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thepavementsings · 3 months

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There’s something about the way people reunite at a train station that is so precious to me

#Im just watching as people get off in this small town #just saw two girls run at each other full speed and fully knock a suitcase over in the process #a man with his umbrella over himself and his dog both patiently waiting in the rain #and an old man slowly pacing the sidewalk waiting for his daughter and grandson #about to see my best friend for the first time in a year and a half and feeling sentimental sksksksk #I’m gonna cry as soon as I see her and she’s gonna hate me for it lmao I can’t wait

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goldensunset · 2 years

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maybe for YOU

#yes i’m being torn apart by wild animals on the daily as part of my job #yes i’m gonna dress up and look cute #sucks to be you i guess. survey corps gang 💪#i get tons of money every day for doing menial tasks and only occasionally falling down a mountainside #peach plays legends arceus #on a real note i understand this sentiment #i imagine the clothing shop and hairstylist aren’t super popular places unless you’re already very well off in jubilife #just because people are worried about their security and whether they’ll have enough food to eat etc #stuff like that is a luxury for them that they can only treat themselves to once in a while #maybe they somewhat resent anthe and arezu for what they represent (a life of fun and luxury they can’t afford)

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bpdohwhatajoy · 7 months

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If you need a sign that it gets better here it is.

I sincerely mean this. You have to understand where I’m coming from. I’m mentally ill and traumatized and I’ve been like this for most of my life. So much of my life has been bad day after bad day. When people would tell me shit got better I’d get mad. I would get mad over the word happy because I thought the capacity to be happy had been removed from my brain. I didn’t think it was possible. I genuinely thought I would never get better and I believed it to my core. If you put a gun to my head and said to believe it I would’ve gotten shot that’s how intent I was on this. But if it could happen to me it can absolutely happen to you and it’s never too late for things to get better.

This doesn’t mean things will never be sucky. Of course they will. That’s life. But fuck. I used to have mental breakdowns constantly. I would be in abusive relationships that tore me apart. I lived in so much fear. I was so sick with anxiety. I would tolerate mistreatment from partners and friends and even people I hardly knew. I’d people please to no end. I’d overextend and be everyone’s therapist meanwhile I was drowning with no one to help me. I couldn’t set a single boundary without immediately feeling immense guilt and retracting whatever it was. I let everyone’s opinions on me inform me on who I was. I couldn’t cut anyone off or leave. I’d tolerate so so so much discomfort for the prospect of “love” that was actually abuse. I let things destroy me. I put myself last just like my abusers did. I didn’t stand up for myself. I’d ruminate on my past constantly. I couldn’t let anything go. I read old messages from shitty people like it was my morning news. I was so incredibly hopeless and alone. In all honesty I thought my last abusive relationship would be the end of me. I didn’t think I would survive it or the aftermath when that hit.

But it snapped something in me. That and being played by someone I trusted who betrayed me and took advantage of me. After that I vowed to never again tolerate the shit I had in the past. I gradually started to learn and apply shit I hadn’t ever before. I started to stand up for myself. I started to learn how to stop overextending as much. I started to protect my peace. I started to spend time on myself rather than shitty temporary fucking awful waste of time people. I started to trust my own intuition over what my abusers tried to convince me of. I learned how to cut people off, something that for most of my life I couldn’t fathom. I started to let people have their own opinions on me and not let it ruin my day. So what if someone thinks I’m rude? So what if someone doesn’t like me? I may be more alone than I have been in years but it feels much less lonely than having a bunch of shitty people in my life who are toxic and not genuine.

I’m okay being alone if it means I have my peace, something I used to be terrified of. I’d tolerate mistreatment if it meant I wouldn’t be alone. I smile and laugh easier than I used to. I have fun. I experience joy. I see beauty in the little things like the night sky and the moon or the waves of the ocean or the feeling of fresh air on my skin. I put myself out there more and people actually like me for who I am. I don’t mask nearly as much as I used to. I embrace my interests and parts of me I used to adamantly suppress. I don’t need anyone to make me whole. I’m whole on my own. I don’t think pretending to be something I’m not so people like me is worth it anymore. I don’t let little things destroy and completely color my day anymore. I don’t constantly read old messages anymore. I actually deleted a bunch of old shit from my camera roll for the first time ever days ago.

Like I said I’m not perfect. I still have bad days. My esteem has a ways to go. I still feel dissatisfied with my life at points. My mental illnesses and trauma still act up. I struggle. But my god. My growth is genuinely incredible when I sit back and look at the big picture which I guess I haven’t really done before now. I’m excited to see what progress I make even further as I continue to grow. I’m so different than I used to be and I suppose that’s part of why I’ve lost so many people. They can’t handle me actually setting boundaries and standing up for myself. They banked on my tolerance that’s no more. You will lose (toxic) people when you start becoming healthy which is something no one told me. But it’s so worth it. It’s so worth it.

I’ve made it through so much horrific shit. So many close calls where I nearly took my life or contemplated it. Yet I got through it all and not only that but I changed for the better. I lived to see it get better. If you’re struggling to find a reason to stick around, live for the possibility that things can get better. If they can get better for me, they absolutely can for you. Live for the possibility of joy, ease, beauty, and a life you like.

I made a post on here that blew up awhile ago that said that I wished I killed myself at 15. I disagree with that sentiment. I would’ve missed out on so much growth. I would’ve died without seeing it get better. I wouldn’t have accomplished so much. I wouldn’t have made so much progress. I’m glad I didn’t die at 15. I’m glad I saw things out and I’m on the other side of that despair with a smile.

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thepostburningash · 10 days

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the longer i spend in uni, cut away from my native language and the family i grew up surrounded by, the more i realised how much i value community, to the point where i genuinely think i would put connection with others as one of my life priorities. in the end, it is those small interactions that bring me so much joy! a bit of banter with my barista, locking eyes with my priest, smiling and waving at friends passing me by, helping someone i don’t know. how are we meant to live without others when it is because of the kindness of others that we are we’re?

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skyloftian-nutcase · 10 months

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I have several love trains in my inbox lol, so I’m gonna write little baby snippets for each!

#random rambles #sometimes when I get a bunch of those I acknowledge them through one and then delete the rest #but I feel bad doing that so I’m gonna do this just this once lol #Because I can’t guarantee I can do this every time 😅#But the sentiment is very sweet ❤️#I should note that I’m just doing this for the ones that were already sent lol #Not for any new ones

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nocomforthere · 10 months

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Sometimes I’m in a momentary panic of “oh fuck I don’t wanna age” and then I remember that hell yeah I do. I wanna be one of those people who go to pride events n shit, that are old enough to be the mom to anyone there, and be giving hugs like the guys in those videos.

Tryna be a helpful little role model for the youngins, so I gotta look the part. You feel me? Need a little costume

#I must don the appropriate mortal skin #and if that appropriate skin is the flesh of a middle aged woman. I will wait #I WANNA BE THE OLD LADY THAT BAKES COOKIES FOR THE MEW NEIGHBORS :(#I wanna be so gentle and caring and understanding #it’s 1 am and I feel so sentimental but GEJSVS #STOP THE WAY IT AUTOCORRECTED RO A DIFFERENT KEYBOARD SMASH #but like. :(#lowkey can’t wait. I’m gonna be a little history teacher also so I have an excuse to bring an Aztec death whistle to class :) <33 #I’m so excited. I love possiblities #IM NOT SUPER GOAL ORIENTATED. I DONT HAVE DREAMS ONLY HOBBIES BUT LIKE.#yeah I can dream to be this. ahhhh <33 #I’M GONNA BE FOUND DEAD IN MY HOUSE WITH 5 SNAKES LOLOLOL AHHHH I GOT PLANS #this is the first time I’ve been able to imagine a future for myself. is it obvious #I’m gonna be the neatest death ever. both meanings. just wait #(NOT NOW THO I WANNA GET TO BE AN OLD LADY)#sometimes I worry abt my body deteriorating w age but I wanna run people over w my wheelchair and smack them w my cane #I wanna babysit and take the kids on a ‘walk’ (we’re just riding in my wheelchair)#pro aging #old age #aspirations #personal #lgbtqia+#lgbtq #lgbt

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musclesandhammering · 9 months

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If the Loki writers absolutely had to have an unnecessary romance baked into the plot and weren’t cowards, they would’ve paired Loki and He Who Remains together.

He could’ve made it to the Citadel at like the beginning of episode 5 and had more time to build a dynamic between just the two of them- whatever dynamic it would’ve been.

And then that would solidify Loki a major role in the Kang storyline in the main mcu, because in addition to being the one to open the multiverse (sylvie doesn’t exist in this au shh) he’d have an emotional history with the only “good” variant of him.

#also I’m imagining the two having a nice sentimental time where HWR shows loki all the different ways his life could’ve gone etc #and Loki surprises HWR by recognising his loneliness and melancholy hiding beneath the manic mask #and like yea sure HWR paved the road for Loki to get there bc he (supposedly) wanted him to takeover as time lord or whtvr #but he had no idea what would happen once loki got to his castle #all of this is new and exciting and fresh and emotional for him #it’s the first time he’s had a spontaneous interaction with anyone in literally all of time #and Loki empathises with him and feels drawn to him and tries to convince him to work out some sort of compromise #where people can have free will yet the evil Kangs don’t get released #(which is what I think he was gonna suggest to sylvie when he said ‘hang on a moment-‘ but ofc we know how that went)#but kang is tired and just wants change and for his time as ruler to be over so he refuses to compromise #and says either loki can take over as dictator or kill him and let it all loose #and we know which option loki the god of chaos would choose #I haven’t even thought this out rly I just think it had potential #loki x he who remains #loki x kang #loki x hwr #loki series #loki #kang #anti sylvie #antisylki

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blowflyfag · 5 months

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Eris! My dude!

What's a random wrestling match that you love? It doesn't have to be the best in the world or the most well known, but one that you have a soft spot for

<3 - Mitch

YES YES YES THANK YOU MITCH I HAVE A FEw.....

We already know I’m crazy about the mtn dew pitch black match so-

ok so. The RVD and John Cena ECW match is one of the few cena matches i enjoy. it's so good and fuckkkkk. the crowd plays so much into it. When Cena keeps getting his shirt thrown back to him??? INCREDIBLE!

Jeff v Matt Hardy 2009 Backlash is incredible, its an i quit match and fuck.. as a brother. when theres the brother against brother matches they do shit to me. it always impacts me.

i also have a really big soft spot for the Henry O Godwinn and Hunter Hearst Helmsley Pig Pen match... don't know why but im a big fan of it. I think cause its silly.

And all and all. the one thing i could always watch over and over again and i probably have the softest spot for is the 2001 royal rumble. While it wasn't my first piece of wrestling it was the thing that finally struck me and got me going... well i wanna see more of this actually. and here i am now so. I come back to it every now and then when i get into a slump, and it reminds me why im doing what i am now in the first place. All because of this wild fucking royal rumble match. It's special to me.

#kayfabebabe #Thank u so much mitch!!!!!!#eris speaks #sorry to get sentimental in the end lmao im just like that #I’m gonna keep this as is but I keep thinking about more matches and going fuck I love that too #I love to many matches lol

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crossbackpoke-check · 9 months

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Dude Mo seider was so turned on by those big dudes and loving feeling like a tiny delicate princess next to them.

🗣️🗣️🗣️

WELCOME TO MY THESIS

i like to call it fridge on (emotionally mini)fridge action wherein moritz seider, noted six four two hundred pound man, once described by roman josi as a “big guy”, frequently said to be giant and huge and etc etc etc by mickey redmond, is the Babiest Girl Alive. flirting and laughingly saying “oh nooo don’t get me ahaha stop” while being manhandled by several men!!! giggling uncontrollably comparing his legs to the size of other men’s arms!! making sure everybody knows how much bigger than him joe is!!! if the common theme of all these things just so happens to be making him feel small and delicate that’s just a coincidence he can’t be blamed for that, YOU’RE the one treating him like a perfect princess

#he’s emotionally a mini fridge bc. mini despite being a literal fridge of a man do we all understand the joke ok thank u for laughing 🫶#anon i’m kissing u on the mouth (with consent) btw. perfect phrase. perfect sentiment. no real notes that’s it exactly #everything about this man. everything to me.#i!!! simply think!!!!! we don’t babygirlify this man enough!!!! that’s my WIFE goddamnit!!! and i need her to get fucked nasty by big men!!!#do you know. do you know the Archive i have in my screenshots of gelinas/seider. like he Fucked That Man #it is peak big vet calling a younger guy ‘kid’ to convince himself he’s too young for him before he fucks him over a table text post vibes.#so i’m just SAYING with all the content that exists & the narrative they wrote in the literal detroit free press about each other 0 WORKS??#yes i know write the content you want to see in the world but re:every project ever. what if i can’t 🫴#liv in the replies #it is. i have it written down in SO MANY PLACES that i love joe being shorter than mo (by like. an inch lol) but mo being like ‘😳 oh my god’#‘joe you’re so BIG’ and yes this is because joey v comes back fucking RIPPED every summer & he’s a slutty lil italian boy who likes to show #off his tits. what are mo & i gonna do not look??? (joey v shirtless slutty cameo videos you are Everything to me. why did you film them)

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serostuffsmh · 8 months

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Awwww, you missed me and my bullshit?! You're so nice!

-🐎

Yeah, I fucking missed you

#I’m not gonna get sentimental but #PERHAPS #YES #admin jen asks #🐎 anon

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binders-and-beanies · 1 year

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If u tell a trans disabled person to call the cops or tell someone else to call the cops abt them u do not care abt that person’s safety

#or any marginalized group but this is in reference to me #thinking abt when a customer pulled a gun on me and i told my bf at the time abt it and rather than ‘omg are u ok’#his immediate response was to get upset w me for not calling the cops after the guy had already left #as if i could do so while he was there either like obviously he had a fucking GUN what was i supposed to do #cops would have done nothing IF I WAS LUCKY + i could have gotten in trouble at work #told my best friend at the time abt it and how my bf had gotten mad and my ‘friend’ was like actually he’s right and ur a horrible person #like it was part of what ended our friendship #neither of them acknowledged or cared that I’d just been thru smth scary. just immediate rage w no apology afterwards #not even a ‘I get that that was probably scary’ like hello?? instead of being relieved I’m safe ur gonna use it for ur cop agenda??#and then say acab online for clout??#also thinking abt when another ex for some fucking reason told her ex that i was having a depressive episode and that she was like stressed #and her ex (who has never met me) was like ‘your bf is abusive and if u don’t call the cops on him I will’#literally bc i had told her that like i was having a hard time and was going to seek help #anyways if ur like ready to jump at an opportunity to Insist on sending cops after a multiply marginalized person #then u cannot use our rights movements or anti cop sentiments to like try to get pussy #and u don’t get to claim it’s for our safety if we’re telling u explicitly cops make us feel unsafe. if the individual wants to then whatev #but if it’s a situation that affects me and not you then my consent matters and it’s a hard no #fucking anyone with education in these areas understands this! i told my psychiatrist abt these instances n why i feel unsafe w cops #and she was like ‘thank u for telling me this so that if there were ever an emergency situation involving you i would know to not do that’#WHAT A CONCEPT #now im scared to tell ppl in my life abt serious things bc i think they’ll say call the cops n then scream at me if I say no #and if I tell them these stories and they’re like ‘omg that’s awful’ LIKE A NORMAL PERSON then im like omg this person is safe <3 LOW BAR #mine #txt #gun tw #personal

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7-crows-in-a-trench-coat · 1 year

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childhood is making your older siblings/ relatives arts and crafts projects for their birthdays/ the holidays

adolescence is believing that they didn’t like those gifts because they weren’t useful or well-made (since a little kid made them)

adulthood/ maturity in general is knowing that they loved those gifts because they knew you were sincerely trying to make them happy

#idk if this is relatable #this was my experience at least #currently thinking about the rocks my 4 year cousin gave me for christmas #she painted the top of them purple and glued some sequins and glitter on them #and i loved them SO much #idk what to use them for but i just look at them like ‘she loves me so much 🥹’#same thing when my neighbor’s kids would give me birthday card COVERED in stickers #kids are just so precious sometimes #anyway i’m gonna stop talking before i start getting overly sentimental

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potatoes-tomatoes · 2 years

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Pride is supposed to be month of education and of the community’s struggle with oppression, documenting and retelling history for younger ppl learn from, engaging in open dialogue with the silent majority who still dissent, not alienating or ostracizing them, but conversing with the hope that we are to be seen, heard and respected.

I’m kinda damn sick of how commodified my own sexuality has become. Like. It’s a holiday, and once that holiday’s passed the decorations and sentiments are stored away in the attic for the rest of the year. and those who don’t celebrate it (i.e, share the same belief behind it) simply stand aside quietly and tolerate it. Despite what corporations have made it, i’m bi 24/7, not just during June. But the ads and the merchandising are so glaringly loud and disingenuous and off the mark that I can see in the extremely religious conservative circle I live in, that Pride is achieving the opposite of its goal. Every year my family and family friends dread the month, and double down that we’re “pushing an agenda” or “trying to trick people into sin”. It sucks. Companies and brands are tonally deaf with good intentions at best and patronizing at worst.

I’m just complaining into the void. June is almost over and I’ve not once felt comfortable celebrating my own sexuality because the month like. glaringly illuminates it, but never educates ppl about it?? it feels so overbearing and I have to see my family and family friends make more intolerant comments and jokes than usual. Idk. Despite what’s advertised, we (america) aren’t as progressive as we think we are. We’re kinda… going backwards? It’s estranging the ppl who are key to our acceptance— the opposing side lol.

#cel speaks #i’m probably gonna piss someone off bc that’s how these internet things usually go so 🤷🏻‍♀️#and also i’m glad hollywood/ social media lend us a powerful and large platform. I really am!#but… there’s no attempt to reach others who’re still in disagreement. or extend an olive branch #I get the sentiment of ‘we’re here and we’re queer deal with it’!#that assertiveness was and still is vital but i really wish we could extend an olive branch #instead all the ads and merch I see are just. half assed attempts to pander to us? and ignore like actual deeper issues still prevailing #i think i’m talking in circles now. ima shut up for now lol #i think this all came to a front when I saw that damn bugs bunny pride banner on twitter lmaoooo #i had such mixed emotions… 1 bc Bugs is like. NEVER sincere so writing wise that threw me off lol and 2…#the dialogue was so incredibly vague and vapid. Bugs sounded like he was giving a generic holiday greeting. that’s when it hit me y’know??#like WB cycles thru throwaway lines like ‘happy holidays!’ and now it’s ‘be who you are!’#lmao yeah i fuckin would if i didn’t risk being disowned hfjfjf or risking real world consequences for coming out

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trans-axolotl · 2 years

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literally I was just thinking about how much has changed since I first started intersex blogging on here and how grateful I am to all the intersex people I’ve met through here who have legitimately changed my life. Probably I would cringe so much at some of my old posts just cause they were made when I was 16 and really didn’t know a lot. I just knew that I was intersex and I really, really wanted to talk about it. I think I was inspired by the actually intersex blog, and also Dave bc I think Dave was the first person I had seen talking about being intersex haha. and I just didn’t have a clue about anything and hadn’t met other intersex people before. and fast forward four years and now I know over fifty intersex people, worked for an intersex nonprofit, can create pages of resources from memory bc I now actually know what stuff is out there, literally got funding to start our own intersex org for people who r both trans and intersex (this is the very very exciting news but I can’t talk about it much on here yet), I’m now familiar with so much fucking medical research about intersex variations and have written long academic papers on intersex topics, I’ve answered over a hundred questions from intersex people seeking peer support, like fuck. Maybe I am becoming an intersex activist lmfaooooo

#personal #actuallyintersex #sorry. manic and sentimental #I don’t consider myself an intersex activist but I’m like huh. I’m getting there #and where I started was literally just like ‘huh the intersex tag is so empty I’m gonna yell on here

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so-you-melted-22 · 1 year

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Having a horrible evening. My ace ring disappeared and I can’t find it and it’s driving me mad.

#:(#i always wanna fidget on it and then I just feel my own hand #i think I’m gonna cry #i know it’s dumb to cry over a 15€ ring I bought at a goth shop but it geniuenly means a lot to me #it’s this subtle way of expressing my sexuality and feeling connected to my community and now it’s gone #i know I can always buy it again because it’s literally just a black ring from er nox but :/#it wouldn’t be the same #it wouldn’t be associated with the same memories of when I got it the first time #because I got it with a friend and we made a whole thing of that day and then it just wouldn’t be that anymore #idk #im sentimental about a piece of painted metal #it’s dumb #and I was so proud of it and showing it off to all of my friends and wearing it to school #and also my parents don’t really get it they just think I’m upset about a random piece of jewelry #wich i have been before that’s literally nothing new I keep loosing earrings somehow #and they don’t take me seriously at all and It makes me feel even more dumb for being upset about loosing that ring #stuff #text

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consulaaris · 1 year

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actually no i’m still fuming about being called a “little princess” for uhhhh [checks notes] not wanting to sleep on the floor for three fucking weeks because my mother is having a whole fucking mental breakdown over my move.

#rae talks #she also told me i’d be sobbing about it because i’m basically incompetent and i’m about ready to blow a gasket #my dad stepped in but i do feel guilty bc i think he’s probably #gonna get reamed by her in private for having tried to help me lol #like i’m sorry but i am fully capable of taking my bed apart and taking it to a dump myself lol #oh and!!! and!!! told me all my sentimental items are absolutely useless and i should throw them away #i think the fuck not #like i know she was picking a fight bc she’s in a mood but i hate how easily i fall for the bait too lol

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