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john-get-the-salt · 8 months

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Winter Cold (w/spencer reid)

Imagine: A run-of-the-mill winter cold becomes the thing that finally reveals your secret to the team.

Contains: sick reader and sick Spencer taking care of each other, usual bau team shenanigans, a setting where Morgan and Emily are on the team together because that was peak time (imo)

Warnings: None

Snow, thick sweaters, warm drinks-there were countless reasons why you adored the Winter season.

Spending a Sunday morning curled up under a blanket with a hot chocolate in hand while it snowed outside was your love language.

Your body, however, did not thrive under such conditions. You had a terrible immune system so you were extremely susceptible to getting sick. Every winter you had at least one or two boughts of whatever nasty illness was going around that season, be it the flu, strep, etc.

So as winter came around and you got sick like usual, nothing should have been different. Except this year something was different. This winter you had Spencer Reid.

Suddenly you had someone to bring you ginger ale and saltines when your stomach was upset, to make you soup and tea when your throat hurt, to make sure you kept up with your meds and always carried around cough drops for you.

Spencer and yourself had started out as awkward co-workers before slowly becoming friends, which eventually blossomed into something romantic. You told him you loved him about 2 months in after a scare during a case, and he had returned the sentiment when it felt right.

You'd just recently celebrated your 6th month anniversary and everything was going so well except for one teeny tiny minuscule detail....the team didn't know.

You had hoped to gently ease them into the news, but any hope of that got dashed rather quickly on one particular winters day.

•

It was early January and you were fighting off your annual post-Christmas cold. All of the traveling and visiting family had caught up to you and you were suffering the consequences. Your pockets were constantly stuffed full of tissues and you had a permanent stash of cough drops in your desk at the office.

Spencer, the fantastic boyfriend he was, had been taking exceptionally good care of you. You found it slightly annoying that the genius himself hardly ever got sick but you couldn't find yourself mad for long when he was constantly doting on you.

He never fussed about keeping you on track with your antibiotics, never complained when you asked him for a refill of tea, or another box of tissues, etc. But one thing he absolutely loathed was the fact that you wouldn't let him kiss you. On the cheek you allowed, along with the forehead or chin or pretty much anywhere else that wasn't your lips.

You were determined not to pass along the illness to him, so no matter how much he pleaded for just a quick peck you refused. Which, mind you, was no easy feat.

You stood firm on your ‘no lip to lip contact’ rule for about 3 days which was as long as your self control could hold out before you caved and let your boyfriend give you a firm kiss.

The two of you thought it was fine, no harm done, until 2 days later Spencer woke up with a racketing cough.

As you awoke that morning to a coughing Spencer in bed beside you, you sighed. "Don't tell me I finally you got sick too."

He merely groaned in response, and you pulled yourself out of bed so you could start coffee and fetch medicine for the both of you.

"I knew this was going to happen, I just knew you would get sick," you chided as if you hadn't played a significant role in the passing of said illness.

Spencer took the cold medicine you handed him without a roll of his eyes. "It's really nothing, just a runny nose and a bit of a cough."

"Work is going to be hell today. The team has been giving me grief about coughing, just imagine the ruckus when both of us are hacking our lungs up."

"Well," Spencer leaned down to plant a kiss on your warm cheek. "I consider it an honor to have the ability to kiss you-and then catch your cold. No one else on the team has that, so they can deal. And hey, now that we're both sick we can kiss as much as we want."

You giggled, annoyance vanishing as you leaned down and kissed your boyfriend. He attempted to wrap his arms around you and pull you back into bed but you slapped his hands away.

"As much as I love you and your kisses we do still have to work, Supervisory Special Agent Reid."

He sighed dreamily, a dopey smile on his face, "I love it when you talk FBI to me."

His smile quickly dropped as you whacked him over the head with a pillow.

•

Just as you predicted, the team had groaned as it quickly became apparent that Spencer had caught whatever cold was going around the building.

You and Spence arrived to work together, as you always did, on your very best behavior. After learning you both lived in the same apartment building not long after you joined the team, you started carpooling to work every single day. You had those car rides to thank for your friendship and eventual relationship, though the team did not know that.

But what the team did know, was that you and Spencer could not stop coughing. To make matters worse it was a paperwork day without a case in sight, so the team was stuck listening to the two of you. You apologized profusely, nursing a steaming cup of tea and a bag of cough drops. But it got to the point where everybody-minus you and Spence- voted to seclude you both in the conference room. They insisted it was for your own good, but you were pretty sure they had just gotten tired of listening to the sniffling and coughing.

So you two spent the day sitting in the conference room, talking and attempting to get paperwork done while members of the team popped their head in every so often to check-in and replenish your tea and tissues.

Before you knew it, the day was nearly over. There were still 2 hours left yet to the surprise of no one Spence had finished his paperwork already. Thankfully, he hung around and kept you company while you tried to finish yours.

"I really should have seen this cold coming. You know according to researchers, as many as 80 million bacteria can be exchanged in just one 10 second kiss," Spencer rattled off.

You nodded and hummed, as you always did when your boyfriend rattled off some rare knowledge he likely learned from a book he read once 6 years. You were pretty engrossed in the current paperwork you were filling out, so the insinuation of what Spencer was saying and the environment in which he was saying it didn't really catch up to you until it was too late.

"What are you trying to say pretty boy? You two locking lips?"

Finally remembering where you two currently were, work, you looked up from your papers. Spencer sat frozen in his chair beside you as Morgan and Emily stood in the doorway of the conference room with teasing looks on their faces.

"Uhm...."

All it took was the slight hesitation for Emily's joking smile to drop and her eyebrows to shoot so far up their nearly disappeared into her bangs.

"No way!"

"My man!" Morgan exclaimed, clapping as he walked into the room.

Emily followed, practically skipping towards you. "Wait til we tell the rest of the team. Damn, I owe Rossi $50 though. I thought it'd take til Valentines day."

Your jaw dropped as the shock of your friends knowing began to fade and was replaced with confusion.

"You guys bet on us? On whether or not we were together?"

"Oh no, we knew you two lovebirds were gonna get together. We bet on when you were gonna get together and then tell us." Derek clarified. "I bet Garcia $100 you two would wait until Summer to break the news.

Spencer, despite the situation, laughed. "Well, this isn't quite the way we imagined telling the team, but I guess this is it."

Thinking, you glanced at your two friends, who looked as happy as clams.

"We’ll wait to tell the rest of the team if you cut us into the winnings."

"Deal."

#imagine #criminal minds #drabble #criminal minds imagine #fanfic #spencer reid #spencer reid imagine #x reader #spencer reid x reader #bau

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fairydares · 22 days

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loook i get why the idea of riding the "anti/pro" fandom disk horse makes people gag a little in their mouth and try to opt out entirely, but here's why i went from feeling exactly the same way to taking a firm profiction stance. I've been meaning to make this post for a while.

~10 years ago, I posted a fic for the first time and it got its own harassment campaign. The fic wasn't even sexual, and wasn't going to be (it remains incomplete). It was accurately rated T on fanfiction.net. Anyone in the Fairy Tail fandom will understand this: I literally got harassed for writing a "Lucy leaves the guild" fic💀.

After many nice comments, someone left a pretty nasty one. Hurt, I messaged them back. They acted super attacked that I'd responded (lmao) and after we argued, threatened to "rip my shitty story apart in the comments section" if I responded again. I told them "go ahead lol."

They went ahead.

Now know that it was a relatively small harassment campaign, but at the time, it was devastating. Right around then, I wound up in the hospital. After I got out, I went to excitedly check my fic, and found several reviews saying things I wouldn't repeat to my worst enemy. I was suicide-baited more than once, told "thank fuck you finally abandoned this shitty story, dumb cunt," stuff like that.

There were several accounts involved, and I can't say for sure, but I suspect at least a couple different people were involved, though probably at least half of it was one person.

All the other comments were screeching about how I hadn't updated, mostly. "NO UPDAAATEE WHY DOES THIS ALWAYS HAPPENS TO MEEEE??!!!" was one that stood out after I'd been miserable in a hospital for an extended period of time.

Idk what people think is going on when FT fic authors write this trope, and frankly I don't give a fuck. Because while I was partly writing the story out of some young, cringe feminist rage, I also did genuinely have a real story I was compelled to tell. I was inspired by another, popular fic I loved which used the trope to talk about how trying to shoulder our burdens alone really just hurts both ourselves and everyone who cares about us.

My own story was ultimately going to have similar themes, with more focus on strength, what it means, and in what contexts earning and having it actually matters. In retrospect, no wonder I wound up in hot water, because at the time "Lucy vs. Strength vs. Misogyny" was the FT fandom's Designated Nonsensically Activist Debate™. But that's partly why i wanted to write about it; engaging with the fandom had gotten me thinking about it 🤷‍♂️

Not too long after that, FFNet oh-so-benevolently granted us the ability to delete comments from our own stories (they never took my reports seriously at all, afaik). I deleted all or most of the harassers' comments (may still be a one or two up, and i'm fairly sure there's a couple comments defending my fic from the harassment) without saving screenshots, which I really regret now. I was just so mortified and full of self-loathing about the whole thing that i wanted to forget it completely. Something that had brought me joy at a very lonely, vulnerable period of my life had turned so negative, and i couldn't even tell the people closest to me about it without being made fun of for writing anime fan fiction.

I didn't understand why this happened at the time, but--after a period of trying to forget/bid out of it all with a slight anti lean (a common approach I see people use, and one which I'm not proud of adopting)--I just had to figure out What the Fuck Even Happened There. And I'm telling you, after years of reflecting, wrestling with both sides, and educating myself, that this "status quo of harassment" culture which pervades fandom goes way deeper than you think and comes out of a way darker well than you probably realize. An astonishing amount of this is, quite literally, TERF shit and evangelical shit.

Trying to be in fandom and take a stance of, "Anti/Pro shit? Ew, I'm Not Touching that," is like swimming in a heavily polluted river and being like, "Poison? Cringe. Not me lol."

You might be lucky enough to be in a less-polluted part of the river (AKA a relatively non-toxic fandom, in which case good for you!)...but tbh this rhetoric and peer-signalling will still seep in.

I can't stress enough that pro-fiction, AKA "proship", is the normal, leftist-about-art-and-sex opinion. Pro-ship is against all the horrible things you're against; in fact, pro-ship isn't trivializing real trauma by equating it with fictional trauma, or trying to apply literal evangelical/radfem solutions--which are proven not to prevent or help. Profiction/proship is literally just saying, "Fiction is fiction, reality is reality, and the two don't have a 1:1 relationship. And historically, trying to censor just things we've decided are bad has done nothing but get LGBTQ+ and POCs censored. Therefore, depictions of illegal things shouldn't be censored." That's it. "Proshippers all ship problematic ships," is a brazen lie. Many of them share other fans' disgust for those ships, they just don't believe in censoring fic authors over it.

It is also taking a stand against harassment because--and I hope my own story has helped drive this home--as with all groups who adopt ingroup/outgroup thinking, antis are defined by their tactics, not actual stances on real, serious issues. What happened to me was absolutely a result of anti, "it's okay to 'bully out' anything I just don't like" mindset pervading fandom. In a way, this was the mindset's final form. They didn't even feel the need to cite a reason the trope was "bad" or "wrong"; it annoyed them, and they viewed their own feelings as a valid enough pathway for policing to go right ahead and do so.

In the interest of offering solutions instead of just bitching about problems, I might make a "how to know if you've bought into these types of views"-type post sometime. Also might come back to this and provide some sources/citation.

#cw harassment #tw suicide-baiting #tw hospitalization #posts i actually wrote #fairy tail #nalu #fandom #fandom meta #proship #pro fiction #anti-censorship

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prettyboykatsuki · 1 year

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warm-ups | sfw + rin + meeting

✭ tags ; established relationship, rin is a lovesick tsundere fool, fluff | ✭ wc ; 1.3k

✭ a/n ; im like two seconds away from taking rin off of my prompt wheels give someone else a chance im begging.

Ever since Itoshi Rin started dating you, nothing has gone his way.

Admittedly, he knows this is because he's had no control over the situation. It's a lesson he's been forced to learn so many times over it's starting to make him sick. He can't control his feelings no matter how tightly and how forcefully he holds onto them and that knowledge is something he resents everyday.

Even after aging out of his worst angsty teenage years, no amount of time has been able to soften his dislike for the idea of vulnerability. He was a sensitive, gentle sort of kid. After the incident with Sae (and the period of isolation from self-loathing that followed it), he wasn't really able to bounce back to that place. Sometimes it feels like a strange and vague dream that he only recalls when his mother reminisces about it.

The idea was in and of itself baffling. It wasn't like he was some patron saint back then either. He's always been single-minded in his own interest and involved more with his own shit than he was with other peoples.

The thing about feelings that Rin has always hated the most is how much they interact with other people. His feelings are his sure, but when things make him feel some kind of way, there's only so much he can do to snub them out. He can't get a grasp of them reasonably. They're so slippery and frustrating and agitating.

And he's tried for longer than he cares to admit to let go of them completely. But Rin, no matter how much he tries, can't be like Sae. That blasé attitude that makes everything seem like it rolls of Sae's shoulders isn't one Rin can afford. Even after some growing up and some growth and the begrudging friends he's made in the process - he never quite recovers from that truth.

At the very least, Rin figures it'd be easier if he could let himself be unaffected.

It doesn't work out that way, because when do things ever. And it becomes especially prominent in the process of falling in love.

How he's gotten into a relationship is a mystery he's yet to to solve. Rin can't think of any good reason you're dating him. Of course, if prompted he'll roll his eyes. But more candidly, he has no idea how that's worked out.

There's plenty about you that is objectively likable, though. You're nurturing and friendly and coaxing sometimes to the point of being pushy. In the process of getting to know you, he's been struck with how much you make him feel safe. Betrayal is a sore spot, he figures.

Rin trusts you with himself. He knows that even if everything burned to the ground tomorrow - you wouldn't ever air it out to the world. Not for a check or even if you hated him.

He has enough self-awareness to know that he's subpar in the emotions department. What you see in Rin is so often a mystery. Though when he works up the nerve to hint at reassurance, you kiss his cheek and sigh all lovey-dovey

("Dunno," You whisper, all warm hands and sweet touches. He hopes you don't ever figure it out "I can tell how much you love me though."

Rin scoffs. Of course he does. "You wish.")

He didn't fall in love with you on the path of least resistance. In fact, there are multiple instances where he outright sabotaged himself in the process. By being too cruel or too cold or callous.

But, because Rin never has things go his way, trying to leave it alone failed too. In fact every time you came back to him, he felt a feeling struck so deep in his heart that he couldn't look it in the face. Every time you came back and loved him so gently, he spoke a tiny and silent prayer.

Don't leave me too.

Not that Rin would ever admit that. To himself. To anyone for the record. But some part of him always hoped that he could keep you.

You've stayed, somehow. Long enough for your lives to become intertwined. He'd rather die before telling you he has to look at pictures of you before falling asleep on away games.

For better or for worse, it's all spiraled out of control. Now you're a year in and you live together. You even have a black cat (with blue eyes, which he has mixed feelings about.)

And right now, you're humming happily in his front seat and waiting to meet his friends. Something Rin would never in his entire life set-up on purpose.

But like he's said so many times before, things never work out how he wants them. And Isagi (like the backstabbing snake he is) has gone out of his way to invite you to lunch with his other teammates. Those guys are hardly his friends.

"I'm excited to meet your friends," You say, buzzing. He scoffs as he pulls into the parking lot, glancing over at you.

"They're not my friends."

"Rinnie. Baby, give it a rest. You spend more time with them than you do me, okay? Don't be silly."

Rin frowns, watching as you fix your appearance up in the mirror. He turns the ignition off and leans back with his arms crossed.

"Either way, I don't see why you're so excited."

"So I can get the autographs of a lot of handsome men who play soccer," You quip, knowing it's going to agitate him "Obviously because they're important to you. I want them to like me."

He thinks you're the last person that should ever worry about that.

"It doesn't matter to me what they think." He says, this time a little softer. You grin, pausing in your actions. You lean over the glovebox to nudge him and he turns himself to be close to you.

You're so close to him, smiling with all your teeth. He sighs.

"Aw, geez. You saying you don't care as long as you like me, right? How sweet of you."

Rin has to suppress a smile. He is disgusted with himself momentarily.

"I just think they're idiots." He lies, quite blatantly. You giggle, leaning forward. Your hand reaches up to the nape of his neck gently, sliding to his cheek. Your noses bump and Rin wants to turn the car back home and keep you all to himself. He wants to go home and sleep with you in his bed, with your cat rumbling around.

He wants to be all alone with you for an entire lifetime and he thinks it's gonna ruin him if he can't. He examines you closely. You look too nice for the general public to lay eyes on you.

"Don't be so mean, 'kay? Thanks, anyways, though."

You kiss Rin like you love him. Gingerly and playfully and whole-heartedly. Rin kisses back in the only way he knows how - clumsily and intensely and with the weight of a million unspoken desires. There's enough warmth in you for his cold, dead heart it seems.

And he is just not selfless enough to let go of it for any reason.

"You look pretty today," He says in a stupor, with just enough adoration in his system left to make him not wince. You grin big.

"You're so sweet to me."

Rin can be sweeter. Later, when you're home, he'll see if he can please you a little more.

He goes to kiss you one more time, but it gets cut short by a familiar screech.

"Everyone look! Rin is being all lovey-dovey."

The sound of Bachiras' voice makes a pang of irritation run through his entire body. He pulls away and glares through the window as his so-called friends crowd around his vehicle ooo-ing and aah-ing. He's going to fucking kill them.

He hears you from beside break out into a laugh then relents, just a little.

Nothing seems to go his way with you around, sure. But it's not like Rin particularly minds.

#warm-ups #itoshi rin x reader #bluelock x reader #itoshi rin fluff #rin x reader #rin fluff #writing tag #this is somft...

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oletusfragments · 10 months

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i heard requests were open and i scampered over as quickly as i could, i hope i made it in time 🙏

🌠: joseph, victor and mike (seperately) with a gn! reader who got hurt badly during the match and he has to take care of them (for joseph you could make the injuries be from a nasty fall or getting hit by the trolley or something)

Thank you for your time!

— SAVE YOUR HEART FOR ME; I'LL GIVE YOU EVERYTHING YOU NEED

— JOSEPH

You and an injured teammate are running away from the photographer, circling around the hospital to buy time for the decoder of your team to decode the remaining two cipher machines. One of you has already been sent back to the manor deleteriously early in the game. Your team was quite at a disadvantage especially with Joseph's ability to slow down your decoding progress.

Currently, you're supporting your injured teammate as much as you can by shielding them against Joseph's hits. You and the photographer are aware and has accepted the consequences of loving someone from a faction with an opposite purpose from each other. You are to survive and he is to kill. But your lover can't exactly find it in him to hit you, the love of his life even if it costs him the match. And do you take advantage of it. He loathes you for that sometimes.

He's trying his best to find an opening through your body block to hit the other survivor but to no avail. You are quite persistent in taking the hit for them. Shielding them so closely to the point that it looks like you're hugging them.

The chase of cat and mouse, two mice in this situation, continues between all of you. All desperately aiming for victory even with the given situation. But perhaps Joseph should've paid more attention as to how long your body would last at the repeated jumping off the two-story building of the hospital.

You jump down following your teammate from the destroyed wall of the hospital's second floor. And Joseph follows after. But this time, the sight of you and your teammate running isn't what greeted him but instead the sight of you desperately trying to stand up from the ground with your teammate trying to support you as much as they can. But with the hits they've taken from Joseph's sword, their body doesn't allow them to help you to get off and run as the photographer inches closer to the two of you.

"My dear, what happened?" Joseph kneels beside you. He puts away his sword and inspects your body for injuries and puts an arm around you.

You shake your head "Don't worry, it's not that bad." But the hiss of pain you let out when you try to move one of your legs says otherwise.

He takes your hand away that was wrapped around your ankle to see the injury for himself. Your skin is littered in purple and red. His irises–wait he doesn't have those… He glances on your ankle to your face. "Does it hurt that much? You must have hurt your ankle when you fell."

"Oh we don't know that, my ankle just probably decided to dislocate while I'm mid-air." You replied to his obvious statement.

Joseph gives you a look and you decide to change the topic "So, uh, what about the match?"

"I don't think it's a good idea to continue it when you're in this state… maybe we should just call it a draw and go back?" Your teammate speaks up. Joseph gives an approved hum and picks you up, fighting back a grin when your cheeks turn pink at the gesture.

He carried you to your room and tended to your injury all by himself. But he did call for other medical experts in the manor (such as Emily) to make sure you'd have a stable and speedy recovery.

As much as he'd like to, Joseph would abandon any work or matches he has planned on his agenda just to stay by your side. But let's say due to manor rules, he can't.

The other survivors feel like the photographer has been more aggressive with his matches these couple days. They thought that it might be because you're hurt. Technically they're right, he just wants the matches to be over so that he'd see you again quicker.

— VICTOR

It's not too surprising that you'd get injured. After all, the area all of you are living in aren't exactly safe nor are the people you're sharing under the roof with. Especially when you all are scheduled and obligated to play the "game". In this house, getting hurt is normal.

You weren't feeling it today. The past few days were tireless and you've barely gotten any sleep. But you had a match today. And you can't exactly skip it, even with how exhausted you are. The baron cares only for rules and results you give, they could care less for your lack of rest.

The match was quite peaceful, fortunately. The kiter of your team was doing well and the rest of you three are peacefully decoding the ciphers. Victor was also in the match which gave some comfort in the intense and tiring atmosphere.

But you were tired as hell, and the peace was so boring that it's encouraging you to relax. A bit too much. Your eyes droop and you lose your focus on decoding. You didn't even hear the bell that signifies an upcoming calibration. Your eyelids opened as fast as you closed them when the cipher gave you a shock for your failed calibration.

Luckily Victor has already finished your cipher and was heading to yours when he heard you scream in pain followed by a thud. He rushed to the noise and scrambled beside you to check what had happened to you.

The familiar bark heading your way gives you relief as you lie on the ground hissing and groaning while clutching your wrist. Victor looks at you worriedly as he positions himself beside you. He lets out a surprise yelp when his eyes land on your right hand. Around your palm are black spots and red marks.

"I got shocked…" You say, your voice hinting a slight disappointment towards yourself. "I fell asleep and missed a calibration."

Victor gives you a warm side hug whispering to you "Please don't beat yourself too much because of this. You were too tired and shouldn't have been in this match anyway."

He rubs your shoulders to soothe you. There's no doctor in the match right now and the area the game is set in doesn't seem to have any first aid kits or anything to help to provide. So unfortunately you'd have to sit for now until the match is over to get your wound treated.

A cipher pops from across the map and is followed by another pop. Maybe it was fortunate that there was a certain prisoner in the match to help speed up the cipher progress. There's only one cipher left needed to complete. And yours was more than halfway done. The inventor from across the map sees that too and the light bulb from the switch on the ground lights up signifying that he has made a connection to your cipher to the one near his.

"Stay here, it'll get better soon I promise." His hushed voice says to you and you nod in response. You don't have to do anything but wait right now, seems like the perfect time to take a short nap. But the zap you just had earlier just electrocuted the exhaustion out of you. Well at least you have Wick and your cute blonde lover to accompany you right now and to keep you distracted from what happened. You don't even want to look at your injured hand right now.

Victor doesn't need to take a peek from his letters to speed up his decoding. His love for you and his priority for your health and safety is enough to give him the motivation he needs to slam his fingers on the metal keyboard like his life depends on it (well technically it does I guess?).

When the last cipher popped, Victor rushed you to the nearest gate and typed in the code to get you out of there as fast as possible.

He memorized every advice Emily gave to you for your injury, even writing it down so it won't be forgotten. He also made sure to send a letter of gratitude to the doctor in thanks for her help.

The days you feel insecure or guilty for your accident, Victor was there to reassure you. Saying that any wounds or mistakes you do doesn't make him love you less and that he will always be there and take care of you when needed.

When he's not available or busy with other things, he'd send long letters and gifts to make you feel better while you rest in the meantime you're healing from your injury.

— MIKE

A risky boyo. He literally plays with bombs. As much as it helps to reduce the hunter's abilities and speed, it's still a bomb. A weapon treated as a toy and could pose a threat to the survivors side if handled wrong (ingame it doesn't do anything to fellow survs but I'm talking in a more realistic sense...does that make sense lol).

The match was just utter chaos. Sounds of bombs everywhere that your own eardrums felt like exploding. Even their ticking was enough to make your ears bleed, not just because they're annoying but also because it's the indicator to your upcoming demise of getting flown to the sky by a rocket.

Your beloved acrobat is heading towards you and the hunter, guard 26. A hunter with a seemingly unlimited stack of bombs that can rain upon you. Around you were a handful of bombs threatening to explode as soon as a foot stepped on their area, something Bonbon can also command despite the timer. Making it harder for your lover to rescue you unscathed.

Mike runs towards Bonbon and leaps above him, dropping a fire bomb. He cartwheels to your chair and stands up immediately to untie you from the binds. But as soon as you get out of the seat, bombs explode on the two of you. He missed.

"Oh… oopsies. Sorry." He gives you a strained smile while his eyes display annoyance. You can't even be mad when he already looks guilty enough for the mistake. Ah, well he tried his best. What's fortunate at least is that you didn't get incapacitated and both of you managed to get away with the help of the speed boost of your will to live. The amount of miracles that happened in the overwhelming situation was absurd but you'd take any chance god gives you.

But unfortunately, your luck ends there. You all still end up getting eliminated and receive a loss for the match.

Both you and Mike are treating each other's burns in your room. It wasn't only you who suffered but him as well. He apologized to you profusely for his mistake at the match.

"If it only landed properly, the match could've gone better… damn…"

You use your arms to lift your weight to scoot closer to him, wincing when the burns in your legs brush with the fabric of the mattress. "We all make mistakes, don't beat yourself up over it."

"But look at us! We got cooked." He points at both your legs, which are wrapped in dressings.

"There's nothing we can do to change the past now, no matter the amount of regrets we have right now. We just gotta make sure it won't happen next time."

He hums in contemplation before replying to you, "You're right."

His head shot up as if an idea sparked in his mind and you look at him curiously "And next time, I'll do cooler stunts while I explode a bomb on their face! I'll do this cool flip like…" Mike motions his ideas with his hands in a way that's only comprehensible to him as you nod pretending–but trying–to understand.

"Oh, I have a lot of work to do!" He says, giddy with excitement and an earnest look on his face. Seems that he's recovered from his depressed state. You smile at him, glad that he's shining once again. But there's still one thing he needs to consider…

"Mike, you should let your legs heal first…"

"...Oh, right."

You two spend time with each other while also healing together. He'd caress your injuries and kiss them but they're burns. They hurt when touched so he can't (😔).

Mike makes you laugh by telling jokes and silly stories in return for you comforting him. He's even willing to serve you meals in bed if you want him to and no, he won't let you do any work. See it as a redemption for his undignified rescue, he says.

N: I think I focused more on the scenario than the caring part, especially at Mike's part and you can see very well which parts I gave up on oml 😭😭 Sorry this took long!

#identity v x reader #idv x reader #identity v imagines #idv imagines #mike morton x reader #victor grantz x reader #joseph desaulnier x reader #wish: granted!

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wannaeatramyeon · 7 months

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hii!!

may i get gun, goo, jake, and vin (maybe taehoon too?) w a s/o who annoys them for fun and loves being around them at all times? thank you!!

(ps you can ignore this if there’s too much rqs 🤍)

How can I say no to all my faves?

With an annoying, clingy!SO - Gun, Goo, Jake, Vin, Taehoon hc

Gun Park

This guy is not short on experience with being someone annoying. After all, his work partner is Goo Kim.

He has mastered the art of finetuning his partner's rambles, and only picking up on the details he has to know. He does not care for a play by play retelling of the latest anime episode or what happened in this week's manga release.

Gun thought that these skills would carry over to you. And he does loathe to think it, but you and Goo have some similarities. However, he often feels the urge to throttle Goo, but he feels none of that with you.

It's endearing. Which is a huge surprise in itself. He doesn't find you annoying, not really, and he actually loves your company.

When it comes to you, he has an unending well of patience to draw from.

Goo Kim

My my, someone is getting a taste of their own medicine and they do not like it.

Seriously, haven't you got anything better to do than annoy him? Can't you run along and find a lil hobby of your own or something.

Goo is used to being the most annoying, clingiest in the room so it takes a while to get used to you.

And when he does - well get used to double trouble! He thinks of you less as an annoying S/O (you can't get enough obvs, and he can't blame you) but more as his partner in crime.

In fact, it's nice to be around someone that's more his speed and matches his vibe.

There will be no peace for anyone that has the misfortune to be around you both.

Jake Kim

Out of all these guys, Jake might be the one that might not be ok with clingier traits. He's a very busy guy. His attention is on Big Deal half the time. Genuinely loves being with you, and can easily be a lot more annoying than you if that's the game you want to play.

However, his overwhelming feelings when he can't spend all his time with you is guilt.... and you really don't want to make Jake feel sad or guilty.

He doesn't have the luxury of being able to spend whenever and however long he wants with you, and he truly does want.

Being annoying though? Good fucking luck. Jake has no shame. If you choose to be annoying, he can outmanoeuvre you in a heartbeat and in the most flamboyant and over the top way.

Vin Jin

Look, Vin is hot shit. You being clingy comes as no surprise. He's the hottest bachelor around so of course you wouldn't want to let go.

Annoying? He can put up with it, as long as you don't embarrass him. He has appearances to keep up, including being the best rapper so make sure you're up to par, mmkay?

Ok - just kidding. If Vin is with you, actually with you, he's pretty ride or die. Otherwise he'll keep you as some filthy little secret pretty much forever or until you've had enough of his bullshit.

He can put on the cool guy facade all he likes (and 'cool' is a reach) but he forever loves how much you're all over him, the attention you pay him. Despite any of his words or evidence to the contrary.

Seong Taehoon

Taehoon will tell you you're cringe, to piss off, cut it out. He only half means it. Although catch him waking up on the wrong side of bed then he will be serious.

Doesn't really deal that well with how annoying you are, especially if there's an undercurrent of sincerity and affection. It makes his head hurt and heartache, in a good way.

He doesn't exactly return your annoying traits like for like, but who are we kidding, this guy is bitchy and a dickhead in his own way. But the fact he puts up with you, and lets you get away with how you are at all speaks volumes.

Clinginess he surprisingly loves from a practicality point of view. If you're by his side all the time, there's no need to worry about what sort of nonsense you're getting up to and it's easier to protect and look after you when you're within arm's reach.

#lookism #lookism x reader #gun park x reader #goo kim x reader #jake kim x reader #vin jin x reader #viral hit x reader #how to fight x reader #seong taehoon x reader #seong taehun x reader #seong taehoon #seong taehun #taehun x reader #wannaeatramyeon

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logicalbookthief · 1 year

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With the return of Misaki and the uncertainty over Miri’s custody, I think it’s time to talk about the cat.

Because the cat is a direct parallel, and the reason why I believe things will go differently this time around, since they’ve both grown a lot over the last year.

The argument over the cat perfectly illustrates the crux of Rei & Kazuki’s issues at the start of the series.

Kazuki tells Rei that buying food for the cat isn't enough, you have to be willing to put in the work — and, given that he was gone for one night and comes home to an apartment filled with smoke, along with a pile of take-out and garbage, he was 100% justified in refusing the stray. Genuinely I don’t get why Kazuki taking this stance got the hate it did, any responsible pet owner would look at the Rei of Ep 1 and agree he was not ready for a cat.

However, this is something that Rei grows to understand when he’s left to care for Miri on his own in Ep 7 and Kazuki isn’t around to shoulder that responsibility. Rei realizes that his actions, or inaction, can negatively affect the people in his care, and it gives him a reason to change. I think it also gives him a new appreciation for everything Kazuki does, hence his attempt at French toast.

But I feel we don't discuss Kazuki's reason for giving up the cat enough, because they’re two sides of the same coin.

What he’s saying is objectively true and you can tell he’s speaking from a place of experience with what happened to Yuzuko. However, he is only focused on how what they do can affect the other people in their lives. No mention of how it would feel to lose someone or any lingering on how lonely this life is.

It’s a contrast to Rei, who brings home the stray without a second thought, simply because he wants to, not considering the impact it would have on the cat. Kazuki takes this to the opposite extreme, only considering what’s best for the cat and completely ignoring his own wants and feelings.

So, as we know, the cat is left where Rei found it. Not an ideal situation, no — much like leaving Miri with her mother would be, considering she did abandon her before — but it is the safer option in both cases.

Watch these scenes and tell me he isn’t fond of the cat. And when he realizes it’s cold and comes back with food for the little guy? Yeah, don’t tell me he wasn’t already attached.

But he comes back to an empty box. Implying to Kazuki, and to us the audience, that the cat was taken in by someone who could give it the normal, loving life that it deserves, which is why Kazuki leaves with a smile.

It is interesting to note that despite his disagreement, Rei went along with Kazuki’s decision over the cat, just as he went along with Kazuki’s decisions regarding Miri, whether that meant taking her back to her mom or committing to being her parents.

I always read this scene as Rei seeing how happy Kazuki is having Miri around. And thus he questions if this is really what Kazuki wants to do, resulting in that startled expression on Kazuki’s face. Like he hadn’t even considered that possibility.

Rei is perceptive, recognizing that Kazuki will be sad to see her go, yet he doesn’t argue when Kazuki firmly negates this as an option while looking upset again.

Kazuki has made strides in moving on from his wife’s death, but the idea that it’s okay to move on doesn’t erase the insecurities and tendency toward self-loathing he’s displayed, which were probably there long before he met Yuzuko. Even when he reconciles with Karin, her words of encouragement are, “I bet you can make her [Miri] happy!”

So if he truly believes that Miri will be happier or safer with her mother, Kazuki will absolutely choose to let her go.

And it will be up to Rei to go against his decision for once, because he knows that remaining a family is what they both want.

Here, Kazuki looks sad and resigned. I was always sort of disappointed we didn’t get a scene of Rei & Kazuki during Ep 7 when he was at his lowest and most self-deprecating. Now, though, I wonder if they were saving such a confrontation for this moment right here. Where Rei will have to convince him that his own happiness is a priority, too, and that their family is worth fighting for.

Now, uh. I do think that Rei’s decision that they stay together as a family will result in tragedy — there is too much foreshadowing to pretend otherwise — and that maybe Miri will have to stay with her mother for a bit out of necessity. But the point of this episode I think will be to highlight how much these two have grown because they wanted to be better for Miri and that it isn’t selfish to want to pursue that happiness for their own sakes, too.

#buddy daddies #kurusu kazuki #suwa rei #kazuki kurusu #rei suwa #unsaka miri #miri unasaka #buddy daddies meta

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emojellyace08 · 9 months

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Lookism x Artist! Reader Headcannons 🖤🥀🎨 Part 1 (J-High-Main Boys)

Warnings: None Genre: fluff ☁️ Reader is gender neutral (and in an established relationship with the character of choice :)

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Daniel Park (Park Hyung Seok)

He is so amazed by your drawings no matter what art style you use. Your works never failed to surprise him.

Daniel can't also help but to stare at your focused yet cute face when you try to draw on your sketchbook/paper (he'll stop if you find it creepy but he can't help it sometimes). He's really astonished by how you illustrate something with passion and take it to the next level even if it's just a doodle. Danny also finds it really smart and creative if you put meaning behind your drawings, whether it's sad or happy! He really likes to see the way you view things in life and express your thoughts on a piece of paper/canvas and he also can't help but to shower you with lots of compliments "Y/N It looks so cool! Keep up the good work!"

Daniel will also appreciate it if you use him as your reference! His heart will melt if you initiate to sketch him especially his original body. He felt so loved and cared about when you, his special someone sees the beauty in him no matter what shape, form or size he's in. He'll look at you like 🥺👉👈"Wa-Wait really? Are you sure?" HAHAHHAHAHAHA XD. Don't mind him but when he'll have an angst episode especially when his insecurities are getting in the way again, your comfort plus your artwork of him can really lift up his spirits. "You really find me cute in my other body?" he'll ask you in his taller form as you cup his cheeks and give him a peck as a sign of affection not wanting him to feel sadness and self-loathing himself. "Yep, that's why I always ask you to be my super model for my drawings! You're more than just your looks, so chin up Danny!" he can't help but smile thinking about it especially when he's feeling sad again, him feeling loved by you especially when it's not just his looks that you really adore and love about him (he feels the same for you). It really boosts his confidence more and in return, he'll not only compliment your works but also everything about you that's just so amazing to him.

If you're the shy type who won't show off your artworks to him, he'll definitely respect your privacy and space though he can't help but to be curious sometimes. And if you're the messy and inorganized type, expect him to just randomly check out your sketchbook especially when you both clean your shared apartment (don't scold him though he just picked it up on either the floor or the dining table which where it shouldn't be lmao). "So-Sorry Y/N I didn't know what I was doing sorry!" Though he will feel relieved when you just simply brushed it off saying it's fine but he won't stop apologizing when he can feel that you're upset about it. But this rarely happens since he will think about his actions first before doing it and he'll feel so much relieved when you started showing him his drawings and him seeing you breaking into your comfort zone.

Overall Danny's supportive about your hobby as long as you don't illustrate something too weird. He wouldn't mind if you teach him the basics or if you also you use one of his friends as your model/reference (especially Duke or his mom). He just loves you so much as much as you love him too (I need a Danny in my life right now).

Zack Lee (Lee Jin Sung)

This man will talk about you to literally everybody 24/7 (in good and really romantic way of course).

Zack's so amazed by everything you do even if it's the simplest things, so what more if you make a masterpiece everybody should be proud of ;)?

He'll also ask if he can take a look of your sketches and he'll be SUPERRR HAPPY when you showed him your sketchbooks and random doodles. Zack's so fascinated by how you illustrate things in your art style, making him showering you with lots of compliments. "You're so good at this! You really are a perfect person!". Trust me when I say that just like Daniel if you asked him to draw him as a reference, his heart will not only beat a hundred times faster but he's also going to explode from your request. His someone asking him to sketch him? His day couldn't get so much better. Just like Danny, Zack will also look at you with that puppy eyes when you ask him to draw him "Really?🥺👉👈" AHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA xD. He will also tease you about it. Him posing with funny poses while you force yourself to not laugh (he's also doing it to make you smile trust me). "Y/N you think I'm attractive?" "No why?" you playfully denied as you smirked at his reaction before he teases you back. "But why did you ask for me to be your model for your drawings?" "OH C'MON ZACK JUST STAY IN PLACE I CAN'T TAKE A GOOD REFERENCE PHOTO OF YOU" "SORRY Y/N I WON'T DO IT AGAIN!".

If you're the shy type, he'll be okay if you don't want to show your drawings to him. But he'll be definitely be sad and crying inside since he feel like you don't trust him enough lmao (though he'll still respect your wishes). And he will also sneak up to see your works when it's just chilling on your desk or table, but he'll be so sorry and crying when you caught him touching your things without your permission. "SORRY Y/N I WON'T DO IT AGAINNNN!!! PLEASE FORGIVE MEEEE!!!. However, he'll be also relieved when you're okay with him checking out your sketchbook, though next time he'll ask for your permission though! (Always asking you with those puppy eyes. "Y/N can I take a look of your drawings again? I'll be careful with it I promise🥺👉👈 ". He'll also not let anyone touch your things and your coloring materials to other people unless you say so (He'll hand it to Mira since she's careful enough about others' belongings or he'll just simply put it on your desk when he needs to do something important).

Zack is just wholesome and supportive about your hobby. He will always flex you on his friends not only about your artistry but almost about everything about you. "Do you know Y/N is a great artist? You can ask for her to draw you if she/he doesn't mind it ;)". (Protect Zack at all cost).

Vasco (Lee Eun Tae)

Another cinnamon roll here.

Vasco really loves your drawings so much! He's always curious on how you managed to sketch pretty illustrations especially cute animals like kittens and puppies! He has that same puppy expression while his eyes sparkle as he views your artworks in awe. He's so confused when he tries to draw the same as you but it always end up looking a bit weird lmao (But we still love him).

He'll talk about you to Burn Knuckles especially Jace. Their reactions will be so priceless. No one had made Vasco smile and made his day better other than them! "VASCO, YOU TALKED TO A GIRL/BOY???!" "YEAH! SHE'S/HE'S SO PRETTY/HANDSOME, KIND AND SHE'S/HE'S A DRAWER!" "You mean artist right?" Jace asked as Vasco nodded with a cute smile. "Yeah! her/his drawings are so amazing!" As you became friends, Vasco will ask for you to draw him a puppy if you don't mind! And he'll be sooo happy if you did so especially on his birthday (he cherishes the others gifts that the others had given him but he just really loves your art so much!). "JACE! Y/N DREW A PUPPY FOR ME IT'S SO CUTE SHE/HE EVEN PUT IT INSIDE A PICTURE FRAME!"

If you're the shy type, he'll wonder why you're a bit hesitant of showing your works to him, though he will respect it and not force you to but he still can't help but to be curious about what it looks like. But after getting to know each other and getting closer, he will ask again if he can take a look of your sketches and if you agreed so, he'll appreciate you for trusting him and he'll give you lots of compliments so that you can show him your other drawings and he'll have that huge and cute eyes 🥺👉👈 while his mouth his gaped open in shock about how your drawings are so pretty. "Y/N you did all of this? It looks SOOO PRETTY!". And if you're the messy type or you constantly misplace your things, he'll always find your sketchbook where you left it and he'll shout at you with that childish yet deep voice as it echoes in the school hallways holding it up while waving his hand to catch your attention. "Y/NNNNN! I FOUND YOUR SKETCHBOOK IT'S ON THE CAFETERIA TABLE!!!" If he's a dog right now, his tail will waggle if you pat his head and thanked him for helping it find it. "Thanks Euntae, I appreciate your help". Your kindness along with your warm smiles, talent, and hard work never fails to amaze him and fall in love for you more!

And if you and Vasco became official after some time, expect the Burn Knuckles to cry while cheering for the both of you. You'll also find it entertaining to teach the them how to draw silly stuff that they like (It can be a pain in the ass but if that's what makes Vasco happy and you to get each other know better you're probably going to do it lmao, protect Vasco at all cost).

Jay Hong (Hong Jae Yol)

This man would be so protective and proud of you.

Jay finds it really interesting when you illustrate something beautiful while being effortless. If you're seatmates with him, he would slightly look at you sketching random things while the teacher discusses another boring lesson. Him multi-tasking with him just listening to the teacher's ramble while his eyes are focused on you drawing on your scratch paper instead of taking notes. Both of you may get into trouble for not listening but since Jay's a top student he can help you catch up with the topics (Istg I saw him on the anime and webtoon not taking notes down while there's a lesson yet he's manages to be in the top how does he do that?)

Headcannon: You and Jay would communicate with cute and silly drawings. For example you and Jay would exchange notes with you asking him how he's feeling or if he's been doing well with a cute cat doodle with a confused/concerned expression plastered on its face with a question mark. And he would respond back with a much simpler drawing of a dog smiling (considering how much he's scared of dogs, well he used to be), a sign/message that he's okay as the conversation will go on :) He also respects it if you're a bit shy of showing your drawings to him not wanting you to feel uncomfortable but he would also appreciates it when you initiate to show it to him. If you're the messy type he'll also check your sketchbook before giving it back to you. Though he will often ask permission if he can check your artworks out.

He also really likes your artstyle! No matter what style or genre of drawing you have you'll never fail to amaze him. He would also appreciate it when you draw him! I promise you he will put all of your illustrations that you gave him on expensive frames and he'll take care and preserve it like it's a delicate piece of masterpiece that needs to be put and hang on a museum (I love him so much).

Overall, Jay and you will have a special bond especially with anything related to art. Jay's perspective on it is so unique. Since he's having a really hard time in expressing his emotions and thoughts through words, he finds it as an escape and comfort on his problems (for an example is him with good fashion style). So having a partner who's an artist can be relatable for him, you and him will be a good power couple! (he also loves your good attitude and values so please be nice to him :).

A/N: Part 2 will be with Eli, Hudson, Warren, and Johan (if possible)

#lookism x reader #lookism x y/n #lookism x you #daniel park x reader #jay hong x reader #zack lee x reader #vasco x reader #lookism manhwa #lookism #lookism webtoon #lookism fic #headcannons #character x you #lookism x male reader #lookism x female reader #lookism x gender neutral reader

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kissesforsatoru · 2 years

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Can you pls do yandere bully gojo or megumi🥺

Love u💓

𓏲 ˖. pairings. . . megumi x reader

𓏲 ˖. summary. . . yandere! bully! megumi

𓏲 ˖. warnings. . . general yandere themes, bullying, blackmail, non-consensual kissing, nsfw implications, minor itadori x reader

when you first met megumi, your impression of him wasn't really anything significant. he was aloof, quiet, and moody — that's all you were really able to understand about him in the short time the two of you spent together. there was just one thing that made you feel, at the very least, uneasy around him, and that was the way that he wouldn't stop glaring at you anytime he saw you.

you asked itadori about it when the two of you were alone for a moment, but he just brushed off your concern and told you that's how megumi always is. he reassured that with some time, megumi would ease up a bit more. you trust itadori, but you were still hesitant.

but you still took itadori's words into consideration and gave megumi time — lots of it, actually. for three months, you waited patiently for him to stop being so loathing towards you and start easing up like itadori said he would. but after so long without any changes, it just seemed futile. you tried coaxing him into being a little less intimidating, like asking him him questions about his day and offering him cookies whenever you made some for itadori, but he always scoffed and ignored you.

in fact, the more that you tried being his friend, the less megumi was inclined to be nice to you. he got quite callous, blatantly telling you that you're annoying or that he didn't know why itadori liked you so much. it made you feel so bad about yourself that for a little while, you ignored any offer to hang out from itadori in fear that megumi would be there.

itadori comforted you and made accommodations so that you'd feel better around megumi, like defending you whenever he said something bad or even deciding not to bring him some time when you guys met. you appreciated him a lot for everything that he's done for you.

it didn't really take you long to develop a crush on itadori, because why wouldn't you? he's such a sweetheart and he genuinely cares for everyone, even people who don't deserve it like megumi. whenever you were around him your heart would flutter, and you got really shy whenever he was so close that his body brushed against yours.

megumi seemed to hate you even more because of your ceush on itadori, though. he made mean comments about itadori only being nice because he felt bad for you or that he would never like you back, and it hurt just as much as when he would tell you how annoying you were.

he took absolutely every opportunity he could to make you feel like shit in some way — like he was about to do now while he had you cornered all alone in the school library.

"i saw you fumbling for itadori's attention earlier." he hummed, backing you into the wall behind you. "don't forget that he would never go out with someone like you. why don't you just fucking leave him alone already?"

you didn't respond, far too scared of what he might say if you mustered up the courage to say something. only a weak whimper escaped your lips as he stepped closer to you. he's never done anything to physically hurt you, but him merely being around you made you really uncomfortable.

you flinched slightly when he placed a cold hand on your arm and shoved you roughly into the wall, pinning you there. you gulped thickly as your hands immediately going to the hem of your shirt so that you could have something to focus on other than the growing fear you felt in your stomach. you didn't like where this was going.

you didn't have time to properly think of a way to escape this mess before his lips were on yours and his tongue was invading your open mouth. you gasped, tears forming in your eyes as you grabbed him by the shoulder, trying as hard as you can to push him away, but he didn't budge at all.

he lapped at the inside of your mouth fervently, making sure to explore every crevice carefully while also swirling his tongue with yours. your body tingled whoth pulsating heat the longer that he kissed you, and soft, uncontrollable moans escaped your lips. you stayed idle, though, refusing to give in to how good it felt because megumi was the last person you wanted to enjoy kissing. he really didn't seem to mind anyway.

when he finally pulled away he shoved you away from him and wiped his mouth off while you watched, feeling that familiar twinge in your stomach. he kissed you, and yet you were the one feeling ashamed because of his disgust. why did he kiss you if he was so repulsed?

"if you don't want itadori to find out about how much of a slut you are, then i suggest you let me have my way with you whenever i want." he smirked, waving his phone in your face that had a picture of you two kissing on it before he walked off — leaving you there confused and scared.

#yandere #yandere imagines #yandere x you #yandere jjk #yandere jjk x reader #yandere jujutsu kaisen #yandere jujutsu kaisen x reader #yandere megumi #yandere megumi x reader #jjk megumi #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu megumi #yandere thoughts #yandere headcanons #megumi x reader #megumi fanfic #yandere bully

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celeste444spacey · 2 months

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MANIFEST YOUR DESIRED BODY

Prequel: Working on self image

(TW: MIGHT MENTION ED )

So this post is about manifesting your desired body, desired look and the likes of it. And it's one of the most popular manifestations out there.

But before i get to the part of actually manifesting it, there IS a little bit background work to be done. And i will say this cause for a lot of people, and i mean A LOT (even me), we have resistances with manifesting a desired change in how we look and how we are perceived by others. And 90% of it usually stems from how we perceive ourselves.

If you have worked on yourself and have made progress far enough to just get into the manifesting, i'm really happy for you :) and this post may not be for you. I will be making a specific post on the manifesting part. This post is kind of targeted towards people who haven't done that or worked on their self IMAGE concepts and continue to experience resistances while manifesting their desired looks.

And please do bear with me, cause this is one LONG post

Let's get into it. This post is not necessarily targeted towards manifesting, it's more about working on yourself. If you are just interested in the manifesting part however, this post will not be for you. (as said before)

I really think the mix of manifesting + working on yourself is such a healing thing to do, and it is a killer combo for living the life of your dreams. I like to think of these two as self care.

Let's start with a few questions....

Do you do skincare? Do you like to pamper yourself by grooming yourself?

Do you avoid procrastination?

TW: Do you try to eat without guilt? Eat healthy? And even if you are eating something that may not necessarily be healthy, are you enjoying eating it?

Do you try to think good things to yourself? Avoid negative thoughts?

Do you brush your hair everyday?

Do you moisturize? Do you take a shower everyday?

Do you AVOID self loathing?

I know these are very basic questions, i'm not saying you NEED to have a skincare routine or ALWAYS have positive thoughts or ALWAYS moisturize.

I am trying to point out the core values of these actions. Go on, i'll give you a second to come up with the answer.

Yes, the core value is self care. You take care of yourself and you allow yourself to be loved and pampered.

Thing is, you don't even respect yourself. Honestly yeah, you totally don't

I know damn well you don't. You procrastinate, you stress yourself over the tiniest things, don't even like to keep yourself presentable or brush your hair. You don't like to take care of your skin or have some sort of routine, which allows you to have time to take care of yourself. You don't dress nice, always look down on yourself, compare yourself to other people.

No seriously take these SAME EXACT things you do to yourself and imagine a mother is doing it to her child.

EXACTLY. You see the issue now?

You don't want someone else to treat you like that, look down on you, stress you out, say bad shit about you

WHY DO YOU DO THAT THEN????

WHY ARE YOU BEING YOUR OWN TOXIC PARTNER

"oh but they would never like me i'm not pretty"

Let's change it to second person

"oh i don't like you, you're not pretty"

Stings, right?

Girl, like you don't even respect yourself, you don't even consider yourself worthy enough for an investment

It's not funny being self depreciating all the damn time.

When you procrastinate: you don't respect yourself enough to do things on time, and you disrespect yourself so much so that you're okay with stressing yourself last minute

When you don't brush your hair/ take care of your skin: You don't find yourself respectful enough to be made presentable

When you don't think nice things about yourself and look down yourself: YOU DON'T RESPECT YOU PERIODT.

Yes it's the small things and the small things count

It's always the little things, and these are the little things that are your biggest resistance.

Start respecting yourself.

Do things you like, allow yourself to grow.

Take care of yourself, start a skincare routine if you want, the investment IS worthy enough if it's YOU. Study, allow yourself to be knowledgable. Money is nothing if it comes/ gets saved at the expense of YOU.

And at the same time before you get into manifesting, acknowledge the parts of you you want to change, acknowledge the weight you want to lose, the nose you wanna change whatever it may be, contrary to popular advice, acknowledge that don't ignore it. It's you at the end of the day. It's a part of you.

and that's the post. The manifesting ones will be coming soon.

xoxo loves 🤍

#manifesting #manifest #affirmations #it girl #self concept #law of attraction #manifestation #self care #loa #law of assumption #manifesting appearance #manifesting advice

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linktoo · 10 months

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I got an ask wondering about who is my favourite character in Disco Elysium, which I stand by my answer of being not really one in particular. But, Dora is one character I've been thinking about a lot and I think I want to expand on that.

The story is told through Harry's eyes, and regardless of his in-depth analysis of and narration of his attributes, it's unreliable. Undeniably so. This is part of the story, I really do feel for Harry's inability to move on. I feel for his aching loneliness, and his need to be needed. The crushing feeling of missing someone so achingly bad, only for them to learn that they have actually forgotten a lot about you and moved on is a feeling of deep rejection, devastatingly demoralizing and painful. "I betrayed her, overwrote her, and happier for it" is a visceral line of feeling the alienation of someone you've lost to time, someone you used to know but has moved on without you.

But I really can't help but feel so much for Dora's position in all of this. As a woman in a male dominated society your emotions are seen as both weak yet mature, you are constantly objectified down into pieces of meat, and seen as vapid and shallow when you put yourself first. When you choose to finally stand up for yourself, that is long after you've known better, long after you’ve been embittered by your initial innocence and first experience.

“You were my first. My first kiss, my first time to have sex.”

The game continues to emphasize how Harry loved her, how Harry missed her, and yet I get deeply uncomfortable with how her presence is described with her physique rather than her actual self as a person.

“A dolorian figure, cut in black, moves below. It's still her. Her legs, her breasts, her hips…”

[...]

“‘No, Harry.’ She shakes her head. ‘It's just regular skin. I'm not as beautiful as you always thought I was.”

It’s reductive. It’s dehumanizing. It’s not about her, it’s what she represents. The most perfect goddess of a woman, put on a pedestal and quite literally turned into a deity. Not to be loved romantically, but to be worshipped as a religious figure. Worshipped for the violence and destruction she creates to degrade him and feed into his self loathing, and thus Dora becomes Dolores Dei.

There is a selfish hope and longing that comes with any sort of kindness or pity she give him. She knows that and her words are cautious, she has been through it before, and no longer feels any sort of way about it. She is vulnerable, she did used to care, she is sympathetic to his pain, but she firmly does not anymore and will not allow her empathy be used against her.

YOU - "But… that's not a very good way for things to be." DOLORES DEI - "It's not, but…" She looks at her feet. Little golden sandals cover her toes. YOU - "But what? Tell me there's something good…" DOLORES DEI - "I don't know why I said but. There is no but." YOU - "That's it?" DOLORES DEI - "That's it, yes," she looks up from her toes. "We've talked about it a million times. You will get over it, just like I did. People do. Things will get good for you again…"

I understand that detachment so deeply.

There is a pain to know men you trusted and cared and loved only to be seen as a reductive version of yourself. The one who is “nice”, the one who is “ethereally beautiful” and that’s… about it. You’re not good for each other. It didn’t work out. But by finally deciding it is best to remove yourself from that relationship, you are considered the slut that left him. You are considered the gold digger, the shallow bitch, the uncaring freak of a woman. We didn't really get to know about her and I don't think she was good to him either.

And I just can’t help thinking about that. I’m glad she’s happier now.

#dolores dei #harry du bois #disco elysium #dora ingerlund #linktoo rambles #we live in a society... idk what 2 say...

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localapparently · 5 months

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/ orv main story ending spoilers , mentions of kdj's suicidal mindset

mindless rambling

my friend who just finished orv asked me why kdj couldn't just split like 2% off of himself into an od avatar and leave that in the train while he joined kimcom, and while my initial reaction was "there's no way he could just do that" I remembered i thought a similar thing when I first read through orv too? and maybe it got explained down the line but I forget things real easy (which is why i'm rereading orv) and so I'm just trying to make sense of it using my existing knowledge

There's this bit in epilogue here:

Sangah's words "protecting the world by dividing himself in half, one becomes the reader, one becomes the character". the first being 51 and the second being 49,

I think there are layers to it. Right after being shaken by the OD ordeal, kdj's mindset that he's to blame for the whole world is reinforced stronger than ever before in his head, because he had just witnessed living proof of it. And that's not something he can overcome just because sp and 999 gang took od away to take care of him. Even then, kdj was confused why they weren't angry.

There's also the persisting mindset kdj has that he's twsa's reader and not a proper part of kimcom, and he probably felt like he should bear the burden of consciously continuing to read the world until the very end. He managed to see himself as part of kimcom over the course of the story but od's appearance sort of undoes all that progress he's ever made, and its sad but its pretty common for self hate mindsets to spiral like that,

He probably felt like he deserved it, yet him wanting that extra 2% difference to prove he knew and loved kimcom more than his avatar. Him regretting splitting in half right after the avatar left and he saw them all walking away. He knows what he wants and in the end he can't bring himself to think that he deserves it

And honestly I don't really know why the way singshong writes kdj's self hate and suicidal tendencies get me so badly, I mean I do, kind of, the feeling is there, but it's incredible how long the set up was and how real it feels when you see it all go downhill.

i think od reveal truly truly fucked up kdj to no repair. like if you read the passages, its fucking heartbreaking.

"My own tragedy couldn't even compare to their pain. The sin of creating an even bigger tragedy because of my own should not be forgiven." "Something was wrong. A blade… I, I needed to find a blade."

and the thing that gets to me is how easily anyone who has had self loathing thoughts can empathise with him. The want to disappear for inconveniencing things that would've been perfectly fine and pretty and happy had you not come into contact with it, the idea that you are a disgusting monster and its easier to shut yourself off than do any more damage. and its Fine if youre in pain because They will be happy and theyll will be happier without you.

It fascinates me how a portion of readers of orv who self blame or self doubt love kdj so much, because the act of loving him is also some form of self reassurance that they can be loved as well, because if someone like kdj can be forgiven, then surely they can, for all their small or big mistakes that are definitely not on the scale of plunging the universe into a space apocalypse. or something.

but i might be assuming so. don't take my word for any of this.

tldr he doesnt split out a small avatar to take the place of od because he thinks he deserves it. which is quite obvious if you take a look at the big picture, and i dont really know why i rambled so long. maybe ill reread orv and theres gona be a small bit that's like "ohh well actually if it was too small of a percentage that became od the universe wont hold up" and i will be like Ah yes i just missed that part. and this ramble will be void. uhh yes. have a nice day

#orv #orv spoilers #kim dokja #3am rambles

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idyllic-affections · 10 months

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Hi! I love your blog!

Can I request an older brother scaramouche comforting a teen!reader who cries a lot? Probably from loud noises or frequent bouts of anxiety

the art of being gentle.

summary. the balladeer does not need to be gentle to show that he cares.

trigger & content warnings. anxiety, scara's a bit mean but he does mean well, etc.

tropes, pairings, fic length, & other notes. comfort. scaramouche & younger sibling!reader. 0.6k words. they/them pronouns for reader.

author's thoughts. hello lovely! thank you sm. a random thought, but a lot of people seem to quite like platonic scara content? i don't mind writing for him at all, since most people on my blog seem to be fond of my rendition of him, but i just thought it was interesting hehe

scaramouche is an easily agitated man.

his workload is difficult enough to manage as it is. being a harbinger, contrary to what the lower ranked members of the fatui seem to think, does not simply mean being out on the field constantly. it doesn't simply mean fulfilling the tsaritsa's international desires, such as snatching gnoses from their godly owners. it doesn't simply mean bloodshed. there is far more to it than that.

there's paperwork.

there's a fuck ton of paperwork.

scaramouche very much loathes that part of his job. he sometimes thinks of hiring someone else (more like threatening someone else) to do it, but then again... any error could be held against him in the end. he always ends up doing the mountains of work himself. as such, the balladeer does not take kindly to interruptions.

the knock on his office door, meek and quiet, makes his head snap up. the grip on his pen tightens slightly. with irritation evident in his voice, he sneers, "what?"

a wave of what he thinks is guilt or regret washes over him when his sibling—his cherished baby sibling, the most important person to him—steps into his office and shuts the door behind them with trembling hands. fuck... he feels impossibly bad, though he shoves those feelings down into the depths of his mind to the best of his ability with a slight grimace. a weight settles on his chest almost immediately he pinches the bridge of his nose between his thumb and index finger. his expression then softens slightly.

no, the sixth is not gentle. he is not. he hasn't been gentle for a very long time.

even so, he'll do his best. he hates seeing them cry, and based on the shimmery gloss over their eyes... they are about to, his tone doing nothing to help their emotional state.

he tries to think of something to say—are you okay? what's on your mind? who made you feel this way? the words, however, do not come out. his throat tightens. it's as if the simple thought alone of expressing concern for another being made him uncomfortable. it was unfamiliar territory, in his defense. scaramouche has not had to worry about another's wellbeing for... centuries, maybe. he can't recall the last time he verbally consoled someone.

"sit down."

it comes out harsher than he intends, and he winces slightly at the sound of his own voice. he fidgets with the pen in his hands. suddenly, the paperwork on his desk—expense reports for the regrator, mission reports for the jester—seems far less relevant.

he still doesn't say anything. he only observes silently as his sibling settles in the chair in front of his desk.

"um," they begin, swallowing back some of their anxiety as they fidget with the edge of their sleeves. "i know you're busy. i'm sorry."

"the hell are you apologizing for?"

"just... um, just for being bothersome, since i know you have work to do and—"

"the other harbingers can fucking wait," he mutters, rolling his eyes. "you come before those heartless bastards, always. spit it out. what happened?"

no, the balladeer is not known for being gentle, but he cares.

maybe it's hard for others to comprehend, but when he always ends up holding them tightly in his arms as he finishes up the last of his work with one hand, the other's calloused fingertips drawing random shapes on their upper arm, it's obvious to the one person who matters.

being gentle is an art that scaramouche may very well never master, but in the end...

he doesn't have to be gentle to show that he cares.

please consider reblogging, it helps me out quite a lot!

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honey-beann · 5 months

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Okay this might be kind of weird, but could I request some Nines headcannons about how he is with an s/o with long hair? Idk I just feel like he might have particular interactions or things to say about it and I was curious what your take on something likke this might be?

Nines with an S/O who has long hair

Note: Hi Anon! Thanks so much for the request, I had a ton of fun with this! (and as someone with incredibly long hair, it is absolutely not self-serving in the slightest, nuh uh, no way, no how.)

(it definitely is lol).

I hope that you enjoy!

Okay so here's the thing, I know that people might assume that being in a relationship with someone who has long hair is no different than being in a relationship with someone with short/medium length hair, and in a lot of ways, they're absolutely right.

That said, being in a relationship with an android like Nines, who is far more observant than the average man, and a lot more curious about the human body and all of its particular intricacies, would definitely mean that he's more interested in/aware of the subtle impacts that hair lengths and the ways they are managed can have on life style.

For example, I think he would find it interesting how much more upkeep longer hair can require (though this also depends on texture), the increased frequency with which it seems to shed or fall out, and of course, the vast number of styling techniques and designs that can be used on longer hair.

He definitely likes to touch it a lot, and may even offer to brush it for you or help you to style it in some particular way (though there is a 90% chance that you'll have to ask him to so he doesn't risk letting you know how much he likes the feeling of it beneath his fingertips).

Absolutely will braid your hair though, and he always gets the sectioning even, so that's a huge plus.

That said, he will never cease to tease you about how inconvenient your hair can be at times.

If he ever sees you pull a hair out of your food, or find one essentially threaded into a garment of yours (or his), he will immediately remind you of your choice to wear your hair as long as you do (and you can't even argue that it isn't yours with him, because he's already scanned it to prove otherwise).

If you have any form of hair care routine outside of showering, he loves to watch you go through it, eyes both curious and amused at the same time as he takes in your techniques and learns why you utilize them.

If you don't do anything outside of the shower though, don't fret, because he is a big fan of shampooing your hair if you'll let him, and he will never fail to let you know if you should still be rinsing anything out.

"There's still shampoo on your roots" as you walk out of the bathroom, prompting you to simply turn around and start the shower up again with a sigh.

Can and will scan your hair products for bad ingredients and let you know how unwise it is to use them (though he sucks at giving positive feedback in that area, so if you want to know what might be good, you would probably have to ask him directly).

"That is going to dry out your hair."

"That isn't for your hair type."

"Reviews state that this makes consumers' hair fall out after a few weeks of use."

"There is a known carcinogen in that hair mask."

Bro is relentless in his product complaints (but it's only because he cares about the health of both you and your hair lol).

He definitely doesn't quite understand why anyone would choose to keep their hair so long if it can make caring for it so much more complex, but he certainly doesn't mind it as long as you keep letting him entertain himself by playing with it or helping you to try out new/different styles.

Oh, but regardless of whether or not you're in a relationship with him, if you work together, he absolutely loathes your long hair (at least some of the time).

Definitely thinks that it gets in the way far too often and that it's annoying that you have to take the time to put it up just to keep it away from your face during the work day.

Has absolutely been smacked with your hair before while standing behind you without you realizing.

Cannot stand it when you wine about the heat while choosing to have so much hair trapping warmth in against the back of your neck.

Has absolutely contemplated cutting it off himself before.

Becomes rather amused at watching you attempt to de-tangle it after a particularly rigorous chase or anything similar, and thinks of it as karma for you choosing to have longer hair in a field like law enforcement.

(Secretly likes finding your hairs on his work chair after you've sat in it though, and was weirdly endured when he found a hair of yours stuck to his jacket for the first time).

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#request #dbh headcanons #dbh x reader #dbh x reader headcanons #dbh nines x reader #nines x reader #nines rk900

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mikeysbabygirl · 1 year

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Ran doesn't care about the girlies around him ( he has a crush on his father's girlfriend, he's even a slight pervy for her )

And Rindou doesn't go to class for all his fangirls there, but for the English teacher (me)

HI MY DARLING, HOW ARE YOU DOING ?

Look, at them, look.

Do they look like they have a mommy kink ?

They don't look like it. ( Cause they have one)

Warning: 18+, Minors DNI. pervy Ran, panties stealing, handjob, smut, manipulative Ran. Student fucking teacher, mention of porn, blackmailer Rindou, praises, pet names, tell me if I forgot anything.

Ran didn't liked you at all at first. It was clearer than water that you were only there for his father's money, you were barely few years older than him and Rindou, dating one of the most famous Roppongi's business men, do we even need to add anything?

He loathed the masquerade you were playing, the role of the perfect girlfriend, your polite smile and questions about how his and his brother's day were. You were not his mom, she died long ago, no one could replace her or even pretend, let alone a young gold-digger.

But something to know about Ran, is that when he hates someone, they keep playing in his mind, again, and again, like a broken record.

He doesn't trust you, so he watches you. You, and those tight pants that had his eyes following your path behind you.

He watches you, slipping from the bedroom to the shower every morning in one of your transparent nightgowns, thinking him and his brother were sleeping. And he watches you leaving the bathroom, dripping your beauty everywhere only wrapped in a towel.

He would watch you later, wondering where the hell were your panties that you forgot in the bathroom. Smirking, knowing perfectly how deep in his drawer they were hidden.

-" Ran ?" Your voice was kind of raw, it seems like he woke you up by slamming the door, it was past midnight after all. You turned the lights of the living room on and immediately, a gasp left your mouth seeing the blood on his face and knuckles, he winced watching you getting fastly closer to him.

-" What the hell happened to you?"

He pushed away your hand that tried reaching for his split lip,but you didn't seemed offended by his gesture, you were used to his dryness toward you.

-" t's nothing, just a fight-"

-" No it's not !" He was surprised, hearing your voice flying few decibels higher. " Oh honey, you're bleeding, let me make it right, yeah ?"

He should not, really. The infamous Ran Haitani, missing heart beats because his father's girlfriend called him honey, took his hand in hers and started guiding him toward the bedroom.

But now, he was sitting on your and his father's bed, with you kneeling between his legs, and all balanced thoughts had left his body, all that's left was unholy, unholy, unholy...

He had the opportunity to admire you better in this position, and damn, as much as he liked to ( pretend he) hate you, he could not deny that his father was one hell of a lucky man.

The silk of your pajamas drew magnificently the hardening of your nipples, he could feel the heat rushing in between his legs, right where you were sitting, your hair lovely falling on your face whilst you were taking care of his bloodied knuckles.

On the mirror behind you, he could perceive the curve of your butt seeping through, under your silky shorts. He could not take his mind of the way your skin was so empty of any traces, such a virgin canvas, wasn't his father taking care of you ?

If you have been his, his fingertips would be imprinted on every inch of you.

But wait, since when did he even thought about you this way-?

-" Does it hurt ?" Your small voice asks quietly, applying the disinfectant on his wounds.

The worry in your eyes... The worry in your eyes had him clenching his jaw.

-" A lot. " He quietly utters, getting even harder when you stopped every movement, worrying about him.

-" hurts here" his hand reached for yours, and when you thought he would push you away, he guided it toward the bulge in his pants.

Ran couldn't tell, if the virtuous awe in your enchanting eye color made you adorable, or made him just want to eat you raw.

-" Ran, you insane or something? You can't..."

You gasp again, as he squeezes your hand around his length. Something in the way he almost moans in bliss makes the heat rush to your lower belly.

-" Hurts so fucking good... Don't you see ? Need you to take care of it f'me... "

Breath was getting harder to take, his long lashes, his lavender eyes and sharp jaw, everything about him was mesmerizing.

-" This is wrong, Ran... And you know it "

Then why were you applying more pressure on his hard dick ?

A sigh escaped your lips, the moment he buckled his hips against your hand, your tightening grip fanning the flame ravaging his guts.

-"Why lying now ? Can see you squeezing those pretty thighs... Fuck, such a pretty slut-"

Somehow, it just takes another roll of his hips against your hand, a sweat drop rolling on his forehead, and his strangled voice to make you drop the restraints.

-" Oh fuck..."

Your hands are quick to unbuckle his belt, slide his pants down, and now, Ran Haitani's most secretive part lays heavy, thick, long in your hand.

His breath gets caught in his throat, and his sits, adoring eyes while you cut the ties, uncover the beauty of your body.

On top of his nineteen, Ran has had his fair share of naked girls. Yet, when your top fell to the floor, your shorts soon to follow, he was convinced nothing could make him forget that.

-" So damn perfect... " His hoarse voice whispers, and he liked that, unlike younger, less experienced girls, you don't blush, you don't hide.

You just climb on his lap, knees sinking on each side of the bed.

Is there a word that God has forbidden? Something the heavens and hells would tremble upon hearing ? He wished he could scream it until his lungs burn, as you guide his cock toward your tight entrance and give him no time, immediately start sinking down on him.

-" This... Fuck- this pussy can't possibly be this good " his fingertips finally find your skin, digging as deep as they can. You don't whine, you don't ache, he's in bliss.

-" I... Ran, baby, your cock's too good... Fucks me so good-"

Your dirty words, his thrown back head, his stolen heart, you on his mind.

You had those unimpressed ways, though your walls were too tight for his own length, your sight was radiating fetch, riding him like you wanted him to ruin you, taking care of him like no one ever did. His hands were now wrapped around your tits, thumbs experimentally playing with your hard nubs.

Waves of beatitude washed over him, he was swimming in you, diving in the euphoria of that moment, and he couldn't even tell the moment where he did it but Roppongi's strongest delinquent lost control. Later, he would call himself pathetic, but he wasn't thinking anymore now, shameless moans leaving his mouth watching your pretty face contorting in pleasure.

-" Shit, you're clenching on me, princess... Is my dick's making you feel good ? Does he fuck this pussy as good as I do ? Why the fuck is it so tight, hm ?"

He hates it, that after your grandiose night together, his expectations of what would be you and him were reduced to stolen glances, to gasps leaving your enticing lips whenever his hands would brush yours. He hates that his whirlwind of emotions is reduced to almost-said speeches.

He hates it, that the blaze you ignited in him is reduced to shameless presses of his morning erection against your back, reaching for the cereal box while you were cutting fruits on the kitchen counter. He hates that you don't even try to push him away.

And he loathes, oh so much, the knowing face you make, hearing the click of his camera under the table, your short skirt, you say nothing.

But little did you know, he loves when his father's not home. He loves when you leave the bathroom's door unlocked, he loves the haze around your glowing body under the shower, and loves the war in his own seeing you all bare.

You don't even startle, he hates it. You feel him behind you, his desire hard as concrete against your back, his loving hands on your stomach, his lips on your neck. Ran, Ran, Ran...

-" Y'really cute, thinking you could get away with this so easily... Got no idea how fucked up you get me "

Now about Rindou and the teacher thing !

Now thinking back to all that happened, Rindou thinks it's all your fault.

How could anyone blame him ? If you were just so enticing, if you walked around the class in your not so academic clothes ? If you greeted him with such a mind-blowing smile whenever he comes back to class ?

He's only coming back for one thing.

Ran keep wondering since when his brother turned so interested in english lectures, but Rindou's careful not let him know, it is for moments like this.

You, who are so, oh so caring toward your students. He just had to show a confused face while you explained one stupid little thing, and there you were, standing next to him, leaning over his table desperately trying to explain it in better words.

So much for English, Rindou's attention has been stolen by your plunge cleavage. They traveled miles of your delicate skin, his hands in a deathly tight grip around the chair he's sitting on.

-" Do you get it now, Rin' ?" You purely ask, he could drown in your doe eyes, get lost in the gap between your glossy lips, burn between your small hands patting his shoulder when he nods.

-" That's a good boy "

Oh to when you say that, oh to when you smile, before you're walking away, skirt slightly riding the back of your thighs, he doesn't miss an inch of you, best believe you're engraved in the deepest, dirtiest corners of his mind.

It's your eyes, your smile, your touches, your body, that got him fantasizing about fucking his teacher.

And it is fantasizing about you, that got him missing hours of sleep, scrolling through porn sites. There, where he would find the less expected, the most incredible turn his life could take.

He could not believe the lies his eyes were reporting, was it really happening ?

But those lavender hues, oh they held every inch of you so dearly, they could never mistake you for any other human being.

No, it was you,in the amateur porn site he just found. You, your doe eyes, your glossy lips, your delicate skin, shoving the pink vibrator deeper in your impossibly sensuous pussy. It was you, spilling the most flagrant moans, it was you, once again, having his pants tightening.

Rindou's the cockiest after that. He would not say anything, just there sitting behind his desk, a brow arched and the ghost of a smirk in the corner of his lips.

A look that says " I know what you're doing"

If anything, it intrigued you. But at the end of the day, it is one of the things you throw away at the threshold of the school, and honestly ? Rindou Haitani's expressions were always too deep of a mystery for you to decorticate.

He was fine with it how it was, really. Spending every night checking your channel, looking for new content. Friday, it was your posting day, after the overwhelming pressure of the whole week.

Rindou likes to forget about the screen, the miles separating you, and the thousand other eyes looking at you now, as he lays on his back.

He likes to think it's his hand, not yours, starting to turn you on, gliding upon the soft fabric of your brand new bra. And he thinks it's appealing, how you take your time to take it off, how your breasts look even more alluring than what he had ever imagined, and how you turn into a whining mess as soon as those fingers that patted his shoulder that morning begin sinking inside you.

He was really fine with what he had, he even felt lucky to be able to witness you in your most intimate moments . But the day that man, basic car, basic clothes, basic motherfucker ( as he calls him) drops you more and more often at school, well he's not fine at all.

And everyone notices, even his boss. Not like Manjiro cares, but he just wants his gang members to be 100% focused on their missions, and he's not.

Because of you. You turned him into this disgusting guy in heat, now you should take it upon yourself.

You're startled when Rindou's drops his phone on your desk, first of all, he never stays that late at school, and second of all, you've never seen such a stern expression on his face.

-" Yes, Rin' ? Is there something wrong?"

Cocky bastard.

Doesn't say anything, once again.

Rindou's a man of few words, he just leans over, towering above you, his manly fragrance invading your senses, blonde locks tickling your cheek. Without leaving your eyes a second, his finger reaches to press play.

He knows you know, watching while you just close your eyes, looking like your nerves are about to stumble down, you know your voice, you can't be mistaken.

-" Such pretty, pretty moans... " His hoarse voice makes you open your eyes, quickly reach for his phone to stop the replay, earning a smirk from him.

-" How much ?" Your voice has never been less confident, it felt as if in a second, he drained you of all the sunshine you radiated. He frowned. You repeated.

-" How much do you want ? Grades or money ? Or both ?"

Ah, there you were, finally.

Rindou wraps you in his lavender haze, you never thought a younger man could make you feel as small as he did, fingers tucking a hair lock of yours behind your ear. You close your eyes, feeling every brush of his lips against that one, as he murmurs.

-" A taste... Love. I'm dying to taste you."

Somehow, you know where the path of hell started for you. That split moment, the space between your two pair of eyes, that knot in your throat you gulped, and the breath he stole from your lips.

-" Please... Rin', can't take no more... Too sensitive!"

His hands are firmly holding your thighs open, and if you weren't that spent, you would've drank in the sight of his popping biceps, holding you high against the wall, while he was on his knees devouring you.

-" You better shut that pretty mouth and take it f'me, yeah ? "

His senses never lied to him, he knew you would taste sweet, smell so appealing, have him bury his tongue deep inside you with his nose rubbing against your sensitive clit.

Everything felt surreal, the feel of your tits he freed from your top, surreal. The juices you were spilling on his tongue, surreal. Your walls clenching around nothing, surreal.

-" Knew this lil pussy would do good for me, look how wet these slutty lips are... You're making a mess on me, love this so fucking much"

You've lost count on how many times you came for him, the only thing you know is if you don't lower your voice, you both are gonna get caught. It is almost as if he wanted it, with how fiercely he was stimulating you.

But there is nothing as sweet as Rindou's adoring gaze from under you, when your orgasm hits you again, and he rests his chin on your lower tummy.

You've got his pretty face, messy hair, sparkling eyes getting high on you, you've got Rindou kissing every inch of your skin, the delinquent on his knees.

-" Your taste's dope, baby. That's what you were hiding under those skirts, hm ? Hiding from me ?"

If you dare to think it is over...

He knows how important your career is for you, he knows how fastly you can get replaced if they learn your secret.

And he knows how addicted to his cock he made you.

-" what you doing here, Rin' ?" You sigh, he shrugs, taking off his expensive shoes at your door.

-" Wanted to see my girl, got a problem ?"

Sometimes it is not even about sex, just about having you in his arms, on your couch, watching whatever show on the TV.

Other times...

-" repeat that for me, would'ya baby ?"

Tears made your vision blurry, his tip was abusing your cervix with each thrust, your bed dancing with each roll of his hips. Rindou has your hands pinned above your head,your knees pressed to your chest, watching with a small smile your eyes rolling back in your head.

-" just tell me, who can fuck this needy pussy like I do?"

It's been months, and if you thought he would be done with you in few weeks, you were so wrong. Because it felt like with every kiss, every glance, every touch, parts of his soul mended with yours. He was obsessed, the pictures in his phone were the best witness of his folly.

His hand reaches to squeeze your cheeks.

-" tsk, going dumb on my cock already ? I asked you a fucking question. Tell me just who can love you like me ?"

Better be ready, that needy boy could drag you to any corner of the school at anytime, begging, no, ordering you to "been craving you so bad, love. Gimme one "

Yes, he thinks all of that happened because of you.

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YANDERE HINATA SHOYO HEADCANONS

Hinata would meet you in middle school when he barely had any experiences of volleyball. He overheard some people saying how you played like a pro and he wanted to see if it was true and he attended one of your games. He instantly realized you played like an ace and you TOTALLY deserved to be called a pro in volleyball and he saw how confident and daring and outgoing your personality was. He saw you like some sort of fiery goddess and he admired you

Later on, with a bright and big cheery smile on his face, he asked you if you could maybe show him how you played volleyball so he could try learning from you to which you happily agreed to show your moves. Soon, he had a game against Kitagawa Daiichi and he was HELLA shocked when he found out that you were rooting for Kageyama

After the game was done, (Kitagawa Daiichi won, sorry Hinata), he saw you and Kageyama laughing at something which literally just made his blood boil in anger and rage. He most DEFINITELY LOATHES and HATES Kageyama even MORE now

In high school, you become the manager of the Karasuno volleyball team to Hinata's immense satisfaction but to his disgust, he literally hates that Kageyama is in Karusuno as well

This boi is extreme when it comes to you. He's either shy or intense around you and sometimes, he either acts like a lovestruck puppy, always clinging onto you and following you around or he acts like a middle school guy who just got his first crush

When it comes to rivals, I can't really see Hinata actually killing someone but he does like playing little pranks and tricks on the people he thinks who are trying to steal you away from him. But when he flies into a rage, oh boy... there's no stopping him and I have a feeling Yandere Deku and Yandere Hinata would get along PERFECTLY well with each other. If they actually MEET each other, they might have some killing spree contests for their darlings

Hinata would always treat you like a goddess and will NEVER EVER mistreat you. HECK, this dude won't even raise his voice at you

He is a VERY VERY DELUSIONAL ASF Yandere. He thinks whatever he's doing is good for you and for your safety. He will baby proof where he kidnapped you and is keeping you so that you won't injure yourself. Not even a plastic butter knife will be available in sight. He most CERTAINLY will NOT allow for you to reach for things that are really high, ESPECIALLY if you're standing on a stool or something. What if you trip and fall? You could get SERIOUSLY hurt and you might crack your skull! Don't worry, Hinata is there to take care of everything for you, all you have to do is just sit back and relax and not worry your pretty little head about anything

He will understand that when he kidnapped you, you'd be sad and upset but he'll calm you down and assure himself that this is just a lover's spat and every couple goes through rough times and patches like these but you two will make up eventually and you'll learn to fall in love with him or he will MAKE you. As much as it breaks his little heart to see you cry and sob, he'll give you time to adjust to your new life

As long as he has you by his side, everything's possible for this tangerine and he really wouldn't mind adding a little one to the mix since he's always wanted a family with you

He is a VERY JEALOUS bby. If he sees anyone talking to you, he'll just drag you off away from them or stare creepily and silently at that person till they're creeped out by Hinata's death glare

He will try to learn EACH and EVERYTHING about your personality, like you likes and dislikes, your daily routine, what books you like reading, where you like to hang out and he keeps a check on those so called ''friends'' of yours and they literally irk him till no ends. Why do you need THOSE morons when you have HIM!? THEY would never love you as much as he does and he feels they're stealing you away from him and that's why he's going to try distancing them from you. Pretty soon your poor friends will be avoiding you like the Corona but don't worry, Hinata's there to comfort you and be your shoulder to cry on

Is the type of yandere who will leave love letters for you in your locker and wherever you go. Along with some little gifts of course

When you act up or when you drive him over the edge, he'll just take a deep breath and sigh and stare at you for a couple of seconds with a blank expression and then he'll walk out of the room to cool off and to give you space. He will NEVER hurt you, that thought never occurred to him, not even in his nightmares. Should you try to escape from him, well.... things won't be good for you, that's all I can say. He'll have to lock you up in a room but don't worry, you'll still have your favorite things and cuddles from time to time after punishment is done

After your punishment, he'll tell you he had to punish you for your own good and gently stroke your hair and caress your cheeks lovingly and hold you in his strong arms and he'll be breathing down your neck and clinging onto you like the shrimpy version of a koala

You can use his childishness and his love for you to help you escape but you'll have to be on your guard and alert and say the right things at the right time. Though Hinata might be a gullible yandere who's ready to do anything and everything for you, don't forget: He can recognize manipulation in a person's voice if you aren't careful. He'll be really hurt if he fins out you're manipulating him and gaining back his trust will take a REALLY long time

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