#edit: changed my mind clear is bi

[hornytome]

Hello everyone!! Finally time for an update. I’ve put it off because of nerves too long.

So, basically: I’m not a butch lesbian (anymore)! I’m actually bi and transmasc.

Shockingly, my girlfriend is no longer a femme lesbian either! She’s also bisexual. Still a girly girl though.

We both went through a parallel simultaneous journey of discovering we’re bi.

It’s as upsetting as it sounds!! Will not lie!

She calls me her boyfriend now and our sex revolves around penetrative sex. We have a realistic cock and I’m trying constantly to find a new more realistic one.

We haven’t actually slept with a man quite yet, though. We may never, to be honest.

There was… A guy… We both struggled immensely with our attraction to him, and our OCD played a large part in that. We both got over it and realized we definitely have a crush on him. That’s… simmering away right now. No idea where it’s going to go. He’s a good guy.

This has fundamentally changed our view of monogamy. We’re still prescribing to the concept of monogamy, and I suppose our rule is that if we’re both interested in the same person, then we don’t mind too much.

So, I guess I should explain why I was dragging my feet. Hornytome took off way more than I ever expected it to. I gained a massive wlw and lesbian following, and I’m so proud of who’ve I’ve brought together and modeled healthy love for.

For a long time, I identified as a lesbian, and that felt like my authentic self. I wasn’t lying to anyone, or misconstruing truths. In making this blog, I wished to explore my lesbianism. In living and growing beside this blog, I discovered a lot more.

So, to be very clear, I’m bisexual, transmasc, and a lot happier than when I started this blog. My attraction to women is gay, and my attraction to men is ALSO gay. Beat that!

That leaves me with a conundrum then. What to do with my blog? I’d love to keep posting, but a vast number of you are wlw. Perhaps I could stick to talking about Edith and I on this blog?

No matter what happens, this is no longer specifically a lesbian blog. And I’m sorry if that disappoints some of you. I really, really am. But being dishonest to myself helps no one. You haven’t lost a comrade, you gained one!

So. That’s why I’ve been gone! 6+ months of processing a major life change. I want to get back into stories. Maybe shoot me some ideas 🌝

Anyways! I’m going to be tagging this with old and new tags, just to reach as far as possible.

Edit: Also: stories will not revolve exclusively around men!! I like fucking my girlfriend a whole lot!

#wlw nsft #wlw love #lesbian nsft #lesbian #butch lesbian #butch dyke #sapphic #bi nsft #bisexual nsft #bisexual #transmasc #transmasc nsft #transmasculine

[maddie-zylophone-hatter]

Can pointless queer discourse end? No, pansexuality is not biphobic or transphobic, and bisexuality is not panphobic or transphobic. The creator of the pan flag is not lesbophobic, they just support people who use mspec or bi lesbian labels, which aren't lesbophobic. The creator of the pan flag support kink at pride, which is fine. kink is still an important part of queer history, so queer people who partake in kink should be at pride. Truscum rhetoric is transphobic and usually excludes nonbinary identities. Asexual people aren't just straight people and they do get discriminated against. Aromantic people are human, and they don't have to explain how their relationships are important. The battleaxe bi tag is becoming a mspec exclusionist dog whistle tag, like why are pan and bi people fighting? Similar labels can coexist without being queerphobic to the other label. Solidarity isn't "clearing your concise of knowing that x label is y phobic". If you don't like the word queer for yourself, use LGBTQ. if you feel like queer is a good description of your identity, use the word queer. Mogai identities are just as valid as any other identity. Even if you dislike someone's pronouns/ think they're "fake", use them. Unlabeled and queer can be synonyms if you want them to be, if they have different definitions to you then use them how you understand them. People can use the term bisexual if they only have an attraction to 2 genders, or it can be attraction to all genders. Don't be rude to someone who you think has "confusing/contradicting labels"

Yes, this shade to a post I saw on my dash that was purposely panphobic.

Instead of fighting about useless shit, lets fight for reproductive rights and making sure lgbtq+ rights aren't stripped away.

minorities can still have bigoted views.

you cant take our queer rights.

-A

Quick edit, it's in the tags, so I thought people might see it: Radfems, panphobes, biphobes, aphobes, transphobes, homophobes, truscum, and queerphobes dni.

I realized trying to change people's minds and fighting is fucking stupid so sincerely, no discourse please?

#queer discourse #queer discussions #panphobia #biphopia #homophobia #queerphobia #mogai discourse #xenogender discourse #aphobia #queer positivity #pronoun discourse #pansexual discourse #bisexual discourse #asexual discourse #aromantic discourse #lgbtq positivity #lgbtq community #lgbtq #lgbtqiia+ #truscum dni #panphobes dni #biphobes dni #transphobes dni #no discourse #bi lesbian #mspec discourse #mspec safe #mogai safe #you cant take our queer right #radfems dni

[mikk1n]

I just saw that beautiful illustration you posted about your oc Moira and it sparked my curiosity immensely. What's her backstory and what's her relationship with Admiral Havelock? I'm so intrigued👀 great work!!

Aww thank you so much!!! Moira is very near and dear 2 me

The fine details of her arc/story are still being planned out (she's going to feature really heavily in the Havelock backstory/biography fic currently in its planning stages), but her deal is basically, tl;dr: "Don't ask what you can do for the white Gristolian cishetero patriarchy, ask what the white Gristolian cishetero patriarchy can do for YOU."

She and her family moved to Dunwall from Morley during the famine that followed the Morley Insurrection, and she meets Havelock while living there (I think by this point he'd have already become a midshipman, but I have to take a look at his timeline again). They develop a genuine relationship and care about each other deeply, but part of the reason why she wanted Havelock specifically was his potential; they both have working class backgrounds, and while he wasn't a high-ranking officer yet, he had the potential to be one, and playing their cards right could mean elevating their wealth and status. The connections he could provide her as a military officer would also be invaluable; it pays to know the right people in Dunwall. Her family is understandably not pleased with her choice to marry a Gristolian sailor so soon after the Insurrection, but her parents baby her and her older sister wants Moira to at least have an out if Havelock turns out to be a massive piece of shit, so once it's clear that no one can change her mind, they don't try too hard to dissuade her (they do grumble though).

Moira plays officer's wife for Havelock, maintaining the family's reputation while also running her own tailoring business, using the connections she makes through her own resources and through Havelock's to propel both Havelock's career and her own. She eventually owns a shop in Drapers Ward, and her Social Game skills contribute to Havelock's promotions over the years. Even though Havelock is thoroughly loyal to the Empire, and it's dangerous to their reputation to openly believe anything else, Moira still believes strongly in Morleyan independence and I'm seriously toying with the idea of her becoming a spy for Morley at some point. She sees beating Gristol (and its class system) at its own game as the key to liberation, and she's fully willing to play any and every side against each other to achieve what she wants. She is a schemer basically lmao.

Anyway! Some Snapple cap fast facts:

She dabbles a bit in magic, making protective bonecharms for herself and her family that can be sewn into bedding or clothing.

Moira loves peaches, and her favorite perfume is a peach-based scent that's produced in Bastillian (Havelock picks up a bottle every time he's sent there).

She survived fucked up Dishonored scarlet fever as a child, and developed lupus as a teenager. She frequently uses a cane to get around.

She and Havelock are both bi and in a polycule with their friends, Penny Whitaker (my partner's OC, a civilian archaeologist) and Josef Vlasák (my OC, Havelock's childhood friend and designated Navy Blowjob Brother).

She's very good at singing :>

Her favorite colors are earth tones, particularly green.

Edited 2 add: She did not see any combat during the Insurrection, since the location of their family home meant they were out of the way of any fighting when Gristol made landfall in Morley, but her father and sister both fought in the war. They are, understandably, the most opposed to Moira marrying Farley.

Thank you for taking an interest in Moira! I don't talk a lot about my OCs but she is very near and dear to me, and I wanna draw her more. (My partner and I are also planning a Call of Cthulhu campaign with them and I am fully planning to draw a bunch of art for it. Vibrating with the force of a thousand suns.)

EDITED 2 ADD AGAIN I'm also heavily toying with an idea for an AU where instead of getting kicked out of the Navy, Havelock gets whacked post-Jessamine assassination and Moira starts the Loyalist Conspiracy (in canonverse she dies in...well currently 1818 but that's subject to change, she is dead before 1837 though). Ofc her goals are different than Havelock's :)

#inbox #rapturezoo #moira o'farrell-havelock #not art

[joondaya]

hsmtmts 308 thoughts:

- the way ricky really wanted gina to be there for his birthday my babies

- i do not know what is the conclusion to nini’s arc because i skipped. idek who marvin is but i assume it’s her father. i honestly tried to watch it since it’s the finale but i couldn’t care less so i didn’t

- kourtney sounded so beautiful and i’m so happy that they made it clear that anxiety doesn’t just go away because she overcame one moment of fear

- ej’s dad sucks

- corbin lil redemption (or not seeming as wacky as he first appeared) because he probably gonna show up for s4 lmao

- the show was so good i would actually go and see it if it was real

- i’m glad ricky and nini still maintain a certain aspect of their friendship and i thought the lotto ticket thing was very cute

- i thought big red was gonna come out to ashlyn but the twins are still dating i guess

- big red is bi !!!! i always headcanoned him as gay but i’m so happy for the amount of representation this show now has

- that trailer was crazy oh wow

- the way that neither jet and maddox had to be edit

- i need them in s4 because i love these two plus i need my jetney and madlyn endgame

- surprised ricky’s confession wasn’t included but also makes sense why it wouldn’t be in the trailer

- RINA OH MY GOD

- the parallels to different rina moments in gina’s speech

- the way we got their first two kisses on camera and i will manifest their first date on screen too

- they have the best love confession of the show you can’t change my mind

- rina can i have this dance s4 is coming !!!!

#hsmtmts #hsmtmts season 3 #gina porter #ricky bowen #hsmtmts maddox #hsmtmts jet #kourtney greene #big red #ashlyn caswell #ej caswell #ricky and gina #hsmtmts rina #ricky x gina

[gossamergrove]

𝐚𝐧 𝐮𝐩𝐝𝐚𝐭𝐞.

(aka i keep saying i'm going to come back and then i don't. let's talk about that.)

𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐟𝐚𝐜𝐞.

let's address the main reason i'm making this post: i want to come back to writeblr. but here's the thing... it's not that easy for me.

i know i don't owe anyone an explanation, especially since i haven't really gotten any inquiries about where i've been, and thus have no real obligation to say anything if i don't want to, but i do. i want to do this for my own peace of mind and accountability.

𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐮𝐞𝐝 𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐮𝐭...

𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤𝐠𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝.

i'm disabled. both mentally and physically. that means that i can't write as much as i want to. whether it be due to my body's protests from sitting at my desk for too long, or my ongoing struggle with executive dysfunction and burnout.

i also turned eighteen last october, and only graduated from high school this past spring. between finishing my final classes (and their corresponding exams), filing for disability with the government, and getting used to an (albeit gradual, but still major) adjustment in the routine i've had since i was five years old, i haven't had the time or mental energy to dedicate to writing and maintaining this blog.

𝐬𝐨… 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐧𝐨𝐰?

firstly, i'm not leaving writeblr.

i can't promise consistent activity on this blog, but i'm going to try. this means i will be establishing a writing routine (what that is going to look like is still unknown to me) and posting consistent updates on my progress, either on a bi-weekly or weekly basis.

secondly, this blog is going to be undergoing a cosmetic and organizational overhaul.

i will be deleting most of my posts (and privating others), meaning i'll be posting a new introduction/pinned post, as well as wip introductions. on top of that, i may edit my desktop theme and html pages. despite these things, my url will stay the same as it is currently (@/gossamergrove) and i'll make a post announcing any future url changes, which will include my former url for convenience.

lastly, i want to get better with interacting with the community.

i'm going to clear out my inbox, hopefully making it easier for me to answer any future asks without overwhelming myself. i'm also going to start reblogging more writeblr and general writing content. the community is a big part of the writeblr experience, a part that i've neglected for a long time due to personal reasons. i want to feel welcome here, even if it means putting myself out there and carving out my own section within the community.

𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐜𝐥𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧.

thank you to those who have stuck by me throughout the year or so i've been around. i wouldn't be nearly as confident in myself, my writing, or my desire to return if it weren't for you.

#writeblr #writers on tumblr #writing update #blog update #x

[weepingwillows-sweethibiscustea]

OKAY. RWRB MOVIE REVIEW.

(Disclaimer that these are all only my opinions)

I imagined Philip as looking more like Philza Minecraft, to be completely honest. So tell me why they made him kinda..???

THEY FUCKED UP HIS CHARACTERIZATION (imo). In the book, he’s just a victim of what he was born into as well. He’s rigid & kinda a dick because it was what he was taught to be to survive, the movie completely took that away, giving him literally two scenes.

AND THEN THEY GIVE GOOD GRACE TO THE KING? Bro. No. Stop it.

I feel as though they were afraid to criticize the British monarchy too hard, which is why they gave the king the good grace they did (plus other changes done, I don’t think they included the cliticization of the British Museum stealing all those artifacts either)

Frothing at the mouth over the fact they not only took away Luna, but completely got rid of the fucking sex abuse scandal in favor of a jealousy plot. Explodes you with my mind.

Going back to my point above that one, I feel they might not have wanted to add that seeing how many Richards are out there. Can’t fan too many flames, huh?

They also gave Bea way less screen time, & took away the whole “Powder Princess” thing, I think the way they talked about their dad passing & how it effects the family was kind of cheap.

AND they fucked up Henry’s moms characterization. She just straight up wasn’t in it, only mentioned, & in a negative light. Again, they really didn’t give the dad passing the attention it deserved.

The beginning went by pretty damn fast. But in all fairness for that & I suppose a lot of points, the movies already two hours long with all that missing, so I suppose I can give some leniency on some of these points.

June obviously wasn’t there either, but it at least doesn’t feel like anybody’s missing. I guess they managed the Nora & June merge well. THEY DID NOT MANAGE THE LIAM & LUNA MERGE WELL.

Seriously fuck them for taking away Luna & subsequently his character arc

THEY UN-DIVORCED ELLEN & OSCAR. I UNDERSTAND IT WOULD HAVE ADDED A LOT OF SCREEN TIME THEY DIDN’T HAVE BUT COME ON.

Do love all the terms of endearment Henry uses, honestly don’t remember if that’s in the book or not.

Can we circle back around to how attractive Philip is. Sorry who said that.

I like the way they handled the cake scene better, definitely feels more realistic.

Admittedly also kinda happy the Henry magazine photo thing wasn’t added, kind of made me cringe reading about it lmao

OH YEA THEY TOOK OUT THE SCENE WHERE ALEX CALLS HENRY TO VENT ABOUT HIS PARENTS(?), IT WAS SUCH AN IMPORTANT MOMENT FOR THEIR RELATIONSHIP BOO

Is there a copy right reason they couldn’t include Henry being a Star Wars fan? If they just simply choose not to then I am Disappointed.

Really liked how they did the phone calls, with them appearing in front & them as though they’re in the same room, together. Great touch.

Edit to add this bullet point because it’s really important to me. Alex says he’s bisexual, Henry says he’s gay. Ellen asks if Alex is gay, fluid, bi, pan. Ellen references transgender people. They talk about the LGBT+ community. They say all these words, they don’t whisper them, or talk around them. They say them loud & clear as day. Idk, this just makes me really happy because of how often you’ll see people talk around these words like they’re bad or dirty words (yes I’m aware this is a movie where they have gay sex multiple times on screen but it’s still important to me shut up)

FINAL THOUGHTS.

It was alright. I don’t regret watching it. It was entertaining, but admittedly not the type of movie I’d usually watch, so I think other people could enjoy it way more then I did. But I definitely still enjoyed it despite all my criticisms.

Definitely not as good as the book, but not bad at all. I’d say it’s absolutely worth the watch.

I’m sure you can also find posts that can better articulate why this movie is so groundbreaking & important as well, which is something I didn’t particularly touch on in this post.

#LUNAAA #COME BACK TO ME #& FIX PHILIPS CHARACTERIZATION WHILE YOU’RE AT AT #IT #movie review #rwrb on prime #rwrb spoilers #rwrb #rwrb alex #rwrb film #rwrb movie #prince henry rwrb #prince philip rwrb #red white and royal blue film #red white and royal blue #sap thoughts

[condomatsu]

Not going to continue this too much, but your response to those asks were eye rolling levels of deflection on what the core issue being pointed out to you is, and that's that your comments do come off very much like you just complaining that people think Rose and Kanaya are lesbians. I read the other parts of your post, and I'm sure the other anon did too—I didn't have a problem with it, so I had nothing to say. We know what your larger point is but when you start the post off just complaining that there are people who don't want to see Rose and Kanaya shipped with boys it's a little difficult not to latch onto that. Especially when certain subsects of the fandom love to spend their time spinning their wheels to say why no homestuck character is Actually a lesbian. I agree that there are problems with the fandom making characters one-note, although most of the people making rosemary one-note are people who aren't very invested in them to begin with. Bare in mind that Rose and Kanaya are both very popular characters, and there are definitely people both shipping them and otherwise recognizing their depth outside of just "the Lesbians". They're definitely sidelined by people who don't care about them, but that isn't really a problem that can be fixed in any way other than by sharing content by people more invested in them

On the note of sexuality confirmations: Hussie has been very clear about their intent with Kanaya being that she's a lesbian. Both with the big formspring ask and in subsequent comments Hussie has never really backed down on that. Rose has a considerably more dubious state (she HAS been called a lesbian by Hussie, and I definitely think she is, but she certainly didn't get a detailed write-up like Kanaya did. Just an off-handed comment in a sea of jackassed book commentary). But she is very much lesbian coded. A character never showing interest in men in the comic doesn't mean she can't be bi, but it's hard to argue that there can't be some clear intent there when we only ever see her express attraction to women, in a comic where it would've been very easy to make her say, have a crush on John pre act 6. I think Hussie had rosemary in mind as an endgame quite a bit before act 6 personally, and most people who don't see it in act 5 either didn't because they shipped them with other characters, or because they were deliberately obtuse. (Insert rant about fandoms having a consistent problem with not recognizing sapphic subtext until it's literally thrown in their faces). There's a reason grimd/rks didn't go anywhere and rosemary did, it definitely wasn't just thrown in lol. Whirling back to the Kanaya comment, Hussie said Other Trolls might see Kanaya's sexuality as a fetish. Bare in mind that trolls don't have a concept of sexuality, you pointed this out yourself, it definitely could've been worded better but Hussie wasn't trying to say that that's actually what her lesbianism is, just that that's how Alternian society would see it. So on the note of your post, and why I said your comments read as lesbophobic: shipping Kanaya with Karkat isn't lesbian erasure, I don't see shipping that way, but trying to say she's pansexual very much is. Ofc it seems like you said that more from a place of ignorance than anything, so I'm sorry if my criticisms read as too snappy, but please understand that this is the kind of stuff lesbian fans have had to deal with for years, and it's exhausting having to justify how two characters can be lesbians over and over to people. I'm not asking you to change your views on shipping or anything, just to have an honest reflection on why your comments might be a little frustrating to read from a lesbian perspective

I understand. I could have worded it better I think. As you can see by my multiple spelling errors and edits, I don't really re-read much what I write, I also tend to repeat myself a lot, so I guess I've used the wrong words to describe something else (as I said multiple times, the rosemary ship or the characters' sexualities wasn't the central point of the post).

I personally don't believe in character's sexuality ereasure in fandoms, exept maybe in extreme cases; I mentioned it because I know most people see this as an issue. And anyways - even if she wasn't lesbian - most people already headcanons Kanaya as such, but she is and canon will not change just because some (few, honestly*) people don't see her as such, so I don't (personally) see it as a problem and, as I stated in the original post, you're def entitled to feel uncomfortable about it and not wanting people like me (who thinks Kanaya is just unlabeled, since she's a troll) interacting with you.

*in this fandom at least. I know many fandoms where this IS a problem, especially when canon sexuality is an important part of THE story and charcater's self discovery, which I don't think was the case for Rose and Kanaya - them being lesbians or pan or bi wouldn't change much about their story (I think, feel free to disagree of course, I won't talk for you and other lesbians for obvious reasons)

I think though that it is normal for non-lesbians to not get the sapphic undertones of a relationship that isn't "thrown in their faces"; it's basically a culture, much like any other sexuality and identity. I might myself haven't been able to catch it since I'm not lesbian. It's obviously frustrating, I really get it - I have experienced things like this myself when a character was very pansexual and/or transmasc coded - but as long as somebody isn't disrespectful (something that I really hope I wasn't) I don't see the problem.

And of course Hussie did intended them to be endgame before act6! I stated this in my first post too, saying they were firstly intended to be moirails (a ROMANTIC type of relationship) before anything else. What I was complaining about was how rushed it was. They talked before meteostuck etc etc, but had less interaction than other famous ships (I used grimdorks as an example), and during meteortrip they had *one* date on screen and then they were girlfriends. The rest is offscreen and if even I am frustrated about this, I can't imagine how lesbians felt for this; it was just so quick (maybe it's me though? I am a slow burn sucker).

At the end, I used rosemary as an incipit to talk about the issue of seeing a character - which is worse if they're a female and/or part of a minority character - as one characteristic they have and not the whole of said character (but you already know this, I'm just repeating myself). And no, I don't think showing people who are not interested in them content about Rose, Kanaya, Vriska etc would fix the problem, I personally think (this is MY theory, of course you can disagree, since the problem is clearly more complex than a tumblr post made by a random (me)) that by saturating the fandom with more genuine content about them, showing genuine and good interest about the character (as their entirety) can make other people interested; not everyone, maybe not even the majority, but it would still be a point of start!

And, lastly, yes, I get it how it could have read as an attack to the ship or the characters' sexualities, but it really wasn't! I love the ship myself and I wanted to say that everyone can view the characters' identities as however they want - but you know this too aijiosajd.

I hope this will be the last post/response about this. I made it long etc for other people too, so when they have a doubt about my intentions etc they can see this explaination.

[katyspersonal]

*knock knock*

KATY!!!!!!!

Asks for Adella!

My first impression of them

10. Describe the character in one sentence

12. Sexuality hc!

16. A childhood headcanon

24. What do you think is a secret they have that they never told anyone?

29. How do you think they would be as a parent?

HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!

FghthhhGFHHG OWCH YOU JUST KILLED ME WITH A HAMMER HOW WILL I ANSWER NOW FHHJV

Okay okay for real though now (Asks are from this ( x ) meme)

10. Describe the character in one sentence

Sorry I couldn't think of anything funnier hgnjh

12. Sexuality hc!

I want to say 'obviously bi since you can play as male or female character and nothing change', but I myself already stated that her reasoning is the wish to protect the person that saved her from the blood that she was ensured is "dirty" and not some yandere antics...

So she is now bi just because I say so. XD

16. A childhood headcanon

I believe I did mention some stuff in a (very large -_-) ask from Crow that concerned ideas on her past and Arianna's, but the gist of it was that she was orphaned, and picked up in Healing Church since young age by Norbert (the guy before Amelia).

However? I've been enjoying an idea that there was a school connected to the Healing Church; you bet they controlled everything, especially after Cainhurst's fall... And that Adella was one of the people going there, and Edgar was a teacher! Before he ranked up to be trusted into Choir.

I am just trying to say...... the kids antics. Adella never really fit in with the team though, despite Henriett and Alfred being there too (future Healing Church hunters, mind you!) and in fact got others endangered by snitching a few times! She didn't mean bad, she was just a kind easy to fool by adults about "just trying to help". 🙄

24. What do you think is a secret they have that they never told anyone?

She was the last one to see Brador in "reality", as that old man. When Henriett was snooPING AS usual, and Adella tried to control the situation and follow (remember that Henriett is a detractor!). By controlling the situation I mean trying to cut her with the poisoned knife the stealth style, but... long story short, she killed Brador instead. On accident.

Well, his death traumatized her more than himself (You can only say something like that for a FromSoft game, I swear...).

29. How do you think they would be as a parent?

Sigh... Probably not the best one. Adella strikes me as that kind of a (single) mother that would more or less project her issues and gripes onto her (only) baby. She didn't have some sort of convenience or a belief in her youth? Then her child should neither! She would also let her protectiveness to get the best out of her and not only control her child's circle of friends, but in the end lead that child to being very socially unadapted. Never seeing their peers, only Adella's adult friends and associates.

Her kid would either be grow up a huge weenie not prepared for real life and real relationships, OR grow 'in secret' from never trusting their mother (maybe even lying) and allowing their friends teach them life instead. This one depends on the child's starting stats personality.

I think a lot of this could be balanced out by a second parent that'd compensate for her quirks and weaknesses, though! Adella's good traits as a parent is protectiveness and being able to offer strong morals and some discipline, it should just be kept in reasonable amount; the second parent, on the contrary, should know how to offer freedom and some fun. Don't be surprised since what I told about a ship before, but I genuinely could see Arianna being a second parent that'd balance Adella well. x)

Thank you for asking!!! *collects the Blood Echoes from the spot where you killed me*

EDIT: I forgot number 1 at first because I am a little dumbass, sorry hfjjkjhh Let me!!!

1. My first impression of them

Well, yes, my first impression WAS the yandere nun antics, heheh. It is just one of those NPCs that give kind of clear vibe, and you just find nuances of it later, upon loredigging.

However, I also used to call her 'just female Alfred' - again, something I had to retract later, as I found more nuances comparing the two.

#bloodborne #ask replies #adella the nun #sister adella #(damn i really forget what her proper tag is.....) #sorry it is 2 AM #that gif did startle me though gfjgkjh xD sorry

[officialbillyhoehargrove]

Lollipops

This was originally on ao3 but I edited this today so wanna share here too.

Lollipops/ 1.4k words. Kinda lemony.

He knows he smokes a lot. He doesn't need Steve to repeatedly tell him. He smokes a lot. Sometimes because he is sad. Sometimes because he likes it. He likes the ember shining red in the dark night. He likes to watch the smoke spreading during the day. Watching it burns makes him relaxed. Makes his mind calm for a second. Makes all his worries, pain, and suffering stop. But Steve doesn't get that. Steve thinks it is bad for his health. It's gonna give him cancer or something. He knows it's bad. He can feel it actually. How he can't stop coughing in the mornings or how he needs to spit after smoking every time because it gives him disgusting phlegms. So he decided to quit.

It was hard asf. To say the least. His hands were shaking with need. His mind was screaming all the time. And he gets angry easily. And headaches, dry mouth, and insomnia. But the worst part is he was thirsty, hungry, horny, all of them TOGETHER. He was burning. His mouth feels so empty. And he was overflowing with energy. So much that he started to run in the mornings. Then at night too. He always had a lollipop in his mouth because it makes his mouth watery, and he needed to fill the emptiness of the cigarettes.

It goes like this for a week. Billy running with his tiny shorts, Billy always sucking some lollipops, Billy drinking things like he was in the desert for weeks. Spilling all over himself. STEVE CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. Yes, it was good for Billy's health. But it was torture to Steve. He was always in denial about his sexuality but thanks to Billy he was all clear now. He was very much bi. And he wanted to fuck Billy. More like his mouth. Both.

They were in Steve's pool. Steve was in it and Billy sitting on the edge, lollipop in his mouth. This time it was red. He was sucking so hard Steve can hear the voices clearly. And he was hard as nails. That's why he was in the water in the first place. When the candy finish and Billy lick the last piece he finally starts breathing again. But Billy fucking Hargrove went and takes another one from his pockets! And started to lick it like a cat. While looking at Steve. He was licking slowly, from top to the bottom like it was a fucking dick.

“You know I read somewhere,” Billy started to talk, Steve can't answer because his brain was still trying to process all the lollipop licking. “That quitting smoking makes people thirsty. Did you hear that too?” Billy looks at him all innocent. Steve doesn’t have to read books to know that Billy is thirsty. He did see how he drinks. Like he needs all the fluids in the world. Like he is burning inside. Steve shakes his head but gets closer to Billy, slowly, like a hunter who doesn't want to frighten his prey, but there were two hunters at that game.

The other hunter started talking again. “I'm very thirsty Steve.” He looks at the boy with hooded eyes. “Sometimes I feel like I needed to drink all. You know. Everything.” When Billy's eyes start to go south Steve gulps down. Suddenly he feels thirsty too. And he understood what was going on, but they needed to talk first. Right?

“I- I should go. Change my shirt. I felt cold suddenly. I think we should go inside.” Billy pouts after the running boy. His plan was failing very badly. How could Steve ignore him like that when he literally offered him a blowjob? He tossed the lollipop and went after Steve too. Clearly, he was not gonna get 'hydrated' tonight.

When he came back after taking a bath and taking care of 'other things', he found Billy in the kitchen. The blonde was bending over in front of the refrigerator, probably looking for something to eat. Steve spoke behind him. “It's empty. Do you want me to order pizza? And coke? Are you still thirsty?”

Billy looks at him with a frown. Chocolate in one hand. “I don't want your fucking ugly coke. Go hydrate your other bitches.”

“Hydrate? WTF Billy? I thought you were thirsty.” Steve looks after him as Billy went to the door.

“Omg, how can you be this stupid? I was trying to flirt with you. I am not thirsty I'm FUCKING HORNY. I don't want a coke, I want your dick! What? King Steve? Bullshit. I bet you're a fucking virgin. WITH A TINY DICK!”

There were two things in Steve's mind when he went and grab Billy's arm. One, he was so angry that he didn't talk about his feelings for so long that Billy thought he was not interested in him. Two Billy calls him bullshit. He was not sad like he used to be no he was so pissed. Tiny dick? What? He did know Billy looks at his dick at the baths enough time to know it's not fucking tiny.

Steve looks at him with a cocky smirk he never saw on him, but only heard from people. The king Steve. He always thought that were just idle rumors. He couldn't even imagine Steve bullying people, or fuck girls like he is born for it. He always saw him as a kind, little ball of sunshine. But here it was, in the flesh, king Steve himself. And he was looking at Billy like he was gonna fuck him, or punch him. He couldn't figure that out yet. And he probably shouldn't be that horny in this situation, but he was a teenager and needed to get laid like yesterday.

“Tiny? Come on Billy. We both know that you know what it looks like. We both know you are gagging for it. You can't even stop looking at it right now. You like it, don't you? You like my dick. And me.”

Billy was wrecked, his mouth was watering, and his brain was already filled with dirty images. And he was dripping wet. “You like me don't you Billy? Tell me, baby. Tell me and it's yours. I'm yours.”

Billy’s brain clearly stopped working because he couldn't form a word at all. Of course, he likes Steve but liking him and Steve knowing he actually likes him is very different things. And what if he was bluffing? He never saw Steve with boys. Neither with girls, but he heard enough to know his reputation. What if Steve was testing him? And he was failing miserably. What if Steve doesn't want to see him again when he confesses? What if Steve hates him? He couldn't stand this shit hole without Steve.

Steve holds Billy's cheeks between his hands and looked into his eyes. “Billy. Look at me. Billy. I don't know what are you thinking but stop right now. It's not real. I asked you because I like you, Billy. Since forever. I didn't say it because I can't even say it to myself. Now think again. Do you just want this or do you really like me? I don't want this to be a one-time thing, Billy. I really want this to work. I can't go being friends anymore.”

It was hard for Billy to process. First of all, Steve admits that he likes Billy and wants a relationship. And he likes him for a long time. And he was seeing him as a friend. That was a lot. “I like you too.”

“God, I like you so much, Steve. From the first time. The keg shit was just to get your attention and everything after that. I just wanted you to look at me. I was so desperate. I literally give you a million fucking signals, I stare at you all the time, I touch you, I hit you, I hit on you in the fucking showers Steve. When we were both naked. I saw your everything. And you didn't even do anything. How can you expect me to speak? I- fucking did everything, you just didn't see it!”

Billy breathes and looks at Steve again. “Oh god, that felt good. I should talk more often. So can we kiss now? Since we like each other and stuff.”

Steve looked at him and started to laugh loudly. “Jesus Billy you're a walking disaster,” Steve said softly. Holds Billy's head in his hands. “But you're my disaster.” He slowly tilted his head and kiss him finally.

#billy hargrove #harringrove #steve harrington #stranger things #billy x steve #steve x billy #my aus #tryin so hard to post this shit #idk why it doesn't shown on tags dude

[missymurder]

P l e a s e draw more strong women Clear

clear you poor stupid fool, the lesbian you're in love with is a fucking idiot

#dmmd #mink dmmd #clear dmmd #minkuri #mink: why doesnt clear reciprocate my flirting does she not like me #mink's flirting: hey dipshit can you not roof hop like a maniac?? youre gonna hurt yourself jfc #clear is the same way except her 'flirting' is nonexistent because shes a robot #and she cant differentiate between platonic and romantic displays of affection #basically theyre just two stupid fuckin lesbians in love and they dont even know it #keiko draws #edit: changed my mind clear is bi #fem!dmmd

[sukunasbabygirl]

I’ve been meaning to make a more organised pinned post for a while now before realising I could just edit this one:

Note: This blog tends to change based on my hyperfixations.

You can call me Adrien! I am a minor so please keep that in mind.

I’m also Trans and Bi and if you have any issues with that for some ridiculous reason then you’re obviously not welcome here. I don’t tolerate any of that.

Also, I’ll make this clear: PROSHIPPERS DNI (Dark themes in media should be allowed, but the line is drawn when you ship those sorts of things or think it’s fine for people to ship them etc etc.)

What do I post here? Usually absolute nonsense including random thoughts, shitposts, theories, analysis, art, AUs and just general shenanigans! I also should warn in advance that I have abysmal taste in fictional men so do not be surprised if I ever say ‘XXX is so hot’ about a literal ratman.

ASK BOX: Open.

(Half of this was just an excuse for me to mess around with colours honestly but listen, it looks cool.)

#Just for organisation stuff #I like my blog to have some tidiness to it #occasionally

[klbwriting]

Walls - Chapter 6

Fandom: Six of Crows

Pairing: Kaz/female!Reader

Summary: Kaz has a new Wraith and is trying to get himself a Heartrender 

Note: so after this chapter we’re going to start inserting Y/N into Six of Crows and Crooked Kingdom so this should be fun

Edit: sorry for the tags I have no idea what's going on but they keep acting weird for me

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Y/N wasn't sure the exact moment that Kaz decided he was done visiting her but she was pretty sure Inej Ghafa had something to do with it.  She knew that he had a spider trolling around, she had seen her a couple times, up in the rafters, a shadow outside a window.  She was very good and being that she was now truly second in command of the Dime Lions Y/N was a little annoyed Kaz had found her first.  Of course, she had found Nina Zenik first, getting her the room at the Emerald Palace.  Of course, her father had to be the absolute skeeviest version of himself and she could tell Nina was weary of the offer he was providing.  She wasn't surprised when Inej was visiting Nina.  She was a little surprised that Inej noticed her in the hall.  She was a very good spider indeed.

"Are you going to sulk in the hallway or join us?" Inej had said.  Y/N looked in and then joined them, closing the door behind her.  Nina looked a little nervous, worried about offending her host by entertaining a guest from a rival gang.  Y/N looked over Inej and realized that she was why Kaz wasn't around.  She had never felt jealousy before but it was banging around in her mind and she had half a mind to take out the Suli girl right now just to be rid of the feeling.  She wouldn't of course, she had hardened over the last two years but she still had a heart.  If Inej was who Kaz wanted to be happy with she would let him.  Deep inside she knew he belonged to her.  

"I just wanted to make sure you weren't a threat," she said.  Inej cocked an eyebrow, false bravado wafting off her.  Y/N took a deep breath through her nose, tightening the gloves on her hands.  She had styled them differently this time, red was black roses embroidered on the backs.  She wore the names of the victims under her jackets now, always red, never green despite her father's best efforts to get her to wear his colors.  She saw Inej noticing the gloves so she moved to show them more to her, smirking some.  What a petty move, like she had any right to claim Kaz, pretending the gloves joined them.  Pathetic, they had similar armor, they were not joined at the hip.  She let her hands fall to her sides and looked at Nina.  She was going to be put in a sling for doing this.

"Go with her Nina, get away from the Emerald Palace as fast as you can, join Kaz," she said.  Inej eyed her, clearly worried this was all a trick.  "What?  Do you have an objection suddenly?  I thought you wanted a capable Heartrender?"

"What is the catch?" Inej asked.  Y/N glared at her.  Why was this fool arguing with her?  She should take her kindness and run with it.  

"Because I want Nina to be safe and here she won't be safe," she said.  "Kaz will keep her safe.  He keeps you safe doesn't he Wraith?"  She saw the girl's blush, just for a moment.  She snarled a little, scaring both of them.  "Now get out before I change my mind and turn you into a real phantom."  She produced her knife and saw Inej produce her own clumsily.  She was new so Y/N slowed her movements and put the knife back.  

"Thank you," Nina said to Y/N before she hightailed it out of the Emerald Palace.  Inej moved to leave but Y/N cleared her throat.

"Tell Kaz I need to meet him, we have some things to discuss," she said.  "Tomorrow, 9 bells, he'll know where."  Inej eyed her, clearly wondering why the daughter of the biggest gang leader wanted to meet with Kaz, but she nodded once and disappeared into the night.  

Y/N went to her room.  It didn't take long for her father to realize that Nina had left the building.  When he opened her door she felt pure fear, she clutched her fists tight as he closed the door behind him.  

Kaz hated being ordered around like a dog.  When Inej arrived to tell him Y/N's request he had actually growled.  Why wouldn't she leave him be?  He had stopped going to see her, stopped whatever foolishness he had allowed in his younger self.  He was finally where he wanted to be in the Dregs and he didn't need her distraction anymore.  Of course he seemed to have traded one distraction for another now that Inej was around.  He pushed anything he felt for Y/N deep down as far into the pit his heart had been as he could but that still didn't erase her completely from his thoughts.  Maybe Inej could do that.  She was useful, she was an investment that he knew he was smart to make, she was not Pekka Rollins's daughter, he wouldn't have to destroy her one day.

"Did she say why she possibly thought I would be willing to visit her?" he asked Inej, sitting at his desk and looking over some numbers casually.  Well, Inej would think it was casual, in all honesty he wasn't seeing the numbers, he couldn't focus.  Inej eyed him.

"She told Nina to leave, made sure she got out.  She told her that you would keep her safe, just like you keep me safe," she said.  Kaz froze.  He didn't want rumors spreading that he had a heart.

"Well she clearly doesn't know me well, I never promised safety, only that you had a chance here," he said, wanting to make sure Inej didn't get any ideas either.  "Did anyone see Nina leave?"  This is when Inej looked worried.  "What happened?"

"I hung around afterward for awhile, wanted to make sure she wasn't using this as an opportunity to have Nina followed..."

She wasn't, Kaz thought, she's too kind for that.  

"...Pekka Rollins went into her room.  He doused the candle in the room.  I couldn't really see, I just heard screaming."  Kaz froze for only a moment and then forced his muscles to keep working.  

"Thank you for the information Wraith, I have no other work for you tonight," he said, dismissing her as casually as possible, as if his mind wasn't rolling with images of what was happening to Y/N while he sat there in his office, pretending to work.  He wasn't going to be sleeping tonight.  

Y/N waited at the Dove’s Nest, trying to think about anything but the pain that was all over her body.  Her arm was in a well used sling, arm useless after Rollins had gripped it behind her back until it was sprained, never broken, he still pretended to be a doting father.  Her face was caked in makeup, covering as much of the bruising as possible.  Her eye was useless to try and cover, but she still didn't want attention so she wore a hat with a wide brim.  She wore a dress for once to hide the brace she had on her knee to keep it from giving out on her.  It was getting late now, he wasn't going to show.  She stood, grabbing the walking stick she was using that day and was about to slip out when Kaz slid in.  They almost collided.  She quickly back track, knee giving out from the sudden movement, dropping her hard on her tailbone.  She winced and groaned.  Kaz offered her his gloved hand.  

He didn't know why it was so easy for him to touch her with the gloves.  Even with the gloves on he normally couldn't stand to be too close to someone, but with Y/N it wasn't as bad.  He didn't feel anything if he touched her with the gloves, and the couple times they had touched skin to skin had been uncomfortable but didn't send him back to the bay, swimming with Jordie's body keeping him afloat.  She took his hand, standing slowly.  He looked her over, noting her injuries and he could feel his rage at Rollins deepen.  He bottled that rage along with any other feelings he had at the sight of her and surmised her, face staying unreadable.

"What business?" he asked.  She gave him an annoyed look.

"Drop the formalities Kaz, I'm not here for that, I'm here to make sure Nina arrived at the Slat," she said.  She went to fold her arms but stopped, wincing.

"She is fine, what do you really want?" he asked.  She watched him quietly for a second, waiting for something.  He finally took a breath and dropped his Kaz Brekker demeanor.  He had made sure to send Inej on a job today, hoping she wouldn't follow him to this meeting.  He didn't need anyone to see him become Kaz Rietveld again.

"I met your Wraith, she's very good," she said.  Kaz smirked a little, settling himself on the bed.  She settled next to him, both of them stretching their bad legs out.  They looked at each other doing this and laughed.  It was nice to hear his laugh again, but she let out a groan.  "Don't make me laugh.  Anyway, your Wraith, Inej, I wanted you to tell her to look into a mercher, Kurtz, Murphy Kurtz, he has been helping my father funnel money into the Exchange to earn extra money.  I figured she could get some information and you could work your magic to make him stop helping."  Kaz stared at her.  

"Why do you keep doing this?" he asked.  She looked at him confused.  "Why do you keep helping me?  After what happened last night to you, I can see how hurt you are, you could stop all of that by just being your father's daughter..."

"Well for one, I don't just help you anymore, you haven't exactly been easy to get in touch with anymore, and I can't show favoritism or my father is going to realize who my boyfriend is," she said.  Kaz physically recoiled at the word boyfriend.  "Don't worry, I have no fantasy ideas of you loving me in my head.  My father just knows that there is someone outside of the Lions that I love, I have to keep him from suspecting who so I help everyone a little bit, except the Black Tips because fuck them."  Kaz didn't know why the fact that she helped others, that she kept her options opened, bothered him so much but he gripped his cane so tight he thought he would shatter it.  "And about me being my father's daughter?  I never wanted to be his daughter I'm not going to start now."  

"I don't know the next time I'll see you," Kaz said, standing.  She nodded.  

"Have you been able to touch anyone else?  Inej?  That Zemeni sharpshooter who has a crush on you?" she asked suddenly.  He glared at her.

"No, why do you ask?  Come to gloat about something?  Have you been touching someone?" he snarled at her.  She shook her head, frustrated.

"No Kaz I haven't, and if you don't want to see me anymore just tell me straight this time instead of being a coward about it," she shot back.  They stood face to face, inches apart, seething.  Kaz felt the need to both shove her away and pull her closer.  He still could remember kissing her, how it felt before he'd gotten sick.  He wished he could push that aside, wished he could bring himself to just touch someone else, anyone else, to get her out of his mind.  He expected her to give into her emotions, try to touch him like she always did, but she surprised him by pulling away first and just leaving their safehouse.  He looked at the door swinging closed, finally falling off the failing hinge that held it up.  It was like it knew that whatever was happening in that place was over and it was time to leave the doorframe behind.  Kaz looked down thinking maybe it was time he really did leave Y/N behind too.

#six of crows #kaz brekker x reader #kaz x reader #kazbrekker #kaz brekker #kaz #walls series

[popculturebuffet]

Scottrospective: Scott Pilgrim Gets It Together! or Days of Summer

Hello all you happy scottaholics! Welcome back to those of you who’ve read the rest of this retrospective and welcome to those of you just joining us. This is the Scottrospective, my look at all 6 volumes of Scott Pilgrim, the game and the movie. It’s all the video game refrenes, slice of life story telling and boob punches you can handle!

It’s been three months since I left off with “The Infinite Sadness” , and while I intended to cover this one for Valentine’s Day, my schedule got away from me and with March being full up, this ended taking till April

I”m not too put off by it though as the hiatus between these two reviews is fitting for this one both in story and out. In story there’s a couple month time skip between books, while out.. this book got delayed a few times.  

This is notable to me at least because this was the first volume of the series I bought when it came out. As i’ve brought up before I came into the series via the Free Comic Book Day Issue and the second and third volumes, picking one up later. I still have my original copies despite no longer really needing them thanks to having the color editions in general. Always will provided something dosne’t happen to them. So this was my first instalment that I got to read fresh and got to wait for and be hyped about and i’d saved enough money that I was able to pre-order it. So the experince of waiting and waiting for the book only to keep seeing it slide back is vivid in my mind as is the frustration I felt having the one thing I COULD NOT WAIT FOR, keep going further and further back. 

So with this long wait and the fact I bought this one when it came out, as I would for the next two which didn’t get delayed thank god, this volume naturally means a lot for me. When I wrote Scott Pilgrim fanfiction, this volume’s status quo is what I based it on. It was the coolest to me and the one I loved to reread the most. It has the most contained story, the most character growth at the time, and the best art due to Bryan’s style having finally hit it’s stride. Not that the art for volumes 1-3 is bad mind you, but it’s very clear his style was changing and shaping into what it is now with each one and while it’d change a bit more, this volume is where the style and quality everyone thinks of when they think of this series and the kind you see on various art done from it comes from. 

So as you can tell i’m excited for this one. Before we get started there WERE two shorter comics released between this one both for Free Comic Book day, the first of which, Free Scott Pilgrim, is the reason I got into the series and the second, the Wonderful World of Kim Pine .. was both delightful and sets up Kim moving in with Hollie for this volume. Originally I intended to cover these in this review.. but I realized they wouldn’t of helped the pacing and this review is going to be way longer than my standard as is.

So instead I came up with the compromise. I did review them.. but as bonus reviews on my patreon. For just one buck a month you can read them and help me reach my stretch goals which now include reviews of Lost at Sea, Seconds and SnotGirl, aka Bryan’s OTHER comics. You can find my patreon THROUGH THIS LINK HERE if your intrested in the exclusives or helping me reach my reviews. I also intend to do an exclusive of Monica Beetle, a short comic Bryan did starring Scott’s dad in the 70s at some point so keep your eyes peeled for that, as well as the three strips he did of Style, the comic that gave us the prototypes for Lisa and Kim. 

I will talk about their connections and setups for this volume briefly: FSP sets up the next ex as a ninja, with Roxy having a bunch of posters come to live and pummel our boy, while Wonderful World has Hollie tell Kim she can move in with her. It’s not much, hence why i made these exclusives but they are good stories, so check them out. And with that JOIN ME UNDER THE CUT, as we enter Scott’s world once more as he grapples with the past, employment, and saying the L-Word... which might be Lesbians. I don’t know. Find out bellow!

So we open Two Months after Volume 3 with a beach birthday party! Complete with Kim in a swim suit!

But it’s for Julie who lobs a volley ball at Scott’s head when he and Ramona try to make out. 

I also dont’ know if “Manfiesting out of all the world’s collectives sorrows” counts as a “birth” necessarily but whatever. I love a good beach story. It’s just a fun setitng for swimming, romance and battling a giant crab with the help of the bird what lives in your backpack.

So after the beach our heroes get dinner and Ramona sweetly calls Scott the nicest guy she’s ever dated. He responds with “That’s sad”. Blunt, but entirely accruate. Julie calls it pathetic and tries to counter Ramona RIGHTFULLY saying “who the hell asked you?” something that really should come after EVERYTHING Julie said with “Back off bitch i’ts my birthday”

So later that night Sex Bomb-Omb has a beach sing along, and I can’t help but notice Neil’s hairy legs. 

I mean yes it does make since for a 19 year old to have leg hair, but of all the characters besides Stephen, the ONLY other character we’ve seen it with to give it to, why the character you specifically single out as “Young” it’s just a weird choice I never noticed before. 

But anyways Julie has to whine about it because she’s Julie, she can’t stand other people being happy and complains the song...

One of my faviorite moments of the series. Knives puts a nicer spin on it, she’s here too and not over with Neil because, as we’ll find out later they broke up, but she just asks if Knives should be drinking. She shouldn’t but for fucks sake lady she was just trying to talk. I also do like that despite Julie trying to control Ramona’s love life, you know the thing the VILLIANS are doing, Ramona cannot stand her now.. and honestly probably never did. 

But Julie, SOMEHOW turns out to be right for once as Kim and Knives have disappeared later that night, and Scott elects to go look for them. Also Ramona says she wants to marry kim while drunk after Julie asks if she does. The throuple is strong with these three... serioulsy that’s my one true pairing for all three now. I mean it ballances out their collective flaws, it’s cute and Ramona is just as into her boyfriends ex as she is her actual boyfriend even when she’s not hamered. Why the fuck not?

Scott instead finds the two making out. I will confess I shipped these two when I was younger.. but I don’t. Not because their gay or anything or because I found another ship for them but because the age gap is still just as wide as it was for Scott. The game did not get this memo and made them a couple which is... ehhhhhhhhh. I mean I wouldn’t mind either being bi, but it just brings up the same problems even if their both hammered. I also question why this scene exists. No really outside of one face punchingly dickish comment from Scott later, this never comes up again and it doesn’t effect Kim’s or Knives character any. Why have this? it’s clearly not fanservice, it’s just a thing that happened. And while Scott Pilgrim as a series does have some of those, as does life and that’s fine.. this is a bit too major, i.e. Kim and Knives, two of the main cast, making out, drunkenly or not, to just.. gloss over you know? I feel Kim would feel majorly guilty for this, as she has the most active moral compass of the main group, and Knives would be massively confused but it’s just.. forgotten because I dunno. In a story that’s otherwise pretty stellar this stands out as an utter waste of potential. I’m not saying have them hook up, gay or not it’s still not better than what Scott did, but have them at least talk about it and have both grow or something from it. Sheesh. 

So we cut to.. another day. Maybe the next day I dunno but it’s August. Point is Scott and Wallace are grocery shopping and Wallace notes they can’t get fancy mayo as their barely in budget. I would’ve glossed over this scene... but @panur​ pointed out back around the Infinite Sadness review that this scene reveals something very intrestng: Scott.. is kind of a fincial burdern to Wallace. Before this while Scott mooched off him it wasn’t all that clear that Wallace was struggling. 

But here we notice that outside of some Havarti, it’s just the simplest stuff imaginable: turkey, bread, boxed mac and cheese ramen noodles... it’s nto BAD stuff, I have all of that in my house and it’s good stuff... but it’s not the kind of thing that you need to carefully budget for. Now granted part of this probably is Wallace as he likely spends a LOT on drinks, condoms and two 2 liters of diet soda a day.. but while he really needs to adress his alcohol issues, the rest is fair. He should be allowed to have as much sex and diet coke as he wants it’s his money. Same with the havarti. He earned it if he wants some really delcious cheese with herbs, seriously Havarati is the best, then that’s his bidness. But the rest of the time he’s barely managing to get  a basketfull of cheap food.. because he has to provide for Scott. It’s clearly something Scott dosen’t get and something I can relate to not getting. It took me a while to get how hard it is to budget for a full family, let alone two people on one income like Wallace has to. But Wallace is working on a nice job... but still a call center or something. He can’t pay for everything and the finccial stress is about to give as their landlord wants to meet with them. And as we’re about to learn things were even worse than we thought. 

Our heroes head home where we get a truly iconic conversation when, over margeritas (again proving my point that while Scott certainly isn’t HELPIGN wallace’s finacials, it’s not all on him)

This will be imporant later.. both the Lesbians part and Scott’s struggle saying it. he tried earlier on the beach but couldn’t get it out and Ramona clearly didn’t want to hear it as she kapt sshhhhing him.. playfully of course but still. 

So some time later it’s moving day! Kim is moving into Hollie and Josephs, and Scott, Stephen and Jason are helping. You might be wondeirng who the hell Jason is. He’s Kim’s boyfriend. I do not likes him. Not because he’s kim’s boyfriend, getting upset because a fictional character you fancy is dating is just patently stupid. I’ts like getting upset a celebrity crush is in a relationship: you had no chance anyway why. I wasn’t even bothered as a kid. I don’t really like him.. because he has no real personaliy and no real baring on the plot and I struggle to think why Bryan included him other than for a really annoying plot twist next time, which does not help my liking him knowing what’s coming. 

But while our heroes help our heroine move in, and Scott is suprised Hollie is there despite Kim having told him a minute ago she was moving in with her, something I can relate to sadly, we get something vitally plot important; Stephen passes Joseph’s room.. and notices he has a small recording setup in his room. Stephen quickly begs him to record the band’s album and Joseph agrees if only because he finds Stephen hot. Eh i’ve seen better relationships start on less, fair enough. And yes I said relationship more on that in a bit. 

So after a brief scene of Scott and Ramona having lunch where Scott fails to know her age and when Ramona says he could just ask.. hea sks and she dosen’t tell, not a bad scene character wise just not very plot important and probably should’ve bene swapped in order with the previous scene, we get to the next day. There’s a heat wave so Wallace orders Scott to go to the mall maybe find a job. He emphasises that. 

Instead Scott just sorta bums around thirst but nto having any money.. until an old face shows up. 

For those who forgot like Scott has, it’s Lisa Miller from the Volume 2 flashback, the girl who had a crush on Scott and was close friends with him and Kim. After a tackle hug  and some panic Scott eventually remembers.... if in a curiously unique and self serving way

At the time this was just hilarous. Now it’s very clear foreshadowing for the big twist in Volume 6. The two catch up while Scott is very clearly attracted to her but very clearly dosen’t want to be, with Lisa wondering where kim is, finding about Ramona, etc, before offering Scott lunch as the two catch up and Scott is very conflicted about how he feels. It’s nice visual stuff as he’s blushing, something more clear in the color version and trying to desperatley sort things out. As for why Lisa’s here she’s moving to the states soon, but is staying with her sister for now. 

So after an incdental scene with Wallace we catch up with Knives, who has broken up with Neil. And after some talk about Clash at the Demonhead, Tamra notes Knives apparently put a big x on her shrine of Scott... which baffles Knifves as she sure as hell didn’t do it and is still, sadly, obessed with Scott as ever. Granted Tamra isn’t at all helpful here claiming she did it even when she says she didn’t, is clearly confused and while yes we don’t know who else would care Tams, that just makes it all the more creepy. Stop gaslighting your bestie, she’s already got enoguh issues. She dosen’t need thinking she might have a split personality on top of the stalking, obession over a guy who has no intrest in loving her back, and attempted stabbings. Knives dosesn’t get a ton of focus in this one sadly. She kind of takes a back seat, and while sh’es not GONE from the volumle and someone close to her does impact it, she dosen’t really have any personal progression, negative or positive, like she does in every other volume, a shame since her personal jouney is one of the most intresting of the main cast. 

Anyways that night Scott hangs out with Lisa, having not gotten around to telling Ramona she exists yet and plays a game of find the Kim Pine. She goes to Neil’ and Stephen’s place for practice, but finds no one there and Neil being a dick... get used to that it’s going to get about 80 times worse soon enough. Though we do get this classic panel i’ve gotten some use out of 

He goes to Kim’s place, but she , Hollie and Satan’s Misterss have all left to Sneaky Dee’s, the local mexican place, for something to eat and Stephen is either high or doing.. something with Joseph. 

Yeah i’m not hiding that Stephen turns out to be gay in the final volume or cheating on Bitch and a Half with Joseph. And even if I hate Julie with the power of a frozen sun, I still dont’ think cheating on her is kosher. He could’ve just broken up with her and while part of it was likely confusion, and he could also be bi and not decided which one he wanted to be with, it’s still a dick move.. and later makes him a hypocrite but that’s a rant for next volume. 

So our heroes FINALLY find Kim, along with Hollie and Mouthface. And a nice thing I like is that Kim and Lisa are just.. increidbly close, happily catching up and making plans to hang before Lisa leaves, that despite Lisa having feelings for Scott the two ended up as close and She and Scott did and i’ts sweet to see. it’s also just.. rare to see Kim GENUINELY happy. I mean look at her

It’s not like she HASN’T smiled across the series but normally she’s just so miserable, likely because her best friends are a grumbly asshole who forces them to hang out with a raging typhoon of bitchiness, and an insenitive asshat who she never got closure with. This is the first decent human being whose not Ramona or Hollie, and that last one’s not going to last, in a while. It’s genuinely sweet to just see her.. enjoy the moment for once, honestly engaged with someone. Ramona shows up and finally meets Lisa, who apparently was on Degrassi.. I mean she says candaian show no one ever watched, and I watched that plenty but i’d like to think she was on there for a season or two. I liked Degrassi.. I honeslty miss it and think it could use some form of revivial and think porting it to netflix was a smart decision.. what wasn’t so smart was not having the other seasons leading into it on there. Need to watch more of it. 

So the next day Ramona stumbles into Scott’s dreams and both are annoyed, with Ramona suggesting he get a job. This finally gets him to try. He asks about Wallace’s work but understandably, he dosen’t really want scott there and asks if he even knows. So Scott sets out to ask his other friends for jobs, while Knives shows up saying she’s “totally not stalking him” but someone is following HER, a mysterious spiky haired dude in a black leather jacket, shades and with a sword on his back. Whu-oh. 

He tries Second Cup, with Julie annoyed that Stephen’s recording.. it’s hard to tell if she’s annoyed because she’s a bitch or because Stephen is both gneuinely annoying right now and clearly screwing around behind her back. My take?

But Scott realizes maybe getting a job at his Sister’s place of work who also works with his arch enemy might be stupid and backs out. He next tries Kim’s, but backs out of that too, admitting to kim it’d be stupid and Kim lists off all the reasons (His lack of resume, the fact them working together would be stresful and his ountain of late fees) why that’d be stupid, but in a jovial way. For once i’ts clear that while she’s still taking the piss out of them she isn’t mad at Scott.

In fact she genuinely helps him get a job, taking him to Stephen’s work since hers is dead right now anyway, a vegan place.  While Scott naturally compares things to a job system as he’d start as dishwasher while Stephen taught him prep, Scott agrees to genuinely take this seriously and Stephen’s boss decides “eh why not” when he asks her to employ him. Scott is gainfully employed baby! God I miss that. Seriously i’m not pimping my patreon for shits and giggles. 

But as he celebrates and Kim wishes she could punch his life in the face, they run into some trouble on the way home: Katana man who slices a motherfucking bus in half and chases them, with Scott reluctnat to fight because he has a sword and Scott does not, which is valid. He does escape though using subspace. He and Kim part awkardly and he returns home to Wallace throwing a party with two intresting charcters, a woman and a man of color, one of the few in the entire work, who are never seen again. 

The next night is practice.. or rather recording, and we start to see Neil get edged out, with him unable to come due to exams and clearly not happy about it, and Stephen just kind of ignoring anything he cares about like the dickhead he is. It dosen’t get any better as “recording” ends up just being Scott, Ramona, and Ratfaced Knacker watching bored with Joseph and Stephen work. Eventaully Scott and Ramona decide to get out of there as things are getting tensed between thing one and thing bitch, and leave.. and take Julie with them for some reason. 

So the three have dinner with Lisa, Kim, and Jason before The Mummies Curse thankfully leaves. Jason thought they were friends. 

We also get this exchange. 

I mean.. she is the better option. She his THE option. But before we can get the obvious answer of 

Stephen comes in with Knives. He smuggled her in. This leads to problems when Scott returns from the bathroom to find Queen Bitch throwing a bitch fit about him having brought her and screechs at her when she dares to talk to him “How do you even know my name?” Well Ted Cruz, you see when someone is an actually thoughtful and likes other people, they keep track of things about them and don’t constnatly tear them down or assume their partneer is automatically bonking a 17 year old instead of you know, actually forming something of a friendship and not shutting her out sensing she needs this friend group. Some people are not vacous piles of vitriol who care about nothing but themself and seem to go off at the slightest thing. 

Scott takes Ramona home but finds a drunken barely awake wallace so no sexy times. Not that he could anyway as the next day is the meeting with Peter their landlord. 

Peter reveals they’ll have to clear out by the 27th as their lease was for one year and their paid up.. as in only the first and last month. The two part melacholy knowing this sucks and isn’t a great situation. Then it’s time for Scott to work work, angelica, work work, eliza and peggy. After grueling day, can relate, he runs into  a wisp on teh wend and steels himself for a fight.. okay he bitches about it being too hot but it’s Scott. so it’s expected. He does get a hit in on his mysterious persuer.. and that’s when we meet Roxy.

Via boob punch, something Scott’s not proud of but in his defense, as Roxy keeps complaning about it, he was blindly struggling for a hit and din’t know the next Ex, or any of them, were female.. not that Ramona didn’t suggest it loudly enough by empahsising “exes” but scott’s a bit of a fuckwit. She mentions “everyone allways remmebers you”.. which is kind of ominus and tells me she tried to hook back up with ramona despite her having a boyfriend and she rejected her. Still on good terms though. But this confusing encounter ends with Roxy vowing she’ll get him next time gadget, next time. 

So we get some assorted slice of life scenes with the band, lisa and what have you as Scott tries to get in touch with Ramona but she keeps avoiding him. THat’s not worrysome at all. And Lisa brings up high school while drunk and clearly hits on Scott. He sidesteps it with her drunkness.. but this clearly isn’t over or going to stop being a problem. 

Speaking of problems Wallace makes Scott confront the truth: He either needs to find a new place to live or commit to staying, though Wallace is trying to nudge him toward asking Ramona to move into her place. Scott starts thinking it over, it being very hard especially since, as Stephen points out this was his very first place of his own.. but Stephen also points out these things are temoporary.. right before Scott ducks from katana guy. 

At work Scott wonders who it could be, though it turns out Stephen’s met him before, as he’s brought his family in here. So he’s PROBABLY not one of the exes.. but it leaves the question why he wants to cut Scott in half like Dewey Cox’s brother. But it turns out he’s nto the only enemy Scott’s casually running into as Roxy is there too.. with Ramona. 

The two talk, clearly about Scott and Lisa with Roxy trying to convince her he’s cheating and Ramona rightfully trusting Scott: while he IS attracted to her, he’s been fighting it every step of the way. Scott storms over to find out what’s going on and while Ramona is more distracted by his new job, she eventually realizes Roxy did attack him and he simply dscribed her poorly when he mentioned the incident over the phone. Scott is confused as he dosen’t get it. Is she with one of the exes what? After some hiinting from both parties, and Roxy rightfully mocking him for not getting the obvious... he finallyg ets it in the grandest way possible. 

So Roxy gets ready to fight and Scott can’t because sword, and gets fired in the background as he hides in Ramona’s bag and Ramona prepares to step in. Roxy screams at her for trusting him and defending him when Ramona.. just dosen’t her boyfriend to be bisected by her ex. A fight insues and a damn cool one at that. I honestly wish the movie had taken more from this, but simply didn’t have time leading it to instead be more like the envy fight with a bit of the Winfried Hailey fight from Free Scott Pilgrim. 

Roxy chases her and Ramona rightly points out Scott can’t run forever but takes him into Subspace.. where Roxy heads them off, having “taught you everything you know bitch” leading to a cool fight in the wintery version of subspace. Again why THIS wasn’t used instead I have no real idea. We also find out she’s a half ninja but she eventually leaves afer Ramona presses that button.. but Rammy is actually apologetic about it and Roxy’s “I hope you and your 24 children are happy together comment” is telling. 

Upon this readthrough of the volume.. I realized Roxy is the most layered and intresting of the exes next to Gideon himself. None of them are out and out terrible, but most of them have pretty simple motives: to kill Scott, ???, profit. Or in Todd’s case to kill scott, bang around and be a dick. But Roxy.. genuinely wants Ramona back. She’s the ONLY one who does: Gideon kinda does, but only in the sense that he wants her for his collection. But Roxy geninely still loves her, admitting so during this fight. And it’s not like she has no chance: out of the 7 exes she’s the ONLY one who parted with Ramona on anything resembling good terms. While intrestingly we don’t find out WHY they broke up, Ramona didn’t cheat on her like she did everyone else she was with. The two have coffee and hang out and Ramona geninely dosen’t even consider until Roxy tries to attack Scott that she’d really try killing him and tries her best to talk her out of it. But what holds Roxy back is her anger: She’s so bitter about the fact Ramona is bi or pan, so dedicated to viewing Ramona’s very orintation as a betryal (though Ramona calling it a phase dosen’t help and the movie RIGHTLY has Roxie comment on it and fly into a rage over it), and so driven to make sure the woman she loves dosen’t get hurt again that it blinds her to the fact Ramona dosen’t love her the same way anymore, and that while Scott is objectively a dick, and a cheater, and a greasy buttcrack pooflap, he is not a terrible person. A meh one sure, but he’s got good to him. She’s so biophobic she simply can’t see he’s a harmless moron.. well harmless to Ramona even with the cheating. He’s killed two people at this point and will kill again. Also she apparently has issues with only being a half ninja but this is never adressed. Point is Roxy’s really grown on me and is now probably my faviorite ex.  

Scott and Ramona talk it over on their way to Sneaky Dees and Scott finally asks to move in and gets a yes. His response is downright adorable. 

So at Sneaky Dee’s Young Neil is just a bit absolutely irate with Scott.. which isn’t fair as them not playing things is entirely on the blocky face asshole. Yell at him.. which he does, pointing out that they haven’t played shows in forever, and that the lady who owns Sneaky Dees not only runs shows, in the upstairs space, but has been asking them to play. Kim is rightly curious about this and to both Stephen just keeps saying “We’re recording right now.” And some of you may of wondered why I hate him. Well while he’s not exctly stellar in the first half in the second Stephen becomes goddman insufferable, slowly destroying the band for his affair and not giving one iota of a shit what anyone else wants. He’s a selfish, egomanical cheating prick. And yes I get it their recording an album.. but doing live shows would give them extra practice, MONEY, even if likely not a lot and exposure for said album. I get professoinal bands stop touring for a bit to do an album but you are not a professional band, and said bands still often iron out the album on the road. God you suck.

But while Scott sidesteps this argument he walks into another where Ramona confronts him about lisa about liking her.. and he rightly says if there was anything, which there was not it’s in the past. And while yes he is a cheater, she does not know this yet. This plot honestly would’ve worked better if she learned about the knives thing sooner, but instead she just comes off as paranoid for listening to Roxy about something that isn’t happening. Yes Scott’s been shown to be attracted to her.. but he’s been ashamed of it, fighting it and in denial about it, and is clealry all in with Ramona. Being attracted to someone else on a phsyical level does NOT mean your relationship is doomed. 

Things get worse as he goes home to ruminate.. and instead sees a man’s Penis. And Wallace..is at his second most unsymapthetic, not letting Scott get a shirt or a bus pass or something like a decent human being for no goddamn reason. Usually when Wallace is a dick to Scott, Scott’s earned it and badly needs a slap in the face. Here he’s just being a prick because.. the plot needs him to? I dunno it dosen’t work for me. It’s in character, I just don’t have to like it. 

So with no other options.. Scott ends up at Lisa’s. And so we get the last temptation of Scott. Lisa admits, embarassed that she’s been wearing sexy dresses and what not specifically to attract him, with Scott also mentioning how things are rough, Lisa tries to fight it herself pointing out he’s with ramona.. and when Scott points out they didn’t do anything in the past Lisa points out they should’ve.. and maybe they should now. 

We fade to black as Scott ends up in a dream and finds Roxy, who naturally has the same skill and tries to Freddy Kruger him before he wakes. He finds Lisa but they didn’t do anything: Scott pushed her away and babbled about how much he loved Ramona instead. As i’ve said.... his heart was never with LIsa... and even when he was so close to giving in he couldn’t. It’s a tangible sign of growth: He screwed around on Knives with Ramona, and given how bad things were getting with Ramona, it would be oh so easy to once again ditch a relationship the minute he found something else and oh so understandable. But... he dosen’t. He loves Ramona even if he hasn’t said it, he wants to make this work, and he’s changed. She’s changed him. He’s not quite a good man yet.. bu he’s getting to be good enough. Love turned him from a skeezy dumbass into a far more loveable dumbass. Ramona’s gotten him to stop dating a teenager (even if again he cheated), face his past with envy to finally move on and now get a job. He’s realized just hwo much she means to his life and world and so he goes to tell her. 

Riggghtttt after going to get his job back and works a shift, with steven wanting to punch his life in the balls. Stephen shut the fuck up. Just because Scott is lucky and your stuck dating satan’s scrotum does not mean you get to punch his life int he balls. Kim does, because he’s put her through more shit but not you. 

He goes to second cup to talk to Stacey.. only to end up at the wrong one where Knives also now has a job... and we finally get an answer to who the mystery katana guy is...

Yup turns out wielding giant weapons in vengance runs in the family. As for how he knows about Scott her aunt mentioned her boyfriend, everyone freaked out and obviously while her mom was mentioned as knowing in volume 1, they did not tell her dad whose brain turned into an engine of vengance and defaced the shrine. While part of it is apparnetly racisim for Scott being white the fact is he clearly saw Scott’s photograph. The guy is 5 years older. I get him being protective. Still dosen’t justify cutting off his head. His balls maybe but not his head. 

And then Scott ran, once agian finding a subspace entracne.. and this time we see inside ramona’s head and well...

Yeah.. that’s.. kind of fucked, and Ramona isn’t happy scott saw that, though she backs down once Scott explains..a nd then gets upset over him staying at Lisa’s but before SCott can tell her he loves her it turns out Roxy stayed over. So yeah, Ramona might of cheated, she tells him to alk it off and he runs around in a psycadelic haze of emtoinal confusion. And meets.. someone new...

Scott snaps out of his funk and ignores his doppleganger heading back for Ramona... whose fighting Mr. Chau. Scott left the door to Ramona’s head open and he followed him through Subspace. Scott lures him into the house and away from her only to run into Roxy. This leads to both of his attackers fighting and her wondering if Gideons ent him “Why does no one ever belivie in me?!” 

She soon realize no i’ts just unrelated and calls Scotto ut on hiding behind not having a sword and behind her being a woman, caling it a flimsy excuse. I mean she’s tring to kil lhim. It’s okay to hit an enemy combatant. Scott realizes he has to stop running... and get real with ramona leading to a truly epic, romantic and heartfelt speech and given how far he’s come and just how heartfelt it is it’s a real sign of how deep he feels. Sure we’ve seen genuine chemstiry between the two.. but htis moment is a shit.. from a simple relationship.. into true love. 

I may of only had a few but Relationships are not easy, They take work, they take time, they take patience and theyt ake love.. but if your willing to work with someone, look past some flaws and help them with the rest.. then it’s worth it. And Scott has finally realized it and for the first time in a while is running TOWARDS something difficult, actually working on this relationship and talking with his partner instead of running finding someone else or wallowing. He’s truly grown up. While he still has miles to go.. he’s taken about 50 steps forward with this. And as such given the kind of unvierse we’re in, as Ramona is genuinely touched by it he levels up a glowing sword with a heart shaped hilt coming out of his chest.. and realizing what’s happening he pulls it out....

So Scott faces off with roxy and in an awesomly short battle, their sords clash.. and he bisects her. 

Scott then honestly talks down Mr Chau who leaves after a nod, and Ramona tells Scott she loves him two. The two make out and all is well.

One make out fades into another, as we cut to Scott moving in with Kim and Blockhead’s help. Well kinda they only had one box but they owed him one. He and wallace comiserate over the end of their time as roomies. They’ll always be friend but it’s truly the end of an era. Also Wallace gets off another bit of dickery as he’’s very glad it all worked out for scott...

 Now there’s the Wallace I know and love. Dickish but just the right loveable kind of douchebag with that swagger. 

Back at Knives house she’s apparenlty into somebody though who I have no idea, Mr Chau give sher his blessing and she.. apparenlty doesen’t know chinese. I dunno. As I said her subplot this go round was her weakest overall. 

And so we end with the whole gang gathered to see Lisa off. It’s a REALLY nice shot, and one of the only times Wallace is seen with the Sex Bomb omb side of the group. Oh sure he goes to their shows and what not, but generally their never in the same vincinity so while there’s no interaction I still find this neat. Seriously the whole main cast is there, it’s a really lovely shot

Also Jason and Hollie.. who are getting awfully chummy. Whu Oh. And of course Craphole and Mouth Face are as likeable as ever. 

So we jsut get a genuinely nice sene. Except Stephen and Julie reconciling. Fuck that. Please move on. And as everyone fondly wishes Lisa adeu and wish she stuck arond the res tof the series we end on Scott and Ramona snuggling, Scott asking her her birthday and finding out she’s 24, and they both will be come september. Scott wishes this moment could last. 

They probperly snuggle as the volume ends on a high. 

Final Thoughts:

Yeah.. Gets it Together is, on rexamination, DEFINTELY my faviorite of the 6. Besides personal value i’ts hte best contained story, contaning lots of character development, great character moments, jokes, and EASILY the best art so far, with goregouness and creativty abounding. 

There is a problem here or there: Stephen and Julie’s subplot feels underbaked, and not just because I hates them, and there are several scenes that don’t further plot or character stuff. Ther’es also stuff that could’ve been expanded on.. but given this is still a pretty meaty graphic novel, it’s understandable why it wasn’t.. though it is why I’d love a streaming series since while the movie is excellent, a full series could expand on stuff from the books more Brian simply didn’t have time for. Knives also didn’t get a lot to do. 

But their drowned out by tons of great decisions: Lisa was a wonderful additoin to the cast and I genuinely wish she’d stuck around, adding in some energy, blending well with the Sex Bomb Omb crowd, and having great dynamics with everyone and her arc with Scott is heartbreaking,knowing she can’t have him but wanting him anyway having never gottne proper closure on the man she’s always wanted. She’s a heartbreaking character and its nice to see her end in a decent place and on good terms with Scott, having let him go for both thier sakes. 

And while Lisa is a highlight everyone is on their a game here for the most part apart from knives, girl hitler, and captain dumbass: Scott grows signfigantly but is funny as hell, Wallace has an intresting arc trying to nudge Scott out without being overt about it, scared to really confront him, Kim is in a happy and serene place for once and it shows. The villians are also intresting: While Mr Chau is a tad underbaked, he’s sitll a cool imposing presence. I do think he shoudl’ve had more to do with the plot.. but is still just so freaking cool it papers over that and him just.. disappearing after this like poor Lisa. 

Roxy is far more intresting, having clearly more going on than we see and while I wish we’d got her backstory, she’s easily the most engaging of the exes, being the only one to actively compete with Scott (All her and ramona end up doing is making out a little it turned out), and have bigger stakes than just “The glasses wearing douche asked me to beat up my exes boyfriend and I was like alright. 

All in all Gets it Together is really magical, the series high point, and just damn fun and it was a pleasure to go through

Next Month on Scott Pilgrim: It all falls down as we take a look into what once was my least faviorite Album, vs the unvierse. Two perfect assholes try and murder scott with Robutts, his relationship and band crumble and things get sad so very very sad. 

Next on this blog: More LIlo and Stitch! The Proud Family come to Kauai and get into a fight with our heroes. Also wizard kelly... who if nothing else is now far more tolerable now i’ve had to spend another volume with the wicked bitch of the west. Touche universe touche. See you at the next rainbow. 

#scott pilgrim #ramona flowers #wallace wells #roxanne richter #knives chau #stephen stills #julie power #mr chau #stacey pilgrim #neil nordgraf #young neil #comics #oni press #scotrospective #lisa miller #kim pine #jospeh

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How has poi changed your life? Genuinely curious, I love this show

I got this ask in May '20 and am only now answering it. :')

part of the problem with answering it is that half of the answer would be to the question of 'how has fandom changed your life' where poi is the fandom I've been the most active in and where fandom made the most difference. and that's a long story

my first draft of this was over 2k words long, and went back much further in time explaining how i had and hadn’t fit into queer spaces and fandom throughout my life. I edited it way back but it’s still long-ish, so you can read it below the break

many years ago, when I got my first full time job in my chosen industry my senior year of college I was so busy that I couldn't function. massive unhealthy amounts of overtime and a toxic work environment. (don't work at tech start-ups, kids!!!) my social life vanished. strikethrough on livejournal happened right then too and fandom, which i’d only been a silent participant in at that point, kind of went quiet for a while and by the time it started regrouping I was so busy that I didn't know about it. several awful years later I quit my job, spent several months in my room in my parents' house trying to recover from massive burn out (see my comment about tech start-ups), and then got a job on the opposite coast and left behind my whole circle of friends some of whom made up my entire connection to the queer community at that time.

making friends after college is very hard when you're an introvert and just generally don't like socializing that much. making queer friends can be even harder since there's fewer places to meet them and there's often an underlying question of dating/sex that hovers around awkwardly when sometimes what you want is just an absolutely no romo/no sex friendship. so while I did make a few queer friends eventually, I didn't have that same sort of community I did before I'd moved and I missed it

(I would be remiss in not saying that the queer friends i made in this time are all amazing and wonderful and some are still my close friends and very important to me. The thing I’m highlighting here was the lack of feeling like I was part of a larger queer community).

fast forward a bit. I get sick. like really really sick. I'm in and out of the ER, I'm missing tons of work, I'm mostly bed-ridden. I think after the last few years people can more easily appreciate how intensely lonely and surreal being stuck at home by yourself non stop can be when you're not used to it. sometime right before that I'd joined tumblr for the sole purpose of looking at cat pictures on my phone during boring meetings. I wasn't really aware that this was where fandom had migrated to (it was in fact possible to use tumblr without intersecting with fandom). but stuck home alone with time to kill I started looking for art and gifs of the tv and games I was consuming and stumbled into fandom tumblr and specifically queer femslash fandom.

I kind of poked around the territory and eventually fell into the carmilla fandom which became the first fandom I actually created content for. a few of my fics had a decent audience and while I was never part of the central core of the fandom I made some good friends there. some of y'all probably followed me back then. I eventually drifted away from carmilla for a lot of reasons I won't get into and stumbled right into poi. this would have been between seasons 4 and 5, late 2015-early 2016.

my health problems get more exciting and I end up in the hospital. I have vague memories of watching poi on my laptop in my hospital bed (vague because I was on a lot of morphine). I actually posted some fic while I was in the hospital (would have been the end of my carmilla run still).

and I get out of the hospital (early 2016) and am somewhat better but it's pretty clear that I'm going to have chronic health issues probably for the rest of my life. my social life, such as it was, was mostly dead, a lot of stuff I used to do for fun was much harder to manage. I'm still spending a ton of time at home (not even counting covid) and I have bad days where I feel terrible and can't do much. but I'll come back to that

I think most of us remember 2016. the year tv show runners fully embraced the bury your gays trope (and sometimes the fridging trope at the same time as a bonus!) and, by autostraddle's tally, 30 queer female characters in tv shows died. and then on top of that we had the actual real world tragedy of the pulse nightclub shootings. it was a massively depressing time all around for queer people

s5 of poi aired that year. I know people have different opinions on s5 of poi, and that's valid. I hated it. and I really intensely hated how it treated root and shaw. there aren't enough words to express how fucking angry I was after s5. or rather, there are 319,678 words.

I wrote a fic many of you may have read called sliding towards chaos that rewrote the entirety of poi from mid-s3 onwards. it got pretty popular lol. I put so much into writing it, too. it was basically a second full time job for me and a great way to take my mind off the fact I was still having health problems and all the crazy shit going on in the world (we had a presidential election in the US in 2016 :)))) it did not go well!)

i'm very proud of writing stc, and even if I think it isn't my strongest writing (which is good! improving over time is good!), it was what really connected me to a lot of other people in the fandom. I felt part of the fandom community in a way I hadn't with carmilla and it was an intensely queer community built around shared interests

one of the problems with finding queer friend groups out in the 'real world' is you're often gathering to meet based on the uniting factor of being queer, and your interests may vary greatly. fandom is amazing because it lets you find queer people who you share all these interests with and who you can bond with over them and collaborate with and that's just so so important. does fandom have a ton of issues and toxicity and bigotry? yes, absolutely. but it also has so much good to offer

through stc and later fics I became close friends with some really really cool people in the fandom (including my favorite writer and my favorite artist). these are people I'm still very close friends with. some of them I've hung out with offline and the ones I haven't are mostly because they live too far away. after years of not having my own queer circle of friends I have found one again and one I can usually participate in even with my health problems and that is such an important thing to me

on a creative front, the fic writing and the gif making I've done have both taught me an enormous amount and been a very positive part of my life. working collaboratively on comics has been one of the coolest things I've done. there is just so much good that came out of me seeing one shoot gif on tumblr dot com years ago and being like hmm looks gay I'm in

and in terms of the actual content of the show, I think a lot of the reason I was drawn to it (other than my lingering crush on fred from angel) was that root and shaw felt so uniquely and wonderfully queer in a way few f/f ships I'd seen had before. shaw being bi and reading as aro to me (I've talked about that here) and root being a chaotic computer nerd just felt so relatable to me and their relationship with each other made sense to me in a way that few others had. and the specific draw that they had for some fans probably has a lot to do with why I found friends in this fandom who I really clicked with

so yeah. I don't know how to sum this up. fandom can be a great way to find your people and engage your creativity and I think that's very sexy

#mp #asks #I added the read more line on mobile so I hope it actually works #personal

[cto10121]

Does R&J Play With Gender Stereotypes?

So I came across this piece of meta by @hamliet that rather intrigued me:

There’s also another layer here: the imagery Romeo uses for Juliet (the sun) and that Juliet uses for Romeo (the moon) is the inverse of how imagery was typically presented in those days. The moon was feminine; the sun, masculine. Even if we look at Romeo and Juliet’s respective character traits, Romeo is the flighty, impulsive, love-struck one who cries all the time, while Juliet is the decisive, bold, and loyal one. That’s the first thing Juliet declares to Romeo in the balcony scene: that she will always be loyal, and she shows this in every choice she makes in the story.

Let’s break this down.

“the imagery Romeo uses for Juliet (the sun) and that Juliet uses for Romeo (the moon) is the inverse of how imagery was typically presented in those days. The moon was feminine; the sun, masculine.”

Romeo does indeed call Juliet the sun, but Juliet never calls Romeo the moon—or likens him with anything symbolically feminine, come to think of it. The closest she or the play gets is a small but clear association with night: Romeo has “night’s cloak to hide me from their eyes” and Juliet implores “loving, black-browed” night to give her her Romeo. Even then it is so that he can “make the face of heaven so fine / That all the world will be in love with night / And pay no worship to the garish sun.”

Instead, Juliet consistently uses the same love language of authority as Romeo does with her, calling him her lord, husband, knight, “day-in-night,” “mansion of a love,” “god of my idolatry,” and, (my particular favorite), “tassel-gentle” or “falcon.” “Pilgrim” is the lowest social rank she uses, but of course she is following Romeo’s pilgrim-and-saints flirtation and its wink-wink bilingual allusion to his name. Romeo’s use of “sun,” then, could be viewed in the context of both lovers conferring cosmic/earthly authority, beauty, ownership, and sovereignty to each other—the Elizabethan equivalent of calling each other wife/husband. And of course they begin doing that immediately after they marry.

Even if we look at Romeo and Juliet’s respective character traits, Romeo is the flighty, impulsive, love-struck one who cries all the time, while Juliet is the decisive, bold, and loyal one.

Definitely not. Romeo is plenty decisive and bold—making the first move in wooing Juliet, climbing the orchard wall, showing himself to Juliet, immediately agreeing to marry her, nearly killing himself when he thinks Juliet might not take him back and, er, actually killing himself for her. I wouldn’t say he is impulsive, either—though he makes decisions fairly quickly, it is almost always with some deliberation beforehand (“Can I go forward when my heart is here?” “Shall I hear more or shall I speak at this?” and his monologue after Mercutio’s exit) and of course there are instances in which he restrains himself (“I am too bold” and his monologue after Mercutio’s death). The most accurate description of Romeo is that he is a risk taker—at least when he is well and truly motivated. And even then it does not rob his deliberation or even his wits.

He is also not flighty. In fact, he proves just as loyal as Juliet—as soon as he meets her, he forgets about Rosaline and leaves her clear behind. He doesn’t once waver in his conviction that Juliet is for him and makes plans to die with her (and does!). His love for Rosaline is clearly framed by the narrative as shallow, performative, and passive, and the verse bears this out. He was never in any kind of relationship with Rosaline—his love was an unrequited crush that he was at perfectly liberty to have ditched, frankly. After that, it’s Juliet, Juliet, Juliet until he dies.

Also, once more, Romeo is no crybaby. He explicitly cries a total of two times—one even before the events of the play, when he pines over Rosaline under a grove of sycamore, and another when he’s 1) seen Mercutio get mortally wounded, 2) killed Tybalt, 3) learned that he is banished from the city, and 4) mistakenly believed that Juliet no longer wants him (the Nurse’s reply is vague enough to be misinterpreted); at the very least he is devastated to have been the cause of her pain. Anyone would break down in those circumstances. Juliet herself breaks down on hearing the news and arguably is more verbally vehement than Romeo—namely, that even the words “Romeo is banishèd” are worse than if herself, Romeo, her parents, and Tybalt were dead. She ends that monologue with a passive suicide threat: “And Death, not Romeo, take my maidenhead!” How anyone can argue Juliet isn’t as lovestruck as Romeo is beyond me.

What Shakespeare was most likely aiming for was showing the mutuality of R&J’s love with parallel scenes and even language. Both have chances to act strong, decisive, and bold, both show vulnerability and great emotion and passion, both are lovestruck. Both demonstrate so-called “masculine” and “feminine” traits, which is almost always culturally-and time-based, anyway. There are only a few key differences between the two—almost all of the above traits, however, they both share. It’s almost as if…Shakespeare understood that no man or woman had all masculine or all feminine traits.

Moving on to the conclusion:

In other words, Shakespeare was deliberately playing with gender and its stereotypes in the play, which gains an even more interesting layer to it when you consider that Shakespeare was himself almost certainly bisexual (his sonnets are preeeetty explicit). It’s not a patriarchal narrative; it can well be seen as a queer narrative in a patriarchal society. And it shouldn’t take two kids having to kill themselves to get society to realize how effed up it is. It isn’t an out-of-touch play, but instead one extremely relevant to our society 500+ years later. 

In other words, Shakespeare was deliberately playing with gender and its stereotypes in the play, which gains an even more interesting layer to it when you consider that Shakespeare was himself almost certainly bisexual (his sonnets are preeeetty explicit).

You just opened up 200+ years of fandom wank, OP. I’ll just do a quick sum-up.

The Sonnets are a complete mess. They are contradictory as hell, there is clearly more than one persona speaking, there is evidence that Shakespeare edited and revised them, evidence they were published with his permission, quite a few sonnets are based on pre-existing sources, and, most damnably of all, none of the most likely candidates for the so-called Fair Youth and Dark Lady fit the narrative of the Sonnets perfectly or even satisfactorily—if there is even a clear narrative to these things to begin with. Sonnets were artificial works whose clichés and conventions were heavily satirized in Shakespeare’s own works—Berowne’s own rant-y sonnet swearing he would never believe in love sonnets comes most readily to mind. They were usually not meant to denote an actual real-life relationship, although there was a kind of “game” in trying to figure out which parts are true and which ones fiction. At least one sonnet sequence had a completely fictional addressee (Fulke Greville, I think).

Shakespeare’s sonnets do break a lot of these rules and conventions, and radically, and as they seem to have been compiled over many years, they lend themselves to autobiographical speculation. But, as a bit of a poet myself, I feel this: No one writes 154 sonnets—plus a whole narrative poem!—to one lover or even multiple lovers. Poetry is much less personal than laypeople think. Outside the sonnets, Shakespeare is not linked to any man romantically, and, besides his wife, only to two women (unnamed citizen’s wife and Jane Devanant).

Even if we assume Shakespeare’s bi, though, that doesn’t mean R&J is a queer narrative, which brings us to…

It’s not a patriarchal narrative; it can well be seen as a queer narrative in a patriarchal society.

A queer narrative that has its lovers express their love through the language of heterosexual marriage (husband, lord, wife, lady, pilgrim/saint), and commit suicide by a chalice-and-blade symbolism that mimics heterosexual sex (Romeo drinking a “cup” of poison and Juliet stabbing herself with Romeo’s dagger. Freud couldn’t have done it better). If Shakespeare was thinking “gay allegory!!!” he would have had to at least change or erase the symbolism (straight coding?) of the double suicide, or have Juliet attribute to Romeo explicitly feminine imagery. He would have to have done some major plot rejiggering. He would have had to, in short, change the whole story.

(Unless by “queer narrative” you mean “anything that has an emotionally constipated male lead who doesn’t growl sexily and a female lead who doesn’t cry/faint at the drop of a hat.” That’d be most every narrative, lol.)

Also, I’m hard-pressed to think of love romances that are 100% patriarchal narratives, and those that do (Casablanca, maybe?) are not really true ones, anyway. Patriarchy inherently opposes all romances of love and sex, including heterosexual. It demands that men be raised as soldiers to kill enemies, slaughtered, and discarded, and women as chattel and land to be bought and sold. Marriage was that transferral of property. Having children is necessary, not out of love and care for them, but to propagate the species and create even more future warriors and womb incubators. It grudgingly accepts only (mostly straight and like maybe 1 or 2 gay) love narratives that can be subsumed into this narrow paradigm, but the tension of interpretation is always present. Ideally, it prefers to ignore, diminish, scorn and mock, or even suppress them. I suspect most people’s problems and discomfort with R&J stem from this pathology, this deep-seated unease over anything that touches on human experience patriarchy can’t quite control or subsume.

Shakespeare was obviously no lover of patriarchy (in his personal life, though…well, it’s debatable). His plays resist it greatly to various degrees, and R&J is no exception. R&J hews much closer to the reality of heterosexual love and love in general, which are informed by, though are not inherently tied to, patriarchy (as are gay relationships, sadly). Shakespeare is just being a good writer in throwing most of that rotten apple away; it doesn’t apply to what he was trying to do, anyway. R&J’s challenge to patriarchy, though, is heterosexual in nature.

And it shouldn’t take two kids having to kill themselves to get society to realize how effed up it is. It isn’t an out-of-touch play, but instead one extremely relevant to our society 500+ years later. 

True dat.

#romeo and juliet #shakespeare #cristina metas #rj meta #r&j meta #rj are just so boyxgirl op #accept it and you will find peace #repressive traditional gender roles are back in fashion it seems #the victorians couldn’t accept romeo as a man either and had him be played by an actress #but if we’re going to take our notions of gender from the victorians of all people well…

[notmrskennedy]

NSYNC’s Greatest Hit

Spencer Reid x GN!Reader

A/N - So I wrote this on national coming out day in like twenty minutes. Here we are much later but I hope you like it. Hopefully as much as I liked my bestie’s edits on it (btw I hope you get the title joke - I’m such a nerd whoops)

Summary - Reader doesn’t know how to tell their best friend that they’re bi...

W/C - 1.4k

Warnings - I swear like a sailor’s mother and general coming out anxiety 

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“So, did you like the movie?” he asks and if I’m completely being honest, I’ve forgotten he’s speaking to me. Spencer’s been splitting his time between excitedly explaining what I think might be the plot of this Saturday night movie, and animatedly telling the Saturday night movie—and I might be wrong—to fuck off. But I can’t be 100% sure.

Because the movie’s in Korean.

And he’s forgotten how to speak English for the last hour and a half.

I’ve known Spencer for a really long time, and we’ve had our fair share of grievances over the last however long we’ve been practically family. My biggest problem with him, though, was that he never would explain the plot of a movie to me in English. He would sit on my couch, eat my popcorn, promise that this time will be different, and then explain an entire Korean film to me in Korean. As if I hadn’t barely passed high school!

Sure, I never really mind the rambling—English, or whatever his new language obsession is—but tonight is different. Tonight, I’m more focused on where my ex-roommate had stashed her very forgotten vodka bottle in this stupid apartment. Or if the liquor store around the corner would sell to a girl who didn’t really look 23 and had lost her license.

I know Spencer is staring at me, but I can’t break the circle of thoughts. Vodka, liquor store, vodka, liquor store, vodka—

Can’t he stop looking at me? Can’t he stop looking at the sweat beading on my forehead? Just quit analysing the way I’m biting my nails off, finger by finger? Can’t he just stop looking? Before I fucking combust?

It’s hard enough to admit to myself that maybe—just maybe—I’m not just jealous of pretty girls. And maybe—just maybe—it’s not all that dissimilar to how I look at pretty boys. Because there are a lot of girls that are pretty. Ethereal. Too fucking hot for me to form a coherent sentence.

How is this unobservant idiot going to take the news? I didn’t take it well, and I admitted it to myself!

Here we are, sitting on this ragged old couch—the one that he nearly had a coronary over when I told him I’d got it over Craigslist—imprinted with the pair of us. What am I going to do if he doesn’t take the news well and I have to stare at this couch every day? What am I going to do with a reminder of the friendship I’d lost?

“Y/N? Am I speaking Korean again?” he asks again and I swallow in acknowledgement. If I just move my head. Come on, Y/N, just look at him. There’s no point though; if I look at him, I have to actually tell him. Actually come out of the closet. I haven’t thought up a good joke yet to ease the inevitable pain.

But he’s Dr. Freaking Spencer Reid, FBI profiler! Shouldn’t he be able to see right through me? He should know. It would be so much easier if he just knew. I want him to be able to read my mind and tell me what I should tell him.

“It’s not Korean,” I finally manage to force out. His eyebrows furrow, his cheeks tighten, his brain is working three million miles an hour to determine if I’m dying.

It’s not dying, it’s...wanting to shrink back into the couch cushions so I don’t have to work up the courage. The courage I’ve been trying to work up for weeks. The courage that is keeping my eyes on the screen even as the credits begin to roll.

He nudges me with his elbow. “Are you—are you okay? You seem kind of shaken up.”

I chance a glance at his adorable, concerned, puppy eyes and think about crying. This is Spencer—my best friend—and if he doesn’t know already, then maybe I should just stay in the closet.

What if I shattered our relationship? I mean, I know that Spencer isn’t going to hate me over this, but my brain is throwing a fit. I feel like I could run or puke ‒‒even before I’ve had the chance to drown my worries with an entire liquor store‒‒ or god, maybe both. My brain is screaming that he’ll laugh, make some comment about a threesome. I mean, what if Dr. Spencer Reed was secretly some dude-bro in a…fantastic disguise?

Peeking over, he’s definitely not a dude-bro. The rose-coloured tie is hint enough.

Spencer was so adamant about routines, distrusted change, thrived on reliability. We’d been having the same ancient fight over who was the better Doctor for at least eight years. If I changed, would he recover? Let alone, would I recover if this changed our friendship? Could I still live up to his expectations? Would he still just see me as me? Would I no longer be Y/N, but attention-seeking, indecisive Y/N?

Jesus Christ, they don’t tell you that coming out is way too fucking nerve-wracking at Orientation to Not Being Heterosexual.

“Earth to Y/N,” Spencer sing-songs, “what’s going on?”

Oh, yeah. Gotta use actual real-life words. “Oh, right, yeah. Sorry, I just—I’m just—why is this so freakin’ hard?”

Spencer groans, whines, and then drops his head into his hands. “Morgan was right, right? You’re in love with me or something and I just—“

“What?” I turn entirely towards him. Don’t even bother keeping the shock off my face. “Derek thinks I’m in love with you?”

I can’t help the laugh that bubbles out. Even when he blushes and stutters and can’t look me in the eyes anymore. It’s a blinding change of pace. He runs his fingers through his hair, tries not to let his voice wobble too much. “Are you?”

I laugh harder and wipe the tears from my eyes. “No, I’m not in love with you, Spencer. You’re like my brother.”

The relieved sigh he lets out can be heard around the world. The ‘thank god’ is harder to miss.

“Dude, I can’t believe Morgan thinks I’m in love with you. Out of everyone on your team, I’d totally be screwing Elle.”

The silence is deafening. Oh shit.

Even with the air sucked out my lungs, I fill the fucking silence royally well. “I mean—I was—there—I was going to tell you that—that—that I think I’m bi—bisexual, I mean—you know? Women and men. Men and women?”

I glance over to Spencer—jaw dropped, eyebrows furrowed, nose pinched. I know it’s him just processing the two tons of information I’d just thrown at him. I know he’s just being Spencer about it, trying his best to think before he speaks. But Jesus, would it kill him to say something?

“It explains a lot,” he bluntly snorts. A truly unhelpful tidbit of information. I groan and think about curling into a little ball. He pauses to smile to himself, nudging my foot with his. “It’s not bad! Garcia just keeps talking about how much you smile at Elle and the whole cuffed jeans thing—it just—it just makes sense.”

It was my turn to drop my jaw, but he doesn’t stop trying to prove his point that everything is starting to make sense. If anything he gets more excited. “And did you know that 3.4 women identify as lesbian or bisexual? Or that 3.6 men do? Or that Americans are more likely to report same-sex attraction but not identify as part of the community?”

“So you aren’t weirded out?”

“No,” he answers, “Why would I be? Did you think I’d be upset? Is that why you’ve been weird?”

I scrub my hands over my face. “Um, yeah, Spencer. Usually, it’s pretty hard to come out of the closet. Especially to people you respect.”

He muddles over what I’ve said. His fingers keep digging at a crease in his pants. Maybe thirty seconds later—a long thirty seconds—he cocks his head to the side and states, clear as mud, “I would’ve thought it’d be easy because you know me. I mean, you know that about me.”

“Know what about you?”

“I thought you knew that I’m sexually attracted to men and women.”

My throat constricts—not because I’m freaked out about it—but because I’m freaked out. “Did I miss this conversation?”

“I mean, I told you about how hot the main character of the movie is. And about how his girlfriend is really hot too. Did you miss that part? I spent nearly the last half hour—”

“Korean, Spencer,” I sigh. “It was in fucking Korean.”

“Oh!” he chirps and squirms like a puppy. “In that case, we get to talk about it again!”

“English, please,” I beg, and everything seems as it should be. Even if seeing the indecisive nature of our Swedish fish and sour patch kids popcorn bowl means something a little more.

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