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singtheskyandfightlikehell · 3 years

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BatFamily Headcanons: Stuffed Animals

In an attempt to productively combat my recent writer’s block, I’m practicing writing the batfam characters through short character study fics (which I will post once I make enough) and comparative headcanons. I might end up making short fics out of these, as well, since some of them got a bit long anyways

Today I decided to explore how many stuffed animals each member of the batfam (plus an adjacent character or two) has, what they think of them, how they got them, etc. I’ve got eleven characters on this list (and I’m still missing some, sorry)

Bruce:

Bruce put aside stuffed animals when he was eleven, deciding it was time to become serious. However, since acquiring children, he has been gifted a number of stuffed animals, ranging from a small and realistic brown bat to a child-sized bear wearing his cape and cowl. None of the children know this, but he keeps them all in a prominent position in his walk-in closet. Sometimes, when he has a particularly nasty fight with one of his kids, or he discovers something (like an injury) that they were hiding from him, he’ll tell the stuffed animals all the things he struggles to tell his children in the hopes that, one day, he’ll figure out how to express himself when it actually counts.

Alfred:

Alfred has no stuffed animals of his own, but he keeps the old, worn teddy bear that was once Thomas’ and later Bruce’s, alongside the somewhat lopsided bunny that Martha attempted to sew for Bruce when he was two. They sit side by side in a spotless glass cabinet filled with other memories that various members of the family have at one point or another attempted to cast aside.

Dick:

Dick has a pair of stuffed elephants, Eleonore and Zitka, and a teddy bear of his own, all from the circus. Most of the time they sit on the shelf under one of his nightstands, but when he has a particularly bad day, he’ll hold them all tightly until he falls asleep. If he’s crying, he finds it slows the tears to press kisses to the tops of their heads, or just smoosh his whole face into them. Sometimes, if he’s having a particularly good day – especially if no one else is sharing in his good mood – he’ll tell them about whatever made him happy. The rarest occasions are a bittersweet combination of both, the moments when he dwells on his happiest memories of his parents. When this happens, he is more likely to address them than his family, talking to them like old friends who were “there” for the things he’s recalling. It reminds him of the parties he would host as a small child, attended by his stuffed animals and his parents and sometimes other people from the giant family that was Haly’s, and for just that moment he’ll feel suspended somewhere between grief and content.

Barbara:

Barbara had lots of stuffed animals growing up, but as she got older, she gave most of them away. The only one she kept was a little otter that her father gave her for her first birthday. She doesn’t remember this, of course, but they have an old home video of that day which she’s seen a few times, and she know it’s one of her dad’s favorites to watch when he’s feeling nostalgic. She does remember the way she used to drag the otter with her everywhere she went when she was about four, and it’s so worn now that all of its original fluffiness has disappeared. She sets it up near her main computer and uses it in place of a rubber duck.

Jim:

When Babs decided she was too old for her stuffed animals, Jim was instructed to give them away at one of the Gotham children’s toy drives he helps run as commissioner. Only about half of them ever make it out of the house, because he keeps looking at them and remembering little moments that involve each of them. He has two boxes full of them that he swears he’s going to bring to the next drive, but he’s been swearing that for over ten years now.

Jason:

When Jason first arrived at the manor, he swore up and down that stuffed animals were dumb kids toys that he was way too old for. The first time Dick showed up at the manor after Jason was there, he brought a plush dog he’d picked up on the way there, unsure what to get his surprise new brother but not putting an excess of thought into it either. After all, he wasn’t about to ask Bruce what Jason might like. Jason made a show of scorn and tossing the toy in the trash, but when Dick was gone he dug it back out. When he was sleeping, he clutched the dog protectively against his chest like it might be snatched away at any time. When he wasn’t sleeping, he kept it hidden in a box wedged under a floorboard beneath the bed, alongside his other contraband. It was there when he died and it’s still there now. Every time he’s in the manor, he thinks about sneaking into his old room to retrieve it, alongside some of his other old belongings, but he never does. His reasoning alternates between not caring, being too old for toys, not wanting to set foot in his old room, and not wanting to get caught caring after all these years.

He does however have an obnoxiously long bright red snake that Roy won at some sort of archery carnival game while they were supposed to be tracking a suspect. He’d griped at Roy for wasting time with frivolous games, a complaint that was very on brand for their relationship. He’s pretty sure Roy saw through him, though, and understood the real reason he was so antsy to leave the carnival, given his soft apology later that night. He also recently acquired a floppy stingray, a gift from Lian for his latest birthday. She told him that she’d gotten to pet a stingray at the aquarium where she’d bought it, and it reminded her of him. Specifically, she’d said he was, “Kinda dangerous and maybe a little scary, but actually really soft to anyone who’s nice enough”. He wasn’t sure how he felt about that description, but the gift had a place of pride, resting atop an old model of his helmet that Roy had “defaced” with a sweet message that always made Jason smile.

Cass:

Cass grew up without stuffed animals, and was honestly a little confused at first about why she might want one. The first one she ever got was a tiny key-chain cat that was given to her by a little girl she saved. She was unsure what to make of the object itself, but she treasured it as a symbol, proof that she was doing good in the world. It was Steph who convinced her to look for more, to look for stuffed animals in her “style”. Eventually, she got two of the most different ones she could find: an iridescent octopus packed tightly with beans and made of a coarse fabric, and a large fluffy goose that squished like a cloud and was made of the softest fabric imaginable. She likes tossing the octopus lightly in the air to feel the weight of it, and faceplanting into the giant goose. She also has a big bear holding a plush heart that Steph got her for their first Valentine’s.

Tim:

Tim’s relationship with stuffed animals is a bit more complicated. He had five growing up: a dog, a bear, a lion, a rabbit, and a lamb. They had names, stories, personalities, and they were his friends (his only friends, at the time). When he was seven, he woke up one day to find them gone. His mother scolded him for his tears, explaining that he was too old for baby toys, and that his attachment to them would only hinder his path forward. For years, he felt ashamed whenever he thought of his grief towards them, because he knew they were just toys, he knew he was being a baby about it, and yet…

It wasn’t until he was fifteen years old and stumbled across an article about autistic people and the projection of feelings onto objects that he understood why he had been willing to sneak out at night to search through pawn store after pawn store and – once – the landfill in the hopes of seeing his beloved toys again. As a teen in the Wayne household, he knew he could get as many stuffed animals as he liked, but he couldn’t bring himself to do so after what had happened before. He got one giant, floppy moose, barely half a foot shorter than himself, that he clings to like an octopus when he manages to lay down, whether he succeeds in falling asleep or not. Additionally, on a night after Jason made amends with the family, Tim returned to his room to find a fifteen inch plush latte with a cute little face on the mug portion and a sticky note on top that simply read: Sorry for trying to kill you a bunch. My bad :) He keeps it on top of his dresser, and while he doesn’t really hug it, he did discover it was the perfect object for chucking at his siblings’ heads whenever the situation calls for it.

Steph:

Steph loves stuffed animals. While she never got any of the fancy brand name ones, or the luxuriously soft ones, or the hyper-realistic ones, her mom had a tradition of buying her one for every birthday, Christmas, and Easter. She soon had quite a collection, and – like Tim – she gave them all names and personalities. She played out complex scenarios with them and the few dolls she had, designing an intricate world of wild concepts and plots. She also used her stuffed animals to conquer her fears, like thunderstorms and darkness, by pretending they were all more scared than she was, so she had to be brave for all of them. Steph still has her whole collection, as well as quite a few “nicer” (though equally loved) ones that she has acquired from various Waynes. At this point, pretty much everyone in the Wayne family has given her a stuffed animal at some time or other. For a couple of years now, she has taken to posing with her massive collection and making fake family Christmas cards to send out to everyone she knows, where she will update them on the well-being of any plushie they’ve given her.

Duke:

Duke also has a great love of stuffed animals, although he doesn’t match Steph for quantity. He only had a few beloved animals growing up, all of which he’s held onto (a panda, a penguin, a turtle, a frog, a leopard, and a pikachu). Since being fostered by Bruce, Duke has taken to searching out and buying only the rarest stuffed animals he can find: an anteater, a platypus, a manatee, a sloth, and an axolotl have made the cut so far. Bruce knows about this and has taken to keeping an eye out for anything interesting whenever he’s out. After accidentally mentioning it at a gala one time, it has since become his favorite topic, as getting drawn into an intense discussion with Bruce Wayne about where to acquire strange plushies for his son elicits one of two reactions from his guests: delighted awws or hilariously awkward attempts to steer the conversation back to high society definitions of business and pleasure. At Duke’s request, a large shelf was built around the top of his room, so that all of his stuffed animals can sit comfortably and be clearly seen.

Damian:

Damian was much like Jason when he arrived at the manor in more ways than one, but his determination to prove himself above stuffed animals was certainly on that list. He sneered at his siblings’ attempts to treat him like the child he swore he wasn’t. And honestly, even after he began to lower his walls just a little, he still wasn’t particularly fond of stuffed animals. Sure, he privately thought they were cute, and sure he might (might) find himself holding one at night if it happened to have been left in his bed by an annoying sibling, but in general he preferred live animals to fake ones. Real animals had personalities and feelings, fake ones did not, it was as simple as that, no matter what Stephanie claimed. But as time went on, Damian found himself acquiring a small army of stuffed animals against his will. Some of his siblings (Jason, Tim, sometimes Duke) gave them to him because they found it funny to watch him growl about how he was not an infant in need of deceitful comforts. Some of his siblings (Dick, Cass, sometimes Duke… sometimes his father as well) would give them to him because they knew he liked animals so they assumed he’d like imitations of animals as well. Steph would just give them to everybody, every now and then. But regardless of motive, Damian soon found his room overflowing with stuffed animals that were moderately cute but ultimately pointless.

It wasn’t until a patrol a few years after he’d taken on the mantle of Robin that he discovered a solution. Tim had hidden a tiny stuffed bear in the medical supply compartment of his utility belt, a felt bandage wrapped around its little head. He hadn’t been wounded, but the young girl he’d rescued had been bleeding from a wound that looked worryingly dirty. The bear had fallen out of the pouch, right into her lap, and she’d stared at it with wide eyes, surprise halting the flow of her tears. She’d held onto it the whole time he disinfected her arm and bandaged it, and afterwards he had insisted she keep it. For the first time that night, she’d smiled. After that, Damian began taking a few of his many stuffed animals out on patrol with him, ready to hand out to any and all injured, lost, or otherwise traumatized children once he’d rescued them from their troubles. Eventually he began running out of toys he’d been gifted, even though he kept getting new ones, so at some point he begins to regularly sneak out for the sole purpose of acquiring stuffed animals to hand out. He never tells his siblings, but he suspects they’ve found out anyway, when the presents they give him drastically decrease in size.

#batfamily #dick grayson #jason todd #tim drake #damian wayne #duke thomas #cassandra cain #stephanie brown #barbara gordon #jim gordon #bruce wayne #alfred pennyworth #jayroy #stephcass #my headcanons #i stole elements of the hc for dick tim steph and duke from my own personality lmao #also the only portion of this that draws on canon (to my knowledge) is the stuff about dick #i've seen stuff about him having a stuffed elephant with both of those names so i decided to just give him two #can't go wrong with extra elephants #but yeah i hope there's nothing that like blatantly contradicts any of this stuff #i'm trying to speed read a bunch of comics rn but i keep reading like 50s-80s era primarily #so there's a number of characters i haven't really gotten to yet #also i've discovered i find green arrow comics more entertaining so lowkey i keep reading those instead oops #i have a very convoluted list of what i need to read to hit the major plot points of batfam and arrowfam #but i also lowkey feel like major plot point comics are gonna tell me less about characterization #filler episodes are where its at #but there's no reading order lists that give me 'best filler issues' sorted by character

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chickensarentcheap · 4 years

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Best Part of Me -Chapter 62

Warnings: none

Tagging: @innerpaperexpertcloud, @c-a-v-a-l-r-y, @alievans007, @ocfairygodmother

She stands on the patio area; where terracotta and highly polished stone and faux games of various colours -laid out in intricate patterns- meet rich, luscious green grass. A fussy and cranky Addie lying along on arm and a hand over her eyes; shielding them from the bright, powerful sun as she watches TJ and Millie -supervised by their uncle- entertain themselves on the elaborate wooden playground. Their exuberant and lively conversation floats on the breeze, accompanied by their giggles and occasional bickering; Millie successfully teaching Saju how to climb the stairs to the slide and slip down it. Less than a hundred feet avail one of the handful of nannies -Diya, an elderly woman who had helped raised both Anil and Saju and speaks both Hindi and Bengali but very little English- keeps a firm on hold on the back of Declan’s shirt as he crouches dangerously low to one of the many ponds; attempting to get a better look at turtles and frogs.

The three of them are settling in well; random tearful moments of missing home and school and their daddy, yet making the best of the situation. Always finding something to do to keep themselves busy and always managing to laugh and smile despite the tremendous changes to their young lives. TJ and Millie are especially adept at accepting new challenges; never struggling with transitions or upsets to their daily routines, simply taking things as they come and ‘rolling with the punches’. Rarely paying attention to the heavily armed guards that continuously patrol the perimeter and line the roof of the house. Their nerves don’t seem frazzled by the open display of weapons; never asking questions regarding just who these men are and why they’re always watching them.

Tanner is an entirely different story. He’s always struggled with change; becoming incredibly anxious with even the slightest tweak to his usual routine. Seeking comfort in familiar surroundings and finding it in sights, smells, and sounds. Needing advanced warnings before switching from one activity to the other; a sudden, abrupt change enough to bring on frayed nerves, irritable behaviour, stomach issues, and even tears. He’s easily overwhelmed by new and unfamiliar situations and is easily annoyed by crowds of people and too much noise or activity going on around him. He loves his version of normalcy; the same faces and voices surrounding him, the comforts of home with his own belongings and the sound and the smell of the ocean. And while he loves his siblings and shares an enormous, powerful bond with his twin brother and doesn’t shy away from playing with the others or sharing in adventures, he’s happiest when left alone; comfortable and content doing the things he loves.

It would be easy to force him to be more like brother and sister. To just throw him into sports as opposed to always having his nose stuck in books or engrossed in school work. To be more ‘kid like’ and pursue being a social butterfly instead of secluding himself. And while they encourage him to at least try and broaden his horizons and to experience new things and attempt to join in the fun that his siblings are having, they refuse to push him out of his comfort zone. Both had had parents that weren’t happy with how they acted or behaved and had been forced into becoming entirely different versions of themselves. Made to ‘fit in’ by society’s standards instead of being encouraged to be who they were meant to be. And they adamantly refuse to do that to their own children; knowing too well the kind of temporary anguish and long term negative effects that are inflicted when you’re forced to be something and someone you’re not.

He lounges under one of the many trees that form a border around the yard. Using a dozing and complacent Mac as support for his back; bare feet dug into the grass and his knees bent, impossibly thick and heavy hardcover novel resting on his thighs. Those wayward locks of hair falling across his forehead; brow furrowed and eyes narrowed in concentration. A facial expression identical to one she's seen many times in the course of nearly seven years.

Satisfied with the level of safety and security being provided to her other children, Esme moves a whimpering and grumpy Addie to her chest -a hand on the back of her head when the baby immediately nestles her face into her shoulder- and journeys over to where Tanner sits.

“What are you doing, nugget?” she inquires. “You look pretty comfy.”

“Just relaxing,” he replies without looking up. “Reading some.”

“You don’t want to go play with your brother and sister? Maybe go swimming? Or go and see the animals?” She often wonders if he’s lonely during his frequent moments of solitude. Unable to stop herself from worrying that he is. That he’s somehow missing out on his childhood even though he’s always expressed just how happy he is doing what he loves, not what others expect him to do.

“No, I’m happy where I am,” Tanner says. “Mac’s keeping me company. Besides. I’m kinda tired today. I did lots yesterday. And the day before. I just want to hang out.”

It’s easy to forget that he’s only five. So well spoken for someone so young; words always coming so easily to him and his tone always low and calm and his face and eyes so serious. Phenomenally intelligent and intuitive. And sensitive to a fault; always worrying about things that are way behind his years. Like his father in so many ways; allowing very few people to get close to him but fiercely protective of those who ‘make the cut’. Loving so deeply and so profoundly. Traits that his father successfully manages to hide from just about everyone, but Tanner is so open and honest about.

“What are you reading?” Esme asks, as she sinks down onto the grass beside him, stretching out her legs and laying Addie along her thighs.

“Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.”

She arches an eyebrow. “You’re reading a Harry Potter book?”

Tanner nods.

“You’re five.”

He shrugs.

“Where did you find that?”

“When I was talking to Anil yesterday, I told him that I really like to read. But not little kid books. Older kid books but not too much older. When I woke up this morning, there was a box of books by the bed, with my name written on it. Anil got them for me. All of the Harry Potters. I picked this one ‘cause I like the picture on the front.”

“And you can actually read and understand it?”

“Mom, I’m not stupid.”

“I never said you were stupid. In fact, you’re insanely smart. Almost too smart. But you’re also only five, nugget. A five year old being able to read that well?”

“You and daddy always read to me, even when I was a baby. I remember how you guys always made me repeat words, even when I was small. They’re in my brain and I recognize them when I see them and remember them. That’s how my brain works. I know what things say and I know what they mean. Is that weird?”

“Not weird. Just...I don’t know...just...wow.”

“Daddy said next time we’re in town, I can get The Hobbit. And then maybe Lord of the Rings for my birthday.”

“Can you read me some of Harry Potter?”

Tanner frowns. “You think I’m lying? I’m not making it up. I CAN read it.”

“Just humour me. Pick a random page and read me a bit of it, okay?”

“Alright…” he huffs dramatically, then grabs a leaf off the grass to use a bookmark before flipping to a different place in the book. “Now? Start now?”

Esme nods. “Just pick something. Anything”

“Okay…” one of his fingers rests on the page, the tip slowly following each word. “...it is a strange thing, but when you are dreading something and would give anything to slow down time, it has a ….” he pauses, frowning up at her. “I don’t know how to pronounce that word.”

She peers down at. “Disobliging.”

“...it has a disobliging habit of speeding up.”

Esme’s eyes widen.

“What? What’s wrong, mom? What did I do? Was that wrong?”

“No. It was right. Every word of it. I just...I don’t know...I think maybe daddy and I need to talk about sending you to a different school.”

“One for smart kids? ‘Cause no offence to any of the other kids, but they’re all stupid. I know how to read words like ‘cat’ and ‘dog’ and ‘ball’ and I can write sentences with those words in it. With my eyes closed! I know my full name, my address, my phone number. I even know daddy’s full name and his cell number and when he was born; day, date, and year. I even know how to tie my own shoes. A lot of those kids don’t do that stuff. Not even TJ knows how. Why can’t I be in a bigger kid class? Where the work is harder?”

“I don’t know if that’s allowed.”

“What? The school doesn’t like smart kids or something? It’s so boring there. I could stay home and you and daddy can teach me. You guys are both smart. You went to college.”

“I don’t think either of us can give you what you really need,” she admits. “Learning wise. But we’ll talk about; daddy and I. Okay?”

Tanner nods, then flips back to the page he’d been engrossed in when she’d interrupted him. “Hermione’s my favourite,” he says. “I read it for her mostly. I don’t care much for Ron or Harry. I think they’re whiners. Who’s your favourite?”

“I don’t have one. I’ve never read them.”

“What?” He looks mortified at the mere suggestion. “You’re how old and you’ve never read Harry Potter? That’s shameful mom. Maybe daddy’s read them.”

“I highly doubt your dad has read Harry Potter. He’s not really into that kind of stuff.”

“Daddy’s into cool guy stuff. Like UFC and football and beating people up.”

“Well he doesn’t necessarily LIKE beating them up. Sometimes he doesn’t have a choice.”

“He kills people sometimes too.”

Esme nods. “Sometimes.”

“Is he going to hell for doing it?” Tanner inquires. “For killing people? Isn’t killing people bad?”

“Most of the time it is.”

“But they deserve it, yeah? The people daddy kills? They deserve it?”

“Why are you talking about this? You’re five.”

“I’m not a dumb little kid. I know what daddy does; I know what his job is. I do hear people talking, you know. I know he gets paid to hurt people. I know he gets money to kill them. I know he’s a mercenary.”

Esme scowls. “How do you even know that word?”

“I hear things. And they stay in my brain. I don’t care, that's what he does. It’s just his job, it’s not who he is. He’s daddy. That’s all that matters. That when he’s with me, he’s just my dad. He only hurts bad people. He wouldn’t hurt me.”

“That’s the last thing he’d ever do. Hurt you.”

“I know. And I know he won’t let anyone else hurt me either. I feel safe when I’m with him. Because he’s big and strong and I know he’d protect me no matter what. He wouldn’t let anyone hurt me.”

“No. He definitely wouldn’t.”

Tanner sighs heavily. “I really hope he’s not dead.”

“What? Why would you even say that?”

“He hasn’t called in two days. Daddy always calls. ALWAYS. Right before bed. But two days and no calls. What if the bad guys got him?” He draws in a shaky breath as tears well in his eyes. “What if he’s dead and I never get to see him again?”

“Your dad is NOT dead.”

“What if he’s gone and I never get to hug him or his voice again? Or I never get to apologize for all the times I was bad and made him angry.”

“Tanner...oh my goodness…nugget…” she reaches out to brush his hair from his eyes. “Tanner...what in the world goes in that head of yours, baby boy?”

“I don’t mean to be bad. I don’t make daddy mad. I don’t mean to make him yell sometimes. I don’t mean to make him hate me.”

“Okay, first of all…” shes gives an appreciative smile to one of the other caregivers that rushes over when she sees Tanner in distress; taking Addie and giving Esme the freedom to scoop the now sobbing five year old into her arms. Cuddling him as she would a baby; across her body with one arm under the back of her legs, the other around his shoulders. “...daddy could never...EVER...hate you. He loves you. More than anything else in the world. He always has and he always will. Just because he gets mad and yells, doesn’t mean he hates you. And how often does he actually get mad and yell?”

“Not much.”

“It takes A LOT to get daddy THAT mad. And even if he does get angry, he still loves you. And it’s really not you he’s upset with. He’s just frustrated more than anything. And sometimes, that frustration isn’t even about you. It’s about him. He’s frustrated with himself. Because he struggles and it makes him sad and angry with himself and unfortunately, it gets taken out on your guys. Or me. Do you remember what I told you? About daddy’s brain?”

Tanner nods. “That it hurts. That it’s sad and in pain.”

“Well he’s working very hard at making his brain better. And the doctor is helping him and I’m helping him. And so are you guys. Because it’s you and your brothers and your sisters that make him the happiest?”

“Can’t he take some medicine to get better?”

“It’s not that easy. But he IS working on it. He works on it every day. And he’s tough and he’s strong but sometimes he needs help. He needs us to help him. Do you understand what I’m saying?”

The five year old nods.

“Daddy always loves you. He could never hate you. He helped make you. You’re part of him. You’re part of his new life; his second chance. There is no way he could ever hate you. Could you ever hate him?”

“Never,” he sniffles. “I love him too much.”

“Well that’s how he feels about you. And no. He’s not dead.”

“How do you know?”

“I would know. Trust me. He’s just busy, nugget. He’s got a lot going on. A lot on his mind and a lot to do.”

“He’s too busy to call us?”

“Sometimes he has to go places where he can’t use his phone. Where it’s not safe to call. But he will when he can. But he’s not dead. I promise.”

“I hope you’re right, mommy. ‘Cause I’d miss him. So much. I’d miss his face and his voice and smile and the way he tucks me in. And the way he always teases me about being so short. I get mad when other people do it, but not when daddy does it. It’s funny when daddy does it.”

“Well he makes fun of me for being short, too. I always tell him he's just ridiculously tall and has ridiculously big feet.”

“He DOES have really big feet,” Tanner declares, then giggles. “And his hand is bigger than my whole head, I swear. I bet he could kill someone with one punch. Do you think he could? Do you think he could break the guy at the grocery store in half?”

“What?” Esme laughs. “What guy at the grocery store?”

“The one that touched your bum. That guy with the weird hair and the Mustang. Do you think daddy could break him in half?”

“Well maybe not literally. But he could definitely hurt him pretty bad.”

“Could he kill him?”

“What is this obsession with your dad killing people?”

“I’m just curious. I wanna know how he killed someone with a garden rake. How is that possible?”

“I don’t know,” she says, as she combs her fingers through his hair. “I wasn’t there. I just know he did it. I don’t need the details.”

“And it was two people, yeah? How? I don’t understand it. I’ll have to ask him.”

Esme laughs. “You can ask, but I don’t he’s going to tell you.”

“Because you’ll tell him NOT to tell me.”

“Exactly. You need to know the details. Not with that kind of stuff.” She presses a series of kisses to his forehead, then his tears away with gentle fingertips. “Want some lunch?”

“I could eat. Can we have normal food? Like our normal? I miss our stuff.”

“I’ll see what’s in the kitchen and we’ll go from there.”

“Can I help? I wanna help. Remember when I used to always help you when it was just me, you, Millie and TJ? When daddy didn’t live with us for a bit? I was little but I still helped.”

“You were a big help,” she praises. “You used to love to fold laundry.”

“And you used to wrap me in the warm towels from the dryer. I liked when you did that. And I used to bring you tissues when you were sad and you would cry. Do you remember that?”

“I do,” she presses a kiss to his cheek. “You were like a knight in shining armour.”

“I slept with you all the time when you were lonely. Because you missed daddy even if you were really mad at him and didn’t want him around.”

“It’s not that I didn’t want him around. I just…”

“I know why he wasn’t there. Why he had to leave. It’s okay, mommy. I don’t blame you. Daddy wasn’t daddy. And it made me sad. I didn’t like him very much. He was really mean. He yelled a lot. Especially at you. I didn’t like it. I wanted to punch him in the face.”

“My little protector.” She kisses his cheek once more, then tousles his hair. “You know too much for someone so small.”

He pouts. “I’m not small.”

“Yes, you are.” She nuzzles the tip of her nose against his temple. “And you always will be to me.”

***

It’s shortly before one in the afternoon when Tyler arrives; stepping out of the chauffeured car provided by Anil. Eyes surveying the enormous white stucco ‘Spanish hacienda’ inspired home; immaculately kept lawns and gardens and an elaborate marble and gold fountain in the middle of the circular interlocking brick driveway. By normal standards, Mahajan’s had been lavish and large; sleek and modern, sparsely furnished and feeling cold and empty. Anil’s is unlike anything he’s ever seen; the gigantic home somehow welcoming with its turquoise colored front door and matching shutters on every window. The grounds are equally sprawling; everything well maintained and expertly manicured; gardens bursting with various types of flowers in a wide variety of colors. Not the kind of place that you’d expect someone ex military to reside in. Hell, even his own home is far beyond anything he could have ever dreamt about or hoped for. The five million from the IRA making it possible to afford a place like that, and with Anil’s generous initial offer and the constant flow of money going into the bank, he won’t ever have to worry about living expenses ever again. No more lying awake at night wondering how the hell he was going to pay a mortgage and all the bills, never mind how he’d put clothes on his kids’ backs and food in their bellies.

He shrugs a simple black backpack onto his left shoulder, the simple movement causing him to wince to when the fabric of his shirt presses and rubs against his upper arms. The injuries are noticeable now, and far worse than he’d expected them to be; the knees that had pressed into his biceps leaving purple and black bruises that he can feel right down to the bone. In a futile attempt to spare his kids the sight of the worst of the damage, he’d worn a long sleeve shirt to hide the marks, only to find that even the softest and smoothest of fabrics and the smallest of touches irritate his arms. His right is in a sling; forearm immobile across his chest, the shoulder long popped back into place yet still relatively useless and needing support. And his throat still throbs; rows of visible finger marks and solid area where a forearm had been placed against his neck in hopes of holding him still or rendering him unconscious.

It’s an all over body ache like he’s never experienced before; pain that seems to travel right to his very core, settling in and gnawing incessantly. Thankfully the after effects of the drug he’d been injected with have almost disappeared; only hampered by moments of temporary memory loss, confusion, and brief episodes of dizziness. He’d slept for two days. Only waking long enough to make trips to the bathroom and to get as much liquid into him as possible. No energy for anything beyond that. Battling crushing fatigue and an incessant migraine that saw the need for the curtains to be tightly drawn and all lights and television turned off at all times.

As much as he wants to be in on the action and feel useful to the team, the fact remains that right now, he’s anything but. Knee still throbbing and limp much more pronounced, a store bought brace doing little to immobilize it or help alleviate some of the pain. He’s able to use his right hand, but has very limited movement in the shoulder itself, making even the smallest of tasks like dressing himself almost impossible. Deep bruises travel along the small of his back and into both kidney areas; the physician Anil had brought in the day after the attack believing the bruising most likely affects the organs as well. Each piece of damage already done to a broken and tattered body making him the weakest link and forcing him to step back for a couple of days. And for once he’d been relieved at the thought of being benched until the doctor declared him ‘medically fit’ to get back into the thick of things. And when Anil had assured him that the team would be fine without him and told him to take the next forty eight hours to spend with his family, he hadn’t stuck around long enough to question the decision.

One of the armed guards leads him to the backyard, and he can hear the kids before he sees them; their excited chattering, squealing, and giggling accompanied the sound of splashing water and Kyle’s deep, calm voice. And it’s his brother in law that sees him first; giving him a broad smile and a nod in greeting, then whispering something in Millie’s ear as she clings to his neck. Her wet hair sticks to the sides of her face and her forehead when she glances over her shoulder; eyes immediately sparkling and a bright, wide smile spreading across her face.

“Daddy!” She shrieks, and abandons holding onto Kyle’s neck in favour of a frantic doggy paddle that takes her to the nearest ladder. “Daddy!”

Tyler had promised himself that he couldn’t crack. That he wouldn’t allow his tattered and fragile emotions get the better of him. His kids don’t need to see that; him bursting into tears and having a complete emotional meltdown. But he’d come so close...so fucking close...to never seeing them again. To never hearing their voices or feeling their hugs. To never seeing them grow up. And it’s impossible to completely hold back the desperation and relief; his throat feeling incredibly tight and tears burning his eyes as he manages to drop down to one knee as his daughter comes rushing towards him.

“Daddy!” Millie throws both arms around his neck, body drenched from the pool. “You’re here early! Mommy said you wouldn’t be here for a couple of days! But you’re already here!”

“I was able to get things done early.” Tyler explains. “Thought I’d show up and surprise you guys. What’s going on? You having a good time?”

“There’s lots of stuff to do here. Lots of cool stuff. But I still miss you. I wish you were here to do cool stuff WITH us.”

“I’ve got two days to spend with you guys. We can do all kinds of cool stuff.”

“Two whole days?”

He nods.

“Daddy gets to spend two whole days with us, Tyler,” she says to her younger brother, as he practically shoves her out of the way to get to his father. Another set of arms wrapping his neck; a second wet body pressed up against him. None of that matters. The dampness of his clothes, the wet hair against his skin, the smell of chlorine. The only thing that matters is the press of those tiny bodies against his, the sound of their voices, and the smiles on their faces and the tears in their eyes.

“What happened?” Millie gingerly touches his shoulder. “You hurt it? Again?”

“Just banged it up a little. I need to keep it in this thing for a couple of days. It’s nothing serious. Hey…” he lays a hand on the back of her head and presses a kiss to her brow. “...it’s okay. Don’t cry. I’m fine. I’m here, right?”

She nods, valiantly holding back a flood of tears as her gentle and curious fingertips trace the bruises on his neck. “A bad guy did this to you?”

“A very bad guy.”

“Did you kill him? ‘Cause he hurt you? Did you kill him?”

“Don’t cry, Millie,” TJ implores, perched upon his dad’s thigh, an arm still around his neck. “Daddy’s fine. He came to visit. That means the bad guy lost. That daddy was stronger and meaner than the other guy was. He’s alive, right? No bad guy’s ever gonna kill daddy. He’s too strong and too smart.”

“Does it hurt?” Her voice cracks as she continues her exploration.

“A little. The other guy looks worse.”

“How come?” TJ asks. “Is he dead? Please tell me he’s dead. ‘Cause that’s what he gets for messing with you.”

“How about we NOT talk about killing people?” Tyler suggests, and accepts the hand that Kyle offers; able to pull himself to his feet without too much or the dizziness setting in.

“You look like you’ve been to war and back again,” Kyle remarks, then hands over Declan’s small yet solid and strong body, wrapped in a towel.

“Feels I’ve been to hell and back.” he admits, and runs a hand over his son’s damp hair and places a long, gentle kiss to his forehead.

“Well if you look like that but you’re here, I take it the other guy is in a body bag.”

Tyler nods in confirmation, then lets TJ and Millie pull him towards the house via the side pockets on his cargos; talking over each other as they prattle on about the home theatre and the playground and the animals and all of the things they can’t wait to show him.

“How close did it come?” Kyle asks. “To you NOT being here?”

“Too close for comfort, that’s for sure. Needed to get away for a couple of days; clear my head. Figured this was the best place to do it.”

“Only place that matters,” Kyle reasons. “Things were starting to get a little tense around here. Wasn’t too bad when you didn’t call the first day, but when you missed the second? I thought my sister was going to have a mental breakdown. Then I see this…” he nods in the direction of Tyler’s injured shoulder. “...they didn’t get a hold of you, did they?”

“I’d look a lot worse if they did. And I definitely wouldn’t be here right now.”

“Tyler...oh my God…” The patio door slams shut behind Esme as she rushes out of the house in her bare feet, and he barely has time to pass Declan to his brother in law before she’s tossing her arms around his neck; her position on edge of the deck making them nearly the same height. Careful not to embrace him too enthusiastically; mindful of the injured shoulder, feeling the press of his immobile forearm against her. “...oh my God…” her hands are in the hair at the back of his head, fingers pressing into his scalp. And he can feel the way her body trembles against his and her tears against the side of her neck, not even trying to hold it in. Audible sobs of relief that have her shaking. And Kyle whisks Millie and TJ away; sparing the kids the sight of their emotionally fragile parents and giving them some sense of privacy. “...I was worried sick about you. Where the hell have you been?”

“It’s a long story.” He manages to hold back in his own tears, but the relief is evident in his voice. “I should have called. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to worry you.”

“I thought something happened to you. That they got a hold of you. And neither Yaz or Koen or Ovi would tell me anything but I could tell something was wrong. I figured it couldn’t be too bad if they weren’t showing up to tell me you’re dead. Are you okay? Both hands are still in his hair when she pulls back to look at him. “Jesus Christ, what happened?”

“Not right now, okay?” He rubs the small of her back, then covers her lips with his in a long, slow kiss. “Later. When the kids are in bed. I don’t want them hearing them. I don’t even want YOU hearing it.”

“This goes way beyond someone just jumping you, doesn’t it.”

Tyler nods.

“What the fuck happened?” Gentle fingertips travel over the top of his shoulder and onto the side of his neck. “Never mind that. HOW the fuck did it happen? I don’t understand how someone could get THAT close to you? How…?”

His hand moves to the side of her face and he silences her with another kiss. Longer this time. Deeper. Harder. It’s desperate and it’s needy; fuelled by the realization that he comes so goddamn close to never getting a moment like this again. IF they’d managed to get a hold of him, he would have spent days, weeks, even months, being put through unbelievable agony and torture. Knowing his family was still out there; completely vulnerable without him to protect them. And he knows that Mahajan would have not only let Esme know that he was still alive, but he would have made sure she knew exactly what was being done to him. With no hope of him ever surviving it.

“I’m so glad you’re okay.” Her voice is just shy of a whisper as she embraces him tightly, and she presses her lips against the side of his neck. “That you’re okay and you're here and I don't have to worry about you anymore. How long can you say? Overnight?”

“Couple days.”

“That’s more than I thought,” she sniffles. “I’ll take it.”

“It’s okay now,” Tyler places a kiss on her temple. “I’m here. Everything’s okay now,”

“It’s so far from okay. I’M so far from okay. But you’re alive and you’re in one piece and that’s all that matters right now. I was so scared, Tyler. I was so fucking scared.”

“I didn’t mean to scare you, baby. That’s the last thing I wanted. It was out of my control. Believe me when I say that..”

“I do. I do believe you. I just…” she pulls away once again and takes his face in her hands. “...I’m just so happy to see your stupidly handsome face.”

He gives a small chuckle and pecks her lips. “Where’s the baby? And Tanner?”

“They’re both napping. Tanner had a rough night. He’s having a hard time. And we really need to have a talk about him. About how smart he is. I can’t wrap my head around just HOW smart.”

“We’ll talk about it.”

“Go and see him,” she urges. “He’s in the living room. On the couch. He’s going to be so happy to see you. I’M so happy. And relieved. So fucking relieved.”

“It’s alright, Esme. I’m here.” He kisses her once more, then pulls her tightly against him with his one good arm. “I’m here.”

*****

Tyler spends a half an hour standing at the side of Addie’s crib. Watching her as she sleeps and reaching out to gingerly remove the soother than dangles precariously from her lips. The hand is soft and gentle that he lays against her hair; palm cupping the back of her head, thumb brushing repeatedly over her ear and then along the top of her cheek. And it’s then that he allows the tears to come. In that still, quiet room with the breeze fluttering the curtains and Addie’s tiny body rising and falling with each slow, steady breath. The enormity of what happened...what COULD have happen...finally hitting him. It’s the closest he’s been to death in nearly seven years. Had Farhad been successful at his attempt on the bridge and had Esme NOT been there to save him, his death would have been relatively quick; bleeding out in minutes and likely losing consciousness from shock before that happened. If his assailant had gotten a hold of him, death would have eluded him. At least until Mahajan felt he had learned his lesson.

He almost didn’t get this chance. The opportunity to see his infant daughter again. To see the way those long, dark eyelashes brush against the tops of her cheeks or how those soft, pink lips as if suckling from a bottle. To hear her soft breaths and the little murmurs and sighs. He’d come within minutes...maybe even seconds...of never experiencing her first birthday or seeing her take her first steps or hearing her call him daddy for the first time. It’s a sound -an experience- that always brings tears to his eyes and takes his breath away; the moment each of his children looked at him and smiled and finally knew exactly who he was and what to call him. Nothing on earth can possibly come close to that feeling.

He leaves her to sleep. Pressing the tips of two fingers to his lips before softly placing them against hers, then using a forearm to clear the tears from his face as he leaves the room. He’d slept for two days yet he’s still so fucking tired; body feeling as if it’s on autopilot, as if he’s simply going trough the motions of living. And while it’s a tremendous relief to be with his family and it was desperately needed, he hates that the sabbatical has been forced upon him. That some fucking asshole hired by Mahajan had not only gotten that close to him, but had been able to inflict the damage he had. It makes Tyler question everything; his confidence, his abilities, his skills. Whether or not he’s reached the end of the line. Forty is considered relatively old and washed up as far as mercenaries are concerned. And even without his underlying health issues, he can’t help but wonder if the attack is a sign that he’s lost his age and it’s time to let go. To leave field work behind him and just concentrate on running things in the background.

Tanner is still fast asleep on the couch; flat on his stomach with both arms wrapped around a throw pillow and a pout curving his lips. And he groans and grimaces as he kneels alongside his son, combing his fingers through his hair and pushing the wayward locks off his forehead; palm against his cheek, thumb brushing along the slope of his nose. And it isn’t until he leans in to press a kiss to his temple that Tanner stirs; giving a long, almost sad sigh and his eyes opening slightly.

“Daddy?” He breathes.

“Hey,” Tyler gives a soft, comforting smile. “I didn’t mean to wake you up.”

“Am I dreaming?”

“No, mate. You’re not dreaming. I’m really here.”

Those big blue eyes slowly widen; tears filling them, lower lip and chin quivering. “Daddy…” it comes out as a choked sob. “...you’re here...you’re okay...I was so worried about you. I was scared you were dead.”

“Well I’m not.” He lays a hand on the back of Tanner’s head and presses his lips to his brow, then his temple as those tiny arms circle his neck. “I’m here. With you.”

“You didn’t call. For two days! It scared me. I got worried. I thought the bad guys got you.”

“I’m sorry, Tanner. I didn’t mean to scare you. That’s the last thing I wanted to do. Things got a little crazy and I couldn’t get to my phone. I am so sorry, mate. You forgive me?”

Tanner nods. “I was dreaming about you.”

“You were? What were you dreaming about?”

“We went to Disney World. Remember how you said we could go when I was old enough? And that we could go on rides together? Do you remember?”

“I remember.”

“That's what it was about. Going there and going on rides. And eating lots of joke food. And watching the fireworks. You let me sit on your shoulders. I like when you let me do that. Maybe we can go soon to Disney World?”

“Maybe. I’d have to talk to your mom about it.”

“You got hurt?”

“A little.”

“The bad people hurt you?”

“Just a bit.”

“What did you do to them? Did you hurt them back?”

Tyler nods.

“Did you kill them?”

“Yeah,” he admits. “I did.”

“Does it make you sad? To kill people?”

“Sometimes, I guess.”

“Why? If they deserve it, why would you be sad?”

“It isn’t an easy thing to do. Even when they do deserve it.”

“Don’t be sad about it, daddy. You kill people so you can come home and see us. That’s why you do it, right?”

Tyler nods, swallowing around the painful lump of emotional sitting in his throat, tears sparkling in his eyes. Feeling regretful. Ashamed. Embarrassed of the person he’s become and the things he’s resorted to. The damage that his own hands have been able to inflict. The pain. The torture. The death.

“I don’t care if that's what you do,” Tanner continues. “For your job. I don’t care if you kill people. They're not good people. But YOU are. Only good people help. Only good people fight back. That’s what you always TJ when he fights the bullies at school. You said that good people always stick for people who can’t stick up for themselves. And that’s what you do, right? You help people who can’t do it themselves.”

“I guess that’s part of it. There’s so much more to it, though.”

“I don’t care what you have to do. Just as long as you come back. That’s all that matters. I don’t care what you have to do when you’re gone. As long as you’re daddy when you come home.”

He sniffles loudly and wipes away the tears that manage to escape. “You…” he presses a kiss to Tanner’s forehead. “...are way too pure and perfect for this world, you know that? This world doesn’t deserve someone like you.”

“Did you get to say? Overnight?”

“I get to stay for TWO nights.”

His entire face brightens. “Really?”

“Really,” Tyler confirms.

“We can do things together?”

“Yup. But I just gotta be careful with my shoulder. And my knee. It’s kinda messed up too.”

“Maybe you’re getting too old to fight the bad people.”

Tyler frowns. “Excuse you? How old do you think I am?”

“Uncle Koen said you used to ride a dinosaur to school.”

“He did, did he?”

Tanner nods.

“Remind me to flush the toilet the next Uncle Koen is in the shower.”

Tanner giggles. “That’s savage, daddy.”

“You want to come outside with me? So I can’t spend some time with everyone? Wanna show me the animals?”

Tanner nods enthusiastically, then tightens his hold around his father’s neck when he tries to stand. “I love you, daddy. I’m sorry for the times I made you mad and I made you yell. That you hated me.”

“Mate, I could never…ever...hate you. You’re my son. I helped your mom make you. No way I could ever hate you. And I’m sorry if I ever made you feel that way. For ever yelling at you. I shouldn’t do that. You forgive me?”

“Of course I do. You’re my dad.”

“I love you, Tanner,” Tyler wraps an around his son’s tiny frame and draws him tightly into him; eyes closed and his chin resting on the top of the five year old’s head. “You have no idea how much.”

#Tyler rake #tyler rake fan fiction #tyler rake fan fic #extraction #extraction 2020 #best part of me #chris hemsworth character.

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stinkysidebitch · 4 years

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BNHA characters as Zodiacs

BNHA characters as zodiac signs (Headcannon) featuring: Midoriya,Bakugou,Todoroki,Tsuyu,Mina,Kirishima,Kaminari,Shinso,Dabi, and Chisaki!

A/N: I know the characters already have zodiac signs but this is just based on their personalities, not their actual birthdays 😁

Midoriya

I personally see him as a Pisces ♓👌🏻

As soon as I read the description of pisces I was like "YES! There he go"

Reasons why I think he fit the description:

Midoriya is DEFINITELY emotional.

He's always chasing his dream of becoming a hero, determined to attain his goal 😌

SENSITIVE BOY HOURS.

He cried the first time he saw Eri smile, that’s def some Pisces shit 😩

HE IS BABIE👶

Bakugou

Another one where I read the description and INSTANTLY thought of this character...

Bakugou is an Aries ♈🧨

Stubborn asf, literally wont even let someone else help him if his life is in ACTUAL danger 😤

Defensive...

C'mon I mean he literally gets mad abt everythingggg

Random person "Bakugou did you get a haircut?"

Him: "WHAT DO YOU CARE, YOU EXTRA???"

No one:

Bakugou: 😤🖕

Literally 1000% Aries energy

Todoroki

The way he wanted his room to be really particular tipped me off to what Shouto would be.

Todoroki is a Taurus ♉✌

Calm asf, literally only ever has a facial expression when he's fighting 🤷🏻‍♂️

Practical, almost too practical tbh

How he organized his room(and literally put in new flooring to make it aesthetically pleasing), and when everyone was like "How tf did you do that??"🤨

And Shouto was just like: 😐 "I worked hard.."

That's some Taurus shit

They are all about the

Aesthetic 😌 💕

Tsuyu

Frog queen! 😩

Miss Tsu gives me Libra energy ♎🐸

Balanced af

Literally knows exactly what to do all the time

Reasonable 😌

Sis is smart.

Very good at coming up with plans to deal with the situations that she's in!

Sometimes she forgets to watch how she talks to people because she's more analytical than emotional 🤷🏻‍♂️

Mina

Mina gives me the same energy that my zodiac is supposed to have (I have more aquarius energy for some reason 🤔)

Mina is a gemini ♊🦄

Some reasons why I think this:

This bitch can break dance... like she can spin on her head and everything!😳

So yeah, def energenic...

Talented, again... she can literally spin on her head-

The life of the party!🥳

She's literally so much fun to be around and just wants everyone to have fun 🥺

Kirishima

This one was kinda hard for me ngl 😳

He do be kinda a Leo doe 😌♌

RaDiAnT

He is the human version of the sun, like legitimately the happiest, nicest boi.

Enthusiastic!

"WOW, THAT WAS SO MANLY!"

He is literally excited about everything 🤗

At first I thought maybe he was a Cancer, but then I saw the description for Leo and I rlly said: 👁👄👁

Since Leo's planet is the sun I knew that this HAD to be him 🌞

And he protects women from that stinky grape boy, which is some Leo type shit fs 💕

Kaminari

I was going to do Sero's zodiac too, but I think him and Kaminari are too similar in personality tbh

Spicy Sag 😏♐

Why do I think he's a Sagittarius, you may be asking yourself:

Um, he's literally a crackhead ☝️😩

Funny asf

He could make anyone laugh tbh

HIGH ENERGY!

He is the complete opposite of Todoroki in that he's loud, funny, and very, VeRy animated.

Never boring 🤷🏻‍♂️

Shinso

This one was fucking INFURIATING

It was so hard, I was torn between Libra and Virgo so I'm probably wrong here but..😩

I think Shinso is a Virgo ♍🤔

CEO of being logical

The thing with Shinso is that even though he's an introvert he's really good with people, and can easily manipulate them when needbe.

Quiet 🤫

You won't hear shit from him unless he needs you for something or actually likes you so..

Dominant

He is super intimidating, and seems to be in control when he wants to be 😅

Agressive? Kinda... I guess just when he needs to be?

It's hard to tell with him since we really dont know that much abt him 🧐

Dabi

I didnt know shit about zodiac signs before I started looking into it for this headcannon but I KNEW exactly what Dabi was before I even started 😩

Dabi is the most Scorpio out of all Scorpios ♏🦂

This man is mysterious, first of all 🤫

We dont even know how old he is..

Passionate

He will achieve his goal no matter what, but he's not stupid about it either!

Ice cold 🥶

He truly does not gaf

Violent (duh)

Likes to tease~

The first thing he did when he met Shigaraki was call him ugly 😩

Resourceful

He made the most out of Twice's quirk and succeeded in his goal as the leader on that mission (I'm not being specific because I dont want to spoil it for u✌)

(Sorry this one was so long but I have the most evidence for it)

Chisaki

CEO of making headcannons difficult for me

Okay so this one is weird because I think he is the evil version of this zodiac, but I see myself in this zodiac sometimes even tho I'm pretty nice to other ppl usually

I think he's an Aquarius ♒🙈

Aloof.

He looks like doesn't care about anything or anyone and that's because for the most part he doesn't 🤷🏻‍♂️

A good listener

He has to be in order for his negotiations to work out so...

Temperamental

As soon as Shigarakis team started disagreeing with him he said 🖐🤬

Independent

He doesn't really NEED anyone, he thinks that everyone needs him instead sis 😌

Sorry I didnt get every sign but Cancer was difficult 😩😩 No one is that chill on the show

#bnha headcannons #bnha imagines #bnha #zodiac #bnha kirishima #kaminari #bnha dabi #chisaki #bnha midoriya #bakugou #mina bnha #tsuyu bnha #headcanon

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taecheeksfr · 4 years

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Taecheeks Masterlist

Organized by Pairing & Length. As you should for all fics, please read the tags and beginning notes of each fic before reading!!

Hopekook

Christmas in July (2k)

Jungkook is excited to learn about Christmas. Hoseok gives it to him a few months early.

Yoonkook

in safe hands (15k)

Kookie snorts, handing him back the cigarette. “You’re not fooling anyone, Mr. Min. I know you want me, I can see it in your eyes. I offered you me for free, you didn’t need to be so valiant to get me. Unless this whole thing is about you wanting your own personal whore.”

Vmon

Home (4k)

“‘One never reaches home. But where paths that have an affinity for each other intersect, the whole world looks like home for a time,’” Namjoon reads in a low voice. He hums after that, a soft smile taking over his face.

“Sometimes I think about how I don’t have a place that feels like home,” Namjoon explains quietly. “I read this and think, maybe I don’t have a place but I do have somewhere that does.”

Yoonmin

All I Want (700)

Yoongi is Jimin’s Secret Santa

Home For Christmas (13k)

Jimin loves Christmas. Yoongi loves Jimin.

Media Naranja (49k)

side taekook

All of Hoseok’s rumors about Jimin being the President’s secret son, gone away into hiding after a death threat while he was a baby and needing to be protected by the President’s most trusted, Min Yoongi (which doesn’t make sense since they’re the same age, but no one seems to notice), or him being on the run from the government for accidentally leaking private information, or him being the rebellious son of one of South Korea’s wealthiest whose run away only to become the sugar daddy of one Local Cute Barista are false.

However, the rumors that Jung Hoseok spreads amongst their coworkers about Local Cute Barista’s being in love with the silver haired man with the obnoxious coffee order are very much true. That doesn’t stop Yoongi from denying it though.

Jikook

a sheep in wolf’s clothing (48k)

side taegiseok, wip

The stories of the sadistic, violent ways Jungkook’s known to kill and torment is enough to create a tremor in Jimin’s bones. He radiates an air of arrogance, his face a mask of threat, eyes dead of feeling. He’ll tear a man’s life apart and not give a shit about it.

Well, at least - that's what the rumors say.

Yoonminseok

Greedy (10k)

side taekook. wip

“Did you bring home dinner?”

Yoongi laughs quietly, kissing his temple. “You only love me for my food,” he whines.

Jimin punches him gently in the shoulder, rocking against him as he laughs quietly. “I love you for a lot of reasons.”

I love Hoseok too.

[Or alternatively; Yoongi and Jimin's relationship with Hoseok was supposed to just be about sex. That's it. But somehow along the way their hearts slipped into it and they're not sure how to tell the other.]

Multiple Ships

Kinktober ‘18

A series of pwps. WIP.

Taekook

Enticing (6k)

baby boy: waiting for u

Jungkook grits his teeth as he leans into the corner of the elevator to look at the picture that he knows is going to be inappropriate.

The only bit of Taehyung’s face in the picture is his sinfully parted lips, his head tilted back and chin jutting forward to highlight the sharp of his jaw. Jungkook focuses on the slope of his neck, and the thin black cloth wrapped over it.

He inhales sharply at the glittery pendant hanging over his Adam’s Apple spelling out his name.

jungkook: is that my surprise?

baby boy: there's more

play with me (8k)

“I’ve been hard all night.”

“Whose fault is that?” Jungkook asks, cocking his head as he lowers his lips until Taehyung can feel his breath warming across his mouth. “You could be coming right now, but only good boys can come, hm?”

Taehyung whimpers quietly, sinking lower into the seat. He likes when Jungkook crowds him in like this. He likes the way Jungkook slides a finger over his neck gently, despite the threat clinging to his words.

“I will be good now, baby. Let me show you.”

Jungkook grins before he shakes his head. “Nice try, Taehyung.”

strawberry cigarettes (9k)

“Hard not to be confident with the way you watch me,” Jungkook says.

“And what way is that?” The man sips again at his drink, dragging Jungkook’s attention to those long fingers of his.

“Like you want me.”

chiedere la luna (9k)

But it’s difficult to stay still, it’s difficult with his senses being flooded with Jungkook’s scent. It’s hard when Jungkook occasionally touches him, cupping the back of his neck or readjusting him on his lap and sending sparks up Taehyung’s spine.

It’s difficult with Jungkook’s cock nestled between his cheeks and the urge to wrap a hand around his own growing by the minute.

Maybe (15k)

“You - you deserve to be loved loudly.”

The words hang in the air for a moment before Taehyung’s brows scrunch and his pout appears. His fingers tighten in Jungkook’s shirt and Jungkook is moving closer even though Taehyung didn’t tug on him.

“You love everything loudly. You deserve to be loved that same way.”

Another laugh. Jungkook wonders if it’s a distraction from the way Taehyung lets go of his shirt to fit his hand under the material instead. Fireworks could go off and Jungkook wouldn’t notice, wouldn’t be able to take his attention away from Taehyung’s hands on his bare skin.

“I do,” Taehyung whispers, “which is why I don’t understand how you haven’t noticed.”

the happiest place on earth (15k)

“Oh god, Kook. Don’t tell me you’re going to propose in front of the Cinderella Castle. That’s like, extra cheesy. The most cheese, even for you.”

“No?” Jungkook laughs. Does it sound as nervous to Taehyung as it does to himself? “No, that’s corny. Definitely not.”

Dilemma (68k)

side namjin, yoonminseok implied

If anything is as routine as Yoongi whining about the room filling with smoke before he helps add to it is Taehyung slipping away sometime throughout the night to feed his kissing addiction. Even though Jungkook has lips and is usually in hands reach of Taehyung, he’ll disappear and reappear moments later with someone else. It’s fine.

It’s torture.

[Or the one where Jungkook likes frogs, Taehyung, and thinks everyone else sucks.]

just look to the moon (151k)

completed. implied minjoon/sope

“Do you remember when I first moved? When I didn’t know where I was going?”

“I remember.”

“I said no matter where I went, I would find a dock like this so we could still look at the moon together with our toes in the water.”

Taehyung smiles at the memory. “A poet you’ve always been. It’s all that sad love shit you listen to.”

Jungkook’s chest vibrates with his quiet laughter. “I’m just saying. That will be true even if we fall in love with different places.”

[Or, for as long as Taehyung can remember, he and Jungkook have been planning this after college graduation road trip. That's all Taehyung knew about his future; a summer, a lifetime, side by side with Jungkook. He didn't know it would be his last summer with Jungkook, and that it would be years before he saw him again.]

time or place (i’ll come back to you) (131k)

side yoonminseok, side namjin

"Go Taehyung. I'll find you, you know I'll always find you."

[Prompt: Vampires can become servants. They feed off of human servants, drink animal blood, or drink from each other if mated.

Vampires can be enslaved/bound by an object they hold dear to them. These are usually worn by their master (or they just wear a few and command one of the vampires to guard the other items).

Taehyung (at age 8) makes the mistake of getting Jungkook’s ring back. Jungkook kills his whole family and spares Taehyung to return the favor.

Years pass, and they meet again when Taehyung grows up. Jungkook had already forgotten about the incident but Taehyung had not.]

companion fic: Together Again (6k)

“Taehyung,” Jungkook murmurs, eyes searching over his face. He does seem fine, but he’s still an idiot. “What are you doing wandering around by yourself?”

Taehyung hums, head cocking to the side as he rubs his fingers down Jungkook’s nape. He nudges him forward, guiding Jungkook towards the thick, blue vein he can see trailing down Taehyung’s throat.

“Someone’s being stubborn and won’t feed,” Taehyung whispers. “Good thing I just happen to be his favorite snack.”

chemistry (200k)

side yoonminseok, side namjin

“What’s your zodiac sign?”

“Virgo,” Jungkook responds without thinking. He frowns, glaring. “Why?”

“Hm, I can work with that,” Taehyung says. “I’m a Capricorn.”

“Fascinating. Now back to Chemistry -”

“Isn’t that what I was talking about?”

[Or, Jungkook just wants to get his tutoring sessions with the President's son over with. Taehyung just wants to get his cute tutor under him.]

companion fic: Meet the Parents (5k)

“Appa and Eomma are coming for dinner,” Jungkook reminds him.

Taehyung looks terrified now, but he quickly schools his features when Jungkook looks to him.

“You forgot,” Jungkook comments.

Immediately, Taehyung shakes his head. His lips purse out, the lie obvious on his face.

“No, of course not,” Taehyung tells him. “I’ve been looking forward to it. Excited even. I can’t fricking wait, Jeon.”

Nodus Tollens (384k)

Yoonmin is also a main pairing. Side Namjin, Hoseok/Jooheon

“I don’t like,” Jeongguk starts off, hesitating with what to say. “I know you must be doing this to take care of your siblings. Let me help in a way where you don’t have to put yourself in harmful situations.” Taehyung snorts but there’s no emotion to it. He pats his face with a cotton swab, drying the sweat clinging to his forehead. “I don’t need a hero, Gukkie baby.” “Nah, I heard you need a Daddy.” This time when Taehyung snorts, it sounds half amused and half embarrassed. [Or the one where Taehyung's life and the rules he set up for himself had been easy before he met Jeongguk. He's definitely not making things harder on himself, thanks.]

#mine #ao3 #taekook #yoonmin #yoonminseok #vmon #jikook #hopekook #yoonkook

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natfosho26 · 4 years

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1: How tall or short do you wish you were? I wish I was like 5’8”

2: What’s your dream pet? (Real or not) dinosaur lol

3: Do you have a favorite clothing style? Not really. Jeans and a t shirt

4: What was your favorite video game growing up? Tony hawk pro skater and gta’s

5: What three things/people do you think of most each day: sex, food, and materialistic wants

6: If you had a warning label, what would yours say? “Damaged goods”

7: What is your opinion on [insert person/thing here]? You didn’t put anything lol

8: What is your Greek personality type? [Sanguine, Phlegmatic, Choleric, or Melancholic] sanguine

9: Are you ticklish? Very

10: Are you allergic to anything? Penicillin, avocado, and pineapple

11: What’s your sexuality? Bisexual

12: Do you prefer tea, coffee, or cocoa? Coffee

13: Are you a cat or dog person? Dog

14: Would you rather be a vampire, elf, or merperson? Merperson

15: Do you have a favorite Youtuber? No

16: How tall are you? 5’4”

17: If you had to change your name, what would you change it to? I wouldn’t

18: How much do you weigh? [Only ask this if you know the user doesn’t mind!] under 200 lbs

19: Do you believe in ghosts/spirits? Yes

20: Do you like space or the ocean more? Both

21: Are you religious? A tad

22: Pet peeves? Lies, loud mouth chewing

23: Would you rather be nocturnal or diurnal [opposite of nocturnal]? Nocturnal

24: Favorite constellation? My cancer constellation

25: Favorite star? I don’t have one

26: Do you like ball-jointed dolls? What. No

27: Any phobias or fears? Moths and frogs lol

28: Do you think global warming is real? Very

29: Do you believe in reincarnation? Eh

30: Favorite movie? Sweeney Todd, love & basketball, rent, all the Batman movies lol

31: Do you get scared easily? No

32: How many pets have you own in your lifetime? Two

33: Blog rate? [You’ll rate the blog of the one who’s asking.] ?

34: What is a color that calms you? Blue

35: Where would you like to travel and/or live? Travel - Greece, Ireland, Scotland, Europe and live Colorado, Oregon, Washington

36: Where were you born? El Paso, TX

37: What is your eye color? Light brown

38: Introvert or extrovert? Both

39: Do you believe in horoscopes and zodiacs? Eh

40: Hugs or kisses? Kisses

41: Who is someone you would like to see/visit right now? My best friend

42: Who is someone you love deeply? My family

43: Any piercings you want? My nipples

44: Do you like tattoos and piercings? Very much so

45: Do you smoke or have you eiver done so? I’m smoking rn lol

46: Talk about your crush, if you have one! Negative

47: What is a sound you really hate? Screeching sounds

48: A sound you really love? The ocean

49: Can you do a backflip? No

50: Can you do the splits? No

51: Favorite actor and/or actress? Jason Mamoa, Dwayne Johnson, Tina Fey, Amy Poehler

52: Favorite movie? Refer to 30

53: How are you feeling right now? Pretty down

54: What color would you like your hair to be right now? I like my hair color

55: When did you feel happiest? When I’m conducting an ensemble or playing an instrument

56: Something that calms you down? Music

57: Have any mental disorders? [Only ask this if you know the user doesn’t mind!] depression and anxiety but everyone has that now

58: What does your URL mean? My name and basketball number from hs

59: What three words describe you the most? Patient, understanding, and creative

60: Do you believe in evolution? Yes

61: What makes you unfollow a blog? Racist, sexist, homophobic, trump supporting all that shit

62: What makes you follow a blog? Stuff I like lol

63: Favorite kind of person: calm, curious, and artistic

64: Favorite animal(s): dinosaurs, whale sharks, jellyfish, octopus, and dogs

65: Name three of your favorite blogs. @thisismebeforeicomeundone @plastic-pipes @soyoumusik

66: Favorite emoticon: 🤔

67: Favorite meme: the girl yelling at the cat

68: What is your MBTI personality type? INTP

69: What is your star sign? Cancer

70: Can your dog roll over on command, if you have a dog? No she’s a bitch lol

71: What outfit out of all your clothes do you like to wear the most? Sweats and a shirt

72: Post a selfie or two? Maybe later

73: Do you have platform shoes? No

74: What is one random but interesting fact about yourself? I am double jointed in my elbows

75: Can you do a front flip? No

76: Do you like birds? No

77: Do you like to swim? Yes

78: Is swimming or ice skating more fun to you? Ice skating

79: Something you wish didn’t exist: trump

80: Some thing you wish did exist: dragons

81: Piercings you have? My ears

82: Something you really enjoy doing: making music

83: Favorite person to talk to: my roommate

84: What was your first impression of Tumblr? I can use this in high school lmao

85: How many followers do you have? 457

86: Can you run a mile within ten minutes? Hell no

87: Do your socks always match? Yes

88: Can you touch your toes and keep your legs straight completely?yes

89: What are your birthstones? Ruby

90: If you were an animal, which one would you be? Maybe a sloth or shark

91: If a flower could aesthetically represent you, what kind would it be? Hmm...idk I don’t know flowers enough

92: A store you hate? Burlington

93: How many cups of coffee can you drink in one day? Like 7 lol

94: Would you rather be able to fly or read minds? Read minds

95: Do you like to wear camo? Nope

96: Winter or summer? Summer

97: How long can you hold your breath for? Like 45 secs

98: Least favorite person? N/a

99: Someone you look up to: alondra de la parra

100: A store you love? Barnes and noble

101: Favorite type of shoes? Vans

102: Where do you live? Las cruces, NM

103: Are you a vegetarian or vegan? If so, why? I’m not lol

104: What is your favorite mineral or gem? Obsidian

105: Do you drink milk? Lactose intolerant

106: Do you like bugs? Nope

107: Do you like spiders? Nope

108: Something you get paranoid about? I don’t really

109: Can you draw: eh

110: Nosiest question you have ever been asked? If my parents were born in the states or not

111: A question you hate being asked? If I have kids

112: Ever been bitten by a spider? No

113: Do you like the sound of waves at the beach? Love it

114: Do you prefer cloudy or sunny days? Both

115: Someone you’d like to kiss or cuddle right now: n/a

116: Favorite cloud type: the ones that looks like waves

117: What color do you wish the sky was? Sunset colors

118: Do you have freckles? Yes

119: Favorite thing about a person: their eyes or lips

120: Fruits or vegetables? Fruits

121: Something you want to do right now: watch Star Wars

122: Is the ocean or sky prettier? Sky

123: Sweet or sour foods? Sweet

124: Bright or dim lights? Dim

125: Do you believe in a certain magical creature? Dragons lol

126: Something you hate about Tumblr: the ads

127: Something you love about Tumblr: the people I follow lol so my dashboard

128: What do you think about the least? Taxes and shit

129: What would you want written on your tombstone? Something with Batman

130: Who would you like to punch in the face right now? Trump

131: What is something you love but also hate about yourself? How indecisive I can be

132: Do you smile with your teeth showing for pictures? Sometimes

133: Computer or TV? Computer

134: Do you like roller coasters? Love them

135: Do you get motion sickness or seasickness? No

136: Are your ears lobed or attached? Lobed

137: Do you believe in karma? Yes

138: On a scale of 1-10, how attractive would you say you are? 5

139: What nicknames do you have/have had? Nat or natocato

140: Did you have any pretend or imaginary friends? Yes

141: Have you ever seen a therapist/shrink? Yes

142: Would you say you are a good or bad influence to others? Good

143: Do you prefer giving or receiving gifts/help? Giving

144: What makes you angry? Trump. Ignorant people. Cheaters

145: How many languages do you speak fluently? Two

146: Do you prefer boys, girls, and/or non-binaries? Boys and girls

147: Are you androgynous? No

148: Favorite physical thing about yourself: my lips

149: Favorite thing about your personality: my loyalty

150: Name three people you would like to talk to right now in person. Aaron, Krystal, and Andy

151: If you could go back into time and live in one era, which would you choose? Revolution era just to hear certain composers

152: Do you like BuzzFeed? Eh not really

153: How did you meet your spouse/girlfriend/boyfriend/partner? [If you have one.] don’t have one

154: Do you like to kiss others’ foreheads or hands for platonic reasons? Yes lol

155: Do you like to play with others’ hair? Yes

156: What embarrasses you? Nothing really lol

157: Something that makes you nervous/anxious: “I need to talk to tou”

158: Biggest lie you have ever told: that I had no marijuana in the car when I get pulled over lmao

159: How many people are you following? 583

160: How many posts do you have on your blog(s)? Too many lol

161: How many drafts do you have on your blog(s)? None

162: How many likes do you have on your blog(s)? Hmm idk

163: Last time you cried and why: earlier, some hurtful words

164: Do you have long or short hair? Long

165: Longest your hair has ever been: below my butt

166: Why do you like, dislike, or have neutral feelings about religon? Too many rules and money hungry organizations

167: Do you really care how the universe and world was created? Yes

168: Do you like to wear makeup? Hate it

169: Can you stand on your hands or head for more than thirty seconds? Yes

170: Did you answer the questions you were asked truthfully? Yes

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profoundnet · 5 years

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Thank you to all these amazing people for participating in the Profound Bond’s Fairy Tale Exchange 2019! I hope everyone enjoyed their amazing gifts. The next round opens up soon, so keep an eye open on that! And special thanks to @foxymoley for creating this beautiful banner for us!!!

If you’d like to join the exchange, then head on over and join our discord! Information can be found on the wiki which you can access here.

List of creations below the cut.

A Kissing Story by @nickelkeep for morrigan (eliza_sugarcane)

Dean is nursing a cold and because he wants to make sure his immune system stays up to snuff, he refuses to let Cas heal him. Cas plays along and heals him in the old fashion way. With Orange Juice, Chicken Noodle Soup... and a Bedtime Story?

General Rating

Tags: Fairy Tale Retelling, Domestic Fluff, Established Destiel, Story within a Story, The Princess Bride References

Pearl Diving and Other Magical Acts by @drawlight for JessJessTheBest

There are no such things as fairytales. Except maybe the one about the angel with the human heart. How does it go? Oh yes, that's right, Once Upon A Time.

Teen Rating

Tags: Soulmates, True Love, Pining, Fairytale Elements, The Snow Queen Elements

Turning Pages by @tobythewise for saltnhalo

When Dean and Castiel find themselves thrust into the pages of a storybook, Dean has flashbacks of Gabriel's tricks. He assumes that if he can go through with how the story is supposed to be told, he can navigate himself back out. But can he really go through with what the Book expects him to do? OR The one where Dean attempts to be Prince Charming five times and fails and the one time Castiel succeeds.

General Rating

Tags: Canon Divergent, True Love's kiss, Fairytale elements, Crack treated Seriously

I Found by @unholy-wine for Jess [thatpeculiarone]

On the day his new neighbor moves in, Dean finds a plant on the sidewalk in front of his house. Perhaps it’s generous to call it a plant: it’s small, and doesn’t seem like it has much of a life left without interference. He hesitates. Maybe the plant is his neighbor's. He should go ask.

Teen Rating

Tags: Fluff, Witch!Cas

With Conviction by @profound-boning for iCeDreams

Once upon a time, a simple encounter changes the course of two boys’ lives forever. It all begins at the market.

General Rating

Tags: No warnings apply, historical au, royalty au, fantasy au, alternating POVs, love at first sight, happy ending

The Hunter and the Angel by @a-insominia for snarkysnartes

The monsters are still around, but so is the angel. And on the darkest of nights when your blood could freeze, when you hear a creak on the floorboard, see a shadow at the window, hear a whisper on the wind - that's when he comes, fulfilling a promise he made to the hunter.

Teen Rating

Tags: Major Character Death, Post-Canon, Heavy Angst, Post-Canon, References to Canon, Winchesters in Heaven, Future Fic

The Happiest Place on Earth by thatpeculiarone for robotsnchicks

Somehow Team Free Will 2.0 end up in Florida and somehow, they end up in Disney World. Dean finds himself in a land of fairy tales and make believe but is ultimately prepared for a day of nightmares. Yet, it turns out Disney World has a lot of surprises.

Teen Rating

Tags: Disney World, First Kiss, Canon Universe, Dean's Fear of Heights

Aladdean by @alessariel for profound-boning

There’s no nice way to put it: Dean’s a thief (among other unsavory things). But no matter what the palace guard claims, Dean only steals what he and his brother need to survive. Down on his luck and starving, Dean is approached by a strange man offering him the chance of a lifetime. It’s supposed to be an easy job. What could possibly go wrong? *** After the storm summoned by his rage and desperation had died down, Castiel collapsed on the smooth metallic floor. Castiel‘s mind wandered back to the one thing occupying it since he’d found himself imprisoned here once more. For an ageless being of insurmountable powers it was kind of pathetic how he couldn‘t stop thinking about one lowly, inconsequential human. Only Dean was anything but low or inconsequential, at least to Castiel.

Mature Rating

Tags: Fairytale Fusion, Angst, First Kiss, Wingfic, Djinn!Cas, Mentions of Prostitution, Desperate Dean, no smut, minor Charlie/Meg

Kiss Me Like One Of Your French Frogs by @nox-lee for sunny/blueeyesandpie

When a routine hunt goes sideways, Cas is hit with a curse and turned into a frog. Sam and Dean hit the books to find a cure, and Dean finds more than he bargained for.

Teen Rating

Tags: canon universe, fairy tale curses, animal transformation, true love's kiss

(Pillowfort)

Disappear in the Trees by @wildsofourhearts for MalMuses

In a library that once entered, can't be exited, Castiel, against his will, works as the lone librarian, doing his best to make the people who wander inside comfortable in their final moments. Forced to weave human lives into storybooks for the library to devour, he hasn't seen the outside world in decades. Enter Dean Winchester. Can the chains of the library hold Castiel with another, more profound, bond forming between he and Dean?

Teen Rating

Tags: Hunter Dean Winchester, Librarian Castiel, Dark Fairy Tale Elements, Castiel and Dean Winchester Have a Profound Bond, Falling in Love, Hurt Castiel, Protective Dean Winchester

Under the Red Hood by iCeDreams for noxlee

Do not go into the woods, do not go when the moon is full and the wolf howls, hiding in the thicket. Having been under Wolf’s Night for more than ten generations, Dean trained under the Order of the Hunters to slay the wolf that has been taking the children from Chesterford. Donning his red hood, he seeks out this monster to make Silver Ash safe again.

Teen Rating

Tags: Injured Dean Winchester, Mentor/Protégé, Snarky Castiel, Alternate Universe - Fantasy, Red Riding Hood,

(Fanfiction.Net)

Of Bears and Dinosaurs by @elizasugarcane for canadduh

Dean sometimes wonders what he did to deserve this.

Teen Rating

Tags: Fluff, parent cas, bedtime story, cute

You Broke Up With Me by turningthepages for Pimmy

"Fairytales ain’t real and if they were I wouldn’t wanna have that shit. I mean who’s that happy all the damn time? If you always have sunshine coming outta your ass then where’s the passion?"

Mature Rating

Tags: Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Friends to Lovers

What All Fairy Tales Have in Common by @blueeyesandpie for Insominia

Dean is struck by a sleeping curse, and there doesn't appear to be a cure...

Teen Rating

Tags: Fairytale elements, Sleeping Beauty, angst with a happy ending, canon compliant, Sam feels guilty when he shouldn't

i'm where i'm meant to be by @hanneswrites for usarechan

DeanCas Tangled AU || Fluff Dean has been crushing on Cas since they first met, their feelings come to a head during the yearly Lantern Celebration (from Tangled).

General Rating

Tags: Shipper Sam, Oblivious Dean, Alternate Universe - Tangled (2010), First Kiss, Getting Together

Old Tales Made New by @malmuses for sternchencas

Cas enjoyed a quiet, pleasant life. A little lonely in the love department, perhaps, but he had a pleasant rhythm to his days thanks to running his basement bookstore, Subtext. His days got a pleasant little shake-up when a hurricane blew a fantastically beautiful book-lover into his store; Unfortunately, Dean wasn't from Sioux Falls, and Cas wasn't sure if he was interested in any more than a dry place to pass the time. Obviously, Cas didn't pine. He was far too sensible for that. Or so he told himself.

Teen Rating

Tags: Alternate Universe - Bookstore, Bookstore Owner Castiel, Mechanic Dean Winchester, Mutual Pining, Epistolary, POV Castiel, First Kiss, Awkward Flirting, Castiel recites Shakespeare

Shifting Stories by @malmuses for turningthepages

Gabriel had seen a lot of pining in his time. Over the slow passing of millennia, he’d observed some of the world’s greatest love stories. Antony and Cleopatra. Orpheus and Eurydice. Mary and Joseph, not to toot his own horn. But these two… these two might be the death of him... Gabriel had only been in the bunker three days, but he was already totally done watching Dean and Cas dance around each other, awkwardly no-homoing their way through life. So, he came to a decision. He was going to make them fake it. He might have been a little low on grace, but pocket dimensions and reality manipulation? Child's play, for him! Time for some new roles for Dean and Cas, in their very own fairytales. "Changing Channels" but with fairytales. Or, when Gabriel gets fed up and forces the hunter and the angel to play at getting together... repeatedly.

Teen Rating

Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Inspired by Changing Channels, Fake/Pretend Relationship (or kind of), Dean Winchester Needs to Use Actual Words, Friends to Lovers, Gabriel Ex Machina, Miscommunication

Groundhogs in Sweaters by @saywhatjessie for unholywine (floor)

“You ever think about what our lives would be like if the monsters looked like how they were supposed to?” Or Dean muses over what life could be like and Cas is too cute for words about it.

General Rating

Tags: Castiel/Dean Winchester, Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Castiel (Supernatural), Canon verse, fairytales - Freeform Profound Bond Gift Exchange, Crack

#pbexchange #pbexchangemasterpost #pbexchangefairytale #member fic #member art

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dean-bluesteel-winchester-spnfam · 5 years

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Disney Questions

So uh @fashionducky1812 wanted me to answer them all. So you can all laugh like you want, but I do love Disney. I would still be happy if Sam will never know about this!

Some character just have the best outfits, which Disney character would your muse like to swap wardrobes with? Oh. I just saw that Castiel would go for Prince Eric’s clothes and I’m a bit speechless. But I would probably go for Sheriff Woody, cause you know: Cowboys. But if Cas wants me to be a prince, I’d go for uh Prince Naveen of Maldonia.

Sometimes you just gotta ask…’how do they get their hair to look like that?’ Which Disney character’s hair/style would your muse love to have?

Hmm. This question is hard, because I do like my hair the way it is. (Cas looks like Aladdin or Eric right?? :D That actually explains my childhood crushes) But I think Prince Phillip looks awesome, so I’d take his hairsytle.

Among the long roster of characters which Disney character do you think your muse is most like?

Probably Flynn Rider? Cause I’m an idiot.

Not every character will be a hit with everyone, which Disney character does your muse not like? (Not necessarily hate but just care for the least)

The guy who shot Bambi. I will never get over this. Just watched that movie once and couldn’t sleep at all that night.

From a tiny chameleon to a Bengal tiger, which Disney animal sidekick would your muse most like to have for their own?

Flounder, cause he is so loyal or Mushu, cause he is funny.

Sometimes we all wanna just get away from our own lives for a while, if your muse could be a Disney character for the day who would they most like to be?

Peter Pan. Yeah I know kinda silly, but I’d like to fly around without being afraid for once. Just being a child and having fun. Sounds like a dream.

Everyone loves a happily ever after, usually. Which story’s happily ever after is your muses’ favorite? If they could have one of their own which one would it be like?

I really like the ending of Ariel? Like they are two people from completely different worlds, but they find each other at the end. My own happy end? I feel like I’m having it right now and it’s similar to Ariel’s. I still have my family, but I also got my own Prince from a different world, who is actually seeing me and... loving me.

Singing a jolly tune from time to time can be fun! What is your muses’ favorite overall Disney tune to jam out to every time without fail? What about favorite villain song? Love song? Sidekick song?

Ohhh. Well I have a hidden cassette with Disney songs in my room. I really like “I’ll make a man out of you”. Best villian song is: “Gaston”. Best love song is: “Can you feel the love tonight?” and best sidekick song is: “Kiss the Girl” or “Be our Guest.”

There’s usually always someone who makes our hearts skip a beat or two, who’s your muses’ Disney crush?

Oh well like I said I had always a thing for Aladdin or Prince Eric. Uh the...the dark hair and Eric’s blue eyes... But I also wanted Peter Pan to free me and take me with him.

Everyone has their favorites, what about your muse? Who’s their top 5 favorite Disney characters overall? (Feel free to also get more specific! Such as Top 5 Princesses, Top 5 Villains, Top 5 Animals, etc.)

Top 5 Princesses: Ariel, Tiana, Mulan, Jasmine and Belle.

Top 5 Princes: Eric, Aladdin, Peter Pan, Prince Charming, Flynn Rider

Top 5 Animals: Mushu, Flounder, Abu, Stitch and the crocodile from Peter Pan

Top 5 Villains: Cruella de Vil, Scar, Captain Hook, Yzma, Hades and Ursula ( I don’t care that I named 6)

Take a magic carpet ride across the world and tell us which Disney place your muse would most like to live!

Oh. This will probably suprise everyone but I’m happy to live in the bunker. Or at least in the near of it. But! I’d really like to visit the beach for a holiday, so he could take me there.

Disney has always told many stories with lessons that we all need to learn, which one has your muse most taken to heart?

Oh the lesson from the Princess and the frog is pretty awesome? Like it’s okay to wish for something, but you also have to work hard for your dream to come true.

With a long list to choose from what is your muses’ favorite Disney movie of all time?

Ariel and Peter pan.

Magic is a strong force within the Disney universe, which magical being would your muse most like to have by their side?

Genie.

Every story needs a memorable detail, Which iconic Disney symbol is your muses’ favorite? (i.e. Mickey’s ears, Cinderella’s glass slipper, or Rapunzel’s sun)

Mickey’s ears to be honest.

Disney has been known to tug on our hearts and make us feel so many emotions, what scene makes you muse cry every time? Which scene makes them happiest? How about laugh the most? Most inspired?

Cry every time: When Simba sees how his father dies, when Ariel sees how Prince Eric kisses someone else, when Belle leaves and the Beast thinks she doesn’t like him back.

Laugh the most: The mushu dishonor rant and probably every scene with Timon and Pumba or the entire movie: The Emperor's New Groove

The happiest: Every happy ending to be honest.

Most inspired: When Mulan fights for her country even though she knew the risks.

Sometimes there are moments so powerful they stick with us for a long time. What does your muse consider to be the most iconic moment of any Disney move?

Hmmm. This is a hard one. Maybe when Simba came back and faught Scar.

A dream is a wish your heart makes, or so the song goes and they say that if you dream something more then once it’s sure to come true! What is a dream your muse has that they wish would come true?

Lately I dream a lot about good things and that is still kinda new to me. I dream about having a real family. Not that my family isn’t real or any less perfect. But I’d like some kids that wake me up in the morning and all that crap.

Disney has had it fair share of live-action movies to go along side their animated roster, what is one live-action Disney movie your muse loves?

Beauty and the Beast, but also Cinderella. Both made me cry.

Not every Disney movie makes it sadly for one reason or another, what is one movie that your muse loves that they consider to be highly underappreciated?

The Fox and the Hound.

Many of Disney’s works have been put onto the grand stages of Broadway, does you muse have a favorite? Is there one they most want to see?

Lion King!

Disney has retold many famous fairytales over the years, what is one fairytale your muse would love to see adapted by the house of mouse?

Eh... I have no idea to be honest. I love the house of mouse, but I have no idea which fairytale wasn’t already there.

Sometimes we forget that not every animated movie was created by Disney now matter how it may seem. What’s one movie your muse often forgets isn’t part of the magical world?

Anastasia and Bartok! That is such a great movie.

Seeing the parks decked out for the holidays can be some of the most beautiful sights, so long as you don’t mind the crowds too much. What holiday does your muse love going to the parks for?

I’ve never been there, but Christmas must be pretty awesome. Or Halloween too.

It’s every Disney lovers dream to meet their favorite characters and at the parks that dream can become a reality! Which characters do they love meeting with at the parks? Is there one who isn’t around anymore that they wish would return?

I’d like to meet. uh... Ariel and Prince Eric. And maybe even Winnie the pooh and tigger?

It’s hard not to spend a lot on merch when at a Disney park, does you muse manage to control themselves well enough or do they tend to come back with more merch then they know what to do with?

I probably wouldn’t buy anything. Too embarrassed anyway, but regret it.

A popular thing within the Disney parks is pin trading! Does your muse collect them? Do they have any particular collections they are trying to complete or have completed?

Nah not really.

The Disney parks were created with children and the child at heart in mind, which theme park ride dose your muse have to go on every visit?

Honestly? I’d like to do the Merry Go Round at the big castle. It’s really embarrassing, but I bet it would be... fun. I’m too scared of the rollercoasters.

Walking around the enormous Disney parks all day can make you pretty hungry, what snacks does your muse pick up to remedy that?

I need to try EVERYTHING. Bet they have some awesome pie there.

The Disney parks have a variety of shows and events for people to enjoy, what are some of you muses’ favorite? Which one do they have to see every time?

The parade at the end of the day. I’d like to see that one day.

#about me #uhm yeah that was like pretty embarrassing #I feel like now you know so much more about me

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arishamod · 6 years

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Ultra Jump May 2018: 100 Questions for Komiya Arisa

“I’ll affect you with the magic of love ♪”

TL: Arishamod QC: Ippi, Yuja

Komiya Arisa (Voice of Kurosawa Dia)

Nickname: Arisha

Birthday: 5th February

Blood Type: B

Hobbies: Reading Manga, Sleeping

Skills: Drawing portraits, Classical ballet

Notable Roles:

Movies: “Love X Doc”, “50 First Dates”, “After School War”, “Yumeji: Ai no Tobashiri”, “Evergreen Love”

Drama: “Teru Konda's Legal Recipes”, “ Uchu Sentai Kyuranger (Akyanbaa)”

TV: “Tsuukai TV Sukattojapan”, “Tonight’s Nazotore”

1. Favorite food?

Meat.

2. Disliked food?

Hot tofu.

3. Favorite sweets?

Japanese rice crackers.

4. Your number one favorite home-cooked dish?

Although my mom is really good at cooking, and I love all the food she cooks, my favourite is still Ebi Fry (fried shrimp)!

5. Favorite color?

White.

6. Favorite scent?

A slightly sweet floral scent.

7. Favorite season?

Winter.

8. Favorite event of the year?

Birthday.

9. What sport do you like watching?

Figure Skating.

10. What sport do you like playing?

I don’t know how many years it’s been since I’ve played sports. Although I like to watch it, I might not say the same about playing it.

11. Favorite animal?

Dogs, but if it comes to looking at them only, it would be cats.

12. If you were to compare yourself to an animal, what would you be?

I look like a cat.

13. Are you a dog person? Or a cat person?

Dog person.

14. Favorite manga?

“Black Butler”.

15. Favorite genre of manga?

A clichéd shojou manga.

16. First manga you read?

“Ciao (Cha-o)”.

17. First anime you watched?

“Sailor moon”.

18. Favorite movie?

“Les Misérables”.

19. Favorite musical artist?

No one in particular.

20. Song(s) you listen to every day?

I don’t really listen to music…

21. First CD you bought?

A “Morning Musume” CD.

22. Your specialty song at karaoke?

I almost never go to the karaoke.

23. Phone lock screen?

The portrait that was drawn by Kubonouchi Eisaku that was used for my collaboration goods.*

*the same one that was used for her 3rd fan meeting.

24. A clothing brand you often buy?

UN3D and Elendeek.

25. Your best outfit?

None in particular.

26. Favorite place in your house?

Bed.

27. What do you want most right now?

A small Balenciaga purse.

28. What’s something that you’ll always carry in your bag?

My purse and portable charger.

29. What’s something you’ve been collecting unintentionally?

Cosmetics for the lips.

30. What’s your treasure?

The necklace that was given to me by my parents on my 20th birthday.

31. What kind of child were you?

Even now I am a child who has freedom.

32. Your childhood treasure?

The stuffed bear that my grandma gave to me.

33. Your childhood dream?

To be in “Sailor Moon”.

34. Someone you respect?

My parents.

35. If you could travel anywhere, where would you go?

Domestically, I would want to travel to Shikoku*. If it’s overseas, I would like to travel to Iceland, where I previously traveled to for work once.

*Shikoku is the smallest major island in Japan.

36. What country do you want to try visiting?

France.

37. Any bad habits?

Recently I feel like I am hunching my back.

38. Do you have a catchphrase?

Demo sa (but).

39. Charm point?

My eyes.*

*I’m pretty sure this is her SFW answer because she has mentioned that her butt is her charm point in her gravure interviews ><

40. A strength you have?

I diligently do what needs to be done.

41. A shortcoming you have?

Frequently changing my mood.

42. Your special skill?

Classical ballet and drawing portraits.

43. Something you’re bad at?

Staying still.

44. A precise weakness of yours?

I am useless when I don’t have enough sleep.

45. What do you want to fix about yourself?

Since I realised that I get lonely too easily, so I want to feel secure when I am by myself.

46. What are you confident you can imitate well?

The faces of people with their eyes wide open from the manga by Mr. Umezu Kazuo.

47. What’s something you could live off of?

Food.

48. Your current obsession?

Since I have received a Kindle, I have been reading.

49. A phrase you’ve been using a lot?

None in particular.

50. Favorite motto?

Do it one way or another.

51. If you could describe yourself with one word, what would it be?

Doing as one wishes.

52. Something you’ve been picky about recently?

When they are doing my partial makeup for our stage costumes for Aqours, I sometimes insist that they “must use this eye shadow”.

53. Fill in the blank with something positive: I’m actually _.

Able to forget anything completely once I go to sleep.

54. Fill in the blank with something negative: I’m actually _.

Lonely.

55. Anything but this!

Being touched randomly by things around me

56. What would the world be better off without?

I do not know.

57. How do you kill time?

Sleep.

58. How do you relieve stress and refresh yourself?

Sleep.

59. What app have you been using often recently?

The calendar app that I use for managing my schedule.

60. What’s something you always do once you wake up?

Brush my teeth.

61. What’s something you always do before you sleep?

Drink water.

62. What do you do when you ride the train?

Things like reviewing Aqours’ dances and checking my Twitter.

63. What do you do to maintain your health?

Food definitely helps.

64. What do you do when you have the day off?

Sleep or go shopping.

65. What do you do when you have time to yourself?

Sleep or lie on my bed and do nothing.

66. What do you do when you hang out with friends?

We go to cafes.

67. Where do you want to go on a date?

A meal would be fine.

68. If you were to confess to someone, what kind of situation would you want it to be?

I don’t really intend on confessing...

69. If someone were to confess to you, what kind of situation would you want it to be?

I want them to confess to me in person!

70. Something fun that happened recently?

When I was in Tokyo and Osaka for 3 days for my birthday event, there were many people who came to the event. It was difficult, but together with everyone who came to the event, I did my best! I had fun during this event.

71. Something sad that happened recently?

When I can’t remember what kind of work I did when I return home everyday.

72. Something funny that happened recently?

I often wear my western clothes backwards. I find that funny yet sad (laughs).

73. Something about your past you want to erase?

Nothing! Right now I should use all of it as a source of encouragement…

74. A moment that made you think “This is a miracle!”?

The time when I was heading to the station without checking the schedule, and the train came at a really good time.

75. A moment that made you think “I’m glad to be alive”?

When I am eating a delicious meal.

76. What wish do you want granted in the future?

To appear in a morning drama.

77. What’s something you wished for that came true?

Becoming a heroine.

78. Any fond memories of 2017?

I was able to travel to many different regions through the lives and events.

79. What went wrong in 2017?

I guess the year passed without any failures that was big enough to immediately come to mind...

80. What would you do if you won 100 million yen from the lottery?

Put money into my savings and buy a house.

81. What would you do if you had a time machine?

Since I neither want to know the future, nor do I want to change the past, I wouldn’t use it.

82. What would you want to do if the world were to end tomorrow?

Live a normal day with my family.

83. What would you want to eat if the world were to end tomorrow?

A meal cooked by my mom.

84. If you could bring one thing to a deserted island, what would it be?

“Anywhere Door”*

*The same one used by Doraemon

85. If you were reborn in another world, what would you want to become?

A human with save points.

86. If you were reborn in this world, what would you want to become?

Human.

87. If you were to be reborn, would you want to be male or female?

Female.

88. What’s good about being a girl?

Being able to wear many different cute western clothes each day.

89. What’s something you’d want to try if you were male?

I want be a playboy.

90. A challenge you want to take on?

I want to drive down from a mountain pass…

Though even if I got a license, I definitely wouldn’t do it.

91. A voice role you want to try in the future?

A normal girl. I think that it’s different trying to portray a normal girl.

92. If you could do any job outside of voice acting, what would it be?

Currently, I am doing gravure as part of my actress work outside of being a voice actress. When I was young, aside from the entertainment industry, I wanted to be either a pharmacist or nutritionist.

93. What made you the happiest out of everything you’ve been told?

“You have become such a mature woman”, which was said by a staff member that I’ve have known for some time.

94. Have you been keeping any secrets from the rest of Aqours?

There isn’t anything important enough that I will keep a secret from them…!

95. Where in Numazu would you like to visit again?

The frog museum.

96. Praise yourself as much as possible!

Your skin is so smooth!

97. Memories of your first love?

Around the time when I was an elementary school student?

I have forgotten it, just like how I forgot what I did yesterday. I don’t really remember much…

98. Please tell us a life changing experience.

Right before I turned 18, I had to live on my own, but I did not know how to use a washing machine.

99. Your thoughts on today’s photoshoot?

Since it is the season for spring clothes, being able to have pictures of us taken with the poses from the AZALEA cover with the room filled with balloons, really makes me happy.

100. Finally, a word for your fans!

There will be many more events, so please do come for them!

Let’s watch out for each other’s health (laughs).

#translations #interview #Q&A #Arisha #Komiya Arisa #Love live!#AZALEA #Seiyuu #Aqours #Arishamod posts

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hawthornewhisperer · 6 years

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When the world is too noisy to sleep

The happiest of birthdays to @katchyalater!

For six years, the world had been too quiet. With just Madi to talk to— and precious few animals, especially the first few years— the world had been silent as a tomb most of the time. It had driven Clarke nearly mad, and when everyone came back to her in the span of two weeks, she’d rejoiced in the cacophony of the people she loved.

But now it felt too noisy. Even at night, when everyone was asleep, Clarke’s small compound was filled with sounds. Cots creaked and people snored, and guards paced the perimeter with guns that clicked and boots that snapped twigs and crushed leaves under their heels. It felt odd, resenting the noise when she’d spent so long wishing for it, but nothing had been the way she imagined. Her mother refused to speak of what happened in the bunker, and Octavia and Kane looked haunted. Abby had taken to Madi the way Clarke knew she would, of course, but there was a guilt in Abby’s eyes whenever she looked at Clarke that made Clarke’s skin prickle.

And Bellamy— Clarke had wanted him to come back to her for so long, and now that he was here she didn’t know what to say to him. He’d changed more than she imagined, and even though she’d told herself over and over again to expect him to change, part of her was still surprised he had. It wasn’t just the beard, either. There was a peace to him that hadn’t been there before, a stillness, a deliberateness that surprised her. The Bellamy she remembered had never hesitated— that had been her role. But now he was the one preaching caution and diplomacy in dealing with Eligius while Clarke urged action. It made her feel off-kilter, like the time the canoe she made tipped over and suddenly she was under water and didn’t know which way was up.

Clarke threw off her blankets and decided to go for a walk rather than toss and turn some more, but she hadn’t gone more than fifty yards when a guard challenged her. “No one leaves camp at night without a direct order from Octavia,” the woman from the bunker explained.

Clarke fought the instinct to argue and walked over to the fire instead, picking up a stick from the ground and tossing it petulantly into the crackling flames. “Can’t sleep?” Bellamy’s deep, reassuring voice asked from behind her shoulder.

Clarke shrugged. She had spent six years imagining telling him everything, memorizing details so when he came back there wouldn’t be any space between them, no moment left untouched. But now he was here, real and solid and warm and standing just behind her, and she couldn’t find the words. “Too noisy,” she said gruffly.

Bellamy fell silent and she hoped he’d walk away, leave her alone with her black mood. “I’ve got an idea,” he said, and Clarke risked a look back at him.

She couldn’t read his expression. She hated that— not knowing what Bellamy was thinking was unimaginable to her once upon a time, but now it felt like he was a stranger. But she nodded and let him lead her around the corner from the outbuildings to the rover. Bellamy grabbed an extra sleeping bag from the bunker’s stash and handed it to her, opening the back of the rover as he did so. “I slept in here last night,” he explained. “I’d forgotten how goddamn loud crickets are.”

“Those are frogs,” she said, a tiny smile creeping across her face. She accepted the sleeping bag and lifted herself into the back. She and Madi had slept in here countless times, but only when they were scavenging. It hadn’t occurred to her to use it at the compound. Bellamy paused with his hand on the door and she looked at him awkwardly.

“Sleep well, Clarke,” Bellamy said.

“Wait,” she said when he went to shut the door. “Didn’t you finish your guard shift a few hours ago?”

“So?”

Clarke narrowed her eyes, piecing it all together. “You can’t sleep either, can you? You were going to sleep in here again.”

“It’s fine. I got a decent night’s sleep last night. It’s your turn.”

“There’s plenty of space,” she said impulsively. “We could...share.” She felt unaccountably nervous in offering, mostly because in the two weeks since he’d been back she hadn’t been able to figure out just what he and Echo were to each other. She didn’t think they were together, but then sometimes there would be a moment of familiarity— her hand on his lower back, or him smiling at something Echo said in a council meeting— and Clarke would be plunged back into uncertainty. It felt silly and selfish to admit she was jealous he had moved on, but she was.

“I snore,” he warned.

“Better one person snoring than three dozen,” she replied.

Bellamy looked back towards the compound and nodded. He took a second sleeping bag and climbed in after her, waiting for her to scoot over to one side before unrolling his pack. Sharing with Madi had been easy, but Madi was considerably smaller than Bellamy and definitely didn’t have shoulders as broad, so it took a few moments of shuffling and fumbling before they were comfortably laying side-by-side.

Clarke rested her cheek on her folded arm and considered him. It was darker in here, and much quieter. She could hear his slow, even breathing. “Who told you you snore?” she asked quietly. There were plenty of people who could have told him that, she reasoned— his mother or Octavia or Gina, or even Miller. But she had a deeper reason for asking, and she couldn’t stop herself.

Bellamy didn’t respond right away. “Echo,” he said finally.

Clarke hated herself for her jealousy. It sat uneasily in her gut, curdling and churning, competing with anger and regret and a heaping dose of self-censure. She had no reason to feel this way, because Bellamy had thought she was dead for six years and he was never even hers in the first place. She had no claim to him, she’d reminded herself hundreds of times over the past two weeks, and therefore had no right to feel like she’d lost him. “I’m glad,” she made herself say, because she was, truly. She wanted him to be happy and whole, and if Echo was the person who made him happy now, she’d learn to live with it and wouldn’t let jealousy poison her. She’d let Bellamy go and be happy with her family having come back to her, and that would have to be enough.

Bellamy made a soft sound like a snort. “She told me when we were breaking up last year,” he said, and he sounded like he was smiling. “Said she was glad not to have to sleep next to someone who snored like a bear anymore.”

Clarke wasn’t sure what to say to that. “Oh,” she said, so he’d know she was listening. “I’m...sorry?”

Bellamy’s sleeping bag rustled like he was shrugging. “We both knew it wouldn’t last. But there wasn’t much to do up there, aside from each other.”

Clarke let out a surprised giggle at that. “So I spent six years fighting for my life and becoming a surrogate mom while you spent six years having sex with everyone?” she teased.

“More or less,” he said, chuckling. “Not Murphy though. I still draw the line with him. He did try to hang me, after all.”

“Only because you tried to hang him first,” Clarke laughed, and Bellamy barked out a laugh.

It felt good to laugh with Bellamy, and Clarke felt the thick wall of glass that had surrounded her since they returned start to crack. More than once someone from the Ark would say something and Bellamy would laugh unexpectedly, clearly an inside joke, and Clarke would feel more lonely than ever. But maybe this was just temporary— maybe she could work her way back to them, even if she’d never share those same experiences. She couldn’t make up for what they’d lost, but they could make new memories.

Clarke fidgeted to get more comfortable, and Bellamy’s arm came down around her shoulders. “Here,” he said, and shifted her so she was resting on his chest instead. “That okay?”

Clarke blinked back unexpected tears. In the six years post-praimfaya she’d slept with Madi curled into her hundreds of times, but that was different. Clarke was Madi’s comfort then, and whatever peace it gave her to have Madi slumbering in her arms was profoundly different from this moment. She curled around him, letting his warmth seep into her bones, and draped her arm over his chest. “I talked to you,” she admitted. “Every day. I’d pull out the radio wherever we were and I’d try to contact you, and then I’d tell you about my day.”

Bellamy’s muscles tightened at her confession. “The ark?” he said carefully. “Or me?”

“You.” She took a deep, shuddering breath. “You were what kept me sane, more than anything. The memory of you, of how much you believed in me, of— just you.” Her throat was thick with unshed tears and Bellamy carded his hand through her hair.

He cleared his throat. “I talked to you too,” he said. “It was different, because I never thought I’d see you again. I thought you were gone, but I couldn’t let go. I tried, I really did, because I thought you’d want me to, but I couldn’t. So on nights when it felt too much, or when I was going crazy from having to see the same six people over and over again, I’d find your mugshot in the database and ask you what to do.”

Clarke nuzzled closer to him, the pain in his voice like a knife to her heart. “What did the others say about that?”

“I never told them. They’d think I was crazy.”

“Why tell me?”

Bellamy pressed his chin into his chest to look down at her. The light was dim, barely enough for her to make out his pupils, but his eyes were glassy. “Because that’s what we do. We tell each other things we can’t tell anyone else,” he said roughly.

A wave of emotion threatened to overwhelm her, so she steered them into calmer waters. “My mugshot isn’t exactly the best picture of me,” she said lightly.

“I thought it was nice,” he replied, matching her tone.

She felt like ice in the grip of a spring thaw, slowly drip-drip-dripping back into being. Clarke put her head back down on Bellamy’s chest and tangled their legs together. “I missed you,” she whispered into his shirt. “I missed you so much.”

“I missed you too, princess,” he said, and pressed a kiss to the top of her head. “But we’re here now.”

The vice squeezing her heart eased slightly. “Good night, Bellamy.”

“Night, Clarke.”

#bellarke #bellarke fanfiction #happy birthday!#katchyalater

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collidinggalaxiesofstars · 6 years

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rules:: answer these 85 questions and tag 20 people

Well, this was long lol. Thanks @veronicasanders for tagging me! <3

— what was your last…

1. drink:: Water

2. phone call:: Volunteer coordinator for a charity event I’m helping with this weekend

3. text message:: “You won’t” In response to my friend who was saying how is she supposed to survive 13 seasons of emotional Grey’s Anatomy

4. song you listened to:: Edelweiss (Reprise)- Sound of Music

5. time you cried:: This morning, waking up because depression is a heartless bitch

— have you ever…

6. dated someone twice:: no

7. kissed someone and regretted it:: yes

8. been cheated on:: no

9. lost someone special:: yes

10. been depressed:: yes

11. gotten drunk and thrown up:: Yes, but only because tequila and Scotch in the same night are combined evils

— fave colours 12. turquoise 13. mint green 14. indigo

— in the last year have you…

15. made new friends:: yes

16. fallen out of love:: yes

17. laughed until you cried:: yes

18. found out someone was talking about you:: yes

19. met someone who changed you:: yes

20. found out who your friends are:: At the bottom of heart, I always knew, and have known who they are

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list:: no, not in the last year

— general

22. how many your facebook friends do you know irl:: Everyone on the list, but not all of them very well

23. do you have any pets:: no, but if someone showed up at my door right now with a dog, I’d be the happiest person in the world

24. do you want to change your name:: If I could just switch my middle name and first name around, 10/10 experts would agree my life would be easier

25. what did you do for your last birthday:: I just sat at home brooding lol

26. what time did you wake up today:: 5:45

27. what were you doing at midnight last night:: Putting away laundry

28. what is something you can’t wait for:: To go see my best friend in Banff this summer!

29. what is your favourite animal:: There’s so many! St. Bernard puppies, giraffes, zebra’s, tree frogs, whales, I could go on forever.

30. what are you listening to right now:: The sound of high school students chattering who are unfortunately always in the fresco the same time as my break at work

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom:: Yes, of course

32. something that’s getting on your nerves:: That nearly a third of Canadians don’t believe that climate change is caused by human industrial activity

33. most visited website:: Gmail

34. hair colour:: Brown with a fair amount of grey already

35. long or short hair:: Medium

36. do you have a crush on someone:: Nope

37. what do you like about yourself:: That I’m smart, analytical, and kind

38. want any piercings:: Possibly, I have been procrastinating on piercing my ears for years

39. blood type:: I have no idea, but I should probably find out

40. nicknames:: Star

41. relationship status:: Single

42. sign:: Capricorn

43. pronouns:: She/Her 90% of the time

44. fave tv show:: Bones, One Day at a Time, F.R.I.E.N.D.S, Golden Girls, Cheers, Frasier, Grace and Frankie, The Good Place, A Series of Unfortunate Events, Eastsiders, and there’s so many more

45. tattoos:: I have 2 on the outside of my lower right arm, the top half has a swirly border and underneath says “Meraki, Fernweh, Ubuntu, Inoubliable” in cursive, and in a list format with the same border at the bottom, underneath that on my wrist is a heartbeat tattoo, with Pulse in the middle which I got for several reasons

46. right or left handed:: Ambidextrous- I use my right hand for writing and mainly everything else, but my left for sports and anytime scissors are involved

47. ever had surgery:: Yes, but non invasive

48. piercings:: None

49. sport:: To play: volleyball or soccer. To Watch: soccer, baseball, hockey, basketball

50. vacation:: Banff in August. Possibly Williamsburg as well in August too.

51. trainers:: Grey and black fabric and white bottoms

— more general

52. eating:: Last thing I ate was a piece of cheese at 7pm last night- eating habits are questionable

53. drinking:: water, coffee, or apple juice

54. i’m about watch:: When I get home, I’ll be watching Gossip Girl

55. waiting for:: A call that my landlord has fixed my smoke alarm

56. want:: To get a head start on my dreams this summer

57. get married:: Never say never, I guess

58. career:: Right now, working a mundane banking job, but the dream is to end up in research, preferably in Cognitive Science, Linguistics, or Anthropology

— which is better

59. hugs or kisses:: Hugs

60. lips or eyes:: Eyes

61. taller or shorter:: It’s always nice when your partner is close to your height so you can look them in the eyes

62. older or younger:: Typically older, most of my friends and relationships have been with people who are a year to three years older than me

63. nice arms or stomach:: Arms

64. hookups or relationships:: I love a relationship, but the past two years it’s been mainly hookups

65. troublemaker or hesitant:: Hesitant, but only because I have a pressing desire to think about literally everything

— have you ever

66. kissed a stranger:: Yep

67. drank hard liquor:: Of course, yes

68. turned someone down:: No

69. sex on first date:: Yes

70. broken someone’s heart:: Apparently, yes

71. had your heart broken:: Yep

72. been arrested:: Yep, but under the Mental Health Act, so does that even count?

73. cried when someone died:: Yes

74. fallen for a friend:: Yes, totally a cliche

— do you believe in

75. yourself:: Sometimes

76. miracles:: Nope

77. love at first sight:: Once upon a time I did

78. santa claus:: No, BUT if I did, I’d tell you we need to protect the Arctic, because every time a glacier melts, Santa Claus cries

79. angels:: No

— misc

80. eye colour:: Hazel

81. best friend’s name:: I have many best friends, I wouldn’t say it’d be fair to name one

82. favourite movie:: Our Souls at Night, Meet Me in St. Louis, It’s Kind of a Funny Story, My Fair Lady, Casablanca, Perks of Being a Wallflower, and so many more

83. favourite actor:: I’ve got to say I love and will always love Humphrey Bogart, absolutely iconic and political

84. favourite cartoon:: Daria

85. favourite teacher’s name:: The teachers I had from grades 6-8 certainly had the most impact in my life, and were some of my favourites

If you want to do this, do it? It was fun, despite it’s length ;)

#85 questions

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sommer-rain · 4 years

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A frog is not horse dad..

I’m not in my happiest of moods right now. Otherwise my day’s been rather good but if anything, not the best since me and dad both had our treatmment at the Homeopath. It’s just..dad... :|

I was talking to the homeopath in the other room while dad first had his treatment first. Of course he could hear everything i said since both are small rooms and no door between. She asked me how i’ve been and i responded. One of the things i said was my pretty big impovement of getting out off my ghost paranoia but especially by fear of darkness i’ve had at least about one-two years now i think.. Anyway it made me be so much on alert, stressed out, my body being terrible tense because of it and hella hard to get sleep because of the above things and also affecting my work bc loss of sleep and loss of energy. And of course anyway by all the ghosts that as well actually were bothering me in my apartment from time to time. Well i told shortly that i’ve impoved pretty lot but still have a part to go before i think i am actually good. I’m okay most of the time but not good. Just “pretty good“. I mean it’s a very good thing! Okay. I’ve been battling this thing for at least about 2 years now. And sometime last year when i told her about this she got me some certain homepathic pills that will help me with this and it has helped pretty lot. I was still trying to talk a bit cryptic, like so my dad might not bother it too much - which he did - and still speak rather clear about my answer and topic to her. Because i knew my dad does not want hear these kind of things, especially not from me.. Like, it’s not your business dad! I wasn’t speaking to you anyway! She deserve to know the pills helped with it and how much my situation over all has been going since last time! D< I knew he wasn’t asleep anyway, even if he looked like it at that point. He couldn’t help himself to throw a little comment about it then, i don’t remember what tho but not something i like him to say anyway.

Later when we all three were in the treatment room i mentioned to her about the two last significant last ghostly events at night around christmas and new year. Of course dad heard that too and couldn’t ignore it and didn’t want me to talk about these things. Like those two events.. they weren’t even scary, they were just wtf moments. And he clearly heard me saying they weren’t scary - and the fact that i didn’t understand what those ghosts real points and intentions were. Yeah both made me wake up from my sleep but wasn’t scaring me at all. The second ghost just seemed to be some sort of animal enjoying it’s time a bit too entuastically my bed like a trampoline or bouncing castle.. Jumping on and off ‘. Like not a child, i sensed it was something smaller and quardapedal and cat or dog-like, like a cat or a smaller dog.. And it didn’t stop i think until i sat myself up in the bed. I guess it realized it had woken me up. Anyway my dad threw kind of a salty comment and i joked a bit screwing with him, just slightly. Like really dad i think you make the two things worse in your own head than it ever was.. -__- It’s now worse that your own cat waking you up. At least this time.

I told him he doesn’t need to listen, i wasn’t telling these ghost events to him anyway! Still in the treatment room. -Later when we were driving in the car on the way home we had an argue, thanks to him having both very wrong and contradicting and ironic at the same time. He always tells me to not buy more that the treatment, like not any of the homeopathic things she also has for sale, bc he doesn’t want me to waste money. Well, who was it buying a jar of coffe powder from her today? Him of course. I guess he did it Marja since she’s sick having a bad cold tho. And then in the car telling me he thinks i should really consider trying to seek up some treatment “for these things i see” - seek help to therapist or a doctor at hospital! FOR FUCKS SAKE?!!? Just so i can “at least can talk about all these (ghost/paranormal-)things to someone who’d know how to help me with it and understand my case” SIGH! >| I thought i would loose it hearing that from him! I CAN’T BELIEVE MY EARS! Like, all the apsolute respect and appreciation to all therapists and doctor out there but none of them can fucking help me when it’s about my mediality! IT’S NOT THEIR FIELD OF UNDERSTANDING, HELPING AND STUDIES! Completely wrong!! -If HE REALLY would said what he should have said is everything he wants to avoid!: He should have told and asked me if i haven’t meant to go to an actual and proffesional medium - to help me get rid of the ghosts and teach me technics that help controle my mediality and chakras and properly explain the most decent good-to-know things about these kind of things that i still don’t have enough good knowledge of. And how to both “switch off“ and “switch back on” my “third eye/my mediality“ again.

My mediality is NOT about hallucinations! And it’s NOT psychology! And i generally don’t feel i have a troubling need of talking about these things in that kind of way. TALKING ABOUT IT IS NOT MY PROBLEM - IT’ HIS! And not someone who’d never actually understand it. They’d only have me explain things a medium would understand immediately as the most obvious thing.

Like i get he does wants me well but WHY does he HAVE TO go in the COMPLETE other direction of thinking of help i obviously in this case would have proffessional help of? A frog is not horse..

#Personal #He never listens when it's about my mediality #And he never gives me a chance to actually explain and discuss these things so he ACTUALLY understands #I feel offended and hurt #And angry #But i don't wanna be hurtful to him either #Even tho i have reasons

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oldmaidwhovian · 4 years

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100 question meme---cos’ I’m bored

1. What board game do you like the most?

sequence dice

2. If you could rid the world of one disease what would it be?

diabetes

3. If you were offered the position of mayor of your city, would you take it?

4. Favorite day of the week?

none---all the same to me

5. If you inherited or won a million dollars, what’s the very first thing you would do with the money

pat off debts

6. Give me the names of 3 objects or things you love most

my Georg Hoose cowboy painting that my late aunt gave me for my 7th birthday

my home library

the ceramic cat I gifted to my mom her final Christmas

7. Did you grow up here?

No, 50 miles south

8. Which are your top bands or singers?

The Proclaimers, The Beach Boys, John Denver, The Takeover UK, Chicago, too many to list....

9. What school activities do you or did you participate in?

Not many in elementry school...high school riding club and glee club....college i did theater, radio broadcasting (briefly), anthropology club, international studies.

10. Do you have any siblings

one

11. Where did your family go on vacations in the summer?

Haven’t been on vacation since 2005

12. What jobs do your parents do?

Nothing, they’re both deceased

13. What is the best job you ever had?

Groom at a dressage stable

14. What time do you normally go to bed?

no specific time

15. Have you ever been in a car accident or seen one?

yes to both

16. What’s the biggest personal change you’ve ever made?

Living on my own

17. What’s the size of your shoes?

varies due to an old injury leading to a misshapen foot--but generally woman’s 8.5 US

18. Name 3 things in nature you find most beautiful?

sunsets, soaring hawks, the sighing of pine trees (namely the Eastern White Pine) in the wind

19. What would you do if you were the lone survivor of a plane crash?

ummm-try and continue surviving?

20. What do you do in your free time?

Read, pet the cat, watch youtube videos, listen to music, play cribbage or whist online, take naps, go for walks if I’m able, ride the bus somtimes.

21. What were your childhood pets?

Cats, guinea pig, dogs, chameleons, turtles, mouse, goldfish, pigeon.,

22. Do your pets do any good tricks?

My lovely Shamrock was just like Lassie, and did a regular routine of tricks

23. How old is your current pet?

Maisie I think is around 2

24. What two languages would you like to be fluent in?

French-Canadian and Friesian

25. What’s the worst job you’ve ever had

housekeeping at a casino-racing complex

26 How often do you brush your teeth?

depends on my level of manual dexterity on any given day

27. If you were in a witness protection program, what would be your new name and where would you go?

Sarah Jane Smith....Friesland, cos’ the people are nice and the land is flat

28. Do you have any relatives in jail?

Not at present

29. If it were possible, would you live on the moon?

30. Do you find these questions funny?

meh

31. Define a really funny question?

makes me grin

32. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?

33. What is your favorite smell?

horse

34. Do you believe in Bigfoot?

UM--it’s always possible, I guess

35. When did you learn how to drive?

in my early 20′s

36. If you could go back in time 1,000 years, what year would you visit?

Hadrian’s Rome

37. What’s the weirdest dream you’ve ever had?

Can’t remember

38. Would you let me slap you for a hundred dollars?

sure, why not?

39. Who would you hate to see naked?

Donald Trump---bleurgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

40. Would you dress in drag for $25?

Sure, it’d be a hoot

41. How old is the oldest cell in your body?

59 years, 22 days...I think?

42. If you could start a collection of one kind of item, what would it be?

antique custom made cowboy chaps

43. If someone wrote a biography about you, what do you think the title should be?

Boring As Hell

44. What’s the meaning of life?

Try not to die too soon

45. Do frogs have ears?

beats me

46. If you could study anything, regardless of your aptitude for it, what would it be?

saddle making

47. Whats your favorite season?

autumn

48. Have you ever seen an actual ghost?

yes

49. What was the first thing you ever collected?

Antique bottles

50. In a scale from 1-5, how afraid of dark are you?

51. Who was your first celebrity crush?

David Cassidy

52. Date someone older or younger?

Neither, ceased dating decades ago

53. What is the strangest thing you’ve ever eaten?

stinging nettle cheese

54. If you could trade lives with anyone for a day who would it be and why?

Anyone but a Republican, a pedophile or a drug addict

55. What famous artist, dead or alive, would you want to paint your portrait?

Vermeer

56. What’s something you always wanted to do as a child but never got to do it?

live on a farm or a log cabin in the woods

57. What’s the dumbest thing you’ve ever cried about?

can’t recall, I’m too old

58. What did you eat for dinner last night?

mac and cheese, creamed spinach

59. Would you rather play basketball or hockey?

basketball...I’m s__t on skates

60. If you could be on the cover of any magazine which one would you choose?

Western Horseman

61. Last thing you bought?

used sweatshirts at the charity shop

62. What is the funniest movie you have ever seen?

Arsenic and Old Lace

63. What scene from a film made you cry as a child?

When Ginger died in Black Beauty

64. What fashion trend do you wish would come back?

bell bottoms, haha

65. What fashion trend do you wish would go away

wearing pajama bottoms in public---crackhead fashion!

66. If you don’t know the words to a song do you improvise?

67. T.V. show you secretly enjoy?

I don’t own a TV

68. If you could bring one fictional character to life, who would it be?

The Doctor

69. One of your stuffed animals’ names as a kid?

I didn’t like stuffed animals

70. Do you butter the bread before putting the peanut butter on a sandwich?

My school caf and my late mom used to, but not me

71. Do you use perfume or aftershave before going out?

sometimes

72. Whats your favorite thing to do?

Before my stroke it was being around horses--now it’s reading

73. Do you watch cartoons?

seldom

74. Do you cook?

I was a cook when I was younger, now I only cook from scratch if I don’t need a lot of manual dexterity

75. Last dessert you had?

last of my ice cream

76. Describe the worst haircut you’ve ever had.

Did it myself and still ended up looking like an uncurried shetland pony--in fact, i called it the Thelwell cut, haha

77. What are two things you would do if you woke up to find yourself completely invisible?

ummm---not a clue

78. What was one of the happiest days of your life?

My college graduation

79. One really happy, hilarious moment in your life?

Being surrounded by, and getting licked by cows

80. What is one thing you refuse to share?

A Big Mac

81. If you could get away with a crime, would you? If yes, what would it be?

82. If you were about to be executed what five foods would have as your last meal?

pizza, Big Mac, prime rib, Ted’s fish fry, Hot Dog Charlies

83. Did you ever own a bare naked Ladies Cd?

84. What’s the furthest you’ve traveled?

Egypt

85.Have you ever grown your own tomatoes?

yes

86. Who is the most famous person you have ever met?

Dr zahi Hawass the Egyptologist

87. How many slices of pizza are you capable of eating in one sitting?

When I was younger and fatter about 4-6, now 2-3

88. Do you play a musical instrument?

I tried the cello, the piano, the flute and the guitar, but I’m afraid it’s hopeless...tho’ I can play a few tunes by ear.

89. Three favorite TV shows from your early teen?

Emergency! The Partridge Family, The Streets Of San Francisco

90. Radio or CD’s

Radio

91. Do you have posters up on your room walls and what are they?

A couple of western-themed posters, 2 travel posters and 1 Tiffany window poster

92. What is on your bedside table?

a lamp, a sound/sleep machine, and my alarm clock...and frequently a book

93. What is the thing you love most about mornings?

waking up and realizing that I’m not dead

94. What are your major goals in life?

Finding a place to live so I’m not homeless, cat-less and possession-less...and then working to improve my declining health, if only just a bit

95. On a scale from 1-10 what’s the highest level of pain you’ve ever been in?

10 when the horse ran over me at work and messed up my back, back in ‘91

96. What kind of phone do you use most often?

I can only use a landline since my stroke---just replaced my 1980′s novelty train phone which broke, with a modern 1960′s style teal colored ‘princess’ phone

97. The person you would never want to meet?

Donald J. Trump

98. What were your three favorite childhood toys?

Marx’s Fort Apache, Johnny West action figures, Matel’s ‘Drowsy’ doll

99. What is your favorite spectator sports?

Polo / show jumping / western reining / harness racing / basketball

100. What’s your idea of a dream home?

A cottage or cabin not too far from a town or village,not big, with a screen porch to sit and chill

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kevin-benn-blog · 5 years

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Proust Questionnaire

When do you truly know someone? Can you ever? We can spend ages with someone, discovering their likes and dislikes-- but in the rare circumstance in which we peer into a person’s inner flame, we rarely dive deeper-- we rarely ask, “why?”

The Proust Questionnaire is typically a surface-level parlor game, yet it offers a basis for deeply personal conversation-- one must simple ask, “why?” Though we’ve known each other for years, I took this opportunity to better understand my girlfriend, Priscilla. Though I only recorded the start of our exchange, our conversations sparked a discussion that brought us closer together.

What is your idea of perfect happiness?

I would say first of all, peace within your own self-- self acceptance, self love, but also, if we’re talking about a physical manifestation of happiness, that would be a life full of rich experiences and people and places.

Like what?

Traveling and making meaningful connections. Living in an environment in which you can grow. And where you can make other people happy for sure.

What is your greatest fear?

Looking back at my life and being unsatisfied. Having regrets.

What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?

I am very indecisive. If there’s one thing that I’m sure of, it’s that I’m indecisive. I also enjoy watching people suffer.

What is the trait you most deplore in others?

When people aren’t understanding. When you’re outright judgmental of other people. I guess people that can’t see past their own experience.

Which living person do you most admire?

The first person that comes to mind is Sam Harris. I’ve been listening to him a lot. I crave his mind and the things that he has to say, the topics that he presents. But of a person that I “know know”, I would say my mom. She has gone through so much but has stayed so positive. She has the ability to just keep going, to keep pushing on with life. And keeping the things that matter to her first and foremost always. Or the people that matter to her.

What is your greatest extravagance?

Honestly the only thing that I can think of is to go exploring. That’s food and travel, so I guess food and travel. That’s it.

What is your current state of mind?

If there is one word I could use it would be anxious.

Why?

It sums up things like worry and doubt. And just attaches that to a feeling of fear. And that’s just what’s in my mind a lot of the times, what I’m feeling in my head.

What do you consider the most overrated virtue?

Acceptance. It sounds more cynical than it is. Ignorant acceptance, if that’s a thing. Is that a virtue? I don’t even know.

On what occasion do you lie?

When I don’t want my mom to worry. She has a tendency to overreact to things so I sometimes try to minimize that and take it upon myself to not be truthful which sucks, it’s not a good thing to do. I don’t lie to her about big things, but I do about little things that don’t really matter.

What do you most dislike about your appearance?

Honestly, though I’m skinny and pretty and I’ve gotten compliments about myself, I’ve never really felt pretty. I’m not very confident in my appearance. I used to really dislike my teeth. My eyes aren’t the same size. I have weird crease-lines on my face. My hair is a mess all the time.

Which living person do you most despise?

Honestly I wouldn’t say I despise anyone because that takes so much energy that isn’t doing anyone any good. But, the person that I dislike the most is my dad.

What is the quality you most like in a man?

I would say trustworthiness, for sure. If you don’t have trust, what do you have?

What is the quality you most like in a woman?

I would say confidence. It inspires me to feel more confident. Plus I feel like we’re in a world that generally restrains women to how they should be. The fact that someone can find so much confidence in who they are… that’s amazing.

Which words or phrases do you most overuse?

“like” *I edited out all of them. Trust me, there’s a lot.*

What or who is the greatest love of your life?

My mom.

That’s what I was going to say too, your mom.

That’s why I didn’t say you. I’ve realized that as much as you or someone else may love me, I feel like the more that I’ve grown and seen how I’ve been with her and she still loves me for everything, and been there. How could she not be the greatest thing that happened to me? You’re a close second.

When and where were you happiest?

When I first started exploring with you guys. When I first met you. Every friday I would take a nap before I headed into the city. I was so happy that I found such good friends. We would literally be awake the whole weekend just having fun. It’s hard to explain.

Which talent would you most like to have?

I just wish I were more knowledgeable. If wisdom is a talent, I want it. I want to be a legged version of the three-eyed-raven. Just without those responsibilities, ya know?

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

I wish that I wasn’t so hard on myself.

What do you consider your greatest achievement?

Being alive.

That’s how I was going to answer it too..

Sometimes I sit back and think, how the fuck did I make it to where I am now? I thought I was going to be dead by the age of 18, but here I am.

If you were to die and come back as a person or a thing, what would it be?

A bird.

Why?

Because, ever since I was little, I would have dreams of me flying around my house. Being able to take myself places. I want to just be able to fly and go anywhere.

Where would you most like to live?

In a van. Everywhere. Everywhere and nowhere.

What is your most treasured possession?

I’m not very attached to things that I own. I have this one Elvis Presley lunchbox that’s filled with little nick-nacks filled with little memorabilias of places and people and stuff. I guess my favorite possession is the physical manifestation of my memories. And my guinea pigs, but there not really my possessions, more like life companions.

What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?

General moral misery? Anything that has to do with hurting another person, child rapists, killers, mass shooters, things like that. That being said, I think the thing that can bring you the most misery is yourself. We can get so caught up in our own minds that we create the problems that we try to run away from.

What is your favorite occupation?

Something out in nature. Something that has to do with exploring, traveling and animals. The first thing that comes to my mind is marine biology. They get to scuba dive all the time. That sounds so fun.

What is your most marked characteristic?

This is the hardest one to answer so far. I don’t know what other people see.

What’s something you’ve hear others remark upon?

My mom says I’m nice.

What do you most value in your friends?

Trust. Trust is very important for me. I feel like I don’t have very many people that I can go talk to. In my friends I want someone that I can go to if I have absolutely anything to say and I can trust that they’ll be there. I appreciate my friends to be present.

Who are your favorite writers?

Just because he’s one of my favorite thinkers, I’m going to have to say Sam Harris again. He just puts so many things that I think into words. He’s honestly the only person that I’ve read multiple books from. I like George Orwell as well. 1984. Fahrenheit 451. I really like dystopian novels. My favorite writers are people that can ponder about the direction of our lives, of our collective existence.

Who is your hero of fiction?

In most of the novels that I love there are no heroes. They raise more of a collective consciousness. How do we become the hero that our future needs? What do we do so that we don’t need this hero figure? I’ve never really liked romantic books, things of that nature. Things like Prince Charming. It’s a little silly, honestly. Some books like that are cute but I can’t take them seriously. They’re not present enough.

Which historical figure do you most identify with?

I’ve never had to think about this. Honestly, I’ve always had a great admiration for Einstein. He just has this thirst for knowing. He’s never satiated until he figures it out. I’m kind of in the same nature. He’s a smart man. I feel like we have in common a wonder about the world around us. Einstein is my dad.

Who are your heroes in real life?

To quote Tilian from Dance Gavin Dance, “They say you never meet your heroes, reverence is temporary, until the truth comes out.” I feel like whenever you idolize a person as a hero, you don’t see the person as a whole, you just see what they want you to see. You can never truly meet your heroes because your reverence is created by your own imagination. You admire more the idea of the person, not so much the person. That’s why I personally don’t believe in heroes.

You just said that you admire Einstein and Sam Harris, etcetera.

I don’t idolize them, I find their thoughts to be provocative. I do enjoy their minds for sure.

What are your favorite names?

Alex, because everyone in my family has like… My middle name is, Alejandra, my ex-step-dad’s name was Alex. Also I like that if I gave my child the name Alex, they could be a girl or guy, you can shorten it to Alex.

What is it that you most dislike?

Frogs.

What is your greatest regret?

I feel like I’m easily influenced and that’s why I stopped going to college. Probably that.

How would you like to die?

I wouldn’t like to die.

You haven’t answered the question.

Peacefully. Painlessly. In my sleep. If I am dying, if it's a long illness, I’d rather be put out of my misery than be put in a home or be a burden to family. If I’m not conscious, if I’m not there, I would rather you put me out of my misery. After, I would either like to be put in a fungus-suit so that my body would decompose and be used to fertilize soil or something. Or be made into ashes. I would like someone to have a piece of me when I’m dead.

What is your motto?

“It’s better to shit your pants than to die of constipation.” Am I proud of it? No. Was I warned against it several times? Yes. Was it an impulse decision to make it my yearbook quote because it summed that year up perfectly? Yes. It’s true though. Class of 2016.

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1. Name 1 thing you miss about being a kid. Being in the present 2. What was your favorite musical group when you were a kid? probably the black eyed peas or smth 3. When was the first time that you had alcohol? like 10 4. What is your worst dating experience? a guy showed me a picture of himself on a motorcycle as a way to “impress” me. i got like second hand embarrassment 5. What is the craziest thing you have ever done? if i ever told my mom that i smoked cigarettes in my room when i was younger she would hit me. so probably that 6. Name one thing that not many people know about you. i’m scared my ass is starting to sag 7. What is the one thing for which you would most like to be remembered after your death? being quietly powerful 8. Do you have any phobias? heights 9. Name three countries you would like to visit. greece, peru, and india 10. If your house was on fire and you could grab only 3 things before leaving, what would they be? id, credit card, a sweater for later 11. Do you believe in extraterrestrials or life on other planets? ya 12. Do you believe in the paranormal? ya 13. What would be your dream job? having a desk in an office and i just do paperwork and input data in a computer. i get an hour for lunch and there’s parking right outside the building.

14. If you could have 3 wishes granted, what would they be? money, the desire to work out, and better natural eyebrows/ eyelashes

15. If you HAD to change your name, what would you change it to? i like my first name but i would drop my dad’s last name and take my great-grandmas 16. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live? new orleans 17. If you knew you were going to die in 24 hours, name three things you would do in the time you had left. eat, cry, listen to haydn 18. What crazy activities do you dream of trying someday? adopting a baby

19. If you could go on a road trip with any person (dead or alive), who would you choose and where would you go? i would choose prince and we would go where ever he would want to go 20. Any tattoos or pierced body parts? piercings on my face 21. What’s your favorite color? like that 70s mustard color and pastel purple 22. What is your favorite flower? plumeria 23. What is on your bedside table? lamp, glasses case, hand lotion, mouth guard, sleep mask, headphones, vicks, and 2 stuffed animals 24. What was your best Halloween costume for Halloween? dressed up as lydia from beetlejuice 25. If you could be any cartoon character, who would you be? gene belcher 26. Are you a morning or night person? neither 27. Name a singer whose voice you can’t stand. iggy azealia or however u spell that bitchs name

28. If you were to perform in the circus, what would you do? trapeze 29. What do you remember about your high school prom? my pretty dress and how there was no food 30. What’s your favorite holiday? halloween 31. Have you ever been mentioned in a newspaper? yes actually 32. Have you ever gone skinny dipping or streaking? no 33. What body part do you get caught staring at? asses and boobs ..the usual 34. Are you basically optimistic or pessimistic? boringly, the latter 35. What is your most treasured possession? my car 36. Adult Beverage of choice? cider 37. What is your favorite food? pasta the way i make it tho 38. Can you fake any accents? thick irish but only for like 30 secs 39. What’s the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? their ugly ass faces 40. Is there anything you absolutely refuse to do under any circumstances? eat ass..im sorry im not brave enough 41. If you had to live under the sea what kind of an animal would you be? starfish 42. Most hated chore on the household chore list? buying groceries 43. In life who has had the most influence on you? my grandma 44. If you were to perform in the circus, what would you do? 45. If you could be one kind of beer which one would you be and why? i dont know beer 46. What extremely difficult life situation have you overcome and how did you do it? uhhh pass 47. What is the most embarrassing thing ever to happen to you? i didnt wear underwear one time and then wore a dress like a fucking moron. it was windy...etc 48. If you could choose, how would you want to die? laying in bed with clean sheets 49. If you could change the world what would you do? lmao 50. Name 1 thing you love about being an adult i take better care of myself now than when i was younger obv 51. Which would you rather have, $50,000 or true love? my instinct is to go for the money 52. Do you believe everything happens for a reason? no not always 53. What song always makes you happy when you hear it? heart love -albert ayler 54. Who’s the funniest person you know? my old coworker 55. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? the voicemail at my dentist office 56. How big is your bed? its literally 2 military cots pushed together and held in place with 2 mattress toppers 57. What is the wallpaper on your cellphone? a painting of a dog gnawing at the cork of a wine bottle 58. What’s the first thing you thought about this morning? will i be forced to do errands with others 59. Are you afraid of the dark? sometimes 60. 3 things you cannot live without? this list is making me realize how boring i am. i cant think of anything besides the obvious: credit card, headphones, clean underwear etc 61. Favorite song? if i cant have you -etta james and harvey fuqua 62. Are you a giver or a taker? a lil bit a both 63. Virgin or not? no 64. Are you very sarcastic? sometimes 65. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? pfft no i slide those mf right off 66. Which you favorite icecream flavor? coffee 67. What was the last drink you drank? water 68. Do you prefer hugs or kisses? uhh by who? in general, none. 69. Have you ever gone cow-tipping? no im not a total loser 70. Do you like to sing in the shower? always 71. What’s your favorite midnight snack? captain crunch cereal 72. Whats your favorite movie? the first thing that came to mind was waynes world 73. Have you ever gambled at a casino? no and i never will 74. Have you thrown up in a car? no? 75. Do you scream on roller coasters? no 76. When did you go to your first funeral? 7 yrs old 77. Where did you go on your first airplane ride? 6 yrs old 78. Whats your favorite season? fall 79. Who was your imaginary friend? no one 80. Date someone older or younger? older 81. If you don’t know the words to a song do you improvise? usually 82. What turns you on about the opposite sex? chris hemsworth & winston duke 83. What turns you off about the opposite sex? arrogance and lack of self reflection 84. What scares you the most and why? dying and knowing im dead cuz its scary yo 85. What do you do in your free time? lay in bed and waste time 86. Name 3 things in nature you find most beautiful? birds chirping early in the morning, fog, and when sunlight peaks through thick canopies in the rainforest 87. Tell me about something you really regret? oh god so many little things 88. Tell me about your favorite book, magazine or comic? calvin and hobbes is nostalgic 89. Something or someone you miss the most from childhood? does myself count 90. Your best friend dies, what would you do? mourn 91. What is your zodiac sign? cancer 92. Name a couple of T.V. shows you watch a lot? the office, jane the virgin, the nanny, living single 93. Name a movie or movies you can watch over and over? beverly hills cop, zodiac, contagion, the princess and the frog 94. Would you ever go skinny dipping? if the water is warm 95. Have you been told you can sing well more than once? no lol 96. What is the strangest dream you’ve ever had? ballerinas were sitting on the banister and then one jumped on my back and tried to murder me 97. What were you doing the last time you really had a good laugh? teaching kids origami 98. What is your happiest childhood memory? the summer in mexico 99. If you could take a one month trip anywhere and money was not a consideration, where would you go? new york 100. If you could change anything about the way you were raised, what would it be? consistency

#my therapist said i need to get to know myself better

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