won't be refusing painkillers if he's in pain etc.)

mount issuance: his beloved chocobo, who he dotes on very much, especially because it was something of a dream to have when he was just a baby adventurer - he could not have afforded to buy or maintain one at the time

been arrested: he's got in trouble for those rowdy bar nights - he's not the type to start a fight, but if someone were to pick a fight with him or his friends, by gods, he will be finishing it. no serious jail time, more like being hauled off with everyone else involved to sober up until morning, though

#meme tag #i draw sometimes #sjddskjhs i feel a bit nervous

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bikelaned · 3 months

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kendra brainrot fr i love women

i've been trying to be okay with drawing something that doesn't look good because like- it's supposed to be fun

i'm supposed to have fun drawing so unfortunately uhhhhhh quality drop :33 but it's okay bc my artblock is already doing significantly better

#rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rise fanart #rottmnt fanart #rise of tmnt #digital art #rise donnie #rise kendra #art #🚲my art

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chaliyaaa · 2 months

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A little something about me :-

‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾

desi, she/her, minor, INTP , your local overthinker<33　

☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙

My Hobbies :-

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　Writing, reading, sketching, listening to music, daydreaming, crying about my problems

☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙

Fandoms I'm a part of:-

‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾

Taylor Swift, BTS, Percabeth, evajacks, TellaLegend, Jurdan, Scarlian, TristanMorana, BeakHong

☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙

Things I absolutely adore :-

● Kanha (I mean I thought it was obvious 😁)

● Gloomy weather. The weather before a storm? When the sky is dark and there's this strong wind blowing, and everything is so peaceful? Please, I think I'm in love.

● Mountains. I'm nothing if not a mountain person. (Pahado pe jaan basti h meri fr)

● Flowers. What? They're pretty okay?

● Human beings being human. People laughing over something trivial, helping and hyping up each other and being their adorable self? COUNT ME IN.

● My mutuals. EVERY. SINGLE. ONE. OF. THEM.

Movies I'll never tire of watching :-

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Pride and Prejudice, Little women, Jab we met, Sanam teri kasam, Fidaa, Ponniyin selvan

☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙

#hehe yess I finally made a intro post lol

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suffarustuffaru · 11 months

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so @alderamiin said subaru for the ask…. yes your ask was the one i deleted on accident whoops 😭😭 BUT HERE WE GO I MADE SURE TO REMEMBER TO DO YOURS WKDNDN (and i LOVE subaru fr i simply could not skip over him also) (pls expect my usual chaotic rambling im so sorry i really am overusing the caps button 😳😭😭)

Sexuality Headcanon: bisexual 👍 subaru being somewhere on the ace spectrum isnt a super strong headcanon of mine compared to the bisexual hc but i am still fond of it <33 bc i do tend to just hc him as bisexual but i suppose i could kind of see it <33 :DD !!

Gender Headcanon: subaru is literally, as we’ve all discussed, like EVERY letter of lgbtq+ i swear. like natsumi EXPLICITLY being stated to be his ideal self….. what cisgender boy has his ideal version of himself be a woman…. come on….. and hes been like. dressing and trying to pass as a girl for his crossdressing pre-isekai too. like subarus Practiced A Lot at this. subaru clearly enjoys doing this and he was crushed when he couldnt pass bc of his voice pre-isekai :(( AND LIKE subaru and his complex relationship to masculinity and feeling insecure in his own skin like……………… and then natsumi being his ideal self…… natsumi being the Heroine……….. and its like. subaru clearly has a case of “do i want to be them or be With Them” when it comes to men hes attracted to (most notably julius.) so like. it could apply to women too. like. and then the way subaru reacts to felix’s presentation too………. i just think it says a lot. i dont care what tappei says but he wrote all this shit in the text fr!!! and also in general. natsuki subaru being a gender neutral name…. same with natsumi schwartz… so yes genderqueer subaru for the win. i personally hc subaru as genderfluid or bigender!! and also like. subaru being Very LGBTQ+ is so in line with rezero’s themes of self love and self improvement and self discovery and Identity. i think it hits so much harder if subaru Is lgbtq+ versus if he was just insecure straight cis man. like no wonder subaru was struggling Even More. hes so so far in the closet and struggling with like the internal homophobia and shit fr :(((

that and 1. subaru being lgbt is such a great subversion of what you would think when you first meet his character. and also a subversion of ur typical isekai protag which ADDS to rezeros subversion of isekai in general and 2. i love making Certain People mad with these hcs. like its so supported by the text the only thing missing is explicit confirmation. which. i have my doubts with tappei on that but iirc he DID say he nearly wrote a lust if with the guys…. tappei. come on. you already explicitly said that natsumi is subarus ideal self.

A ship I have with said character: im very open to most subaru ships!!! i just love a lot of them—reinsuba, ottosuba, emisuba, remsuba, julisuba… i just like how each kind of dynamic with subaru has so much range like even in just main route alone?? and then you factor in the ifs and it gets So Interesting. theres so much history with each pairing and so much to explore, whether its platonic or romantic. and subaru has a LOT of love in his heart.

i just like each pairing for different reasons hah—like ok ive talked a lot about reinsuba and emisuba already in other asks so. i DO like remsuba okay. not in the sense that i want it to be the endgame ship in main route bc thats very much not happening and i would prefer The Most Detailed emisuba development of all time. which would be more thematically relevant <3 but i DO ADORE remsubas relationship in general. like its so so complicated??? like. yeah theres the conflict in arc 2. theres the conflict in arc 7 with her waking up and being different and being so mean to him about natsumi :((( theres her “youre my hero” versus “youre not a hero” WHICH. URHGHF ITS SO GOOD….. and like yeah remsuba really do be. iffy. in terms of how healthy it is. but its so complicated bc you also have rem being like—she was like the first person, narratively, to be willing to DIE to save subaru the exact way he does for other people (including rem). and then the famous from zero scene in season one which is a MASTERPIECE but i hate how people fixate on “i love emilia” LIKE REM IS HAPPY FOR SUBARU. SHE IS HAPPY AS LONG AS HE IS. EVEN IF HE DOESNT LIKE HER BACK. but also he did like her back romantically for a time. and also of course rem had her fixation on subaru :(( subaru had his own obsession for emilia while rem had hers for subaru pre-being gluttonyed?? :(( yeah like. remsuba being so complicated is so interesting to me. like she and subaru are very passionate people yes. but also they do need to learn to tone it down sometimes you know? REM ESPECIALLY TOO BECAUSE EVEN AFTER SHE STOPS BEING MURDERY TOWARDS HIM… FOR EXAMPLE IN SEASON ONE SHE WOULD CANONICALLY GO TO HIS ROOM IN THE MORNING AND WAIT FOR HIM TO WAKE UP…. like she'd just sit there at his bedside and Stare at him... like girl chill a bit its okay T^T i havent read sloth if. but it seems like they learned to mellow out and have a happy life T^T apart from. a shit ton of people dying in the background and also subaru dying of old age and resetting back to arc 3. i am interested to see if we’ll get further remsuba closure in arc 8 yes. but also im bonking subaru on the head in arc 7 for saying even REM TORTURING HIM was a fond memory. pls let this be addressed again later i swear sodndn.

ok also julisuba and ottosuba. i am no expert on julisuba but on the other hand i have analyzed Too Much Ottosuba so perhaps i am an expert there wodndn. but YEAH i love those ships. they have so much history and moments between them and they are. definitely the more Explicit evidence of subaru being bi (between subarus Interest in julius and reid calling julisuba boyfriends and SUBARUS INTEREST IN JULIUS... vs ottosuba repeatedly being like “omg do you Like Like me?” “NO I DONT SHUT UP” and also their continued divorce arc dynamics yep). but also i will say i really like ottosuba because specifically they are the subaru pairing where theyre like. Very Much Closer To Being Equals. if theyre not already equals in something. like in terms of power levels and intellect and their very loving families and previous inability to fit in or be believed by people and also their status in the narrative as Being Just A Guy in comparison to everyone else. and yet ottosuba are the MOST important members to their camp for their jobs—subaru keeps everyone alive, and otto handles All the politics, which we see over and over again. they are literally THE power duo. otto is so so important too as the second person to die FOR subaru the same way subarus died for others. like the paralleling of otto pushing subaru out of the way when the white whale drove otto insane (and later otto tried to go back for subaru once he regained his senses ;-;;;) versus otto pushing subaru out of the way so he didnt get killed by garf ;-;;;;;. and otto being the second person after rem to also give subaru an EXTREMELY IMPORTANT speech to him (otto-rem parallels...???) <33 except ottosuba also foil a lot bc of their Different Morals. but theyre both stubborn as hell and have a tendency to go off and do shit they think is best without telling anyone bc theyre too deadset (hah) on what THEY think. (OTTO. SPENDING A WHOLE YEAR SECRETLY GETTING THE BOOK OF WISDOM AND HAVING IT RESTORED?? HELLO???) anyway yeah ill stop right here bc i have So Much ottosuba posts on this damn blog wkdndn but i really do think the appeal of ottosuba is that they Are on a more even playing ground. and their morality flipflops sometimes. ottos issues are just more lowkey than subarus widndnd. i am. however. nervous about all the ottosuba and vincent-chisha parallels in arc 8 bc………. possible otto perma death on the horizon??? 😭😭😭😭 itd CRUSH subaru.

also of course the similar flavors of julisuba and ottosuba….. u can have ur tsundere x tsundere ships in TWO DIFFERENT FONTS. anyway ill become a julius lore expert someday i promise.

A BROTP I have with said character: BROTP ottosuba and ramsuba are so so funny and great wofndn but special shoutout to garf and subaru in particular!!! i think its interesting how far their relationship has come bc they had a VERY rough start and its like. 1. im sure garf would immediately regret going into a rage and killing a shit ton of people in that One Failed Loop and 2. we learn garf is a traumatized fourteen year old whos been trying so hard to take care of the demihumans inside sanctuary while his sister and mom left him, one way or another, and hes very afraid of the outside world. and its like YEAH now your behavior makes sense. and its so good to see garfs growth and also his growth in his relationship with subaru (and otto) bc he looks up to subaru sm!!! subaru helped garf so much T^T theyre brothers guys 😭😭 i think its so adorable and so sweet. ill defend garf all day everyday. garf 🤝 subaru with their DAMN hero complexes while otto tries to keep them both on a leash so they dont do stupid shit. subaru IS a good role model for garf though ill say that. subaru tries so hard to be a good role model wkdndn. and yes i always laugh when garf teases subaru for drawing doodles and writing encouraging things for emilia in the temple.

A NOTP I have with said character: okay so. maybe i will spill some tea here. hah so i went over in ram’s ask how i think ramsuba in wrath if is actually super interesting widndns but otherwise ramsuba to me is bland. which. i also just feel like subaru/crusch and subaru/ana and subaru/priscilla are also bland. like. i dont think theyll ever feel interesting to me akdndn. like theres not. as much to work off of imo. like i just dont think theyre a good match romantically at all. like At All. priscilla especially LMAO…. and im tired of people reducing women in the story to just boobs and being fucked by subaru 😭😭😭 like i dont have anything against those subaru ships, my biggest notp is just seeing a bunch of characters be butchered just to have subaru have sex with various women. 😭😭 obviously not everyone in the fandom does that but i see this happens the most with priscilla fr. pls. shes more than just boobs :(((

anyway. my other notp is like. echidna/subaru but like. i feel similarly to ram/roswaal on this where its like. theres a potential there to show a nuanced complex toxic relationship bc THAT IS what echidna/subaru are. even more so in greed if. like theyve spent an UNGODLY amount of time together like their relationship is so fucked. like god the amount of details that were added to their dynamic in the greed if ln makes me go INSANE….. like you know how echidna said that subaru could use her body with this contract?? what she ALSO really meant was HEY SUBARU YOU CAN KILL ME IF YOU WANT. ILL JUST COME BACK BC WE ALWAYS MEET IN A DREAM WORLD AND THERES NO CONSEQUENCES BUT ITLL FEEL REAL TO YOU. LIKE HOLY FUCK FR 😭😭 and like in generally reading through greed if ln is a Trip alright. like “no yeah duh of course it is, suffaru, its GREED IF” but LISTEN……. echidna being subarus weird mother figure and then like. idk there are obvious implications i feel from like the body fluid tea and then echidna being like “you can use my body” and then theres a moment where she puts his hand on her chest and yeah its to feel her heart but LIKE…. SOMETHING ABOUT THAT SCENE FELT LIKE. SOMETHING. TO ME. AND THEN SHES SO OBSESSED WITH HIM AND HES DEPENDENT ON HER LIKE JESUS ITS A MESS. ITS LIKE HOW SHE WAS WITH OG ROSWAAL. GOD. *puts my head in my hands*

anyway my real notp is like. depicting echidna/subaru like it is a Healthy Thing like no it is not 😭😭😭😭 it never was healthy and it literally never will be unless ur changing echidnas character drastically. if ur gonna show off echidna/subaru then they are gonna be SO RANCID in like every way possible there is no other correct way to write them. she is terrible for him. she literally saw him and went “i can make him worse” and then it happened. bc greed if subaru is a Terrible Person. like. its not even a question. the biggest example i can think of rn other than obvious Rbd use is KEEPING MEILI. A CHILD. HOSTAGE AND LOCKED UP IN ORDER TO USE ELSA. HER OLDER SISTER FIGURE. JEEZ. my biggest notp of all time is treating unhealthy relationships as if they Arent unhealthy.

MY OTHER BIGGEST NOTP OF ALL TIME FOR ANYTHING IS SHIPPING A CHILD AND AN OLDER PERSON TOGETHER. subaru/petra SHOULD BE AN OBVIOUS NOTP BUT SURE DOESNT FEEL LIKE IT SOMETIMES….. guys she is a child. come on. hes seventeen and shes TWELVE. GUYS…. and then theres tappei making iirc an ACTUAL petra if????? and idk what the content in petra if is exactly but i worry given tappeis track record with the child characters sometimes 😭😭 AND THEN PETRA BEING IN LUST IF. TAPPEI…… N-NOTHING HAPPENS, RIGHT? *EXPLODES WITH RAGE*. even if petra and subaru get together later when theyre Older Adults in some AU or something its like. subaru knew her when she was a young child. and she had a crush on him then. um. personally idk if im fully comfortable with that hah T^T

A random headcanon: GONNA TALK ABOUT WRATH IF. anyway so the wrath if divergence point is that subaru gets beatrice to teleport him away and ram chases him down, ram tries to strangle him to death but fails, he smashes her head with a rock. yes. BUT OKAY when u watch the anime. beatrice comes for his aid AFTER subaru gets to the cliff and tries to psych himself up to like. jump off to save rem and stuff. THEREFORE wrath if subaru still considered trying to rbd via jumping off that cliff. he just decided not to and agreed to have beatrice teleport him away. this is something not many people seem to mention or maybe even notice (??) but I THINK ABOUT IT A LOT…. :((

General Opinion over said character: i LOVE SUBARU WITH MY WHOLE BEING. he is my absolute favorite anime character of all time. his character arc is so chaotic and complicated and i think the way he Does like still struggle with the same Inner Conflicts is so so much more realistic. recovery and self improvement are NOT linear and he shows that perfectly. and i hate how much people misread subaru T^T the whole chadbaru trend in fandom of how he should get harems or how he should leave everyone or be terrible to emilia for *insert a long list of Terrible reasons here* is so. like did we all read and watch the same damn story or what hah. the whole point of rezero is LOVE ITSELF….. and subaru ultimately has a lot of love for so many people around him. though of course i do worry for how rbd reveal is going to be handled, and im not entirely sure how to feel about subarus arc 7 development atm. rbd reveal is gonna have catastrophic consequences for Everyone. like everyone hes ever been close to finding out hes died a shit ton of times to save him?? that so many of them have like. maimed and killed him or at least Tried To Do That? like HOW are we gonna get a happy ending out of all of this—hows tappei gonna handle this?? 😭😭 i worry sometimes that when rbd reveal happens it wont be nuanced or itll gloss over certain things or it just. wont be so satisfying. bc u have arc 7 subaru out here with SUICIDE PILLS……. ARC 7 SUBARU IN REPEATED INSANE DEATH LOOPS AS A CHILD….. how are we gonna come back from this?? 😭😭 i have my doubts sometimes but tappei loves insane character development for subaru so i suppose i will hope. i just wish for all the trauma to be seen and addressed akdndn and the fact that rbd is so. complicated. it makes subaru and his relationships with everyone else so complicated. and rbd is inherently unfair in a lot of ways to both subaru and everyone hes close to. i cant wait for more subaru development but i also think after arc 8 he NEEDS a break or like otherwise, personally i think subarus gonna snap for good and not be able to return from it 😭😭 or ill just have to suspend my uhh disbelief. i suppose. but yes i do love subaru a lot!!! his hair is a Pain in the ass to draw but ill endure the pain just for him. <33

but regarding all of subarus loved ones maiming and killing him a lot—i think its fascinating how the if routes prove he is JUST as capable of ruining all their lives. like i feel like people forget that sometimes in favor of woaaah cool what if routes where subaru becomes “badass”…. but LIKE…. hes SO SO CAPABLE of so much destruction. he is choice itself. he is capable of changing the entire world and everyone around him. he is capable of causing the deaths and trauma for SO MANY PEOPLE… and like i think rezero itself and subarus relationships are like an extreme version of hedgehog’s dilemma, u know? like u get close to people to love and be loved, but ur also very vulnerable to getting hurt. and rezero is About love. and part of close relationships are that ur so close u Can be hurt. maybe you Will be hurt. but u will also Love….. unless ur one of the ifbarus then fuck u for making the wrong decisions ig wodndndn. im telling u guys that subaru is LITERALLY an eldritch being at this rate. todd is so right.

and. okay one last thing im gonna be real for a second. im a little eh on subaru being a child, honestly. like i DO like the trope of turning characters back into their child selves in order to explore their psychology that way!! but like. idk i feel like the childbaru arc is kinda too similar to the whole amnesiabaru arc in arc 6. it feels Extraneous. it doesnt feel different enough for me personally. (emphasis on personally. this is all my opinion hah.) and then he is STILL A CHILD IN ARC 8 EVEN THOUGH THE OTHER PEOPLE THAT GOT TURNED INTO KIDS ARE NOW BACK TO NORMAL…… LIKE…. im sorry but the childbaru has overstayed its welcome by the time we get to arc 8 imo 😭😭

#re:zero #natsuki subaru #ask #arcs 7-8 spoilers #i decided to do ur ask as soon as i could so i didnt forget bc i deleted ur ask oops HAH #i dont know if people like remsuba on here BUT I LIKE REMSUBA OKAY THEYRE COMPLICATED AND I LIKE IT.#and. yep there we go theres my usual ottosuba agenda 😭😭#if anyone asks me otto ill write even more essays ig 😭😭 HAH….#i just think. subaru ships have a lot of great flavors. but they also have some of the most rancid flavors in my opinion lmao 😭😭😭#rancid (affectionate or derogatory)#my reply to these asks keep getting longer and longer aalsdjdfls oh well

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dilucsfav · 1 year

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CEO itto hcs and scenarios!!

HI LOVESSNSS<333 im super sorry for not really being active :( ive been super busy with schoolwork and midterms are soon sobbing n shitting fr LNMFOAPDKJSKJL- i have something a lil different to write about today!! what if... itto headcanons. BUT,,, theres a twist. CEO itto. SCREAMING AT JUST THE THOUGHT OF IT TBH.

this isnt a request or anything but i thought about it all day so why not write about it? i need to tame my sexual fantasies over this big boobed man somehow so hopefully you guys wont complain,,, PLEASE DONT PUNCH ME I PROMISE I'LL DO THE REST OF THE REQUESTS. have a great day !! dont forget to drink a big glass of water and play some good music and have a snack <33.

warning(s): not really fluff,, mainly just how i think he'd be as a ceo!!,,,, also nsfw. yw.

homeboy would be the funniest boss, and guy, you'd ever have. he'd be so clueless with stuff going on in the company n shit, dont even know how hes a ceo. bro probably hacked life or something

literally has a secret handshake with each of his workers (goes for his friends, partner, etc too!!)

^^ high key the handshakes could be super long and he'd remember EVERY DAMN ONE. and which person he made the handshake with

i couldnt see him drinking coffee in the morning... he probably starts his day off with a medium rare steak for breakfast and a red bull. maybe two red bulls if he stayed up too late on a gaming match.

even if you didnt work at the company, he probably enjoys for you to come in the office with him sometimes and watch him work. a lot of the times when you do, its quiet because he has a lot of things to do. but sometimes, he'll rant to you about his work throughout the day and let you do little tasks for him!

^^^ just imagine you sitting next to him at his desk. his back pressed against the chair and his eyes glued to his paperwork/project, his eyebrows tinted together.

with a huge role in the company comes lots of stress. as long as you hold him tighter when you two sleep together, rub his hair and allow him to rest peacefully, he's happy :)

he'd try sticking to his daily routine. but hes just so so disorganized its difficult :((.

^^^ omg but on good days he'd wake up early, eat a big breakfast, workout, shower, go to work, come home, eat dinner with you, do more work (or do onikabuto fights with you), and then go to sleep with you!! very busy man :(((

would walk around the place with a button or two too undone. come on now im right.

would be such a sweetheart though if you were super stressed about work and weren't having a good day!! he would calmly talk to you and allow you to take day(s) off to calm down and detress. your health matters to him!

nsfw:

hes very stressed ykwim and he'd like a way to relieve that... so instead of doing onikabuto fights, he does you

office sex?? yeah that wouldnt really happen that often BECAUSE ITTO IS SO FUCKING VOCAL. but when it does?? put your big boy panties on bc this man would keep you on his desk (or lap) and it would be so sososooso so so so so so SOOO....

yeah.

hes fast. dont try to argue with me and say he doesnt go fast

BIG DICK ENERGY. absolutely massive

^^ fifteen meter women defeater tbh

oh but he'd talk so so dirty to you it's making me act up rn

he whines. and grunts.

you already know that daddy has big boy bucks. he'd fuck you so sweetly in his big ass rich man home.

fucking on his pool table? yeah. on the balcony? already did before. in the kitchen, living room floor, the bathroom shower floor and counter, the backseat of his fancy car, in the backyard (and many more places)? done.

when he comes home late he tries to sneak into bed, as to not wake you, but you're awake already sometimes because you've been waiting for him for oh so long

^^ how could he resist your request when he wants you too??

^^ to add more onto that, imagine him sliding off his belt while staring at you omg-

-and then tying you up with your ass in the air as youre just begging for him

"you want it, too? oh, (Y/N), please let me fuck you."

seeing stars tbh

kinda a whiny dom,, but in a submissive way? like extremely dom but? sometimes in a submissive way? PLEASEEE

kinda nsfw hc, not really, but he's a great kisser.

STOP HE LOVES THIGHS. SKINNY THIGHS, THICK THIGHS, AVERAGE THIGHS, ANY THIGHS HE JUST LOVES.

and ass. he loves asses.

(maybe thats why his favorite position is doggystyle)

lots of sex with him is intimate, some of it is eager, sometimes its super quick, it really just depends!

if you love itto and you also love demon slayer, you love rengoku. sorry i dont make the rules here.

#itto headcanons #itto x reader #itto smut #arataki itto #genshin itto #genshin smut #genshin x reader #genshin impact smut #genshin fluff #genshin fanfic #geo daddy

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suguru-getos · 2 months

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Oh. INTRESTING. I just realised I should think about self ships more 😭 but okay here we go 😎

my self ship would be with Suguru. Definitely. Not the cult leader tho 😭 just a little rewind right there. You see the high school Suguru? Yeah cool. I only claim him.

>>> How would be better like when I'm off?

It'd definitely hurt him too with me. (because that's what I've seen with people around me, you know when that loud and bubbly one goes silent ?! Even though you know they'd be fine it's just so ouch. As if something's missing. Yeah, my personality is more or less like Satoru, he's ENTP I'm ENFP. which by the way, did you know? Fits INTJ in compatibility better hehe yeah I see him as a threat so what? 😤) and since his rationality is something I"d value, he'd have to do the tougher job of being my backbone rather than getting away with just sympathizing and giving me rational and "harsh truth" perspectives when I come to him with the problem that's bothering me. He knows if tries to be soft with me or bullshit me with sympathy I'd see it right away. So that.

>>> I HC our relationship to be such that it makes everyone jealous because he's definitely smiling and laughing around me more (not because he's smitten or sth, because I'm his personal clown ✨). That's what I am about most of the times. Hyped up over the smallest things. Hehe.

>>> Jealous. Huh. Interesting. I'm a women in stem, and you must know how the ratio is always so heavy on men"s side. So naturally I have a lot of them hitting on me at all the points of time. 😂

>>>And another thing is, I'm an extrovert socialising with people all the time so he might be annoyed on how to get my attention on him out of all the other people i hangout with (Again, not my words 😂😭) little does he know he has all of it since day 1. But that'd be only an issue before we get together, because he'd never know if I view him differently/romantically or not 😭 because "you're this energetic with everyone. How am I to know?"

>>> I and Satoru would definitely always be bickering over how he lets me get away with spam texting but not him. Hehe. Suguru's reasoning? "You're annoying, she's not *shrug*"

I say I don't think any self ships but then I go on full on spam mode (I hope you don't mind it, if you do please be honest about it and lmk like "I just asked for headcanons not a ONESHOT you idiot🔪) somehow wow😭 but yeah. That's how I see it, sunshine x grumpy (kind of?) Trope.

(Which made me think, neither of us actually like yapping about ourselves too much so we'd just be having hours and hours of discussions about different topics. The quality time discussion is a love language kinda couple. )

Now YOUR TURN. *hands over the pen*

lmfaoooo why not the cult leader sugu? he has such a dominant rizzly energy my self ship revolves around him and i’d bark like an animal for cult leader sugs 🙇🏻‍♀️🥹

-> also that’s so cute omg?? i am an intj/entj hybrid so i love myself enfps 🫵🏻 they bring such a lovely vibe around. (my irl best friend is an enfp) & i’d die for her. <33 suguru would love you so much, you’d be his breath of fresh air & when you go down, so does his existence. i hc him as super empathetic to people he cares about, so if you’re down, he’s rock bottom. :33 hello 👋 another stem major here’s your crown 👑 gorgeous ‼️ i’ve graduated in 2022 from stem so i know how the life’s like. 😉 suguru would be disgustingly jealous fr fr you attract everyone with your positivity.

-> suguru would definitely appreciate your bickering with satoru & blabbering. it would make him feel good that two of the people he loves the most are talking/being together 💋

grumpy x sunshine is my favorite troupe so this post made me intensely happy. 🪷🥰 also, that’s alright for the long post, only made fun of how people can see a character so similarly yet so differently!!

-> as of my own self ship headcanons, i’ll post them cus i’d yap more than you istg 😭 he’d love when i wear a saree tho ‼️🙇🏻‍♀️

#•share your selfship headcanons with me•#geto suguru #geto fluff #jjk #jjk fluff

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hurthermore · 17 days

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I've never been so patient and anticipated for a series ever in my entire life and like A Misconduct of love is my all time favorite fr, then like sometimes I wonder in the story each and every moment it gets interesting, then I remember what kind of asshole Vincent is, who knows if he's those type of people who wants a son. Especially since there was a moment women are always blamed for giving birth to a daughter, hehe anyways take a rest when you need to darling!

Don't stress yourself out just for our satisfaction!

Ahhh it makes me so happy that you like misconduct so much!!<33

And yes Vincent is the type of man who would berate his wife for birthing a girl instead of a boy; he would 100% neglect his female children. Luckily for reader, she won't have to find that out haha

Thank you for sending this<33 I appreciate you!!<3

#hurthermore talks

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celestie0 · 26 days

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Hi ellie! hru doinn!

gojo would be getting the sloppiest messiest head from me if he pulled any shit like that “statistically speaking 🤓☝️” post said skhdjd.

i also like to think that he had some dating app installed for a very short period n for the prompts like “pet peeve” he probably said things like “unequal pay, systematic oppression of women in workplace, pink taxes, ppl who dont read feminist literature ugh”

ouu n have u seen that one manga panel of gojo saying something like “like i give a damn about guys’ hardships”. feminist gojo is canon n kickoff gojo does things to impress the girlies (n it always works)

im not fazed by things like these but with gojo? he can have me! plz dont tell him i said that

zuro anon

HIII ZURO BB <33 i’m doing ok tyyy my love :”) a lil tired today but i got my iced coffees so im ready to be bouncing off the walls soon 😼 how are you doing today? 💕

gojo would be getting the sloppiest messiest head from me if he pulled any shit like that “statistically speaking 🤓☝️” post said skhdjd.

this is the realest thing ever i swear to god 😭 you n me are so locked in on this loser boy n pussy desperate gojo agenda AND I HATE THAT WE WOULD FALL FOR IT LMFAO 🤣 we gots to go to horny jail 😞😞

YOU’re SO RIGHT ABOUT THE DATING PROMPTS LMFAOOO

this was gojo’s entire hinge profile fr ^

(also i realized i made a typo n typed system oppression instead of systemic oppression but i feel like that’s something gojo wld do too so imma leave it like that 🤣🤣)

also yesss that panel of him is one of my faves 😭🤣 he was so hot for that tho i swear when i first saw that scene i was like 🤭 heheheheheheheeh i just know he’d give his woman the ultimate pricness treatment 😩😩

i’d like to think kickoff gojo became a feminist to get girls n then the more he looked into it he was like🧍🏻‍♀️oh damn this shits fr fucked up. n then he became adult gojo “I DONT CARE ABOUT MEN’S HARDSHIPS!!! GO CHEW ON A BRICK OR SUMN GATDAMN!!! DO YOU KNOW WHAT WOMEN HAVE TO GO THROUGH EVERYDAY?!?!! 😤😤”

he’s a lil confused at times but he’s got the spirit 🧚‍♀️✨

#zuro anon #kickoff #asks #anon #gojo satoru #[queued ask]

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camboy!billy x virgin!steve

roommates/modern au

read on ao3

18+ minors dni

12:33 on the bottom right of Steve’s laptop— daunting and he keeps glancing down at it which fucks up the rhythm of his strokes and it’s more annoying than the asshole sending coins and asking the model to shove it deeper down her throat. Steve watches as the drool drips from the corners of her mouth around the hot pink dildo and how she widens her eyes to stare into the camera. He’s been at this for ten fucking minutes and the more he watches, the softer his dick is getting. He makes a perturbed face at his laptop screen as the woman gags loudly, ripping his headphones out and tapping the back button. Thirty icons of various women appear, all doing things that just aren’t getting Steve where he needs to be. Pornhub would be a safer bet but Steve likes the personal aspect of the live shows and sometimes they read his comments out loud and say thanks, which for whatever reason, makes him feel all flustered.

He’s about to give up entirely on blowing a load before bed but the hyperlink Men at the top of the website piques his interest and the shame he feels due to the curiosity is weirdly arousing. He chews on his bottom lip before adjusting his glasses, hovering the cursor over the link. A second later he’s scanning his eyes over the options, all kinds of men with different body shapes and Steve’s face feels hot, tongue heavy and swollen in his mouth. It feels dirty in the best way. Out of all the top models, one isn’t showing his face and something about the anonymity is safe for Steve.

Sunshine69 is live!

Steve clicks the icon and squeezes his hardening dick in his hand. This guy is muscular but not like super cut, Steve thinks maybe he would like to squeeze his pecs, they look nice. He’s sitting in a desk chair, stroking himself lazily as he types on his computer. In the chat box, he’s saying hello to Steve. It immediately makes Steve’s cock fill out which maybe is a little silly but hey, it works for him.

Sunshine69: hi, @ KingSteve99 thanks for joining <3

Steve feels too shy to say anything back but he donates 3 coins and bites his lip, starting to stroke himself along with the stranger. Watching this guy is doing things to Steve, he can’t remember the last time he was this goddamn turned on, maybe when he was a teenager. But Jesus Christ, this guy is hot and Steve hasn’t even seen his face. His fucking tits are hypnotizing, Steve feels kind of similar to the first time he’d looked at porn when he was young. And like, yeah, Steve’s seen naked men plenty of times. He kind of has to when he watches porn, they’re just there but Steve never looked like he’s looking now. The dude clearly works out, probably watches what he eats. It’s admirable, Steve’s never really tried but he knows it’s gotta be hard to get a body like that. Which brings Steve’s eyes to his thighs, they’re thick and they keep flexing like the guys trying not to cum but he’s close. His cock is… well, it’s made for this business. It’s thick, long and circumcised; blonde pubes neatly trimmed. Steve doesn’t think he’s seen a prettier cock, but again, it’s not like he was ever looking before. Before he can start to panic about what exactly this means for him, Sunshine69 is cupping his balls and rolling them in his palm so Steve does the same because he feels like he should, like this guy is making some kind of how-to video. It works, he focuses on the dudes hands, watching them intently until Steve’s balls tighten and he’s coming into the tissues he quickly grabbed. The guy cums, splattering all over his stomach and hand but he keeps going, using the fluid to aide in his strokes. Steve’s head feels fuzzy as his breathing starts to regulate and then his stomach starts to hurt with shame at what he’s just gotten off to.

Steve’s not homophobic, his best friend is a lesbian so how could he be? Well, Robin would tell him he still could totally be homophobic even if they’re friends. But Steve doesn’t dislike gay people, he’d gone his whole life not really caring about people’s sexualities and well… okay maybe he did freak out when Robin came out to him but not because she was gay but because Steve liked her and when he finally realized it and got the guts to tell her, she informed him that they bat for the same team. And now Steve’s looking down at the crumpled tissue in his hand and realizing he might play for the opposite team too. Can you even do that? Maybe the dumb baseball analogy isn’t a good one. Because as confused as he is, he did just get off to a man jerking off and last night he got off to a woman using one of those tentacle looking dildos. So you can play on both teams, ‘cause he is.

As Steve’s looking back to the screen to close it out, the guy turns his body a bit and Steve’s eyes fall onto a familiar tattoo on the guys bicep. Oh, fuck. No. No. Absolutely not. It can’t be… can it? He quickly exits the browser and slams his laptop shut. There’s no way he just watched his roommate jerk off. Oh, god, Steve liked it too. How is he gonna look him in the eye now? They don’t really like hang out much as it is but Christ, they live together they cross paths often. What’s Steve gonna do when he has to piss and Billy’s cooking in the kitchen? He’s always thought it was weird their bathroom was attached to the small kitchen but now he’s just pissed off at whoever the fuck designed the house.

Steve takes a deep breath. No, it couldn’t be Billy. It’s definitely just a guy who somehow has the same tattoo. There’s got to be more than one person with that dumb smoking skull on their bicep.

He gets the urge to pee and he sighs, shoving his laptop from his lap and stands up. He pulls his pajama pants up and opens his bedroom door. The house is dark. They both have class early in the morning. As he walks down through their tiny living room, he stares at Billy’s closed door. He can see the light leaking from the bottom of the wood and he presses his ear against the door, trying to hear something. Proof that Billy’s doing anything other than jacking off on camera for twenty horny people. And for Steve, apparently.

He hears his voice, “Goodnight, don’t stay up too late.

Billy giggles, all flirty and suggestive and it makes Steve’s stomach tighten. He hurries away from the door and rushes into their kitchen, then to the bathroom. He flicks the light on and shuts the door, turning to look at himself in the mirror. His hair stands all different ways, he still hasn’t learned how to tame it since he started growing it out. For a second, he wonders if Billy would be into Steve watching him. Hell, he was getting off in front of a pretty big number of people. Steve’s only jerked off in front of like two of his girlfriends before, he can’t imagine twenty people watching him do it. He’s not even sure he’d be able to.

With a sigh, he pushes his pajama pants low enough to get his dick out so he can pee. His eyes meet his reflection again and he stares hard, trying to figure out what the hell is going on with him. When he glances back down, he’s fucking missed the bowl and pissed on the top of the rim.

“Shit,” he shakes a few times and tucks himself back in his pants, grabbing toilet paper to clean up the mess.

He tosses the piss soaked paper in the bowl and flushes, turning to wash his hands and then pulls off his glasses so he can splash cold water on his face. It’s no big deal, he tells himself. He wasn’t doing anything wrong. He didn’t even know it was Billy so it’s not like he’s some weird creep. It was by total coincidence that out of the thirty men on the front page, he was most drawn to Billy’s tits. Not his fault. It’s Billy’s fault for having such a great chest.

When he finally opens the door, Billy’s walking into the kitchen— shirtless. Steve averts his eyes as quickly as possible. Billy nods to him, so casually as he slips beside him and into the bathroom. Steve walks over to the sink, reaching into the cupboard for a cup and turns the tap on. He hears Billy sneeze and his dick twitches. At a fucking sneeze. For fucks sake. What the hell is wrong with him? A sneeze? He gulps down his water, drops the cup in the sink and quickly makes his way back to his room. He doesn’t get a blink of sleep. He tosses and turns, the images of Billy flooding his mind. And if he jerks off one more time then that’s his business.

Billy’s already awake when Steve finally crawls out of bed and goes to the bathroom. His roommate is leaning against the counter, eating a piece of toast while he scrolls on his phone. His long curls are pulled up in a lazy bun and he’s only wearing his briefs. Damn him. Steve’s running on no sleep, he can’t deal with this shit right now.

He quickly shuts the bathroom door behind him and looks at the mirror. He looks as terrible as he feels. His hair looks greasier than it did last night and all the tossing and turning made it even more wild. The bags under his eyes are dark and heavy. Maybe he should skip class. He could probably sleep if Billy’s not in the house. He hears his dads voice in his head, droning on about if he’s gonna pay his tuition he expects Steve to fucking show up. Steve barely got into university anyhow, he can’t really afford to skip any more classes. Brushing his teeth, he leans against the door and watches his reflection. He can hear Billy cackling about something, probably some dumb meme on Twitter. Steve’s suddenly reminded about one time Billy had shoved his phone at him, laughing so hard he couldn’t even explain himself and Steve looked down to see some porn blooper. It was bizarre, Steve didn’t really get what was so funny about it or why the hell Billy thought it was appropriate to show him. He feels kind of guilty at the thought, Billy just thought it was so funny he wanted Steve to see it. And now as he’s brushing his teeth, he’s desperate to know what the hell Billy’s twitter feed looks like. Steve’s is so boring he rarely opens the app at all.

Steve gets his hands wet after he brushes his teeth and tries to get his hair to look a little less like a birds nest. It’s as good as he’s gonna get, he laid in bed too long so he doesn’t have time to shower. When he opens the door, Billy’s still standing there and staring down at his phone with a grin plastered on his face.

“Steve,” he says, turning his phone and shows him the meme he might’ve been laughing about. It’s a SpongeBob meme about being hungover and Steve offers a small chuckle.

“Nice,” he says and sidesteps him to grab a mug so he can have some coffee.

“Yeah,” Billy snorts, “I feel like that every time.”

Steve hums, waiting for the Keurig to dispense his coffee. He left his phone in his room and he’s regretting it, he’s got nothing to occupy his hands or his eyes so he stares down at the coffee machine. Billy turns around and opens the cupboard above Steve’s hand so he can grab himself a mug and Steve can’t help but smell his armpit, it’s in his fucking face. It’s musky and gross but not gross at all, gross in the sexiest way and Steve turns his face quickly so he doesn’t start getting a boner or shove his face in it. What the hell is wrong with him? Never in his life has he been attracted to a man and he’s been living with this fucker for six months and not once did he get this feeling. Has it been hiding inside of him? Would he have dropped to his knees if Billy pulled his dick out the day he moved in? Steve’s starting to regret making that post about the room for rent. He should’ve just begged Robin to move in harder.

“So hey, I’m inviting some people over tonight if that’s cool,” Billy says, waiting for Steve to sweeten his coffee before he’s taking his place in front of the Keurig.

“Yeah, that’s cool,” Steve replies and takes a gulp of his coffee, the liquid burns going down his throat and his eyes water from the heat but he fucking does it again just he doesn’t have to say anything else.

Billy turns around and rests his ass against the counter, “You should invite that girl you’re always hanging out with. Or any friends.”

“Robin,” Steve says with an eye roll, Billy’s only met her a hundred times. As for friends… she’s the only one. Besides a rowdy group of high school kids he used to babysit but he imagines that would be a bad move. They’d be stoked to go to a ‘college party’ but that’s irresponsible and well, Steve doesn’t want them to see he’s actually kind of a loser. He was actually planning on staying in and playing his PlayStation tonight. Hanging out with Billy’s friends would probably be good for him as awkward as he feels doing so.

“Yeah, her,” Billy says and turns to grab his coffee, “And don’t hide in your room. Human interaction is good for ya, Stevie.”

“I have human interaction,” Steve defends, “all the time.”

“Reddit threads and fucking Xbox live don’t count,” Billy quips.

“PlayStation.”

“What?” Billy looks at him confused.

“PlayStation. I don’t have an Xbox,” Steve says.

Billy’s face scrunches up like Steve’s just said the dumbest thing on the planet, “Whatever.”

;;;

The smoothie shop is busy when Steve gets there after class. Robin is running around behind the counter, all three blenders firing as she bounces between the register and line. He’s late but only by ten minutes. Robin’s clearly pissed off by the look she shoots his way. It’s his lack of sleep. He’s been running on empty all day.

“Hey,” he offers as he tosses on his apron and takes over the register, clocking in.

She ignores him, bumping his shoulder with her own as she calls out the order she just finished up. It’s no use trying again so Steve gets to work. Taking orders, helping Robin make them and finally when it’s calmed down and they start to clean up she talks to him.

“Why the hell were you late?”

Steve sighs, “I got like zero sleep.”

“Let me guess, video games?” Robin groans, wiping up the counter.

“Uh… no, actually,” Steve starts, toying with the pocket of his apron. “I think I figured out how Billy makes his half of the rent.”

Robin turns her head curiously, “How?”

This is tricky because Steve wants to tell her more than anything but he’s embarrassed about how he stumbled upon this juicy fact. They’re close but not close enough to share what kind of porn they watch. Plus, Steve’s gonna have to admit he was curious enough to look at the male performers on the site. He’s apparently mulling it over too long because Robin tosses the wet rag at him.

“Well? Tell me!”

Steve reaches down to grab the washcloth and drops it in the dirty bucket, “You can’t judge.”

“Does he sell drugs or something?” Robin lifts an eyebrow. And it’s fair enough, Steve pondered that before with the amount of money he had and Billy’s fondness of cannabis.

“Not exactly,” Steve mumbles, “I meant like, don’t judge me. For how I found out.”

“Are you snooping through his things?” Robin asks excitedly, “Ugh, I’m dying to know. Come on!”

Steve blurts it out, “He’s a cam model.”

Robin’s eyes widen, eyebrows flying up her forehead while her jaw drops, “No way. Did you walk in?”

“No,” Steve flushes, “I uh… found him… ya know, on the website.”

“You… you watch dudes?” Robin smirks before she laughs, “Huh.”

Steve groans, “Not usually. I just got curious and well, there he was.”

“Did you watch it?” Robin asks, curiously.

Steve nods, eyes glancing towards the door and praying that a customer will walk in to put an end to his confession. God’s obviously not listening so Steve has to continue, “Yeah. I uh, didn’t realize it was him until after I…”

“Oh, gross, Steve,” Robin winces, “I didn’t need that detail.”

“How do you think I’m feeling? I fucking ran into him in the kitchen after. I didn’t know it was him and then, well, I saw his tattoo,” Steve mumbles out, scratching the side of his neck.

“Got a crush on him now?” Robin teases, wiggling her eyebrows.

Steve groans, covering his eyes with his hands as he admits, “I almost shoved my face in his armpit this morning. I’m freaking out. I couldn’t sleep, I’ve never like… liked a guy before.”

“Ew!” Robin exclaims, mimicking gagging after and then schools her face back to normal, “You didn’t think he was attractive before?”

Steve shrugs, “I mean, I noticed he was good looking but I didn’t… God, I don’t know what’s happening.”

Robin laughs again, “I gotta say, I didn’t expect that from you. Kind of a bit of a stereotype, you being on a cam site, I mean.”

“What’s that supposed to mean?” Steve furrows his brows, knowing there’s an insult in there but he can’t quite pick it up.

“Virgin. Reddit. Video games,” Robin shrugs, “Too scared to talk to women in real life, so you pay ones online to talk to ya.”

“I hate you,” Steve rolls his eyes.

Robin giggles, shoving his shoulder, “I’m your only friend.”

“Yeah, speaking of that… Billy’s throwing like a little kickback at the house tonight, asked me to invite you,” he mumbles, walking over to the sink full of dishes.

“Oh, this’ll be an interesting evening,” Robin cackles.

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