#could still happen. could also happen but different. but it doesnt matter bc right now i need to let go

[ethereiling]

The Agonies

#avpswjy #fully realizing at last that something i have wanted very much isnt going to happen is filling me with a level of grief #that i havent experienced in A While #like its fine. and i feel stupid for caring so much. but agony #it is in gods hands now bc i sure cant hold it anymore #had 2 let go of this one #could still happen. could also happen but different. but it doesnt matter bc right now i need to let go #and that hurts #anyway!! time 2 watch videos and learn 2 accept things more easily

[adawngswife]

dating sean diaz hcs pt 2

- before esteban fixed up a car for sean, u guys would always take the public bus around seattle

- his favorite dates r the ones where u guys go into random small stores and thrift shops

- both of u guys cackle REALLY LOUD at tacky shirts with stupid sayings and get looks from people 😭

- ur fav thing is to go “i found something ud like” and watch sean look up from the racks in excitement to see an overly patriotic shirt that says “don’t touch my truck”

- his face drops into a frown and he picks out something 10x uglier and say it looks like something ud wear

- sean secretly buys what u say is cute but u cant afford bc thrifting is so expensive for no reason these days

- “guess what i got” and he slithers it out of his bag with an evil smile 😭 suddenly him dissing u for an hour straight doesnt even matter anymore

- once esteban texts sean for dinner u guys hop on the bus back home. he never asks sean to come home for dinner alone though! common courtesy to invite the gf

- sharing wired earbuds on the bus ride home always. sean plays little love songs bc he only listens to music that he relates to in that specific moment 😭 corny but cute. he def has songs in his head that he thinks are ur guys’ songs and plays them every chance he gets

- when u first started eating with the diaz family it was so painfully awkward

- though he kind of likes it now, he did not want his girlfriend to get to know esteban or daniel too well LMAO he didnt want to be embarrassed by anything they possibly could say

- still, even when he tried so hard to avoid it, daniel and esteban still found their ways

- estebans the kind of dad to bring up embarrassing stories about sean when he was a kid bc he KNOWS how much his son would hate it

- “y’know (y/n), im surprised seanie boy over here even managed to get a girlfriend in the first place”

- “why is that, mr. diaz?”

- “i remember he thought girls couldn’t poop until he was in middle school! i had to break the news for him—he was in denial for weeks. his voice was shaking when i told him and everything!” u can see sean pause mid-chew in the corner of his eye 😭 “and please, call me esteban”

- you just awkwardly nodded and tried to not bust out laughing. sean notices and kicks u under the table which makes u ACTUALLY bust out laughing

- esteban and daniel knew from there u were one to be trusted

- “i bet (y/n) doesn’t poop” daniel randomly said when u left that night. seans immediately swiveled his head around 😭

- just like with lyla, daniel seemed to have a crush on u as well. the only difference is that sean tries to shut it down REALLY quick.

- “she shits all the time. sometimes i wipe her ass for her bc she shits so much”

- daniel’s “eww…” is like music to his ears

- u always playfully punch him when he does this in front of u and ask why he makes u look bad in front of him

- sean never admits its bc hes jealous of a little kid 😭 he just changes the subject and kisses u bc he thinks hes sneaky

- over the summer he randomly got a buzz and didnt say anything to anybody

- he just opened his front door standing there bald as if nothing happened and ur eyes wld just kind of widen

- u wld eventually tell him it looks good tho bc it DOES he pulls it off so well

- that summer u wld always randomly start feeling his head because the texture is so interesting

- it got to the point where hed just sit on the floor in front of wherever u were so ud get to feel his freshly mowed head

- he always ends up dozing off bc its so comforting and u wld feel his head pressed on ur inner leg.

- u also get the privilege of cutting/buzzing his hair 😋

- sean doesnt trust himself so u guys sit for 40 mins watching a brad mondo video before u start going ape on his hair

- he gets kind of nervous when u get close to his face and does that thing where u switch between a persons right eye and left eye while smiling awkwardly 😭

- surprisingly it turns out good!

- i feel like ud be super nit-picky on ur work, thinking its total ass. he wld just say its perfect over and over again

- he always stares at any reflective surface and smiles like a dork in front of it. even if u did do a shit job, he probably wouldnt notice or care all that much bc he loves blindly ❤️

im on winter break so i get to be cringe and free for endless hours thank u to like the 3 other people who also like sean diaz. u r all real ones

#life is strange 2 #sean diaz x reader #sean diaz #daniel diaz #sean diaz hcs

[ganondoodle]

still thinking about how even just the decision to basically act like the shiekah tech never existed is just ... so baffling to me

bc again you could have done all the sonau tech does with shiekah instead, and they were perfect to be explored more in a sequel, why wouldnt you grasp that potential, the literal building blocks for more??

if you are that tired of shiekah tech .. dont make it a fuckign sequel to the game prominently featuring it???? totk doesnt take place generations after botw in which things could have changed drastically, its just a few years afterwards??

you want to reuse the map and get rid of shiekah tech? ok fine take LINK into the past then and the focus is for you to find a way to return; do some neat twist where its revealed that link was the one who sealed gan bc he couldnt defeat him without zelda or something if you dare (they wouldnt)

want less work than that and still reuse the map and get rid of shiekah tech AND reuse characters? ok then make it some alternate universe thingy like majoras mask in which everythign is the same but also isnt, its weird and creepy how characters you thoguht you knew suddendly dont act like themselves, shiekah tech doesnt exist, malice is now miasma, etc, it would give reason to why you feel so much like something about this world is familiar yet also very wrong

as far as im aware every "sequel" we have had so far were either generations apart from the first one, some alternate universe or a different location altogether- in all of which its plausible that things are different, things seem weirdly familiar but also wrong, or that another continent just works different from hyrule

but totk does none of that, its supposedly just a few years after the first game, same world same character, but its BUILT like some strange jumbled mess of stuff from botw and new stuff out of nowhere that just .. doesnt fit, but feeling a strange sense of otherness, a déja vu of something you know but it acts off, like an imposter, thats NOT intentional and it shows, its a mess of botw stuff, from stuff that people missed from the old games and entirely new stuff; i dont doubt it CAN work but the way it turned out is like a mix of 3 different puzzles forced together and being told 'see it fits!' even tho you can clearly see the pieces dont look right in these places

again it feels like a sequel that desperately wants you to forget the first game happened, that anythign from it mattered at all

and that isnt really ... the sense of a sequel? why insist on it being one when it only creates problems? is it marketing?? just like it was marketing to call age of calamity a telling of what happened before botw but then it wasnt that at all and that is still the sole reason why i dislike it? bc i was lied to? totk is like 10000 times worse than that, its a main title and doesnt even have the excuse of yeah its basically an excuse to play all your fav characters in fun ways and the game beign well aware that being its main appeal; what is totk appeal? a toybox with botw aestethic and none of the flavor?

(on a sidenote; the sonau tech doesnt even .. matter? in botw at least calamity ganon was made of shiekah tech parts and him overtaking other tech is a big point, the sonau tech doesnt serve anything but .. idk minerus useless mech? gan doesnt even aknowledge it, he doesnt care, all it is is toys for the player, not link, but the player. the monsters mining the tech materials? what for? gan doesnt give a damn and they dont work for the yiga either??)

i said it before but it gives me the feeling that the way botw invited you to theorize, to look beneath the surface, the way it intrigued you and laid the groundwork for so many interesting things without denying anything.. was accidental? or perhaps put in the game without the directors noticing? i cant stop thinking about them saying sth like "after botw zelda wondered if the kingdom of hyrule needed to keep existing the way it had been before the calamity, but then totk happens" bc it just feels like they realized too late that botw naturally led into questioning the status quo and they scrambled to fit it back into a flat and boring road we have seen so many times before (or even worse really) with totk

zeldas character naturally leads into her questioning and reexamine their history and set of rules? we gotta teach her a lesson of why she is importante god given monarchy girl that has to keep it bc what if evil brown man shows up again for no reason

maybe im grasping at straws here but looking at it this way the sonau .. make more "sense"; the shiekah were a group that was under the rule of the royal family, and misstreated before (oh no look soemthing interesting) so they dont lend themselves well to be used for teaching zelda that lesson- the sonau however are tailored really to be just that; they are a supposedly godly race from the literal sky that founded this version of hyrule, that had tech even more advanced and better than the shiekah, she gets put in the past to meet the perfect god king of goodness personally, also his very fridgy wifey that zelda later replaces in a way, shes put there and treated like family and then gets to see just how evil that evil big man from the desert is, sonia is falcon-punched to death solely so zelda can feel obligated to take over her role, have her new, better 'family' hurt by gan; similarly so raurus sacrifice, look what a noble and good king he is, he payed the ultimate price to lock that evil man away, now zelda you cannot let their sacrifice go to waste, rebuild that divinely good kingdom like it was!!

and even though they go so much out of their way to put the cart back onto the rails of black and white-good and evil in an even flatter way than the old games, it still doesnt feel right, at least to me, it still feels like zelda shouldnt have gone along with all of that, it feels like even her character from botw was walked back entirely, except for the intro, it made her feel like a stranger to me-

because this is a sequel, i know this zelda, she wouldnt act like that after all that shes been through, this feels ... off

and it all just insulting to anyone who cared about botw more than surface level, or the zelda lore in general, i dont even care much about the timeline, but theres alot of lore and themes beyond it that felt ignored, especially so given that .. its a damn sequel, non AU, not generations apart, directly part 2-

but its not.

it even feels very "corporate", put zelda in a dress again, people liked that, put crazy abilities in the game to flashbang people with how insane it is even if its not the best for the gameplay or the story, put a new asthetic into it out of nowhere bc its 'new' and act like its been there the whole time, put gan in there bc people miss him and find him sexy even if his role is just as flat as that of an evil cloud monster-

*sigh*

you know, i saw a post that said aoc was like a bad fanfic (affectionate) and totk was like a bad fanfic (derogatory) and tbh thats like one of the best comparisons/summaries i have seen ..

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #totk #ganondoodles rants #long post #look at me go ranting again #there so much i still think about #none of my rants are ever complete tbh #its always a focus on one or two things #there so much to talk about #like all those questions tha shouldnt have been answered #anyway #spend enough time writing all this #also none of my rambling id consider analysis #bc i realyl dont know what im talking about #im just trying to find words for how i feel #and then ramble on #idk how this gets so long every time no matter how short i wanna keep it #i have trouble putting feeling into words and explaining myself #cant you tell? jfkdrghkjdfh

[healmyhrt]

heyy if ur taking requests could u maybe do a fic where nicks out filming and the reader, his bf is at home and someone says something online (doesnt matter what) and the reader has a panic attack and like calls nick and he rushes over and comforts the reader??

⌗ posted, n. sturniolo

nick x male!reader

summary: you see a comment online saying that you are using nick for his fame, and try to clap back at the hater, causing a bit of anxiety in you.

disclaimers!: established relationship, kissing, fluff, use of y/n, short

a/n: submit more ideas for nick fanfics bc i love feeding my male readers lol | also, im basing the readers panic attack based off of how mine are just because i get them as well! everyone’s are different, so just a heads up!

as i patiently waited for nick to get back from filming, i scrolled on twitter. most of my feed was melanie martinez since she was my favorite artist, or tweets about my boyfriend, nicolas.

i had been scrolling for about five minutes now, when i scrolled back up to a tweet that caught my eye.

“nick’s bf is clearly using him for clout 💀 like cmon. he just wants money, i mean that shit is so obvious”

i was in shock. i scrolled down to the replies, and they all agreed. there was one that said,

“no he’s not. look at the photos of them, they are genuinely happy! nick tries to keep his relationship off of the internet but you guys can’t let him have shit.”

well, at least someone was right.

i clicked the reply button, and started typing out why what they were saying was not true. i sighed, and quickly hit the backspace button until it was all gone.

i set my phone down slowly as i felt my breathing start to grow faster. the breaths were rapid and shuddering, and it felt as if my heart was in my stomach.

my entire body felt shaky, and i couldn’t catch my breath. i reached for my phone, moving slowly.

“hey siri, call nick.” i spoke to the device.

the phone started ringing, and i felt a relief fall over me as he picked up. “hey, we’re headed back. whats wro—”

he stopped. i could hear him bring the phone closer to his ear. “y/n, are you okay?” i squeezed my eyes shut, and tried to stop the tears from falling.

“its…its happening a—again.” i spoke through breaths.

“we’ll be there so soon, okay? just try to control your breathing, okay? i love you, baby, be there soon.”

i sighed again through the breaths, and heard nick say, “matt, step on it!” before the call disconnected.

minutes had gone by, and i heard the front door open. footsteps sprinted up the steps, and nicks bedroom door opened quickly.

he appeared, and ran over to the bed, seating himself next to me. nick immediately put his hand over mine, interlocking our fingers, and planting a kiss on my forehead.

“are you okay?”

my breathing had neutralized, but i still felt a little out of it. i nodded, and he shut his eyes with a sigh of relief.

“we’ll leave you to it.” matt says from the doorway. he pulls chris’s arm, and shuts the door.

nick kicks off his shoes, and gets under the blanket next to me, resting his head on my shoulder. “what happened?”

i bite my bottom lip, and grab my phone, turning it on, and showing him the tweet. he reads it and sighs, looking up at me.

“we both know this isn’t true. i love you, so much, and you love me too. im so sorry you’re getting involved in this.”

i hug him, and he presses his lips against mine.

a kiss from nick always helps, but expecting this situation. i loved nick, and i always have, even before they started going viral. i would never do such a thing to him, and he knows that.

nick pulls away, and rests his forehead against mine. he grabs our interlocked hands, and plants a kiss on them.

“rule one, never read the comments.” he chuckles.

i smile, and turn away, biting my inner cheek. nick pulls out his phone, and leans in closer to me. i look at him confused.

“say cheese!” he smiles into the camera, and i quickly change my expression to a small smile. he opens instagram, and clicks on the photo.

“nick, what are you doing?” i question. he starts typing, and reading aloud at the same time.

“with my loving, caring, handsome, amazing, and awesome boyfriend. i love you forever and ever.”

i blush, and nick looks up at me and smiles.

“posted.”

#sturniolo triplets #nick sturniolo #nicolas sturniolo #matt sturniolo #matthew sturniolo #chris sturniolo #christopher sturniolo #sturniolo fanfic #sturniolo x reader

[nin-deer]

Ch 143

i mean i think we all knew deep down the kiss was gonna happen based on the flow of the story but i think this chap reveals a lot about gorou and sarina

(uh warning this got a little out of hand so its pretty long lmao)

so.

i dont think anyone's completely in the wrong, but i definitely don't think they're in the right either. (not that i condone incest; its just that their motivations led them to this specific point. would the story have been fine without it? hell yeah. please i actually prefer it that way. but this is the direction the author decided to take it, so we have to take it as it is as a point of learning more about the character's motivations)

Let's first analyze sarina and gorou's relationship pre-reincarnation. I think I covered this in my last post where I rambled about onk, but gorou is doing a doctor thing where he "accepts" sarina's proposal just to make her happy. We learn in this new chapter that he basically catered to her every request, and that's what started that infatuation. we know from previous chapters that her bio family's shitty, so the only place she would get this love is from gorou. we also learn in this chapter that it's not actually a romantic love but a fanatic love, for lack of better terms. she sees him as her idol. does sarina even know what it feels to be romantically in love with someone? she spent her whole first life in a hospital, isolated from others her age. she spent her second life very curated and protected because of her mom and her future career; she couldn't really live a normal life. (we'll get back to this point later) all she knows about love is through her idols, so she's channeling it into (what she thinks is) romantic love for gorou.

gorou, on the other side of this, is an actual adult who had an actual life before all this, so he knows what a normal life is like. assuming sarina is one of his first patients, its obvious to see that he got attached, which is a very risky situation for scenarios like this. we see this attachment made her death worse, as he threw himself into following Ai to cope for her death. not gonna go too in depth about this here because, again, i made another post for this that i'll probably link at the end bc im referencing it more than i thought... continuing! he knows sarina doesnt have long left so he wants to do what he can for her, thus creating that "idol" persona sarina has for him.

we see in his regret in this new chap that he actually knows what he's doing and is aware of the consequences of his actions. ruby doesn't. she doesn't regret anything. as someone who reads a lot of isekai/reincarnation stories, its easy to joke that ruby and aqua are their old age + their new age, but that isn't necessarily true for ruby. sure, aqua is old and this could apply to him. but ruby? she didn't make it past 18 before she died. she's like,,, 13 times 2. double 13. she never fully developed in her first life, and she's developing in this current life. it's like a continue from where she left off. aqua actually was an adult, so he has all the knowledge and wisdom of an adult. why does this matter? shift your attention back to the concept of love for a bit. aqua knows what she's doing is bad and is trying to stop her, but the knowledge that she's sarina is making him automatically succumb to her wishes. a part of his brain, because of the trauma, still sees ruby as the sickly sarina he was caring for.

ruby is naïve. she doesnt know what love is. all the love she's ever been exposed to is whatever she saw online: idols. i dont even think she fully knows what the concept of family is. aqua is her brother? nope. aqua is the doctor she proposed to and now she has a chance to follow through like all the shows she's seen. she's closer than ever to him, so why give up the chance? even as ruby, she wasn't exposed to a lot of normalcy because of idol culture. she isn't able to learn about the difference between platonic love and fanatic love. we even see this with ai, who she sees more as an idol than her mom. the joy is in her idol being her mom, someone who's supposed to care for her. it's like shes living a fantasy made just for her. because aqua was so obsessed w revenge, he didn't have the chance to teach her anything, and it's not like he needed to learn bc he already knows. ruby doesn't.

aqua, as the one who understands these nuances, should have sat her down and explained things, but he didn't because of the trauma of sarina. ruby is ignorant and is treating things like a tv drama, now that her dreams as sarina can finally become true. aqua doesn't realize how serious ruby is about this because in his mind this is just a child playing house. ruby is like,,,, imagine you die and you wake up actually being sold to one direction. or whatever happens to you in your fav self-insert scenario/fanfic. idk a better analogy lmao but its like finally being able to play out your fantasies irl. she doesn't realize the real world impacts of her actions because, frankly, she doesn't care. she gets to live out her life as she wants. aqua was shocked after the first kiss with ruby because he realized then she was being serious, but he didn't speak out about it because, again, the trauma™. (we see him again uncomfy with the whole situation in the next page, but his lack of objection could be bc it's a scene in the documentary and he finds it more important to get revenge rn) ruby kissed him then because she purposefully created the mood like that so it would fit in the story she was writing in her mind.

so what does this mean? because of their shared pasts, aqua and ruby are put in this situation where ruby can do what she wants and aqua goes along with it. even if he knows its morally wrong, he can't bring himself to break ruby's immersion in all of this. BUT. big but. aqua shouldn't act like this. they're both capable of living out their lives as normal (barring the revenge and the whole idol stuff). he doesn't need to act like this anymore; ruby's not terminally ill. he's not a doctor. what he should have done was firmly deny her stuff he knows is wrong because then he can educate her about the reason why. as much as their personalities are inspired by their past lives, sarina and gorou are dead. they need to move on and live a aqua and ruby. (Harsh, I know, but because of this scenes like *gestures vaguely to the newest two chapters* happens. if aqua stood his ground and taught ruby about familial love and that what she's feeling is probably not romantic, i think this could have been avoided. but alas, we need it for the ~drama~)

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sorry that went on way longer than i thought lmao. i think i covered everything i wanted to say but im too lazy to read back so fingers crossed

if you made it this far and are curious about the other post i mentioned in the beginning, its here. i just think its some context to my thought process but not necessary to understand this post

#my writing #oshi no ko #oshi no ko spoilers #onk ch 143 #jasdlkflsdkajfh #why did it take me longer to find that first post #than deciding to make this post #anyways #lots of thoughts #none coherent #i wasnt planning on doing this so sorry if its too jumpy #i just finished reading the chap and #i had the urge #man i was living glass half full #then this chap dropped #hopefully it gets addressed #i mean its that last panel that gets me #aqua looks so uncomfortable while ruby is beaming

[marinetteplztakeabreak]

My personal “screaming about the lack of Ladynoir in the finale” post TM

Don’t know how to preface this???

this isn’t hate for the finale,

this is more, me reveling in the Angst of what they Chose Not To Put and screaming and wailing about how ladynoir has me in a chokehold

Im coming to terms with the s5 finale and finding bits of hope for my Ladynoir heart, etc. And i have decided that the finale has a ton of very very cool potential.

But i still can’t stop imagining… what if Adrien had gotten the messages from Ladybug??? What if he was About to give up being Chat Noir and give in to hopelessness and nightmares and terror and the cage he was trapped in and THEN (probably via Plagg, they could make it work) he got the frantic terrified messages from ladybug that were like “hi where ARE you?!?!?! Kitty cat come in NOW i NEED YOU!!?!? Hawkmoth knows my identity i think i am going to die i am all alone please please please show up i need you pick up pick UP.”

What if he was like. “Oh.” And his world just. Shifted. He thought his worst fear was ending the world as chat or being trapped even further by transforming in front of his father and being Caught but now Neither of those matter… now the only fear is just… not being Enough for ladybug… the fear of losing her or letting her down or making her feel as alone and abandoned and hopeless as he does right now????

What if he just????? Transformed without a moment of hesitation??? What if he was there taking to her on the phone coaching her through breathing and telling her he promised she would be okay and he promised he would be proud of her no matter what happened???? What if his own nightmares and fears started slipping through on the call and SHE turned around and reassured HIM that she trusts him fully and if he can’t trust himself he can at least trust HER judgement????? What if they both managed to avoid the mind control by being Each Others’ alliance?????

What if Ladybug found out that Chat Noir was in London ,,, because if Her identity’s been revealed to Monarch and she’s In His House than it’s Already going to hell and secrets don’t matter anymore, it just matters that they trust each other??? All they ever WANTED was to be open and trust and now its all they have left??? And theres not identity reveal or speculation bc it doesnt MATTER right now it just matters to SURVIVE or at LEAST be together for the end.

What if she told him not to come to Paris because it’s too dangerous to be in the same spot and he was like “im so sorry but i Cannot do that i cant leave you there Alone” and she was like “i know. and i love you. And id do the same. And that’s also why i cant tell you who monarch is or where the house is because i KNOW you’ll come here and i cant stop you. We cant both be in his grasp i just need you on the phone”

What if she fought in the basement for her life while getting support from him whilst he rallied all the other heroes and the resistance across the surface of paris???? What if we had ladybug and chat noir fighting the same battle on two different fronts, both Very Aware of each others’ situation nonstop,,, working as a Team despite the distance????? What if chat was just nonstop doing everything he could to reassure ladybug that they were doing okay and everyone supported her and he Trusted Her to do anything because the nightmares were STILL debilitating for everyone including them and they couldnt afford for either of them to get akumatized or even DISTRACTED and they just told puns and reminded each other when to use their powers and when to breathe?????

And chat could be captured or whatever and have to call out to ladybug and she could be like “send me your kwami its okay you did so good, i’ll be okay ill see you again”

Bug noire could still happen but it would be a strategic choice BOTH of them made TOGETHER with pain and love mixed together rather than the result of major decisions that they both were forced to make Independantly with no communication only fear and guilt and lonliness???

I dont know how to explain this but this is not salt this is not hate towards the episode this is just,,,, UGH this show has made me SO INVESTED in the dynamics and they had a CHANCE to do stuff and make it so fun and they DIDNT ,,,, they CHOSE to make it darker and grittier this time and i think it’s probably going in a cool direction,,, i think that ladybug and chat noir are gonna have some Fun (for me not for them) things to Discuss after this and some brand new abandonment issues combined with weird bits of Hope that Apparently they can survive on their own, all in a messy weird blurry pool of fears and relief and guilt and lonliness!!!!! And there’s so much to explore

But ALSO i miss my ladynoir goddammit i miss when it was the ladybug and chat noir show and i feel a little bit hollow seeing how ALONE!!! BOTH OF THEM were!!! this entire finale!!!!!!!!! Why are they ALONE those are my LADYNOIR they are PARTNERS do not SEPARATE THEM!!!! Stop doing PLOTS and HARD DECISIONS and IN CHARACTER MISTAKES to them and PLEASE just let them be perfect and together anyways aaaaaaaaa

(Bonus u can read the absolute essay i accidentally put in my tags for more scrambled thoughts)

#ml spoilers #ml s5 spoilers #ml s5 finale #ml recreation #ladynoir #me screaming #ml meta #i guess #i have no idea how to tag this #complicated feelings where i loved the finale i think #but also WOW did that hurt #which is kinda #proof of how impctful these chatacters are #and how hard this show makes you root for relationships #ive been thinking for So Long and i am just SURE #that after the themes and narratives this show has chosen to hold dear and make the audience care about #there is No Way this is the end of ladynoir #but i fear it may be Migrating #it might have to Go Away for a little while to let some character development happen #and i can imagine so many cool scenerios with ladynoir falling apart conflict #and so many ways for them to fall apart and fall back together #but all of them HURT like HECK and AAAA #i think the long post filter will help this and i wont have to add a read more but if theres issues with it being too long lmk #also whoopsie didnt mean to put essay in tags #i just. i have soooo many feelings #waaaaa #please please friends i am begging #someone write fanfiction of ladynoir being togeyher in the finale #just for . like. being in denial reasons #for reveling in the past and the eventual future reasons

[ekuns]

had a fucked up dream just now

i was at my old house i grew up in but i didnt clock that at first (bc i dream about being back there a lot so it usually doesnt matter to me) and the lights werent working right. it was late at night so it was also dark outside. i would go to turn on the light in my room and it would be extremely dim to the point where i could vaguely see the room and that's it. i would try to grab my phone and put the brightness on it up to use it as a light but that wasnt working either somehow. i would turn up the brightness to max and instead of being a flash bang like it should, the dimness barely changed.

so then i would go out to the room directly opposite it and turn the light on in there so i could see bc my light was fucked - except that one is the same but worse. all i can end up seeing in there is a tiny bit of the floor in the middle of the room. so then i go to the bathroom for light, it's the same. it's the same everywhere in the house except the kitchen area

in the kitchen the light bulb there is also sparking a bit. and then it comes off, crashing down to the floor, and i have to keep spot away from the glass shards while i can barely see him or them. and then the more fucked part starts happening in which it starts looping those events but with minor differences like sometimes my mom is there, sometimes there's water pooling on the floor in the room opposite mine, sometimes the light bulb has already fallen. these loops take less than 5 minutes and it went on for a while. and as they went on my mental state got worse and i started feeling like when i would start the next loop and be laying on my own bed, someone would be pulling my hair

so then it got even worse which i could never have expected: i realized it was a dream and that i dont even live at that house anymore and that i should just wake up. so what does my subconscious do? changes the dream layout. so im now in my room at my current house... still in the dream. and i cant even get out of bed now. im just stuck in the bed

im stuck in the bed and the pillow seems almost stuck to my head. the loops are still happening but theyre even shorter now, about a minute long. i keep trying to get out of bed, to get up, to even just fall out of bed, anything. it's completely dark aside from the faint glow of my pc screen. nothing is working. i can't get up, i can't wake up. i felt like i was in hell.

i did eventually finally wake up though obviously lol but now i feel super disoriented and kind of shaken up over that

#rii rambles #dream journal tag i guess

[psiimaid]

OH i have a question for you so do you think that the alpha trolls' classpects are relevant to the ancestors or do you think it doesnt matter cuz theyre different people? Like i cant see the disciple being all that much of a mage of heart. But it does explain condys powers and all the signless stuff and it would be more consistent with how homestuck usually works.

disclaimer i don't know a lot abt classpects but YES i think they are. and i see di as just as mage of heart-y as meulin? like again i don't know a lot abt classpects but di def suffered for who she was and lost her family and purpose but also mages deal with information right could that be like her transcribing the signless' words?

okay so yeah condesce and signless are probably mosr obviously linked to their pre-scratch classpects. i don't know where else to put this but darkleer also had the dark spot/natural void cloaking trait as like a lataent ability or whatever which is just aspect no class but there isn't much else to say abt him so here's his sentence.

but there's this interesting thing in the ancestor exposition where the ancestors are described w their descendants' classes. handMAID, the psiioniic is called a mage, redglare a seer (by mindfang), i'll get to mindfang in a sec, and witch is often used to describe the condesce

sorry this is so janky hoppiung from one ide a to another but. okay so the alpha trolls just failed right. they were a massive flopp. like there was no way they could have won anyway bc there was a glitch (they were made in the post-scratch iteration of the univese by karkat so technically they can't exist without him so the scratch was destiened to happen yadda yadda) but also they failed in other ways and when they made the deal w echidna they were promised success in the next universe.

doc scratch is the one in charge of facilitating the conditions of the world to ensure that success. LE is also invested bc the trolls winning the game has to happen to ensure his creation. you might be thinking well handmaid was too and yeah she was but doc scratch was the weapon of precision and subtlety.

so if the alpha trolls are now no longer in the runnign for game victory, it's aaaall abt the beta trolls now. you don't need a "sylph of light" 🤪 anymore. you need a thief. i think this is the most obvious example bc doc scratch was so involved in mindfang's life and helped her to get to where she was as a pirate, literally embodying the life and role of a thief 👍 and then she served as the role model for vriska who tried to be juuust like her

so handmaid was obviously made by doc scratch to serve (the lord of her aspect), the helmsman played out the role of of an heir of doom actually i think. it just wasn't all that important, disciple literally became a rogue, i literally don't understand the page where mindfang calls redglare a seer sorry, actually maybe the re is more to say abt darkleer but it's just speculation (isn't this all speculation) (anyways i think mindfang killed him and used his body for its void properties "becoming" his aspect like an heir or something i don't actually know)

there's not much in the way of classpect for summoner (could make arguments for both rogue and page), dolorosa, and dualscar in canon or at least not much that's worth pointing out

uh,m yeah sorry that was so disjointed but tl;dr yes i think that the ancestors share their pre-scratch counterparts' classpects but i also think doc scratch muddied it for some of them where it was important. which is why you have midnfang who is not very sylph-like but also signless bc it was important that he remember his past life as a seer and still be a seer to incorporate all that knowledge into his current one

#anon

[spacedlexi]

hbo tlou spoilers (and the game too) just rambling to myself bc i gotta get these thoughts out of my head

feeling.. conflicted about that episode still. wasnt gonna say anything but im a little bit nervous about how joel and ellie are being handled at this point just like overall

ellie to a lesser extent i just feel like shes a little.. one note almost (they gave her the joke book and she had some nice moments with sam at least). theyre just playing so hard into the spitfire side of her but game ellie was way sweeter and kinder than i think people remember? when i started my re-playthrough even i forgot how like.. chill she was honestly. a lot of her anger was reactionary/in defense and not always just immediately antagonistic. hbo ellie needs more softness to her its starting to annoy me a bit how just outright hostile she is to literally everyone

but in joels case.. the changes they made this episode honestly i feel were detrimental to his character development. they make it seem like joel asking tommy to take ellie is more about the fact that hes aging and hes afraid hes going to get ellie killed, so he needs tommy to take her because he has a greater chance of making it back. and they side step a bit the selfishness of joels request. when in the game it was SOLEY about joels selfishness and how he could tell he was starting to feel protective of/close to ellie and wanted to stop that shit immediately by passing her off to tommy so he could just wash his hands of the whole thing (which would also put tommy at risk and maria chews him out for it (which i wouldve liked to have seen in the show but alas...)). and the argument he and ellie get into (after she runs away!!) is supposed to be the culmination of those feelings and how hes pushing her away and hes afraid of being a dad again (im NOT your dad. and we are going our separate ways). but ultimately chooses to stay with ellie and that choice is SO IMPORTANT!! and now in the show its like... ok so... now youre Not afraid of.. getting her killed? because you STILL have a bad ear and ptsd? (that he wouldve had for a while anyway so honestly its a little funny theyre playing it up so hard all of a sudden him clutching at his chest all the time is just kinda funny to me again where is the subtlety i dont see it). and like with this change it makes their argument (and their reconciliation) less powerful honestly to me at least. that argument they have is seared into my brain its still one of my favorite scenes but i just wasnt feeling it as much with this different set up of events (and also imo the game still has the better actor performances PLEASE watch those scenes if you havent)

and this side stepping of joels selfishness as a character is honestly a problem for me. and im afraid what it might mean for future episodes. because joels selfishness is very integral to his character. knowing what i do about whats coming down the line, and how theyve been talking about the “cure” so far, im so 😬 just clenching my teeth so hard. because they just... keep saying every once in a while that “there can never be a cure making a cure would be hard how would you even manufacture and distribute it?” (squinting REAL HARD AT THAT LAST ONE!!) and im soooo nervous that they might downplay just how much of a selfish asshole joel is and how they might try to make his future actions less terrible.... or justify them in some way..... or something equivalent to downplaying what happens..... 

i mentioned it a while ago but these are arguments the fans have been having since summer 2013 but what annoys me about it is that none of it even matters!!! because the Only thing that matters is joels selfish choice. not whether hes right or wrong. the ambiguity is the whole point!! the selfishness is the whole point!! joel doesnt care and hes gonna do whatever he thinks is necessary regardless of the repercussions. and i am just so afraid theyre gonna undercut that. I HOPE THEY DONT IM CROSSING MY FINGERS SO HARD THAT THEY DONT WE CAN CELEBRATE IF THEY DONT but sometimes people are afraid to let their characters be shitty and have flaws and act selfishly and joel is a bit of a controversial character already. i hope they dont try to make him/his actions more “acceptable” somehow. i LIKE that hes like this it makes him INTERESTING

but yeah the rest of the episode was fine i guess. loved seeing jackson. oh but i will say that the end of the episode felt so uneventful to me which is hilarious based off of what happens, but the way things play out in the game is SO TENSE and drawn out that in comparison was just really weak in the show unfortunately. im sure it was a “for time” reason and like it still gets the idea across but again just more reason for me to stand by the game still being The True Last of Us Experience. looking forward to the left behind episode tho i am so excited to see my girl riley again 💔

#oops wrote a bit of a joel essay #it speaks #hbo tlou #half of this is me expressing my fears about future events #ive been a little nervous about these things since like ep 2 but the fears are only building unfortunately #anyway morally grey characters are the most interesting characters pls im begging them to not downplay that #the softer moments are done well i dont have any problems w his daddy side i think thats where pedro shines #i just love the original last of us so much its such an incredible character piece UGH i need to get back to my playthrough #had an unexpectedly busy week last week but i can get back to it now #ok ramble over thank u for indulging me

[ssigmas]

Wait id love to hear your view on how people do sigma wrong

IDK its just like. i feel like people either tend to woobify him too much and turn him into a "uwu poor traumatized grandpa" OR they read too much into his arrogant voicelines and turn him into like. this cold aloof scientist, which he isnt either!! i feel like a lot of people lean either too strongly to one side or the other and forget that hes Actually very multi-faceted and complex!! probably the best ovw character in terms of personality out there!! (or they project mental illnesses onto him that he doesnt have but i feel like that was more pre-ovw2 fandom. but anyway) like i can understand having certain headcanons abt portraying him when he's like, pre-incident versus post (or au like rime sigma or ghost sigma or whatever) but a lot of the canon takes i see r just. weh. :(( like!!! yes he IS a brilliant scientist, yes he DOES take pride in his own work ("you've read my stuff? do you mind if i ask you what you thought of it?) BUT HE ALSO EXTENDS THAT TO OTHER SCIENTISTS ("dr. zhou, i've read your research. fascinating stuff!") im paraphrasing But You Get The Idea. like his pre-game chatter he's so sweet!! like when he compliments lucio on his music and asks him to turn it up or his friendship w sombra ("there you are, my friend!!")

but he Is also like, aggressive when he fights. i think he gets caught up in his own abilities + The Beauty Of Gravity that it inclines him to be so like, haughty. Do You Understand. like ofc this is a fighting game so his lines exist due to the nature of him existing in a fighting game. but i think it points to some other aspects of his personality anyway. & like compared to reaper or maybe even tracer who r Cursed by their abilities, sigma understands that although what happened was an accident and led to some unfortunate side effects, he's reveling in his new abilities and u can tell!! like his old ovw1 select quote ("the universe doesn't make sense to you.") implies that the universe makes sense to him, and he's pleased that this puts him a step above everyone else (at least where his research is concerned) like ok i think im babbling here But Like. he considers himself the master of his field of science and that's where all his arrogance comes from

i think ovw2 really heightened the whole "hey this man aint right" aspect of his personality but imo they did it in not the best way bc it comes off as him being a little senile versus Being Obliterated By Gravity. i do like the new line he has w mercy where he mistakenly thinks they're still going out for dinner (warped timelines due to spacetime distortion) but the interaction w 76 where he gets distracted by an ant on the ceiling is cute but imo not fitting. unless they really want to play up sigma's age

i Do appreciate the sombra interactions though where she's obviously looking out for him + the one where baptiste says talon is using him and sigma kind of tries to refute him bc it shows that hes being soooooooo manipulated which is sad :(( but then i think that's where some people tend to misunderstand bc like. sigma could easily break out. and do shit (im assuming) if he just Realized. its not bc he isnt strong enough or capable its bc he literally Does Not Realize He Is Trapped (i.e. his fish in the water line or whatever).

anyway this got really long and rambly and im not sure it actually went anywhere or answered ur question LMFAO but i appreciate u asking so i can kind of organize my thoughts on the matter. 2019 just-released sigma era me was different (i was 18) and my works reflect that i think but now after hes marinated in my brain for the past 4 years im like. actually,

#silveme #asks #im also like incredibly overprotective over my own interpretation of sigma #which is why i dont really like. engage w too much of the fandom anymore #bc if i see a wrong take it makes me seethe w unbridled rage #jk its not that serious #anyway me checking out a sigma fic on ao3 out of curiosity and rejoicing that it was written well #only to have to tab out because sigma was like extremely hard dom out of no where and i was like oh. disagree

[cheolhub]

NO CAUSE IM SUCH A SUCKER FOR WHEN THEY'RE MEAN

but imagine the aftermath, like you would not know how to fucking act after that and it throws you off your game and he wins the next race and !!!

you're so mad. you're so angry he got to your head that much. and he's so fucking smug about it. but of course, it can only go one way at this point, and at the end of the day you end up in his bed again bc what else are you even supposed to do?

AND HE'D BE SO MEAN ABT IT, all "can't believe you're here begging for my cock again. shouldn't you be out training? or are you just that much of a cockhungry slut?"

and it continues like that. it doesn't even matter who wins or who loses anymore, bc the outcome is the same anyways - you crying on his cock, you on your knees for him, you taking whatever he wants to give you. and you know that if this came out it could ruin your career, but you just can't stop.

(okay but spinning off of that earlier ask. what if you're in a crash, maybe it's one if the last races of the season, and he's THE FIRST ONE THERE bc holy shit he got so worried. like he always worries when someone crashes bc this shit is dangerous, but it's different now, and he doesn't quite want to think about what it means yet. (he's a little less mean the next time, not bc he's gotten soft or anything, he swears)) - ☁️

UR SUCH A FUCKING MENACE LIKE IM GONNA RIP MY HAIR OUT. it’s 1 am so that means this is going to be hot shit (the bad kind 😹) ok but seriously if i dont make sense or it reads bad, im so sorry, ive written like 4k words today and my brains fuzzy

wonwoo is so cruel. he’s so fucking cruel. he’s insulting you while fucking you stupid, rambling on and on about how you’re always crawling back into his bed like a shameless loser. about how you have no self-respect whatsoever. about how you should be out training even though you’re going to lose again. and again. and again.

and you’re just taking it because, fuck him, but he makes you feel so good. he bullies his cock into you and makes you cum countless times and it’s just too fucking good. you’re in this toxic… relationship? would you even call it that? you’re in this toxic situationship and you have no idea how to get out of it… or if you even want out of it.

and, cloudnon, you’re 100% right. it doesn’t matter who wins or loses.

if he wins, he’s fucking you as if he were some type of god with the cockiest smirk on his face. if you wanna cum, you have to beg and tell him how much of a loser you are. (woah humiliation kink popped out again my bad)

if you win, he’d be so fucking pissed. so so angry and he’s taking it out on you, immediately adjusting that cocky attitude of yours. makes you cum over and over till your just in tears babbling his name and incoherent pleas.

no matter what, he’s always going to have you begging for more bc you’re just his a pretty, cockhungry slut.

[oh my god i alrdy know that didnt make any fucking sense, BUT WAIT BC UR LIL SPIN OFF THING IS KINDA CUTE ☺️ ill start with a poorly written post-crash bed scene]

you’re fine. you’ve told him several times, but he keeps asking and it’s starting to get on your nerves. but, like, it’s also starting to freak you out a bit. he hasn’t said anything mean to you and the way he handles you is kind of… soft? something you’re not used to at all when you’re under him like this

he’s still a bit freaked out if he’s being honest. you could’ve been really hurt… and it’s morbid… but you could’ve fucking died and he doesnt think he’d be able to stand it if anything really bad happened to you.

he has no idea what he’s feeling right now. he doesn’t want to know. god forbid he have a crush on the his top competitor and god forbid you don’t feel the same way.

you grow impatient with his gentle touches bc you’re dying to have him manhandle you like he usually does, so you sigh out. “wonwoo, told you i’m fine. just a few cuts and bruises. stop worrying so much. you won’t break me.”

he looks at you nervously and your heart squeezes a bit… he’s kinda cute when he’s not being a complete dick. “you sure?”

“i’m sure.”

“i’ll be nicer today,” he mutters, “y’know, since you obviously don’t know how to ride.”

there he is.

you smirk, “oh? why don’t you show me how then?”

he smirks, voice low when he says, “it’d be my pleasure.”

#[💌: ☁️] #aPLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR THIS #BUT I NEEDED TO REPLY #SERIOUSLY THO IM IN LOVE WITH UR BRAIN

[strqyr]

The angsty bird twins are so. We also Don’t Know for certain if the tribe actively pushed Qrow away or as a child he just observed them after his bad luck messed things up and pulled away. Assuming Raven and Qrow got paired up with Summer and Tai and not each other they either didn’t expect to be on a team, or they met up on purpose which. Again. Speaks so loudly about their younger years. Qrow called them the best team to graduate from Beacon and he sounds so proud and fond. I don’t doubt for a second that he cared very much for his sister until, like Tai said, some of Raven’s bad traits tore them apart. It’s a jumble of no communication, blind faith in Oz that Raven couldn’t stand anymore, and everyone else not understanding why she was lashing out. In V5 when Yang showed up Raven seemed pleased, she wanted her to stay but didn’t have the courage to just say that after everything. Qrow has done his best to be in their lives despite feeling like he was putting them in danger. They both have reasons for staying away but maybe in Qrow’s mind he WANTS to be there but CANT. and maybe he thinks Raven CAN show up at anytime but DOESNT want to. I’m sure he’d love to be able to open a portal and visit his girls and Tai, or to have kept a closer eye on all his old colleges who have died on missions. V6 Qrow is now in this to help the kids and not just for Oz. It’s very messy and heart aching bc, you had a built in friend from birth who you were seemingly close to for at least 15 to 24 years. And now you can’t be in the same room as each other without fighting

i honestly think raven and qrow are a lot more similar than they are different to each other—the problem is that they might have actually grown quite separate from one another despite both being "raised" by the tribe, which led them down two different paths.

like, if qrow spent most of his time on scouting missions, then raven probably spent most of her time in the main camp + raids whenever those happened, because the tribe still needed fighters and eventually a counter-force against huntsmen.

which would lead to raven acting a certain way just to survive that environment and to hide any traits that could be seen as weaknesses, and to qrow—who wouldn't have been there and seen it happen—would think that's just the way raven is.

and it creates a whole mess where raven pretends to be someone totally not like qrow and qrow fully buys into it.

and their semblances are just. oof. i'm sure qrow would love to have raven's semblance, but i'm also sure that her semblance plays a part in her problems. it's like, qrow believes his semblance drives people away, while raven believes her semblance attracts them but not for right reasons. this is why qrow's reaction to robyn talking about her semblance and any difficulties that come with it trying to form connections with others is telling, because he has never thought that way before. misfortune has always been such an obviously damaging semblance in that regard, that it never occurred to him that other semblances—even the ones that don't sound bad at all—might cause problems, too.

before, qrow saw raven not using her semblance to come back as a sign that she doesn't care, at least not in a way that matters, where as to raven, no one coming after her when she left, only expecting her to come back because her semblance makes it so easy, a sign that they don't care about her.

i just really really need them to talk. no more pretending, no more antagonizing. if they both need to hit the bottom before that happens, so be it, but they need to have an earnest talk and realize just how similar they are and how much time they've lost because of their fucked up childhood and miscommunication.

#rwby #qrow branwen #raven branwen #branwen twins #anon #ask.strqyr #long post #lock them in a room if need be but i will have my talk #or else (i'll write myself and at that point there's no guarantee it will stay anywhere near canon)

[help-i-need-a-cool-username]

FINALLY catching up on rwby!!! Made it to ep8 today. DO NOT REPLY WITH SPOILERS

I know ppl have really wanted to see Torchwick again so the fandom mustve went nuts over that. I forgot how freaking cool watching Pyrrha fight is. Love how they animate the cat so much. He's currently possessing Neo's body and id kill to see him (somehow) march out of the Ever After and start fighting Cinder and/or Salem. That prob wont happen but its refreshing to have a different Big Bad for a bit

Anyways Jaune is living through one of my biggest fears. So shoutout to him. Idk if I want them to Narnia him and have him return to the age he entered when he leaves or i want him to stay a adult bc he went thru some things and i dont want them to be erased (rip to renorarc then tho)

Ruby! Actually liking this regression(?) arc for her! I know a lot of ppl have been waiting for it and tbh i thought that would end up being a single ep thing

SO SO HAPPY the whole season is taking place with RWBYJ. I really did not want to watch RNOWE try to pick up the pieces in Vacuo and the Ops in Atlas because we know RWBYJ arent dead but they dont and i couldnt watch a whole season of that angst. I dont know how this season ends yet so idek if RWBYJ make it out, so the next season could still be that :(

Loving the Penny stuff ("she was the strongest warrior to ever live" "it doesnt matter where i am! I have to live with what i did on that bridge!") and was that axe supposed to be Summer's weapon?!?!

Neo turning into Oscar and dying TOOK ME RIGHT OUT. Freaking amazing turn. The reactions of Ruby's friends illusions was perfect. My only problem is Neo and Ruby didnt know about Clover and Ironwood's death, so why were they there?

Also WHAT ABOUT THE TEN OTHER ATLESIANS THAT FELL OFF THE BRIDGE?!?! WHERE ARE THEY?!?!

Weiss developing a bit of a crush on Jaune now was great. If Snow White gets with Prince Charming after all this time id be shocked. Doubt its going that way tho. Why Jaune is fighting in rusty armor idk but it does add to the fairytale vibe. And the jackelope adds to the absurdity. His hair looks awful tho

Was fairly certain Neo was Alix but now it isnt looking like it. But that mean that whole intro is not foreshadowing?!?! Again, havent seen the end yet so idk

My fav line so far "so it turns out were not in a storybook, were in its sequel!"

#hinacu rwby #rwby

[prettypinkpuddles]

writer’s block… but i have scenarios…

i either

A) have writer’s block or

B) no motivation at write or maybeeee

C) too tired to write bc my schedule is starting to get nice, long and full… ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

but i have small scenarios... plz take and do whatever you please

i’ll label each one with the character, fandom and the works and i’m in a ✨vehicle✨ so forgive if my words are fucked.. i’m not going back and editing later

cake means NSFW and strawberry means SFW

now.. enjoy

🍓Fire Force; Shrina Kusakabe

so yk when he was carrying Sister Iris? i feel like one day you’d ask him if he could do the same to you, and he would and if you give the say so he’d start flying around with you…. until you guys get in trouble

if you live in the 7th jurisdiction, i can see the twins snitching on you two over it and he’d get in so much trouble because Beni completely babies you

🍓My Hero; Eijiro Kirishima

so what he sees as a date, him and the gang playing games, one in the others lap, and he’s just chill, squishing your thighs and pudgy tummy. he’s got this whole way of speaking without his mouth, hardening his finger and writing morse code

he also has a habit of betting you instead of money whenever he makes bets with denki or bakugou, but ONLY when he knows he’s gonna win

🍰same

so like this might be a lil but still

you like to sit on his lap, perched right on his lovely pelvis, you don’t do anything you just admire him with this little smile on your face… then sometimes his lil scar will catch your eye and you just sit like that, nothing sexual it’s just how you connect with him

🍓 My Hero; Denki Kaminari

he has a habit of staying up when he’s stressed or not in a positive mood and when that happens he eats. like it doesn’t matter what he just eats, so one time he’s going to get instant ramen and he just sees you in the fridge trying to make a sandwich.

🍓 Genshin; Hu Tao

she has either chicken scratch or flawless hand writing

like it’s pure unwired ass when she’s stressed the fuck out but when she calm and happy her writing looks like a beautiful computer font

🍓 Genshin; Childe/Thoma

these idiot forget to drink water

Thoma does it bc he genuinely forgets to when he’s in work mode so you gotta tap him and tell him to drink some

Childe does it bc he think he doesn’t need it bc… stupid and arrogant reasons, he drinks tea, coffee and other drinks and says ‘it’s made with water’

🍰 Genshin;Zhongli

Ok so like when he get mad, he won’t show it, but he spoils you. Full shopping spree(yes i know this man is kinda dumb with his fiancés but it’s bc he’s a god and never had to worry abt it, he’s gonna easily get the hang of stocks and bonds and other shit) he gets your nails done, new makeup, new clothes of all sorts, but when you get home and you try to get anything out he lifts you over his shoulder and carrie’s you to the bed and he… mmmm.. just ravages you, ofc he doesn’t take it took far unless his in a mood and decides to be a complete god- i have an idea now

🍰 My Hero; Aizawa

HE DOESNT LIKE PETPLAY i just have a lil voice screaming it to me

butttt once time you bought this choker with a heart shaped bell and you flicked it. it’s just,,, peaked him yk? and you just haddd to be such a stupid lil brat and when he went to pull it, it did something to you. you usually wear chokers and he will pull on them but this is different

🍓genshin; Thoma

so the lacquerware place (it’s by the alchemy table) would def have Kamisato as one of their top customers. Thoma is always buying nail lacquer for you and sometimes Ayaka if she likes it. he’ll paint your nails himself and make sure they are Perfect.

🍓genshin/Fire Force; Diona/Hinata+Hikage

so imagine them having a favorite thing like knitting or some shit and they legit force you to model for them, like pull you around the city, saying ‘i made this and it’s awesome bc Y/N is wearing it!’

🍰Haikyuu/Kenma

mic usage. he’d make you wear the headset and absolutely destroy your insides while his friends get to listen.

here’s some more content of me!

#bnha fanfiction #bnha x reader #mha x reader #mha smut #reader insert #genshin x reader smut #haikyu imagines #haikyu x reader #haikyuu x self insert #genshin impact #genshin impact x reader #genshin x reader #mha fanfiction #haikyuu!! #genshin impact smut #genshin smut #mha #genshin x you #fire force #fire force x y/n #fire force x you

[buoyantsaturn]

13 17 21!

hiiiii katherine!!!

13. What is a subject matter that is incredibly difficult for you write about? What is easy?

relationship angst is actually very difficult for me bc like. i dont know whats reasonable for couples to fight about bc ive never been a part of a couple lmao. like whats a disagreement and whats a fight and whats enough to break you up like yeah i know the red flags and whatever but i genuinely am the last person who should be writing romance fics lmao.* easy is usually anything where people are just like joking around and picking on each other although i WILL say that i take a million years to workshop jokes and yes my mutuals suffer from it. that being said the ass eating joke in the camp counselors au is still the funniest thing ive ever written and i still cry laughing every time i go back and reread the conversation that made that joke happen in alabanda

17. Talk to me about the minutiae of your current WIP. Tell me about the lore, the history, the detail, the things that won’t make it in the text.

my CURRENT wip (technically 2 most current wips) are secrets. the things that i Can tell you include: wip #1 is an extension of something i absolutely ADORED writing but continuing it makes me nervous bc like. you know how sequels are rarely as good as the original? i suffer greatly from that syndrome in my writing imo so it might be 1. worse for people to read (and yes i know i know yall will read whatever i write and will love it with your whole hearts but thats not the point) and 2. less enjoyable for me to write :/ but im having fun planning it right now at least!! i even got a new idea for it right when i got home from work so that was just jotted down in the planning doc :3

and wip #2 is a surprise! it is a very very new idea that is also technically not even My idea but i Got the idea by reading two entirely different fics (like not even both by the same author, and i doubt the two people even know or know of each other) and it was kind of like. what if i take THIS aspect of this writing decision and incorporate it into THAT storyline to explore how things might differ. and i have no idea how the end result is going to turn out bc i did Most of the planning at 11pm last night after working a 9 hour shift and then practicing my bass for like 2 more hours so. i might have to rework the whole thing anyway and may not even post it at all <3 we shall see <3

21. Could you ever quit writing? Do you ever wish you could? Why or why not?

i will admit i have Thought about quitting. I could never quit writing Altogether bc like ive said before ive been writing fun little stories literally for my entire life but like. right after i graduated college i was like. i should really stop paying so much attention to fandom and fic writing and focus more on like. finding a real job that isnt at a tourist trap that doesnt respect me and i kept telling myself not to plan too much further ahead in the year with my fics because who even knows if i'll be writing fic come october or november of 2021 (lmao) so like. i kind of did try to at least slow down my writing and that. failed miserably lmao. but i have decided that actually no i do not want to stop! writing makes me happy and its something that i enjoy doing and i think it keeps my brain active and gives me something worthwhile to do while im relaxing on the rare chance that i get a day off from work. i DO wish i could write more of my own original stuff but i simply do not have the brain space for creating original characters and relationships and such which is why i feel so comfortable putting the pjo characters into so many wildly insane new situations. at least that way it FEELS like i'm being original and creative even if im just playing around with the same puppets in front of a bunch of different cartoon backgrounds <3

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#*that being said. one c.j. available free to a good home #ask #katherine #ask meme #yrbeecharmer #for some reason your url no longer pops up whenever i try to search for your blog AND when i try to type the tag. wack.

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i want fic where nxx polycule where it's like the team's respect for artem's boundaries + artem's idiocy = monumental sexual frustration for everybody involved

wc: 864

so this idea has been swimming in my head for a while where like, the nxx polycule is established and theyre all in love and there are bumps in the road of course but everybody works through them because they want to make each other happy.

thing is tho, they havent all fucked each other yet in every permutation bc 1) scheduling is a nightmare (5 adults fully employed in different fields? on GODS i know coordinating schedules is a hellish activity) and also bc 2) everybody has got their own pace, irt wanting to explore sex

marius and vyn are slutting it up fastest, i think. mc is right behind them, and luke, a bit hesitant but also very very game, is behind her. and artem?

artem draws a boundary clearly and very early on that hes not sure yet if he wants to have sex at all, hes still thinking about it. like, he realized that hes demisexual and hes attracted to all of them, yes, but this is his first time being attracted to ANYBODY EVER. quite literally, this is not only his first relationship, it's also the first time hes experiencing this kind of desire and he asked the team for some time to figure it out.

of course, the team understand fully and tell him that no matter what, they all still love him. and they mean it!! even if sex isnt on the table ever with artem involved, thats not gonna change any of their feelings and commitment towards him.

artem is hugely touched by how considerate everybody is and maybe he cries about it because with them, he doesnt have to worry about being "correct" or whatever else societal bullshit expectations on relationships there are. hes just allowed to Be, and hes loved all the same.

so things go swimmingly for a while!!

but then artem takes a yoga class

and one day it goes over a bit late and he goes to an nxx meeting still in his attire and everybody is LOOKING RESPECTFULLY

OR TRYING NOT TO LOOK AT ALL

because lord, protect the nxx team's lustful jezebel gazes from artem wing's YOGA PANTS DICK OUTLINE OF ENORMOUS SIZE.

of course, of COURSE, they do not push artem or speak inappropriately about it to artem or even look at his clothed kickstand dick after the first glance.

but they are in shambles about it.

after some communication, the others learn that artem is definitely okay with being talked about when the others are fucking, and thus the rest of the team start having sex while sexily discussing Not So Little Artem

thing is, artem keeps showing up to meetings or hangouts in outfits that are not leaving anything up to imagination in regards to how fucking huge that dick is. the team is having a hard (HA!) time but, again, they love artem so much, so they do not push.

unbeknownst to them that artem is actually down to clown now, hes thought about it, hes ready and VERY MUCH WANTS TO. but also hes shy and stupid and doesnt know how to say this clearly so he just takes cues from like, a cosmo magazine sex tips article or something

"Be coy!" the magazine article says. "Show your lover a taste and see if they'll take the bait!"

AND LIKE, artem follows this ridiculous advice because hes worried hes a boring lover!!! and he doesnt want to be a boring lover!!!! and so all i want is just a much too long and silly fic thats basically like

artem: theyve been so accommodating to me and i want to thank them for that by being....exciting and enticing. yes, i could communicate clearly but would they be bored with that? i dont want to be a boring partner....

vyn, marius, luke, and mc: //renaissance painting depicting lusty despair

(after enough comedy misunderstandings, they all do end up communicating eventually and then sex scene resolution where everybody is in attendance, wahoo!!!

but also i staunchly headcanon that since artem's dick is so goddamn huge, hes only got enough in that thing for ONE COME PER HOUR (1 cmph)

so like, not everybody is gonna get a literal taste. some compromise will have to happen. marius calls dibs on sucking artem off and he cites that his headgame is the BEST and so he DESERVES TO GO FIRST but also that artem needs to tap out when hes about to come so that marius will stop bc if he does come down marius' throat, theyll have to schedule another google calendar event like next fucking week.

vyn takes one for the team and says hes fine waiting to get dicked down to the stratosphere so that leaves luke and mc to flip a coin for whos getting railed.

it's the most tense coin flip ever. civil war between the besties.

and needless to say, artem's first time is a blast. he loves these people so so much.)

#tears of themis #artem wing #tot artem #zuo ran #tears of themis headcanons