#because it's more vaguely masculine than boy or man

[questioning-culture-is]

Questioning culture is wondering why you feel uncomfortable being called woman, but girl feels nice. You really don't believe in gender and find it pointless, but you like you're fem identity. I'm wondering is it because I don't feel matured enough so woman feels like something a title/label I'll grow into at a certain age?

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#questioning #questioning culture #questioning gender #gender #i don't know your age so i can't tell you whether you will just grow to feel like a woman within the next few years #i don't think people really associate man or woman with themselves until like their mid twenties but that's just my guess as an enby #and i think that girl has become basically equivalent to guy as well as boy so it describes more stages of development #and could also be viewed as a more general term including all ages of that gender #on top of that i think guy feels less restrictively gendered so someone might identify as “just some guy” #because it's more vaguely masculine than boy or man #and that might be the case for you as well #maybe girl just feels like a little bigger of a box

[blueberryblogger]

just saw someone recycling ye olde "X character doesn't read as Y identity to me, someone who doesn't & has never held that identity & thus am not as intimately familiar with mannerisms, tropes & characterizations that are typically associated with Y identity. There is no evidence for X being Y and you guys are acting insane."

like. do you understand that you are using the EXACT SAME excuse that other people are using to shit on YOUR headcanon that you're so attatched too because it has so much evidence?

did it ever cross your mind that it would probably be harder for you, person who isn't X, to pick up on subtler tropes & identifiers of X that you've never experienced because you aren't X?

like you get how it sounds like you're shitting on other wueer people?

#blocking another god damn fantasy high account that i really liked #because when people say 'theres no evidence for your headcanon' and theyre wrong its bad and tbeyre erasing underrepresented identities #but when YOU say 'theres no evidence for this' you are good and correct and the rest of us are just stupid weirdos #like oh my fucking god bro #if i see one more person who isnt fucking gay say 'erm actually fabian cant be gay he liked girls' im gonna lose it #gay men also experience comphet! #and it's not because he's 'effeminate' #because he really isn't THAT effeminate or flamboyant #he dances and he talks like a rich boy and those are the only two things i can think lf #that make him seem 'effeminate' #but like. dude rides a motorcycle from hell. he fights with a sword and plays football #he punched someone on the first day of school & routinely punches and gets punched by his friends #like. fabian is wildly more stereotypically masculine than he is feminine #most of us think Fabian is gay because up until he took interest in Mazey #he had exclusively expressed interest in girls that were unavailable or unobtainable #his 'type' was literally toxic and/or unavailable women #which SCREAMS comphet to anyone who has fucking experienced it before #'yeah i love women but only the ones i cant have amirite lads' #'classic completely heterosexual man behavior' #anyway #i think its incredibly rude to take people seeing their lived experiences in a character and say 'youre insane bc i dont see it' #especially when YOU YOURSELF have a headcanon that a huge chunk of people cannot understand fully but accept anyway because they get it #because they understand seeing yourself in a character and how important that can be #unlike you #vagueposting #me when i vague for the first time in like 3 years

[idontknowreallyidontcare]

KÖNIG HC’S FOR MY KÖNIG GIRLS.

- I HC him as being definitely taller than your average man, but not his fanon height. Many people go with the narrative that he’s 6’10/2m 08cm’s, for what I understood this is a made up data, nowhere is it specified that he’s actually 6’10, so what I actually assign him is a height of 6’7, we know how Ghost is somewhere between 6’4/6’5 which it’s still pretty tall (1,89 cm), but we also know by comparing the models, that König is a bit taller, so I am kind of basing his height on this difference between him and Ghost. Also, knowing he could not be a sniper because of his height motivates me even more to think that he is indeed a guy bigger than your average. Again, it’s a personal HC, may or may not be shared, it’s not a canon attribute.

- As I already specified in some of my other posts, I view him as a clean individual, in a sense than he has a routine and will try to maintain it even on duty. Being at the barracks will not obstruct his routine, he washes his hair with shampoo and conditioner, he uses a particular face soap, made for his type of skin, and he uses body lotion instead of a bar of soap. It has to be said that he wasn’t always this organized, for example, thanks to you he got to buy the face wash that he now brings everywhere he goes, you kinda talked to him about using a bar of soap for all the body and explained to him how unhygienic was to use the same towel for face, body and cock/ass, because despite you being ‘clean’ after the shower, you’re still dragging bacteria form around your body onto your face and hair, overall you kinda motivated him to uplift his already good habits. He sometimes lets you do his skincare too, and when he remembers, he will actually put some face cream on. He’s still a bit fearful of coming as not very masculine, but you’re making him work on it, so he can accept that taking care of himself will never be a turn down for you, not when he’s already so hot for his age, he better maintain himself!

- Another critical point about our Köni is his age. We have a vague idea of how old he could be, many HC’ing him from 35 to late 40’s. My guess is he could be somewhere between 38 and 43, I do prefer him as a 39/40 years grandpa tho. Again, personal HC, do not take it as canon! I’d be happy honestly if they would reveal his age, probably because no matter what, I’d still simp even if he turned out to be 50 years lmaooooo.

- Yes, he does come from a village in the country side, but he did join military pretty young, so I HC him as being actually a pretty open minded individual. Remember he gets to work with technology every day, he knows what’s going on around the world, and him joining young actually was a benefit, because he got to form his own opinions in a place that welcomed every kind of human beings. He didn’t get to grow up from the hate he received at school so he kind of escaped a life where he could’ve easy became what we call an inc€l today. He grew some balls, got his priorities right. He was for sure subjected to some kind of morally wrong opinions that grew into him, that’s why you’re spending time on him, being patient and trying to explain to him many things he considered undeniable reality until he meet you. The classic ones are: males should not cry because only girls do, women can work but they would be better at home, men don’t pay attention to their physical appearance that’s for feminine boys, and many similar things. He’s slowly getting out of his habits, and you’re proud of him.

- Listen, people have mixed feelings about this one but imma say it, aside from shipping and all, König is not and will never be Homophobic. He does not have any problem with lgbt+ nor is he disturbed by couples openly showing affection in his presence. Early access to internet and a very religious family could have created the worst possible outcome for him, but he was never big into religion, already redeeming it a waste of time at a young age, but still attending church because of his mom. He knows some recruits are openly gay, he doesn’t see a problem nor does it bother him knowing he could be someone’s crush. Now I do HC him as completely straight, but again it’s MY way of imagining König, I still think that in an orgy or threesome with reader, if he trusts the other male part, he would not be against having their cocks in the same hole, rubbing against each other, or in general he would not be against having some skin to skin contact with another male because at the end he does it because it only benefits you.

- He is a perverted dog, not only because he is ‘old’ and has fucked young girls (not minors! He is not morally fucked up like that), or generally his sexual history is pretty normal for a man that age, he was just always eager to see, learn and search for what he felt was exciting to him. He had threesomes before us, he has sex, he did many things that gave him the skills and experience he’s been using on us, but yes overall I HC him as being the one that always had a porn journal under his pillow, he would even lend them around the barracks.

- He loves pussy. He eats it for HIS own pleasure okay? He would die between your legs. He cums only by eating you out. He gets drunk on pussy. Pussy is what he lives for. He’ll never die on field, living purely out of spite, because he’ll no! What do you mean he’s never gonna enjoy your pussy again if he dies! ABSOLUTELY NOT! He’ll get home, beaten, cut, stabbed, whatever, but he’ll be home to you, and he will lick your pussy for the rest of the night saying “this what’s keeping me alive honey”. And truth is you can’t deny it to him, because it’s so good, no matter the circumstances, it always brings him back home.

#cod x reader #cod #konig cod #konig smut #konig x reader smut #konig call of duty #konig x reader

[luveline]

happy new years!!! can i request rockstar!remus x fem!shy!r, where they first meet bc she lost her glasses (and r has horrible eyesight) & she doesn’t recognize remus & is absolutely mortified when she realizes who she’s run in (literally) to???

Happy New Year!! Thank you for your request <3 fem!reader

You'd only put your glasses down for long enough to rub your tired eyes, and yet you can't find them. They've slipped off the face of the earth. 

And worse, you're so fucking awkward (said with only a pinch of self-loathing) that you can't make yourself do the awkward song and dance to find them, not when you're surrounded by strangers at a friend of a friend of a friend's house in the rich bit of London. 

You stand up, wondering if you can identify the friend you'd come with by their shapes and colours alone, and take a misguided step straight into someone's side. 

Air puffs out of you in a gasp and you take a hasty step back, eyes on the person's chest. There's a sanguine-coloured t-shirt with darker, looping writing across the front. 

"I'm sorry," you say, trying to take a cautious step around them. 

"Hey, that's okay," says a masculine voice, the body it belongs to veering into your path. "Are you alright, sweetheart? Did I clip you?" 

You look up into their face and stare at the space between their eyebrows, knowing you look silly. You can vaguely make out his facial features, and your brain signals it as familiar, but the voice doesn't ring any bells. 

"No, sorry, you didn't do anything. I'm looking for someone," you say. 

"Anyone I'd know?" 

"Elizabeth? They're in a green dress?" 

He looks around the room. You can see his neck turn, the splodge of darker colour that is his hair moving with it. "I don't see any green dresses," he says apologetically. 

You shake your head. The music playing increases in volume, and girls all over the room gasp as a favourite song starts to play. You wince at being shoved out of the way. The man in front of you moves to protect your side, hand behind your shoulder for a short, hot second. 

"Somebody's lost their glasses," he murmurs. 

You giggle nervously. "Is it obvious?" 

He leans down to the settee and then stands tall. He does something with his t-shirt, pulling it away from his torso, and then he nudges a familiar shape into your hand. 

"No, I mean, I saw them on the sofa. They're yours, I'm assuming." 

You laugh again, drowning in embarrassment. As you open the legs of your glasses, you think, Well, it could be worse. Elizabeth said that The Marauders of all people are going to be here tonight. Imagine making a fool of yourself like this in front of them. 

And then you put your glasses on. You can't speak.

"Is that better?" Remus asks, bassist of The Marauders and in the flesh. "Sorry to say, you have thicker lenses than James. I'm surprised you can see at all without them." 

"I can't, really," you say, your voice a far away thing. 

"They suit you." He grins at you, all pretty-lipped and dark brown eyes, the scar over his nose turned white at the edges with the strain. "I suppose I looked more handsome before." 

"No," you say. 

His smile turns playfully smug. "No? I'm glad. You look prettier with them on, too." 

Your cheeks are so hot they're burning, and your chest is lit by a panic you can't describe. You were being completely, entirely genuine with him — he's a thousand times more handsome now you can actually see him, with a voice to match. Smooth, steady, and teasing. Despite the boy-next-door of his sandy brown hair, his sweet smile, there's a stickier emotion playing on his lips. You worry he's gonna eat you alive right there and then. 

"Can I get you something to drink, pretty girl? Or can you manage now your vision's been restored?" he asks. 

His banter throws you off kilter. "I think you'd better get me one," you say, not because you're smooth in any capacity but because you're worried you'll fall over. 

He laughs warmly, worse when he sees you realise you'd sounded flirty. 

"I'd love to get you a drink," he says. "If you'll be alright while I'm gone?" 

You nod wordlessly, collapsing into the settee again as soon as he's gone. You're gonna need a drink to survive this. 

#remus lupin x reader #remus lupin x you #remus lupin #remus lupin x y/n #remus lupin x fem!reader #rockstar!au #rockstar!remus lupin #bassist remus #bassist!remus #the marauders x reader #the marauders fanfiction #the marauders fanfic #the marauders #marauders #marauders era #remus lupin imagine #remus lupin fic #remus lupin fanfic #remus lupin fanfiction

[disappointmentthemusical]

"Mainstream gender" as a system of oppression.

Imagine mainstream gender as a line. On one end of the line is "man," and on the other end is "woman" – this is the gender binary. The connecting line itself is representative, loosely, of "non-binary" gender. (I think this image is suitable, and if others disagree, I think that's more representative of how arbitrarily the binary is defined, rather than this image of it.)

This gender spectrum, dubbed "mainstream gender" because it's what the institutions of society use, only applies to certain groups – the group that controls it, really. White people.

Black people cannot access mainstream gender because they are barred from it via hyper-masculinization that borders on animalization. Black men are viewed as hyper-aggressive and predatory. To the white masses, the concept of "soft" Black masculinity is as real as the transatlantic slave trade (i.e., vague notions of it existing, but no personal experience with the implications, so it floats in the periphery until it's brought up again by a Black person). Black women, regardless of how much they lean into "traditional" femininity, will never be viewed as feminine. Black women will always be viewed as loud, aggressive and "man-ish," the latter contributing to transphobia that impacts both black trans women and black cis women.

By contrast, East Asians are hyper-feminized. East Asian men are stereotyped as soft and small and are portrayed as having little sexual appeal (and those who are viewed as sexually desirable are seen as exceptions to the mainstream; sexy despite their femininity). East Asian women are equally unable to escape femininity and are hyper-feminized to the point of infantilisation, both of which contribute to hyper-sexualization and fetishization. The hyper-femininization of East Asian people also lends itself to transphobia targeted at East Asian trans men (recall: the 2016/17 obsession with smol bois).

But not only is mainstream gender a tool of white supremacy, it also (obviously) is inherent to patriarchy (or, patriarchy is inherent to mainstream gender).

The binary is defined and propagated by men. So while all gender rules are arbitrary and constantly changing, "man" is always strictly defined, and the relief of "man" becomes "woman." This is evident both in masculinity being viewed as "gender neutral," as well as the sense of authority men feel over women's gender, commenting on makeup, how women dress, etc. As a result, the gender "woman" is inherently centered around "man."

In de-centering men, lesbians lack the rules to adhere to mainstream gender. That is why lesbianism is often described as a gender experience because lesbians operate on a new gender spectrum, specific to lesbians.

However, different from race, sexuality is not a visible barrier, and it can take work to exit from mainstream gender. Terf "lesbians" are not lesbians because they cling to the relief of "man" to define their gender; they're gay women. Similarly, white lesbians who prioritize their whiteness will continue to exist within mainstream gender. This also explains why white non-binary people are "like that." While they do not adhere to the binary of "man" and "woman," in participating in the system of whiteness, they remain within the confines of mainstream gender.

#gender discourse #lesbianism #systems of oppression #rant #white supremacy #anti blackness #lesbian #the lesbian gender spectrum

[noisyquokka]

I know this is a very vague request and im really sorry in advance 😭… do you think you could write some headcanons/reactions for wayv? I noticed that most nct content is for dream, sometimes 127, and rarely my wayv boys and i LOVE them 😮‍💨, i dont really have a concept in mind i would prefer if it was made with a female reader in mind but gender neutral works just as well, and idk maybe a little bit suggestive if youre in the mood for it?? Idk anyways thanks for listening and im sorry im not giving you much to work with :)

+ OMG OK I JUST SENT IN A VAGUE REQUEST FOR WAYV BUT I THOUGHT OF SOMETHING NOW, idk if you’ll see this but do you think you could do wayvs reaction to a female reader whos more dominant, not necessarily in the bedroom sense (although that too) but just someone who looks more feminine but automatically takes on more masculine gender roles in a relationship like being big spoon, or bringing home the bag, or being the one to take care of things and fix things? Again i don’t necessarily mean in a sexual way just more in a general relationship because i know you said you werent confident/comfortable writing nsfw stuff, but if you wanted to take a more suggestive route too i wouldnt be mad, youre the writer here, im just here to support 💗, thank you again!

A/N - Not me having a whole-ass brain fart on gender roles as I wrote this🤪but ohhhohoo I love this idea!!! I'm sorry it took forever :( also some of these are longer than others, I apologize. But I still hope you enjoy 💛 Thank you for the request, Love!

WORDCOUNT - 1,165

WARNINGS - F!reader, suggestive if you squint from the other side of the galaxy??

Kun

you had told him that you were quite independent from the beginning of your relationship

perhaps you hadn't been persuasive enough, or it didn't register in Kun's head...

because when he comes home from tour, he doesn't expect to find you in the kitchen, cursing under your breath with your head ducked beneath the sink

it appears you're too busy groveling at the plumbing to notice his presence, the clanking of metal on metal hitting his ears

"What... are you doing?" is followed by a thud! and another hushed curse as you emerge from the cabinet, rubbing at the crown of your head with a grimace

you're met with warm hands and a concerned gaze as you straighten up, adjustable wrench in your grip

"The shut-off valve for the cold water failed," you wipe the sweat from your brow, eyeing the small space you have to work with under the sink, "so I went and picked up replacements for both."

and Kun's just standing there like 'woah, babe, go off'

but also a little worried

cue the "shouldn't we call a plumber", and the "are you sure's"

it's not that he believes you're incapable, far from it!

he's just got no clue about the tricks of that trade lmao

asks if you need help

will literally sit by and watch like a curious Retriever whether you need extra hands or not (without being in the way, of course)

he has no idea where your confidence comes from when it comes to these types of things, but it's kinda... 😏

you finish the job in two hours, checking for any leaks after you turn the water back on and let the water flow through the pipes to clear the air in the lines

after this, he quickly adapts to you taking lead around the house with similar things

he's so used to being the leader/taking lead on so many things that it's so refreshing for him.

you're just the type to say "Hey, I've got it!" with no expectations

he's gonna find his ways of thanking you for the things you do btw

cooking you dinner, cleaning the entire house, buying you something you've been eyeing for forever.

also lives and breaths you cuddling him

back hugs, waking up to you pulling him back into your arms before you're both falling asleep again

this man is so content being little spoon if it means you're right there

Ten

totally into it!

I'd bet that this man goes full doting boyfriend

probably the most curious out of all the guys

would be super invested if you were an HVAC technician or something just because of how physically demanding the job is

asks you if he could tag along to work one day like an excited child

to which you tell him that it's not as exciting for him to watch considering most of the job is you crawling into tight spaces

like you'd literally be in some dusty attic, sweltering as you work

it happens anyways, because you find that your HVAC unit is outdated, so naturally, you choose to update it yourself

cue a sneaky head peeking around the corner every chance he gets because, contrary to what you had said, Ten is very entertained

the man has the biggest heart eyes for you through the entire process - which is roughly 6 hours

"your attention to detail is beyond admirable!"

"I'd say it's necessary when I'm working with electrical, Babe."

wants to learn how to do whatever it is you're working on

doesn't matter what it is you're doing

soaks up whatever you teach him

mans is a whole sponge istg

at the same time he's absolutely gonna tell you to keep being the boss-ass bitch that you are

WinWin

supportive but a lil insecure :(

like he loves you loads, supports you 100% in all that you do

but sometimes it'll make him feel like he's not doing enough in terms of your relationship

I don't see the insecurity coming from your confidence of taking on a more masculine role, but more out of worrying that his time is so limited with you and around the house so when he is home, he feels like it's not enough

feels like he shouldn't tell you at first

like it sounds a little like an excuse to be an ass

but eventually thinks it's the best thing for your relationship

y'all take communication so seriously so why start holding back over something like this

you're quick to reassure him that he does more than enough

like sir, sit down and kick your feet up, you literally do so much for me, I will write you a whole list rn

it works to a certain extent, so you offer him some options "to make up for it" cough I'll leave this up to interpretation💀

fair to say that all is better with a little communication

Xiaojun

I say this solely for his safety and benefit

do not, under any circumstances, let this man know you can do some of the things that you're capable of!!

boy is too petty and competitive to have this knowledge

I feel like he'd be the type to see you so confidently take care of yard work and the next week turns into a competition of who can complete said tasks better

he wouldn't do it to make you feel less than, or to put you in your place (as if you wouldn't set his ass straight)

he's just a little dramatic

a lil competitive

he loses almost every time 😔

either makes excuses for it ("I didn't know there were levels to the lawn mower", "the handle on my rake was broken") or stays quiet

will be whiny for a few days afterwards

you have no issue giving him something to whine about-

Hendery

full cheerleader mode!!

he literally grew up with three sisters, ain't no way he's gonna be against a strong and independent woman doing her thing

is the best assistant when you need an extra set of hands

literally the kid that holds dad's flashlight while dad fixes the car except you don't have to remind him to hold it steady

he's on top of it, baby 😎

mans takes this as seriously as performing open-heart surgery

I'm talking brows set in concentration and hands as steady as my granny threading a needle (that woman was so talented)

tools are in your hand before you've even finished telling him what you need

bro is just that good

loves helping you to the point that when you don't need his help, he's just a pouty boy in the corner

like Kun and Ten, he'll just watch and cheer you on in those instances

he is the ultimate ally

YangYang

I could see him drawn toward a woman who takes initiative in a relationship

probably finds it attractive as hell

at the same time, I could see him not caring much about traditional gender roles

sees it as a social construct that is meant to be broken

he digs how dynamic you can be in any situation, definitely!

that said, he is the reason you fix so many things 🧍🏻‍♀️

listen, him being your boyfriend does not guarantee your safety from The Menace™

feels bad about it sometimes

but like... you never complain

YangYang swears he's a magnet for finding patient people that can tolerate his antics

which is exactly why he's wrapped around your finger

MASTERLIST

#wayv #nct wayv #wayv x f!reader #wayv headcanons #nct #nct headcanons #wayv x reader #wayv reactions #wayv scenarios #wayv kun #wayv ten #nct reactions #nct scenarios #wayv imagines #nct imagines #nct x reader #nct x f!reader #wayv yangyang #wayv hendery #wayv xiaojun #wayv winwin #x f!reader #f!reader #quokkawritings🌻

[allzelemonz]

Red Dead Redemption Scenarios: Taller than them

Pronouns: None Mentioned, vaguely implied masculinity, Reader referred to as ‘man’ Physical Sex: None Mentioned Rating: M/Allusions to sex, violence Warnings: Crime, cuddling, kissing, protectiveness A/N: Heights of the boys are listed so you can gauge if you’re taller/shorter. They’re taken from a few different sources around the internet as well as my own staring at the screen for hours. Been reading a lot of ship fics where Kieran is described as short but he’s really not, Micah is tiny and I am very happy about that.

Abe: (5’9”to 5’10”)

He’s never been bothered by it

He kind of likes leaning up to kiss you or you having to tilt his head up

Your height makes him feel a little safer, what with that gang running around the ranches

Sometimes you tease him, it makes him blush and he enjoys it like any other playful thing

He loves when you cuddle and he can shrink into you a little

He will melt when you hold him from behind and rest your chin on his shoulder or head

From a practical standpoint, your height is something he’s thankful for

You can reach those lanterns that need fixing and get the stubborn hay bails he can’t

Of course sometimes he likes feeling bigger and you oblige, curling into his chest or slouching a little so he can easily kiss your forehead

Bill Williamson: (5’11” to 6’)

He’s torn

Because he’s a man and it feels silly to be smaller than his sweetheart

Until you’re holding him and his head finds that nice spot on your chest

Until you’re the big spoon and he feels safe for once in his life

Until you press that same soft kiss to his head because it’s right there and you want to see his face go red

But then he has to lean up a little to kiss you and he feels so damn tiny

But then someone makes a comment about him being ‘little’ while he’s next to you and he fumes

But then you’re standing next to Brown Jack and he’s jealous he doesn’t stack up the same way

You never tease him over it unless he’s in the right mood, that goes for any form of teasing with Bill

You’re well aware that he is a big, strong man in his own right and you make a point to bring that up when giving him praises

He does like to feel small sometimes, usually in private

It’s a balance, it had a learning curve, but you have it all figured out

Charles Smith: (6’ to 6’4, no one can agree on this man’s height)

He doesn’t really mind

Sometimes he likes that you’re bigger than him because everyone expects him to be the big one and it’s not to not have to deal with that

He always reminds you to step quietly when you’re hunting with him

Really enjoys forehead kisses when you’re alone

Likes sitting in your lap sometimes, usually when he’s had a bad day

Resting his head on your chest is almost a requirement for him to sleep because he needs to hear your heartbeat

He still likes holding you and being the ‘big’ one on occasion just because he like to be protective

Likes when you hug him from behind, especially if you whisper in his ear

Colm O’Driscoll: (6’ to 6’2”)

He was never quite sure how he felt about it when he was pinning

He always thought his partners should be shorter--smaller than him for the sake of his own ego and reputation

But he doesn’t really worry about those things any more

You’re both the same height when horizontal as far as he’s concerned

He can still control you and intimidate you how he likes

He has grown fond of you being one of the few people he has to tilt his head up to look at

And bringing someone taller down to their knees gives him an even bigger sense of power

So long as you don’t point it out, everything will be fine

One of the boys brought it up, Colm was already in a bad mood, never saw that boy again

If you’ve been particularly good he might bring it up, praise it even

Knowing that the boys are less likely to pick on you, because height can be intimidating by itself, gives him a bit of relief

He doesn’t feel like he has to protect you like he’s had to with partners shorter than him

He still will protect you, be insanely protective at times, but he feels like you can handle yourself a little better

Do not kiss him on the forehead, he will make you pay for it even though he kind of likes it

He just doesn’t want to admit it

Just like he doesn’t want to admit that he likes how easy it is to rest his head near your chest when he hugs you

He has boots that give him a bit of height while standing with you, never tell anyone about them or Colm will really make you pay

Kieran Duffy: (5’11” to 6’)

He never thinks about it that much

It’s just not all that big to him, he would feel the same about most things despite your height

He feels a bit safer standing next to you, like people that pick on him might lay off if you’re there

His face turns red if you tease him about it and he always wants a hug to make up for it

He does appreciate that you can more easily brush some of the large horses for him

Going for a shared horse ride where he can almost fall asleep against your back, one of his favorite passive activities

When you pulled him into your lap for the first time he really didn’t want to leave

Micah Bell: (5’9” to 5’10”)

Don’t bring it up unless you’re absolutely alone and you have something in mind

There are a million things he’ll never admit and half of them have to do with your height and how much he loves it

The way you hold him and he feels safe and protected for once

His face turning red the first time he was the little spoon and eventually never wanting it any other way

The fact that you can loom over him when he really slouches

Taking his hat off to press a kiss to his head

Looking up at you after a kiss with those icy eyes in the process of melting

Being able to more easily hide his face from you with his hat

How easy it is to give in and feel small when you’re alone with your hands on his hips

Sean MacGuire: (5’10” to 5’11”)

He enjoys it quite a lot

Gets to truthfully call you Big Man

He has a plethora of names about your height

He will ask you how the weather is up there and other jokes like that

Likes to stand on his tip-toes even if it’s unnecessary

Loves forehead kisses

Will sit in your lap and make you rest your chin on his head or shoulder

Back him against a wall or a tree and look down at him to watch his knees go weak

Use him as something to lean on and he will grin about it the whole time

Pick him up if you’re on the stronger side, spin him around

He gets a little mad when you hold him back from fights and he can’t push past you

#red dead redemption 2 #rdr2 #red dead redemption x reader #x male reader #x reader #red dead redemption x male reader #micah bell x reader #micah bell x male reader #micah bell #bill williamson #bill williamson x reader #bill williamson x male reader #kieran duffy #kieran duffy x reader #kieran duffy x male reader #sean macguire #sean macguire x male reader #sean macguire x reader #rdr2 abe #rdr2 abe x reader #rdr2 abe x male reader #colm o'driscoll #colm o'driscoll x reader #colm o'driscoll x male reader #x gender neutral reader #micah bell x gender neutral reader #sean macguire x gender neutral reader #colm o'driscoll x gender neutral reader #bill williamson x gender neutral reader #rdr2 abe x gender neutral reader

[egonkula]

girl mac my most catholic of disasters!!!!

mac is pulled by her desire to please her mother and her God. to please her mother is to be what she really wanted, a boy. so mac slicks her hair back and cuts it short and ugly with a pair of safety scissors. every time she looks in the mirror she wonders if that's what she really was supposed to be . a boy. that's the only reason she could come up with to justify why god would burden her with loving girls. god simply forgot to make her a man. instead of coping she represses.

she's 14 and trying to ignore the nagging at the back of her mind when she kisses a boy for the first time. she's sick to her stomach and tries to pretend it's because she's drunk. she trudges back to charlee's place after, trying to feel normal again. she doesn't. charlee asks her what's wrong. she doesn't say. she crawls into charlee's bed and they forget about it .

she figures soon enough she'll be rewarded, god will bless her for being good. for trying to fix herself.

she views indulging in masculinity as a sin too, so she hates herself. she wishes she was like denise. she's so beautiful, effortlessly. she's got long hair and soft hands. mac's nothing like den. she does anything to prolong the time they have together, trying to worm her way into denise's life. be more than just her weird dealer under the bleachers.

she scrawls pictures of mother mary in her journal and every night before she goes to sleep she asks her to take it away.

the other girls at church whisper about her. she's 17 and has gotten used to swallowing down the vomit that comes with a man. half of them are calling her a whore. the other half whisper in fear. whisper that she's too close with that charlee. they heard about some party where charlee and mac were passed out on a couch, in some vaguely compromising position. the girls stared at her. like she was a disgusting beast. like they were scared mac was gonna come for them next.

at confession she asks for forgiveness for all the boys.

at confession she cries too hard to talk about the girls

#i think of her often guys im sorry if this is ridiculous and very indulgent #mac mcdonald #genderbent sunny #iasip #egonkula rambling

[s-a-u-l-o-f-t-a-r-s-u-s]

grow up

i have in all honesty. i used to support the whole non-binary thing bc I thought it made sense that there weren’t only masculine and feminine people. I myself never felt like a man. i know how it feels to not fit the gendered mold that is expected to be filled by people born into my biological sex. i entertained that I could potentially be nonbinary/genderfluid as a teenager. but now I have a view of sex and gender that is more based in observable reality than in vague feelings of not belonging. male/female/man/woman/boy/girl are simply biological terms with no indication of personality or affect or interests. masculinity/femininity are gendered cultural constructs that are not constant; their association with biological sex and their meaning varies by society. if everyone did enough navel-gazing, we all could have some justification for being non binary because ideals such as femininity and masculinity are unachievable for anybody imo. the concept of nonbinarism implies that only non binary people are complex and varied and nonconforming, but many people you would call “cis” like myself do not fit the mold. we just understand that our lives and identities amount to so much more than what our names are or what pronouns people use for us. in my view, sex is reality, and gender is cultural baggage. it is my understanding that a rejection of reality (ex. insisting you are not male or female but a super special super unique custom thing) is a sign of mental/psychological maladaptation. it isn’t healthy to fixate on fantasies that can never really be true. one day you will understand that superficial monikers like self given names and made up pronouns are ultimately unimportant and that true freedom comes from a radical acceptance of reality.

TLDR: non-binary people are annoying and nobody really believes you are the gender you say you are and if they say they do they’re just trying to be nice :)

[lanaevyssmoved]

OC questions tag meme!

THANK YOU FOR TAGGING ME @hibernationsuit mwah mwah

i'm doing it for afhiri, candor and cirok!! it's undercut because its long ^_^

Name:

afhiri, but if performing will tell people their name is gift ^_^ afhiri does have a surname i just haven't decided what it is yet because it's almost better to me if no one ever finds out. even me candor's actual name is raguel, but chose the virtue name candor for itself! this was with intent for when it introduced itself to afhiri, but it completely failed when he realised afhiri doesn't know what candour means :D cirok is a name that they picked themselves after his failed transformation into a kaorti and became a rivener! it's actual name is long lost, and no one will ever learn it

Nickname(s):

afhiri has the nicknames hiri and iri, and various pet names from their various partners. "sweet clown" and "my favourite bard" are used often by gale! a fun fact is gale will give afhiri moon and star related names, and candor will give afhiri sun related names! candor is called candy by afhiri, and they'll tease it with lots of "you're so sweet! like candy!" hehehe... the torment melts the heart of even the most honourable of angels cirok is called cir by afhiri but other than that their name doesn't actually get used often, since it only really interacts with afhiri and gale. gale calls cirok "it" a lot, and "phantom", using cirok mostly when afhiri pouts at him. it sounds mean but cirok doesn't mind and sometimes prefers the depersonalisation of it

Gender:

afhiri is intersex and was raised to be a boy from birth, however they developed to look more like a girl, causing a lot of inner turmoil and conflict. afhiri is transfem and nonbinary. they also take testosterone to feel closer to their masculinity. she/they pronouns! candor is quite literally a sexless solar angel, but is maculine in appearence and presentation. calling candor a man in any form would be incorrect. he/it/they pronouns! cirok is nonbinary. don't ask whats under its clothes... vaguely gestures to the fact it's a failed kaorti transformation. it/they with heavy preference for it/its.

Star sign:

this is a little difficult because realms lore has changed on this a lot, if i'm correct in my information. from people being blessed by stars or entire consellations to each month actually having a sign in more recent lore. here is a link anyone doing this for realms ocs (like bg3 ocs) can use to figure this out! the lore on stars and consellations in the realms is spotty at best, but this could be helpful if you wanna go that route!

afhiri was born in the month of kythorn, at the height of summer. her sign is the moth! uh.. candor wasn't born like that and cirok experienced literal rebirth so like. i can only answer this for afhiri LSKDJFDSF

Height:

i added gale because gale kisses afhiri and cirok hehehe

Orientation:

afhiri is polyam and bisexual ^_^ candor is yknow an angel so doesn't really subscribe to this but would be polyam and pansexual if. it did subscribe to labels at all cirok is [waves hands about] queer

Nationality/Ethnicity:

afhiri is baldurian and from the lower city in a poor district. baby is a tiefling! candor is a solar from the upper planes! candor originally called the chronias layer of mount celestia its home but upon agreeing to serve lathander moved to the realm morninglory in elysium. candor spends a few decades on toril, but eventually returns to morninglory where they stay for eternity cirok is a rivener, and what it was before this is lost to time, and you're not going to get an answer out of them. but if you were able to get a good look, you'd assume cirok is maybe a human or a half elf. cirok stays in waterdeep with afhiri and gale post-game but where cirok was before is anyones guess!

Favourite fruit:

afhiri likes sweet fruits best of all, like berries, melons and mangoes! candor doesn't eat.......... cirok doesn't eat either...............

Favourite season:

afhiri likes it warm and loves nature, flowers, greenery, so late spring and summer are the best! candor likes the summer because of the long days and warm sun ^_^ cirok uh. is not gonna answer this question if you ask and it doesn't have one.......

Favourite flower:

afhiri loves all flowers but most especially simple flowers like daisies! if afhiri sees a field of daisies you have LOST her candor likes sunflowers and roses.. obviously cirok doesn't like flowers dlfkgfdglkdfgdfg

Favourite scent:

afhiri likes natural smells over perfumey ones that usually make them sneeze dfklgjdfgd so you're gonna see afhiri sniffing flowers and the fresh air and avoiding people wearing scents candor probably got some. angel advanced sniffer shit going on. so i assume candor can smell the universe and stuff. so lets just say whatever the sun smells like and leave it there so i don't have to unpack this cirok doesn't have a favourite scent are you seeing a pattern here :)

Coffee, tea, or hot chocolate:

HOT CHOCOLATE FOR AFHIRI PLEASE. sometimes gale makes them mochas. ^_^ candor doesn't drink! :) but would like tea fdl;kgdf cirok doesn't drink either..!! ahh!!! but would drink coffee. gods

Average hours of sleep:

afhiri doesn't actually sleep for very long, always jolting themselves awake in the early hours, likely due to having to always be up early before leaving their family home. candor doesn't sleep!!! cirok doesn't sleep!!!!!!!!

Dog or cat person:

afhiri is a both person and has the matched energies of a hyper dog and a zoomies cat candor loves all things on toril equally :) except the evil things :) cirok actually likes tara!!! cat person!!!!

Dream trip:

you're not gonna get a proper answer out of afhiri here it would just be "ANYWHERE! EVERYWHERE! LETS GO!" afhiri just wants to adventure and explore and see shit man. easy to please ultimately candor....... god ok i have to be honest candors dream trip would be leading afhiri to morninglory to spend the rest of eternity there with it. which means afhiri is dead cirok doesnt have one....... for gods sake cirok

Favourite fictional character:

afhiri has never read a book. we don't have television here. afhiri doesn't KNOW any fictional characters. but afhiri also has issues with knowing what is and isn't real and would answer this question in a completely incorrect way. afhiri would say the emperor is their favourite fictional character :) because the emperor lives in the prism :) for fuck sake afhiri candor.. doesn't have one..... candor is not one for whimsy like this... DO I HAVE TO SAY IT

Number of blankets they sleep with:

afhiri has one blanket and it's whoever is sleeping in bed with them..... other than that afhiri is going to kick that shit off in their sleep because they fidget like hell unless there's the weight of someone else holding them down. weight blanket person candor DOESN'T SLEEEPPP CIROK DOESN'T SL PEPEEPEP

Random fact:

afhiri has 6 fingers on each hand :)

candor spent so long flying around and simply floating that when entering self imposed exile and disguising itself as a tiefling it had to figure out how to walk :D

cirok has to spend many hours a day caring for its resin. its a super delicate task that cannot be interrupted. without this resin cirok will die in torils atmosphere :).........

TAGS!!!!!!!!!!

@ancientsigil @gwynbleidd @grymforge @euryalex @courierseis @kelemvorr @dandeyrain @dekarios @enverflymm @lord-woolsley @bootheminiaturegiantspacehamster @captaintiny @dameaylin @masckarlach @haarlep @sovereign-spaw @johnnystorm @maxthetruman @princeofhags and anyone else who wants to do it consider urself tagged by me ^_^!!

#fray.txt #oc afhiri #oc candor #oc cirok #THANK YOU FOR TAGGING MEEEEEEEEEE

[transmascswagpolls]

Transmasc Swag Polls- PRELIMINARIES

This round will eliminate the LOSER. The two characters with the most votes have a guaranteed spot in the polls, so choose whichever one suits you. The "?" characters are already in the polls proper.

Propaganda and other info under the cut.

Why are these characters in the prelims?

This entire post.

Canonicity Levels-

ZORO: Gender Tomfuckery

LORD CROCODILE: OOPS! Accidental Trans Man (in the manga and anime, Subtext/ Coded in the live action series)

FRANKY: Subtext/ Coded

Media?

One Piece

Zoro Propaganda-

He goes around with an open shirt, showing off his scars, buff as anything. Also he’s a Gender Equality guy. As kids, his rival said when they grew up she’d never be able to beat him because he’s a boy, and he scoffed at the statement and insisted otherwise. That doesn’t necessarily make him trans but it would put a neat lens on the scene if he were.

He’s a sword guy! He uses three swords, is cranky, picks fights, and is secretly the goofiest guy around! When he challenged The World’s Greatest Swordsman to a duel (and lost) Zoro turned around to face the guy and take the wound on his front, because “scars on a back are a swordsman’s shame.” That’s freaking cool dude.

[Pollrunner's Note: He is gay but almost exclusively for swords (and whatever the hell he's got going on with Sanji). Also, he can make his tits bounce.]

Crocodile Propaganda-

Him and Ivankov (a canonically trans character with the ability to change people's sex) are stated to have known each other in the past, with Ivankov knowing SOME SECRET about crocodile that he gets INCREDIBLY NERVOUS about being potentially revealed.

The organization he runs is incredibly gender-centric with everyone using either Mr. or Ms. as part of their code name...except him, who uses Sir.

One Piece Live Action kinda sorta made trans crocodile canon in that series at least- at Roger's execution you can spot a woman wearing a fur coat similar to his, and we know in the manga/anime Crocodile was there. Not to mention Inaki (Luffy's actor) STRAIGHT UP says crocodile is there and everyone at the table looks like he said something he wasn't supposed to.

[Pollrunner's Note: I've long held the headcanon that Crocodile is Luffy's secret birth parent. We've never met Luffy's mother and Oda is incredibly vague whenever asked about the subject. Crocodile has a notable past with Luffy's dad, Dragon, as does Iva.]

Franky Propaganda-

He's canonically changed his name and rebuilt his body (cyborg) to his own standard of "romantic masculinity" (actual quote). Franky's introduction to One Piece was him being the leader of a gang of queer-coded delinquents (who all call him "big bro") because he himself has been cast out from society. He's a huge fucking cyborg. He refuses to wear pants ever, even as a child and only wears open hawaiian shirts.

[Pollrunner's Note: Robots have a very intentional masculine coding in One Piece, and Franky loves to pretend and play up that factor at every opportunity. I have gotten into vehement disagreements with people before who've said how he 'can't be trans' because we've gotten confirmation that Franky has a dick and balls. My counter-argument is that Franky is more than capable of building his own body parts if he wanted to, which we've seen with how he was able to turn his entire torso into a mini-fridge.]

#transmasc swag polls 2024 #preliminary polls #roronoa zoro #sir crocodile #crocodile one piece #iron man franky #franky one piece #one piece

[mauesartetc]

What is your opinion on Winx Club and it's art direction?

Honestly I never watched Winx Club growing up, so my frame of reference for it isn't particularly intimate. But just looking at the characters, it's clear there's a bit of Sameface and Samebody Syndrome going on.

The art style's certainly unique for a Western kids' show, and there's a nice variety of bright colors. But man, I hate to think what kinds of messages the show's young target audience took away from these designs. If all kids see in their media are tall, impossibly skinny bodies portrayed as desirable, they'll wonder why their own bodies don't match. And creators should be especially sensitive to this when they're making shows for girls, since media bombards them with a host of beauty standards to measure up to (and it's not like I'm any kind of expert in child psychology, but I'd wager the advent of social media hasn't helped matters). So it frankly didn't surprise me to learn that this show was created by a dude.

Look, I'm not saying men can't be mindful of the effects media can have on girls, nor am I saying men and boys never deal with their own body image issues. But if you're making a show with a majority-female cast, maybe consult some women about their designs-? In the credits of the first episode there are two feminine names listed as character designers (Michele Lilli and Andrea Pulito), but they appear to be outnumbered by twice as many men. (Though apparently those names can be masculine in Italian, so it's possible Michele and Andrea are men as well. Too bad their IMDB pages don't list pronouns for them.)

And according to Winx Club's Wikipedia page, after a pilot that was unsatisfying to the creator, the team hired fashion designers to revamp the characters. At first I thought this would explain the girls' proportions (it's common practice in fashion design to draw slim, taller-than-average figures with elongated legs), but the concept art from the pilot tells a different story. Even before the fashion designers came aboard, all the girls had the same tall, skinny physique.

Not that there's anything wrong with being tall and skinny- hell, I'm a beanpole myself! But when all your characters have the exact same body type, whatever that may be, it leaves out so much human variety and just looks repetitive as a result. It's boring. And on top of that, it creates a visual impression that these characters are interchangeable with little to no individuality. The girls do have their own distinct personalities in the show (I ended up watching the entirety of Season 1 for this post), but those personalities don't come across well in still images.

It'd help if they were posed in ways that showcased their individual traits rather than just... "feminine and vaguely playful" across the board. Where's Stella's cockiness, Flora's kindness, Musa's sarcasm, Techna's logic? I'm wondering if the fashion designers sketched out these poses as well, because they seem much better suited to displaying clothes than demonstrating character.

(To make matters worse, there's a point in the show where the girls look like literal clones. This screenshot where they're all wearing the same outfit really highlights just how little body diversity they have.)

And what's bonkers about the faces looking so extremely similar is that creator Iginio Straffi based these characters on real women-? Namely Britney Spears for Bloom, Cameron Diaz for Stella, Jennifer Lopez for Flora, Pink for Techna, Lucy Liu for Musa, and Beyonce for Aisha. Here's how they all looked around the time of Winx Club's development:

And here's how I'd use the photos as a starting point to make each character's face stand out more.

They seriously couldn't have just leaned in to what made each face unique rather than painting them all with the same brush?

I get it, drawing all the characters with the same base makes it easier to keep them on model (and I imagine it keeps things cost-effective when making toys of them). But good god, you couldn't have treated them as actual characters rather than paper dolls for the fashion of the week?

From what I saw of the show, it's fine. It's passable. I fully accept that I'm not the target audience for it, but it's not bad for what it is. Could use a ton more character development, though, both in the designs and the writing. In any case, I'm glad that present-day animated shows seem to be evolving past cookie-cutter character design.

To close this out, here's something that I absolutely should not be able to get away with:

Recognizing these poses from the DVD cover is a sign of knowledge.

Realizing I switched them around is a sign of wisdom.

#character design #winx club #critique #sameface syndrome #samebody syndrome #media #media criticism #long post #ask #phasedahmer

[cock-holliday]

hey not rly a question just saying i appreciate your 2cents on things generally. i am a gnc transfem but am really a boy more than anything so someone looking out for those of us who arent palettably feminine is rly cool of you. a lot of the stuff you mentioned in your long post just now hits at some of the stuff thats making me feel uneasy around some of my transfem friends. i fear if i was fully myself i wouldnt be accepted. i hate to feel too queer for fellow queers, but. but yea anyway most of the time ive known i was trans most of my friends had actually been trans guys so when i hear this anti transmasc rhetoric going around it makes me rly uncomfortable im sick of the idea that trans guys have it easy. its not true and not fair do you fear being not accepted by others like you too? is this normal? idk. i didnt feel this when i came out 5 years ago this is new to me

I’m really sorry you’re dealing with that, and I can relate. Essentially I came out as a binary trans person a decade ago and raced to transition as quickly as possible (it was not fast, it was slow and frustrating) and when I finally got there then I had to endure Gender Crisis 2 where I realized I wasn’t this binary gender either.

It was very difficult to sort out. Did I just not feel special enough as Gender 2? Was I faking this whole time and was really just cis? Was I detransitioning? It took a lot to figure out what I wanted, how I wanted to be seen, and to grapple with the idea that it will continue to fluctuate.

I am masc but do not consider myself a man. Boy, maybe. Do I see myself as a woman? Also no. Girl, maybe. But a masculine girl. I think my boyness is more feminine than my girlness…but still both…butch.

I am trans but not a trans woman or a trans man. While figuring myself out in round two I flirted with transmasc/transfemme as labels, but neither fit better than the other. Or maybe neither fit. I know some use transfemmemasc but idk that I like it for me. I use trans women’s shaving tips. I use trans men’s voice training tips. There are members of both camps who wouldn’t consider me one of them.

I currently work a full-time job. I cannot present or fluctuate in my presentation when I want to. We have gendered locker rooms, gendered bathrooms, my ID badge has a photo that doesn’t look like me. I think a lot about that post that’s like “I might be nonbinary but I have a job so I can’t worry about that right now.” Only, I already know I am nonbinary. I’ve already been out to a lot of people IRL. How do you put that cat back in the bag? Can you? If I was allowed to present how I want now and everyone was cool…will they still be understanding when it swings back the other way? I don’t want that sort of pressure at work.

I am lucky I have a partner who understands and likes my presentation—and spectrum of it. I have trans friends who understand or try to understand, and genderweird friends who get it. It is a bit isolating—how everything is split into one camp or another. Things I supposedly couldn’t relate to I do, things I am not meant to have experienced (or acknowledge I experience) are not welcome topics in trans discourse.

It is difficult! There are huge Boy v Girl (but make it progressive) pissing contests on tumblr and it’s very irritating how deep the anger goes. Carve room for yourself and you’re accused of belonging to the other camp, as if it really even is ‘the other’ camp, it’s the same fucking camp.

I started to identify with the word butch only in the last few years, and because my gender exploration had taken me back to the trans folks of yore. They were brash and bold and contradictory and I liked that! It made me yearn for vague labels and defiant privacy while also being unabashedly authentic! Then I learned that it still exists. It’s small, and got pushed to the fringes, sure. But I’ve only had access to the books and zines and tales of the genderweird from the internet, and to hear it resonate with so many others proves to me we’re still out there.

It’s very tough to want to be true to yourself when there is a constant pressure to conform to something. It’s doubly tough when that pressure comes from other trans people. But finding more and more people who live this way and feel this way makes me feel surer in my choice to just loudly be what I am, fuck the rest, whenever I can.

I cannot always look how I want or be seen how I want, so the spaces where I do have control I refuse to be anything other than what I am 110%

I really hope you can find more and more space that lets you exist in the grey. I hope your friends become more accepting. In the meantime and hopefully continuously in tandem—you are not alone in this experience and others out there understand what it’s like. ❤️

#ask #anon ask

[milimeters-morales]

me rambling about gender for some versions of miles (both canon and au) under the cut

movie miles1610B (non-binary transfem) is the most realistic and expected (imo) when it comes to a teen boy realizing she might be a teen something-else, and there are societal pressures + spider-man pressures + parental pressures + natural high anxiety levels that really add onto why she’s so hesitant and takes the longest to accept and be okay with being trans herself. she’s fine with other trans people, it’s specifically a her thing. She sees gender as just a part of life, something she’s always had, but as she learns more and more, she realizes it is a performance, and she can do whatever she wants, which ends up circling back to looking how she normally does most of the time. really simplified version but you’d have to go through my older posts for more in depth explanations for movie miles specifically. Sometimes i think of Miles being intersex too, but i don’t know enough about the types to be really confident in that hc so it’s more of an exploring starting point whenever i feel like deep diving.

comic miles (cis-genderless) would describe himself as a cis male, but only because that’s what he was assigned at birth, completely uncaring of literally anything else. He’s connected to it because that’s what he was labeled as when he was born, and how he’s connected to the people in his life, but he himself doesn’t see it as anything really important. He’s his parents’ son, he’s his uncle’s nephew, he’s someone’s boyfriend, he’s the “strange boy” to a stranger, he’s the “black dude”, and though he hates that his race has anything to do with his connection to being male, it unfortunately shapes him. To himself, he is just Miles! If someone referred to him with more feminine language, he would be shocked but not totally weirded out, it depended on intent. He’s not open about this either bc he doesn’t see it as something important to share, but Ganke and Kenneth would be the first to know if he cared to tell. if he had a spidey social media acc he would have he/they in the pronouns section

playstation miles (questioning non-binary) is diff between the two games he’s mainly in, mostly because he figured out he was non-binary ages ago and was ready to come out, but so many things have happened in a short amount of time, which basically shoved him back into the closet. He was going to come out to his parents, but then his father died, and miles had this subconscious worry about now being the “man” of the house that his mother could also rely on so she wouldn’t have to grieve alone, and to prove that he could handle his own grief as well. his grief made him forget his own gender struggles for a time, and Roxxon, Phin’s death, Aaron’s reveal, it all stacked up and he was just “fine i’m not non-binary anymore i can’t deal with another huge thing!!” Now, in SM2, he was vaguely considering it again, because it felt so right before his father died, and things seem to be going okay lately, but you know how that went. Kraven capturing him also hurt the masculine parts of himself that he liked, so throw that into the fire. He only really feels he has time after the events of SM2, but is hesitant to come out or talk to anyone about it, because he just isn’t sure and doesn’t want to seem like he’s faking, so he just stews for now. It does bother him a lot and he experiences dysphoria in the “wish i didn’t have a human body” way. poor non-binary essential worker :(

e-42 miles (agender) is right after this instead of with movie miles because of how similar he is to playstation miles and comic miles. However, he is completely ignoring it to the point where he almost forgets it entirely, because he cares so little. His remaining family and fighting to make the world even slightly better is all he really cares about, so something like gender, including being regarded as a “son” and “nephew”, mean nothing, it’s about the bond rather than the label people give to it. He doesn’t feel this pressure of not feeling like he can tell his mom or uncle, it’s more of a “i might be non-binary but i have a job rn so i don’t really care about that” thing for him. However, he doesn’t like being referred to in any feminine way, and likes neutral/masculine language.

acau miles (complicated) is definitely not cis but autism + trauma recovery makes him view himself as “not human not animal just miles and spider-man!” so unlabeled spiderthing is where he’s at. Their pronouns got lost in the wash. It missed its gender orientation. Actually, Miles doesn’t use pronouns past 9pm: Get Fucked, Well-Meaning Citizen! Also, she doesn’t understand why some people get so worked up and invested with gender and pronouns, but he does sometimes say very rude and offensive things to Peter even before learning he’s trans because of what he’s heard growing up and what it knows that generally pisses men off. Matt and Aaron are working on making him less of a personified CoD lobby dw… it’s just gonna take a bit lol. doesn’t help that Peter returns the insults in full and encourages it against others sometimes

#(nelson voice) HA-HA! #miles morales #transfem miles #trans miles morales #spiderman #spider man #m&m posts #actual cryptid au

[lakesbian]

i poked around the fandom a bit last night and it was very funny to me that alec/taylor and alec/brian seem to be significantly more popular pairings than aishalec. whether you see their relationship as being more on the romantic side or more on the platonic side, it’s very textually explicit that aisha is the only undersider who even approaches understanding what’s going on w/ alec, and it’s also very textually explicit that alec is the only undersider who sees aisha on a specific meaningful and validating level for her. so it’s exceedingly funny to me that people have a habit of tossing aisha (whose problem is Literally that she’s chronically ignored LMAO) aside in favor of pairing alec w/ a girl who tends to ungenerously + hypocritically regard him as having no real interiority beyond “unempathetic sociopathic rapist” or a boy who consistently wins the Worm’s Most Heterosexual Man Award.

to be clear, i don’t think it’s impossible to do something interesting with alec/taylor interactions or alec/brian interactions, but i do think you have to work a lot harder to squeeze something compelling out of it--and i really don’t get why people aren’t as interested in exploring aisha/alec interactions in fan content when it’s textually the singular most significant human connection he has. if you want to start poking around in alec’s psyche, pairing him up with the one person who actually gets into his psyche in canon seems like it should be the most obvious choice, but almost no one goes for it.

i also have to admit that alec/taylor shipping always makes me snicker a bit because her canonical first reaction to him is is literally “Hmm. Not really into....Effeminate Boys." taylor might be a weird straight girl who can’t appreciate alec’s gnc swag, but i know in my heart that aisha (also bisexual, To Me,) saw him and immediately went “Ohohoho. Hohoho. Ohohoho. Nice.” 

as for brian. he is definitely remarkably heterosexual but the idea of him being a weird repressed bisexual similar to how many people read taylor is very funny to me. like so:

(...you could actually get something interesting out of how brian & alec are both traumatized boys who are trying very hard (with varying degrees of success) not to turn into their father figures, but they differ in that alec is uninterested in masculinity to the point where he experiences homophobia for it in canon whereas brian is obsessed with being masculine to a self-destructive fault. i’m compelled by the idea of brian trying to convince alec to do some self-defense training w/ a misguided appeal to his sense of masculinity only to end up vaguely jarred and confused when alec informs him that 1. his current t-shirt and leggings are both from the women’s section, so he’s pretty sure he’s got nothing left in the masculinity department, and 2. he’s good with sitting back and letting brian + bitch’s dogs handle the messy physical violence for him.)

#worm #i think alec thinks taylor looks like if a daddy longlegs spider was a girl (is not attracted to her) #and taylor looks at him like that one 'i know what you are' homophobic dog meme #which is to say i do not think they would date under any circumstances no. #again wildbow definitely forgot that he made alec bi 90% of the time + cannot conceptualize that gnc people exist #but he describes alec as being feminine so frequently + literally makes him experience homophobia for it #so i very much enjoy reading him as Actually Gnc + Bi In An Interesting Way #wildbow could have done something compelling with it! he didn't but he could have! #this is not analysis so much as loosely connected thoughts but they can't all be bangers #The Shitheads

[biohazardousvoidwithfangs]

i often forget about possibly being plural until I’m reminded of the fact that most people don’t in fact have separate enough aspects/facets of themselves that have their own name and individual appearance 🙃 I don’t know if “I” am the sum of all the parts, or if “I” am another facet. is all blurry and muddled. I don’t really know who “I” am. and this all makes it worse. I’m sure being schizoid doesn’t help either. or maybe being schizoid caused this. hmm

Like I often don’t feel like “myself” but I think that particular concept of self is mostly centered on how this body presents itself. Like I’m definitely aromantic and look masculine, I am male, I assumed to be a man by most people. But there’s a facet of me that is a hopeless romantic and very sapphic and I have no idea what to do about it bc it’s so radically opposite to how I am most of the time. Can I be a man and not a man at the exact same time? fully both? (is that what being multi gender is) It’s so complicated and I wish it was simple.

But compartmentalizing my sense of self gives me- the hopeless romantic sapphic, the greaser flirt rat-boy, the eldritch abomination with an ever shifting form, literally just a cat, and something that lurks back in the depths of my subconscious that I can’t put a finger on at all except for calling them vaguely elven. It’s so contradictory because no one “fronts” it’s just like I am a prism that is being rotated and occasionally it reflects a different color of the spectrum than before. Which is the actual me or am I the sum of all my parts? are these pieces the real me or the fake me? is real and fake just a construct? Making a space to express these pieces more just feels like role playing. Anything that isn’t void and nothingness feels like play acting. And I don’t know if that’s bc they are fake things I made up or if that’s because my real sense of self is so locked away protected from harm in a tower.

#plurality #plural gang #dissociating #schizoid personality disorder #plural problems #actuallyschizoid #actuallynd #i went through my blog and forgot that i had already posted something like this oops oh well #fey talks