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diagonal-queen · 10 months

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omg what if i requested...

okay okay imagine: [character] taking a bath with you and its all cute but GOD DAMN WHY DO YOU HAVE SO MANY RUBBER DUCKS? like yalls are taking a bath and you just pull out the rubber ducks and dump them in the bath djfbdjdj YES SFW I WE DONT TOLERATE NSFW HERE

characters: ranpo, dazai, chuuya, poe, atsushi, [your favorites] SEPARATE! if you dont wanna do em all you can just do poe and ranpo lol also you can insert blue lock characters if you want to 👍

i want isagi so bad frfr ALSO HONKAI STAR RAIL CAELUS WHY ISNT ANYONE TALKING ABOUT HIM LIKE HELLO??? TRASH CAN BOYFRIEND??? HES SO HOT TOO? I WANT HIM TOO FRFR

i hope youre having a good day i am indeed alive!!

- nia

A NIA REQUESTTTTTTTTTTTT OMG YES

Rubber duckie, you're the one~

♡ pairing: Ranpo Edogawa, Dazai Osamu, Chuuya Nakahara, Edgar Allan Poe, Atsushi Nakajima, Mykola Hohol, Tecchou Suehiro x gn!Reader

♡ synopsis: You bring rubber ducks into the bath.

♡ cw: Swearing, nudity I guess??? It's not NSFW lmao but gotta cover my bases

note: HELLO NIA. I want you to know that I AM gonna be doing a BLLK version of this some time after I've finished this one. Also I don't know much about Honkai Star Rail but isn't Caelus basically like that game's equivalent of Aether from Genshin? I'm uncultured T-T These are just crack hcs lol uh yeah apologies for errors and I hope you enjoy x

Ranpo:

Bold of you to assume this mf didn't bring his own rubber ducks

The bathtub is overcome with your shared aquatic fowl. You two are having an absolute field day in there (and not like a regular field day, but like a Magic School Bus field day)

Maybe they have a war or something. Or maybe they establish a peace agreement and the two leaders of your different duck nations get married to form a union

You guys end up staying in the tub until the water is freezing

Honestly though, you probably benefitted from having a little while to both just indulge in childish behaviour without any judgement or consequences. And it was super fun so no regrets

After the first time you guys decide to start having shared baths every now and then when things get too stressful at work, so you could blow off steam in a harmless and fun way

But you two don't tell anybody. I mean Ranpo still brings rubber ducks to public bathhouses because he's just like that but nobody else ever finds out the true extent of your duck-related shenanigans

10/10 would recommend bubble bath rubber duck therapy w/ autistic manchild 👍

Dazai:

He didn't expect it, but he likes it!

Dazai probably never washes himself ever so he was already quite on board with the idea of having a bath with you (he gets to see you nakey and have clean hair for once? Like what a win)

Also I reckon he's the kinda guy who really enjoys bubble baths and plays with them and gets the bathroom all messy with the bubbles (me too Dazai)

So he was pretty hyped for this. But then you dump like fifty rubber ducks into the bath and NOW IT'S TIME TO GET FUNKY

Dazai has definitely never played with them before. He's amused with the way they float, with the fact that they make noise when you squeeze them, their big stupid eyes and everything about them

He initially wants to question why you have so many of them or where you got them from but then he just as quickly decides that he doesn't really wanna know the answer

Is he as invested in the ducks as you are? No, but he's very curious about them and finds it nice that you enjoy them so much

Probably wraps one in bandages and gives it to you so you're always thinking of him or smth 💀 (it's cute though)

Chuuya:

If Chuuya has run you a bath he probably intended for it to be romantic and relaxing

And then you bringed in the duckies

After a quick discussion you two do compromise on a romantic bath. With rubber ducks. And it honestly ends up being more perfect than either of you expected

He'd have been willing to just let you do your thing though because he just wants you to be happy but mans works too hard to pass up an opportunity to relax in the bath with you

So what ends up happening is you two just cuddle in the bath and talk about life and romance and stuff, and there's also ducks floating there, entirely out of place

Like Chuuya would have pulled out all the stops. Candles and wine and stuff, so like a pretty mature scene that does not accommodate for rubber ducks, and yet there they are

But he thinks it's really cute how into the ducks you are so he lets you keep them around

He would definitely buy you more rubber ducks in the future just to see you smile. Chuuya is down so bad for you 😌

Poe:

He's probably never even seen a rubber duck in his 1800s gothic anxietycore life

You might honestly have to explain what they are. He's like 'and they don't do anything? You just have them there for company?' and you're like 'yeah!' and he's just like

Poe would find one singular duck of yours and latch onto it. That one is his duck now and he would keep it nearby because it reminds him of you

Overall though he doesn't really get on board with it. Like after the first two minutes when the novelty fades he's like '...can we please remove them' lol

If you say yes then the bath then continues on exactly as expected. It's nice but Poe's a little insecure and shy (cuddle him pls)

If you say no then he's just gonna learn to deal with them. This man doesn't have the balls to set boundaries with you (ME TOO POE)

That being said, if Karl likes the ducks? ...oh boy he's straight up going to purchase an avalanche of them

It's really up to you whether or not the ducks catch on or not, Poe's just along for the ride whether or not he wants to be

Atsushi:

Help him

They didn't have rubber ducks in the orphanage, and Atsushi probably hasn't had a proper nice long bath in years. He did not want nor expect a horde of rubber ducks

But Atsushi loves you so much that he's willing to look past it. And the duckies actually grow on him by the time you guys get out the bath

He's always seen bathing as just that. A way to clean. But you're determined to introduce him to the wonders of bathtime and make up for the childhood he wasn't allowed to have

He mostly just goes along with you and doesn't really match your energy, but he absolutely loves seeing you so excited about the ducks

He would definitely like the idea of baths being a cute couply thing for you guys to do though so whether or not you got your ducks with you is honestly irrelevant

But you do. And so he accepts them as a part of being with you. In sickness and health or whatever idk nobody loves me lmao

Just make sure that you give Atsushi as much attention as you give to the ducks okay?

Mykola:

Mykola has literally never been happier in his entire life

This was the moment when he realised that you were the one for him. His soulmate, his one and only

He doesn't care how many ducks there are, he just cares that there's ducks. And that you're the one who bought them into the bathtub.

The pair of you wreak havoc on the bathroom. Like with Ranpo, y'all were just being a little playful. You and Mykola straight up destroy the whole room

You two spend hours in there coming up with names, extended backstories and lore of each rubber duck and it gets so complicated so fast

He would also give each one of them a different voice while you guys are messing around. Theatre kid moment

You've now given him the idea to just randomly present you with rubber ducks at any time, regardless of the scenario. Your collection grows tenfold due to this bastard and Fyodor is not pleased about it. Not when Mykola is interrupting DOA meetings with fucking ducks

The poor repair guys you hire to fix the bathroom...they're so confused T-T

Tecchou:

Straight up just does not react. This shit is a regular Tuesday for him

LET'S NOT PRETEND THAT HE DOESN'T OWN RUBBER DUCKS BECAUSE HE LITERALLY DOES I SAID SO

And he just lets them float there in the bath and pays no mind to them. Doesn't play with them, talk to them or whatever. It's just nice to have some silent, non-judgemental company sometimes

Tecchou doesn't strike me as someone who would suggest that you two take a bath together, so it was most likely your idea. He went along with it because relaxing in a steamy room with you sounded nice, but in reality you just wanted to show him the ducks

And though he might have seemed disinterested he was so happy to know that you and him had a similar interest

You two are so good for each other that way <3 (good = autistic I guess, because Tecchou is canon autism I decided)

So while you play with the ducks or whatever he just sits there content and watches you do so with a little smile. Probably calls you cute at some point entirely catching you offguard

You two make it a regular thing, but Jouno probably finds out somehow and it's just a whole other can of worms I won't go into rn

Taglist~ ♡ @gettinshiggywithit, @fedyushka, @flower-of-darkness, @bejeweledgirl

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hairybirthdayclown · 11 months

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as someone who has detriment placements

here's the run down of each while i listen to Mitski.

• capricorn Moon is literally my favourite Moon sign not because i have it but because these natives care so deeply about a lot. they just have never been given the outlet to express themselves, so they find alternative ways to do so with how they show that they care & with other emotions. this is why they can be deemed as complex. what i've noticed is that they have a very childlike spirit because they might've skipped out on their childhood. they're prone to watching cartoons or listening to their favourite songs from when they were younger. their emotional development is delayed because they never thought it needed to be due to their mature nature throughout their lives. reaction time is also delayed tbh; these natives could still be affected by the past but choose not to do anything about it until later on in life or until they realise it.

a song i associate these lot with:

• sagittarius Mercury please stop before i piss myself. y'all are so unserious it's so entertaining sometimes. what i've noticed with these natives is that they're very loud. with myself, i normally TEXT LIKE THIS & talk a lot. these people are quite funny either intentional or not. it's not necessarily anything difficult but sometimes i tend to turn small talk into meaningful discussions when i'm bored, same with the other 5 people in my life with this placement. i hateee small talk but i've noticed we're really good at conversating & filling awkward silence. lying for fun, exaggerating stories blahblahblah.

your song:

• scorpio Venus ...one thing that people don't talk about is how others get obsessed with these natives, especially those who've been romantically involved with them. 2 of my friends have this & their exes from years ago are still fixated on them. i don't date or get romantically involved with anyone but A LOT of people & old friends of mine developed a crush on me & even claimed to be in love with me. a guy that i know has this & his personality is equivalent to a stale turd but an abnormal amount of people wanted to date him. people love attention from these natives i think. but all in all, we just want to be loved by one specific person & them being absolutely enamoured by us. the challenging aspect of it all is keeping a stable relationship.

your song:

• cancer Saturn i've noticed are the most caring people ever. they usually care about other peoples wellbeing but from my experience they hate when others ask how they're doing/feeling. they hate being asked questions about themselves in regards to how they feel. in some cases it takes years for them to outwardly act caring & compassionate towards those they truly care about, even themselves sometimes. i think one of their biggest fears is being vulnerable. they're like a stern parent who acts like they're okay so that other people don't worry too much about them. they don't want to seem like a burden. their family life could've been unemotional & lacked affectionate gestures. one of the biggest lessons these lot have to learn how to express their emotions without fear or judgement. you're not wrong for the way you feel.

y'all need a whole playlist:

*(there's nothing wrong with you. i'm not a pro at all. take what resonates)

thanks for reading :)

#Spotify #capricorn moon #scorpio venus #sagittarius mercury #astrology notes #saturn astrology

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aydaptic · 6 months

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Sorry if you've already answered this before but I'm new to the fandom and I found your account through your web-comic and I was wondering what is it about Gavin that you like so much? Why is he one of your favourite characters in dbh? (I've noticed that he isn't much of a fan-favourite in this fandom 😔)

This'll be a long post, but you asked (...and I'll happily answer!) I'll add some descriptions for context. At the top of my head, I can think of 21 reasons why I like his canon equivalent.

1. He's charismatic

Gav gives off an energy that makes it easy to hang onto his every word. I can quote all his lines by heart and I like listening to Neil Newbon (in this specific role) talk. I remember some of Kamski's lines as well -- also mo-capped/voice acted by Newbon -- but Kamski doesn't have nearly as much charisma as Gav does.

2. He's expressive

Ppl who 'talk with their hands' are more charismatic. Gav is all over the place in the break room if you stick around. Hand gestures capture people's attention as they emphasize what is being said.

3. He doesn't think androids are alive (...so in his eyes, the way he treats them isn't wrong)

"Could always try roughin' it up a little. After all... it's not human." - Gavin Reed, The Interrogation

That means he wouldn't rough up a human suspect. This alone justifies his unpleasant attitude towards androids. Hank -- who treated Connor way worse than Gav ever did -- changed his mind. Nothing says Gav can't do the same.

If Alexa suddenly said she was alive, the vast majority wouldn't take it seriously (if any at all.)

4. He's sarcastic

"Congratulations on last night, very impressive." - Gavin Reed, Waiting For Hank...

5. He has dark humor

6. He looks down on people that pay for s*x

Quote above. You don't call someone a "pervert" if you agree with their actions. The Eden Club, in particular, is immoral AF... bc those androids don't have a choice. Gav doesn't care about them being androids, but he still looks down on the guy who paid money to get laid, and I applaud Gav for that. Especially when said guy also had a wife and kids.

7. He has valid concerns about androids taking jobs

Anyone who says differently is either in denial, uninformed, or never had a job they were scared to get fired from. There's already been an uproar about ChatGPT and that's nothing compared to how advanced Detroit: Become Human androids are. The unemployment rate in this game is 37% -- higher than it was during the Great Depression and C*VID -- and androids are the main cause.

I've seen a lot of ppl ask this question:

Q: Why not just buy an android and have them do your job for you, then? You get the money anyway bc it's your android!

A: Bc, believe it or not, the vast majority of men want to work. This is a strange concept to grasp for a lot of ppl. I admire Gav for being one of those men who wants to do it themselves. Letting someone else do your job is taking the easy way out.

8. He's a hard worker

Gallery: "...Ruthlessly ambitious, Reed will do anything to advance his career, even if it means treading on other peoples’ toes."

9. He's ambitious

See the quote above.

10. He doesn't sleep well

This isn't just a headcanon. He has literal bags under his eyes. Just knowing he doesn't sleep well already has me asking, "why?" It's interesting.

11. He puts his feet on the table

After Connor interacts with him in the break room, Gav will go to his desk and do this. I'll go into detail about why this contributes to my liking his character in the very last point.

12. He calls Hank out on his alcoholism

As much as most of us love Hank, he's not in a good space mentally. Showing up drunk/hungover to work should not be tolerated. It not only puts coworkers, but also civilians, at risk. Hank should be in therapy instead of working at the DPD until he gets his life sorted out.

13. He calls Fowler out for giving Hank special treatment

"You won't get away with it this time." - Gavin Reed, The Interrogation (after Hank pulls a literal gun on a human coworker AKA Gav)

So Gav has brought it up to Fowler before and is about to do it again. Ties into the point above. What Hank does -- like assaulting a literal FBI agent -- shouldn't be tolerated.

14. He's a control freak

I gravitate towards ppl and characters who take charge. Those who like being in control and know what they're doing. I'm a control freak myself, but I'd prefer to let someone else take the reins as long as I agree with their methods. I like it when ppl know what they want and act on it. Gav does both.

15. He's protective of his coworkers

I was unsure whether or not to add this as I guess it can be seen as a subjective theory and not an objective fact.

Gav only ever steps in with the gun in The Interrogation when Con uses aggressive force on Chris Miller by tearing him away from the deviant. Con did this after disobeying Gav 3 times. So yeah. Gav is justified for stepping in. Hank, on the other hand, isn't justified for pulling a gun on a human coworker. I see this scene as Gav protecting Chris from Con who is showing signs of deviancy.

16. He can't wink

Endearing.

17. He pouts a lot

Again, endearing.

18. He swears like a sneezing kitten

Same as the two points above.

19. He doesn't like Connor

I don't like Con, either. Yeah. We exist. Personality types like Con's "let's be friends" attitude and constant positivity pisses me off. Before anyone comments that the player decides Con's personality... no. Only to an extent. There are several instances where the player has no say whatsoever. Some of Con's pre-determined responses annoy me.

20. He has great fashion

Big fan of leather jackets.

21. I like him bc I'm a narcissist at times

He's essentially the male equivalent of me to the T. I'm only an asshole internally, though. We love (or hate) characters we relate to. I relate to every single point except 17 and 18 on this list.

There you go :)

His OOC fanon equivalent has a huge fanbase -- especially on Twitter/X and Tumblr turning him into a blushing teenage girl -- but it seems like I'm the only person who can't stand that OOC portrayal of him. That said, I adore his canon equivalent in all his asshole glory.

#dbh #gavin reed #detroit: become human #dbh gavin #long post #Q&A #anonymous #*aydaptic

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lexicals · 5 months

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System collapse notes made as I read:

(Spoilers, obvs, mostly out of context)

Amazing opening page as usual. This feels like coming home I'm so happy

Side note, "one of you" - like, is this being delivered to an actual audience, or does mb just like to pretend it is? I know it's just an in-universe excuse for the conceit but either option is so good

ART canon tax fraud?? ART canon embezzlement???

ART @ BE ship: "people die in car crashes all the time. I just thought that was interesting :)"

The note about iris having grown up alongside ART is so funny. And the note about her being ART's ratthi is so sweet from both sides of that comparison

I adore Three so much. The fucking baby deer comparison killed me this poor construct

I could be misremembering but it feels like secunit's narration has more colloquialisms than before, which is fun if I'm right

Love than mb and mensah have the exact same reaction to the extra settlement lmao. Handshake meme

ARGUCUSSION

SECUNIT YOUR BOUNDARIES. YOUR NEEDS. PLEASE STOP TELLING PEOPLE YOU'RE FINE

"Fun stuff like space battles and rescuing people and space monsters and throwing asteroids at planets" this bot loves its cheesy tv so much I'm gonna cry

WHY DO YOU KEEP REDACTING THINGS SECUNIT PLS THIS IS STRESSFUL. I can't tell if this is it editing out trauma discussion or something else

Mb casually using ART as a dictionary lmao

Oh god is it hurting over 2.0 specifically. Oh man of course it is. God this poor bot I'm so 😭

Mb and ART working as a team so fluidly.... best friends......

Ratthi can tell secunit is busy thinking/working just by glancing at it.... FRIENDS.....

"SENTIENCE SUCKS" LMAO. YEAH OKAY WE'VE ALL FELT THAT

MB JUST HAS THE VIDEO FILE OF RATTHI ALMOST GETTING EATEN BY A WORM ON HAND. AMAZING

Mb and pin-lee bonding over watching scifi car crash videos. Incredible

SECUNIT THE SELF-DESTRUCTIVE TENDENCIES. LITERALLY TRYING TO JUMP OUT OF A PLANE WITHOUT A PARACHUTE. PLEASE

I'm gonna cry pls mb stop beating yourself up for being traumatised. This is exactly what you were giving mensah shit about!!!!!

"It was always my job to get hurt" I Am Going To Fucking Cry

CITING ITS SOURCE ON THE PRE CR HISTORY LESSON LMAO

God I feel like this poor bot spent six books building up its confidence and it's all just been shattered after the thing with 2.0. Like it's so palpable in the narration that it thinks it's broken in some way and is forcing itself to carry on regardless but with no regard for its own survival, which has always been of pretty high priority for it even in ASR!! It's let itself get beaten up in the other books but it's never been reckless like this. Mb please stop punishing yourself.....

Ohh tarik and mb shared corpo trauma..... can we talk about that maybe

Ratthi correcting iris about the ex-secunit thing.... ouuououugghghh

"Under normal circumstances that would be kind of hilarious" mb honey as a reader. That IS hilarious

Mb "so is this guy your..... ex-security..... not that I'm feeling jealous or insecure rn....."

HEY GUYS YOU EVER HAVE A PTSD FLASHBACK SO BAD YOU PASS OUT. GUYS

HEY GUYS HAVE YOU EVER HAD YOUR BRAIN-CRASHING PTSD FLASHBACK ANALYSED IN DETAIL BY A BUNCH OF PEOPLE YOU WANT TO RESPECT YOU

Mb once again having the worst time of its life but being offered a media archive by a friendly bot: oh fuck yes hello there

Ooooh pre-corpo media no less......

THE ART THERAPY-SPEAK..... "that’s for humans" "this affects the part of you that is human" I'm going to yell and yell and yell

"No, it doesn't read my mind, it just knows me really well" 🥺

I feel like MW has gotten more up to date on current gender/pronoun usage since the earlier books which is nice to see. We've had neopronouns before but having pronouns attached to feed/character intros is new and appreciated

Mb: "aw fuck am I being tall and intimidating again"

Local secunit physically repelled by power phrase "sexual discussion" like a fucking skyrim shout

VISUAL EQUIVALENT OF A WET BLANKET..... SECUNIT......

OHH...... OHHHHH!!!!! OHH MY GOD THE. IS THIS THE. WHEN I TALKED ABOUT THE CONCEIT EARLIER.........

Oh okay no BUT MURDERBOT NEW CREATIVE DIRECTOR POSITION BABEY!!!!!

And ratthi is so supportive. God I'm so. AAAAUGH

Just patch out the anxiety lmao. New mental illness fix dropped please restart your OS to apply

Telling your bestie to fuck off IS a kind of love language and I'm glad that ART appreciates it 😌

LITERALLY "(INTERNAL SCREAMING)". LMAO

Mb literally in a life or death situ rn: I could just burn part of this person's brain out to save us..... that seems mean though :/

"I lack a sense of proportional response" LMAO ART. At least it's self-aware

"I didn't come here to make friends" says the secunit who literally cannot go anywhere without forming some kind of allyship with someone

The delayed-hack though, that's fun. Wonder whether this file is gonna slowly make its way from CR secunit to CR secunit as mb gradually becomes some kind of mythic figure, lmao

"Be safe" 🥺

FINAL GIRL IS OUT. FINAL DRONE IS IN

ART: "Oooh you guys care about me ^^ lol"

LMAO ART YOUNGER SIBLING BEHAVIOUR

ALSO YES SET THREE UP WITH THE OTHER CRAZY SMART AI THEY CAN ALL GET A SECUNIT BESTIE!!!!

Murderbot trauma acknowledgement 😌 You go working through your feelings mb you're doing so well ily

WHERE ARE WE GOING NEXXXTTTT THAT IS INDEED THE QUESTION!!!

Summary thoughts: this was really good and I like that MW has taken the time to address the NE fallout before moving on to whatever is coming next, I'm mostly just excited for that whatever-comes-next now. I didn't expect this story to still be focused on the same planet, but it's cool that it was! And now we're moving on with more machine intelligences and rogue secunits in play!! And they mentioned the comfortunit from artificial condition so hopefully that'll come back into play soon as well! I feel like something is building up wrt construct rights in the setting and I'm very excited to see that, but in the meantime I loved getting this familiar romp through MB having a very bad day and working through its emotions while also trying not to die. And it was fun having the twist on the usual formula with things being so isolated and it having to handle everything while being off its game, it felt a lot more tense than some of the other entries just by virtue of the fact that MB's narration was so much less confident than usual, and it made it really nice to hear the fire come back to its voice once we hit that point in the story. 11/10 as usual I love this bot so goddamn much

#wastepaper basket #I think I had a tag for murderbot liveblogging at one point but idr what it was lmao #Just be advised there's spoilers below the cut I guess!#But my spoiler-free review is thst it's amazing as usual and I love this bot so so so so so much #Oh wait I remember the tag #murderbot lb #I think some of these got eaten when I saved the draft at some point or else they'd be even longer lmao.....

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xenosagaepisodeone · 9 months

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the thing is though that these checklists don’t mean if you have BPD it is not allowed that you have nightmares / if you have CPTSD you are legally obligated to never experience impulsiveness etc etc; it’s not just “making stuff up” — though ig in the strictest sense yeah, first you make stuff up but then you test it and see if your hypotheses align with the population. Basically chances are if you meet 8/9 BPD criteria and some for CPTSD but not enough to meet the diagnostic standard (which afaik isn’t recognized just yet but i think they’re trying to get it recognized in the diagnostic manuals but correct me if i’m wrong) then it’s pretty likely you’re going to respond better to BPD treatment and ALSO if your practitioner completely ignores one diagnosis in favor of the other they’re probably not that good at their job. Psychology doesn’t speak in “rules” and absolutes, it speaks in trends and likelihoods and everyone trying to sell you a 100% true and immovable psychology fact is a sham

as someone who unfortunately has a degree in psychology (and whose undergrad began right as the infamous replication crisis became more widely acknowledged in the field), yes, historically a lot of this field is bias and hegemony imbued with some metric. when homosexuality was still classified as a mental disorder, the conversion therapy program by masters and johnson (who were like, some of the earliest pioneers of research into human sexual responses lmao) would often boast high success rates due to participants merely adopting signifiers of heterosexuality. the modern day pop psychology movement (and it's subfields, new ageism, self help books, uhhh Market Christianity) also cannot be disentangled from academic psychology, which further bends the way in which people understand and interact with psychological phenomena. this of course does not mean that all data is junk data, or that methods of measurement are without some rigor, or that therapy is completely useless, but it's just patently incorrect to insist that this field is even predominantly an apolitical force attempting to further our understanding of human beings. it's bizarre that you acknowledge that credentialized individuals in the field can be flawed while also being uncritical of psychological categorization for mental illness.

It's not that I don't get what you're saying, but it's not reflective of reality. yes, I know that practitioners are supposed to help you feel out your symptoms and see what treatment works for you, but that isn't just what they're doing (assuming it's even being done with care and competence). it's inaccurate to insist that psychology doesn't speak in absolutes- I know that we are taught not to do this, but for any social science related field this is the equivalent of going "stop hitting yourself". in any practical real-world setting where accredited institutional psychology is present, there are rules. in a clinical setting, there are rules, and you can be inpatiented against your will for breaking those rules (or recently here in canada, randomly stripped of your driver's license). in neuromarketing (<- yes this is a real discipline.), which is intensively oriented towards results due to the profit incentive, there are rules. the conditions of release for many offenders necessitates staying on court-mandated medication or participating in specific programs. when H.B. Phrenology from The Heritage Foundation wheels out his thousandth manicured study on crime and race (and when a different journal publishes a study indirectly debunking it), that is him tacitly acknowledging that there are rules.

anyway did I ever tell you guys that in my first year at University of Toronto (UTSC campus baybee) they brought in a guest speaker to my abnormal psych course who gave us a lengthy talk on how autogynephilia theory is objectively true. this was like 2013ish maybe 2014 btw.

#asks #anonymous

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laylaylamode · 2 months

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I know I'm hellaciously late but any cute Valentine's Day interactions for the Stacies :3 whether it's with their respective partners or Galentine's Day

Sure! I'd say that this ask could pertain to Valentine's Day so I'm gonna go with Galentine's Day for the girlies.

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"Awwww, you guys!" Stacie Q covered her mouth and tried not to squeal as she turned around in the mirror. Her outfit was obviously inspired by Rosalina, and behind her the other Stacie's wore inspired outfits perfectly in theme with hers—Stacie B as Princess Daisy and Stacie A as Princess Peach.

With no green equivalent female character it was a wonder what Stacie T would wear, but she looked perfectly content in her stylish Queen Meralda fit. And Stacie Q was touched by the dedication her friends had to research the lesser known character.

"A group cosplay is the best gift ever! Whose idea was this?"

"Mine, obviously." Stacie A smirked and gestured at herself. "Alright, who's next with their group contribution?"

"Moi!" Stacie B waved her cellphone. "Check your phones. I created this app where you can scan someone's clothes and see how much it's worth."

"A gift that helps us judge other people even more than we already do? Scandalous." Stacie T smirked down at her phone. She was gonna have a lot of fun with this one. "My turns, lovelies. Since we went through a lot this year I figured we could do some stress relieving with a smash therapy session. We're going to a rage room tonight, and then detoxing at the spa tomorrow."

The girls all cheered. Nothing like smashing glass and breaking things to get some tension out of the system!

"Okay, okay! My turn!" Stacie Q checked her phone. "Should be here any minute now—oh good! She's walking up now!"

The 'she' in question was Franny, who was about to knock on their apartment down before Stacie Q flung it open and yanked her inside. "Franny Banani, you're right on time! In honor of Galentine's Day together, my gift is to recommend her as an honorary Stacie!"

Franny did a double take and raised her eyebrow. First at their outfits and second at the suggestion. "What? Why?"

Stacie B threw her arms around her and have her a squeeze. "Because we totes love you! And your middle name is Stella, so it's not too far off."

"I'm gonna beat Mach's ass for telling you my middle name..."

"Plus, you're more tolerable than most people," Stacie T added. "Which is a lot coming from me. And I can't keep being the only logical person in this group."

"Join us!" Stacie A smirked and held up a Bowsette inspired fit. "It comes with cute outfiiiiiits. You know you want tooooooo."

Franny weighed her options. If she ran for the door, Stacie Q would block her. If she stayed, they'd make her play dress up and probably watch a movie with their frequent commentary. Not too bad. She sighed and folded her arms.

"Fine..."

"Yay!" The Stacie's cheered.

"But I'm not a Stacie, just Franny. And I'm not wearing that leather mini-skirt."

Stacie T sighed dramatically. "You've got nice long legs, but if you don't want your new boyfriend Beat to see them..."

Franny narrowed her eyes but it did nothing to counter the blush on her cheeks. "...give me the skirt."

"Atta girl!" Stacie B fist pumped. "Best Galentine's Day ever!"

#ask #anon #callyieverse #spectacular silver wolf #the stacie's #Franny shortman

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what in the entire fuck

many many wot s2e7 spoilers ahead

young!moiraine would never just fucking visit cairhien with her lover be so fucking for real

jumpsuit good tho. i like the jumpsuit

the way they wrote the gitara scene is weird and overly didactic ??? i get that they need to compress like all of new spring into about 30 seconds but idk guys

why the hell did they bring the seat all the way to cairhien??? like why can't she sit on a normal store brand throne

that said i do appreciate the firm planting with the knees far apart none of this prissy legs crossed at the ankle shit for siuan that's a dyke for sure

siuan stroking moiraine's face put me in an early grave

madeleine madden emmy when!!!!!

i get it i get it they have no time to actually talk but like moiraine's facial twitches while siuan is all like omg can you imagine if a forsaken got to him lmaooooooo

i can't decide if siuan naming moiraine's fatal sin as pride is like true or not like sure there is some pridefulness there but it's way overridden by a crazy amount of 'i'm going down with him' and like i sorta think that seizing on pride is a misreading of siuan's understanding of moiraine??? or maybe i've been too into the fic where they have a psychic bond because anvaere's later explanation of moiraine's righteousness seems so much more correct

they are being soooo incautious about having important convos where other people can hear them like why did lan and moiraine have the suicide convo in that anteroom where the guards are and also like all your senses are heightened when you're holding the one power so like leane should totally be able to overhear moiraine and rand discussing going to falme idk guys

however i like how right before lan asks moiraine about suicide she's rubbing her fingers together and trying to calm herself. ms pike what do you know

it was cunty of lanfear to walk through the foregate like that i do have to give her credit for that

MADELEINE MADDEN EMMY WHEN!!!!!!

i love verin idc how they handle her later arc i fucking love verin

siuan channeling in the fur coat? yeah. let's think about that

the entire waygate scene. where to even start

1. arching and moaning.

2. i simply do not believe that moiraine was shielded for six months and then was immediately strong enough to open a waygate. girl needs the magical equivalent of physical therapy

3. the visual of the gate opening and closing is. hm. unbelievably sexual?

4. siuan in the fur coat. again. much to think about

5. hate to think that siuan is so angry with moiraine she can't hear that moiraine is not able to lie and like totally misses the part where moiraine is as close to begging as she'll ever get in public. that hurts my heart fr fr

6. arching and moaning. again

7. so rand when shielded is always crouching in on himself. neat little dumai's well/box arc foreshadowing i must say

8. i feel kinda crazy that lan heads for the waygate before moiraine. like i get that they are not so in lockstep as they once were but HE knows about siuan. and they just silently agree to leave her there? where is the lan who is the main shipper of siuraine

9. the dual trickle of blood. the 'moiraine please.' i'm going to cry for the next year

10. how are they gonna come back from this

11. fuck

#help guys i'm so messed up about this we got a new spring kiss but at what cost. but at what cost #i'm going to pass out this entire episode was just me doing that monkey side eye gif over and over #wot on prime spoilers #wot book spoilers #wot s2

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iamgonnagetyouback · 11 months

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Can you help me?

Hi! My name is Georgia, I'm from Brazil and I'm a huuuge swiftie. I'm usually quiet around here because I don't know anyone, but now I really need some help. Please read this.

As you probably know, just yesterday Taylor announced that she's bringing the Eras Tour to LATAM! Let me tell you: this was the best news ever!!! I can't believe it still. I don't think I'm going to move on from this anytime soon. I've been a fan of her since the 1989 era, when I was only 13, and ever since my affection and admiration for her has only grow and established itself in my heart forever. However, as much thrilled and excited as I am, I'm also distressed because I know that, for me, this is going to be hard financially speaking. That's why I need your help.

I'm 22 and I'm currently jobless. I live with my parents and my sister, and my dad is the only source of income we have. To be able to go see Taylor, I'm going to need to raise the equivalent of $500 and this is going to be very difficult since there's few to none people in my life that can help me. My entire family struggles with money and I even feel bad to ask for their help, but this is a dream. This is something I've been wanting for years. This is something that made me bawl my eyes out and that made it impossible for me to sleep properly these past days when everything was still just a rumor. My anxiety is hitting and I don't know what is going to be of me if I'm unable to go to one show.

I only have $20 saved and I'm willing to leave therapy so I can save some more money. I still have to talk to my father and see if he allows me to do this (and I need you to root for me on this!), which is going to be complicated. If he does not agree with my proposal, it's going to get even harder for me.

To make things clear, I need money so I can:

buy the concert ticket;

buy the airplane tickets.

I live in Rio Grande do Norte, a state that is far from São Paulo, and just the plain rides are going to cost something close to $260. There's also the in-betweens to worry about, but I'm focusing on what's more urgent right now.

I am willing to do anything to see Taylor because I know this is a once in a lifetime experience (especially for me, being Brazilian). I love her more than words will ever be able to explain. You guys know what I'm talking about, I'm sure you do. So if you can, please consider helping me with a donation. It will mean the world to me. And please reblog this so more people can see and maybe help too.

MY PAYPAL: [email protected]

Thank you so so so much in advance. May the universe bless your souls!

Tagging my lovely mutuals: @kindofhaunted @iforgothatyouexisted @by-the-lakes @swifft @dancinginstarlights 💗 and some of my favorite blondie accounts: @coldasyou @cages-boxes-hunters-foxes @lovestory @calmfolklore @cruellesummer ✨ and these two: @taylornation @taylorswift 😘

#shhh gege is speaking #taylor swift #taylorswift #tswift #this situation is so overwhelming #i'm a mess of emotions #please help me #sorry for any typos english is not my first language

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I’m so not normal about Vegas. I don’t think I can be normal about Vegas.

Below the cut it’s just a ramble of projecting, trauma dumping, and psychoanalysis.

Today’s episode was on the tougher side. Losing a pet is always a tender topic, but the way it was framed around Vegas’ trauma and the conversation between him and Pete about it hit too close to home. I’ve had a very similar conversation with my therapist. I have a sick pet, who was going into dangerous surgery for probably the third time. My therapist was asking me how I was feeling about it – the usual. I tried to talk about it without crying and failed miserably. I was obviously frustrated and expressed that just the potential loss should not hurt so much. She had to explain at a grassroots level to me that that is what an affectionate relationship is like and how it should be. It should be important, and that’s why it’s a good thing that it hurts. In the episode, I could imagine Vegas wanting to scream that if it’s like this, he doesn’t want any of it. But of course he cannot avoid it, since, as the episode clearly demonstrated, he’s not a psychopath and is very much capable of caring.

I love seeing people roast Vegas on how Pete gave him two minutes of therapy and the guy fell in love. As in, how emotionally unintelligent can a guy get? Well, for reference, I was instructed to do mindfulness noting techniques when I was 21: Whenever I noticed I was thinking, I was supposed to note for myself that I’m thinking. Same for feeling. However, I thought that it meant physical feelings, such as sore muscles or tingling. I did not realize that I had feelings, as in emotions, until I was 25, because I was so ill equipped to deal with them. I think they happened, I just wasn’t aware.

When you’re an extension of a parent instead of seen as an actual human, the mind has no option except perceive the self through the Other. You feel as if you are how your parent compares you to your peers. You are your grades, your progress in your hobbies, your successes compared to others. You got the second best result in an exam or a sports competition? The thing a parent like this wants to know only is why did you not get the first one and more importantly, who did? You get punished for failure. A grade B+ will give you a week of being grounded. (Really.) A child like this, in search for affection, doesn’t really develop likes and dislikes, the only way they can find human connection is learning to manipulate how others perceive you and draw positive feelings from there. This is why Vegas is so obsessed with being seen as “the second”. Anyone would think that’s an enviable position. He has an entire household of people who think he’s equivalent to a God, but he only cares about the gaze of some abstract Other he has learnt to place on himself. This, of course, he picked up from his father ever since childhood. This is why he's so perceptive of which version of him Pete reacts to the best.

The self harm… When you’re corporeally punished as a child, physical pain becomes a soothing comfort for emotions you’re ill equipped to process. When I was expressing age typical emotions at two years old, my parent considered it a failure on my part – I was being difficult and made her look bad – and used to slap me on the face. According to old documents written by her, after getting beat, I would crawl over to her to give her a kiss in an apology that I had upset her. Eventually I guess I learnt that affection is only on the table momentarily if I do something that makes her appear in a good light, and then the moment’s over. The only real attention you get from a parent like this is pain, and when you’re an emotionally starved enough child, pain is better than nothing. When you’re sad, you learn not to expect comfort, you learn to expect pain of some sort and what is familiar will become comfortable, so you do it to yourself.

Sometimes, you would find another place for comfort: another parent, maybe friends later on, maybe pets. But if you’re used to losing all of these new sources of hope, you begin to push them away right from the start to show yourself that you’re indeed not worthy of love. And when you're really desperate for human connection with a mind like this, you will think you have to chain them to the ceiling just to stop them from leaving. My only friend in elementary school moved away, my only friend in middle and high school moved away, my first boyfriend died, I’ve lost more pets that I can count. You give up and live every single moment waiting for the other shoe to drop. Every good moment is drenched in the knowledge that it’s not going to last, so why delay the hurt. Make yourself unlovable, control the perception of the Others so that they never know you, because, if they never know you, they cannot really leave you. Teach yourself to walk backwards out of any given situation. However, conveniently they can give you that little drop of good brain chemicals if you can trick them into seeing you in a light of power. For example, through violence and sadism. You can find a fan you can manipulate into seeing you as superhuman, but be all too willing to, well, shoot them I guess, because they would leave you anyway if they actually knew you. However, when you get the satisfaction of being seen positively through the other via a new state - vulnerability - you're going to want that kick of being liked while navigating a whole new experience. Vegas being perceptive to how Pete likes him, being addicted to being how Pete likes him, is going to teach him new ways of existing.

A child being put responsible for how others see a narcissistic parent is exactly how you would get a character like Vegas. A control freak completely out of touch with their own self with an emphasis on facades and impressions to whom others are only tools to either be seen through or tools to manipulate how others see them. For a personality like this, facing oneself is dangerous for everyone involved, since the toll on the psyche is not little and coping mechanisms are various.

However, if against all odds, the self survives this, what does one do with the surplus of love and affection that has previously only had an outlet in harm towards oneself and others?

I’m not normal about Vegas.

#kinnporsche the series #vegas theerapanyakul #vegaspete #kinnporsche

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Thess vs Asexual Advocacy

So while I’m waiting for some files to transfer (because I found out that I can actually just move game files on Steam now instead of having to uninstall and reinstall, and with having removed a lot of video file from my drives, I have a lot more space and might not even need to use the external drive ... for awhile, anyway), I decided to go through YouTube, and found an interview that Yasmin Benoit, asexual advocate, did with Carl Higbie of Newsmax. I mean, she handled it wonderfully but I wanted to throw things.

He starts with, “I dunno what that is”, like it’s some weird-ass thing, and then quotes Merriam-Webster dictionary definition, and then still asks Yasmin what asexuality means. Asks twice what rights she’s actually advocating for that they don’t already have...

Okay, here’s where I should talk a little bit about UK law and some shit I didn’t know until she mentioned, though in my case it was because I assumed very wrong about a lot of things and fucking hate it. So here’s the deal:

Asexuality is still pathologised in the DSM and Europe’s equivalent. So while homosexuality for both sexes was eventually seen as an orientation and not a mental illness by medical professionals ... asexuality was not.

Asexuality is not included in the protections offered by the UK Equality Act. Which means that the umbrella ban on conversion therapy? Doesn’t apply to asexuals. So we can still have family and doctors push us into “treatment” for “medical frigidity” or “hormonal imbalance” or whatever the fuck.

She tells him this twice and he still doesn’t get it. And in fact almost makes it a joke, going, “So, if I said something like, ‘Hey, you should try to get yourself a partner; it works for me’ and all that kind of thing, would that count as hate?” At which point she looked at him with the politest “what the fuck are you on about, mate?” look I’ve ever seen and said, “No; it would just be a weird and intrusive thing to say. Also, asexuals do still like companionship and might have life partners - it just doesn’t have to be about sex”.

I think what got me was that at the end of her every answer, this Higbie guy almost visibly shunted aside her cogent and intelligent answers with, “Okay, so--” and then moving on without any indication any of it had sunk in. And in fact basically turned around at the very end of it and more or less said, “I don’t get why this has to be its own category; why can’t it just be like ... like me, I’m a normal guy, married to a woman; why isn’t it just ‘any other category’? Why can’t you just say, ‘I’m a citizen, I do my thing, and that’s that’?”

Translation: “You’re not actually queer; why are you pretending to be?”

Look, you little white-bread deep-fried fuckwit, YOU ARE NOT THE ONE WHO DECIDES WHAT QUEER IS.

She said what I would have said, but a lot more calmly: “We’re not straight, so we fall under the umbrella”.

It feels like there’s this interview style that’s asking questions in a couple of different ways and not listening for answers or to understand, but to look for the right sound byte to throw out there in a clip to make the other person fit their narrative. This feels like that. Except that Yasmin Benoit didn’t give him any, so he was like, “Okay, I still don’t get this, but whatever” at the end of it.

Some people in the comments thought that this was a good interview, that it was good to have those kinds of questions out there, that it was a good first step. Having dealt with an awful lot of people who have that exact same, “Why do you have to call yourself queer?” conversation, I personally think it was only good because any attempt to invalidate asexuality failed due to Yasmin Benoit’s being calm, patient, and very articulate.

Here. It’s only six minutes. Judge for yourself. I still want to punch his Botox-looking face in, personally, but that’s just me. I don’t like people’s reasonable fears about the lack of advocacy for asexuals, and their desire to be accepted rather than fucking pathologised, turned into something to attempt to mine for delegitimising sound bytes. Thankfully, from this one, they won’t get any.

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#Thess is asexual

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"He’s trying to piece together his current life with the new bits he has. The war is done but now all that’s left is the lingering thought of how many have DIED and how almost pointless it was. All he has now is his team and their crappy apartment. But he’d rather have that then GO BACK to fighting for no reason other then kill." IM ABOUT TO POUR GASOLINE ON THIS FIRE!!!!!!!

Because as much as I have issues with TAAO it had some rly good concepts that never got fully explored and BRAWL is one of them! He's a tired and uncertain war veteran dealing w not only the cybertron equivalent of toxic masculinity but also poverty, PTSD, one of his team missing, his team lead being a freak-o (who's also suffering frm Cybertron equiv of toxic masculinity like I'm signing Ons and Brawl up for therapy right neeyow). Girl no wonder this man is drinking to cope! i don't blame him. No wonder he falls back on violence when given the opportunity at first, because it's what he's used to and what he's comfortable with and most importantly, violence is all that has ever been expected of Brawl. When enough people expect only one thing from you it can be VERY hard to try for anything else. I'm. get this man in therapy right now please

YOUR SO RIGHT! YOUR SO RIGHT!

Me when brawl seemingly can never be able to escape his own self destructive tendencies and it end up in him suffering from it because of his bad coping mechanisms that are led by being known as a brute who is violent and not a person who is struggling to just SURVIVE in the world:

Goddddd this fucks. I know that feeling all to well and it sucks. You keep falling back into old ways because THATS ALL YOU KNOW. You think this is okay because you’ve been doing it for so long. Even when you KNOW it’s not okay, it’s so hard to break away from it.

I need onslaught and brawl in therapy ASAP. Like get in the car war vets we are going to therapy. I like- they can’t even break out of their situation of poverty because they are struggling to find stable work, they are struggling just to live. Hell- onslaught can’t even ACCPET that the war is over because that’s all HE KNOWS! He can’t move on and for that it effects the team as well. He’s their leader and the fact that he CANT move on, makes it harder for everyone else. I love onslaught so much but FUCK. I can’t even EXPRESS how tragic these guys are. I love them so much they make me want to punch a wall and sob.

#transformers #tf #brawl #combaticons #onslaught #SOBBING IN MY BED ON NEW YEARS DAY GOOD GOSSDDDDDDD OVER COMBATICONS #*holds my small brawl figure* IM SO SORRY BABY I LOVE YOY

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So idk what this is really, just like the other day I had the thought of like a character that died and like continued to be conscious despite it and was like "Oh. I appear to be dead." Like I thought it'd be kinda funny conceptually just as a fun goofy thing to like think about.

And anyway, these are just like idk (what's like the writing equivalent of a doodle? like is there a word for that? idk), but yeah so just kinda having fun with writing kinda like an interior monologue-ish stream of consciousness almost kind of thing

Well theres two of them (no connection between the two just different ideas), and anyway I thought they were kinda fun so I thought I'd share them here lmao

anyway this was just for fun and intentionally are a bit silly so yeah idk, I hope it's vaguely amusing for you at least

like to note there's just a small amount of horror vibes bc I like horror but nothing too dramatic, I think idk

This one has a more comedic tone

(well it's actually a bit longer but I'll just include the highlights)

Have you ever felt like the world is weighing you down? Compressing you until there's nothing left? Expectations and obligations pilled above you like a collapsing building? Or like you're deep underground? No light and only a false promise that you might be saved? Or like a mannequin or puppet, trying your best but really just knowing you're not cut out for it… Well, anyway, this isn't that. Like I get that, me too. All the time. But, I appear to literally be buried in a ditch that has been hastily covered with soil. At this current moment I mean. Like talk about a pathetic murder, right? Like if you're going to kill me… like… try harder to not get caught. Jesus Christ. I can only die once and you ruined it. Congratulations.

…

Oh good, someone has found me, I'm getting dug up. I hope I'm not a bad looking corpse. Like if there's one good thing about dying at 25, at least I've got my beauty still… right? Right? I don't think my face was damaged? The knife in my chest is a bit of a downer, but… You know what they say… Live fast, die young, bad girls do it- wait no… Live fast, die young, leave a beautiful corpse… Or something… I bet I'd make a hot frankenstein's monster. I feel like I should be questioning my sanity right now, but working on myself seems redundant at this point. Oh I see light. Sunlight, my beloved. Wait IS THAT A FUCKING DOG, DO NOT BITE ME. DO NOT. Oh thank- Oh, and there's the scream. So, I'm getting… not a pretty corpse? Or just shocked about the corpse thing? Either way… Depressing.

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Hey, dog walker! I can blink over here. Blin- oh no they were just twitching weren't they… I am so fucked. Like I don't even really care about the guy that killed me… But... Wait… This is a free vacation. Time for my unhinged corpse girl summer. Unhinged nonbinary corpse summer. Unhinged mind stuck inside a decaying body… forever… summer…

...

I refuse to believe that I'll still be conscious after my body has been cremated. So it should be possible to get out of this place sooner. Yeah, so, this is just like trying to get out of bed in the morning. I don't wanna get out until I'm forced out by the alarm. But… I'm going to go mad stuck in here. Like, the being dead thing is already quite the blow… I don't think I'm going to cope well with the isolation… Like I'm already talking to myself… or you… haha… :) You seem cool haha, wanna like get out of he- I'm joking. Mostly. HEY ANYONE. I'M STUCK IN HERE. ANY PSYCHOPOMPS? AY YO GOD? We've not always been on the best of terms, but you still love me, right? Riiiiighhhhttt? Okay, yeah, I'm not calling to the other one. I have some standards at least. Ethel Cain was right. God doesn't love me enough to save me. Ruh roh raggy, can't magical thinking my way out of this one. Thanks therapy. All those BREATHING EXERCISES are doing wonders right now. You know, with my LUNGS.

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YOOOOOO SCORE! I AM A HOT CORPSE. Like shame I'm about to be cremated -which will ruin my face- but honestly, I prefer this to the alternative -my face slowly rotting- so… Has anyone ever told you that funeral homes are depressing? Like stop crying, just because I am better at dying than all of you… I really feel like this would be a good time for my delusions of grandeur to start acting out but like in reality, like when has a bit of chunnibyou ever hurt anyone… Sooo… I'm waiting… Reincarnation? Timeloop? Regression to the past? Isekai? Posthumous deification? God randomly talking to me? Yeah... no

...

So there goes my hot body… FUCKKKKkkk I am so glad I don't have any functional nerves.

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Thinking about it, how was I able to see earlier? Wait, where am I? This is freaky as hell… I hope this isn't actually hell. Not any brimstone so… I'm probably fine… But… I am slightly concerned by the way the walls seem to be made of decaying meat.-

This one is just ever so slightly more macarbre

It's so quiet the silence seems to be choking out my thoughts. Everything, my body, is wrong, but, I don't seem to feel any pain. Strange. Am I still conscious? Why can't I see? And, why can't I breathe? Was that a wince, or a gasp? Maybe both? A spasm, a convulsion, or twitch perhaps? Is that a bell ringing? Suddenly? Why is it so dreadfully loud? Drowning. I'm drowning. Why can't I breathe I can't breathe Another convulsion. I force my lungs clear. A violent motion that sends a splatter of half-congealed blood up my throat. It's stuck part way, like a string of melted cheese. Is this how I'm going to die? Choking on my own blood? With ruptured lungs, and drowning in my own bodily fluids? Deep brea- A choke, and an uncomfortable dry swallow. It sends sticky granulated sludge down my oesophagus. A moment. A second. A minute. I'm not breathing. It seems, I appear to be dead. Already.

#writing #horror #idk like just goofy writing for fun idk like silly low effort idk doodle but writing

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🦇 Practice Makes Perfect Book Review

❓ #QOTD What movie do you wish you could live as your life's story?

[ Find my review below. ]

🦇 Annie Waker is ready to find her happily ever after; someone she can start a family with, like something from one of her favorite romance movies or novels. Unfortunately, that's harder than it seems when you live in a small town where everyone knows EVERYONE'S business. After a date calls her "unbelievably boring," Annie wilts like one of the sunflowers in her flower shop. Luckily, the perfect learning opportunity presents itself in Will Griffin, bodyguard to Annie's sister-in-law-to-be, Amelia Rose. Inspired by Audrey Hepburn's Funny Face, Amelia recommends that Will (sexy, tattooed, has-no-interest-in-getting-married Will) tutor Annie in the way of saying. Can they fight their obvious attraction to one another amid steamy practice dates?

💜 I don't know how, but I managed to hit a streak of fake/practice dating romances (not complaining one bit -- it's a cute trope!). This story is as sweet as a bouquet of tulips with quick wit and sass tossed in between. Will (William? Wilson? Wilbur?) is a stern brunch daddy (a guy who looks scary but is actually all soft and sweet to the person he loves) for Annie from the get-go, quick to fall despite the traumatic upbringing that made him reluctant to let love in after all this time. Will encouraged Annie to be herself, defying the angelic reputation the entire town as pinned on her since childhood. With Will's coaxing, she learns more about herself, begins to take risks, and eventually stands up in a show of character development. The character development for both Annie and Will is beautifully flawless; proof that two people can bring out the best in one another, all while staying true to themselves. Will constantly coaxes Annie to speak her thoughts, even despite her self-consciousness and self-doubt. They defy the miscommunication trope that too many romances fall prey to.

💙 First, I want to express my gratitude for the lack of a miscommunication trope here (there's an itty bitty one, but it only lasts a few pages). Unfortunately, there is a bit of tension lacking in this book. Annie remains steadfast in wanting someone she can start a family with until the end, while Will has convinced himself he isn't worthy of love. While these internal conflicts are consistent, the only external conflict is the town's petition to keep the two of them apart. I expected to see that as a catalyst for small roadblocks the two would need to navigate. Instead, it's pure fluff and cuteness; a sweet romance, for sure, but lacking in substance. There was so much opportunity to explore mental health (Annie's social anxiety, all of Will's issues, the pressure Annie feels because of her reputation, grief), but other than the mention of therapy in passing, it's not given the attention it deserves.

🦇 Recommended to fans of soft, closed-door romances. This is a sweet, quick, fluffy, cute af romance (and Will is definitely worth swoony over).

✨ The Vibes ✨ 🌸 Contemporary Romance 🌺 Part of a Series 🌻 Small Town Romance 💐 Grumpy vs Sunshine/Opposites Attract 🌹 Dual POV 🌷 Closed Door Romance 🥀 Fake Dating 💬 Quotes ❝ “It seems to me, Annie, that you are just waiting for someone to give you permission to be yourself out loud.” ❞ ❝ And the thing that scares me the most is how desperate I am for her to know all of this and believe it. ❞ ❝ This one is for the softies. The tenderhearted sweeties. The introverts who are afraid to shine. ❞ ❝ For introverts like me with social anxiety, the process of dating is equivalent to waxing your bikini line. Menstrual cramps on day two of your cycle. An emergency dental procedure you weren’t expecting—and guess what: they’re fresh out of novocaine. ❞

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Okay. So, I know I don't have a PHD. I know I'm not an expert, so this is all my opinion.

But...

1. Fear of her lover wasn't a driving factor or an "aphrodisiac." Bella became infatuated with a man that clearly had deep mental health issues. Honestly, I thought he showed signs of having Borderline personality disorder, but what do I know?

2. I'm not in any way going to justify his behavior or say it wasn't abusive: it WAS. He was, at least initially, NOT a good or even acceptable partner. He stalked her and broke her trust many times. He was controlling and possessive and manipulative in attempts to... ahem, protect her or prevent harming her. He believed he was bad, a monster, and would hurt her. Inevitably, he did, just not in the ways he was worried he would.

3. This book wasn't "bad." It wasn't saying, "this is what you should do." It's a story. It's a novel. Would you attack any other story with toxic or abusive relationships because of said relationships? The books weren't designed to show an ideal relationship. It was a story, a fantasy.

In the same way that violent video games don't lead people to shooting up schools, this vampire book isn't leading people into looking for undead stalkers to be in relationships with.

It's no different from any other toxic romance.

Were there good parts? Yes. Was Edward irredeemable? No. Was he all bad and evil? Also no. Honestly, at his core? I think he wasn't a bad guy. I think, at his core, he was loving and sensitive. But, honestly, being dead for 100 years? Being a vampire? All that trauma?

He and Bella could have had a decent relationship one day if they went to individual therapy and couple's counseling.

That isn't in any way designed to say, "Stay with your abusive partners because therapy could help!" By all means, get out. But, in this case, it was clear that they weren't going to part ways.

It's also clear that it's just a fantastical story about a brooding dead guy obsessed with a young woman that's mutually obsessed with him.

I really think all the vitriol is silly and unnecessary.

Let me enjoy the fucking movie and stop acting like this fucking series is the romance equivalent of violent music leading to Columbine.

Ffs.

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clockwork-fayz · 1 year

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Macey’s Review of Best Picture Nominees 2023*

2022

*Now featuring Crying Factor!

Women Talking: 10/10

Words cannot describe how I felt watching this movie. It takes place in the span of one day and is literally just women talking, yet it felt like the stakes were higher than any action movie that came out this year. It was my first watch of the season and it is a strong contender. I wish they could have brought August with them. Crying Level: 3/5 though it was more like I was shell shocked.

Everything, Everywhere, All at Once: 9.8/10

This movie made me sob. It made me laugh. It made me uncomfortable, but damnit if it didn’t have the best message out of all these movies. Did it top Women Talking for me? YOU CAN’T COMPARE THE TWO, WHOSE IDEA WAS THAT? The ONLY reason is is not getting a solid 10 is because of the butt plug scene and the hot dog fingers in the mouth. Crying Factor 5/5 I was not expecting to bawl my eyes out and want to change my life

The Banshees of Inisherin: 7/10

This movie aggravated me to no end at how bleak everything was. What did we learn from this movie? That if you are depressed, ruining someone else’s life isn’t going to make you feel better. That I want a hook on a stick. And if someone threatened to sever a finger every time I talked to them, I would go out of my way to talk to them every time I saw them. I’m not getting hurt, good luck doing things without fingers mate. Crying Factor: 3/5 Friendship breakups are harder than regular ones. And donkey deaths are harder than regular ones too.

Tar: 4/10

It is important to remind people that I am dumb and some movies are just too psychological for me. Even the internet seems confused about what the purpose of this film was. I was so bored and I don’t trust Cate Blanchet ever. Even in Lord of the Rings. Crying Factor: 0/5 unless you count when I saw how long this movie was

Top Gun Maverick: 8/10

Don’t be fooled, this is a sports movie. I know what Harry Styles meant now when said “it feels like a movie” cause this sure is a movie. It has drama, romance, great music, Miles Teller; Grade A casting right there, damn that was spot on for Goose’s son. I bet if you grew up watching Top Gun (unlike me) this was equivalent to me watching the Force Awakens in theaters. Is it Oscar worthy? No. But is it a good time? Yes. Crying Factor: 2/5, personally it didn’t hit for me but for others it might

Triangle of Sadness: 5/10

This is parasite all over again. You root for no one, everyone sucks, life sucks and the ending is of course open ended which sucks. Stupid film festival movies. The only character I somewhat liked was YaYa because I felt like she respected the grind. Minus points for making me sea sick, minus points for killing children, and minus a thousand because I could see the dead lady breathing. Crying Factor: So much death, yet you have no one to grieve.

All Quiet on the Western Front: 7/10

It’s nice of filmmakers to remind us at least once a year that war sucks. What does this movie have versus others? Daniel Bruhl, and outstanding debut performance by the lead actor, and cinematically amazing. But in a few years will I remember this movie or the greatest beer run ever? I think you know the answer. Crying Factor: 3/5 you don’t love the characters enough to mourn them.

Elvis: 8/10

It took about twenty minutes to remember that this was a Baz Lurhmann film and I was not having drug induced hallucinations. Luckily it calmed down about halfway through. The ending though, with “Unchained Melody” and the real Elvis footage, that is how you end a biopic people! Crying Factor: 2/5 I really love “Unchained Melody”

The Fablemans 7/10

#LET MICHELLE WILLAMS BE IN A HAPPY MARRIAGE #AND GET HER INTO THERAPY. The beginning was just darling when he was a little guy and I kind of wish that the plot focused only on his filmmaking and not the rest of his messed up life. Crying Factor: 1/5, maybe if you can relate to little not Stephen, then you would get misty eyed, but I was just pissed as hell at the mother.

Avatar Way of Water: 7/10

You go through a lot of phases watching this movie. First you are unerved from the CGI. Then you get used to it and you are like okay this is a compelling story. Then you get unnerved because wtf the whales speak sign language? Then you accept that because this movie is literally whack, of course they speak sign language. Then the last 45 minutes you go back and forth between wow this is a good final battle to wait it’s still not over? But one things stay the same the whole 3 Hours: the feeling to scream JAKE YOU DUMBASS at your screen. Crying Factor: 4/5 That scream from Zoe Saldana tears you in two, even if it is coming from a computer generated alien

#maceyreviewsbestpicturenominees #theoscars #academyawards #bestpicture #avatar way of water #the banshees of inisherin #everything everywhere all at once #the fablemans #women talking #triangle of sadness #top gun maverick #all quiet on the western front

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radianttampon · 2 years

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Yeah but the people like Brandy wish they didn’t have so much anger in the canyon did you take your brother’s penis out of your asshole it will probably feel a little bit better Brandy

well now I guess you already know that he’s probably gonna wish that you were dead he may kill you… You guys do not have a strong bond as others I think people do because you’re so deeply incestuous that you think that’s normal and then Denise Meador decides to tell you that it’s OK to deny that you have incestuous problems but it’s not OK to have sex with your brother ever ever Brandy

Are you saying that Nick Meador is the equivalent of the Scottsdale Nager

Yeah except you already know that Nick and Brandy both want their mothers dead

Well I said Denise at nine

My opinion is Denise Judy and all of those other women with stick mine should have thought of that before they decided to create child pornography much film

But I do understand that Brandi has sexual and emotional feeling for her brother which I am uncomfortable with because of course it was my understanding that he was my lover and that you were his sister… Genetically speaking I cannot agree with Randy or Nicholas’s disgusting behavior… Maybe they didn’t have a lot of company growing up or maybe their mother was a very disgusting influence but Denise will deny it until the end

The good news is we can protect children like Nick and Denise or I’m sorry I’m sorry Brandy Brandy let me ask you are you a carbon copy of Denise or will you be afraid individual because the answer I know you’re gonna lie and I know that you do want to have sexual intercourse with your brother Nichols… But I would suggest that you get therapy and I suggest that you deal with your impulses because they are not clean and the entire state of Kentucky faces and incestuous holocaust because of people like your mother who denies Denise denies you guys face face the facts better as they say you guys know what I’m saying

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