#feelin my oats

[gawdsfavdingdong]

Slowly finding myself and becoming comfortable in my own skin - lots of work and more changes to come. I'm ready for it 💪🏽

#lgbtqia #lgbtq #wlw #feelin my oats #healing #self-love #growing #lesbian #selfie #body posititivity #love yourself

[oexen]

filled my tires. lets fucking go?

#hope they arent actual flat! will find out tmr :) #also got my packidge yay yay yippee #bees personal #feelin my oats

[gaylisp420]

i should be allowed to kill ppl like i would only do it for justice and the greater good (^_^)👍🏼

#me #selfie #i was feelin my oats today i mus confess

[ybcpatrick]

🌔i'm never gonna shut up abt these contacts. just so everyone knows.🌖 [they/them]

#shut up kell #face #FEELIN 👏 MY 👏 OATS 👏 #i'm playing dress up. for sake of enrichment

[ghostfacebignaturals]

reminder that this is what I look like when im gorlblogging

#sorry I’m feelin my oats #I’ve been feelin my oats….

[darkficsyouneveraskedfor]

Second Best 1

Warnings: non/dubcon, and other dark elements. My username actually says you never asked for any of this.

My warnings are not exhaustive but be aware this is a dark fic and may include potentially triggering topics. Please use your common sense when consuming content. I am not responsible for your decisions.

Characters: Lee Bodecker

Summary: The newly-single sheriff sets his eye on an unexpected match.

Part of the Backwoods AU

As usual, I would appreciate any and all feedback. I’m happy to once more go on this adventure with all of you! Thank you in advance for your comments and for reblogging.

"You're so boring. Vanilla," Greta teases as you push through the grocery store door to the sidewalk.

"Simple but tasty," you roll your eyes, "as if Rocky Road is so exciting."

"Whatever," she follows you to the picnic table just outside the store. 

You sit as she swipes her tongue around the heaping scoops and you take tiny licks of your own. You pull the napkin closer to the top to catch the melting drip. She presses her lips to the ice cream before popping them off and licking them clean. You frown at her but she's looking past you.

You crane to look over your shoulder. Sheriff Bodecker stands by his cruiser, sunglasses on as he stares in your direction. He wears a crooked grin as he leans his weight on one heel, emphasizing the pudge around his middle.

You turn back to hide your disgust.

"He's a bit old for you," you chide.

"Old and rich. Single now, too," she continues to fellate the cone as you try not to hurl up vanilla.

"Charming," you muse.

"Loosen up," she hisses, "not all of us are pure little virgins.

"Shut up," you exclaim, "am not."

She arches a brow in challenge and you try to shrug her off. Your cheeks burn and you try to cool off with another lick of the cone. She's your best friend but she can sure be cruel.

A shadow approaches and blocks out the sun. You glance over from the corner of your eye and see the silhouette of the Sheriff's broad hat brim. Greta tugs on a strand of her  hair and leans forward so her tank top slumps down her chest.

"How are you doing, sheriff?" She purrs.

"Fine day out," he drawls, "I'm doing just good. You girls enjoying the sunshine. Stayin' outta trouble."

"Trouble? I wouldn't know anything about that now," she flirts with a wink. You smother your sarcasm with the dessert.

"Oh, you don't?" He puts a hand on the table and leans, "I didn't see you down at The Horn last Saturday?"

"Did you? You didn't say hi," she intones.

"Suppose I was feelin' shy," he chuckles.

"Gret, come on," you shift the cone as you try to sop up the melting ice cream, "let's find some shade."

"You can go," she dismisses with a flick of her fingers.

You huff and look between her and the sheriff. He glances down at you and grins.

"Sorry, sweetie, I'm not meaning to shoulder ya out," he turns and stands straight, crossing his arms over his stomach, "you know, I'm not a selfish man. I can handle both of ya."

The airs knocked out of you at his suggestion. You're not a prude by any means. Maybe not experienced but you're open-minded. He just isn't your type and you shouldn't be his.

"Um," you swallow and stand, "I... I'm going to grab more napkins."

He scoffs as you step over the bench and you quickly skirt away. If he didn't have a badge, you would tell him where to go. You're so tired of Greta doing this. It's exactly why you don't go to the bar with her.

You go inside and stride back up to the ice cream bar. You grab napkins and send Oskar a smile over the top. He chuckles at the mess trickling down your hand.

You decide to wander the aisles and give Greta a chance to sow her endless wild oats. Ugh. The sheriff? Really? Word is he left the new librarian for a waitress his deputy was dating. Then they didn't last more than a week. 

It's gross how the old women gossip and say the librarian didn't do enough for him, that she never gave him a child. The man needs a legacy and you can't blame him for finding someone who can deliver it. Ew. This place is so backwards.

You finish the cone and go into the bathroom to rinse off the stickiness on your fingers. You head back out, hoping it's enough time for the sheriff to get a call. As you emerge, you see Greta walking with him to his cruiser.

"Really? You're just going to ditch me?" You snip as you approach.

"Now, darlin', you're welcome to join us," The sheriff turns with a wink.

"Um, no thanks," you say curtly and the corner of his lips twitches, "I'm good. Greta--"

"I don't feel like sitting around doing nothing," she snorts, "if you don't wanna have fun, go home."

You scowl and look away. It's not the first time, it won't be the last.

"Fine," you jut out your chin at her, "have fun."

"Don't be jealous?" 

"Trust me, I'm not," you snarl, "next time you call, I won't answer."

"You will," she snickers, "I'm your only fucking friend."

You wave her off and twist on your heel. As you do, you notice the sheriff watching you. You quickly avert your eyes and stomp away.

You can't help but quake with anger. As shitty as Greta can be, she's right. She is your only friend. You hate this town.

#lee bodecker #dark lee bodecker #dark!lee bodecker #lee bodecker x reader #the devil all the time #au #backwoods au #drabble #series #second best

[mlobsters]

supernatural s11e13 love hurts (w. eric charmelo, nicole snyder)

STACY Ew, I can taste her mom lipstick…you’re telling her tonight, right?

rude, stacy :P

SAM Is that a hickey? DEAN And? It was Valentine’s Day. I can’t help it if I’m a hopeless romantic. SAM You got half of that right. DEAN Just doing my civic duty. Helping all the single ladies. You know the best thing about February 14th. You don’t have to be Mr. Right, just Mr. Right Now. SAM That’s classy. DEAN Yeah and what’d you do, judgy? Curl up in your Snuggie, watch '50 Shades' on cable?

cuz every girl crazy bout sharp dressed man men

*squints* what is that fake domain, danharper.search for the knockoff facebook page. and we got an untitled folder, not quite untitled 1 and 2 but i'll take it :p

always with the full kitchenette and vintage appliances. and bringing back the ridiculous little separators. tires!

DEAN I need a beer, regroup, maybe get lucky. SAM Didn’t you just get lucky? DEAN That was in Kansas. What do you say? You with me? Ready to go scrape a few hearts off the bar room floor? SAM I think I’ll pass. I’m gonna go hit the lore, but you go be you. DEAN Suit yourself.

dean's feelin his oats again apparently! feels like he had some seasons there where far as we knew he wasn't ever getting laid

laughing at the wife shoving these witchy items down the garbage disposal. one way to get rid of things i guess? not so good for the plumbing though

hey they named a motel after me personally

DEAN Hey. Any luck? SAM No. You? DEAN Nah. Hey what’s a…uh…dad bod?

please. (reminder that all bodies are good bodies)

MELISSA All I had to do was chant it and seal it with a kiss.

oh i see. it was plot-relevant mom lipstick.

SAM So the curse is transmittable? DEAN Like a magic STD. Okay that works. Kinda makes you nostalgic for good old fashioned herpes.

this is very fic-ish. LOL and of course dean kisses the lady to take the curse on. clearly he should hot potato it over to sam at some point but we know that's not gonna happen :p

baby lookin pretty in all those pink highlights

DEAN I’d say that went pretty well. What do you think? SAM Wait. Are you serious? You think it’s a great idea to give yourself a fatal curse? DEAN Well, target's off her back ain’t it? SAM I’m just saying. You don’t have to do this. Be the guinea pig. DEAN What? SAM Be the martyr. Try to carry the weight by yourself. Do this. DEAN I’m gonna be fine, okay? And as long as I’m good, she’s good and that’s the important thing. Besides. It proved our theory didn’t it? That this whole kiss of death thing is transmittable. I mean, I’m not asking for the Nobel here, but thank you.

both reasonable to do and also his martyr tendencies are well documented :p but even if he died, wouldn't it just go back to her? moo point, as they say?

SAM I guess. Here we go. Someone chants a curse, lays a wet one on you, then the victim is seduced and killed by the Qareen, but instead of taking the form of Barbara Eden, the present themselves as your deepest, darkest desire.

oh great. so we're gonna see amara then. very convenient of this witch to leave post-it notes with all the details on their monster including how to kill it

okay, that was adorable. so happy to win for once, didn't even care to claim the prize

AMARA You’re a mystery. I can see inside your heart. Feel the love you feel. Except it’s cloaked in shame. When it comes to this, you can’t help yourself, so why fight it. Just give in.

i mean it's just funny because we did kind of do this already in 4x14 sex and violence with the siren.

from s4e14 SAM Yeah. You see, sirens can read minds. They see what you want most and then they can kinda, like, cloak themselves. You know, like an illusion. -- MUNROE Dean's all mine. SAM You poisoned him. MUNROE No. I gave him what he needed. And it wasn't some bitch in a G-string. It was you. A little brother that looked up to him, that he could trust. And now he loves me. He'd do anything for me. And I gotta tell you, Sam, that kind of devotion? I mean, watching someone kill for you? It's the best feeling in the world. SAM Is that why you're slutting all over town? MUNROE Ahh. I get bored, like we all do. And I wanna fall in love again. And again...and again.

have to do some mental gymnastics to not understand that as wincest, i think. still hard to wrap my head around that making it to the screen. anyway. dean wants to bang amara, let's get to it

DEAN It was Amara. SAM That surprise you? DEAN That doesn’t surprise you? SAM Honestly? DEAN Honestly? You seriously think the sister of God is my deepest darkest desire? SAM She isn’t? DEAN No! She can’t be! SAM Why not? DEAN Why? Because if she is that means that I’m… SAM Means you’re what? Complicit? Weak? Evil? DEAN For starters, yeah.

SAM Dean. Do you honestly think you ever had a choice in the matter? She’s the sister of God, and for some reason she picked you and that sucks, but if you think I’m gonna blame you or judge you…I’m not. DEAN You know that I want her ass dead. SAM Yes. Of course. And I know you’ve also probably beaten yourself up a hundred times over it, but where has that gotten us? Just how bad is it? DEAN Standing here right now, every bone in my body wants to run her through. Send her back to that hole she crawled out of. But when I’m near her, I don’t know. Something happens and I can’t explain it, but to call it desire or love…it’s not that. I’m screwed man. We wanna kill the darkness. We need to kill the darkness. And I don’t think I can. I’m sorry to do that to you, ya know, but when it comes right down to it… SAM I got it Dean.

i honestly can't remember the last time they had that open of a conversation. dare i say, that's practically out of character understanding from sam, when it comes to dean hiding something important like that. i fully expected the show to have him flip his lid over dean not telling him something relevant to their big monster hunt, not trusting him with being able to handle the truth. maybe i'm just jaded by how they've done overblown brother conflict for so many seasons. but anyway, i'm thankful for sam being so reasonable and understanding. i'm thankful for dean just telling him straight up what's going on and that he can recognize he can't just power through this problem. usually they only talk this way with other people, it's nice to have it directed at each other for once. still a little bit in shock, honestly.

i like how they focused on the money he left to cover the damages again after showing him slip it under initially. like hello fans yes they do try to cover the fact that they're constantly wrecking motel rooms. feel like these later seasons have a lot of little nods like that (like say, the rock paper scissors, a bitch/jerk moment in 11x04, etc)

#supernatural #spnwatch #spn 11x13 #spn 4x14 #eric charmelo #nicole snyder #rock paper scissors #now i got zz top stuck in my head #sharp dressed man

[firenati0n]

2, 3, 6, 8, 9, and 19 for the asks! Or pick one if you don't have the spoons for all of them

hello dear anon! thank you for asking! <3

2. Describe your favorite pair of socks

they're knee high captain america socks, i love them sm. those and my bob ross socks that say "happy little accidents" with little trees all over. loveeeeee <3

3. Do you like smoothies?

i love a smoothie omg catch me blending everything in the kitchen bc i am LAZY. i love a fruit smoothie....or if I'm feelin silly I'll do banana / avocado / oat milk / honey :) :)

6. What do you use to keep your place when you’re reading a book?

answered here :) usually a receipt or a post it note tbh.

8. Do you collect anything? If so, what?

answered here :)

9. What sounds or scents calm you down?

answered here :) also was feeling Insane and Terrible so i played an angry rage mix and that was helpful in calming me down actually faksjdflkjasdf but usually i go for classical music or movie soundtracks to level myself out.

19. What’s your favorite Halloween costume from when you were a kid?

either Swan Lake Barbie from my kindergarten days or my kim possible outfit from my red hair days. but i was a witch most years aljfdskljfa very low effort as a kid

thank you! these were nice to get my mind off things :) :)

#asks #answered #anon #ask game

[self-ships-ahoy]

5, 7, and 8 for whoever you're feelin!

70s/80s Songs-Based Ship Meme

After much internal debate, I have decided to go with Sigma on this one. Despite what I said about wondering if Synthia is more oc than s/i, I'm still sticking with first person for now.

5: Billy Joel - The Longest Time: What effect do you imagine you would have on your F/O? Do you think that you would influence how they think of things, their interests, or how they react to things? Do you think they would try different things because of you?

Aside from helping him become more stable and safe in his own mind? I think we influence each other a lot through all the discussions we've had over the years; we both like to wonder and hypothesize and consider viewpoints. I influence him to come down to earth and enjoy little moments, as much as he's expanded my range of thinking (both works in progress lol). I think if I can make a good case for something, I can convince him to try something new, though it's probably not new for me. More than anything, I think I've given him hope for himself and us and the future, and that he still deserves love and care after everything that's happened to him.

...I may have also influenced his opinion on marine life. (. ❛ ᴗ ❛.)

7: Daryl Hall & John Oates - Out of Touch: What conceptual or intangible things do you associate with your F/O? (eg., colors, music, scents, times, etc)

Well, space for one XD Seriously, I see space pics or facts or anything like that and I think of him. I also sort of associate him with classical/dark academia stuff; I listened to a lot of that while trying to accept my feelings lol. And I think he's in a similar spot with Medic, where anything pertaining to his home country reminds me of him. That's kind of it for now, but I'm sure more associations will come in time!

8: Elton John - I’m Still Standing: What’s a song you enjoy (one that you didn’t pick up from them, if applicable) that you think your F/O would also like?

Well, seeing how he didn't mind Lucio's music (more so to have something drowning out The Melody, but he did say he was a fan because of it and the songs were "delightfully" distracting). He might pick up synthwave from me, or...what's it called, chillwave? Something electronic that provides a good earworm you can sleep to (as opposed to ones you can't....or is that just me). I'd recommend lofi, but I think he wants something he can work or think to, and lofi's really for relaxing. And I wanna avoid something with a heavy base bc of @/pearsaregrossfightme's funny post where he subconsciously controlled gravity to rise and fall to the beat of a cool song he vibed with. He probably reacts to music the same way I do, on an autistic level - give me a good song and I just feel it in my core.

To pick a specific song, Maybe Descend (Emil Rottmayer), or the more famous Resonance (HOME) - something from Electronic Gems that you put on in the background to help you concentrate while studying and stuff.

#i just want to entertain the fact that he autisms just like me #i will try not to project too much #but so far canon has shown a lot of similarities with me #also sorry this took so long i've been horribly tired #thank you so much for sending one in! #self ship #self ship meme #💗 caught in your orbit #nerdstreak #;answers

[unicornery]

Rachel’s Chart Chat 32, People Are The Enemy 248 10/03/2022

The segment did not appear on episode 247 so I had two weeks’ worth of stuff to cover on this one.

last week’s 1970s chart 1973-09-15

#95 I Can't Stand The Rain - Ann Peebles #78 Nutbush City Limits - Ike & Tina Turner #74 Show Biz Kids - Steely Dan #28 Yes We Can Can - The Pointer Sisters #19 Feelin' Stronger Every Day - Chicago #15 That Lady (Part 1) - The Isley Brothers #14 My Maria - B.W. Stevenson

last week’s 1980s chart 1980-09-20

#89 I've Just Begun To Love You - Dynasty #79 If You Should Sail - Nielsen/Pearson #66 Turn It On Again - Genesis #59 Switchin' To Glide/This Beat Goes On - The Kings #33 How Does It Feel To Be Back - Daryl Hall John Oates #20 He's So Shy - The Pointer Sisters #16 All Over The World - Electric Light Orchestra

All Over The World as seen in Xanadu (1980)

1970s chart: 1975-09-20

#98 Foot Stompin Music - Hamilton Bohannon #72 Por Amor Viviremos - Captain & Tennille #39 What A Diff'rence A Day Makes - Esther Phillips #32 Bad Blood - Neil Sedaka

Bad Blood as sung by Kitty and Eric on That ‘70s Show

1980s chart: 1988-09-24

#94 Cars With The Boom - L'Trimm #86 The Rumour - Olivia Newton-John #82 Edge Of A Broken Heart - Vixen #61 Waiting For A Star To Fall - Boy Meets Girl #37 Superstitious - Europe #20 Don't You Know What The Night Can Do? - Steve Winwood

Chart Picks Playlist - new songs which were discussed in the segment added each week, at the bottom. 1970s AT40 and 1980s VJ Big 40 - Rolling Playlist of the full Hot 100 for the current and previous week.  

#Rachel's Chart Chat #RCC #AT40 #People Are The Enemy #'70s music #'80s music

[wclkmans]

𝐦𝐚𝐱 𝐦𝐚𝐲𝐟𝐢𝐞𝐥𝐝 — 𝐭𝐚𝐬𝐤 𝟎𝟎𝟓 — 𝐰𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐦𝐚𝐧

playlist linked here

top five

running up that hill (a deal with god), kate bush — ❝ is there so much hate for the ones we love? (yeah, yeah, yo) oh, tell me, we both matter, don't we? (yeah, yeah, yo) ❞

doomsday, lizzy mcalpine — ❝ i'd like to plan out my part in this, but you're such a narcissist, you'll probably do it next week. i don't get a choice in the matter, why would i? it's only the death of me ❞ 

seventeen going under, sam fender — ❝ i was far too scared to hit him, but i would hit him in a heartbeat now. that's the thing with anger. it begs to stick around ❞

california dreamin’, the mamas & the papas — ❝ well, i got down on my knees (got down on my knees) and i pretend to pray (i pretend to pray) ❞ 

high tops, del water gap — ❝ i used to see you on the sidewalk standing in your high tops ruining your pretty lungs with your cigarette smoke. it ain't keeping you young ❞

𝐦𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐢𝐞 𝐦𝐜𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐲 — 𝐭𝐚𝐬𝐤 𝟎𝟎𝟓 — 𝐰𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐦𝐚𝐧

playlist linked here

top five

maneater, daryl hall & john oates — ❝ she's deadly man, she could really rip your world apart. mind over matter, ooh, the beauty is there but a beast is in the heart ❞

she’s so mean, matchbox twenty — ❝ every now and then she makes you just a little bit crazy. she'll turn the knife into your back and then she's calling you, baby, crazy ❞ 

angel of small death and the codeine scene, hozier — ❝ with her sweetened breath, and her tongue so mean, she's the angel of small death and the codeine scene ❞

rhiannon, fleetwood mac — ❝ she is like a cat in the dark and then she is to darkness. she rules her life like a fine skylark, and when the sky is starless ❞

bad idea, girl in red — ❝ it was a bad idea calling you up. was such a bad idea 'cause now i'm even more lost ❞

𝐧𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐲 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐞𝐥𝐞𝐫 — 𝐭𝐚𝐬𝐤 𝟎𝟎𝟓 — 𝐰𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐦𝐚𝐧

playlist linked here

top five

vienna, billy joel — ❝ slow down, you crazy child. you're so ambitious for a juvenile, but then if you're so smart tell me why are you still so afraid, hmm? ❞

an ego thing, lizzy mcalpine — ❝ guns drawn, slow down. it's a battle over something stupid, they're all the rage right now ❞ 

writer in the dark, lorde — ❝ i ride the subway, read the signs. i let the seasons change my mind. i love it here since i've stopped needing you ❞

funeral, phoebe bridgers — ❝ and last night i blacked out in my car, and i woke up in my childhood bed, wishin' i was someone else, feelin' sorry for myself when i remembered someone's kid is dead ❞ 

life on mars?, david bowie — ❝ it's a god-awful small affair to the girl with the mousy hair, but her mummy is yelling, no, and her daddy has told her to go ❞

#╰ * 𝐌𝐀𝐗. : isms. ⧽ let me steal this moment from you now . #╰ * 𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐍𝐈𝐄. : isms. ⧽ she could really rip your world apart . #╰ * 𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘. : isms. ⧽ don't you know that only fools are satisfied . #hawkinstm.task005

[adashofniallandasprinkleoflunacy]

Iced Chai latte w/ oat milk is my go to 🫡 add a lil vanilla syrup in there if I’m feelin funky

iced chai lattes are so good 👹👹👹

[romancemoon]

For the emoji meme ♡

📖 OPEN BOOK - do they like reading? what's their favourite genre?

☀️ SUN - are they a morning person? what is the first thing they do in the morning?

🍩 DONUT - favourite sweet treat?

🎂 BIRTHDAY CAKE - when is their birthday? do they like celebrating it?

✨ @simply-jason. meme. still accepting!

📖 answered here, but i can tell u about his favorite banana yoshimoto book as an expansion to the previous answer!! hardboiled & hard luck is his favorite work of fiction. its just... about grief and loss and how we deal with it. and it helped him carry himself through the younger years of his life, esp his early 20s when he didnt know who he was as a person. ill insert an excerpt because i feel like you just need to see a piece of the book itself to see why virote likes it so much.

I thought of various places I had visited in the past: caves I had seen in Bali and Malaysia that were so deep they made me shudder; sites in Cambodia and Saipan that brimmed with achingly dark passions left over from the war. I had visited many such places when I was young, accompanying my father on business trips—maybe that was another reason I became as sensitive to these things as I did. And it’s true, when I ask about places where I’ve felt that something is wrong, they usually turn out to have borne witness to something terrible. Ultimately, though, it’s living people that frighten me the most. It’s always seemed to me that nothing could be scarier than a person, because as dreadful as places can be, they’re still just places; and no matter how awful ghosts might seem, they’re just dead people.

and the thing is? virote always gives his bfs books that he luvs... so tbh im sure trevor has a copy of this. :) among others hehehehhe,.

☀️ he loves the morning!!! virote looks forward to his first meal of the day.. gljkg.  in the morning, he’s usually making a smoothie and having some oatmeal to go with it. throw in a little fruit and a granola bar if he’s feelin’ spicy, maybe even some coffee if he feels like he might not make it through the day. he drinks his coffee straight black and strong enough to put a horse out of commission lgfkjdglfdj. now when it comes to smoothies, he has a few favorites he likes to make! his fave smoothie recipe is: almond milk, frozen pineapple, frozen blueberries, greek yogurt, honey,beets, and chia seeds. if he’s extra hungry, he adds oats. :)))

virote loves feeling the sun on his face... loves the morning breeze. how calm it is. even if his depression tells him to go back to sleep, virote loves the morning. its a new day. another few hours to do something that matters. something that makes him happy.

🍩 sankaya!!! thai pumpkin custard!! reminds him of sleepy mornings at his grandmas place... in the mountains. hollow out a small japanese pumpkin aka kabocha... fill it with coconut milk, eggs, sugar, vanilla, evaporated milk, etc etc and steam it. he’s also really fond of falooda, a popular Indian summer dessert drink made with various layered elements like milk, ice cream, and rose syrup. :)))))

🎂 his bday is july 21st... he is a cancer sun, capricorn moon, cancer rising... so.... r.i.p..... he usually dont celebrate his own bday lol. its jus another day to him. but it’s really sweet if someone remembers and does something for him. thats usually the only way he remembers. he’s pretty neutral on the day. he’s another year older. that’s it.

#( 🌙 ABOUT! AN AURA OF MOONLIGHT AND DARK NEON. ✨ ) #simply jason

[darkficsyouneveraskedfor]

One Small Change

Sequel to One is the Loneliest Number, One on One, One Little Thing, Only One I See, One Thing Leads To Another, One Message Waiting, One Day Closer to You, I’m the Only One, Plus One, Ticket for One, The Wrong One, Number One

Warnings: none, Professor Steve (that’s a warning in itself)

Saturday. You find it hard to focus on the mountain of work before you as the night before nips at the back of your mind. You haven’t even sorted through the mess of text messages waiting in your phone, the battery icon blinking neglected as you search for an ounce of motivation to start a new day.

Why did last night have to end? You and Jake didn’t play any more MarioKart. You hadn’t managed to catch your breath until well after midnight and you only just dragged yourself out of his dorm before two in the morning. Two!

You feel wild. Like you’re finally living your college life. Not just burying your nose in endless textbooks and dreading your next lecture. But that doesn’t mean that part of it is over. Nope, it’s sitting there staring you in the face, the pile of borrowed library books stacked on your desk and the half-finished notes littered around your laptop.

You grab your mug and peer into the depths, stained with the dregs of your first cup of coffee. You’re half-tempted to go down and indulge in a sugar latte from the Starbucks attached to the next dorm building but you haven’t earned much more than another generic pod from the shared keurig in your kitchen.

You resign yourself to the bland medium roast and emerge into the common space to set the machine to grinding. Your dorm mates are elusive, likely sleeping off their own Friday nights, as the nozzle chokes out a steady brown drip. You add a touch of oat milk and go back to your room, yawning before you take a sip.

Your phone buzzes. You can’t ignore it forever. You’re supposed to meet up with Inez later but you don’t know if you can face everything else. You still can’t believe Jake, but you're not mad at it. He only said what you’re too afraid to. 

And he’s right, you’re just happy he said it all out loud. Professor Rogers was getting a bit too close for comfort. Even if he’s totally oblivious to it, you shouldn’t undersell your feelings. Easier thought than done.

You take your phone and plug it into the charge as the 5% warning chirps. You pause and scroll through your notifications, pulling up Inez’ chat first.

‘Meet me at mine @ 1. Bring snacks.’

You give a short confirmation and flip back to Jake’s chat. A dweeby gif of a cartoon cat waving and wishing you a good morning. He’s such a nerd but it’s so cute.

‘Mornin’ you answer bluntly, not sure how much you should say.

‘How ya feelin, champ? Is the crown heavy?’ He quickly responds and you chuckle.

‘W.e. If I spent all my time playing as an imaginary plumber, I might be just as delusional’

‘O we had some real fun last night ;)’

‘And now back to the real not fun’ you swoop up the camera and take a photo of your desk, sending it off with the message.

‘Boo. Should I bring help? Coffee?’

‘Pls. I can’t have u distractin me’

‘Bc I’m so fuckin’ sexy or because I got the best cuddles’

‘Ew stop’

‘Not wat us said last nite’

‘Got 2 study. U should 2.’ You make yourself key in, ‘txt later’.

You hit back and view the list of unread, Professor Rogers at the very top. You really don’t want to delve into that horror show but you have a meeting with him on Monday and you can’t really walk in with this hanging over you. You push your thumb down and the chat pops up.

Several messages precede Jensen’s brash response. ‘How’s it going?’ ‘Having a fun Friday?’... his usual niceties. But only one comes after.

‘Didn’t mean to overstep. Have a good night’

Should you answer? Reassure him with some lie? Or at least let him down easy? Let him down easy? About what? He’s your professor, not your friend. You close the chat and leave him on read. Let him take a hint.

You take your coffee back to your desk and sit down, chin in your hand as you scroll. An email pops up in the corner of your screen, a red exclamation on the margin denoting an urgent message. The sender both surprises you and doesn’t. Dr. Steve Rogers. It could be for the class.

You click and the wind spans the screen, the subject; ‘Lesson 1 Revisions’

You sigh. You thought that was all figured out. You went over everything, you made the changes, he said it was all good. You were already halfway through planning for your next lesson in Week Three.

‘Due to some recent Council regulation amendments to the curriculum, the introductory lesson for Winter term’s ‘Classic to Contemporary Literature’ must be revised to meet the new standards set by the Dean’s Office. See attached the most recent council legislative review and let me know if you have any questions.

My recommendation would be to postpone the completed lesson for Week 3 and design a new lesson to meet the requisites for Week 1. I am open to discussion. Understanding that these are last-minute and unexpected changes, I am open to meeting Sunday for office hours if necessary.

Please let me know if I can assist further and if you would like to meet.

Dr. Rogers’

You sigh and turn your head down, tempted to slam the laptop closed. You don’t have time for this. You have finals, you have papers, and now all the work you’ve done is essentially wasted. It seems almost too convenient that this has to happen now, of all times.

And Dr. Rogers… that sign-off? You lift your head and scroll back to the last email he sent to the class about the exam. At the very bottom you hover your cursor over ‘Professor R.’ Why is he suddenly getting so formal about this? Dr. Rogers, you scoff and roll your eyes. 

Well, you can’t blame him for the council amendments. That’s just an unfortunate inconvenience, still his timing is a bit strange. He could wait until you meet on Monday when you’re not piled high with studying. 

You rub your forehead and go back to his email. You sit up and type your response.

‘Thank you for letting me known, Dr. Rogers. We can discuss this on Monday at our previously arranged time.’

You hit send and exit out of the window. You have the holiday break to figure out second semester. Right now, you need to finish this stupid paper about Interwar Bavaria for Professor Laufeyson.

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[feelyourrush]

：✿ 。 ana || 26 || this is my fanfic-writing blog! i'm not the best at writing ff but still love it, it's my roots, i'm feelin' my oats. in 2024 we are out with the self-judgment and harsh self-criticism, and we're just gonna write whatever we wanna write. ：✿ 。

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[chipotlesux]

I was laying in bed half alive for like 6 hours and now I'm just awake. Feelin kinda awful and wired and like I want to gnaw my own arm off. Someone has to get me a cup of oat milk pronto

#talking #I dont know what the fuck im talking about ot be so honest with you #ignore my stupid ass plwease