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cherrytree-irl · 1 month

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ooc post: considering a reboot

so. a while back i realized that this blog would probably be more interesting if it took place a few years earlier, when sylvan was still... well... a wanderer. going where he wants and doing what he wants and trying to find his place in the world. also he was immensely, terribly lonely. that's probably why he would start the rotomblr blog! but hey, what's the deal with that guy he just met?! he's super weird, but also kinda cute?! sorry, that's corny.

this change would render the blog anistar-amarena non canon and obsolete, but that blog has 2 followers so who cares. the blog rover-on-rotomblr would probably stay mostly the same, any lore changes probably would only be known by me. which is good, because people like rover.

a lot of "probably"s and "likely"s and "maybe"s because like. idfk.

below the cut are some possible pros and cons of me rebooting this blog. probably would not be deleting any posts but considering them no longer canon. if i do this, it probably will not be soon unless my poor impulse control acts up. it'll probably be in september, for reasons.

pros and cons list:

pros:

sylvan will no longer be in a state where "most of the interesting things have already happened to him." there will be drama! romance! bloodshed?! maybe not that last one. maybe a little?

he'll match his url better. he's not exactly doing any wandering right now.

sylvan and i will be around the same age. that's mostly just a pro for me as the writer. but maybe it would make syl seem more... authentic? i do sometimes worry that he doesn't act his age. but also i don't think i act my age?? anyway.

i won't have to stick to the schedules i made up for my characters in my head that no one but me is forcing me to stick to.

it's a great time for me to do retcons and rewrites and rethink all sortsa lore. technically i can do retcons whenever i want but i kinda don't like just. randomly changing shit.

possible unique designs for sylvan's pokemon? cuz like i've kinda wanted to do that but it would make all the art i've done for the blog outdated. but if everything i've done so far is non-canon anyway, then...

possibly more opportunities for audience participation

possibly more angst which people seem to consider enjoyable generally.

neutral:

linnet and her brother would be retconned out of existence. i have no strong feelings on this, but maybe you do? i doubt it!

cons:

less N probably. at least for a while. and there's already not very much N. well- less of N himself directly talking. sylvan would talk about N plenty.

i'd kinda feel sucky about throwing away all the stuff i've written so far without finishing this sylvan's story :(

despite some aspects making writing easier, writing the rebooted blog in general will probably be harder. i'll have to think of interesting things to make happen!

idele would be retconned out of existence :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

it would be setting the timeline further back, from just after X/Y to just after Black/White which could probably be mildly annoying sometimes.

man, i just realized that by the time september rolls around, i'll hopefully have a damn job! so it might be harder for me to keep up with the silly rp blogs and it might, like, slow down the action of this reboot. but that's a hypothetical.

#long post #(i think it's long anyway.)

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reesespenisbutercups · 8 months

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monthly gender rant that i usually delete the next day question mark

i think yes

got a big jumper today the gender euphoria is real!!!! cant see them titties!!!!! ive pretty much achieved tarzan level mop hair and im really enjoying it but i also am seriously debating cutting it or maybe growing it out very long (genderfluidity is actually a nightmare) i also bought very big stomping combat boots which will be here soon so thats gonna be!!!!! ill be tall. ikujymfhtdrsexrfcgvjhbkjn.

my gender is honestly so so strange but sometimes i have little moments of oh that was correct yes more of that please!!!

i would really very much like a flat chest please and thank you god but also dont some outfits just kinda go well with boobs? idfk.

i get asked what i am and like how do i explain genderfuckery to a cis person. like sorry girl i dont fit in to your tiny little boxes please dont ask as i have no idea and im content with that.

i think these past few months ive really gotten a hold of the fact that im not really fully anything. like some days ive felt very feminine, though never quite a girl, and some days im a boy.

i said i was genderfluid for a while but im not sure if that works. im not really anything else either. genderweird. like a puddle that you step in and its actually a lot deeper than you thought and woah is that the entire solar system in this water on the side of the road? yes. yes it is.

i like how i look in dresses but only sometimes and i like how i look in hoodies and jeans but i dont have a very masculine face and its always warm here.

if/when i get the chance to socially and possibly medically transition ill still be an amalgamation of parts shoved together, a little bit like a mosaic.

i dont really fit in any label, in any box, but i am still me, and its quite wonderful, actually.

#that got sweet really quickly actually #i do not expect anyone to read that rollercoaster i just like having a void to scream into #genderweird #thats it

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polyamorouspunk · 1 year

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Small... vent? Confession? Idfk?? Lil bit of a transandrophobia mention at the end, feel free to just delete this if that'll ruin your day

I've been saying for years I don't personally, for me, see the point in transitioning bc I think with my particular flavour of genderfluidity I would just be swapping one dysphoria for another

Then one of my best mates told me earlier this week he's starting T soon and I was kinda thrown by how fucking jealous I was

So yeah, guess some internal walls are crumbling down rn. Idk. Kinda contemplating going on T for a few years just to get facial hair & the voice drop? Maybe??

But also kinda scared and put off by the backlash I've seen within the community against everyone on T? But the esp shit they say about fat people on T, which I would be, is fucking terrifying. And I'll admit I'm fucking insecure about my size anyway lol. Idk if I have a thick enough skin to deal with this. Maybe that's a reason not to go ahead with anything. Idk.

I understand that. There are certain things I would want from T but not enough to warrant getting all the effects and going through the process from it. It’s either like “I occasionally get misgendered” or “I start this long and arduous process to make myself look cooler in some ways I want but ultimately change the body I feel comfortable in to something I might not be as comfortable in” so like… it’s NOT worth it for me, and I know that, as much as sometimes I wish I just “looked” more masculine.

#punk gets mail

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xxthought-thiefxx · 11 months

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Corrupted! AU - A New Friend

1 ➟ 2 (coming soon)

Notes: okay I kinda posted this before but the format kept glitching so here we go again new post entirely (formatting on tumblr is hell I’ve learned).

In the spirit of writing more post— (during?) ao3 crisis, have an AU I came up with a while ago. Think Dvalin’s corruption but make it everyone and Celestia is the source (or to those who know what this means: Underfell vibes but genshin). Lumine is the traveler but she’s not named in this part. Also the spacing is weird in the beginning cause tumblr will. fuckimg. delete/duplicate the first paragraph if it isn’t idfk why so whatever, fingers crossed it doesn’t change more stuff after posting this.

w. 702

CW: a lil’ bit of unreality ig?

Summary: Separated from her twin and weaker than ever before, the traveler awakes to a world she knows nothing about. Luckily, a new friend arrives just in time to give her a hand!

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There was almost no difference before the traveler woke and after. The sky was just as black as the back of her eyelids had been; the air just as quiet as her own unconsciousness. It was only as she shifted that she realised she was laying down, atop hot sand and jagged shells. Carefully, the traveler pushed herself up, finally noting the ocean before her, lit up only by the moon’s sickly rays. Waves gently lapped at the shore in front of her, but they made no noise.

“Hi there!”

The squeaky voice thundered through the dead silence. On instinct, the traveler reached for a sword that was no longer there and rolled to her feet—

—only to immediately stumble. She was weakened. Now that she was paying attention, she realised she was operating at but a fraction of her usual power.

What the hell did that god do?

She blinked, focusing on the fact she was no longer alone. Before her was a type of being she had never seen before. It could’ve almost passed for a person, maybe a child, but it seemed too... inhuman.

Had she been anyone else, the traveler would’ve thought it cute. But with the worlds she had seen, the experience she had gained, she knew better. The creature’s innocent grin had teeth too sharp. Its bright-eyed stare was unfathomably deep. A quick blink confirmed that her Sight still remained, an ability she frequently discarded in favour of her more impressive powers. Ironically, or perhaps fittingly, it seemed to be one of the only few she could access.

The Sight acted different in each world she encountered; for every new world she was forced to learn the new meaning assigned to each colour (another reason for its underuse— her brother was the patient one, not her). But in all the places she had been; with all the things she had seen, the traveler had never come across one colour.

Black. Not a dark grey, or an inky blue, but the most infinite of blacks she had ever witnessed. Tendrils of darkness wrapped around the flying creature, slithering over its face and spilling from its mouth, viscous as strings seemed to float through the air towards her—

She blinked again. Gone. The flying creature hovered before her. The traveler assumed she hadn’t been staring for long, and she had certainly forced her face into cooperation lest she give away her horror, but she also couldn’t know if the creature would behave appropriately if she had lost too much time.

Either way, still grinning, it swayed closer to her face.

“Paimon’s name is Paimon!” it chirped. She didn’t dare use her Sight again, not wanting to know how much of that void was making contact with her. “Who are you?”

She hesitated. She wasn’t a fool; some names had power, and some beings had power over names— there were too many reasons to withhold that information.

“I’m…” she paused, carefully choosing her next words, “I’m a traveler—”

“You’re new to Teyvat?” The creature rocketed backwards, barely letting her finish. Its expression of shock was comical and scandalised and... everything but surprised.

She considered how it had only spoke once she was visibly awake; how it had not been in her line of sight beforehand, when surely to be approached that quickly it must have been already moving over to her prone form; how the creature had never mentioned her unconsciousness despite the beach’s flatness allowing one to see all the way to the other end. She considered the convenient timing of this creature once she had awoken, confused and lost and presumably, however incorrect the presumption was, scared.

“Oh! Oh! Paimon has an idea— Paimon could be your guide!” It twirled around for added effect, splaying its palms and shaking them.

The traveler couldn’t trust this creature. She could see its frightening aura, sense its attempts of deception and was unnerved by its false innocence.

But... the traveler was also in completely unknown territory. She was virtually powerless, uncertain of what to do next and— without her brother —alone.

The traveler had never been alone.

In the end, that was all it took for her to say yes.

#fuck it I’m not proofreading again I’ll go insane #first tumblr fic let’s gooo #genshin impact #genshin #genshin fanfic #genshin impact fanfics #genshin corrupted au #genshin paimon #genshin lumine #nyx writes a thing

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fictionfixations · 3 months

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this disturbing nightmare i had at one point

i dont think i ever talked about it because it really fucked me up like holy shit what the hell

but then i just found it while doing something else. remembered it happened. and anyway its kind of interesting? one of the few nightmares with games or references to it (there was one of me building a bridge in mc creative and then i fell. or this weird field trip roller coaster fnaf nightmare). annd i typed it down

SO. its like two months old btw. i kind of still remember it but also not really

cough cough

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i had a very disturbing nightmare?? it was basically about this whole horror game

but i think it mightve been bleeding into reality?

and the last thing i remember is so basically the (PROBABLY tw warning)

we were trying to hide but like. something something, and i think we accidentally triggered the phone? so it was just constantly ringing. so we were goin to die soon. i just hear screams. i have my own phone, i type nonsense into it (keyboard smash), realize 'wait shit im gonna die' and quickly deleted it nad typed in 911. ring ring. theres a voice. its like. 'i SweAR i diDNt CheAT' and like 'DONT [blank. blank. i dont. remember . and i dont wnat to??]' and it was. terrifying. and i muted my phone.. and then me the character i was playing as screamed as they were dying. think the kind of horrifying scream from one of those terrifying vhs horror series. i think i called like. my. actual lover though? the other person we play as who was too late to save us. and. i. it. was very. disturbing. for some reason trying to leave the game browser brought me to like a really old roblox? and iwas trying to navigate to discord. ..because i wanted to share my experience there, my horror experience where i was on like a walk or something and being chased and hunted and something something. headbang.

i think my mind just got increasingly annoyed. because i kept wanting to go to discord to talk about it (whether about the game, the dream, or the 'real experience' i have no fucking clue) i remember having that urge. to. get. up. but i wasnt actually awake. so i just got increasingly confused and lost and panicked because i was trying to leave but i couldnt??

rereading this the 'type nonsense' probably doenst make sense. clarification: im viewing this as both as playing a game and also 'holy shit tHATS ME'. i was like 'fuck im dead anyway'. had that realization of 'wait shit I'M gonna die???' and did a last ditch effort to call 911. i knew though. we were. gonna die anyway though?? i had like this inventory thing i was messing around with while figuring it out and resigned to my character's death [honestly. it was probably some sort of weird time loop thing idfk except only i am aware. and i forget half the time]

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honestly. it was so confusing and horrifying. that maybe ill take this and write it into something for character angsty times

#thoughts #fear #tw nightmares #is that the right tag?#nightmares #dream sharing

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sanctified-jasper · 5 months

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If anyone leaves an unrelated comment or a comment asking about another fic in one of my fics ever again. I am legally allowed to do a violence. S2G.

FAQ

Zuko Potter

What happened, where is it? i can haz update?

No. Shan't. The sheer self entitlement from the fandom, the Harry Potter side especially was so freaking rancid, it left a massively sour taste in my mouth, I stopped having fun writing the fic, it felt like a thankless chore and all my creativity shriveled up and died. After the number of "update soon. hurry up and update." type comments, I just, got really sick of remembering it even existed. Between that and finding out the author of the source material was paying for hate crimes, on top of being a phobic rascist who took people liking her work to mean the same as people agreeing with her philosophies... I just felt deeply uncomfortable interacting with the fandom in any capacity. I had planned to delete the fic in its entirety, but I put so much goddamned work into that fic that I chose to private it instead.

So I can't read it anymore?

There's a less complete copy on FF.Net because I keep forgetting that bitch exists. It will not be updated ever again, it is as complete as it is ever going to get. That one got dropped a lot sooner than the AO3 version because no one was reading it, so I didn't see the point in double posting.

How do we get the AO3 version back.

Wait for JKR to die? ... or make me a TV Tropes page? IDFK. If you could find a way to stop people from being an asshole in the comments forever I might republic it for that.

Sew Long, Fair Well

Is it dead?

Alas. There's part of the next chapter written, but I got a guy in the comments who thought "you should do this that and the other thing and also make my waifu the main character. Stop telling me she's 2 years old and make her the main character. You're just a bitch and I slap bitches like you all day long. Kill yourself or prove yourself to me, what are you going to do, you can't stop me from reading it." was acceptable behaviour. Decided to shelve it for a few weeks and came back only to realise I wasn't just being petty, I was suffering Burnout. (Which would go on to last almost 2 years.)

So... are you coming back to it. Like, ever?

Oh I hope so. But probably put it in your sub feed and forget about it... maybe pray. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#blog faqs #first post for pinned post #zuko potter #sew long fair well #Sanctified_Jasper

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oflgtfol · 3 years

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i just cannot emphasize enough how utterly alienating it is to be aspec, especially aromantic, especially non-ace aromantic. like i have never ever ever met another aro person in real life. i know of maybe five ace people but i never personally talked to them, and i have never even knowingly been in the same room as another aromantic person

and everywhere i look there's reminders that i'm not like literally any other person i know in life. love songs on the radio, plotlines in tv shows and movies, family members asking me when i'm going to start dating, my peers in school pestering me about crushes when we were kids and then as we grew up they all started dating and even getting MARRIED? the whole narrative that's pushed in all these things - media, people i know irl - saying that everyone has that "special someone" they'll meet one day, that life isn't worth living without that someone. i was told as a kid both implicitly and explicitly that the only way to be happy in life is if i grow up, marry a nice man, settle down in a house with a white picket fence and have 2.5 kids together. the existential terror i felt when i realized that that wasn't going to be my future, that i was never going to live that life. i was ten years old and feeling like i will never be happy in life, i'm going to die alone and nobody will even notice i'm gone. laying awake every night praying to god to make me normal like everyone else just so i can know what it means to be happy. and through all of this over all these years, i can never talk about it to anyone because at worst, i'll be called stupid or evil or soulless, or worse i'll be pitied because oh, poor me will be alone and sad for the rest of my life isn't that so sad. and at best i'll simply be faced with blank looks and uncomfortable glances and an awkward change in topics because nobody else knows what the fuck i'm talking about because they have never had to question it before.

and then the ONE (1) space where i can finally see that there are people like me, i'm not alone i'm not soulless and evil because there are other people like me....... we're made the butt of all jokes. people make war criminal moodboards with our flags, mock our experiences, tell us we need therapy or that we're this way because of trauma, that we're sick in the head and the heart. people send anon hate and sexual harassment over DMs and even target MINORS with these things. and i reblog one thing about being ace when i was like 15 and i get one rude ask about it and suddenly i'm terrified to talk about being aspec at all in case one day it'll get worse, more intense than just a single rude anon. and i go years staying silent on my own blog, which is the one place i can feasibly talk about it. to the point that even though i so desperately want to meet other aspec people irl, i feel like if/when that happens i won't even be able to talk about any of these things because i'm so used to just keeping my mouth shut. that when i'm finally presented with someone who's like me, i won't even know what to do because it's never happened before

it's to the point where i don't even fucking care about lgbt inclusion vs. exclusion anymore because either way, nobody actually cares. even most inclusionists never actually listen to us and any time i try to actually connect with other lgbt people i always feel so absolutely alien in these spaces because either i'm going to be met with hostility and active exclusion or i'm going to be "welcomed" but not actually listened to and then i'm just gonna sit in the back of the room silently and never actively participate so am i even like, included at that point? isn't that just another form of exclusion? so i really only ever feel a sense of belonging in explicitly aromantic spaces - but, again, the problem is i have never ever met another aro person irl and our spaces online (the only spaces that exist at all!!) are consistently ridiculed and mocked and harassed so like. lol 💚

#i was so much worse off about this just like a few years ago. the best thing i ever did for myself was start to be loud about it #i set my blog icon to the aro flag and now i can never go back lol #ive identified as aro since i was 13 and it's only since i was like.... almost 18 that i finally feel like. AT HOME in this #right before i started doing this i felt so utterly fucked up all the time i felt literally inhuman #i felt like an imposter. some monster masquerading with a human face and deluding everyone around me into thinking im one of them #i still feel like that nowadays its just.... not as bad as it used to be #and that is entirely because i started getting more involved with aro stuff on tumblr #i started going into the tag more i followed a few blogs i set my blog icon to the flag #and only now can i think about this part of myself and feel anything warm about it at all #brot posts #aro tag #delete soon maybe idfk #because i still cant ever even talk about being aro in these ways without feeling that utter panic LOL #im better about talking about it in jokes and quips but any sort of deep meaningful conversations still make me shake like a chihuahua

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blxetsi · 3 years

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modern hange zoe dating headcanons

lowercase intended !

hange zoe x gn!reader

- first, their love language is definitely a mix of physical touch and verbal affirmations

- idc idc theyre the best of both worlds 🤩

- you prefer verbal affirmations over physical touch (or vice versa) ? their immediately making a mental note and showing u love with whichever one u like more

- i think they'd be a scientist or researcher ?? maybe they'd study the human body or like global warming ?? idfk but would definitely go into the science field

- also i personally love the idea of moblit and them being together 😳🤚 idk i love the idea

- but since YOU are with miss hange id like to think they stayed friends after the breakup 😌✨ theyre both mature ppl (and hot)

- moblit is always third wheeling w you guys. you and hange could be making out and he'd sit there with his iced coffee like 😐

- hange i feel is a very forgetful person, so like, dates and stuff (things made on a sort of short notice) they tend to forget about, but things like birthdays and anniversaries are NEVER forgotten

- ofc they'll make it up to you after you call them from the restaurant youve been waiting in for over an hour

- but sometimes it does hurt that they value their work so much, you love that they find joy in what they do and are dedicated, but it just feels like they prioritize work over you

- and hange understands ! and they start trying to be on time for things like that. is also constantly reassuring you at random times that they love and care about you

- also loves to spoon you. will literally wrap around you like a koala in bed. doesnt matter if its too hot and youre both immediately sweating, will trap you with their insane amount of strength and never let you go until either they wake up or you wake up begging to use the restroom

- i feel like when theyre working from home (which is everyday in a pandemic 🙄 even tho these headcanons arent really structured around pandemic modern times) they forget to eat/drink when they get reeeaaaallllyyyy into what theyre researching

- could be on the verge of discovering a new genetic mutation (idk) while also being on the verge of passing out due to dehydration

- theyll come out for dinner and be like "yknow ive been having this weird headache all day"

- "probably because you havent drank any water today"

- will stare at you like "🤨" before replying "nah i dont think so 😹"

- you have to threaten letting them starve to get them to drink some water. and as soon as they do theyre chugging three cups

- five minutes later theyre like "babe ! it worked ! youre awesome"

- lots of pet names like babe/baby, my love, my darling (in a dramatic english accent), honey, and any others that youd prefer

- has a weird love for the cartoon archer (yknow that adult show with like 10 seaons ??)

- will literally no nothing about the plot or characters, and will only put the show on for background noise while theyre doing something, but will ALWAYS recommend archer to others and say its their favourite cartoon if asked

- also loves the amazing world of gumball (you got them into it) actually watches the show and loves it, yet never thinks of it when asked "what shows should i watch ?" or "what are some shows you like ?"

- if youre like, an artist or something like that, they genuinely LOVE anything you make

- you made them a little painting ? theyre hanging it up in their apartment. you created a clay vase or something ? buying flowers to put in it rn (doesnt even take care of the flowers but yk)

- if youre having a bad day theyre dropping everything for you (unless its super important then theyre saying "how about i move my work to the bed and we can cuddle ?")

- if you need to rant theyre actively listening while trying to work. will accidentally start typing what youre saying onto their word document. ends up having to delete three whole paragraphs about that bitch at work smh 🙄🤚

- loves taking showers/ baths w you (NEVER in a sexual way though) they genuinely find it fun to wash each other's hair and stuff. if you ask them to wash your back theyre shoving their hands in your armpits and tickling you like,, mf ill fall and take us both down 😐

- definitely an ass/thighs person. doesnt matter how big or small, loves it.

- also a dish collector in their room. their room and office are in the same space, so youll find them with cups and plates on their desk where their research is supposed to be like bae,,, i think youre growing a new kind of mold 😍🦠💥

- talks so passionately abt their work and coworkers to you. theres this new intern at their job and hes the sweetest and brightest kid they know. his names armin and they speak about him SO highly

- also has a really cold nose ?? u love to kiss it bc it makes them shiver bc of the temperature difference

- has weirdly soft hands. youd think theyd be kinda rough bc of all the weird shit they touch for "science" but no. the hands are perfect

- doesnt know how to take care of things around the house (like handy stuff) so they beg levi to come over.

- he reluctantly does bc hes their friend but will nod at you as soon as he walks in and says "i hope hange isnt being too annoying today"

- immediately youll defend them and say zoe hange could never annoy you bc hange is the love of ur life and all he'll do is say "youre lucky then. i envy you."

- you and hange both know hes using his dry humour, but as punishment hange follows him around the place and annoys him even further

- also tries to convince you to get a dog at the weirdest of times ???

- itll be three in the morning and theyll just whisper in your ear "we should get a dog"

- theyre allergic to cats so if you suggest that they say "no ill die if i go near one"

- if youre allergic to dogs theyll say "okay fine a baby then"

- "how will we get one ?"

- "we'll steal it. or go looking through a dumpster"

- what did they say 😳😳⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️

- you shut down any ideas of a dog or baby for a long while after that

- loves squeezing your cheeks, and would love if you did it to them too

- will literally just sit in bed squishing them and request you do the same. so you both just sit facing each other criss crossed, squishing each others faces while giggling

- ive made this pretty long already so this is it ! but yes, they love u through and through

a/n

second headcanon babyyy !!! hope u all enjoyed !! my asks r open if u wanna request something !! (also please request something 😭😭😭 )

#attack on titan x reader #attack on titan #attack on titan fanfiction #aot imagines #attack on titan headcanons #hange zoe #hange zoë #hange zoë x reader #levi ackerman #levi ackerman x reader #armin arlert #hange zoe x reader

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psycho-slytherin · 4 years

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Strangers ch. 42

Yoongi confronts your attacker, and you awaken from one nightmare into another.

Pairing: Idol!Yoongi x Actress!Reader

Word count: 1.9k

Genre: fluff, angst, idfk

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“What? Who the fuck are you? Get out of my house before I call the police!” The redhead reaches for the door in an attempt to close it, but Yoongi’s hold is too strong. He’s been waiting for this moment for two weeks– and he won’t let the opportunity slip away.

“You don’t know me, Seoyeon? And here I thought you were a fan.” With his free hand, Yoongi reaches up and pulls down his mask. Seoyeon’s sneer falls in an instant, replaced with the look of utter shock and adoration that Yoongi knows so well.

“Yoon-Suga? Wait, oh- oh my god. Oh my god. Oh my-” Seoyeon’s eyes roll up into her head and she keels over backwards, hitting the floor with a heavy thump.

Well, that was quick. Y/n fainted too, Yoongi remembers, when she first saw him. Looking at the fallen girl, part of Yoongi wants to feel sympathy for her. After all, she’s a fan.

But then he remembers Y/n shaking as she told Yoongi what the woman in front of him had done to her. He remembers every time he saw his friend flinch at a light breeze, the tremor in her voice when she explained that scar on her leg, and his own fear at finding Y/n’s bloody coat in the river.

All because of her. And so Yoongi lets himself into the house, quietly closing the door behind him as he waits for her to wake up.

It had taken D two weeks to find Kang Seoyeon’s name and address from nothing more than the photo Yoongi had gotten off of Lisa’s laptop. Only now, as he stares at the woman’s motionless frame, Yoongi wonders if she really could have been capable of hurting Y/n like that. She’s pretty, petite, and vaguely reminds Yoongi of a pixie.

Another minute passes before Seoyeon begins to shift groggily. “Wha…”

“I’m not helping you up,” Yoongi says shortly.

Seoyeon’s head snaps up, her piercing eyes capturing Yoongi’s own. “Suga. Suga! It really wasn’t a dream?” She scrambles to her feet, reaching forward, and Yoongi suddenly feels as though he’s about to be eaten alive.

“I knew it,” Seoyeon whispers reverently. “Cap said you’d come to me. We’re meant to be.”

Y/n’s right– she’s psycho.

Yoongi feels darkness pooling in his heart, and loathing bubbling to the surface. “I don’t care what you think is meant to be. But there’s someone I do care about– and you deserve to rot in prison for what you did to her.”

“I- what… oh!” Seoyeon lowers her arms, an eerie smile growing on her face, much too wide to seem genuine. “You mean Y/n?”

Yoongi growls– a low, animalistic rumble– as he takes a step closer. “You tried to kill her.”

“But- ah,” Seoyeon seems to wince at the cold fury in his voice. Good. “I did it to protect you! Y/n thinks you belong to her, but you don’t!” Faster than Yoongi can react, Seoyeon’s hands shoot out and grab Yoongi’s shoulders with a grip forceful enough to hurt, the smile never leaving her face. “You belong to me, to us, Suga! To ARMYs!”

Shit. She’s stronger than he expected. But perhaps…

“Don’t. Touch. Me.” Yoongi says, lacing a note of authority into his tone. Unbelievably, Seoyeon’s grip loosens, and Yoongi uses the opportunity to push her hands away from him.

I don’t belong to anyone,” Yoongi continues forcefully, watching Seoyeon seem to shrink before him. “And nothing gives you the right to hurt her!”

Seoyeon pauses, and the house is dead silent for an eternal minute. “Nothing?” She begins snickering– quietly at first, but soon enough she doubles over with laughter. “You really don’t know what’s going to happen to your pretty little girlfriend, do you?”

It’s as though Yoongi’s blood has turned to ice. “What?”

“Ooh, you don’t know! Well, Cap said not to say…” Seoyeon pretends to think.

Yoongi grinds his teeth together in frustration; he knows he’s being baited, but if Y/n’s in danger… “Tell me.”

Seoyeon’s eyes are blown out as she stares at Yoongi, licking her lips. “I’d consider it a favor. I’d be willing to do you a lot of favors, you know. I’m… very good at favors.”

Yoongi’s stomach lurches. He doesn’t want to know what Seoyeon would do to him. “Don’t give me more reasons to call the cops. I could have you arrested.”

Seoyeon laughs again. “For what?”

“Attempted murder isn’t enough?” Yoongi fires back. “You nearly killed Y/n, you bi-”

“There’s no evidence. No one saw anything– I’m untouchable.” Seoyeon advances menacingly. “But you know who isn’t? Y/n.”

Yoongi opens his mouth to– he’s not sure; Question? Yell? Threaten?– when his phone buzzes in his pocket. He winces, unwilling to tear his eyes from the predator before him. Still, it could be Y/n– and Yoongi’s been worrying over her condition. He places himself between Seoyeon and the door before answering his phone, eyes never leaving hers.

“Yes?”

“Yo, Gloss, that girl you got me tracking down with the shitty dye job?”

Oh, it’s just his old friend. “D, I’m busy, let me call you later.”

“Nah, man, you gotta hear this. You’re gonna like it.”

Seoyeon stands motionless before him. Yoongi’s time before his driver bursts in is almost up and he hasn’t gotten a confession. “Fine. What is it?”

“Remember that photo of you and your girl that went viral a while back?”

How could he forget? The infamous picture from that night got him and Y/n into the whole publicity mess and changed their relationship forever.

“I was tracking Seoyeon’s IP address and digging through her socials… dude, the original photo came from one of her accounts.”

Yoongi’s blood turns to ice as D continues: “A bunch of these ARMY girls have backup accounts, and this one’s hers. You’ve got a stalker, my man.”

Could it be true? Had Kang Seoyeon followed Yoongi to the hospital and found Y/n? Were her injuries and trauma his fault?

Yoongi swallows, feeling the wave of anxiety almost drown him before he pushes it away. Not now.

“Thanks for letting me know,” he manages.

“No worries. Yo, what’s wrong? Are you-” Beep. Yoongi hangs up and shoves the phone into his pocket. “Now, where were we? Oh, right. You were going to tell me everything you know about Y/n and anyone that could hurt her.”

Seoyeon laughs, a pitched, wild noise. “Excuse me? Who said I’d tell you anything?”

Yoongi barely has to lean forward until he’s so close that Seoyeon needs to tilt her head up to look at him. “I did.”

Yoongi can hear her breath catch, practically seeing the wheels turning in her head. If she’s truly as obsessive as he thinks she is…

After a pause, Seoyeon grins. “Fine. Cap’s gonna hate me, but fine. I’ll tell you everything, and just in case you think I’m bullshitting, I’ll show you I mean business… for a price.”

Yoongi blinks. Is she bluffing? Could Y/n really be in danger? Am I in danger too?

“So? What’ll it be?”

Y/n. It’s for Y/n. But is it worth it?

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“Help! Help me!” A garbled, genderless voice yells.

“I’m trying!” You cry, running through the empty streets. The voice echoes around every corner. “Tell me where you are! I don’t know how to help you!”Suddenly you trip, falling hard. The pavement has turned into your bed, your legs tangled in the sheets.

“No one needs help from a traitor,” the same voice says from inside your head. “A liar.”

You struggle to rise, but your mattress seems to envelop you, pulling you in, and instead of soft sheets and down you’re surrounded by ice, unable to find purchase.

“I’m not a liar!” You scream, scrabbling for grip as the ice rises past your shoulders. Goosebumps erupt on your flesh and you begin shivering violently, the only movement the ice will allow. “T-t-tell me ho-w to f-find you!”

“Find me?” The ice finishes swallowing you whole, the gaping chasm closing above your head. You know you shouldn’t be able to breathe but your chest still rises and falls with the desperate action. “All you have to do… is look in a mirror.” The ice beneath your feet disappears and you’re dropped into the yawning darkness. You blink and the area is suddenly flooded with light. You’re in a jail cell, empty except for a large mirror. You feel something dry and sweet in your mouth, and when you glance at the mirror…

Lisa stares back at you, a pastry between her teeth. You spit it out, reaching forward. Lisa mirrors you, her hand outstretched.

“Where are you?” You murmur, watching as your words escape Lisa’s mouth. Suddenly her lips in the mirror curl into a smirk.

“I’m right in front of you. I always have been.”

“No!” Your eyes fly open, your heart thundering. You clutch at your chest, feeling as though the hand is holding your very being from falling to pieces. Fumbling for your phone, you wince at the bright screen before noticing the time. 4:00– well, it’s longer than you’ve managed to sleep all week. You groan at yet another nightmare, falling back onto your pillow with a sense of defeat. You hate this fear within you, but what can you do? Lisa’s gone and the redhead may have gotten to her. The detective told you not to worry, but how can you not worry? And now your mom is cutting you off, and you might have to drop out, and Lisa is gone, and it seems like the only constant left in your life is Yoongi.

Yoongi. You chuckle hollowly, falling back onto your pillow. He’s the least consistent person you know, but at least he’s always been there for you.

Ignoring your stomach’s rumbling protests, you close your eyes and turn over, praying sleep takes you again.

And take you it does– sweet, dreamless sleep captures you and when you blearily awake again it’s with sunlight streaming through your windows. It must be late in the morning already. Your phone buzzes obnoxiously with what sound like dozens of notifications.

Maybe I should just delete Twitter, you muse defeatedly as you flip over your phone, scrolling mindlessly through your mentions. Right away, you notice something strange:

@bangtan_thotyeondan: yo I hated on @yourname at first but tbh that was a brutal move by #SUGA :(

@armyteez23: I told @queerqueen this would happen! @yourname deserves better umu

@captainkookie21: I told you @BTS_twt @yourname

@dduddudude: Y’all feeling bad for @yourname when the bitch had it coming all along

@bangtan-news: (1/3)BREAKING! #SUGA announces the relationship with @yourname is OVER! A thread:

@bangtan-news: (2/3)In an exclusive interview, #SUGA discussed the break from @yourname and his new girlfriend, @seoyeonnie-loves-bts!

@bangtan-news: (3/3) @yourname has not released a statement on the situation. Stay tuned!

Your jaw drops. The relationship is over? New girlfriend? What... what happened? You click on the linked profile and check @seoyeonnie-loves-bts’s most recent post– it’s just a photo with a heart caption.

You suddenly feel sick. The- it- it’s…

“You.” You whisper, all blood draining from your face. “You. And…”

The photo is of a beautiful redheaded girl. Her. She’s beaming, fingers interlaced with those of a very familiar man.

You stare into Yoongi’s eyes in the photo, trying desperately to see something that isn’t there. You struggle for a second to form words, barely able to breathe. “You.”

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surveys-at-your-service · 5 years

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Survey #238

“crimson calligraphy written on the trees, creature from the grave, headless and hellbent for me.”

Have you ever played golf? Like, mini-golf. Is there a lake near your house? No, but there's two small ponds down the road. Have you ever made your own pizza or pasta dough? No. Have you ever watched an entire season of a tv show in one day? Uhhhhh how long are the first few seasons of Supernatural? Because Jason and I fucking binged it, and I honestly think that's partially the reason I don't even enjoy TV anymore. Like I liked the show, but jfc it became torture at some point. Not his fault at all, I just never pointed it out. BUT ANYWAY, it's definitely possible we did. What did you have for dinner tonight (or last night)? A ham and cheese hot pocket. Do your parents do things that ‘embarrass’ you? This is so mean, but my mom makes the cringiest jokes and such imo that gives me mad secondhand embarrassment. Do you like any Bon Jovi songs? Yeah, a decent handful. Who was the last person you were in a car with? Mom. Do you give people second chances? Ha, more than "second." How’re things between you and your most recent ex? We're totally great. Really as if we didn't even break up, considering I mean... nothing emotionally has changed. We just know that being together right now isn't the wise decision. It's frustrating as hell, though. We've already established we're not going to "wait" for each other, but neither of us are actively looking for a new partner, either. I want her, and from what I can tell, she wants me, too. We kinda just... don't talk about how unfair it all is anymore because we both get too upset. I was even supposed to go up there with her and her fam for her birthday and Christmas, but that's changed because she and I agree it's too soon after splitting, making it only more difficult to be around each other. We'd want to cuddle and kiss and such by instinct, so we're trying to wait until the wound isn't as fresh. Though honestly, I don't know how visiting period would go consider as said, there has been zero change in romantic attraction. Ugh yeah I just hope she figures out what she wants and all and we can get back together. Have you been to a wedding this year? No. I'm going to my half-sister's next year, though. Are you an aunt or uncle? Yes, and another niece is on her way. :') Do you expect to be married in the next two years? Probably not. What season is your birthday in? Winter. Have you ever been hunting? Fuck that shit. How often do you walk around barefoot? Always in my own house + in other houses if I'm allowed to take my shoes off. When you eat take-out, do you just eat it out of the containers provided? Usually, but it does depend on what food it is. Ex., those little boxes that have rice in them from Chinese places? I'm using a bowl. From the container is just messy. Would you need to sleep with someone before considering marrying them? Nah. Do you carry condoms? No. Would you date someone who has a hearing aid? ... Yes...? "No" is just... so rude?? Like that is something the person absolutely cannot help, nor is it a HUGE thing. It's just a hearing aid, dude. How organized are the files on your computer? Pretty decent. Folders and such. Could be better still, probably. Have you ever been to a strip club? Nah, not my scene. Have you ever brought home a stray animal? Pleeeeenty of cats. Are you physically strong? No, especially not my legs. I've got a newborn fawn's legs, jc. Still working on building the muscle back up. Would you date someone with braces? Oh my god, fuck off. Yes I would. I was the person with braces dating someone without them, so 1.) I obviously can't say shit, 2.) they're taking care of their goddamn teeth, and 3.) I dunno, wearing braces has no goddamn impact on personality???????????? Does scuba diving interest you? Not to an incredible degree, but it'd be cool. Would you ever ask your parents for relationship advice? Maybe for certain topics. Do you think people look up to you? Y'know that "oh no hunty WHAT is u doin" meme??? That's me if someone does. How often do you have trouble sleeping at night? *blinking* There are people who don't??????? Do you blush easily? Ohhhhhh yes. Do you get angry at yourself or at others more often? Hm. Not sure. Can you name five current world leaders? AHAHA nope. How many times have you had the flu? Zero. Do you think imagination is valuable? Oh hell yes. We would be NOWHERE CLOSE to where we are as animals without it. Who or what are you most impatient with? I don't know. When was the last time you mowed a lawn? Never. Have you seen all of the Star Wars films? No; seen only the first three with a friend and saw zero appeal. He didn't either. How about all of the Harry Potter ones, so far? I haven't even seen one. Jason and I started the first one together but. Paid way more attention to each other than the movie lmfao. What part of the newspaper do you typically enjoy reading? None. I collect my school's papers now though 'cuz I'm the photographer for it. :') Have you ever made a website, even a simple one? Four that I remember. The ancient and now-defunct ones were back when I think this site called Wetpaint was a host for simple sites, and a lot of us RPers posted our mob info and stuff there. I had one for Talons, one for Connrads. Ha, out of curiosity, I think I looked for them not all too long ago since I never actually deleted them, but I think the site itself was re-purposed. NOW, I have a Wix site for my photography, and then Kalahari Manor is a ProBoards-hosted site. Which was better: your childhood or your teen years? Jfc, childhood. Teen years were a chaotic and rancid cesspit in terms of mental health. What was your reaction to your first time falling in love? I truly imagine that realizing I was *in love* with Jason surpassed what a high probably feels like lmao. What does it take for someone to win your heart? I'm actually putting thought into this one and I think what appeals to me in a person most is just being friendly with a good sense of humor and obvious, shameless concern for others. AND JFC, HAVE EMOTION. Don't be a brick wall with me. Lacking an emotional side, positive or negative, is such a turn-off to me. I'm not attracted to robots. Being a gentle person is important, and for me personally, you need to actually act like you're into me. Not just between us. Do not make me a secret. AND BE CREATIVE AND WEIRD AND FRESH!!!!!!!!!!! There's nothing wrong with more "vanilla" people, but just for me myself, I need someone who stands out for some good reason. lol okay this answer's actually getting kinda long, I'll stop. There's a number of ways. What is one thing you would rather be doing? Ha ha yo real talk, Sara and I are getting all emotional and deep into our relationship, platonic or romantic, and I want me and her in her bed right now tearing each other up alsdkjfla;kwejre I love her a lot ok. When was the last time you changed your mind about something? OKAY SO I started a new birth control, right? It. Sent. Me. BACK. With my PTSD. How? Idfk, but I was suddenly obsessing over Him again, badly. I stopped that shit, and wha'd'ya know, two days later, I'm like "lol wtf I don't want him why did that just happen hunty was u ok????????". SO YEAH, that was a trip. Do you know anyone with a lisp? I'm not sure. Possibly. How much weight can you lift at once? No clue. Not a lot. Do you ask guys out, or wait for them to ask you out? I've never asked a guy out, but I wouldn't say I wouldn't. Do you like the last person who showed interest in you? I love her. Describe the last person you stared at? I have no idea. Do you like dating one person at a time, or multiple people? I'm personally monogamous. Have your experiences made you more or less sympathetic to others? MORE. Do you find smoking unattractive? I do. Have your parents ever searched your personal belongings? Mom has. Where did you get your last bruise from? ... Well. This is uh. Awkward. Tying into when I was on that medicine that made my libido fucking uncontrollable (thank the fucking lord I'm back to normal), my breasts are lookin rough, sister. Are you looking forward to anything? Nothing in the VERY near future, I think. A bit further off, Christmas. I can't wait to see the kids so excited again, and for once, we come together as a true family. Plus my #1 wish is to have my Mark tattoo improved at an amazing parlor, and I'm pretty sure that'll be happening, just obvs. not on Christmas Day itself. I'll just be fuckin STOKED when I *know* it's happening. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? Yes. How much money did you spend today? $1.25 for something from the vending machine. I didn't have breakfast, so I was really hungry. When you’re bored in class, what do you usually do? Try to not doze off. If we're not doing anything, then I'll play around with my phone. Have you ever had a song stuck in your head for more than a day? Oh, definitely. Ever walked into the guy’s bathroom? HA as a stupid elementary school with her friends, we sure did during a work day (my mom used to work with special ed kids at school). We thought we were soooo rebellious. How many wives or husbands do you want? One. What happens if you fall in love with your best friend? Ha, did. I still am, and we hope to be back together someday. Has a teacher ever flirted with you? Not that I know of. Thankfully. Is it okay for friends to kiss each other, as friends? It's not my thing, but sure, if it's consenting and both are aware it's platonic. Do your wishes ever get granted in the worst way possible? Probably in some way at some point I don't recall. How do you feel about your naked body? NONONONONONONONONONONONONONONO Have you ever been called obnoxious? I don't think so, anyway. Do you wish you had a bigger family? No. Which friend would you kiss full on the mouth, no questions asked? Sara. Can you do a split or stick your foot up next to your ear? Nope. When was the last time you complained about something? I was venting some mild frustration to Sara earlier tonight. What is your favorite color combination? Favorite is probably pastel orange and light blue. Love it. Then there's pastel pink and purple. Okay pretty much any combination is about the pastels When was the last time you spoke in front of a group? A month or so back when I had to do my Lifeline presentation in FYS. Do you like group projects, or do you prefer to work alone? I strongly prefer working alone. There's no disagreements, compromises, incompetent partners, etc. Have you ever been told you were going to Hell? Yup! (: Indirectly, but. How did you respond? I don't recall, but I wish I did. Who is the most argumentative person you know? She's not in my life anymore partially BECAUSE of that shit. Do you know anyone who is crazy about proper grammar? Yes, but she has OCD as a valid reason. I'm pretty particular about it too to a degree. Who was the last person to make you feel special? Oh my gosh, my therapist told me she was so proud of me and the progress I was making that I just entirely lit up and became a total beaming ball of giggles and "thank you"s. Would you feel funny if you kissed somebody of the same sex? No, I'm bi. If your best friend grabs your hand, what do you automatically do? Squeeze it. What’s something you can cook or bake like a pro? Cheesy and spicy scrambled eggs, man. Also known as the only thing I can properly cook lmao. Do you tend to flirt a lot, even when the person isn’t single? Fuck no, if they're not single. I'll flirt with my s/o when I see it appropriate or relevant, and in a case where we're both single, I'd be very subtle about it because shy. What’s something that you think is really cute? Off the very top of my head, the Ewoks from Star Wars, oh my fucking god. They were the only thing I enjoyed in the movies. What’s a pretty bird? I mean... pretty much all of them. BUT, can we take a moment to appreciate the bearded vulture? like???? they're fucking BADASS???????????? Besides sleeping, what do you do in bed? Almost... everything. It's the reason I endured/am still recovering from muscle atrophy in my legs. Have you ever hacked into somebody’s account? Playfully, back when that was a thing for friends to do and post lovey-dovey stuff about them everywhere. Megan and I, and I believe Mini and I as well, did it to each other. Possibly more. Is having to pee really badly worse than being really thirsty? Oh hell yes it is. The former can get to a point of hurting. Have you ever touched a Qu'ran? No. Do you love animals more than most? Oh definitely. Why do you eat fast food? It's easy to grab when on the run, and Mom has almost zero time to cook. Then we both have school. Most often I just warm things up in the microwave or grab something substantial enough in the fridge. Is there always going to be that one person you and a friend makes fun of? I guess you could say indirectly, yes. Just something she said in a certain way became an inside joke. Her as a person, no, I wouldn't do that. What is a bad habit of yours that you’re actually trying to fix? Having terrible eye contact. I have a very hard time maintaining it, but I've been trying to keep that weakness in mind when talking to people. Do you write out your feelings? That's one reason why I take these surveys, yes. Do you have bills to pay yet? It's embarrassing that I don't. Not saying like, I want to pay bills, what madman would, but I do want to feel more like a proper, independent adult. Will you be changing your hair any time soon? Not the style, but one thing I'm asking for Christmas is a professional to dye my hair silver. I say pro because my hair does NOT hold color, and because of the bleach needed, Mom's concerned I'll damage my hair if I put my trust into anyone less qualified. Does your mom have a celebrity look-alike? I don't think so, but she looks UNCANNILY like her firstborn daughter. It is SCARY. Is there something you wish you could learn to do? There's loads of stuff. Probably above all, cook. Or stop procrastinating. If you could be amazing at ONE thing, what would it be? Drawing precisely what I see in my head. Because of how important they are to me, I would pay BIG FUCKING BUCKS to get how my 'kats look onto paper. What do you wish people would pay you to do? Complain about my weight. :^) I'd be able to just pay for surgery to fix that within a day. Do you take good pictures? I personally think I do. I mean I wanna be a professional photographer. How would one go about impressing you? It depends on the subject and difficulty of whatever. What probably impresses me most would be someone maintaining a mature, peaceful attitude when there is reason to act otherwise. Self-control, that's it. Do you automatically apologize if you walk into somebody? Duh? Tell me a memory of this summer: It was fucking scorching and I hated every minute of it. What’s something that you don’t need, but really want? Hmmmm. OH, HELL YES. IF I had the proper body to even remotely pull them off, I. Would wear. NOTHING. But corsets. Jesus FUCKING Christ they are so hot. What do you draw more than anything else? Just about all I draw is meerkats. What’s the most favorite class you’ve ever had? The Digital Photography course I took in high school. Or Art Honors my junior year. I really enjoyed the stuff I made. For each person you’ve kissed, describe your feelings in one word: Jason: melancholy; Tyler: dramatic; Girt(?): loyal; Sara: ideal. How do you react when you trip or stumble? Gasp and carry on. If it was a more serious trip, I look around at who saw. Are you good at “biting your tongue”? NO. Why do you love the one you do? She's been there for me without fail, has undying faith in me, supports me through everything, is honest, she's funny and very unique, her adoration for animals shows a great level of compassion, she trusts me so much despite her history, she stands extremely firmly for what she sees as right and wrong... okay I can honestly write an essay on why I love her. Would you rather get [another] tattoo or piercing? GIMME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 THE TATTOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111111111111111111 Do you have long or short legs? I'd say they're normal, idk. When do you listen to Nickelback? *shrugs* When I wanna? Would you rather make the first move, or your crush? Them. I'm shy.

#survey #quiz #questions #random #bored

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pwnyta · 6 years

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@ the people who are suggesting some Black Panther characters/Tony (Ive gotten a few) I feel you but I havent seen the movie yet... I tried once and my computer died because I had it on for 10000 years. I’ll watch it soon (the movie not the computer) and get back to you....

maybe.

Maybe I wont.

Maybe I’ll feel too awkward... and in that case I’ll probably delete your suggestion then you wait a few days so I forget why I was feeling awkward about it (at least) and then try your luck...

Why you would work so hard for a sketchy af mess of a doodle... IDFK. But yall do you.

#Text posts.

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jikook-love · 7 years

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tagged by @bangtanseonyeontrash tanks for keeping me entertained gurled :’)

THE LAST…

-drink: orange juice :3

-phone call: MY DAD. MY ONE AND ONLY OTO-SAN <3

-Text message: my loser sister

-Song you listened to: Love Battery by Hong Jin Young (still. IT JUST CAME ON BY CHANCE OKAI but it’s goo--oop, now it’s Decalcomanie by Mamamoo dere you go)

-time you cried: idk like a week ago? out of sadness that is. i cried this morning when my sister was playing League of Legends.

Have you ever…..

-dated someone twice: nah man. once the wind blows away it won’t return (Boys Over Flowers quote that frankly, never made sense to me)

-kissed someone and regretted it: nope. i ain’t an easy woman

-been cheated on: technically that one time on LINE chat in high school I was diqing role playing around with this guy. i’m pretty sure i knew he had a waifu but chose to ignore it. but then i became friends with her and then three of us just got together to FIGHT and I’d accuse him of being a cheater and shiet so uhhh...no i guess not (just reminded me of it LOL)

-lost someone special: you’re lucky if you haven’t my friend

-been depressed: it is but a coping mechanism for me at this point :)

-gotten drunk and thrown up: i don’t drink :D

Three favorite colors…..

Blue, black & white

In the last year have you…..

-made new friends: mm hmm ^^

-laughed until you cried: OOOH YES. it’s the best feeling. until i get a stomachache and make one too many weird noises

-found out that someone was talking about you: ...maybe? idk. i feel like i have but idgaf cause they’re so irrelevant my brain doesn’t even care to remember them anyway LUL

-met someone who changed you: of course ^^ good and bad people alike ofc :)

-found out who your friends are: hmm...i guess so?

-kissed someone on your Facebook friends list: i deleted facebook so this question becomes dubious ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

-Do you have any pets?: nope.

-Do you want to change your name?: i did. until i realized how blessed it was to have a short name :)

-What did you do for your last birthday?: i had a joint b-day with my mom (that sounds so weird). but she invited her friends and i invited mine and i aggressively forced them to eat all the foods and sing karaoke :’)

-What time did you wake up?: can we not talk about this i feel so attacked rn (it was 9:30 a.m. and then somehow it became 11:30 a.m.)

-What what you were you doing at midnight last night?: reading sketchy manga. probably.

-Name something you can’t wait for: my fuqing lab results to FINALLY SHOW

-When was the last time you saw your mom?: last month :’( but it’s funny cause she’s coming back from her vacation tonight and we’re coming to pick her up ^^

-What are you listening to right now?: Troublemaker by Troublemaker (BUT WHEN WILL CERTAIN PPL COVER THIS SONG SO I CAN LIVE jkjk that’s asking too much...or is it?)

-Have you ever talked to someone named Tom?: probably.

-Something that gets on your nerves?: when people don’t give credit where credit is due ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

-Most visited website: NCBI. jk i’m not that cool. tumblr, probably OTL

-Hair color: black. like my soul

-Long or short hair: it’s getting longer again. and i indeed to keep it that way ;)

-Do you have a crush on someone?: even if i wanted to there’s just trash all around ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

-What do you like about yourself?: atm? that i washed my bedsheets and blanket on sunday and now they still feel really good and fluffy and i can’t even get out of them <3 best thing i ever did for me

-Blood type: unknown. probably O though.

-Nickname: Hoe

-Relationship status: Still irrelevant.

-Zodiac: CANCER. like the embodiment of my tumblr

-Pronouns: She/Her

-Favorite T.V shows: i only watch anime gdi White Collar, Sherlock (ish), Friends

-Tattoos: nooone.

-Right or Left handed: meta.

-Surgery: nope.

-Sport: i used to play badminton and wanna pick it up again but other than that I don’t move :D

-Vacation: what about vacation...? Recentest one was with my sister to Montreal in the summer and it was the littest thing I’d ever done in my life :’D

-Pair of shoes: Sneakers. pretty much always.

-Eating: stress lul

-Drinking: watterrrrrr

-I’m about to: go back to work :’)

-Waiting for?: my life to be sorted out. soon hopefully :)

-Want?: to have a plan for next year upon graduating :’)

-Get married?: when you find a person who can tolerate my sense of humour and my hobbies and has a mild neglect kink let me know

-Career?: Probably gonna go to grad school cause I actually really enjoy doing research, and we’ll see who I end up preaching from there ^^

Which is better?

-Hugs or kisses?: lul. neither. idfk how to hug (or kiss) people. WHAT IS SKINSHIP.

-Lips or eyes?: EYEZ.

-Shorter or taller?: Tall.

-Older or younger?: Older. oppa plz.

-Nice arms or stomach?: ...? idk?

-Hook up or relationship?: relationSHIP SHIP SHIP

-Troublemaker or hesitant?: Balance plz. i cannot handle an extremity of either

-Kissed a stranger?: nope

-Drink hard liquor?: nah

-Lost glasses/contact lenses?: no

-Turned someone down?: we don’t talk anymore ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

-Sex on the first date?: nada

-Broken someone’s heart?: doubt it. i probably unintentionally broke some other thing instead.

-Had a broken heart?: not really.

-Been arrested?: almost. but not quite.

-Cried when someone died?: ya.

-Fallen for a friend?: yes

Do you belive in…..

-Yourself?: moreso recently, so I guess so

-Miracles?: LOL YES. I got to where I am based on miracles pretty sure

-Love at first sight?: not yet? unless you count animals then that’s different

-Santa Claus?: rn no but holy shiet when i’m around children no one tell me to calm down

-Kiss on the first date?: nah. i like making people wait when i can ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

phew that was long! i’ll tag @yildiz-blackthorne, @kaliheartsjikook and anyone else who read this until the end ^^

#tag #tag game

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yawoser · 6 years

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1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?I sure mf hope!2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?Yes..3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?Today i think or last night4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?Yes! Do it all the time5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?Nope!6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?Haha yes lots7. What exactly are you wearing right now?Sweatpants and my school shirt n some socks mm8. How often do you listen to music?All the time9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?Jeans10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2018?Well idk if it did 11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?Both? I can be both im p good at talking to ppl but im not rly abt tons of ppl 24/712. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’? No13. What about ‘R’? No14. Can you drive a stick shift? Haha no15. Do you care if people talk badly about you? Ugh.... duh16. Are you going out of town soon?No i dont think17. When was the last time you cried? Nye18. Have you ever told someone you loved them? Yes....19. If you could change your eye color, would you? Mmm hazel20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for? Uhh not a boy21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having. Ummm didnt have a good nap22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead? UghZzzz hello yes23. Are you dating the last person you talked to? Nope24. What are you sitting on right now? A bed but im layin25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you? Yep!26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?UghZzzz yes27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night? Carson... duh28. Do you get a lot of colds? Nope29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from? My school30. Does anyone hate you? Yep31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room? Haha no32. Do you like watching scary movies? Kinda i need someone w me33. Do you want your tongue pierced? Nah34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? Mmm 200735. Did you have a dream last night? Yes36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? Idk not tht long ago maybe an hr37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? Mmmmmm id say no..... but literally sm can happen so idk!38. Do you think someone has feelings for you? Ughzzz idk39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? No40. Did you have a good day yesterday? Yep41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship? Nope42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl? Ugh.... jadyn43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? Nope44. What’s the best part about school? Uhhh relaxin45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook? Duh46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school? Haha yes47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head? Duh48. Were you single over the last summer? No49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago? Nope 50. What are you supposed to be doing right now? Umm this51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with? Nope52. Are you nice to everyone? Try to be53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? Yep54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? Uhhh yeah?!?!55. Are you good at hiding your feelings? Ughh probably no idk56. Do you think you like someone? Maybe57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’? Haha no58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? Girls? Idk59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry? Ugh yes60. Do you hate anyone? Nah61. How’s your heart? Shes doin ok62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? Duh63. Have you ever cried over a guy? Not a guy a girl yes64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now? Ughhh 65. Are your toenails painted pink? No66. Will your next kiss be a mistake? How would ik!67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct? No?!68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public? Haha kinda69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with? Umm taylor probs70. How do you look right now? UghZzzz71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? Yep! Taylor n carson mhmmmmm 72. Can you commit to one person? Mf duh!73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? Nah74. Have you ever felt replaced? Duh75. Did you wake up cranky? Umm i took a nap and woke up cranky76. Are you a jealous person? Duh77. Are relationships ever worth it? Duh78. Anyone you’re giving up on? Nah79. Currently wanting to see anyone? Duh80. Name something you have to do tomorrow? Coffee81. Last person you cried in front of? Taylor82. Is there someone you will never forget? Yep83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you? Ugh idk!84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now? Talkin 85. Are you over your past? No one is!86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex? Hehe yes87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to? Yes..... how many times will this be asked88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? Idk just wanna see her change shes got a mf kid to be worried abt 89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in? Hell no!90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? Haha yes91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months? Idfk!92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael? Yep!93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew? Nope94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going? This jan? No Last jan yes95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March? Nope!96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive? Most attractive person i mf know!97. Who do you have texts from? ?!?!?! People i text.. friends... family98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? Idk! Id be so embarrassed Try to help them out ig?!?! 99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? Yes100. Who’s in your profile picture with you? No one101. Ever kissed under fireworks? Nope102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies? Duh

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indiesoulwriting · 7 years

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For all I can remember I never had a true moment of genuine happiness. I have days where I felt content but never happy. From learning about my family pasts to dealing with abuse to becoming abusive I learned to shut off everything and not listen. After four agonizing years in high school I graduated and ran away without taking a single picture or saying goodbye to anyone. Then in 2016, I signed up for the military and after completing all things at an exceptional rate I still didn't become a soldier. I was not part of the U.S.Army for reasons that are too long to explain. After coming home, arguments with my mother were instant as if I had never left (mind you I wasn't even home for a week yet). I became homeless, went to the city and was doing absolutely well for a 19 year old just to go back to being homeless after an accusation was made that I was signing fake checks (never even own a checkbook even to this day). While being homeless in the summer I was raped and sexually assaulted, crying and believing I was pregnant (I wasn't). I barely ate and slept until I was saved by a boy named jelani, who got me down to Alabama to my friend that I met from basic. He became my best friend and then eventually my boyfriend but unfortunately that was really short lived. He had more girls than he had boxers (l.o.l) while this short affair ended I soon was taken in by a mother with four boys (all kind of around my age). I ended up dating her middle child. (We’ll call him Goku. Lmao.) ANYWAY, Goku was one of the most purest people I have ever met. He had a heart of gold, eyes full of hope and a smile that could light up the whole world. And this kid wanted to be with me (idfk, maybe his has a thing for fucked up girls)but anyway we dated and he completely terrified me (not in some crazy abusive type shit or he was scary) but just for the fact that I,Francess Dolcine didn't give a fuck about love or any relationships including platonic. Why? Because I was used to just everything negative. I was used to being alone. Now in relationships you aren't alone right? Right. Needless to say, I wasn't the best person to be with (I told him this FYI) I was aggressive and I didn't know how to deal with my emotions or my life at that point. (Still no excuse of why I acted like a cunt). But for someone to love me was absolutely absurd in my head to say the least. But he did and I felt like a princess. It was a dream (literally). I loved being with him, regardless if I was sleeping and he was playing video games. During this relationship I watched every movie for Pokémon and a lot of episodes of dragon ball z (which is why we named him Goku.) He was Goku because he was always helping someone regardless if it was Friends or family he was there. I was more like frieza ( I call him freezerburn) ya know bc i was more like “fuck it”. But In December, Goku had to go training and so he would be gone for a period time. During this time I felt very hollow. My best friend was gone, and my life started to spiral downwards. My thoughts, got to me everything I thought was okay, wasn't. Letters I wrote never got to him, which lead onto things I done wrong. Needless to say I probably deserved everything that came to me but still. So now, after being 6 or 7 months in. This relationship was about to bomb. (Did I mention he was my FIRST real relationship? Ya know the relationship that you actually became intimate in...YEA BOY) I tried and it failed. I tried to keep it together, I tried to make it okay, I tried to be okay. His family knew before I did, his friends knew before I did. So now, while I was being called a liar (and other names that shall not be mentioned) Goku was being one as well. One from his mother didn't add up to the one from his brother. I was being told to hold on to a sinking ship. While Goku told me nothing but “idk”, others told me to keep holding on or to wait it out. Then it hit, (it harder than fucking Pearl Harbor, more tragic than the fucking Titanic) We.Were.Over. I was dropped 2 days before Valentine's Day. Then on Valentine's Day, everything was brought out. Goku was “exposed” (not from me rather his family). As I will always remember the words (Dog see what a Dog do. (I’m sure that's not the saying but it was something like that). Obviously I cried, I cried until it didn't hurt anymore. Every emotion that went through me was finally let out. (Or I thought) so it eventually got easier.I didn't hear him, I didn't see him, I didn't feel him anywhere near me. I felt myself healing, until he called. Me. No, (I fucking wished though) his brother. He was talking to his brother and piece of me died, a pierce of was really sad. But then again I wanted nothing for him to be happy. But throughout that whole crazy ordeal I realized that Goku isn't my first love and I didn't love him BUT I was falling for him. I guess that what hurt the most about him, he was ALMOST mine. We were ALMOST together. Everything was just a simple Almost. I still craved the relationship though even if it wasn't with Goku. I craved talking to someone and being able to hold. In essence while I already lost myself I lost my best friend as well. But with all of this I realized that I didn't love myself, I was broken, I couldn't let go, I was weak, fragile, frail and was victim to atleast everything. So, I went off the grid. I stopped posting as much on Instagram. I deleted the Snapchat app off my phone. I erased my existence off of twitter. Took off messenger as well. I read books all the time, I took tons of pictures of myself, I talked to others who genuinely cared. I switched my friend groups and enlisted in the Marines. I was determined to change myself. FOR MYSELF. After a full month of being single, I realized that I have grown and I am living who I am set to be. I can only pray and have faith that I grow and know that I am meant for something in this world.

#indiesoulwriting frankieanne

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