#a ''hasn't been updated in 40+ years'' feel

[biteapple]

the perspective of looking at new jersey apartments again makes me glad im living where im at now, honestly ... ^^ ''

#i SO wish i could hop over there though ... the price of living is SOOO high and the pay doesnt match even a little #its bad everywhere .. but new jersey's got a special kind of sickness like that because of its nyc proximity #everyone lives there and commutes to the city like 1.5hrs away for the better pay . but i just lived there lol #i feel like compared to here everything in jersey's tinged an ''old'' way .. #i dont know how to describe it but EVERYTHING from the stores to the apartments has a ''grandma's house'' feel #a ''hasn't been updated in 40+ years'' feel #and austin's so new and booming. apparently. but i agree it doesnt have that old tinge to it #the apartment im living in isnt new. but it isnt old either. it doesnt have the feel to it #i thought it was just nostalgia speaking but looking at nj apartments today was like. oh wow. its nice to know im not going crazy #this same apartment in nj would be SO SO SO much more expensive. people here complain about prices (they SHOULD. its bad) #but looking at where i was and why i HAD to move elsewhere .. i remember now yknow. this place is a luxury i could never have had in nj #which doesnt mean its good. its sad. i wish things were different. i DO .. sort of .. wish i never moved out here to begin with #but im glad im here. i feel like ... you know when a hero goes on a quest and makes friends along the way and then .. doesnt return home .. #even though the quest was supposed to be a transitory period .. yknow .. maybe im just home now #atleast awhile longer. im happy calling here home awhile longer #i do kinda miss that old tinge to it. i always said everything in nj was like .. ''tinged yellow '' .. and it really is. yknow. #i just need to put some antiques and lighting into my apartment. lol. feels just like home

[happyk44]

Thinking about Frank telling Percy that after the war he had to ask Pluto's permission to date Hazel. The war gave him some leeway and reason for not doing so, but after it ended, Pluto showed up after a few days and asked Frank why he had not requested permission.

Percy is kinda surprised Hazel doesn't look annoyed. Sure she's from the 40's but he thought permission to marry was the common request. Wasn't permission to date outdated, even by 40's standards?

And Hazel shakes her head and explains that historically a lot of children of Pluto/Hades would be courted by other demigods as a trick or a trap. If a child of the Underworld asked her out, permission would be implicitly granted. If a mortal asked her out, permission would be implicitly granted.

But a non-Chthonic demigod, especially an Olympian one and one of such high rank like Mars, requires permission so Pluto or one of her siblings, or even Proserpina, may assess that this person is someone safe. Even friends can betray you in the end, she notes and Percy hates every single word of what she's said.

Years later when he comes to terms with his feelings for Nico, he agonizes about it. He knows Nico likely won't give a shit if he doesn't have permission, and Hades won't do anything to Percy besides maybe yell at him if he refuses to ask because killing him would upset Nico, but if he's going to date Nico he'd like to be on somewhat good terms with Hades for once. Neutral terms, even.

Frank may have lucked out with near immediate acceptance - why, wouldn't he? Hazel was his world. He would rather die than hurt her - but Percy was a thorn in Hades' side from the moment they met, and he was well aware getting permission would be a long process to go through. Probably some more stupid quests to prove himself.

And he'd do them. He hate it but Nico was worth it.

But part of the reason of living at the Nome these days was to stop having to do quests. To stop have gods interfering in his life to the point of standing on the ledge of the apartment roof and staring down at black asphalt and garbage bags shoved into a corner.

But Nico is worth it. And Percy - well, he'd like to think he's safe for him now. That he won't hurt him accidentally anymore. That they're good. And he's pretty sure Nico likes him back. When he visits, he always gravitates towards him. Sits by him when he's finished training with Walt. Takes him outside with Carter or Zia so he doesn't develop agoraphobia, and holds his hand the whole time so he "can't run away". He strokes the back of Percy's hand every time they're standing still.

He blushed when that one lady thought they were a couple. Didn't correct her either. Didn't ask why Percy didn't correct her. Didn't let go of his hand.

He hasn't interacted with a Greek god in the last four years. At least not in person. His dad and step-mom send letters every few months through Hermes, who hands them off to Nico to deliver. They're nice letters. Hoping he's doing well. Updating him on how the castle repairs are doing. Telling him about quiet spots in the ocean he can visit at a certain time if wherever he is doesn't have access. He's used a couple of them, with Sadie lazing about on a shitty rowboat far above his head.

It's nice to just lay there on the sand. The first time he'd been worried it was a trap. That some sea god would whisk him away for some adventure that would leave him more torn than he already was. But Phillip had sat with him, wand at the ready, his penguins casually swimming above them and it had been fine. No sea gods, no sea monsters, no animals other than the penguins.

So Hades will be the first Greek god he sees in person. It reminds him too much of his first quest. While Ares has been the first, Hades had been the second and Percy had stood in front of him, feeling too small, everything at risk, and someone he loved dearly on the line. If he failed then, he might never get her back.

If he failed now, Hades might enforce ways to keep them apart. To make sure Percy couldn't ignore his lack of permission and date Nico anyway.

What terrified him the most about not earning permission was the implication he was still dangerous to other people, to Nico. He was sure he was safe now. He didn't freak out at the little kids. He didn't wake up screaming. His gut instinct wasn't to pull Riptide out at every single loud noise. He didn't dissociate as much as he used to. He wasn't on edge all the time. He trusted the other people around him.

He didn't want to die nearly as much as he used to.

But what if it meant nothing? Therapy, medication, avoiding the things that caused him stress - what if it wasn't enough? Yeah, he has attacked Nico once but that was years ago, Percy had been extremely stressed out, and Nico hadn't even cared about it when he apologized. It took him a few seconds to even remember what Percy was talking about.

Aside from that one instance, Percy liked to think he'd always been safe for Nico. But then he remembered Bianca and his gut churned viciously.

Still, Nico was worth it. Nico was something he wanted. He'd do it for him. He'd do a lot of things for him.

Grover stood with him at the entrance of the Underworld. Mrs. O'Leary was splayed out, catching the rays of sunlight and rumbling happily as Annabeth gave her a couple treats and belly rubs. She joined Percy's other side and pinched his arm.

He still loved her. He always would. Their relationship to each other wasn't something that could be killed off, even with the distance and Percy running away. Same with Grover. Either one of them could vanish for years at a time, and when they came back, it would be like no time passed at all. They were clicked into one another like a necklace with interlocking friendship charms.

"You got this," Grover said with a clap to Percy's back. His hand drew up to Percy's shoulder and squeeze. "And we'll be right there with you."

"Or just outside the door," Annabeth adds. She flashes her wrist, a shiny watch on it. "And I have a battering ram if needed."

Grover's face went pinched. "That's not helpful."

"It's realistic!" Annabeth argued. "When has he ever come out here peacefully?"

"He's only been here twice!" Grover said in a gritted whispered shout. "You need at least three times to indicate a pattern."

The two of them stepped back ever so slightly so they weren't shouting through Percy, and continued their bickering on what constituted a pattern indication and whether or not it was helpful or supportive to indicate a fight might break out.

The noise helped clear the sound of his own voice in his head. He zeroed in on Grover's words clashing against Annabeth's opposing side, and breathed steadily. The two of them knew him so well. Hopeful realism.

"Guys," he said as clear as he could.

They went silent immediately and drew back to his side. Grover looped his arm around Percy's, pulling him close in by the elbow. Annabeth squeezed his hand once before letting go.

"You ready?" she said.

He nodded and reached for the doorknob. "Let's do this."

#percico #percy jackson #annabeth chase #frazel #grover underwood #happy talks pjo #my writing #my fanfic

[socialist-microwave-laser]

your post regarding christians learning hebrew made me consider - i'm anishinaabe (ojibwe or chippewa or native american or however you call it) and so i very much hope this does not derail you and is instead only the shared experience i mean it to be - it reminds me of how white people and the descendants of colonizers will mystify & then appropriate native medicine and mythology, our art, languages, and cultures, because they think it has secret ancient magic powers, and that everybody who actually practices that medicine or speaks that language is dead and gone, and that indigenous people are ancient history. when we are still alive and around and speaking those languages and practicing that medicine today. and the only reason we would even be all dead and gone anyways is if the colonizers who now appropriate our culture had succeeded in their plan to wipe us out!! anyways that's just a thought, like i said, i hope this only comes across as solidarity of some sort, i read your post and really felt i related to the experience!

oh this isn't a derailment at all!!! something i've noticed a lot but feel like i don't know enough about to be eloquent with it is the similarities between a lot of indigenous cultures and jewish cultures. idk it's super cool. shoutout to Really Fucking Old cultures and traditions surviving through and despite everything

there was a celebration for 40 years of democracy here in argentina at la plaza de mayo on saturday. lots of argentinian flags everywhere, big concert stage set up, the works. my friend and i went to an encampment on the casa rosada side that i had noticed a few times before. they had hand-painted signs talking about how they're from an indigenous self-advocacy group that has been trying to get an audience with the president for two years and three months. to support their continued stay on la plaza, they had a shop of homemade materials like bags, scarves, baskets, and more. i ended up buying gifts for my siblings, a gorgeous rainbow scarf with designs the man was telling me had all unique meanings and symbolisms in mapuche culture, and a handmade necklace of the tree of life. i told him that being jewish i'm always on the lookout for more scarves i can use to cover my head, and he told me he hopes this will serve me well (it has, i'm in love with it already). when he told me about the tree of life necklace, i told him judaism has similar symbolism, called etz hayim. he thanked me for teaching him the term

i don't know if that was a particularly impactful exchange for him, but there was some sort of solidarity i immediately felt, like our fights are intertwined (as are all our fights but you know what i mean). you put at least some reasons why that solidarity exists here into words. we are parts of cultures that have faced and are still facing attempted genocide after attempted genocide, and yet we are still here, embodying our people and not backing down. as people try to relegate us to some mystical past, we are vocal and fight back. solidarity to you anon, ily and i wish you the best. please feel free to talk to me more about this

i've reached out to the indigenous organizers currently camping out in front of la casa rosada but as of writing this i haven't gotten a response. the website hasn't been updated in a bit, but i'll add what information i have so that more people can learn about this fight in argentina (i'm realizing as i add this stuff that almost everything is in spanish lmao. i'm going to reblog this with the photos of their signs and translations of each. if your browser doesn't automatically translate these links please lmk and i'd be happy to help out anybody interested in learning more)

information about the org:

a story about a previous protest:

a story about the current encampment:

#indigenous liberation #jumblr #landback #land back #christian antisemitism tw #cultural appropriation #solidarity #anarchist #genocide tw #asks #anonymous #argentinian politics

[angryschnauzer]

Update 3th April 2024

How are we into the 4th month of the year already? This year is slipping away so quickly. Anyway, my husband finished Radiotherapy mid Feb, had a few weeks off treatment, and is now on 6 cycles of strong chemotherapy. He has 5 days on tablet dose, then 23 days off, so its a 4 week cycle. We had an update meeting with his Neurologist. The tumour hasn't started to grow back, but we've got to add a 'yet' to that. The type of brain tumour (Glioblastoma) is an incredibly agressive form of brain cancer, spreading tendrils out into the crevices of the brain that there is never any way of scooping the whole thing out and getting every last bit with surgery. Thus the Radiotherapy and chemotherapy to try and blast - i cant think of a better word - as much remaining cancer as it can. He'll have regular MRI's to monitor any regrowth etc, and as he's mid 40's if he's strong enough he can have surgery again.

So now we're at the start of April and to be honest the last three months have been horrible. At the start of the year i caught a cough that developed into Bronchitis, and then by mid March i was so ill it was Pneumonia. When Hubby was on his 'rest' weeks post radiotherapy he was unable to rest as he had to help me care for our son. Sidenote; our Son's type 1 diabetes has been somewhat out of control during this time too. Two weeks ago i was admitted to the emergency dept at Hospital with chest pains. Hardly surprising with the amount of stress i'm under, but it turned out to be caused by bruising my internal chest muscles from coughing so much due to the pneumonia. Doctors told me i must rest. Well, the universe decided it didn't like that option and the day after Hubby went down with a cold/flu like virus, and because of his cancer treatment all but destroying his immune system, it's knocked him sideways. We're now 10 days later and its still in full force. I had to take him to the cancer hospital yesterday to have blood tests to ensure it hadn't turned bacterial (it hasn't) but we've been having awful nights sleep for the both of us which means neither of us are recovering at a rate we need.

So that's were we're at. Its just a massive cycle of illness followed by illness and it feels like we can't get out of it.

[evenmorefatallyobsessed]

New Goal List for NEW Models

So first off, I officially finished my new years resolution from last year several months ago. And reached the models on the list I aimed to make. But obviously that hasn't stopped me from making even more.

So late Yay! Anyways as you all know I am now making My Little Pony Faunus Models too for Remnant. But that's actually been something I've been planing for months as well. I just wanted to test it and see if they'd be any good or well recived which Applejack very much was...

So yeah here's the new updated list involving them as well, also Eves been moved up cause Sun's Cousin kinda feels like a excuse to genderswap Sun so why not...

Note This list does not include (Incubitches or Succubitches) because those are not entirely new models but altered ones.

01.) Pearl Arc (Jaune's genius little sister)

02.) Applejack (MLP)

03.) Viola Arc (Youngest Sister)

04.) Pinkie Pie (MLP)

05.) Beryl Arc (Tomboy sister)

06.) Spike (MLP)

07.) Rarity (MLP)

08.) Livia & Lapis Arc (Arc Twins)

09.) Rainbow Dash (MLP)

10.) Rogue Arc (Oldest Sister)

11.) Juniper Arc (Mama Arc)

12.) Fluttershy (MLP)

13.) Twilight Sparkle (MLP)

14.) Eve Tarus

15.) Sunset Shimmer (MLP)

16.) Starr Sanzang (Sun's Cousin)

17.) Starlight Glimmer (MLP)

18.) Coco Adel

19.) Celestia (MLP)

20.) Nebula Violette

21.) Luna (MLP)

22.) Dew Gayl

23.) Apple Bloom (MLP)

24.) Gwen Darcy

25.) Sweetie Belle (MLP)

26.) Octavia Emher

27.) Scootaloo (MLP)

28.) Ann Greene (Beacon's Stealth & Security Teacher)

29.) Maud Pie (MLP)

30.) Iris Marilla (Second Year Bacon Student Fall Survior)

31.) Ember (MLP)

32.) Rowena Sunnybrook (Shade's Weapons Training Teacher)

33.) Trixie

34.) Xanthe Rumpole (Shade's History Teacher)

35). Gabby (MLP)

36.) Lisa Lavander

37.) Ember (MLP)

38.) Stella (Hei's Secretary)

39.) Aurelia (Neo's Teacher from the Book)

40.) Crocea Mors (Tsukumogami)

41.) Atlas Milfs (Jaune's Fanclub)

[violets-in-her-arms-writes]

WIP introduction : Par Amour de la Vengeance

Titre : Par amour de la Vengeance

Genre : urban fantasy

Status : third version

Target wordcount : 100k (but only ~50k will be written by me since it's a project with my best friend 🥰)

Actual wordcount : 11 683 (as of 05/11/2023)

TW : blood, violence

Synopsis :

Revenge. That's what keeps us alive, what keeps us from being swallowed up. It helps us preserve our past. The past that made us suffer so much. We made mistakes, we have wounded others, we have lied, we have betrayed. And we are all of this at once: two women wounded, two women betrayed. Two errors of nature that should never have been allowed to exist. But here we are. Our hearts and our magic are the essence of our survival. Our hearts may be black, dry or atrophied, our magics perverted or hesitant, but they have preserved us from the ravages of time. Few understand our way of life. But it doesn't matter. Revenge guides our steps. And that's the only thing they need to know about us. We are the Ravens of the Shadows. The common folk knows it, and no one looks any further. And yet, we sometimes hesitate…

Please don't judge this (terrible) synopsis. It's from 2013 and I took it straight from our wattpad story (which hasn't been updated since 2017...). I'll rewrite it later because it explains nothing about what is actually going on, but later because right now my brain is fried and it's time for me to sleep XD

Settings : a government agency in charge of regulating the uses of magic and the relationships with the other dimensions/species ; a house that will never be a home again ; a shack in the middle of bumfuck nowhere, France

Characters:

Lorelei Douxruisseau || [15 000+] || bisexual || Red Witch, High Priestess to the Goddess of Revenge || clinically insane ; if "danger? I laugh in the face of danger" was a person ; half-magic half-tree ; most powerful witch to ever walk the earth

→ Dalia Ravens || [80+, looks 40] || bisexual || Red Witch || Lorelei mortal persona ; functional human being ; competency kink ; actually has feelings

Némésis || goddess of revenge || teetering on the brink of insanity ; doesn't emote right ; cold and calculating

Arianna Shadows || [400] || straight || former black witch || currently trying to cleanse her magic ; in love with a dead man ; eaten by guilt

Prudence Ruthven || [37] || bisexual || black witch || head of the torture department ; coldblooded ; done with Dalia's shit but willing to tolerate it because she's hot ; mother of two

Jørgen Ruthven || [37] || bisexual || werewolf || stress is for the weak ; family-oriented ; paperwork is afraid of him ; father of two

Rélina Ravens || [15] || lesbian || water witch || Dalia's long-suffering daughter ; doesn't understand how potions work ; ran away from her posh school to run after her mother ; thinks Arianna is the worst™

Other characters include several temperamental familiars, dozens of well-meaning agents, ghosts from the past, a dead man walking, several goddesses and a flesh-eating old lady.

[PLAYLIST] [PINTEREST BOARD] [GENERAL TAG]

So this is my NaNo project for this year, but it's technically an old story since my best friend and I started writing it in 2011.

#wip introduction #wip: pav #nano 2023 #lorelei love of my life #< it should be her official character tag #i'm pinning it during nano but I'll change it back when december comes ^^

[kassil]

Hopeful Postapocalyptic Games

So I'm going to put this out there:

What I want is a game that's a post-apocalyptic sim about picking up the pieces and fixing the world around you. Think if you took Sun Haven or Stardew Valley but your farm was a mostly-dead patch of earth and your goal was reviving it. There are games that get halfway there. If Terra Nil was a first-person game and you had to construct all those components and manage your own exposure to the environment a bit? Yeah, I could go for that. no Place Like Home is too cartoonish and Silly Mode for what I want. (I'm sorry, I don't want a chicken disco, or cows in bunny ears, or a magic vacuum that slurps up piles of trash.)

Junkpunk could go there, but the the development there has been using Art Plagiarism Programs for concepting, at the very least.

The closest I've ever encountered was the Regrowth HQM modpack for Minecraft 1.7.10, and it hasn't been updated in six and a half years, and never got fully finished as far as I know. I dunno. I just feel like, here and now, with the world literally on fire in more than a few places, this is a game niche that could do with some exploration and development. Games that say "Yes, things can get terrible, but that's no reason to give up hope."

If you know of something that fits the bill, please do let me know?

Edit: Just to clarify, I don't want the combined pressure of a stamina meter and fast-passing day to "encourage gameplay" - one of the things I most appreciate about Sun Haven is that there's no stamina and I can set the length of the day from 20 to 40 real-world minutes to give myself time to accomplish things without feeling pressured.

If the world's already ended and I'm rebuilding it, I don't need the poison logic of capitalism breathing down my neck, y'know?

#games #video games #postapocalypse #post apocalyptic #farm sim #hopepunk

[jamiepage19]

Update on Haunted by the Opera Ghost

So. I'm still here. Suffering from severe writer's block and an extreme lack of motivation, but still here.

This chapter has consistently kicked my ass for months now. I think I've torn it apart and rewritten it like four times now. Not an easy feat considering that each rendition was over 2,600 words. And with each rewrite, my confidence dwindles and my insecurity over whether or not I should even be doing this grows. This is a pivotal chapter and I feel like I'm in a war with my characters lol. I have this carefully constructed plot with things I can and cannot do in order to progress said plot and stay true to my ending, and my characters are literally FIGHTING me.

That's a thing, right? It's okay. I'm okay.

It hasn't helped that I had surgery to fix a failing knee implant back in May, and the surgery actually made things a shit ton worse. My knee literally disintegrated while they were in there. So guess who now needs a total knee replacement at the ripe age of 40 instead of the partial they originally had done back in 2019? This girl right here. So yeah. Recovery has been a bitch, and the constant pain (and Lupus--FFS I cannot make this shit up. God I've had a fucking hell of a year. Sigh) and not being able to do simple things like laundry, housework, and yard work (seriously, the only thing I have wanted to do this summer is make my backyard look pretty) has brought a good dose of depression along with it. The only solace I've found lately has been playing the new Zelda game and avoiding everything else.

Anyway. This right here is an attempt to pull myself up by my boot straps. I've been writing fairly steadily the last couple of weeks, and while the progress I've made is small, it's still progress. I think I'm finally satisfied with the latest rewrite and have set myself up to finish the chapter in a way that doesn't conflict with my overall vision of this story. I'm also slowly responding to reviews on FFN and AO3, so if you haven't heard from me yet, you will. Just give me time. Every day is a battle right now, but I can get through this.

So yeah. Thank you for coming to my pity party. There will be party favors at the door. In the form of a chapter update. Hopefully very soon. If you read this til the end, you are a saint and I love you.

TL;DR - Life sucks but maybe a chapter update this weekend???

#haunted by the opera ghost #update on chapter update #writing #writer's block #the worst #knee replacement #living with lupus #thank you for sticking with me #I'm okay #really

[outer-andromeda]

"Lawrence"

Masterpost

"After a grave error in Beetlejuice’s evil plan turns him and his two ghostly friends into humans, he must learn to live for the very first time. Which proves difficult…. Very difficult.

Now instead of battling literal demons, he’s battling metaphorical ones. Which, as he discovers, is in many ways worse."

Written by @maddcelestial , illustratred by @outer-andromeda (me).

NEXT UPDATE : ...

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CHAPTER 1 : New Arrivals

Archive Of Our Own, Wattpad

CHAPTER 2 : Highway

Archive Of Our Own, Wattpad

CHAPTER 3 : Sol (AO3)

CHAPTER 4 : "Concrete Jungle Where" (AO3)

CHAPTER 5 : Choke (AO3)

CHAPTER 6 : Alleyway (AO3)

CHAPTER 7 : Body (AO3)

CHAPTER 8 : Cash Grab (AO3)

CHAPTER 9 : Stripes (AO3)

CHAPTER 10 : Dancing (AO3)

CHAPTER 11 : "Cloud of Smoke" (AO3)

CHAPTER 12 : Solution (AO3)

CHAPTER 13 : Burnout (AO3)

CHAPTER 14 : Lust (AO3)

CHAPTER 15 : "Is, Isn't, Was, Have, Hasn't, Has" (AO3)

CHAPTER 16 : Marley (AO3)

CHAPTER 17 : Through The Fog (AO3)

CHAPTER 18 : Merry Christmas (AO3)

CHAPTER 19 : "Hand Me My Shovel"/"When Somebody Needs You" (AO3)

CHAPTER 20 : Lawrence (AO3)

CHAPTER 21 : Julien (AO3)

CHAPTER 22 : Garbage Man (AO3)

CHAPTER 23 : Godzilla (AO3)

CHAPTER 24 : Tests (AO3)

CHAPTER 25 : Positive (AO3)

CHAPTER 26 : Call Me. (AO3)

CHAPTER 27 : Listen (AO3)

CHAPTER 28 : Shut-In (AO3)

CHAPTER 29 : Out (AO3)

CHAPTER 30 : Fucking Something... (AO3)

CHAPTER 31 : Meeting (AO3)

CHAPTER 32 : Fresh Meat (AO3)

CHAPTER 33 : Matinee (AO3)

CHAPTER 34 : An Excerpt From A Local Theatre Article (AO3)

CHAPTER 35 : Seaside Rendezvous (AO3)

CHAPTER 36 : Angeline (AO3)

CHAPTER 37 : Date (AO3)

CHAPTER 38 : ... Date (AO3)

CHAPTER 39 : I'm Sorry (AO3)

CHAPTER 40 : Soon...

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Please check it out, leave kudos and comments, and share if you enjoyed the story. Any support is greatly appreciated as writing this takes a lot of time and work (on behalf of Mads) and it encourages us to keep going so you guys can enjoy this silly story we've been cooking up and loving for the past few years. 💚🖤💚🖤💚

EDIT : If you've got any questions you'd like to ask regarding the story, feel free to send it to @lawrencethestorything ! Most things Lawrence-related will now be posted and reblogged over there!

(Credit to my partner @maddcelestial herself for the artwork on this post heheheh)

#writing #archive of our own #wattpad #beetlejuice #beetlejuice the musical #human beetlejuice #oc #au #bjtmtmtm #musical beetlejuice #original story #fan story #lawrence au

[emgoesmed]

10/24/2022

Tranquil study challenge day 11 -- once again making up for a skipped day :')

10. When did you create your studyblr blog or tumblr account? Why did you create it? Has the blog fulfilled the goals you've set out to accomplish so far?

I had to go back and check my blog archive LOL because it's been so long! I created my blog back in 2018 when I was a freshly graduated pre-med student taking a gap year before applying to medical school. Before this blog, I had a side blog studyblr that I used very infrequently. I created my blog as a way to chronicle my life during my medical school application process and continued into medical school. I'd say that my blog hasn't fulfilled any goals, but rather I have fulfilled my goals, which have been documented on my blog.

11. Show us your current study space as it looks right now.

I'm currently studying at a local tea cafe, the soothing atmosphere is so lovely. One might even say the vibes are immaculate hehe

Today, I am grateful for having a good day at the hospital today; one of my patients is the sweetest old lady, plus I was able to help out the residents a little bit which makes me feel a little less useless as an MS3 lol.

Today, I choose to be productive! I'm going to tackle a few administrative tasks and workout. My goal over the next few weeks is to consistently go to the gym 3x per week.

Today, my goals are

40 Uworld questions

review incorrect Uworld questions (3.5 sets)

print forms at library

drugstore errand

gym/workout

email research update

start outlining case report

#emgoesmed #tranquilfallbuddies #studyblr #med student #studyspo #med school #med studyblr #productivity #ms3 #clinical rotations #internal medicine #bubble tea #boba milk tea #cafe

[amarriageoftrueminds]

Just saw your post about Steve and Oscar Wilde, and I'm headcannoning that Steve was a Wilde fan through and through, and a prolific reader. I'm mainly doing this because a girl can project her own love and hobbies onto her favourite cahracters.

Imagine a queer Irish asthmatic kid who isn't allowed to go out and play with the other children at school because of his weak immune system and the fact that his mother is a TB nurse who he has close contact with. One day he picks up a book to pass the time and is immediately hooked on reading.

Mary Shelley. John Steinbeck. Agatha Christie. Virginia Woolf. You name it, he's either read it or it's on his list.

Until one day he picks up Oscar Wilde, and Steve is reading something written by a man who is queer and Irish like him.

Imagine a queer Irish Brooklynite visiting a dingy, beloved bookstore and pestering the owner if he has any more Oscar Wilde.

Books, plays, or poems, Steve has everything that has Oscar Wilde on the cover of it.

He saves up the money from his art commissions to pay rent, food for himself and Bucky, and of course books.

How do you think Steve reacted when he walked into a modern bookstore and saw all the contemporary classics that he had missed in the ice. Would he cry while reading The Book Thief? Would he like Fahrenheit 451? What about The Kite Runner?

Unlike how the MCU has portrayed him as (a man who is so out of depth with the future and stays that way, not helped by Tony's antics of reminding him of it ever single scene), I believe Steve would love learning and reading about the future.

What's your opinion?

(the post)

I wouldn't say Steve stays that way! He hasn't been out of his depth since 2012, that phase was already over for him by the time of CATWS. His wardrobe was updated, he had a smartphone, a to-watch/listen list, his own sound system, familiarity with the internet, modern cookery, modern medicine, etc. etc. And he was a man ahead of his time already in the 40s; he was passionately antifa, his values were advanced enough to see him ostracised, and he assembled a team more diverse than the Avengers.

He was well prepared for the future, and that was before he got Bucky back! So it's really only Tony's daddy issues/seething inferiority complex running its mouth, and later the dipshits of EG talking a pile of steaming shit about a version of Steve they did not, in fact, portray.

Ahem.

That said: it must be absolutely wild to Steve, to have both the spending power and this number of books available at the same time, in the future?

(Plus, coming from war time, paper rationing, pre-set novels shipped out to the US Army... not able to choose his reading material, etc. What a breath of fresh air!)

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I have an old headcanon about Steve and his mum having an 'Irish shelf' in their humble apartment, consisting of Irish authors exclusively, including Oscar Wilde! (James Joyce, WB Yeats, George Bernard Shaw, Bram Stoker, Jonathan Swift, Maria Edgeworth.)

But I also have a headcanon that Steve would listen politely to whatever SHIELD thinks he ought to read, nodding attentively...

And then ignore everything they said, get hold of a list of 'Banned Books of the 20th century' and read every damn one, in chronological order, first chance he gets! 😂

(So yeah Fahrenheit 451 would be a good start! Nineteen Eighty Four would be on there, since he'd be interested to see the 'next' take on a Brave New World.

The 'disillusioned soldiers of WWII as authors' would be an interesting demographic to him initially, I think; to hear what other guys like him felt. But it would be difficult because I think books set in the actual war itself would surely be too painful to read, at first. It would take a few years before he could stand it, IMO. So I don't think he could manage, eg. Slaughterhouse 5, The Book Thief, etc.

I headcanon that he'd go decade by decade, learning the history, and then reading the 'big novels' of each period, to get a feel for it.

I think he'd be interested to read the beatnik/silent generations works too (eg. On The Road), out of a suspicion that -- if he had come back from the war -- he would've been one of them, wandering around America, rather than one of the faceless 1950s suburbanites.)

It's mind-boggling to consider how many classics he wouldn't have read or heard of!

But he'd read anything that's being banned from schools, especially -- and he'd make sure to get snapped reading them in public to increase exposure for banned authors. 😇

#long post #toAyourQ #dat's me #hail-americas-ass #steve rogers #steve meta #mcu meta #meta #mcu #book nerd steve #my beloved

[litgwritersroom]

Fic Recs 🔖

The teams personal faves for Baker Boy

Completed 💜

The Greatest of Them All by throughthejunobush

Villa fic, MC has been loyal to Gary through her whole journey, but after Hannah returns, she is forced to see a new side of him. Lucky for her, she has Bobby to turn to.

13 Chapters - 50k+ Words - Explicit

it's just a crush by longbobmckenzie

A coming of age story. MC is new in town, and soon develops a huge crush on her brother Gary's best friend, Bobby McKenzie. Slow burn.

50 Chapters -123k+ Words - Mature

It Happened One Friday in Philadelphia by becangle

1940's AU with a screwball comedy vibes. Bobby is MC's former husband, and they are sent to solve one last case for the Newspaper they work on together before she gets remarried.

21 Chapters - 53k+ Words - Mature

An Infinite Deal of Nothing by EskiiX

Post Villa. Bobby leaves the Villa with just a fuck buddy, and two years later he happens into the story's protagonist.

35 Chapters - 100k+ Words - Explicit

Sick Like Me by neld13

AU, BDSM-fuck-buddies to lovers. Lani meets Bobby at a party, but quickly realises that there's more to him than just some great dick.

21 Chapters - 88k+ Words - Explicit

The Only Thing Between Us by Daisybarks

AU, Brooke Moore was Bobby's first everything, and no one's ever measured up to her. So when she moves back home unexpectedly - for good this time - he knows he's in trouble.

41 Chapters - 96k+ Words - Explicit

Edge of the World by longbobmckenzie

AU, Pirate Bobby. Yes, you read that correctly. This is a pirate fic. And it works perfectly.

15 Chapters - 34k+ Words - Mature

One Night Stand by ItsRealityBoo

AU, a one night stand goes horribly wrong when it turns out that the guy she just slept with is her new client.

Note, this isn't officially marked complete, but it hasn't been updated since March 2021, and the story wraps up reasonably nicely anyway.

31 Chapters - 126k+ Words - Mature

One Shots 🧁

i brought my hell to you by americangrunge

AU where MC is one of the biggest pop stars in the world, and Bobby is in way over his head (and also her co-writer).

37k+ Words - Mature

Wishful Drinking by margotmuses

AU, enemies-to-lovers Bobby and Lucas. Bobby loves teasing Lucas in this one, and Lucas just keeps rising to him.

3k Words - Mature

Currently Updating 📑

The Sun In My Eyes by christy_sparkle

Villa fic. This is probably the best-known LITG fic, and it's for a reason. Bobby & Lili's relationship is both explosive and healing, and beautiful and painful. Prepare for feelings. And prepare for smut.

47/? Chapters 200k+ Words - Exp

rewind by rebelrayne

Time Travel AU where MC is taken back to redo her time in the Villa. Expect a funny and 'I-don't-give-a-fuck' protagonist.

24/31 Chapters - 76k+ Words - Teen & Up

Begin Again by fuseboxmusebox

Coffee Shop AU where Bobby works in a café and MC is one of his costumers. Based on Taylor Swift's song, "Begin Again."

12/? Chapters - 46k+ Words - Teen & Up

Sunflower by lass

Highschool AU. Bobby is the class clown, MC is the head cheerleader and one day they get paired up to do a project together.

24 Chapters - 92k+ Words - Mature

All the Pretty Faces by Sweet_Talk

MC enters the Villa as a bombshell instead of Priya. Even though she picks to couple with Ibrahim, she can't keep Bobby out of her head.

9/50 Chapter - 28k+ Words - Mature

From the Team 👋

Baby, kiss it better by crimswnred

AU set in the fictional town of North Point. Bobby and Barbara have been familiar for years, and Bobby's always had a crush he thought was unrequited ... until he finds out it wasn't.

15/40 Chapters - 77k+ Words - Mature

It Could Only be You by i-boop-you

Completed. Non-canon compliant rewrite of S2 in the Villa, with an entire month added on to the Summer. Slowest of Bobby slow burns.

127 Chapters - 650k+ Words - Explicit

King of the Castle by i-boop-you

Villa fic. Villain MC who enters Love Island with one goal in mind: winning. With a sugar-coated appearance, she couples up with the boy she deems to be 'the sweetheart' of the series, Bobby McKenzie.

29/? Chapters - 122k+ Words - Explicit

#litg #litg season 2 #litg bobby #litg fanfic #litg ff #litg fic recs #litg writers room #writers room

[thunderheadfred]

Life stuff update!

Haven't posted about this first bit anywhere because... wow personal, but it's been a majority chunk of life lately.

Husband put in his notice at his current teaching job a while back. He's been working there for 8 years and is supposedly one of their most valued teachers, yet he barely takes home $100 more per paycheck than when he started. Plus our insurance is insane, taking most of his check every month whilst covering literally fucking nothing (we are still paying off my doctor-ordered biopsy!). PLUS his commute is fucking ludicrous - in the winter he regularly drives over 3 hours a day to a shit job that doesn't pay anything. I barely see him for a hour or two each day during the school year.

Bio clock is ticking, just saying. Never really had that baby-wanting impulse until very recently, and there was absolutely zero possibility of us starting a family while he's at this job. No money, no time, no medical support.

So. Bye. After talking to a therapist to help us through the plunge, we finally decided enough was enough.

He doesn't have another job lined up after summer school, so in August we have zero certain income. Neither off us is particularly panicked about this; the hiring wave for fall teaching positions has yet to happen, and there are several things he can do even if he can't find a full-time job at a local district.

What's looking most likely is actually that he'll juggle part-time jobs for a while. Subbing or other work at a district he's interested in will help him get a foot in the door, meanwhile an afternoon or weekend cashier job at the co-op down the street (where I used to work) has some distinct benefits. First off, he could WALK to work, and the co-op offers higher hourly rates and better promotional opportunities than his current "salaried" teaching job. Add on a big discount at the place where we buy most of our groceries anyway...

Anyway. That's been a lot.

Meanwhile I've been doing the housewife thing. Which actually entails more than just "chores" - I've been doing a huuuuge amount of work on my mental and physical health. I've lost 40 pounds (with 60+ to go) and have completely changed my eating, which has helped immeasurably with CFS, Depression, and life in general. I've started socializing again after years of serious, life-altering anxiety. Basically, I'm getting my life back. Or maybe getting my life for the first time? I was so mentally ill for so long that this really feels like the first time I've been genuinely balanced... maybe ever?

Whether that new peace of mind encourages me back into fandom I have no idea. Fandom social mores seem to have shifted over the years. Maybe it's just the glimpses I see now and then, but the Internet as a whole doesn't seem too anonymous or even like... baseline compassionate for anyone anymore. That's probably a matter of what you make of it, but even so, I'd be lying if I said spending my time in fandom spaces hasn't lost most of its personal appeal. I've been much happier offline, so that's where I've been. I do miss my friends, and I wish they lived down the street and not inside the scary computron. It'd be great to write again, but my interest in fandom work might be over. I'll never say never, but right now I just don't see it. Maybe someday I finally get back into the habit; but it's gonna happen in its own time if it does.

Lately I've been working on my YouTube thing, though where that'll end up nobody knows. It's certainly not a serious money-making prospect, nor am I aiming to make it one. YouTube actually scares the ever-loving shit out of me, so it's pretty much a deliberate mental health exercise. My whole attitude toward it has been "stress less, make more." So I treat it kind of like a journal of the nail shit that has taken over my life (lolllll), and a chance to pay forward all the relaxation I've gotten over the years watching Nail YouTube. It'd be nice if I could eventually have enough subs to maybe pay for some nail supplies or get some free PR or something, but that's about as ambitious as I get.

Okay my fingers are tired

love you byyyyyeeeeeeeeee

#personal #life update

[unforth]

Alright instead of rageposting about white people perpetuating racism problems in cnovel/cdrama fandoms I've channeled my feels into cleaning up some shit I've been doing a bad job at maintaining and feeling horribly guilty about for months or even years. This is probably a healthier use of my current "fuck it." So, for reference, I've:

deleted the kink meme part of the DMBJ kink meme on AO3. This means that the prompts and sign ups and claims are now gone (I'm sorry I didn't give people time to save their prompts, but the reason I didn't do this months ago was that it had many steps and I was being useless about DOING those steps and as I said in the intro paragraph, I'm now at "fuck it" and like. if I can't do it "the right way" I'm today just breaking and doing it "the wrong way" and here we are). The collection and the ten stories in it still exists and anonymity and such are still maintained for people who wanted it, but new prompts and new fills cannot be submitted.

ditto the above for the kink meme part of the SPN kink meme on AO3. The prompts and sign ups and claims are now gone. I also removed myself administrating the Tumblr, though the other two people involved (fpwoper and envydean) do still have access. I realized belatedly that I really should have offered to just leave and let them have it but, again, today is apparently "fuck it" day which means I'm not thinking through the ramifications of my actions which has resulted in some bad fandom citizenry behavior on my part, and again, I truly do apologize. (I've offered to help them reconstruct the challenge part if either of them wants to run it; fpwoper has already said no, I'll see what envydean says and I'll apologize profusely even more and do what I can do fix things if envydean DOES want to take over and make it active again). The collection and the stories written for it still exist; that's about 40 works. Thanks to everyone who participated.

I left @saawek's Star of Solitude event, which I helped run a year and a half ago. Saawek hasn't really been active on Tumblr, but hun if you see this it's nothing at all about you or TGCF I'm just pulling back from things that even seeing them in my blog list has been causing me stress on the daily.

I formally announced that I'll be consolidating @zhenhunartreblogs and @dmbjartreblogs in @cnovelartreblogs, and I've posted to that effect in all three blogs. If you want Zhenhun/Guardian and DMBJ art content from my sideblogs, unfollow the old blogs and follow at cnovelartreblogs, and just black list fandoms you're not interested in - that's the whole reason I tag everything.

I deleted another side blog I haven't been using.

I'm considering deleting @memesforwriters, which I only update maybe once a month, and honestly just typing all this up has I think tipped me over into "fuck it" and I'm going to delete that too. I expect I'll instead reblog relevant memes to the @duckprintspress account, since I have to maintain that regardless.

My last remaining completely inactive Tumblr sideblog is where I'd posted on translated chapter the 2ha manhua. I really would like to be doing more work like that, though hell if I know when I'll have time; I renamed that blog to @unforthfantranslations, and I have vague hopes to translate more of 2ha and to tackle Lie Huo Jiao Chou (which I've never read any version of and would like to). But tbh I probably won't manage any progress on any of that until the fall.

Nothing like a pile of grief to make me say "I'm done feeling guilty about this stuff, like is too short, fuck it I'm gonna make these changes I've been waffling about for ages."

P. S. I opened another window to check how exactly I'd renamed the translation blog and while I had it opened I decided on a compromise with memesforwriters, which is that I'm exporting it, and THEN I'll delete it. And I DMed the Destiel Harlequin mods that I'm done and think we should shut it down. And I spotted a couple Discord servers I'm going to leave.

So yeah. that's the mood today in a (rather large and overly wordy) nutshell.

Apparently when I said yesterday that I'd be quiet, I failed to take into account how I ACTUALLY process grief. In my defense, this is only the...fourth?...time someone I really care about has died in my entire life. (counts of...Arthur, Gil, my grandfather, yeah that's three...of course other people I've cared about have died but no one who I loved and who I felt "I wish I had more time with this person." Like...I wish I'd had more time with Belle but I didn't love her...yeah I'm just babbling now I'm sorry I'm like this today.)

ETA: okay I just left like 6 Discord servers I haven't been using, too. There's only one I'm still like "maybe I shouldn't..." but I know a lot of people in that server and if I really want back in I can ask for invite.

#unforth rambles #and rambles and rambles and rambles #oops

[spiderman-homecomeme]

I posted 2,278 times in 2022

257 posts created (11%)

2,021 posts reblogged (89%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@karinaisloud

@cocoamoonmalfoy

@abc2411

@forasecondtherewedwon

@rejectofsociety

I tagged 1,164 of my posts in 2022

Only 49% of my posts had no tags

#spideychelle - 160 posts

#petermj - 159 posts

#ask games - 63 posts

#peter parker - 40 posts

#mj watson - 35 posts

#nwhspoilers - 28 posts

#yes - 26 posts

#anon - 25 posts

#yeah - 22 posts

#petermjane - 21 posts

Longest Tag: 98 characters

#it's also weird bc my art posts are always showing up in the tags at first but then disappearing??

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Smutty fic recs?

BOY HOWDY DO I

OOOOH yes!! here are some of my fav smut fics, some classics and some newer!

needless to say, all of these fics contain smut

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until the rainbow burns the stars out in the sky by @tvfanatic97-2 - honestly already one of my fav petermj fics. a porn-as-plot coming (heh) of age relationship study w on-again-off again petermj. it's *chef kiss* amazing

5/12 chapters

15k words

'Cause Girl You Earned It by @jenniboo311 - like!!! damn!! dom!peter in this is so so good, and the dynamic between the two is so wonderfully written

one-shot

4.5k words

Craving Your Touch by @anarchyduck - a little dom!mj!! as a treat!! peter gets blindfolded and thoroughly enjoys it :)

one-shot

960 words

Reckless Behavior by @spideysmjs - a friends to lovers where peter and mj are competitive about who's the best at oral. what ensues is hot and hilarious

one-shot

9.7k words

a peculiar offer by @spideyxchelle - mj asks peter for a favor, she wants to have a baby, and peter, being the excellent roommate and friend he is, offers to help. a sexy, and also very very sweet fic!!

one-shot

5.1k

Caught by @procrastinationpony - THIS FIC okay!! mj gets caught in peter's bed and it goes very well indeed !!

one-shot

3.4k

the way you make me feel by abusedtrademarkemoji - you may or may not need a minute to lie down after this one. the dirty talk and the slightly dom!peter is exquisite.

one-shot

3.9k

when you give that look to me (I better look back carefully) by @mjonesing - a fwb fic (that's due for an update EMILY) that i know is going to destroy me. another instance of porn as plot (or porn w plot that comes later, as em's tags say) that's fun and sexy!! and peter and mj are big ol' idiots in it. amazing.

4/10 chapters

18.9k

this coupon is good for... by flying_snowmen - a classic!! when will this fic return from the war? fair warning, it hasn't been updated since 2020, but it's still worth the read!! mj gives peter a coupon book for a gift, not realizing it's for sexy favors dsjlakfjd

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213 notes - Posted February 7, 2022

#4

Have I known you twenty seconds or twenty years?

218 notes - Posted January 1, 2022

#3

✨SQUISH✨

241 notes - Posted April 17, 2022

#2

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365 notes - Posted January 26, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Do you ever see a take so bad it makes you viscerally react to it? like imagine watching nwh, hell the whole home trilogy, and your only takeaway is that MJ was a “useless, boring character” or that she did nothing to help Peter?? Sorry you can't understand the fact that people don't need to have powers to help someone?

Because can we talk about this scene? 

Peter is wrought with guilt after everything that’s just happened. MJ holds his face as she tells him “we’re gonna get through this and we’re gonna get through this together.” She holds his hand. She comforts him. She just sits with him. 

It’s not always about being able to fight. It’s about emotional support. It’s about helping your friend/lover stay true to themselves even in moments of wild grief and anger. 

The other two spideys show up at first to SUPPORT PETER. Not to fight.

So many times throughout this movie, Peter’s loved ones (May, Ned, AND MJ) keep him grounded when everything is falling apart. 

if you honestly can’t see how important that is to Peter and you think it’s just about being a good sidekick, then you don’t understand the character.

MJ does this throughout the entire movie, and it’s from the very beginning; right after the identity reveal in the crowd, at Peter's apartment, on video chat, on the roof. And that's just in the first twenty or so minutes. 

She becomes the optimism he needs and makes him hope when he becomes jaded after May’s death. 

there is no Spider-Man without the people he loves and the impact they've had on him. And in the MCU, there is no Spider-Man without MJ, Ned, and May. Even with the ending, Peter carries May's moral compass, kind heart, and sense of responsibility; Ned's loyalty and humor; and Michelle's love and optimism, forward with him. He's able to continue being Spider-Man at the end because of May's words to him and because Ned and MJ are okay.

And I don’t even wanna get into the whole “MJ Watson’s not coming back/oh well she lost her memories!!” thing bc that itself is a post for another time.

819 notes - Posted January 1, 2022

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[samwiselastname]

Samwise Lastname Life Update (Negative)

I moaned and groaned in that selfie a bit already but like. I have many people who have offered to help me with many things. Truly thankful.

At the same time I've always been The Person with the stable job and full time wage, like, pretty much since I finished DBT halfway through college that's been my defining character trait. Even before then, it was "person who is a prime target for financial exploitation."

My current situation is a shared living space where I am covering about 4/5s of our expenses, by virtue of being able to mask my disability well enough to work full time. We are still coming up $400 short a month. I've just gotten assurance that should change, a housemate is seeking work, but. It hasn't changed yet, and even once it does, I will not feel secure until we have an emergency fund for housing, and I won't feel safe keeping any personal savings until that's settled. Which is a couple years out at this rate - even farther with some necessary home repairs, which will push our deficit even higher.

We only get takeout once a month at most, our expenses have been essential housewares and home improvement items - pest control, plumbing maintenance tools, repair supplies. A few hundred of that deficit is just repeat homeowner shit. We planted a garden this year which was an expense but, not exorbitant. I don't know how to cut down more without like. Eating less? Historically that approach has turned into dangerous weight loss & migraines pretty quick. As it is we're only spending about $100 more a month than the FDA's recommended frugal grocery plan.

I can stop buying alcohol & weed and save... about $10 a month. I could cancel some of my subscriptions and save $20-50. Anything I can cut back on at this point is not financially worth the detriment to my well-being, especially when things like "watching youtube on the TV" and "playing FFXIV" are like. Some of my only safe and passive low-pressure recreational activities.

Don't really know what to do about this other than keep grinding. I'm making myself sick. Tacking on any extra work - hobby creative pursuits that might one day turn into commercial creative pursuits, any amount of job hunting, even a shot at adult content creation - feels unbearable.

I am trying to stop "working overtime" because even the 40 hours fucks with my ability to do anything else. I tried to work around this by job searching and side hustling. Now all my hobbies feel like jobs and every day I'm not working on income feels like self-sabotage. It's stupid - I can get better compensation at my current job picking extra hours. At least when I do that I don't go into a neurotic spiral and stop sleeping. As much. It's at least effective.

So I have this limbo - working over 40 hours physically destroys me, and it's the only way to tip the scales at all right now. I know one can often get a pay raise by finding a new job but - yall the market sucks. I'm trying. I need full time remote WFH and good god is it bad out there. Plus my current insurance rn is killer - I have a 3k out of pocket max. My medical costs would outweigh the raise at any job I've successfully applied for thus far, because my current employer affords me this bizarrely fantastic health insurance with HSA deposits.

Just feel hopeless. If I've gone dark on you that's why. We have four months to get this shit fixed before we're totally fucked and I'm doing everything I can to buy us time.

#she is grumpy because she had to work 11 hours today without time-and-a-half for it #idk we might have a crowdfund up soon depending on how much help I'm actually able to get from my housemates