#desire is no light thing

[luthienne]

Mahmoud Darwish, from The Butterfly's Burden; "Maybe, Because Winter Is Late" (tr. from the Arabic by Fady Joudah)

[Text ID: Maybe this longing is our way of surviving]

#mahmoud darwish #the butterfly's burden #maybe because winter is late #words #poetry #typography #palestinian literature #desire is no light thing

[thedearidiot]

we’ve seen the maps so many times we forget men made them. once i touched a cross and felt something i called god, though before christ a cross was just a torture apparatus. in a hunger i swore was holy, i sucked a dead fig, but having never had a fig i swore it was good and sweet, prayed a thanks, had another.

- Marlin M. Jenkins, Here is the Church

#marlin m. jenkins. #poetry #divine #desire is no light thing

[safin]

staring at the wall thinking about “Love does not make me gentle or kind” on this fine evening

#like that is soooooooo fucked up why would you Say That #anne carson #autobiography of red #daphne.txt #desire is no light thing #under the seams runs the pain #up against another human being one’s own procedures take on definition!!!!! #I once loved you now I don’t know you at all. He does not say this. !!!!!!!!!!! #hahahahahahhahaahahaha it’s fine I’m fine #this book didn’t change me as a person or anything (lying)

[the-mud-and-dirt]

desire in the form of heads tilted back with mouths open in the pouring rain. desire in the form of stretched out fingers unable to reach the top shelf. desire in the form of foreheads pressed too forcefully against a wet tile wall. desire in the form of taking a long and deep drag of cigarettes. desire in the form of

#desire is no light thing

[mightymizora]

I think a lot about Gortash tentatively showing The Dark Urge his designs for the Steel Watchers. Showing off what works and being slightly embarrassed about what doesn’t. And then they point it out. There’s too much mass and not enough strength here. Or there’s not enough flexibility at this point. And when he asks them how they reached that conclusion they tell him about the intricacies of the forms of men and beasts, of ligaments and muscle, of nerve endings twitching. That there is mechanism in flesh, and that the mind and body may be cleaved from each other but are always calling to each other until the very last throes of death.

And he thinks of their bodies calling to each other.

He thinks of nerves and minds connecting.

He thinks of how utterly brilliant they are.

#enver Gortash #the dark urge #I love the idea of complimentary ways of thinking being like #top level attraction for Gortash honestly #that they are a weapon made flesh #but they also have an intricate understanding of things that maybe they dont even know #that they see the world in a way that lights a fire in him #a way of blood yes. and also of extreme desires #I dunno man just the oil and blood 🩸

[onehundredfallenpetals]

Head in the clouds, both lost in nostalgic dreams

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#loz #totk #the legend of zelda #tears of the kingdom #loz totk #loz tears of the kingdom #botw 2 #totk link #totk zelda #zelink #totk spoilers #totk zelink #totk fanart #Thinking about how the hair tie makes Link sentimental for times past #I'm sure he wished for those times again when he pulled the sword and found out Zelda was the light dragon #and then I also wonder did Zelda have dreams as a dragon? She described it as being asleep for all that time #Did she dream what did she dream of #Would she dream about the same things that Link would? Sentimental for times past? #This was also partially inspired by my desire to paint dark skies which I think Hyrule should have had because it doesn't rly have much #going on in the way of light pollution

[grimalkinmessor]

Just to put a lot of my posts and beliefs about Light Yagami's character in one post (headcanons not included):

• He does not do anything for purely moral reasons. The reason he started killing criminals was because he was curious, and then afterward his "crusade" was built from panic and spite. He thought using the Death Note was going to kill him, so he decided to take everyone he considered a threat to society down with him—that way he would still be good. He would still be remembered. If he can't live, then criminals don't deserve to either. The weight loss and the insomnia shown in the manga, were more likely results of a fear of dying than moral stress.

• Then Light discovers he won't die. This negates part of the spite, but not the need for a moral justification to keep himself "good". He no longer needs to be a martyr, so instead he's chosen to become a God.

• During this week and half of time, Light goes from being a bored, lonely, listless teenager disgusted with the world because it's not how his father taught him it should be, disgusted because if he can manage perfection why can't the rest of the world—to a boy with a new friend and a new mission that gives him purpose. Something interesting. If the world can't be perfect on its own, he'll have to help it. The world needs his help, making him its "savior".

• In comes L. It is no longer about Kira, no longer about saving the world from itself, even if he might tell himself it is—it's about the game. Kira was a fun pastime, yes, but L has made things so much more interesting. (Light and Ryuk are actually wildly similar in several ways it's just not immediately obvious). This game is more fun, too, because this time he has an opponent—one not so nebulous as "the criminals of the world", who offered no challenge. Light is still justifying his actions through a lens of morality, because he has to, but they're beginning to run rather thin.

• Both the broadcast and the obvious taunts to L through changing Kira's killing methods supports the above. "You're too stupid, L. If you were just a little smarter, we could've had some fun." Drawing L in was to progress their game, not Kira's goals. If Light truly only cared about Kira's vision, Kira's new world, Kira's righteous justice; then he wouldn't have continued to play the game after the broadcast. There was no way for L to find him without Light drawing him in—the Death Note is literally the perfect murder weapon. Light knew this, he just ignored it because he wanted to play.

• In the same vein: Yotsuba Light doesn't know he's playing the game. He's forgotten that there even is a game, and so he sees L as someone who's been duped, who either isn't as intelligent as he's been made out to seem, or someone who's being purposefully cruel just because he can. Either way, to Yotsuba Light, L's threat level has only increased, because Light no longer has any sort of weapon to go against him with. He can't even wield his own innocence against him, because his innocence is not certain. Even to himself. Yotsuba Light knows that he has to play along with L's plays of friendship and morality in order to secure his freedom, but he does not respect L or like him. At least, not until near the end, where they're closing in on Higuchi. Where his freedom seems closer....and yet he sees his own, true innocence as more tenuous than ever. Notably, even when Light feels positively towards L there, he still does not share his suspicions about himself with him. His own life still takes precedence over any sort of justice or morality he might have, because Yotsuba Light is still Light. And Light will always put his own self-interests first.

• After killing L, something interesting happens. Because the game ends, but Kira is still left. And Light was willing to take risks and make wild plans in his game with L, but Kira's goals always, always came after his own life. And when only Kira's goals are left, Light stops taking those big, potentially lethal risks. (i.e. bomb desk trap, killing Raye Penber in person by handing him pages of the Death Note, killing Naomi Misora in person right in front of the police station, writing Higuchi's name while sitting right beside L with the murder weapon literally in his hand, etc. etc.). Winning the game was worth dying for—Kira's ideals are not. Or, to put it even more simply: His pride is worth dying for, but his morals are not. Five years after his victory against L, he's presented with another game, but instead of feeling fearful and excited as he did with L, Light is angry. Arrogant and angry. Because this isn't a game to these opponents, as it was to L—they're playing against each other, and Light is merely a piece in it. This game is not like his game with L; it's more like his "game" with the criminals of the world. One with no true challenge, just another defense of Kira's world—worth winning, but not worth dying for.

• Light's pride is more important to him than anything. He needs to be able to take pride in himself and his actions. Pride comes before everything else, before Kira, before family, before L, even before his own desires and physical health. He does not enjoy killing—he just turned it into something he could be proud of. Into another mastering of craft. Light is not particularly sadistic, he's just spiteful. He'll only take pleasure in someone's suffering if they make someone else suffer first, especially if that someone is him. Attacking his pride would count as making him suffer, because that's the most important thing in the world to him. Even though Light also values his life incredibly highly, attempting to kill him wouldn't invoke as much hell-hot wrath as attempting to humiliate him would. And Light will always get even. Always. He does not forgive and forget.

• He believes every lie he tells himself. Every. Lie. He is a Good Man. He is Good Son. He is a Savior. He is Better. He is NOT Evil, he is Good. He's incredibly adept at not only fooling other people, but fooling himself. Even if he's vaguely aware of the truth, he'll take great pains to make sure that truth never comes to light—because it would crush him.

• Light does not take his own desires into account. If he likes or wants something that contradicts with the perfect image he's crafted, he purges it from his mind. Makes excuses for why he doesn't need it, or even convinces himself very thoroughly that he didn't even want it in the first place. If it's not something he can be proud of (or convince himself to be proud of), he doesn't allow himself to desire it.

• Light sees everyone as beneath him (family notwithstanding, Light loves his family deeply), and while it's a pyramid scale of how far beneath him they are, it's not actually ranked by things like gender, sexuality, race—it's ranked by morality and intelligence. The more intelligent and moral you are, the higher up you are on the scale. Light feeling hostile towards someone does not always mean he sees them as further down beneath him; with L and Misa specifically, it means that they're a threat. Light tends to only see people near the top of the intelligence pyramid as threats; evidenced by him dismissing Matsuda completely even with the knowledge that Matsuda was a marksmen, and yet him immediately setting out to kill Naomi when he found out she figured out one of Kira's secrets. With Takada and Mikami, he treats them exactly the same as each other because they're both on the same level of the scale—and he didn't hesitate to get rid of either of them. (Or try to get rid of, in Mikami's case). Everyone is either a tool, a threat, a criminal, a citizen, or family to him. People to use (tool, criminal), people to serve and/or placate (citizen, family), and people to eliminate (threat, criminal). Everyone falls into at least one of these categories for him.

• Light Yagami is a tragic character. And he's a tragic character because he refuses to believe he's part of a tragedy. He would rather swallow broken glass than be considered a victim of anything.

#death note #yagami light #light yagami #character analysis? #character analysis #the stapels of his character ✨ #i see so many character profiles for him that i thought id make one of my own :D #these are the points of contention for me—ESPECIALLY on the pride bit #if his pride isnt the most important thing to him beyond his life (and sometimes his family) then i consider it an ooc interpretation #but he's also not just. blatantly evil. he doesnt revel in the gore of his victims killing just for kicks #again its not about his own desires so much as its about his need to be seen as perfect and honorable #his intelligence bites him in the ass on that front. bc he can convince himself that his killing is righteous with very little struggle #anyway ✨ i love him #he's so interesting #this is how i see him WITHOUT all my headcanons in the way lmao #bigender light my beloved im sorry this is not your time to shine 😔

[rainyyy-dayysss]

"What if I told you I am incapable of tolerating my own heart ?" And when slyiva plath said " I desire things which will destroy me in the end ."

#i am incapable of tolerating my own heart #i desire things which will destroy me in the end #never related to anything like this #and i only wanted him #one sided love #slyiva plath #chaotic academia #chaotic academic aesthetic #dark academia #light academia #desi shit posting #desiblr #dark acadamia aesthetic #sorry for being depressing #desire #dark acamedia #dark aesthetic #aesthetic #book qoute #qoutes #obsessive love #i loved you

[captainhysunstuff]

Soichiro is worried about Light’s taste in men.  (Let’s assume that somehow Yotsuba was never involved with Kira junk in this reality, lol.)

#drawn by me #my fanart #my fancomic #Death Note #Soichiro Yagami #Light Yagami #L #lawlight #Reiji Namikawa #Teru Mikami #I was asking myself why Light would choose L over Mikami and realized it's because Mikami's too boring for him #I love Mikalight as much as the next shipper but... #without the Kira worshipper thing he'd have a hard time catching Light's eye #he may well still be Kira here memories and all but he has no real desire to stray from L (for now) #Light's gotta shatter his beliefs and faith to get Mikami to cross the 'bitch' line #Light needs a lover with teeth~ #I literally yelled when I found out that Namikawa is 12 years older than Light XD #Light doesn't come out to his dad until he's well into his career or keeping his relationship secret is no longer viable #couldn't add proper transcription to the pictures again. had to settle with long captions #as if they'll even be able to be seen and read =__=

[luthienne]

Naomi Shihab Nye, Transfer; "Morning Birds"

#naomi shihab nye #transfer: poems #morning bird #words #poetry #typography #palestinian literature #desire is no light thing #a dream ago perhaps

[thedearidiot]

All brutality begins with wanting, the way pride begets downfall. Is it possible to remove a light from its source? Of course not, but we want to be amused. I swallowed the purple blaze of my envy just to dance aglow among my brothers. I wish to be the most impossible kind of daughter, like Jesus but prettier.

- Bailey Cohen-Vera, re: Barthes.

#bailey cohen vera #poetry #desire is no light thing #inspiration

[yuurionviktor]

Did not change much in the end

#the locked tomb #harrowhark nonagesimus #harrow the ninth #gideon the ninth #things ive made #tlt fanart #I originally wanted to do big harrow and more smaller sketches on the side but the canvas is just no big enough it seems #so I’m just doing each sketch on a new layer #idk how many more harrows I have in me #I’m running out of outfits tbh #I mean there are a few more #but I desperately need Alecto to drop #ALSO I know that harrow would never use bird bones bc they’re too light and fragile but the crow skull just looks so good #teeth also? I’m pretty sure they wouldn’t be desirable as far as bones go but what can I say except that they look DOPE

[soracities]

"Desire is a buffalo standing on my chest.

I’m sorry to be dramatic, but this is the only

way to tell you."

Jeremy Radin,  'Poems from DEAR SAL', published in Bodega

#q #lit #quotes #poetry #jeremy radin #variations on desire #the body electric #desire is no light thing etc yeah anne it really fucking isnt goddd #m #x

[carefulfears]

one thing that stands out to me about the IVF arc is the way that, for as much as i make fun of her for asking her coworker if she can have his babies, scully asking mulder to be involved in the biggest process of her life (and the most important thing in the rest of her life) is such a healing and reverent experience. like he says “i’m absolutely flattered,” but it’s so much more than that. it’s like…spending your whole life feeling like you should’ve died at age twelve and then being told someone just wants more of you, more and more and more, in everything.

#it reminds me of 'sixth extinction' / 'amor fati' #when he quite literally was tied down and couldn't speak #and the way we hear him try to SCREAM when his mother just leaves him there #but his mind is Silent from the moment he hears scully in the hall begging to see him #and he couldn't crack a joke or run out the door #he literally just had to lie there and feel it #feel it on his Skin #her hand holding onto him #her tears falling onto his face #listening to the overwhelming depth of her fear that she is failing him and her devotion and her dedication to finding a way to help him #her Pleas for him to just 'hold on' #'i think that...if you know...if you could just find a way to hold on...i need you to hold on...please...' #everybody go listen to the civil wars' cover of 'talking in your sleep' #i don't think it can be overestimated how much of an impact that had on them and the lightness and healing in s7. that he Had to hear it #and then with the baby thing it's like...he CAN'T deny her that. he HAS to say 'yes' #there's no part of him that's capable of denying her something that she desires this badly. enough to ask for outright #and so he HAS to let himself be wanted and be invited into this unimaginably important and personal thing #let himself be a part of something bigger. be SEEN as someone who is valuable in a way that's bigger #and again he can't run from it and he can't deflect it and he can't hide from it. he has to just accept it #txf.txt #per manum

[giveemgreef]

your 2023-2024 minnesota wild (girls just wanna have fun edition)

[inspired by]

#look. I am not a video editor but mr. jimmy brodin said they are just having fun with it. #and I was possessed with the need to slap some videos together to the soundtrack of cyndi lauper #could this have been better? yes. but I tragically have to work a job that interferes with my desire to create silly things online #and I've yet for someone to pay me for anything I've done here so #rip to all the clips left on the cutting room floor (my hard drive) #anyway enjoy the range in video quality here <3 love & light #oh also happy end of season wildblr beloved....we may not have playoffs but we have fun :)) and also love on our side #minnesota wild #wild lb #my.edit

[theeroticlover]

Such conversations 😁😊

#conversation #intimate #couple #romantic #fun times #couple thing #couple things #attractive #attraction #casual #exciting #light hearted #sweetness #sweet #so cute #cute smile #cute couple #cute things #intimacy #desire #romance #mental stimulation #lets chat #chit chats #random #sweet moments