#give me another chance i want to grow up once again etc

[ashiqui]

i wish i was a kid again so i could make friends like kids do. i want to sit by my old best friend's side in our school bus and play games with our hands. i want the joy of childhood again

#mia.txt #sorry i miss everything #i miss you bus friends. i miss you suhani #give me another chance i want to grow up once again etc

[no-oneelsebutnsu]

Take it off before, I tear it

I'm still new to this, so again take it easy on me

warnings: Smut, light degradation,dacryphillia, edging, spanking, and ofc vibrainium strap

word count : 0.9k+

Once again not proofread, never is

Shuri was in the lab again, she had been for basically the entire day. She had left you high and dry in the morning, getting up to leave when you were mid-orgasm, saying she had work to do. You decided to get payback, constantly sending her photos of you in lingerie, audios of you moaning out her name etc.

She wouldn't reply, simply leaving you on read, but you knew that her leaving you on read just meant that when she finished up in the lab she was going to get you back good. It was around 11pm when you received a message from Shuri saying 'Be ready for me, I'll be there in 15'. Being the brat you are, you simply stay right where you were, not bothering to change.

The door creaked slightly, as your girlfriend made her way into your shared bedroom. She stared at you from the door, you could hardly maintain eye contact with her, "So once again, you wanna act like a brat and disobey me." she says breaking the silence. She slowly makes her way towards you.

When she does, she simply sits down next to you and grabs your face, "Take it off, everything." she commanded you. Whilst you simply stared up at her, masking your intentions with innocent eyes. "Don't play dumb y/n", she said sternly,"You heard me, take.it.off". You smirked up at her, "You should take it off for me." You replied, your smile growing wider as she clicked her tongue at you, in response to your statement she gripped your jaw tightly.

"Y/n, I'm giving you a chance to redeem yourself before I'm anymore upset with you..." she said in a warning tone,"take it off before I tear it" maintaining her grip on your jaw she moved your head up and down, as if to say 'yes'. "You're gonna listen to me, right?" she asked you, as if you had a choice.

She let go of your jaw, looking at you like you were going to be her last meal. You scramble to your feet not wanting to upset her further, you begin removing your clothes, first your top, then your shorts, slowly unclipping your bra, you slid it down your arms, Shuri was eyeing you the entire time, her eyes never once leaving your body.

Finally sliding down your final piece of clothing, you were completely bare in front of her. "Bend over" she instructed you, breaking the silence again. "But Shuri I-" she moved quickly and grabbed your arm, pulling you over her lap in a split second.

"I find it funny how you still haven't learnt your lesson." You feel her slowly rub your ass, you relax into her touch, that was your biggest mistake, her demeanor changed within a second, her hand came down on your ass with a sharp slap.

You let out a yelp, squirming a bit as it stung, "Count, out loud, that was one, we will do 15, you know the rules." She lifted her hand again, the palm coming down with a crack, silence afterwards to soon be interrupted by your whines, cries and counting.

Tears were flowing down your face, by the time you had reached 9, "Shuri- I'm sorry-" you choked out, "You're crying, but down here you're absolutely soaking, I know you're enjoying this more than you say." another slap hits your ass, you cry the number out.

After what feels like eternity you finally reach 15, " Shuri, please, I'm sorry, please I promise I'll be good from now on, just please!", she scoffs at you, before picking you up and placing you on the bed. "This isn't even a that bad off a punishment and you're whining like this."

You were so occupied in begging her to stop and go easy on you, that you didn't realize she had something new in her hands until she slipped something cold between your folds, you jerked as it entered you, before she turned it on, it started vibrating. Almost on cue moans and whines began to pore out of you.

The coil in your stomach was about to snap, your thighs twitching, hips slightly bucking, all before she turned the vibrator off right before you can cum, in response you let out a loud whine. Before you can complain she turns it on again and instead of words coming out of your mouth whines and whimpers are the only thing that escape.

This continued until you couldn't think straight nor speak coherently, your girlfriend's name being the only word in your vocabulary at the moment. You could hardly see, vision blurry, still recovering from the aftershocks of yet another denied orgasm.

You here rustling around the room, before being flipped over onto your stomach and having you ass pulled up. Feeling her strap press against you entrance, she leans down to kiss your neck, leaving a few marks on the way, to calm you down, she bites you ear softly before whispering, "Come on baby, you can do this for me.", you just whimper, as she slowly pushes the strap fully into you before rutting into you at a rough pace.

Giving you no time to adjust, using your juices to slip in and out faster. "Fuck babyyy, you're sucking me in so fucking good." She continued slamming into you, until your pussy clenched around her tighter.

"I know you're close baby, cum with me." You happily obliged as your body began jerking, twitching around her cock before coating it in your juices when your body convulses, finally cumming. Her own orgasm following suit to yours.

You both lay there for a moment before she pulled out of you, getting up and going to the bathroom. You heard water running before she comes back, scooping you into her arms, leaning her forehead into yours before giving you a kiss. "You did so well my love."

A/N : Someone tell me why, I come home today and I have the worst headache I've had in years, I can't fall asleep and I'm nauseous, ya'll know I couldn't delay this any further so now I'm gonna go pass out.

#shuri imagine #shuri x reader #shuri prompt #princess shuri #shuri udaku #shuri smut #shuri fanfiction #shuri x f!reader

[prettyrealm]

monsta x i.m as a boyfriend reading

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overall:

i.m is super dependent and wants the perfect partnership, but he’s also very closed off, so he wishes he could skip the talking stage (getting to know each other, gauging whether he can trust you or not and eventually having to open up himself) and just be locked in and in love. he has very high expectations - it’s not just about going on dates and remembering anniversaries to him, it’s a life long partnership. i.m wants to grow with his partner and do everything together - he wouldn’t even be in a relationship if he didn’t want to do things as a unit. he’s someone who really values loyalty, so he will be there for you through tough times or if you were to fall ill. he wants a classic “your strengths make up for my weaknesses” and vice versa relationship, where you are always each others first choice. I think i.m genuinely wants to be a good boyfriend. he wants you to be able to go to your friends like “yeah my bf does everything right.” he’s also a very patient person, he wants to stick by someone through all phases that they go through. another thing is that i.m is good at removing himself from toxic situations when he recognises them (it’s just that he can also find “red flags” that could really be worked through instead).

strengths:

i.m is mega romantic, he wants wants you to feel special and loved. he will do all the easy things like celebrating birthdays and vacationing but also all the hard things - supporting you through goals & dreams, sicknesses, grief etc. he’s genuinely a giving person. he really wants to learn about you and make you feel comfortable to the point you can tell him ANYTHING, he doesn’t want you to be shy about anything, even with smaller things (like he’ll buy your tampons). he wants to grow with you and even likes to talk about long term goals and making sure that you guys achieve them (like coming up with a 5 year plan or “ok where will we be this time next year?”). he is also the type to own up to his faults and apologize if he truly believes he was in the wrong. but basically, he’s going to try and be giving to you in every way (time, energy, money etc.), he is a very generous lover.

weaknesses:

he looks for red flags and he’s paranoid about how much the other person really likes him, so that causes him to put unnecessary stress on the relationship. he’s definitely still hung up on someone from his past. he’s still trying to find someone he likes as much as her, to the point that even if he’s in a long term relationship currently, he’d be thinking “when will it feel like how it was with her again..”. and in an attempt to be there for people at their worst, he can put up with being treated pretty horribly by partners (not reciprocating his same love & care), and even rationalizes his mistreatment by thinking they’re just going through something and that he’s being supportive (the way he hopes they would for him during bad times). he really has a problem with letting people be really selfish with his money, energy and time. while he will end things once he realizes a person is truly selfish, he realizes too late. due to wanting such a deep connection, he can be a smothering partner - behaving too pushy and not giving the other person a chance to breathe. i.m is really desperate to be understood, he wants a girl that can get him like he wants to get her, but then still refuses to open up to her. it’s like he doesn’t get people can’t learn to know him if he refuses to tell them who he is. he puts more value on looks than he thinks he does, going after super pretty girls and just hoping their personalities will be compatible (or even improve) once they date. overall, he’s just really paranoid.

what kind of relationship is i.m looking for?

right now, i.m wants a very serious relationship. one where they feel safe with each other and they don’t mock or tease each other - mutually very supportive. he wants a really close relationship - to the point where other people might judge it or think it’s too much (maybe having each other locations on, or knowing passwords etc). he is looking for a very equal relationship, where they are both very giving but they don’t leech off of each other (so he wants a strong woman, sort of like a power couple, though he not really looking to dominate the business world or anything). he wants to spend A LOT of time with the person he’s dating (decorate their home together, travel together etc.). he wants a relationship where you go home to them after a long day and know you’re going to feel safe, supported and comforted. a peaceful and protecting relationship. he’s looking for a long term relationship.

#tarot #kpop tarot #kpop readings #kpop #celebrity tarot reading #celebrity tarot #as a bf/gf reading #changkyun #i.m #monsta x #commissions

[b4rbi3l4nd]

SOS — i can't see it

NEW CHAPTER IS UPPP, again, I will never stop thanking y'all for all the support on the last chapters, y'all's comments make me so happy pls 😭 anyway, hope y'all like this chapter!! and i apologize in advance for what goes down in this chapter, also if this feels rushed, i apologize i was getting my hair done and i wanted to finish this chapter and put it out today, more was gonna go down but anyway. i also changed the age so y/n was 20 when she found out she was pregnant but she's 24 now and Shuri is 25, had to do it based on the MCU timeline lol, MB, also for some reason I cringed a lot writing the last scene bc the WORDS was just so unholy but ANYWAY ENJOY

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐋

GIF by mandalor-din

series summary: you broke up with shuri a few years ago and left wakanda for good until namor. now that he's killed the queen and multiple wakandan civilians, he's seen as a great threat and as former second in command at shuri's lab and wakanda's loyal warrior it is your duty to return and fight for your country. but a certain somebody makes the mission way too hard to deal with.

episode summary: a hasty decision you don't agree with and an uncomfortable realization leads to you and shuri having to talk things out. one thing leads to another and the next thing you know, you wake up in her bed. awkward

genre: ANGST, slow, slow, slow burn, smut

pairing: shuri x black fem reader

episode warnings: mature dialogue, suggestive dialogue, suggestive scenes, smut, cursing, trauma, shouting, mentions of death, suicide, missing people etc. this is a series. you are currently looking at the fourth chapter of the series, please go to my profile to read the previous chapters before continuing (if you haven't read the other chapters yet, if so, please continue)

taglist: @yvxmpire, @sweetalittleselfish-honey, @xxmilli, @queenofsimpsblog, @ziayamikaelson, @shuriislut, @atssukoo, @widowmakker, @cuddl3s4shur1, @n7cje, @ts1mp0ne, @locoforshuri

proofread?: no but if there are errors then it's grammarly's fault.

word count: girl idfk

inspirations: 'SOS' — SZA

song: 'Blind' — SZA

send your thoughts and requests

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You sit in front of the throne room, your legs crossed as you nervously moved your legs up and down, trying to listen in on what the elders and Shuri were deciding on doing about the baby.

"I say we get rid of her and the baby." An elder proposed. "We don't need another repeat of Killmonger."

"Exactly." Another elder agreed. "And we don't even know is this baby is of royal blood."

"Not only that but this baby will be the grandchild of Namor. If someone like him has access to Wakanda? We've good for."

"This is an innocent baby you all are talking about." Shuri interjected, looking between the elders. "They haven't even been born yet, and you're looking to them as a threat."

"I say we let her have the baby and then once it's born we kill Malia and raise the child as our own." Elders added.

"We can't just kill her off like that.." Shuri muttered. "Eventually the child will grow up wondering what happened to their mom and then...killmonger all over again."

"So what do you suggest we do my queen?"

Shuri took a deep sigh, her fingers resting on her chin as she looked around the room.

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The doors to the throne room opened up as Shuri walked out, you immediately stood up, walking next to her.

"Hey, what are you all going to do in there?" Shuri looked at you and then back forward.

"We've come to an agreement of what we're going to do to the baby. If it's not mine then, she'll be sent back to country."

"And if it is?"

You didn't even give her a chance to respond as your eyes opened wide. "Wait what? Send her back to her country? Are you crazy?"

You guys turned a corner as she just ignored your words.

"If it is mine, then she'll be sent back to her country, after 9 months, the baby will return here to be raised in Wakanda."

"Why are we sending her back to her country? Are you trying to get us all killed?!" You whisper shouted at Shuri who sighed deeply.

She pushed open the door to the infirmary to see the doctor standing there, Malia laying down on one of the beds and Okoye and your mother standing next to the wall, shaking their heads.

"Well? How far along is she?" Shuri asked, glancing between her ex and the doctor.

The woman whispered as she spoke. "8 weeks my queen."

You bit the inside of your lips. Fuck, that means she was pregnant when you hit her. Are you serious?

You looked down, you knew what they were going to ask next, if the baby was Shuri's or not. And they can find that out. You know that because an elder of your tribe had it forcefully done on you when he suspected you of engaging in sexual activities with the princess.

When Shuri found out of course, he was executed.

"Well, is it of royal blood?" Shuri asked.

The doctor showed some papers as she answered "The blood came out a bit clotty and the tests were hard to run because of this but so far, yes. It is your child, my queen."

You let out a shaky breath you didn't know you had in you as images of Shuri and Malia filled your head. You puffed up your cheeks and looked down and turned around. "God."

Shuri also sighed deeply and pressed her temples.

"What are we going to do my queen?" Okoye asked as Shuri thought for a moment.

"Keep her locked up for now. She'll eventually be sent back to her country. After 9 months, the baby will be brought back to be raised in Wakanda. Yeah.."

"Are you serious?!" You turned around to Shuri, furious as ever. You deeply cared about your country and she was a horrible decisions maker.

"She goes back to her country, okay, what happens next? Namor is enraged that she's pregnant with your baby and he knows all the key entrances to Wakanda. We're doomed, dead. Gone." You add to it.

"Well we know what they're planning, so we'll be ready for him?"

"Really? Ready for him like how you were all 'ready' for those last 2 attacks? HM?! Why don't you just kill her and the God-forsaken baby."

"Y/N, that's inhumane. I can't just kill her and an innocent baby...especially since she was my girlfriend for almost 4 years.." Shuri added.

"OH BUT YOU CAN LOCK UP THE ONE YOU KNEW FOREVER?!" You raise your voice at her sharply. Your eyes had turned dull and the only thing behind them was fury. You were seeing red, you felt like you were going to kill Shuri and Malia herself.

"Don't think you're out of the clear because of this whole Malia thing because you're not." Shuri snaps at you. She didn't even raise her voice this time but it felt like she did. She walks past you, leaving the infirmary as Okoye follows her.

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You smile over to another person at the lab before turning back to your dehydration device. You were working on one of the heaters to try and distract your mind.

The whole Malia and Shuri situation had your head spinning in multiple different directions.

The guy you were working with at the lab was currently engaging with you in conversation and his voice kept getting drained out by your thoughts.

"I'm sorry, what were you saying?" You look at him and he smiles warmly at you, repeating everything. "Oh yeah, you're right...this goes here..." You fix some stuff on the heaters before you hear a voice speak above you.

"Y/N, can I talk to you alone please?"

You look up to see Shuri staring down at you sternly and you gulp silently before nodding, wiping your hands on your white suit. You were too distracted with your thoughts to change.

She walked down the stairs and out of the lab as you followed. In the hallway, she pull you to a corner but her grip was less strong than you thought.

"Look.." She started as you looked up to her. She was staring at the ground nervously and you raise an eyebrow.

"What, you sending me back to Nigeria?" You ask and she slowly shakes her head.

"No..um, Okoye said some things to me earlier that really stuck with me and I feel like I owe you an apology." She looks directly in your eyes after the last bit, her stare now more genuine and sympathetic.

Your posture straightened as you folded your arms. "I'm listening." What an interesting change in direction.

"Ever since you got here, I haven't been..myself and I know that now because...because.."

"Because?"

"Because I'm still in love with you Y/N."

Your eyes widened at this revelation and you blinked multiple times. "What?"

"I know yeah, it's inappropriate and I shouldn't be feeling this way but I can't help it and I expressed that in the worst way possible and genuinely, I'm sorry."

"Shuri I-"

"We don't have to talk if you're uncomfortable."

"No, no." You interjected. "I'm just surprised is all." You weren't expecting that and if you're honest, you are also still in love with her, no matter how many times you guys argued or you cursed at her, you've just been through too much together.

"I...I'm still in love with you too and..there's no running away from it. I'm a grown-ass woman...we're grown-ass women, I mean you're 25, I'm 24...we've got a lot of growing up to do." You finish.

"You've got a lot of growing up to do." Shuri said.

You rolled your eyes. "Don't start with me now Shuri."

A small laugh came from her as you looked up to see her chuckling. A smile formed on your lips as you laughed along with her.

"I missed this.." She said, looking at you with genuine eyes. Those beautiful eyes that once held hatred behind them looked at you with love, reminding you of how you used to wake up with her every morning.

"Shuri.."

"You know, you would make a great queen if you weren't so stubborn." She said sarcastically.

"I would make a great queen because I'm so stubborn." You corrected her.

"Ah-" She started.

"If- If that was what I wanted.." You backtracked on your statement, putting your hands out. A few moments of silence went by before she spoke out.

"I...don't want to fight with you anymore Y/N." She voiced out, a small frown appearing on her face. "And I'm not asking you to date me or anything I just..." She paused and sighed. "You came here under work circumstances and it was unfair for me to treat you inappropriately so, let's just keep it professional for the rest of your stay or we could be.."

"Friends?" You asked, raising your hand for a handshake.

"Yeah, I'd like that."

Your hands locked together and she shook your hand, causing you both to smile.

Finally, peace at last.

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It's been 2 weeks since you and Shuri made up and frankly, you've never loved being around her more. You were starting to see the more innocent and playful side of her that you loved being around. You 2 were always joking in the lab and you especially loved it when you and Riri joined forces just to bully her.

It was peace in Wakanda and the only thing stressful was the fact that Talokan could attack any minute now, which is why Shuri was taking out the whole staff to celebrate that night.

No guards, no work, just fun and dancing and that's exactly what you were doing.

Riri helped you get ready for tonight, she said you needed to get your "hoe" on. Not sure why, but whatever.

She had you wear RED lingerie because

"Red is the sexiest color duh," Riri said, shoving the savage x fenty set in your face.

And a bodycon black top that was slightly see-through, paired up with a leather skirt.

"Only on the cleavage and sleeve parts, I'll let you have your dignity."

Not that the top even had to be see-through for everyone to know what your cleavage looked like anyway.

"It's kinda your brand now, own it."

Matching black pumps and red lipstick.

"You're like the only person I know that fits red lipstick. Here, I'll do it. Not too much lipstick, only on the bottom, don't forget to blend in the liner and a bit darker on the top lip and ooo, gloss. Just a little bit tho, it works on you though right?"

Bold eyeshadow.

"We want them panties dropping TONIGHT!"

And for your hair, natural but with your edges done, of course.

"Your natural hair already looks like a Brazillian blow out so, not too much."

And a black purse with gold, to match.

"Okay, we're done and wow you look hot."

"I always do, let's be for real here." You say as you both laugh in your bedroom.

Currently, you were grinding with that same guy you were working with in the lab earlier. He had his hands on your waist as you guys moved in sync to the music.

Once it ended, you excused yourself from the dance floor, catching Shuri sitting down next to the bar with her shades on.

"Hey.." You wave at her, sitting a few seats away. You're not sure if she heard you but she gave you a slight not. You couldn't exactly tell if she was looking you because her shades made it hard to tell but you nodded right back.

You were planning to let lose tonight. "Can I get a bacardi please?" You signal to the waiter and they nod. You watch as they pour your drink before you smile and take it.

You down it like a shot, before placing it down on the table, feeling the burn as it slithered down your throat.

"Phew...I'm gonna go back over there." You were talking to Shuri but you figured she couldn't really care, she opened her mouth to speak but shut it just as quick.

"Okay.." You stand up and walk back over to the dance floor, feeling a bit nervous but relaxed soon enough thanks to Riri.

You guys hands interlocked as you both danced to the music. Eventually, as you pulled away, you felt 2 hands on your hips again and they felt way too familiar, like they've been around there before.

You figure it was the guy from before and you let it be, dancing along with them but your face dropped when you looked up to see Riri staring at you, eyes wide open, mouth hanging out.

Okay, it definitely was not the guy from before. You look over to her, raising an eyebrow as your eyes signal a "What?"

She mouthed with her hands desperately swiping over her throat. "The queen."

Horrified, you turned around to see Shuri looking down at you, her shades were gone and you could see nothing in her eyes but pure lust and arousal. And that she was definitely like half sober.

You don't say anything, your body unconsciously grinding against her. Her head lowered to your neck as you let out a shaky breath when her lips connected to your sweet spot. The spot that she just loved to tease.

"Shuri.." you muttered out, starting to get lost in the feel of it.

You were brought back to reality when a cold liquid hit your top. You look away to see Riri in front of both of you.

"Sorry. I guess I spilled, you might want to go to the bathroom to get things cleaned up." She signaled with her tone and her eyes.

"Oh yeah..sorry." You turned to Shuri who had stopped and broke through her grip. You walked over to the bathroom, your mind racing.

You let out a deep sigh as you entered. It was currently empty, which was great. You grabbed some towels as you started to wipe down your dress, your thoughts replaced with what would've happened if Riri never spilled her drink on you.

"Need help?"

You were pulled from your thoughts when you heard the door open, Shuri's voice along with it.

She walked behind you, taking the tissue from your hands as she wrapped on arm around your waist, the other helping you to wipe your dress.

As time went on, it felt more like her grazing your breasts than her helping you clean up. Eventually, she grabbed a handful of one of your boobs and you let out a soft and unexpected moan.

You immediately covered your mouth, embarrassed as she chuckled behind you. She let go momentarily, giving you a chance to leave but you didn't.

In fact, you did the opposite. It was clear that your body wanted her, craved her. That you craved her. You leaned into her and you watched as she smirked through the bathroom mirror.

She slipped her hand through your skirt, grazing over your pussy. You let out a small moan as she began massaging circles, applying pressure. You bit your lip as you threw your head back on her shoulder.

She took the chance to capture your lips with hers and you watch it all happen through the mirror but then she stopped and pulled apart.

"I think we should go somewhere more private."

Now that she had already given you a taste of pleasure, you couldn't stop yourself, you wanted more. You needed more.

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warning: it's getting hot in hereee

As you entered her apartment, you looked around. Everything was still in contact from when you lived with her. The painting you made for your anniversary, still up on the wall.

You felt Shuri's arms wrap around your waist as she kissed you again, slowly and more passionately this time.

"Tonight, baby i want you."

She whispers between the kiss as you feel her hands taking off your clothes. You kicked off your heels as well, helping her out.

You guys walked backward, lips still locked together and hands roaming each other's bodies. She gently pushed you back on the bed till you were laying on the bed then she pulled apart and stood, looking at you up and down.

"Fuck..." She muttered under her breath as her hands reached down to touch your body.

"I love when you wear that sthandwa(my love).." Her lips connected to your neck as she slowly kissed all around it.

One of her hands wrapping around your neck as she turned your head, finding your sweet spot again, sucking on it now, hard but passionately.

"Mmm.." you moaned out as you felt a puddle forming in between your legs.

She didn't stop until the spot was dark purple before she pulled back, looking at your breasts.

"I missed these so much usana(baby)" Her hands grazed over your nipples, making them hard. She lifted you up slightly to unclip your bra before laying you back down again.

Her hands grazed over your nipples as she slowly took off your bra. Her lips connected to one of them, causing you to bite your lip, holding back an unGodly moan.

She sucked on them until they felt numb before she turned her attention to the other one.

She was being so mean, taking her time with everything and you knew she knew that you were craving her.

"Shuri..." you breath out as she looks up at you, humming in response.

"I need you to touch me.."

"I am touching you," She replied, lifting her head up as her panther chain dangled in your face. You hooked your finger around it to pull her face closer.

"You know what I mean, I want you to touch me..there.."

You take her hand and slide it down and around your curves until she reaches your pussy. She pressed her hand on it, earning a moan from you. Wow, she barely touched you and you were already cumming. You really needed her, huh?

"Fuck, I love when you get vocal entle.(beautiful)" She groaned as you wrapped your arm around her neck to pull her closer and kiss her.

She rubbed circles on you, lowering her hand before you felt her slip your panties to the side.

"OH-!"

You were caught by surprise when you felt her finger suddenly just slip in your wet folds. She found your clit without even looking because of course would...this was like coming home to her, she's been here before.

"Hm...? It's just one baby, you can take more than that right?" Shuri teased as you sighed.

"It just got me by surprise, that's all.." You muttered out, feeling her pump in and out of you.

Another finger slipped in, causing your hips to buck unconsciously towards her, earning for more friction.

"I think you're slowly killing me here.." You throw your head back, rocking your hips along to her rhythm.

Shuri chuckled as she kept to her pace before adding another finger suddenly, causing you to moan out suddenly.

Her pace slowed down as she used her free hand to hoist your hips over her shoulders. Once you were secure, she fastened causing your hips to jerk upwards.

You didn't even get a chance to moan out because that's when Shuri suddenly stopped and then she started hitting again but this time with more intensity and she was hitting your spot every time.

The spot that made you twist and turn like a worm. That made your toes curl up and look like it was doing gang signs. That turned you into a dumb babbling mess, that she just called you.

"OH SHURI, SHURI, YES, YES, YES!" You moaned out in pleasure as your vision turned white.

"That's it baby...keep going." Shuri groaned in your ear as she quickened her pace, you held onto her arm, feeling her restraint.

She was holding back but it still felt like you were getting hit with the force of a thousand bricks. She was strong most definitely.

She wrapped a hand around your throat, squeezing tightly and it felt like she was breaking your windpipe but you loved it. Filthy.

It felt like she hated you so much with the amount of force she was using and it felt amazing, euphoric even.

Your hips jerked again as you squeezed your eyes shut.

"SHURI!" You screamed out her name as she moaned even louder than you when she felt you clench around her fingers.

"That's it beautiful, ride it out...just like that.." She kept thrusting in you but she slowed down, letting you get down from your high.

You thought it was over, you were starting to sit up when you felt her take a long lick of your pussy, making you squirm but she held you in place.

She released her grip on your throat and you were sure her handprint was going to be there tomorrow.

"Oh my..." you breathed out, your back arching upwards as she took more slow, long licks.

"Shuri please...." You moved your pussy along her mouth, rubbing circles as you moaned. She pushed her fingers that were just in you, into your mouth.

"Suck." She instructed and you did just that.

"Mmm..." She looked down at you with hooded eyes before taking her fingers out of your mouth. Both her hands gripped your thighs as she held you in place.

You closed your eyes as her lips made contact with your folds. She licked them slowly, sticking her tongue in places you didn't even realize existed. She had you seeing stars, especially since you were already sensitive from your last orgasm. But she didn't care.

Your thoughts scrambled and fuzzed as you felt her tongue enter deep into you and then back out before going in and out again.

"Shuri you're so...soo...meannn.." Your words slurred together as you tried to gather yourself.

"Really? I like to think I'm being generous tonight."

And she was true, on a daily basis, she did way worse, she was a completely different person when turned on, it was crazy, a whole 360 change.

Eventually, your breathing started to get hasty and rushed as your whole body felt numb.

You looked down to see Shuri staring right back up at you as she feasted on you and your juices. The eye contact you made was intense and hot. You looked over to the mirror next to your bedside and the sight was enough to get you squirming.

"Oh Shuri, yes...just like that baby, just like that.." You put your hands on her head, forcing her to go with your rhythm. You rubbed your clit against her face, the friction becoming unbearable, especially when she wouldn't stop doing that with her tongue. Deep and fast strokes, it was driving you crazy.

"OH MY SHURI, BAST, OH GODDD!" You felt her slip another finger into you and as soon as she did that, she slipped 2 more.

The pleasure was enough to drive you crazy and it did. Your eyes rolled to the back of your head, your body gave out as you collapsed and screamed out her name.

"SHURI, FUCK"

Your breathing was ragged as you tried to catch your breath, your hand over you chest as you watched her clean up every drop of your release with her tongue. You looked back up at the ceiling as you felt her leave from between your legs.

After finally getting a hold of yourself, you look up to see Shuri walking out from her closet, naked and, 2 black boxes in her hands. She looked at you tilting her head.

"Pick one."

"There's more?" You breathed out as Shuri laughed. You've already been overstimulated, cumming twice already. Frankly, you haven't had sex in 4 years, there's only so much your body can take now.

"You're cute...pick one." Shuri instructed again.

You laid back in the bed, lazily pointing to her right hand. You watched as she opened the box, setting the other one down as she pulled out a double-sided dildo, powered by vibranium of course. It was a personal project she made just for you. It transmits energy and pleasure between the 2 users so you both can get off.

It still looked clean and fresh so could tell she hadn't used it in a while.

You turned your attention over to her body, her tattoos, the way her hair was slightly wet from sweat, her posture, her everything. She was just so attractive. You forced your head to look back up at the ceiling, taking a deep sigh.

Shuri walked over to you on the bed as she just looked down at you.

"You look so beautiful like this you know..laid out on our bed, waiting for me.." She whispered, causing butterflies in your stomach and vagina. Crazy.

She took the dildo and inserted the tip slowly into you but then stopped, moving it in and out slowly, making a circle shape as your hips slowly followed the pattern, causing you to moan out slightly, your eyes fluttering.

"You like that huh baby?" She breathed out before stopping sharply. "Look at me."

"I can't, even if I want to Shuri...I can't see, I'm blind." You say and it was true, your vision was currently fuzzy as hell and this normally happened whenever you and Shuri slept together, she just had a way of touching you that made you lose all your senses.

Shuri smirked before shoving the whole dildo into you, causing you to scream so loud, you swear a glass must've shattered or something.

"AGH! SHURI! SHIT!"

She silenced you with a kiss as she brought the dildo back out again, rubbing your clit with her fingers gently and passionately.

She used her hands to put your thighs on her shoulders before inserting the dildo into you slowly this time as she rubbed in circles.

She then inserted her side into herself causing her to moan through the kiss, allowing your tongue to slip through and wrap itself in hers.

The room filled with the noises of both your moans and your skin slapping against each other. She was just hitting your spot again with just so much force and the fact that you knew she was holding back from going harder made your mind swirl.

Your toes curled, your breaths struggled, your hands gripping all over and onto the sheets, your hips bucking and moving with her pace, and your vision was currently gone.

"Mmm, baby..." Shuri moaned into the kiss as she kept thrusting. You could hear her panting and struggling to keep her pace and composure.

"SHURI! MM!" You shouted as you held tightly onto her arms and thighs.

Her pace started to become uneven as she threw her head back getting lost in the pleasure.

"Just like that baby...just...like..fuck.." She struggled before she finally pushed you to the edge.

You screamed out her name again as your back arched so high, you could kiss the ceiling. She fell into you, pulling out the dildo but still pushing up against you.

You felt her cum hit your walls as you sighed. You guys stayed in that position before she finally pulled away, using her finger to push some cum back into you, filling you up.

You fell on the bed, lifeless, breathless and visionless. The rest of the night consisted of Shuri running a bath for you and giving you a massage while saying praises to you, as well as her changing the sheets and slipping on one of her shirts on you.

You had your legs wrapped around her waist, her hands fixed on your waist, one of them, moving up, squeezing your breast and then going up to cup your face as she kissed you passionately.

You willingly opened up your mouth as her tongue slipped in. You moaned into the kiss. This felt amazing, like coming home. Her warmth that you had missed for years.

She eventually pulled away before laying you down on the bed, kissing your cheek sweetly. She grabbed a bonnet from her nightstand and put it on your head. You remember this bonnet, you used to wear it all the time back when you guys were still together..and she kept it.

She eventually got in the bed with you, slipping the covers onto both of you guys, her arm wrapping around you as you sighed.

She held you close, like if she let go, you'd disappear.

"I love you so...so much baby...my beautiful girl.." She whispered sweet nothings into your ear as she rocked you to sleep.

Fuck, I am going to regret this tomorrow.

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#shuri angst #shuri fic #shuri imagine #shuri udaku x reader #shuri x reader #shuri udaku #letitia wright #shuri udaku x yn #shuri udaku imagine #shuri udaku story #shuri udaku series #black tumblr #black panther #black panther x reader #black panther imagine #letitia wright x reader #shuri x black!reader #shuri x black! reader #shuri x y/n #shuri x fem!reader #wlw #wlw series #lgbtqia #shuri fluff #shuri smut #smut

[rainbowsky]

Sunshine By My Side - a few answers

I've gotten quite a few questions about Sunshine By My Side. People want to know what it's about, what I think of it, whether I recommend it, etc. so here's some info related to the questions I've been getting. I apologize for not answering your asks individually.

About the Series

Sunshine By My Side is currently available on iQIYI with English subtitles. The first several episodes are available for free at 720p, while VIP subscribers are able to access more episodes earlier, at 1080p.

It hasn't yet appeared on WeTV international.

While there is a romantic storyline, this series is considered a 'life drama', not an idol romance like Oath of Love. It covers major life and workplace issues in a serious way and is intended to appeal to a much broader audience from a wider age range.

Contrary to popular belief, it isn't based on an original screenplay. It is an adaptation of a 2017 Taiwanese drama called My Dear Boy (this is confirmed in the credits of Sunshine By My Side).

Here is a synopsis of Sunshine By My Side (from MyDramaList):

Of course, the two stories will not be identical. There will have been some changes made to adapt it to the approach this new series wants to take.

Jian Bing (Bai Baihe), a well-known advertising director, and Sheng Yang (Xiao Zhan), a newcomer in the industry, randomly crossed paths inside a restaurant one day. One has just ended a marriage, while the other was waiting for a love to finally fall apart. These two strangers eventually developed a bond and began embarking on a journey of sublime growth and budding romance. With the company of Sheng Yang, Jian Bing was able to gain her confidence back both in life and in love whereas Sheng Yang grew up from a young and carefree youth to one with a keen edge under the guidance and encouragement of Jian Bing. The two healed each other, grew up together, and overtime learned to love one another.

However, challenges in life are inevitable. Faced with their differences both in their identities and experiences, objections towards their relationship within their families, and rumors in the workplace escalating, Jian Bing and Sheng Yang finally decided to let their future play out through the course of time. Three years passed, allowing them to grow and change for the better. A lot of their firsts were spent with each other, and this trust they held and the experiences they shared back then went around and finally found them, making them gravitate towards each other again.

Here's a trailer:

My Thoughts

As for whether I recommend it or not, I haven't actually seen any of it yet so I can't give you an informed recommendation. However, I have been really looking forward to this series because the story looks good, the female lead is a well known and well respected actor with real talent, and the script writers and director are also well respected.

I have a feeling this is going to be a good series. The feedback I've heard so far from people who are watching it has been solidly positive. So yes, I would recommend it based on all of that.

And ultimately I think it's worthwhile to watch as many projects of theirs as we can - even the bad ones *coughoathoflovecough* - because even when a story totally sucks and is poorly told, we still get to see how they approach certain roles, we learn more about their experiences and growth as actors, and we can talk about their projects from a well-informed perspective.

Nothing annoys me more than when fans shit-talk shows they haven't even seen. If you haven't seen it, you haven't yet earned that privilege, my friend. 😅

Anyway, I hope you all get a chance to see it, and that you enjoy it. I will be watching it eventually, when I have time. I will also be writing a review of it once I'm finished.

I hope this answers most of your questions. If I missed anything, please feel free to send in another ask.

#xiao zhan #sunshine by my side #ask

[duckwithablog]

Chance to encourage another writer go brrrr /gen

I saw you did letters!! I don't see much of those- How aboooutt..

What if the reader is away on a trip, and MK/Mei (Or whoever, really. I could even see Tang being set as the designated writer by the group) is writing them letters updating them on what's going on?

Telling them who misses them, what the others have to say, etc! You could even have it be set for after certain episodes (i.e. MK's clones, Macaque's first appearance, etc), if you'd want.

P.S.

Doing this first because, SDJHHJFJHDSHJ YOU ARE LITERALLY SO NICE TO ME,,, HHH,,,

This is gonna be set after the pilot, so Reader went on their little vacation a few days before everything started! Which means they missed out on a shit ton of action-

Monkey Gang sends Reader a letter

Being on vacation wasn't all that bad, really. While you loved Megapolis and all your friends, you decided that some R&R was in order and left for a few days. They've been sending you letters back and forth, each updating you on whatever was going on while you were away. This time, though, you feel that you might have missed out on something major during your trip.

The letter started out normal. The moment you saw the messy handwriting and little doodles squeezed in the paper instantly made you smile. MK never changes, does he?

But then you started reading.

Hey there, Y/n! Sorry we haven't been writing to you that much, but a lot happened while you were away! Not sure if you heard, but the city was under attack recently-

Your frown, a pinch of worry pooling in your chest. Did something bad happen while you were gone? Was everyone okay?

Don't worry, though! Everyone's a-ok!

You breathe a sigh of relief.

The city got destroyed, but other than that, everything's fine!

You jolt. The city got what?

Everyone else misses you a whole bunch. Especially after what happened! You missed a lot while you were away! Pigsy said something about telling you about everything when you get home, but I think I should say it now, just to give you a heads up.

A sense of foreboding seeps into your mind. Oh god, this won't be good.

While the city was getting destroyed, I found this super cool magical staff! I found it while delivering noodles and got chased by a flame demon, it was wild.

You choked.

What the hell happened while you were gone?!

But it's alright, I handled it! Turns out the staff belonged to (wait for it) THE MONKEY KING!! ISN'T THAT SO COOL?? I actually got to meet him too!! We all went to Flower Fruit Mountain to give it back, but in the end, I ended up having to save the city! Crazy right?

Your eyes widen.

... Excuse me?

Aahh, I promise I'm not messing with you!! It'll be so much easier to explain it in person, I swear!!

Pigsy said that you were coming back in a few days, I can't wait to see you again! Mei says to bring us something cool from your trip, and Tang says that he'll save you some noodles when you get back! Pigsy tells you to be safe, but he also said that he isn't just gonna give you noodles for free (I think he's lying though).

We're all so excited to see you home!! We love you :D

Sincerely, MK (The new Monkie Kid!!)

You slump backwards after reading the letter, shock settling into your bones. After processing what the hell you just read, an unsure (but hopeful) smile grows on your face.

Well, at least you'll have some wild stories once you get back.

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Sort of different than a usual letter, but I wanted to try this out and test the waters! Hope you like it!!

#lmk x reader #lmk x y/n #lmk xiaotian #lego monkie kid x reader #lego monkie kid letters #lmk pigsy #lmk tang #lmk monkey king #lmk mei #gn reader #x reader #duckiswriting

[xiaoscarasimp]

Smol Bit of Cat boy Smut 6

Sooo my ideas dried up recently thus why no posting of this fic but thanks to hsr 2.1 we got some *smol* ideas for this fic again

sorry its a bit rushed ;-;

Previous Chapter First Chapter

MDNI CW Usual SiZe KiNk shenanigans cum eating maid outfits etc

“S-Scara, you’re just too big!!” You cry out.

 It was another day of playing around with Lyney’s magic and you being impaled on Scaramouche’s giant cock. He decided that you would look perfect today at half your size, towering over you, making sure to put you in your place. You could see the outline of his cock  through your stomach and how it moved with each thrust. If you weren’t being literally split apart by his dick, the sight would be very arousing and thrilling. 

“Shh, darling, relax,” Scaramouche cooed, using his large, but delicate hands to stroke your face. You try to give him an indignant look but all that remains on your face is your fucked out expression. 

Scaramouche's face lit up into a nasty grin. He used his hand to find your tiny clit and stimulate it even further until you cream on his member once again. The cold shivers went down your spine as you whittle away even more, his cock becoming even more prominent in your stomach. One last squeeze of your gummy walls make him cum enough to slightly inflate your stomach to where it almost looked like you were pregnant. 

“Haa,” He sighs contently as he shrinks a bit, his ears pulled back in pleasure. His shirt starts to droop off him slightly, now looking like it was only one or two sizes too big. Scaramouche delicately pushes his shorts off his delicate feet, them crumpling to the floor. He stops you from growing enough so that he could still see the outline of his cock in your stomach. “Perfect, my little doll. Stay that size for me for a little while longer.” 

His cock wasn’t splitting you as much now, however, it was still pressing against your clit. You try to grind against it again, desperate for just a little bit more stimulation, but Scaramouche uses his tail to hold you in place, reprimanding you for trying for your third orgasm of the day. 

“My cute little doll can’t get enough of my cock, can she?” He teases, ruffling your hair. “You see those figures over there? You should fuck me while wearing one of there dresses. Don’t worry, I’ll be gentle.” He winks as he pulls you off his still hard member, tip wet with your mixed juices.

The familiar feeling goes down your spine once again as he becomes even bigger and bigger. 

“Oops, don’t wanna lose my tiny partner would I?” He chuckles as he scoops you up. The cat boy might not have been full size, but he was still plenty big to pick you up with ease. Scaramouche brings you over to your figure collection stand and puts you down beside one of the cat girls, the figure growing bigger and more life sized to you as you continue shrinking. 

“You’ve often said you wanted to wear a maid dress, so here’s your chance.” 

He strips off the clothing of the figures, putting them down delicately in front of you. You had always dreamed of cosplaying those cat girls, but not like this. You delicately try to put on the clothes, making sure not to rip any of them. Unfortunately, you realize that you were still slightly too big for those clothes and shrink yourself a little bit more to fit them. Luckily, the outfits did have a place for your tail to fit through, but just barely. 

“H-How do I look?” You ask him, looking up at the giant cat boy. Your face was slightly red from embarrassment of being so small and in a cosplay outfit meant for one quarter size figures. 

“Not bad, although you would look better on my dick. Now, come here.”

 He pats his legs in the “Come here” motion. His half hard cock was starting to harden again, making your checks flush with arousal. How you were actually going to fit that in any of your tiny holes, you had no idea.

“Bend over and show me your pussy,” He commands, the authoritative tone in his voice sending shivers of arousal down your spine.

You bend over, face flushing even redder with embarrassment, skirt barely covering your rear end,your dripping, glistening pussy on display for your cat boy. He takes one of his long fingers and runs it up and down the outside of your hole, making sure to not let any of his fluids from earlier go to waste. Scaramouche uses the tip of his finger to plunge deep into your hole, curling it so that it’ll hit all the right spots. 

“Good girl,” he praises as you whimper at every touch. Scaramouche knew he was getting to you by teasing you. You yelp as he pinches your supple ass with his fingers, making sure to savor the feeling between his fingers. The cat boy licks your slick and other fluids off his fingers before spanking you; you try to keep the tears from the sting at bay, but unfortunately, Scaramouche sees everything. 

“Hmm? Is my tiny maid enjoying this?” He teases. Scaramouche spanks you again, a whimper of pain rips itself from your throat. 

“S-Scara, you’re hurt m-!” Another spank comes down on you. 

Worst yet, you could feel yourself being turned on by this; it almost hurt so good. 

One spank, two spanks, three spanks more, and he decided he was bored of it and instead went for using his finger to finger your tight, little hole. Only the tip fit, stretching you out, making you feel like you were about to be split in two for the second time that day. 

“You’re getting turned on by this, aren’t you?” Scaramouche laughed, his ears twitching in glee. Your face turned beet red again, partially from embarrassment and partially from how turned on you were from having the giant cat boy poking and teasing you.

“N-No I’m not.” You try to keep your voice even, however the little squeak betrayed you.

“Don't lie to me.” The cat boy knew you almost as well as you knew yourself. He knew all your turn ons and signs that you were enjoying yourself.

He teases you with the tip of his finger, poking and prodding your dripping pussy, making sure to savor the juices. He then uses his slicked up fingers to spank you one more time, a broken sob rips itself from your throat. 

“S-Scara, please,,” You beg. “I don’t care what it is, I n-need something inside of me.” 

“Oh?” He hums. 

Scaramouche reached over the edge of the table you were on and found one of your toys, usually a small clit vibrator with bunny ears, but at this size, it was rather large. You seriously doubted whether or not you would be able to fit it inside of you, but there was no harm in trying. Your cat boy stands the toy upright as you eye how to even get it inside. After a few tries to get the now girthy toy in, you manage to get the tip of the ears in, your clit throbbing at the pressure. 

“Ahhhn~!” You moan as Scaramouche turns the toy on. The vibrations rocked your whole body, pussy throbbing at each pulse. It wasn’t long before you creamed yourself on the toy and had to quickly remove it before you shrank down even further. 

The maid dress, which was too small to begin with, started to become looser and looser until eventually started to slide off of you. One sleeve fell off your shoulder, your cat boy’s expression becoming almost ravenous at the sight. You dwindle away until you can barely hold up the dress, and eventually discard it, standing naked before your now even larger partner. The toy that used to barely fit now was enormous compared to your tiny little body. 

You turn away from Scaramouche in embarrassment at how small you had become. As you peek over to him, you notice that his cock was just a few inches smaller than you and that it was still impossibly erect. His eyes almost seemed to glow with lus, wanting that tight pussy all for himself. 

“H-Hey, Scara,” You manage to squawk out. “D-Do you need help with…that?” You motion to his member. 

“Oh? My little cat girl still wants my cock, even as tiny as she is?” He purred.”I can’t but to think that you might not be able to handle it.”

 “I think I have an idea.” A dangerous glint appears in your eyes. 

You motion for Scaramouche to pick you up and put you down near his weeping cock, it only standing a few inches shorter than you. You bend down gently and use your tiny, rough-ish tongue to lick the tip of it, feeling Scaramouche quiver with anticipation and pleasure. After there was enough precum running down his cock, you try something that you had been curious about. You shrink yourself a little bit more to stand about as tall as his member and wrap your arms around it, moving your body up and down along the shaft. 

Scaramouch couldn’t believe what he was seeing: a tiny cat girl using her whole body in order to pleasure him, almost literally. You continue to lick his cock, although this time along the shaft and up and down the frenulum, making sure that your tiny tongue hit all of his sweet spots. You squeeze together your chest to make sure your nipples were rubbing his member, stimulating you as well. Despite the fact your body was already overstimulated from earlier, you couldn’t get enough of the feeling of rubbing your tits against him. 

“Y-Y/N,” he moans, voice thick with desire. “Faster, I-!” He was cut off by a moan as you rubbed your body faster and faster along his shaft. The softness of your boobs and the fact that you were moving fast enough to please him. 

Your cat boy was not the only one enjoying this; as you move faster and faster, the sensations of rubbing your tits against nearly making you cum again. You lick some of the precum running down his shaft, growing half an inch or so. As you rub faster and faster, Scaramouche throws back his head in pleasure and allows himself to finally cum after holding out for so long. 

He breathes out heavily, sighing with a little bit of laughter as he shrinks from his high. You try your best to clean him up, however he picks you and stops you. 

“Don’t fill up before dinner.”       

#fanfic #genshin smut #cat boy #genshin #afab reader #scaramouche x reader #size kink

[ftmpreggome]

I have a proposition for you:

What if, after this baby is born, you give yourself a timeline to get knocked up again. You can get pregnant again as soon as three weeks after delivery, but let's say we start at six.

Six week postpartum goal: convince/beg your baby daddy to fuck a third baby into you. You give this until you're, say, 3 months postpartum

3 months postpartum goal: if baby daddy is yet to agree, you branch out and ask other men you know; friends, coworkers, acquaintances, etc. to try and get one of them to knock you up. Give this 1 or 2 months

4 or 5 months postpartum goal: you've exhausted your options and either no one has agreed to fuck a baby into you, or you simply haven't conceived yet. Regardless, once you get to this point, the only people who can have the chance to breed you are strangers. Meet someone on public transportation and fuck them in the nearest public bathroom, go to a club and let someone fuck you raw, or maybe (my personal favorite) go to a local glory hole and get filled with so much cum that there's no way you aren't pregnant by the end of the night! Sure, you don't know who knocked you up, but let's be honest. Would any of the other men stuck around to play house with you and your babies anyways, or just left you out to dry as you swell and get heavier with their baby?

And if you make it to that last goal, you have to stick with it indefinitely until you're swelling and growing your newest lovely little bastard child 🥰

I'm literally so wet reading this. My fat vulva is twitching you're making me want cock so bad. Yes I want this!! If he won't give me the third baby I will absolutely find another male. I want to swell for a man yet again and maybe this time I can be with the man and he will want this pregnancy

[ofallthingsnasty]

Ok but out of curiosity? What if Aizawa's darling escaped, and knows they're on borrowed time because he's hunting them relentlessly so they try to bargain for a better life in captivity? (Maybe they've started to fall for this man after so long, but when the chance for freedom is within reach, they have to take it. And maybe they're starting to have doubts on it, this freedom, especially after barely escaping the underground heros attempts at getting them back? And truely experiencing some rough shit on the streets because there's really no place else to go since he'd know, they're just tired and actually miss their bed locked away in the basement)

Maybe they send a letter addressed to Aizawa, giving their terms for them to return; Scheduled time outside, being able to do things they weren't before, etc. In return not only would they return to him, but they would actually give this relationship a try. 100% all in, an actual attempt at a relationship?

Like what do you think he'd do? Would he actually accept? Does he trick them? Would he brush it off because he knows it's only a matter of time?

aah, omg 🥺 that man is starting to grow on me like a fungus, I swear ... I hope the format isn't too whacky, I had to use my phone to answer. Thank you for this!! 💕💕

tw.yandere, minors dni please

To me, he's one of the softer ones - and that's why I think he'd agree to your terms. As long as they're not too outrageous, of course.' I've said it before but I think that this man actually loves you (misguided as it may be) and that he craves you returning these feelings in earnest, he just took you because he needs you safe and sound or else he can't sleep at night. Can you just imagine how worried sick he'd be with you out on your own? He isn't even mad, he's scared senseless. Scared that someone might hurt you, scared that you'll do something stupid, that he'll never get to hold you again. You have to understand, he can't live without you. That doesn't mean that he'd coddle you once he has you back but he won't rest until you're either in his arms again or he drops dead from exhaustion. When that letter reaches him, he's just so glad that you're okay - and once it clicks that you actually want to return to him, he is genuinely stunned. The thought of you setting up some kind of trap in retaliation (he knows just how wrong what he's been doing is) does cross his mind, so he'll be careful. And of course, he could simply drag you home once he finds you - and he will find you, one way or another. But that's not who he is, I think. He'll sniff out your hiding place and monitor you for a little, just to see if the offer is genuine and that there is no one else involved, then shows himself. (Don't worry, he'll make sure that you're safe, no matter what.)

I also think he wouldn't even punish you but his trust in you is definitely broken after this. You'll have to work long and hard to restore it (and maybe even cave when it comes to some… indulgences of his regarding you) before he can tbe sure you'll uphold the end of your bargain. But knowing that your escape has brought you closer to him, that it is actually a blessing in disguise - that's just unbelievable to him. You coming back like that is a huge leap into the future he wants with you and he knows that you at the very least feel safe and comfortable with him. It can only get better from there.

#/eraserhead #yandere bnha #tw.yandere

[eg-writtenthoughts]

My 2022 Reads & Thoughts

As a writer, I don’t have the time to read as much as I’d like. Determined to not feel like I’m completely missing out on something else I love, I gave myself the goal of 12 books in 2022. I was able to meet that goal. At some points, I didn’t read one book a month. Some months, I didn’t read at all. Others, I read an entire series back to back. This post is coming almost a year late, making all of my comments based on memory (with a little Googling for characters I no longer remember).

The twelve books were, not in order:

Blood of Elves (The Witcher, book 1) - Andrzej Sapkowski

A Court of Thorns and Roses - Sarah J. Maas

Throne of Glass - Sarah J. Maas

Ugly Love - Colleen Hoover

A Court of Wings and Ruin - Sarah J. Maas

A Court of Mist and Fury - Sarah J. Maas

Grey (Fifty Shades of Grey as Told by Christian) - E L James

Darker (Fifty Shades as Told by Christian) - E L James

Freed (Fifty Shades as told by Christian) - E L James

These Hollow Vows - Lexi Ryan

These Twisted Bonds - Lexi Ryan

The Cruel Prince (The Folk of the Air, book 1) - Holly Black

At the bottom of my list, was The Cruel Prince by Holly Black. This is the first book  I put on my DNF list which broke my heart. Growing up I read The Spiderwick Chronicles by Black and Tony DiTerlizzi. It was my favourite series and what introduced me to Urban Fantasy. It was a pivotal point to my childhood because it really made a base for me. I went into The Cruel Prince fairly open minded, but I did have expectations. Fairy/Fae fantasy hasn’t been a genre that’s enticed me. I couldn’t tell you why. I love vampires, werewolves, witches, etc. Fairy/Fae hasn’t caught my attention in the same way. When I began The Cruel Prince, it didn’t draw me in. The main character, Jude was unlikable and I had a hard time finding a hook within it to grab. I always look for an unexpected romance but the abuse from Cardan just wasn’t worth wanting a change. And honestly, that’s all I remember. Maybe I’ll try to read it again one day, only because I hold Black on a podium in my head, but it won’t be in 2023.

Next, is Ugly Love by Colleen Hoover. I’m ignoring the controversy that’s come from Hoover and her personal life between the time I read this book and now. I know Hoover is at the peak of her writing career right now and Ugly Love is considered one of her must read books. But, I couldn’t stand it. From what I’ve been told, Hoover has a tendency to touch on heavy topics within her book. Just from this one book, I do not think she has the writing ability to execute these kinds of topics well or with dignity. With no spoilers, Ugly Love has a character trauma that Hoover writes the situation at an surface level of emotions. I didn’t feel anything while reading it. There was suspense of what happened to Miles as you read but it absolutely did not satisfy. It was like hitting a speed bump and for once, it blew out the tire of your car. This might be the only book I’ve returned after reading because of how disappointed I was. Thankfully, the employee at the bookstore agreed with me. I felt vindicated.

Blood of Elves by Andrzej Sapkowski is a book I enjoyed but have a very specific, personal thought about. When it comes to a series, I prefer each book to have its own storyline that also contributes to the overall story. For example, the Harry Potter saga. Blood of Elves however, felt like it was just the starting point of one storyline. It didn’t have a distinctive storyline that was for it alone. It felt long without a satisfying conclusion. The only reason I haven’t entirely put the book in my negative bookshelf in my mind is that I know Henry Cavill is a fan that led him to playing Geralt. So there must be something great about it. It’s also spun off a very successful video game series. I’d be willing to give Blood of Elves another chance, but I would need to be in a cottage, relaxing with the rest of the series with nothing to distract me.

Lumping the next together, is the duology These Hollow Vows and These Twisted Bonds by Lexi Ryan. If I was to rate the duology as one single book, out of five, I’d give it a 3. The first book, These Hollow Vows was a good book but felt like it was missing something. Maybe it had to do with Ryan’s desire to put the story into two books, the first one was just less. Until the end! The end was that amazing cliff hanger where the heroine is shown to be a badass. I loved These Twisted Bonds. It was a swell of the storyline and I felt like I was racing towards the end. The plot wasn’t fleshed out entirely, since I felt like the Queen wasn’t met enough to have her really feel like the villain. The conclusion was satisfying and truly, I didn’t know who the main character would end up with. I’d like to do a re-read just to enjoy the love triangle again.

At the top of my 2022 bookshelf, the books that surprised me the most were Grey, Darker, and Freed by E. L. James. I read the original trilogy (more than once) and I find it a guilty pleasure. It’s a quick read trilogy and decent enough to quiet my brain. It was the first romance only book(s) I’ve read. Similarly to Midnight Sun by Stephanie Meyers, the change of perspective, made the story significantly better and more appealing to me. The trauma Christian brings to the story is enticing in a way that naive Ana didn’t have. You genuinely root for Christian and his growth and success. I definitely will re-read this trilogy.

And finally, the first three ACOTAR books and Throne of Glass. I genuinely don’t remember much about Throne of Glass, other than the fact I fell to my urges and googled how the relationships go throughout the series. I’ll be the first to admit that spoilers don’t bother me 95% of the time. I wasn’t a fan of the results and that’s what stopped me from reading more. I plan on trying again to read them, most likely at the end of 2023 or in 2024. I will say, I’m displeased about the cover change. I own the first three books in the 2nd released covers, where Celaena Sardothien is featured. That’s too many for me not to want the rest in that cover. The new ones are nice, but I don’t want to have to re-buy them. 

A Court of Thorns and Roses may be the only Fae books I’ve ever immersed myself into. It’s been a very long time since I’ve fallen into a series/universe that I want to ingest over and over again, especially from a new author. Falling in love with characters (especially Azriel) is a happy and personal feeling. I cried during A Court of Wings and Ruin, from the comradery and love that the characters share, which I don’t do often. Yes, there was a hint of a love triangle in the beginning which always tugs at my attention, but Feyre and Rhys were beautiful. The demise of Tamlin was an incredible side plot that I could hear more about. Maas really knows how to keep her readers actively reading. ACOTAR being a Beauty and the Beast retelling was a great starting point for the series. I read A Court of Frost and Starlight this year and that review is to come. I haven’t read A Court of Silver Flames and that’s from pure stubbornness. I love Feyre’s point of view and yes, Nesta is incredible and her love story with Cassian is intense but I’m picky. From my own opinion, I don’t think this should’ve been a part of ACOTAR but its own independent series. Unless the entire series is jumping POVs, it makes it weird for me. I will definitely be re-reading this series again at some point. The fanfiction online satisfies me for now.

I’m not unhappy with my reading choices for 2022. There were a few that I didn’t like, but we all have to read stuff we don’t like. I know which author I don’t plan on reading again. As an author myself, it really opens my eyes to what audiences are reading and what I like. I know how to focus myself and my plot lines, not going off on wild adventures where I won’t be satisfied with the conclusion. 

#book review #book recommendations #book blog #acotar #ugly love #sarah j maas #holly black #the witcher #e l james #fifty shades of grey #reads of 2022

[mermaidsirennikita]

Romance novels with maximum angst/pinning that are not the Earl Takes it All or Waking Up with the Duke (have read and loved those)?

Well, definitely check out more of Lorraine's backlist! When the Duke Was Wicked and The Duke and the Lady in Red are also super angst. WtDWW has a heroine who was infatuated with the hero as a child and watched him marry another woman, only for him to begin to fall for her after his wife dies when she asks him to help her find a suitor. I describe it often as "What if Romancing Mr. Bridgerton was a lot hotter and also good?" The Duke and the Lady in Red is fucking agonizingly sad at points in the best way.

Other Heaths if you haven't tried them: Between the Devil and Desire (TW: discussions of childhood sexual abuse) in which we get one of my favorite rogue/uptight widow pairings I've ever read; Once More, My Darling Rogue (same TW) which makes an amnesia plot work and wrings it through for max angst (it's a retelling of Overboard! starring Goldie Hawn and Kurt Russell, lol); Surrender to the Devil (again, TW childhood sexual abuse). The entire Scoundrels of St. James series is very angsty as it's basically about a group of kids who experienced immense trauma and then grew up and became successful friends; the Scandalous Gentlemen of St. James is a sequel series about THEIR kids.

Elizabeth Hoyt gives great angst. My favorites include Thief of Shadows (TW: miscarriage and infertility), Scandalous Desires, Duke of Midnight, Sweetest Scoundrel (TW: childhood sexual abuse).

Indigo by Beverly Jenkins has a great "rake falls for sensible virgin" story. Both the hero and heroine work in the Underground Railroad, and the heroine was enslaved as a child. I really love the pining in this one.

Peak pining and angst can be found in The Dragon and the Pearl by Jeannie Lin, a star-crossed villain as hero story in which a warlord kidnaps a former concubine to get info out of her, and ends up falling in love with her. There's an incredibly angsty scene where he tattoos her with his mark (on her request) because they believe he's going to go off and die soon... ugh, I fucking LIVED.

A Rake's Guide to Seduction by Caroline Linden has FAB pining and angst. Hero is the rakish best friend of the heroine's older brother and realizes he loves her, but when he goes to ask her brother for permission to court her he's too late--she's engaged. Four years later, she's a widow and depressed after a bad marriage, and they meet again at a house party. He tries to cheer her up............. and then shit happens.

Private Arrangements by Sherry Thomas is a supremely angsty read about a married couple that has been separated for basically their entire 10-year marriage. She wants a divorce so she can marry her lover, and he's like "yeah sure whatever, but first give me a baby". It's not YEAH SURE WHATEVER as it turns out.

Never Seduce a Duke by Vivienne Lorret begins super funny and then gets angstier as time goes on, complete with a multi-year time jump!!!

The Madness of Lord Ian Mackenzie (widow heroine falls for hero who's on the spectrum and was once literally locked up by his family) and Lady Isabella's Scandalous Marriage (second chance romance for married couple that separated after tragedy and incompatabilities) by Jennifer Ashley give you big Scottish angst.

How to Marry a Marquess by Stacy Reid--friends to lovers with a heroine who desperately wants the hero, while he thinks she can't deal with his life (he's very scandalous because he claimed his illegitimate child). This girl literally like. Almost dies on the moors.

When the Earl Met His Match by Stacy Reid. Pregnant heroine seeks a marriage from the hero, who she's never met before in person, after her lover abandons her. He's mute and agrees to claim the baby and marry her. It's really gorgeous because she learns sign language, grows close to him, etc, but there's some REAL good angst, complete with an "I love you" mid-sex.

The Duke Gets Even by Joanna Shupe has enemies to lovers, a heroine who doesn't want to fall in love, and a hero who falls hard--while having a heart condition that will significantly shorten his life if it's never mended.

Ever Yours, Annabelle by Elisa Braden. Heroine was in love with the hero in her childhood, he got seriously injured and they separated for years. Book deals with them reuniting, lots of angst, especially for Elisa Braden.

Elizabeth Lowell's medieval trilogy (read in order) has peak 90s romance angst! Untamed has an arranged marriage plot with a super alpha hero who wants a son and a heroine whose family line only yields boys if the mother is iN LOVE; Forbidden, amnesiac hero paired with a heroine who knows who he is but keeps it from him; Enchanted, the darkest of the three, heroine is recovering from a sexual assault and intense trauma while in an arranged marriage to a man who has no idea. Read wisely, again it's 90s era.

A Lady for a Duke by Alexis Hall. The heroine is a trans woman who faked her death at Waterloo in order to transition, reunites with her best friend years later because he's suffering from severe depression and survivor's guilt. But what happens when he recognizes her???

Again the Magic by Lisa Kleypas. Hero and heroine fall in love as teens; she's a fine lady and he's a servant and she's forced to reject him. He comes back years later BENT ON REVENGE!!!!

If you're down for non-historical angst, of course Immortals After Dark by Kresley Cole for PNR (especially Dark Needs at Night's Edge and Dreams of a Dark Warrior, GOOD GOD), the Kings of Italy series by Mila Finelli (mafia angst), Give Me More by Sara Cate (throuple angst when a husband and wife invite their best friend into the marriage), Kiss an Angel by Susan Elizabeth Phillips (90s contemporary arranged marriage CIRCUS angst), Heated Rivalry by Rachel Reid (m/m hockey hookups secret lovers illicit affairs angst).

#romance novel blogging #book recs

[starlsssankt]

// okay, we’re gonna expound upon this post here-- with a mix of book AND show canon, and my own little thoughts. (And disclaimer just in case: Yes, I’m well aware he’s the villain of the story. I’m well aware he does horrible things. That’s not the POINT of this post, please don’t come at me for it.)

Now that that’s out of the way...

One of my main problems with the initial trilogy is that it’s strictly 1st person POV in Alina’s POV. And while that can work, it also doesn’t give you the chance to see or know Aleksander outside of how Alina sees him. How she hears others speak about him, how she judges him, etc. 

In Demon in the Wood (DitW for short), you see a boy. An almost wide-eyed yet still weary boy, a curious but careful boy. He’s, what, 13 or so around that time? (I can’t remember, it’s been a bit--but it’s something like that, I know.) Anyway, DitW gives you a child, who points out that they’ve been running and hiding for as long as he’s known life. He sees the Grisha in such a sorry state, because at this point, there’s wide-spread persecution, hatred, distrust, etc. People fear what they don’t understand, etc. etc. They’ve also rarely stayed anywhere longer than a MONTH. Can you imagine that? The horror and the weariness that would hit you if you were constantly moving, never settling, never having a place to call your own? Because a MONTH is something you rarely stay in one place for? 

Plus, he doesn’t touch others. Can’t touch others, because of the amplifier status of his blood and bones. Think about that for a short moment, and wonder what sort of impacts that could have on his psyche. But he knows it’s because they’d KILL him if they could, if they could gain even an inch more power to live without fear. 

Which is exactly what happens when those kids, at the lake, in DitW; they’re all CHILDREN, of course, but they’re willing to kill another--a stranger yes, but still just another kid--in order to step up in the world. Maybe they won’t be afraid any longer if their power is stronger, whatever the reason, he feels that fear of potentially DYING at the young age of a boy. 

That scars him. It doesn’t make him HATE everyone, because like DitW says at some point--he can understand their fear. He sees and knows the way they live (the way HE lives and Grisha in general live), that he cannot blame them for wanting to survive. 

Fast-forward to years later, he’s trying to make a dream of safety and betterment for Grisha come true. He works for the king, thinking he can gain favors if he does... 

It backfires, because once again, he’s GRISHA. And not just any Grisha, but someone with powers that are more unnatural than others. Yet he gains enough favor to at least get the Little Palace--that place for Grisha to learn, to grow, to harness what they are. Did he do it for loyalty points, to ensure there was an army loyal to him? I don’t believe it started out that way, but I think, as the centuries grew on... and on... and on, and he realized that nothing was changing, not enough, he grew weary. 

Again, he grew tired of the constant non-movement in making things better. Fjerda was still a dangerous place to be Grisha, with putting your very life at risk, and Shu Han was similar. (Yes they’d experiment on you and you’d die, not just outright torture/kill you, but the same result was the same--dead Grisha.) And Ravka was only safe because he made the Grisha seem useful to the monarchy, and Aleksander knew that. One step out of line, and they’d suffer. 

So he starts to plot something deeper. He starts thinking of taking over completely, seeking a greater power. It started with merzost, with the Fold, etc. and then grew into well, I need to be running things. Hence the plotted coup. The one person, too, that was always with him (his mother) was also growing weary. 

Tired. 

But she was the only one he had, so despite the growing... IDK, resentment, maybe, he started to feel towards her, he couldn’t ever erase her. She helped to make him what he was, instilled a pride in him that grew greatly through the years, yes. But he also strove for more all on his own, and I know she feared it--but this post isn’t about Baghra; that’ll be for another day. :) 

ANYWAY, we know he was alive for at least... four, five hundred years. I think it’s mentioned somewhere it’s longer, but I don’t remember. ALL THOSE PEOPLE he knew, as a child, as a young man, constantly dying on him. Whether killed or taken or just old age got the best of them, they died. And he remained. 

THAT messed him up probably as much as (if not more than) the merzost did. You can empathize with others if you have the capability to put yourself in their place. What if this was me kind of outlook. 

He couldn’t do that, after awhile especially, because he outlived them all. Every single person he might even TRY to let close, he knew would fade away, and he’d be left there, immortal as ever. So it’s REALLY hard to put yourself in another’s place when that’s the case. They can’t imagine his long life, and he can’t imagine their short ones. (Constant assassination attempts don't’ help matters, either.)

I’m rambling, I know, so I’ll try and wrap it up. But that innocent, idealistic boy in DitW turns into a world-weary, distrustful, hands-bloodstained man because he can no longer empathize. He can no longer see any hope of positive movement because things are always the same. No matter what tsar sits on the Ravkan throne, it’s the same thing for Grisha--be useful or else. 

Only when Alina comes along does he maybe start to be that boy again (at least in part). Because he sees another potential equal. She can summon the sun, she’s the light to his shadow... etc. etc. She might live as long as he does, and therefore he won’t be alone (probably one of, if not THE, greatest fear he possesses--being alone and forgotten). 

But when she ends up turning away from him, rejecting him (in major part because he has been manipulating her, even if there are some reasons in his head for such an action), he resigns himself to the role. Resigns himself to be the villain because he’s so tired of trying to convince the world he’s not. Of trying to convince everyone that his way is the only way because nothing else ever changes. 

Think of it this way (and yes I’m using modern day politics for this analogy): He tried working the system; he tried changing in the legal way, by working the system in the best way he knew how. He didn’t push buttons, but he fought-- and he proved his worth but NOTHING happened. Nothing changed to make the world this better, idealistic place he had envisioned long ago. So he turned to violence, and lying, and manipulation. The Powers That Be (Ravkan royalty, the world’s nobility, etc.) weren’t changing, and the system WAS BROKEN. 

So he planned a coup, a I’ll do it all myself, my way if you will. /analogy over. 

tldr: To sum it up? He has his reasons, and the development of his character is more... morally grey than outright evil black villain. But hey, I didn’t write the books; otherwise, he’d have been the anti-hero or something akin to that... -shrug- 

#headcanon / a name long hidden #about & musings / like calls to like #// this got WAY long so most of it is under the cut #// and it's mostly because I rambled but um... #// I needed to get these thoughts down after that set

[musicrunsthroughmysoul]

Since I hardly ever read Youtube comments on purpose, much less endeavor to carry on a conversation or whatever with someone on there, I will unfortunately subject you all (although I'm putting it below a read-more, so you have the choice to read it or not) to my critique of a comment on that video that made my eyes nearly roll out of my head.

I don't know if it's men immediately associating everything done by [presumably cishet] men with masculinity, or if men are also inclined to associate everything done by women with femininity...but...yeah, that's probably the case here.

And, yeah, I'm sorry, but HOW EXACTLY is "In a Big Country" a "boisterous, masculine, joyous song"?! You know, the song with the lyrics "Stay alive"? The song with the lyrics "Pull up your head off the floor/Come up screaming/Cry out for everything you ever might've wanted"? That's masculine? That's JOYOUS? THAT'S PAIN; DEEP, EMOTIONAL PAIN. Dear god. I'm not sure who doesn't seem to understand masculinity or joy here. Is it me?

Because to me, especially, when I hear the line "Stay alive," I hear someone - gender considered or no - who STRUGGLES to [want to] stay alive, so that it is a deeply-felt, fervent wish that everyone who hears it continues to stay alive because that might possibly be his last hope/dream that he can depend on and take a semblance of comfort in. WHERE DOES JOY COME INTO THAT?

I'm...I'm...once again...ONCE...AGAIN...men fail to comprehend the real emotional depth intended in art. Even when originally shared by another man/men (considering what Tony Butler said on behalf of December's cover, I'm giving all of Big Country the benefit of the doubt that they knew what was at stake in the song - emotionally).

I am just shaking my damn head because I think even Stuart would laugh over that comment. I think he'd be like 'Boisterous? Joyous? Okay, show me where.' "Boisterous" MAYBE in their live performances of the song, and YET Stuart's loud and obvious urge to the audience to "stay alive" during those same performances is as genuine and serious as one can get in rock music, I think. No, I don't know who Stuart Adamson was in real life, never met him, never had the chance to know him or talk with him, etc....but from his music considered primarily, and performances and interviews considered second, I do not think he would genuinely entertain that. Maybe - maybe he would humor that comment in a 'Well, I'm just the artist, but once it's shared with the world it's not really mine anymore' type of way, but I don't think he would seriously agree.

And for the last motherfucking time (I WISH!!!), just because a woman/femme sings on a song does not automatically make it feminine. WHAT is it with people and 'perceived gender does something = that thing that was done is now apparently gendered'? Although, of course, that fails to consider that anything "non-feminine" that men do is normal (because men are the default) and anything "non-feminine" that women do is now assigned female [task/title]. Like, jesus, for fuck's sake, it's almost like IT'S JUST THE SHADOW OF THE PEOPLE WE SHOULD BE. (I'm dying on that hill.)

The real thing, in my grain-of-salt of an opinion, about this cover that deserves to be pointed out instead is that it finally reflects the intended emotional depth of the song, supported largely by the added, closing lyrics of the song: "Sometimes it's hard to stay alive." Because that's what Stuart meant by the song. He listed all of his observations about how difficult life had been lately ("I've never seen you look like this without a reason/Another promise falling through/Another season passes by you/I never took the smile away from anybody's face/And that's a desperate way to look/For someone who is still a child"), presented his coping mechanisms ("I'm not expecting to grow flowers in a desert/But I can live and breathe/And see the sun in wintertime/In a big country dreams stay with you/Like a lover's voice fires the mountainside"), and then said, 'BUT IN SPITE OF ALL THAT, if I can't go through with all of this - if all of these things don't work out for me – I hope they work for you, because I want you all to stay alive; do as I say, not as I do' - "Stay alive."

December's cover of this song sees the original writer's intent and renders it poignantly, lyrically and in the music - and damn well perfectly.

I could've just said that one sentence ^ though, and it would've made far more sense than whatever the hell that dude said about gender expectations. lol

#is it still good to be king? #my writing #lyric analysis #a very very VERY BRIEF and not in depth one. surprisingly. so it may be worth it to read it (in the 3rd to last paragraph) #P.S. I know the original comment was meant to be positive but...man's never heard of critical thinking before and I took that personally. #the second to last sentence I wrote is my summary/review of their cover and it works perfectly in comparison and assumes #absolutely no weird/inaccurate/unnecessary gendering bullshit either. lol #and not to toot my own horn (sorry) but that's what all thoughtful reviews should be. #also yes I made that meme specifically for this. Crowley's 'I'm sorry SATAN? SATAN wouldn't dare?' just seemed to fit perfectly. #his incredulity is exactly how I felt when I read that comment. LOL

[xxxtentacionblog]

𝐅𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 2️⃣0️⃣

✨♾️✨

I wonder who we would’ve became if you never went away.

If only you could’ve stayed here in this world with us instead of staying 20… We were both so young and might as well have grown up together; We basically did, at least from a distance. Well, I watched you grow up. So, technically, 𝘐 grew up with 𝙮𝙤𝙪 as you were, too. Nobody understands when I say that you were the only friend, family, support, teacher, guidance, etc. You were only person I had that I could look up to all throughout my teenage years and even now, in my 20s. This might sound crazy, but you raised me. You were the greatest, biggest, and best parts of me. We’re definitely spiritually connected and bound by our souls. You were all I had. You’re still everything to be. The grief of losing your best friend, your family, the person who saved you over and over again, I’ve , is going to be a lifelong journey. This pain will never end.

It hurts so badly when I think about how, one day, day, we’ll be 60, 70, maybe even 80. Then, every time you cross our minds, your face will not have changed. Most of us will likely be grandparents at that time, and though the majority of us who love you, who you shared your life with, the ones who were there when you were here and got to experience what are now a memories we have of you, are notthat much older or younger than you. Yet, when that day comes that we’ve lived several decades, spent more of our years without you than we got the chance to have 23with you, we’ll have aged significantly and you’ll still be the same age.

We wanted to and had planned to spend the rest of our lives with you, but it turns out that spent the rest of yours with 𝙪𝙨. And for that, though we have lost so much, we are still blessed. Now, we will spend our lives remembering you, and what a beautiful gift that is. ❤️

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We’ll see you again, Peter Pan. 🕊️ Keep flying high. It won’t be in Neverland in which we meet; It’ll be Foreverland. So, get some rest. We have an eternity of adventures left ahead of us when you come take our hand with the rest of the angels and lead us back home. I know you were so tired before made your waythere, that’s why the Most High made sure you got there first. You don’t need to wake until we finally come back home. When we make it to the door, you’re going to have to get up and answer it when you hear us knocking, because I know that, me personally?? I know it better be YOU that greets me. 🚪

Your youth is eternal now, but we have forever that will be spent together ahead of us. We have everything to do and everywhere to go together whenever the universe places us in the same life and world once more and we are reunited again, but we will just be free, limitless, and have an aeonian life to live. I’ve been waiting for the day that I get to finally embrace you (so make sure you’re well rested when I come home because I will be ready and far beyond excited to have you be right there that I’ll never want you to leave my sight again. So much so that I’ll probably jump you… but with love instead of violence). I’ll hold onto you for as many lifetimes as it takes to give you all the hugs and all of the love that I’ve saved for you from the world, since the very moment you closed your eyes — you have no idea how much it misses you. 🫂🌎😪

We’ll meet somewhere else beyond here, in another life. Until then… Sleep well, Sweet Prince.🤴🏾🦋

#LLJ #XXXTENTACION

#Forever20 #ForeverYoung

#LLJ #XXXTENTACION #JAHSEH ONFROY #JAHSEH #ONFROY #BVF #BAD VIBES FOREVER #RIP XXX #VERY RARE #LONG LIVE JAH #LONG LIVE JAHSEH

[eristic-kaleidoscope]

Info Weasel's Last Goodbye | Erik A | Trial 3 Vote Reaction 2 | Re: Eureka, Byrne, etc

Erik A looks to Erisu, wanting to say something to her about the Eureka and Azr situation but deciding it might be better to in private, since he’ll actually get the chance with her. So for now he gives a little nod, and once he catches her line of sight signs [Talk later] in ASL for her, which translates automatically. He imagines she might need a bit to recover after this, too.

Then he looks back as Eureka looks over him, analyzing him. And damn, what a thing to say, huh? The wording there definitely rubs him the wrong way a bit. Not to mention, claiming that he was once more responsible for Ae-ra’s behavior changes after she had just not only chosen to kill someone but also been killed herself as well. He can’t be sure if she means it that, but given the circumstances, boy is it still reminiscent of the time Byrne blamed him for Ae-ra getting hurt by Arakiel once from his influence affecting her. Thankfully, he’d already managed to talk that one out with the guy, though. He also offers a nod Byrne’s way for the acknowledgement there too.

“Mmm, nah, I didn’t ‘fix’ shit. Honestly I think the idea that one person can ‘fix’ another is kinda fucked up, just like trying to do it on purpose is, yeah? So nah. I’m sure as fuck just some human and not a wrench, and same for the other way around. If me being around someone makes them wanna change something, that’s more on them and their choices than on me, for Ae-ra’s and the others too. Personal agency, and all. Most I can do is give advice or takes based on my own experience, but that doesn't mean people’ll listen to it. Not to mention, people are more complicated than ‘broken’ or ‘fixed’. Even you.”

He was trying pretty hard not to blame himself for Ae-ra’s situation here, actually, both for himself and anyone else who might also be feeling that way.

The rest of what she says to him though, egging him on by saying she was listening to him. He can tell it's mocking about the ‘fixing’ part and not exactly her sister, and still thinks she won’t, but… Well, this is his last chance to tell her in person, before the only form he has to talk to is whatever those VR versions of them are, existence unclear. So if she was asking for it… Well, first he turns to END and flicks his eyes over everyone else here too.

“Hey, if you or anyone else don’t wanna hear any more, just cover your ears or something for this, yeah? I know it’s not easy, but I do wanna get this out there.”

Forewarning, at least. She could be mad at him still if she wanted to, but at least he’d tried to give that much. Then, he looks again to Eureka, not at all thrown off by the silly way that she was acting right now. Honestly, he was usually the same about death, it was a coping thing sometimes like that. But right now, his own expression is a bit more serious, just to get across that he means what he says because.

“I’m not saying she wasn’t a threat to you because I’m just assuming things, I know she isn’t because I’ve read her files, her psych evaluations, her medical reports, government assessments, all that. She was only 10 years old but looking older than that when ‘02’ left her and ‘04’ behind, and for a while she had to live on her own before seeking help with the US government three years back. And while I’m certain 02 hated you, I know neither ‘05’ or ‘04’ did like she did, that if anything they were grateful that they hadn’t had to grow up with your mom and that they didn’t like being stuck with 02 either. ‘05’ put on record that she thought highly of you even, despite never knowing you, just based solely on that.

Not to mention, being watched closely by the government while she’s getting help from them for her biological shit?? Real fucking hard to just up and go attacking anyone without them catching on real fast, and as someone who’s had the government watching me real fucking close for unrelated reasons in the last five years, I’d know. I work for the government now, after all.”

…Holy shit, he sure wasn’t kidding about knowing some things, yeah. He absolutely knew more, too, but this was as much as he was willing to out given the circumstances. This was the kid Eureka murdered someone to try and kill, after all.

“Anyways, that’s not shit I technically should have been reading, but that doesn’t change the fact that I’ve known about that case since before this experiment started, though I didn't wanna spill confidential shit unnecessarily. Was considering telling you recently too with the motive and you saying you didn’t know much about her in our round, but I never got the chance in the end.

Not that I knew you had it out for her and your other sister beforehand, anyways, that I didn't know. Dunno how that woulda gone, and you might have just not believed me done this anyways and made me wonder if it was my fault then anyhow. No real use thinking about it now.”

He shrugs. That or she would have gotten paranoid about him and killed him instead, perhaps. Would that have been better…? Only if Ae-ra herself hadn’t already killed someone, maybe it would be, but the hypotheticals are too loose to pin down. This reality was the one they were stuck with regardless.

He looks at Byrne as he specifically yells at Azr though, and nods after a moment, before looking at Azr himself. He would give a little on that, then.

“Well, I was gonna bring it up in private and wouldn’ta, but gotta agree with Byrne and END about the justice thing here, justice implies the punishment is morally righteous more than a justified in our situation, you know? There’s connotations there, and I dunno if you meant it like that or not. Pro tip is you can apologize for something without tacking a ‘but’ on that makes it seem less genuine. You can worry about that later, though.”

Hopefully that calmer explanation helped, on that front. He still has more to talk to him about privately, because he doesn’t wanna bring the focus too much on that kind of thing publicly. So, one final time, he looks back to Eureka with a sigh.

“So. Fuckin’... see ya space cowgirl, I guess. Though hopefully, not anytime soon in person.”

He gives a two fingered mock solute, and just watches her from here. No sorrys from him, both in the sense that he wouldn’t feel sorry for her and in the sense that he wouldn’t apologize for anything right now. 

But god damn did all this suck.

#Erik A #chapter3 #trial3 #submission

[natsfirecat]

Vows on the Eve of the Battle

summary: natasha cant wait to propose to reader

pairing: Natasha Romanoff x fem reader

word count: 978

warnings: like one swear word, kinda sorta hints at adult activities but it’s pretty minor, lmk if i need to add any more!

A/N: this is a fluffy fic, but there could be angst hints but i choose not to see it that way! it’s also very evelyn hugo inspired HAHAHAHA. also @ my bestie (you know who you are, wine aunt friend, fellow yelena variant, oldie, etc.) YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO CREATE ANGST FROM THIS CUZ I KNOW THATS SOMETHING YOU WOULD DO SO IM SAYING YOU CANT 😤😤 oki i hope yall enjoy reading! :D

You were already in your pajamas, scrolling through your phone as you waited for your girlfriend to join you in bed. Your nerves had been raging all day, and you couldn’t wait to cuddle with her all night. Even when you were completely and utterly terrified, even Natasha’s presence could bring you peace and calm.

When she went to lay next to you, she fiddled with her fingers as she sat on the bed.

“Everything okay, Natty?” You asked, turning to face her.

She let out a deep breath, reaching one of her hands over to grab yours. Her eyes softened as she brought your hand to her mouth, gently placing a kiss on the back of your palm.

“Tomorrow’s the day,” she said, letting out another deep breath.

“Tomorrow’s the day,” you confirmed.

You squeezed her hand, giving her a soft smile.

“We’re gonna save the world,” you said, feeling your smile grow. “I’m gonna see my friends again,”

She leaned in closer, and you closed the gap by pressing your lips against hers.

It was a soft kiss. She brought her hands up to cup your face as you reached your arms around her neck.

Her lips moved against yours, and for a moment, you were the only two people in the world. You swear you’d never get tired of the taste of her as she explored your mouth.

When you pulled apart, her hands hadn’t left you.

“I’m nervous about tomorrow,” you admitted. “We need everything to go right,”

“Hey, this is our second chance to save everyone. We’re gonna do it, and we’re gonna do it right,”

You rested your forehead against hers, resisting the urge to close the gap between your lips once again.

“I love you,” you whispered against her. Even after all these years, she still never failed to give you butterflies.

“Fuck,” she muttered under her breath.

You pulled back, tilting your head to the side.

Before you knew it, she leaned forward to place a quick kiss against your lips.

“Marry me,”

You shot back as your eyes widened.

“What?”

“Marry me,” she said again. “Y/N, words can’t describe what I feel for you, but… when I envision my forever, I see you. It’s always you.”

This was so unexpected, yet it felt so right.

You leaned forward to kiss her, but she pulled away.

She got up, opening the closet door and reaching behind everything. She then pulled out a small black box.

Your eyes widened even more, resulting in a chuckle from her.

“I was planning on doing this later, but… I just want to be married to you know. I want to be able to call you my wife before we bring everyone back,”

You were speechless. You were still processing the fact that your girlfriend had just proposed.

You had stared at her in silence for so long that she began to worry. Sure it wasn’t the ideal proposal, but did you really not want to marry her?

The moment you saw her face drop, you seemed to regain your ability to speak.

“Yes! Yes yes yes!” You said, jumping off the bed and running to her arms.

You crashed your lips together, jumping up as she grabbed the backs of your legs. As her hands began roaming, you only wrapped your legs around her tighter.

“Let’s get married,” you told her with a grin.

“Like… now?”

“Yes now! Just us right here. Then we’ll have a ceremony after tomorrow, and Wanda will be my maid of honor!”

“But there’s no time to schedule anything-” she started, but you cut her off.

“All marriage is, is a promise,”

She shook her head in amusement. Natasha set you back on the bed, then opened the box. You gasped when you saw the ring. As you held your finger out, it felt as if all the love you had for her had grown tenfold.

“Here’s what we’ll do,” you said with a hopeful grin. “We’ll look each other in the eye, and we’ll hold hands, and we’ll say what’s in our hearts, and we’ll promise to be there for each other. We don’t need any government documents or witnesses or religious approval. We don’t need anybody else’s rules. We just need each other.”

“Let’s get married,” she said, mirroring your grin.

Before continuing, you leaned in for a quick kiss. Your fiance smiled against your lips, feeling the happiness radiating off of the both of you.

She sat across from you, both of you on your knees as your hands joined together. 

“Do you, Y/N, take me, Natalia, to be your wedded wife? In sickness and in health, for richer and for poorer, till death do us part, as long as we both shall live?” 

“I do,” you said, feeling your smile only grow.

“And do you, Natalia, take me, Y/N, to be your wedded wife? In sickness and in health, for richer and for poorer, till death do us part, as long as we both shall live?”

“I do,” 

She resisted the urge to lean forward and kiss you again.

“We’re married,” you said, almost giggling at how happy you felt.

“I will now kiss the bride,”

You both leaned forward at the same time, feeling every ounce of lover and desire you had for each other. Natasha had been your girlfriend for almost a decade, and now she was your wife.

As you kept kissing, you felt her hands reach under your shirt.

“Wait, Natty, shouldn’t we rest before tomorrow?”

“Oh I do not plan on spending my first night with my wife sleeping,”

You smirked as she brought her lips to your neck. When she pushed you back to lay on top of you, your smirk only grew.

Tonight, you married the love of your life. Tomorrow, you’d save the world.

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