#“other artists are better than me”

[frenchublog]

how do you have the energy/time to colour in every piece you do? especially so detailed?

way too much turkish coffee

#i need to take a break #but for real though #i don't know i just ? draw #i draw what i love and what i always loved and i know for a fact 16 years old me would be jumping and screaming like a banshee #i'm healing my inner child #this is therapy #and in these trying times with Ai and stuff #i think this is important to cherish what we love #it's when everything is hopeless that hope is important #personal #ask box #anon ask #also yeah i'm spending more time to paint #so things take extra time haha #i think it's important to stay focused #“other artists are better than me” #sure !!! but is that gonna stop you ? #passion...you need that drive to take your pen and do stuff #not saying it's easy it's the hardest thing ever #when i was in class id say shit like “i'd love to do this...” my teacher would say “remove that ”would“ in your vocabulary #“do it” #we tend to be overcritical and have the “blank page syndrome” but “throwing up” anything on a blank canvas #is the key to start drawing #you cant do shit with nothing #you can do everything with something

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Happy Valentine's Day! (and this blog's first post anniversary!)

#poorly drawn mdzs #better drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #Woah...it's been a whole *year* since I took the leap and uploaded my 'first attempt' art. #It's outdated now but it holds a special place in my heart for the fact it started all of this off. #Calling this 'poorly-drawn' was always about accepting that my art was going to be imperfect and messy - and doing it anyways! #There has been a staggering number of times I have drawn something I almost didn't upload because I didn't think it was 'good enough' #only for someone to say they liked it - or that it made them laugh. And it has helped me realize - #-The worst critic for my work has always been myself. If I listened to it all the time...well we would not be here now B'*) #And now that I have dabbled in other fandoms I can truly see how lucky was to start out with the MXTX fans. #The supportive messages and tags have truly been a guiding force toward my artistic and self improvement. #I really can't describe how grateful I am. #Thank you for seeing something worth rooting for when I was just figuring things out. #Thank you for being sweeter than the candy I have strategically hidden in the nooks and crannies of this house. #But watch out! If you forget to find them we will get ants. #I remembered to not hide chocolate in the bed this year. Yes I know it melted last time. Yes it did stain. I'm still sorry. #Thank you for loving me regardless <3 Even if it looked like I shit the bed real bad.

[mintjeru]

there is no better advertisement than one of your favorite artists drawing art for a fandom you're not a part of. and by that i mean i finally caved and started reading the orv webtoon

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#kim dokja #yoo joonghyuk #omniscient reader's viewpoint #orv #fanart #myart #doodle #normally i don't read series in this genre especially w/ the content warnings but i've heard very good things about this one #plus one of my fav artists drew ship art of these two a while back soooo here i am 50 eps in #there is smth deeply wrong w/ these two (affectionate) #as of rn my fav characters are the army guy and the woman w/ the justice scales skill #joonghyuk is Pretty but idk much about him yet at this point in the story #i've been making bw/grayscale art recently bc i'm using my coloring energy on other things ^^;; #i can do better than this ^ this is just a means of me recording that i actually started this series lol #also i just. really wanted to try my hand at drawing joonghyuk bc he's pretty hahaha

[glitter-alienz]

Some art I did of @nerves-nebula's OCs from the webcomic loose stitches (link) 👍🏾 <- go check it outtt its so GOOD

Atchkie my love <3 (when I first saw this post I wanted to draw them in more hairstyles soo)

and this is fanart of the species + hight swap dotty & atchkie. i think they're really cute

#atchkie with twists save me #I know the braids should be waaayyy longer than that but i forgor #btw guyz.. im very sick rn (getting better) so expect more art bcuz im sitting arounddd #loose stitches comic #👽 my art #loose stitches #others ocs #atchkie #dotty #digital drawing #digital art #my artwork #my art #fanart #digital illustration #artist on tumblr #original character

[chikahoshi]

I commissioned @tikklil from Twitter/Instagram again to draw 42 Miles/42 Gwen based off @bloody-writing's fic Tonight You Belong To Me. This fic is the reason why I ship them so hard, so I think it's only fitting that I commission fanart inspired by this fic as a thank you. Hopefully, I can do some more commissions based on this fic because there are scenes that I really think is worth seeing illustrated. So fingers crossed. (As a disclaimer, I did get permission to post the commission here.)

#miles x gwen #gwiles #ghostprowler #tempted to tag ghostflower too...but i'm going to hold off from doing so #also...this isn't 100% strictly faithful to the fic... #some of this was due to my fault for not being more prepared to present the details to the artist #some of this I just thought it would be better to change some minor details... #anyways if anyone saw my post where i said i was going to take a break from commissions #depending on how my personal life goes that break might be a lot smaller than i thought it would be... #but yeah...I'm just waiting to see how that goes and if things go the way i hope it will be #then for sure you'll see some more commissions a lot sooner than i had expected :) #i will give a hint though that the next commission idea is going back to 1610 miles and 65 gwen...there's been an idea that's been stuck in #my head for a few months and i really want to see that come to life #it makes me happy thinking about so i hope it will be the same for others too

[beatcroc]

hi. vore on main. no that's it that's the post this is straight up genuinely and unironically voreposting on main. mostly just a lot of cutsey dumb goofy shit, but monsterfucker brain did get ahold of me for a bit there so there's also a handful that are uhhhh Spicy. nothing explicit, but like, It's Vore Dude, so if you look under the cut that is YOUR problem ok? ok.

ok listen before i move on i have to put it out there look i KNOW i drew the funny rat skeleton comic with this guy but that was ONLY because it was funny. thats not my real belief, he doesn't have any organs at all he is just a sack of gunk. he is harmless. it's basically just the same inside as on the outside but slightly more damp since it's not exposed to air to give him that drier 'skin' layer.

also i already typed this out in my friendserver so im pasting it here now too. my stance on fp re: horniness is i really can't see him as a 'sexual' being, per se, especially with how non-biological he is, but also he really really really likes physical intimacy so if you are giving him permission to be weird and touchy on you in any context, let alone one both parties would enjoy, i mean. he's not gonna say no. this Could be about sex or w/e if someone wanted to fuck him but more relevantly here yeah it's about vore. i think that's categorically about the Most you can be touchy/in contact on a guy so yeah thats always what he's going to go for. tangentially he just thinks it's fun to make peppino* flustered so since pep does not particularly Enjoy being vored, fp has other options to Get Up In There for something else pep might enjoy *spoken generally for whatever theoretical partner, just peppino is the one that's readily available here and fun to use

also while im here id like to say. no peppino is not a monsterfucker are you kidding me. he is not going to ever go out of his way for weirdness. weirdness really has a way of finding him though, and he's shockingly tolerant of it as long as he doesn't clock it as a threat. anyway what im saying is if you got a big clingy beast around and al up in your business all the time shits just gonna kinda Happen sometimes. he's certainly not going to Encourage it but if hes already in that situation, might as well at that point.

#pizza tower #fake peppino #no one else is getting tagged this is about him #rip to anyone going to browse my pizzaposting tag and seeing this at the top. its fine it'll get covered with normal stuff soon enough #literally next level derangement posting this from main but i have my REASONS. as follows: #1. i um. dont really have the luxury of anonymity with pt stuff. #so even if i posted this from my narsty blog people would recognize my art/content style anyway #2. i dont actually want people following my narsty blog for this #because it's suuuuuuuper inactive and i only actually draw this stuff myself like once every 3 years. so it'd be kinda pointless #3. the other cool pt artists i follow post their spicy stuff so you know what! maybe i want to too! even if it is freak shit for 3 people #4. i just think itd be funny if like 50 people unfollowed and/or blocked me for this. weeding out the weak. #if ur gonna be here u should know what youre dealing with and u better not a BITCH about stupid and weird kinks #5. if you are the 3 people the stupid and weird kink is for... i love i u kissing u #anyway if u reply some shit on here like ''wtf did i just see'' ur getting blocked. behave #i think this will maybe get [rightfully] 4 notes and if anyone actually reblogs this youre stronger than god #pizzaposting

[miutonium]

Hi hi I have returned once again to dress up my sillies in clothes they deserved to be in

Anyway timelapse undercut :3

Anyway sorry for my indecisiveness when I was drawing this I planned on making the timelapse and then I was like nah but then I was like wait a minute maybe I do wanna record so I finally give in and hit record timelapse while I was doing the shadow base 😅

#asukart #TBH its so hard for me to draw Utonium in cool clothes like why there aren't many cool loking clothes for middle aged men other than a vest #and a pants? like why cant he wear cunty dresses and skirts??? Why cant he be covered in Viviene Westwood? #WAIT what am I saying of course he can I'm an artist wdym I cant draw him in cunty dresses and skirts? ok folks that will be my next art #Chloe is always so fun for me to draw and dress up like yes she is that girl a vintage 90s karl lagerfeld chanel girl yes #realistically Chloe wouldn't be able to afford the fit with the job I put her in but I am her God #and what kind of a cruel mother am I to deny my child the imitation chanel fit that she deserves? #anyway please suggest me an outfit for Utonium I cant keep on giving him pinterest nerdy retro fashion men to my man #like he needs something better than that. Maybe icy girl winter for Utonium is him covered in YSL idk save me high fashion girlies save me #professor utonium #selfship #selfshipping #selfship community #selfshipping community #selfship art #self insert oc #self insert community #self insert art #oc x canon #si x canon #ppg professor

[quikyu]

I finished Kirby Triple Deluxe

#kirby triple deluxe #taranza #kirby #quikyu artiste #Mischaracterization warning lol I apologize for making Kirby such an ass #Speaking of mischaracterization Taranza did NOT act how i thought he was going to act. He started speaking proper english & my eyes boggled #But it’s okay i still think he is very very adorable I love him #ALSO… THEY’RE NOT HORNS… THEY’RE PINCERS… HORNAT HOLOW KNIGHT LEVELS OF BUG IN DISGUISE #I’m probably going to have to 100 percent the game in order to get some better ending or secret or whatever but i’m such a noob #Anyways. Was an alright game. Wish they didn’t do that exposition dump all at the end #but other than that the only other qualms i had was concerning me not being a gamer Lol #This game was probably way harder than it should’ve been XD

[intotheelliwoods]

Gonna ask this to a few people that inspire me, but how do you take inspiration from things without feeling like whatever you make is just bad in comparison? Or like a downgraded version of the thing(s) that inspired you?

(If this is too negative feel free to delete/ignore, I'm sorry)

Oh gosh this is such an interesting question since, I dont think I really have feelings of thinking my version is bad? Or that I am just a copy?

I am honestly just grateful my work became as popular as it is in the first place haha- low expectations going in to begin with. That and, I am very aware my art style isnt as defined and polished as other peoples styles, but I have come to terms with this! And hey the improvement in my own artwork over the past year is a massive trip if you go back through some of my older stuff- I am improving, slowly.

I mean, 2AL started by complete accident, and was "inspired" from me wishing the Leos from OMO or MNMC would hug it out already- but if you were to compare 2AL to one of those, they are very different. Hell even comparing OMO and MNMC, same starting point, but still very different.

I think my only advice to other people trying to make an AU is to try and find some core theme/idea and work around that, rather than gather a bunch of little things from other sources you like into a big pile. Find some key message to start up a base with.

#asks #no seriously 2al was by COMPLETE accident #and then it exploded so I kept it going #oh well #also like!!!! #seriously #the people you are probably comparing yourself too #chances are just have wayyy more experience and practice than you #like!!!! dude sometimes it hits me how many of my friends and other “big blogs” are either #1. professional artists who do this shit for a living anyways #or 2. have been drawing digitally for way way longer than me #digital art is still new territory for me so I am giving myself some slack here #that and I have no interest in art for a career #this is just my side hobby! #yknow!!!! #for FUN!!!!!!!!!!!! #and wheres the fun in going #“damn this person who has years more experience than me and draws for a living is... somehow better at drawing than me this is so unfair” #answer: theres no fun in that #but also fr- #I have only been doing digital art consistently (in this style specifically) for. #a year- #deadass. #I have not done much art before all this outside notebook paper doodles #and the occasional once every month or two painting #all this is so new to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #im learning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #I deserve to give myself so so much slack!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #I have also improved so much in the past year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #oops tag ramble

[fuckinart]

The most important factor in toxicity is the chemical structure of a substance—what it is made of, what atoms and molecules it contains and how they are arranged.

#Danny Phantom #Danny Fenton #art #comic #sketch #artists on tumblr #yeah i've decided to just post the sketches instead of the touch up because i like the former better #anyways here's Understanding Toxic Substances the comic i've been dying over for months & months now #i was researching for FOtPoD & came across this PDF & kinda got possessed by my DP hyperfixation #never drew a comic so fast before #anyway all of this was drawn in one go with like. no touching up or anything so excuse weird anatomy #other than that i think it's good for a sketch. usually for me at least one panel ends up looking super duper fucked up #i gotta also finish the black bear FOtPoD comic & also the gay marriage & boy best friends one or whatever it's called #i'd also like to finish the Laika comic even though I already wrote it into a fic to avoid making the comic #so many comics i need to make & i'm sure i'm forgetting some

[theswedishpajas]

The man truly can’t take a genuine compliment 🙄

#my art stuff #digital art #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #astarion #astarion ancunin #this is part of a series I like to call “I’m never settling on a singular detailed artstyle” #I have no consistency in drawing realistic people/characters other than my shapy cartoon style #but I truly don’t get enough opportunity to properly shade anything with art in that style-!!! it always looks weird to me-!!!!! #I think some rude lil worm in my brain is wriggling around telling me it’s a futile attempt at still doing realism #cus I’m one of those “gifted” artists that grew up promising his parents he’ll end up among the big names or whatever #constantly training to become better at art but with realism oil paintings as the goal #you know how it is 😔 #I wanna shade my lil funky designs but they never feel good enough to really put energy into or whatever so I compromise with stuff - #- like this where I try to draw characters more accurately while still stylizing them and shading them however I feel like it #which is great and all but I should really learn to give my more relaxed and less perfectionist art a chance #I deserve to enjoy the process and the result without working myself dead #it’s so much easier and rewarding to copy cartoon styles - stylizing realism makes me too anxious of doing it “wrong” #at least cartoon styles give me a goal to reach or a reference to strive towards #man I really should just cut myself some slack altogether #either way - this man is a flustered mess and he’s embarrassed about being called adorable in public or something #being teased in an affectionate way about his sweeter side and stuff #don’t ask why he’s shirtless - anatomy is just a lot more fun for me to draw sometimes #tasteful nudity and all that is extremely gorgeous to me #i need to practice anatomy more cus I just kinda did some shit and went with it this time with a BIT of consideration for muscle structure

[bayonettas-tits]

#rinblings #polls #tumblr polls #for me digital is easier other than maybe the initial sketch #while I think my traditional art tends to come out better when I can finish something #artist on tumblr #artists on tumblr

[c0smiccom3t]

Coco, my best friend,, coco my comfort character,, baby me would've loved you !!

#crash bandicoot #fanart #coco bandicoot #shes definitely autistic. i dont make the rules. #also im still mad for how SOME people in the fandom are treating her. like. THATS A MINOR. #anyway. i love the comfort she and her brother crash give me. cortex may be number 1 in my favorite characters in this series. #but her and crash??? they both are in second-and-a-half place! #art #artists on tumblr #furry #doodles #the tism is strong with this one #crash bandicoot 4 its about time #speaking of. her design in its about time is SO COOL. I LOVE HER. #she deserves so much better and im glad she got the spotlight along with her brother than just being a minor role... #looking at you twinsanity mind over mutant crash of the titans and other classic games. #crash bandicoot fanart #also i might draw Cortex next. Why? Because he's my all-time favorite thats why. #also im doing that crash cartoon pitch if i ever have the time. #also you BET im drawing more crash bandicoot fanart. i need to draw the sillies a lot!!!!!! IM NOT SHUTTING UP ABOUT THEM. EVER. #btw hello fellow crash enjoyers i know you're out there pls follow if you like my content and also i would love to make more crash mutuals

[synthshenanigans]

Made a google doc for anyone who needs references of HMS/CJ to draw them all!

Here :}

#i hope it works correctly lol #if anyone has some that i don't have 100% chill with you sending it to me via an ask/dm #might take a sec to put it in but will do #also if cj ever knows bout it and doesn't want a google doc of just his face #im also 100% with deletin it #anyways have fun other artists #better than having to constantly look through like 5-7 videos just to know what his outfit was once #chonny jash

[tenshouining]

Day 2 - Transition. A conversation with your future self. colourless ver. under rm !!

#Trans Jayce Week 2023 #jayce giopara #jayce league of legends #league of legends #arcane league of legends #league of legends fanart #transtism real #i have a class early tomorrow soooo i finished this at a . more REASONABLE time today #tonight? idk. whatever. slay #transition #jayce talis #thats who this ! is supposed to be specifically but itse fine it works either way itll do teehee #meowing loudly . the colours on this gave me sooo much trouble #fun pose!!!!!!!!!!!!! colouring makes me murderous #man of progress my ass. man of horrible colur harmonies and unessesary additions to the pallette (looking at you yellow sock) #BUT !! all in all i Guess i like this piece :] itse a more ambitious pose than id usually try and!! other than the legs floating a bit it #has pretty !! decent contact points ect i think so :) #figure studies my belobved youve made me a much better man #i am this close to putting vik + jayce into some sort of artist au thing because autism begs me to mix special interests #viktors the type of freak to learn about sine waves and proper physics terms to properly animate a dress in the wind or something #them working in a studio together? i am crazy. i am insane. autism is overtaking me. im half human and half foxy /ref #shoutout to me for talking so much in thesetags also. stay winning jase nation. if you read to the end of these you get a prize

[ganondoodle]

the way i think about my stories can be so annoying bc there will be a point when i reach a certain story beat after which i dont know how to continue, and the way i do find are usually ... not good .. or i imagine it is not so i think man i cant do that thats so dumb and annoying i gotta think of something better, but then i cant come up with anything better bc once i got a solution to soemthign i cant think of anything smarter- and then i get bored of it as a whole bc man, this really was stupid from the start wasnt it

(this is all some stupid rambling and does NOT represent anythign that will happen in destiny, i swear the actual story with a proper end makes much more sense)

listen to me rambling but this morning i thought about the essentialyl non-canon good "ending" of destiny, a kind of self indulgent dumb lil alternative where everyone lives blah blah, but then of course it cant just end there, bc the end goal of the both of them is to find out the gods plan and secrets and also kill the gods, as you do, then i got a certain point that i found cool (which initially came from the whole thoguht of what if zelda game but you could play demise and it took place after the alternative ending in which the goal is to get rid of the gods) where the fight one of the gods but are kinda losing and as the god is trying to devour demise, as gods do, he abandons his body and his spirit/core, who cant exist without his body so hes still connected through the spirits tail , and climbs through the gods interdimensional weird 'mouth' while its trying to rip him apart to reach the core of the god in a last attempt to take them down with him, while hylia is fighting to keep the god from severing the thin connection he still has to his body but fails just as he reaches the core so the god is killed but his core is immediatelly starting to dissolve and hylia manages to grab his core and put it back into his body and flee from whatever is happeing to that dead god back into hyrule

he survives but is incredibly weak as his spirit has lost half of itself (blade spirits are also forged throguh sacrificing part of their spirit/core permantently but this is besides the point, none of this makes sense anyway), something he obviously hates but cant do anything about really, once a part of their core is gone its gone (not like lost energy but gone gone) but the core is also slowly dissolving further which is a death sentence with no way to act against- then theres a whole quest to .. well, stop that, while hes falling back into self hatred and fear bc hes now so weak that hylia can break his bones without any effort if she were to treat him in any way similar to before and to a deity that all their life was never so fragile, one whos most defining feature IS his power and strength to keep going no matter what, thats gotta be pretty existentially dreadful (and also its a set back to know that they cant just go fight the gods together like that, theres still two more and he cant fight like that)

then i wondered ok what if then, even if the time doesnt quite line up but at this point the entire prophecy cant be done anymore either so everythings out of order, the cloud barrier weakens and zelda is abducted (not by ghirahim) and link goes and tries to find her, but since everythigns not as it should have been he meets hylia and demise (disguised tho) and they immediately know who he is and then go along and try to help link find his friend (hylia does it bc she got the idea to make him find the triforce and wish demises spirit to be restored, since only a mortal can do that and links the most likely candidate to be able to go through the trials of it since he was supposed to already, even if the circumstances are different- demise goes along with it bc hes still trying to deal with essentially slowly dying and not knowing what to do with himself since hes afraid to get into fights or similar, much to his disdain, so hes acting like a companion of sorts, a mentor figure in a way, not knowing what hylias plan is)

i found the idea kinda interesting to have them be like a lil group that goes on links adventured with him, but with strangely intricate knowledge of how the dungeons work, link still doing the heavy lifting but them being there like parents cheering on their kid in a competetion, all the while putting the whole puzzle and dungeon aspect in a way different light bc half of them were never completed (they wanted to escape the prophecy after all) so they all work completely differently, some bosses being maybe some of the gods creatures instead (like the skysw guardians)- the mid journey point being that they find zelda, and who kidnapped her, it being one of the shiekah having most closely worked with hylia before the whole -break the prophecy- thing started (idk if it would be impa .. idea is neat) and is hellbent on making the gods plan work out like it was supposed to, kinda like the inverse of the games plot, so they got ahold of zelda as part of making her into the new hylia (despite hylia being .. right there, but they dont believe it is her truly since the true tm hylia would never betray the gods- ALSO a paralel to how the downfall of demises world worked bc his mortals turned on him after he started destroying their version of the triforce in the belief destroying it would be the only way to save mortals from going to war agaisnt each other for it over and over, mortals believing that their true deity was gone and replaced by a demon despite demise being ..right there)

after link wins the fight and frees zelda from them they in a kind of last effort to do anything against their group they stab demise, normally that wouldnt do shit against him but in his already fading away situation it basically puts him from very slowly dying to actually dying, as a reaction to it hylia kills the mortal (maybe impa idk), which is the first time she does anything like that to a mortal but i like the idea of her being actually super ruthless when it comes to things she cares about

now with a much more dire time limit hylia sends demise back to essentialyl go hide in her temple and try to not die and to trust her having a plan to make this all still work out- he does and once he is away she reveals pretyt much the entire story around why and what is happenign to link and zelda, hylia herself cant go above the clouds as the barrier is still partially up and she cant do anything to reach the triforce either - so she sends link and zelda to go do that, and it works out in the end bc even knowing the truth know, demise was with them on half of their journey so they know and care, he WILL be mad about them wasting their wish on him (even if he is still happy to be alive- i imagined scene where hes watching himself fall apart and die, alone in hylias temple, having to come to terms with the fact that after everything they had went through hed still die alone- it made me cry while thinking about it, yes, yes you are allowed to laugh)

i didnt get that much further but his spirit was essentially reset to when he was in his prime back in the day through the triforces power- something he both likes and despises, it being the gods power of all things that lets him live again, but also lol to use it agaisnt them by giving another chance to the gods greatest enemy- the next plan is of course to kill the next one of the gods but much better prepared, as they cant just go and do the same thign again (neither wants that), one idea was that hylia goes on a secret quest to try and bring back courage (the third deity that demise killed when his world was still thriving) but it involves diving back into the realm of the gods so she doesnt tell him at first, i do think theyd go together in the end, not to fight but to release courage; the whole thing is also an elaborate revenge plot of hylia, how dare the gods do that to him!!

anyway thats most of what i got from that thinking session but its so frustrating bc none of this is even in the actual comic (since it ends in a way that leads into canon skysw, this is some brain fart nooo i want blorbo to live and succeed!!) and its also convoluted and kinda dumb, the idea to inverse the games plot in a way (instead of it being ghirahim trying to bring demise back its someones plan to make the gods prophecy happen no matter what) is neat but i cant have demise almost dying be the thing THREE TIMES, it kinda undercuts his character and is way too much centered around him, all three times also more or less involving it needing help from others to get him back, when his whole thing should be being unkillable bc he jsut keeps refusing to die, also hylia is, as of now in this spaghetti derailment of random thoughts, way too much of a side character, which i dont like, and it all would make people not like demise when im trying to do the exact opposite of that in the main actual comic

i know being super self indulgent and jsut doing what you want is good for the most part but theres a point where it becomes stale cringy fantasies about my blorbo tm and i wanna write at least decent stories- in the end none of this matters anyway as the actual REAL story of destiny is already pretty long and i got no plan to write that alternative 'good ending' anyway and i mostly just thought about it bc "i dont want blorbo to die :(" and "wouldnt it be fun if the entire plot of the game would get messed up and now demise link hylia and zelda etc can all just drink tea together and make plans to get rid of the gods that wanted them all to suffer needlessly"

i probably shouldnt post this as it was really only a vent to get out dumb thoughts from my brain before they poison me into losing interest of the biggest comic project i have worked on so far but i am unable to keep these things to myself so

if you read all of this, im sorry (´。＿。｀)

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #dare i tag it as that #long post #dont read unless you want to cringe #and yes i know even bad art and stories have value #and i know im not as bad as i always think #but this really is the kind of stuff that makes me embarrassed to even be able to think #its all shortened and badly written #but some scenes i got so clearly in my head its like a movie #and those scenes make my brain go wooooooooooooooooo even if they make no sense and i cant fit them together properly #uh oh self doubt #sorry im neither a professional artist nor writer #im autistic with a blorbo and one skill that i only have bc i didnt know what to do with my brains rapid train of thoughts other than draw #big time for “oh no i made people think i am better than i actually am- i am a liar and a cheater oh god” kind of thoughts #the want to just do whatever you want VS wanting to make soemthing of value VS not wanting to embarrass yourself