#(i do not feel strongly about it but my friends default to 'they' as a base pronoun and refer to me as such often and I always respond so)

[the-real-list-of-ominous-threats]

tell me your pronouns or so god help me I will

legitimate question what pronouns would you guys diagnose me with based off vibes

#any pronouns you diagnose me with i will gain. it's like an egregore where if you believe it comes true. #sorry to disappoint everyone but my pronouns are boring old she/her (arguably she/they) #(i do not feel strongly about it but my friends default to 'they' as a base pronoun and refer to me as such often and I always respond so)

[bbyquokka]

kisses with skz

– how skz would kiss yn !!

𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆 | ot8 x gender-neutral reader

𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐑𝐄 | fluff, smut – 18+ is strongly advised!

𝐂𝐖 | established and unestablished relationships, inexperience reader, drunk kissing, suggestive themes, sub themes, jealousy, masturbation (m rec), grinding, dry humping, lots and lots of kissing!

𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐒 | 1.8k ~ ( 1,882 )

𝐀/𝐍 | happy valentines day! here is my gift to you!! ‹3‹3 don’t forget to leave feedback, reblog and tell me what you think here. curious as to what is next? here is my wips list! i hope you all enjoy! ‹3

m.list — you can also read it on my ao3

dont repost. dont translate. minors, ageless & default blogs; dni! feedback and reblogs are highly advised and appreciated!

𝐁.𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐍 – the type to start slow and steady. he would touch you first. his hands gliding along your skin. it gives you goosebumps. his hands running along your curves, fingertips soaking in every detail. he'd lean in and let his lips brush along your neck first. he'd inhale your scent before peppering soft and gently kisses along the skin before trailing his lips to your jawline where he'd pepper kisses along it until finally, he'd kiss your lips. it'd be slow, gentle and warm. lips moving together perfectly, slotting together like you're made for one another. hands continuing to caress your hot and flush skin. you’d feel tingly with excitement, wondering where this will all lead to. he’d be so gentle with you but at the same time a bit harsh and rough. the hunger that chan feels for you the longer his lips are caressing yours, increases bit by bit. he’d squeeze your curves, soaking in every detail that brushes against his fingertips. 

𝐋.𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖 – he'd be the one to teach you. you'd let him know that you've never kissed or made out with someone before. minho would be a little surprised at first but offers to teach you. you two are nothing more than friends so you'd have to think about it, outweighing the positives and the negatives of kissing your best friend. you wouldn't know what to do but decide to say fuck it. you only live once and just go along with it. minho has a huge crush on you so he will admit that he took advantage of the situation but he never thought you'd agree to it. you'd be shaking, nerves ripping you apart. minho would cup your cheeks and tell you to take deep breaths. “it’s ok. it’s only me. we don't have to do this if–” his sentence would be cut short by you squeezing your eyes and pushing your lips against his. it's uncomfortable and not what you expected it to be. it’s just all teeth and lips. you could feel the outline of his two front teeth from how hard you pressed your lips against his. minho would just laugh and instead, hold you close and press his lips against yours gently. you'd freeze, not sure on what to do. “just do what feels natural.” he'd whisper against your lips. his thumb would stroke your cheek and soothe you. you'd hold onto his shoulders and just relax. your nerves are still apparent but the longer minho kisses you, the more you feel yourself melt into him. his soft lips, his hands on your cheeks; it's so much but you don't hate it. you'd pull away from one another before staring and laughing to yourselves softly.

𝐒.𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐁𝐈𝐍 – a drunken kiss. you and changbin got invited to jisung's frat party. lots of booze, people and loud music. both of you have had a little too many shots and cheap liquor. you, changbin, jisung and a few others would be the only ones left standing. it's two am and jisung would have this ‘amazing’ idea of truth or dare. you'd be feeling a little risky (thanks to the alcohol in your veins) so dare it is. “i dare you to kiss someone of your choice.” you'd look around, shrug and walk to changbin. he'd give you a smirk, pull up flush against his body and kiss you. you'd be shocked at the sudden confidence but you'd soon find yourself melting into the kiss. it's a simple, five second kiss so it's over way too soon for you. soon, everyone gets bored of truth or dare so everyone decides to call it a night and sleep… except you and changbin. you're straddling him, half naked. naked chest pressed against his. his hands on your ass, cupping and squeezing it firmly. the kiss is heavy, hot and sloppy. it's nothing but saliva, teeth and tongues but it's enough to make you both feel very aroused and wanting more of each other.

𝐇.𝐇𝐘𝐔𝐍𝐉𝐈𝐍 – hyunjin loves to give you small and quick pecks. a peck on the cheek, a peck on the nose or a peck on the lips. you could be cooking or cleaning or even just lounging around the apartment, hyunjin would give you a sweet peck whenever and wherever he can. and you'd do the same. when you see him in his studio, hair up in a ponytail and dressed in an old t-shirt and denim dungarees that's coated in dried paint, you'd walk behind him, wrap your arms around his midriff and peck his cheeks. “missed me, darling? because i've missed you.” when he's feeling lustful and just wants you, his kisses remain tender and sweet. he could be thrusting in and out of you roughly, hips stuttering and bodies hot and sweaty,  but his lips on yours are so tender, soft and slow. it's enough to make you melt into him and want more. he treats you with such care and attention because he adores, treasures and loves you so so much. afterwards, he would pepper your sweaty face with kisses and whisper sweet and loving words to you, telling you how beautiful you are. hyunjin loves kisses but he loves them even more when they're on you and from you.

𝐇.𝐉𝐈𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐆 – sloppy. messy. greedy and needy. it's no surprise that jisung is a greedy and messy guy when it comes to things like this and it's no different when it comes to kissing. he's so full of lust and need for you that it overpowers him and clouds his mind. his rational thinking is out of the window as soon as his lips are on yours. his tongue invading the inside of your mouth. saliva pooling and spilling from the corners. lips swollen and kiss bitten. he'd pepper your neck with kisses and bruises whilst grinding on you. he'd be so whiny too. he'd be whimpering and clinging onto you, begging for more. he wants to take care of you but at the same time be taken care of, so depending on the mood and how he is feeling, you could end up with a very whiny and subby jisung. “... p-please take care me, yn. i’ve been a good boy.” his body would shiver and feel like it's on fire as you'd tease him with kisses first. kiss his round cheeks and nose before trailing down his neck to his chest. you'd kiss his pecs, giving the skin an occasional suck to leave bruises and his hard nipples a suck that's enough to leave jisung bucking his hips and wanting more. you'd trail the kisses down to his stomach where you'd kiss his soft tummy and bite his waist gently. he'd be bucking his hips up into you, grinding the air desperately and tears trickling from the corner of his eyes. he'd be a sobbing, whimpering mess burnt with desire and lust. “p-please yn. please, i need you.”

𝐋.𝐅𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐗 – aftercare kisses are a must with felix. he'd be so tender and gentle with you after a night of love making. even if he hasn't been rough with you and it's been a simple, vanilla night, he would still kiss you so tenderly as if he's scared you'll break in front of him. he'd kiss each and every love bite and bruise on you, whispering how sorry he is and how he is going to take good care of you. sometimes (when one round isn't enough) he'd be sitting in bed leaning against the headboard. he'd watch you come out of the bathroom all washed and ready for sleep. you'd crawl onto the bed for felix to beckon you with two fingers, grab the back of your head and kiss you roughly. it's all tongue and teeth, his grip on you harsh. he'd pull you onto his lap, move your hips fast so you grind on him whilst keeping his lips on you. it's game over at this point and you're at his beck and call once again

𝐊.𝐒𝐄𝐔𝐍𝐆𝐌𝐈𝐍 – he can’t stand you so the thought of kissing you makes his skin crawl. however, he finds himself late at night imagining your soft lips on his. he imagines melting into you and you into him. he imagines holding up and caressing you. he hates you because he wants you but he'd never admit that to anyone, not even his close friends. however, when minho invites himself round to his place and invites you along with him, seungmin’s calm and peaceful world turns chaotic. you're in his home and just driving him insane. he's anxious but also very excited as well as jealous. the way you laugh at minho’s stupid jokes or give his bicep a squeeze is enough for jealousy to bubble in the pit of seungmin’s stomach. he'd have to excuse himself, go to his bedroom and fish his hard, leaking penis out of his pants. eyes closed, fist around his shaft as he strokes himself to the thoughts of you. he moans and groans, head kicking back and whispering your name. he wants your lips on his, kissing and sucking on him. he wants to taste you and swallow every moan the spills past your lips. he wants it all and he hates that about him so he hates you too. he just hopes that when he leaves the bathroom, you’re not there so he can go back to his calm and peaceful life.

𝐘.𝐉𝐄𝐎𝐍𝐆𝐈𝐍 – two people who have never kissed anyone in their lives. both of you would be so nervous. palms sweaty, throat dry, body shaking. everything feels so awkward and tense. both of you asked friends about what to do and what to expect with everyone saying the same thing “just do what feels natural!” but what is that exactly? two very nervous people sat face to face on jeongin’s couch, you give each other nervous smiles and awkward laughs. jeongin wipes his palms on his jeans, your hands are bundled into fist. you'd look up at him to speak before feeling lips being pressed against yours forcefull (the last thing you see is jeongin's eyes squeezed shut) it's not as good as what you both expected it to be so when he pulls away, you both feel a little disappointed. moments of painful silence would pass by before you gain the courage to take his sweaty palm in yours, lean forward and gently kiss him. it's better than the first time, still uncoordinated and inexperienced, but better. with a shaky hand, jeongin would place his hand on your cheek and stroke it gently as you slowly shuffle into his lap to decrease the distance between you both. you'd both start to get into it, slowly increasing the pace and adding tongues. both of you getting hot and bothered, panting a little and becoming lightheaded as you'd both forget to breathe. you'd shakily hold onto his shoulders and bravely take the chance to grind on him whilst kissing him. his hips would buck up into yours and he'd help you pick up the pace until you're both panting and humping one another through clothing. both of you being inexperienced and feeling new, exciting feelings means that once it's started; it's quickly over. 

#kwritersworldnet #wkcnet #straykidsland #skz smut #stray kids smut #skz fluff #stray kids fluff #skz x you #stray kids x you #chan x you #minho x you #changbin x you #hyunjin x you #felix x you #jisung x you #seungmin x you #jeongin x you #skx headcannons #skz scenarios

[antimony-medusa]

"They're honestly so sibling-coded."

I grew up in a conservative, rural area where people got married young. It was not uncommon to see marraiges happen when the people involved were 19, 20, 21, and there was this sort of expectation that any relationship you were in in your teen years had like a 70% chance of leading to marriage. More, if you were especially religious. This attitude was so pervasive that if a woman was friends with a man, or even hung out together, there was this automatic societal assumption that you were early relationship, which led into late relationship, which led into where you were going to get married, which led into babies and a family.

And I hated it. I hated it because I was aroace and didn't know it yet, but even just as a baby feminist feeling out what it meant to be a woman and how I was perceived in the world, I hated the assumption that all my m/f relationships were only worth something if they were leading to romance and marriage (and babies). The idea that men and women couldn't be friends, because men only thought about women in a romantic/sexual way, was actively taught me by everyone from pastors to helpful older coworkers. I even got told that f/f friendships were basically killing time until you got into a romantic m/f relationship, which is where you'd find actual fullfilment and happiness. It sucked.

And then I moved away, and I got out of the conservative religious circles, and then in my 20s, people kept saying the same thing. At least it wasn't saying "god made you for relationships (and babies)," but it was still saying that y'know, men are only interested in one thing, and it's cruel to lead them on, and so on, and so forth. Half of the world is going to only think of you in terms of what you're good for in relation to their relationship status, and the other half of the world is going to tell you to suck it up and deal with it.

This is still the background radiation of much of the world, still. I am getting this less in my 20s because many of my male friends are married, (or gay), but still, as soon as I meet someone new the interested looks start to pile in. As a person who doesn't plan on getting into a romantic relationship, I do not love this.

Immediately seeing a m/f friendship and going "ooooo they're KISSING" is not respectful of the guy's ability to have friendships with people he's not having sex with, but let's look at what it messages about the girl in this scenario.

A) women are only worth talking about in terms of what they can do to for men, what they are in connection with men B) friendship is unimportant and not real, women only exist to be romance options

So I feel strongly about allowing women to be percieved as their own beings and have cross-gender friendships without turning it into romance.

This is not an uncommon take on the internet! I see a lot of people talking about allowing people to be friends without defaulting to shipping.

But I don't know how to tell you that seeing a m/f relationship and saying "Oh they're siblings", when we're talking about celebrities/streamers is still sending a lot of the same messages. The core thing you're communicating is still the same. It's falling into the same traps.

I get the sense that a lot of people see a relationship they want to sort of celebrate and enjoy, and they know that shipping is bad, so they just shunt the "oh they're special to each other" to the left into a family dynamic. I will just say they're siblings, that way nobody can accuse me of shipping, and I'm good!

But what this does is still messages a) woman are reduced down to their relationship with a man, into what they can do for the man, and b) friendship is unimportant and not real, women only exist to be non-romanceable family and the rest of them, the romance options.

If the only way you can conceive of a woman as being important to a man is either being romantic/sexual with him or by saying that they're related, that's still bad. If you literally have to put one of the strongest relationship taboos in our culture in the way or you'll just default into kissing I guess, that's still messaging some really concerning things about how you're portrating women.

And once inside the family dynamics, jesus fuck, you guys. Family dynamics have such a trend to slot women into nurturing and protective roles, where the "older sister" "is the one with the brain cell" and "will take care of him" and will be there suborned to his story to be a surrogate mother figure that takes care of him. This, frankly, sucks.

I am an older sister as a fairly important part of my identity. I love being an older sister. But the way this fandom treats older sisters as tiny non-sexual mothering machines with no interiority or autonomy is not good at all, when it comes to actively respecting women as people.

Honestly, I don't like either option, but when you look at how women get treated when sisterified in fanon (older responsible figure who will take care of our precious baby boy) and how women get treated when shipped (mothering options still exist here but also sometimes they dom him), I might prefer the shipping. And I just did a whole multi paragraph about how much the shipping sucks!

I'm not even going to get into what happens when women get actively assigned mom in a family dynamic. All the worst parts of shipping with none of the fun smut.

I am aware I am talking about the worst excesses of family dynamic here, because this fandom offers lots to choose from, and there are ways to do family dynamic in a good way. Some of the most important relationships in my life are familial, and when actually delved into, you can absolutely still portray a full and nuanced portrayal within a family dynamic. This is a possibility. But god, when I look at the fandom trends and what rises to the top of my dash, oof.

And like, there's a larger trend in this fandom where people seem to be incapable of thinking of friendships as valuable and worthy, if you see them as important to each other it must be familial, but when you do it with women, damn.

Can we give seeing women as full autonomous being who are capable of their own opinions and desires a shot? See them as more than just romance options or [illegal to romance] options? Just let them be friends? Please?

#discourse #fandom meta

[faulty-writes]

Could you do iida, todoroki, and Midoriya with a s/o or friend with trichotillomania? If you dont know what that is, it’s a condition where the person has the uncontrollable urge to pick out/off hair and skin. If you don’t want to, you don’t have to!

[ As a psychology student, requests like these always fascinate me. Like it's so unusual but it is a problem that should have more awareness. I was actually surprised by how much I learned about trichotillomania. Fun fact, if you look at the DSM (Big book about disorders and such) Trichotillomania is classified under Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder as a relatable disorder and can also be referred to as "Hair-Pulling Disorder." ]

As most could imagine, Tenya treated your "condition" with the utmost understanding and support that was only heightened when he conducted research and gathered information regarding the possible causes of it, and the coping mechanisms behind it.

"I understand that safety and comfort are essential in aiding one with your condition. As such I will ensure that you always feel secure and relaxed in my presence without prejudice!" He stated with a smile, continuing to chop his hand through the air and you appreciated knowing that he, in a sense, could be your safe spot.

"Perhaps we can employ this coping strategy next," he suggested. The fact that he remained encouraging and acted as a pillar of guidance and support and helped you find effective and non-harmful coping methods to better manage your condition meant a lot to you.

"Please allow me to assist you, I am quite skilled in disinfecting wounds and such," when he happened to notice the, often bloody, marks on your skin from constant picking, he'd gently persuade you to allow him to clean them. While you felt a little embarrassed because he was bringing attention to your condition, he assured you there was nothing to be embarrassed about.

When he noticed you becoming uneasy or beginning to scratch at your skin or pull at your hair, he reminded you that it was okay to talk about your feelings or he would distract you by bringing up the subject of school or if there was something you wanted to do with him over the weekend.

"I believe that while certain conditions require extensive therapeutical or pharmaceutical methods, you possess an immense amount of inner strength and that your present condition does not define your worth," his encouraging words weren't always what you wanted to hear, but the fact that he believed in you so strongly made you want to try and conquer your condition once and for all.

Shoto was the observant type. Unfortunately, he was also the type to bluntly say or ask whatever came to mind as was the case with you. "Why are you pulling your hair and skin?" But you were too embarrassed and defensive to tell him then and left him without an answer which made him more confused.

After researching, he figured out, or rather assumed, that you were suffering from trichotillomania. He didn't tell you this, of course, but he continued to take the time to educate himself on the condition and the possible ways he could help you without being judgmental.

He was still unsure about how to support you. But much like him, he decided that giving you space was the best course of action. At the same time, he was always ready to be there when your condition heightened, and you sought comfort.

"Um, well we could...uh," he would attempt to try and distract you from your condition on occasion, although he was unclear what exactly to do. He tended to default to certain activities he knew you enjoyed or embraced you as a form of silent comfort until you felt better.

"Maybe you could seek professional help?" You detested the idea of seeing a therapist but knew Shoto only suggested it because he was concerned about your well-being and felt inadequate trying to help you alone.

You noticed that despite the ups and downs brought about by your condition, Shoto never treated you or your relationship any differently. Whether that was intentional or not was unknown, but you appreciated that he remained accepting and loving during your trichotillomania journey.

Izuku seemed aware of your emotional state, and the subtle cues you indicated through your body language. He also noticed you picking at your skin or plucking hair out of your head.

Being the type of person that he is, he begins to document your symptoms and conduct research, all of which he writes in a small notebook dedicated to you. When he believed he had enough information, he presented it to you. "I k-know it might be strange! B-but...if this is...w-what's bothering you, I...I w-want to...I will help you!" His inner hero wouldn't allow him to do anything else.

Despite All Might merchandise taking up at least 95% of his room, he designated it as your safe spot. He'd encourage you to sit on the bed and cradle your hands, asking you to let all your worries go and tell him what had been bothering you as of late. He sought to find a correlation between your emotions and your condition.

"J-just remember, you're...y-you're an amazing hero and or uh, you w-will be and I...I believe in you!" One of the methods of overcoming trichotillomania was to make the individual feel safe and help them recognize their worth. As such, he tried to incorporate positive affirmations whenever possible to help you.

"H-here, maybe this will help t-too," he gave you something of his that could act as a source of comfort and help you at least stop picking at your skin so much. This something happened to be his Air Force gloves that were normally used for his costume, and it was a sacrifice he was all too happy to make.

He was a constant source of inspiration for you, and the fact that he continued to help on your journey to recovery while remaining supportive and loving was something you appreciated and used as a motivator to overcome your condition once and for all.

#tenya x female reader #tenya x you #tenya x y/n #tenya x reader #tenya iida x reader #iida x reader #iida x male reader #iida x y/n #bnha x reader #bnha x y/n #bnha x you #iida x you #shoto x you #shoto x y/n #shoto x reader #todoroki x reader #todoroki x y/n #todoroki x you #izuku x y/n #izuku x reader #izuku x you #midoriya x y/n #midoriya x reader #midoriya x you #faulty writes: tenya iida: 23 #faulty writes: tenya iida: headcanons: 23 #faulty writes: shoto todoroki: 23 #faulty writes: shoto todoroki: headcanons: 23 #faulty writes: izuki midoriya: 23 #faulty writes: izuku midoriya: headcanons: 23

[aro-comics]

Maybe More People Are Arospec (Part 1)

Maybe More People Are Arospec, 1/4 - I return, a month later with increasingly spicy takes 😩

... anwyay, welcome to my new series! 🐸🐸 It’s again something that’s been in the works for a while (hence the hairstyle change lol, I started drawing this 4 months ago). As for the comic itself, I think most of what I have to say about the subject will come in the next few parts, so please bear with me as I try to get it out while I deal with studio chaos 😭

For this particular l post - I did want to talk about how much pressure exists, socially, to go out with other people even when you’re not exactly “feeling it”. While the example illustrated is a bit … direct 😅 (though I feel like I’ve seen this exact plot at LEAST once in a sitcom), it unfortunately is a sentiment I feel, at least, that amatonormativity pushes onto people. And whether it’s something someone pressures themselves into, or is peer pressured by others into - it’s always confused me why anyone would think it’s a good idea. If someone doesn't seem ready to go on a date/pursue some kind of romantic action ... why should they feel any pressure to do so? If they do have feelings and they're not ready, the date will only be more enjoyable if they're in the right frame of mind. And if they don't have feelings ... why should they force themselves to do that? 😭😭😔

I don't know, I guess it makes me question, like why is it that choosing to stay single is always seen as the “boring” and “sad” option? And perhaps more importantly, why is it generally socially acceptable to pressure someone into doing anything they may not want to? 🤷🏻‍♀️

[Image Description:

Slide 1: Celia sits on a green armchair in a living room, speaking to the reader, "You know, I’ve thought about it quite a bit, and I have a flaming hot take -"

Slide 2: "MAYBE more people are actually arospec! And they just don’t realize it?"

A chibi version of Celia stands presenting the take, which is hand lettered in a large font.

Slide 3: Celia continues speaking, "Amatonormativity doesn’t even let people consider the possibility of no romantic feelings at all whatsoever -"

Slide 4: If you’re not straight, then you must be by default gay.

In the center of the slide two blank people are drawn. On the left, a person with a "straight" symbol drawn on the chest with a number of question marks around them. An arrow to the right shows the same person, now with a gay male symbol drawn. They appear to be confused.

Being arospec (and in a broader sense, aspec) isn’t an option.

Slide 5: Celia continues, "And maybe people don’t necessarily want romance that strongly – I feel like the social pressure to do it plays a big factor."

Slide 6: "It's a common trope I see in media, where someone is feeling uncertain about their romantic life, and their friends push them into going out -"

A scene is drawn with two random characters. A south asian boy with an undercut is shown speaking to a white girl with long wavy brown hair who is sitting at her desk reading a book. He says "Aw, come on, I know you like him! Hey you know I could introduce you -", while she says "I- I don't know if I'm, uh, ready for that-"

Slide 7: "- even though they might be showing signs of visible discomfort?"

The scene continues. The is drawn pushing her towards her crush (a taller east asian boy). He says "Just go talk, it'll be ok-" while she makes out a "eep!". She looks visibly distressed and startled, while her crush seems confused about the situation.]

#regularcomic #MaybeMorePeopleAreArospec #I think I'll shorten it to just #MMPA #For this blog haha

[rayshippouuchiha]

I just need a moment to scream about Ranna 1/2. It's my first intro to Gender Bender stuff and that, Huh, am I Really a girl? Moments. I love the world building that we could see in the .... Product of it's Time shonen plot? Like, the acceptable humor of it's time but now horribly grates against my LGBTQ+ and gender equality sensibilities makes it a bit of a tragedy for me. Because the author had so many amazing ideas but they covered it in leecher humor when there were So Many ways it could have been a masterpiece? I mean, it was the 70s (I think?) so obviously there wouldn't be very many open-minded concepts from then but it still hurts, almost.

The gender and animal changing pools, the matriarchal Amazons, the Phoenix and Mollusc Tribes, Ranma's mom Nodoka (who really needs to kill her husband and stop scaring her kid) who is a complete badass (I'm sure Genma (the asshole who should've died on his "training trip") went on the trip because he was scared of her, the fic fodder that Ranma's training trip can give you, the Angst of Ranma's Nekoken (Genma deserved to die for that alone, death by cats asshole 🤬) and his possible grandma figure, the "Rivalry" between him and Ryouga (I'm pretty sure if Ryouga knew gay was a thing, he'd be one) over Ranma not making it to their fight because Ryouga got Lost (there's tons of fics right there for his Lost Trips, the Hibiki's are Directionally Cursed™).

My absolute fav fics are the Trans/Gender fluid Ranma ones. When they're on that journey, too. Just learning who they are. When I'm feeling shippy, then Ranma/Ryouga because they have a Connection. But Ranma xovers so easily. His girl form could be made into so many different Magical Girls (Sailor Moon, Wedding Peach, Tokyo Mew Mew, Cardcaptor Sakura, Shugo Chara, etc.) And his mom! She has no background beyond being a kickass swordswoman and housewife. She can be anything! She just made 3 bad choices. 1: marrying Genma, 2: letting Genma take Ranma on their training trip, 3: pretending that she'll hold Ranma to the contract he signed with his handprint at 3 to become a Man™.

I can't believe that Nadoka would kill Ranma over having a girl form like Genma thinks (but she would kill Genma). She was way too happy to spend time with Ranko (Ranma's go to name for his girl half) and mothering her. I fully believe she'd just be like, You're a woman, too, now so you need to be the Best Woman™ now, too. And just do Girl Bonding. Y'know, teaching Ranma how to look after themselves (cooking, cleaning, financials, more than the same clothes every day), shopping, and of course Swords. Nadoka deserves to pass on her Skills™.

I hate that all of Ranma's fiancees (that he only has because Genma kept selling his son for shit before leaving) are determined to marry him. They all click with Ranma on some level, but more like friends who just happen to be girls rather than wife material. Like, I feel bad for them, but they keep blaming Ranma for all the fiancees when they should be pissed at Genma for selling his son to so many people. Which is probably why I ship Ranma/Ryouga so freaking badly.

Both Cursed, both Amazing Martial Artists, Childhood Friends (for a while in middle school, Ranma's job was to escort Ryouga to class so he wouldn't get Lost and miss school), an actual Friendship to build on. I'm pretty sure Ryouga defaulted to Eternal Enemies over their missed fight because why else would he be so upset and feel so strongly over a missed fight with his best friend?

Anyways, sometimes I just get Feels about Ranma and I had to say it.

Ranma is a classic for a reason

#RayRambles #Ranma 1/2

[sunnysduet]

@not-siri i really hope you don't mind me responding to your comment here instead of in the replies since there's a character limit and i have a lot to say---

so in general, here are my thoughts on why exactly omori is symbolized so much with "red hands" and why they're a huge theme of red space, one of his if not his BEST attack in the omori route, and in general why they are the way they are :] it might not make total sense but it's just what i've come to the conclusion of!

heavy spoilers for the ending of omori (both routes, sorta) ahead!

so my take on it is that omori is the sort of ugly manifestation of what the trauma has done to sunny, encompassing guilt and lifelessness and emotionlessness; he's what sunny doesn't want to be, but what he also fears that he is, if that makes sense? that's why omori is so content to sit back and let his friends live under the over saturated, too happy delusion of what headspace is. headspace is sort of them, frozen in time; their best moments. omori is content to keep it that way because he believes that covering it up is better. letting it be the way that it is, having things stay the same, it's better if no one knows the truth. sunny, at the beginning of the game, also believes that.

but as the game progresses, the true route makes sunny begins to diverge from what omori thinks and believes. it's really difficult for me to put into words exactly what i believe omori is and what he represents. in general, in sort of basic terms, i believe omori is sort of a coping skill, too? a bad one, though, obviously. he's overly violent on purpose (probably to try to block out the guilt of hurting someone sunny loved more than anyone by accident), he's constantly emotionless and never gets afraid (unlike sunny who's terrified of so many things), and in general, omori seems to always be in control, for the most part. he leads the party (unless you manually change it, but he's the default), the's the one who has to be there before the adventures begin, whereas sunny let the world pass him by for four years. he lost total control over his life in one split second mistake.

obviously omori is meant to be a parallel, a perfect opposite; but he is also what sunny needs, or what he thinks he needs. all that being said, it brings us to the topic of red hands.

much like how omori's purposeful violence is a way to take back sunny's mistake and take control of the situation and be the one to choose when somebody dies instead of by accident, the red hands are also sort of like that. they're a sort of reminder, but also i think that the symbolism of omori sitting atop the throne of red hands is another sort of self-destructive coping mechanism. omori controls the red hands. he controls when people get hurt. omori owns the red hands as a way to absolve the guilt of the first time red hands occurred, which was sunny to mari.

red hands is, in my opinion, sort of just omori's "something". it's a metaphorical reminder of what happened. but only omori learned how to deal with it, admittedly through an awful way, and get it under control. overall i think omori just has a lot to do with the concept of taking back control of your trauma the only way you know how, sort of just like aubrey did and how she became angry and violent. omori just takes it to other levels.

idk if this makes much sense at all but that's my take on the whole thing! i'm trying to do this kind of quickly so this reply doesn't come through out of nowhere like an hour later haha and i'm sorry if this is weird, i just feel really strongly about omori's (as a character and as a game in general) symbolism :] but either way i hope this is sort of somewhere coherent and makes sense!!!

thanks for reading, anyone who did! :D

#omori #omori analysis #omori omori #omori sunny #omori something #omori spoilers

[thejockout]

Subject Diaries #0 - Jockout the Subject, Part 1

In traditional Jockout fashion, I'm getting to this a little later (and differently) than I'd expected, but I've made it at last.

Initially, I was planning this first post to be a fairly blunt description of the files I've been listening to and the effects I've been experiencing; but I realised it's kinda weird to do that without ever really talking about my desires and what I'm into with hypnosis, lol. I will still give a little breakdown of what I've been up to (and that's what my future posts in this series will mostly be) but for the first one, I think I wanna talk a little more broadly first about my experiences/wants with hypnosis.

You've already met Jockout the hypnotist, so now let's talk about Jockout the subject:

As in my bio, I'm 22 (for a few more weeks) and live in Ireland in a suuper rural area, far from any population centers. I work as a freelance writer (AKA unemployed most of the time), so lots of time on my hands.

I've got extensive history with masculinisation hypnosis of all types and flavours. I first got into it fairly young via "Turn Straight" hypnosis (which is sad, looking back!) but it very rapidly transformed into all this. I was interrogating my sexuality and came to realise that more than being attracted to men, I was attracted to manhood, and I was into TF/mind control stuff. So falling into the masculinisation hypno hole was a pretty logical progression. Like many of us, I started on WarpMyMind but did get sick of that place quickly.

So that's setting the scene for who I am. What's my actual experience level with hypnosis?

Firstly, I am predominately a file subject. I've done some live trances and toyed with the Hypnosis4Guys circuit before but out of 10 people I've tranced with, 1-2 were ethical with me at most. I've dealt with people ignoring limits set pre-session, photos being taken of me without my consent, sessions being recorded, clumsy attempts to use triggers on me when I voice objections... I do have hypnotist friends I trust now who I could trance with, but tbh, I'm just more comfortable trancing on my own time nowadays. I feel strongly that hypnosis files can still have effect, despite what a battery of Twitter hypnodoms will tell you to the contrary. It just takes a different set of skills to live trancing.

As a subject, the files I've got the most experience with in total are Jack Drago's Masculine Conditioning series, Rigsby's Absolute Jock, and too many of @avissapiens' catalog to list, though I've spent the most time with Douche Gymbro, Perfect Muscle Bull, Painted Himbo, and Abyss Drone as a default "I wanna trance but don't know what file" option. I've done too many other random files to count, but these are the ones I stood by for the longest. (@hyphyphurray is the most recent addition to this staple rotation, someone I only started listening to sometime in the last few years... but more on that in my next post.)

The final thing bit of context I want to give, but haven't already, is my view of masculinisation/personality change hypnosis as a whole. What is it? Is it real? Does it work? How much of it is fantasy?

"Is This Kind of Hypnosis Real?"

Well, the answer changes depending on who you ask. My belief is that personality-change hypnosis is not "roleplay" in the sense we usually use that word in kink, so I prefer to think of it as role experimentation. It provides a chance for us to explore the fit of different psyches, mannerisms and thought patterns to our own defaults, which allows us to see how well they might fit.

For this reason, I often think the different masculine roles explored in hypnosis (himbo, jockboy, jock, bull, pup, bro, alpha, beta, slave) are kind of like mental outfits we try on during trance.

Some people feel more strongly than others that "there is only one of these outfits for every person and you must choose", but I take a looser approach than that. In my own trancing, I like to bounce around. I enjoy files that use the Himbo/Pup/Bro/Jock/Bull/Alpha labels all pretty well, with the only types I dislike being the extremely-submissive ones. I have a pretty varied hypno diet for this reason... and to extend the "outfit" metaphor, I kinda feel like a Disney employee who does Tigger for the morning shift and Gaston for the evening parade or something. They're both ostensibly outfits I'm choosing to put on, roles I'm choosing to play. Are either me?

That's a choice we all make for ourselves, I guess - imo, the "self" that we embody is inherently a kind of role, just one we've gotten very practiced at, so I see no reason the the roles we play within hypnosis are less significant. But I won't get into philosophy/psychology here because it's honestly kinda boring and I have no interest in trying to convert anyone into agreeing with me. But tl;dr, this kinda role experimentation does matter, and the roles it allows us to play with are no less real than others we perform socially, professionally, sexually, or etc., outside of hypnosis.

So.

That's enough for now, as an introduction to what I believe in as a tist/subject. In the next post, I'll be talking about what I actually want from hypnosis as well as what I've achieved thus far. And from then on, these posts will be more like status updates on how my own TF journey is going!

Hope you enjoyed!

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This post serves as the introduction to my broader Subject Diaries series, a blog series I plan to maintain on a fortnightly/monthly basis updating people on what I've been listening to, files I've been enjoying, and effects I've been experiencing. When I'm not trancing, I'm usually off being a mystical forest bro in the wilderness of Ireland, but I am always available for commissions here on Tumblr/Soundcloud if you reach out via DM. My flat rate is currently $55-80, but you can always check my pinned post for more up-to-date info. You can also support me with a one-time tip either via Paypal or Ko-Fi, but you'll have to DM for the first.

'Til next time!

#hypnokink #jockification #hypnosis #jockout #subject diaries

[junglejim4322]

people who tell you what your "real" identity might be are so annoying lmao. im not autistic but i know exactly what you mean about having similar feelings towards your friends and partners. the best romantic relationships are essentially friendships. and the friends i truly deeply love in a non romantic sense are still the loves of my life. the two categories overlap a lot in my opinion and for most people sexual attraction is often the only thing that makes a romantic relationship different from a platonic one.

I think a lot of people feel the need to pathologize people who experience things in different ways than they do. There are people out there that would consider platonic friendship/crushes/love/being IN love all very different things, but to me those are all essentially the same thing. so for someone who feels strongly about it or sees their experience as the default they need an explanation for WHY someone would experience emotions in a different way than they do and trying to slap an aromantic label on someone like me is way more comfortable than admitting humans.. we are difference

#asks #anonymous #you’re right the best romantic relationships are friendships. and I’ve met people who aren’t even friends with their partners LMAO

[transflynnscifo]

Tell me about ur Flynn Scifo thoughts

HI sorry for taking a bit! I decided to take the tangent I caused in my friend's DM's and structure it more coherently

Choc's original question: “Do you think Flynn might get touch starved while hes in the knights? […] I don’t have context, I was just thinking about how Yuri probably gets to casually touch ppl all the time, but Flynn has duties.”

DISCLAIMER this is headcanon-y and self-indulgent. While I give specific examples to support certain ideas, I by no mean intend to act like this is gospel.

This has spoilers for the game too

I assume that because Flynn and Yuri grew up together, they definitely were able to hold hands/hug/nap (and obviously sparred together). The former things probably got dropped as they entered adolescence as a lot of teens tend to be mortified over showing they have any feelings. This is to establish that they have likely always been comfortable around each other. Regardless of how much one may consider side content canon, it is enough to infer from in-game that Yuri’s leaving the knights resulted in their relationship becoming strained. Though Flynn pre-game is stated to have dropped by often enough in the lower quarter, it still shows that they probably barely interacted normally until Capua Nor in Act 1. (and even Capua Nor interactions are something, to say the least)

In my opinion, by the start of the game, Flynn had become good at suppressing a lot of different thoughts and feelings. I’ve already mentioned it in a previous post, but Flynn has a tendency to be quieter in group skits where he isn’t the topic of discussion. Though there is a subtle characterization I enjoy there-- he does react with his portrait changing even whilst not speaking. But even when prompted for an opinion, he struggles to express it, defaulting to saying a general statement that ultimately results in a non-answer on at least one occasion.

This suppression would behave like a sleeper agent. As the game progresses, the player is able to see more of Flynn. His banters get more known, his flaws stick out more, he becomes more closer to a regular man VS the knight paragon that he is expected to be. Those walls could have subtly started crashing around the time he and Yuri started speaking again. Now, I also look at it through a fluri lens. After not having spoken for years, feelings would naturally reignite, and Flynn would become stuck with feelings of longing for more.

That’s where it gets trickier for Flynn. Though he shows signs of opening to the other party members, we are dealing with years’ worth of repression. Though Flynn’s primary character conflict is about where one would draw the lie between crime and justice, there is another that is strongly related to another important theme of the game: choices, and being able to make them on one’s own. This part of Flynn’s character development is most apparent in the second act of the game, especially notable during the part of the game where Estelle is absent. It’s about what he wants to do himself, as opposed to what he should do as a knight. I won’t go too much into it, but the Baction and Heracles dungeons, as well as the scenes before Zaphias castle exemplify what Flynn ends up operating on. Ultimately, he is stuck doing the job he has vowed to take up, as there is no one else to do it. (Much like Yuri choosing things of his own volition, but only because no one else wants to.)

But going back to touch starvation and yearning, this would all come to a head for Flynn until, I presume, post-game. This is because by Aurnion, Yuri and Flynn are finally able to patch things through. The game strongly implies in certain ways that their repaired bond (regardless of whether one sees it as romantic or not) would be stronger than ever, and harder to damage. But even as they become on good terms again, they aren’t able to often see each other. This part is apparent even throughout the game, as Flynn and Yuri are pulled in different directions until their paths cross again. This could be like an odd repeat of the few years they barely interacted, but this would be not because they would be avoiding each other. Rather, this is because they’re finally maintaining the promise over protecting the smiles of people, and making the world a better place.

It could make the times they spend together both a relief and an incredible pain for Flynn, who is able to spend time with his best friend, but the nature of their roles now means that they are ever so slightly out of reach from one another. Flynn would be happy to be in Yuri’s life again, but would he allow himself the selfish wish of having Yuri around always? When he has knights to lead, and Yuri is free to travel and do as he pleases? (in the “Feelings regarding the knights” skit, Flynn, albeit jokingly, wishes Yuri could still be in the knights, while acknowledging that the freedom he has now suits him better.)

And Flynn’s duties matter too much, that much is true. However, Yuri matters even more. Remember how he used his knightly authority to use ships to look for Yuri’s body post-Zaude?

The worst part of Flynn’s touch starvation is if he is actively pining for Yuri in the romantic sense. Imagine wanting to take Yuri’s hand in the same way like you used to, except you are both too busy and important as people to indulge so simply. That isn’t even acknowledging Yuri’s complexes against Flynn and the manner of which he puts Flynn on a pedestal by the end of the game. I don’t think Flynn would worry that he doesn’t deserve Yuri, though I myself like to entertain the idea that if Flynn had insecurities about being good for Yuri, they would definitely manifest differently. The issue for Flynn would be essentially choosing between his happiness as a person or to jeopardize that because he is the Commandant. And Flynn tends to be characterized as a workaholic due to how serious and dedicated he is to his tasks.

Interestingly, Baction (which is the earliest dungeon of the three), has Flynn behave selfishly in his wish to help save Estelle and inquire Alexei for his motifs. But when Flynn wanted to go with Yuri and the others in Heracles and Deidon hold, he went against those wishes in order to lead the knights who needed a leader. Ultimately, it all ties back to the fact that his duties as a knight, and as a leader, mean that he has to jeopardize his desires. He expresses that he missed traveling in the “Battle maniacs” skit. He enjoys fighting, but he also doesn’t get to do it as much when he isn’t in the party. By extension, he would also miss spending time with Yuri like how they used to. He would be biting down leather with his teeth over this, in private. Unable to have time for what he loves.

Though there is warranted criticisms over certain aspects over Vesperia’s comedy, Flynn is, admittedly, definitely repressing certain thoughts. In skits, if a dialogue/topic with a more suggestive tone comes on, Flynn tends to become embarrassed and quiet about it. Though this is intended with a humorous effect, given Flynn is the designated “spoilsport” in many aspects, it does leave an interesting implication: the one most against suggestive topics gets the most embarrassed about them. I tend to see it as Flynn’s imagination running rampant enough to go down the gutter by itself. So it’s worth to assume that Flynn’s self-imposed repression isn’t even doing that well, given it is fairly easy to generally fluster him. Applying that to the fact he already is strongly guarded, he would probably short-circuit if he received a hug from anyone (and for the sake of this post, likely from Yuri too). It’s a metaphorical imagining of Flynn’s very armor. Does it protect him from attacks? Yes. Does it make it harder to see him under the bulk and to touch the skin of his hand? Absolutely.

Even if he took Yuri’s hand, he wouldn’t feel it under his glove, and Yuri, in turn, wouldn’t feel Flynn through it either.

Yuri acting skittish about his insecurities wouldn’t help either. And that’s what makes it even more compelling for me! In many pairings where one character is a knight, it’s usually the other party that wants to push the knight to accept selfishness. In fluri’s case, Yuri first has to stop thinking he’s going to hell in order to consider wanting to push Flynn into indulging his own wishes!

And then Choc told me they meant general touch deprivation, like even with friends, to which I put my clown nose and honked.

#permission to reblog is granted but i dont want this in the main tags. godspeed #woe tovposting be upon ye #woe joystick be upon ye

[candy8448]

When i first introduced my pronoun blaclets, i thought my friends didn't care because they hadn't said anything about them at all

But one time i was wearing two and my friend asked what wearing two of them meant and i explained it to him and it made me feel so happy that one of them found it important.

My other friend who didnt really show much when i came out and was just kinda like "okay cool" and thats it so i was kinda feeling they wouldn't care either. One time they were talking abiut me while i was there to another of our friends and then they just went "yeah and she- he- they-... YOU!" And then asked me for my braclets and when they didnt immedietly remember what each colour meant, they told me to give them a second and tried to figure it out again (which they got correct) and it made me so happy!

Recently our school banned braclets (hey wrre already banned, hey only just now started actually enforcing it) so i just hung them on my bag and not really caring anymore about which i wore and the first friend i mentioned came up and just looked at them for a second (because i had stopped wearing them for a while cuz of the rule) and then he was like "so are you all of them?" And like... it made me happy but i just told him that i given up properly using them

Im hinking about starting to use them again because of how im considering the pronouns xe/xer but only sometimes while my default is she/he but im still not fully sure on that

Its kinda scary using neopronouns because of all the hate they get and i know about how you shouldn't listen to what other people say but i kinda dont want them to use it because if someone overhears them saying xe in school or something, idk, im afraid of what other students will say. And hearing all the hate around them has kinda made me feel not as strongly about them so i just really do not know what i want right now but ill see, its not fully out of the picture just yet

Here are the otiginal sheet i made for them and now the one im planning on sending them when im ready

#i do a little ramble #i do a little art #lgbt #lgbt+ #genderfluid #bigender #bigenderfluid #gnc #pronouns #neopronouns #pronoun braclet

[aseriesofunfortunatejan]

re: Shinguuji's swimsuit design. Unfortunately, I don't think I can find out much more about the meaning of the blue roses without having played Danganronpa S, which I still have no intention of doing. For all I know, it could tie into whatever narration there is, or there could be some link between what colours were used for which characters.

(It just crossed my mind that the designs may have been colour-coordinated for each game, like the 10th Anniversary sprite edits were, but it doesn't appear to be the case at all. On the list of things that Could Have Been Cool.)

The main and possibly only reference we have that I'm aware of is the common meaning of both blue flowers and blue roses, also depicted in Japan, of "achievement of the impossible". It could be a conscious choice to make Shinguuji wear an artificial flower. Something to do with humanity's achievements? Or with effectively bringing his sister back from the dead? Those would be the most obvious readings.

What I find the most striking about it is the complete shift in palette from his official illustration and main design. Roses are present in his main illustration, but specifically red. Not only do we have a good ole case of warm colour VS cold colour - and the perceived opposition between red and blue - I strongly remember a certain friend in highschool being mocked by a teacher for saying blue is opposite to orange and not to red, despite having been completely correct, but I digress - but I would also take into consideration how much more common red roses are, both in general and in design. This is why I find the choice of blue roses to be striking (looks at myself in the mirror, feeling empty. none of this matters. (continues anyway)); as the character designer in the midst of drawing a cool roses design for a character who has already been associated to red roses, it would be easy to default to red on your first draft.

Either way, looking at his official illustration next to his swimsuit sprites, I find the change in palette very striking.

As I've noted before, the khaki green from his regular design is also completely absent from his swimsuit design. That is, however, not unusual when compared to other characters: from the top of my head, Akamatsu's swimsuit is light blue, which is absent from her usual design, Saihara's swimsuit sports colour, which is extremely unusual... Iruma's swimsuit design also departed from her original palette, you get the idea. Just that his palette was changed is not that noteworthy, and it's very likely that there's nothing to it. I just find that the choice of a sleeve with such a pattern showcases a lot more detail than was put in other swimsuit designs, which piqued my interest, and makes me wonder if it happened to be deliberate... or someone just thought it'd be pretty.

I think it was in my previous post about this that I mentioned having just then decided on a headcanon that the cooler blue/purple palette represents Korekiyo while the khaki and red palette represents his sister. This is something I have no "proof" of, aside from blue+purple being used in two designs for Korekiyo, but an idea I like. I wish it were (more of?) a thing.

One element I'm missing is whether Korekiyo's sister appears at all in Danganronpa S. Just looking at his sprites for the game gives me the impression that she doesn't (if not for removing the mask, she is usually represented by make-up and... tiddies) but those are the same sprites that show him grabbing a non-existent cap, so I don't know that they're a good reference for anything.

Due to my negative impression of DRS, it's probably not even worth putting too much thought into, in respect to my headcanon mostly. I still fully appreciate this design choice, which like I said, stands out for being so detailed. It's pretty and I appreciate the prettiness of my pretty boy faves being respected.

#danganronpa #drv3 #ndrv3 #korekiyo shinguji #korekiyo shinguuji #as promised

[bbyquokka]

bite me

𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆 | bang chan x gender neutral reader

𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐑𝐄 | angst (if you squint), smut – 18+ is strongly advised!

𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐓 | you have one last intimate night with chan as human.

𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 | vampire chan, human reader, turning, nipple play, pet names, unprotected penetration, blood consumption (chan feeds), grinding (if i missed any, lmk!)

𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐒 | 2.8k ~ ( 2,824 )

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“turn me. i want to be like you.” chan looks down at you, his mouth agape and blood red eyes wide. his eyebrows raised as his eyes flicker along your own face in search for a hint to see whether it's a joke or not.

but all he sees is your confident demeanour. your brows furrowed together as you stare at him whilst you await his answer.

“i. uh, e-excuse me?” he stutters, his mind bewildered

“turn me. i want to be like you.” you repeat with a bit more confidence in your voice. once chan's mind has caught up, does he realized what you're asking of him. he responds with a sigh and a shake of his head.

“no.” you frown. you naively thought chan would have been up to it, turning you into a vampire and having you by his side forever.

“what? why?” you protest.

“because.” chan states before turning his back on you and walking away. 

“don't walk away from me without an explanation, chan!” you shout as you chase after him before standing in front of him. you expected him to look annoyed, brows together and his eyes to roll but instead, all you see is sadness–pain.

“why won't you do it, chan?” your voice is softer this time. chan shifts on his feet, eyes averting your piercing gaze.

“i just won't. it's a bad idea yn, believe me.”

“what? what's so bad about me wanting to be by your side for eternity?” you scoff. your naiveness irritates chan, memories flooding back to him as he recalls how painful it was.

“have you thought this through?” he asks as he finally meets your gaze. you nod. “and i mean, really thought this through.”

“of course i have chan!”

“then rethink it. again and again and again.”

“why are you so angsty right now? i'm asking you to turn me. to be by your side for eternity. isn't that what you want? what we want?”

“you don't understand, yn!” chan runs his hand along his pale face, his teeth chewing on his bottom lip as he jaw clenches.

“then enlighten me. please because i clearly have no idea!”

“i can't subject you to that much pain! i can't be the reason as to why you're hurting! you'll be in pain for the rest of your life, for eternity yn. and i'm not just talking about physical, i'm talking about the mental side of it.”

“i don't understand, chan.” with a slow and heavy sigh, chan takes your hands into his. the warmth of your skin against his stone cold skin is a painful reminder of what he once was–human.

“you will feel hungry all the time. no amount of animals or humans you feed on will suffice. your body will twist and turn, mind snapping and breaking before rebuilding and mending itself. you will experience changes you have never experienced before. painful, mind numbing, exhausting changes.” 

“but i–”

“you will never feel the sun on your skin ever again.” he interrupts. “you will never experience the hot sand on the souls of your feet or eating an ice-cream on a hot day because one step out in that sun and you're nothing but ash in an instant. the night will be your best friend. daylight your worst enemy. you'll have to beg, borrow and steal just to get what you want! you'll be a completely different person yn.” 

you blink before chewing your bottom lip. your attention turns to the way chan is shaking. memories, bad memories flooding and clouding his own mind as he recalls the terror is was for him when he was a mere vampire spawn.

“but i want to be like you, chan.”

“my darling, you can never be like me. i'm not saying that to be mean, however, i'm an ascended vampire! the strongest vampire to ever walk this land and there can only be one.”

“so that means that i won't be able to do what you can do?”

“no, my love. i love you, yn. in all my years of being alive, i've never felt love like i do with you. i can't watch you subject yourself to this pain, this torture if you're truly not ready. you will be a vampire, nothing more and nothing less. you will have the qualities of a vampire but what you can do now as human, you won't be able to do ever again.”

you swallow as you look down at your hands that are currently being held tightly in chan's. your heart thumps against your chest, mind indecisive. 

“i want to forever be with you chan, but that can't happen because one day, i'll die and you'll be alone again.” chan gives you a sullen smile before stroking your cheek gently.

“i know darling but you would've given me the best years of my life. i know what it feels like, i know how much it hurts. i was turned against my will and hearing you say what you're saying and wanting to willing be turned is just baffling to me. i can't subject you to that amount of pain. i can't be the reason as to why you've given up your human life.”

“but chan.. i–”

“just think about it, darling. please. i have to know that you're certain and understand what you're giving up.”

you look into his red eyes. they're pleading. his face sullen and bottom lip being chewed by his teeth. his body is filled with anxiety, a heavy weight in the pit of his stomach making him feel nauseous.

“please yn. i beg of you.” he all but whispers. you crumble because you've never seen chan look so desperate.

“ok. i'll think about it some more.” 

“thank you.” he says with a heavy sigh of relief before pulling you into his chest. you nuzzle into the fabric is his clothing, clinging onto it gently as you inhale his musk cinnamon scent. he kisses the top of your head gently before pulling away.

“once you're confident enough in your decision, then i promise you, i'll turn you. you have my word.”

─── ･ ｡ﾟ⟡ 🦇 ⟡ ˚｡ ･ ────── ･ ｡ﾟ⟡ 🦇 ⟡ ˚｡ ･ ────── ･ ｡ﾟ⟡ 🦇 ⟡ ˚｡ ･

“are you sure?” chan mumbles against your lips before cupping your cheeks gently. you hold onto his wrists, your legs either side of him as you smile warmly at him.

his bare chest on display with his underwear being the only clothing on his body. it forms a frustrating barrier between the two of you but it's necessary. 

“i'm sure, chan. i thought about it just like you asked and i'm sure.” chan gives you a simple nod before pressing his lips against yours softly. the kiss starts of slow and steady, lips moulding and moving in perfect harmony. 

chan's cold hands caress the warm skin of your back. you hold onto his broad shoulders gently before trailing your hands up to the sides of his neck. your fingertips brush against two jagged and deep scars on his neck. the scars are violent looking, jagged and healed in an unpleasant fashion indicating that whoever, or whatever, turned him did it out of pure spite.

you allow your fingers to caress and linger on the scaring, wondering if you'll have the same style. you know chan will be gentle with you and wouldn't dare put you in any harm but he is a vampire and you've seen the way he loses control–especially when it comes to you.

his lips trail from yours, kissing down your jawline to your neck. he can feel your blood swimming in your veins. he can smell it. he can hear your heart pumping fast, increasing as time goes on. he wants to bite. he wants to feast. to sink his teeth in your neck and feed on your blood.

he always thought all blood tasted the same but when it comes to you, it's sweet and savoury. the sweetness balances out the metallic. his lips ghost along your neck, fangs gently scraping the skin threatening to pierce it there and then–but he waits.

“how about we spend one last night together as human and vampire.” he whispers against your neck. 

“i'd like that.” you whisper as you tangle your fingers in his hair and tug gently. chan groans gently before gently resting you on your back. he looks at you, looks at every curve and texture your skin has to offer. you watch his eyes flicker, soaking up all the information and it makes you feel shy. so much so, that you turn your head to avert his gaze.

“no.” he whispers as he tilts your head back to him. “don't look away. i want to see your face when i pleasure you. i want to see it all.”

“chan..” you whisper as you mess with your fingers. he strokes your warm cheek gently, smiling ever so softly and lovingly at you. 

“succumb to me. allow your body, mind and soul to be mind.” he purrs before grazing his fangs along your neck. you shiver, breath hitching in your throat as you feel him trail his lips down your body slowly to your chest.

there, he plants soft kisses on the skin, suckling until purple and red love bites show. he leaves red welts on your skin from his fangs and teeth grazing your delicate skin before his lips are wrapped around your sensitive and hard nipple.

you groan as you feel the warmth from his mouth and the wetness from his tongue. he sucks, kisses and bites your nipple. his tongue gliding over the sensitive bud getting it coated in his saliva. his hands caressing your inner thigh and your neglected nipple. fingers rolling the bud between them, flicking and pinching whilst tugging.

your body burns. arousal pooling and hugging your groin nicely. your hips buck up into chan's, a soft sigh of contentment when his boner grazes on you. he presses his hips against yours, moving them long and slow. his penis rubs against you, rubs against the material of each others clothing.

it doesn't feel as good as if you were both to be naked, however, the sounds of chan sucking on your nipples, the soft groans and small pants that emit from his lips as well as the rustling and creaking of the bed and sheets–all of it together is driving you insane.

“s-so how does this work?” you choke out. chan looks up at you through his lashes before pulling away from your nipple. 

“how does what work, my love?”

“you turning me into a vampire..” 

“well–” he trails his finger down your chest as he speaks, letting it rest just above the waistband of your underwear. “i will drink your blood. ultimately drain you dry and at the peak of your ecstasy, i will grant you a single drop of my own blood.” 

“will it hurt?” you mumble. chan gives you a soft and warming smile, a smile that makes you feel safe, content and warm. 

“yes. you may feel woozy the next day. tender and sore, possibly confused too. your body will go through changes and continue to do so even after the process.”

“chan..” you swallow thickly, teeth chewing on your bottom lip as you nervously play with your fingers.

“what is it, my love?” his brows furrowed together as he notices your discomfort and distress. 

“i'm scared.” chan sits back before pulling you onto his lap once again. you straddle him, holding onto his shoulders and looking down to avoid his gaze. you feel so nervous that it's making you want to throw up. your body is shaking and anxiety ripping through your veins. 

“hey.” his finger hooks under your chin as he lifts it up. his voice tender and soft. “we don't have to do this, y'know. it's ok to change your mind.”

“no. it's not that. i want this it's just, i'm terrified of the changes. i know it's going to be painful, exhausting even, but even so, even though i want this, i'm so scared of what's going to happen and what will happen.”

“you won't be alone, my love. i will be here with you. i will be the comfort you need throughout the pain, the shoulder for you to lean on. we will get through this, together.” his fingers brushing through your hair. his voice calms your tired mind. 

his beautiful red eyes holding nothing but sincerity and love. you feel happy, content; safe. 

“let me take care of you, my love.” he purrs as he lowers you back down on the bed. he takes off your underwear as well as his own in the process before positioning himself between your parted legs. “allow yourself to just enjoy the moment. enjoy the pleasure and the ecstasy that i will bring you.” 

he lines his cock up with your hole, rubbing it with his tip before gently and slowly pushing himself inside. you both gasp and moan. the feeling of chan penetrating you, slowly making you feel full is making you feel tingly with excitement. the nerves and anxiety you felt a few seconds ago, slowly disappearing with each nudge and push of chan's cock.

chan holds your hips as he pushes. his lips parted and showing the very tips of his fangs–those same fangs that will soon be penetrating the skin of your neck.

“warm. tight.” he grunts. you simply hum, clenching around him purposefully as if to tell him to move. he understands the message and begins to thrust slowly. 

with each thrust, you feel yourself melting into the sheets. you allow your body to feel and bask in the pleasure, allow yourself to empty your mind and focus on you, chan and the space that connects you both.

tingles of pleasure shoot up your spine before resting at the tips of your fingers and toes. your lips parting ever so slightly as chan grips onto your hips. his tempo slowly speeding up as he becomes consumed in everything he's addicted to.

he can hear your heart beating. hear your blood gushing through your veins. he wants to bite, feed and suffice this hunger he feels when he is around you. your hole clenching around him, your body twisting and soft moans leave your lips. 

soon, your both panting and unable to think about anything else aside from each other. the bumps of his veins on his cock rub and grind inside you. his tip hitting and caressing places deep within you. your mind can't comprehend what's happening.

“chan. chan, fuck!” you groan as you grip onto the sheets. chan can't speak yet he lets out an audible whine. his brows furrowed together as he thrusts. he feels hot and cold at the same time. no one has ever made him feel as good as you do. it scares him to think that he is this obsessed with you but he wouldn't have it any other way.

you squeeze and clench. heat pooling in the pit of your stomach. chan listens out to the uneven rhythm of your heartbeat whilst watching your body arch into nothing. your moans have become more frequent, more desperate as he drives your orgasm closer and closer.

“chan..” you whine. 

“it's ok. i'm here.” his voice is soft and tender, a little hoarse from the panting and moaning. he means those words in more ways than one and he hopes you understand. 

as soon as he gives you the go ahead, you allow your orgasm to hit. mind mushy and muscles twitching in time with your orgasm. your body sweats and eyes flutter shut as you bask in the high. you feel chan halting his movements and the bed dipping by the side of your head. you feel his presence looming over you.

in the heat of the moment, you forgot. forgot what you initially asked him to do until you hear him say: “i'll be here when you awake” and the feeling of a sharp pain from his fangs piercing your neck. you haven't recovered from your high but you trust chan with your life.

he feeds. your blood soaking his tongue. it pours in his mouth and chan moans at the taste. his hips stationary, cock twitching inside you as he devours your blood. the sharp pain is overridden by numbness. your senses slowly dwindling. your mind slowly turning itself off. 

you don't fight it. you're in good hands. instead, you bury your fingers into chan's hair, whispering weak praises to him whilst he feeds. your consciousness is slowly depleting with each drop of blood that's being sucked out from your veins. 

your vision blurs and a faint buzz in your ears. you allow your eyes to slowly close and your body to feel heavy. you're not scared no more, but happy and content because you know that as soon as you wake–you'll be with chan forever.

𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄 | :) heavily inspired by a certain game with a certain someone in said game, ahahahah im obsessed. also a small something to celebrate chan's bday!! don’t forget to leave feedback, reblog and tell me what you think here. curious as to what is next? here is my wips list! i hope you all enjoy! ‹3

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[missoblaine]

Tag Game!

Yay tag game! I was tagged by @evaofkonoha and I am tagging @shameless-fujoshi to do this (if you want to haha).

Are you named after anyone?

Nope! I like my name though 😊

What sports have you played?

If dancing counts as a sport then I danced for about fifteen years quite intensely! Otherwise, no. I dislike sports so much actually 😣 I used to pretend to be sick to get out of PE at school. I don't like the physicality and conflict and outside-ness of many sports. I am a squishy little indoors person!

Do you use sarcasm?

Yes! It is why writing in Sasuke's voice is easier for me than writing in Naruto's.

What is the first thing you notice about people?

Hmm, I don't meet new people often actually. I think in general, I am not very good at reading people and it takes me a while to properly make friends. I think both online and IRL, I notice someone's way of speaking/writing/communicating. Their tone and voice and word choice etc.

What's your eye colour?

Very dark brown.

Scary movies or happy endings?

I can't do scary movies eeek. Thrillers, I can do, and I enjoy watching people play scary games sometimes, but horror is too much for me. In general movies are kind of overwhelming for me, I don't watch many of them!

So by default, I guess I like happy endings? I do think for me to enjoy them they have to be purposeful and earned (not necessarily by the characters but by the story).

Any talent?

Writing! While it has ebbed and flowed in its presence over the course of my life, it has always been with me in some form and I am proud of how I have grown with it, especially in the last two years. I am a pretty fast reader as well so I guess that's another one?

What are your hobbies?

Writing, reading, board games, and occasionally crafting things (sewing, crochet, painting miniatures).

Do you have any pets?

My partner has a dog!

How tall are you?

155cm. I am pretty short lol.

Dream job?

I am honestly quite happy with my current job (board game adjacent, relatively not stressful, lets me play with spreadsheets lol). I think my dream job is just not working tbh or doing something just mentally stimulating enough but not stressful and getting paid well for it! 😅 Isn't that the dream?

I will say, I wouldn't want to do any of the creative hobbies I love dearly, especially writing, as a job as I strongly believe it would ruin my love for them.

My answer to this particular question got very long so the rest is under the cut if you are interested in my thoughts. Otherwise, if this is your off ramp - thank you for reading and thank you to @evaofkonoha again for tagging me 🥰

rambling (a.k.a. why i don't want to write as a job)

Even if I worked for myself and got to create the things I wanted, I don't believe I would enjoy it, perhaps simply because it would be a job and it would become something I had to do instead of chose to do. I also believe that whatever I created wouldn't feel truly mine. I think part of the joy of a hobby is getting to do it whenever, however, whyever you want - I value that freedom highly.

For example, if I were to write a novel, even if I wrote it for myself, I would need to, eventually, pitch it to agents/publishers etc and it would always be in the back of my mind that 'this needs to be something that an agent/publisher believes would sell'. Even if I wrote it exactly as I wanted, perhaps someone further down the publishing line would ask for changes to improve its commercial value because, hey, they have to make money too, no? (And perhaps this view is jaded from working in a retail/sales environment for a couple years but if anything, I am even more sure of it now.)

From my time in uni studying creative writing (in which we got some experience pitching short pieces/essays to journals/student publications), I saw the level of ambition needed to succeed in a career like this and I just…don't want that kind of stress to be tied to my finances and living situation. I don't want my ability to be creative (which can wax and wane with the moon, it feels) to be what my paycheck hinges on. Perhaps this is because my creativity is so personal and sacred to me - it is the channel via which my soul interacts with the world - but perhaps it is to everyone? Maybe I am simply very sensitive about it, as I am with many things.

Studying creative writing made me fall out of love with the craft for a couple years, constantly overthinking my words and weighing them against form, content, industry, moral and message. I distinctly remember writing an memoir/essay I was quite proud of part way through my third year (within which I was quite vulnerable about myself) and being disappointed with my final grade on it, as it was so detached from my own personal pride in it. (To be fair though, looking back, it was not as technically sound as I had believed it at the time.)

To be clear, it is not that I wish to create completely void of external input and influence, and I do understand the importance of assessment and external feedback when it comes to developing technical skill! But for the point where I am in my life now, where I have done some formal learning and am starting to realise the infinity and freedom of informal learning, I just think there is a sweet spot where the amount and type of external input/influence is nuturing and kind and motivating and authentic. Too little influence and it can feel like screaming into the void - no resonance. Too much and . . . well, you get the above experience, where it feels like the thing you created as well as the process of creation becomes no longer wholly yours.

For me and what I have learned thus far in my life, my writing is best as this weird wildspace. That's what works for me! And I share my writing online in the purest sense of that word - share - because I want to show this small community something that means something to me, with no kind of transaction behind it. It's just out there, and you're also out there, and if you stumble upon it (or go looking for it) I hope this thing that means something to me means something to you too. I hope it creates resonance with you in this incomprehensible vastness of life.

Um, yeah. That's cool to have that written out and articulated! Thanks for reading 😊

~13/03/2024

#tag game

[captorcorp]

ok im rambling about my thoughts on tadc bc i have many (long post)

ok first of all general character opinions with walk cycle gifs to break up the walls of text (gifs from here):

caine: the silly guy... literally why red recommended this to me was the digital world setting + an ai character and they know me too well because every ai character is my favorite by default. i'm very excited to see what we end up learning about him throughout the series, also i absolutely love that he was inspired by AM from ihnmaims but 'if he was a silly little guy instead of fueled by hate' or whatever the creator said about him. his weird head design is really creative though it does discomfort me a bit sometimes, something about the combination of eyes and teeth;;; still think he's kinda tumblr sexyman coded besides the teeth head but most people are too distracted with objectifying jax so he gets a pass

pomni: she's cool!! it's hard to form a solid view of her so far bc most of what we've seen is her being understandably overwhelmed with and O.O at everything, but she seems like she'll be a pretty interesting protag - i liked them showing her moments of weakness with leaving ragatha behind too. that being said i think she stretched out the 'omg this isn't real what's going on???' freaking out bits way too long but that's just a personal gripe with that sorta stuff in media like this. if i was isekai'd into the digital circus i would simply be so chill about it after only 5 minutes of panic. rip to pomni but i'm different /j oh yeah also a fun character design even though i don't really like clowns she's just very Shaped

jax: motherfucker. jk i actually don't feel that strongly about him i just find him slightly annoying at times. at first i thought 'oh ok he's a loveable asshole yeah he's kinda entertaining so he's cool' and then he just ended up being more asshole than loveable. also thought he was sexyman coded and was unfortunately right this time ^^; apparently he's the creator's fave too?? so hopefully he doesn't get away with too much stuff without consequences, or he's gotta actually get some positive traits yknow. however i do love his design with the big grin and semicircle eyes and etc, very cartoony and fun. if the controversial blorbo poll was still open i would submit him bc it seems like the fandom is split on him. but also kinda tired of him from fandom overexposure

ragatha: she's really nice and i want to be her friend - looking forward to seeing where her character goes in the future though, bc we've only seen her being polite and forgiving and sweet and etc, and i think she should be allowed to kill people /hj. it was cool seeing her get glitched too even if ;-;. i was never into raggady ann stuff like i've heard the creator is but her design is still cute too, even if less surreal than some of the others ^^

bubble: keep forgetting this guy exists, not a huge fan tbh? gets some points for being another ai though. looks like a chain chomp. i do like that they're able to be popped and respawn though, that's a fun quirk. the scene with them cleaning up after pomni is p gross

kinger: i barely thought about this guy during the pilot tbh so was surprised to see the fandom all adoring him. kinda just reminds me of fear from inside out. but actually overexposure of him from tumblr and other people enjoying him kinda made him grow on me a bit (reverse of what has been happening w jax). he's pretty cool to me now. i can't believe fandom already gave him a tragic backstory with that queen chesspiece we see crossed out...

zooble: another character i didn't really think about, though i like their design and detachable body parts and such. i also couldn't really get a good sense of their personality tbh? i think they just need more screentime honestly

gangle: i wanted to like her a lot more than i did when i first saw her bc her design is very fun, with the ribbon-based body and comedy/tragedy masks and etc. but ended up not getting too interested in her as a character. but i think she's in the same category as zooble where she needs more screen time and character development though? bc she still seems like she could be cool if her personality gets explored more

thoughts on the overall pilot:

ngl i have a whole bunch of gripes about it despite also rotating it in my mind. i feel like a lot of the characters are a little 1-dimensional currently, even if i do find those dimensions appealing for the most part, hoping they get more characterization in the actual main season though. also most of the pacing/jokes didn't really land for me or felt a bit forced, though there were some good bits like king's hands following zooble's head, pomni opening doors to surreal scenes like the bathing mannequin, jax getting choked by zooble's hand, the randomly generated 5-letter names, also any of the cartoony imagery gags like the censor bars or cartoon dust cloud of gloinks.

however, overall i enjoyed it still!!! all of the animation has so much charm and character to it, surreal semi-human character designs are always great, it's very colorful and bright and reminiscent of old early 2000s activity center games, etc. it gives me kinda 'welcome home' vibes, with both being bright and cheery exteriors meant to mimic old media style that mask darker stuff under the surface. also the general plot of like. people being trapped in this weird setting and forced to participate in fucked up (?) games by some mysterious mastermind (well we know who the mastermind is but not much about him) while struggling to escape or understand why they've been trapped here... very common plot but always is intriguing to me. also of course [holds digital worlds and ais in my hands] my beloved tropes...

thoughts on the fandom:

i am. concerned. that there seems to be an overlap with the h*zb*n h*t*l fandom;; but also i don't know anything about that show's status besides like. callout posts about the creator and people complaining about the pacing/character designs and etc. so i don't really know if all of the hh fans is bc it's like, also an animated series that appeals to the same audience? or if it's going to be too similar or inspired from it or also have a problematic creator somehow 😔

otherwise it's whatever, maybe a bit on the :I side bc i already saw someone make a y*nd*r* jax imagine post and it scared me hjkdfs. otherwise mostly just usual fandom stuff i think? dunno.

actually nevermind i just got back from twitter and apparently the creator is already feeling :/ about their own fandom and apparently people on tiktok are hcing some fucked up stuff about jax so. can fans be normal for 2 seconds please.

#kcat talks #ok ramble over i'm normal again ^^ <- lying #just f about the association w the fanbase if it continues to be :/

[thatwordybirb]

1, 5, 8, 13, 15, 16, 20, 29, 33, 34, 40, 44, 48, 52, 58, 64, 71, 90, and 93 for the ask game ‼️‼️

Ooo, thankies for sending! Alright, let's go:

1. coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans?

Hm! I guess I'd say... coffee mugs. But I never use them for coffee, just milk for dipping oreos in (via fork of course). Never had coffee. Grew up with Mormon parents and they ain't about that. Honestly think that's one of the biggest blessings of that unhappy upbringing: I never got addicted.

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups?

Glass! Hands down. Didn't drink soda of any kind as a kid, and plastic cups don't retain the cold or heat from drinks. Feels weird. And anything (especially milk) in a chilled glass (as in left in the fridge for a while before drinking) is just really Nice.

8. movies or tv shows?

Ooo, now this is a tough one! I like both, some movies are my favorite pieces of media (like Arashi no Yoru Ni subbed version not dubbed the dub intentionally literally tried to hide that it's a gay love story, biggest comfort movie for me), but I prefer TV shows in general. I like getting immersed in long stories, getting to know the characters and setting and seeing them evolve for hour upon hour. It's hard for a movie to give its story enough time to breathe. TV shows have issues with never knowing when to end (capitalism driving them forward long after a satisfying ending could happen, or canceling them before there is any ending at all), but movies do that too.

13. lanyard or key ring?

Key ring~! Never owned a lanyard, I think?

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment?

Um. Hm. That's... challenging. Because I have severe memory issues. I guess that honor goes (largely by default) to Dante's Inferno. I found it fascinating, historically and conceptually speaking.

16. most comfortable position to sit in?

Any position I can put my legs up! They do not like being on the floor!! I will legit stretch my legs to a different couch across from the one I'm on just to put my feet up, without realizing it!!!

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)?

On my desktop! Got over 200k stored on here now (after many years of not even a single paragraph), and damn does it feel nice to accomplish something~!

29. best way to bond with you?

Oh! Um, hm. Little embarrassed to say this, because it's super niche and not all my lovelies (I find the phrase "loved ones" so mechanical, I use the term "lovelies" instead) do it, and I feel selfish saying it! But I think the best way to bond with me is to talk shop creatively. Brainstorm ideas, read rough drafts, swap brainrot. I made all my friends through shared interests, but my beautiful beta readers have a special place in my heart (shoutout to those of ya still on tumblr!). That is not to say I do not strongly bond with people purely through shared interests, though! I do! Most of my lovelies are not beta readers. It's just that writing, and my writing being read, makes me happier than anything else - I do my best to reciprocate though, because to do otherwise would make me a jackass!

33. most used phrase in your phone?

I barely use my phone, because I'm a homebody who only leaves for groceries! I think it's "so sorry for the inconvenience" because I have to cancel appointments a lot. My life is one long comedy of chicanery and shenanigans, and things keep! Coming! Up!

34. advertisements you have stuck in your head?

Very first thought was the fucking "WEEEEE" pig in those Geico commercials, because my dad loved those, it will never leave my brain, nooo- no modern ones, haven't seen an ad in ages thanks to adblockers, the last straw was ads for that really ableist Shyamalan horror movie about the escaped elderly mental patients and i just couldn't take it anymore.

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school?

Another challenging one due to my massive memory problems! I racked my brain for over an hour on this one (first thing that sprang to mind could be identifying information about which school I went to, second thing that came to mind was just Tragedy), but finally remembered something: one day in the locker room somebody stuck a shoe in my lunch box. A fucking shoe. I do not remember the rest of the details, or if I ever figured out why someone stashed a grey laceless sneaker in my lunch box! I was too confused to even be bothered by what I think was a bullying attempt, to be perfectly honest!

44. favorite scent for soap?

Now this is challenging because of a different problem: most days I do not have a sense of smell, due to a childhood injury to my face! So every soap scent is basically the same to me, except on the rare days my nose works. I guess if I could make my own, cinnamon would be lovely. Or cotton candy. Or granny smith apples. Or rosewater. Hm. I guess every nice scent is my favorite, since I get to experience them so seldomly.

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be?

Tempted to make a lewd joke by saying peach or pear, buuut if I were to answer honestly... I think I see myself as an apple: thin skinned with a core nobody should eat. My friends tell me otherwise, and I'm starting to come around to their positive affirmations, but self hatred is a habit that digs deep and dies hard.

52. favorite font?

Never really perused fonts! I guess Verdana, since I find it the easiest to read. All my writing documents are in Verdana. If I could get away with a font that was composed of kickass logo letters (such as from, say, Kingdom Hearts) tho, I would!

58. four talents you’re proud of having?

I didn't see this one in the ask game, and now I feel a little bad I didn't ask you this one! T.T Um! First and foremost: I am proud of my ability to judge people's character. Always have been. I am not perfect, I've made some bad calls, but in general I am pretty good at telling if someone is a good person after getting to know them for a while. Sniffed out some backstabbing bastards and secret creeps before the people around me could before, multiple times. Second: I'm good emotional support. I'm proud of how I can help people out of really deep psychological pits. It's sometimes a huge problem, though, because my lovelies come to me for their problems all the time and being everyone's shoulder to cry on 24/7 can drive you crazy. It did drive me crazy! But I've gotten better at saying "I'm too overwhelmed to help right now, if I try we'll both be wrecks" and they've gotten better at going to other people more often, so, progress. Still there for folks, just can't do it as much as I used to. Third: I'm proud of my writing lately. Took me so many years to get to this point, but I feel so damn good about what I'm making. Fourth: fuckin uhhhh I guess my skill at shooters, I used to be a crack shot at Halo (covenant carbine, my beloved) back in high school and these days I'm kinda good at Splatoon (dualie main, giving chargers a try tho and I'm half decent at it).

64. favorite website from your childhood?

Fanfiction.net! Hands down! It's where I met my first circle of friends. It's where I first joined a fandom. I loved the stories there. Sad I'll probably never find some of them again, though.

71. least favorite pattern?

I mean the Iron Rule of Oligarchy sure is a drag. Joking, joking, I know this is referring to aesthetics. There is this ungodly pattern of wallpaper I've seen that's a yellow-beige background and has scattered American Revolutionary War period imagery. It's ugly as anything and I hate(d) it.

90. luckiest mistake?

Honestly? Joining Fanfiction.net. It's where I met my first circle of friends. Not all of them were good people. Some were very bad influences, actually. Things happened that hurt. But I survived. And the ones that were good people have remained my dearest lovelies for many years. Love them with all my heart.

93. nicknames?

All my lovelies call me Birb unironically, and anyone who reads this is welcome to as well~!

#thanks so much for sending this my way~ #asks from the void #me talking tag #personal