#a punch to the gut all of them

[bethanyeliseart]

I finally read the Rogue One novelization, and I'd like to have words with Mr. Alexander Freed about my emotional well-being after finishing this book.

#rogue one #rogue one novelization #my expectations were already high and he exceeded them #getting to know more about this cast of characters was amazing and just made me cry even more #k2 deciding to simulate a scenario where cassian lives?? #bodhi getting ready to go save jyn and cassian?? #jyn saying cassian was the most beautiful person she ever known?? #baze finding conviction in chirrut's prayer?? #a punch to the gut all of them #and I loved the extra communications we got between different people #star wars

[ghostlyarchaeologist]

Evolution of Eliot/Hardison hugs over the years.

And the one time that Eliot really needed a hug:

Leverage S02E08/S03E10/S04E01/S04E07/S04E10/S05E09/Leverage Redemption S01E16/S02E06.

#leverage #leverage redemption #eliot spencer #alec hardison #christian kane #aldis hodge #i swear eliot is like a feral kitten #starts off all hissing and spitting and 'i swear i will break your arm' #and to get them used to being handled you grab them and wrap them up tightly in a towel and just shower them with affection #they hate it at first but slowly they learn to accept it #and then they come to love it #the next thing you know you have an extremely affectionate cat who initiates the contact #who's favourite thing ever is to be sprawled on your lap purring their head off #i did not mean to write a thesis on this but here we are #and yeah i could have not added that last gif and saved you all a punch to the gut #but it was getting way too mushy in here! :) #*runs off chuckling back into my pit* #ghostly'sgifs

[luyo-mi]

the royals 👑

#I already know for a fact that hornton is gonna be one of those characters where i wanna kill myself everytime i draw him #its like i can't draw elegant guys at all #I like em rugged #and stupid #i need them to look like they'll eat the buttons off of my remote #like ruggie #but thats a topic for another day and time #twisted wonderland #malleus draconia #leona kingscholar #kinda rushed leona so ignore any mistakes or things that look of I beg #heh i just realized like rn that the leona's last name has king in it even tho he will never be one #thats gotta be a FAT ass punch to the gut

[raelyn-dreams]

Pretty 5 is so beloved bc we have:

Arashi "I dream of being a beautiful woman and also had explicit attraction to girls and my male teacher" Narukami.

Tori "I'm in love with my unit leader but he's in an arranged marriage to my sister and I feel selfish for wishing it was me" Himemiya.

Mika "I'm going to live with my beloved partner in Paris as a direct parallel to the life his queer grandfather never got to have" Kagehira.

Hiyori "I'm a princess in the units with the most fanservice imaginable and almost kissed my partner in an mv 3 times" Tomoe.

And Aira "I blush over idol fanservice and am a tsundere towards my unit leader and enamored with my former online friend" Shiratori

#my point being: they're all queer as fuck and i love them #pretty mission made me cry #eichi's whole same-sex marriage speech was such an emotional gut-punch jesus it was so good #plus the iconic “oshi-san's gettin' married? ...there could be death” #“'we' are not currently respected for our opinions” ara-neeeeeee #and of course every “jun-kun!” ever #aira thinks they're all insane which is fair but he's also their beloved kohai and he does still adore them #ensemble stars #enstars #ensemble stars music #pretty 5 #enstars pretty 5 #enstars circles #arashi narukami #tori himemiya #mika kagehira #hiyori tomoe #aira shiratori #gonna tag the implied ships which are #eitori #shumika #hiyojun #hiiai #kohaai #kohiiai #<- they're all such good ships btw i love them

[nantokanarusaa]

Ao no Flag (SERIES FINALE SPOILERS!!)

Seriously, don’t read this if you are planning to read Ao no Flag. That being said, go read the manga now!!

Finally finished reading Ao no Flag and I have so many feelings. Non-coherent, rambly, messy feelings. I was looking at reactions online and what mainly boggles me about the reactions to the final 2 chapters is people being “how is Taichi suddenly gay??” My friend living on this big planet he never was (he’s bi). He most likely just realized it later in life. Did the events of his 3rd HS year help him figure it out? Heck yes. Is he suddenly bi? No.

Not all queer people pop out into this world and instantly know they are queer. Heck, it took me 23 years to figure that out. It’s not like Taichi instantly realized he likes Touma and started dating him. He knew Touma mattered to him somehow, but it took him multiple years to realize how, as evident by him maybe starting his relationship with Touma after 5 years when Touma contacted them all. He gained life experience and grew.

People go through a lot of learning, unlearning and growing. Especially if you are outside of societal expectations and norms. Taichi grew up learning to and wanting to blend in with society. “Be normal, don’t stand out too much”. Add to that low self-confidence and you feel stuck. Feel like there is only black and white. only one right answer to life. It can be very difficult to look out of this dark box, trust me, I had a tough time and sometimes still do. But it feels like Taichi thought and thought and pondered even back in high school and came to the decisions that he did.

And isn’t that what the series is about? growing as a person, making mistakes, learning, allowing yourself to be visible and vulnerable, and eventually, making choices, even if they don’t make sense to anyone else, and continuing to do so?

These two pages really hit me hard and I was wondering why. And then it hit me. This is possibly the happiest I’ve seen Taichi be since his childhood. Like genuinely happy. He’s reached max happiness points and is sharing those with Touma. He’s made his choices, and he’s happy. You can and are allowed to choose what or who makes you happy.

That’s all that matters.

#ao no flag #blue flag #blue flag manga #toumatai #is there a point tagging it as spoilers? might as well #ao no flag spoilers #blue flag spoilers #he ending and series in general does have it's flaws but it has become a near and dear one to me #anyways isn’t it amazing how different people have different perspectives and that how you have lived your life changes those #Taichi be gazing at Touma for multiple panels and people be like aww friendship :“) #the way the omamori was want jerked him out of his rage? heck the way he treasured it? their whole conversation on the beach #HE WAS GENUINELY CONSIDERING TOUMA'S FEELINGS FOR HIM!?! NO STRAIGHT GUY WILL EVER PONDER THAT MUCH #i'm alright #also all the hand holing symbolism which im sure other people have talked about better #which also raises the point: let kids express themselves freely without putting gender roles on them #god the hand hold rejection from Touma as a kid was a gut punch #last thing #KAITO HOW DARE YOU NOT SHOW US GROWN UP TOMA AND TAICHI TOGETHER #I WANT TO HAVE A CIVIL CONVERSATION WITH YOU #ok that was long thanks for reading if you have?? <3 #my feeling for this series are immense #oh have i mentioned its from JUMP!? of all the publications??? #granted jump plus gives the creators a lot more freedom but still?? a bi protag?? with a gay main charecter along with multiple queer #confirmed or coded characters? #dint think it could be real #kurosaki rambles #PS i want Ao flag to get a boom in popularity again so that we can get an anime adaptation #if done well and respectfully it will have so much potential #if done well and respectfully it can have so much potential

[bittersweetresilience]

for strange and unknowable reasons i have spent the past seven and a half hours making this emotional catharsis amv instead of sleeping. my personal love letter to the art that has changed me over the years.

homestuck / avatar: the last airbender / everything everywhere all at once / soul / homestuck / infinity train / koe no katachi / gravity falls / up / frozen / blue planet / the prince of egypt / night in the woods / the good place / everything everywhere all at once / blue planet / wonders of the universe / night in the woods / monument valley / monument valley / homestuck / journey / the good place / infinity train / homestuck / koe no katachi / gravity falls / infinity train / omori / avatar: the last airbender / everything everywhere all at once / blue planet / the prince of egypt / homestuck / spider-verse / monument valley / journey / homestuck / frozen / moana / mulan / avatar: the last airbender / kung fu panda / frozen / avatar: the last airbender / omori / everything everywhere all at once / gravity falls / kung fu panda / my little pony / infinity train / omori / how to train your dragon / soul / frozen / up / journey / koe no katachi / omori / undertale / infinity train / gravity falls / monument valley / àiqíng gōngyù / soul / the good place

#🌃 #almost all my favorite scenes from almost all my favorite media #and then some because they can't all be gut punches. only most of them... #anyway this is basically the extended version of my webweave but without words #and once more specifically catered to what i find emotional and meaningful in art. an about me of sorts #homestuck #avatar: the last airbender #everything everywhere all at once #soul #infinity train #a silent voice #gravity falls #up #frozen #blue planet #the prince of egypt #night in the woods #the good place #wonders of the universe #monument valley #journey #omori #spiderverse #moana #mulan #kung fu panda #my little pony #how to train your dragon #undertale #ipartment

[softpine]

This might be juvenile, but do you have any tips on not comparing yourself to others? (Especially when it comes to note count or popularity.) I’ve been posting a story for over a year and it hardly gets any traction. It’s tough for me to see new creators post and get hundreds or even thousands of notes. I hate that I’m doing this but don’t know how to quit it!

this is not juvenile!! i struggle with this myself, especially knowing that i hit my peak years ago and i've been on the decline ever since – but only by numbers alone! i'm more proud of my story than i've ever been, i'm more attached to my characters, i'm putting more love and thought into everything, but i had to be realistic with myself and understand that i'll never pull even half the notes i did in 2020. gone are the days when i would wake up to 3 new anons about my story and dms from people every day (i can't believe i used to get overwhelmed by it...) and i would be lying if i said it didn't make me sad sometimes, because we're humans and our brains are practically wired to crave the hit of happy chemicals you get from seeing the stupid number go up 😭 it does feel demotivating. it makes me feel less urgency to post quicker if i convince myself that no one is waiting for me anyway, which means i post less, which means even less people stick around, which makes me post less, and on and on. it's a tough thing for me to come to terms with in all honesty.

but it helps to remember that i would be writing even if no one is reading. and i know that, because i have! i've written entire novel-length fics that i've never published, i've written countless short stories in the frozen pines universe that i'll never post, i've created alternate universes that will never be shown, etc. i do it because the idea is in my head and it needs to Get Out and i'm kinda just a conduit for that. that might not apply to you, and that's okay! everyone is different. the important thing is to really sit down and think about WHY you write and what you get out of it. which part of the process makes you happiest? what makes you feel a sense of fulfillment / satisfaction? play to your strengths. try not to spend your time doing things you think other people will enjoy and instead, spend more time on the things that make you happy. for me, i haaaaate editing and i always have, so lately i've been trying to speed through it a little bit quicker even if it means the final product won't be as appealing to others. (this is still a work in progress for me...) i have more fun when i experiment with different writing styles, which might not appeal to others because it takes longer and i don't really have a recognizable style, but i don't care anymore because i'm having fun! ask yourself what YOU want from your story, and then write for yourself and only yourself.

essentially what i'm saying is: there will ALWAYS be people more popular than you, and there's no guarantee that when you find the popularity you seek, you'll be able to keep it. so you need to find some sort of intrinsic motivation to continue or you'll just keep comparing yourself to others forever and you'll deny yourself the joy of creation! "comparison is the thief of joy" could not be more true!!

#this might be the most honest i've been lmao #i guess i've been thinking about it more after i posted a poll a while ago asking about something that happened in a story post #one of the options was ''i don't read your story i just wanted to click a button'' and so many people clicked that #not to be dramatic it just sort of feels like a gut punch when you realize that even the likes you DO get aren't all from readers #they're from people who want to click a button / show support / wish they had time to read but can't / etc #and like. of course!! i'm not a hypocrite - i like story posts without reading them too because we only have so much time in a day #but ever since then i've been trying to just say fuck it. i'm here for ME #i literally put my simself into my story because idgaf anymore. i've found my reason for writing and it isn't notes or engagement #those are awesome and i will always be grateful when i do get those things #but it's not my reason for being here anymore #lowkey i'm here because my story saved my life but that's not an easy thing to explain in an advice question fskjdsjd #asks #anonymous #nonsims #brandi answers

[awesometothe3rd]

#miss scarlet and the duke #msatd #msatdedit #eliza scarlet #patrick nash #scarnash #eliza x patrick #miss scarlet #elizascarlet #missscarletedit #flashing gif cw #I think this moment was my aha I'm a real deal shipper scene for them #I mean I always loved their chemistry and fun banter from start so it was lowkey there for awhile #But this scene brings a level of vulnerability between the two characters we hadn't really seen yet #Him opening up to Eliza about his past only to have her rebuff the attempt because she assumes it's just another one of his ploys? #What a gut punch. And you can see it written all over his face. He's hurt but at the same time he really only has himself to blame for it. #And part right after this where Eliza realizes her mistake and that she'd misjudged him? Then the silent look of understanding between them #Well that sealed it for me.

[yandere--stuck]

Shakes you. Yan!TFP!Ratchet being in denial about having feelings for a human.

#yandere tfp #tfp x reader #yandere ratchet #ratchet x reader #yandere transformers #Out of all the bots imo he seems the most distant towards humanity #like he likes them! they're nice enough and he's all for protecting them #but he doesnt see himself becoming especially close or attached. at least not as close as his fellow cybertronians #I'm only on season 1 so it'll probably change over time but still!!! #the gut punch when he realizes he's fallen for a *human* and trying to ignore and deny bc he cant be!!! itd never work!

[hum--hallelujah]

honestly if I were ever to throw the Suitehearts into any of my Killjoys stuff the dynamic would literally be the stupidest thing in the world. you do not want to have the Four and those guys together in any setting. it's a recipe for disaster. Jet and Benzedrine bitch and bicker like old ladies. telepathic warfare is waged via a complex language of glares and eyebrow movements between everyone in the room. Sandman makes a wholeheartedly joking comment to Ghoul like "I want to study you in a lab" and Kobra Kid gives him a black eye on the spot. Crab and Donnie end up playing hide n seek with the Girl until someone else who isn't aware of the game accidentally dumps a whole dude out of their hiding spot on accident and then gets elbowed for it. everyone hates each other but they're also kind of pals in the way that people who occasionally help each other out but don't see each other outside of that can be. that kind of thing

#they're SOOO insane everyone hates each other but they're also bros. do you get me? #I have a couple random fic concepts where they have to help each other out and Jet literally has to mediate so much bs #like we do not have sandkid in this house. those two are trying to maim or murder each other at all times. #I feel like there's times that one or both of them has to be physically restrained. #party loves em. hates all of their guts but loves em. #IDK MAN the mental image of sandman making a dumb comment to ghoul bc he just. jokes around like an idiot as his default #and kobra just instantly sucker punching him for it... vivid mental images fr #I also think in my universe the 'hearts are a traveling circus (in that they're all frickin clowns lol) and just go wherever they're needed #as far as the idea that benzedrine is like A Doctor yknow? bc I am in fact taking that angle #he was like a resident med student in the city and crap went down and made him a little bit off his rocker and he ran for the Zones #and sandman was born out there and just. found this odd new guy intriguing. #donnie and crab are related in some way. crab is mute (nobody knows if it's selectively or for physical reasons). donnie #is kinda the brawn of the group. he will physically restrain any of the others if they're getting out of hand. it's wild #she speaks! #danger days

[wantbytaemin]

my beautiful friends recommending songs.. There’s literally nothing better on this earth.

#im SO HAPPY i have some new absolute faves already #like. all three of teo’s songs (esp tonem u noć & idealan tim) and the dawn songs man i have to listen to that album. abyss felt like a #punch to the GUT (biggest compliment i could give a song btw) #AND DISGUISE HELLOOO SOOOO GOOD (nat if ur reading this MWAAAAHHH your contributions are SO GOOD) #also mira & losing game both of which i’d never heard before and mira left me DUMBFOUNDED i gotta listen to more Lexie liu #also end of tha world pt 1 added to likes immediately it’s So fucking good #and black hibiscus as an artist i am SO getting into. both the songs exactly what i love to hear #AND AHWAK HIBA HIIIII i gotta listen to that whole album too. if there’s more where that came from pls rec more of those btw 💖💖💖 #that’s about as far as i got w listening to them all but my heart is literally exploding w how happy this makes me FOR REAL 🥹 #you all have such wonderful diverse tastes and it is SUCH a gorgeous experience to get to listen!

[femmeroi]

I bet Asuka has the capability to be silly like Fubuki, unfortunately we only see her during the worst moments in her life

#asuka tenjoin #ygo #I think a lot about her season 4 spotlight episodes bc they were very good episodes but it was also a gut punch #Thinking about the time she got her friends together for a group cosplay- she could have silly fun if the fate permits it #Unfortunately she had to go to duel academy and watch people die #I don't like her outfits here but its okay I love her anyway #Why is every GX character so good I don't have enough time to love them all as much as they deserve auuugh #my art

[1randomperson15]

I am. in my feelings today about the dsmp cc drift. Did it have to turn out this way? Was there another option? Was this inevitable? I don't think that anyone's really happy about how things turned out, but I don't think we can ever go back. Man...

#dsmp #yea I'm fucking main tagging #I can mourn friendships #that fell apart under the harsh scrutiny of millions of people #I'm so so bitter #I try not to be #y'know I try to move on #I still kinda keep up with what q's doing #what dream's doing #vaguely #I'm not too into any of them anymore but I watch and accept that things can't go back to the way they were but #I miss it so bad #when they were all friends #george's video was a gut punch #I hate what it's become #I hate that nobody learned shit #every community hates another one #all the fucking interfighting #all the superiority complexes #you know how parasocial some people are to creators whose content they've never watched #you know how many people I see celebrating or hoping for so and so's downfall #you know how much bad faith exists #I have no doubt there were some personal issues that came into play for the drift #but #I think it's pretty undeniable that the absolute horrid behavior of some in the community played a role in all of it #y'know I bet I'm not the only one #I bet Tubbo Fundy and Sam got to bond over redstone back in the day #I know dream mentored tommy when he was still up and coming #bad is undoubtedly stuck between friends #cont. in replies bc apparently there's a tag limit now :D

[tokopng]

penis music.

#i love that they just get to hang around this kid and get gut punched by them on the regular like this 👍 #they are all so tired. #oc ayah #oc vertigo #oc atlas #oc lyric #doodles

[kalakilo]

me trying to come up with literally ANY type of explanation to the aous ending that wouldnt mean what it most obviously means because i am so devastated

#ive seen some people say it kind of ruins the film for them #and in a sense i can see how the ending could go different ways as well #but. idk to me it just served like the final gut punch #also??? idk if this is mental but to me another possibility is that harry couldve done it the night adam went to show him his parents house #thats actually how i sort of interpreted it whilst i was in the cinema #but maybe thats also because i didnt want to accept the common interpretation. its too much #and whether it be that harry also re-experiences his death or adam chooses to embrace his ghost like both are devastating to me #because grief is not easy at all!!!!!! so like to say that adam starts grieving harry then is also just😭😭😭😭sad asfuck #but it could also very well be him sort of reassuring harry like he did his parents. how he tells them both that they went quick even though #his mom didnt. so adam reassuring harry with 'youre not in there' and asking him to go upstairs could be him letting go as well #but no fr there is no way to me that none of that was real. #god i am truly so devastated. i just fucking rewatched aftersun why do i do this to myself #lol anyway! #all of us strangers

[crossbackpoke-check]

Substance, Shadow, and Spirit [remixed, abridged] by Tao Yuanming

#liv in the replies #patrice bergeron #boston bruins #brad marchand #do you ever think about how brad marchand said that when bergy retired he would retire or are you capable of normal thought i'm not at all #please say a gratitude for both my sanity& y'all that this poem (which has been saved in my camera roll with the vague idea of using it for #??? ​long) & not one of the poems i had saved for carey for a really long time & remixed & everything with another poem until i found a poem #that absolutely murdered me in cold blood but there is an alternate universe where i did& then had to explain my unhinged thoughts to you. #anyway how are we feeling about bergy retirement. pspspspsp sara & luna are y'all doing okay like. the doc title for this one was #patrice the hockey player means a lot to me but patrice the person means so much more #which is why the end line of the other poem was so *%"@^)! (you love / what you are) because patrice does. like he is a whole ass good huma #& now since no one asked i need to tell you all the details about everything also y'all please clap i made an edit with NO baby pictures #although i did find one & save it & minimal genres of photo i always use in edits because they're my taste & aesthetic but anyway. #when i saved the first photo and marked it as one i wanted i accidentally wrote “how will he know they love him” which is not the line but #makes me feel feral about patrice & the rest of them all had hurtful names too but also. the third picture is literally a CELLY like brad #just scored a goal & he is clinging to bergy for dear life with that shit i saved that as “oh the agony on his face for unendurable” #& yes it is one of my cliches to have a draft day picture but in my defense the lifelong bond that patrice has/d with boston deserved to be #there even if i put in the love story & YES that picture is from the 2011 playoff right below it shared joy & pain & i couldn't tell you #when the brad marchy photo for together forever is except for the fact that i saw it & just the gut punch of oh my god the way he looks at #things men will praise you for is the stanley cup. duh. but i love the contrast of “some deed” being the stanley cup but then #bergy's choice to do noble deeds (ends up still earning praise &that's my note to his efforts outside of hockey we love a supportive captai #should also mention the first two i came up with & had the photos i knew i wanted for were the first and last one alskaldk but i KNEW i #wanted chara somewhere in the paragraph about leaving & then while i was looking found the one of bergy playing tuukka on accident & yes #i do have to make goalie jokes every time. no reprieve . no dice/no deal/no goal goalies have no rest/reprieve etc etc the one that killed #me though was looking for a patrice award pic & i wanted basically the one that i got for “how will you know any will praise you” & instead #also got the picture of patrice winning the some community hero award for charity work that he does & i love him mama & of COURSE that puck #is from bergy's 1000 game who do you think I am (if you guessed sleepy and emotional about patrice you'd be right) and ALSO please be ready #for all the patrice posts/bruins posts that have been sitting in my drafts to be released on this occasion of patrice retirement #I FORGOT TO MENTION THAT TUUKKA ALSO RETIRED THAT’S WHY HE WAS ON WISE OR SIMPLE NO REPRIEVE AND THAT LATE OR SOON WAS ALWAYS GOING TO BE #CHARA BECAUSE CHARA LEFT FIRST TO GO TO THE CAPS AND THEN LEFT IN RETIRMENT HE LEFT SOON BUT NOT FOR REAL THEN LATER LEFT FOR REAL (RETIRED)