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deeply-unserious-fellow · 4 months

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HOLY FUCKING SHIT HAZBIN WAS SO FUCKING GOOD IM GOING INSANE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAKENFKCMKWJRKFNSMSMDMSMDN-

Okay. Okay deep breaths. Time for some cool and collected comentary. Okay.

Putting it under the cut so ppl can avoid spoilers :)

HUSK USED TO BE AN OVERLORD!?!?!?!?!? HELLO!?!?!?!?!? FUCKIN PLOTTWIST OF THE CENTURY WHAT THE FUCK!?!?!?!?!?

Huskerdust my beloved

SIR PENTIOUS MY BELOVED

Vox was great. I love him he's so fucking cool-

If Vox wasn't already a Tumblr sexyman he's definitely gonna be one now. He's so fucking Onceler coded it's insane.

Velvette was amazing too. It's so funny that she's British lmao I was not expecting that

Velvette is also very Anne Boelyne(like from SIX not from Real Life) coded it's wild. Her part in that song with Carmila was giving so much Don't Lose Your Head

I swear I'll stop comparing them to other characters I SWEAR

Okay but me and my brother are working on a Hazbin Hotel swap AU where we swap the main cast with the overlords and in that AU we swapped Husk and Vox. The Husk used to be an overlord reveal is gonna make that AU soooooo much easier lmao

ADAM IS REALLY GOOD I promised I would stop comparing to other characters but he was giving SO MUCH Hades from Disney's Hercules like its insane

I think we should let Alex Brightman sing rocj and roll more often that song was such a fucking BANGER

SPEAKING OF THE SONGS- oh my god I love the soundtrack so fucking much-

Stayed Gone was a lil less hype then I was expecting but thats okay cuz it was still a banger and I loved the visuals

That song battle between Carmilla and Velvette????? Oh my god??????

Carmilla and Vaggie's song was also amazing but I think I know why they didn't have Stephanie Beatriz sing her own song in Elena of Avalor y'know, girl cannot hold a character voice while singing

LOSER WAS SO FUCKING GOOD- I love Huskerdust so much. I love Keith David so much. Blake Roman is such a phenomenal Angel Dust.

SPEAKING OF all the voice actors are amazing. Blake Roman, Brightman as Pentious and Joel Perez were the ones I was the most worried abt but I loved all their preformances so much it was fucking fantastic

Valentino can go die in a fucking hole <3

The other Vees are cool and fun to watch but I hope Valentino fucking dies

Okay to be fair he's also fun to watch when he's not in the same room as Angel Dust but tHAT DOESNT SUPERSEID MY HATRED FUCK 👏 THAT 👏 GUY 👏👏👏👏

Speaking of the Vees tho I do love their dynamic

My favorite episode was probably Radio Killed the Video Star bcuz of mY BOYS PENTIOUS AND VOX!!!!!!!!

And the most painful episode to watch was- no surprise- Masquerade

That episode was a fucking rollercoaster Jesus fucking Christ...

Those scenes with Angel and Valentino where so fucking visceral... like. Who the fuck wrote that. Who are you. Are you okay. Do you need help-

Tho I'm not sure abt how they're handling the ah- more serious bits of Angel's character. It is WAYYYYYY to early to tell and I think Loser wasn't like. Trying to downplay the situation. But the writers better have been careful moving foreward bcuz I can def see a world where Angel's arc goes very wrong very fast-

Also while we're criticizing: wasn't a fan of the pacing. Especially in episode two. Like I can look past it, but the way they breeze past some plot points kinda bugged me

Otherwise it was sooooooo fucking good man oh my god

THE HUMOR WAS SO MUCH BETTER THAN PPL MAKE IT OUT TO BEEEEEE PPL NEED TO STOP SHITTING ON THE COMEDY IN THESE SHOWS MAN-

The gag where Niffty just fucking stopped thinking every time the camera turned on was so fucking good

Niffty in general was really fuckin funny

Alastor was a lot less prominent of a character then I thought he would be but tbh I think that's for the best. He's like Discord from My Little Pony, fun in small doses but if you don't set perameters for how often he appears and when he's willing to help it kinda breaks the show

Chaggie is adorable and I love them <3

I think this show does a really good job balancing the focus on the whole cast! These first 4 episodes seem to be pretty Charlie, Angel and kind of Vaggie heavy but everybody still gets their fair share of attention!

THE ANIMATIOJ OH MY GOD- IT WAS FUCKING PHENOMENAL IM LOSING MY M I N D

Im going feral IM GOING FERAL THIS EXCEEDED MY EXPECTATIONS AKFNVKKENFEKFNDN

I love comedy. I love musicals. I love drama. I love silly characters. I LOVE ANIMATION!!!!!!!

It's like the South Park movie but longer and better animated and IVE BEEN WAITING FOUR FUCKING YEARS-

Just. So excited overall. Can't wait to see where it goes. May make more posts abt my thoughts in tbe future.

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel spoilers #hazbin spoilers #<- just to be safe #hazbin husk #angel dust #huskerdust #sir pentious #hazbin vox #hazbin velvette #hazbin adam #carmilla carmine #vaggie #hazbin valentino #hazbin niffty #hazbin alastor #charlie morningstar #chaggie

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hyuuukais · 5 months

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.・゜-: ✧ :- FICTIONAL REALITY .・゜-: ✧ :-

pairing • bang chan x fem reader

synopsis • fiction or reality? y/n preferred the former, escaping into another world, escaping her problems. so what happens when reality takes that away from her; wiping her own story-in-progress off both her laptop and beloved usb? and what happens when she opens the door in the middle of a crisis to none other then the love interest of her novel... and he's holding her usb?

warnings • general, talk abt yn's past abusive relationship, idk exactly how to tag this but um like wires going into ppl

MASTERLIST | PREVIOUS | NEXT

CHAPTER TEN • INTO THE DARK (1.8k)

Minho helps you feed the stray cat. It runs up to him, rubbing against his leg affectionately, ignoring you completely. Placing the dish down, you look around at the surrounding woods. You had to go a bit deeper into them than usual to find the cat, which tends to reside near the tree line. It was getting colder, and the lack of light in the woods wasn't helping.

"Here, take this." Minho takes his sweater off and hands it to you, leaving him in just a t-shirt. Goosebumps immediately grew over his arms. "You're shivering."

Shaking your head, you pick up the now empty food dish. "No, you're cold too. We'll be back soon anyway."

He stares at you, hand outstretched, but eventually gives up. "Suit yourself."

Back at the house, you turn the heat up before settling in the living room. Minho had gone to shower, leaving you alone in your thoughts.

Did the universe expect you to go back to your old apartment, or was Yeonjun supposed to be coming here? There was no way for either of you to contact each other and even if there was, you didn't know if you could. You'd been forcing yourself to feel okay about potentially seeing him again and everything that's been leading up to it, but honestly, you were far from okay. The visions had scared you. The feeling of his hands on you again, the look in his eyes, his words...

"You okay?" The sound of someone else speaking breaks you out of your trance, and you turn your head toward Minho. He's leaning against the doorframe, arms crossed and head tilted forward with raised eyebrows covered slightly by his still wet hair.

...he looks really good.

"Yeah, just... thinking," you fake a small smile. "Have you had any of these visions? Or dreams?"

"No," he shakes his head.

"Oh."

Thinking about Chan and Jeongin, you wonder about this. Of course, Jeongin had only gotten anything because you asked him for it, but then he also already knew about Chan. What else was he not telling you? Maybe you should try to contact him, the warning about Mrs. Yang had frightened you.

Pushing off the wall, Minho takes a seat next to you, placing a hand on your knee. "You know you can talk to me."

"Can I?" Your voice breaks, embarrassing you. "A year can change so much. What if- what if we can't be what we used to be? I used to rely on you so much, but now I can barely look at your face without being reminded of everything that went down."

Taking in your words, Minho moves his hand off your knee and into your palm, interlocking your fingers. "Then we become something new. May I remind you I still don't know exactly what went down? That was all Yeji."

"She... never told you?"

"Nope," he sighs heavily. "Never thought I'd admit this, but I practically begged her to tell me what happened to you and where you were. All I knew was that Yeonjun was furious, although he didn't show it outright. He stuck to playing the part of the worried-sick-fiance." Minho scowls, using a mocking tone. "'My poor Y/n, wherever could she be! By the way, this totally wasn't my fault, I couldn't even hurt a fly much less my beautiful soon-to-be wife!'"

You giggle a bit at his impression and he smiles, watching your face light up. Making you laugh felt like a reward.

"He was so full of shit. I don't get why you stayed with him."

Just like that, your laughter stops.

"Haven't we been over this?" You steal your hand back, using it to rub your forehead.

"I just don't understand-"

"Yeah, and you probably never fucking will!" You sit up, legs swinging off the couch out of frustration. "If I broke up with him, we wouldn't be having this conversation. If I broke up with him, you wouldn't have been attending my wedding, you would have attended my funeral."

The words linger in between you, stinging Minho like a slap to the face. Of course he knew the relationship was toxic, but never did he think it would have come to that. If he did, he'd be behind bars right now. Fuck the USB, fuck Chan, fuck the universe. He's never letting you anywhere near Yeonjun again. As long as you're safe, who cares what it costs? The world could be burning to an ash and all Minho would want to do was get you off planet Earth, even if he couldn't come with.

"I'm sorry. I didn't know," he says finally, slowly, carefully.

"Nobody did," you look away from him, down at the floor. There are miles and miles between you then and you now, the person he knew and what she was willing to say. "Except Yeji."

Yeji.

"Min, I wanna try something. Get off the couch." You start stretching out before he can respond, reaching over to grab your long forgotten headphones off the coffee table.

"What's your idea?" He takes a seat in the chair beside you.

"So when Jeongin went into that little psychic trance of his, he closed his eyes I'm guessing to help him envision his surroundings and focus better-" You adjust yourself better, sitting the headphones above your ears. "-obviously I'm not him and don't have the same abilities, but what if I try to remember the place it took me to? The headphones aren't necessary, but they're noise cancelling so I thought it might help."

Minho looks like he wants to protest, but holds back any thoughts.

"If I get into enough of a relaxed state," you continue when he says nothing. "Maybe I'll find it. It might be the only way to save Chan." You take a deep breath. "And Yeji."

"You really think Yeji is a part of this too?"

"Well it had her there and could mimic her voice, so yeah." You roll your eyes.

Leaning back in the chair, Minho rolls his eyes even more dramatically at you. "It could just be able to do that."

"There's only one way to find out."

And with that, you put on the headphones.

Immediately the world around you is muffled, no longer able to hear Minho shifting in the chair or the wind whistling through the old bones of the house. Outside, the sun has already begun to come down, soon it will be dark. With your eyes closed and hearing limited, your other senses come in stronger. You can smell your shampoo wafting off Minho, feel the bumps form on your skin as the chill sets in.

Still too early to turn on the heat, you think.

Trying to clear your mind, you focus on your breathing. In, out. In, out. In, out. Breaths become deeper, heartrate slowing. At one point, your mind wanders to thoughts of Chan. What's he doing right now? Is he alright? Why hasn't he texted you? When will you get the opportunity to correct your missed kiss-

Hey brain, you think, focus on the mission, you already know you're not emotionally available enough for someone like him, so stop it.

Back to your breathing.

Enough time passes to have you considering this isn't going to work. Why did you think it would in the first place? You said it yourself, you don't have 'abilities' like Jeongin does. Never have, never will. And besides, even if it did work, what would you do? You can't force this thing to give you information; it has the upper hand and knows it does.

"Okay, screw this," you open your eyes, but all you see is black.

It worked. But now what?

"Hello?" You call out, voice echoing. "Um, anyone home?"

Not that this place felt very... homey.

You begin to walk, eyes adjusting. Looking down, you realize you're walking in water just like Jeongin mentioned, but it just barely covers your toes. Reaching to the right, your hand finds a wall close to you. The left side is the same; you're in some kind of corridor. Walking further, your left hand grazes a dip in the wall; no, a door. You squint, noticing a few more doors on either side further down before they're consumed again by the darkness.

Wrapping your cold fingers around the knob, you push. The door is stiff and hard to open, taking a few full-body pushes before you can squeeze inside. Air races past, through your hair and the door. Inside, the walls curve to a circle, a very dim white light coming up from the edges of the water. In the middle, you spot what looks like a dentist's chair turned away from you. The top of someone's head pokes out the top, wires hanging down from the ceiling- or lack thereof, when you look up, it never seems to end- and down to their body.

Slowly, you approach the chair, gasping when you see who it is.

"Oh, Chan," you whisper, tears brimming. There are deep circles under his eyes, and the wires appear to go into his neck harshly, all red and swollen around where they enter. His lips are chapped, skin nearing translucent.

Touching his skin, it's colder than your fingers and a bit rough. His mouth is parted ever so slightly, breathing shallowly. He's dressed in all white; a t-shirt tucked into smooth pants. It's weird seeing him like this.

But you know you can't stay. This isn't why you're here.

Moving on from Chan's room, you open each door as you go, starting with the one directly across from his. You barely recognize the girl in the chair as you've only met on a few occasions; Lily.

In the next few rooms, you find a mix of people you do and don't recognize, Jeongin and Yeji being some of them. Resisting the urge to stay by their sides is difficult, you need to keep going, find the thing keeping them all here. Finally, you reach the end, the last door.

The door stretches its way into the never-ending ceiling, the knob particularly stubborn. This room is bigger than the others have been, and you spot two chairs facing each other in the dim lighting. Inside are you and your ex, Yeonjun.

"What the actual fuck," you breathe, trying to control the rising panic in your throat.

Just like the others, you both have wires connecting into your necks and look physically unwell. The only difference is that you're together, and there's another line stuck into your forearms, connecting you.

You start to have the feeling you need to leave. Now.

And that's when you hear it; distant whispering growing louder and louder, chanting the same sentence over and over again.

"You're not supposed to be in here."

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notes • i honestly didn't think i'd get this done today but had a sudden burst of writing energy!! things are getting funky for sure hehehehe

taglist • @yongbbokkie @chaeryred @tenebrisirae @toplinelix @chansdoll @amaranth-writing @3rachachoo @linosjureumi @thebrownemo @tfshouldidohere @channie-143 @frogieeheart @kangaracharacha @skzswife

TAGLIST CLOSED ^^^blue means i can't tag you

#.・゜-: ✧ :- FICTIONAL REALITY .・゜-: ✧ :-#skz #stray kids #bang chan #bang chan x reader #bang chan x fem reader #non idol au #skz au #stray kids au #skz x reader #bang chan fanfic #stray kids fanfic #stray kids x reader

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time-is-restored · 1 year

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okay like listen i know a lot of people have been talking abt this specific aspect of 3x3 already but. im just having a bit of a moment w the amount of lgbt ppl who saw trent's expression at the end there, and like. Knew.

like to be clear i am aware that at this point trent being gay is, at best, subtext + fanon. its incredibly beloved subtext, but its entirely possible that it could get blown out of the water in the coming episodes. but within the reading of trent being a gay man, seeing colin in that terrifying moment of exposure + vulnerability... that look says So much. its fear, its worry, its an instinctive protective response. its helplessness, its shame from feeling powerlessness, its the grim certainty that comes from knowing just how much is at stake.

(cw: discussion of homophobia + discrimination below. its long. i very much rambled.)

bc the thing that i personally keep coming back to is like. everyone on the team is colin's friend - his family, even, according to the themes of the show. the show is literally about the team + staff working together to break down their toxic/unhealthy behaviours and build up a culture of trust + respect. that's why i think it's so significant that while isaac is the one to use the word gay pejoratively, he's also the one checking in on colin when he gets moved to the bench. he's arguably colin's closest friend at the club! and that's not enough. the fact that the richmond club is made up of demonstrably good and well-intentioned people isn't enough.

don't get me wrong, its fucking terrifying + awful being closeted around ppl who are ACTIVELY bigoted and cruel and who u KNOW would be nothing less than awful to if u were out. but the uncertainty of being around people you love, and not knowing what would happen if you told them? of never truly being sure of your place in the dynamic, since there's always that risk hanging over your head? its exhausting, and terrifying.

because what if they aren't accepting? even avoiding the worst case scenario where his bosses (the coaches, higgins, rebecca - hell, even keely) don't outright cut his career short, he's obviously extremely aware of how being on the outs with the team could lead to his life being made miserable. he was harassing nate himself! and, again, putting aside the (very real! he's a football player! he spends half of his time in a locker room!!!) threat of physical violence, we JUST saw how quickly a member of the team can be shunned + labelled as an outsider (and in the context of this arc, i rlly don't think its a coincedence that trent, specifically, was the one to experience that treatment). and that's without even getting STARTED on the absolute nightmare britain's press + papparazi would be if they put a target on his back (the show has spared no gory detail for their treatment of rebecca + ted, after all).

this is the type of weight colin's been carrying around for the past three seasons. and trent, in that split second before he looked away and continued walking, must've felt it all right along with him. colin works for the fucking premier league in fucking britain. it's harder to think of a workplace LESS hospitable to anything other than the most cishetero, toxic, hyper conformist displays of masculinity.

and that's what fucking GETS me abt the reading where trent is gay! because in the exact same moment where trent would be feeling such a sudden sense of connection + solidarity w colin (you are not alone!!! im here too! i see you! i know you!), there comes the crushing weight of wanting to protect him, and not knowing if you can. trent may be a notoriously incisive + unflinching reporter, but w/ all of his power + armour stripped away now that he's no longer with the independent, it's damningly obvious that trent doesn't have anything close to real power at richmond. if they wanted to make colin's life hell, what could he really do to stop them? again: they're fucking footballers. he's only even allowed at the club on ted's word, a word which could presumably be revoked at any time.

i just. the fear. the guilt. the shame. and above all, the desperate, heart aching need to keep another member of the community safe, even with the odds so blatantly stacked against you both.

and like. idk. to me that is the point of this scene. i think whether you've been in trent's position, or colin's, or neither, the vast majority of us went through a very similar emotional journey when we saw colin exposed like that. love -> fear -> protectiveness. and its an urge so strong, ppl are (lightheartedly, for the most part) threatening the Literal Writers of the show! like, the fact that rn there are SO many people out there tweeting + liveblogging and threatening trent, threatening isaac, threatening the WRITERS - threatening literally anyone and everyone over the CHANCE that any of them will hurt colin/out him/expose him to homophobia in any way? like, yes, colin isn't real. but i'd like to hope that that solidarity is.

and just to be clear, ted lasso is ultimately a comedy show. while it has never shied away from frankly portraying dark subject matter, i don't think this story will have an unhappy ending. but if this arc comes with any takeaway at all, i just really fucking hope that its about how that solidarity is what we all need to embrace + run towards, rather than try and stifle. and that colin is fully + unconditionally supported by his community, whoever that may be.

#cw homophobia #ted lasso spoilers #ted lasso meta #colin hughes #trent crimm #can you tell im having a very normal time abt this episode and its reception.#[tears streaking down my face] so normal. comically normal even.

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justalilpearlie · 3 months

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Introduction/Fun Pearlie Facts

Was abt time I did one of these.

Hello everyone, my name is Pearl, Pearlie or Sam/Sammy if you're feeling like it. Friends also call me Martini sometimes.

I am a minor, my labels... we dont talk about them (fem presenting ftm gay/mlm + trying out gendervoid and verinix + bigender??) uhmm and I go by He/She, tho mostly He/Him by strangers- I can She/Her myself and close friends/mutuals are allowed! (I also go by neos: Void/Moon/Sweet/It/Fluff/Love/Fizz/Paw)

I'm from Argentina, born and raised, never moved. Speak fluent english and spanish.

I got the 'tism and the adhd, aswell as BPD and a few other things I wont list right now! But yeah I'm psychotic (ooo scary word.. lmao)

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I'm an IRL of many, mainly c!Pearl (mcyt), Samuel Emily (fnaf [games canon]) and Shin Tsukimi (yttd). If you don't like it you can leave, block me, or whatever, cause you aint gonna change my life or how I am. I'm in therapy, which unlike random hate and harrassment online, does help me :)

I like to roleplay, draw, sometimes make playlists or moodboards.. And my biggest interests right now are Life Series (+ evo + new life), Empires1(+ a bit of e2) and FNaF! (i dont rlly like the books tho lol..)

I use kin tags for reach cause I'd love interaction from any fellow lifers or empires ppl, hermits aswell!! Tho I havent finished s8 or s9 yet...

Fictionkins, therians and traumagenic systems all welcome!

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DNI prefferably:

- Basic DNI criteria (proshippers, homophobes, transphobes, racists, TERFs, ableist, etc)

- Endos/non-traumagenic "systems" DNI. block me if u want, i wont argue abt it in the comments/reblogs. or interact if u want but im not gonna follow u back or anythin shrugs.

- reality checkers or anti-IRLs DNI. I aint "romanticizing" shit, I'm existing and living my life, if thats a problem to you too bad cause my psychologist aproves of what I'm doing, since I aint harming anyone and I myself am doing dandy.

- anti-kin also DNI cause most of my friends are fictionkins and if you talk shit abt my fellas idk i wouldnt like having u around much

CCs interact at your own risk. This is my domain, cyan man & moon lady. /hj

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"Disclaimer"

- I talk about MajorMoon (Scott x Pearl) a LOT, if u didnt notice by the acc theme. These are my romantic memories, its a gay ship, not woman/gay man, so if it makes u uncomfortable or u hate it or whatever then ur probably not gonna like my content lmao. COUGH, consider joining us if you do like what you see... /nf We're a small comunity of supporters.. just me.. and a few of my peeps... that was a joke, sir. /ref

- This isn't roleplay, its my main acc where im ""unapologetically"" myself, but if u do wanna rp life series/empires u can always shoot me a dm and maybe I'll give u my discord.

- I talk about myself (c!Pearl) using 3rd person in many posts tagged with main fandom tags. This is to cause less confusion to casual fans slash ""normies"" (lhj) that well.. don't know what IRLs are! Also that way I feel safer and don't have to worry as much abt getting harassed and such for my identity.

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Special People Mentions!! fps = * (1 or more.. wouldnt say in a priority sorta order but. more or less yea)

Family! <3 🌼@pehpurr* SISTER!! super duper cool, her art is great and you should check it out!! YOU. You're the brightest little girl (i say like ur not older than me) I'VE EVER MET ACTUALLY! You're so passionate and loving I freaking adore you!! I love you so much Scar, you're one of the best things to ever happen to me, Kanny <3 ⚙️@gentlexmadman DAD!! you are my daaaad, you're my dad! woogie woogie woogie! ANOTHER amazing artist! mr "I know that guy-", very funny, Henry "Autism" Emily... the copper king, my father. Speaking to you is always comforting. Love you so much papa, you're amazing :)

Simply special <3 ☕@insomniac-coffeehouse** You're all simply so very special to me. I love spending time with you guys and playing stuff together, you mean a lot to me and I'm so glad I met you. I hope we're still close for this year and many more! You're incredibly talented, not only at art, at everything you do. You spark joy in my brain and my heart <3 From the bottom of my heart, I'm in love with the hope you bring to this world. 🍊Jack***, oh my dear Jacky, where do I even begin, sport... you really are my other half. Mi media naranja if you will. haha.. I love every second we spend together, I love your voice, I love your eyes, I love your smile, your laughter. I love your use of words, the way you speak, your humor, your seriousness and goofiness. You stiff fuck, you were made for me and I was made for you, and I wouldn't have it any other way. You're my everything, mi vida, mi luz, mi estrella. Mi amor, mi mundo. <3

New friends! 🍓@strawberrystarfield I know we met fairly recently but you're all incredibly fun to talk to, your art is also amazing, your accent is real pretty (cough for a bri-💥), you're real sweet and I love reading all your thoughts and critiques about things :} (love ya Aspen /gen) 🏜️@fagdykegtws My right hand man! I know we just met through the rarepair server but oh my god we're in the same brainwave!!! You're so fun to vc and chat with and you got the best ideas ever fr fr, love ya Chewy, you're real sweet even w how lil i know you ;)

That's it folks, love yall and see you around!

#intro post #introduction #c!pearl irl #sammy emily irl #delusional attachment #fictionkin #fictkin #fnaf irl #life series irl #empires irl #mcyt fictkin #mcyt fictionkin #mcyt kin #system friendly #endos dni #mcyt irl

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charliespringverse · 8 months

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iwbft – ghosted: a Bonus brief summary of my annotations

all highlighted quotes: 91

· ouch/ow/owie: 5

· real/felt/relatable/so true: 4

· ☹/☹☹/☹☹☹: 4

She said Shrek and Fiona, and then told me she never wanted to be famous. — the double life thing babeyy

“Jimmy,” he heaves out, and I feel a stab of panic in my chest. — just hearing ur friend's name shouldn't be enough to trigger panic unless u already know something is Very Wrong . at which point i feel they should've pushed for further help instead of finishing out the tour

“We can’t leave Jimmy out.” Lister stands shirtless in the middle of the room and spins around on the spot. — fuck yeah trio tingz :')

It almost makes me laugh how polite and casual Rowan manages to sound, despite the fact that our best friend is missing. — IT'S A DEFENCE MECHANISM!!!!!

I only wonder how much of it is my fault. — none of it bb dw :( he is Not With It enough to be thinking abt anyone but himself rn

“But I can’t drive.” Rowan stares at me. “I thought you had lessons.” “I only had three lessons.” And then I got bored, or tired, or busy, or all three. — ... adhd lister btw

Why would he do this to us? To me? — i think jimmy's dependence on rowan is more reciprocated than he realises

If we weren’t in a famous band together, I’m not sure whether we’d still be friends now. — this rly hurts my feelings and it hurts more bc he isn't necessarily Wrong i don't think

“You do know I can play eight instruments, right?” “But not the drums, huh.” Rowan folds his arms. “You will never let me live that down.” — LISTERROWAN BESTIEISM BANTER BABEY

“But you think I’m an idiot who has nothing intelligent to say.” “I don’t think that.” “Yeah, you do. You’d much rather I was the one who was missing right now.” Rowan doesn’t respond. We both know I’m right. — WELL MAYBE BUT U DON'T HAVE TO TELL ME THAT. I DON'T WANNA THINK ABOUT IT.

“I wish you wouldn’t—” he begins but is cut off when his phone buzzes. — i hate that the phone gave him a get out from being open n sincere w lister :^(

“That’s a Southeastern Railway train,” says Lister instantly. “You can tell by the seat patterns.” — [freddie mercury voice] auuuuutism auuuuutism i want to ride my autism (note: this is summat @to-grill-a-mockingbird says and now i can never get it out of my head)

“He needs a night off.” "A night off from … what? His entire life?” Piero chuckles. “Yes.” — i mean ouch but also Yeah

“That was good news. He hasn’t been kidnapped. He just needed a nap.” “Can you not make a joke about this situation for like one fucking minute, Allister?” — could be the tism on my end but i didn't take this as a joke . jimmy needs a break, piero told them that, lister has seen enough to agree . (also: lister has Also contemplated running away so it makes sense he's less eager to bring jimmy back to ldn bc he doesn't see it as fixing the problem the same way rowan does)

Why do I always have to be the serious one? The worrier? Why can’t someone else do the worrying sometimes? — other ppl Do worry . but not so much that it becomes its own problem worthy of therapy

We save the deep chats for Jimmy. Jimmy doesn’t open up very often, but you know Jimmy will listen if you have something serious to say. — vs jimmy's wednesday narration 'we don't ever talk about deep stuff, me and lister bird' :((((

This whole bedroom is something out of twelve-year-old Lister’s wildest fantasies—it’s spacious and modern, with one floor-to-ceiling window, dark walls, LED lights behind the headboard, and a fifty-inch TV. — what u lack as a child you seek as an adult etc etc (space, material possessions, money)

Rowan’s room is always tidy. He puts away his clothes at the end of the day and makes his bed in the mornings. — always craving order & control :(

Rowan loves to criticize me about buying unnecessary things, but all I need to do is remind him of the velvet chaise longue in his bedroom that I’m pretty sure nobody has ever sat on. — comedy gold amidst the agony

He blinks at me. “You remembered my weird order?” — remembering ppl's orders is a love language

“Can I … ?” I shuffle on my feet. “Can we eat it in here?” — i hate that he's so uncertain n lacking in confidence while asking one of his best friends

I’ve always been deeply annoyed by what a high metabolism he has. I work out three times a week with a personal trainer just to stay toned. — rowan's fixation on body image makes me ✨nervous✨

“You were reading?” I ask, eyebrow raised. Lister narrows his eyes at me. “Wow, hilarious." — i stand by my 'lister loves to read but nobody ever assumes that or believes him bc their perception is skewed by him not gelling with academia' hc

“But don’t you see how that’s, like, still very fucked-up behavior, Rowan?” — GET HER JADE

And it’s scary that he thinks he’s completely fine. That this level of stress is normal. That he’s a functioning, well-adjusted human who is able to cope with being one of the most famous musicians in the world with absolutely no help or support whatsoever. — yeah :((

“You kissed him,” Rowan says. “So he decided to climb out of a window and run away.” “I mean, yeah, in summary.” — but no, realistically

Rowan wipes a tear from his eye. “Oh my God. So funny.” He’s properly pissing me off now. — give him a break roseph he's already mentally ill u don't have to embarrass him as well (/lh)

It’s a question I’ve asked myself every day for years. A question I’ve answered in daydreams, in nightmares, in conversations with myself in the shower. A question I still don’t know the answer to, and maybe never will. A question that doesn’t need an answer, now that I know for sure that Jimmy doesn’t like me back. — aaaaaagonyyyyy beyond power of speeeeeeech when the thing that u want is the only thing out of ur reach

“But … the circumstances of our relationship are so challenging. We live in very, very different worlds, and our lives are on very different trajectories. And sometimes I think relationships just can’t survive that.” — JUSTICE FOR LAIMONDI :(

Jimmy fell asleep almost immediately, a feat that would become less and less common as we all got older, but Lister and I couldn’t sleep because we were too busy watching funny YouTube videos on my phone, muffling laughs into our hands, trying not to wake anyone up. — BABY ARK MY CHILDREN

#i annotated this on friday but i've been too busy to write it up #so heyyyy guess who isn't ready to let this week go #anyway. i truly feel ghosted may be one of the best things to ever happen to this fandom #in the absence of iana at least #iwbftreread

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nonbayanary · 1 year

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sena & pitt headcanons!!!! (also ft. hiruma and sena bonding over being pet owners)

sena found pitt starving on a sidewalk, and decided to adopt the abandoned kitten

at first, his parents were against it, bcs none of them knew jackshit about caring for pets, much less tiny baby pets

but sena’s parents were a little surprised, bcs sena never rlly asked for a lot of things as a kid. now that he’s not budging on his stance on the kitten, his parents have no choice but to agree

sena’s heart ached for the kitten, and he nursed her to health with a mixture of a vet’s help, nights upon nights of endless cat research on the internet, and asking hiruma for tips on caring for pets

yes, sena asked hiruma for tips

hiruma didn’t know whether to feel touched that sena trusted him, or to slap sena upside the head, bcs, “you idiot chibi, cerberus is a fucking dog, not a cat!”

but hiruma helps anyway. some books on how to take care of cats appear in sena’s bedroom, and to this day, sena doesn’t know where they came from

the kobayakawas also find pamphlets for cat services and cat-care products in their mailbox, despite not subscribing to any of those newsletters

the first few days when sena adopted pitt, he fed her fried fish

but when he finally dove face-first into his research, he switched to buying food and milk for kittens

it was the vet who taught sena how to bathe kittens, along with some videos

but sena still found it difficult how to remember all the new info, which led him to bathe pitt improperly. and she learned to hate baths

sena then started moaning and groaning abt this at team practice. he was so lost in his worries that he started making more mistakes in team scrimmages

and hiruma, finally having enough of sena’s shitty performance, suddenly visits sena on a weekend, and demands to see the kitten

and sena, perplexed, watches as hiruma starts fucking bathing the kitten with his own two hands.

with hiruma’s eidetic memory and a few hours of watching videos of ppl bathing cats, he knows what to do and what not to do by heart

so he starts teaching sena, complete with a colorful and creative myriad of profanities, on how to bathe cats properly

sena: hiruma-san... why would you help me with this?

hiruma, smirking evilly: because no one will fucking believe you if you told them anyway

sena: ...

sena: yeah okay, fair enough

gradually, pitt grew into a healthy kitten after a few months of love and care.

sena allows pitt to bite him. at first, it scared the shit outta sena, bcs kitten claws and fangs are needle-thin, and they fucking hurt like hell

but eventually, sena develops a tolerance for the pain, so when pitt’s teeth itch, he just lets her bite him

at first, pitt ate whatever sena fed her. but as months passed, she developed a pickiness for food.

sena: pitt, i thought this was your favorite flavor!

pitt, sniffing the food, then trotting away: well, you were wrong!

pitt loves torturing and murdering cockroaches whenever she finds them at night

sena recounts this to hiruma, from one pet owner to another, and hiruma fucking laughs his ass off

hiruma, cackling: you fucking know that the scent of dying cockroaches attracts even more of those fuckers, right?

sena, completely fucking tired: yes, hiruma-san, i know.

hiruma approves of the murder machine the tiny kitten has grown into

sena used to be afraid of cockroaches, but now he’s immune to them after seeing hundreds of their tiny corpses

at night, pitt curls up next to sena. sometimes, she wants to keep the body contact at a minimum, so their only point of contact is pitt’s tail loosely held in sena’s hand as he sleeps. sometimes, she wants cuddles, so she curls up on top of sena, his slow breaths lulling her to sleep

pitt loves sunbathing. during mornings and afternoons when sena’s at school, she climbs up to the roof, or just lays down on the kobayakawa’s front porch

pitt loves taking a shit on the kobayakawas’ garden, to the point where the whole family doesn’t blink an eye at the rancid scent of cat shit

sena sends hiruma pictures of dead cockroaches, with their torn body parts everywhere. hiruma, who is eternally laughing at sena’s suffering, keeps count of how many cockroaches pitt’s killed so far

petting pitt instantly brings sena so much joy. giving her affection relieves his stress, especially when he’s doing homework

sena: pitt, you’re hungry again? but i just fed you!

pitt, meowing: IRRELEVANT!

when sena tells hiruma about this, hiruma guffaws at the long-suffering look on sena’s face

hiruma: this motherfucker’s got an attitude! not bad!

sena, sighing: why do you relish in my suffering?

for all of pitt’s sass and attitude, sena would still take a bullet for her.

whenever sena’s sad during team practice, hiruma sends him photos of pitt

and sena lights up everytime, however—

sena: hiruma-san, where did you get this photo of pitt? i don’t remember taking this photo

hiruma, evil grin slotting into place: that’s because you didn’t take that photo

sena: ...

sena: nevermind, i don’t think i want to know

whenever sena changes his bedsheets, pitt loves jumping onto the bed and zooming around. it never fails to make sena laugh

cerberus and pitt develop a friendship, borne out of a mutual respect

cerberus: i’ve killed mutts bigger than me. what about you, pipsqueak? you got a body count?

pitt, proudly: i’ve only killed cockroaches, but my body count is at 41

cerberus, very impressed: let me say this, from one murderer to another: you’re the only bitch i ever respected in this house

sena’s profile pic on social media is pitt. his phone’s gallery only has two kinds of pictures: sena in group photos w his american football peers, or photos of pitt. and most of them are the latter

sena starts printing pitt’s photos on polaroid film, and it soon fills two walls of his room

once, when hiruma and cerberus come over for some playtime between pitt and cerberus, hiruma sees the wall full of photos

hiruma: jesus fucking christ, it’s like a goddamn shrine in here

sena: i now understand why ancient egyptians used to worship cats. i would die for pitt

hiruma: calm the fuck down, edgelord

(hiruma’s a hypocrite, and he’s glad sena doesn’t call him out on it. they both know hiruma would take a bullet for cerberus too.)

when cerberus and pitt take a nap, they curl up against one another. both sena and hiruma take at least a hundred pictures from different angles. hiruma’s just more discreet about it

sena loves buying stuff for pitt, especially cat toys and cat beds. there are now several cat beds and rugs all over the kobayakawa household. a lot of them are blue, since that’s sena’s favorite color

pitt loves to sleep on sena’s laptop keyboard. to this day, sena’s still amazed that his laptop hasn’t broken down yet

hiruma’s nickname for pitt is actually “fucking armpit.” hiruma glorifies in the exasperated look on sena’s face whenever he says it.

sometimes, hiruma calls pitt “eyeshield 20.” bcs sometimes, when pitt’s having the zoomies, she’s faster than even sena.

whenever sena has nightmares, he takes his time to pet pitt to calm himself down. then, when he’s feeling a little better, he curls a hand around pitt’s tail, and goes back to sleep.

pitt’s collar is color blue. it has her name, and sena’s phone number printed on it.

during sena’s birthday, on the year he’s graduating from deimon, hiruma gifts him a cat bed for pitt. both sena and pitt love it, but it confuses sena to no end. it’s a customized deimon devilbats design, and sena doesn’t know how hiruma had it made. it becomes pitt’s favorite mini-bed.

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(yes, y’all can definitely use this prompt!!! /srs)

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kulekrizpy · 3 months

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my friend/ex was really upset yesterday. his body is all messed up from various injuries, he needs dental work. i told him to call out of work bc he wasn’t going to get any sleep before his shift

he moved near his hometown with some planning but not a lot. he wants to go to school. but he won’t have in-state tuition since he was living in my state prior to moving. he works really hard at work but it’s physical labor and it only makes his health issues worse. he also doesn’t want to move up to a less labor-intensive position :/ he honestly needs to take medical leave

and he’s upset with my brother for various reasons, but last night he was drinking and it all came out and he messaged my brother and my mother about how upset he was about my brother breaking something of mine and not paying in full to replace it. he’s struggling with money on his own and he resents my brother for having a cushy job that he complains about and flouts authority on. in many ways my brother IS entitled and probably WOULD benefit from being punched in the face at least once for his shitty political views, especially bc my ex is genderqueer. but he has definitely not spoken frankly about it with my brother

speaking of which, now he’s in a less accepting place and tho he “toned down the queer” he still gets looks from ppl and it’s stressing him out a lot. he worries about going thru backroads in case his car breaks down and someone kills him

all his friends from back home are druggies or complete deadbeats or both and he’s had a falling out with everyone since he moved. he’s also worried one of his older friends won’t live beyond this year. so now all the friends he does rely on are in my area and not his and he’s very lonely and isolated. and that also means i’m his best friend rn, which he’s told me several times

a week or so ago he wanted to make a risky and illegal change in career and after i told him i wouldn’t have been friends with him anymore if he decided to do it, he told me he still wants to fuck me. when i told him i can’t be casual with him anymore so don’t say that, he said he didn’t say it properly and that he meant he wants to be with me, eventually. and it’s just a whole fucking thing. he can’t even articulate what he wants. i told him not to mention it again unless he was sure and confident he could actually be a good partner to me. and i told him i need time to get over him too

and last night, we were chatting and i realized he’d been drinking, and he’s in a negative spiral/combative. he messaged my family. i told him he should wait til the morning and he did it anyway. at that point i said whatever. the call dragged on for hours tho he needed to sleep for work. he was in such a state i didn’t feel comfortable getting off the phone with him in case he did something very risky, like driving drunk or idk what else. he talked about wanting to lay down on some train tracks…

AND he called me again at work the other day. like. on the work phone. he used to work there but it’s just… not professional. feels weird. esp bc he was doing it cuz he was drunk. told him to text or call my phone next time

he gets drunk and disregards boundaries. bc he also mentioned the dating thing last night while we were talking. and when i told him not to he sidestepped and kept going on about whatever rant. and he just argues abt everything when he’s drunk. DUMB shit. like me taking my bike apart to store it easier. like bruh leave me alone ??

in the end he called out of work, then talked to his sister and i guess she convinced him to drive up instead of doing something dumber. i asked if he was sober enough and he said yeah. which he would’ve said no matter what i’m sure :|

so. he got to his family’s place and i guess i’ll see him today sometime. i told him i don’t want to drink and my brother doesn’t wanna drink with him either, so we’ll avoid that at our house at least

he’s trying, but he’s also falling back on stupid habits. i just hope he can figure out how to get the help he needs

and i need to figure out how to keep my boundaries

the cats woke me up earlier. i need to sleep more before i see him. good night

#suicide m //#personal

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jrueships · 10 months

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I think Jalen and Gup will still remain friends but I hope whoever is leaking these video suffer a faith worst than… lol

literally!!! say it louder!! like the de-realism of it all. the 'ENTERTAINMENT' of it all. It's entertainment>emotions always, and it's soo sick. Their relationship is strong still, which I love, but ever since that leak.. it's been overanalyzed and picked apart EXHAUSTINGLY!! Ppl are going back to any material they can find of the two together and just heaping BUCKETS of immaturity onto them. Talkin like 'oh see? This random dude with them made an expression THAT MEANS HE KNOWS AND HE H A T ES THEM. HE IS DISGUSTED.' and it's just SOOOO. UGH. ICK! UGH! i'd zay go find a hobby but being homophobic is literally their hobby. It's just so blatant and disgusting, and media is a GREAT tool for them to dish all that shit out without consequence. The way they can and DESIRE to constantly go back and pick apart the past just from the chance that it can spread even more hate is UGHHHH!!! i HATE it!!! Boundaries aren't SHIT anymore! Respect is trodden and relationships can get rotten AND NO ONE CARES!!!!!

It's a really good thing that jalen green's nature and upbringing as one of the hyped top picks has kind of steadied him through this. He doesn't turn off his comments (for what I know), he's BEEN getting painted nail comments and he just keeps painting them bcs who gives af? They're internet people. He's the People's people.. without even caring about the worser half of that lot. He doesn't care. But it's also kind of sad. But that's just how this world is

What im worried about mainly is gup like... gup's always been more attentive to any kind of hate or would-be hate he gets. Green's even noticed it bcs interacting with the haters (on an image level) is never a good thing. HE'S been forced to learn and get with that kinda practice bcs he's jalen green. He can't speak more as jalen green bcs. He's jalen green. He can only have the comforts of an allowed argument ..in the comforts of a fuckin burner account.

That's one thing I like about Kd, although he might not be a fav player of mine (I just personally don't rlly care for him but can understand why others do. He's very complex and way more interesting than the media tries to portray. I just kinda missed the kd era in bball and moved on, it's just a personal whatever) .. he stopped (for the most part of what we know) with the burners and uses his voice a lot. He's older, he doesn't gaf about not giving a fuck. He doesn't HAVE to , and he doesn't WANT to. He embraces being a hater and a speaker now. Unlike Jalen and Josh, he has more abilities AND experience.

Which is just so sad that alot of the things basketball players need to worry abt can be from off the court. And We're not talking being a role model or whatever, We're talking always having to watch your back ESPECIALLY when your work environment can get very quickly hostile as it is so often sold as hostility being a propelling marketing principle. Nobody can have fun anymore or be kids or a lot of things.

LIKE!!! gup can't defend himself well because he's not trained well enough as someone who's a lower pick so therefore less worry to the business. Bro is just a pawn they can trade away whenever shit gets rough. AND IT'S SO SAD THAT HE H A S TO EVEN GET TRAINING IN THE FIRST PLACE??? on how to WHAT?? Feel less? IT'S SOO. UGHHHHHH!!

When gup posted that picture of him and a woman (with like long pink pedicure nails) holding his face where he was tryin to make it look chill even tho it was very obvious on how hard he was trying to show how that hand holding his face was very obviously a woman's hand and not a man's ... as a 'response' to that video....... like. I saw it n i didn't even screenshot. And yall KNOW me, i love taking photos of things i find funny n sharing it with yall! BUT JUST YALL. YALL CIRCLE OF FRIENDS. not to THE PERSON, not blasting smthin that could be embarrassing all over the media. There's BOUNDARIES to shit, even the smallest shit! But what i meant with this is.. u know. Usually i enjoy kinda embarrassing moves. But this? This was just str8 up Sad. Like. That was all he could even do to try and defend himself, his friendships, his LIFEstyle. That was the only power he had was some miserably pr picture without pr in a sad attempt at personal protection.

And of course, the rest of the internet thought it was the funniest shit ever and blew that boundary up. Bcs they don't gaf and the best (perhaps only) thing these young guys can do is try and not gaf either AND THAT IS SO FUCKIN SAD!!! LIKE! THAT'S JUST SAD. I get sadness can be entertainment, yeah... FICTIONAL sadness, i can SEE. an ARTFUL, blossoming yet still Respecting some boundaries while exploring others, FICTIONAL (saying this AGAIN) sadness can be quality entertainment. Quality as in ure not an absolute shithead for sharing it if you still respect it.

BUT THIS SHIT IS REALLL! AND IT'S NOT GETTING RESPECTED. A REAL THING THAT ACTUALLY REQUIRES THAT RATHER THAN A FICTIONAL THING BCS RESPECT IS AND SHOULD BE REAL but it's just NOT so much anymore and UGHHHH!!!!

Their friendship is REAL! THEIR LIVES AND EMOTIONS AND THOUGHTS N FUCKIN EVERYTHING ABOUT THEM IS REAL BCS THEYRE REAL HUMAN BEINGS JUST LIKE EVEEYONE ELSE!!! and it's just so DISGUSTING that a reminder and a worry even has to be made but that's just how the world runs when it's ran on entertainment, i fuckin Guess .

#it's just ughhh #sorry if i sound upset JUST TO BE CLEAR it's not directed toward anyone here just at the subject as it should be #LIKE WHY DO WE HAVE TO EVEN SAY THIS???#we're silly lil tumblr blogs!!!! who scuttle abt sharing what we like in this hellshit site #but in interwoven comfort burrows kept between us #and yet here we are being some of the few people who actually have a #IT'S JUST #ugh #i hate twitter like #i hate when people dont act like the kinda people that would gather together to try and stop a man from meeting a train #i hate when ppl regress into 'THING I DONT KNOW = BAD = KILL'#LIKE THATS SO UGHHHHH #n im not talking regress as in acting like a caveman bcs while im no anthropologist im pretty sure #ppl back then werent unfeeling monsters 24/7. idk tho. just a hunch called expanded thought #im talkin regress as only sitting in the humans ability TO be cruel and just steaming in it so much u become comfortable #it's just. man. i just hate wasted potential #it's just so sad man. im just so sad #ty for this ask tho!!! i can at least have room for my own comfort away from this mess by knowing theyre still strong #ure so kind for this <3 ty friend!!#ted tumbunity things #green #gup

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nikadd · 1 year

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a few explanations for some things that have come up!!

why a 1v1 pvp?

tumblr polls don’t have either a ranked or a multiple choice options, so this is the best next thing. if i had more than 2 in each, i wouldn’t know what is ppl’s 2nd choice unless it is the second most frequent 1st choice, so to speak. having 1v1 polls would allow me to compare more data.

also, making ppl choose between two is less choice anxiety-inducing in my opinion. yes, a bit more work for me, but choosing between two is a little less work for y’all :)

why in order?

a few reasons.

first, i think a lot of ppl have a strong association between their opinion on the season and their opinion on the episode, so i didn’t want ppl implicitly comparing the seasons themselves instead of comparing episodes. ofc besides the finale-premiere pairings but i think the fact that they are supposed to be direct cause-effect episodes neutralizes that.

second, due to the fact that the show has a weird balance of episodic and serialized storylines, the general quality of the sequences of episodes is kind of inconsistent. this led me to thinking of this quality of the show as my own kind of randomizer. there are some pairings that are rather unfair, i admit, but that’s just how it turned out to be. i do have some failsafes installed in the calculation of the future rounds, so don’t worry abt that too much.

third, i think it’s a lot easier to compare the quality of the episodes when in context with each other. it’s just easier to remember how you felt going between one episode to another, so it would allow for a more informed opinion.

tumblr fandom is not a representative sample and is very cliquey.

you’re right! but it sure is fun to see two ppl who i know for a fact are mutuals reblog the same post and tag it with “SWEEP” for opposite choices.

on a serious note, yes, there are definitely going to be polls that were heavily influenced by where they got reblogged to, but even within the same circles, opinions range far and wide.

if it makes you feel any better, i can already tell that the polls have traveled across a variety of character-girlism association - and there’s still about a week to go for a good chunk of these polls.

what’s next?

well, we’ll see. once all polls are done, i am going to analyze how each episode did in both of its contests and how each of its opponents did in their own contests as well (and, if necessary to specify even further, how THEIR opponents did, too.)

additionally, i’ll put into consideration just how wide the winning margin is. a 51% victory is obviously different from a 90% victory.

also, even though i do hope for an approximately similar voter turnout for all polls, it would obviously not be guaranteed, as some episodes are simply much more popular or people have stronger opinions about them than about others. i would then also put into consideration just how many people were very active about promoting and voting for it…. even though i do hope i get a lot of votes in all of the polls <3

the exact plan for the future rounds is not exactly clear to me right now as i have a few different options. all would be dependent on the variety and frequency of similar results. there is a chance i would just be using the first round as a preliminary round to figure out how to sort the episodes into better fitting brackets for an actual bracketed march madness type selection. or maybe i’d try to find a way to make it a very specific ranked poll, specifically using the relative results from the first round. + other ideas i have that will become a lot more clear once i have the first batch of official results.

the best thing everybody can do now is just continue voting! all of the polls are tagged with the season number (e.g. #s4 or #s10) for the ease of navigation, so i encourage everybody to vote. the earlier seasons will finish their polls sooner than the later ones, so make sure we’re voting consistently. i would also appreciate any and all promotion for any polls that have less than average number of votes.

finally, i just wanna thank all of you for indulging me in this :) means a whole lot!

#it's valeriia talking #spneppvp

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aroaceacacia · 2 years

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I really think this fandom scares too easy when it comes to the possibility of ccs joining Tumblr. I know why people are worried, especially with past events, and I understand that not everyone wants them here, and frankly I don't really care either way. But it really seems that we assume the worst if a cc joins.

sure, its rarely as bad as we imagine it to be.

however. empiresblr had to talk to scott/the empires ccs directly and ask them to give us a bit of space, bc theyd talk abt empiresblr on stream, and also scott joined a fan discord and didnt say anything for several hours. that was a degree of perception that the tumblr mcyt fandom was not expecting and was shocked and scared to go through, because we're not used to it! and now the empires ccs who are here are chill, because scott asked vyeoh why people were upset and vio explained why, and they established a boundary from which we can mutually respect one another.

bdubs on the other hand is a bit harder to reach (doesnt have any specific fandom members on speed dial), AND was just openly talking about his recent interactions with stan twitter in a stream. a members only stream, sure, but a stream nonetheless! and he talked abt how he's been lurking to see what people are up to. it's absolutely not a leap of logic to assume that bdubs could talk about the tumblr community publicly, esp in an embarrassing or negative way. what's more is that, because so much of the current hermitblr/trafficblr etiquette revolves around tag filtering, it's entirely possible bdubs would join tumblr and not figure out how to avoid certain things!

I'm of the opinion that if a CC wants to join tumblr of their own volition, they're welcome to! but directly inviting them into tumblr feels like a step too far. (the exception, imo, being situations where a CC wants to leave twitter or be less active there, like Eret; in that case they're a twitter refugee and its 100% fair game to say "hey tumblr is over here and we're more normal".)

idk something about this ask is just really rubbing me the wrong way. why do you Care. if people get scared at the idea of a cc joining tumblr and it all works out in the end and ppl stop being afraid what does it matter. over time if more ccs join we'll probably get less and less afraid so again. Why Do You Care. if bdubs joins tumblr half the fandom will scatter and the other half will bombard him with maid dresses and he'll either think we're weird and leave or he'll pass the vibe check and stick around, so why are you complaining about How People Feel in my inbox

#asks #discourse #sorry if the last paragraph seems harsh but i literally cannot put my finger on what exactly bothers me here

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yuukei-yikes · 1 year

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Which is better? Hs harutaka or POST STR harutaka?

why is this written in a funny font. am i the only one seeing the font. i feel so intimidated. like damn bro ill answer put the gun down

anyways neither of them is better or worse i ❤️ both. One cannot exist without the other. both are good they're just a little different dynamics 🙏🙏🙏 like one is awkward cringe teenager crush and the other is married era. you know. how do u compare. like both are good?? its just in one theyre younger and in the other theyre older (= yet to be traumatized vs traumatized)

personally i do like seeing post str content a little more just because ITS THE HAPPY ENDING YKNOW..and its haruka&takane finding their way back to each other after everything and i i i i i *descent into madness* also i think there's generally a lot more fan content set in the hs days so i sigh longingly abt post str content everyday. but cringy hs harutaka has to exist to give place to cringy older harutaka you know!! they can be like oh my gooood our ocs. we were so cringe. anyways our wedding rings should say player 1 and player 2. that is so not cringe like we used to be :333 like theyre still very much cringe you know. but they think they arent. they're like we're GROWN now we aren't LIKE THAT anyway asterisks nuzzles&kisses asterisks... :3 xddddd!!! because they compare to how they used to be and the bar is low and also theyre so happy that theyre together that they kinda. cant see how fucking embarrassing they are. thats what live shintaro reaction is good for 🙏

like im sorry im all for blushing mess takane and stuff like yeahyeahyeah i get it but girl.... i hate when ppl make it like she totally reverts back to how she used to be. like u cannotttt miss the point so badly. takane never thought she'd see haruka again her ass IS NOT wasting her chance being that embarrassed now. that's a huge pet peeve i have with fan content like both in hs/str settings where takane can't behave like a normal person around haruka like that's SOOOO untrue. they're best friends she's totally normal to him even if she gets silly sometimes. like there are so many examples but my favorite is in the sixth novel when takane calls haruka on the phone and she's kinda like OMGGG IF U WERENT BUSY ID TOOOTALLY WOULD'VE TAKEN U SOMEWHERE YOU WOULD'VE LOOOOVED... and haruka's like UM HEHE next time ok!! and takanes like NOT GONNA HAPPENNNN❤️❤️❤️ stupid fucking cringe ass flirting sorry like. sorry. not only is she able to speak normally but she cringely flirts with him. and when ppl make it like she can't speak while around him or is just grumpy 1000% of the time it makes me sick. LIKE haruka describes her as easily excitable and like a gentle girl and i ugh *BITE BITE BITE BITE BITE BITE* SHE'S SO INSANELY MISUNDERSTOOD BC PEOPLE WANNA PUT HER IN THE TSUNDERE BOX SO BAD

also COME ON what i love abt her is that as soon as she figures out she likes him she makes a run for it and despite she's terrified she wants to tell him?? and none of her thoughts are abt OHH BUT WHAT IF HE DOESNT LIKE ME BACK like TAKANE NEVER EVER wonders if haruka likes her back once she figures it out. only ayano's lesbian ass says anything abt haruka reciprocating or not. she's not worried abt being rejected... or she dies before she could worry LMAOOOO but she's just terrified she cannot tell him how much he means to her. and then she really CANT tell him, and she has to live with that regret for what she thinks is gonna be forever, but then she DOES see him again. she IS able to tell him. sorry. she would be so insanely cringely embarrassingly happy that she doesnt give a fuck abt being all blushing COME ON. ofc she would get embarrassed but no more or less than haruka lol. and haruka is like WHAA??? MEEEE??? NO WAY....MEEEE??? OMG...HEHE... WAIT MEEEE??? FOR REALLLL??? HEHEH....WAIT LIKE MEEEE!?!?!?!?! the sillies *goes crazy* theyre so cringe and gross kissing together but good for them

and i KNOW how in their chapter together in the eighth novel takane's kinda grumpy but listen. i will defend her here. they LOST. novel route is not a good ending. and takane HATES LOSING‼️‼️‼️ haruka literally comments it, like he says takane hates losing. like am i forever mad jin robbed us of seeing them actually reunite and we only get a short as hell little moment between them that compared to everyone else's moments feels slapped on last minute? yeah a little. is it still well written and a rly solid harutaka moment? yes🙏 like not only the bit abt haruka saying he loved takane's snippy attitude but also ene's high energy and etcetc but like. ausnfknxoenxkeix GOD i love at the end when takane smirks and then haruka thinks abt how easily influenced he's always been by her and also smirks and theyre just kinda smirking to each other like HEH HEH HEH.. YEAH NEXT TIME WE WILL WIN. fuckingidiots smiling like that ABOUT THE FACT THEIR REALITY IS ABOUT TO BE RESET AND ESSENTIALLY ARE ABOUT TO DIE ONLY TO MEET AGAIN NEXT TIME AND GO THROUGH EVERYTHING AGAIN. BUT THEIR ASSES ARE LIKE >:3!! LITERALLY SO SILLY. sorry. i love them. i excuse takane grumpiness for this reason like it was NOT an ideal happy ending so ofc she wasn't super into it 💔

AND ANYWAYS IM PROVEN RIGHT BY LOST DAY HOUR MANGA *KISSES AND TUCKS IT IN BED* LOST DAY HOUR MANGA💞💘💖💕💝💝💗 TAKANE'S SO CHEERFUL IN IT🥺🥺🥺 AND IVE ALWAYS KNOWN. IVE ALWAYS SAID IT. AND THEN THAT CAME OUT AND I WAS PROVEN RIGHT. NEVER FUCKING DOUBT ME

i need to explode. or whatever. My dumbass thinking this was gonna be a short reply

#ask tag #kagenalysis #should this go in the main tag.#oh what the hell.im tagging it #harutaka

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lilbeaniebro · 11 months

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my issue with pinterest

i hate that pinterest is still a social media, and i forget it too!

like there’s still shitty pins made by bad ppl, still arguments going on in the comment sections and i’m like oh i’ll just avoid it but social media is made so you can’t stop scrolling, sometimes (actually a lot of the time) i go into rabbit holes just scrolling and going on the next pin

i hate it so much, pinterest is my favourite app and it is better than most of them (toxicity-wise) but it’s still bad for me. i find things that make me feel like shit or bad abt myself or mad for others or mad for myself or just plain stupid

ig there’s no healthy way to engage with social media, there’s always gonna be ppl or posts that make you feel bad so you either get used to it or stop using it

i wish it was just the media without the social, like i love the comments and pinterest has been the only safe space for me to actually share my opinion but i wish they weren’t there.. though there would still be those bad posts..

hmm, idk like i said before there’s really just no way to use it healthily, like yea for the most part it’s safe and you only see stuff you like but if you stray a little too far you could see something that you wish you didn't see

though that also brings up the topic of shelteredness, is it bad to not want to see those things? obviously not especially if they trigger you (trust me i’ve seen some actually triggering stuff if it came across the wrong person) but overall is it important to see those things? to learn from it? to grow from it?

i suppose but it’s also important to set boundaries, acknowledge your triggers and be like ok that post made me feel really bad and i don’t want to see it again what are some actions i can take to ensure that it won’t happen as frequent?

hmm, idk, what are some actions?... maybe blocking people? hiding the posts? though you still see and interact with the posts and the people.. hmm, set a timer? ik no one likes that but maybe it’ll help? maybe stepping back and asking yourself why did that trigger me? did you see yourself in that post?

.. yea, i did. it’s hard, being different. i act as though i don’t care bc i’ve seen bigotry towards all these type of people my whole life but it’s just hard that there’s ppl out there that hate you, hate your existence, want to exploit you, don’t respect you, want to take advantage of you

and yea i’m scared for myself but i’m more worried for others, i see others letting themselves (not letting per se but more so falling into the trap) be taken advantage of or be treated as less just to be loved or to have attention and i get it, it justs hurts me so much knowing that there’s ppl out there that laugh at the fact that they can so easily manipulate others and use them as they please, they see absolutely no issue with it, they deserve to have their needs meet right?

ppl love to go on abt how progressive we are but it doesn’t feel like it, maybe it is.. but i feel like the more open and accepting we be to others and the more hate the other side spews

like are these issues ever gonna go away? i guess not, sometimes i feel hate towards certain groups are so deeply rooted in their dna

but ykw what can you do abt it? nothing, sure you can change a person’s perspective but there’s still a bunch of others after that and you’re just not able to some people’s views, and there may be something to do abt that but sometimes you just got to take a step back and be like this is a really big issue and one day we will conquer it but for now you have to acknowledge that you’re just one person, one person stuck in this sea of hate, humans weren’t meant to deal with this but we do now, all you can do is make sure you’re okay, take control of the things you can control, control your emotions, your responses, the way you present yourself, the way you talk to others, the way you treat yourself

we are in a game that is made to exhaust us over and over and over again, you’re so focused on surviving the day that you don’t focus on the bigger picture, how could you? so the least you could do is show yourself the respect and care you deserve, obviously it’s hard, i’m preaching all this but i don’t even take care of myself, i’ll get better one day and so will you

so um that concludes my rant turned therapy session turned inspirational talk, thanks for reading through all this, take care of yourself, drink water, eat something, take a shower, go on a walk, avoid social media as much as you can, and even if you do one thing that’s okay, that’s one thing you got done

bye

#rant #pinterest #text post #personal ramblings #social media

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dykefaggotry · 2 years

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not to ebeg and yall absolutely do not have to do anything but I figured I'd post on here bc ik some ppl have had some success. but until now financial aid/loans has covered my school expenses but next semester I'm going to have to pay abt $200 extra a month to stay on a payment plan. on top of that I finally got my license and am going to have to start paying car insurance and gas (not sure how much insurance is going to be since I couldn't get an accurate quote until passing the driving test which was yesterday but from everything I'm seeing it's about $100+). I make $12.75 an hour and on top of all that have $460 in rent and various other bills that add up (next most expensive that's not split w my boyfriend being an $89 phone bill).

anywayyyy all that is to say that I'll Survive and if nothing else I have about $3.5k in credit limits but I don't necessarily want to fuck over my credit by relying on that, but looking at how severe finances are going to get very soon I'm probably going to need to find a new job that pays better and has full time benefits. (issue rn is that if this job gives me a raise I lose medicaid/food stamps, so I'll need one with benefits to make up for that loss)

rn is just particularly rough bc I've been scheduled less hours the last couple weeks and had to take off almost an entire week of work next week

so if anyone has anything extra (and please don't give anything if you're also broke) it'd be much appreciated

paypal:

#somehow I've escaped the shame of asking for money that a lot of us have shdgshsh my parents would kill me but like #there's no shame in it imo and I likely won't get anything but I've learned it doesn't hurt to ask

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kae-karo · 1 year

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hi i need advice. so, at my job we recently got a new supervisor (and for context she is a woman and i am women-appearing) and she calls me (and also all the girls) baby girl. i cannot explain how angry this has made me the last few weeks. Not just bc i identify as nonbinary (not out at work) but i just think its unprofessional and weird. she also collectively refers to us as babies. like "can i help with anything babies?" as well as honey, love, and such. i'm not a fan of any of those. However! i'm nervous to tell her not to call me by pet names because on her first day i was talking to her and one of our other supervisors and he said people re toosensitive these days when they tell people how to adress them (being vaguely transphobic it was upsetting) and she agreed with him and i just stayed silent. idk i don't want her to call me pet names but i don't want to be seen as like being difficult or difficult to work with. does this make sense? ps. i love you

OOF okay first of all i am so sorry that is such a yikes situation????? like, i'm totally fine being perceived as female and that would still absolutely squick me the tf out jfc,,,,,,,here's how i'd personally address this, and if anyone else wants to add some advice or comments as well, please do! i won't say i'm super skilled at catching all possible caveats or outcomes, but i'll do my best lmao

first and foremost, it might make sense to chat with some of the other people being called "babies"/pet names and see how they're feeling, especially if you have any good rapport going with them - they might be just as uncomfy as you but also worried about bringing it up! i don't say this as a 'then you should know whether you're overreacting or not' sort of thing (i don't think you're overreacting AT ALL) but sometimes it can be easier to confront a problem like that in the workplace when you're not the only one bringing forth a complaint

that said, other ppl might be okay with it (or okay enough not to rock the boat) so be prepared for that! and it's okay if you're the only one who ends up trying to bring this back to the supervisor to discuss your discomfort - it can just be nice to have some allies if they feel the same way!

either way, though, it sounds like this supervisor's pet name thing isn't personal - which is GOOD, and i would try to keep that at the forefront of your mind and discussions when chatting with the supervisor about it (because i absolutely do think you should chat with them, unprofessionalism aside, it's making you uncomfortable and there's no good reason that the supervisor should continue calling you those names if they make you feel that way)

now the reason i say to keep it clear that it isn't personal is cause ppl can sometimes get all weird abt confrontation and jump to getting supremely self-defensive, which isn't super productive for anyone involved. so, i would say to keep that in mind (bring it up a few times throughout the conversation), and try to make it clear that there's no attack on her as a person - you have your own preferences and would prefer not to be called those things!

my second bit here is - alternatives! this is a bit of a challenging situation to just...have a good pet name alternative for, but that's okay!! if you have any nicknames you like or don't mind, that's a good start, or just stick with your name. something as simple as "i would prefer just to be called my name" is totally reasonable! so reasonable, in fact, that it sounds kinda silly to even have to say lmao

i will also add this crucial component here - if you do NOT want to come out to ur supervisor, that is perfectly fine and coming out does not have to factor into this convo you have with her unless you actually want it to! just keep that in mind as you go along!

okay so!!! if all goes well, here's more or less what i'd personally say in your shoes:

hi [supervisor]! do you have a few mins to chat? just want to nip something in the bud. i know you often refer to us as [pet names, esp the ones you don't like], but for personal reasons that i don't feel comfortable disclosing, i would prefer only to be called by my name [and/or any other nicknames you're comfortable with]. thank you for understanding!

what this is ideally going to do is set the tone of:

you are not upset with her/you're not taking it personally nor are you judging her or commenting on her mannerisms in a negative way

you are giving a vague but inarguable reason for your preference - if she asks more, she looks insensitive for ignoring the "for reasons i'm not comfortable disclosing" bit

you have set the stage for escalation if it's required - and hopefully it isn't! but you have made your request clear and direct without any potentially offensive or "emotional" language that might distract from your request or paint it as "unreasonable" (it really isn't!!)

with any luck, that'll be the end of it! you absolutely deserve to be treated with respect and using pet names in a professional workplace (esp when they make you uncomfortable) is absolutely grounds to have a conversation with her about not using them to refer to you.

now, there is always a chance it won't work out, and at that point, it kind of depends on you - getting another (sympathetic) supervisor involved could be the next step, or talking to HR to determine possible courses of action - can you be moved to another team, if that's something you'd like or prefer? can your shifts or work be aligned exclusively with other supervisors? is a meeting with the supervisor and a rep from HR recommended? (talking with HR might also be the point to bring up the general unprofessionalism that goes along with all the pet names, although i would still avoid it when first talking with the supervisor herself as it could be taken offensively)

idk the exact answers on that front as it's probably very specific to your actual job, but i would basically start with finding someone trustworthy at a higher level than you to stand in your corner - they may have better insight to ways to work this out without causing any grumbling on the part of the problem supervisor, but at the end of the day, that might be the only way to curtail the issue and ensure it won't happen again

i think the order of preference, if i were in your shoes, would be to start with your team and people who might feel the same way, then try to bring the issue to the supervisor together. if that's not an option for whatever reason, i genuinely believe you should make an effort to at least ask for your due respect (you miss 100% of the shots you don't take! and your personal comfort in a place you are presumably spending quite a lot of time is definitely worth taking a shot for)

at that point, if you're shot down for any reason, it's up to you to decide what degree you want to take it to. it's important to pick your battles ofc, i understand the desire not to come across as 'hard to work with', but your dignity is absolutely important and you are the only person who can decide when someone has crossed a line

i really hope this has helped at least a little, or given you some ideas for how best to address the issue! sending u much love and i very much hope your situation improves a little 💜💜

#ask #anon #advice

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foxtriestobiteandmaimandkilland · 10 months

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god im so tired i feel like im. yea. but like genuinely FUCK trans people who try 2 be fuckin trans police likeeee FUCK U when ur tryna reinvent gender roles I DONT NEED TO BE COMPLIMENTED ON HOW WELL I PASS I PASS PERFECTLY WELL AS MYSELF BC I AM ME MOTHERFUCKER I DONT NEED TO BE A CIS PERSONS IDEA OF A MAN BC IM A TRANS PERSONS IDEA OF A MAN U FUCKINGGGG cop,. stop fucking cringing at me wearing a skirt go stick ur head in a toilet u fuckingggggg. bitchasss motherfucker. there is NO way i wanna wear fuckinn trackies n a hoodie all day bc that works just fine 4 other ppl but it gives me fuckin MORE dysphoria stop projecting ur dysphoria onto me youuuuu fuckingggggg. pussy. u can enjoy ur dysphoria hoodie without putting me into it as well its not a get along shirt u fucking idiottttt. wed get along better if u didnt shove our heads into the same hole. yeah. im justtt. pissed. attttttttttt. cops. for existing. and ppl who act like cops. kill the cop in ur head bla bla bla.

anyways

. im gonnago to sleep. tmrw is gonna b better bc god. today was a whole lotta anxiety. not the bad kind. bc i realised today. i finally have problems that dont feel like theyre making me feel so fucking empty. like im soooo anxious and worried abt these problems but these r normal people problems now likeeee. i can cope w this kinda stuff. wowies. so tired. gonnna fall asleep at my desk. this music is loud iand it feels like itss. a big ocean. ive almost drowned so many times yknow. crazy. i wanna swim in a river w my friends. only river close to me is dirty as fuck tho n will give me diseases. or probably has a body in it somewhere. wanna find a good river i wanna. yeah. ok my head feels like. a carousel or whatevr. or like. oh my god i havet listened to hsi song in so long this is so 2021 core. wow. did i just type core with my own two hands. god. ok. gonna text my friend. and be like. i love u . and then im gonna sleep. and think abt my friends and my more than friends and my less than friends. forgot hwo good this song was. mmm yea. ok. tmrw got english period3 . reminder 2msyelf incaase i get scared i get the period wrong. lemme check acrually

yep. english period3. 11.15-12.15. right there. and also. reminder 2 myself to. get to Maples house at 3.50ish and then. we go to my place. and if it rains thats good. if it doesnt rain we cry forevers. we could maybe like. chill in the garden. or watch movies. movies r good. could even kick my sister out of the livin room so we could watch movies there. n like. give her a distraction. or like. let her watch as well but idk if wed want her. bc like. yea thatd be awkward. idk. we could just watch movies in my room. or we could watch heartstopper like we said that one time bc its feelgood and i love feelgood shows and its aalso smth ik is good and is familiar 2 me and my autistic ass is scared of watching new films. id that an autism thing. well my ass is still autistic. so fuck u. and ur allistic ass. unless its not then i apologise to ur ass. ok.nighty nighty. oscar if u see this . um. Hi . ur coolllllllll as fuck ok yeah fuck u im gonna embarrass u in a publiccc postttt by sayingh howwww cool u rrrrr okie yea byebye. and also byebye everyone whios not oscar. ur also cool but not as cool.

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