#and that i have no reason to worry

[void-thegod]

How long do you put up with stupid bullshit?

Give the benefit of the doubt?

Try to be understanding of other people's fights?

...

Until you can't anymore?

Until you're sick and tired of it?

Until you've grown bitter and resentful?

...

The type of person I want to be

The type of person I am

The type of person I'm growing to become

They're all just a little different.

But I want to change that.

To harmonize and crystallize and distill my existence down to something

More like a blue fire

A bright light

A laser that can cut through anything

...

I think I can do that, finally.

Now that there isn't so much noise.

Now that I'm away from people and environments that aren't for me

Or are otherwise harmful

...

...

...

Even if I'm not "me" anymore

Even if I'm not who I thought I would be

This Self is much more expansive, divine, and strong

Than anything I could've imagined myself possible of

...

And maybe that is why

And how

I've been called towards spirituality and towards a new way of being and living

For as long as I can remember I haven't been of this world

Made from it but not of it

Existing in it, yet being beyond it

...

I've always known, of course.

There's so many ways to look at it

...

Autistic

Voidpunk

Weirdo

Spiritual

Intelligent/Genius

Idealistic

...

But the Truth

Is that I am that I am

And I will continue to be

#personal #clarity #autistic #weirdo #voidpunk #spiritual #just got put on anxiety meds #and my head is so so quiet #and it is nice #that all of my reason and logic is still in tact #but also knowing i didnt make my decisions based solely on feelings #or fear #everything was accounted for #and my head was so noisy i couldnt see #how right i was #and that i have no reason to worry #so much #and that i have been crazy brave in the face of the world and my own demons #and that is probably apparent #and intimidating af

[eosofspades]

i didn't have "i'm broken" teenage asexual angst i had "i'm literally being the only reasonable one about this concept and the rest of you are behaving like fucking freaks" perception issues

#oh the experience of being 13 years old and seeing all my friends talking about wanting to have sex and obsessing over it #and being like 'we are all literally WAY too young to be having sex what the actual fuck are you talking about #why are you even considering it when we have much more important things to worry about. like how much middle school sucks' #you know what though. i still stand by this. that was an entirely reasonable thought to have and i WAS being normal about it #anyway #mine #asexuality

[lazylittledragon]

pls dad astarion i beg of you

as much as i really want to i don’t know how much sense it makes, so for now let’s just be unserious

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #astarion #tavstarion #maybe i’ll make some actual art if someone can come up with a VERY good reason why he would agree to it #dorian would be a GREAT dad though #don’t worry as soon as i have a character who gets with gale i’ll dad the fuck out of him #for now they’re the funcles #maybe after a decade of therapy? #i hate that i did this because dorian and the bab are SO cute that i want to continue

[dapper-lil-arts]

How it feels 2 ship Sunlight and Sciset at the same time

#for some reason i felt that the divorce meme was hilarious #twilight sparkle #scitwi #sunset shimmer #meme #pony posting #Dont worry tho i'm a strong believer in BOTH lmao #Sunset can have it all #sunlight #sciset #sunset sparkle #equestria girls #friendship is magic #my little pony #mlp #mlp gen 4

[blue-mood-blue]

I have been thinking about the blackening (as one does)…

…and it’s so interesting to me, the penalty Shen Qingqiu is faced with should he not decide to yeet his disciple into hell.

Account termination. Instant death. Sent directly home to his already-long-dead body, and that’s it for the villain of the piece who outright refuses his villainy. The protagonist needs a blackening for the story to continue, and Shen Qingqiu is going to provide it or get written out of the narrative. Either way, Luo Binghe is going to lose him. Either way, this is a turning point.

I wouldn’t claim that this is the intent of the penalty, but it fascinates me that the System has, potentially, backed the plotline into a corner - because Binghe still stands to be blackened even if Shen Qingqiu took the other choice.

Think about what that would look like, to him. He’s at the Immortal Alliance Conference, and everything is going wrong. He’s been outed as a demon, and not just a demon - the top tier of demon, as bad as it gets from the perspective of a righteous cultivator. His beloved teacher, the person who has been kindest to him and opened his home and heart to him, is standing there with his sword in hand, deciding what he’s going to do about what must look, to him, like a horrific betrayal. Binghe is apologizing. Binghe is begging for his life.

Shen Qingqiu hears him. Maybe it shows on his face, or in his voice, that he already knew; maybe there’s no hint at all, but Shen Qingqiu is suddenly talking quickly with an abrupt sense of urgency that Luo Binghe is having a hard time keeping up with. Telling him he’ll be wonderful - telling him he’s the best. Telling him the world will be his, with emotions cracking through that aloof mask that Binghe has never seen on Shizun’s face before, and it’s terrifying for reasons that Binghe cannot identify.

(He will, later. When he has time to think, he’ll realize it sounded like a goodbye.)

And then Shen Qingqiu is bleeding. And then Shen Qingqiu is on the ground. And then Shen Qingqiu is dead. There’s no countdown for Binghe - there’s no System, there’s no warning, there’s no answers.

Luo Binghe is a heavenly demon in the middle of a conference sabotaged by demons. Luo Binghe is alone. His fellow competing disciples are scattered, some dead or injured. The Peak Lord of Qing Jing Peak, the second in command of Cang Qiong Mountain Sect, maybe the only person he loved and who loved him back, is dead at his feet. No one will believe him if he says it isn’t his fault.

(He can’t believe it isn’t his fault.)

What choice does he have but to run? The last heavenly demon the cultivation world went up against has been sealed under a mountain for years, and one of the people responsible for that is probably looking for Shen Qingqiu already. They’ll be looking for him, too. There isn’t anywhere to hide; there isn’t any time to mourn.

There isn’t even enough time to ask why. Why again.

There is no closure waiting for him, because there is nothing to explain what happened. It just is.

It would be a different kind of blackening, certainly - less intense, probably, less of a warping, desperate thing. But how many times can one person have all the love and safety in their world torn out from under them before it starts to show? Before they just don’t allow things like love and safety to touch them, because that’s the better option?

Interesting to consider that, simply by offering the choices it did, the System rigged the story to guarantee that Luo Binghe would end up in hell (deliberate or not).

Interesting to consider that, even if Shen Qingqiu made what might have seemed like a kinder choice, there was every chance it wouldn’t have been.

#scum villian self saving system #svsss #shen qingqiu #luo binghe #I have been thinking about Alternative Blackening Methods #(for reasons) #(don’t worry about it) #and while I don’t think it would be on the same level as the endless abyss #I think suddenly losing his Shizun would fuck Binghe up #especially like that with no explanation right in front of him?? #like #he is not gonna be okay #and then he’s stuck in a realm filled to the BRIM with cultivators after his blood #maybe it’s not THE blackening but it is A blackening #and it gives me feelings #because even if sqq was willing to make that sacrifice I’m not convinced that would have… helped Binghe #(also au where sqq somehow has the mushroom body ready to go before the conference) #(and Binghe unexpectedly encounters his Shizun in the wild) #(and they run away together in the most ill-conceived escape plan known to man)

[avephelis]

just wanted to say it's really awesome seeing the positive reception to chunky mikey LOVE YOU ALL 🧡🧡

#I WAS A LITTLE WORRIED BUT EVERYONE'S BEEN SUPER COOL he's very important to me #rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rise mikey #rottmnt mikey #avepharts #number one reason for his design It Is Self-Care To Draw Your Characters Fat and it's fun and i wanted to #but also ! i think it's a really interesting visual contrast to apocalypse mikey (who's very bony) esp bc you'd assume mikey would live a #really hearty lifestyle. like i think f!mikey's figure is so striking to me because it feels so alien for him. #also! mikey does a lot of throwing and lifting heavy shit and in sports like deadlifting and shot-put athletes tend to have more fat muscle #and i think there should be more body diversity in acrobatic fighter characters #AND OF COURSE! he looks like raph <3 #rot20mnt

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

they continue to be Thee besties ever. number one duo spot in my mind!

#well. maybe number two #well. im very bad at ranking it fluctuates daily #Theyre One Of The Most Duos In My Mind! #anyway wally riding barnaby like a horse is absolutely Hysterical to me #giddyup pardner.... #what's the reason? whimsy? to make people tilt their heads? to show wally what it's like to be tall? #so that barnaby doesnt have to walk slower? simply because they Can? #< these are the important lore questions #scribble salad #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #sometimes i think about them and then i punch my hand through a window #very casually. yes theres blood everywhere dont worry about it #its nbd. im Normal. not unwell at all! #why is there glitter in the blood? Dont Worry About It. #im simply full of microplastics

[a2zillustration]

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#Listen- #Based on the way that people talked about this encounter (having little context for the actual dialogue bc I'm still avoiding spoilers) #.............this whole interaction was a lot different than I thought it was going to be gnjkfldnsjkhnfjkh #And with that I think we're probably done with Gale-specific stuff until endgame :')))))))))))) #I waited so long to see Mystra SPECIFICALLY for this reason I didn't want to wrap up his quest with a bunch of stuff still left in act 3! #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 spoilers #act III spoilers #croissant adventures #tav #gale #gale x tav #breadweave #gale dekarios #mystra #comics #Future me here: don't worry Gale will still be around breadweave will not be abandoned

[hotdrinks]

I keep seeing posts about Jon saying he and Martin wouldn't love each other in another universe but I'm pretty sure it was Martin who said all that?? Kind of?

Irrc Jon said he often imagines what things would have been like if they met and been together without all the institute stuff and Martin says "me too but we wouldn't have, would we?" And goes on his whole spiel about how Jon hated him at first and the horrors changed them both so much it made them compatible, to which Jon doesn't seem to entirely agree. And that convo wasn't really about other universes it was about Jon's daydreams. I'm not trying to be a pedant rn I just keep seeing references to this conversation and I remember it happening a very different way.

#drinks talk tag #tma #im worried this post is coming across as bitchy #im not trying to dunk on anyone im genuinely just wondering #i just remember a lot of ppl being really mad at martin when that episode aired lol #actually im back in my tags to elaborate that conversation wasnt even about jons daydreams #it was about martin trying to convince jon to save himself #like the whole reason he said that was to convey that maybe they wouldn't have gotten together under different circumstances #but they are together and he wants a chance for them to enjoy that

[yangjeongin]

The Music Core Look™ts

#hwang hyunjin #hyunjin #stray kids #bystay #createskz #malegroupsnet #dancerachasource #a9gifs #flashing tw #*gif #*ccarly #*hyunjin #*carly:hyunjin #a very important day for many reasons. #i'm starting work two hours late just because i wanted to finish this. #(don't worry i work from home i just have to work later now aslkdsdlkgs) #*hits

[eyrieofsynapses]

hey, Leverage peeps, I've got a thought. I've seen a lot of posts and memes joking about Nate's inability to understand that his clients do not want money, they want revenge. I also find this funny. but I was thinking about it and I realized something: there's a personal reason behind it. there is a very, very good reason why Nate doesn't get that.

Nate's drive to lead Leverage, outside of the crew, originated from his son's death due to his insurance company's refusal to cover the bill for the required treatment. we all know this. if his company had paid for Sam's treatment, everything would've been fine.

…or, if Nate had been a little wealthier, had a little more change to spend… maybe he could've paid for it. maybe Blackpool never would've had a say in any of it. maybe Nate would've had everything under control from the start.

we've discussed at length in the fandom how money equals safety for some of the others in the crew (Parker and Hardison grew up with little to none and know its importance to survival, Eliot needs it to stay ahead of his old enemies, etc.), but I don't know that I've seen any discussion on how it's relevant to Nate. for him, however, money equals security in healthcare and in housing (he lost the house, remember?). Nate's older than the others. he remained in the same place for much longer, and he had a stable life for a while. the others haven't been in that position before. many of their clients, however, are at that place in life.

yes, for the others, money keeps them ahead of the game and it keeps them secure. but none of them ever lost a kid because they couldn't pay for healthcare. none of them risk losing the life of someone who is completely dependent on them when they don't have enough.

(Hardison, perhaps, has the closest understanding, considering he hacked a bank to pay for his Nana's healthcare. but he never lost her.)

Nate thinks ahead, you know? he has a long-term view of things. I imagine that for him, when clients refuse the money, they're not just refusing a month's worth of groceries, or a place to stay the night, or the ability to keep running. for him, they're refusing control over their hard-earned, stable, long-term living situation. they're refusing the potential to save a family member's life.

I dunno, guys. I think that's a pretty good reason to not understand why people don't want the money.

#leverage #leverage meta #nate ford #meta #ello folks it has been A While #but I saw another one of these memes today and couldn't help but ask myself 'why?' #and this came out #anyway I figure this is a fair reason to have more trouble Getting It #when you think about it Nate's probably gotten the closest to most of their clients' living situations #the rest of them have had Very Unusual Lives #but so many of their clients are PARENTS #they're people with STABLE LIVING SITUATIONS #they're ordinary middle-class people! #and Nate was the only one who lived as an adult in that situation! #he's the only one who understands what it's like to have a regular family depending on him to keep the household running! #no WONDER he worries more about this! #he understands the consequences better than the others do! #I dunno I feel like that gets overlooked a lot #anyway have fun playing with this #synapse meta

[tzarrz]

to all people who said PART 1 made them laugh - i lov u 💗 this is for u

#look...i know it's been a month but hear me out- #guys don't yell he's really trying okay!! #NOT a mean ww truther bc he really isn't mean like at all #not in an intentional way #he's just stressed and embarrassed and tipsy here give him a break #he's swagless & thinks it's yet another reason he's unlovable (untrue) #dont worry woowoo vash also severely lacks in the swag department #but funny doodles aside i have other more serious art of them already posted + in the works #their understanding of each other ends up being so deep #but at the same time they manage to be so utterly stupid about it #how do they manage? i don't know #they just make me want to tear my hair out #you're important to each other!!!! get!! that!!! thru!! ur! HEADS!!!! #neither of them think they deserve what they want/need #i'm inconsolable actually nobody talk to me (talk to me please) #see using words isn't so hard. stupid fictional men #(she thought she did something with those tags) #times are hard but i stay silly #by that i mean i re-read vol 10 #on the daily. #vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #nicholas d wolfwood #trimax #trigun #tzarrz

[comfymoth]

so. about that frozen au

#her hair’s not all white yet but don’t worry i swear i have a reason for that #it’s for Plot #qsmp #bagi #cellbit #my art

[ithinkdogshouldvote]

Rouge-like tendencies, courtesy of grandpa

#scary is a clothes thief i believe it #one day she takes off a jacket to reveal one of lincs Garfield shirts that no one even knew was missing #normals like: “scary do you like... not own any clothes??? is that what this is??? we can BUY you some clothes scary.” #scarys like: “are you just jealous cause i dont steal any of your clothes?” #normal: “YOUVE TAKEN EVERYONE ELSES!!! WHATS WRONG WITH MY CLOTHES??? IS IT THE SHADE OF BLUE? DO YOU HATE THE BLUE?? I CAN CHANGE!” #scary: “its cause they all have fuckin teeny the teen on them.” #normal: “thats.... okay. actually thats kinda reasonable. i was worried you didnt like them because-” #scary: “-also they REEK. have you ever washed any of these?” #normal: “oh. yeah. thats.... thats what i thought you were gonna say.” #her justification for why she steals everyones clothes is to show those losers how much better they look on her #(its cause she loves them. and only knows how to express herself through her appearance.) #scary marlowe #dndads #dungeons & daddies #dungeons and daddies #terry jr stampler #terry junior #taylor swift #dndads s2 #fanart #digital drawing #my artwork #fan art #taylor swift close foster #terry jr

[rennyrose]

I'm gonna be honest, I love how you draw Livio and I think he looks so gender. Your art of him, motivated me to start working out lol

and whenever I feel like it's too hard for me, I think about your art of Livio, and it helps me to keep going fdjhjhfgd

It's kinda stupid, but it's working haha

I don’t think it’s stupid haha, any reason to start is a good reason ✨⭐️

Whatever your goals are, I believe in you :D

#workin on my fitness he’s my witness (ooowaahh) #dun worry I kinda do the same thing #whenever I beat a PR for an exercise for whatever reason I think of a particular silly face Liv makes in the manga #I don’t have it on me rn but it’s him gasping going like ‘OUGHHH’ lololololol #pffpfpfpffpfpffft #trigun #trigun manga #livio the double fang #razlo the trip of death #razlo the tri punisher of death #drawing #sketch #digital art #trigun maximum #art #fan art

[nerdy-hyperfixations]

I just want to remind everyone that Wallace is canonically the worse one to sleep in the same bed with.

Scott can be a bad roommate in every other aspect but GUYS Wallace is the one that canonically snores and kicks in his sleep.

Scott sleeps like a princess with his back against the sheet lying perfectly straight (and also taking all the covers) and Wallace sleeps semi-on-his-side and apparently just fucking punting Scott in the leg every so often (not to mention he talked in his sleep too) and I don’t know why this is important to me but it is.

Because when people draw them cuddling in their sleep it’s always Wallace being normal and Scott turning and snoring and shit but you’re missing out on sleepy-cuddly Wallace turning and snoring on Scott. Let that cringe-fail 25 year old be annoying. Istg.

I’m talking to the Mobillace people too btw. Not that I’ve seen anyone draw them cuddling in bed (which is a CRIME btw. Draw that. For me.) but like imagine how funny it would be: Mobile stays the night for the first time and the hot-weirdo is a bed-menace, snoring and kicking and tossing and turning and suction cupping for warmth and Mobile is like “I want him to be my boyfriend” THATS FUNNY! LIKE-

#scott pilgrim #scott pilgrim vs the world #scollace #scott x wallace #scott pilgrim takes off #wallace wells #mobillace #mobile x wallace #mobile scott pilgrim #I’m sick of the cringe-fail erasure of Wallace #he might be more mature than Scott but that fucker ain’t mature #(however yes generally he is the voice of reason for Scott but anyone can be a voice of reason to Scott. Scott has no internal reasoning /h #I made an analysis post at one point about how I believe the primary reason Wallace manages to do half the shit he does #is because it’s easier to get the motivation to do them if he’s telling off Scott for not doing them #we know DAMN WELL that he is scared of their landlord #considering he got plastered the night before they had to go #(he seems to drink when he’s anxious) #and because of how uncharacteristically timid he was in his office #(and can I mention he said the line ‘it’s not our fault we can’t afford rent’ and like. I don’t know it feels important to point out lol) #but he tells Scott that they *have* to go and there landlord is all bark and no bite #despite being visibly nervous around him #so. the reason he dragged Scott to see him with him is because it would make him feel less nervous to see their landlord #if he focused on dragging Scott to see him instead of his own worries #but I never posted that analysis lol #but all this to say #um #i don’t know #but I’m saying something for sure!