#a shared hallucination

[robyn-goodfellowe]

ANYONE who has experienced hallucinations for any reasons can reblog this. i dont care if youre psychotic or if youve just taken hella drugs im just curious.reblog this if you can. thanks :)

be normal on my post or ill put you in the labyrinth btw

#i dont know what to tag this so im not tagging this as anything but if this could be reblogged i would appreciate it :) #for me its olfactory i cant stand it. its the one i have the most and its not as stressful as SOME OTHER STUFF but its so . IHATE IT #also DO NOT FEEL OBLIGATED to share what causes yours. im not sharing mine you guys can figure out the lore its e z #polls #delete later #hallucinations

[cemeterything]

we want to know about your near death experiences, please tell us of your near death experiences

erm. gonna put them under a cut in case it's too much for anyone lol (since it's kinda personal, i'm not going to pull my punches in describing how i felt, and i know not everyone's comfortable with discussions of death and near-death)

- took nearly 3 days to be born because my mom refused a cesarean and was nearly a month premature. don't know if this one counts because i was a baby but apparently they were pretty worried about my chances of survival towards the end and when i was born i was sickly and in a lot of pain for months.

- fell down the stairs multiple times when i was a kid, suffered several concussions and fractures and developed vertigo that gave me a phobia of heights i eventually grew out of. again not sure if this counts since i barely remember it but i do remember the feeling of cracking my head once and boy it's not fun. it's like cracking an egg but the egg is your skull. also remember having a lot of dreams of jumping off the top of the stairs and my consciousness separating from my body and watching it fall because of this.

- nearly drowned because i swam too far out to sea on holiday and got caught up in a massive tidal wave (it was the baltic sea in poland, on a very windy day, and i was 8 years old and an idiot). i'd just accepted that i was going to die stuck in this current i couldn't escape and given up on being afraid, embracing the cold dark tidal embrace of death, when the wave very gently set me down in the shallows and i was so at peace that i almost forgot to sit up and breathe. left a big impression in me. i did not tell my parents what happened because i was okay with it and didn't want to upset them or deal with them fussing over me or giving me hell for taking stupid risks when i didn't need it.

- got hit by a car on my bike and flipped over the hood. was fine except for bruises and scrapes but while in the air briefly freaked out and thought i could see a halo of fire around the driver's head (probably the sun shining through the rear window).

- nearly died of dehydration while infected with a very nasty bout of flu that kept me in bed for 2 months straight. i passed out on the floor of my kitchen while trying to lift a cup to pour myself a drink and would have probably at the very least ended up with severe complications if my cat hadn't wailed over my body until my mom woke up and found me lying there. while passed out i had this horrible nightmare that i was god reincarnated in a mortal body and got really upset because i didn't want to be responsible for the entirety of humanity because it was too much and i was only 15. was extremely relieved when my mom revived me and explained that i was just really fucking sick. ended up in hospital with an iv in my arm to prevent my body from shutting down on itself until the flu burned out enough for my own organs to stop fighting me.

- tombstoned off the lighthouse in the bay with some sort of friends and very fucking narrowly missed a shelf of rock that would have shattered me to pieces if i hadn't twisted out of the way moments earlier. as it rushed towards me i very much saw my life up to that point flash before my eyes and was really disappointed by how little i'd done with it. didn't actually do much about it for a while though because i was a depressed unmedicated teenager in a bad living situation. pretty sure that kid would be amazed by how far i've come since then though.

- pretty sure i only survived a bus crash because moments before it happened i felt this urge to stand up and did. if i hadn't my head would have gone through this metal bar on top of the seats and my neck probably would have been broken.

- got lost in a woodland area by google maps once and got so dehydrated from the heat and blood loss (due to trying to cut through thorn bushes when i got desperate enough to get scared) that i started hallucinating this shimmery figure i couldn't look at directly following me and chasing me every time i started to give up (somehow i just knew that letting them touch me would be very bad, but they didn't feel malevolent? i was scared but i didn't get the impression that they wanted to hurt me, just that it would be a consequence of letting them touch me). got rescued because i screamed so loud that some passing hikers heard and went in and pulled me out of there. again not sure if this one counts as near death but i was wandering in there for hours and felt like i was going to die.

#death #injury #unreality #<- for discussion of hallucinations #drowning mention #car crash mention #might delete this idk if im comfortable with sharing it but we shall see lol

[vyacinths]

months long sleepover at the noceda household

#mostly amity bc i just figured out how i like to draw her 💫💫 #also the heights in this are. so off #is amity taller than willow or did i hallucinate that #im also pretty sure gus is significantly shorter than that :') #also i rly like the amity n hunter drawings here #idk i wish they had elaborated on their relationship more in thanks to them bc i feel like they have a lot of bff potential #like they still take every opportunity to slander eachother #but understand the others situation and past in a way the rest of their friends dont #JUST. JSKDJRJEL #i have sm thoughts on the hexsquads dynamics with each other and no one to share it with and i am Going To Explode #but yayyy friends #the owl house #toh #the owl house fanart #toh fanart #amity blight #luz noceda #willow park #hunter toh #hunter noceda #gus porter #vee noceda #love the noceda siblings sm. mwah mwah mwah #digital art #lumity #in the corner sjjdkdl

[makeoutstopcrime]

the way lucy is looking at him while he is COOKING THEM PANCAKES!!!! I’ve dreamed of days like this

#ARE WE ALL HAVING A BIG SHARED HALLUCINATION #LIKE YALL ARE SEEING THESE PICS TOO RIGHT #chenford #the rookie #the rookie spoilers

[rosalinesurvived]

Brothers

#his beautiful features??? #ango you have smth to share with the class? #everyone fucking ignore ango calling chuuya brown-haired ok ok he’s hallucinating he’s been working for years and he’s never had a break #paul verlaine #sakaguchi ango #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #dead apple #bsd #bsd fifteen #chuuya nakahara #chuuango

[subtract-me-from-your-heart]

I think it's weird people are talking about those who died didn't have enough "will to live."

Look, sometimes in life you make it because others are helping you. Sometimes you make it because you're strong, or smart, or skilled. Sometimes you make it just because you're lucky. And sometimes no matter how much the odds are stacked in your favor, there's nothing you can do.

Death does not discriminate. Just because we saw more of the main characters doesn't mean anyone else in the story had a lesser will to live. S1 there was a guy who was fighting to get back to his wife and baby. To think he had less of a will to live than Arisu, who was suffering from survivor's guilt and trying to decide if he even deserved to live? Super weird take.

The whole point is to live life to the fullest, because tomorrow is never promised. No matter how badly you want it to be.

#alice in borderland #sky in the borderland #sky gets deep #plus like #breaking it down in that way really cheapens all of the sacrifices that were made by some characters so other characters could live #i like to think of it as a mass shared hallucination #or a group field trip to Purgatory #they were fighting for their lives IRL and in the spiritual world

[captainhysunstuff]

In a three-legged race, Light and L as a team post-handcuffs would either crush it in record time or be absolutely terrible and rushed to the hospital.

#death note #light yagami #L #three legged race #both scenarios are hilarious in my head #i personally lean towards the former since they’re drives to win would override their friction and surprise everyone #like in a dumb Shonen Jump crossover event they effortlessly win the race against a bunch of super powered freaks #they all got beat by some powerless super nerds and no one can freaking believe it #or perhaps that’s the shared hallucination they have while they’re being taken away by the ambulance *snort* #this idea has a permanent place in my head. has a soundtrack and everything. #sports #my post

[cccotard]

alright gonna be so ill about this scene rq and why its so incredibly amazing for Kanna’s character

Kanna understands the power of emotions and how it can drive people to do things they normally wouldn't, while other characters cannot quite grasp the concept. She's the only one confirmed going through it with hallucinations, (Sara, Keiji, and arguably Shin,) but isn't letting them deter her in any way, and in fact accepts the people who died trying to protect her and is living for her; which is obviously not the case with the other three.

Sara lets the memory of Joe completely consume her in chapter 2, and in the emotions route, while she no longer struggles with hallucinations of Joe, it's still evident that his death changed her motivations. This is different from Kanna, who already learned this lesson with her sister’s death in chapter 1-2; she learned from Reko and Sara to not let her sister’s death completely consume her and then learned from Shin's death how to recognize what compelled them to sacrifice themselves for her

The difference doesn't seem like a lot but it’s 'living for yourself, learning your strength from the people who loved you and could see it when you couldn't' vs 'living to not have someone's sacrifice in vain' y’know? It says a lot about Sara and Kanna's self worth in relation to the deaths of their loved ones.

Looking at Shin, while his hallucinations are more implied, I think it's fair to believe that at the Very Least he would struggle with delusions revolving Kanna's death.

^This scene specifically showcasing how if its not struggling with the reality of Kanna’s death, he’s ignoring it to cope. It’s easier to pretend the people he has to be allies with didn’t have as big of a role in her death as they did. - (this dialogue from Shin and Keiji is some of my favorite but that’s for another day)

Back to the topic at hand, after Kanna's death, Shin's motivations completely shift. One of my favorite scenes in 3A is when the gang uses the elevator for the first time and whichever one Sara decides to use, Shin uses the opposite. Of course, this can read as him just being petty, but before this, Shin typically followed people with high percentages- he usually wouldn't go somewhere for the first time by himself unless he goes with someone with a high percentage, or at least scoped out by someone with a higher percentage. This is such a character defining moment because this illustrates  he is no longer desperate for his own survival. 

Chapter 3 and on, Shin is only motivated by revenge. Revenge for Kanna, revenge for everything he's lost. His motivations went from 'cheat the death game, beat the odds. just survive, fuck everyone else' to 'revenge for Kanna, I don’t care if I die anymore, just as long as these people go down with me, how dare these people kill someone innocent' (how logical of him to throw his own survival....) 

And finally Keiji- Keiji, like Kanna, went into the introduction scene already struggling with the death of a loved one, but he went into it knowing how to suppress his emotions way better. He, of course, lost Mr Policeman a while before the death game and is not a 14 yr kid who just lost her sister. Arguably, Keiji is one of the most, if not is the, most logical character in the game. He does a lot of cruel things for the sake of his, or someone he care's abouts’ survival - which is why he is able to vote for Kanna, or go behind Saras back for all the card trading in mg 2. Both cruel, but both helped him and Sara's chances of survival.

Keiji lost a kind part of himself after Mr. Policeman’s death. I'm not saying he’s evil, or cant feel emotions, but he is kind of .. empty. He’s been going through this death game motivated by his primal urge to survive. The only times his emotional side comes out is when his grief is pulled out and is used against him, like with Everything with Midori in 3A or all the gun discussions. Which due to the suppression of this grief and him not healing from Mr. Policeman’s death, it completely overwhelms and consumes him.

Joe, Kanna, and Mr.Policeman's deaths all communicated to the people that wanted to save them that they were Too Weak to save them. Something they did, or failed to do, caused their death. It is Sara/Shin/Keiji’s fault. 

And now why Kanna's 'Kind Hallucinations' are amazing - she's the only character to willing to accept her weakness, and realize that she is surviving because the people before her saw her strength. Kanna knows she’s stuck in a death game and has little-to-no control over almost everything around her. But despite that, she stands up to characters like Midori in chapter three, not because of Shin or Kugie, but because she is strong; she is doing it for herself, and of course she has the world's best cheerleaders behind her, if only in spirit.

#i posted this on twt but i thought i should share here because it was fun to write #i was going through the wiki and saw this cg labeled smth like 'kanna and her kind hallucinations' and i was like REAL? #i remembered the cg but like . i thought shin and kugie were there for like artsy fartsy reasons #not that they were hallucinations r u kiddin me !!!!! #insanity #i used to do a lot of yttd analysis dunno if i posted them here or not but wth y not post this here #lemme know if u want more or analysis on specific characters or scenes because im insane #i used to be smart about these things but i took a year and a half break when i didnt know how to read but i am back #yttd #your turn to die #kimi ga shine #yttd analysis #your turn to die analysis #kanna kizuchi #shin tsukimi #kanna yttd #Sara Chidouin #keiji shinogi

[ragsy]

my fallout brain parasites have returned and i've been struck with the need to make a fallout au of my ocs, including detailed character portraits, attributes, skills, and perks, and i know for a fact that i'm not doing ALL of that but maybe if i post this here i'll hold myself accountable.

#ragsycon exclusive #i'm in the mood cycle period of 'wants to draw. has energy to draw. won't have either of those in half an hour if i don't do something NOW' #fishwoman would be a mirelurk king that inexplicably has human-like intelligence #kenneth would be a vault dweller whose vault put everyone in shared-suburbia-hallucination VR pods similar to tranquility lane #but his glitched out and put him in a weird surreal hellscape separate from the other members of the pod world #sloane would be a mercenary and/or mutant hunter. undecided if her monster arm would be a mutation thing or a mad science thing #mark would be infected by a novel strain of FEV that turns him into a dog-like mutant #i've thought about this all day #and only just now have had a chance to write it down

[guardian-instincts-bad]

and the finished version of my moroleth art!

decided to keep this one fairly simple, but enjoy some pensive art of my queer punk former nightmare former aetherblade eventual sylvari commander (he/they, kid has such a history), post a rotsap attack that left him chronically (and visibly) ill for several years

#im always like hey i should tell people about mye and moroleth and then im like where to fucking begin #do you have three hours? #but yeah no long story short this is my co commander with my friend's commander the two shared a dream and have always been very close #but there was an extremely dramatic falling out in the early years and it took a while to get back to where they are now #(she still saved his life when this happened even though they were not at all on the same page at the time) #(but then as soon as he woke up they got into an even bigger argument and he walked out which did nooooot help the whole recovery thing) #(and then the next time they met was in tower of nightmares! :D) #(wherein he was attempting to defect from the aetherblades) #(bc he'd realised at that point scarlet was willing to hurt way more people than he was) #(but like. fun hypothetical! if you are in ToN and you run into your evil best friend and they say they're on your side now) #(and also they still look like they're dying even though it's been months) #(how long does it take before you stop dismissing it as a hallucination?) #gw2 #gw2 ocs #sylvari #moroleth #mine #my art

[nugothrhythms]

"Ingraliste" by Cologne, Germany-based deathrock act Kadeadkas off of 2019 album HalluciNation

#death rock #deathrocker #deathrock girl #deathrockers #Kadeadkas #Igraliste #HalluciNation #music #first share #2019 #Cologne Germany #female singer #German goth #German deathrock #European deathrock #2010s goth #2010s deathrock #Bandcamp

[homosexualslug]

between volcano shake 'em up, morbius and goncharov this website's ability to collectively commit to a bit is astounding. you just cannot get this type of gaslighting any other place.

#rip twitter but you will never have what she has (shared mass hallucinations and lore between all your users) #.txt #goncharov #volcano shake em up #morbius

[unicorngunter]

Every time i think about enjoltaire it alters my brain chemistry

#Ill be going around with my daily stuff and then my brain do this Lord Farquaad teasing gesture and goes #A cynic in love with a revolutionary! #This guy who dont believe in anything have one religious obsession! #They died holding hands #And then i have to process for a minute that it was actually it the book and not a synchronised fandom hallucination #And im so happy that exr have so many beautifully created art #i dont know how id manage living if i read this masterpiece and then had nobody to share this with #My brainworms acts weird every time i think of them #Maybe its because im a little bit envy of grantaire cause i feel him so much sometimes

[quietwingsinthesky]

I don’t know why I am the way I am, but I feel like starting to watch the CW hit show supernatural, where men cry all pretty and get beaten up and kissed or possessed against their will a whole lot, as an impressionable preteen may have been part of it.

#and also absorbing the Lucifer/Sam plotline directly into my brain. just snorting that shit straight up. #like. okay. watching Sam hallucinate and get scared and flinch and make himself smaller around Lucifer and younger me going. #‘Hm! I am feeling some kind of way about this! No idea what it is yet but hope it isn’t awakening anything in me!’ #and then surprise it awoke things in me #I am Normal about supernatural. I am Normal about Sam Winchester. I swear. #i am Normal about him and do not have a deep desire to watch Lucifer [REDACTED INFORMATION]. I’m sooo normal about him #tw noncon #I should. I should probably delete this in the morning. yeah. #<3 I am sharing too much on the internet again oh well. noncon kink samifers unite (akshfjlsjd I think it might just be me) #look away dev

[b-dwolf]

will not be surprised if next buddipher or just buck and chris scene we get is them having a movie night, considering we’ve already gotten chris doing his homework at bucks + helping him bake cookies for his class….

again how was this episode real?

#911 on fox #eddie diaz #evan buckley #christopher diaz #buddipher #my family #convinced this is one massive hallucination we all collectively shared #buddie #otp: you two have an adorable son

[wantbytaemin]

ana did u really put the taetits as your header (as you should. i aspire to be like you)

absolutely not idk what you’re talking about. i would never ever do that .

#it’s an optical illusion it must be. a mass hallucination all my followers share.. some kind of Mandela effect #on an honest note mati it is DIRE my roommate & her bf had come hom #so we were chilling talking in the living room but the thing is we all went to bed now and it’s BACK it’s all back #my distraction isn’t distracting anymore #im gonna lose my mind and pass out i think.