#am I talking about myself

[will80sbyers]

The little mermaid is bisexual culture, you didn't realize at the time but you had a crush on both of them

#bisexuality #bisexual #am I talking about myself #maybe

[slightlydeceased]

"fuck you, my daughter is completely fine"

the 'daughter' in question: spends an hour making an exact replica of themself in the sims 4 just to see what they look like with facial hair and more masculine clothing

#am I talking about myself #perhaps #you can't prove anything #my child is completely fine #trans #transmasc #the sims 4

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[hel7l7]

I don't know how to talk about this

#am i repeating myself a lot? I am in fact repeating myself a lot #i'm sorry #it's just true #i really do know how to talk about it

[inkskinned]

the thing is there's like, a point of oversaturation for everything, and it's why so many things get dropped after a few minutes. and we act like millennials or gen z kids "have short attention spans" but... that's not quite it. it's more like - we did like it. you just ruined it.

capitalism sees product A having moderate success, and then everything has to come out with their "own version" of product A (which is often exactly the same). and they dump extreme amounts of money and environmental waste into each horrible simulacrum they trot out each season.

now it's not just tiktokkers making videos; it's that instagram and even fucking tumblr both think you want live feeds and video-first programming. and it helps them, because videos are easier to sneak native ads into. the books coming out all have to have 78 buzzwords in them for SEO, or otherwise they don't get published. they are making a live-action remake of moana. i haven't googled it, but there's probably another marvel or starwars something coming out, no matter when you're reading this post.

and we are like "hi, this clone of project A completely misses the point of the original. it is soulless and colorless and miserable." and the company nods and says "yes totally. here is a different clone, but special." and we look at clone 2 and we say "nope, this one is still flat and bad, y'all" and they're like "no, totally, we hear you," and then they make another clone but this time it's, like, a joyless prequel. and by the time they've successfully rolled out "clone 89", the market is incredibly oversaturated, and the consumer is blamed because the company isn't turning a profit.

and like - take even something digital like the tumblr "live streaming" function i just mentioned. that has to take up server space and some amount of carbon footprint; just so this brokenass blue hellsite can roll out a feature that literally none of its userbase actually wants. the thing that's the kicker here: even something that doesn't have a physical production plant still impacts the environment.

and it all just feels like it's rolling out of control because like, you watch companies pour hundreds of thousands of dollars into a remake of a remake of something nobody wants anymore and you're like, not able to afford eggs anymore. and you tell the company that really what you want is a good story about survival and they say "okay so you mean a YA white protagonist has some kind of 'spicy' love triangle" and you're like - hey man i think you're misunderstanding the point of storytelling but they've already printed 76 versions of "city of blood and magic" and "queen of diamond rule" and spent literally millions of dollars on the movie "Candy Crush Killer: Coming to Eat You".

it's like being stuck in a room with a clown that keeps telling the same joke over and over but it's worse every time. and that would be fine but he keeps fucking charging you 6.99. and you keep being like "no, i know it made me laugh the first time, but that's because it was different and new" and the clown is just aggressively sitting there saying "well! plenty of people like my jokes! the reason you're bored of this is because maybe there's something wrong with you!"

#this was much longer i had to cut it down for legibility #but i do want to say i am aware this post doesnt touch on human rights violations as a result of fast fashion #that is because it deserves its own post with a completely different tone #i am an environmental educator #so that's what i know the most about. it wouldn't be appropriate of me to mention off-hand the real and legitimate suffering #that people are going through #without doing my research and providing real ways to help #this is a vent post about a thing i'm watching happen; not a call to action. it would be INCREDIBLY demeaning #to all those affected by the fast fashion industry to pretend that a post like this could speak to their suffering #unfortunately one of the horrible things about latestage capitalism as an activist is that SO many things are linked to this #and i WANT to talk about all of them but it would be a book in its own right. in fact there ARE books about each level of this #and i encourage you to seek them out and read them!!! i am not an expert on that i am just a person on tumblr doing my favorite activity #(complaining) #and it's like - this is the individual versus the industry problem again right because im blaming myself #for being an expert on environmental disaster (which is fucking important) but not knowing EVERYTHING about fast fashion #i'm blaming myself for not covering the many layers of this incredibly complicated problem im pointing out #rather than being like. yeah so actually the fault here lies with the billion dollar industries actually. #my failure to be able to condense an incredibly immense problem that is BOOK-LENGTH into a single text post that i post for free #is not in ANY fucking way the same amount of harm as. you know. the ACTUAL COMPANIES doing this ACTUAL THING for ACTUAL MONEY. #anyway im gonna go donate money while i'm thinking about it. maybe you can too. we can both just agree - well i fuckin tried didn't i #which is more than their CEOs can say

[nikoisme]

The constant temptation and promise of everything and nothing in the odyssey. The sirens promise odysseus to know, and the lotus eaters promise him to forget. He could be an immortal, and he could be a beggar. Be known, and be a stranger. He could be alive, and he could be dead. He could be odysseus, and he could be nobody. And the man of many ways tries to be a little bit of everything.

#i've been thinking about this. for months. #i wanted to talk about this by properly writing something but i simply cannot wait. i just have to say it. #i am thinking about this almost every day. it's just. ughhh #i WILL write about this i'm telling you bro #anyways i have so many ideas that make me fall to my knees. but i'm keeping them to myself for now shhhh #niko rambles

[the-chaos-goose]

#spamton #this has breached containment #i am scared #HOW HAS THIS HIT 1000 NOTES #4K NOTES… #6.7K NOTES?? #hello tumblr #we’ll abandon the scenery in theee DIVORCE OFFICE #/ref #15K NOTES. #WHAT THE HELL??? #the more tags the better #This is canon I asked Toby myself/j #one day this is gonna have more tags than any other post #why? Why not #my lovely misinformation #HELP MY NOTIFS #Lmao is there a tag limit #imagine if I cause a tag limit #fun fact about be I got called cool by airy’s VA aand I will never stop talking about that #I almost deleted this by accident #that would’ve been a disaster #imagine If this ends up on a pm Seymour video #oh god that’d be horrifying #why do people copy and paste the tags on thi #No rlly wtf #20K #AFTER THE SWEEPSTAKES THING THIS IS PERFECT #30K #this post later longer than a relationship

[astronicht]

Incomplete list of stuff that made me go apeshit reading Fellowship for the first time, medievalist edition (part II)

Part I here. Disclaimer: this is for fun!

Love that people keep stressing that they are going to the ELVES for COUNCIL. Old English names, especially among the rulers of Wessex, Northumbria, Mercia, etc, were often Elf Theme Names, one of the most famous and enduring of which is Alfred. Written the old way, Ælfræd or Ælfred (as in Alfred the Great), means Elf-Council, aka "counseled by elves". In their hearts... everyone wants to be Alfred... possibly this is only funny 2 me.

Tom Bombadil doing a training montage in the fucking magic system of Middle Earth?? He teaches Frodo to recite a poem that will summon him, Tom Bombadil, in times of need! Frodo gets kidnapped by undead wights in a barrow (like many a good young person in an Old Norse saga before him) and dutifully recites this magic poem. Frodo learned Recite Magic Poem! TOM BOMBADIL SMASHES THRU THE WALL OF THE BARROW LIKE THE KOOL-ADE MAN AND RECITES A BIGGER, STRONGER POEM??

At this point I gave up on trying to be normal about anything. As such, I'm pausing on Tom Bombadil again.

It helped (?? not psychologically) that Tom Bombadil recited something that felt a bit familiar, when he banished the wights. It's not anything like a direct translation, if indeed it bears any purposeful resemblance to the actual recorded medieval galdor called Against a Wen. Regardless, Against a Wen is an okay?? example of what a spoken word magic poem would look like, and why it's similar to what Tom Bombadil (and later Gandalf and others) do. Left screenshot is Bombadil against a barrow-wight. Right is Against a Wen, in English translation. (a wen was possibly a skin ailment, like a mole or a cancer). Banishing to/beyond the hills and shrivelling are the apparent themes. You don't have to follow me on this one, much less agree. Frankly this is the point I went off the deep end, probably.

Galdor can also protect! This just happens to be a banishment.

Gollum got exiled (the worst thing the early medieval and apparently proto-hobbit law could do to you) but not even for murder. No one found out about the murder. He just sucked.

ALSO Gollum lied and said that his matriarch (who exiled him) gave him the Ring. This implies it was plausible she'd give out rings, implying female ring-giver (standard role of a king). This is mentioned once and never again. ok!!

One last fun fact about galdor: it is the word at the end of "nightingale" isn't that lovely? Luthien's name in-universe means nightingale. This is fine!

I spent a lot of time researching Aragorn's favorite rock. I love these books. If I recall correctly it's a real rock! but possibly. just a cool rock.

#astro lotr #this one is less fun than part 1 but i like having a sort of cheat sheet for myself!! #frankly even i am not sure what some of my mid-read posts are talking about

[deep-space-lines]

An archangel is actually a type of babygirl,

We've all seen The gabe dress but I had a divine vision of him in a kroj (Czech folk costume) and y'know what? I was right. He slays. What's the point of art if not to take some fictional guy, say "that's my wife" and put clothes on him like a paper doll

Anyway I think everyone should draw him in their culture's folk costume now. I wanna start a trend

((bonus sketch idk if I'll finish,,))

#my art #ultrakill #gabriel ultrakill #gabe dress gabe dress gabe dress g #the idea of drawing him in pants feels illegal #kroj #artists on tumblr #do not ask me how long the fucking embroidery took on the first one i do not want to talk about it #I actually used to have one of these when I was in like 3rd grade that my mom made for me.. i wanna make myself one eventually #wearing dresses is a mess bc if i am perceived by other people as too feminine it makes me want to explode a little but kroje are so pretty

[vroomvroomwee]

Do you want to comfort your fav fictional character because you love them and don't want them to be alone or do you want to do it because you see yourself in them and you project onto them and comforting them is the only way you can comfort yourself since you've always had to manage and take care of your own feelings and had to suffer alone and be the only one there for yourself? Hmm?

#am i talking about myself no no no absolutely not #comfort character #fictional characters #hurt/comfort #comforting #good omens #goodomens #crowley #aziraphale #coping mechanism #doctorwho #doctor who #ofmd #wwdits #mcu #marvel #alec hardy #broadchurch

[9ndreus]

Noticing a theme in this fandom where the Aziraphale-coded folks are the Crowley stans and the Crowley-coded folks are the Aziraphale stans.

#this is a thing right #or am I just talking about myself #i know what you are #good omens #good omens 2 #crowley #aziraphale #good omens s2

[gunstellations]

bonus

#sonic the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog #sonadow #if you squint #?? #i dont know man idc what it is their dynamic in prime makes me go insane so have this. this is very much prime sonadow #sonic faces the consequences in the last picture #i wouldve posted these seperately after colouring but i somehow made like. 10 seperate sonic sketches in one night that need colouring #so #also i am very much talking to myself here bc i just got here 😔 #just found out about keanu reeves while drawing these #art imitates art...or somethin #shadow about to have his john wick moment fr #sonic #my art

[dendroculus]

at this point the house should just go for a new record. how many did they have to do in 1856? 133 rounds? we can beat that. it would be hilarious

#talking to myself #us politics #faq about this post: #1. i am not a locked tomb/gideon the ninth fan. i barely know what it is and those aren't my tags #however i don't mind a little bit of post hijacking every now and then so enjoy your stay ig #2. the person who reblogged with the tags isn't deactivated. they are pretending to be for reasons unknown to me #3. i think this actually happened in 1859 my bad #4. this isn't going to happen and not gonna lie i'm a little disappointed!

[turtleblogatlast]

Leo getting hit with a truth curse but instead of forcing him to admit to super sad or worrying things it’s things like “it was me who broke the remote” “I saw Mikey prank Donnie and helped hide it because it’s way funnier if he didn’t know who it was” “I rip my clothes to look more like Raph’s because he’s really cool” “my stripes aren’t even red they’re pink!”

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt leo #rise leo #plot twist he COULD be admitting angsty stuff but he’s pushing the less oof truths forward instead on purpose #raph: hey leo what do you want for dinner #leo: *about to bare his soul on all his internal torment but pivots* I’m afraid of snakes #(no but fr Leo’s stripes being technically more pink instead of red is cute ngl) #(a very reddish pink to the point that in certain lighting it looks red but at the base they’re p pink) #(i also am very fond of the idea that Leo doesn’t just have questionable taste in fashion he also just loves Raph a lot and looks up to him) #but yeah I think that something like this would be 99% Leo admitting to unimportant things or admitting to how much he values everyone #like they all KNOW Leo loves them and he’s talked them up enough for them to know but it’s different when he’s like #‘I just wanna read my comics with you guys around - it’s my favorite place to be’ #or again just random bs that doesn’t REALLY have a lot of weight like #‘I like using my portals to prank random people around the world’ #‘I’m worried about being a bad influence on hueso jr’ #‘sometimes I kinda wanna see hypno’s plans succeed’ #‘it’s been way too long since I found this out and honestly it’s embarrassing but I actually don’t have a di-‘ #SORRY COULDNT HELP MYSELF #(<-but did u know that that pink rather than red observation actually ties into this headcanon as well if u know about red eared sliders)

[spllwys]

endless ghifs 11/? ⛧ source — "I don't wanna end like this—"

#but the sting in the way you kisss meee #we are back to ghostposting! #i should be working but the fire alarm went off in the library so what can you do #work at home? nahh #lgifs #alltag #eg_series #ghost #the band ghost #papa emeritus iv #nameless ghouls #the source material was soo crusty i am actually thrilled with how these came out all things considered #added a bit of noise which is smth i started doing for s///up//ern- i cant say it #did not do many of those. just made some things for myself then ducked out #forgot about that trick until today #it really helps i recommend #just 1% to kind of hide the grainy smoke background #i don't know what i'm talking about ngl

[the-habitat-sysblog]

no one should force you to:

switch.

tell them who is fronting.

give them your alter count.

tell them what trauma caused your CDD.

go to therapy if you are not ready yet.

list your alters' names, ages or roles.

change the language you prefer to use for your experiences (unless that language is genuinely harmful).

assign/have a host alter.

go searching for your trauma if you do not remember it.

forgive those who hurt you if you do not want to.

disclose an introject alter's source.

be open about your system/alters.

hide your system/alters.

use PK or SP.

use plural language when you prefer to be treated as one.

use singular language when you prefer to be treated as multiple.

if someone expects you to do something, you do not have to do it just because some other pwCDDs are fine with it. you deserve autonomy & the ability to choose what you will/won't reveal or do. no one should take that from you. 🤍

#“i actually want to talk to _______!” too fucking bad #i am not here to appease anyone but myself & my parts #you are not entitled to know anything about my parts & me #you do not know what's best for MY system #illonya🍷.txt #finn🍄.txt #; #🤍 #💬 #[ #endos dni #tulpas dni #did system #actually traumagenic #traumagenic system #cdd community #cdd #sysblr #system #system stuff #ableism #]