#but i’ve got so many good memories and i’m nostalgic

[sergeanttpoliteness]

OMG THAT LAST X READER IM IN TEARS AAAAAGH your writing is like, impeccable. Thank you so much for answering! I saw the "its coming to an end" and was like, awwwwe. Then I read the fic and was like AWWWWWWE

aghhh, i’m glad you enjoyed it! you’re too kind 🥺💕 i should be thanking you instead because i wasn’t gonna write anything for across the spiderverse at first, but i saw your ask and i felt bad about turning you down and disappearing without one last story.

i mean, who knows?? i’m honestly still in denial and don’t want to let go of my spidey writing days. i had some ideas and i was hoping that once atsv came out, i’d feel motivated to write them again, but i’m sadly still interested in other fandoms :’) maybe after i watch the movie a second time?? miguel do be hitting differently, lmaooo

i won’t completely abandon this blog, though— i’ll still be lurking around because some people still keep finding my fics for some reason! it’s funny but also sweet. thank you all who’ve supported my writing for the last four years 💗💗

#it’d seriously been so long #the way that my life has changed so much since i last posted is scary #i know all things come to an end eventually!! #but i’ve got so many good memories and i’m nostalgic

[xzhdjsj]

Alex x Reader

Alex meets you again after years (his pov)

Here's a little something I wrote while procrastinating the Zaros fic and request I'm currently working on💀

ENJOY‼️

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Life in New York was all I’ve ever wanted; one major decision that changed the trajectory of my career path for the best it could ever be. But something was missing, New York just wasn’t home. My parents visited and my friends called but the loneliness was inevitable.

The collection of memories I held close to my heart had sufficed for more than a decade but I just couldn’t stay in some place, where I was all alone, anymore. Besides I had made enough money to restart a comfortable life back home, so I did just that. I moved back to England. 

Initially I didn’t take any of the job offers I got, I needed the time to reconnect with the people I left. I was able to catch up with friends and colleagues, but not everyone stayed in one place. People move and change, start afresh and continue living. Maybe I should do the same.

I also couldn’t stay unemployed forever, so I decided to reopen a studio. It was nostalgic for sure, although I had no one to share the happiness with this time. Given my much improved resume, work was a bigger hit than it ever was and soon I found myself shooting for big companies and events.

Like the one I’m currently photographing. Some huge law firm hosted their annual anniversary celebration and hired me to capture important moments throughout the night. It was a lively event, a rich and deluxe atmosphere that I sure as hell did not fit into. 

“Mister? Why do you look so worried?”, I hear a small voice, then  felt a tug on the leg on my pants.

“Ah well hello there, who might you be?”, I squat to face the small child in front of me. 

“Allison sir! But you can call me Allie!”

“Allie huh? That’s a cute name, I’m Alex”

“All my friends call me Allie! Nice to meet you Mr. Alex.”

“Really?”, I raise an eyebrow and she nods, “So does that mean we’re friends now?”

“It does!”

I take her little hand in mine for a handshake and she giggles.

“I’m hereeee!” Allison legs go of my hand and runs towards the voice as I get back on my feet.

“We’ll at least I have a friend here ton-”

“Allison? Honey where are you?”, a worried voice comes from behind Allison, a familiar voice.

“Allie I told you not to sneak off like that, I was worried.”, the familiar voice continues, gentle and soft as I remember it.

“It’s okay,” Allison drags the owner of the voice over to where I’m stationed. “Look I made a friend!”

“Oh really? Well let’s meet the... m”

I couldn’t hold eye contact. Not after how abruptly I left them so many years ago.

“Alex, its... its good to see you again” their voice still as soft as ever, delicate like flower’s petal.

“Meet Mr. Alex!”

“Name, hi”, I start off, a weak start even for me.

“Oh? You know Mr. Alex?”, Allison chimes in.

“Yes Al, Mr. Alex and I were... friends when we were younger.”

“friends”

None of this should bother me, a child shouldn’t need to know of our history together.

“Alex, this is Allison, my daughter.” 

“my daughter”

Except it does bother me. It bothers me a lot actually.

“We’ve already met!”, Allison’s voice rings in again.

“It’s nice seeing you too, Allison has quite the charm.” I forced out.

“Right, I’m sorry sweetie.” they laugh with Allison. 

“I knew it, I definitely remembered your eyes from somewhere.”, I reach down to pinch Allison’s cheek.

“Yes, I get that very often. I didn’t you were back, I thought you’d stayed in New York for good.” they smile. 

God, I miss that smile.

“Thank you”

“Hahaha I just missed home. I didn’t feel like being away any longer.”

“Ah I see. Well then welcome back.”

There was nothing else to be said, and the silence could eat me whole.

“I’ll get going now, I hope you have fun tonight.”, they broke the silence.

“Yeah, you too.”

I watch as Allison holds onto their hand walking back to the middle of the room. My chest burns, it burns so much I feel like I might throw up but I keep watching them. I watch as they approach a man wearing a suit, who turns around and lifts Allison in his arms. His other arm wraps around their body and he kisses their forehead. I couldn’t take it anymore; I couldn’t watch anymore. I promptly excused myself, running to the bathroom. My throat clenched and I threw up. I must’ve stayed there for at least an hour. I cried and cried, more than I’ve ever cried even when we broke up. 

I couldn’t help it. I kept thinking, that could’ve been me. I could’ve been the one holding a child that was ours and comforting them when they needed it. I wouldn’t be photographing anyone else tonight, I’d be beside them holding them and kissing them.

IT COULD’VE BEEN ME. IT SHOULD’VE BEEN ME. WE COULD’VE HAD IT ALL.

Could’ve, would’ve, I left… so we didn’t. 

#zsakuva #sakuverse #asmr #alex #id pay money to see him cry and throw up from regret #this kinda reminds me of rolling in the deep by adele

[r3starttt]

Amoeba

a/n: third part of don’t delete the kisses (lmk if you noticed the Dina x Ellie reference 🤞)

pt.1 | pt.2 | pt.4

Warnings: a little bit of angts(? lots of fluff. homophobia. mentions of suicide.

“Between the gasps, I was swimming laps”

Echo chambers inside a neighborhood

In centerfold, humility’s shown

You’re not as good as what your mama’s sewn

Nobody yet everything, a pool to shed your memory

Could you say you’ve been tired? You haven’t called your family twice

I can hope tonight goes differently, but I show up to the party just to leave

The delicious and soft aroma of sweet bread wakes you up. Before you can even open your eyes properly, you feel your stomach growl. How much have you been sleeping for?

The warm of the sun coming from a big window besides you doesn’t help as you try hard to open your eyes. You rub them, yawning and stretching your legs.

It was probably the first time since you moved to this place that you didn’t felt exhausted.

You grabbed your phone to check the time, it was 10:30 am. How on earth could you slept for so long? you usually don’t make it pass 9 am, your body simply wakes you up and once your eye open there’s no way to feel tired enough to go back to sleep.

“Did I wake you up?” Ellie’s voice bring you back to reality, you finally turn around, there’s two plates on top of the kitchens counter with what seemed like hotcakes in them. Your heart felt like melting. “No… did you just cook our breakfast? How long have you been awake?”

Still a little bit sleepy you stood up from the couch you’ve slept in last night. Giving slow dizzy steps towards the counter and sitting on one of the few chair that were along it.

“Not too long, probably an hour” you could only see her back and her messy hair as she looked trough the many cabinets of the kitchen “what’re you looking for?” “The fucking maple syrup! I literally bough it like… three days ago”

“I bet you forgot it at the store” a sleepy chuckle came out of your mouth, already craving the very tasty hotcakes displayed in front of you.

“No I didn’t, I’m not that stupid” just before you could speak back she found it, whispering a ‘yessss’

She turned around and sat next to you, covering her plate with and exaggerated amount of syrup “That’s a lot” “it’s not” “it is”

Probably she was just as hungry as you were because none of you spoke again último both plates were empty, not even a crumb left.

“No, lemme do it” you pushed her away from the sink, she’d already done more than enough by cooking something for both “Why did you wake up so early? Didn’t you say how your day started like…. suuuper late?” with your hands you lifted both sleeves of your sweater, starting to wash the dishes.

“Couldn’t really sleep” she replied, almost too fast “Why?” she stood in silence for some seconds before explaining “It’s gonna sound super cheesy, just forget it”

“Now I really wanna know” you laughed “Did you dream of me? Of us? Did you marry me and started the most pretty cliche life with me?” she groaned

“Actually yeah, but you were so different…. and we were younger too” could it be? “did I have the same name?” you glazed at her quickly, but enough time to see her sudden change of expression “How’d you know?”

“I’ve had the same dreams, I freaked out when I first met you” you could hear the way the chair moved abruptly, her footsteps getting closer to you

“It made me feel nostalgic” her figure finally appeared on the corner of your eye, you were about to finish cleaning the last glass “and you haven’t even got to the best part” the sarcasm on your voice made her feel so confused,

Were you being serious right now? “What does that even mean?” her arms rested on the counter, watching you clean the glass “I’m not gonna spoil you our failed romance, just go to sleep and you’ll see” “You’re fucking with me” her hand slapped your shoulder slightly “I’m not! You’ll see what I mean tonight” all dishes now clean, how convenient.

“Is this what you meant yesterday? Is that why you asked me about-“

“Yes, but you don’t believe in those things, it’s fine”

“We’ve really met before then? Isn’t creepy?”

“Not really, I mean, not literally”

“You think we are soulmates then?”

You shrugged

Wooden floor sounding loudly as you walked to a small coffee table where you’d put all your bags the day before. Everything you’d bought and everything Ellie had insisted on buying you. There were just a few bags, you didn’t want to carry much.

“I can’t believe you suddenly believe in all this” you chuckled “well, we both dreamt about it. It’ll be too creepy if it was just a coincidence or something” she was just following you through the apartment, walking behind you whenever you moved.

“Have any plans for today?” you we’re hoping she didn’t, it would’ve been cute to stay all day with her, or maybe go out again. But she nodded, she did have plans for today.

“Gotta go see my parents, family reunion or some shit” you hummed “then I’ll go already, I don’t want you to be late or anything”

“I won’t”

-

“You know if you bring a girl this is over” Ellie’s mom looked furious. Her dad was just sitting besides her, trying to calm her wife down and trying to convince Ellie to stay a little more to properly talk.

But both of them were so stubborn and easily blinded by anger. No one could really intervene once they started shouting at each other.

“What’s the matter with it? I’ve been a fucking perfect child for this entire family but I’m not allowed to do one thing for myself?” she was so mad, her fists tightening more and more every time her mother spoke back.

“You are, just….not something like this” her mom finally calmed down, sitting besides her husband and staring back at Ellie with the must blank expression ever. it was infuriating.

“We’ll it’s either her or you two, and I’m not gonna quit to my life anymore just to please you” the whole room stood in silence. Everyone could fill the tension but it was completely quiet.

“Then don’t ever dare to come back”

This words made everyone feel disgusted, an unexplainable shiver running trough the ambience, touching every inch of skin of those present.

“No… shit, mom I’m sorry alright? I just” the knot of tears forming on her throat didn’t allow her to speak properly “what am I supposed to do? why can’t you accept it?”

“Get a man Ellie, grow up and start acting like an adult”

“Why not a woman? If it’s about the money, she’s rich alright? She has a great job, she lives in my same building, you know it’s not-“

“She lives there?”

Fuck. Fuck fuck fuck.

“You’ll find another place then. I don’t want you to keep talking about this, I trust you’re gonna do the right thing”

-

You haven’t heard of Ellie since that day in the morning when you left to your apartment. You could hear her when she came back but decided not to bother.

She’d told you about her parents, how they weren’t so supportive now that she’s an adult. She’d told you how much it overwhelmed her the idea of visiting them or just having any type of contact with them.

And it’s not that you could do much about it either. You’d only have one date and knew her for almost two months so far so you weren’t quite sure about how to help or comfort her, also, you didn’t have the time to go and find out right now.

You were busy placing every new decor you’d bough with her and taking the chance to clean everything.

However you were thinking the whole day about her, well, the old Ellie you’ve met somewhere else. Could she have any effect on your new Ellie? on your new relationship?

It gave you anxiety to think about how she’d react when she knew what had happened, if she ever got to see it.

Would she understand? Would she hate you? Would she just ignore it? Would she even let you know If she knew what happened?

And the most darker and cozy the ambience got the more your anxiety grew, because you feared that night came and Ellie could see something that made things change. That maybe it’ll affect her as much as it did to you when you first saw it all.

You feared that the story could somehow repeat again, maybe as a karma type of thing. You feared that not you or her could handle it.

Because you’d wait her forever, you’d do anything for her. But something you did knew and something you were sure about was that whenever someone hurt her, she’d never forget about it, she won’t forgive, not easily.

10 pm

Weird to not have a single text from Ellie, she always sent you dumb stuff or tried to convince you to go with her to work or eat together.

“You haven’t texted me all day. U good?”

“Can you come over? I feel like shit”

“Wanna talk?”

“Just cuddle, hurry”

-

She’d been sleeping next to you for almost an hour now.

When you came in she didn’t say anything, her eyes looked puffy, her nose and cheeks were slightly red and her hair was a mess.

You decided not to ask any questions, she’ll tell you everything eventually, when she’s ready to talk about it.

You’d been running your hands trough her hair, caressing her back and arms, hugging her tightly and whispering to her how everything will be fine, how you wouldn’t leave her side ever. Reassuring her that you would stay as long as she needed. Until she fell asleep.

So now you were just cuddling with her. Arms around each other’s warm bodies, the whole apartment in complete silence, just Ellie’s heavy breathing as your hands kept on palming and caressing her back.

She started to cry on her sleep, saying random words and murmurs that made no sense. Whispering a bunch of unfinished phrases and letting out small whimpers.

You assumed maybe it was the stress, or whatever situation her parents had put her in some hours ago.

Until you heard your name. Could she be dreaming about the two of you again? Should you wake her up? Was she experiencing what you feared the most? So fast already? Maybe you-

Her eyes opened abruptly, letting out a loud gasp as if she was out of breath.

“Ellie, hey…. I’m here shhh” small pats on her back as she tried to compose herself. She was breathing extremely heavily “What happened?”.

Her eyes met yours and only there you realized about the tears on them, about the sweat on her face making some of her baby hairs stick on her face.

“You’re here” her body practically jumped to yours, embracing you with her arms, tightly “What is it? did you have a nightmare or something? El?” you could practically hear her heart beat, so loud and unsteady. Almost too fast.

She murmured something, her voice was too shaky and teary to speak properly “I don’t wanna lose you”

Your hands ran trough her hair, trying to not panic and make things worse for her. You leaned on her and kissed her head, gently.

“Good….”

-

“Why’d you do something like that?”

“What do you mean?”

“Leave everyone and everything like that”

“That wasn’t really me, don’t worry ab-“

“Just why? you had so much privilege and fucking friends, I was dating you, we were best friends”

She couldn’t go to sleep after that, she didn’t really tell you about the dream she had but you already knew.

And you thought she’d understand, but maybe you were wrong, maybe she never did and you just convinced yourself about it because you two were in love.

“I felt overwhelmed, I thought you-“

“I feel overwhelmed too but it’ll pass, there no fucking need of killing myself”

Was she being serious? How were you supposed to reply back?

“Is it because of your parents? We don’t need to talk about this if you’re not feeling like”

“No it’s not” it is “and It’s important that we talk about it because that fucking detail just changes everything, how am I supposed to live like this with you knowing you could do it again?”

You’d make her dinner this time, but at this point it wasn’t possible for either of you to even touch the food anymore.

“Did you see what happened after I died?” she nodded, maybe the lack of knowledge was troubling this whole thing. “Is that why you’re mad? I didn’t see it”

You were trying your best to not explode, but you felt like punching her right in the face. How could she speak like this about you? About everything?

How could she be so selfish and stupid right now.

“I’m mad about the whole situation, why’d you leave me and not even talk to me about it? Why didn’t you tell me how you were feeling? Why’d you have to be so selfish? I was left alone after that, your parents moved out of the town.”

So they did take care of her as you’ve asked them to. And she did search for them to have some support as you’ve insisted.

“That was someone else Ellie, things are different here. I won’t leave you, I’m fine”

“How do you know? if we met again is for a reason”

“To actually end together maybe?”

“I don’t think so”

The immediate regret on her face was something you’ve never seen before. But you’re now too focused on your own pain to care.

“You know, the reason of those letters, the reason of why I didn’t died earlier and the reason why I’m here right now, making you fucking dinner Is because I care about you more than I could ever care about myself”

You could feel the salad flavor of tears slowly appearing in your throat. The tears slowly blinding you as rage built in your heart. It was physically painful.

“And it sucks and I know it’s not how any of this should’ve been but it it’s, and we can’t change what we’ve experienced” she stood up from the chair she was eating at, almost running towards you “but I’ve tried over and over again to make us work, and I’m tired of you not understanding. You’re supposed to love me Ellie, why can’t you?”

“I really thought you’d get over it, I really thought you’d understand in this life too. But you always let the anger in you fuck everything”

She tried to hold you, to speak, anything to try and talk and not fuck yo things again. Because you were more than right and she knew it.

“I guess we’ve changed, maybe you’re right snd we are just not meant to be anymore”

“That’s not what I meant! my mom she- they don’t want me to be with you, I’m sorry I’ve been feeling like shit today, please let’s talk Mhm?”

Her hands were on your face, cleaning every tear that ran along your pretty eyes and your pretty nose, along your shaky lips and all the way to your jawline.

But you stopped her, because you didn’t care about any explanation she had now. It was fucking stupid from her to act the way she did and maybe she was right, maybe you two weren’t meant to be.

Maybe it was all an illusion.

“I’m mad at them and you’re right, I let the anger blind me but I’ll promise I’ll control it. Just let’s talk, please” you wouldn’t reply, not verbally or physically and it made her feel so horrible to see you like this.

“She wants me to stay away from you, but I chose you over them. I love you, I really do-“

“I’ll make her a favor then”

Hopefully it was an illusion.

#ellie tlou #don’t delete the kisses ִ ۫ ּ 💭 ֙⋆ • #ellie williams #ellie williams x reader #ellie angst #ellie wiliams #ellie williams tlou #ellie x reader #ellie x fem reader #ellie x you #ellie x y/n #ellie williams x y/n #ellie williams angst #ellie williams x female reader #ellie williams x you #ellie the last of us #ren masterlist ᵎᵎ ִ ۫ ּ ⊹ #ren needs help 𓄹𓈒 ֙⋆˖ #ellie williams smut #ellie smut

[the-himawari]

A3! Tsukioka Tsumugi - Translation [SSR] MANKAI Feature (1/3)

*Please read disclaimer on blog; default name set as Izumi

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Tsumugi: And that goes there… Now that this spot’s tidied up, I guess I’ll clean out my closet next. There quite a bit of stuff in here. Let me see… !?

*something falls*

Tsumugi: Ow… That surprised me… something suddenly took a tumble on my head. I wonder what fell? A hardcover book… oh, this is the bible I used as reference when I played Izumi in “Nocturnality”. That sure brings back memories. I did all sorts of different things with everyone to prepare for my role. Hm? There’s something between the pages… what is this? A note? It’s my handwriting. “The devil is a liar”… This is—. …Oh, it’s this late already? A lot of time passed as I was absorbed in cleaning. (I have to tend to the flowers in the courtyard soon. Let’s take a break from tidying my room.)

-pause-

Tsumugi: …

Izumi: Ah, Tsumugi-san. Are you taking care of the flowers?

Tsumugi: Yes. I was just watering them.

Izumi: Thanks to your thorough care, the courtyard is always filled with so many flowers. It’s really soothing.

Tsumugi: I’m glad if you say so. I also feel relaxed when I’m surrounded by plants.

Izumi: Ah, by the way! I just got the results for your side character survey.

Tsumugi: Oh, really? The project where we’re going to stream short spin-off stories of one of our side characters… I was also looking forward to which role of mine was going to be chosen.

Izumi: The one that was chosen… is Izumi Ryohei from “Nocturnality”!

Tsumugi: Eh—.

Izumi: What’s the matter?

Tsumugi: Oh, nothing… I was just feeling nostalgic over the play since I happened to find the book I was reading to prepare for my role back then. I was a bit surprised by the good timing.

Izumi: By the way, the side character from Hisoka-san’s survey was also Franz from “Nocturnality”.

Tsumugi: I see. So they were chosen from the same play.

Izumi: Izumi’s on the enemy’s side in that play, and it’s a role that has a different vibe from the usual Tsumugi-san. It’s no wonder he’s so popular.

Tsumugi: Ahaha… so that’s how everyone thinks? It’s a little embarrassing. But I’m looking forward to being able to play Izumi again.

Izumi: I can’t wait to watch too!

-pause-

Tsumugi: *Yawn*…

Tsuzuru: Tsukioka-san, good moring.

Tsumugi: Ah, Tsuzuru-kun… good morning.

Tsuzuru: Ahaha. It looks like someone’s still half asleep. Not a morning person as usual, huh?

Tsumugi: Well, I’ve always been like this. Are you off from school today?

Tsuzuru: Yep. I don’t have any lectures today. Are you off too?

Tsumugi: Yes. I don’t have work today.

Tsuzuru: Great, perfect timing. I’ve been wanting to ask you about the script for your side character spin-off story. I got a lot of requests from the others, so I was wondering if you had any for me as well.

Tsumugi: A request… hmm. …Ah, I got it.

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#a3! #a3! translation #tsukioka tsumugi #act! addict! actors! #NOCTURNALITY SUPREMACYYYYYY

[hyperfixated-fan]

Here is some of those wonderfully nostalgic girly-girl shows in vague order in which I watched/discovered them that no one asked for but I’m giving to you anyways.

1. First up, we’ve got the Horseland

Back in the day, I was a major horse girl (a part of me still is), but this show was so awesome and adorable. It’s just a bunch of gals riding their horses and hanging out at the barn. And their horses and other animals talk amongst themselves. It is all an animal lover like me could want. It’s just so cute and gives sweet life lessons. And occasionally, I found it interesting that they do touch upon some serious topics such as eating disorders and loss. The episode “Mosey” always makes me cry. All the episodes are on YouTube.

Overall, I have to say my favorite character is Alma Rodriguez.

2. LEGO Friends

The first generation of LEGO Friends is nostalgic, but I also seriously love the LEGO Friends: Girls on a Mission. It’s just a bunch of teenage girls getting up to shenanigans and being besties (Oddly, though they are high school age, we barely see them in school XD). I particularly enjoy Girls on a Mission (the episodes are on YouTube) because the episodes were so well put together and it fleshes out each girl a bit more uniquely. It’s a genuinely fun show though I generally am partial to LEGO shows. I am personally not a fan of latest generation of LEGO Friends. I’ve watched a few episodes and it’s just blegh. It might be the nostalgia talking but I just can’t get into it.

My fave character has always been Emma (she’s so adorable) and my fave ship is Emma x Ethan in the Girls on a Mission iteration.

3. Barbie Movies

Not sure if all the movies are pictured above, but there’s a good portion of them. I admit, I haven’t seen all of the Barbie movies (especially the good old classics mainly due to animation that did not age well so sorry) and did not really become a fan until later than most little girls. However, I still find the movies to be very enjoyable and cute. I think a lot of my affinity comes from many familiar Canadian voice actors being in most of the movies and I find it fun trying to pick out familiar voices.

A few of my personal favorite movies are “Princess Charm School” (it’s the first Barbie movie I ever watched with one of my best friends), “The Twelve Dancing Princesses” (so many voices and characters to listen to and try and remember), and “Mariposa” (I am rather partial to the voice of Chiara Zanni and loved her playing Barbie).

4. Ever After High

It is so sad that Ever After High ended after Epic Winter. I really wish we got to see more. I loved the imaginative twist on fairytale characters and the whole “facing your destiny” storyline. The princesses, knights, dragons, and wonderland were all great components as a lover of fantasy. Disney Descendants ain’t got nothing on Ever After. It was a very creative show and it was interesting to see all the characters that would pop up.

A few of my favorite characters are Rosabella Beauty, Ginger Breadhouse, and Lizzie Hearts. Call me basic but I really do like the ship Darabella (obviously the execution of it could’ve been better but I still like it.)

5. Miraculous Ladybug

Simply put, this show is a mess. Miraculous Ladybug barely made the list only because I have fond memories of it. I’m not caught up on any recent events and admittedly quit watching it after season 3 or 4 (I don’t exactly remember). The show had potential and many amazing fanworks, but after a while, the episodes just get repetitive. I still like the earlier seasons before things got too messy. As a lover of side characters, I also wish they fleshed out the side characters a bit more instead of keeping on creating more and more side characters. I still occasionally pop in to see what is going on and apparently Nathalie is dead?! Idk what’s going on and I love looking at spoilers with no context because it makes the show all the more funny.

My fave character list includes Alya Césaire, Nathalie Sancoeur, and Juleka Couffaine and I’m partial to the ship DJWifi.

6. Monster High

Since I was a fan of Ever After High, it was only inevitable that I would eventually become a fan of Monster High. It took a while but I eventually did fall in love with the show. And I fell hard. All the characters are so unique and while I absolutely love all the generation 1 content, I do not completely hate the g3 series. I loved the message of standing out yet belonging at Monster High, freaky flaws and all. The animation is very dated yet endearingly nostalgic at the same time. I love all the different twists on various monster creatures.

My favorite characters list gets pretty extensive, as I love g1 and g3 Abbey Bominable (I always love an ice queen), along with g1/g3 Cleo De Nile (bc she’s your typical mean girl/diva but truly cares for her friends), Robecca Steam (her steampunk aesthetic and little accent are adorable), Deuce Gorgon (a kind yet popular jockish character is rare), Jinafire Long (Chinese dragon is always a win), and Rochelle Goyle (she’s just neat).

Fave ships = Cleuce (CleoxDeuce) and AbbeyxHeath. I just love them okay!

7. Lolirock

I believe I discovered this show coming off of Storm Hawks and Steven Universe so the crystal motif and everything was already an intriguing concept for me (plus familiar Canadian voice actors drew me in). I just love the trio of girls trying to “secretly” protect earth with sparkles and spells while putting up the front of being a girl band (the songs are very catchy by the way if you can get past an ungodly amount of auto tune). The episodes gave me vibes similar to Miraculous Ladybug but somewhat better with less convoluted characters. Overall, it’s a very bright energetic show and I wish they would’ve delved into the backstories of the other princesses a bit more instead of focusing on Iris all the time. Here’s to hoping they eventually do come out with season 3. All the current episodes are on YouTube.

My favorite characters are the sisters Izira and Talia. They have so much power and the show needs to actually do them justice.

8. Mysticons

This one is definitely lesser known than most on this list. I found it shortly after LoliRock since it has similar features and characters. It’s a very simple show with simple characters but I am fond of it still (and I’m pretty sure it made me cry at one point. I don’t remember when but I remember something about it made me emotional). The fantasy magic of the world was definitely a big win for me. I think the creators did a decent job at world building. It’s your typical prophesied heroes must save the world from certain destruction but I found the show overall enjoyable and cute with a nice dose of found family thrown in.

My top favorite characters are Zarya Moonwolf and Emerald Goldenbraid.

9. DC Super Hero Girls

I started out as a G1 fan when it was still coming out and became a fan of the reboot as well. It was interesting to all these wonderful kickbutt superheroes placed in a high school -esque setting. The original series was very average with their shorts but it was such fun to see what characters would pop up to help (I even will tolerate and enjoy the LEGO specials). The reboot had better design and animation. I am sad it didn’t get a chance to run longer. My only qualm was that some characters had such a drastic change from their backstory and original character development that it moved from being whimsical and imaginative to simply keeping the name and having an entirely different character. *cough* Jessica *cough* They don’t get that she was such a powerful Green Lantern because she was bold but because most of the time she was scared out of mind due to her past trauma but still acted and pushed through the fear to save people.

Rant aside, my fave character is Jessica Cruz despite the reboot overhauling her character and erasing her backstory.

10. She-Ra and the Princesses of Power

Not necessarily my favorite glittery girly series I’ve watched but definitely an enjoyable series. True to my usual form, I unfortunately did not end up caring for most of the main plot and characters. However, the idea of this show was fun nonetheless and it had its nice moments, so I’m glad it got a decent number of seasons. The magic, weaponry, and elemental powers drew me to this show. I wish they delved a bit deeper into the true effects and trauma that fighting a war would have on all of the characters as they are leaders of their respective kingdoms.

My favorite characters include Entrapta (little nerdy characters are almost always a win for me), Mermista (Vella Lovell was perfect for voicing her and her character design is nice), Netossa (another awesome blue character; if anyone’s seen Six: The Musical, does she vaguely remind you of Catherine Parr?)

Bonus: Rainbow High

An interesting premise though it ultimately falls flat for me because I am not a fashion-oriented person in the slightest. However, I still like the show and all the drama that comes with it. I just overall find it hilarious to watch the squabbles that happen because everyone is just so high strung. (Why do all the guy characters literally look the exact same with that same stupid little hairstyle?) XD

Fave characters are Ainsley Slater and Jade Hunter.

Bonus: God’s School

Greek mythology! Need I say more? This is such an imaginative show. It is even more amazing considering one guy does all the animation. The webisodes that are out are great and I definitely recommend watching them on YouTube. Zeus looks like Disney Hercules and I find that hilarious. All the character designs for the gods are so awesome and I love the details that help indicate who they are. Ignore the fact that over half of them are related in some form or another and everything is fine.

Fave definitely has to be Athena! (…bad*** in the arena. Unmatched witty and queen of the best strategies we’ve seen.)

Bonus: Tinkerbell

These are just cute adventures. I wish the series could’ve continued so we could’ve gotten movies highlighting each of the fairies.

My fave is Silvermist.

Bonus: Steven Universe

I personally enjoyed this show and know it had a large fan base so I don’t get why so many people are going back and hating on it so fervently. It’s a flawed show like any but it still has it fine points and I have a soft spot for it. I heavily debated on whether this qualified for a magical girl show but I think it does. It’s nice seeing Steven grow alongside the gems and it’s a good show to put on in the background.

My favorites have to be Garnet and Sapphire.

Honorable mentions that I never fully watched but seem nice:

My Little Pony - I’m disappointed in myself for never getting into this show because it has all the right points for me to like it, including great Canadian voice actors and magic and ponies. I have watched some episodes and enjoyed them but I don’t think I’ll ever be able to sit through and binge the entire show.

LEGO Elves - watched some but I never got truly immersed.

Totally Spies! - never really gave it a go but it seems okay.

Winx Club - I tried to like it but the characters just didn’t hit for me.

W.I.T.C.H. - watched the first few episodes but nothing made me want to continue.

#ever after high #monster high #rainbow high #lolirock #lego friends #miraculous ladybug #mlb #eah #mh #horseland #mysticons #she ra 2018 #she ra #she ra spop #dc super hero girls #dcshg19 #barbie #lego friends girls on a mission #god’s school #tinkerbell #steven universe

[jujumin-translates]

Tsuzuru Minagi | [SSR] Dazzling Memory | A Flower Crown for You - Part 3

*Flashback*

Tsuzuru: …Done!

Mizuno: A dandelion flower crown…?

Mizuno: Is it another present for your brother?

Tsuzuru: No. It’s for you, Mizuno. …Here.

Mizuno: Wah… F-For me…!?

Tsuzuru: It’s a thank you for helping me make dandelion bouquets!

Mizuno: Tsuzuru-kun… Thanks. I’ll cherish it forever and ever.

*Flashback end*

· • —– ٠ ✤ ٠ —– • ·

Tsuzuru: …I remember making flower crowns like that.

Mizuno: I can still remember it so clearly.

Mizuno: I didn’t think it was for me, so I was really happy to get it.

Mizuno: I only regret that I didn’t know how to preserve fresh flower crowns back then.

Tsuzuru: There’s only so much you can preserve, y’know.

Mizuno: That’s not true. I would definitely have made dried flowers if it happened now…

Tsuzuru: You don’t have to do that, I can just make you a flower crown…

Tsuzuru: …Got it. Mizuno, are you free after this?

Mizuno: Yes. I've done what I’ve needed to get done today…

Tsuzuru: …Then do you want to go make one now? A flower crown, that is.

Mizuno: Eh…

Tsuzuru: Well, I guess it’s kinda childish, huh.

Mizuno: No, not at all! I’d love to join you!

· • —– ٠ ✤ ٠ —– • ·

Tsuzuru: This place is the same as it’s always been.

Mizuno: Yeah.

Tsuzuru: Alright, time to get started on this flower crown.

Mizuno: I’ll help pick the dandelions!

Tsuzuru: With this many blooming, we could make as many as we want.

Mizuno: There were dandelions all over the place like this back then too.

Tsuzuru: Yeah. It’s kinda nostalgic.

· • —– ٠ ✤ ٠ —– • ·

Tsuzuru: …Alright, we’ve gathered a decent amount of them. Should be enough to make a flower crown.

Tsuzuru: ‘Kay, time to get started.

Tsuzuru: I think I remember twisting the stems like this… Even though it’s been so long, I still somehow remember.

Mizuno: You used to make them just as skillfully.

Tsuzuru: It’s not that I was skillful, I just made a lot of things for my brothers…

Mizuno: You really are both a good big brother and a good little brother, Tsuzuru-kun.

Tsuzuru: It’s kinda weird when you put it like that…

Tsuzuru: Right. I had everyone in Spring Troupe watch the video you sent the other day. They all said it was really interesting.

Tsuzuru: It was all thanks to you working on the script with me, Mizuno.

Mizuno: That’s… Incredible!

Mizuno: It was really like a dream come true for us to come up with a story together, and I had a lot of fun too.

Tsuzuru: I see, then I’m glad.

Tsuzuru: You know, if you ever need any help again, you can count on me, y’know? …Because we’re friends.

Mizuno: …Ah, …Right.

Tsuzuru: …Here, your flower crown is done.

Mizuno: Thank you so much! It’ll be another heirloom!

Tsuzuru: That’s a bit of an overreaction.

[ ⇠ Previous Part ]

#a3! #a3! translation #tsuzuru minagi #kaya mizuno

[lunargrapejuice]

just thinking about Diluc who when he falls in love, he hums. Maybe even sings a little under his breath while washing glasses or walking through the winery. He has a beautiful voice actually, and people are surprised to hear him doing such a thing.

he must be in love, but with who?

it’s not until someone hears you singing the same song he hums one day as you walk through town that they realize ♥️

GRAY WTF YOU ALWAYS COME WITH THE BEST THINGS 😭💖 bless you, i am sending all the cute anime boys to come give you kisses 💖 this made me so soft. i hope you don’t mind i wrote a little something something with this 🥺

written entirely from kaeyas pov, no prnouns used, flower shop owner reader, unedited

kaeya noticed it for the first time while visiting the winery on official knight business, another update he felt his brother should know involving the gossip of the dark knight hero. it was a spur of the moment decision and the calvary captain saw no point in telling diluc of his plans to come by.

the soft hum sounded… odd in the manor that once was lively with laughter of two brothers and a loving father but now normally only heard the heavy boot steps of its new master who was far less joyful. but as quickly as kaeya had heard it, it stopped and he questioned if it was just his imagination playing a nostalgic memory of another ragnvindr who once filled these walls with joy.

to his surprise though, he heard it again and this time he knew his mind hadn’t conjured it up. oh, no. as he cleaned glasses and placed them on the shelf behind the bar, the normally frowning lips of the ever serious bartender were curled upwards slightly and the deep yet quiet humming was indeed coming from diluc.

it was a fairly busy night at the angels share, most others wouldn’t have heard or paid any mind but kaeyas cerulean eye twinkled with mischief and he wore a sparkling devious smile to match. not many secrets were kept from kaeyas insufferable need to know things and this wouldn’t get past him either, no matter how hard it might be to crack his brother for the truth. he would get down to the bottom of this enigmatic behavior.

“say master diluc,” kaeya says as he leans against the bar, twirling his empty glass on the counter separating them. “what’s got you in such a good mood, hm?”

“what are you talking about?” diluc asks, the smile he wore moments ago gone without a trace of ever being there in the first place. 

“oh, you see i just couldn’t help but overhear you humming to yourself a bit ago. it was quite the lovely tune.” he pauses as if to give diluc a chance to reply but he doesn’t and kaeya happily continues on. “i dare say it had the melody of a love song.” kaeya winks, clear as day even though he only has one eyes on display. “why would you be humming such a thing, hm?”

diluc stares at him impassively with his arms folded. 

“i’m waiting on pins and needles diluc,” kaeya flashes a smile and to his delight, diluc snears in return. this secret had to be good and his first thought was something along the lines of love. could someone have truly captured and even warmed the cold broody heart of his brother?

“i’m cutting you off.”

“but i��ve hardly had anything to drink!”

kaeya didn’t catch diluc singing to himself again but that didn’t stop him from doing some investigating. it was pointless speaking to the staff of the winery, they’d keep dilucs secret for as long as he asked them too but kaeya kept his ear to the ground and soon enough he discovered he wasn’t the only one who noticed the odd behavior of the young master. the elderly who had adored, and still do adore, the ragnvindr boys were happy to spill what they saw and heard of the now almost bashful diluc and what was causing him to be so unlike his normal stoic self. 

only one conclusion solidified in kaeyas mind, diluc was indeed in love.

all the elderly who had shared kaeyas same opinion were dying to know who the lucky person was, making kaeya promise he’d come back to tell them the good news once he found out but finding out the whole truth was not as easy as he hoped it would be. diluc give no leads or hints to the identity of this mystery person. he wouldn’t even admit to kaeya he was in love when he called him out on it but the tips of dilucs burning ears did not blend into his hair as well as he’d hoped. it only made kaeya more determined in his quest of being too damn nosey. 

after days of searching, and on the verge of what he would call stalking, he still had found no leads and his last hope was you. maybe he should have started with asking you but he liked the chase for clues. out of everyone in mond you were rather close to diluc, someone that both of the brothers trusted and oh man was it so easy to fluster you. kaeya was certain he could get you to spill the beans if for nothing more than to just make him leave you alone and get him to stop his teasing.

he had no idea just how much you would spill about this secret without him even saying a word to you. 

his quiet footsteps stopped the second he opened the door that led into your flower shop. it was late in the night so there wasn’t anyone inside other than yourself and it made it that much easier to hear the lovely melody you sang quietly to yourself as you worked. there was no mistaking it, there was no question in his mind that it was the same exact song he had heard diluc humming in the manor and in the bar nights ago.

i should have seen this coming, he thinks to himself as he shuts the door quietly and smiles in triumph. of course it was you. it could have only ever been you. putting his hands in his pockets he walks away from the shop, only making it a few steps before diluc and him are standing face to face only a few feet from the front door of your shop.

“what are you doing here?” diluc asks, a sliver of his normally unseen emotions clinging to the words like a thin spider web. 

“oh nothing,” kaeya coos and continues on his way, only speaking again once their backs are to each other. “have a nice evening with y/n,” he calls out, waving a hand goodbye and feeling the air behind him grow unnaturally warm but not looking back.

genshin impact masterlist | main masterlist

#genshim impact #lovely moots <3 #diluc ragnvindr #diluc ragnvindr fluff #diluc #genshin impact fluff #diluc ragnvindr x reader

[hunieday]

Momo Sugao Rabbit Chat - Part 4 : Student days

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - Part 5

Please note that I am not a professional translator and I'm only doing this to share the side materials to those who cannot access it, if you notice any mistakes please let me know nicely. Enjoy!

Takanashi Tsumugi: Thank you very much for your help, Momo-san!

And thank you for inviting Tamaki-san to lunch the other day!

Everyone told me that they had a lot of fun.

Momo: I’ve had a lot of fun as well ~! ☆彡

Momo: I saw Tamaki and Haruka playing games together after work, they were so cute that I had to invite them to lunch (*´▽｀*)♪

Takanashi Tsumugi: They’re in the same class together with Iori-san, so it seems like they’ve become good friends!

Takanashi Tsumugi: The other day, the three of them were working on a group assignment together.

Momo: Group assignments, that’s nostalgic!

Momo: I’m so envious of their youthfulness, the three of them going out for crepes after school~ ☆★

Momo: Just listening to their story makes me feel young again +.(≧∀≦)°+.°

CHOICE 

1- What kind of student were you, Momo-san?

I was the type of student who got really enthusiastic about events, like the athletic festivals and cultural festivals!

Of course, I also studied hard so as to not fail.(｡+･`ω･´)

2-Did you go anywhere after school?

Momo: On days when I didn’t have club activities, I was a regular customer at a nearby coffee shop.( ・`ω・´)

I used to get along well with the owner, and she often served me!

3- Do you have any noteworthy memories from your school days?

Momo: There are many, but I think it was when my class won a prize at the school festival!

We set up a haunted house, we worked so hard to prepare for it that I recall hugging and sharing that joy when the results were announced (*´σω・､)

I’m impressed that those kids are able to balance work with their studies.

When I was a student, I never really thought about work!

Even though they’re still in high school, it’s admirable that they’re working so professionally, it really touches my heart!

Momo: Momo-chan is learning a lot from his juniors (*- -)(*_ _) lowers head*

Takanashi Tsumugi: Not in the slightest…! It’s because of Re:vale-san’s existence that everyone is able to work with peace of mind.

Takanashi Tsumugi: I mention it a lot, but I want to be a senior who can be a backbone to their juniors the same way you are.

Momo: I’m really not that big of a deal, but I’m glad you think so.

Momo: Momo-chan will continue to work hard so that I could show you how cool I am (｀・ω・´)b

Takanashi Tsumugi: It’s my pleasure, I look forward to working with you in the future! 

#i7 #idolish7 #idolish7 translation #momo #momose sunohara #sunohara momose #re:vale #momo re:vale #ainana #id7

[a-shakespearean-in-paris]

To 10 Games

Thanks so much for the tag @thevikingwoman! In no particular order and no particular criteria. Just games that have meant a lot to me for one reason or the other over the years.

tagging @wintersongstress @muses-circle @elveny @alyssalenko and anyone else. I have no clue who is here anymore, lol.

1. Resident Evil 4

Though I love the remake and plan on replaying it soon, the original has to be on this list for not only being nostalgic, but just for being a big staple of my time in high school. I played this game way after it released, but it was such a fun escape when I needed it. Ada and Leon were the first couple I really shipped and their dynamics still appear in my writing today, even subtly. honestly I think it's also fair to say Ada also taught me how to flirt. lol.

2. Kingdom Hearts.

This was the first game I played where the story impacted me enough for me to cry at the end. Yes it’s not exactly great and it’s very cheesy and weird, but I feel the need to include it because this was the game that made me realize how impactful the medium of games could be in terms of storytelling.

3. Dragon Age

I’m sure you knew this would be on here! I’ve spoken so much about it, but let it suffice to say it got me back into writing and now I’m a much better writer because of the things I’ve learned and developed along the way! Will give the edge to Inquisition over Origins on this one, but I feel like a lot of people don't know how much I replayed origins, and in fact played it all the way back when it first came out.

4. Tomb Raider Anniversary

Been thinking about these games a lot recently. I do love the remakes but I have to say I’m partial to this Lara, of Legend and Anniversary variety. She likes adventures and history and she explores and goes to cool locations, and at a time in my life where I was just starting to realize how much travel means to me, I got to vicariously travel. I also think these games are a good blend of puzzle, exploration, and action.

5. Red Dead Redemption 2

This was the game that solidified my feelings that story telling in games not only rivals that of other mediums, but sometimes can even overtake it. Playing RDR2 feels like reading a long epic novel where the characters become your best friends by the end.

6. Last of Us

It would feel weird not to have this game on here because I truly think it is one of the best games that has ever been made. I just like to pretend the sequel doesn’t exist. Cough.

7. Assassins Creed 2

I love so many of these games—odyssey is definitely up there as well but I have to give this one to 2. I played it when I was 16 after coming home from Europe for the first time and enjoyed the hell out of running around Florence after I had been there. I did also have fun playing odyssey again after being in Greece. Couldn’t find the place I jumped from in Paros I was so sad.

8. Okami

This game is very much pure nostalgia. beautiful cell shaded animation and compelling use of Japanese mythology.

9. Mass Effect 2

I don't quite love ME as much as Dragon age due to my own preference for fantasy/medieval, but I love 2 for where it took the story/characters. Overall, ME is one of the few, if only, pieces of SciFi media I like.

10. Witcher 3

If you put a gun to my head and told me to name what I thought the best video game ever released was, I'd say Witcher 3. I have fond memories of playing this game while eating pizza in college. I also just love the animations for this game. In a time of "realism is the way" in video games, to me it's the more animated style that is much more timeless. (this is another reason I like Baldur's Gate right now)

#games #tagged

[deadcactuswalking]

My top 10 favourite Pokémon

It’s really easy to get attached to something you have nostalgia for. You’ll get to lush and reminiscence about things you hold dear, memories you’ve made, people you connected with. It’s also really easy to detach from those things, and that’s why my favourite Pokémon is Garbodor. This is not a pop music review, this is my side gig. I’m cactus and today I’m explaining my 10 favourite Pokémon.

My top 10 favourite Pokémon of all time

Now I want to bring something up that relates to that introduction: a lot of my favourite Pokémon are ones I’ve never used in a playthrough. There’s a lot more to the Pokémon experience - the anime, the card game, the manga, but also just the culture, especially online, surrounding it. These Pokémon are on this list for many reasons, from aesthetic to nostalgic, and I’ve wanted to make this list for a long time so things have changed since, sometimes based on playthroughs, sometimes not. Also some disclaimers: this is not the most solid list of all time, in that my top seven is set in stone but the rest could change wildly and the order is not very rigid. Additionally, the positions I’m using cover whoever I want it to: sometimes it’ll be one Pokémon, an entire evolutionary line, only certain members of a line, or in some cases, pretty much a specific version of that Pokémon I played through a game with. It’s also not a balanced or sensible list, based largely on instinct, and because of that, I do feel like I need to list some honourable mentions.

Honourable Mentions

I don’t need to explain or analyse any of my picks outside of my top 10… though you know I would. Therefore, this is just going to be a simple list of Pokémon that just barely missed the cut - try and see if you can see any trends? I really don’t know if you could, I don’t make much sense. Anyway, narrowly missing out in no particular order are Shuckle, Haunter, Marill, Relicanth, Swalot, Wailord, Magcargo, Cubchoo and Beartic, Litwick and Chandelure, Sableye, Feraligatr, Genesect, Spiritomb, Squirtle, Carnivine, Palossand, Cofagrigus, Rayquaza, Cryogonal, Arbok, Snorlax, Tyranitar, Venusaur, Pelipper, Rowlet and Decidueye, Alolan Exeggutor, Tropius, Darkrai, Wobbuffett, Shedinja, Phantump, Gliscor, Victreebel, Drifloon and Drifblim, Turtwig and Torterra, Ferrothorn, Obstagoon, Ludicolo, Carracosta, Tsaraeena (would), Mismagius, Alolan Vulpix and Ninetales, Guzzlord but basically all those ugly Ultra Beasts, Staraptor, Slowking, Zygarde, Scizor, Magneton, Octillery, Greninja (yes, because of Smash), Gardevoir and Gallade, Oshawott, Snover and Abomasnow, Probopass - I’m not joking, and finally, in terms of the Pokémon who were literally in my top 10 but got kicked out as I was writing this: Bronzong, Sandile and Rotom, who got the boot mostly because I was unsure if it counted as a Legendary and I didn’t want any Legendaries on the list. My deepest, sincerest apologies to those three species, they could be in this list proper on another day. Also, assume that all members of an evolutionary line I discuss from #10 to #1 are also honourable mentions if not basically on the list.

Now I don’t think I’ll be able to write as much about these Pokémon as I write about songs: I’m a music reviewer, not a video game reviewer and I simply don’t know enough about the game lore or art and design rules to evaluate these guys beyond vibes and my personal experience. This is a dumb, out-of-specialty list, just bear with me on these. In addition, I’ll attach my favourite Pokédex entry and TCG art piece with each entry in the list just to spice it up a little, and I also have visual accompaniment from my good friend Yvonne @sheenzys for a few of the top entries - thank you very much indeed to her for agreeing to lend their talents to this little side project. Additional special thanks to the fantastic archives and databases of Serebii and Bulbapedia for helping with all this, and of course the programmers, designers, artists and writers at Game Freak, Nintendo and the Pokémon Company for making the games and designing these characters I love.

#10 - CLODSIRE

“It lives at the bottom of ponds and swamps. It will carry Wooper on its back and ferry them across water from one shore to the other.”

Clodsire is a Poison/Ground-type Pokémon from Paldea and yes, this list is affected ever so slightly by recency bias because I just started playing through Scarlet and this guy is already my absolute favourite on my team. It’s an adorable, unbothered little fish that just lies flat on the ground and takes up a tad too much space but you don’t mind because it’s adorable doing it. I always loved Wooper and Quagsire too, specifically their Johto versions, because of how peaceful and empty their minds always appeared to me, they’re just little guys, but they don’t stand out as much when water-blue as when they’re poisonous little desert creatures. I think you’ll find on this list that I tend to like Pokémon that cut a fine line between adorable and just downright ugly, and with Clodsire’s awkward retracting toxic spikes, derpy face and the fact that during the first Team Star raid against the fire-type gang, he just sat there and stalled this woman’s massive car, which I’m told is a Pokémon but to me, that just looked like a fancy car. I don’t know whether in a year Clodsire will be off this list entirely or within the top five but for now, I like him here, and I think he’d be okay with that.

#9 - EMPOLEON

“It avoids unnecessary disputes, but it will decimate anything that threatens its pride.”

Empoleon is a Water/Steel-type Pokémon from Sinnoh - that’s a unique typing too - and the final evolution to Piplup and Prinplup. This is mostly a nostalgia pick: Sinnoh’s my favourite region, and Piplup was my starter when I first played Pearl. That cute little penguin who couldn’t hurt a fly (canonically it can, does and will hurt flies - sorry, Ninjask) eventually turns into this noble knight of esteem and order, and listen, I’m not particularly masculine of a person but I still want to be him. My Empoleon was over-levelled to shit the entire game but I loved him all the same because I rarely ever needed a second member of my party to step up to the plate, and even outside of just looking cool, many formative Pokémemories were made with this line and they’ve stuck with me since. Also, come on, just look at him. Dawn’s Piplup in the anime is adorable too. Next up, we have another uniquely-typed early-game Water-type Pokémon from Sinnoh…

#8 - BIBAREL

“A river dammed by Bibarel will never overflow its banks, which is appreciated by people nearby.”

Bibarel is a Normal/Water-type Pokémon from Sinnoh and come on, just look at this dumbass beaver. I had a Bibarel, I used it for HMs like any good Gen IV player should… but it’s on this list purely because look at this dumbass beaver. It’s got the buck-tooth, it never looks quite right in any pose it takes, but it’s loving life and it’ll learn all these HMs and do whatever you want it to do. It’s a loyal dumbass beaver, a loveable companion there primarily for comic relief but I mean, you love it just the same. I know people parade around Bidoof as a meme God like Omastar but its evolution is my favourite in the line. He’s silly, he’s goofy, but he’s got a kind heart and I feel like he’s a family man. He works a blue-collar job building dams but he provides for his family and he loves his wife dearly. Also his wife is a Roselia, normalise inter-species breeding… in video games, not anywhere else (they cannot breed, they do not share an egg group). The little goof even got an ability banned in competitive play for a while due to people abusing his unpredictable hidden ability, and then people ended up using Bidoof instead using the same methods. Keep it stupid, Bibarel. We love you for it.

#7 - DITTO

“Ditto rearranges its cell structure to transform itself into other shapes. However, if it tries to transform itself into something by relying on its memory, this Pokémon manages to get details wrong.”

I mean…Ditto is a Normal-type Pokémon from Kanto but really, it’s anything. It can be anything but it doesn’t retain its HP or level, and in the anime, everything Ditto copies has that dumb little head-empty smirk on its face. There’s something resonant to me that this Pokémon can replicate everything, down to less surface-level occasions like stat boosts and EV yields but it can never fully be a perfect replica due to Ditto’s own “shortcomings”, not that those shortcomings matter when you can be absolutely anything you want. I don’t know, I know they often play the angle that this was a failed science experiment, and the lore with Mew can be compelling, but I think it just speaks to humans and how it’s in our nature to implement parts of other people into ourselves but we can’t escape from our real identity that is much deeper than just appearance, type and even stat modifiers. Yes, that’s right, I like this stupid pink blob for philosophical reasons. Zoroark sucks, by the way.

#6 - SYLVEON

“Its ribbonlike feelers give off an aura that weakens hostility in its prey, causing them to let down their guard. Then it attacks.”

Sylveon is a Fairy-type Pokémon from Kalos and you just know an Eeveelution had to be on here. Now like most Pokémon fans, I love all forms of Eevee but if I had to rank them… Sylveon’s on top, then it’s Leafeon, Vaporeon, Glaceon, Espeon, Umbreon, Jolteon and Flareon. This is the objectively correct best-to-worst ranking of the ‘lutions and I will hear nothing to the contrary. So why’s Sylveon making the list? Well, Glaceon was close, but ultimately, Sylveon is just a girly fashionista with way too many ribbons and tassels and that’s why I love her. She’s a hyper-feminine dragon-slayer coated in pastel colours that dazzles and sparkles but still packs a decent punch against some of the strongest Pokémon in the game. This is basically just me putting “women” at #6 instead of Sylveon, but I did use Sylveon in Ultra Moon and it was the Pokémon I attached closest to. Why? I don’t know, it’s girly, sometimes I want to be a teenage girl with Backstreet Boys posters on my wall and the pink “Ulterior Motives” boombox. Is that too much to ask?

#5 - CYNDAQUIL AND TYPHLOSION

“When heat from its body causes the air around it to shimmer, this is a sign that it is ready to battle.” (Typhlosion)

Alright, so here’s where it gets a bit confusing: I couldn’t pick between the Fire-type starter of Johto and its final evolution so both are here. I prefer Cyndaquil a tiny bit but mostly because I have had a plush of Cyndaquil since I was a child that’s not really the same material as other plushes, it feels a bit firmer and more special in that regard. This is also a very personal one - whilst I personally picked Totodile in SoulSilver, my sister, who I often bonded with over Pokémon, has always been a big fan of Typhlosion and I remember battling and trading over that Pokémon God knows how many times, it might still be in my box in Pearl. Johto has some of the most consistently fun designs to me - I love Cyndaquil’s perpetually closed eyes and little anteater snout, and Typhlosion’s mane of fire running down its back when it’s fighting is just badass, especially in the sprite era, which by the way, has an aura that can never be replicated with 3D models and hurts the games tremendously. This hit Typhlosion pretty hard as he now looks kind of inert in resting form, but it’s not like you can’t go back to those old games and see him in his pixellated glory. I really don’t care for its Hisuian form though, probably knocks it down a couple points to be honest.

#4 - GOODRA

“Sometimes it misunderstands instructions and appears dazed or bewildered. Many Trainers don't mind, finding this behaviour to be adorable.”

Okay, so… I like slimy Pokémon. If there’s any coherent theme other than ignoring Galar entirely, it’s that I like blobs and goops. Goomy is the cutest slime in the game, and I love its grey cheeks, the lavender colour scheme and seeing it open its little mouth. Sliggoo is fine, it’s still cute but Goodra… I just want to hug it so badly. I never used a Goodra ever, but this Dragon-type Pokémon from Kalos won my heart anyway through its bubbly design, chubby belly and just generally peaceful vibe, one curated out of formless goo into a beautiful little psuedo-legendary dragon. I like how it’s pure Dragon type despite it just being goop, I like how its Hisuian form looks like it’s carrying something slightly too heavy for it to handle in its tail and whilst I was too old to be watching the anime religiously, whenever I saw clips of Ash’s Goodra I grew fond of that too, especially the honestly kind of touching arc of him having to release it. The anime does very few things all that well and that was one of them, at least to me, so, yeah, Goodra makes the list. Goomy in spirit also.

#3 - GRIMER AND MUK

“Muk's colouration becomes increasingly vivid the more it feasts on its favourite dish - trash.” (Alolan Muk)

Yes, all four versions of this line’s species are making the list. Grimer and Muk are Poison-type Pokémon from Kanto with regional counterparts in Alola that gain the Dark-type and again, what did I say about slime? I love how you can find Grimer in the ponds of Celadon City because it’s so polluted and whilst I doubt they’re making a statement with any of this and more just an observation, it’s really interesting to see something so inhuman as a formless blob of slime as a way of representing the very human act and consequence of pollution, and I love how Grimer is just a silly little nuisance but once it evolves, it essentially just gets bigger and meaner instead of any meaningful developments. Muk is a downright villainous blob of slime, and his Alolan form makes him an even more charming antagonist with the genius idea of colouring him like graffiti. It’s almost like a tie-dye blob of toxic goop, I love it. I had a Muk when I played Ultra Moon and even though it was disgusting, rubbing that little vile sludge with my 3DS stylus always felt so satisfying. That… that’s gross, cactus, let’s move onto the next one.

#2 - PORYGON-Z

“Some say an additional program made this Pokémon evolve, but even academics can't agree on whether Porygon-Z is really an evolution.”

This is basically a spot that represents the entire Porygon line but Porygon-Z is ultimately my favourite due to its design. I find it fascinating that this artificial, obscure Pokémon - a Normal-type from Kanto that got evolutions in Johto and Sinnoh - keeps popping up and having upgrades, or malfunctions, but is basically banished in both the regions it appears in, where it is incredibly rare or relegated to trading or… gambling, and real life due to the “Cyber Soldier Porygon” controversy. You have a line that could hypothetically be fully-evolved at level one but it’s also unwise to really call Porygon-Z a final evolution: it’s actually just a broken Porygon2, which in itself is an almost cynical attempt to recreate the blocky cyber duck in a sleeker, Y2K form. It doesn’t know or comprehend love in the same way that damn near every other Pokémon can: it almost feels wrong to have it outside of a PC box. Those making the anime seem to want to avoid it like the plague despite the fact that it was really Pikachu who caused the flashing lights and really, the episode had a positive impact on epileptic seizure prevention in exported anime anyway. By all means, Porygon is a bit of an unsung hero, with the blame deflected onto it because it was a scapegoat, and its “evolutions” are barely different in size or stats, they evolve not through experience but through humans trading it with other humans, to the point where both of its evolutions actually weigh less than the original. It’s fascinating to me that this unnatural and unloved Pokémon seems to carry the same reputation in the real world as it does in the games. Why do I like Porygon-Z the most? Well, it’s from my favourite generation, I had one in Pearl, and it has some of the saddest entries in the entire Pokédex, constantly referring it to it being an unstable, out-casted failure. There are very few Pokémon, if any others, that are created purely to be as charmless as this one. Except maybe…

#1

I never used this Pokémon for more than 10 minutes - I caught one on a whim when playing White, briefly evolved it much later. I don’t own any merchandise about it, I don’t really care for its pre-evolution, I haven’t seen an episode of the anime with it in. So why is it my favourite Pokémon? …I genuinely don’t know.

#1 - GARBODOR

“For a time, their numbers increased explosively in Alola. Since the arrival of Grimer, their population has decreased dramatically.”

When there’s thousands of these little things to choose from, I think my mind immediately wants to go to the obscure, rejected and unloved, but I can’t say that really applies fully to the Unova Poison-type Garbodor. There’s plenty of Trubbish merch I’ve seen around, nearly every Gen V Pokémon got some love at least briefly in the anime, manga and events because of how they basically did a summary execution of everything that wasn’t Unova for a while, and it even got a Gigantamax form in that game no-one likes. For a couple of years now, it’s been my favourite Pokémon, it’s been my profile picture on several websites, it’s what I have identified myself with. It’s not as classic as Grimer and Muk, which it was unfairly and pejoratively compared to back in 2010. It’s not the Pokémon I have the most nostalgia for - that’s probably Cyndaquil or really, Pikachu - it’s not my favourite design, that’s far-and-beyond Porygon-Z. It’s the sworn enemy of my #3 pick according to Alolan Pokédex entries. Sadly, I can’t really put it into words other than… there’s just something about Garbodor. The pink and blue remnants of plastic in its otherwise indistinguishable splodge of brown, the ripped-up bin bag masquerading as a face that makes it look like it wants to be freed from prison, cardboard keeping its arms together, floofs of garbage that acts as impromptu ears, all a product of its surroundings. I guess, at my worst, I feel like Garbodor? I don’t know if I want to treat it that personally. I love the design, Trubbish is cute enough, and I think its entries make it fit well within the lore of its region. It’s deathly, but it doesn’t look like it wants to be. I don’t know, maybe above all, it’s just… consistent? Porygon-Z should probably be here but I’ve drawn too many MS Paint sketches of Garbodor, saved too many anime images of it making a funny face, just thought about it too much, for me not to put Garbodor at #1. The Unova games aren’t even my favourite generation, Poison - despite it appearing thrice on this list - is not my favourite type - thinking about it, I always say it’s Ghost but it’s probably Normal. I just really like this heap of garbage. What can I say?

Well, that was a lot of rambling about video game characters. Thanks to @sheenzys once again for the art and thank you for reading if you got this far! What are your favourite Pokémon? Don’t tell me, I don’t care. This is way too long. I’ll see you next Friday for some actual music reviewing.

#pokemon #favourite pokemon #best pokemon #garbodor #pokemon art #grimer #porygon

[hello-eeveev]

tagged by @quinn-of-aebradore (and I was tagged in a very similar thing by @spottedenchants a bit ago but didn’t get around to it before this, so I hope you don’t mind me combining them!) thank you :D

Last song I listened to: “Sometime We’ll Understand” from the Lamb of God Easter oratorio by Rob Gardner. With the season and driving by a bunch of churches with Easter signs, I got real nostalgic for Easter music because there are so many great pieces. And Lamb of God holds a lot of memories for me because my dad was the lead cellist for the local production for several years, and I even got to take part one year. And it is just soooo musically tasty and I was just filled with energy listening to it yesterday. The CHOIR, the SOLOISTS, the SYMPHONY ORCHESTRA!!! If you remember me expressing my love for French horns a few weeks ago, Lamb of God played no small part in establishing this opinion. If you don’t mind Christian hymns, I highly recommend checking it out, and all of Rob Gardner’s work because he is truly one of the goats.

Last book I read: I’ve kinda started and stopped a few books recently, not for any particular reason just… idk. So instead I’m gonna plug a fic I’ve been keeping up with that published its final chapter last night: Judgement & Justice! It is such a fascinating and engaging work that explores the details of legally condemning Ikithon, the ways that the law can fail anyone, how even doing something you believe is right can be incredibly traumatizing. As one of the tags says, “the mundane horrors of the criminal justice system”. So good. I highly recommend.

Last film I watched: ummmm, yesterday I saw like 30 minutes of Wish after the school field trip bc the teacher was so kind and said, “nope. interpreters are out of commission. we’re watching a movie.” The music didn’t appeal to me too much, which sucks bc I LOVE Ariana DeBose’s voice. But I will say that the special effect art was sick and some of the character designs are cute!

Last TV series: uhhhh idk I watch a lot of YouTube. Drawfee, Zelda randomizers, that kinda stuff. and critrole obv lol :)

Last thing I googled: “peafowl”. I love birds and will infodump about them and I wanted to show my coworker how different peahens are to peacocks, and most people have no idea they’re called anything but peacocks.

Last thing I ate: ritz crackers and nutella. It’s a combination I wouldn’t have put together of my own accord, but in eighth grade, my friend brought some into history class and convinced me to try it and I’ve been sold ever since.

Sweet, savory, or spicy: Yes. However, savory and spicy go well together, but sweet doesn’t go with either. I have a massive sweet tooth and my mom raised me to have high standards for desserts, so when I have sweets, I want them to be to my taste. I like spicy food and I have a decent spice tolerance. It used to be higher but either adulthood or my anxiety meds reduced it rip :’(

Amount of sleep: ummmm about 6 hours? I should probably be getting more, but unfortunately sleep is boring.

Currently reading: The Thief by Megan Whalen Turner. I’m about halfway through, and it’s pretty enjoyable, but I hear it’s got a good twist later on so I’m excited.

currently obsessed with: you know it’s shadowgast lol. but more specifically I’m still in my How to Rest brainrot. I have a break next week, so I want to get the chapter 6 director’s commentary done and start working on the coda fic bc hnnngggghgg soft wizards.

I’m also obsessed with my cat. She’s turning 6 on Sunday and she’s been so snuggly lately! Look at her!!!

I always feel so awkward about tagging bc I never know who’s already been tagged, so if you want to do this, you are fully allowed to say that I tagged you 💕

#eve talks #kiki posting

[sixty-silver-wishes]

tagged by @diagnosed-anxiety-disorder to do the comfort movies reblog game!

(Sorry; I’m not reblogging the entire chain there lol)

1- Finding Nemo. This was my favorite movie as a kid; I was absolutely obsessed with it. I can still quote most of it from memory; I can remember staying home and watching it whenever I got sick, and I probably had, like, most of the merchandise available for it when I was really young. Which was a lot.

2- The Lord of the Rings trilogy. (Yes, I know that’s three movies.) I was really into LotR when I was in high school, and it got me through a lot. I met my best friend through it, and we have a lot of good memories involving Lord of the Rings. I still tear up at the ending of “Return of the King” when Sam and Frodo say goodbye to each other, because it really brings back those times and how much the series meant to my friend and I.

3- Monty Python and the Holy Grail. This one’s just fun. It never gets old despite being pretty much inescapable, and is also very nostalgic for me.

4- The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari. Did you really think I was going to get through this list without it? You can tell how much I love this movie by looking at my blog. Although I’ve seen it about 13 times now, I think speculating on and analyzing this movie is even more interesting than the movie itself. I love coming up with interpretations and theories on everything, and it’s just so fascinating how many ways you can look at it.

5- The Man Who Laughs. Probably tied with “Caligari” for me in terms of classic films. Just a really good watch, and Conrad Veidt and Mary Philbin’s chemistry is always nice to see.

6- The Passing of the Third Floor Back. Yes, another Connie film, but this one screams “comfort movie.” It’s very sweet, has an uplifting message, and is a nice feel-good film without being too preachy or moralistic. Connie as The Stranger is such an enjoyable character to watch, and there’s something incredible about his acting and how he seems to effortlessly tell us that no matter how bad humanity can be, everything will turn out okay, just by the way he delivers his lines. It’s such a wholesome watch, and while it’s not one of his more famous films, I’d definitely recommend it.

7- Encanto. I love this movie for very personal reasons. I first saw it shortly after I got my ADHD diagnosis, and I related very strongly to Mirabel. Growing up in my family, I always felt like while my sisters were always acknowledged for their talents, I didn’t really have anything that made me stand out, and despite my mom always telling me my social skills were a talent, I wanted something I could actually show to the world and express myself with. This movie really made me feel seen, as I felt it put into words everything I had been experiencing growing up undiagnosed- knowing there was something different about me but not what it was- and feeling unexceptional compared to my family. Obviously, Mirabel was written to be a “relatable” protagonist, but I’d never actually related to a character as much before.

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Tagging anyone who wants to participate!

#tag game

[justheretobreakthings]

So a few weeks ago while grocery shopping, I came upon a shelf full of puffcorn. I could not believe my eyes. Puffcorn was my favorite snack as a kid; it has the absolute most satisfying texture in the universe. But I haven’t had puffcorn in well over a decade because the grocery store in my hometown stopped selling them. I never saw them at any other stores either. I assumed they had been discontinued.

Of course I bought a bag, but I left it sitting on my kitchen counter for ages. Because I had been riding high from the moment I saw the puffcorn at the grocery store and was so excited to dig in. But that scared me enough to stop me from actually eating it. I was worried that I had hyped it up too much in my mind, and it wasn’t actually as good as I remembered it being. Or worse, that the recipe had changed in the decade and a half since I last had it and now it was ruined.

Every night for the past few weeks I’ve looked at that puffcorn bag on the counter and been tempted to open it, but I didn’t because I knew how big of a disappointment it could potentially be. And I know, logically, that that’s a pretty absurd fear. Not enjoying puffcorn is an incredibly tiny problem in the grand scheme of things.

But, I dunno. As of late I’ve dealt with so much and so many varied forms of disappointment, lots memories or nostalgic stuff that I’ve held onto for a long time becoming soured or ruined or things being just plain not as fun as they used to be. Maybe I’m just tired of that, and with this unopened bag of puffcorn, I had control over this positive memory, and I could make the choice to just not even give it the chance of letting me down.

Well, with having recently hit an especially low point several days ago, I’m trying to pull myself out of my funk as best I can, and I guess part of that is admitting that I’ve kind of been self-destructive lately in terms of, like, refusing to engage with things out of fear but then not filling that space with anything else so there’s just a whole bunch of holes. So, starting small, I finally addressed the puffcorn bag. Somehow this evening I finally got up the nerve to open it and taste it.

The good news: puffcorn is, in fact, just as good as I remember.

The bad news: I ate the entire bag and threw up.

There is no moral to this story.

#jhtbt makes a post #puffcorn #vomit cw #depression cw #my feelings are mixed and baffling #this post is sponsored by puffcorn i guess

[randomvarious]

Today’s compilation:

Just the Best 4/2000 2000 Pop / Eurodance / House / Europop / Pop-Rap / R&B / Alternative Rock / Downtempo / Hard Rock / Indie Rock / Pop-Punk / Trance / Progressive Trance / Latin / Novelty / UK Garage / Britpop

God, do I really love going through these Now That's What I Call Music-type comps from Europe. Late 90s/early 2000s releases like these always make for such fun, eclectic trips down memory lane, but from the perspective of a different region of the world. Our top 40 charts in America share a lot in common with other places, and that leads to a nice nostalgia rush for everyone involved, but there's also a lot of music we don't share in common at all. So the goal when listening to these ephemeral things is to get some of that good nostalgia, discover a few sweet tracks that you weren’t previously familiar with, and then hopefully find something so patently absurd and terrible that you can't help but smile at how ridiculous it is. And fortunately, I was able to tick all three of those boxes with this 26th dispatch from Germany's Just the Best series, although those latter two categories ended up being fulfilled to a much lesser extent.

So, first, the nostalgia: those Swedish-produced teen pop acts like Britney Spears, Christina Aguilera, and 'N SYNC lead the way. There was a time in my life when I loved those songs, then a time in my life when I hated them, and now I'm back to loving them again, and not even really from a nostalgic standpoint. The production on so many of those tunes is actually genuinely fantastic; just so lush and so intricate. Go back and listen to them if you still need convincing. Max Martin and his Swedish disciples were spinning pop gold back then, and many of us turned up our noses at it, but I've been a total convert for a while now, so join me, won't you?

More nostalgia: America slept super hard on Craig David. "Fill Me In" is his most remembered song, and I don't even think it's really all *that* remembered. And even more forgotten was "7 Days." It was a top-ten hit on Billboard's Hot 100, but I feel like most Americans aren't even aware that it exists. This British dude could've been our R&B king and it's kind of inexplicable to me that he wasn't. Amazing voice and great, unique productions.

Also, did you know that catchy song "Around the World (La La La La La)" by German group ATC is an English-language ripoff cover of a Russian Eurodance song from 1998 called "Pesenka" by Ruki Vverh!? Now you do!

Plus, we've also got "Jumpin', Jumpin'" by Destiny's Child on here, "Porcelain" by Moby—possibly the greatest single off of an amazing album that was chock full of pretty much nothing but great singles—and the post-Britpop bop, "Dancing in the Moonlight" by Toploader, a song with a very early 2010s kind of vibe that actually came out in '99.

Now for the sweet tunes I'd never heard before as well as the so-bad-it's-good stuff. First is this song that kind of sits between both categories: an irresistible cotton candy fluff of Euro-cheer from Austria's Marque called "Electronic Lady" that blends 80s new wave/synthpop and Euro-disco vibes and kind of sounds like if Robbie Williams was channeling some kind of ABBA phase, but with an extra coating of sugar (🎶Just press "Yes" and I'll be on your screeeeeeeeen!🎶). And then there's this piece of Eurodance trash by this German guy called Kosmonova, who lays these big indigenous flute melodies over a pumping Euro-backbeat. A solid dose of purely bad and silly fun with that one.

Always an enjoyable ride with these compilations. Was hoping for a little bit more of that mindless Eurotrash absurdity, but there's still a good nostalgia rush to be had here anyway. Plus that Marque song is a total fucking pop music bop!

Highlights:

CD1:

Britney Spears - "Lucky" ATC - "Around the World (La La La La La)" Craig David - "7 Days" Christina Aguilera - "Come on Over Baby (All I Want Is You)" Marque - "Electronic Lady" 'N SYNC - "It's Gonna Be Me" Moby - "Porcelain" Toploader - "Dancing in the Moonlight"

CD2:

Kosmonova - "Discover the World" DJ Ötzi - "Hey Baby" Destiny's Child - "Jumpin', Jumpin'"

#pop #eurodance #euro dance #house #house music #europop #euro pop #pop rap #hip hop #rap #r&b #alternative rock #alternative #alternative music #alt rock #alt #alt music #downtempo #hard rock #rock #indie rock #indie #indie music #pop punk #punk #punk rock #trance #progressive trance #latin #latin music

[busterheadspace]

Nostalgia Gone Wrong

Hah. Here’s another whump fic. This is really Angsty so be warned. Okay.  Send a prompt if you. Just click on my profile to find it

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“Brett, I know why you’re doing this!”

The voice could barely be heard as Brett lifted a can of Nostalgia Max. He laughed knowing that his best friend would soon join in this happy dream. They would stay together like a family! Watch all the silly tv shows and play around in this town! Forget about everything in the present! Happy! Happy!

“All this junk was important to you because you were using a fake family to make up for your crappy one!” Reagan pulled the VHS tape that was his favorite TV show. Brett growled, a burst of anger remembering what his real family did. The container of Nostalgia Max is directed right on top of Reagan, slowly tilting. Her expressions changed for a moment, a spark of fear before going back to determination.

“Fight it Brett! Come on!” The yelling from his best friend made him angry. His mind circled with everything they could do once she was in a playful state. He lets out a loud scream as he moves the whole container to tilt all the way. All the Nostalgia Max falls onto the scientist as she shrieked. Her eyes glowed green before Brett released her. Her body lands pathetically on the ground, face on the ground.

“See Reagan. Do you see all those fun stuff thar happened! Wouldn’t it be good to relax and be a family!” Brett cackled as he dropped down. There wasn’t a response but it might have been from all the memories rushing into her mind.

However after a couple minutes, Reagan was still lying there with no response . He looked at her confused before walking toward and lowering himself to her.

“Come on! Let’s go hang out!” He exclaimed as he grabbed her shoulder. He sat her up, expecting a smile or something but what he saw was not expected.

Reagan’s eyes were wide and glowing green. Only pupils could be faintly seen. Her breathing was uneven and slow. There was blood on the side of her head from the fall but no where else seemed injured .

“Hey..? What.. wrong?” Brett asked. All the thoughts of enjoying themselves faded. He shook Reagan but it got nothing out of her. “Reagan..?” His eyes loose the green glow. The Gang took it as a sign to move closer to the scene

“What's happening to her? Shouldn’t the Nostalgia Max make her feel Nostalgic and all those good feelings?” Brett asked Andre. The doctor bent down, his fingers finding a pulse. Then he touched her face. No reaction. Usually the scientist would have flinched away but something was clearly wrong.

“Stop right there!" The two police officers they met earlier held their guns at the group.

"Oh fuck this. I'm done with this god forsaken town. Take this you 80 fools!" Myc released a large amount of his goo at the officers. The group took it as a moment to escape back to the jet. They weren't staying here any longer than they needed to. Brett was carrying Reagan, many thoughts going through his mind. This wasn't how it was supposed to go! They were supposed to be joking around and having fun. Not running away like this

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"She was poured with a whole can of Nostalgia Max?" The Cogito doctor and the scientist who distributed the Nostalgia Max came to help. She was sitting in a chair, eyes half close but still glowing

"Yup. Someone.." A glare at Brett. "went mad and did it. Is there anything you can do to get her out of this state?"

"Usually these chemtrails are supposed to make you feel happy about the past. I've had workers fall into those containers but they would just get really kiddy and we could taze them out of it. I've never seen this reaction.. you guys know anything about her background."

"She was a MIT"

"Family background. Childhood. Personal life."

"Well her dad.. you know Rand Ridley..the old boss he wasn't the best father. He made her terrified of hugs and wasn't really there for her. Lonely for most of her life. Some drugs and drinking problems. That's all we know." Brett responded.

The scientist looked at him, a little shocked and flipped through his notebook. He found the page and took a moment to read it.

"Shit.. That theory might be true. We thought about how someone with a bad childhood would react to Nostalgia Max. No one became our tester of course but it seems like she's in a comatose state. Maybe it's more repression to a deeper state r the memories keep resurfacing in a loop. That's main theories"

"Can you get her out of it!? She can't be like this forever right?"

"She was not reacting to anything but.. I have an idea." The doctor held a memory gun in his hand. "I could try to wipe it."

"What are you waiting for them! Do it!" Glenn yelled.

"But.. I'll have to wipe her whole mind out. Who knows how many memories she's repressed throughout her life and the whole container was dumped on her. That is a lot of mind messing in there."

"NO! You can't do it!" Brett yelled. Everyone looked at him. "I'm sure it'll go away like it happened to me..."

"She's in a comtose state! Do you really want her to be in this state? Weeks, months, the rest of her life'!

"I'll take care of her! Please!"

"This is all on you Brett. You were the one who fucked with her mind." Myc said with a a tentacle pointing to him. The rest of the Gang nod. The pain in Brett's chest grew but he nodded with a forceful smile.

"Here. You don't have to bring her if she gets wiped. But if you make the choice.. do it at your place and then we can take over. The memory gun was handed to him. He glanced at Reagan

'She can fight through it. She's Reagan. She'll be okay.' He reassured himself. Surely he didn't need it

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Weeks had passed. Nothing had changed with Reagan. She just sat there,  staring into space. Brett had to force feed and try to clean her the best he could. It was midnight and Brett was looking at her as she sat on the couch. The glowing from her eyes was still strong as ever.

"Reagan. Say something. Anything" Brett said. There was no response, nothing ever since they came back from the 80s mission.

"Come on.. Give me a reason to keep you like this." Brett pleaded. He grabbed onto her shoulder, holding his breath. He couldn't cry. Not now "I'm sorry.. You were right. Nostalgia is bullshit. Just come back. Please" Waves of emotions were hitting him now. He squeezed his eyes as his head dropped to her legs. "Don't leave us. Don't leave me.."

Nothing was said. Brett lifted his head as tears streamed down his face. The memory gun on the table reminds him of what the doctor said.

'Do you really want her to be in this state? Weeks, months, the rest of her life?'

He was right. Brett didn't want Reagan to be stuck in this. This was all his fault and he had to make it right. Shakily he grabbed the gun, a finger on the trigger. The point of the gun touched the side of her head. Brett gave one last look, hoping Reagan would protest or freak out. But all there was a blank face.

He looked away as he pulled the trigger. A loud noise came out and when he looked back, the green and glowing were fading away. Finally, after weeks, her eyes close fully. A quiet sigh came out as well.

Brett sobbed, dropping the gun on the floor.  Why did he do it? He just wanted to have fun with the Gang. He wanted Reagan to experience the 80s and relax after working so much. Together.. like a family

But now she was gone. The company lost her, the Gang no longer had a leader, and Brett.. lost his best friend forever.

#Inside job #inside job fanfic #reagan ridley #brett hand #angst #whump #bad things happen bingo #nostalgia max #sad

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#11, 16, 18, 25 and 56 for the ask game!!

Favorite age you’ve been so far?

Hmm… I don’t know, I miss being a little kid, and living in my (honestly quite crappy) neighborhood and being outside while the sun set and playing on the old brown couch. I have very fond, very nostalgic memories of when I was little :)

And then when I was just a bit older, but still quite young, things were also good!! My best friends were my cousins and we’d go on journeys into the woods together, and I’d watch my best best friend play Cover Orange on his iPod Touch, and I’d climb the tree in the front yard of my (honestly quite good) neighborhood and I got my dog and watched animated movies on loop.

Middle school was weird lol

And high school has been… all over the place. I’ve had some of the hardest years of my life, and also the best years of my life, and I’ve been friendless and made friends and lost friends, and I’ve moved and moved again and moved again, and I’ve discovered my favorite music artists, and started truly writing for the first time, and got into fandoms and got social media and experienced doubts about my faith and anxiety and so many sad things, so many bad things, so many freaking hard things, but it’s also been so so amazing? A big whirlwind of everything, that’s for sure.

BUT TO ANSWER THE QUESTION ALSGAKSGAKSG

I’d probably go with age six or seven, give or take—mostly because me and my cousins were really close then, and I wanna experience that once more. And also nostalgia :)

The last song you listened to?

I think… it was something acoustic? Me and my sister were going back home after seeing Across The Spiderverse (for the second time!) and my head was hurting a little bit because of all the crazy animation XD I couldn’t listen to my usual music because it made my head feel worse, so I started playing songs from my acoustic playlist.

But goshdarn it I can’t remember what song I listened to last!!

OH IT MAY HAVE BEEN DEAR WORMWOOD BY THE OH HELLOS. IT MAY HAVE BEEN THAT ONE.

Who would you really like to just punch in the face?

No one? 😅

I’ve never punched anyone in my life lol, and I don’t really think I could ever bring myself to do it XD

I do remember when I was pretty little and watching Little House On The Prairie, I got so enraged by one of the characters that I bit out, “I want to punch her.”

My parents didn’t quite know what to do with that information aksvaksvskj

You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?

I’m probably going to save it, actually! I’ve always been a saver rather than a spender :)

Wait, scratch that: I will save most of it, and use a bit to get a Starbucks Frappuccino :D

What do you like on your toast?

BUTTER!!! SO MUCH BUTTER!!! I PUT AN INSANE AMOUNT OF BUTTER ON MY TOAST!!!

Sometimes I’ll put jelly on over the butter (it tastes like a biscuit!!) and other times, I’ll put sugar and cinnamon over the butter—but no matter what, I’ve always got butter on my toast XD

#thank you for the ask friend!! #ask #ask game answers