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active-mind-15 · 2 months

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I've had a thought for some time now... what if Akashi was a BTS fan?

At first, I was entertaining this idea simply because BTS and KNB are my biggest interests, but then I started to think harder about it, and I think it would make sense for him to be a fan of them.

Now, I know some of my KNB moots on Tumblr listen to Kpop, but I know that not everyone does, and even the ones who do are not all fans of BTS. With that being said, I'll try and explain things as best as I can for all the folks unfamiliar with BTS so this headcanon is easier to understand even for non-fans.

I predict this is going to be a very long post, so I'll have mercy on y'all and put the rest of this under the cut. Enjoy!

A summary of who BTS is for anyone reading who doesn't know them:

7-member music group from South Korea. They debuted on June 13th, 2013, and are comprised of 3 rappers and 4 vocalists. The members are RM (leader and rapper), Jin (vocalist), Suga (rapper), J-Hope (rapper), Jimin (vocalist), V (vocalist), and Jungkook (vocalist). Here's a picture for reference. I also wrote their stage names down next to each member so you know who is who.

BTS is an acronym for Bangtan Sonyeondan, roughly translating to "bulletproof boys". So, BTS aimed to be the bulletproof shield to protect people--especially those in their 10s and 20s--from harsh societal criticism that rained down on them like bullets. Their fanbase is called ARMY, an acronym that stands for "Adorable Representative MCs for Youth" (yeah I know it's wordy), and with that name, BTS hoped that listeners of their music would be inspired to find their voice and spread positivity. While they do have their fair share of cute/silly songs, a very large chunk of their work is lyrically introspective and touches on a lot of social, psychological, and even political issues. Bolstered by the fact that their music is self-written and co-produced, their authenticity is one of their biggest strong points and has allowed millions of people worldwide to relate to the messages in their music.

That being said, what does this have to do with Akashi being an ARMY? Well, I just wanted to imagine how he would become fascinated with a group like them, so I'll be splitting up this post into sections. I don't know how many sections I'll do, I'm winging this as I go, so let's just start with section 1.

HOW DID HE BECOME AN ARMY?

Mibuchi. Mibuchi strikes me as someone who would already be an ARMY and would convince Akashi to give them a shot. Maybe Akashi catches Mibuchi gushing over some photos of them online and it happens enough times that he finally cracks and asks who they are.

As someone who is an ARMY of 7+ years, when someone asks me who BTS is, I have to hold myself back from exploding where I stand because I get so excited when someone wants to know about them because they're so amazing that I always want more people to discover their music. Mibuchi, being the dedicated ARMY that he is, would instantly fill Akashi in on the details of who they are, the type of music they make, and who each of the members is, and Akashi would listen very intently, getting more curious the more he listens to Mibuchi talk about them.

Something I usually do when people ask for BTS recs is ask them for their favorite genres. The reason why I do that is because BTS has experimented with so many genres that their discography is incredibly diverse, probably more diverse than most artists I've ever listened to. So, I usually just fine-tune my recommendations to people's preferences to make the initial listening experience more palatable. And that's what Mibuchi does for Akashi. Once he gets Akashi's favorite genres, he sends him a playlist of BTS songs that fit his preferences. And so, because Akashi isn't one to turn down music recommendations, he keeps his word and listens to the playlist front to back.

After finishing the playlist, Akashi lays on his bed and stares at the ceiling, the chemistry of his brain permanently altered, wondering how on earth he went so long without knowing who BTS was.

AKASHI'S BIAS AND BIAS-WRECKER

If you don't know what these terms mean, having a 'bias' just means you have a favorite member. It's someone you feel your attention is naturally drawn to more than others in the group. You can be drawn to them for multiple reasons such as liking their voice, thinking their fashion is cool, or having a similar personality to theirs. There really are no rules for this kind of thing. A 'bias-wrecker' is a member who steals (said endearingly) your attention away from your bias, on occasion. Think of it as two members constantly replacing each other as your favorite. However, this is not always the case and not every ARMY has a bias/bias-wrecker. Some spread their attention pretty evenly across all the members and don't really have a particular favorite. But it's a fun question ARMYs like to ask other ARMYs every now and again, so for the sake of this post, I will include who I think Akashi's bias and bias-wrecker would be if he had them.

So, right off the bat, I know deep in my heart that Akashi's bias would without a doubt be Suga.

Reasons why I think Suga would be his bias:

All of the BTS members are authentic, but Suga is most notably known for his raw unfiltered lyrics and his candidness about his past experiences. He suffered a lot in his teens and 20s to be able to make music the way he is today. Despite all that, he's unafraid to speak about his mental health journey and often encourages ARMYs to be open about our own journies as well so we can normalize conversations around it and get the support we need. Through listening to Suga's story, Akashi would probably relate a lot to his struggles and gain strength from his words.

Suga's stage name is actually short for "shooting guard" because that was the basketball position he used to play back when he was in high school. So, he would get extra points in Akashi's book simply for that. I know he'd be excited to find out that piece of information and relay it back to Mibuchi, who would then show Akashi videos of Suga playing basketball and get him more excited about Suga. I can just imagine him going into captain mode and making little comments here and there like "he has a nice release" or "his shots go in very cleanly" or "I would have scouted him for Rakuzan if he were a high-schooler".

I also think there are a few similarities in their personalities Akashi would pick up on. Aside from their shared love of basketball and personal struggles with mental health as teens, I would say they're both pretty introverted, are extremely hard workers, both play piano, both show affection to their loved ones through acts of service, and both of them are incredibly strong, despite all that they've been through.

But who is Akashi's bias-wrecker? I'd have to say it'd be RM.

Reasons why I think RM would be his bias:

As I've mentioned before, RM is the official leader of BTS. I think for that reason, he would garner a lot of respect from Akashi, who would be impressed as to how he could be the leader of a globally recognized group starting from such a young age, especially when he hears about all of the hardships BTS had to face as they climbed up the ladder. As someone who has also had to step up and be a leader from a very young age, Akashi would look to RM and take notes of his leadership style to see if there's anything he could implement in his own life.

RM is also one of the main lyricists of BTS and the way he can speak and carry himself with such poise and maturity would also be another thing that Akashi respects. He loves to analyze RM's lyrics for every use of double entendres, wordplay, and literary/psychology references. (I have a separate headcanon that Akashi is at least conversational in Korean, if not fluent, so I'm sure that would make RM's lyrics all the more interesting to dissect.)

Akashi would also find similarities between himself and RM, too, outside of being leaders of their respective teams such as a love for the fine arts and nature, high intelligence (RM has an IQ of 148), and his down-to-earth demeanor.

FAVORITE BTS GROUP SONGS:

So I'm just gonna go album by album and list the songs that I think Akashi would pick as his favorite from each one, mostly due to the message in the lyrics, but some will also be because I think the instrumentals would be up his alley. I'll also provide some links to lyric videos so you guys can listen and read along to further understand my song choices. Any songs with an asterisk(*) next to them will link to a music video, so just turn on the closed captions. Fair warning, the older music videos have translated captions that are a little bit clunkier, but they're still readable. Anyway, let's go!

2 Cool 4 Skool (2013):

No More Dream*

O!RUL8,2? (2013):

Intro: O!RUL8,2?

N.O*

Skool Luv Affair (2014):

Just One Day*

Dark & Wild (2014):

Rain

The Most Beautiful Moment in Life, Part 1 (2015):

Intro: The Most Beautiful Moment in Life

Moving On

The Most Beautiful Moment in Life, Part 2 (2015):

RUN*

Butterfly

The Most Beautiful Moment in Life: Young Forever (2016):

Butterfly (Prologue Mix)

House of Cards (Full Length Edition)

Epilogue: Young Forever*

Wings (2016):

Lie

First Love

Reflection

2! 3!

You Never Walk Alone (2017):

Spring Day*

A Supplementary Story: You Never Walk Alone

Love Yourself: Her (2017):

Serendipity*

Outro: Her

Sea

Love Yourself: Tear (2018):

Singularity*

The Truth Untold

Paradise

Magic Shop

Love Yourself: Answer (2018):

Euphoria

Answer: Love Myself

Map of the Soul: Persona (2019):

Mikrokosmos

Jamais Vu

Map of the Soul: 7 (2020)

Black Swan* (also the classical version*)

Louder Than Bombs

We are Bulletproof: The Eternal*

BE (2020)

Life Goes On*

Blue & Grey

Proof (2022)

Yet To Come*

For Youth

BTS has released some Japanese original songs, too, so I'll include which ones I think would be his favorite among those!

Crystal Snow (2017)

Lights* (2019)

Your Eyes Tell (2020)

FAVORITE BTS SOLO SONGS:

Each of the BTS members has dropped their own solo projects whether it be singles or full albums, so I'll go member by member and talk about which of each member's solo songs I think would be his favorite.

RM:

Life (RM, 2015)

uhgood (mono, 2018)

forever rain* (mono, 2018)

No. 2 (Indigo, 2022)

Jin:

Tonight (2019)

Abyss (2020)

Yours (2021)

Suga/Agust D:

So Far Away (Agust D, 2016)

People (D-2, 2020)

Set me free (D-2, 2020)

AMYGDALA* (D-DAY, 2023)

Snooze (D-DAY, 2023)

J-Hope:

Piece of Peace (Hope World, 2018)

Blue Side (Hope World, 2018)

Equal Sign (Jack in the Box, 2022)

Safety Zone (Jack in the Box, 2022)

Jimin:

Promise (2018)

Like Crazy* (FACE, 2023)

Alone (FACE, 2023)

Scenery (2019)

Snow Flower (2020)

Rainy Days* (Layover, 2023)

Love Me Again* (Layover, 2023)

Jungkook:

Still With You (2020)

Stay Alive (2022)

Shot Glass of Tears (Golden, 2023)

HOW AKASHI FEELS BEING AN ARMY

I think finding out such a prominent music act is singing about topics he directly relates to is such a shock to him. It's like he feels seen at long last and he isn't going through these issues alone. Even if BTS doesn't know who he is, the fact that their music speaks to him is enough to comfort him through tough times.

I'd like to think that when he's had an exceptionally rough day, he likes to just lie in bed and listen to them. He seems like the type of person to reserve time out of his day to just listen to their music in silence.

Because he became such a fan, he and Mibuchi would now have so much more to talk about with each other, and Akashi would also come to understand why Mibuchi would be such a big fan of a group like them. Together, they'd stream new releases right when they come out, watch BTS's livestreams together, and, if they're able, go to concerts together. Concerts are more of a new thing for Akashi since I feel like he has never been to a proper concert before, so the first concert he'd ever go to would probably be super overwhelming, but he'd feel reassured with Mibuchi by his side. And the concert ends up being amazing and Akashi feels like he just...belongs. Something would finally click for him that day, and he would realize that this level of connection, not just with the artists, but with the fans as well, was something he really enjoyed.

BTS would kinda stay as mainly Akashi and Mibuchi's thing, but Hayama and Nebuya do give BTS a shot, too, and find they do like a lot of their music as well. Their favorite songs are probably the more upbeat ones, though, as opposed to most of the ones I chose to be Akashi's favorites.

But the bottom line is that being able to come together with his friends over a common interest outside of basketball makes Akashi happy and he hopes he can continue to share memories with his friends through music.

Okay, I've gotta cut it off here, I have to get ready for a family dinner outing. If you managed to make it to the end of my post, I hope you enjoyed my ramblings and also the music I linked. Bye for now!

#my most self-indulgent chronic akashi brainrot yet #i have done it again #rip to whoever read all this #i just really like BTS and wanted to toy with the idea of akashi being an army #anyway gotta go #BTS #bangtan sonyeondan #kuroko no basket #knb headcanons #akashi seijuro #mibuchi reo

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paintedcrayons · 2 years

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you make me overwhelmed

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences

Pairing: Geraskier

Summary: He feels Jaskier’s hands on his face, focusing intently on soothing his pain. He smells the honeyed scent of Jaskier’s contentment, happy to be sitting next to the witcher he’s known for so long. He hears Jaskier’s breaths, his heartbeat, calm; rhythmic as his songs. Geralt’s senses are overwhelmed by Jaskier in every way that matters, and he doesn’t how to handle it.

“You just… Jaskier.” He pushes out. “You overwhelm me, sometimes.” For some reason he feels breathless.

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CW: none

Gently, so gently, Jaskier wraps Geralt’s hand. He uses bandage he’d bought weeks before specifically for this purpose. Kept it in an extra pocket of his bag so it’d be safe to use when he’d need it.

Geralt can’t look at his face. He keeps his eyes steadily on his own hand, rested on Jaskier’s thigh as he finishes wrapping the bandage around his knuckles. On his own, Geralt wouldn’t have bothered caring for the scrapes on his hand he’d gotten, scaling a tree to jump on the bruxa from above. She’d seen him just in time to get a good scratch at his face, but the fight was over quickly. He hadn’t sustained any other injuries - the element of surprise on his side - but when he made the trudge back to camp and Jaskier caught sight of his hands and face, he’d insisted Geralt let him see to them.

And really, it’s not like this sort of thing is out of the ordinary. Jaskier makes a point to help him with every scratch he gets, whether Geralt admits he wants the help or not. So, really, there’s no reason for Geralt to be this flustered about it. He’s a witcher, for Melitele’s sake, he doesn’t need this sort of attention. But the way Jaskier takes such extra care to get a soothing cream over every mark on his hand, to wrap the bandage around it so tenderly… How else is Geralt meant to respond? If witcher’s could blush his face would be in flames. As it is, his heart is beating just faster than normal, still slower than a human’s. His shoulders are tense and he still can’t get himself to look Jaskier in the eye.

So he watches as Jaskier ties off the bandage on his hand, cradling it with both of his like it’s something precious for a moment. Finally, he lets it go to look at the scratch on Geralt’s face. Geralt’s eyes don’t move from Jaskier’s hands.

“Well, it looks like it won’t need stitches,” Jaskier starts, staring intently at Geralt’s cheek and reopening the container of salve, “but it’s deep enough that even with your witchery-ness, it’ll take at least a day or two for it to heal properly.” His voice is low, as though he doesn’t wish to break the peace as he speaks. “Let me fix it up a bit for you.” He gets some salve on his hand and sets the tub aside, reaching for Geralt’s face.

Geralt, for his part, feels like he might actually implode. It’s just, Jaskier is so close, and he smells so nice, and all this time Geralt has been avoiding his feelings for the bard that’s followed him for so long. But recently it’s come up so often he hasn’t been able to ignore it. And when he came into camp this evening and Jaskier immediately started to fuss over him - helping remove his armor and boots, setting his swords safely near their packs and bedrolls - Geralt couldn’t avoid the sudden burst of pure fondness for his bard. He can’t stop thinking about it. So when Jaskier grabs his jaw, gently, to smear the sweet-smelling salve on his face… He has the abrupt thought that he really does love him. That thought makes Geralt nearly gasp, and he squeezes his eyes shut for a moment.

But without something to lock his gaze on to, Geralt is left to his other senses. He feels Jaskier’s hands on his face, focusing intently on soothing his pain. He smells the honeyed scent of Jaskier’s contentment, happy to be sitting next to the witcher he’s known for so long. He hears Jaskier’s breaths, his heartbeat, calm; rhythmic as his songs. Geralt’s senses are overwhelmed by Jaskier in every way that matters, and he doesn’t how to handle it. His bard’s voice breaks through his swirling thoughts.

“Geralt? Are you alright? You seem… well, I don’t know.” Geralt opens his eyes a little as Jaskier tries to put his thoughts into words. “You seem off, is all. Is something wrong?” His hand is still on Geralt’s jaw, though he’s finished with the salve.

“I’m- I’m fine.” Geralt mumbles. He moves his eyes a little, but still only looks below Jaskier’s face, over his shoulder.

“Are you sure? I mean- Geralt, please look at me?” Jaskier asks, his voice as gentle as his grasp. And really, how could Geralt say no?

He forces his eyes to move mechanically to meet Jaskier’s for a moment. A small, sharp intake of breath sneaks out of him when he sees Jaskier’s face. He’s just… Well, poetry has never been Geralt’s strong suit. But he thinks, perhaps, he’d be willing to try his hand at poetry if it meant Jaskier could know just how beautiful he is. It’s breathtaking, truly. and Geralt loves him. He closes his eyes, tips his head forward so his forehead rests against Jaskier’s. He can’t help it. He loves him.

Jaskier’s hand is still on his face. His voice comes out as barely a whisper; Geralt can hear his heartbeat pick up just a touch. “Geralt?�� Is all he says, like a question.

To his credit, Geralt tries to explain. “You just… Jaskier.” He pushes out. “You overwhelm me, sometimes.” For some reason he feels breathless.

Jaskier pulls his head back as Geralt opens his eyes again to look at him “I… What do you mean? Am I bothering you? I can leave, if you want. There’s plenty of things for a bard to do for a little while on his own. I don’t want you to-“ He stops when Geralt nearly growls, a low noise in his throat.

“No,” he grits out, “don’t leave. Please.” He puts his own hand over Jaskier’s on his own cheek. “It’s not bad. It’s… really, really good, actually. I just don’t know how to explain it.” Well, he does, but Geralt really doesn’t think he could get those words out without a great amount of effort. “You mean… so much to me. Thank you, Jaskier. For staying by my side. For helping me when you haven’t ever needed to. You’re like nothing- no one- I’ve ever known before. I-“ he cuts himself off. The words are right there, three syllables, but he can’t seem to force them out.

Jaskier looks like he might burst into tears. He’s still so close. His hand is warm on Geralt’s face. “You can’t- do you… Geralt, do you mean that? In the way that I think you do?” he says, breath hitching, his contented scent threaded with anxious, hopeful energy.

Geralt can barely stand it. He moves his hands to Jaskier’s neck, feels his heartbeat through his fingertips, and kisses him with as much care as he can muster. He has to let him know. He has to get him to understand.

And it’s- it’s so much , all at once. Jaskier’s scent envelopes him. It takes a moment for Jaskier to respond, but just barely a second; then he’s moving against Geralt’s lips in earnest. He brings his other hand to card through Geralt’s hair and Geralt can’t get enough of him. Jaskier lets out a smooth sound from the back of his throat and the witcher’s senses go haywire.

He pulls back, pushing his nose against Jaskier’s throat, his hand bracketing Jaskier’s neck against him. Breathes deep as he snakes his other hand around the bard’s waist. He wants to think it’s too much, but truly… Geralt couldn’t be happier than he is right now. He never thought he’d get something like this, from someone like Jaskier. Someone who truly shines like the sun. Geralt has been around long enough to hear the poetic ways people describe love, strong and sweet and tender, and he’d thought it must have been as exaggerated as every other story or song. But now it explains how he feels so completely that he feels a little silly thinking about it.

“Geralt, do you mean it? Truly?” Jaskier mutters, his hand clenched in Geralt’s hair. “Because if so, please tell me. My feelings for you aren’t fleeting, dear. If you want this to end in a night, a week, I need to know. I couldn’t handle knowing what this feels like if I’m not to keep it.” He pushes his nose against the shell of Geralt’s ear, his voice wavering.

“Julek,” Geralt speaks in the juncture of Jaskier’s neck and shoulder, feels a shudder at the endearment, “You mean everything to me. I will not leave you. I wouldn’t dream of it.” It’s almost the hardest thing Geralt has had to say. Not because there’s a lie, no, quite the opposite. It’s the most honest he thinks he’s ever been.

“Gods, you’re so…” Jaskier sounds a little choked up, but his scent is only joy and something strong Geralt can’t, won’t name, “Never did I think you could be so affectionate. It’s very endearing. I couldn’t love you more.” He breathes out. He says it deliberately, Geralt can tell, but he notices the hint of anxiety etched into the words. Geralt wraps his arms tight around Jaskier’s shoulders and lets himself look the bard in the eye. He has to say it now, for Jaskier’s sake if nothing else. He needs to get it.

“I… Jask. I love you .” Those three words hold more emotion in them than he’s ever let himself express. He watches Jaskier’s eyes widen, and it feels like the world slows when the bard pushes his lips against his.

It’s like this moment will last forever. There’s nothing else but this. Geralt feels this space in time slot into a place in his mind, to be looked back on as many times as he wants. He loves his bard. He couldn’t be happier.

#geraskier #soft #i have done it again #fic #im sorry i cant add a read more :/

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