#Regarding Sam

[amaranthhiding]

Regarding Sam

by Hiding Amaranth

Words: 7,292 (finished) Rating: Teen Relationships: Rowena/Sam, Rowena & Amnesiac Dean

Tags: Canon Universe, Episode 12x11, Missing Scenes, Angst with Happy Ending, Hurt/Comfort, Life-or-Death Stakes, Magic, Witches, Rowena Realizes She Cares, Pre-Relationship, Sam Being a Prisoner, Amnesiac Dean Being Chaotic, Humor, Soft Rowena, Rowena Teaching Herself to Drive a Car to Save Sam

Point-of-View Characters: Rowena

Summary: When they hear Sam's blood-curdling scream over the phone, Rowena is far more affected than she thought possible. She has to make up her mind whether or not to turn her back on the Winchesters in their dire need—and how far exactly she'll go to save them. (Or my version of what happened in episode 12x11 between Sam's scream and the moment we see Dean wake up in the Impala, plus two additional new scenes at other blank spaces where the episode faded to black. And all of that from Rowena's point of view!)

Written for the Sam Winchester Rare Ships Week 2023 Day 6: "Missing Scene / Episode Tag" hosted by @spnrareships

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"Age nunc intellectum," Catriona's lilting, obnoxious voice said over the speaker, casting a spell unknown to Rowena despite her vast knowledge of the arcane. Perhaps it stemmed directly from the Grimoire. "Age nunc intellectum atque voluntatem omnem meam."

The spell created a terrible, high-pitched noise, loud enough that Rowena had to lower the phone's volume lest they'd risk damage to their eardrums even from afar.

Sam screamed.

Screamed like she'd never heard him before.

His agony seemed to resonate somewhere deep within her muscles, shaking that barely contained landslide out of its constraints once more. She could swear she felt something shatter inside herself.

Then his scream broke off abruptly.

A blockage in her chest refused to let her breathe. Completely taken by surprise over her own reaction, she didn't know what to do or even think.

Nobody had ever—

She wasn't supposed to—

Clinging to the flickering movement of candlelight on the table, she swallowed against the lump in her throat and tried to make sense of what she was feeling. The weak attempt to ground herself failed miserably.

"Sam?" Dean's quiet, doubtful question condensed her thoughts far more effectively than she herself could have.

Sam, was he truly—

Too overwhelmed by the chaos in her head, the sound of Catriona's voice over the speaker actually made her wince.

"Tie him to that chair before he wakes up. I'll be right back."

Before he wakes up.

Heavens above.

She only just had enough sense to press a hand in front of her mouth to stifle the sound of relief that threatened to escape her.

It took another few seconds and several deep breaths until she regained control enough to think clearly. The first thing she did was mute their microphone, so that the ongoing connection would hopefully remain undiscovered, no matter how much noise they caused.

"What do we do?" Dean asked of her, looking at her with open trust as if she held all the answers in the world.

To the echo of hounds in her mind, she realized how much the lad's behavior reminded her of her time in Scotland, back when Fergus had been but a wee thing.

Casting a glance over to the motel room's door, she knew that she could turn her back on all this and be on her merry way. A past version of her would have done just that.

There was a sensation of wetness clinging to the corners of her eyes. Who knew if it had been caused by the memories of times long gone or by the mistaken conviction that Sam Winchester was no more.

At a distance of just a handful of steps, the door still beckoned her. But she wasn't the same woman anymore.

The things the supposed end of the world did to you.

Getting rid of the unshed tears with a hasty swipe of her hands, she squared her shoulders and straightened her posture before meeting Dean's gaze.

"Why, we save him, of course," she said, as if it was the most logical conclusion in the world. Perhaps it was. Or perhaps she'd finally lost her mind.

Dean smiled like a child who'd found the candy. "Oh, good, yeah, that's—" In a mood change as sudden as a lightning strike, he frowned instead. "How?"

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[socksandbuttons]

More tiny eclipse pls 🙏🥺

UH UH ALRIGHTY!!!

BEAN ECLIPSE THERE YA GO. Also just Sun's whole behaviour about it. He's Winning. Sun's kinda fixed up the timeout corner cause Eclipse is there a lot (surprisingly he DOES stay there. Lunar say's it Eclipse's brooding corner now.) Lunar makes funny faces at him until eclipse either throws something at him or Earth takes Lunar away. Eclipse: Denies Uppies and Attention, Gets the Corner for Crimes. Lunar: And you thought me wrong for Uppies brother. Perish in the pits of fluff and playbars. Relinquish your vertical memoirs. They cannot help you now.

ALSO UH BONUS BEAN'D OTHERS??? Sun and Moon were suppose to be the Swap Au's boys. Then I was tasked with Bloodmoon and then Earth.

#anyway UPLOADS THESE BEFORE I FORGET I WANNA DRAW M OTHER BOYS!!!! #i need more sunlunar... and baby au #bean eclipse au #sams eclipse #sams lunar #tsams #sun and moon show #myart #in regards to this au i need to dra wlike.... the before of all this actually #cause bean eclipse here is after some chilling and giving himself some insight #killcode actually takes him rather than bean eclipse stay at the daycare at first #for obvious reasons

[starheirxero]

Jack saying he does whatever people tell him to do and Monty telling him to protect Solar and Jack just quietly going "I tried." NO ONE LOOK AT ME I'M SO UPSET THATS SO SADDD 😭

#xero says things #I KNOW JACK IS A SILLY JOKE CHARACTER BUT LIKE #HIS WHOLE. EVERYTHING. IN REGARDS TO HOW HE'S BEEN COPING WITH SOLAR'S DEATH IS JUST SO #AUDIBLE FROWN!!!!!!! #sun and moon show #the sun and moon show #tsams #sams jack

[dragonardhill]

Regarding Dean 12.11

#spnedit #samedit #deanedit #dean winchester #sam winchester #supernatural #sam and dean #spn 12x11 #regarding dean #this episode is the perfect encapsulation of spn #absolute heartbreak tempered by just enough silliness or softness to avoid devastation #myedit

[lambmotifz]

thinking about sam saying “you were the one who said don’t come back dad. you closed that door.” to john vs dean telling sam “if you walk out of that door, don’t you ever come back” i love it when they’re so unsubtle about samdean/samjohn parallels

#it’s interesting how dean’s john coding is off the charts every time sam tries to leave him or does something he can’t control #while sam is john-coded in a way that they both desire for revenge after the death of their loved-ones #also regarding samjohn…something something that part from john’s journal where he says how sam reminds him of mary….much to think about #wincest #samdean #sam winchester #dean winchester #john winchester

[ashes-in-a-jar]

My feeling right now about the cast

#in some capacity #they all know something fucked up #but sam knows in the most clueless way #breaking it down. sam has seen shit he about the magnus institute he wants to understand because it haunts him #alice knows much more than she lets on. shes seen something within the government's office that fucked her up. #maybe one of her previous coworkers who got fucked up? maybe shes an insider for the group who has the man in black? hmmmm #lena is boss lady probably starkwall related. working beyond her work description. regarding cover ups? #gwen saw stuff her family was privvy to one way or another and wants that power #colin knows about the recordings. saw somw lines if code in the system that fucked him up. ate some keyboards at work idk #and celia? oh boy celia definitely works for aomething pn the putside and infiltrated the govt to gwt some inside stuff. #shes seen and knows it all... whether from tapes or its her she knows about the multiverse #tmagp #the magnus protocol #tmagp spoilers

[neverswungonswingingstars]

Loustat in The Thing Lay Still

#louis 'enjoying' killing lestat. I'm sorry claudia my love. never should have trusted louis in regards to lestat #interview with the vampire #iwtv #sam reid #jacob anderson #loustat #amc immortal universe #amc iwtv #amc interview with the vampire #vcsource #iwtvedit #lestat de lioncourt #louis de pointe du lac #mp

[suncaptor]

It is actually kind of insane that Dean probably knows an incredible amount of details of Sam's entire life and then Hell happens and that's like more than Dean will ever know of him and Dean's like. relatively just. in the dark.

#i feel like it is less true for Sam regarding Dean & Hell in terms of Sam did get some broad meaningful strokes #and Sam is good at knowing how to handle Dean and his broad strokes #I like do not think Dean understands what Hell has done to Sam much. though he often benefits from it <333333 #sam and dean #spn #incoherents #sammy #supernatural #dean #sam winchester #dean winchester #(though it is also true for Dean and Hell too. just less significant of a difference imo. but like. there is soooo much Sam doesn't know)

[opheliasam]

does anyone else feel SICK to their STOMACH

#u called me here bc u knew I would do anything to protect u he called u here to kill u 😭😭😭😭😭 he literally TOLD U THAT WGEYUEHDJSJ #spn #sam winchester #samdean #dean winchester #s10e23 #sam engages in historical revision at a rate of 1 every 3 instances regarding dean he’s very funny to me

[moonlayl]

Some of y’all criticize comic inaccuracies in live action movies like your lives DEPEND on it, except when it comes to adapting poc and female characters from the comics into the big screen. Then it’s “but no one asked for this!!!” despite plenty of people having asked for it.

#mcu #marvel #mcu wank #this is about all those dudebris pissed that Sam is cap #but also fits with literally fits with anything else regarding female characters and poc (which are not mutually exclusive) in the mcu #sam wilson #captain america #justsamwilson #ms marvel #kamala khan #black widow #natasha romanoff #she hulk #captain marvel #black panther #lady thor #jane foster #shuri #agents of shield #riri williams #miles morales

[moon-lite]

i wonder if 2023 will finally be the year that marvel starts giving a shit about sam wilson being captain america

#the number of times steve has been mentioned in phase 4 compared to sam in regards to being cap is insane #sam wilson #captain america #marvel

[kaleidoru]

Reclamation will lead to your Salvation

#anthro #furry #lion #goat #angel #demon #oc: sam #oc: samael #oc: cici #oc: lucifer #oc: asmodeus #there's a bit of story regarding this but I won't go into it here or now #Sam Fixes His Mistake Whilst Cici Looks Sus For No Reason And Asmodeus' Secret Was Revealed To Him

[socksandbuttons]

"KC handles Bloodmoon with much exasperation. Bloodmoon picked up this sucker and went 'our Spawn'. Baffles KC."

Do this mean KC is a BEAN? Smol murder cat?

After an encounter with Lunar yes. He gets Beaned. Small murder cat.

#eternally mad the 'fathers' he has are just... they not thinking long term regarding killing and hes PISSED #'son do u need a snacc' 'I WOULD LIKE. CHICKEN NUGGETS. NOT A CARCASS' ':(( It is chicken' 'Thats not chicken' #sams swap au #swap kc #swap bloodmoon #sams killcode #he actually was just smaller than sun now hes actually bean and you get to be graced with that in this au #myart

[hauntedpearl]

logically i know that dean stopped going out and hooking up with people so much in the later seasons because a) the writers didn't want to write that and b) dean was having a *nick nelson voice* proper full-on gay crisis. but like. it WOULD be funny if he really was trying to hook up with people but cas just kept cockblocking him in the most bizarre ways. extra points if cas showed up at the bar and flirted his way into having sex with dean's prospects in his place just so dean wouldn't. like dean leaves for a moment to get another beer or something and cas just materializes out of nowhere and is like I Would Like To Have Sexual Relations With You and because he looks Like That™ the women are like. Okay! Sure! and when dean gets back they're gone and he's too drunk to find someone else so he just goes back to the motel and falls asleep.

#meanwhile cas is banging the women in the backseat of the impala #his logic is very confused but it gets the job done so he doesn't question it! #also!! dean's like!! IDK WHAT'S WRONG MAN!! MAYBE IM CURSED #and sam is like lnao you're not cursed you're just old and ugly hahahah #cas meanwhile is like. Dean. These Women Do Not Deserve You. and dean's all 🫣😳😯😳🫢 thanks cas #anyway. REGARDING LAST REBLOG LMAO #doe is talking again #THIS IS A CRACK POST DON'T FUCKING @ ME WITH Y'ALLS LOGIC/CANON/whatever #destiel #cas fucks agenda?

[snowe-zolynn-rogers]

For someone trying not to act like Old Moon, New Moon’s really starting to act like Old Moon minus physical abuse.

#sun and moon show #sams #five nights at freddy's #fnaf #fnaf moon #in regards to yesterday’s video #i hit my head #and i have a migraine #any hot takes are attributed to that #if i regret this later when i’m thinking straight i’ll tell ya #hehe thinking straight #i’m not even straight #snoweytrashposts #snoweytalks #snoweyrambles #snoweyrants #tw abuse mention

[les-larmes-d-eros]

Kelsey Dylan par Sam Henderson

#sam henderson #regard #kelsey dylan