#but i needed time to process everything

[firefly464]

I'm going to miss him. I really am. Thank you technoblade, for everything you've done for us. Thank you for giving us a space to be weird and fun and teaching us how to not care what others think. Thank you for teaching us how to put our all into something, how to show our passion in ways we could have never imagined before. Just... thank you. Thank you so much.

#tw death #I know its been nearly a week and a half since the news dropped #but i needed time to process everything #to be perfectly honest #i was kind of in shock the first few days #and then after that i ended up pushing it to the back of my mind #i tried to ignore it #but now... #i dont know #i feel at peace? #i think? #i dont know how else to describe it #but i spent the day watching old videos and i finally watched wilburs memorial vod #and just remembering him and appreciating him for all hes done for us #i think it helped #Technoblade #rest in peace techno #i'm never going to forget all youve done #fire draws

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Embrace the truth

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan jingyi #lan sizhui #lan xichen #lan wangji #wei wuxian #WWX uses NMJ's abs as part of his evidence for identification. LXC is allowed to use his familiar embrace as his evidence. #We are now entering the slow burn arc of 'Lan Xichen continues to lose everything he cared about'. #He has his love of fishing + his good friendship with JGY + his brother. I hope nothing happens to any of those things #Not that its in character for *anyone* present to have the emotional intelligence for it - but man LXC is having a very hard time #Trying to pin his sworn brother as a murderer *right* after identifying the mystery body as his other sworn brother? #of *course* he's defensive! You gave him no time to process! #He's gonna need a lot of time by the pond to cope #The original joke had LXC copping a feel on those glutes and recognizing him that way. Which now looking back *was* funnier #sigh...I need to trust my gut a bit more #Next time on PD-MDZS: They just show up in Jinlin Tai because I want to plot to keep moving

[ingoodjesst]

have you put the pieces together yet, detective

#goro akechi #akechi goro #persona 5 #persona 5 royal #p5 akechi #p5 spoilers #persona 5 fanart #jesst some art #i may have worked on this for... just under two weeks? i had like. so many fckgin thoughts i might make a process/concept breakdown post #it's honestly just for my own peace (haha piece) of mind because i overthought about. SosoooOoOo many motifs and symbols and i just wanna #idk PUT EM ALL somewhere........ maybe it'll become its own jessay of mine. god. who can say. #also DUDE tumblr rly does crunch up quality wow ouch #unironically a core thematic inspiration for this piece is a quote from the folding ideas' video 'the nostalgia critic and the wall' #'it doesn't all make sense or resolve or coalesce because we don't all make sense' #'everyone is the illusion of order constructed brick by brick out of chaos' #i've watched that video essay through at least. a dozen times at this point. everything about it. yeah. it's good. #this piece initially went many different directions and i have realized ah yes to fully explore just THESE themes that i'm interested in as #they relate to goro akechi i will need to draw. at least two more pieces. sdlfhsdlkfjsd

[catragemiau]

End-of-Day Debrief

#disco elysium #disco elysium fanart #kim kitsuragi #harry du bois #disco elysium harry #disco elysium kim #art #lads is it normal to have feelings for a GAME #I just finished it and I need at least several days or weeks or MONTHS to process everything #I fucking loved it it looks and sounds so beautiful I can't handle it #I WANNA DRAW IT AAAAAAAAAAAAAHH even if I suck at drawing people #will replay it in a few months or whenever my will to cope wavers #time to restructure my whole personality around one game #disco elysium art

[ilovereadingandstuff]

I FUCKING LOVE that Blackwhip is literally Izuku's heart. Like...these black strings are almost the only thing we get to know about Izuku's emotions and feelings... because he doesn't voice them out...

And about this last point...I feel like the 'lost of Izuku's pov' arc hasn't come to an actual end to be honest...but that we're getting closer...way more closer than before...i feel it.

#bnha manga spoilers #bakudeku #midoriya izuku #izuku midoriya #yassss baby please tell us everything that has been on your mind... #i need for izuku to talk about his feelings of being quirkless and losing ofa... #he was so emotional about losing it #and now the decision was made #and it seems he regretted it #because the ofa holders were fucking annoying the whole time #(that's the truth tbh but it's not like i wanted them to be dead) #(but yeah) #and he got a moment of losing his arms for real... #and reaching shiggy in an emotional level... #omg this is too much #i don't know what to expect #but i'll trust the process #hori i believe in you

[chirpsythismorning]

Just remembered that Will sat on the icebox in the van for the 30 hr ride back to Hawkins

#byler #stranger things #that willelmike dynamic in the van after the monologue needs to be studied under a microscope #like why couldn’t we see the aftermath of his monologue??? #what happened?? #when will sat on the icebox did el and mike look confused?? #did they offer to leave room for him to sit there but he declined politely like no that’s okay… #followed by the next 30 hrs of awkward #I know the vibes were OFF #that’s the reason they only let us be confronted with them by the time they arrived in Hawkins #they needed to shift the mood to confusion about Hawkins’ state #bc they could not reveal what the vibes were like before that #no but the prospects of el hugging all of them after saving max #and it’s like emotional and they’re all so relieved she’s alive #but then shortly after that when they’re planning going back to Hawkins #she’s distant again #maybe it’s with everyone so they just brush it off as her needing time to process everything #but it’s still suspicious because… #why are things with her and mike still feeling very off #and then that’s when they’re getting into the van and then will just adds to the awkwardness even more by sitting on the icebox 😭 #I also noticed 2 pillows on the backseat so it’s likely that’s where byler slept in s4 during their shenanigans #so I’m guessing that where el and mike slept while Will slept on the floor 😭 #no but seriously they could not show any of that without giving it all away #the angst and heartbreak and confusion and regret would have been so loud 😅

[wttcsms]

horribly short summary of what im trying to accomplish here, but if you were to read a fic featuring character, a soldier honorably discharged and is officially off the battlefield and yet he can’t seem to shake off the war from clinging to his body, and he’s basically a bit of a mess and feels incapable of returning to ordinary life and there’s you, the sweetest thing in the whole world, and he keeps trying to tell you he’s no good and you’re there to help him with everything (and it kills him a bit, to see you wasting your time to help him, and it kills him because he feels like he shouldn’t be the type of person who needs help) and !! just slowburn and falling in love and just read the tags for the vibe ok, who would it be for

#i was originally thinking ghost from cod since hello there’s so much source material to work with #and the fic would suit him nicely but also idk if i have cod readers left on my blog #so any characters are fine like an aot character would also prob fit the bill for this #but ive just been thinking abt everyone who’s analyzing hozier’s snippet #with how he takes his coffee black and his whiskey neat and how this girl is too sweet FOR HIM #as in… not being deserving of something so nice #and feeling that way but also showing how in the healing process - in the process of getting better - #we start to discover that we are allowed to enjoy and indulge in nice things. that we also deserve to live a life full of sweetness #and it’s a bit serious since it will touch on ptsd; on survivors guilt #and the fic is long - spanning from getting together to him having kids w u #& how even after all this time sometimes the war is still fresh as ever on his mind #and just !!! it’s a lot #also that Taylor line that’s like ‘is it really your anxiety that keeps you from giving me everything? #‘or do you just not want to’ + ‘you wouldn’t be the first renegade to need somebody’

[drenched-in-sunlight]

i like ghostflower (hell I draw fanarts for them) but I’ve decided I like the version of them in my head more and will just stay away from the fandom in general cuz I’ve seen some discussion and they just make me go “what on earth are y’all on” 💀💀💀💀

#“miles will immediately forgive gwen when he sees she’s gathered a whole team to save him WHAT #he’ll save himself first then befriend Miles G. and Miles G. will start hissing like the cats when that team comes and Miles looks upset #like I firmly believe miles will only talk to Hobie and Margo after all that cuz they r the two that stand by his side thru whole that #like that take is so insane when Hobie is the reason Miles can run away in the first place and Margo risks everything to allow Miles leaving #AND HE KNOWS #u don’t even need a scale to see who Miles will associate with safety and protection more after atsv #also “miles keep getting up after he’s beaten down cuz that what Gwen told him to do in itsv is ALSO insane cuz WHAT #the thing she said when she and others were berating and crowding Miles for not knowing how to be Spider-Man just FEW DAYS after he’s bitten #?????? #THAT THING???? #not his mom’s words or his uncle’s or idk THAT’S HOW HE IS??? #*walk in the tag* *walk out immediately* #u don’t have to make them the only person in each other’s life to prop the ship up especially in this case cuz it makes no sense 😭 #actually the first point srl piss me off cuz that team was only possible in the first place cuz of Hobie and Margo and Miles laying #the groundwork by just being a sweetheart he is #charming and inspiring ppl so ofc these kids will rally behind him and team up to save him #ykno LIKE IN THE COMIC TOO??? #ppl just have to take the only thing I don’t like in the movie (miles suddenly obsessed over Gwen when they didn’t even interact that much #in itsv) and magnify it x100 in fandom #if she ain’t a gremlin girl that is trying her best to regain Miles’ trust but it’s a slow process and Miles needs space and time first then #I don’t want it

[ueasking]

[Official Trailer] Only Friends เพื่อนต้องห้าม

#only friends #only friends the series #lookjun bhasidi #nonnie pitchaporn #probably the only gif i'll make of the trailer #because i still need time to process everything else that happened in the trailer #and by the time i finish processing everything there'll probably be dozens of amazing gifsets of the trailer so yeah #*mine: gifs

[stagefoureddiediaz]

Currently feeling a bit feral over the fact that Natalia means Christmas Day - as in the birth of Jesus Christ and Bucks story is so heavily leaning into the birth death and resurrection of Christ - the saviour - as a central part of his narrative arc. Her presence is literally about the birth of buck - as in processing his grief about why he was born - as a saviour baby.

#Buck hasn’t processed that trauma that dates back to his birth #he was never allowed to grieve the brother he didn’t know he had #and then he was in a coma where he created this version of Daniel - a deep rooted trauma response in itself #but that’s brought the Daniel of it all closer to the surface of his concious #and he needs to process and grieve and allow himself to move on from that #and I think Natalia the death doula is a key part of this - because she is ideally situated to help him process that specific trauma #this isn’t so much about his own recent brush with death (although it’s part of it) it’s about going back to the beginning and processing #he needs to deal with the Daniel of it all before he can deal with everything else #in the same way we had Eddie going back to his own root trauma - with his father - and processing and dealing with things #via frank. this is just Buck taking a different path which will have a similar outcome #yes Buck May date her as he goes through this process but ultimately he’s attracted to her metaphysically - because she can help him #not because he’s actually attracted to her romantically #also the show has doesn’t too much time recently showing us the buddifer family - to ensure we can see where things are heading #before it continues to process their trauma #thinky thoughts #911 spoilers #911 on fox #911 fox #911onfox #evan buckley

[bleaksqueak]

It's fun to be working on a pretty dark scene while *this* is the page that went up today.

Have the scant WIP shots i took of this one (tho this page might have my favorite set of thumbnails despite not liking how the art on this page, itself, came out.. i'll always have these thumbnails to cherish) Still very Iffy on letting this page sit alone for too long for pacing reasons since this one is meant to be a page turn. I was sorely tempted to stitch it to the next update and let it go up like that, but the only reason I didn't is because (I'm on a different schedule again and it was already time to post). still... I might consider putting the next update up Sooner (today? Thursday!?) if you really want it. Let Me Know IN THE COMMENTS BELOW (lycan subscribe)

#solivaga #pu art #art process #wip #comic #my art #elias #maia #harold #I was really sad to change that elias face bc I like it #it was the first time his design started to click with exactly how to draw him with everything falling into place #and then it didn't match the acting needed #so RIP #changed it #also elias having a moment of Genuine woopsdidn'texpectthat Surprise amuses me so have a clearer shot of it. it's a small panel tho #so even with the comic pages drawn at high resolution it's crunchy #surprised crunch

[sunsetandthemoon]

me trying to keep up with all these absolutely unhinged plot twists

#kinnporsche #kinnporsche the series #THAT IS HOW YOU DO A FINALE #i was on the edge of my seat the entire time #so much happened i don’t even know what to gif first??? #i’ll need a few days to process everything

[lemongogo]

can i ask.how u guys practice ur creativity <3 how u practice ur imagination or like.. how u experiment with ur art, how u come to ideas and how u develop them.<3 pretty please <3

#smthing i have always struggled w.is feeling like i can only draw things that r handed 2 me. #as in.an idea or concept that already exists #chara or conflict that already exists.Scene that alr exists. #and i think it can be soo limiting bc when i have that sort of creative desire but nothing 2 reflect off of it #i feel like im unable to do anything/get anywhere bc im unable to do that mental legwork myself ykwim #like comic artists r SOOO JAW DROP INSPIRING TO MEE bc not only are u envisioning ur own sequences/situations #but u are able to imagine even the most MUNDANE interactions within those scenarios u know #like the transitory panels and the quiet moments and the every day stillness #and i feel like.its not even a poor attempt on my behalf its like.i cant Even attempt it.like my brain is soo empty #and soo static and noiseless that i am like gauhh...... #i can practice lines all day long and practice colors and practice anatomy or Whatever bc its something concrete #and its in front of me and i can pry apart the physical technicalities until i understand it better #but my MIND???ABSTRACTION>? THOUGHTS .ough its so hard #and i really want to push past that but i dont know how and its so .. demoralizing to think that ill get there One Day but i feel #one million and two days away.and not making active process towards it. #i know the first step is to build ur visual library and i feel liek. idk i FEEL LIKEEE theres more 2 it that im missing #but also im depressed as hell n my job is killing my creative drive and the seasonal stuff isnt helping #so maybe i just need 2 give it time (true) but i also like.man i dont know. i want 2 do something w my hands #but everything ive been doing so far has felt soo .hard and fruitless and i definitely dont want 2 turn art into such a stressful thing #fruitless as in like.i dont get any personal satisfaction w it.idgaf abt monetization or algorithms or any of tht #but smtimes thats just what happens and i have 2 weather through and know ill be more equipped 4 this some other time #SAWRYYY IM ALWAYS GOING ON AND ONNN im nromal im normal<3 i just rly like art and it sucks balls whn it feels out of reach #sigh cry fart scroll.(:salute:)

[hooned]

i can’t believe i took these photos oh my god i luckily had a great view of the entire concert and wow, again, had thee absolute time of my life. ❤️‍🩹 enhypen, you will always be loved by me.

#spent the entire day crying btw — pcd is real i need two to three business days to process everything and start functioning again #right now all i could think of is DAMN TAKE ME BACK PLS I BEG 😭 #enhypen are such phenomenal performers with so much love to give oh god if i could say in words how amazing they all are I WOULD #their eyes shining while looking at the crowd OH GOD they’re everything really !! #and sunoo’s cover ???? I CRIED. sunghoon dancing gento ???? OH MY GOD I DIED AGAIN. #jake singing love yourself for us ??? hee singing give me your forever ??? RIKI LIKE THIS DANCE ??? OH MY GOD. #the fireworkd too UGH it was a perfect night like the pre concert experience wasn’t the best bc of the heat and some lapses #BUT THE CONCERT ITSELF ??? OUR BOYS ??? #OH MY GOD I WOULD GO THROUGH ALL THAT AGAIN AND AGAIN IF IT MEANS SEEING ENHYPEN PERFORM AND BE LOVED AGAIN LIKE THAT. #I LOVE THEM SOSOSO MUCH I CRIED BEFORE DURING AND AFTER THE CONCERT #MY FANCAMS ARE A MESS BUT OH MY GOD IT WAS NOTHING SHORT OF MAGICAL #text post #this is my best picture everything else is unfocused coz i wanted to look at them with my eyes #they are soo beautiful ugh #the entire time i was screaming and crying and singing and dancing IT WAS LITERALLY THEE BEST NIGHT OF MY LIFE #i can’t wait to see you again #i can’t wait to see you again my sevEN 🌟🫀🧡 #i talk too much & that's okay ˚◞♡

[rapidhighway]

every time I come back home I experience new mental illnesses -_-

#its not even bad rn it's been nice #there's just so much horrible stuff underneath it all though and i think i just can't handle it #i think im just grieving my entire life every time I come here #and I've been just having these thoughts i guess intrusive thoughts about everyone dying tragically for the laste few days and it's #NOT FUCKING HELPING #idk it's nice we're all nice and both is happening but there's always some new info dropped on me that they just. #expect me to process by myself and i just end up crying at night all the time cause like what am i supposed to do #yeah sorry for venting again i was getting a bit better at not doing tht but i neeed it rn ToT #k i think i just need to go to sleep and maybe ill forget everything tomorrow or something idk #vent #vent post

[heyfarfallina]

their little bubble

#imma need time to process everything #i don’t like ep2 already 💀 #it’s all worth it? it’s all worth it???? #the l word generation q #gigi ghorbani #dani nuñez