#I AM SO HAPPY ????????? usually I’m stressed at this hour lol

[naenaejen]

game 1 is ours!!!!!!! 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

#we got a team that can do anything #sacramentoproud #I AM SO HAPPY ????????? usually I’m stressed at this hour lol #I’m quite disappointed with Keegan’s performance but this is a lot to handle so I don’t blame him #DE’AARON FOX AND MALIK MONK MADE MY MF NIGHT YALL !!!! #domas wasn’t too good but also wasn’t too bad. ? #Alex Len did an amazing job out there #a lot better than Domas but we are expecting a Domas masterclass 😮‍💨😮‍💨 #hashtag dont trust foxy in the fourth quarter

[sugarcloudsky]

can i have a cappuccino cookie x reader where tgey have a cute litrle coffee date or somethin >_<!!

「Stress Reliever」

character: cappuccino cookie

wc: 1k

cws: possibly ooc cappuccino i am not confident in his characterization, corny

hiii i know who sent this! happy birthday!!! <3 (i hope this turned out ok, i’m not too proud of how this came out LOL)

“Meet me at the cafe downtown tomorrow afternoon for a coffee! My treat!”

Those few simple words continued to echo in the back of Cappuccino Cookie’s mind as his fingers mindlessly traced the rim of the coffee cup in front of him. He tries desperately to shake the thoughts away, but it’s a fruitless effort. It’s practically impossible for him to forget what you said to him. He couldn’t possibly forget the smile you had on your face at that moment. He couldn’t possibly forget… you, now sitting in front of him whilst sipping a coffee of your own.

You had spontaneously invited the prosecutor out for a coffee date after you had watched him return from another tiresome trial. You noticed how his eye bags were much darker than usual, and how he was practically falling asleep as he stumbled through the door of his law firm. He had only mumbled an incoherent string of words to you as you rushed towards him to steady his wobbling and to make sure he wouldn’t collapse on the spot.

After you sat him down on the sofa and allowed him to take a quick breather, he finally seemed to have composed himself a bit. His brows were furrowed with undeniable exhaustion, even more than usual. This must’ve been a tougher case he took on today. Your lips pursed as you watched him sigh, trying to think for a moment. You wanted to come up with a way to cheer him up, even at least a little.

What better way to cheer up your coworker than with a simple coffee date?

Well, you wouldn’t call it a date per se, just a simple hangout to lift his spirits. You wouldn’t dare to call it a date. You would never want to make Cappuccino Cookie uncomfortable! It was just a simple hang out, that’s it!

Cappuccino Cookie on the other hand, after processing what you said to him, felt many conflicting emotions swirling in his mind. Were you asking him out on a date? Or was it just a friendly hangout? He didn’t want to overthink so much, but he really couldn’t stop himself.

All he could really do was swallow his insecurities and look up at you again. Although he noticed you were no longer facing him, instead looking out the window of the small coffee shopping whilst watching random passerbys go about their day. The cute little white cup sitting in front of you was now half empty.

As you continued to stare out the glass window, Cappuccino’s attention went from your cup of coffee to your face. He sat there, his finger grazing against the handle of the cup as he gazed at you, softly but intently. His eyes glanced over your soft cheeks, your fluttering eyelashes, your glittering eyes, and your plump yet slightly chapped lips.

He involuntarily lets out a sigh, admiring how your pretty face is painted in blue from the cloudless afternoon sky.

To him, you were a clear image of perfection. Gorgeous, beautiful, pretty much any cheesy word you can think of.

Cappuccino Cookie had only been admiring you from afar for a short amount of time. At first, you were just a simple coworker to him. It was then when you began to approach him more often with a big smile on your face where he began to feel more than platonic feelings for you.

These feelings scared him, so he shoved them deep down and settled with staying friends with you. Though, that didn’t stop him from occasionally sneaking glances at you and smiling to himself with red dusting his face.

By now, he had memorized the entire structure of your face. All of your imperfections were still beautiful to him. He could stare at your face for hours and never get tired, despite his draining job.

“Cappuccino Cookie?”

The way he flinches at your sudden remark doesn’t go unnoticed by you. You chuckle with amusement lacing your voice, turning to him completely once again.

“You okay there?”

He clears the lump in his throat, his face slightly flushed in embarrassment. He nods his head curtly, in a simple ‘yes.’

For a moment, you stick with wordlessly smiling at him. Although the silence is a bit thick, so you want to ease it somehow.

“How’s work been for you?”

He looks up at you again, sighing. “Same as always. So many idiots in court, you wouldn’t believe it…”

His lips curl upwards as you let out a small giggle at his response. “I see!” You chuckle, picking up your coffee and swirling the liquid in its cup, “I hope some coffee can help relieve some of that courtroom stress!”

He hums, looking down at the cup of coffee sat in front of him. His eyebrows perk upwards as he eyes his own reflection in the brown drink.

His eyes soon again find your face once more, noticing how your attention once again drifted away from him. You had begun to stir your cup of coffee with a little spoon, watching as the remaining whipped cream became mixed in with the caffeine.

If he was being honest, coffee didn’t have much effect on him anymore. Sure, it could help him get through all nighters if he needed to, but other than that, it made him feel nothing other than a moderate feeling of dread.

But you, on the other hand…

Being around you was enough of a stress reliever for him, although he wouldn’t exactly admit that to you. Your calming aura and charming smile was enough to ease his tensions, even if it was only temporary. Everything you said to him served to ease his mind, and he can’t help but feel at peace to be around you right now. He chuckled to himself at the thought, his muscles relaxing as he sank into his seat.

“Mhm,” he hums, face once again tinted slightly red. He rests his chin on his palm, his gaze lingering on you with a look on his face that almost seemed lovestruck. “I feel better already.”

#cookie run x reader #fanfiction #cookie run x you #x reader #cookie run #crob #crob x reader #cappucino cookie #cappuccino cookie x reader #writers on tumblr

[moonjxsung]

STAR!! I love your writings and I admire the way you can dedicate times to write good quality stories when having a stressful full-time job.

When you told that you were an advertisement major, I was like, no wonder you tell stories really well! Ads majors are usually really creative!

But, if you don't mind to share, how did you go from ad major to be a business analyst? Is it related to ads/marketing? Do you work in a creative/ads agency? Do you like to work with numbers? Hehe I'm sorry if I'm too nosy. I'm just curious why don't you do something related to story telling as a job cuz you really great at it.

Anyway, I'm happy for your promotion!

HELLO MY ANGEL I hope you’re doing so well!!!! This is such an interesting question I love it, not nosy at all so please don’t apologize! Here’s the gist of it 👼:

I actually firstly did an internship with this company in senior year of college that was a little more focused on product enhancement within our e-commerce space. Funny story- I was actually rejected from the internship when I first applied, so I sent an email to the hiring manager and demanded that they at least have a meeting with me so I could introduce myself and talk about why I felt I was a good fit for their company (this is why I always say cover letters will get you a lot further than you think!) and within the hour I was set up with a very casual meeting with their team. I gave an elevator pitch to them and it was a very brief conversation but I secured myself a series of interviews for the internship which put me up against THOUSANDS of other applicants and I was their final pick for the role! It was pretty rooted in a lot of advertising stuff, lots of suggestions to enhance products and ads and all that. I did that for the summer before my senior year and then I was offered an extension as a contractor by our director there for a few more months. From THERE I was offered a full-time role but I wasn’t very interested in the team I was going to be moved to, but my company did everything in their power to find me another team to be a part of. So I moved to a role that’s in our marketing division (a little further from just advertising or product work) and I was granted a senior title before even finishing college. So I guess I’ve just been on lots of different teams and ultimately advertising sort of transitioned into marketing! I love it a lot and I learn SO much from it, I truly feel very lucky to have been granted the opportunities I have. I would love to transition back to ad work or do something writing related down the line but I think I’m in a great starting point so I’m happy where I am for the time being!

Hope this helps a little bit, sorry this was such a long answer lol 🫶 sending you all my love angel I hope your weekend is going fantastic !! thank you for caring about my silly little life lol 💓💖💘💕🩷💞

#anon <3 #ask

[ryuichirou]

Hey there, Ryuichi! 👋🏻

i hope you do not mind asking me this, but you're one of my favourite Artists 💕 and i noticed how frequently you post your art and it makes me wonder how much your drawing in your free time...?

I used to be an artist myself just like you, but unfortunately, i lost my passion for it specifically because of lack of time to do so, and i lost motivation 💔 (another reason might also be that i tend to compare my art to other talented artist which makes me insecure) i haven't drawn in years. I want to get back to it! but i just can't find the motivation like i mentioned earlier, which is why i wanted to ask you: How do you find the Time/Motivation to draw? and if you have any tips?

I'm also staying anonymous cuz I'm shy 👉🏻👈🏻

Hi Anon!

Thank you for such a sweet ask, I am very happy and honoured to hear that I’m one of your favourite artists.

To answer your question, I spend pretty much every free moment drawing, but that’s just because I am so used to drawing all the time. This has been my main activity for almost my entire life lol so I don’t really get art blocks or dips in motivation. But I still understand what you’re talking about.

To be honest, despite drawing pretty much all day, these days I have ~3 hours of free time drawing for myself (except weekends), because I spend the rest of the time working, which is also drawing… Although ~3 hours probably doesn’t sound like “having no time to draw”, it’s usually not enough for me, I guess? So I have to prioritize certain ideas and simplify sketches sometimes, with the idea that I’ll get back to them and fix/add to them later. So if you can get an hour or even 30 minutes of free time to just sit down and draw just a little bit, even if it’s just doodling some ideas for the future (remember that you can always come back to them later) or studies, it would be great, because it’ll get your brain working in that direction again. Don’t stress it too much; once again, even if it’s just a little sketch of a flying head, it’s something. Which means it’s good! Some days you’ll have more time and energy and you’ll draw more. Some days you’ll barely draw anything, but this repetition is still very important. I guess the first tip I’m trying to give you is that it’s important to have discipline and create a timeslot for your drawing, preferably every day or every other day. Just to kick things off.

When it comes to comparing yourself to others, yeah it can be a serious issue that kills your motivation. And it’s easy to say “just don’t do that”, but I’ll still say it in a bit of a different way: try to keep in mind that if this artist was able to do that, it’s not unachievable for you. I usually try to either get inspired by other artists or to analyze them, trying to look for what exactly there is that I love about their art and would like to do myself. But also, you don’t have to draw like them. It’s cheesy, but no one can do what you do other than you.

When it comes to the likes, because it can be upsetting sometimes when you look at the numbers that other people make despite you having similar content, try to either ignore it altogether (another “easy to say” advice, I know) or keep in mind that there are other reasons behind the number of likes and not just the art itself.

We usually look at the artists whose skill is so stupidly high that it doesn’t feel like a competition anymore lol So we can only look at them in awe…and think about how to recreate some of the effects from their work.

Another very important thing that I love to talk about is that you should remember how fun it feels to draw. Try to think what made you fall in love with drawing and what your favourite thing to draw was. Indulge in it, draw it as many times as you want. Draw any idea you have an inkling for, even if it feels weird or stupid; I genuinely think that it makes the creative part of your brain work better and makes you enjoy the process of drawing more. Art is hard, it requires discipline, but it shouldn’t feel as a chore.

Overall, I hope you’ll find both time and motivation to draw and to have fun with it. Good luck and thank you again!

Have a great day.

#replies #about drawing

[mirahuyooo]

hello!i hope you're doing fine.so my bff's bday is on the way and she was going into some hard stuff so i am making a request for her ,if you dont mind would you write seokjin xreader in Hogwarts!au . Reader is in slytherin and you are free to choose jin's house just make it sweet and stuff(my bff loves chess and cats idk why i am saying that but it may give u ideas) i am so sorry if i took sm if ur time i just want her to cheer up and be happy.

Also take Care and don't overwork yourself thank u bye!

Take a Break | ksj

— In which, your dearest Seokjin urges you to take a break from studying for the N.E.W.T.s

word count: 2,198 content/s: fluff, wHOLESOME HOURS, wizard exams are still exams, stressed reader is stressed (still having war flashbacks from mine lmao), sort of hurt/comfort uwu, family issues, a bunch of bullies appear to ruin the moment, blood purity prejudice, established relationship? (kind of lol), reader is a pureblood Slytherin and Jinnie is a muggleborn Hufflepuff! Hogwarts AU pairing: kim seokjin x reader

[masterlist] | do you also have a [request]?

A/N: First of all, I just now remember the title is also a song from Hamilton (omg Slytherin!Hamilton???? jkjkjk) bUT THAT’S BESIDES THE POINT! I hope you liked this anon! I hope it wasn’t late for the occasion either and that your friend finds this imagine well!~ Happy birthday to her! I hope she gets through that rough patch, whatever it may be 🥺💖💕💞

Also, I haven’t consumed anything Hogwarts (AU and otherwise) in a while so idk if this does well (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`) bUT I do hope I wrote it well enough for the AU! I also know Jin is mostly a Gryffindor in these AUs but Hufflepuff!Jin??? Who values loyalty and is fiercely loyal himself? Who takes care of his friends and defends them like a true badger? Who always offers food from the kitchens????? SOFT HUFFLEPUFF! JIN FOR SOFT HOURS!

Shoulders heavy with the weight of a promising future, you’re rendered hunched before one of the many tables in the library, books of all sorts languidly flying overhead to their designated destinations. While you usually love the peaceful sanctuary that is the library of Hogwarts, the looming N.E.W.T. condemns you and many others to its old, wooden desks, books of all different subjects surrounding and chaining you to a fate of stiff necks, panic, and headaches. 

For hours now, you’ve been fiddling with the green and silver fabric of your tie with one hand and hurriedly jotting down notes in the other, murmuring the words you see on the thick book of potions above your notebook. 

“I’m telling you, (Y/N),” a voice lulls you out of the garbled mess of notes you constructed, and so does the gentle warmth of a hand lightly brushing your hair. “Take a break.”

Beside you is a Hufflepuff who's irritatingly being too lax about this whole pressure of the future fiasco—fluffy, brown curls prettily framing a charming face that is absent of the furrowed brows and frown you're currently sporting. Damn, this handsome bastard. (You mean that, of course, in the most affectionate of vexes.)

Kim Seokjin seemed to have been content with his studying for the moment, now leaving it unattended in favor of leaning closer to your chair. You have to wrangle his comforting hand off your head before it could ever tempt you to leisure, straightening your posture in your seat and looking around for Madam Pince. “You know I can’t,” you exasperatedly sigh, smoothing your hair over, “I have to—”

“Have to pass the N.E.W.T.s with flying colors. Yes, yes. I know,” Seokjin finishes the sentence you’ve been reciting since the exam season started, half-heartedly rolling his eyes before he fixes them on you with a look of concern amidst his soft scolding. “But, you won’t be able to do that if you pass out from exhaustion now, will you?”

Like many of your peers in Slytherin, you were ambitious, and you wanted to be many things, but it mostly boils down to potions and magical creatures. From a young age, the adventures of Newt Scamander captured your intrigue the moment you read them—the fascinating animals and all the places in the world that hold these wonders. Stubbornness is both your strength and flaw, your sights set on following his lead regardless if your ambition collided with your parents’ own desire to have you be an auror, instead. 

Before you ever found company in Seokjin and his gaggle of boys, you were a solitary student like Min Yoongi was, spending most of your time with either your cat or the critters you meet in the forest or school grounds, and further cementing magizoology in your heart and mind. (You even befriended a mermaid you often saw through the windows of the Slytherin common room!)

Your parents often frowned upon your plans, immensely upset to hear that after graduating, you intended to be a magizoologist while owning your own apothecary, perhaps even using potions to help treat creatures. (Sort of like a veterinarian in the muggle world—as Seokjin once told you.) 

Granted, you wouldn’t necessarily need to pass the N.E.W.T.s to be a magizoologist, but you needed one for Potions to become a potions master. For petty purposes, you also felt the need to do well in your other subjects, just to rub it in your parents’ face that your future wouldn’t be without direction. Hence, you practically holding up in the library as the dreaded exams approach closer and closer by the day.   

Seokjin, on the other hand, intended on becoming a healer at St. Mungo’s after your final year together at Hogwarts. Surely, with the required credentials for becoming one, he’d understand your plight of worrying about the results of the exams. Yet, here he was, studying earnestly yet knowing where to stop—unlike you, apparently. 

A strict clear of the throat commands your attention elsewhere, Madam Pince standing in the nearest row of bookshelves and sending you both a warning glare that compels you to apologetically nod your head and look back down at the books. You never really go back to reading about how to properly brew Felix Felicis though, head only filled with weighing what to do with Jin’s proposal.

As soon as Madam Pince is surely out of sight, your seatmate lets out a sigh of relief, immediately going back to the conversation that was cut short. “(Y/N), you’re smart and capable,” Seokjin proudly claims, voice hushed lest the librarian returns. There’s a reassuring pat to your shoulder, further loosening the tension in them. “You’ll pass the N.E.W.T.s brilliantly. I’m sure of it.” 

(In truth, Seokjin sometimes thinks you could’ve been a Ravenclaw if your determination to be the greatest magizoologist of your generation was any lesser than your affinity for knowledge.) 

Kim Seokjin with his sure confidence and judgement will always spur some form of jealousy in you one way or the other, but he brings you solace through it nonetheless when he tenderly intertwines his hand with yours under the table and nods his head towards the door in a wordless invite to ditch the rigorous studying. 

You purse your lips, any retort dying unspoken at the truth of his words as you mull over what kind of life you’ve been living lately. 

How many weeks have you been sacrificing precious sleep and food for this? 

How many invites to Hogsmeade or playing wizard chess in the common room did you turn down? 

How many times did you stay in this same exact seat in the library till closing hours?

The thought of spending more times in the Hogwarts library than Madam Pince  herself, dreaded you. Perhaps, this may have been getting out of hand after all. Seokjin doesn’t let it get to his head, why should you? (The perfectionist beast in you hates him.)

Just as you squeeze his hand back in silent affirmation, your fellow Slytherins, Michael Flint and his goons, pass by. Try as you might to ignore their glares and gather your things from the desk, they made their way to your table. “Still hanging around with that mudblood, (L/N)?” he spat, chuckles from the three behind him followed suit. 

In an instant, your blood boils at his words, a headache yet again manifesting. It’s a misfortune to the decent Slytherins of your house that there are still remnants of blood purists like Michael. 

You miss Seokjin’s reaction with the way you were glaring at them like a snake baring its fangs, ready to strike. “Whoever I mingle with isn’t exactly any of your business, Flint,” you steadily drawl, the glint of the small silver pin of the house snake on his necktie reminding you of the one you used to have.

Slytherins are tight knit when it comes to being part of the house, taking care of one’s own and siding with one another. The tie pins and rings are symbolic of being looked after by even the alumni of the house. You suppose people like Michael expect you to blindly follow suit with the principle. Jokes on them. 

“You and Min are a bunch of traitors,” Michael’s sneering nearly knocks the air out of your lungs, “a waste of purebloods.”

It hurts, more than it ever has the right to do so. There's a lump that forms in your throat and a waver in your glare as your hands clenched into fists. 

You know well it's not this mongrel that holds your heart hostage in his hands stabbing it cruelly, but rather, it was the words that he wielded being akin to the ones you had been accustomed to at home—the utter disdain and disappointment of your purity-obsessed parents plunging piercing glares and venomous lectures to your core. It doesn't ache as much as it used to, but you suppose the stress and exhaustion bleeding into your bones have made the walls of your heart weary. 

“Shouldn’t you be studying for the exams instead of poking your nose where it doesn’t belong?” 

Wide shoulders soon block your view of the group. Kim Seokjin, kind and patient as he was, is now an angered badger with claws ready to maul beneath that calmer, solemn fury of a facade he puts in front of them. His height, though not as tall as the Ravenclaw head boy, Kim Namjoon, is still enough to be used as a further point of intimidation. 

Still, ignorant fools like Michael are ignorant and foolish, after all. “Keep your mouth shut, Kim,” he snaps, “I’m not talking to you, yeah?”

You secure your bag as you roll your eyes, snaking your fingers through Seokjin’s and squeezing them to silently tell him to end the discussion now. There’s no use talking this out with jerks like Michael Flint without getting exhausted. Madam Pince will come around at any moment now, too. 

“Your mouth wasn't wanted to talk in the first place, either," Seokjin bites back, his final blow before he swiftly slings his own bag over his shoulder and tucks both his and your books in his hands. 

Relinquishing any time for them to wrangle in an argument, you raise your head once again to dare them yourself. “Your choice of words is repulsive and obsolete, Flint,” you hiss, flashing them an empty smile. “Do change with the times, will you, lads?” 

Fortuitously, Madam Pince’s return to the section allows you and Seokjin to leave without much more of a fuss, hand still in hand. The more the distance between you and the library grows, however, the more you realize how tired you really are. The N.E.W.T.s are nastily exhausting.

You all but steal glances at the young man next to you, just as he decides to pull you to a stop in the corridors. Before he could even open his lips, you’re the first to say a word. “I’m sorry about that,” you sigh, letting yourself crash in the embrace he readily gives you. You take in his scent—a mix of his favorite cologne and the pastries he would be offered to by the kitchen elves for helping them—and you hug him just a bit tighter.

Fingers brush themselves through your hair. “Don’t be,” he hushes, tone back to being light-hearted. “It’s not your fault idiots like them still exist and dirty Slytherin’s name.”

He’s being nice and moving on from the issue, even when they don’t deserve his kindness. It’s easy for others to take Seokjin’s friendliness and composure for granted, especially when his house is reputable for being modest. “Still,” you insist, looking up at him, “you don’t deserve to be called such things.”

Kim Seokjin is worth a thousand times more than that filthy word—worth more than his weight in galleons. 

He’s the one who once waited for you outside the library door at night and snuck you into the kitchens to help one of the elves make you a meal because you missed dinner. 

He’s the one who once spent hours with you looking for your cat throughout the castle, constantly assuring you that you two would find your beloved pet. 

He’s the one who once fetched you in the pouring rain after your parents disowned you last summer, convincing his parents to let you stay with them until you got your bearings.   

You would go far as to say he’s your other half—one of the people you undoubtedly plan to include in your greater plans in life. Perhaps, when you’ve travelled the world and then some, you and him would be together, settling down somewhere. You and him would build an establishment for treating both wizards, witches, and creatures. You and him would finally be able to look at each other and say—  

"Are you okay, (Y/N)?"

Knocked out of your stupor, only now have you come to realize the hand cupping your cheek, wiping away at your tears. Seokjin’s eyes stare back at you worriedly as you cast your eyes down. "No," you find yourself admitting this hoarsely, heart always vulnerable and honest with him. 

You want to be the best—for your younger self, your cruel parents, and him. You want to pay him back for his kindness and give him all of your love in return. You want to return from your endeavors and—

There’s a tender kiss that plants itself on your forehead, and in turn, nourishing the warmth and the butterflies within you. The silence beats for only a few seconds further before Seokjin pulls away, a soft smile on his lips as he does so. "Let's go to the kitchen for a short break, hm?" he says, wiping the last of your tears away as you look at his chest. Curses, you’ve stained his sweater vest. 

"Come along," he further urges you, earnestly tugging at your hand with genuine promise. "Your Jinnie will cook for you."

The small beginnings of a smile blooms from your lips. After a long, arduous time of studying, yes, a short break does sound nice.

#im so soft rn bye #bts imagines #bts au #bts fanfic #bts hogwarts au #kim seokjin x reader #kim seokjin imagines #kim seokjin fluff #kim seokjin hogwarts au #bts writing #AAAAAAAAAA fiRST REQUEST EVER #got v V EXCITED ngl

[90s-2000s-barbie]

Sorry I usually don’t post personal stuff but I’ve been going through so much life changing health issues since December, it’s insane. Though I have such good support around me, I will admit the issues I’ve been going through recently has been not only really stressful, scary and so painful. I’ve had this scary realization that I may never be able to walk normally again, or may have to be on disability before I’m even 30 and everything is unknown still and up in the air. It’s just been really scary and life changing especially as someone who works, busts ass and runs around for hours as a living and now I can’t literally do anything but sit right now. I just never thought anything like this would ever happen to me, but shows how life is just so weird and u can be healthy ur whole life and then bam, anything can happen with no warning no matter who you are or how young. The doctors keeps telling me they’ve never seen someone so young go through what I’m going through. Just so weird.

I just am so thankful to have tumblr as a good outlet and escape to even just for a little while. It’s helped get me through lots of rough times in my life even in the past and I’m so grateful to have support on here and to have a outlet for my passion. Even if I only get one like or one reblog or one nice comment, even that has meant a lot to me. I just love to document all these amazing lost memories and things that still to this day make me so happy so I never forget, hopefully u can all remember with me. They make me so happy and If I can spark that joy in just one person too, hell even if it’s just me, I feel like that’s good enough. Lol

#been scared to post about this but least helps make me feel little better #even if no one reads #personal #me

[spookyserenades]

I’m not much of a commenter (which is super hypocritical since receiving comments is my kryptonite lol), but I just felt like I needed to. I cannot describe how much I enjoy your work; I’m absolutely floored by the sheer word counts you dash out so consistently. Nothing ever feels choppy, and the scenes flow nicely into each other! Your funny moments are funny, your sad ones are crushing, and everything else in between is iconic.

I guess I was wondering just how you manage to stay so consistent? I write chapters that usually range between 13-17k myself, but I can’t seem to stick with a consistent updating schedule. How often do you write? Do you sit down daily and write just a little, or do you sit down occasionally but manage a few k each time?

Also, I cannot stress this enough how natural everyone’s relationship in Trouvaille is. I feel like it’s realistic that none of the boys would be immediately too keen with the mc but that they also wouldn’t stay distant forever? It felt special being able to gradually read about their developments, and I feel like once the mc gets with more of the boys eventually, it’ll be so rewarding? Idk, but I just cannot wait. The latest chapter ending scene with Jin has me so on edge; I can sense the angst from here—

Regardless, (and sorry for my rambling) I love your work!

—M

Hellooo love! I'm so happy to hear from you, thank you fro reading Trouvaille and sending me some love, I'm glad to have you here 🥺💕

Thank you for your sincere compliments, too 😭❤️ I haven't had someone mention the length of the chapters in a while-- they're big bois!! The last two chapters have been a bit shorter, but sometimes you say all that you need to without necessarily hitting the original wc estimate. I'm so happy to hear that the flow is smooth, and that you're enjoying the humorous moments (loveeee sneaking in things my mom have said before, her one-liners kill!) and I'm eeeeee you're too sweet thank you thank you 😭💕

As for consistency! I love this question, because I might have pulled the wool over your eyes. I started writing Trouvaille summer of 2022, and wrote up to Chapter 6 before I ever began posting on Tumblr. Between July 2022 - July 2023 I had chapters on "reserve" so really I'd just edit them before posting them.... Now, not so much the case. I write each chapter (since 8) each month, which admittedly can be a bit stressful, but it honestly forces me to write consistently and constantly. I think that can be a potentially good thing for writers who struggle to actually put pen to paper, having a "deadline" monthly, but every writer is different!

Additionally, I'm not the best person to ask about writing schedules,,, unfortunately I am a procrastinator so OFTEN I binge-write for hours on end. I recommend setting aside an hour or two a day to write if time allows you to do so, rather than type nonstop for 8 hours the day before an update LMAO!! I definitely want to become the writer that does bit by bit every day to cut down on the stress. I also want to say that once I stopped pressuring myself to make EVERY update 20k+words, things flowed a little more easily. It's better to have a shorter update that's concise and has everything you want to say, rather than bulking it up with filler.

Thank you so so much for loving all of the character's relationships so far, too 🥺 I know slow burn isn't for everyone, but it always felt more natural for me to write the hybrids as slow-to-trust, considering the world they live in in Trouvaille. I agree with you, when everyone starts to grow closer and closer over time, the sweet moments will seem even sweeter after all of the angst and growing 💕

Thank you again for reading, M, and I'm sending you so much love (and energy to keep on writing!!)

#trouvaille #m #asks #dana's thoughts

[medi-melancholy]

end of year thoughts, mostly about art stuff

so much of what i drew this past year was just like, oc designs or sketches, nothing i could categorize as my usual “finished art”, but now i’m wondering if i should maybe start posting all that kind of stuff because like. well. any art is art

i guess i just still get self-conscious about the majority of my art being concept sketches + designs, mostly for original stuff, because that isn’t what grabs attention or makes money, even if it’s what i’m most passionate about and what i personally feel i’m best at :’)

i’ve grown more comfortable almost always only sharing that art personally among friends because at least then i know i’ll hear a response or feedback, especially, again, with original stuff. i post the same art here or on twitter and it’s like 15 likes total combined so. lmao. a bit demoralizing if there’s no actual interest there

with how my physical health has destabilized in some ways, getting back into posting what i draw is going to take a lot of motivation, because i put effort in to even just sit at my desk for a few hours, to use my hands, to keep my eyes on a screen, and getting very little acknowledgment when i do post what i’ve worked on is ehhhhh

on the one hand, it feels nice to not have to stress about not posting much, because i don’t have a good idea of how many people actually care or enjoy my art, i guess. i have no clue what my follower count does besides Exist because i can easily name the same few people who engage with my art without fail, and i’m eternally grateful for them. i can only assume most of the hundreds just left tumblr over the years. that’s fair, i’ve been here for nearly 10 years now lol

on the other, it’s tough to feel seen or successful without a proper or widespread platform. if i did more fanart, specifically fanart for popular stuff, that gets attention, but no one would stick around if i didn’t keep drawing for the same things. and that doesn’t feel true to who i am at all, and an unhappy existence isn’t a sustainable one

i know one solution to more engagement is simply to post more often, which leads me back to the question of, do i just want to post everything that i do draw, regardless of if i think it’s good or bad, regardless of how ‘finished’ or ‘clean’ it is? posting more = drawing more, though, and that isn’t always possible for me. disability’s a bitch! bad luck and unpredictability are bigger bitches

i’m excited to get back to drawing, because i am at my core an artist, and if i stop creating things one way or another, i wouldn’t really be myself, i at the very least wouldn’t be happy. having to take months and months away from drawing because of the fucking conga line of illness and health complications and being busy has been tough, and it’s made me think a lot

i guess i’m working on figuring myself and what i want to do out in some new ways, and that’s ok. i’m just happy to be alive, you know? it wasn’t a bad year for me, or a particularly challenging one. i think it flew by, actually, which i think is great. it was a good time. i hurt a lot, and cried a lot, i was sick a lot a lot a lot, and bad things did happen, but that’s ok. i’m still here. thank you for being here, too, friend. ❤

#like if you read if that's ok. not in like the 'need to see the range of attention caught' kinda way but like #just checking that it's been seen i guess? if that makes sense #and if you have any thoughts or feedback that is cool too! #had some healthy cries and talks today and i'm just lettin my mind air out and befriend the thoughts or let them pass if needed

[flowersarefreetherapy]

15 Questions, 15 Mutuals

Thank you @soheavyaburden for the tag!

1. Are you named for anyone?: Yeah, I actually am! I’m named after a person who was murdered in Rome during the reign of Nero (I think he was the one ruling during that time …. Now I’m second guessing that)

2. When was the last time you cried?: what is this! I have been tricked into attending therapy! Lol, anyway, it was a few weeks ago, when I attended a wedding. It was sweet and sentimental and very fun to attend (and then I realized a whole lot of things, starting with dresses and I are not friends)

3. Do you have kids?: Nopey nope nope nope. Perhaps at some point on the future I would like to, but kids and I don’t usually click, so who knows

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?: no, no, totally not at all. No clue why anyone would even ask this, not at all.

5. What’s the first thing you notice about people?: usually their sense of style. I’ve never been able to really get/understand that, so when I see someone, I’m usually drawn to what they wear

6. What’s your eye color?: Dark brown!

7. Scary movies or happy endings?: Happy endings all the way. Scary movies and I don’t click (though if the storyline is good enough, I will forgive the suspense). But I want to know that the characters are going to have a happy ending, that their world (and mine) isn’t hopeless, that there is always and hope, no matter how dark the night has become. Yeah, call me sappy, but happy endings all the way (or endings that make sense for a character and completes their arc)

8. Any special talents?: I can lick my nose with my tongue, if that counts???

9. Where were you born?: Mitten state!

10. What are your hobbies?: I’m still counting reading as a hobby, since middle school me would combust if I didn’t. Writing is also a big hobby and a weird form of stress relief that I absolutely love. I occasionally will pick sewing back up again, but it’s mainly reading and writing as hobbies. Though I did have a fun period where archery was a hobby and I did that nonstop

11. Have you any pets?: I do! A golden retriever named Guinevere whom I love dearly and who makes it her mission to get dirt and blond fuzz on every single pair of pants I own.

12. What sports do you play/have played?: absolutely none. I was a bookworm through and through as a child (though there was a period when I begged my parents to let me play softball. It didn’t happen)

13. How tall are you?: 5 feet, 2 inches. Yes, I am short. Yes, I will steal your kneecaps if you mention it

14. Favorite subject in school?: History!!!! It has been my favorite subject since elementary school and is now my minor! I love love love it and if you get me started, I can and will talk for hours about it. Now that I know the fancy words to explain it better, I tell people I study social history with a focus on 18th century revolutions (fancy words!)

15. Dream job?: Okay, so I have a few. So I kinda am going for a degree in my dream job, which is cool and something I never thought I would get, but aside from that, I would love to be a reenactor. Seriously, if I could just wear an 18th century soldier’s uniform and tell people about that time or act out battles and all while doing it in character, I would be happy for life

Okay, tagging people, alright! (If you’ve already been tagged, I’m sorry) @blood-is-compulsory @whump-for-all-and-all-for-whump @whumpinggrounds @whumpcereal @eatyourdamnpears @forthetaintedsorrow-whump @winedark-whump @lonewhumper @hold-him-down @justplainwhump @straight-to-the-pain @thoughtsonhurtandcomfort @boxboysandotherwhump and @darkthingshappen!

#tag game #marz actually talks

[stinkyme]

I’m good, today was good despite work being a mess towards the end of the day. I work for a print company and our printer for posters and blueprints ran out of in an hour and a half before closing and we didn’t have any more in the entire building right as 3 people came in with massive walk in orders, luckily they were all pretty nice about it when I explained why I couldn’t help them. I got an awful headache dealing with that though so when I got home I laid down for a short nap and accidentally slept for 5 hours and now it’s almost midnight lol. How are you though?

I am really sorry to hear that happened and I can only imagine how stressed you were, but I am glad that people were nice and understanding about it (if they weren't we finna pull up hehe) but!! I am really glad they were nice and didn't blame you or went ballistic how people usually end up being. I am sorry about your headache as well but I am happy you had a short nap of 5 hours :D You deserve all the rest and your body obviously needed it so I am really glad to hear you are taking care of yourself and I hope headache is gone today and that your day will go smoothly without any issues! Remember to take breaks and hydrate, have some snacks and take care of yourself as well :) <3

I am doing good, I have some requests to work on so I will probably write most of the day unless my brain decides to become poopy and distract me lol, but we rolling :D

Also, I saw you are interested in biology! So I was wondering what are you currently studying or what is your favorite type of biology? :D <3

#stinkyanswers #my sweet death <3 #i really hope your day goes amazing today!! with no stresses or troubles whatsoever :) #remember to take care of yourself!! <3

[caulo]

@watchingforcomets

not to advertize the  hyperfixation that consumed my life, but they've been adapting the game a lot over the past few years! they're slowly making all of the dungeons soloable (they have the main A Realm Reborn story done, and some of the later dungeons), and they've been adjusting quests in the early story to make it tighter paced and less of a slog. i've heard good things about it! if it's the gameplay you aren't into though, can't help with that sgjfkhsglsh. but maybe watching a movie would work! tho honestly... especially in the early story, ESPECIALLY with the english dub, cutscenes Aren't All That Great, and imo most of the impact of the game comes from like. getting invested in your little character - tho that's my personal take and i have friends who are just happy not caring about their toon.

but yeah, early english dub is.... rough. like, made me really really dislike a good few characters, because the acting was just... bad? i heard japanese is better tho! and there's a lot of fetch quests. but they've been tightened up. but yeah, the later story (from the first expansion on)... well, i have way too many hours on this game over the past three years. obviously i'm INTO it lmao. but if it isn't for you... that's fine too!!

my last attempt to get into ffxiv was summer of last year, so i think i was already playing when a lot of those changes were going through!

i believe i made it to post-heavensward, so i was definitely past the slog of ARR that a lot of people warned me about. unfortunately, given how far into the content i’ve gotten, i’m inclined to believe this it is simply a ‘not for me’ situation.

cut for rambling, if you’d like to read my long thoughts on it. but the tldr; the game has never hooked me for a number of reasons, but it’s hard to say if ‘stress from subscription fees’ isn’t the only one that really matters.

when i said that i can believe there’s a compelling story to invest into if you’re not distracted by everything else, the main ‘distracting’ things for me are:

1. the paid sub is unavoidably the largest issue for me, because i’d play the game just to craft and hang out with friends otherwise lol ( i love fishing in the game dkjalfj ). it’s a constant stressor and source of anxiety, where i feel like i need to be playing and getting the most out of the game, all the time, or i am wasting not only that month’s sub fee, but the money i’ve already paid before. this makes me feel like i’m wasting time if i’m not getting a fulfilling experience, which leads to me rushing through in an effort to find something worth investing in, which is a self-fulfilling prophecy of sorts when the main selling point of the game is its story. i can’t really enjoy the pay off of long-term storytelling when i feel compelled to rush through the slower parts. so i’m basically constantly being pulled out of the world by this real-life factor.

2. that said.... i feel like the storytelling is regularly in conflict with its medium, as the flow of gameplay, cutscenes, and ‘cutscenes’ ( as in, events where you are clicking through people’s dialogue ) is very messy. i don’t mind the voice acting .....usually. but pacing and tension gets cut a lot by the way the game is constantly stopping for long periods of time to give you information. and while i have plenty of ideas of how that could maybe be improved on, i actually think this it is something that i could embrace easily enough if not for point #4, because i have enjoyed plenty of games that.... we’ll say struggle with the concept of being an ‘interactive storytelling medium’ lol.

3. i just don’t like the game balance. i don’t mind the gameplay itself - actionbar games aren’t my favorite, but i can enjoy them - and i don’t have a problem with the MMO holy trinity. but i am a support player in games like these, and ffxiv’s healing classes are..... not interesting or satisfying to play to me in that specific vein, because it feels like they kind of didn’t bother making them interesting in a supportive style, by just opting to make healers hybrid damage dealers instead. when i learned that, even playing a white mage, i’m responsible for a considerable amount of DPS in dungeons/raids, my interest in that entire aspect of the game died pretty much on the spot because that’s not...... what i play a healer for lsdkjflk

which isn’t to say i’m against min/maxing or anything. if there’s no supporting to be done in a moment, it makes sense to do damage, but the gameplay loop of even the most supportiest-of-support classes + the fights themselves in ffxiv are designed with too much expectation of focusing on DPS for my liking. and obviously the single player PVE is nothing special. SO, being unable to invest in the story, i find myself also unable to look forward to the gameplay content that unlocks from progressing.

4. is just that the all of the above are in one game. i’m inclined to believe i could enjoy ffxiv if i only felt two of the three points. because i enjoyed WoW ( which also has #1 and #2 ), and i enjoyed Guild Wars 2 ( which has #3 sortakinda in the sense that ‘everybody can do everything’ to such an extent that, at least last time i played, your choice of play style felt very impact-less in dungeons ).

as is, i entered the game excited for some of the late game content i’ve seen videos of, but lost that excitement when i realized there wasn’t a job with a playstyle i’d enjoy while doing that content. and i had a roleplay blog for ysayle, because i was invested in her character/writing with some friends . . . and then i accidentally skipped her death cutscene because i had so little patience for the game’s actual methods of storytelling at that point LOL

i could, maybe, try approaching the game with more investment in my player character, but i don’t think that would work for me very well. i’ve never found much to enjoy about how MMOs approach your player character’s ‘special-ness’. even when i was playing with the most patience for trying to embrace the game and taking everything at face value, seeing my ‘warrior of light’ as anything more than a filler character for things to happen to/experience the story through wasn’t something i experienced.

but it seems like #1 is the point that’s most likely to maybe change for me one day. it’s basically the opposite situation of how i’ve learned to unstuck myself from predatory mobile games LOL. every now and then when i’m playing a game with in-app purchases, i ask myself ‘if i had infinite money to put towards it, would i still enjoy anything about this game?’ and if not, then chances are i’m not playing out of enjoyment of the game itself. but with ffxiv, if i had infinite money to put towards it, i’d just enjoy trying all the features of the game without stressing about the subscription service skjfldf

if i’m ever in a financial situation where i feel like i can throw $10 a month at something and not feel like garbage for not wringing out every cent of that, maybe then i can give the game a more laid-back, patient approach that would allow me to get drawn into the story. and happily grind away at crafting alongside it LOL

#watchingforcomets #annoying high pitch ringing in your ears #the only thing i have a subscription for ( unless you count like ...... bills LOL ) is discord nitro #which i value for the practical purpose of sending files and all the 'fun' stuff is just a side bonus #i can very easily fall victim to individual micro-transactions but subscription fees send my anxiety into overdrive #so if i could trick myself into seeing ffxiv's monthly sub as just $10 to get a thing #rather than paying $10 to start a timer then maybe. . ... .... #OH wait i forgot i do have one other sub - i pay for the switch family plan thing for myself and my friend group once a year haha

[loverockawaitsyou]

rules: answer the questions and tag fifteen mutuals

Thanks for the tag @jjmichie! I am under @cinemasoloist too and here!

1. are you named after anyone?

Yes! My grandma! 

2. when was the last time you cried?

I was really stressed out about a multitude of things, plus it was that time of the month.

3. do you have kids?

LOL, no.

4. do you use sarcasm a lot?

Not really. I am usually straight up.

5. what’s the first thing you notice about people?

Same as @jjmichie. I can pick up on vibes pretty quickly.

6. what’s your eye colour?

Brown

7. scary movies or happy endings?

Happy endings

8. any special talents?

Writing, drawing and graphic design. I’m actually a pretty decent cook! No longer important, but I could run a two-lane drive-thru by myself during rush hour when I worked in fast food.

9. where were you born?

Savannah, Georgia

10. what are your hobbies?

Finding new restaurants, tarot, writing, reading, thrift shopping and hunting for rock memorabilia, photography.

11. have you any pets?

Technically no, but one of my housemates owns a pet that I occasionally help take care of.

12. what sports do you play/have played?

Many moons ago I was a cheerleader, and briefly played football.

13. how tall are you?

5′0″ even.

14. favourite subject in school?

I loved French! My teacher was the coolest. 

15. dream job?

I don’t mind my job too much (I’m a freelance writer and editor), but I would love to have more of a steady income so that I can travel more and enjoy more luxuries in life. It’s great that I do get to work from home though.

Open tag! I know most of who I’d like to tag has already been tagged, but would love to see more answers!

[gothmikasagf]

hello :) could you please give me a matchup for stranger things? thank u so much!! <3

i’m an unlabelled female (she/her) so i wouldn’t mind either a male or female to be matched with!

physical: i’m probably about 5’1 and i have a slim build. my skin is really quite pale and i have a bunch of freckles on my cheeks and nose. my hair is wavy, dark brown and it falls to my waist. i’ve got notably big eyes (as i’ve been told lol). one of my eyes is green and the other is brown- i have heterochromia. i have full, pink lips and my cheeks are usually kinda rosy too! a lot of the time i’ll wear flowy, floral dresses but i love dark toned turtlenecks, baggy jeans and slightly oversized t-shirts. also i’m literally always wearing my super beat up black converse, lolol. i have a lot of piercings in my ears and i wear glasses most of the time (and i apparently suit them?)

personality: i’m honestly painfully shy most of the time. i won’t really speak unless i’m spoken to and a lot of the time i get super embarrassed to speak to new people or in public (especially in class). when i get close to people, however, i can get super hyper and comfortable in expressing myself. i’m really sarcastic and i love making my friends laugh. i’ve always got really good grades my entire life so i guess i would say i’m smart and academic. i can be a little sensitive and insecure sometimes, but i would never call someone out on hurting my feelings (unfortunately!) i spend most of my time with my pets!! i honestly adore animals and i’ve been told about how gentle i am with them many times.

hobbies: any chance i get, i’ll be sitting at the windowsill reading some sort of classic with a cup of coffee (coffee is my weakness.) i also really adore writing stories of my own, and i actually am working on a novel currently (murder mystery- my fav genre!) i love drawing and any type of art, i have a bunch of little sketchbooks just full of silly drawings. i’ve been into photography since i was around six years old, thanks to my dad, and i loooove taking candid photos of my friends! one thing people would say about me is that i’m ALWAYS listening to music- and i’m not exaggerating! i can never be without my headphones on my ears. my favourite bands are joy division, the cure, the smiths, the bangles, talking heads, the police, the clash, new order, pixies and my favourite singers are bowie & kate bush!

soooo i think that’s sort of it?? thank u soooo much!! <3

I match you with...

Nancy Wheeler!

She has read about heterochromia before but are actually the first person she meets with this condition. She could stare into your eyes for hours, she thinks they're just so pretty and unique.

If you're too shy to talk in public she's the one who takes the reins, for example she has your orders memorized so she can be the one to speak.

She really likes someone that can make her laugh, she usually needs it especially when she gets stressed about school or work.

If someone hurts your feelings she goes into protective mode, no one hurts her loved ones!

She knew she fell in love with you after she saw you with your pets for the first time.

When you have some free time, your favorite activity to do together is sitting by the windowstill reading a book.

If you feel comfortable showing her your writings she's so happy and can give you pointers if needed.

She's also your biggest supporter. She loves all of your hobbies and is really proud of you. She hopes you can be proud of her just as much she is of you.

She takes any music reccomendation you give her because she trusts your music taste.

I hope you enjoyed it!

#nancy wheeler x you #nancy wheeler x reader #matchups #stranger things x reader

[gyllenhaalstories]

any tips on how to be kind to myself????

hi hello! my sweet precious anon, you have come to the wrong person for this 🥲 i am the president of the self loathing club and i unfortunately don't know how to escape the trap i trapped myself into with this (okay to be fair, i didn't fully trapped myself in this infernal cycle of self hate, you know, some things definitely contributed to it lol, but... yeah). so, let's figure this out together, shall we? again, i'm putting this under a read more just to be safe!

i want to say i’m not into meditation, affirmations, that kind of things is not for me. i’m absolutely pessimistic and negative, and painfully self-aware, so standing in front of the mirror and like pretending to believe something positive i would say to myself does not work. if it does for you, then that’s good!!!! it’s just not for me. i’m gonna share tips that i do, they’re small, pretty irrelevant if i’m being completely honest, but small baby steps are good. and small baby steps is all i can manage.

i sound like a broken record with the number of times i have suggested this to people... BUT DO THINGS YOU LOVE. THINGS THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY, DO THEM, OVER AND OVER AGAIN WHO FUCKING CARES.

and if very few things make you happy lately, think back of what worked. maybe you need to discover them again. watch that movie you haven’t seen for years, that movie you know makes you cry but fills you with familiar feelings of melancholy and longing for something good (not to be a jake fangirl during this very serious topic, but i watch love & other drugs, it makes me cry without fail, but it’s one of those movies that i enjoy the pain that comes with them). that video you watched on youtube an absurd amount of time, whether it’s a compilation of animal content, an old youtuber you don’t follow anymore, or me with my same 3 sims videos by lilsimsie, watch them. songs, maybe they’re cringy at this point, but go break your eardrums with never gonna give you up for three hours! i did it a few nights ago, i still hate myself but i had a blast! get crafty even if it looks ugly, start a book even if you’ll read ten pages, wear a hoodie you like a lot even if it’s all worn out, go hug a plushie that used to be your best friend back in the day. do more of what YOU love. 

retail therapy lol <3

all my money comes from student loans i will have to pay back to the government but i don’t care i can and i will spend 100$ on squishmallows and puzzles and crap from the dollar store and too many packs of cookies they go soft in the box before i even open it. waiting for that great big source of joy is disappointing and paralyzing. you’re just... you’re just stuck. you want something good to happen, you want to deserve it. you want to feel like you deserve it. that’s hard, still haven’t figured out how to realize i deserve good stuff, but i sure do deserve this questionable looking plushie! get you something that makes you happy right here and now. a slushie, chocolate, a shirt, whatever it is. if you can afford it or work your way around it to make a small dent in your budget, then get it. toys don’t have age limits. food don’t need to be earned. new or old hobbies don’t need big celebratory times to be celebrated. YOU deserve to be celebrated and YOU deserve to gift yourself things that make you happy.

you can try making a list of the things you do and you catch yourself feeling proud!

or you can tell someone, if you have someone to tell of course and it’s okay not to have a big entourage (we’d be on the same boat if that’s the case for you too!). if you’re like me and go to bed late and sleep until very late too but you woke up five minutes earlier than what you do usually and got a little closer to your goal? BIG VICTORY. did you do a phone call or survive an appointment you were stressing about? BIG VICTORY. did you make food on a day you did not feel like eating much or were too clumsy to stand in the kitchen and do all those dangerous tasks? BIG VICTORY. did you stand up and see something pretty outside? what a funny coincidence, also BIG VICTORY. again, i bring back the waiting for big things to happen. i’m very much like that, waiting for a wind of change to sweep me off my feet and it makes it impossible to see the smaller stuff. take photos, write it in the notes app, make an empty blog on tumblr where you dump all of this, a private instagram for just you, discord, whatever the cool kids use. if you don’t have people to celebrate those victories with, then be that person for yourself.

be. fucking. selfish.

i don’t know if you’re like me, anon, i create whole new levels of people pleasing, i try to bend myself in all the directions for everyone else, but when it comes to me? i don’t have any of that energy left. so, sometimes, allow yourself to be selfish. feel that guilt that comes with being programmed to believe you don’t deserve the same good things you give to others. stand up to yourself when someone cross your limits or hurt you. use your voice. set new boundaries. don’t answer your messages if you know it will drain you of precious energy you need to save for yourself. make time for yourself. feel your feelings. think your thoughts. sometimes letting the wave of negative feelings hit is easier than constantly fighting against it. so ride it, let it submerge you until you’re on the other side and you can catch a break. show the patience and care you have for everyone else, but show it to yourself. if your loved ones told you they didn’t feel good today, you’d be there for them, right? then be there for yourself when you realize you feel bad.

being there for yourself. protecting yourself. making yourself happy. celebrating yourself. even for just an hour or two, even for just a moment during the day, week, or month. if you can manage to show a similar level of care and patience and affection you others, that’s being kind to yourself. pay attention to you and your thoughts and your feelings and your interests the same way you do it for other people. a while back i saw this reel on instagram of this girl being like “you’ll always be your friend, you’ll always have to be there for yourself” and? unfortunately so that’s true, as much as i hate myself with a burning passion, i’m the only one who’s going to stick through thick and thin and sometimes it’s gonna be hard as fuck and i will sabotage everything i do, other times i will have the strength to be kind to myself. i’m not saying this is easy. if anything, i am the living proof this is one of the hardest things ever. but if i can do it, so can you. baby steps, remember? there can be giant dinosaur steps too! but all steps are good, even the ones backwards.

 if you can have all the kindness in the world for others, you need to try and save a little of it for yourself. let’s try together, yeah? 💖💖💖💖

#anonymous

[growthpeacelove]

At an improv - strange day overall

Dubai plans are cancelled and I need to cancel my ticket to Dubai. Dad doesn’t approve and honestly I’m over it all. All this stress didn’t go to complete waste bc I did tell my mom the truth. About the 15 that is left. I’m at an improv show right now and trying to make sure I actually focus. I didn’t know I would be coming to an improv show bc I was told maybe like an hour ago. Don’t really appreciate that but it’s fine bc I got my fave cheese and pita bread from the middle eastern store. Dad said he will help me w taxes but I don’t necessary believe him anytime soon. I didn’t go home today. I need a break. Ramadan has been very hard to be honest. I tried to fast yesterday and I couldn’t do it. I was also awake for hours and didn’t prep ahead of time. It’s an anxiety driven time as usual. I made pasta today and ate most of it while I made it lol

Mom wants to help me calculate everything and today we did argue about how I am sensitive and I’m like don’t say mean things to me and I won’t be so sensitive. I did shut down the idea of me coming home.

In fun news! Today I met w my new friend in the building and I gave her all the sales advice that I could! We have coffee and I had a cookie and I gave her as much info as I could. I can’t wait to cowork and see how else I can help her. Man it feels to to put all this knowledge to use! InshAllah inshAllah InshAllah everything continues to work out. Now without Dubai in the mix I could enjoy April and actually be home for the time. My mom has to tell her business partner and I told her I followed her on all of this and I hope we can trust this person.

Everything will be all right! I know it will. It’s just been a strange day! Can’t wait to be done w this month and just reset and relax before my new job!!!!! AlhamdilAllah !!!!!

I have an in person final interview for major company and I’m happy that I can just get the practice!!!

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Review of the making of the map by fox_pitch

I'm new to marauders, this is the second fic I've read.

Summary: I liked this fic, a lot. It was a fun read and I really liked the progression of both Wolfstar and James/Lili (is it Jilly? I can’t remember). A bit less angsty than what I usually read and some parts felt underbaked, but the author kept my attention INCREDIBLY. I stayed up about four hours later than I usually do binge reading this. Very good.

SPOILERS BELOW BEWARE BEWARE

Since chapters are shorter ill do bigger recaps infrequently throughout, but still little chapter notes

Chapter one

YES THEY’RE NOT GAY YET

Cannot wait to see this unfold <3333

Aw they’re so cute, definitely a wolf star focus

I hope this goes through seventh year so I can see James and lily play out

Chapter two

Why did I not process its the first day of term thats wild and crazy

Ok so lily still is buddies with Snape which tracks timeline wise I guess

Do they pants him at the end of the fifth or sixth year I can’t remember

I am confused on the lily dynamic tbh what does she think of the group

Chapter three

This one kinda ate, im liking the short chapters I get more invested in each part of the story

Obviously I know they’re not just gonna kill off Peter, but him dying in the shack did cross my mind

I wonder when lupin gets the potion stuff

Chapter four

MURDER MYSTORY??? HOW FUN

I hope remus gets over himself soon how was Sirius supposed to know how intense the situation was bruh

Blanket statement that I apologize for all shitty teenage boy behavior they need to chill

Chapter five

Calling him inbred is hilarious Im liking remus’s pov

Hes gay James stop

Literally he’s gonna go be ur wingman be happy

Good chapter very chill

RECAP FIRST FIVE CHAPTERS

I like the silliness thats been in this so far. I am NOT liking that remus and Sirius aren’t talking to each other. Is it a narrative device? Absolutely. But I despise it so much.

I think Sirius’ characterization is very good so far, I’m surprised they haven’t fleshed out the Regulus stuff more yet. Hopefully will get his pov soon

God I hope this is a save reggie fic cmon

I really hope this passage is the one to honey dukes.

Im sure the plots about to pick up more since they’re actually making the map

Chapter six

If I was lily I would’ve folded so fucking fast bruh

Like I know he’s annoying but like he’s cute, and likes her so much, and is clearly like progressive what is the problem

Anyway, sirius needs to chill if he wants to be gay

Chapter seven

Closet time closet time its time to be emotional in the closetttt

Calling him a cat is funny

Sirius is my fave because he’s also like a fixer upper with issues but he’s not EVILL he just has trauma

And he actually wants to be the best version of himself yk (unlike some dumb ass fucking bitches I know)

Chapter eight

SHE DID NOT JUST CRUCIO HIM

Cradling his head

Sirius licking him

God can marlene just fucking kill herself please

Chapter nine

Honestly there is no world in which I wouldnt feel awkward with my friends jokingly offering to kiss me as a form of like emotional comfort like thats not normal

Like my best friend gave me a big hug after I broke up with my ex she’s not gonna go “oh haha idk what else to do other than make out with you lol lol.” Sirius what the fuck

Anyway I love to see the lily and James bonding but I can tell it makes remus feel lonelier

Wonder if we’re gonna get Peter development at all

Chapter ten

I dont even want to write uodates anymore because im liking the fic too much

Hes so stressed abt being gay I thought he already knew he was gay bruh Sirius is clueless obvi

Chapter 11

JUMPSCARE FANART BAD BAD FANART ITS TERRIBLE

Love how the maps coming together

This is not going over well with Sirius im sure

12

Ok so bed making out

Im so fucking horny I need to make out with someone STAT

Preferably someone with a penis bc it confirms they like me but tbh I don’t give a shit

Its 1:12 am

So it did go over well with Sirius. I expected some internalized homophobia or something but he’s actually being chill for once

OKAYYYYYYY RECAP TO CHAPTER TWENTY ONE 💋💋💋

so i got so engrossed in the story that i forgot to write my chapter notes

but so far i feel fantastic about it

LOVE LILY AND JAMES' DYNAMIC ITS SO GOOD

the regulus thing is making me want to kms. i have like no hope for reg redemption bc the fic isn't long enough, and i feel like all that happens will be the murder mystery and MAYBE gay shit

sirius was SO STUPID with marlene like clearly remus has some issues with being open and you need to like discuss,, not make out with some other bitch

also them both being bi is not what i expected? feel like remus should be gay

peters character is... interesting. why are they friends with him. also he has bo gryffy qualities wtf.

Recap AGAIN but not done yet

Ok, the wormhole shit is interesting. Poor elves.

I wonder what happened to them, is this the in between place or whatever?

They’re being too romantic on the battlefield you gotta lock in guys

Also I thought an avada grazing you killed you no matter what

Also Sirius fully used crucio and nobody like cared other than remus. Like no commentary

WHERE’S JAMES BRUH

Hilarious. Peak comedy. Coming back to life and IMMEDIATELY kissing Lily. Her being grossed out. Literally perfect.

Ok the introduction of the OOTP, seems good.

Honestly really like what I’ve seen in the fic, but it’s a bit TOO silly for my tastes. I need more angst.

Like obviously I want Remus and Sirius to be openly gay and in love but it was too easy in this fic, like with Destiel its always SUCH an issue lmao.

TOTAL RECAP:

I liked this fic, a lot. It was a fun read and I really liked the progression of both Wolfstar and James/Lili (is it Jilly? I can’t remember)

I do feel like it was a little too light at times, there wasn’t a whole lot of grey area morally, and a lot of big issues weren’t fully fleshed out. I wish they’d dived into Regulus more, and Snape. I wish they’d addressed Sirius’ use of the Cruiciatus curse, and I wish they’d address Dumbledores failings more directly

Werewolf shit was fantastic to read, the angst, the fear, the violence, the drama. I thought the transformations were excellently done and I really enjoyed the progression of them figuring out the roaming/playing

Hogsmeade passage shut off? Strange.

I did not enjoy that I cannot be sure they are safe. That’s a benefit of post-hog warts fic, if its truly marauders James and Lily often don’t die.

Overall very happy fic. I did love the aggressive use of drunkness as a plot device, I liked Lily’s characterization for the most part, and it was pretty addicting in the middle.

I thought Characterization was good, not fantastic but definitely good. Peter threw me, not very likable. It’s hard to do him correctly and have him add worth to the story, but I just did not like him the whole time, and I felt like Remus and Sirius both didn’t care for him and found him annoying.

7.5/10 <3

My rankings are not supposed to be biased. Horrible shitty fic would get like a one, something readable but bad would get a fourish. Most fics that I read will be around 7-9 simply because I sort by Kudos and get recs from misuss so they’re better quality to begin with.

Great light silly read, with just enough depth to keep it interesting. I could see myself re-reading this fic once I get to know the marauders better.

Also, I do not like the fanart in this fic but I'm sure that's not universal. The artist is credited within the fic but I'd like to tag them here just to acknoledge the hard work that went into it. I checked them out and ADORE some of their other work, this one was just not to my liking. They have some percy jackson shit up that EATS.

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