#i want to go places and see people irl! i want friends i want to see someone my age i want to hear new voices

[citrusbusiness]

Hey it's time for me to rant about mildly annoying things about society and being aro/ace! (Long post warning)

Okay so when I was eating dinner with my parents today and we were talking about our grandparents for a bit. Specifically, my grandma getting sick, and how my uncle traveling around all the time but living with them did not help that. Anyway then I was thinking about him, because he's unmarried with no kids and so is my other uncle. So then I brought up the fact that I have no first cousins, making my one joke about the topic that I'm the onliest only child ever. And we laughed about it for a bit, but then my mom said something else.

“See that's why –and I feel a bit like Jane Austen saying this– that's why you have to get married”

And my aroace brain already did not like that, but obviously I wasn't going to tell her that because I'm not out?? And then my dad then butted in with a joke about the reason being that the family line would end if I didn't, which annoyed me, but interestingly, my mother brushed that aside.

Instead, she said “because when you get old you won't have any siblings or cousins to help you.”

I... Had not been expecting that. So I sat there, not liking where the conversation had gone but not doing anything about it. I just put it aside to rant about later (this is that) and moved on with my evening

But I've come back to it now.

I'm not mad at my mom for telling me that I have to get married. I'm annoyed at my situation and our society for existing in a way where she's right.

I don't have siblings or cousins I'm close with who could help me. The only people I have are my friends, and who knows if I'll still be friends with them? Also, I have maybe one actually aro friend, all the others are highly likely to get into romantic relationships and maybe have children. They'll have their own people to be taking care of. I'm just going to be lower priority, that's how our society works. Hell, with the internet the way that it is, there's no guarantee that I would even live in the same area as most of my friends.

And this isn't even just an old age thing. What happens if I need a serious surgery? What person, with their own job and family and life, has the time to spend taking care of their friend for an extended period of time? I mean, I might, but I don't have the whole romance thing getting in the way.

I realize that I'm being pessimistic and that I should probably have more faith in both my friends and the way the world works. I'm just frustrated that because we place so much more emphasis on romance than we do friendships, once people start pairing up the friendships get left behind a little bit. I'm frustrated that you could make an argument that I might have to get married, not because I truly want to, but for the sake of my own health and comfort in the future. I'm frustrated that someone can say something as uncomfortable to me as “you have to get married,” and still have a decent point.

Again, I'm being a pessimist and I'm not mad at my mom. Or my dad.

…I need more irl aro friends.

#aro #aromanticism #aromantic #aroace #kinda #mostly a post for the aros though #rant post

[oatbugs]

Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship

#saw carnation lily lily rose by john singer seargent irl today. it was basically at my doorstep all along idk why i never went to see it #it was placed at a corner in the gallery. me and my friend sat down and sketched the paintings of beautiful naked people quite badly. paper #provided by tate britain. she told me about how she couldnt look her boyfriend in the face after a harrowing film about war. when i say the #interview was informal i mean the person who was supposed to be my boss told me let me get you a cider and then he said after #50 years of life he knows people are inherently good and it only takes a little bit of kindness to save this world. he said he tricked #his wife into keeping the baby and then he said he quit his job at a US bank to help people find meaning and in it #he would have liked to find meaning. instead he started climbing with his friends. he said he chews his cigarettes because its a habit from #when he had to hide things from people. the entire time i felt uncomfortable and incredibly enlightened. this is my friends mentor. she has #his pattern of pauses and expletive and penchant for ends-justify-means attitude. i do think im not very clever #but maybe one day i will love you enough to make up for it. i wrote code i dont understand staring at the final error i thought about how #we both thought of how when we're too old to remember the voices of our friends we would like to stand in the pathway of the LHC beam pipe #cut it open and eat light in the freezing cold vacuum (kills you long before radiation will) the invisible puncture wound unfolding dna #back to the start larger than you ever were. you go to heaven once youve been to hell. my friend is in my bed #practicing calculations of eigenvectors by hand and she is uninterested in a visual proof you are uninterested in incompetence #we catch a train this is your kind of burden you tragic hero wincing at that word you only do this because you have to. im the only one #who can. i am a coward in this for the fucking poetry. the visual proofs. the pretty numbers. an architect who was horrible at maths wanted #to be a philosopher and accidentally ended up neck in deep in 70th Error On Visual Studio Code i want to kiss your eyes before we say #goodbye we both know there is no love in the way there should be. I still have your dress in my wardrobe. i hope you make art. #you think im alright head-wise i think you fucking hate me i think ill never be so clever you want me to tell you my idea? #if you wanted more of this world i would have liked to kiss you harder. we cant both be like this. im sorry i cant be with you the whole wa #the love is gone if you have to ask it. his breath catches his eyes feel stiff it is -1.9 kelvin he is near the beam pipe i miss holding #his hand i miss her singing voice i miss his hair and i found the antonym of pain thank you for carrying me home.

[certified-anakinfucker]

ok this is unprompted but if you pride yourself on being the reason people leave a space for something they genuinely love and have done no objective wrong - youre a piece of shit btw. like full send youre horrible.

#cheeri rants #this is brought on by me finally letting myself get back into smth i loved for like 5-6 years #and got squicked out of by senseless witch hunts and trans/misogyny and the like #im really sitting here remembering all the nights i stayed up with amazing friends #the shoulders i cried on and the hands i held for others #the people who stood with me through some of the toughest times i can remember #we all loved the same silly things #we all poured bits of ourselves into everything we created and we shared that with everyone #i still so vividly remember lamenting that id never get to see our interest irl #and someone i didnt even know all that well dm’d me a few days later asking if i had venmo or paypal #because they were going to give me $50 to buy a ticket. they wanted to go but couldnt #for some reason i cant remember but they gave me their own money and told me to please enjoy in their place #and you know what? i fucking cried that night. you dont see that anymore #the all-nighters i pulled with my best friend watching the live reruns of our interest before we even got into the fandom #doing my homework while we were on facetime together squealing #and all of this came to a screeching halt because of some . PEOPLE. #who figured we were having fun the wrong way because they didnt like it #and we put up all the flashing neon signs to warn people #warn them of smth they should have already known #and just because people ignored those signs it was taken out on us anyway #and i have never been so heartbroken to watch one by one as some of the brightest people i ever knew #started leaving. breaking down. their light was being stomped out because some assholes cant mind their own #and i will be fucking damned before i stand by and let that happen again. to anyone.

[tigerdrop-official]

I don’t have friends will u be my friend

always <3

#i AM a public figure so to be blunt not really but if you see me and say hi we can chill for a bit #unless theres an akuma #my biggest advice for making friends is to go to a place regularly. could be anything. #the clerk at burgermart knows my order as soon as i walk in #......... a bad example‚ but #take a class if you can. go to the park #take your dog somewhere #volunteer at the library #if you put yourself around people they'll want to get to know you #mlb irl

[spirithalloweeping]

i’m having so much fun being on tumblr in 2022 actually. @ anyone seeing this post, let’s be friends

#i want tumblr friends #my irls MUST NOT EVER DISCOVER this account #but maybe i can share this secret hidden personality with the internet #so #hello internet #be my friend #i doubt people will see this post but it’s going out into the world anyway #tumblr is my place for no inhibitions #i’m going to tag shit for real so maybe people will see this #supernatural #superwholock #doctor who #destiel #tumblr #i love when my tags take up more space than the post itself LMFAO #more things i like: #gravity falls #over the garden wall #merlin #watcher #sherlock #harry potter #but not being a terf #stardew valley #percy jackson

[astrxealis]

i miss the times back in shadowbringers. don’t get me wrong i love how things are in endwalker but there was just ?? something so magical about shb to me ???

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა ffxiv ໒꒱ *·˚ #just being afk with my fc mates or in the shb places and man. man. #going through enw msq is amazing! 6.0 made me so incredibly emotional and i owe a lot to it for helping me get thru my uh... despair #and the patches really feed into those brainrotting parts of me head. and the new content is super cool and ohh the stories of the side stuf #but i still prefer the fantasy of shb compared to enw. and the rest of ffxiv tbh. and the whole of ff. it is just so yeah to me ??? #and. and. it was just SUCH an experience and everything about it means so much to me! #ffxiv has helped me with anxiety and social anxiety and issues like depression and it. helped me make friends again and even now #i make friends because of ffxiv and some people i have met because of this game mean so much to me and it brings my other friends together #too and the story is just everything to me and ffxiv just. yeah #social life kinda dipped a bit b4 i got so absorbed into ffxiv and sometimes i see that summer of 2021 as unhealthy but also?? #it wasn't like i had friends at that time eitherway bcs i fell out w my irls and then online friends so. ffxiv really really helped #and then i reconnected w my irls and then wow. the world is so beautiful and so silly with the way it brings people together! #sorry this kinda turned into tmi but also wow i should make a proper text or sorts as an appreciation to ffxiv bcs i've been meaning to #for a long time now. i want to write a text and then a story (both! they are different to me) and then a video. yeah #and i want to do all this before 7.0 :) which is pretty soon tbh... in a year or two or so? wow #these next years will be very important for my future so idk if i'll be active w ffxiv but i really want to be! #so i'll improve myself and my schedule and all that i do ^___^ #idk man ffxiv just really helped me a lot and i feel bad a bit for feeling so much at times but #it really helps knowing i'm not alone. and those much older than me also feel the same! it's really nice #a central theme of ffxiv (endwalker in particular) is that you aren't alone and that shit really hits man. i think everyone should #try to experience ffxiv's story but people also have different preferences and all and that's fine but #i hope i can find people who are like me frfr! and keep those who are close to me <3 hehe

[semercury]

Anyway throwback to like 9 years ago when I was actively suicidal. I think I was somehow happier and more alive back then.

#stuff sarah says #recent events have made me... #i remember a conversation at dinner with my then friends #they were talking about how good... something... was. overpopulation blah blah blah #and i was like hey can we change the topic im uncomfortable #and i got a lot of lol sarahs catholic lmao of course she doesn't like this lmao #and its like. no. im narrowing down suicide methods and with you talking about #how people should be disposed of if theyre not useful enough its making me want to dispose of myself tonight #but of course all i said irl was :) #and i hate how even to this day... i see all life as precious and lovely except my own #every single human is important and loved simply for existing and it doesnt matter if you *do* anything you just *are* #but not me. doesnt count for me. i should have died 9 years ago #but i didnt and now its everyone elses problem #but its mostly my problem #idk. my tummy hurts. my heads been in a weird place the past few days #but yeah. im not suicidal anymore. not really. im just dead inside #and every day i wake up and i go ah fuck i gotta be me again dammit fuck shit balls #so its like???

[arthur-r]

i have a job interview tomorrow for a babysitting job i don’t even want….

#an irl friend used to babysit for this family #and now they really really need a babysitter. they pay $7 an hour according to tara which is even less than my job that rips me off #and i get that babysitting is different but this is the kind of job for someone who isn’t old enough to work a minimum wage job yet #like im professionally employed and if im getting another job i want it to actually make a dent in paying for college #and actual life expenses and all of that. not a little mini subminimum wage side hustle #i literally already have a subminimum wage main hustle. if im working somewhere else it’s going to be a grocery store goddammit #but anyway basically just. i never texted those people about babysitting because i didn’t really want to. but then my irl followed up #and says they really really need a babysitter and i should really get in touch with them. so i did #i introduced myself as ari and we’re meeting up tomorrow at 2:00 pm. so that’s fun #like i won’t object if this becomes what i do with some of my evenings every week i won’t be upset or like. say no #but i just wish i didn’t have to reach out about it in the first place. like. yes im looking for a second job. but please understand it’s #i already have a job where the terrible pay is made worth it by a loving and not-too-busy workplace environment #i really don’t need another one of those…. like i love kids but it’s just. when i say im looking for a second job what i mean is a $16/hour #fast paced grocery job within biking distance four or five mornings a week #then i’ll actually be getting somewhere. i don’t want to set a whole night aside for $21 when i could be with my own baby sister #but anyway yeah. that’s what im going to be up to tomorrow. 2 pm mark your calendars arthur will be out and gone #im so tired i need a hug #also i think im heading to bed any minute because my mom gets home on tuesday and i have to get my room clean before she sees me and so i #need to go to sleep early so that i can wake up early so that i can go for a walk with the irl i mentioned and then meet that family #idk i’ll just get the babysitting job and my pizza job and add a grocery job and all of a sudden i’ll be a millionaire or something #might as well make the most of my time this summer all it’s going to be otherwise is family time and i miss my baby sister but still #anyway i also might still end up making and selling jewelry before this summer is over. i might be able to buy a car or something after that #….or a limited edition used fender stratocaster in fiesta red with gold hardware. but um. here at arthur inc we spend our money responsibly #however if i buy that guitar i can sell my current guitar which my dad got for free from a friend…. which means…. turning a profit (kinda) #anyway idk. my main focus is always college but i want to have fun with my life too. it’s getting harder to budget responsibly #man this post is going to be a minefield of bots. hate talking about money and jobs on tumblr dot com #but anyway just. i should probably sleep but yeah im getting another job most likely. and then probably another one #but im probably logging off of tumblr now. just had to take a second and say all that i guess #me. my post. mine. #delete later

[monsterslament]

sooo normal and cheerful and happy

#tfw ur birthday is literally two full months away and you know you'll have no irl friends to celebrate with so you'll just be alone #even tho its not even a big holiday and it feels weird to celebrate but ik I'll end up at least doing something anyway #but uh. yeah i have no irl friends like i have yall n i love u to death ofc. how could i not #but like. irl friendship is also such an important experience for people of any age to see others they know i person ect ect #i just. it sucks man #like the two people who i still have the numbers of never even talk to me #i started a conversation once to let them know i still wanted to be friends but they havent said anything to me in months #i always have to be the one to make plans or talk to Them and i just want to see people!! #i want to go places and see people irl! i want friends i want to see someone my age i want to hear new voices #i just. sitting alone with my party hat two months early. #idk its not a big deal. i feel like im overreacting. im not sure #im just tired of only seeing the same few people i barely know anyone my age even my brother is like 10 years older than me #like. girl help genuinely help i am so isolated #just like. going outside once or twice a month isnt gonna get me anywhere #im just gonna feel good for a few hours and then go back home and crumble

[transmascnepetaleijon]

hmmm should i log in back to discord

#nah #dont feel like it #reading the servers messages is making me depressed i need to Not Do That for a while. put my head back in place #basically whas going down for me is ive been in the self hating no friends loser zone even though i have friends #and seeing happy people doing happy normal friend people stuff is making me want to die! #so yk avoiding that till i get better #not even checking my irls instagram stories. i still like some pictures cus i think all of them deserve Notification but i dont process it #aaaa man idk im lonely but i need to be lonely right now i need a little bit more of myself in my life #????? yup that makes sense #whatever. goodnight #txt

[mosscrab]

mgsv has so many literary references to books i have essays abt it kind of makes me.

#i'm sick this is my slightly fever-induced thought stream in the rest of the tags sorry -> #all the 1984 stuff is really interesting. the position of both ocelot and kaz as the people running room 101 is really fascinating. #because it somehow manages to place huey in the position of winston while also having venom be in the position of winston. #<- would that make quiet julia? actually yes it does bc of her nature motifs. #and the whole game seems to doublethink of whats real and what isn't. though it starts to tell you what isn't real its still there. #and then with moby dick you have pequod which is just. the ship. and queegueg who is ishmaels friend. which is why its kind of perfect he i #the other pilot we see who takes kaz places. and theres other stuff with him but i don't want to get into that. i could go on for a while. #but whats interesting is that ahab seems to apply more to kaz than it does to venom. esp because his own deception results in his downfall. #whereas that isn't true with venom if youve played mg1 he just kinda keeps going with it to at least some degree. #and i guess kaz is working for foxhound but you know what i mean. #ocelot even being the perfect counterpart to starbuck who works at kaz's side but disagrees with his methods to an extreme. #he isn't of the same morals as starbuck but its just the oppositional character type. #does that mean cipher is moby dick. yes actually bc of the leg thing with kaz. oh my god. #<- funny enough i am actually getting moby dick back out of the library bc i never finished it and its been ages since i read what i did. #i remember the narration being kind of nuts. #honestly the lord of the flies stuff feels less like a reference and more like eli read that book and decided he wanted to do it irl. lol. #i can't say these books are even close to being favorites but i'm intimately familiar with both 1984 and lotf so those are. those. #and moby dick is genuinely just kind of. what in the hell did i experience. theres a lot to unpack. #and i didn't even finish the damn thing. #ok i'm done now i just needed to get that out of my system. now i'm off to read veniss underground. 👍 #.txt

[madaracore]

#sad pou hours #jk thats like every hour of my life #dont read im just being stupid and miserable snd dumb #so like normal. Online diary in place of therapy #i just need to get it out so i can stop feeling this way! #okay? ok. #im trying NOT to feel shelved away and unloved but its really really hard and its getting really REALLY much harder #* is basically my only saving grace. Hes the only person lately who seems to show care and interest unprompted #and it does wonders for my self esteem #its. Really nice to be able to hear I Love You fully and unobjectively from someone just bc they want me to hear it #bc i dont get things like that v often. im So touch and affection starved it makes me throw up #and ik its gross and just. Way too clingy #ugh. I just would rather not hear the words at all than have to costantly see ‘ily/lov u/etc’ from my friends n stuff cuz it just feels so #Superficial. which is a Dumb ass reaction I Know but. ugh. whatever. #im just tired. of being completely isolated and then being shelved by people on top of that. its hard. but ik im not the most personable or #enjoyable person so ig i cant blame other ppl #i constantly feel like a whimpering dog at the pound. #its hard watching everyone around me be loved and spend time with each other while im stuck on the outside. #like damn all my irl ‘friends’ constantly go out and have fun with each other snd the only time they think of me is when lizzie pity-invites #me lol. the message has NOT been clearer! i can try all i want and ill still be last place <3 #i think im gonna go back to ripping myself open i dont have anything else

[thefabulous-mostgroovy]

my period must be coming up soon cuz there is no Way im crying over not being able to mute the discord music bot lmaooooo

#tmi i think lol #like i haven't actually Spoken to Any of my friends in literal weeks and the moment my friends are all on and talking i cant join because #discord mobile has a glitch where you cant mute or turn down the music bots #so i cant even hear what any of them are saying #and im a Little Teary about it because!!! i want to talk to my friends!!! #i havent spoken to anyone but my mum and my cowrokers for a fucking month!!! and i havent even seen my one (1!!!!!) irl friend in over a #month and oh my god i am very lonely!!!!!!!!! #and this guy is like oh sorry i know we haventade plans in a while it's cuz i have no money #and then i see him almost every other day out at the pub or hanging out with his friends like ok dude i get people are paying for your #drinks but like. we can just. hang out at your place ? like we domt Have to go for drinks and Only drinks???? #i miss my friends man :( im so fuckin lonely these days :( #anyway #vent #dont reblog this or ill eat you

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

I (26, NB) dropped a long-term friend (23, not disclosing gender, I'll call them X) for being a proshipper, and now they're trying to get in the way of my other friendships.

A little more than a month ago, an old friend from when I was an itty bitty teen on the internet (we met when they were 12 and I was 15 or so) messaged me on twitter asking if we could share discord since they're more active on that platform, and they missed hanging out. Ok, no prob!! I missed talking to X and life was going kinda icky for me at the time. We exchanged discords and started talking more frequently, before we would talk through twitter dms maybe one day every few months, and we went from almost no contact to talking every single day. It was like being a teenager again; we still shared similar interests and we really fast clicked over old and new fandoms we were in. We talked about college and how they're starting to get the hang of their new job but needed support, talked about our family lives, etc., and in general I felt really comfortable and happy to be chatting again with someone I've known for so long. We were inseparable for weeks.

However... of course, as adults, and having known each other for YEARS, we started talking about fandom ships and fics we enjoyed. We didn't have the same taste in pairings, but that was okay. Until it wasn't anymore.

I shared my NSFW twitter with them, and they followed me. A few minutes later X told me, "I see you have "proship DNI in your bio, I just want to let you know that I am a pro-ship and enjoy some things in fandom that you might think is gross. I hope that's okay."

I was kind of weirded out, and told them that as long as they didn't like anything that would be criminal in real life, that's fine. They told me they *did* enjoy things in fiction that they "wouldn't condone in reality" and even though they "don't talk about it publicly" they still wanted me to know. For some reason. ?? Even though they KNOW that I have an irl history of abuse as a kid, they still told me this.

I was so fucking uncomfortable and really, really sad, and honestly I felt betrayed? I stepped away from my account for like, an hour before messaging them back and saying I didn't want to continue talking to them anymore. That I didn't know they were that kind of person and I'm not comfortable being their friend. I didn't read their response to me because I soft-blocked them.

While I was getting over that and trying to move on, a few days later I was talking to another mutual friend of ours when they asked if I was still friends with X. I got chills remembering how I broke off with them, and said no, we weren't talking anymore. That they were the kind of person that made me really uneasy and uncomfortable to be around. The mutual friend, I'll call R, said that X was "feeling kind of down about losing a friend recently" and talked about it in a discord server they share. X didn't mention my name but R wondered if it was me who dropped them since I was really touchy about boundaries online. I freaked out a little thinking about them talking about me, and asked what else they said, and R told me "not much, just that they felt sad but it was your choice in the end because you two were different" and I don't know why but it left a bad taste in my mouth. Were they trying to make people seem like I was the bad guy or something?? Idk.

I told R the reason why I stopped talking to X, and that X is a proshipper who likes things like inc*st and rape, and R wasn't as supportive as I thought he would be, saying that he understood how I felt but if X was being honest and open about their interests, it probably meant they trusted me and didn't want to "lie" to me. I don't understand how that's even relevant if X is a fucking proshipper. I don't want their trust in the first place if that's who they really are, and I felt betrayed that someone I knew for so long was hiding that for me until we were bonding again. R basically dropped it there and said "idk then" and I told him I was going to shut off my notifs for a bit. I really don't want to talk with him again right now especially since he didn't seem THAT bothered by X being a proshipper who's into really criminal shit.

Since then, friends of mine who are also friends with R (because he's a friend of X still, for some reason), haven't been replying to me as much anymore and I'm super sensitive to noticing these things, at first I told myself it was nothing, but there's an obvious decrease in our interactions. I can't help but think that X actually said bad stuff about me, and R didn't want me to know, or maybe X convinced R that I was a terrible person or something. I still haven't read X's reply to me because I genuinely do not want to interact with them ever again, but for the past few days I've been so angry and hurt by my other friend's actions that I can't help but want to blame them, since this all started when I left them.

AITA for dropping a friend because their interests made me SEVERELY uncomfortable? I don't know what to do.

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole #ship discourse

[mcytgender]

.

#VENT TIME LETS GO /NEG #I hate myself #needed to say that #also my irl friends? i don't wanna be there friends anymore #but see it's complicated cause we all recently experienced trauma together so we need eachother #but i don't wanna #so idfk what to do cause I want friends that don't judge people so harshly #i want open minded friends #i want friends i can info dump about hermitcraft marvel and pokemon to #idk #how to stop talking to my irl friends without completely ignoring them while making new friends wiki how search #I met a person in english who is pretty cool she and I are going to a paper airplane show :D maybe I can befriend her #and yknow I have my online friends!! so thats epic #maybe everything is fine #and im just over dramatizing everything in my head because im mentally ill #yeah #curi types words #my blog i can vent if i want to #something still feels wrong tho i can't place it #well actually it's probably because I'm going through a traumatic grief of my best friend and am now searching for clo #sure but i have no one to lean to so im desperately trying to make human connection #yeah thats probably it #anyways curi shares to much with the internet session is over #hope you enjoyed learning about my personal life

[ultrasharpy12345stuff]

SUCCESS STORY (manifesting)

OMFG you guys! I did it! I made it to my desired reality! I'm living my desired life!

All I did was decide it's done. More specifically, I just did Angel's fulfillment challenge (which you don't have to do). Everyday I just decided to live like I was in my desired reality right now as often as I could and whenever I wanted to.

If I vented, I vented. If I ranted I ranted. If I sabotaged my manifestation I just decided it wouldn't matter and that nothing would ruin my manifestation and everything was ok and fine.

And this is totally optional but I affirmed sometimes. I just did to remind myself that it was done.

My affirmations were:

-I'm living my desired life

-Nothing can ruin my manifestation

-I'm in my desired reality

-I'm in my desired reality in my penthouse in Tokyo

-I have all my desires

-The 3D conforms instantly

And it worked! And now I'm happy! I woke up today IN my penthouse in Tokyo! The view of the city is amazing. I checked my bank account and it turns out I'm super rich! Like I literally have BILLIONS of dollars. And it's like I always get millions of dollars out of nowhere! So it's like I get paid just to exist!

Also life in this reality is soooooooo different than on Earth. Like the people in the city are nice... but they aren't just humans beings. I'm seeing Japanese monsters walking around wearing uggs! I can also see Godzilla walking around in a place in the city it's so cool! (don't worry, they made a place in the city specifically for her)

I can also enter the void anytime I fall asleep. Like everytime I go to sleep I wake up IN the void state completely aware. I know this because I just decided I would go to sleep and I did! (one of the things I also manifested, to fall asleep instantly)

And guess what? I also revised my ENTIRE life. Like all the shitty, terrible things that happened to me and all the awful things I've done are GONE! They never happened. All the arguments I had with people on Youtube are gone, they never happened. I never met those people. All the people who I argued with on Discord, well I never argued with them. All the problems with my family are gone.

I also have new memories of me being in Highschool. It went great! I made some friends, they never got angry at me, I got to play my videogames, and I never had to deal with any kind of stress. And I also have my college degree even though I never went to college.

Also let me show you what I look like:

This body:

This is my hairstyle (except it's white colored):

This is my face (trigger warning: AI art, also dw I'm black):

And I'm like popular on Twitter. I'm as popular as @rariatoo. People follow my art and they love drawing my OCs and characters, it's so much fun. Plus I have a patreon and a redbubble. I get to make my OCs as plushies and stickers and ship them off.

And the best part is that there's no wars! No covid, no genocide in the Congo or Palestine, no racism, no problems. And there never will be, everything is fine! Its literally a Utopia.

Summary of what I manifested:

-Desired life & reality

-Freezing Time

-Revising entire life

-Different family (same soul but different looks (slightly) and better personality)

-Entering the void whenever I fall asleep and at will

-A butler friend who I can summon and make disappear at will (he's super nice and never have any problems, perfect personality, kinda shy, and we just had some woopie 🥵🤪)

-Magic (I can do LOTS of crazy stuff)

-Being able to shift realities at will

-Visiting my family through a magic door (my family lives in what I call, "Reality # 3 and I can visit them anytime I want)

-Spawning groceries and food whenever I want (I still go out, dw)

-Friends on discord and some IRL

-Money money monayyyyyyyyyyy

-Perfect health and mental health, no problems with my body

-Never getting yelled at ever again or abused/nobody gets abused/abuse doesn't exist. Yellers don't exist.

& a lot of other personal things

You guys got this! You can get your dream life! Go for it! *I didn't get my dream life yet, that's why the title reads:

"SUCCESS STORY (𝗺𝗮𝗻𝗶𝗳𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴)" When you put "manifesting in the title it means you haven't gotten your desires yet but you're doing it to help you live in the end. SO please don't be angry or offended.*

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