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choosing to interpret cc!grian showing up on streams with his mic off and just talking in chat as c!grian having selective mutism and just shoving notes in his friends' faces cringe is dead and i killed it

#hermitcraft #hermitblr #selective mutism #autism #cringe #grian #hermitcraft grian

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I'm not normal.

Not as in compared to other people. I don't care that I act strange and people look at me weird. No one is normal, and I know that.

What I mean is I'm not MY normal. I'm not normally like this. Something has changed about the way I am thinking and the way I am acting that I don't do most of the time and I am scared of what that change could mean. I am scared of what caused it. I am scared of what I might do now that I don't know what to expect from me anymore. I'm not normal. I'm not me.

#vent #ish #poetry adjacent #depression #mental health #anxiety #disasociation #which mental illness is it this time? #normal

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Someday I am going to make something that when people watch it, they see themselves. No matter who they are, they will see themselves.

Why does that make you so uncomfortable?

#writing #writers on tumblr #lgbtq #transgender #been having some thoughts #been having some FIGHTS

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my favorite kind of ally are the ones i've entitled "confused chad".

Like they don't know what's going on but whatever I'm on about with pronouns is totally wicked dude.

No one embodies Confused Chad more than Jayden. Jayden was a boy in my freshman year of high school. I had three classes with him: Bio, Gym, and Math.

Unrelated to Jayden, that years "fad" was for the guys to wear dresses and skirts to school every Tuesday. I don't know why, none of the gay guys did it, yet every single straight man that year participated at least once.

I go to one of those schools which change schedules depending on the day, so on Tuesdays, it just so happened that I had gym first thing. With Jayden.

Gym class was coming to a close, we're all changing out of our gym clothes, I'm trying to hide my boobs in the mens' room, and then a ruckus starts. Common for a mens' room, I ignore it. The ruckus continues, I try to ignore it. As I go to leave the room i see that Jayden has a full ass bubblegum pink ballgown, petticoat after petticoat, i swear he must've had one of those cages that go underneath it was so puffy.

Of course, all the guys around him (also in skirts, but none can compare) are asking how in the hell he got this crazy shit. All Jayden responds with...

is nothing. He shrugs. and leaves.

Now, Jayden is LOUD. Jayden is loud and annoying and loves talking about literally anything. So even the guys with less than half a braincell know something's up.

2nd period comes and goes. Lunch comes and goes, next: Math. I had forgotten at this point, and I've always been one of those kids who gets to class way too early (especially after lunch), so I spend a good 10 minutes settling into class, other students trickle in.

Jayden walks in, my head is down in my desk drawing so I don't notice. That is, I wouldn't have noticed, but also in this class is Christian, Jayden's best friend, but also an avid member of the D&D club, which meets on Mondays, but Monday was a weekend, so he missed eating lunch with Jayden today.

Christian sits on the other side of the room, but he may as well have been screaming directly into my ear when he goes, "What the FUCK are you wearing, Jayden?!"

Jayden looks at him, blinks, looks down at his Bubblegum. Pink. Ballgown. Look's back at his friend and says, straight-faced;

"Nikes."

Which is immediately followed by him kicking his leg out to reveal the most basic black Nikes you could imagine (im not a shoe person, maybe they were fancy, idfk).

Christian's jaw DROPS. And he steps over to Jayden and grabs the edge of the skirt and holds it up, "No. THIS, you idiot!" (not the word he said, I'm not gonna right the real word, you can figure it out on your own)

Jayden nods and shrugs, "It's a trend, haven't you been paying attention, dumbass?"

"It makes you look gay," Christian argues, tossing the skirt back down.

"What if I am gay?"

"WHAT?!"

"What if. I am. gay...? What's so wrong about that, man?"

"Nothing, I-I... You aren't gay!"

"I might be!"

"Jayden, you're straight,"

"Christian. I'm gay."

And, triumphant, Jayden takes his seat.

The day after, in Biology, Jayden's standing next to me in line to get some assignment (no ballgown in sight). His friend (not Christian) leans over and asks, "So...are you gay? No problem if you are, just wanna know..."

Jayden looks this kid in the eye and goes:

"What's gay?"

And I just lose it. I can't hold myself together anymore. I just start laughing. I laugh until I cry. I laugh until I can't breath. I laugh so hard for so long I get sent home for the day.

We're about to start our Junior year, Jayden still goes to this school, guys dont dress in skirts every tuesday anymore. But people still talk about Jayden and his bubblegum pink ballgown. They still ask where he got it from, he always just walks away or changes the subject. Some people say it was all planned, the Christian encounter, "what's gay?", some say I was in on it, and I don't confirm or deny to those who ask. Because really, I don't care.

I don't care what's true. I don't care what Christian thinks of gays. I don't care where Jayden got the dress. I don't care if Jayden ever learned what gay means. Because you know what?

I made it up.

#shitpost #lgbtq #transgender #writing #long story short #pride #men in dresses #ball gown #based on true events #fiction #bet you feel betrayed now #<3 #technically everything here did happen just not all in this way to the same people in the same day #fanfiction #fanfic #art

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Whattup its ya boy, Angry JRWI fan, here's a PSA because I've been seeing it happen more and more lately.

Stop asking JRWI questions on SPITTAKE streams!!! Bizly is not there to talk about PD!!!

#jrwi #jrwi prime defenders #prime defenders #bizlychannel #bizly #milo mumbles #spittake #little psa #this extends to other non-jrwi-related streams! #not everything is related to your hyperfixation sorry #let them exist

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The Blood in the Bayou fandom is dying, reblog if you're a homosexual

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inside me, there are six wolves.

One wants to hyperfixate on South Park

One wants to hyperfixate on JRWI: Riptide

One wants to hyperfixate on Dan and Phil

One wants to hyperfixate on Drawfee

One wants to hyperfixate on Art Project 1

One wants to hyperfixate on Art Project 2

They all have ADHD.

#adhd #shitpost #fanfiction #fanfic #kill me #god just end it all #it is NOT 2015 brain #we dont need to rewatch dan and phil play sims 4 again #or watch all of south park in one sitting

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all genders exist on a scale from Halloween to Christmas

#shitpost #trans #transgender #lgbtq

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I feel like I have a thousand spoons, however, every breath uses one, yknow?

#spoon theory #adhd #depression funny #shitpost

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How i think different ships would react in a Tweek x Craig situation (and would they turn out to be actually gay):

Stan x Kyle: Both would have a "it could be worse" vibe. Despite my headcanons, I don't feel like they'd give us canon style.

Stan x Kenny: Wouldn't know what to do with themselves, would end up staging a breakup like Tweek & Craig did, during this breakup Kenny would dramatically throw off his hood and say some stereotypical breakup shit. Kenny would turn out to be gay, Stan would not, they'd make a whole other episode about unrequited love and Kenny getting over Stan. A few seasons later, Kenny would end up with Butters and Stan would get unreasonably jealous (think how Stan was with Kyle & Wendy's egg in that one episode) and realize that he does like Kenny, but Kenny's moved on.

Stan x Cartman: I feel like out of everyone, Stan would be the closest to ok with being shipped with Cartman. He'd still hate every second of it, but he'd be willing to work with Cartman to get out of it. They would not be gay.

Kyle x Kenny: I think they'd just try to lay low and ignore it until it goes away. This would involve ignoring each other, and everyone would think the shipping ruined their friendship forever (think Jacksepticeye and Markiplier fans in 2017). After it's all over, Kyle and Kenny talk again and realize they're super gay for each other.

Kyle x Cartman: Honestly, if Craig and Tweek didn't exist I feel like this could be canon. The tumblr kids love an enemies to lovers and I am no exception!!! They would be so mad. They would hate every second, they would rip up every drawing, Cartman probably would commit several hate crimes, and they'd just threaten everyone into forgetting it. Similar to Style, I want it, but I know and understand that they wouldn't give us this.

Kenny x Cartman: A weird one imo? Cartman would spend at least half the episode joking and Kenny not being able to afford him, etc, etc. Kenny would try to pretend none of it's happening and everyone would constantly be trying to shove it in his face. I specifically feel like we's also get a lot of "oh my god, they killed kenny" jokes in this one. Like, not just the one regular, Cartman would reference Kenny dying a lot (because we all know he knows) and Kenny would keep trying to kill himself and surviving, some sort of suicide compilation with funny music while Kenny throws himself off building, off bridges, in front of trucks, and Kyle and Stan are in the background getting more and more tired as Stan says "oh my god they killed kenny..." and then Kenny gets up fine and they just get more frustrated. They would 1000% be gay! It would be a part of Cartman's "redemption arc" and we'd all hate it so much!

#adhd #fanfiction #fanfic #lgbtq #south park #i cant believe im a SOUTH PARK fan

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I love fanfic because its so unlike writing books, like, if I find a book in first person I'm like "Oh ok cool this impacts my ability to read this 200,000 word book exactly 2%"

but then i find a fic in first person and I'm like "OH MY GOD WHAT KIND OF HEATHEN DO YOU THINK I AM??? *VOMITING* A WHOLE 3,000 WORDS? YOU'RE A MONSTER!"

#shitpost #fanfiction #fanfic #lgbtq #shipping problems #just dont write in first person #unless you're a real book #there's a psychological reason for this isnt there #i tell my therapist about this and she goes #oh thats a sign of disassociation #and im like #ok makes sense thx

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I'm not saying I was posessed by an Irish Grandmother for St. Patrick's Day, but I am saying this poem I wrote sounds a lot like something an irish grandmother would just have memorized by heart

I protect my home, in which I live

From all that might be nasty

I protect my kitchen, in which I eat

From illness and from famine

I protect my living room, in which I sit

From boredom or from emptiness

I protect my bathroom, wherein I cleanse myself each day from what may have gone wrong

I keep it clean and tidy and clear of any bugs

I protect my bedroom, wherein I lie when the day is done

Keep it safe from evildoers and the bitter from outside

I protect my friends' and family's too, in case they have forgotten

I protect all that I hold dear

In hopes they protect me too

#poetry #poem #short poem #looking ar you Patsy O'Brien #my own personal irish grandmother #st patricks day #where did i learn to use the word wherein

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anyone else remember that post that was like "yknow when someone says sorry for talking a lot and you just know someone looked at them and told them to shut up a d that no one cares </3" yeah i think about that alot

#adhd #rsd #probably because i have been told that #and i do apologize for talking a lot

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i wish duo names on youtube was popularized sooner.

i wish when i was talking to my friends (the voices in my head) about markiplier and jacksepticeye i could've said Watermelon Duo. i wish that was my reality.

#shitpost #fanfiction #fanfic #fanart #septiplier #i never thought i'd add that tag #shipping problems

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Angsty idea

Character A: Ok, i'll tell you, but you have to promise not to get mad at me!

Character B: ok, I promise.

For the rest of the series they have a joke where whenever B gets angry A says "but you promised not to get mad!" then at the big climax, A's betrayed B somehow...

Character B: What the hell is wrong with you?

Character A: Hey! You promised not to get mad.

#fanfic #fanfiction #writing prompt #angst prompt #short prompt #angst

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listening to jrwi bitb is fun but then i think about it and i do not think it passes the bechdel test

on the other hand, i've only seen 3 episodes of The Fated and they say more slurs than they should in that one :)))

#/lh #but also like #bro #shitpost #jrwi podcast #just roll with it #jrwi bitb #blood in the bayou #bechdel test #jrwi the fated #dont cancel them but