#i dont think ive made one before this

[hellscap3]

I wish I had 12 extra hours a day for more drawing. I'm not being greedy just half a day come on 🥺🥺🥺🥺

#my number 1 obsession; grinding my bones to dust via drawing for half my waking hours #i get annoyed humans have needs just cause it gets in the way #all I need is art cut out the basic needs fr #yesterday i had to leave my room just to avoid sitting down to draw again so i could actually have a break cause my hand was in pain lmao #i stretch sure but holding a pen for like 12 hours a day for weeks still gets ur hands in the end #plus i mean i do got them disablities lmao #this post is just an excuse to lay down n rest my back I want to get back to my current pieces #i cannot wait to post em #one is flats the other is a sketch they'll be posted as a pair #perfectly phone wallpaper size btw so yah u could consider it my first attempt at a wallpaper #i dont think ive made one before this #rambling in the tags #txt.exe #its gonna be more izu n jun content #using half names so this post aint in the character tags lmao #otome dissection x izu n jun its looking cool so far #the vibe fits them both quite well in different ways honestly #im so normal about them

[ryssbelle]

Drew a bunch of Marinettes in a bunch of different artists styles it was a lot of fun!!

Artists who's styles I mimicked: @buggachat @hamsternamedmarinette @ladybeug @sabertoothwalrus and @anna-scribbles all epic artists 🤟😎

#my art #marinette dupain cheng #miraculous ladybug #miraculous fanart #style mimic #sorry for the @s btw #yall should go follow those artists if you dont already also #this was sort of inspired by a post the three artists on the top row made #i think they all got together and drew with one another #which is really cool #but i was genuinely confused because i mimic styles a lot #and ive seen others do it too so i was just like #wow they really know each others styles really well #until i thought about it and read their posts some more #style mimicking is really freaking fun and i think its really good practice #and a good way to explore other ways of doing things #like you really have to learn new techniques and get out of your comfort zone #also anna scribbles i could not find a recent pic of marinette in her main outfit #so thats the only marinette i drew in different clothes cuz i couldnt find a more recent ref of you drawing it #anna scribble marinette has privileges thats the others dont #but ye #i also threw my own style in there as a frame of reference to what me draw like #ive drawn marinette before just not in a loooong while #sabertooth walrus was the hardest for me to mimic cuz they have a broad range in their style #so its like which sabertooth do i wanna be in this pic #Buggachat has such a distinct style thats very clean and consistent which is amazing so they were easy #being easy or hard arent bad things either it also has to do with like styles meeting up with one another #buggachats and mine arent too too different in some shapes and aspects #so yeah itd be easier plus they drew marinette like 3 sec ago so i have more recent of a ref #as opposed to sabertooth who i have a recent ref of ladybug but not marinette so we got two diff styles in one

[socialbunny]

 Skip has always found a way to work through his problems and turn them around with relative ease, but the sudden death of his wife, Brandi, has brought his mostly carefreeness towards his children  to a stand-still. With two freshly traumatized children and a newborn under his belt, can Skip juggle turning his shitty ass life around for his family, or will he crumble under the weight of his past mistakes?

Darleen hasn’t been the same since her husband, Darren, died, though she’d be quick to argue with you if you said anything of the sort. She’s FINE! She misses her husband, undoubtedly, but she’s not going to let that very, very, very tiny thing wreck her whole life, and she’s not going to let people give her grief about ANYTHING. Sure, she got fired from her job a few months back and hasn’t made any strides to find a new one, and she’s losing touch with her son as she goes and squanders all her responsibilities by partying and drinking on par with younger years, aaaaaaaaaaaaand the almost obsessive idealistic crush she’s developed on her neighbor is clouding the second half of her judgment, but she’s bounced back from worse and knows everything’s going to come up Darleen :) …………. hopefully

#POSTING THIS BC IVE HAD IT DONE FOR 2 MONTHS KINDA? i kept feeling uninspired andiffy abt it tho so it just made me not want to finish it #posting this before i change my mind i hate darleens desc but its the only one im rockin with at the same time #ANYWAYS BASE D ON A SEMI AU IDEA IVE BEEN THINKING OF. WTV. DUSITN AN DIRK WOULD ACTUALLY HAVE TO BE YOUNGER FOR THIS AU TO MAKE SENSE. but #idc it just for funsies #common skip and darleen l's tbh #i support my alcoholic delusional wife in these dire times. #💙 #other names for these pics: #pls dont ask skip and darleen where their children r bc they dont kno #the painful ass crick darleens about tohave in her neck when she wakes up #skip doesnt know how to hold a baby apparently and its not bc there was something wrong with how i rigged him nooooooooo #gordon pls leave ppl alone and get a life #in my maxis dev 04 era the way these pics r so lazy #POTRAYING DARLEEN AS A GIRLFAILURE honestly. love fail darleen i need to do it more and show it more. #thats all if u read these tags i think ur in love with me and we should kiss

[foolsocracy]

I can't help but notice you haven't posted any angst in a while and I'm suspicious

whipped this one up just for u anon

#a guy can only post 3 happy artworks before the people get concerned..... #LMAOOO jokes jokes #heres a .. colored sketch? #anyway behold the recurring dream ive given pete where hes ummmmmmmmmmmm inside uncle bens ribcage #i think abt it all the time but ive never actually done anything w it so here we go #blood #gore #not actually i dont think but im straying on the safe side #i messed around w it enough where u cant even see any organs or anything (much) #bones #idk #skeleton #i feel like thats everything maybe #ask to tag #might make a nice finished piece w this who knows #anon #asks #thanks for the ask! #glad to know angst is still my brand #such is life as a noir blog #peter benjamin parker #spiderman noir #spider man noir #spider noir #my art #bOOM thats so many tags #double art night guys who cheered #this and the stupid ass music one LMAOO the range #made this in an hour and a half lets see what i think of it in the morning when i wake up lol

[averagemrfox]

Need volume 10 so I can get the Blake and Yang vs Tyrian match up of my dreams

You got Yang, whose semblance relies on her taking the hit. Who’s been shown over and over to use her own body as a shield so that her loved ones don’t get hurt. She’s been able to use it as more than a last resort in more recent volumes but it still requires her to store up the energy by taking the hit while her aura is gradually depleted.

Then you’ve got Tyrian, an incredibly good close quarters fighter like Yang but with an acrobatic ability closer to Blake’s and a semblance that cuts straight through people’s auras leaving them completely vulnerable. Burn is completely irrelevant if Tyrian goes for a lethal hit the first opportunity he gets

Blake on the other hand relies on her semblance to avoid taking the hit. She can create space for herself, put herself in a better position, and if she uses dust trap or hurt enemies with it. We’ve seen Blake avoid hits that would’ve killed her multiple times. If he can’t even hit her Tyrian’s semblance doesn’t mean shit

I want to see Blake just lose it again like she did at Neo for a bit after Yang fell but this time she doesn’t have to worry about Cinder. Let Blake be a little ruthless vs a serial killer. As a treat. I want to see this fight as a set up for Blake and Yang to finally talk about Yang’s self sacrificial tendencies.

#blake belladonna #yang xiao long #tyrian callows #rwby #ive yelled about this in the tags of posts before but idr if ive ever made a post about it #i dont think Blake and Yang will ultimately be the ones to finally take Tyrian #that’s probably going to be Qrow and Robyn #but it’s such a juicy match up I’d be sad if it didn’t happen especially since I don’t think they’ve ever even been on screen with Tyrian #the rest of the main gang except Weiss I think all have and most have fought him #it’s the Bees turn

[melatien]

tiny yoichi (unwillingly) lures out soldiers by being his helplessness little self so his brother can strike

#bases are the most reliable way to find food afo found! #yoichi is crying bcuz he pitys them <3 #not because hes nervous #im gonna be honest i made this idea up on the spot when drawing this #pewdiepies new art video awakened something in me I NEEDED TO REMIND MYSELF I CAN STIL DRAW BANGERS TOO #i didnt disappoint myself!!!! competitiveness is my enemy and my bestie literally #anyways his right eye was an absolute horrendous nightmare to draw it was going so well until i did the hair then it ruined the eye #i actually thought yoichi was wearing shoes at this age but then i looked back at those chapters and realised yoichi was shoeless #WITH ONLY A BANDAGE ON HIS FOOT??!?!!?!? agony #can yoichi not make me wish he had something good in life for ONE SECOND #think of this as like how he responded to afo killing those people that (presumably) beat yoichi up beforehand #we dont know if hes crying because his brother is killing or if he was crying before being 'saved' #ill try do some fluff art soon ive been really interested in body horror related art lately so i wanted to play around!!! #i have a BUNCH of ideas written down ive yet to do #i just keep doing whatever i feel like #i am the master of ignoring the instructions and winging it #mha #my art #yoichi shigaraki #one for all #my hero academia #first ofa user #shigaraki yoichi #mha yoichi #tiny yoichi #tiny yoichi in his shabby little clothes #ive actually been dying to draw tiny yoichi again but KIDS ARE SO HARD TO DRAW!!!!! #i had an art moment though #HALLEJUHAH #art gods had my back fr

[brother-emperors]

ascanio and louis xii

so

Milan Undone, Contested Sovereignties in the Italian Wars, John Gagné

extremely bold of louis xii to assume that ascanio, who has a reputation for conspiracy, wouldn't turn around and say 'fuck you,' after all of that™

(Ibid.)

it IS funny how men in power keep thinking they can put him on a leash like, pal. the odds are NOT in your favor

#ludovico couldn't keep his brother on a leash what makes you think YOU can #(guiliano della rovere is excluded from this club bc he actually succeeded on that front but i dont respect him) #anyway you guys ever think about how ascanio just wanted to be in milan but the milan that was your home doesnt exist anymore #like you're never gonna be able to go back. and ludovico at one point made arrangements for ascanio's body #to be brought back to milan back when everyone thought he was going to die. but he's going to die in rome and he's staying there #augh. AUGH #actually the shift in the relationship between ludovico and ascanio from a general sense of unease to ludovico #wanting ascanio buried with his wife (and the scale of grief that ludovico had at the death of beatrice. oughhhh) is. oof #there's a second very Hm™ comparison here that i will bite my tongue on but it's also their parents fault for it. so. #drawing tag #italian renaissance tag #ascanio sforza #do i have a tag for louis xii. i know ive drawn him before. I HATE HIS HAIR. i might throw out referencing his historical portraits #entirely and just borrow a portrayal of him from television or something #i was not made to draw straight hair

[cupidtxt]

new fandom new askblogs to block bc they put the maintag in every single post

#art #my art #oc #my oc #sona #my sona #oc:puppy #also. this is not to hate on askblogs. i think theyre so so so fun and ive done a big one b4 #but i am saying this as someone who has had this happen so many times before. #PPLEASE. DONT TAG EVERY SINGLE POST WITH THE MAIN FANDOM TAG. #it is annoying trying to search and seeing 10000 billion posts with the main fandom tag #toss it into the first few asks or big asks to get traction but like. man #hl/vr/ai + aus made me realize. and i did it too!!!!

[biillys]

BILLY WEEK → DAY ONE

i'm flesh and bone i'm a rolling fucking stone and the experts say i'm delirious

give me therapy i'm a walking travesty

all time low; therapy

#i dont understand COLOUR or PALETTES or PROMPTS so please. i am sorry #i am so fucking sorry #idk what this is but like. i guess if u squint its Palette Inspired.....maybe #again. i am SORRY #anyway. efforts were made! emotions were had! i'm emo! #i know this songs been done before a few times but ive always wanted to take a crack at it so. here we ARE #billy and max would be atl girlies u know this we know this #billy and max in the crowd of an atl concert listening to the nightly therapy speech....... #also the glitter and crimson speech........ gonna stop myself before i fucking lose it #anyway i hope this is okay and i hope at least one person doesn't think it's Rough jkahdbjkwa #ALSO the way mr horsegirl gaskarth himself talks about this song and how his feelings have changed over the years re: therapy #like........... Billy......................... #god....... #billyhargroveedit #harringroveweek #billyweek23 #m #gifs

[spider-man-2o99]

The prevailing belief of many ASTV viewers seems to be that Miguel O'Hara is an actual, literal vampire. Do you think this funny.

Nope! <3 it shows such a lack of willingness to do even Basic Research that would take maybe two seconds to look up that it makes me want to Kill. like. cmon. he has Fangs because he's half-spider...,,.,

They're hollow, and whenever he Bites People, it is specifically with the intent to POISON them with the VENOM from his FANGS-- he also Says That every time he does it, like he's an anime character, lol, and it means a lot to me. we don't know the exact makeup or potency of his venom, but we Do know that it's fast-acting, paralytic, and (apparently, thankfully) non-toxic, at least.

#talking tag #asks #spider-man 2099 #spiderman 2099 #atsv #across the spiderverse #spider-man: across the spider-verse #but like. honestly ive Never liked ppl calling him a vampire LOL ppl alREADY didnt know anything abt 2099 as it was Before ATSV came out y/ #and then ATSV comes out nd its portrayal of My Blorbo for whom my foolish fool self would & Will go 2 bat for Debunking Disinformation abt- #--is Canon Accurate in its characterization of him even if in general i think it's pretty Thematically Weird 2 have chosen Mig Specifically #--for the role that they put him in just specifically because. like. the themes of SM2099 kind of actively go against All Of That Stuff? #but. whatever. dbsdkvbdvjbsk it's not a Dealbreaker 4 me i Understand quite intimately that literally nobody cares abt analyzing 2099 LOL. #and i am just a nitpicky esoteric autistic Bitch with Very Strong Opinions or w/e #anyways they made lots of Funney Jokes. tho i dont dig how often mig was Called Unfunny because he Is Funny hes just autistic nd quiet #mig Is Funny he just doesnt make quips as a nervous reaction or to distract villains when he is wearing the costume. #like the Whole Point of his spider-man is that hes Supposed to b Weird And Different from other Spiders thats literally what he was made 4 #zigging where lee & ditko zagged. He Was Designed That Way On Purpose That Is Why He Is So Interesting He Is ACTUALLY DIFFERENT #Christ almighty one more person acts like he wasnt nothin before this film as if he aint existed for 30 years with an established history. #feel like i m just gonna start freakign Killing

[infizero]

listen i was guilty of this once upon a time too but dawg ppl GOTTA stop calling any platonic dynamic they like “siblings” without any precedence 

#there are many characters where there is good right to call them siblings. but ppl have gotten so trigger happy w it #and like theres nothing wrong with viewing a dynamic that way ig but at the same time it makes ppl who may ship those characters really #uncomfortable. bcuz although there is nothing to suggest that those characters view each other in that way by calling them siblings #instantly you've made it weird for anyone who might interpret the dynamic differently #idk this is very nuanced but it just irked me a little bit #absolutely nothing against the person in the tags of my art btw power to you #but. as someone who ships pearl and scar a little it was a bit uncomfortable to see them be called siblings #i dont like ppl making ANY of the hermits siblings. like grian and pearl are a common one i see and i just. i dont get it i truly dont #none of their dynamics read like that to me. idk. again ppl have their own interpretations of things and they didnt mean any harm by it #it just made me feel a little weird #and this is a problem or well. trend ive seen in all fandoms recently #please. people are allowed to be friends and have close friendships and not have a familial element involved #esp with a girl and a boy THEY CAN JUST BE FRIENDS! YOU CAN HAVE THEM BE TOTALLY PLATONIC WITHOUT CALLING THEM SIBLINGS #whatever whatever idrc. just something ive noticed i know other ppl have talked about this before #again this is not a callout or anything im genuinely not mad or weirded out or anything please dont think i am #serena.txt

[theokusgallery]

i have bad news for anyone who expects mental illness to be family friendly

^ yeah!

#thats a pretty good summary of it. #ask #anon #arsenic #ok ill rant about the au and mentall illness— nick's not diagnosed with anything. doesnt mean he doesnt #- /have/ anything. #mostly im thinking npd and bpd but this dude just. is not self aware at all. nobody ever told him. oops #im also giving him low empathy because i'll give low empathy to any character im obsessed with #(read: im projecting) (same way im making sunny trans. have i ever mentioned sunny's trans in this AU) #anyway. sunny's autistic but ive said that one before #nick is a psychiatrist's wet dream i think. #for the record i dont think people with npd or bpd are evil. im not evil. my friends are not evil #this AU doesnt exist to be good representation! sorry #anyway narcissistic abuse is not a real thing and aspd was made up by psychiatrists who thought that surely people being violent- #- means they're mentally ill. they based the diagnostic criteria off of criminals. the dsm is made up and none of this is real #i could rant about the way PDs are treated for hours. do NOT give me an opportunity to do so #this AU is not good rep but if someone starts calling nick a psychopath or a sociopath i will bite ! #omori #rant

[daily-crabbys]

mmg,, i might hiatus again,,,

I'd hate to do it, but there's no joy in crab posts as of right now, and also as of a long while ago.

Managing messages and responding to people in replies and being tagged and all the stuff in inbox is. a lot.

I never intended or expected crab blog to get this big, and it feels like such a chore to do at this point. Not that I dont like it, and not that I dont enjoy the fellow crab lovers, but it's certainly overwhelming.

That plus other socials and such that I manage and real life stuff is just. IDK, it's a lot. Usually, if I get to this point, I just drop off, maybe delete the account if I really can't stand it, but I'm definitely not going to do that here.

At the very least, I'm going to empty out the submissions that have been piling up, but after that, I'm not sure. I may not even get through all of those, I've already been relying on those for a long time at this point, and I think that's pretty obvious.

It feels like a hassle to deal with those anyways since most people don't even identify what type of crab it is that they submit, so I have to take the time to find it, which is usually not at all easy. There are so many posts that I've just had to guess what to tag it as because I just don't know, and there's no solid answer that I can find, at least not usually.

Which is also partially my fault, I've never said anything about it before, and I never specified it at an earlier time to make incoming ones less stressful to deal with, but even so I just. I don't know, I don't.

I don't know exactly when it'll happen, but it's the most likely thing to happen from here. I think I'll modify some stuff about how I handle the daily-crabbys blog to make it easier on me when I come back, but I'm not entirely sure what that'll be. I've never managed a successful daily posting account before, I haven't the slightest clue how to make it all easier on me.

Sorry that this has gotten so long, I didn't mean to rant. There's just so much that I feel like I need to say.

This isn't something coming out of nowhere, and it isn't going to be immediate. I've thought about wanting to do this for a while, and I know I did this already not too long ago, but I didn't really change anything for myself, so I'm just burnt out a lot faster.

Sorry again, both for the length of this and the fact that it's going to happen, but I've just got to make things better for myself before I carry on long term. I really just fucked myself over by not doing this the first time, but if I don't do something about it eventually then I'll just end up hating this blog too much to continue.

🦀💜

#not crab posting #heads up that this is quite a long post so in case you may not want to read it all(dont blame you) theres just a few things to know #firstly this isnt a random decision i made. ive thought about it for a while and dont think i was ready to come back in the first place #second is that it will not take place immediately! i dont want submissions to sit for too long so ill empty those out before i disappear #this includes a few that i wouldnt ordinarily post or have never found the right time to post. theyve just gotta go #third is that it is no ones fault. well thats not true. its mine. i didnt make changes i should have the first time i went on hiatus #im suffering severely from that now and have burnt out wayyy too fast. which is again no ones fault but mine #im going to change things to make it easier to handle. i need to if i want to keep this going for a long time which i very much do #i just cant when the thought of posting on here every day makes me so unhappy. im just too overwhelmed #im not sure what the changes will be just yet but they're going to be beneficial to me greatly

[britneyshakespeare]

My toxic trait is that I like how my incomplete drawings look better than the finished things

#im sorry i cant be her (my searching lines) #i cant stop thinking about this drawing i have a sinking feeling that im gonna be very unhappy when its done #or. not unhappy. but not as excited as i feel about it now! #i only worked in two short chunks on it but both were pretty productive #i have a feeling that when i take the time to really dedicate myself to it im gonna fuck something up #like i can see areas i need to/can improve already but the glaring flaws are ok! bc it's not finished! #it OVERALL looks cool and LOOKS like it has the potential to turn out well #but will it... WILL IT??? WILL IT EVER? #i have never been so totally completely satisfied w any finished drawing ive dedicated myself to fully. #tales from diana #this is also only the second time ive done a really deliberate self-portrait that wasnt in some for or another. practice #like of course ive drawn my face before. not that often actually. but since yes i do draw. i have drawn myself #i probably should've drawn myself more times for how often i think id like a nice picture of myself #but then again its not gonna be so 'nice' if i make it and am not totally happy w it? #see one of the ppl who inspired me to learn to draw is ned @sneez my dearest. he's spoiled me before #and drawn me very beautifully on several occasions and it's very much a thing to move one's heart #to see someone dedicate their talent to depicting YOU. #and i might say HE has made me look more beautiful in art than i think i'll ever look in the flesh #which is not to say he drew me inaccurately. but he's so talented that his art is more beautiful than life. #and i dont compare myself in skill to him bc he's been doing it for YEARS and way more trained than me in the visual arts. #like it simply wouldn't be fair so i only compare myself to myself. naturally #but i used to think. very VAINLY i might say. that if i could draw like him id draw beautiful pictures of myself all the time #well ce n'est pas ca mon ami. since learning to draw i've found im much more interested in drawing ppl i find beautiful #rather than myself. im not art. not through my own eyes at least. #i should really draw ned sometime. i really should. #actually somewhat embarrasingly i tried to draw him like 5 or 6 years ago. and i NEVER tried to draw then #i did show him tho and he thought it was very impressive but that's probably just bc he loves me. xoxox #maybe ill post that someday as a throwback just for the hell of it. lol. thatd be cute

[skitskatdacat63]

Fernando and Fisi pictures that I like and enjoy a normal amount (pt. 1: 2005)

#please please please lmk in the tags which are your favs and why #ill go first: the one where theyre holding up the engine in a very babygirl way and the one where theyre being picked up #but also all the post aus gp ones(the ones where they're holding hands above their heads) #ALSO THE ONES OF THEM IN STRIPED SUITS IT IS SERVING CORRUPT MAFIA MEN #actually i need to stop before i list every pic...like the point of the post is that i love all these pics.... #anyways i think theyre v endearing to me as a duo bcs theyre relatively the same height and those cute renault suits make them look shorter #so theyre like twins or smth to me LOL #(btw i was so surprised to learn that fisi is almost a decade older than nando! they rly dont look that much different in age) #also this is not an insult btw but fisi is endearing to me bcs his smile always looks like hes looking directly into the sun LOLOL #i think at some point i should rly make a fisi comp post bcs i ended up saving a lot of pics of him bcs he is my unexpected blorbo #these are all def 2005 but if not feel free to come admonish me for mixing up djkskd #ill make a 2006 pt 2(bcs ive yet to delve into those archives just yet) #i could probably make a 2005 pt2 honestly bcs i have like uhhhhh...2-3x the amnt of pics here of them! #so yeah lmk if you would like those too :) the grind never stops in terms of deep diving pics #this post kinda makes me wish i made photo highlight posts along w my post-race gifs #also if you want to enquire as to what race/event a specific pic is feel free to drop an ask or dm #fernando alonso #giancarlo fisichella #renault #2005 formula 1 #formula 1 #f1 #formula one #renault nando #fa14 #fisico #fisi #we do a little bit of f1

[mishapen-dear]

genuine question but is there any fandom where a character is well written by the majority. im thinking about fandom culture and the spread of frustration when people dont write characters well but. honestly in all the fandoms ive been in there's only like, a Select number of authors who i trust to write Well, let alone write Well AND In Character. character analysis and writing and getting inside characters' heads are all separate skills (all of which are trained by roleplaying fyi can CONFIRM playing pretend with your friends is good for you). there's been more than once where I've disagreed with an interpretation that others agreed with, and then I turned out wrong. or i turned out right. like it doesnt matter WHO is right it just matters that differences in character analysis exist, so even if you DO write well AND write in character, your in character is still going to be someone else's out of character

there's this sort of. vibe. that to play in the sandbox you Need to be able to make a castle, and if you can't make a castle then you shouldn't bother, and it completely dismisses the idea that youre in that sandbox to PLAY in the first place. there's this Weight of disappointing someone if you can't build something that they like, but that forgets that you aren't there to build them a castle. like, be KIND. if you disagree with someone then please make an effort to do so kindly. i dont give a shit about fandom discourse but there is a reason kids get removed from sandboxes if they keep throwing sand in people's eyes. but if they don't like your misshapen sand pile, then youre not obligated to change it. even if you yourself end up hating that same sand pile later- youre not building a legacy. youre playing. and sometimes the result of that play is out of character drivel. theres a reason there are so many authors and so few who i like to consistently read and thats because everyone is Fucking Around in their hobby space. hash tag brag or whatever but i can build castles. ive built several that im v proud of. ive also dug holes in the sand for fun and then tripped on them when trying to get up. I often dug a hole and then got up and fucking- whoops, its a castle now, and i didn't realize i'd made something to be proud of until after the fact. the whole time while creating shit i was Convinced it was bullshit that didn't make sense. and then other times i was Convinced it was bullshit and then i was Right and i can look back and go. huh. ew. but it doesn't matter what the end result was, because i had fun playing in the sandbox

this wasn't meant to turn into a ramble but i have Feelings about bad art and art that's badly perceived and how public perception can screw with your head and how making art youre proud of is fucking. it's so difficult!!! it's hard!! it's really fun, which is why i try to make it, but i promise you it is Okay to not tryhard creativity. even if you CAN, it's okay not to do it all the time. or ever, even. fuck around find out have fun etc

#NOT a discourse post i am musing out loud #there's discourse goign around the dash rn or i wouldnt mention it #but the past few weeks ive seen a lot of “DONT fucking mischaracterize my guy my fuckign god” #which is one of the most frustrating pet peeve there is #but i think a lot too about little baby me #fresh on her writing journey #and how discouraged i would be if someone pointed out the mistakes id made #i made a Lot of fuckups #and i also think about this one fic where one of the characters was INCREDIBLY out of character #me today would not be able to stomach reading it #but baby me was so ENCHANTED #and it introduced to me the concept that you dont always know the reason someone does something #and it made me read even more #and because of that i eventually found Expert Skill level fics #which introduced me to MANY little tricks and fidgets ive tried to implement #there were so so many reviews on that fic that called it shit or complained about the bad characterization #but a decade later i still think about it #there were several very corny mine/craft horror fics i read #which back in the day would be called cringe #and those were what inspired me to write my first horror fic and now im Enchanted by the whole genre #theres a lot of stuff i dont like to read but i like that other people are enjoying themselves #i dont know how to be succinct i hope my point is coming across well #this ties into my thing where fiction is for you first others later #here are my credentials: bb/h fan since before the elections (hi i was the guy who noticed his lack of armour post elections) #and a cross-fandom comment trend of people going 'woa i can see this happening in canon' #im not talking out my ass i genuinely think its more important to have fun than to write accurate characterization #which. is a more 'duh' and clarifying thing than everything else ive written #but ah well c'est la vie #also also just realized this could be interpreted like that- NOT an attack on people who complain about mischaracterization either lmao #i do that too w friends. this is to reassure people who put pressure on themselves to create things Well all the time