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i don't think i've ever felt more single than when fredrik backman said “he was a man of black and white. and she was colour. all the colour he had” like how i am supposed to get over that

#fredrik backman #a man called ove #quotes

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freediver

#freediving #the ocean #diving #loml

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something something both looking at space and diving into the deep sea is basically time travel

The canvases of our exploration

Interstellar - Christopher Nolan // A Ship in a Stormy Sea - Ivan Konstantinovich Aivazovsky // The ISS - NASA // Address at Rice University, 12 Sep. 1962 - John F. Kennedy // Cosmic Web and Dark Matter in Outer Space - Stephen Dalton // Rough sea, Morestil - John Russell // Rocket Man - Elton John // Olin Ivory // @eighthxjune // Space Mirror Memorial, Kennedy Space Center via reddit //OP: @smoooothbrain

#web weaving #the ocean #space #the sea #parallels #history #exploration #loml

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"it is always the ocean. and we are nothing."

the deepest breath

dir: laura mcgann

#loml #diving #the deepest breath #the ocean #documentary

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something about substances so strong they can only be cut by that same substance (like diamond) gets to me. the self-fulfilling prophecy of it. you can armor yourself against any and all outside threats, but you're still beholden to your own nature.

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sea, swallow me

#loml #<3 #the ocean

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are you really best friends if you don't threaten to block each other regularly

#its constantly antagonizing the other #double texting?? triple texting?? #no #hundredple texting #she gets at least 70 messages if i have something to say #and then there's radio silence for like a month #until something happens to her and there's 90 messages in my inbox #its a nice rhythm #long distance friendship #i say long distance as if she's not just across the city #a 15 min drive #science student #stem #college #science core #chaotic academia #sciencecore #dark academia science #chaos #women #i love women

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[on the verge of having a complete breakdown] i need to make some kind of list or perhaps sort things into categories

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yes yes the agony of heartbreak, the anguish of unrequited love is all good and fine, but have you ever overshot a titration?

#chemistry labs #are my very own purgatory #titrations are fine #i havent overshot one yet #but the pure panic when the burette suddenly spews a whole ocean of kmno4 #why cant we have nice things #burettes leaking concentrated h2so4 spills plastic squeeze bottles that dont work #chem #science #sciencecore #mad science #stem #science academia #chaotic academia #dark academia #college #exams #exam season #labs #chemistry #women in stem

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tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow said maybe people are so wrapped up in themselves that we will never truly know someone else the way we know ourselves maybe we can never truly share our pain but you can still make art and even then they will never fully understand exactly what you were trying to say but you can still love them and keep loving them and that’s imperfect and hard but it’s all there is

#tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow #gabrielle zevin

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it's midnight. i have to be up in five hours. i should be asleep. instead i finished tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow, snorted it if you will, and now my every brain cell is consumed with this goddamn book. gabrielle zevin this is all your fault. i love you.

#pls i havent slept more than three hours #for three days #i am not okay #send help #therapy would also be appreciated #thank you #tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow #gabrielle zevin #books #literary fiction #games #video games #sadie green #literature

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being on your period is like *almost starts sobbing on a public bus because your friend paid for you without even asking*

#man #really got that emotional spectrum on my period #every month #lucifer's waterfall #i love this man #so much #“you good?” #“uh huh” #(is near tears) #period #menstruation #menstrual cycle #shark week #pms #women #problems #emotional whiplash #college #friendship #friends

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carol last was the og sad beige mom

#carol last can suck my dick #i've genuinely never loathed a character more #i would throw hands in public #god i hate her #radio silence #alice oseman #aled last #frances janvier #universe city #carol last #osemanverse #heartstopper #solitaire #loveless #i was born for this

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my roman empire is the cool girl monologue from gone girl

#amy dunne #the woman that you are #i mean #you did do some fucked up shit #i don't condone it #but i understand it #that monologue resonated within all of us #gone girl #gillian flynn #roman empire #rome #women #girlhood #feminine rage #books #movies #rosamund pike #i think about that monologue at least twice a week #issues #we all have them #cool girl #cool girl monologue

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cant stop thinking about this

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I REMEMBER EVERYTHING.

everything everywhere all at once (2022) / amigo warfare, eric gamalinda / someone great (2019) / about you, the 1975 / lullabies, lang leav / la la land (2016) /  the museum of heartbreak, meg leder / always remember us this way, lady gaga

#parallels #words #everything everywhere all at once #amigo warfare #someone great #about you #the 1975 #lullabies #lang leav #la la land #the museum of heartbreak #always remember us this way #lady gaga #a star is born #I remember everything

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#good omens #good omens s2 #gos2 #neil gaiman #gaiman and his gay men #crowley #aziraphale #crowley x aziraphale #aziraphale x crowley #aziracrow #aj crowley #anthony j crowley #david tennant #michael sheen #Spotify