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profoundbondfanfic · 5 months

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The Hanged Man

The Hanged Man by orphan_account Rating: Mature Word Count: 87k

After Park Ranger Cas Novak saves a mysterious stranger named Dean from an attempted murder in the woods, he finds himself drawn into the man's secretive life. Someone tried to kill Dean, but he's not telling who. In fact, he's barely speaking at all. If he's going to have any hope of helping Dean, Cas will have to convince the man to trust him — all while trying not to fall in love with him along the way.

From the start, a hint of the supernatural offers readers a mystery that takes twists and turns you'll never expect. Dean is found by Park Ranger Castiel hanging from a tree. It's suspected to be a suicide, and since when Dean recovers, he won't speak, no one knows that it was actually his father who hung him by force.

Dean is terrified, damaged, and has so many trust issues it would take the most patient person in the universe to wade through them. Fortunately, Cas is the most patient person in the universe.

Dean slowly comes out of his shell the longer he's with Castiel, beginning to speak a word or two but only to Cas, and doing some mechanic and general work at the park ranger's station. Bobby, the lead park ranger, takes a special interest in him, giving him work and even paying him a little under the table since no one knows exactly who Dean is.

But when his father is spotted searching for him, Dean tries to run, coming back to Cas only with the promise of safety and protection. But when the truth about Dean's origins comes to the surface it's darker than Castiel could have ever imagined.

As their feelings grow, Dean and Cas find comfort in each other as the rest of the world unravels around them. A gorgeous story of love, hope, and survival.

#destiel #fic rec #mature #50k to 100k #au #modern setting #domestic #hurt and comfort #mute #hurt!dean #soft!dean #strangers to lovers #slow burn #protective!castiel #abusive family #ptsd #The Hanged Man #Author: orphan_account

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jasmines-library · 7 months

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Let It Linger

WHUMPTOBER 2023: Prompt: shock/dissociation.

Fandom: Supernatural

Summary: after a rough hunt resurfaces some unwanted memories, you slip into your own mind. But Sam is there to help you through it.

Warnings: Dissociation, ptsd, mild depression, character death.

Word count: 1.1K (short but sweet.)

Note: not too keen on this one but it was written in a hurry. Not my best work - not proof read.

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The hunt couldn’t have gone more wrong.

You had been hunting a shtriga; a nasty, humanoid creature that feeds off of a human’s lifeforce- usually a childs. This one had attached itself to a young girl no more than five or six. The issue with shrtrigas was that they were hard to kill, only vulnerable once feeding. So, much to your reluctance, the three of you were forced to rely on allowing the creature to feed on the girl so that you could lace it full of iron rounds.

You watched through the crack in the wardrobe as the window slid open, pushed by a bony, tree-like hand. The shtriga floated across the room, positioning itself above the small girl. You watched wide eyed as her life drained out of her body slowly, white tendrils drifting into the air like smoke and into the creature's scarred face. You pushed the door open and slipped out of the small space, cocking your pistol and standing behind the shtriga. You aimed, finger poised on the cold and worn trigger. But then your eyes settled on the pained expression of her fragile body as the creature continued to feed. And you froze.

The creature loomed above the girl who lay helpless in the bed before you. It was tall and shrivelled with dark eyes. You watched frozen as the wisps rose from her body and tried into the creature's mouth. You had only stepped out for a minute to get some water.

You screamed, a loud blood curdling scream, but still it made no move other than to hover closer to the girl. She shared some of the same features as you, your nose, your lips. Her eyes were different though. You had always admired her eyes and the way that their hues shifted as they hit the light and how they lit up when she smiled. Though now, as you stood helpless, her eyes were almost completely white, bloodshot and rolling into the back of her head. Her lips were parted as she tried to suck in air that refused to enter her lungs. You would never forget the way her body slumped back onto her pink sheets as the creature slunk back out of the window. Despite her whimpers and weak cries of your name your body refused to move. It took too long for you to snap out of your own mind and rush forwards towards your sister's limp body. She trembled as you lifted her into your arms. You rocked back and forth slowly, whispering assurances into her ear and pressing a soft kiss to her forehead. By the time the denim-clad man and his son appeared in the doorway, her heartbeat had already stopped.

The men exchanged glances before taking a step towards you. It took a while to coax anything out of you between your sobs, but after pushing they managed to get a name.

“Y/N”

“Y/N?”

“Y/N?!”

Dean was yelling at you. At some point he had scrambled out from under the bed and had gripped your shoulders tight. You flinched at the gunshot as Sam fired at the creature which howled and slunk away. Your eyes shifted from staring vacantly to Dean’s greens. Your pistol shook in your hand, so you dropped it, sending it clattering to the floor.

The room was silent. Too silent.

Pushing away from Dean you moved towards the bed where the girl lay morbidly still.

“No…No…”

Taking the girl in your arms, you cradled her head. Tears spilled from your eyes. You had fucked up. You had frozen and it had cost this girl her life.

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You were silent the whole way back to the bunker. Just staring blankly out of the rain covered windows of the Impala, knees hugged closely to your chest. The brothers both cast glances from the front seat, and had even called your names a few times, but you were seemingly oblivious to the world around you.

When you arrived back at the bunker, you almost mechanically retreated into your room to curl up on your bed.

Time didn’t seem to move. Nothing seemed to matter. You didn’t feel like you. The world around you had begun to feel like one giant blur. Your body didn’t feel like your body. You felt as though you were moving and seeing through one giant lens or through another person. Nothing seemed sane and quite frankly you didn’t even care anymore. You couldn’t stop thinking about that girl- about your little sister all those years ago.

You fiddled absentmindedly with your fingers, picking out the dirt from beneath your nails. You were laying on top of the covers with your knees pulled up to your chest. You weren’t sure how much time had passed before there was a gentle knock on the door. It barely registered in your mind and you made no move to get up to answer it, only continuing to stare blankly white wall opposite. Your lack of response made Sam furrow his brow

“Y/N?” His tone was tender but cautious.

Your eyes shifted towards the heavy sound of his boots padding across the floor. He knelt down beside you on the bed, calling your name again. There was still no reply. You moved your head when you felt his hand enclose around yours, warm and calloused against your skin. He had those puppy dog eyes set about his face as he studied you.

For a while you said nothing, just clutched onto his hand. Sam didn’t leave your side as you tried to fight through your own mind.

“Sam?”

He twisted round to face you resting his chin on the mattress so that they were inline with yours. You were silent for a moment after that. Struggling to think of what to say next. You felt a lack of control within your body. It felt like you were learning to use your body all over again.

“I’m sorry.” You mumbled. Tears cascaded down your cheeks. “I couldn’t… I just couldn’t.”

Sam wiped away your stray tears.

“It reminded me too much of her.”

“It’s okay, kiddo. We can’t save everyone.”

“But if i hadn’t-”

“Shh.” Sam cooed. “It’s okay.”

“Sam… stay with me. Please.”

“Of course.”

“No, I mean really stay with me.” You manoeuvred your body to face him. He could see the way your bloodshot eyes struggled to settle on anything for too long. He could see the tracks that your tears had left as they rolled down your cheeks. “Promise me you’ll never leave me…please.”

“I promise.”

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<- DAY SEVEN ⛤ DAY NINE ->

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#whumptober #wumptober 2023 #whunptober23 #no.8 #prompt #dissociation #shock #supernatural x reader #Sam Winchester x reader #Winchester x reader #Dean Winchester x reader #supernatural x sister reader #Sam x sister reader #Dean x sister reader #character death #minor character death #writing #depression #ptsd

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hair-fire-five-like · 6 days

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#taehyung #美尻 #clone high #dark acadamia quotes #area 51 #jeffrey dean morgan #Tokyo revengers x reader #dream daddy #generation loss #lauren summer #rhaenyra targaryen #turning red #ptsd #tangled the series #sissy ferminization

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nyxlinak · 25 days

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Dean totally has some severe PTSD from the first time Sam died in his arms at Cold Oak

#dean winchester #sam winchester #supernatural #spn #the winchester brothers #ptsd #he has some nightmare and flashback about it

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bisaster-energy · 8 months

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people who hc cas as this just. guy that helps dean with his issues and trauma. why are you living that "no one cares that you're broken cas" life. why are you not caring about him.

#this isn't even a complete thought tbh #just irks me a lil bit when cas is normal adjusted guy that helps the ever fucked up and sad dean with HIS problems #Cas has his own shit?? The only person that thinks cas is fine is cas tbh #he's like yeah Sam and Dean are so damaged...I'm ok tho *is suicidal and self-loathing*#the thing about destiel is that they are both so incredibly fucked up that's what makes it so compelling!!#u diminish cas' character by writing an au where dean is like. Spiralling while cas is some normal guy #with maybe occasional loneliness. where is the obsession #where is the ego death. where's the ptsd the generational trauma. where is the need to run away.#where is the self flagellation where is the heart shattering feeling of never quite belonging.#Disclaimer write and think wtv you want I'm just so emotional about cas being his own person and get sad and mad about it

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wisefoxluminary · 3 months

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Adam's death if Sam and Dean came to teach him a lesson.

You alright there Lucifer buddy? It looks like you're having PTSD flashbacks.

#hazbin hotel #supernatural #hazbin hotel fanart #dean winchester #sam winchester #hazbin hotel adam #charlie morningstar #hazbin hotel lucifer #i need this crossover to happen so badly #dean and sam would put him adam in his place right away #sorry niffty #someone get Lucifer the fuck out of here #he's having ptsd from years being in the cage #hazbin hotel supernatural crossover art #fangirl charlie #trust me when i tell you she's watched all 15 seasons hundred times and written 10k destiel fanfics

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simplenefelibata · 8 months

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do you ever wake up and just. think about 'so says the sword'. like. i do. i'd give half of my life to read it for the first time.

#destiel #destiel fic #supernatural #castiel #dean winchester #spn #so says the sword #komodobits #destiel fanfic #im dying #is this ptsd?#idk i jus wanna read this till the end of times

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boywifesammy · 10 months

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s5e11 sam, interrupted is THE EPISODE. it’s a fucking cinematic pipe bomb. watching it is like chewing on glass and swallowing propane. it is wonderful, it is amazing, it is EXCRUCIATING and i love it. allow me to explain.

(under the cut because i ended up rambling lol)

like, yes… it is extremely ableist. it is extremely offensive. it is an overdone harmful caricature of psych wards and horrific to watch but that is EXACTLY what makes it so good. i’ve never seen spn as a horror show but man this episode?? the psychological distress of it, the unease, the dereality??? it has me frothing at the mouth.

as someone who has tics and PTSD i have first hand experience being labelled as Crazy so that’s the lens i’m coming at this from. this episode is most definitely not a reliable source for mental health info but the way they portrayed martin’s character kinda got me. him stuttering over certain words, his general paranoia, how they clearly address that he went through a deeply traumatic event but that he’s still useful as a hunter even though he can’t do the things he used to before. i don’t think the writers intended for this episode to be viewed the way i did but man i am shaking it around in my cranium like a snow globe.

just the first few minutes of it is insane. dean acknowledging that sam was high on demon blood and that the apocalypse wasn’t his fault. seeing the absolute absurdity of the show in perspective with real life. dean admitting to his psych doctor that he's an insomniac, alcoholic, and incapable of holding long-terms relationships with his usual blase nonchalance, then immediately clamming up when she hits him with the "let's talk about your father." ??!!! i know dean is The daddy issues character but i love when they call him out like that.

and how can i Not point out the blatant assault and objectification… wendy forcefully making out with both sam AND dean. them both getting probed by the fucking monster of the week not even 10 minutes into the episode. SAM BEING TIED DOWN. i cannot explain to you how much i love seeing him restrained. the moment i saw sam tied down and angry i literally vibrated out of my skin that boy must be helpless and restrained more often it is beautiful.

on a sort of related note: high sam. yes. just yes. the little nose boop. him telling dean I Love You. getting all emotional about how much he cares about his brother. the themes of his autonomy being stripped. him being drugged up against his will when he’s a recovering drug addict????? INSANE.

also one thing that really stood out to me was dean being diagnosed as paranoid schizophrenic with narcissistic personality disorder and religious delusions. which, yes, is inaccurate, but seems more like a misinterpretation of his PTSD symptoms. dean isn’t schizophrenic but he IS paranoid and he’s trained himself so thoroughly to weaponize his feelings that even to HIMSELF he seems narcissistic, when he’s really just scared and desperate. he externalizes his self-hatred as this overfed bravado but it’s because if he was honest about how he felt about himself the guy would simply fall apart.

expanding on that note… sam&dean meta on how they react to trauma & grief. dean immediately clams up and becomes anxious and terrified. he shrouds himself in so much false confidence but he genuinely hates himself so fucking much. so much that he just sits with his pain because he thinks he deserves it, while sam wants to externalize. he’s angry and that scares him because of what’s in his blood but the truth is that he has every right to be angry. he wants to be gentle but he has so much repressed rage that it bursts out of him and leaves him terrified in the aftermath. dean on the other hand wants to be angry but he’s so scared and critical of himself that he shuts down.

and the ending. my god the ending. dean telling sam to wrap it up and stuff it down. it’s excruciating to watch because dean’s advice is fucking shit but it’s also heart-breaking because it puts into perspective just how much these boys have on their conscience.

they PHYSICALLY cannot deal with their trauma. it is so awful and overwhelming that they could not function if they remembered it, so they forget about it. they push it down. they hide it away, and it’s so fucking refreshing to have an episode that acknowledges that they do that because THAT IS A TRAUMA RESPONSE. it is quite literally a SURVIVAL tactic. people who are severely traumatized will wipe their memory of traumatic events because they cannot function with it in the peripheral. this is a clear manifestation of sam and dean’s PTSD and how when they’re faced with these problems, their emotions take over and they completely lose themselves, whether that’s due to fear or rage.

the horror of this episode isn’t the wraith. it isn’t the silly little monster sucking out people’s brains. it’s the thing inside you. it is the imagery of these people hanging or with slit wrists being passed off as suicidal because they’re mentally ill. it is the ugly truth of trauma and the ways it twists your memory and self-worth. it is the inherent belief that someone is worthless if they are psychotic or paranoid. it’s the way the episode puts that perspective on sam and dean, shows them what it’s like to hallucinate and drags up their own repressed memories and puts them on full display. it is TRULY horrifying and it is GRIM and NASTY because it is about the human psyche and the horrible ways it can be twisted. it’s a fucking phenomenal episode if you can read the subtext and get past the whole “scary psych ward bad” wrapping.

#oc #supernatural #spn meta #episode analysis #spn 5x11 sam interrupted #sam and autonomy #dean winchester #sam winchester #tw ptsd #tw sui talk #tw sa #tw drugs #hello :)#tagging triggers because this one is a bit of a doozy #i went a little bit crazy watching this episode could you tell #i am very sorry to dump my ramblings on your dash but HEAR ME OUT HERE—#anyways. ANYWAYS.

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youchangedmedestiel · 6 months

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When I write fanfiction I tend to justify every narrative or characters' choices I make because I want people to understand my choices as a writer, but I think this is not the best way to write a story so I need to improve that.

Or maybe MAYBE it's just because I'm traumatized by SPN writers who leave things open to interpretation, who knows?

#destiel #deancas #dean winchester #castiel #spn #supernatural #spn writers #fanfic writer #writing fanfiction #fanfiction author #writing is so hard #especially when you have ptsd #i'll do my best to fix that #because i just love writing about those two idiots in love #my destiel fanfic

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deadwerewolfgirlfriend · 1 year

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Supernatural 10.11 There's No Place Like Home

#supernatural #spn #supernaturaledit #spnedit #spndaily #supernaturaldaily #tvedit #my edits #deanedit #deanwinchesteredit #dean winchester #spn season 10 #this show is so good at portraying PTSD. if only they were allowed to call it that #s10 dean dealing with the mark is such a uniquely fantastic bit of writing it's a shame s15 also exists #no joke between the purgatory flashbacks in s8 and the continued unfolding of dean's bloodlust arc I think they finally understood dean #not to mention this is the first time anyone's really had to deal with trauma aside from cop-outs and shortcuts #ofc dean remembered hell the first time and had some flashbacks but those were limited to a few episodes and some torturing #it's in s10 when dean wants to torture and kill and hurt that you realize he learned how to do that in hell #s8-10 masterful dean arcs. the layering of the trauma like a fine tiramisu or perhaps a nice pastry #oh the reason this is images is not because of artistic choices (that was only later I like this better actually) the gifs were stupid #by that I mean a 20-frame gif with not many colors was refusing to compress into anything less than 10mb. so stupid

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shallowseeker · 8 months

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My favorite new thing is that even when Cas was having a psychological breakdown, he still found a way to rag on Sam about his annoying personality.

#sam & cas #sam & cas + you love your fam but don't have the LIKE them #sam & cas + coworkers that get along in front of dean #sam & cas + mutual passive-agressiveness #cas as a john mirror #sam & cas + a little alike so they fight #spn castiel #sam winchester #tfw + team dynamics #spn season 7 #cas + PTSD #sam & cas + moral flexibility #sam & cas + hilarious friendship #cas + sam of course is an abomination

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girlfriendline · 2 years

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and dean said "i forgot how to count to five"

#dean evason #mn wild #the mental image of moose and dean just staring at each other across the bench dfskjldfs #the ptsd we've all got from three games lmao #dean

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straightfromthetorturedpoetsdept · 10 months

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people getting mad headcanons to me is like getting mad at someone for playing pretend incorrectly like what do you mean i'm pretending this character is autistic incorrectly?