#ACTUALLY OUT OF BREATH

[yuriinadress]

Tim Drake: Robin #6

Y'ALL I AM NOT OKAY

#timber #timbern #tim drake #bernard dowd #tim drake: robin #tdr #ACTUALLY OUT OF BREATH #CRYING SHAKING SCREAMING THROWING UP #IS THIS REAL LIFE??? I REALLY DO BE WINNING RIGHT NOW

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !! #& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

[aroaceleovaldez]

underappreciated Nico detail that I like - he seems to be an angry crier! very frequently he's angry when he cries and he cries when he's extremely angry. very AuDHD of him. emotional regulation sucks my guy and he's just going through it.

#pjo #riordanverse #nico di angelo #also fun to think about Nico getting pissed off and then getting even more pissed off that he's turning into a bawling mess #or Nico getting sad/upset and the rage just flips on so he's sniffling and crying and cussing under his breath while kicking stuff #i mean how many times has nico had a moment of someone trying to comfort him and his reaction like 90% of the time is ''fuck off'' #nico thinking about his trauma: [through tears] i need to go kill something right now or i'll explode #nico working on processing emotions character arc except instead of him stopping being an angry crier #it just turns into his friends holding a pillow for him to beat the shit out of until he works the energy out #shoutout to the cupid scene in particular as one of my favorite examples of this #just cause i love Nico having a breakdown and Jason watching it like ''uh oh. i think Bad Things Will Happen if he *actually* starts crying #other favorite example is TTC. Nico being so upset he creates a rift in the ground and tells Percy to die #nico is not uwu sad boy soft baby kitten tears crier #he is yelling things that would get him cancelled on the internet while snotty and bawling #he is insulting and threatening everyone in a 10ft radius

[evilesbiautism]

The most common argument you'll hear against self diagnosis is that people will fake being [X] for attention. But every disabled person, physical or otherwise, knows this could only work in online spaces - the world was not made for us, and brandishing your disability as a badge of honor that gives you ~special privileges~ is such a funny idea.

Like, honey - that doesn't happen. No one gets anything from being disabled. Maybe extra accommodations if you're lucky - but nothing else. And the internet isn't as important as you seem to think - eventually it just feels hollow.

Ask disabled people how often they had to fight to get diagnosed so their medical needs could be met and their complaints would be heard. Doctors are just hardwired to delay this as much as possible.

I knew I was autistic since late 2018 - I got an official diagnosis 4 months ago. Knowing yourself and how you can make your own life easier is a lifesaver.

And this isn't even going into how many *cons* there are to a professional diagnosis, like being met with disdain at most and denied services at worst.

I don't care if a 16 year old who self diagnosed after taking 1 online quiz about autism is wrong. And honestly I think it's weird people treat this 'issue' with so much hatred.

#little rant. sorry #im not talking about tiktok autism bs thats like. misinformation at the very least #im talking about trying to learn about yourself and help yourself. who cares if it turns out to be inaccurate. life life breathe air #actuallyautistic #actually autistic #autism #autistic #adhd #audhd #actually adhd #ocd #actually ocd #like see im constantly denied a diagnosis for ocd and im still like ok whats with the visions and thinking im a monster for them ^_^ #is it bc my obsession is very often avoidance. is it. #self dx #self diagnosis

[bex-inxo]

Beautiful... eyes

#qsmp #pissa #qsmp pissa #qsmp philza #qsmp missa #q!philza #q!missa #tw suggestive #suggestive #<- kinda? idk?? #basically just missa simping on his husband so not really #qsmp shipping #just found out that he was actually checking if he's breathing. it's even worse why are they sooo

[parksrway]

"celebrating fictional characters' birthdays is stupid" WRONG. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEIK <3

#HES THREE NOW #this year's is a bit different since i decided to make it more like where he is in the comic rn #this would most likely be the birthday before the Events take place though hehe #i actually got it done on time this year #three years and link still hasnt gotten his ass out of bed (its my fault bc im slow) #no one cares but. i do :) happy birthday sheik !!!!!!!! #(and champions shadow au as a whole ofc) #champion's shadow #champion's shadow au #the legend of zelda #botw #tloz #alternate universe #au #botw sheik #botw sheik au #parksrscribbles #breath of the wild

[meatexe]

need them folding me in half n fucking my guts into my chest. btw

#GODDDDD #ok listen hear me out #u know when ur getting mating pressed n u can actually feel ur guts moving to make room for them #like everything in ur body is parting to make way for them to properly use u #n u cant fuckign breathe bc it feels like theyre taking up so much room in ur body #thts all :| #meat.exe

[meatlessmcmuffin]

stop thinking so hard about it dude ur gnna get a headache

#breath of the wild #loz #tloz #link #zelda #in general i dont think of botws story so much as others but i also have this idea in my head of link regaining his memories but never #never quite being able to remember her face or even who exactly she was to him . like he sees how they interact in his memory but #he cant remember his own feelings. and maybe he remembers at the end when he sees her but maybe its more complicated than that #like in botw you can make the most of a wartorn world and have all kind of adventures and sidequests and build a home and a town and meet #new people and you cant do all of that on top of the 100 year sleep without coming out of it a different person. #which isnt bad. but i just imagine some things could get harder and harder to remember #' i dont think of botw's story as much as others ' maybe i do actually #meat art

[snail-studios]

👑 🐬thinking zelpha thoughts...............

#why pit zelda and mipha against eachother when they can be gay instead #snailsstuff #art #loz #my art #zelda #mipha #breath of the wild #zelpha #your honour those are my emotional support lesbians #wowie 3 posts in 3 days what am i #actualy drawing?? #hell no im just uploading #crusty old art that needs to go out into the world #lesbian #actual good art will be coming soon (maybe) #fanart #q

[inkskinned]

am i gonna put you in the book acknowledgements am i gonna be able to say your name without flinching am i ever gonna get a word in edgewise am i ever gonna recover the time i spent with you. computer virus kid; i arrived in your life already begging to be let in. somehow insecure i could even be your friend. like you had a line outside the door and we were all shifting our weight, begging.

you're so fucking good at that - at making people feel like they need to earn you, like you're a commodity none of us can afford. no kindness or careful communication could work on you - you were so good at just going-ghost, about deciding someone just wasn't cool-enough. something about that is super ironic. even the parts of it that weren't romantic felt like a romance book. i wanted you to like me so badly i scrubbed myself clean just so you'd spare me - what. your favor? a look?

okay okay okay. it's just a friendship - if it was even true that we were friends, if you even saw me as someone you trusted. on reddit someone would tell me girl literally just cut her out of your life, it's not that difficult. even i was aware of how fucked up the whole situation was. like, why the fuck do i even care about your approval? you're like, not even that fun to be around. you are often a little bit cruel.

but for almost four years of my life, i thought i had found someone like me. somebody who liked the same things i do. someone who liked to read and who liked making jokes with esoteric references and who spent maybe too much time on the internet and who was absolutely a little bit pretentious. i don't know, something about that was powerful and addictive.

i keep thinking about our last conversation. about how i said - okay, enough is enough. you pushed me too far, you really hurt my feelings.

and how you laughed and said - you think you're the victim?

#spilled ink #warm up #writeblr #she physically assaulted me and then screamed in my face #but not before sh'ing first and blaming it on me #while she was locked in my bathroom. at 1 in the morning #while i begged her to please just calm down and to try taking a deep breath and to go to sleep #and then she was like - ur just like my abuser #bc she had screamed in my face which was triggering to me and i froze like a deer in the headlights #and since i had shut down at that point evidently i was the problem child #i know she is out there telling our mutual friends i abandoned her and it makes me SO pissed off #like dude you spent so much fucking time forgiving & forgetting that your decrepit asshole of a boyfriend #pushed me down in the fucking hallway #but noooo hes <3 troubled <3 at 43 and divorced #bc according to you it's important that u don't '''see anyone as a monster'' #but god forbid i not handle you SCREAMING IN MY FACE #i couldnt even get you to say sorry for crossing my original and only boundary you were like ''what did you want me to do'' #babe i said 'the bf is not allowed around here he scares me and u said ur broken up with him' #that was the thing i wanted you to do: not fucking invite him to WHERE I LIVED #godddd typing this shit out and knowing it's only 2% of what actually happened makes me feel pathetic #i can't believe i let you treat me like that. you were a TERRIBLE friend.

[genericpuff]

my unabridged thoughts on 278-279:

#except in spongebob it actually made sense for the cyclops to be the real big bad because it was foreshadowed properly #i can't believe i'm saying this but #LO has less writing structure than spongebob #and i fucking love spongebob but LO is deadass trying to be taken more seriously and it fails so hard LOL #also real talk that's totally the last we've seen of apollo #obv i won't know that for sure until 280 drops but like i'm not holding my breath #having ouranos nom him up was the easiest way for rachel to write her hardest conflict out of the story #so yeah let's not be surprised if that was the end of apollo's plot arc lmaoo #lo critical #anti lore olympus #lore olympus criticism

[dazednmatthews]

no cause the thing abt this is that i’m sooooo chill and normal abt this. like i literally don’t even care fr like pffffttt like whaaaat who cares. no like i literally am so chill and normal and fine abt this. like genuinely whatever. i’m sooooo normal. mr cool girl over here. brrrrr. feel that? i’m so chill. toooo chill. chill asf actually. it’s nothing like who even cares.

#cherriespeaks #i’m going to rip my hair out #oh my god i’ve never felt less normal in my fucking life #matthew sturniolo the man that you are #matt please give me a chance like PLEASE. #cause mind you that’s my nigga. #and yes i took the picture #my man my man my mannnnn #like that’s my man #like i’m going to WAR FOR IT #i actually cannot breathe #like what the FUCK IS THIS #every time this mf wear a hat my lifespan gets shorter #like what if i d*ed rn like he did it it’s his fault #i’m actually burning up #i’m not chill at all #i’m going feral #i need him so badly it’s KILLING ME #oh my god this can’t be #LIKE IT CANT #yall what do i do im losing my mind #I NEED HIM IN MY DRAWLS NEOW! #GODDDDDDDD FUCKKKKKKKK #matt sturniolo #sturniolo triplets #christopher sturniolo #chris sturniolo #matthew sturniolo #he knows like he fucking KNOWS.

[vaguely-concerned]

merrill dragon age really reverse engineered an eluvian from first principles in a cave with a box of scraps and one single blighted shard. and STILL she gets no respect for it from anyone but potentially hawke, at least in a confused yet well-meaning 'are ya winning son' sort of way on the friendship path. dark days for women in STEM

(really though it seems the equivalent of a person in the middle ages putting together a nokia phone from rocks and sticks (and one coaching session from a spirit, fair enough) and then just not being able to figure out how to turn it on even though it is fully functioning. magically at least merrill is inarguably a genius. the tony stark of kirkwall. well not really that comparison falls apart pretty quickly but you see what I'm saying here lmao)

#dragon age #dragon age 2 #merrill #of all people aveline actually seems to pick up on just how brilliant she is #but she only ever tells merrill so out loud so that she gets to tell her she's also an idiot with the next breath fhsadkfhsa #ah would it really be DA2 if that wasn't how that conversation went tho #anders has his head way too far up his own ass (affectionate) about anything she does to really consider what she's achieved #but one day I'd love to see some mages studying merrill's work like 'how?? how in the fUCK did she do this it shold be impossible' #hawke standing over on the side like a proud yet bumbling older brother like 'uh. it involved some sort of really special knife. #I punched a varterral about it. do not ask me any more questions'

[realbeefman]

stacy is sooo interesting because she's in love with house but knows that they will never ever be able to have a healthy, stable, sane relationship because they're too similar so. she finds house-lite instead and marries him and. essentially moves on with her life! and is successful in this because she's a moderately well-adjusted person!

wilson, in contrast, never manages to escape the inevitable, in spite of his best efforts to find a house-lite of his very own, because he's an absolute fucking freak and ends up glued to house to the bitter. bitter end

#yeah im too sleepy to revise this. UNFILTERED posting wooahh #some may b shocked but i do actually read thru most of my posts several times to make sure i didnt accidentally write mein kampfe 2 #recently ive come to the realization that i am in fact not an incredibly chill person #and that the constant paranoia and fear in which i live my life is actually PROBABLY a symptom of severe anxiety #like damn. ive always known that im pretty prone to depression but ive preetty much always been aware of that #my mom is a chronic depressive so i know the symptoms i know the signs i have a pretty good arsenal of healthy coping mechanisms #UNFORTUNATELY mommy's mental health problems did not help her not abuse me as a child #so i ended up being a terribly anxious kid who was constantly being screamed at and told i was overreacting (because i was. because i had #a severe anxiety problem that was making me react irrationally.) to everything all the time #which is you know. it is VERY difficult to deal with a mental health problem when you arent aware you have a problem! #its incredible how much. better. my life has gotten since i figured this out and started actively trying to work out what triggers it #and being able to like. realize 'oookay. there is an Issue here and it needs to be overcome' #instead of just beating on myself constantly for not being able to do things without feeling sick or getting breathing problems! #anyways. trauma dumping in tags is over now! #house md #hilson #greg house #james wilson #stacy warner

[eiswolfzero]

Okay but if I had the energy I'd totally do Twilight turned G1 Twilight singing "Once Upon A December" yearning for her friends she can't remember.

#mlp #mlp infection au #just throwing this out there so I don't forget #maybe work will actually let me breathe #but even so #animatics are hell

[subskz]

does anyone else feel like someone poured pop rocks and soda into their brain and shook it around really hard

#☆ #💌 channie #actually had to pause the mucore stage and take a deep breath at the 1:53 mark i nearly gave myself a heart attack #then watched his fancam w my hand over my mouth like an amish woman falling victim to the temptations of the flesh #his hips 😹😹😹 the cute lil pudge 😹😹😹 his belly button 😹😹😹 the outlines of his muscles when he stretches 😹😹😹 #i’m going to put a baby in him. i will figure it out. #ok sorry im normal and can be trusted around exposed tummies