#hajime has bipolar

[creoastra]

You're ruining my life day by day — The butterflies you give me are literally making me nauseous

I Threw Glass at My Friend's Eyes and Now I'm on Probation - by the Destroy Boys

Someone else has gotta appreciate how that song fits so well for him you guys

I'm literally obsessed with Hajime you guys, can you tell?

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[remuswriting]

Cut the Cameras

Rough Cut

Friday, September 4. 6:35 A. M.

Y/N has a fairly strict morning routine, which started when Masaru started showing signs of bipolar disorder years ago.  The first thing they encouraged was to keep a consistent schedule, so Y/N joined in solidarity, as well as Tooru and Hajime.  Their routines have changed throughout the years to become what fits for them, but they’ve kept them.  Masaru refuses to follow Y/N’s morning routine, though.  He says it’s a crime.

It’s a simple routine, or at least Y/N thinks so.  Wake up at 6 A. M., go to the gym for 30 minutes to an hour, go home, eat breakfast, and then get ready.  A lot of people don’t understand how he wakes up so early, and it was difficult when he first started; however, it helps him from overworking himself.  Keeping a routine, even one where he has to drag himself out of bed some mornings, has helped him just as much as it’s helped Masaru.

He’s gotten ready and is about to head out the door when he sees Kenma still asleep on the couch.  Maybe he shouldn’t go to the gym this morning, it’d be rude, but he finds he can’t quite do that.  Maybe it’s his guilt eating at him over Masaru that has him keeping to his routine.  It’s unfair for Y/N to neglect his routine while Masaru can’t.  Without a routine.  Masaru spirals, and Y/N wonders if that had been the start of everything.

The drive to the gym is the same as always, 15 minutes.  He’s not awake enough to really think over everything he needs to do today.  His only thought is to go to the gym, which tends to be good enough.  It’s only once he’s changed and on the treadmill that he’s able to start waking up more.  Tooru used to come to his morning sessions last year before meetings got in the way.  He always made everything a competition.  Who can run the longest?  Who can stay on the longest?  Who can lift the most?  Y/N always rolled his eyes but went along with it.  He loved the smile on Tooru’s face, and that was enough.

Tooru isn’t here, though.  He hasn’t gone with him in so long, but today, the treadmill next to him feels so empty.

He hadn’t told Kenma that Tooru and he argued the night before.  They’d never been the kind to tell people when they fought or argued.  It made resolving things so much harder when people were trying to pick sides when there weren’t really sides to pick.  Fights between couples happen.  The important part is communicating afterwards.  After knowing each other for so long, Tooru and Y/N learned how to communicate clearly with each other.  Even the things that are the hardest to say aloud.

It wasn’t their worst argument, really it ended fairly quickly, but there are still things needing to be said.  Nothing can match the fight they had when Y/N tried breaking up with him when he was graduating from high school.  He had plans that were insane, and he didn’t want to drag Tooru into it.  Tooru called him crazy for thinking he wouldn’t follow him to the ends of the earth.  And although love sometimes fades for other people, Y/N holds onto those words when they fight because he’s never once stopped feeling that way about Tooru.

But they argued about Masaru this time, which tends to get intense.  Never does he think they’re going to breakup, but they’re just so intense.  It makes sense, though.  Fighting about someone you both love so deeply is hard on everyone.  You believe you know the right thing to do or maybe you’ve said the wrong thing and now you have to pay for it.

“I told you!” Y/N screamed as he threw his hands up two nights ago. “I told you something was going on, and you wouldn’t listen to me!  You never listen to me when it comes to him!”

“Don’t act so innocent!  You’re just as bad!” Tooru screamed back, shoving random clothes into a backpack.  He’d started getting his things together the moment his parents called so he could go to Chiba. He looked over his shoulder, and his brown eyes were cold. “You don’t listen either, Y/N.  You let him spiral too.”

“Because you told me to drop it!” Y/N said, exasperated. “You told me to drop it, because nothing was wrong!  Nothing is ever wrong, is it, Tooru?  You don’t want to see that something is wrong because it scares you!”

Tooru stood up and faced Y/N. “And what you said to him is totally okay?”

“Don’t,” Y/N said, voice cracking. “You know I didn’t mean it.”

Tooru stopped, and Y/N knew they said things they don’t mean.  They both struggled with anger and speaking without thinking.  It’s what started them taking a couple days away from each other during fights in order to breathe and collect their thoughts.

“I know,” Tooru said softly, and he let out a deep sigh.  One that came from the bottom of his chest, like air finally filled his lungs completely. “Just…”

“I know,” Y/N said, because he did.  He kept replaying it in his head, and he hated himself—absolutely sick to be in his own body because that meant he was himself. “Just—please be safe driving there.”

Tooru nodded before he quickly finished, and Y/N watched in silence with his back pressed against their bedroom door.  He knew Masaru wouldn’t welcome him, but also he wouldn’t be welcomed back to Chiba by others.  He wanted to, though.  Y/N so desperately wanted to go and apologize, but it’d have to wait until later when things finally calmed down.  It hurt.  It all hurt so much.

Tooru stopped next to Y/N and looked at him.  The silence hurt his ears, but then Tooru pressed a kiss to his forehead.  He lingered there for a moment before closing his eyes and touching his forehead to Y/N’s.

“I love you, okay?” Tooru choked out, clearly starting to cry. “You aren’t a bad person—I’ll never see you as one.”

Y/N trips slightly on his feet as he jogs, and he grabs the handlebars to catch himself.  Waking up means mulling over everything.  It means remembering how Tooru’s anger turned into tears.  It means ruining his routine because he can’t get his head around everything that’s happened.  He hasn’t texted Tooru yet, but he so desperately wants to.  He may, because he needs to know how Masaru is and if everything is okay.

He wraps up his gym time early before heading back home, where he assumes Kenma will still be asleep on the couch.  That’s confirmed when Kenma is still lightly snoring, and warmth blooms in Y/N’s chest at it.  He doesn’t understand it—has been trying to for the last couple months—but Kenma brings him comfort like Tooru does.  He needs to talk to Tooru about it, try to process it with him, but it’s hard to even put it into words.  Y/N has always struggled to communicate, mainly because of all the years he had to keep himself hidden from the world.

He continues his routine by showering and then going to the kitchen to make breakfast.  It’s about 7:30 now, and he’s not sure if he should make Kenma something, too.  It’s impolite not to, so he does.  It’s just buttered toast and bacon, nothing special.  He makes two servings, and a drowsy Kenma walks into the kitchen because of the smell.

“What’re you making?” Kenma asks groggily, and Y/N looks over his shoulder at him.

“Toast and bacon,” he says. “That okay?”

Kenma hums in response and sits at the kitchen island.  Y/N slides a plate across the granite, and Kenma grabs it before immediately eating the toast.  The silence between them is calming.  Y/N and Tooru don’t talk a lot in the morning when eating, so it’s not much different from that.

“Did you sleep okay?” Y/N asks, and Kenma nods.

“Yeah,” he says in between bites. “Your couch is really comfortable.”

Y/N chuckles slightly as he nods. “Yeah, it’s one of my favorite napping spots.”

Silence with Kenma usually isn’t awkward, and it’s not awkward now or not a lot.  Maybe it’s seeing Kenma in such a drowsy state from just waking up that makes Y/N’s chest so warm.  He’s liked people in the past, always telling Tooru and making boundaries, but it’s always just led to guilt and losing people.  He doesn’t want to lose Kenma.

“I’m sorry about last night,” Y/N says, and Kenma looks up at him.  Having Kenma’s full attention is a luxury, but Y/N is given it often. “I shouldn’t have just thrown all of that at you.”

Kenma shakes his head. “No, don’t worry,” he says genuinely. “We’re friends, and that’s what friends do for each other.”

Y/N nods, because it’s what he’d do for all his friends.  He wouldn’t hesitate if he got a text like he sent Kenma.  It is what friends do for each other, but it’s also so vulnerable.  He’s never liked showing himself so personally, especially with people he’s not known for long.  It’s not too bad with Kenma, but it’s still uncomfortable.  It’s still a learning curve.

“Thank you,” Y/N says, and he wants to say more.  He doesn’t know what he wants to say, but there’s more to say.  Maybe it’s the confusing feelings lodged in his chest that he thinks will go away if he just doesn’t think about them.  Anytime he feels like this, it fades away, but never with Tooru.  Those feelings have always been something entirely different. “It means a lot.”

Kenma softly smiles, and it’s a good look on him.  Y/N always tells Tooru about how he likes Kenma’s smile and his hair.  Tooru always laughs and rolls his eyes, but agrees that both things are nice.

Kenma swallows the last bit of his toast. “Thank you for breakfast.  It was good.”

 “It was toast and bacon.”

“Still, it was good.  Far better than anything Kuro makes,” Kenma says as he puts an elbow on the kitchen island.  Y/N can’t stop himself from laughing.

Sunday, September 6. 1:23 P. M.

The front door unlocks, and Y/N hurries to it, pulling Tooru in once the door barely opens.  Tooru’s bags fall just enough into the apartment that Y/N closes the door.  They have their arms wrapped around each other, and Y/N can finally breathe again.  The pain in his chest is dissipating.

“I’m sorry,” Tooru says into his hair. “I’m so sorry, Y/N.  I shouldn’t have said those things.”

“And I’m sorry,” Y/N says as he tightens his grip on him. “I shouldn’t have blamed you for anything, because it wasn’t your fault.  He wasn’t talking to either of us, and I shouldn’t have acted like it was your fault.”

“And I shouldn’t have blamed you,” Tooru says, and he lets out a deep breath. “I just felt like an idiot because I didn’t listen to you.  You said you felt like something was wrong, and I didn’t listen.  I lashed out, and I shouldn’t have.  It wasn’t fair to you.”

Y/N doesn’t want to let go of Tooru.  He wants to hold on to him as they talk this out, because he knows it’s easier when they have each other like this.  It’s always been easier to communicate like this.

“I love you,” Y/N says into Tooru’s clothed shoulder.  He wants Tooru to know he’s sorry—that he doesn’t believe it’s really Tooru’s fault.

It’s always been hard understanding Masaru being bipolar, because Y/N wants to make him better.  He wants to erase all the struggling Masaru faces because he doesn’t deserve to struggle.  It’s so difficult knowing he can’t fix it—that Masaru is bipolar and will always be like this.  It doesn’t make him love Masaru any less.  He just struggles to understand that he can’t “fix” it.

“And I love you so much,” Tooru says, and he kisses the crown of Y/N’s head. “I smell food, so how about we eat and talk?”

Y/N pulls away as he nods.  They have a routine for after fights, always some sort of takeout and talking while they eat.  Some people hate that they do this, but Y/N can’t hate it.  It means so much to him that Tooru sees the comfort Y/N finds in it.  He’s learned to love routines about as much as Masaru needs them.

“How is he?” Y/N asks as he grabs his takeout box and slides Tooru his.

“He’s doing as well as you expect him to be,” Tooru says, and he lets out a deep breath. “I know he hates being there, but it’s better that he’s there than not here at all.”

The words make Y/N’s stomach twist and nausea wash over him.  The thought of Masaru dying is one he can’t take.  He doesn’t know what he’d do if that were to happen.  It’s easier to not think like that, though.  It’s easier to force a reality where that doesn’t happen, even though sometimes it backfires.

“Kenma came over the other night,” Y/N says, and Tooru tilts his head as he looks at him.  No judgment or anger, just curiosity, almost like he hadn’t expected that to be an option. “I had a small breakdown, and he came over to calm me down.”

“Did he calm you down?” Tooru asks, and that genuine curiosity doesn’t leave him.  He’s never been one to get angry at Y/N about having people over, but sometimes, Y/N wants him to exhibit some jealousy.  That’s just not how their relationship works, though.

“Yeah,” Y/N says softly, and he chuckles slightly. “I freaked him out by crying, but him being here helped.”

Tooru smiles and nods before taking a bite of his food. “I’m glad he came over,” he says, mouth full. “I’m happy you weren’t alone.”

Y/N wants to bring up how there are these weird feelings he has for Kenma.  They’re not overwhelming, but they’re there.  He doesn’t know if they’ll grow to become something more, and he doesn’t want Tooru to be upset.  Tooru has never been upset before when Y/N has liked other people, because Y/N has always emphasized that he wants Tooru first, but it’s still hard to bring up.  It’s even harder to bring up when Y/N doesn’t know if these feelings will stay.

He promised he’d tell Tooru when these things happen, but it’s so hard.  It’s so hard to look at the person you love, who doesn’t form crushes on other people, and tell them you like someone else.  Yes, you still love them, but there’s someone else who has caught your eye.  It makes Y/N feel so guilty every time it happens, even though they’ve talked about it.  As long as Y/N still wants Tooru and loves him as much as he did the day before, then they’ll figure it all out.  It’ll all be okay.

Y/N nods as he smiles a little, mainly from seeing Tooru’s smile. “Yeah, me too.”

He’ll tell Tooru about it, but not now.  Not when it’s just a small feeling he’s not entirely sure about.  He’ll tell him when it becomes something bigger, which hopefully doesn’t happen.

Editing | Rough Cut | Standard Cut

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Note: I want to say that Y/N's identity most aligns with poly but he hasn't really labeled himself because he doesn't want to, which is valid. So the guilt and shame is due to not accepting himself. (This isn't saying by the end he's going to label himself as poly. I just want it clear that his internal monologue may not sound 100% amazing in terms of it, and that's why.) But I want to remind everyone that this does end in a poly relationship. There will be no cheating or breakups.

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[eurydicees]

42 for spotify wrapped!

sometimes you fail to answer an ask for weeks only to drop an answer to it with a bunch of mental illness introspection and hurt/comfort. sorry bestie.

how far down i can fall until you catch me

summary: taking your meds is harder on some days than others. somehow, though, iwaizumi will be there on the easy days, and the hard ones. somehow, though, he loves oikawa. prompt: spotify wrapped #42, this is how i disappear by mcr  pairings: hajime iwaizumi/tooru oikawa words: 1671 warnings: discussion of mental illness and medication, some implied bipolar!oikawa

Oikawa is sitting at the kitchen table. Outside it’s dark, and inside there’s only the dim glow of the stovetop overhead light to illuminate the room. He’s been sitting there for an hour, despite having told Iwaizumi he would go to bed soon. 

It’s not until he hears footsteps behind him that he flinches and realizes it’s nearing one in the morning. 

“Tooru?” 

Oikawa swallows, the weight of his broken promise on his tongue. “I know, I know, I’ll go to bed in a minute.” 

Iwaizumi comes closer, pulling out the chair next to him, sleepy and frowning. It’s a funny look on him and it’s also beautiful. Oikawa, if he were a little less in love, might tease him for the Godzilla shirt he wears—a size too big and littered with time-worn holes—and the marks on his cheek where wrinkles of the pillow have imprinted on his skin.

But the fact is that he is in love and so he doesn’t have words for this moment other than, I want to go to bed every night and wake up every morning with you. Last and first thing I see. 

“What’s keeping you up?” Iwaizumi asks, studying Oikawa. 

Oikawa looks away, back to the spot on the table he had been staring down. 

Iwaizumi follows his gaze, then offers a knowing hum. “You haven’t taken your meds yet.” 

“No,” Oikawa says quietly. 

“Why not?” 

Oikawa shrugs unconvincingly. He doesn’t look at Iwaizumi when he says, “Don’t know.” 

“Okay,” Iwaizumi says slowly. “If there’s no reason, then just do it.” 

Oikawa rubs his hands over his face. “It’s not that easy.” 

Iwaizumi swallows, putting his elbows on the table and resting his chin in the palm of one hand. He stares at Oikawa for a long moment, waiting to see if he’ll continue his explanation. When he doesn’t, Iwaizumi just sighs. “You know you have to, Tooru. It’s important to—” 

“Shut up,” Oikawa snaps, “I know, okay? I know. I know. So just shut up.” 

Iwaizumi reels back, dropping his hands to the table and glaring at Oikawa defensively, the tips of his ears red. “I know you’re frustrated, but don’t talk to me that way.” 

Oikawa takes a long, shaky breath. Drops his gaze to the pill bottle again. It seems to taunt him, seems to be laughing at him and his fucked up brain, the one that won’t function without the medication, the one that sometimes doesn’t function anyways, the one that he can’t fucking stand dealing with half of the time, the one that Iwaizumi shouldn’t have to stand. 

He’s said and done things that he doesn’t want Iwaizumi to know about. He’s broken himself apart without the meds and he’s put himself back together without the meds, too. He’s fallen to pieces and hoped nobody would catch the scraps. He’s felt like a ghost, he’s felt like a monster. He never wanted Iwaizumi to know that part of him. 

But then they started dating, then they moved in together, and Iwaizumi started to notice things and Oikawa couldn’t deny it to either Iwaizumi or himself any longer. He started trying different medications under the tight supervision of a doctor, he started to take care of himself better, but that doesn’t change the shame of what he had done in the past. 

Iwaizumi has stuck with him anyway. The entire time, despite everything. Overworking himself to the point of injury in a manic phase. Nearly hitting Kageyama. Taunting his rivals just to see the tears. Regretting it. 

“Sorry,” he murmurs. “I shouldn’t snap at you. It’s not—it’s not your fault.” 

Iwaizumi shakes his head, looking at his hands. Treading lightly on thin ice, like Oikawa will snap if he says the wrong thing. And Oikawa hates that, hates that Iwaizumi is treating him with such fragility now, but he also knows that if Iwaizumi were to be rough with him in this moment, he might break for good. 

“It’s not anyone’s fault,” Iwaizumi says quietly. “It’s just the way it is.”

“Sorry,” Oikawa says again.

Iwaizumi bites his lip, looking between the pill bottle and Oikawa. “What’re you apologizing for now?” 

Oikawa covers his face with his hands. He hates and loves the way Iwaizumi is looking at him just then, so tenderly, so gently, with so much forgiveness in his eyes that it hurts. He feels vulnerable, exposed, underneath Iwaizumi’s gaze and he hates that. Hates that Iwaizumi can undo him like this, unravel his secrets and make him want to speak out loud the things he’s most insecure about, the things that might become true if someone else hears them. 

Muffled by the heel of his palm, he says, “I just…hate feeling so weak. So broken. Because I—” 

“You aren’t weak—” 

Oikawa drops his hands, shaking his head. “I hate feeling like I can’t handle life without—without medication—I hate feeling like I can’t function without it, because it doesn’t even feel like it’s doing anything most days. I just feel normal. And I know that it’s because I’m taking them that I feel functional, but I just—I don’t want to. And it sounds so pathetic, so whiny, but I just—I hate it. I hate taking it when I feel fine, even though I know I only feel fine because I’m taking them. And I hate taking them to be fine because I can’t be fucking normal.” 

He cuts himself off there, feeling like he’s spilled out enough feelings for one moment. Like he can’t afford another shred of honesty without breaking apart. He knows that Iwaizumi would never intentionally hurt him, but he also knows that one day Iwaizumi is going to get tired of waking up at one in the morning to talk Oikawa into taking his meds. 

They both take a deep breath in unison, and Iwaizumi huffs a small laugh. “You’re one of the strongest people I know, Tooru. One of the bravest. And you talk yourself down for this and I hate that you say you’re broken or not normal, because you’re insulting one of the best people I know.” 

“Iwa—” 

Iwaizumi smiles at him a little, and Oikawa stops. “Sure, you need medication to help you control your thoughts and your energy and your mood. That’s true. It’s a fact, I’m not going to deny that part of you.” 

Oikawa squeezes his eyes shut. A tear is pooling at the corner of his eye and he doesn’t want it to fall, doesn’t want Iwaizumi to see him this small. 

“But that doesn’t make you weak, or broken, or abnormal,” Iwaizumi continues. There’s so much kindness in his voice that it burns deep in Oikawa’s chest. “It’s just another part of you. A part that you have to just accept. You don’t have to love it or hate it, but it’s something that exists. You can acknowledge it and take care of it, nurture it, and move forward.” 

Oikawa laughs a little at that, small and wet and tired. “Spoken like a true physician-in-training.” 

“Self-care is important,” Iwaizumi says, humming a little. “This is just another part of self-care. Like brushing your teeth every night or rubbing that white stuff all over your face before you go to bed.” 

Oikawa snorts. “You mean lotion?” 

“Sure, if you say so.” Iwaizumi laughs again, ducking his head. He cracks the knuckles of his fingers, and then looks up at Oikawa. “So take the meds, okay? And come to bed. You need rest, too.” 

“Yeah,” Oikawa says quietly. 

He reaches out for the bottle and turns it over in his hands. Looks at the label with his name on it. He hates having exposed this nerve to Iwaizumi, but he also trusts Iwaizumi not to hurt him for it. 

He trusts Iwaizumi implicitly, entirely; a trust that comes from years of friendship and almost as many years of love, a trust that comes from fire and trial. Oikawa thinks he would disappear without it. Would simply fade away with nothing to tether him to the earth but this bottle of pills and a lost love. 

He can’t say that though. When he tries—I love you, I need you, I want you—he chokes on the words and they refuse to come out. But he knows that Iwaizumi knows. 

Neither of them say it very often, but they show it in everything they do. In cooking dinner and breakfast together, in going to sleep curled around each other in the same bed, in waking up at one in the morning to make sure Oikawa takes his meds. 

“Are you going to sit here and watch me take them?” Oikawa asks quietly. He’s not sure what answer he wants to hear. He wants Iwaizumi to care enough to stay. But mostly, he wants Iwaizumi to believe in him enough to walk away. 

Iwaizumi shakes his head. “I’m gonna go back to bed. I trust you. Come join me when you’re ready, okay?” 

“Okay,” Oikawa says softly. “Thanks, Iwa.” 

“Of course.” With that, Iwaizumi stands up, presses a light kiss to the top of Oikawa’s head, and then he’s walking back to their bedroom. Disappearing behind the door and crawling into the right side of the bed. He leaves the door open, though, waiting for Oikawa. Inviting him to join.

Oikawa will, in a moment. Right now, though, in the silence and the dark, he spills out three pills into the palm of his hand. He puts the pill bottle down and exchanges it for the glass of water nearby. He puts the pills to his tongue and then washes them down with water. 

He takes a breath. 

Nothing, and everything, changes. The world spins on. He continues to breathe. The pills are not an evil thing or a miracle. They’re a neutral thing, something that just helps him. Like Ibuprofen or a Band-Aid. Like his nighttime self-care routine. 

He takes another breath. Nothing, and everything, settles in the dark. 

Then he stands up, and he joins Iwaizumi to sleep.

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I have a dog that only has 3 legs, his name is Porch

I have anxiety, depression, bipolar II

I have a lot of the symptoms of autism, but am not formally diagnosed bc I can't currently afford a therapist

🕳️Current hyperfixation: Diamond paintings, cross stitch

#intro post #sparkedblaze

[emsvegetables]

HI THEREE! CONGRATS ON 1.5k you deserve it ♡ so here's my entry for the haikyuu dates :)), when it comes to my personality I am a person who is really bipolar at times lmao and people gets confuse because of this, my ideal type is someone with really dark hair and is laid back and gets flustered when teased (bcs i like teasing people lmao), for my ideal date I prefer those kind of dates where you go to the beach and just lay on the sand talking about random things, tysm in advance!

hmm!!!

IWAIZUMI HAJIME

he’s dealt with oikawa so he’s definitely up to deal with you when u become a little weird LOLOLOL

he finds you so adorable!!!!!! won’t ever admit it to anyone but he secretly keeps an eye on u to make sure u don’t hurt yourself and get yourself into shit LMAOOOO

he’s also definitely your ideal type!! he has dark hair??? brownish black??? and also he always has a pretty chill and laid back face all the time but lemme say this...he...will blush SO MUCH if you tease him didjdjdjdjdj

a date with him...

“are you serious?”

you smile and look up at him, “yes.”

“we’re going to lie on the sand, huh.”

“yes.”

“DID U BRING SUNBLOCK?”

“...no”

then he gives you this BRUH face, but then he smiles and ruffles your hair.

“good thing i brought it, then” :)

EUSISIDI WHEN HE FOUND OUT YALL WERE HEADING TO THE BEACH HE PACKED SUNBLOCK INTO HIS BAG SJDJDJS

“!!!! hajime!!!!”

“calm down,” he’ll grin and pull out the sunblock, but then furrow his brows when you have this...smile on your face.

“what, (Y/N).”

“put it on for me? i need your strong, strong hands to—“

“OKAY ILL PUT IT ON BE QUIET”

#iwaizumi x reader #haikyuu matchups #haikyuu matchup #hq matchup

[dangan-happy]

i want Mikan to have wheelies to escape her feelies

heyaaa im back and ready to be a bother

um. to anyone but Peko, Fuyuhiko and Kiyotaka (imsorry)

ive been having intensive mood swings lately. like just now, i was so so happy, talking to my qpp about a game i liked!! and all of a sudden all my energy disappeared, all my happiness disappeared. these mood swings have been happening more and more lately and I've spoken to my doctor about them too. i get it, hormones and stuff are weird, but honestly? hormones have never made me have bad mood swings. it's always caused by other things in my life.. so anyways, I spoke to my doctor, and she said she highly suspects im bipolar. explains a lot :/ but im still worked up about it. ive had enough diagnoses i just wanna be normal like everyone else i know

so, can i get a hug and comfort? i just feel really bad right now..

First of all, you’re not a bother, and you never will be! Don’t ever call yourself a bother again, anon! Sorry, just had to get that out of the way before I officially begin. I may not have a Ultimate Talent of my own like most of the others, but I still have the ability to tell the truth and nothing but the truth! As my brother and a few of his friends have said before: “This is the truth of this case!”

I can definitely understand the mood swings. I experience them myself, as so do lots of other people. And I know a certain someone who not only experiences these massive mood swings, but has been told by a professional that they most likely have bipolar as well, so this is totally relatable and understandable, as well as valid. I’m glad that you’ve talked about it with a doctor at least; that takes a lot of courage. Still, I can understand that it’s not exactly the greatest when you’re told by a professional that they highly suspect that you have a certain mental disorder, especially if you already have other disorders, such as depression or generalized anxiety. But I must stress, anon, that no one is normal! Seriously, I mean it. Heh, even though I may put myself down by calling myself ‘average’, I’m aware that I’m actually not; I’m not exactly average or normal whatsoever, no matter what I may think or believe. Neither is Hajime, even though he calls himself ‘average’ just as much as I do. Not even my own brother is normal! He literally trips on thin air! Everyone is different and unique in their own way, and that includes you, anon. Even though you say ‘I just wanna be normal like everyone else I know’, I’m willing to bet Toki’s whole scissor collection that those people aren’t normal either. Even if they don’t have bipolar or seemingly any other mental disorder, they still have their own problems and unique perks. If we were all ‘normal’, then honestly? Well, as that one guy in the black suit who recently had his long, black hair cut off would put it: We would all be boring. Really, really boring. And frankly, I wouldn’t want that for myself or anyone else, including you.

Still, I can understand how you feel, anon. Even so, mood swings aren’t forever. Thankfully, they’re temporary. And sure, in the case of bipolar disorder where mood swings aren’t something that happens every once in a awhile, but it is something you can still control, or at least influence. And I have hope that you can get through these mood swings, no matter the severity of them! I’m unaware as to if your doctor will perhaps prescribe you any medication any time soon, but regardless, there’s a few other things you can do. Try to eat healthy and get plenty of sleep, try to keep a overall schedule for perhaps schoolwork or just your overall day, practice mediation or yoga, exercise some, and if you really need to, talk it out with someone, like a best friend, a S/O, your QPP, or just someone you trust in general. Regardless of what you decide to try out, I’ll be here every step of the way! You’re going to be okay, and you’re an amazing, unique, strong person. I can just tell! If you feel any more doubt or even despair, let me or my brother or someone else know, and we’ll do our best to cut right through it!

I hope some of that makes you feel even just a little bit better. Before you go, let me give you that hug that you asked for! I’ll squeeze some of the stress out, if you really want me to. Ah, but squeezing isn’t really my gig anyway, so I’ll just stick to hugging like I usually do. Please take care now, anon, and I’ll be here if you need anything else.

#danganronpa #danganronpa roleplay blog #ask #komaru naegi #mod hajime

[queen-of-my-goofball-army]

Fruits Basket HCs

If you haven’t been able to tell from my blog, I REALLY love Fruits Basket. I have this immense love for these characters and I want to share the different headcanons that I have for each of these fantastic characters. I’m going to cover a lot of ground so I apologize if this becomes really long. To make this easier for myself this first part is just going to be my six favorite characters (Momiji, Tohru, Kyo, Kakeru, Hatori and Hatsuharu).

Momiji: 

* The mental health side of things for Momiji is that in my non-professional medical opinion (to quote the original show) he has really high levels of ADHD. He learned to combat this by taking gymnastics lessons as a young boy while everyone else was doing karate he was learning to be bouncing ball. 

*This one is a pretty much canon one but I love this idea; Momiji is genderfluid. I love the idea of Momiji hanging around Ritsu and learning about fashion from them. I also just really love the idea of Momiji in a cute little skirt with shorts underneath (don’t judge me I just really love the idea of it.) 

*Number one touchy friend!! He’s constantly a ball of energy and will hug and cling to all of his friends if they indulge him. He loves affection both giving it and receiving it.  

*He is surprisingly a really good baker!! I love the idea of him making friendship cupcakes for Tohru after everything happened just to thank her for all her help (She wouldn’t accept them but offer to share them with him instead.) 

*He learned violin from Ayame. I like to think that out of all the Sohma’s he is the most musically inclined. If you want to learn how to play an instrument go to Aya he’ll help you out fam. 

*How he learned German and started using that as his main language was in elementary school right after what happened with his mom happened (I’m trying to keep this as non-spoilery as possible so that my friends can read this too). He wanted something that reminded him of her but wasn’t painful. So he decided to learn another language and Hatori helped him. 

*He is probably one of the most likely to spoil his future children. He’ll give them the childhood that he was never technically given. If those children wanted something they were going to get it whether or not it was their birthday they want it. Plus he has the money to get them whatever they want!! 

Tohru: 

*So space cadet Tohru is canon and I am of the personal belief that a little bit of ADD which is why she always needs Yuki’s help with school. Most of these HCs are going to be a little bit mental health related mostly because that’s how I see them. 

*If Tohru had the ability to go to college it would be to become a professional chef. She loves cooking for other people and making people happy. Professional chefs to me are the types of people that love to make others happy which is why she cooks for others. 

*She is definitely the hug friend. What is the hug friend you may ask? It is a person that can give the best hugs. She is constantly getting hugs from Uo-chan and Hana-chan and to me she just seems the type that would give the best hugs in the entire world. 

*She has always been interested in being in a relationship someday. When she was little she loved Disney movies and would fantasize about one day finding her own personal Prince Charming. 

*At first in dating Kyo, Tohru gets flustered by EVERYTHING. This poor girl is always blushing around the love of her life. 

*Her favorite subject in school will always be cooking but she is surprisingly good at history!! She loves learning about the past mostly because she is one of the few people that found it interesting. 

*As a mom she is the most doting parent, the type that kids get embarrassed by at sleepovers. 

Kyo: 

*My first HC for our favorite cat boi is that he has autism. Hear me out, when I was in middle school I struggled immensely when it came to relating to people and understanding how they felt. I had undiagnosed aspergers at the time and found that he was one of the few characters that wanted to be better at dealing with his emotions and people. Having that relatability now that I’m older has been a huge help. 

*The most surprising HC that I have about Kyo is that he loves to write. Usually it’s just little things that irritate him throughout the day. It’s how he learned to officially get his anger calmed down so that he wouldn’t yell anymore once Hajime and his kids were born. 

*As a kid Kyo never had ice cream. It’s the same thing with the pancakes where he had never had sweets that wasn’t fruit. Tohru is appalled by this and one of their first dates was to get him to try ice cream (his favorite is mint chocolate chip) 

*Growing up he was alone a lot but I think that he would find companionship in books and literature. I feel like he’d be really good at school like in the original where we see him pouring over books to study. (The best way to get him to do well is of course a little competition.) 

*Kyo is a hella overprotective dad once his kids are born. This is obvious but if he has any daughters those future boyfriends, run just run. 

*Once the curse is broken he is constantly trying to make up for the years where he wasn’t able to get physical affection. After he gets over his own flustered tsundere habits with Tohru they became easily the closest couple. He finds that he loves having his hair pet (if he purrs he’ll deny it until the end of time)  

*I think that out of all my favorites Kyo would be the best listener. You got a problem, no matter how stupid it is, Kyo will do his damndest to help you out. That’s just who he is especially when it comes to those he loves. 

Kakeru: 

*Kakeru’s mental health theory is that he has ADHD just like Momiji combined with dyslexia so he sometimes has a hard time reading things and needs help understanding what exactly he’s looking at for homework. 

*Him and Kimi always start prank wars that could go on FOREVER. If nobody stops them they can just go at each other for days. Eventually either Yuki or Machi will get too exhausted of their antics and force them to stop. These prank wars usually happen about once a month on the second week. They all fear this time of the month and whenever it happens it usually lasts for about three days. 

*Definite anime lover this boi!! He grew up watching the classics and it’s just something that stuck with him. 

*Before he became chaotic Kakeru TM he always hid this part of his personality but now that he’s older he is very open about his love for anime. 

*He wasn’t close to Machi until after she was kicked out of the family house. Before then he was almost indifferent towards her existence but when that happened he realized that he wanted to make her feel better whether she wanted it or not. 

*He is the best cuddler fight me on this. I feel like once you got him calmed down he would always be down for cuddling his S\O. 

*This one is pretty common amongst the fandom judging by how many people ship him with Yuki but I think that he’s not bisexual he’s pansexual he just loves people!! 

Hatori: 

*I don’t have a mental health HC for Hatori really other than PTSD (which let’s face it almost all of this cast of characters has.) 

*Before he met Kana he knew next to nothing about popular culture. His music taste was stuck in the 50′s and to her that was an absolute travesty!! Who hadn’t heard of Queen, Elton John or David Bowie?! She made it her goal to get him into modern things so that he could understand her. At the time he didn’t really understand a lot of the things that she liked. However, once she left him he learned to appreciate modern music and film. 

*Something that I really love about Hatori is the thought that he would be a fan of musical theater. It’s something that not a whole lot of people know mainly Shigure and Ayame and Aya always gets him tickets when a show he likes comes to town. 

*He can’t cook to save his life!! Literally the type of person that would somehow burn water and he doesn’t have the time to cook everyday but usually Momiji will bring him food that he makes. 

*Definitely a romantic at heart no matter how much the idea of love has hurt him in the past. He loves making Mayu happy at random intervals. From buying her random bouquets of flowers to planning things on a larger scale he just loves making her happy. 

*As a parent he’s the type to definitely be overprotective especially when they aren’t feeling well. His kid fainted at school? He’s already there trying to find out what went wrong and keep them at home with him for a few days until they get Dr. Tori’s clean bill of health. 

*As much as he bitches and moans about Ayame and Shigure’s annoying tendencies he couldn’t ask for two better best friends. \

Hatsuharu: 

*Mental health HC is that he’s bipolar thanks to the other dark personality even though most of the time he’s white it’s something that after everything happens Hatori insists he gets an official diagnosis of. 

*He loves grunge rock. The first time he discovered Nirvana Kurt Cobain became his instant hero. Not a way to live his life but someone that he was inspired by. His second favorite band is All Time Low (I’ve never heard any of their stuff this one is for my best friend who is an absolute Haru-stan) 

*He got his tattoo as his own way of rebelling against his family order. I think that his parents (we only really ever hear of his mom) being strict on him. That’s where the multiple piercings came from as well. Whenever he would hit a low point before middle school he would get a new one. 

*He is actually a really good cook and entirely capable of taking care of himself since his parents are often too busy for him. 

*He got into gaming by accidentally seeing Shigure playing a dating sim (Fight me on this one I dare you say that Shigure the pervy bastard doesn’t play these things) 

*He is definitely the romantic type as we see him bringing Rin flowers to cheer her up. He might be a little bit stiff at first and awkward but once he gets used to the person you bet your ass he’ll just cling to you as we see with Yuki much to his everlasting annoyance. 

*He’s an amazing artist!! He loves to draw just about anything that he can get his hands on. It’s something that he does now when he hits a low point instead of wrecking things he learned the proper way of coping with his problems. 

Whew!! Sorry about the length on this guy but I really wanted to do this while waiting for the dub to catch up. I will make more if people want more of them!! 

#headcanon #Fruits Basket

[ao3feed-daisuga]

South Side and Lincoln

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/3pL704E

by Rossie_H

When Kenma starts high school at Jones College Prep in Chicago, Illinois,, he isn't sure what to expect. As a kid from the South side, he's out of his comfort zone—that is until he crosses paths with Kuroo, a kid who makes him feel like anything but south side trash.

But Kenma has demons to battle, demons left behind from a past and parent no longer here. Will he let Kuroo in, or will he hide himself away in the neighborhood he's always known for the rest of his life?

Words: 3603, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: Haikyuu!!

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Categories: M/M

Characters: Kozume Kenma, Kozume Kenma's Family, Kuroo Tetsurou, Sugawara Koushi, Sawamura Daichi, Hinata Shouyou, Kageyama Tobio, Azumane Asahi, Nishinoya Yuu, Iwaizumi Hajime, Oikawa Tooru

Relationships: Kozume Kenma/Kuroo Tetsurou, Tsukishima Kei/Yamaguchi Tadashi, Hinata Shouyou/Kageyama Tobio, Azumane Asahi/Nishinoya Yuu, Sawamura Daichi/Sugawara Koushi, Iwaizumi Hajime/Oikawa Tooru

Additional Tags: Chicago (City), Violence, Romance, Drama & Romance, Drama, Explicit Language, Sex, Boyfriends, Mental Health Issues, Bi-Polar, Bipolar Disorder, Character Death, Death, Minor Character Death, Serious Injuries, MMA, Fighting, Falling In Love, Love Confessions, Coming Out, Homosexuality, Male Homosexuality, Gay Male Character, Gay Sex, Kissing, Making Love, Making Out, Established Relationship, Developing Relationship, Love, Boys In Love, First Time, First Love, Fluff and Angst, Smut, Blow Jobs, Slow Burn, Love at First Sight, Jealous Kuroo Tetsurou, Protectiveness, Friendship/Love, Best Friends, Family, Sexual Content

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#IFTTT #ao3feed #fanfic #haikyuu #haikyuu!! #daisuga #hq

[pastel-rights]

So, I’ve been thinking about one of the three main leads of the Monster AU, a little boy named Cameron Ouma.

And in the book I have, I describe him as follows:

A child version of Kokichi Ouma’s bipolar double. A bipolar little demon. He carries around random trinkets inside his scarf. Don’t be mistaken, Ouma was not turned into a kid. Ouma is, in fact, an 8-year-old boy who stands at about 4 feet 4 inches.

And as I sit around and think about stuff, I wanted to talk about him.

There are V3 spoilers in here, but I think if you came up to read this, you already know what happens in V3.

Okay, so, even though I call Cameron a “kid version of Kokichi Ouma’s double” and then state that “he is, in fact, a kid”, he isn’t just a little kid. He was once Gokuhara’s age too. And in the timeline of the Monster AU, Gokuhara is about 16 towards the beginning, 21 when Kiwi, Miki and Ouma come around. There was a time when Ouma was older than Gokuhara, who is the second oldest out of the whole cast. But now he’s a little kid. I made this decision for a few reasons.

If you’ve read my DHMIS AU blog (cause my DR blog isn’t getting much interaction. Can’t update something with no asks!), you can see I tend to draw and design characters in a way that ties in, either to their talents or their personailties. And Kokichi has always striked me as a very childish character. And with doubles, I usually try to make them more or less opposites to the original, like with Gonta and Gokuhara. But the thing is, with the way I’ve always gone about portraying Kokichi has always been childlike humor, but never like an actual child. Kokichi and Ibuki have always been the characters I had the most fun portraying (Sonia being my third) and their doubles shouldn’t be any different. But I found after a few test runs, a matured version of Kokichi didn’t feel right. So I had to make him more childish. Sometimes characters would mistake Ouma for Kokichi, or vise versa. And while the portrayal felt better, there was still something missing. And that’s when I began rough sketches and doodles for his character. His “adult” version. Adult Ouma was, roughly inspired by Chris Afton and several versions of a humanoid Marionette puppet, who would later go on to inspire VPW Hajime, design wise anyways. Striped Shirt, long pants, carrying about a small stuffed animal, a scarf, etc. Went through a bunch more passes for his outfit till I came up with something roughly like the Ibuki outfit down below. Big poofy oversized jacket, oversized shirt, pants with way too many pockets, etc. And I left him at that. Didn’t even think about him till the rewrite of the Monster AU came about.

But now, I feel like Ouma being a kid instead of an adult/an adult turned into a kid makes more sense. But the adult Ouma still exists and there’s a reason. The Ouma Gokuhara and Shinguji knew, died. He died 8 years before the trio finds them all. And someone with the same name, and a similar personality, it immediately throws the two boys off.

DR Double Rant over.

#digital art #danganronpa #doubles rant #ouma #kokichi ouma #hmm #ringmaster doodles

[ao3feed-kenhina]

Hello Kitty Crocs || Haikyuu Omegaverse AU

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2Zhvkz0

by w6rship

A story in which a nightclub houses some interesting employees with even more interesting stories.

ㅁㅁㅁㅁㅁㅁㅁ

Also where kuroo has a ‘magic potions’ degree, shoyou has a gecko named dean, and Konoha keeps getting scammed out of his money by a child.

Contains Mature Themes such as alcohol and drug use, slurs, racism, suicide mentions, self harm, non-consent, murder, gangs, sex, dysphoria, and swearing.

Words: 130, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: haikyuu

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Rape/Non-Con, Underage

Categories: F/F, F/M, M/M, Multi, Other

Characters: Hinata Shoyou, Kozume Kenma, Sawamura Daichi, Sugawara Koushi, Bokuto Koutarou, Kuroo Tetsurou, Akaashi Keiji, Tsukishima Kei, Yamaguchi Tadashi, Daishou Suguru, Terushima Yuuji, Konoha Akinori, Shimizu Kiyoko, Yachi Hitoka, Shirofuku Yukie, Suzumeda Kaori, Kinoshita Hisashi, Narita Kazuhito, Azumane Asahi, Nishinoya Yuu, Ennoshita Chikara, Tanaka Ryuunosuke, Takeda Ittetsu, Ukai Keishin, Hanamaki Takahiro, Matsukawa Issei, Kyoutani Kentarou, Yahaba Shigeru, Tendou Satori, Ushijima Wakatoshi, Miya Atsumu, Sakusa Kiyoomi, Haiba Alisa, Tanaka Saeko, Tsukishima Akiteru, Haiba Lev, Yaku Morisuke, Kageyama Tobio, Michimiya Yui, Aihara Mao, Oikawa Tooru, Iwaizumi Hajime, Hinata Natsu, Yamamoto Akane

Relationships: Hinata Shouyou/Kozume Kenma, Sawamura Daichi/Sugawara Koushi, Bokuto Koutarou/Kuroo Tetsurou, Akaashi Keiji/Kozume Kenma, Tsukishima Kei/Yamaguchi Tadashi, Daishou Suguru/Terushima Yuuji, Akaashi Keiji/Hinata Shouyou, Konoha Akinori/Kuroo Tetsurou, Bokuto Koutarou/Konoha Akinori, Shimizu Kiyoko/Yachi Hitoka, Shirofuku Yukie/Suzumeda Kaori, Kinoshita Hisashi/Narita Kazuhito, Azumane Asahi/Nishinoya Yuu, Ennoshita Chikara/Tanaka Ryuunosuke, Takeda Ittetsu/Ukai Keishin, Hanamaki Takahiro/Matsukawa Issei, Kyoutani Kentarou/Yahaba Shigeru, Tendou Satori/Ushijima Wakatoshi, Miya Atsumu/Sakusa Kiyoomi, Haiba Alisa/Tanaka Saeko, Haiba Lev/Yaku Morisuke, Aihara Mao/Michimiya Yui, Iwaizumi Hajime/Oikawa Tooru

Additional Tags: Angst, Fluff, Mpreg, Smut, heat - Freeform, Rut, Omegaverse, ABO, Haikyuu - Freeform, rare pairs, rare ships, LGBT, Gay, Lesbian, Trans, non binary, Aromantic, Asexual, Depression, PTSD, Anorexia, Mental Illness, Bipolar Disorder, bipolar, Autism, strip club, Bar, Murder, Yakuza, Alcohol, Drugs, Miscarriage, Pagan, Lemon, Self Defense, Rape/Non-con Elements, trigger warning, Humor, relatable, w6rship, Self Harm, Suicide mentions, Aged Up, aged down, Drinking, REPTILES, Pets, Gaming, YouTube, streamimg, Waitor, Waitress - Freeform, Dancer, Strippers, Bartenders

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#IFTTT #ao3feed #fanfic #kenhina #kozume kenma #hinata shouyou #haikyuu!! #hq!! #haikyuu

[luxexhomines]

S

Ahhh, thank you guys so much for asking!! I just compiled them all into one post so I don’t clog up your dash with several posts. Here we go! I’m going to tag this as discourse and put a cut because my answers to the letters might not please everyone, aha. It’s long, too. Major spoilers for NDRV3.

S: Any fandom tropes you can’t resist?

Honestly, I’m not super sure at this point. Surprise, surprise, I only just recently finished watching the rest of NDRV3 and started writing for it. And I haven’t thought about tropes that much, though I’m sure I’ve written plenty of them into my writing at some point, even if not posted on here. 

If we’re going to go Danganronpa-centric, as this is my side blog for Danganronpa writing, I’d say that I fall in love with characters that are contradictory and with seemingly bipolar or gray morals despite probably having morals as straight as an arrow myself, i.e. Nagito or Kokichi. The characters playing “straight man” and relating to the reader’s perspective are also my favorite; in a wacky situation, they offer reason and normal reactions, which I would peg Hajime as (maybe Kazuichi, too, although he’s more of a crybaby). In fanfiction, I just love hurt & comfort fics, especially involving–you guessed it–Kokichi. I am particularly partial to the Oumota chapter 5 and chapter 5 trial rewrites, which, lucky for me, both of which are quite often rewritten by spectacular writers.

If we’re going in general, I always end up reading manga with an independent, strong and decisive character that crosses worlds and/or bodies by accident or death and becomes incredibly powerful/influential in the world and dominates over other characters with skills ranging from cooking to fighting. I guess I read a lot of manhua with martial arts or other manga with game aspects to it.Writing-wise, I love reading slow burn fics, even if I haven’t read one in quite some time. 

T: Any fandom tropes you can’t stand?

I have a feeling this is going to go into highly controversial areas, so if you ultra ship Kaito x Maki, please turn away now...

I just hate that “man saves woman” from herself or traumatic past trope. Don’t get me wrong, I love hurt/comfort like I mentioned, but to specify, what I mean is when a strong and independent woman needs saving by a man. I realize Maki has a lot of issues from her past as an assassin and that Kaito is a viable, good option for helping her out and facing those issues, but the fact of him being a man and the way he just swoops in and fixes things forcefully by pulling her along for training just irks me. And before you ask, yes, if Kaede did it instead as a woman I would have less of a problem with it, even if I don’t like that somehow after a couple days of training together Maki somehow is better able to get along with others and most notably Shuichi despite having spent the previous entire time cooped up in her Ultimate room alone, is willing to use her experience as an assassin to help out with the investigation when she just walked out in the past, etc. Problems from a past like that would never be so easily faced in reality; people and their minds are much more stubborn than we’d like to think, too. 

In general, I am also highly averse to the Women in Refrigerators trope. To some extent, I feel that Kaede fits this trope, as a.) she is an important, pivotal, incredibly fleshed out female character and even the initial protagonist of ndrv3, b.) she dies arbitrarily for a murder she did not commit, c.) a big part of her death is written into Shuichi’s character development for making him grow as the protagonist (he sheds the cap, faces the truth, and the memory of Kaede’s last wishes serves as his support to reveal the truth several times in trial), and of course, d.) her death in the execution is grotesque as befitting of a Danganronpa execution. Kaede deserved so. much. more.

There are probably more out there, but I won’t mention them for the sake of length & time. 

U: Share three of your favorite fic writers and why you like them so much.

Okay! So don’t hate me for this, but I haven’t been really keeping up a bunch with fanfiction writers or specific ones that much. It just hasn’t ever been a habit of mine in the past to follow one writer–ironic, I know. There’s one that immediately comes to mind, but she’s not part of the Danganronpa fandom, so unless someone asks, I’ll leave her out of it. However, there are a couple of writers that I recently discovered through the Oumota weekend event and which I follow on my main blog, and I thoroughly enjoy reading their work. Their work also contains mentions of NDRV3 spoilers!

1. @kirastrations

I recently reblogged her work on this blog because I have so much love for the Oumota fic she wrote (which deserves more love!). It’s called One by One, One After Another, and I simply adore the way she writes Kaito’s character and experiences with the other characters throughout the game and the overarching feeling that comes across as a result of the situation and what ensues. The diction choices she makes is absolute art; I see the imagery so clearly in my head, and not a single word of hers is wasted. It’s concise while being aptly and most beautifully descriptive. Even though I’m not a huge fan of Kaito, the way she writes him and his actions make me love him. I would describe the work as a futile yet desperate and exquisite struggling, an embodiment of angst that is so beautifully painful that it appears to be an illusion. I haven’t had a chance to check out other works from her just yet, but that’s on my to-do list!

2. @golden-redhead

I love, love, love their work too. They recently posted Lavender, a Kirumi x Kaede (Tojomatsu? Kaerumi? Kirumatsu?) work for femslash Feb, and it is a post-reality Virtual AU short fic. The way they write the interaction between Kirumi and Kaede offers such a delicate, carefully constructed image and story while creating some tension between the two. They also format the story with Kirumi’s thoughts in a simple and straightforward way that is just so delicious to read. Aspects of Kirumi explored are small things that unravel into a bigger statement about her character and the nature of the killing game and the impact it has left on her. It reminds me of the way a player might gently stack up a house of cards–attentively, with a sharp eye and feel. 

3. @starlightwritesalie

They wrote these two Oumota fics for the weekend that I fell in love with, especially the one for Day 1: Heroes/Villains. Sometimes when living in the world of Danganronpa, you forget that these tragic situations and the killing game are experienced, in essence, by children. You can argue that they’re older than high schoolers for the first two games, but mentally they are still high schoolers, and let’s face it–a couple years above the legal age of being an adult in America, 18, can hardly be counted as an adult, either. They reminded me of that sickening fact so poetically yet bluntly, and the story they write only serves as a further reminder of that fact. They write statements about the situation and how the pair act in the situation that are so agonizing yet irrefutable–as is the situation that they’re both trapped in. The ending is so unbearably cruel, packed with pain, but the way they create it is so decisively soft and snatches away my breath with the truth at the heart of the game, the situation. 

So there you have it! Sorry that my answers are so long... I have too much to say, and especially about the people whom I adore. Since it said to pick 3, I didn’t get to include these two, but I also love aroseandapen and mystic-mints dearly. If you ask, I’ll write a whole paragraph on why I love them, too, although I suspect by this time you all are getting rather tired of all my talking, haha. I also didn’t include imagines blogs, but if you’re curious, feel free to ask about that since I am still kind of a imagines blog! I guess at this point I’m kind of a fusion of an imagines blog and normal fanfiction writing blog.

Thanks for asking, and if you have any more questions, feel free to shoot an ask!

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[maxs-hot-takes]

it wasn’t your hajime post lol. it’s whatever mental problem you have to kin a sexual predator

Expect a reply soon to your other messages but

I may have many mental issues: bipolar disorder, ADHD, depression, anxiety, trauma

But loving Teruteru isn't one of them, hun<3. If anything, he's a coping mechanism.

S/A under the cut

As someone who has BEEN a victim of sexual assault as a child, you'd think I wouldn't like Teruteru. But guess what, Teruteru isn't a FUCKING PREDATOR. and I'll explain why here shortly </3

#fuck you

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Help Me Help You

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by Nikki_Sapphire

22 year old Yachi Hitoka starts her new internship at the mental hospital near her college that changes her life forever. Yachi slowly starts to learn that something is wrong as more and more 'accidents' occur at the ward and she has to make a tough decision. Who will she have to betray? The dozen of friends she made or the women she fell in love with? (WIP) (Story better than the summary!)

Words: 4391, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: Haikyuu!!

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Categories: F/F, M/M

Characters: Hinata Shouyou, Kageyama Tobio, Tsukishima Kei, Kuroo Tetsurou, Yamaguchi Tadashi, Ennoshita Chikara, Tanaka Ryuunosuke, Tsukishima Akiteru, Azumane Asahi, Nishinoya Yuu, Shimizu Kiyoko, Yachi Hitoka, Akaashi Keiji, Ukai Ikkei, Takeda Ittetsu, Oikawa Tooru, Iwaizumi Hajime

Relationships: Hinata Shouyou/Kageyama Tobio, Tsukishima Kei/Yamaguchi Tadashi, Sawamura Daichi/Sugawara Koushi, Iwaizumi Hajime/Oikawa Tooru, Ennoshita Chikara/Tanaka Ryuunosuke, Azumane Asahi/Nishinoya Yuu, Akaashi Keiji/Bokuto Koutarou, Kozume Kenma/Kuroo Tetsurou, Shimizu Kiyoko/Yachi Hitoka

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Mental Institution, Mental Disorders, Bipolar Disorder, Aged-Up Character(s), Minor Original Character(s), Paranoia, Panic Attacks, Anxiety Disorder, Social Anxiety, Separation Anxiety, WIP, Psychologists & Psychiatrists, Yachi is an intern, Kiyoko is a psychiatrist, Everyone else is patients, Alternate Universe, Fluff and Angst, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Mental Health Issues, Mental Institutions, Betrayal, Friends to Lovers, Strangers to Lovers, Trigger Warnings, Might get graphic later on, I'll tag warnings if it's especially bad, Tags May Change

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Lists

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by citrusfriend

Akaashi Keiji is alone. They don't mind that; in fact, they chose that. Being an empath in high school is disastrous enough without any emotional ties. So they bask in their isolation and everyone else has long since left them to it. Bokuto and Kuroo didn't exactly get the memo.

Words: 1848, Chapters: 1/3, Language: English

Fandoms: Haikyuu!!

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: Gen

Characters: Bokuto Koutarou, Kozume Kenma, Kuroo Tetsurou, Akaashi Keiji, Oikawa Tooru, Iwaizumi Hajime

Relationships: Bokuto Koutarou & Kuroo Tetsurou, Akaashi Keiji & Kozume Kenma, Akaashi Keiji & Bokuto Koutarou, Kozume Kenma & Kuroo Tetsurou, Akaashi Keiji & Kuroo Tetsurou, Bokuto Koutarou & Kozume Kenma, Akaashi Keiji & Bokuto Koutarou & Kozume Kenma & Kuroo Tetsurou, Kozume Kenma/Oikawa Tooru, Iwaizumi Hajime/Yachi Hitoka

Additional Tags: Drabble, Angst, Bipolar Bokuto Koutarou, Dissociation, Alternate Universe - America, Nonbinary Akaashi Keiji, Trans Female Character, Trans Kozume Kenma, Nonbinary Kuroo Tetsurou, Aromantic Characters

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I'll be there for you (until our time runs out)

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by Yaoiwriteronly

Suna signs up for a doctor assistant position due to his families nagging and meddling. One thing though, Suna absolutely dispises hospitals. The plain white walls, the feeling of being trapped, the knowledge that not everyone who enters a hospital gets to leave. He hates it.

But, after getting to know the patients that now depended on him to keep them alive, he finds himself growing more concerned for them. It wasn't a good feeling, the sinking pit in his stomach that feared the day he walked in to the news of a lost friend. It clawed its way down his throat and haunted his very being.

And he falls in love. Osamu is everything Suna has ever dreamed of for a future lover. He's beautiful, smart, funny, perfect in every way possible. And he was dying. Falling further into his hallucinations and delusions that the real world around him begins to fade, with him along with it.

He needed to help these people. Stay with them and keep them alive. But, as weeks drag on, their sicknesses grow deadlier. Death clung to their skin like a purfume and grim acceptance fills their once hopeful eyes.

But, maybe medicine and IV's weren't what they needed. Love cures everything afterall.

Words: 4538, Chapters: 2/?, Language: English

Fandoms: Haikyuu!!

Rating: Mature

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: M/M

Characters: Suna Rintarou, Miya Osamu, Hinata Shouyou, Kageyama Tobio, Sakusa Kiyoomi, Miya Atsumu, Kozume Kenma, Kuroo Tetsurou, Bokuto Koutarou, Akaashi Keiji, Azumane Asahi, Nishinoya Yuu, Sawamura Daichi, Sugawara Koushi, Shirabu Kenjirou, Semi Eita, Tendou Satori, Ushijima Wakatoshi, Oikawa Tooru, Iwaizumi Hajime, Ennoshita Chikara, Tanaka Ryuunosuke, Tsukishima Kei, Yamaguchi Tadashi, Yachi Hitoka, Shimizu Kiyoko, Kita Shinsuke, Ojiro Aran, Matsukawa Issei, Hanamaki Takahiro, Haiba Lev, Yaku Morisuke

Relationships: Miya Osamu/Suna Rintarou, Semi Eita/Shirabu Kenjirou, Hinata Shouyou/Kageyama Tobio, Miya Atsumu/Sakusa Kiyoomi, Kozume Kenma/Kuroo Tetsurou, Akaashi Keiji/Bokuto Koutarou, Azumane Asahi/Nishinoya Yuu, Sawamura Daichi/Sugawara Koushi, Tendou Satori/Ushijima Wakatoshi, Iwaizumi Hajime/Oikawa Tooru, Minor or Background Relationship(s)

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Hospital, Hanahaki Disease, Mental Health Issues, Insomnia, Narcolepsy, Bipolar Disorder, Depression, Social Anxiety, Fear, Trauma, Seizures, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Amnesia, Dementia, Self-Esteem Issues, Family Issues, Self-Worth Issues, Doctor Sugawara Koushi, Doctor/Patient, Near Death Experiences, Near Death, Falling In Love, Love Confessions, Unrequited Love, Boys In Love, Everyone Is Gay, Everyone Needs A Hug, Hinata Shouyou is Sunshine, Hurt Hinata Shouyou, Sad Hinata Shouyou, Awkward Kageyama Tobio, Protective Kageyama Tobio, Kageyama Tobio is Bad at Feelings, Oblivious Kageyama Tobio, Sad Kageyama Tobio, Soft Sakusa Kiyoomi, Pining Sakusa Kiyoomi, Pining Miya Atsumu, Jealous Miya Atsumu, Miya Atsumu is a Little Shit, Miya Atsumu Swears, Sad Miya Atsumu, Kozume Kenma is a Good Friend, Kozume Kenma Needs a Hug, Sad Kozume Kenma, Bokuto Koutarou & Kuroo Tetsurou are Bros, Protective Kuroo Tetsurou, Possessive Kuroo Tetsurou, Dork Kuroo Tetsurou, Sad Kuroo Tetsurou, Bokuto Koutarou Being Bokuto Koutarou, Sad Bokuto Koutarou, Akaashi Keiji Is So Done, Sad Akaashi Keiji, Insecure Azumane Asahi, Nervous Azumane Asahi, Azumane Asahi Needs a Hug, Azumane Asahi is a Good Significant Other, Nishinoya Yuu & Tanaka Ryuunosuke are Bros, Azumane Asahi/Nishinoya Yuu Fluff, Sad Nishinoya Yuu, Sawamura Daichi in Love, Sawamura Daichi's Thighs, Team Parents Sawamura Daichi/Sugawara Koushi, Cute Sawamura Daichi/Sugawara Koushi, Long-Suffering Sawamura Daichi, Protective Sugawara Koushi, Sugawara Koushi is a Little Shit, Sugawara Koushi is a Good Friend, Sugawara Koushi is a Mess, Tsundere Shirabu Kenjirou, Shirabu Kenjirou Swears, Salty Shirabu Kenjirou, Pining Shirabu Kenjirou, Shirabu Kenjirou is a Little Shit, Semi Eita Swears, Semi Eita is So Done, Tendou Satori is a Little Shit, Tendou Satori Needs a Hug, Protective Ushijima Wakatoshi, Oblivious Ushijima Wakatoshi, Sad Ushijima Wakatoshi, Iwaizumi Hajime/Oikawa Tooru Angst, Sad Oikawa Tooru, Depressed Oikawa Tooru, Protective Iwaizumi Hajime, Pining Iwaizumi Hajime, Iwaizumi Hajime Swears, Sad Iwaizumi Hajime, Minor Ennoshita Chikara/Tanaka Ryuunosuke, Long-Suffering Ennoshita Chikara, Tanaka Ryuunosuke is a Good Friend, Tanaka Ryuunosuke Being an Idiot, Tsukishima Kei is Bad at Feelings, Minor Tsukishima Kei/Yamaguchi Tadashi, Tsukishima Kei Being an Asshole, Hinata Shouyou & Tsukishima Kei Friendship, Yamaguchi Tadashi's Freckles, Sad Yamaguchi Tadashi, Yamaguchi Tadashi Needs a Hug, Minor Shimizu Kiyoko/Yachi Hitoka, Hinata Shouyou & Yachi Hitoka Friendship, Anxious Yachi Hitoka, Mentioned Shimizu Kiyoko, Farmer Kita Shinsuke, Minor Hanamaki Takahiro/Matsukawa Issei, Matsukawa Issei in Love, Hanamaki Takahiro is a Little Shit, Minor Haiba Lev/Yaku Morisuke, Sad Haiba Lev, Oblivious Yaku Morisuke, This Is Why We Can't Have Nice Things, Why Did I Write This?, Why is the Rum Gone?, Sad with a Happy Ending, I'm Sorry, Please Don't Kill Me, Bottom Hinata Shouyou, Top Kageyama Tobio, Bottom Sakusa Kiyoomi, Top Miya Atsumu, Bottom Kozume Kenma, Top Kuroo Tetsurou, Bottom Akaashi Keiji, Top Bokuto Koutarou, Top Nishinoya Yuu, Bottom Azumane Asahi, Top Sawamura Daichi, Bottom Sugawara Koushi, Top Semi Eita, Top Ushijima Wakatoshi, Bottom Tendou Satori, Top Iwaizumi Hajime, Bottom Oikawa Tooru, Porn with Feelings, Yaoi, Porn With Plot, Aged-Up Character(s), Pro Volleyball Player Kageyama Tobio, Pro Volleyball Player Hinata Shouyou

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