#--for this post so I don't ramble on about nothing but this isn't advice from someone who's qualified on this.

[a-motherfucking-beast]

COACH what to do if im disabled and can't run for exercise... what the fuck do I do

ONLY DO WHAT YOU'RE CAPABLE OF, SON. IT DEPENDS ON THE REASON FOR YOUR INABILITY TO RUN. YOU MAY CHOOSE TO DO EXERCISES THAT RELY LESS ON YOUR LOWER BODY, SUCH AS SIT-UPS (WHICH CAN ALSO BE DONE STANDING BY BENDING YOUR LEGS SLIGHTLY THEN BOWING AND STRAIGHTENING AGAIN LIKE YOU WOULD REGULAR SIT-UPS IF YOU HAVE DIFFICULTIES GETTING ON THE GROUND), CHIN-UPS, PULL-UPS, DIPS, SO ON. YOU ALSO MAY CONSIDER FREE WEIGHT EXERCISES WITH SOMETHING SMALL. 1KG DUMBBELLS CAN BE BOUGHT FOR AS LOW AS 5 REÁL; THEY'RE SMALL ENOUGH TO STORE AND CAN GO A LONG WAY (BICEP CURL, ZOTTMAN CURL, FLAT DUMBBELL FLY, ARNOLD PRESS, CROSS BODY HAMMER CURL, SPIDER CURL, SCAPTION EXCERCISES, I COULD GO ON -- THESE ALL WORK EXCLUSIVELY YOUR UPPER BODY MUSCLES). MEDICINE BALLS AND KETTLEBELLS TEND TO BE MORE EXPENSIVE BUT CAN ALSO BE AN OPTION TO LOOK AT. AND FINALLY, IF THOSE AREN'T OPTIONS, STRETCHING THREE TO FOUR TIMES A WEEK FOR AT LEAST 20 MINUTES CAN HELP ALLEVIATE MUSCLE TENSION AND REDUCE PAIN AND TENSION IN THE BODY AS WELL AS INCREASE FLEXIBILITY, BALANCE BLOOD CIRCULATION AND LUCIDITY. YOU MAY WANT TO DO STRETCHES FOR YOUR LEGS REGARDLESS TO ENSURE THEY DON'T GO UNDERUTILISED

COACH... OUT❗❗💥💪💪

#SKILLSPOSTING #Ooc so like I said in my last post this doesn't *quite* align with my view of PI... #Personally I headcanon Harry as a cane user post-Martinaise because of post-polio syndrome as well as. You know. Being SHOT 😂 #And I feel that with the way PI acts in the game he could become a *major* voice of hurt relating to this... #'Why can't you do this when you could do it before' 'Other people don't need to use that function' and so on. (PI-ified obviously) #He also tends to be very judgmental of others (and very misogynistic) when it comes to physical stuff #But frankly I don't feel comfortable doing that here at ALL. #So currently I've simply been writing a PI that can be more understanding to other people but-- #--may push Harry himself and other furies beyond their limits #I hope that's OK with everyone. ❤ #Last thing: I speak from experience here on what I've figured out works for me for bad days plus doing some research-- #--for this post so I don't ramble on about nothing but this isn't advice from someone who's qualified on this. #Preeeetty please do your own research to find out what works for you + talk to a physical therapist if you need to! 🥰❤

[swordfright]

do you have any c!awesamdream fics recomendations?

Honestly, I don’t have a ton of recs. c!awesamdream fic is mysteriously hard to find, and I also wouldn’t want to recommend you anything super E-rated in case that’s not your jam. Personally I’ve had more success searching the Sam & Dream gen relationship tag than the slash tag. That said, here are my no-brainer recs, most are gen with some exceptions:

inosculation by @theminecraftbox - canon compliant, reflection on how their relationship progresses during the prison arc, how c!sam’s authoritarian tendencies bloom in pandora, and the weird symbiosis he and dream achieve. technically not a slash fic but like it is To Me!!

saltwater on rock by @elmhat - also not technically a slash fic but it is a fun exploration of their relationship post-prison: who are they to each other, now that they aren’t prisoner and warden? what power has dream reclaimed, what power has sam ceded? or is it the other way around? fun stuff.

the trees deny themselves nothing by @lookinghalfacorpse - if you’re asking for recs you’ve probably already read this one (it’s basically THE awesamdream fic at this point) but i think it lends itself to re-readability! and if you haven’t read it: dream loses his leg in pandora, phil n techno conscript sam to make him a new one after the jailbreak, things get interesting. OP also wrote a post-fic oneshot which you can read here.

everlasting evermore by @elmhat - incomplete atm and also not slash but definitely awesamdream vibes. sam is a sad widower king who interrogates dream in his dungeon so it scratches the fantasy itch. this fic does some cool things with the cloning lab lore and i’m really excited to see where it goes!

21 steps in the desert by @airrec - banger. it's short so i won't describe it in detail. banger tho!

scream eureka by @cgogs - basically a post-canon domestic horror fic, sam and dream are married (with a kid on the way) but neither of them is able to move on from pandora. this fic deals with issues of bodily autonomy very well and it’s also refreshing to see trans pregnancy handled with tact, rather than treated like a fetish or a joke. IIRC this fic is an AU of an AU so be warned, it does come with like 30 pages of background lore which isn't necessary to understand the fic but does make it easier to follow.

all these lives by @lookinghalfacorpse - reincarnation drabble, plays with sam’s obsession in fun ways. not really sure how else to describe this one but i reread it sometimes! it’s good!

you don't have to be like that by @dr3amofagame - incomplete, i haven't reread this one in a while but i remember enjoying it at lot! dream gives sam the book in a moment of desperation and then has to navigate the fallout.

accident by @airrec - another fave. concise, fucked up, and very well written.

i’ve also been working on a multichap awesamdream fic (am i allowed to rec my own fics??? is that too cringe??) that’s gonna be wrapping up soon. pandora's vault gains sentience, that's the whole plot. like most of the other works on this list, it’s not technically ship fic but it is very much about sam and dream’s...situation. full warning tho, it’s long and rambly and weird, sorry for that!

i also wanna add that pretty much any fic that explores the scrapped lore is gonna have to deal with awesamdreamisms by necessity, owing to the nature of, well, the lore. there's a decent amount of fics about it, here's one that I found recently and enjoyed a lot.

Have fun, mind the tags. And if you find more then by all means, feel free to add to this post! I know there's a lot of tumblr-exclusive content floating around out there that can be harder to find than stuff on AO3.

Also, it's worth mentioning that some of the most compelling c!awesamdream content I've read were brief interludes in fics about much broader subjects in the fandom; I've read a lot of great c!awesamdream moments in c!rivals fics, prison trio fics, c!dnf fics, etc. So my advice is to cast your net wide, if that makes sense? Happy reading!

#like i said most are gen but like gen: suggestive edition if you catch my drift #i hope thats ok to say dfghnjmkjhg #if anyone wants to be untagged from this post and/or have their work removed just dm me and i'll make it happen! #c!sam #c!awesamdream #c!dream #awesamdude #dreblr #fic rec #asks #i don't have time to check these links before going back to work but hopefully they all lead where they're supposed to #if not lmk

[starlightshadowsworld]

Sorry if I ended up spamming your notifs but I looked through your dashboard cuz of that Fukuzawa post- how he could feel the bond snapping if the people he consider his subordinates died, and... never in my life have I considered that bond could've applied to Fukuchi when the guy left---

(But then it crossed my mind as I write this that idk if it's fortunate or devastating for Fukuzawa if something life-threatening happened to Ranpo because Ranpo doesn't have an ability that bonded with All Men Are Equal.)

Anyways, I love your post about Atsushi being in the mafia as part of the exchange cuz I love seeing Mori suffer.

I always define Atsushi as "light in the darkness" because in Beast, that's how he was for Kyouka (he'll always be her light).

Sorry for rambling, I should've sent you this as a message but idk if you'd feel comfy about some random acc popping in your inbox.

First off, ramble away.

I love having discussions and stuff about the stuff I talk about.

You're good, I don't mind. If you or someone else was spamming my inbox, I'd let ya know.

I do generally prefer people message me thro the asks, especially if I don't know you.

That aside and onto ur message.

I just can't get over that line of Fukuzawa saying he'd know if Kunikida had died.

That in some way he would've felt it. And I see it as a connection, as an almost physical bond between them that would've been cut.

And the idea of his connection with Fukuchi breaking. What was possibly one of the oldest connections Fukuzawa had, dissolving over time.

Fukuzawa trying to hold onto it because he still sees him as his friend. But it's broken and there's nothing he can do to get it back.

And it being so sad because Fukuzawa is used to these bonds breaking at death, but Fukuchi was lost to him long before he died.

I didn't think about Ranpo.

I think Fukuzawa sees it as both a blessing and a curse that he can't feel if Ranpo is okay.

But it's a testament to their bond that it isn't required. They trust each other so much, that it's like a sixth sense for Fukuzawa to know what Ranpo's up too.

While also knowing that if he wasn't grey before he met Ranpo, he would've definitely gone grey after meeting him.

Agreed.

Atsushi is the beast beneath the moonlight. He is the literal light in the darkness.

The idea of Kyouka envisioning the light with Atsushi as a apart of that, is gonna make me cry I love them both.

Atsushi in the Port Mafia to me is Mori being like I'm gonna corrupt you and Atsushi's like power of friendship motherfucker.

Atsushi won't go to therapy but you bet your ass he's giving everyone in the Port Mafia therapy.

Atsushi met Mori as werid ex doctor who gave him good but advice once. I think he'd be a bit... Skeptical this man is the head of the Port Mafia.

I think he'd listen to him but would think through and use that advice while following his own morals.

Like he did before.

Which is infuriating and fascinating to Mori because clearly Atsushi gets where he's coming from... He just won't do it.

Quite a juxtaposition from everyone else in the Port Mafia follows Mori without question.

But Atsushi does not.

I love the idea of his interactions with Mori are him being mostly maliciously compliant.

Like he's not outright doing something wrong but he's still pissing him off.

Something Dazai and Kunikida would've definitely taught him.

Like Mori's going on a whole spiel and Atsushi is just colouring on the floor with Elise paying him no attention.

And Mori can't say anything because Elise is so happy so he's just silently seething.

That whole Anne's Room episode and seeing these two interact for the first time, with Atsushi not knowing Mori's identity

Is just so intresting to me. More interactions between them is something I want.

That and I'd be curious to see if there was any information to do with the Port Mafia getting the bounty for Atsushi from the Guild and Fyodor.

Because yeah it could've just been for the reward, but was there more to it than that?

Or if the Headmaster had connections to the Port Mafia.

Because however small it may be, the Headmaster still made contact with the Port Mafia to sell a gun.

He's not from the area, but somehow arranged a meeting with them.

And in my opinion died very suspiciously.

I mean I personally hc that the injections the Headmaster was giving Atsushi were obtained from Mori when he was an underground doctor.

Whether that's true or not, idk but it would be intresting if Mori knew more about Atsushi than we realise.

But yeah that's just some of my thoughts.

#atsushi nakajima #bsd atsushi #bsd mori #bsd fukuzawa #fukuzawa yukichi #mori ougai #bsd fukuchi #bsd ranpo #bungou stray dogs #Bsd #long post

[tanenigiri]

*punches through wall* OUR DINING TABLE

(Thoughts and ramblings on episodes 8 and 9 under the cut. Some manga comparisons but I don't think any of them constitute as plot spoilers since there's one episode left, but if you plan on reading the manga and don't want the differences from the show to be spoiled, fair warning.)

The corresponding chapter of Episode 8 in the manga is actually where we find out all about Minoru's backstory. We see a good chunk of it here in the flashback in the cafe, when he and Tane first cross paths with Yutaka. But most of the other things we've seen about Minoru's past up to this point in the show - that scene with Nao where Tane spills a drink on her, that flashback scene with young Tane which looks like it just happened right after their mom's funeral, and the general sense of Minoru bearing the weight of being a second parent to Tane - all of that comes to head in this chapter of the manga. I know I've said it repeatedly over my previous posts, but I really have to say it again because it deserves the praise - Minoru's plot arc was handled so, so well in this show, and I genuinely think all the decisions they made to spread and flesh it out was to its benefit.

There were already a lot of other posts last week that pointed it out but I still wanna highlight it - the silence that pervades this episode was really effective in conveying the conflict Yutaka and Minoru were facing. Giving them all this space to think about it could be dragging for some, but I found it quite necessary for what they were dealing with. This show has always used the quiet moments effectively and I think this episode isn't an exception.

I also wanted to highlight how that whole idea of "things being the same" is important to both Yutaka and Minoru. Before the events of Episode 1, Yutaka was living a very monotonous routine, down to the meals he was feeding himself. And Minoru's life has been nothing but one massive change after the other, so I don't blame him in wanting to find something that he could keep from changing. But, of course, both of them know that what happened between them isn't static, and that the change is something they either have to accept or have to let go of.

Gotta dedicate a bullet point to Ohata, who finally got her one manga-canonical scene in this episode (Hozumi-kun you're so easy to read!), but really her character has quickly become my favorite addition to the series. She's a much-needed confidant for Yutaka in the same way the dad (and his manager at the ramen shop) is for Minoru, and these past two episodes also bring up the fact that she was having relationship troubles with her boyfriend. I guess I can point out how her own issues seemed a little too convenient in terms of giving the right advice to Yutaka to move the plot along, but I honestly don't mind it - partly because I think those conversations also serve to show how far Yutaka's come in terms of breaking out of his shell and partly because I always cheer whenever her character shows up haha. (And can we talk about how she's constantly the best-dressed character of the show? Like I know she doesn't really have much competition but still?? Did you guys see her hair in that last scene???)

Speaking of which, I'm so glad they added that last scene with Yutaka joining his officemates for drinks. This was only mentioned in the manga, but I think this is as big of a deal as the confession in terms of Yutaka's growth. This is the same character who, in Episode 1 (which was only a few months prior to this), was known by the office as someone who would turn down any invite, and the manga even goes further with this in that they wouldn't invite him at all because they know that he would just reject them. Not to mention that the literal first thing we find out about Yutaka is how he doesn't share meals with anyone! Seeing him in the bar with his coworkers is absolutely massive in terms of how much Yutaka has changed, and while Ohata is right in teasing him that it's because of a special someone, I do think it's a testament to how much progress Yutaka has made over the course of the show both because of Minoru and because of his personal growth.

And since I mentioned it, I'm pretty happy with how they translated that playground confession scene into the show. In particular I enjoyed how generally awkward it was because it was very in-character, and I think giving the scene a more laid back vibe instead of a serious one was a really good decision. That whole "you're very important to me" spiel destroyed me though.

It's only recently I realized that the whole "BL male lead running to other BL male lead" is an actual trope that's seen in almost every series and I find that so funny. I've only watched a few before this and they do all have running involved.

Screaming at Mr. Ueda literally dragging his son out of the house and telling him to get it together before the New Year rings in. We don't really get a lot of scenes between the two of them so I'm glad we got this.

Tane-kun takes a bit of a backseat in these two episodes as the plot shifts to Yutaka and Minoru's relationship (the same thing happens in the manga), but the scenes he does get are still really good. In particular I like that once he realizes that Minoru and Yutaka are "fighting," all Tane says is that Minoru should apologize because, for him, Yutaka would always understand and accept their apology.

Ok so I'm of two minds about that scene with Yuuki (Yutaka's adoptive brother), which I was pretty surprised to see as it wasn't in the manga. On one hand, I'm glad that we do get some sort of closure for this, and that at the end of the day, Yutaka does have an adoptive family that cares for him. But on the other hand, I really don't think that the apology was anywhere close to undoing the damage that Yutaka's had to bear all these years? Like, I get that it's a misunderstanding on both ends and that proper communication would've solved it (and this is, in fact, the takeaway Yutaka needed for his confession to Minoru), but I'm not a fan of the implication that just because Yuuki was apparently not that much of a jerk to Yutaka as we thought that he's forgiven for his clearly traumatizing actions? I don't think they're gonna address this further in next week's episode (though I'd love to be wrong), but I dunno - it's not the note I would've liked that plot point to be left on. Sure, put some forgiveness in there, but I guess I wanted either party to acknowledge that while Yutaka could start mending his relationship with his adoptive family, there's still a lot of damage that they need to process? I know that's a pretty big ask for what is essentially a minor plot point, but eh. I'd love to hear your thoughts on it (and on the show in general).

The preview gave me a glimpse of the one other scene in the manga that's in my Top 3 (up there with Yutaka's cartoonified backstory and Minoru taking care of a sick Yutaka) and I am soooo ready to break down because of it. For manga readers who want to know which one: It's the scene without Minoru.

Love this show so much. I don't want it to end and I'm both anticipating and dreading the finale next week.

#our dining table #bokura no shokutaku

[blechannoyed]

Here we are again. This latest chapter and all your thoughts and comments and posts just have my brain spinning. Warning - This is a long one.

2 (of the many) things I've been hung up on today are the Grandpa reveal and a comment about He Tian being interested in Jian Yi in the early chapters. Which I thought so too until rereads and He Tian's run to save Jian Yi. I've had so many questions about this scene for a loooong time. Still do.

Because He Tian didn't get the info from something He Cheng accidently said or did, or from some one in Cheng's household (my first thought) because Tian was surprised to see Cheng there as well.

And it isn't something obvious because Cheng started to ask about it again when Tian was sick:

And He Tian wasn't overly worried about Jian Yi 's kidnapping - likely because the rescue operation was in progress/done when this convo happens.

So he's still getting info somewhere and he knows exactly who Jian Yi is - yet he never shares this common thread between them. He's not remotely surprised when Jian Yi says he's staying at He Cheng's - though he does look unhappy about it - and I don't think it was a truly spontaneous plan to bring Mo to see sharks later that day. He was always going to go there that night.

So with the Mr. Jian being grandpa not dad, my first thought was "oh shit, I bet they're cousins". And than promptly realized nothing supports that and eeew - they are hella flirty with each other. But I don't think I'm far off, just more likely close friendly "cousins" versus biological.

It's very common for criminal organizations to have two faces; the legal one and the mafia side. This is so the mafia side can benefit the legal one (funny how they get all the best contracts kind of thing) and the legal side launders money, etc. The He's are very very rich and well respected - see the response when He Cheng had to go to the police station and how He Tian's teachers talk about his good family - but Mr. Jian is He Cheng's boss. Obviously the Jian's aren't hurting either but even in the future art, He Tian is the rich one. So my current theory is the He's run the legal side (and are old money) and the Jian's the more criminal side. I think it's been that way for generations, and everyone's hands are dirty - excuse me - involved and trained in each aspect.

Sooooo this long ramble and how my two thoughts interconnect.....

I don't think He Tian was told who Jian Yi was. I think he figured it out himself when they first become friends in middle school. Tian was obviously exposed really early on to all elements of his family business and we know he's a very smart kid. And I think we forget sometimes as fans that when we first get to meet He Tian isn't when Jian Yi does. Because even in the early chapters they are really close and confidants. He Tian knew immediately when Jian Yi was upset here:

And Jian Yi has deep conversations with him:

He Tian knew exactly why Jian Yi wanted to skip:

And He Tian was actually the first person Jian Yi really came out to:

In fact, He Tian is his person of choice for advice:

In the early chapters Zhan Zheng Xi noted Jian Yi was really popular "for some reason". I think a lot of that reason is He Tian figuring out who he was, wanting to get to know him/keep him close, and then not only genuinely adoring each other but the realization that they share a commonality in their orientation.

The future is going to hold some interesting surprises!

#blown away #gorgeous writing #that storytelling #old xian #jian yi #he tian #zhan zheng xi #19 days #19days #obsessed #so many theories #i still want to know how he tian knew #oh i have more #yall are going to be sick of me in the tag #ramblings #hope the point got across?

[redrocketpanda]

Today is my 1 year anniversary of fic writing! I wanted to do something to celebrate but couldn't think of anything, so here's a little reflective ramble post about writing instead

For well over a decade (tbh closer to 15 years) I struggled with severe writing anxiety and, with the exception of one thing I posted in 2014, my anxiety became so bad that I completely disengaged from writing altogether. Whenever I sat down to write I would be filled with such powerful negative thoughts that I would become paralysed by them. I tried so many things to help combat this including writing workshops + classes, nanowrimo, mentoring, journaling, and reading tonnes of self-help advice, but nothing seemed to work. I grew increasingly despondent, afraid that nothing would "fix" me, which was incredibly depressing because when I was younger I loved writing. I wanted to get back to that space of creativity and joy that writing brought but instead felt like I was being pushed further and further away from it.

Then, in November 2022, I was talking to one of my best friends - @parad0xymoron - about how distressing I was finding S6 of My Hero Academia, to the point where I was struggling to watch it. Socket's suggestion? Write fic! If something is happening that I don't like or is upsetting me, then I can write a different version of events. And thus the first chapter of Just Watch Me - my Kirishima/Bakugou fic - was born.

And once I'd started, I found I couldn't stop.

Suddenly, all of the characters, and scenarios, and plots I was imagining in my head came spilling out onto the page. Between November - April, I not only posted all 4 chapters of Just Watch Me but I also wrote and published 7 other one-shots as well. This isn't to say that writing "suddenly" became easy. Of course it didn't. It was - and is - still stressful for me. There were times when I felt that all too familiar sense of paralysis creeping up on me, but I drew on all the tools I had learned over a decade to deal with it.

I stopped. Took a deep breath. Looked inside to see what was going on: What was I scared or anxious of? Then I addressed the issue myself, or spoke to friends who helped me process. And then I kept going. I didn't let the fear or the anxiety or the obsessive need for perfection to stop me.

In exactly 1 year (27th November 2022 - 27th November 2023) I went from 0 words to:

I repeat: In exactly 1 year I went from 0 words in (almost) 10 years to 87, 852 words across 12 published fics for 5 different fandoms. And that's not even including the thousands of words I have from my wips.

During this time, I didn't just write though. I spent time devouring other people's fics and learning from their writing. I spoke to a whole bunch of wonderful fic writers who gave me tonnes of useful feedback, ideas, reassurance, and validation. I began analysing media I enjoy to begin breaking down the parts of them that I loved so that I could learn from it. I joined a bunch of bang events (which, honestly, has been incredible). And I made friends with some of the most wonderful people + writers who are now very dear to my heart.

Perhaps ironically, I cannot even put into words how life changing writing fic and participating in fandom has been for me. It has given me back what no workshops or classes or professionals has ever been able to give me - my ability to write, and to enjoy writing.

So let me just be a sap for a minute and say a very tearful thank you to any of you who have been part of my journey - whether that's been in leaving kudos or comments on my fics, or talking through ideas with me, or beta-reading my fics, or gifting me your valuable writing advice, or sharing your own writing journeys with me, or being someone who I've made friends with.

I'm literally so grateful to every single experience I've had over the past year, and it makes me very excited to see what the next year brings. I still have far to go and much to learn, but damn am I revelling in the fucking joy of being able to write. I'm so excited to keep writing, keep creating, and keep sharing with you all <3

#writing #writing anxiety #writing advice #writing fic #fandom #mha #hq #jjk #bllk #bg3 #fic writing

[endy2eepy]

WELCOME 2 MY AGERE BLOG!!! 🌙

I'm Ender. I'm 18 going on 8 and use any pronouns!

Below the cut is more information about me :3

Lets be friends! My asks are open and so are my DMs :3 (Taken anon tags: 🦁,🫖 )

Things to talk about: anything in my likes section beneath the cut, my headcanons from this post, YOUR interests and headcanons, your day, advice, literally anything SFW

Don't be shy, I only bite lightly hehe

i made this dni banner and it's free to use if you want :3

✨ Names/Nicknames:

-Ender/Coy(/Rose/Cat when small)

-Masculine and feminine nicknames are cool

-Gender neutral nicknames are okay if they're like normal and non-alienating and don't exist just to draw attention to the fact that I'm not like everyone else (so best to stay away)

(sibling is fine instead of brother or sister but monarch isn't fine when you could just say prince or princes, ect.)

-Endy, Rosie, ect

-Pet names are fine but nothing with "baby" in it and I'd prefer that you get permission before calling me any of them cause they can vary from person to person :3

✨ Age:

18 chronologically, 0-8 in headspace

✨ Agere Role:

Flip (mostly little)

✨ Pronouns:

-Any/all

-Mist/fog/haze neos

✨ Hobbies:

Anything creative I can get my hands on, walking, and gaming

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Big- Hazbin Hotel, DHMIS, TADC, Overwatch, Fortnite, CoTL, boyfriends WEBTOON

Little- 2003-2010 PBS kids&Sprout (plus some Nick Jr/Disney Jr), Veggie Tales, Word Party, The Imagine Series (Wii/DS games), The Very Hungry Caterpillar

Both- sloths, MCYT, music, dolls (AG rn), old flash games, Wii/DS games, Minecraft, arts&crafts, fashion design, Angel Hare, ToH, Heartstopper, Candy Land

✨ Dislikes:

Thunderstorms, pasta (bad bad texture), the distance between me and my girlfriend, and like general obvious stuff

✨ Boundaries & DNI:

-I'm okay with touch but usually not like roleplay like asterisk type touch, only like gifs and emotes!

-I'm okay with DMs but ask first and be aware I may not respond (I'm not good at it and I get very scared and overwhelmed)

-I cannot understand baby talk (and some other typing quirks) so if I ignore you that's probably why... don't take it personal, just translate if it's important!

-DNI if you post slander on literally anything, I don't wanna deal with it. This includes if you think people are bad because they consume content made by someone bad (piracy is so easy guys come on).

-DNI if your blog is unsafe for children obviously.

-Don't take it personally if I block you. I block freely to curate my space and there's something you post that makes me uncomfy- it's nothing against you, I just have some weird icks and stuff I don't wanna see.

✨My Post Tags:

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[hananoami]

[03/24] Deepspace Trials Progression

A little late to post, but I've successfully clear all three directional orbit stage 70s, unlocking their personal title soles Xavier's [Sands of Time], Zayne's [Dream's Finale], and Rafayel's [Scarlet Thorns]! Additional rewards for clearing the directional orbit - stage 70 are the following: 40 diamonds + 1 Empyrean Wish + 4000 gold. This stage did not have an achievement locked behind it, so no achievement points were gained from successfully clearing these stages.

Sundays are the best days for deepspace trial progression because all three directional orbits are available. I generally try to keep a record of the stages I've done that gave me difficulty to clear in case others might find my experience insightful for their own attempts. I apologize if my explanations are a bit confusing! Most of my notes are me rambling, but my inbox is always available if there are any questions. Feel free to leave a comment and I will try my best to help any way I can.

𝚇𝙰𝚅𝙸𝙴𝚁 (3/3) stage 73 to 75

stage 73

was such a pain in the ass trying to kill those frenzy mobs fast enough in order to get the dmg buff. you'll have to do it do it 3 times throughout the fight, with each round getting progressively more challenging. 1st round had 2 mobs with 3HP bars no shields + 1 frenzy mob 3hp no shield. round 2 had 1 tanky af wanderer with 3HP bars + 2 shields; then another tanky af frenzied wanderer with 3HP no shield. last round had the final 'boss' with 4HP bars + 4 shields. the frenzy wanderer had 3HP no shield. was there a stellactrum? idr, but i dont think there was? anyway, my advice for this stage is to group up the wanderers as close together so you can use [Active Skill] on cool down to burst damage faster. use [Resonance Skill] to break down wanderers with shields, and once those shields are broken use [Active Skill] to deal a burst of damage to a weakened wanderer. the targeting system in his game isn't the best. to avoid hitting a different wanderer i usually try to face the frenzy wanderer, standing as close as possible to focus target it in order to center all damage around that specific one. if defeated within the time limit you should get a notification about receiving an active damage buff. MC also emits a red glow.

stage 74

nothing worth noting. just go in and do some big deeps!

stage 75

the game sets x0 and x5 stages as more challenging than the others. this was pretty easy imo. 4 wanderers spawn at once with 3HP bars + 2 shields each. group them up, break shields, and burst damage them down.

𝚉𝙰𝚈𝙽𝙴 (1/3) stage 77 to 80

stage 77

nothing worth noting. just go in and do some big deeps!

stage 78

required 4 ruby and 1 pearl for protofield stellactrum bonus. i don't have [Neon Night] for the NT pair, but i do have his HC pair from the [Heartfelt] series. this stage was to stand near the sensor until it reached 100%!

stage 79

this also required 4 ruby and 1 pearl for protofield stellactrum bonus. was a kill all wanderers type of stage - 2 rounds. each had 2 wanderers with 3HP bars + 2 shields and 2 monsters with 3HP bars. it helped to group them all together in order to do AOE dmg. would recommend matching the stellactrum for the bonus bc it really helped here to break down their shields -- even if the memories are low leveled!

𝚁𝙰𝙵𝙰𝚈𝙴𝙻 (3/3) stage 70 to 73

Successfully cleared his directional orbit: fire stage 70! I do not have a clear vod for this fight, but I can provide screenshots of my team set up and their attributes.

Team 1 required 4 pearl + 1 ruby to match the protofield stellactrum. there were 5 mobs with 3 HP bars + 2 shields. using his [Resonance Skill] to group up the mobs really helped. blessed to have his myth cards.

Team 2 required 4 violet + 2 amber to match the protofield stellactrum. ngl i had so much trouble with this one. in my case it was more of a skill difference than a stat issue. what worked for me was to save my [Resonance Skill] to spam on cooldown and only use the [Active Skill] when the shields were completely broken for maximum dmg. also remembering to pick up his beacon when it drops [Passive Skill] with charged attacks and being able to move out of dmg areas/dodge in time to gain their [Support Skill] really helps.

#love and deepspace #deepspace trials #;orbit prog notes #;not me rambling into the void #;sakura snapshots #;achievement notes #;affinity notes

[saturnskyline]

“pro: he gets to work in his area of expertise! con: he isn't fully removed from the "vegas from the minor family" label that he clearly resents. hmm. many jumbled thoughts on this”

oh, oh wow, i just realized one thing, when vegas was his father’s second, he was never good enough, his father kept reminding him that. he celebrated minor victories with his men but those were not his father’s tasks. but imagine vegas working with porsche (hi, how are you, kinn?) and it’s nothing like that??? porsche genuinely appreciates vegas’s help, listens to his advice and says things like “thanks, that was amazing, vegas”, because porsche might have all the 100k essay feelings about vegas (and vegaspete????) but he isn’t stupid and knows that having vegas on his side is better than not. and porsche doesn’t mind saying thank you when he is thankful, he is genuine about that kind of stuff. so he just casually praises vegas here and there? like vegas is not actually a failure and good for nothing and disappointment??? and we already know they have amazing chemistry during combat so i want more of that. (porsche refuses to send his men without joining himself, fuck you, korn, you cannot lock this bird in a cage.) also porsche does not trust korn still and he cannot talk about it with kinn, and yes, they want to merge main and minor family, have them not compete but at the end of the day there are still two people not one leading two families. and it’s nice that porsche has vegas to back him up (how did we get here, ha ha) when he disagrees with the main family about something. anyway just some more thoughts about how porsche and vegas have so many layers to their relationship while i am panicking about a flight.

(prev post is here, and there's more where that came from. lots of layers to this hehe)

first of all, i'm sorry about the flight stress 😭 but i'm glad to distract from that in any way with my ramblings <333

and oh, i never thought about it like this before! i do think vegas is at least a little taken in by porsche's earnestness ("how can you live in this filthy world" ish .... sorry sorry), and how candid he is about everything. vegas has grown up in this web of lies, where no one is what they seem, but porsche, the uninitiated, brings a whole new perspective to the table. and sure, i can see this being a source of conflict, since it's such a blatant reminder of just how much porsche was decidedly not primed to be a mafia heir. but! i like to think that vegas finds it refreshing, in a sense. post-canon, he's in an entirely different state of mind; he's absolutely more vulnerable, and i think he would be pretty receptive to porsche's more open, positive feedback. don't get me wrong: i love when he's a slimy, manipulative little guy too, but i think his main focus now being to keep pete and macau safe has honestly changed him. plus, vegas and porsche are such a good team, i would love to see them playing nice :)

it's super interesting to consider how korn (rightfully) views them both as dangerous, too... vegas in the finale was such a wild card that he tried to take him out (i guess this is technically uncomfirmed but really. who else could it have been), and porsche is such a threat that korn has to trap him with his family and a position at kinn's side. now, if they could just team up and work together defeat the chess master, everything would be great!!

also your comment on porsche putting aside his 100k essay feelings when working with vegas is so !!!! exactly!! porsche really does seem like the type of guy to be able to compartmentalize their bad history in favor of a larger goal. "yeah it's true that he (insert literally anything from the laundry list of offenses), but we have good professional chemistry!" lol. it's possible that vegas concedes in a similar way as well, with porsche being head of the minor family (it's true that he doesn't have any choice but to accept this, as long as korn is breathing... but still).

anyway. i always dive right into these and then wonder if i'm even making sense ghdfjsdhf, but mostly what i'm trying to say is, i want these two to continue to bond over being "blinded by the adults", have weirdly wholesome moments in the future where porsche tells vegas that he is good, and continue to serve MASSIVE COMBAT CHEMISTRY LIKE THIS 🙏🙏

#like. is that too much to ask?? #i don't think so! #no bc i very much need vegas to hear that he did a good job and porsche should be the one to say it #and they really SHOULD have bad blood between them #but i just don't see porsche holding a grudge? #idk i might be delusional but yeah :D #vegas theerapanyakul #porsche kittisawasd #kpts #kp meta #asks

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

could i perchance ask for a detailed description of rivi and ingis?

!!! Like appearance-wise or personality?

I'm actually intending on doing some character profiles as I get further into the story, where I'll have a full design with notes, and basic info about them. However, I do have the basic designs for most of the main cast which I posted previously. I may tweak them a little in future but these should be fairly close to the final look.

The guy on the left is Rivi, and the one on the right is Ingis. (The girl in between them will be showing up soon.)

Rivi is 28 years old and tall (I don't have exact heights just yet, but probably 5"10' or 11'? He's not 6". I know that much.) He's got dark brown hair that tends to look almost black and grey eyes. His outfit can change a bit, but he typically wears a greyish peacoat with a simple plain shirt or t-shirt underneath, stretchy and comfy dress pants, and dress shoes - he's gotten accustomed to this ensemble from having to attend and help out with a lot of academic presentations (he's a student researcher). He nearly always stands casually with his left hand in his pocket, and gestures around him with his right. He likes the stars and quiet areas, and tends to be polite and affable when speaking with others. He offers good advice, and is generally very kind.

Ingis just turned 20 and is actually not that much shorter than Rivi - the height difference just looks more dramatic because he tends to hunch in on himself. He is broad shouldered and kind of a big guy, but he tends to stand in such a way that he looks much smaller. He dresses more casually than Rivi, tending towards simple shirts and jeans and sneakers, but his constant is the blue knit sweater he's always wearing. It's too small for him and doesn't fit well anymore. Ingis' hair is a light brown, as are his eyes. He has a pair of big, rectangular wire-framed glasses, but his eyesight isn't all that bad and he can do things without them (though nothing is quite in focus). His eyebrows are fairly thick. He never knows what to do with his hands so he typically has them shoved in his pockets or otherwise holding something. Ingis is overly polite and apologetic, and while friendly, he's a bit naïve and quick to get anxious. He really likes young kids but is also nervous around them lol.

I hope that's detailed enough? Like I said, I'll be doing some character profiles for the story, which will contain proper reference, personality traits, and design notes. I also have some of my initial sketches when I was designing them here... they're rough, but I might as well add them

(Rivi is in his sleep shirt here with coffee hehe)

Is uh. Is this at all what you wanted or did I just go on an unhinged ramble? I hope it was what you meant...!

#thanks for the ask! #the capture of light #tcol #my art #tcol rivi #tcol ingis #storyrambles

[orphicpoieses]

The orphic blog

Hey and welcome to another episode of the orphic blog, where I ramble about anything and everything that's on my mind. If you like what you see, consider subscribing to my tag list because I cannot tell you when the next post will happen. 🙂

As many of you may have noticed: my native language is not English. It is German.

And maybe you have noticed that I have an Instagram-Account, where I post stuff irregularly.

Yes, I know, most people on Tumblr don't care for Instagram (legit), but I do, especially with my current Account. And since Instagram isn't much of a text-based platform, I will post my blog about this here, simply hoping people will read and understand.

For a little background:

I started Instagram on a regular basis in March 2018, where I joined the German Bookstagram Community. Blogging about books was always a hobby of mine, but I never wanted to be a professional blogger for publishers. I never wanted to have the pressure of having a deadline reading a book and writing an article. Reading was just an hobby and I don't want to make it a job.

But as it is with any niche within any social media app: People are very passionate about creating fancy stuff. In Germany we have a saying: "Höher, schneller, weiter." Higher, faster, farer.

See, I don't have that neat white rug or that perfect floor or bed, to take fancy photographs of these perfectly created bookish scenes. My lighting is bad and my photos don't look very professional. The effort I put into creating photos like this

it never really found an audience and I quit Instagram for a very long time. I simply hadn't the energy to create stunning photos every weekend, where I had to take all I wanted to photograph either outside or in another room, just that the lighting was decent.

After a while, around Summer 2021, I wanted to start a new Account, where the focus was on me and my person, rather than books and the perfect light. I started posting in English (because I wanted to international), talking about self-care, my life and writing. But soon enough, things got difficult again:

I felt like I am only copying the style from other people, Influencers I look up to. Like trying to be a person I am not.

And again, my account got quiet, just posting the photos I really thought about, mostly without a caption, because I don't know what to say.

Since the start of my new semester at Uni, I've met many people with social media accounts, running either full Instagram or even a YouTube Channel. Posting Insta-Stories isn't anything unusual anymore, since everyone does that. I feel like it is accepted that you host an account somewhere on the internet (maybe that's just the Computer Science department's mentality).

Now, that I am back at a community where shooting videos and creating content is more "normal", I kinda feel the urge to create again. But not only am I kinda lost in this space, I also don’t know which language I should use. I read and write in German, my native language. But I feel more comfortable talking in English. So, for video content, I would say English is my go to, but maybe creating stuff again in German will attract the right people since my work is down in German…? What are your opinions on that? (desperate for your advice here! Not kidding!)

But, as already mentioned: I still don't have the best base to create photos at home and I am not that outgoing that I could take photos every weekend on some trip somewhere (even though I would love to do so!).

I already figured that creating a story is sometimes easier than creating a post, but still I don't know what to talk about on a regular basis. Like, my life isn't that interesting? I don't live in a fancy town. I don't go partying all weekend. I don't have friends to do funny stuff with.

I am just a normal girl, living a boring life in a town, where nothing happens. I write fantasy stories and work for uni all day. There isn't much to say about me. I am not interesting.

But maybe that's exactly what's interesting, I don't know.

Maybe, I just start and trust the process.

Done is better than perfect.

I always tell other people to just start and it'll work out in the end, but I never trust myself and the challenges that I have to face. I doubt myself, especially in the creative, outgoing part. I am great at doing stuff privately, but I cannot stay open and out-and-about with stuff. I tend to back away from yelling into the world, that I am here.

I reach for the stars, while pushing the sky further away.

Having an aesthetic eye is nice, but it can drag you down in stuff like that. Wishing for the perfect photo will not help me create a post. Wanting to photograph something does and sometimes, if you look closely enough, you will realise that even the 3.5 million subscriber accounts once started with crooked photos and wanky cameras.

I need to remind myself of that. And posting that one reel that is in my opinion absolutely horrible was one step in that direction.

We live in a world, where one cannot speak freely without having to be afraid of people getting wildly mad at them because they like something, they don't like or say something they don't like.

We live in a world, where the intelligent have to dumb themselves down, so that the dumb won't feel harassed.

And as someone, who is a people pleaser, I am deadly afraid of creating a mob out there, may it be on Instagram or Tumblr, because my world view might be a little different.

In the end, I don't know if I every gain many followers, many people who want to listen to my words. Normally, people don't do. And that's okay, even if it is a little discouraging for me to see people visit my blogs, have a look and then vanish again, never to be seen again.

I want to talk about what fuels me: writing, computer science, communities, coziness and slow living.

But I don't know how.

I don't know how on neither Instagram, nor Tumblr.

And that's also why I am on a semi-hiatus at the moment. Because I feel lost in this community, where I want to participate, want to create, but feel like in a glass box, able to look outside, but no one can come in.

If you have come this far, please leave a message in the comments or reblog this and let me know what you think about the bubble every person on the internet sits in.

What are your go to methods to drag you out of a slump on any social media app? When you don't know what to create? Even though you have a full list of ideas?

#orphic blog #the orphic blog #social media #instagram #orphicpoieses #writeblr #writing #creative writing #writers on tumblr #writerblr #writerscommunity #writerscorner #writersociety #writblr #literature

[beevean]

Your post about the Sonic fandom has made me contemplate if it would be best for me to cut myself off from it. Someone like me has no place in it as it currently is, and by proxy, as the franchise itself currently is, and I rarely get the opportunity nowadays to talk about anything that isn't IDW, Frontiers or Prime... only for me to then get screamed at for being negative about those things. There's just no winning, and I don't know what else I can do. Any advice?

I don't know, I'm just doing what I want.

I don't want to drop Sonic. I also feel like I cannot drop Sonic even if I wanted to: I spent the last 5 years extensively talking about it, it's been my main fandom for most of my life, most of my followers and friends come from the fandom, I can change my icon and my header but I can't change who I am :P

I guess I just... don't want to bother with things I don't like. Sure, venting feels nice, but that's it, venting, I don't have the energy anymore for huge essays. I said my piece regarding Frontiers' story, regarding IDW and its waste of an arc, I literally could not care less about Prime, and now I get bitchy anons proclaiming that I do not deserve sympathy and I am a bully and I brought it all on myself and no wonder I alienate people. You get to a point where you just have to ask yourself, why should I care? Why do I have to be in an awful mood because I can't like what everyone else likes and feel like there is something wrong with me? Why do I have to complain? I can like things, I just have to look elsewhere.

Maybe you can talk to @colony-drop-program and @spinningbuster98, who are going through a similar thing. I don't know what advice I can give you other than "don't bother with discourse and find stuff that makes you happy". You want to reblog 10 posts in a row about the scenery in Spyro games? Go for it! You want to post sneak peeks of Stellar? Go for it! You want to unfollow everyone except for your friends? Go for it! You want to quit Tumblr and make a Discord server? Go for it!

And disable anons while you're at it :P

Sorry if I rambled for nothing. I'm myself really bad at dropping stuff, so I don't know how you can effectively step away from a fandom, outside of growing out of it on your own. I think it's all a matter of learning to stop giving a fuck.

[witch-hazels-musings]

Hey there Hazel! I've found myself in a bit of a..predicament. Recently, I decided to revisit the new account of a writer whose old account I'm currently following only to realize that I had been blocked on their new account. Confused by this, I sent them a message pointing it out and apologizing in case I did something to upset them (i.e spam liking since they are one of the few authors I've come across to not exactly be fond of that, and I've been guilty of such in the past) but then I realized I had only interacted with their new account once, which made me even more bewildered. So I decided to ask what another author may have thought about this and they said that it may have been because I have a "blank blog" and that I shouldn't reach out to anyone to ask why I've been blocked (keeping in mind, I never did ask why. Just apologized.) because it can make someone uncomfortable and they "don't owe me an explanation for protecting their own space" which I completely understand. It is never EVER my intention to make anyone uncomfortable.

I had not the faintest clue that a blank blog can be seen as..offensive somehow? In reality, I had been building the courage to start reblogging and even possibly writing one day, but I've been moving at my own pace since I'm a generally nervous person in almost everything I do. Just recently I've been quite proud of myself for being able to send in asks/messages without being as nervous as the first time (I was an nervous wreck that time) but now because of this situation, I feel like I've moved 10 steps back. I've been overthinking this for almost the entire day and it's honestly extremely overwhelming since on one hand "wow, I can be blocked for a blank blog?" And the other "wow, now I've upset 2 of my favorite writers".

This has been weighing so heavy on my mind that truly, I feel quite deterred from interacting with anyone because of it but I want to keep trying since one day, I would like people to read my stories and I wouldn't want reblogs or anything in return, just to know that people are content with my writing. You are the only person that I've thought about reaching out to since you're so understanding and give amazing feedback and I hope to be as mature as you one day(once I get past my anxiousness).

TLDR: In case of anyone being in the same boat as me, do you have any advice on publicly writing and handling the anxiety that comes with putting out that first piece? I'm deeply sorry for the ramble and hope I was as clear and concise as possible. (And as you can see this whole thing was exhausting to the point that I'm not bothering with any anonymity)

This got a little long so read more below the cut! (Also I'm on mobile so I'm not gonna italics below... because ...work)

I can't imagine the confusion of returning to check out an author you love only to find out they've blocked you. Especially if you aren't sure what happened to cause the block.

So you've asked a question here, but your comments are of a different issue so I wanna answer both

There are so many reasons why a blog might block another. I've seen all sorts of rules posted, so I want to explain some perspectives as to why. --

Don't spam like :: some people get overwhelmed by notifications, others believe it'll lead them to being shadowbanned (this isn't true, idk why people think that), lastly - and in my opinion the most important - likes do nothing for creators. They are nice, but they don't help creators get their work seen

I know you said your working up the courage to reblog and interact, so think about your blog as a little scrapbook that you want to save and look at later. That's what Tumblr is.

Creators need your reblogs or their posts die. That's it, that's how Tumblr works.

Ageless and blank blogs :: these are more comfort level for creators. They are different person to person. Ageless is scary for adult vs minor interactions, and blank blogs are often bots (spam accounts) - so some blogs block all of them

My advice is make your blog your home before you go out into the world..it's your safe space, your happy place, so make it how you want!

DNI/BYF :: DNI (do not interact), BYF (before you follow) are great things to check out when first encountering a blog. It'll outline the rules of the author and it's possible you did something on that list that they didn't like (it can be hard to know, so check for those before interacting)

These are just a few reasons why, and I know it doesn't tell you what happened but maybe it'll bring a little background.

I'll also say that while people are allowed to set their rules, of course, still I'm sorry you were treated the way you were when figuring out why. No wonder your nervous to interact with people. Some of the interactions I've seen are ... Kinda not nice.

You're always welcome here to practice and grow more comfortable! I'm happy to help and encourage you!!

As for your second question, honestly, you just have to go for it!! If you've written something and you love it, you have to rip off the band-aid and post it.

See how it goes and learn from everything around you. I made plenty of mistakes when I first started so ask if you get lost, be open to feedback if you've made an error, and stick to your values ♥️♥️

Check out my pinned post on my blog for some writing blog 101 guides if you want more info!! And reach out if you need something.

Here's another thing, if those blogs are not going to give you a chance, there are others that will and who want you to succeed. Shrine bright firekeeper, you got this 🔥🔥

#hazelmail #coffee elixir #hazel aid #cw long post #long post

[kirabook]

My thoughts have finally coalesced on a certain topic. I won't post it to my st blog yet though. People are really annoying and not nuanced when it comes to this and I don't want to deal with their shipping wars when this isn't about ships for me.

I really didn't like that El needed Mike's love speech to overcome Vecna. Or rather, I didn't like that it happened in that moment i guess.

Stranger Things sometimes does a great job subverting tropes so I was really hoping they weren't gonna go with the obvious "love confession in the head of the moment" trope so that El could defeat the bad guy, but they did.

Needless to say, I remember heaving a deep sigh and thinking "welp. let's get this over with I guess."

I prefer how they did it in episode 7. El already had everything she needed BEFORE the fight. She had Henry's advice. She had her mother's love. She just needed to really focus on that stuff to finally harness it at that moment. It's like having a giant puzzle and finally putting in the last piece just in time.

If I continue with the puzzle analogy, it's as if El never had a puzzle in the first place and Mike randomly gave her one that was already complete. In other words.... boring. Kinda pointless? Not interesting or clever.

If I were in the writing room and a Mike confession absolutely needed to happen, I think it should've happened BEFORE she even got into the freezer tank. El should have already heard everything she needed to hear heading into the final battle.

It doesn't mean she would've have struggled or gotten cornered. But the point would be that we wouldn't have a monologue in the middle of Max fighting for her life and El just hanging there listening.

It would've been much more dramatic if El was fighting through all the horrible memories and things Vecna just said to her (that it was her fault all of this was happening basically) and Mike's words broke through, just like her mother's love, and then BAM, once again she managed to find the strength break free.

If they had done it this way, they could've shown SO much more too, just like with Max! It wouldn't just be Mike she remembered. It'd be Max, Hopper, Joyce, Will, Lucas, Dustin, Jonathan, EVERYONE she's grown to love and who love her.

So yeah... I just struggle so much with this particular piece of writing. It falls so flat to me.... I guess I expected more of a moment like this. The monologue slows everything down, it feels like it reduces all of El's struggles in life to whether Mike loves her.

And that's what bugs me the most! El has SO much going on in her life! Why is this big moment against her long time enemy reduced down to a love confession and basically nothing else? I just... I dunno.

Why did it need to happen this way? ensienghesonhg

Anyway, rambling over. Ah, it's so nice that I finally understand my frustration with this part of the story. From the reactors I've seen, they don't seem to have too much emotion towards this scene either but I have seen a couple get emotional about it so I'm sure it resonates with some people. I think I'm just too bothered by the pacing and what they decided to focus on at some points to care about it. That coupled with the whole shipping stuff in ST is not my forte.

Oh yeah. My other small point, this doesn't even have to do with El's independence or anything because most of the other writing on this show have already shown El's independence and freedom of choice and the ability to stand on her own. But it feels like in an effort to write a romantic story, they fall back way to hard on classic romance tropes and it... doesn't feel quite right.

I still think the best solution would've been to have the confession or whatever out of the way before the fight, and then have El recalling all the love she has given and received over these last few years of her life (including Mike's would be recent confession) to give her the strength in that final battle. I just do not like that they stopped everything for a slow paced monologue. I think it was executed better in episode 7.

#text #stranger things

[mysticfemme]

Hi MysticFemme. I'm, uh, sending this as an ask because it felt impolite to send this as a direct message. I don't want to presume boundaries or what you're like in real life because I have no idea. But you seem to be struggling and in a sad place (from what I can tell from previous posts of yours. And I don't know if you wanted somebody to ask if you're okay or not? Obviously, posting a rambling post that you're going to delete later isn't an invitation for someone to give their unsolicited and unasked for advice or opinion about your life in your inbox. I'm sorry if this ask comes off as presumptuous or intrusive, and I'm not trying to be, and feel free to tell me to fuck off.) and this is my way of like metaphorically sitting down with you at a table and asking, are you okay? If any of that makes sense? I'm sending you positive vibes. I just wanted to say that you seem, from an outsiders point of view, like a kind human being with a bright and vibrant soul, and whoever doesn't see that and whoever comes along and stumbles into you on your journey in this life can't see themselves one day loving you as person, for all that you are, for the good, bad, and ugly and beautiful, has found themselves lacking in both eyesight and a genuine connection with someone who seems great. As somebody who entered their twenties just a few months ago, I can understand the feeling of doom towards having any sort of relationship. You aren't alone in feeling like that. Like there's this whole big sense of dread surrounding it and what good is that for besides adding to the anxiety? I think the only that can be said is that you'll figure it out. /You'll/ figure it out. The people that are meant to be in your life will find you. Whether platonic or romantic. And that you aren't doomed, even though it's completely valid that you might feel that way, because your emotions are valid. You are enough. There's nothing wrong with you (I mean, I don't know that, but I'm remaining optimistic, and also I know reading that from someone whose a stranger might seem weird, so I'm just relying on old good instinct and human decency, but my point still remains: there's nothing wrong with you that someone isn't 100% capable of loving.) And one day, someone's (or plural) going to come along, and they are going to love you, and accept you, and you are going to belong somewhere. And from one human being to another, I hope that you are treated well, and given the love and support your deserve. And that you find peace. And that you know that you aren't despicable. That actually, you are good. And worthy. I'm sorry if this was weird, or came off as creepy, or anything in that vein. I promise that wasn't my intention. Everything that I've said is a guess about you, and I don't entertain the notion that I know you, because I don't, but I just wanted to say something, because I've been where you are and it felt incredibly lonely, and all I had wished for at the time was that someone would've said 'The good things are going to find you.' I don't know if you needed to hear any of this, but I hope it helps, and if it doesn't and I've made you uncomfortable, I'm sorry.

Sorry for the late response! I saw this this morning, and i kept rereading it because i appreciated it so much

I can't respond to every part of this individually but i want to say i really really appreciate your words, and they genuinely mean so much to me (and you have most definitely not overstepped!!!)

I'm not doing my best at the moment, and I'm struggling a little with general loneliness and worries about not having enough friends, not having a partner etc. And as well I'm really struggling with just worrying I'm not a good person or I'm not kind enough, not patient enough etc etc so i really do appreciate your words.

I think the hardest thing is that,,, you don't know when love will come into your life. My best friend was saying this to me earlier, you don't know when someone who might be really important to you will come into your life and at the age of 19, I've barely met any of the people who will love me in my life.

This ask does not come off as creepy and is most definitely not unwanted. I appreciate your words so much, and they mean more to me than you can know. Thank you so much, you've made me feel a bit lighter today :) <33

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[otteravidan]

Hi I'm Allie or Otter. She/Her, bi, 31. Recently coming back after a very extended time away. I've been on this site since I was 17. To prove it, my favorite old Tumblr meme is the goats craving that mineral. Find more info under the cut!

I go through massive hyperfixations. Some of what you'll find may include (but is not limited to): Danganronpa, Persona, Marvel, TMNT, Prison Break, Sonic the Hedgehog, Game Grumps, Animal Crossing, U2, Oneyplays, Pokémon, Neopets, Star Trek, Spider-Man, Lazy Town, South Park, Cold Ones, Star Fox, Metalocalypse

I also just like funny shit and memes as well. There will be some that. I'll probably post about my life but I minimize that these days.

Minors DNI, this blog isn't meant to be explicit but I'm an adult woman who will talk about adult woman things from time to time and also I have strong aplatonic opinions about Leon Kuwata.

Notes: I disappear sometimes. It's nothing against anyone. I work a lot and get caught up in real life. If you're here for my WK fanfiction, please link me to the posts so I can dispose of them properly lmfao. If you're here for my drug induced ramblings from around 2017 I got sober in mid 2018 so I'm afraid I can't help with that anymore. However, if you're having a problem with substances, I don't mind being a listening ear or an advice giver. 💜