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yourfavepookiebear · 5 months

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Introduction (again 😭)

Requests: open (?)

I'm currently less active since I have exams coming up, so I'd rather answer any requests once my exams have passed. I'm gonna post my WIP soon, I just have to finish it first

Again, my only side account is @thepookiestpookiebear

Request Rules :

Character limit : generally 4 unless it's a group

I don't write incest, racist, homophobic, or that kinda stuff

Uhh I don't have much rules

I can write yandere stuff, I can also write self aware stuff

I write for twisted wonderland and genshin impact, and maybe tokyo revengers too !

And that's all, moving on :

Feel free to chat, I LOVE MAKING FRIENDS and i love talking/chatting ❤

If you don't like my works, just ignore them. If you don't like my account, block me. If I offend you somehow, either ignore me or block me.

I don't argue with people (most of the time)

I'm a pacifist, I have a teeny weeny wittle tiny eety beety bitty bit of anger issues

I haven't made a masterlist yet bc I don't know how to sorry

Do not steal my works, they are mine. Do not do anything with my works unless I consent to it, please. Don't copy !

Pookie, come and have some chai with me ♡♧ (or some coffee if that's what you prefer idk)

Hi pookies! I'm a beginner fic writer. I write for twisted wonderland, self aware twisted wonderland, and a slight bit of genshin impact, but mostly sagau. I'm a ✨FaLLeN AnGeL✨ /HJ SORRY 😞

My pronouns are she/her

I'm half European half Asian (specifically middle-eastern asian) my first language is French and my second language is English (chronologically), oh and I can speak in total 3-4 languages.

Edit: I have a lot of names and nicknames, so you can call me whatever you'd like, but here is a list of what most people call me, both online and irl :

Jess

Pookie

Pookie bear

Bear

KitKat

Jessica (rarely)

Cathy

Cath/Cat

Catastrophe (a nickname my previous classmates used to give me)

Sometimes even Catharina, or Catherine/Katherine

In conclusion, I have a lot of names and nicknames, so just call me whatever you'd prefer to call me, I just gave that list so maybe you'd have an idea.

Sometimes I'm dumb sometimes I'm smart, it all depends and varies.

I'm a girl, bisexual + greysexual (basically a biromantic greysexual). I'm a huge simp -> (edit: sometimes), and I like cute things.

I LOVE CATS

requests are almost always open pookies

Proud member of the pookie nation.

I will call u pookie or pookie bear no matter who or what you are.

I'm a pisces, my birthmonth is March. I'm not a huge fan of astrology but I do like astronomy tho

Subjects/topics I like:

Fashion, modeling, models.

Astronomy

Biology

Physics

Chemistry

Science (general base)

Philosophy (self-explanatory)

Edit : Sometimes history/SS too

Things I like/LOVE:

Vacuum cleaners ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤💖💞 (love of my life <33333333333333)

Food (everything except some seafood and mushrooms)

Cats (self-explanatory)

Cute things (self-explanatory)

Animals

Social media (sometimes, depends on the type)

My friends

My (new) classmates

My old school

Fast-food (KFC especially, OMFG I LOVE FRIED CHICKEN WINGS AND OML FRIED SPICY CHICKEN WINGSSS <333)

Chicken nuggets

Dried bacon

Bacon and eggs

Scrambled eggs

FRIED CHICKEN

Sandwhiches

Hotdogs

Riceballs

Tuna fish cans (canned tuna fish 🔛🔝)

Basically any food

Chocolate, ex : chocolate cakes, chocolate milkshakes, chocolate bars, chocolate tablets

Nutella/chocolate milkshakes

Writing (depends, sometimes)

Dancing

Ducks (And he waddled away waddle waddle waddle 🥲.)

CARS

Motorcycles

MONEY (no need to explain)

My extra-curricular classes (kinda, sometimes I also hate them 😞)

Uh, a Lotta things, I'm just too lazy to write all of it (it would take hours)

Music too

My personality type:

I'm ambiverted actually so it depends, so idk.

Edit: I'm an INTP pookies

Little details about me:

I could talk about food for hours. (It's one of the only things I like more than astronomy and money.)

I can't focus for too long.

I have a wild imagination (not in a bad way tho)

I love mostly everything, except for a few people/things that I still hold grudges to. (For a good reason tho).

I have a super packed schedule most of the time, it's mainly cuz I go to 2 schools at the same time, along with extracurricular classes, and both school's homeworks, and school projects

My hobbies:

Horseriding

Rockclimbing

Hiking

Writing (sometimes)

Reading

Studying (only rarely)

Jogging (but mostly cycling)

Track running

Cycling (every day, except for when I'm sick or not in form)

I don't like:

Judgemental people

Sh*t-talkers

People who have massive egos

Roaches

Spiders

Dirtyness

Dirty people

Dust

Unsanitary people

Dirty food

Dirty water

Unhygienic people

People who don't wash their hands after going to the bathroom.

Some things you should probably know if you're one of my mutuals:

1. This isn't that much important, but I usually Ieave my home at around 8am and I come back at around 5pm. So sorry if I reply late to any of your asks or messages. if I don't reply or the reply is late then I'm most-likely outside, or just came home.

2. Also not that inportant, but I try to be nice to people because they already have enough problems and I don't need/want to be one of them. Sometimes though I may be rude or mean on accident, srry.

3. I LOVE ALL OF MY MOOTS ♡♡♡

4. Also not important but I don't really think much before subscribing to someone, if I see a random stranger on the internet who has good humor, then I'll hit the plus button. Sometimes though it can be troublesome, since i don't really check people's bios.

ALSO this is my beloved creature that I found on the streets on a snowy day, it's my best friend now @farfarurfav

I'm in a lot of fandoms, mainly Twisted Wonderland, Genshin impact, Attack on Titan, Jujustu Kaisen, Honkai Impact, Honkai Star Rail, Sailor Moon, Naruto, Boruto, Assassination Classroom, Spy x Family, KNY, Tensei Shitara Slime Datta Ken/ That time I reincarnated as a slime, Obey me, Dark Fall, Etc etc and also I'm a manga, manhua, manhwa, and anime enjoyer and I also know some webtoons too !

ONLY Side account : @thepookiestpookiebear

Tags :

See "#yourfavepookiebear" for anything related to me !

See "#pookiebear rants" for whatever rants I've posted !

See "#pookie talks" for me talking with people or just chatting and stuff like that

See "#thepookiestwrites" for some of my newest works !

For now these are the only tags I'll introduce.

#yourfavepookiebear #pookie talks #introduction #introducing myself

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flickeringflame216 · 1 year

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15 questions 15 mutuals! I was tagged by @o-lei-o-lai-o-lord, @lightthewaybackhome, and @zelzahdarkcloak. Thanks friends!

Rules: answer the questions and tag fifteen mutuals

1. Are you named after anyone?

Nope. I mean, there's a Bible gal with my name.

2. When was the last time you cried?

Last night? This morning? Idk man I cry all the time.

3. Do you have kids?

Nope!

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Define a lot.

5. What’s the first thing you notice about people?

I don't think I consciously notice things about people when I'm introduced. The social things are taking up all my brain power. The many things I note about people are subconscious and and get filed into a "general vibes of this person" folder. Sometimes I sort through it later, sometimes not.

6. What’s your eye colour?

Murky pond water (they're brown but backlit with green, which you can only see in bright sunlight *goes into science spiel about why this happens*)

7. Scary movies or happy endings?

Happy endings. I do like bittersweet endings too, or even sad ones. But scary movies aren't my jam in general.

8. Any special talents?

I'm good at looking like I know how to operate things (power tools, computers, etc.) but really I just push buttons until something happens.

9. Where were you born?

Hospital.

10. What are your hobbies?

Too numerous to mention. But I enjoy singing and crocheting and biking and roller skating. Random science experiments are also fun.

11. Have you any pets?

Blossom is my tiny sassy rabbit.

12. What sports do you play/have played?

None. I'm not much of a team sports person so I prefer things like hiking and biking and swimming and skating where there are no projectiles being launched at me/that I have to launch.

13. How tall are you?

About 5'6", or 168 cm.

14. Favorite subject in school?

I really liked English all through middle school, but liking science took me by surprise freshman year when I fell in love with Bio.

15. Dream job?

There are too many options. Something where I can use my brain and help people and am not sitting in a chair before a computer all day. I've considered (in no particular order) physical therapy, occupational therapy, a number of other medicine-related careers, marine biology, park ranger, vague "astronomy" career path (but I haven't researched that one)...yeah.

I've seen lots of people get tagged but I haven't been keeping track, so if you're getting tagged again...the world will definitely explode. No-pressure tags @accidental-spice @and-learn-to-let-go @audreythevaliant @bookdragon1811 @clawedandcute @dangerously-human @dearlittlefandom-stalker @derangedmarmot @dimsilver @fairytale-lights @hollers-and-holmes @heckin-music-dork @mrgartist17 @tzarina-alexandra @whilewewereyetsinners and anyone else who wants to!

#zaki chats #questions and quacksalvers #thanks friends!

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lucifer-is-a-bag-of-dicks · 3 years

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Oh my gosh so I also headcannon Jack as autistic! But im not comfortable with writing it yet because idk how. Im not autistic; my little sister is and i know a few things jack could have trouble with... but hes a grown ass man so i just dont know. Im definitely taking notes on what you write him as but could you give me some pointers?....maybe?

Im mostly referencing to Bitter with this

aaaa yeah it definitely presents differently in adults who've learned to mask, personally I don't plan to put certain things in specifically to talk about how he's autistic, I write with the background knowledge of what traits he displays, and then express them when relevant, it's relevant a lot with Jack simply due to how much it affects his life

now this is going to get long, so bare with me, because this is a whole lot more complicated than you might expect

there's really no one correct way to write Jack, since there's no one way that autism presents itself, the way I write him is based on a mix of myself and some people in my family, so I can give you a basic idea of what angle I personally come from

for one, I change the way I write about facial expressions and how emotions come across to Jack, in Jazz's chapters I'll write about the exact emotion she can see on their face, with Jack's I'll go with an obvious base emotion, but then if the person is expressing something more complicated, I'll describe their face in physical details

eg;

Jazz POV - Danny was upset, but his face was tight with frustration

Jack POV - Danny looked sad, but his eyebrows were furrowed and his mouth was set in a hard line

it's a subtle difference but it's one I try to maintain throughout Bitter, Jack's POV is based on how I have trouble reading non-obvious expressions, although in my case I also have trouble looking people in the face when I talk to them, that's harder to write in an emotion driven POV story, so I made Jack better at that than I am

his interest in machines is quite obvious, since he's an inventor, and he looooves infodumping on people, he gets very excited about his passions very quickly and his mouth runs off with him, something I also have trouble with, it hasn't been a prominent trait for Jack in Bitter, because he's so out of his element he's mostly confused and in a way, almost grieving his own death, so he's been far quieter than he usually is

his special interest is obviously ghosts and machinery, and in Bitter I cover that he's got a degree in engineering, physics and mathematics. He's good at them, I like to look at it as though Jack rolled high in intelligence and low in wisdom, he's book smart, he knows things that are straightforward and have firm rules, he's less comfortable in topics that are more wishy washy and vague, biology is complicated and has too many variables, he finds it difficult to grasp, there's no one standard rule that applies to every body

I also struggle with vague and unclear directions, I need a solid structure and clear instructions, my strength is in sorting, organising, alphabetising and colour coding, I like things to Look Right, I stick to a particular routine with very specific things, and it's viscerally uncomfortable and even distressing for me to have that order disturbed, I nearly had a meltdown at work because someone had done a part of my job incorrectly, and I had to fix it, it made me genuinely upset on a personal level, it was MY system, NOBODY should be touching it, NOBODY should be moving things around, they do anyway, and I spend a portion of my shifts just frustrated and on edge because of it

Jack also has issues socially, he often says or does things that other people find uncomfortable or embarrassing, I reference that in Bitter, where Jack assumes everyone is mad at him because he said or did something stupid, this I have much experience in, while in the middle of a social situation it's easy to just do what comes naturally to you and not realise it's off putting to other people, because people often play polite and you can't tell that they're uncomfortable, even though people around you find it painfully obvious

sometimes it's easy to see in hindsight after you've been told you made something awkward or uncomfortable, but in the moment if nobody says anything about it, you can remain either totally oblivious, or become anxious and second guess every interaction you have

Jack is the oblivious type, he's fortunate to live in a family that is fairly understanding, they might get frustrated with him, or embarrassed by him, but they don't really take it personally, they KNOW he means well, they know he cares, and Jack does care, he cares a lot, he feels things a lot, he's incredibly empathetic

this is a trait that a lot of media likes to ignore in depictions of autism, because I guess it makes people with autism seem 'too normal', when tv shows always want to be like 'hey wow look at this clever asshole! isn't he clever, but also an asshole! but you can't hate him because he's ✨autistic✨ and he can't help it'

that bothers me a lot, I mean some people with autism do have trouble relating and empathising with people, my brother is one of them, but some people with autism really empathise a lot, some of us feel things very strongly, I'm highly empathetic and it's a real struggle to cope with

so yeah, it is a very complicated thing, so you need to go in with an idea of what their character struggles with, how it affects them, and when it's relevant in the story, also autism falls on a very wide spectrum, some people, like myself, are able to mask well, but that creates a big issue with identity, when you start to wonder how much of you is real and how much of you is mask, then you have to decide if you want to lower that mask and accept the social consequences of expressing yourself naturally

I have a friend who presents a little more obviously, he's very rigid in his ways and he talks like he's reading from a script, I have another friend who can socialise just fine, but will go into a total meltdown when a plan gets derailed and she doesn't know what to do next

another friend I have is highly social and incredibly boisterous, she stims with her whole body, dances around a lot, she's chaotic and that can be off-putting to people, she's had to spend a lot of her life holding that back, she's only recently started learning how to be herself shamelessly

my brother was incredibly social when he was younger, and people always really loved him, but most of that is mask, he's socially anxious and just wants to be alone most of the time, and he's a total prick to his immediate family, I don't take that personally any more, since now I understand that he's so blunt and brutally honest because he isn't masking with us, but also he still needs to be called out when he oversteps, autism might be why he has difficulty empathising, but it's not an excuse to be a complete asshole, even people with autism need to be called out on shitty behaviour, it isn't a get out of jail free card, our self expression shouldn't come at the cost of hurting other people, most of us are more than capable of learning to not be an asshole

I know this is like, A LOT, but these are the things that need to be considered when writing about autism, it is an all encompassing thing that permeates your entire life experience, I absolutely welcome people like you to try to write about it! Because I think it shouldn't be a taboo subject, and I appreciate that you asked for advice and that you want to do it respectfully, you've probably seen first hand how difficult living with autism can be, having a family member on the spectrum, so you already have some experience to draw from, I don't know your relationship with your sister or how old she is, or where on the spectrum she falls, but if possible you can ask her about her experiences in particular situations that you're having trouble writing, if that's something you and she are comfortable with

I hope this helps, just remember to keep an open mind and listen to any feedback you might get, it is very VERY easy to misrepresent autism so don't be too hard on yourself if you don't quite get it right, if someone gives you a critique, take it in stride and use it to become better ~ you can even express that in an authors note, that you want to write it accurately and invite anyone with experience to share their opinion, because like I said, it is different for everyone and my experiences are not universal, and you're welcome to run something by me every once in a while if you aren't sure about it ❤️

#asks #autism #danny phantom #bitter #jack fenton #this shit be COMPLICATED y'all

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thecelestial-art · 4 years

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ok but like, here me out,,,,, avatar high school au but its just me projecting my personality and trauma

my instagram

Aang

Freshman

He's trying his gosh darn hardest

The group baby

Appa is a therapy dog so he spends the day with gyatso in his classroom :)

Hes a saint bernard

The best man

Despite katara being the ‘mom friend’ he runs the god damn show

Momo is a shit head sphinx cat

The gang dropped movie nights for “knitting nights” so they could all learn to knit him sweaters

Hes very fashionable

he hates it

sokkas best friend

Aang makes costumes so when halloween comes around momo is very scary as dorothy

Track and field babey

Does not curse

He has a hard time keeping up with world events

Straight (i'm not wrong)

he and toph have an ongoing tradition of going in full dress to waffle house before school dances.

it got to the point where now all the workers know them by name

they also accidentally crashed a white lotus meeting and just kept going

Azula

Band kid

Sophomore

Rich girl with 2 friends

Pre eng

i know most schools dont have this program, but mine did and holy shit. those were some overachievers

The most annoying mf on the planet

Not a single teacher likes her

The know it all that will fight if you don't agree with the facts

She was the ww2 kid

Capitalist in the worst fucking way

Closeted lesbian, when she figures that shit out she gets a lil better

The one who can drive

Mai

Bisexual

She's really good at math?? Like shes the gay who can do math

But cannot drive, bitch failed her permit more times than she can count

She nearly went to an all girls boarding school at one point

Sophomore

Colorguard!!

She has beat the shit out of people she's walked in on making out in the bathroom

Genuine friends with the faculty??

She takes programming/coding as a filler class but she's pretty good and continues to pursue it.

Her tumblr looks sick as hell

has caused a teacher to cry

Ty lee

Bisexual

Lesbian earings actin mf

Sophomore

Cheerleader

She is the nicest mother fucker and everyone loves her

Despite acting like an airhead she's really science orientated

When she takes biology she passes with flying colors

Very invested in social justice

She would never hurt a fly but she will fuck you up

The one with a healthy relationship with her father

has comforted a teacher she found crying in the parking lot

Iroh

Now runs the jasmine dragon where zuko works after school w/ katara

Knows every single kid who comes in and tries his hardest to make sure everyone feels appreciated

Former war criminal

In a book club

The white lotus? Yeah this is the white lotus

Idk if it would be the same as the show, or if its just an old person shit talking group

Zuko

Junior

His dad got full custody of him and his sister when he divorced their mom

But at 13 he got kicked out for another bullshit reason and ever since Iroh has had custody of both of the siblings

But bitch boy ozai has visitation rights but only wants to see azula

Theatre kid!!

I mean he was gonna join jrotc to appease his dad but he figured his shit out before he really joined

A republican turned leftist

Hes queer he just doesnt know which label to use

Himbo rights

He and katara are best friends idgaf about ships but they are bros

orchestra kid! (yes this is me self projecting bc we have similar trauma)

Violist

Teachers have no idea what to do with him bc on one hand he's very reclusive and on the other his sister has the worst opinions so they don't know

Katara

Sophomore

Still the mom friend but this time she goes to therapy

Bc she literally raised her brother after her mother died?? And then became a parental figure to her FRIENDS???

Biggest political activist, genuinely does her best at educating herself and others about civil injustices

Also really obsessed with cults and true crime

Choir kid

She takes AP history, english, and second language classes

Is trying her hardest in math and sciences

Huge stuffed animal collection

Student council vice president

she originally ran for president but jets gang voted him in as a joke

The teachers pet

Swim team bitches

Best friends with the school janitors

This is my au so fuck off she and zuko are chaotic friendgroup parents and annoying best friends i love them

and maybe something more???

who fucking knows theres a betting pool in the white lotus and so far aang is winning

Sokka

Junior

Bisexual

Gym and History teachers LOVE him

On the swim team and the fishing team

Started crying when he took his drivers test

Goes to gsa w/ toph and loses his fucking mind

He's the reason suki’s car is disgusting

In all advanced/ap classes in math and science

Was the kid who carries a portable speaker around until suki put him in his place

Still has to use his hands to figure out left and right

Yue

Technically she doesn't go to school with them she goes to a nearby private school

She met the gang at a football game and has been invited to every group outing since

Junior!!

Very invested in world politics

When she joins the group at school events she ends up making friends with all the staff

Debate team kid!!!

She's not a rule breaker she just knows their limitations ;)

at one point missed school for like 2 months and everyone thought she died

turns out it was just fucking pneumonia and sokka is one dirty liar

Suki

oh? you mean yue’s best friend bc we dont respect pitting women against each other in this household?

Junior

Bisexual icon!!!

Oh god what sport would she do??

Probably basketball??

Or she would just do martial arts outside of school

And have a ‘female empowerment’ club or somethin

100% believes in self government in society and that the current gov exists purely on the theory that all humans are inherently evil

Bitch for bernie

Her car is DISGUSTING

She asks if she can hit peoples juul and then throws it in the trash

The gym coaches really like her but she fucking hates them

Is very close with her school counselor??

She never wants to run but she keeps getting elected to homecoming court

Toph

Freshman

Former homeschool bitch

Joined the wrestling team and the fishing team??

She doesn't even like fishing she just thinks it's hilarious

Very good a pottery and that's her arts credit

She and iroh have lunch together every thursday

If she catches wind of you putting gum on desks they will find your body in a ditch

She makes sokka and suki take her to prom

She hates it she just likes to fuck with people at prom

Sometimes she just tells people she doesn't believe in something bc she cant see it

has been wearing the same sandles for the past 3 years bc “they’re reliable”

Cryptid hunter

Goes to gsa bc its better than any fucking reality tv show

Has nearly burnt the house down making ramen

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yikesharringrove · 4 years

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maybe? 👉👈 steve taking a really long time with college (like on one year and off one yours year, on, off, on, off) and he still doesn't really know what he wants to do and he gets really frustrated bc billy just did college all in one go and steve is taking forever and he feels down on himself? idk im feeling the whump rn???

Steve had left high school having no idea what he wanted from the rest of his life.

That’s not true, he had some idea.

He knew he wanted to leave Hawkins, follow Billy wherever he was going. He knew he wanted to be with Billy for the rest of his life, he knew he wanted to leave the past behind and make new friends, people who were kind, and fun, and didn’t bat an eye when Billy pulled him into his lap.

But that’s about it.

So when Billy graduates high school, and gets a full ride to UC Berkeley, and they move into a cheap apartment in downtown Oakland, Steve is so happy that he got out.

He gets a job waiting tables at a restaurant down the street, pays half the rent and buys the groceries while Billy’s in class.

But then two years pass, and Billy’s soaring through college, working to his degrees, plural, because he just couldn’t decide between studying English Literature or Biology with a focus in research.

So he’s majoring in both and getting a minor in Italian because then I’ll know what you’re sayin’ when you start horny babblin’.

And Steve was at the same restaurant.

True, he was assistant manager now, and it came with a pretty okay raise, and he even gets dental insurance, but he feels so stuck.

So he enrolls in community college.

He starts with some general classes, still completely unsure of what he wants to study.

Billy said it was okay to just rule out things you don’t want to study, to nearly fail a math course and know that accounting is not for you.

So when Steve finishes his first year, he at least knows what he doesn’t want to pursue.

Meanwhile Billy has an internship at a lab through Kaiser Permanente. And he can read and write Italian than Steve can.

Steve is walking home from his job at the restaurant when it happens. He’s crossing the street, and gets hit by a car.

He’s taken to the hospital, where he’s informed of a fractured spine and another concussion.

He’s told his injury could’ve been much more severe, that he will not experience paralysis, but he needs physical therapy and walking will be difficult for a while.

Their finances take a big hit.

Billy’s internship doesn’t pay super well, and with Steve being unable to work for the foreseeable future, he’s fired.

Billy has insurance through the school, but because on paper, he and Steve have no real relation, Steve’s medical bills come out of pocket.

So Steve is bedridden for months. He can’t work or get groceries, or do fucking anything but lay there.

They can’t afford physical therapy.

But Billy has a friend studying to be a PT, and she comes over every Saturday, and practices her technique on him in exchange for ten bucks and a few beers.

And so the money Steve tucked away for school is rapidly diminishing.

By the time Billy graduates, Steve is a year into recovery. He still gets dizzy at odd intervals, and his back gets stiff when it rains, but Billy gets a job right away, doing research on flu vaccines.

And Steve goes back to work.

He gets a desk job, something he won’t have to be on his feet all day for. He works reception for a message therapist, which comes with free massages, which work wonders on his back.

So in the fall, he decides to give his education another shot.

He learns that history is not for him, and that his nutrition course was fine until they began looking into how the body processes nutrients, and he was fucking lost. He takes a few business classes, thinking, hoping genetics would take over and this is something he could do.

But his dad was right to take away the job opportunity at his own firm. Steve was not cut out for this.

After a year of research, Billy is promoted three times. He ends up working on some extremely important study that Steve does not understand for the fucking life of him.

But he sits and listens every time Billy explains what he did that day, even though Steve gets so sad when Billy mentions having to kill the lab mice to study their bodies.

So Steve is two years into community college, five years into living in Oakland with Billy, and he still is lost.

He takes a semester off, working more hours, trying to save up some money.

Because Billy is beginning to think about grad school, and that shit’s not cheap.

But Billy decides to postpone that, work for a few more years, and besides, he’s caught between studying something to put him in a research field, or just straight up going to medical school to study infectious disease.

Because Billy could. He’s smart enough for medical school, smart enough to research and be a doctor.

And Steve has a smushy spine and half a degree in nothing.

A semester off turns into a year.

A year and a semester.

Two years.

They’ve been in California for seven years, and Billy gets into grad school in San Diego. They move south and Billy spends late nights pursuing a Masters in Immunology.

And Steve works the front desk at a pediatrician’s office.

He’s flipping through a course catalog from the San Diego Community College when Billy comes home from his new job, the position he got after applying to only three labs.

He kissed the top of Steve’s head, moving to grab himself a beer from the fridge.

“You thinkin’ of going back?”

“I don’t know.” Steve slid the catalog closed. “Is it even worth it?”

“That’s something you have to decide.” Billy sat down, sliding the catalog towards him. Steve had crossed off the classes he had already taken, the ones he new he wouldn’t like. “And you know, going to school isn’t the only option. You could get an apprenticeship, master a trade.”

“I can’t do anything where I need to bend over for really any length of time. So that rules out plumber, and car mechanic, and anything physical like construction, or landscaping or even general contracting is right out.”

Steve could feel the old shame, the doubt and the self hatred crawling up his spine.

“I have nothing to offer. I have no discerning skills, and in seven years I’ve only made it through two years of goddamn community college, and here you are, ripping through grad school like a fourth degree is easy.”

“Stevie, you’ve got a lot to offer. We just gotta find something that suits you.” He took Steve’s pen, turning to the back page of the catalog. “Okay, we’re gonna write down all of you strengths, and think of career paths that could fit those. I’ll go first, you’re extremely caring. You’d be good at any career where you care for people.”

“But I can’t study nursing or something, I barely understood my biology 101 course. Plus, nurses are strong. I can’t lift more than like, thirty pounds.”

“There’re way more caring fields than nursing, Pretty Boy. Although I would love if you were my nurse.” Billy smirked at him, leaning in to plant a sloppy kiss to Steve’s cheek as he rolled his eyes. “Another strength: your emotional intelligence is through the fucking roof.” He wrote it down. “Okay, I’ve said tow, so you say one.”

“Um, I think that I’m good at making people laugh?”

“Yes! You are. Perfect.” Billy scribbled it down. “You’re a good leader.”

“I’m pretty good at reading people.” Billy wrote Intuitive, can smell a douchebag from a mile away.

“You’re good under pressure.”

“Sometimes.”

“Every time I’ve seen. You’re good at keeping calm and keeping others calm.”

“I guess.”

“Nah, Stevie. Positives only. Say a strength.”

“I’m, uh, I’m good at, bilingual?” Billy stared at him. “Like, I’m bilingual.”

“Are you sure? I don’t think that was English, even.” Steve slapped his chest, Billy laughed. “I’m joking. You are bilingual. You’re also really good at making others feel safe.”

“I was always pretty alright at public speaking.”

“You’ve got a great eye for detail.”

“I’m good at teamwork, and delegating.”

“You’re really compassionate, too.” Billy drew a line under the strengths side. “Okay, so now we’ve got some of your strengths, think about what you’d want in a job, and we can match everything up and think about some careers that could fit.” Steve nodded, racking his brain.

“Um, I would want to work with kind people, I would kind of like to do something, you know, worthwhile. I’d like to be in charge of something. Like it’s fine if I have a boss to answer to, but I’d like to be fairly independent.”

“I already have so many ideas.”

“Lay ‘em on me.” Steve sat back, closing his eyes to try and picture everything Billy threw out.

“I’ve actually always thought you’d be a really good teacher. Especially if you did like, kindergarten. Just got to be around little kids all day.” Steve could actually see it. “I also think you’d be a could social worker, like to work with Child Protective Services, or something. Um, you’d be good at even planning. Or I think you’d be really good working at a nonprofit of some kind. Maybe you could be the event planner for a nonprofit.”

And Steve was sitting there, and suddenly, he had four career paths, just sitting right in front of him. Four super attainable career paths.

“Wait, wait those make sense.” Billy beamed at him.

“Yeah, that’s because I know you, Pretty Boy.” Billy opened the catalog. “So, I think if you choose to enroll, you should pick a few classes, like, Intro to Social Work, Early Childhood Education 100, and maybe like, Sociology, and see from there.”

Steve stared at the course descriptions for what Billy circled.

“Thank you for helping me. I’m sorry this has taken me so long.”

“It’s okay. Everyone is on a different timeline. And it’s not like you got to explore options in high school. You were told business until your dad decided that nevermind. So it’s understandable that this took you a minute. Plus, you went through hell with your back.”

Steve sat up straight, stretching out his back.

“But, I mean, the back thing kinda happened to you too, and you still made it through all your schooling.”

“Sure, I watched you go through it, but I was not in the pain you were. And like, emotionally, it fucking sucked to watch the love of my goddamn life go through something, and I couldn’t even afford therapy. Like, I felt so helpless, but that’s nothing to what you went through literally experiencing it.” Steve took Billy’s hand, linking their fingers together, pressing a kiss to his knuckles.

“You did the best you could. Everything was shit for like, that whole year.”

“I cannot telly you how many times I would go into an individual study room in the library and just like, sob for a while.And then I’d get so mad at myself, thinking of you at home, hurting and not even able to get yourself out of bed, and I’d race home feeling like shit.”

Steve scrubbed his fingers through Billy’s hair. He had cut it a while ago, kept it short these days.

“You were doing everything you could for me. I would just sit in bed all day, and think about how amazing you are. Like I would just think about all the good times we’ve had together, and how much I love you.”

“That explains why we didn’t fight for like, that whole year.” Steve laughed. Billy leaned to kiss him softly.

“And you know, even now we’ve done this, there’s still no rush on you. You don’t have to go back to school this year, of this decade, or anytime until you’re ready. Until you want to.”

“Well now, I feel like there’s a fucking light at the end of the tunnel. I’m almost, excited. Is this how you feel? Excited to go to school?”

“Welcome to the nerd life, Sweet Thing.” Billy drained the last of his beer. “You wanna go out tonight? Celebrate?”

“Like, go out to dinner, or go out?”

“Oh, just like dinner. Be home by eight thirty, in bed by nine, missionary with the lights off, and asleep by nine fifteen.”

“Sign me the fuck up.”

#billy is based a lot on my sister in this #and steve is based on her best friend #any life path is valid #there's kind of a lot of set up but yeah #also i live for them settling down and becoming a totally boring mundane couple but they're just SO HAPPY toghether that's my shit #yikes writes #steve harrington #billy hargrove #steve harrington x billy hargrove #billy hargrove x steve harrington #harringrove #harringrive #harringrove fic #harringrove ficlet #harringrove drabble

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thefudge · 4 years

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Just out of curiosity, did you read JK's essay? I don't support everything in it but many parts resonated with me. Not to mention the horrific online abuse hurled at her, especially the countless, countless "choke on my dick" phrases thrown at her which are so violently misogynistic, it left me with a deep seated feeling of not only discomfort but fear as well. Idk I guess I just felt safe sending this because your blog seems more open to discussion from the other side instead of instant cancel.

i’m glad you think so about this blog and i hope that remains the case.

i didn’t have a chance to read JK’s essay until today (my previous ask about her was written before that) but here are some very, very imperfect thoughts on it:

the essay confirmed my previous take that she has inoculated herself against certain outside arguments but it’s also made me wonder about JK’s understanding of gender and sex. She is very attached to “natal women” and calling all people who menstruate “women” because of “common experiences”, despite the fact that her beloved de Beauvoir, whom she quotes in the essay extensively, acknowledged that “woman” is a social construct. JK herself at one point complains about having to comply with the rules of femininity while growing up and how it made her want to stop being female, so what is the truth? She argues that young girls shouldn’t be thinking about transitioning just because they are made to hate their femaleness but that’s!!! exactly what!!! pushing the term “woman” as sacrosanct does to girls!!! most of what JK felt in her childhood was the kind of misogyny which connects women strictly to their uterus. it made being male a better alternative precisely because of the gate-keeping of penis/vagina. a young girl who acted like a tomboy, for instance, would be criticized for trying to deny her sex, because deep down her biology still made her a “woman”. both sex and gender cannot be divorced from socio-cultural realities, because we act with our bodies and embody what we act. so, if we expand what it means to be a “man” and a “woman”, we liberate, not confine. JK wants young people to feel free to be whoever they want to be, but they must be called “women” when discussing menstruation or else (i won’t even go into the obvious addition that many cis and trans women exist who cannot or no longer menstruate).

Now, she does bring up some fair points about cancel culture and freedom of expression that I will level with, but the problem is that the nuancing she is trying to achieve also serves as weirdly specific dog-whistling. So let me address that:

(warning: spoilers for the Cormoran Strike series)

Right off the bat, we have this explanation added in her intro:

“On one level, my interest in this issue has been professional, because I’m writing a crime series, set in the present day, and my fictional female detective is of an age to be interested in, and affected by, these issues herself (...)”

and already, i’m asking questions. how is Robin Ellacott, one of the protagonists of the Strike series, “affected" by these issues, personally? she’s “of an age” to...what? be gender critical? there’s not a lot of that in the novels (unless you count Robin being tall and knowing how to drive well being framed as anti-girly...). How does crime relate to it? How is she connected to this really?

the real connection JK wants us to see because she’ll reveal it later in the essay is that Robin was r*ped in college. she’s a sexual assault survivor, which must make her critically engaged with the fate of trans women because....because underneath JK’s empty statement about her female detective....is the correlation that men “disguised” as trans women can perpetrate the same sort of horrific abuse. she keeps making this correlation throughout the essay.

Here she talks about various people who’ve reached out to her:

They’re worried about the dangers to young people, gay people and about the erosion of women’s and girl’s rights. Above all, they’re worried about a climate of fear that serves nobody – least of all trans youth – well.

And again here:

“So I want trans women to be safe. At the same time, I do not want to make natal girls and women less safe. When you throw open the doors of bathrooms and changing rooms to any man who believes or feels he’s a woman – and, as I’ve said, gender confirmation certificates may now be granted without any need for surgery or hormones – then you open the door to any and all men who wish to come inside. That is the simple truth.”

This one is my favorite because it’s so twisted (here she’s listing her charity work):

“The second reason is that I’m an ex-teacher and the founder of a children’s charity, which gives me an interest in both education and safeguarding. Like many others, I have deep concerns about the effect the trans rights movement is having on both.”

“safeguarding”

hmmmm

What JK wants to spell out with these “common sense” arguments is that she fears that trans women are predatory, and the most convincing argument she can bring, ultimately, is that she herself has been the victim of sexual abuse and therefore, that potential fear never goes away. That’s a very dangerous leap to make. The climate of “fear” she mentions is also connected to cancel culture, of course. She fears women won’t be able to express their opinions online without receiving various amounts of vitriol. But you see how she has merged all three issues together? So that if you agree with one, you must agree with the others. Because yes, cancel culture often goes too far, and yes it is a real issue, but to say that the trans community shutting her down foments the same atmosphere of “fear” as boogie trans women hurting children in bathrooms and her being abused by her cis husband… that’s a veeery slippery slope. Instead of sticking to “freedom of speech” and whatnot, she keeps correlating these issues that should not be correlated (some of them being false issues, as well).

Is there too much opprobrium around discussions of trans identity? Yes. Are there worthy discussions to be had about young women, homophobia and gender dysphoria? Absolutely. Can being trans become a fashionable trend/identity among kids, like the bygone goth and emo labels? Sure, but these discussions shouldn’t be had at the expense of trans people who have to constantly prove that they “mean” it. Because by stringing up all these issues together, JK is saying “the kids don’t know any better, and the adults are faking it”. Yes, cancel culture is impeding dialogue, yes, we shouldn’t shy away from discussing young teens’ identity problems, but if you pile up all of these things in a giant “trans women are the problem and they might be predatory too” milkshake, you won’t get anywhere.

I want to come back to this quote:

The second reason is that I’m an ex-teacher and the founder of a children’s charity, which gives me an interest in both education and safeguarding. Like many others, I have deep concerns about the effect the trans rights movement is having on both.

Beyond the (in my opinion) not very tasteful enumeration of things she’s done to help, JK’s mention of “education” there is veeery interesting. On the one hand, she probably feels that schools will try to censor “free speech”, but on the other hand, I bet she’s also concerned schools will not do enough censoring, so that impressionable kids become pressured into adopting a trans identity. You see how it flips on a dime? What does she ultimately want children to learn about this? Does she want them to be kept in the dark completely? Does she want them to be allowed to critique or invalidate trans identities without being censored? On this second point, things get complicated. Schools and institutions will naturally censor free speech. Kids are there to learn how to express that free speech; they will be told “hey, don’t say that to your colleague, it’s not very kind” or “you need to structure your argument appropriately instead of just saying “I don’t like it””. Is there room for criticism in how schools operate that benevolent censorship? Obviously. Hell, Foucault & co. have been talking about this for decades. So what does this argument about education ultimately mean? What are we protecting the kids from? Imo, it goes back to that covert argument about sexual violence.

Since I’m a teacher too, I’ll talk about my own experience: I brought some texts to my undergrad class about the trans experience with the goal of 1) building empathy, because literature is the grand unifier of experience and 2) showing different literary perspectives which i also included within literary theory. ultimately, the trans experience is about being human. we were learning about being human, nothing more, nothing less. if younger kids end up treating it as a fad it means that a) they need more, not less education, b) parents and schools should work together to make them understand that being trans is not the same as being “emo”, for instance. this partially resembles the trend of white kids adopting black culture just because it’s cool, but not actually engaging with the black experience. who do you sanction for this? black people? because in this analogy, the trans community should be responsible for children not benefiting from education and parental support.

oh, I know what JK is saying. the trans community is responsible for shutting down conversations about this. it’s part of the general climate of tiptoeing around trans issues. yes, here I can agree with her that Twitter discourse either helps build sympathy or loathing for the “cancelled” person instead of seriously grappling with what that person has done. it’s the nature of Twitter and I hate it, but to go from that to saying women and young girls are in danger from other “fake” women really undermines her own argument. There are normal pitfalls as we try to incrementally do some good in this world. Cancel culture and the deplatforming and ruining of lives of certain individuals will not promote the cause and is certainly to be frowned upon, but JK will be absolutely fine. there are hashtags right now like “istandwithJK” and there’s a slew of people who support her. the misogyny she faces is deplorable, but we shouldn’t conflate valid criticism with trollish vulgarities. I don’t want to minimize the dangers of online culture; I know people have lost jobs and livelihood, but that is a discussion to be had under different parameters, admitting the responsibility of both parties (for example, maya forstater realizing that maybe saying some hurtful things about public figures and proudly talking about the “delusion” of transwomen will come back to bite her in the ass) and the fact that under capitalism, your job is always at the whim of appearances and simulacrums. essentially, you are the job. this is a state of things that deserves a larger discussion not on the back of the trans community. should we live in a world where you are allowed to say anything, free of consequences? some of us do, because we can say whatever we want in our head, in our room, in our house (other ppl aren’t so lucky), but the trouble starts in the public sphere. even if we wanted to build a public sphere where everything goes, we’d be at each other’s throats in five seconds anyway because we’re human. the most we can do is educate and correct where we can. “facts don’t care about your feelings” discourse is often not informed by facts at all and forgets the vital importance of feelings.

anyway, that’s my incomplete take. still lots to think about and debate. ultimately, i think any fair points JK brought up were tainted by other bad-faith arguments and i wish she’d use this time to self-reflect because this isn’t a topic that should be breezed past in 3k words. nor should young trans ppl be called “adorable” (facepalm). i myself have many questions and constantly grapple with all of this, but since she’s a writer (and for better or worse, i still like her books), she is in a perfect position to investigate the matter with kindness and stop giving ultimatums. and i hope this post fosters discussion and doesn’t shut anyone down.

( forgot to mention that other nifty subplot in the Strike series about these really unlikable kids who are transabled and experience BID ( Body integrity dysphoria) and want to have a disability. Strike is super-offended by them since he’s genuinely disabled and we as readers are meant to think they’re real pieces of shit, and while transableism is suuuuper complicated and my thoughts on it vary wildly, i do think those BID kids also stand in for other folks in her mind..again, food for thought.)

#jk rowling #j.k. rowling #tw transphobia #replies #tw r*pe

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eyes-like-a-pisces · 4 years

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Rules: Answer 10 questions, tag 10 people and make another 10 questions.🧜‍♀️

Questions from my astrological twin: @maiden-song 💕

1. if you could choose to glimpse the afterlife, would you?

Yes, I would. I think a lot about It.

2. under what circumstances do you think you past life was lived?

I could have had many past lifes. I think I was a native american, cause I've always felt bonded to their tradicion and same with China, cause when I hear the sound of Erhu - traditional chinese instrument, something wakes up in me. I've also always wanted to see Sweden & Finland, so maybe I was doing something there... I mean, I could do anything. I see myself in biblical times, as well as middle ages. I could be a renaissance artist, as well as dying of hunger during victorian era, or something, and that's probably why I'm still careful with money, haha. For my latest one, I think I could have been a hippie in the 60/70s and had some drug use experience, cause when I was a child I used have dreams about taking drugs, even if I didn't know anything about It. I also had some experience with psychics (and "psychics"), my mom had a past life regression and she told me she saw me few times... I don't take anything for granded, but reincarnation is one of my favourite theories.

3. what three skills would you instantly master if you had the choice?

Playing every instrument, speaking every language, singing beautifully

4. would your rather no passion or no pain?

No pain. Everything is needed in life, but you know, enough is enough.

5. if you had a chance to leave this world and go to another one, would you take it?

Depends of the world and who I would meet there. Even if this world can be cruel and disappointing at times, I still have some love for him and humanity.

6. if you could smell like anything in the world, what would it be?

Like the first day of spring, when you go outside and the air smells different. Or a storm.

7. do you feel like common interests or philosophical comparability are not important?

They are very important. I can't imagine a relationship without similar interests, views. You either get bored or fight constantly. I think that the whole point of searching a partner is trying to find things you got in common. The more similar you are, the more understood you feel and more you are attracted to them. That's my experience at least. That's a very basic example, but as you may noticed, I'm very much into music and I was dating a guy, who wasn't into music that much at all. I thought It doesn't matter at first, but then I started feeling like I'm missing my favourite way to connect with other person. Once I met a guy who loved music as much as I do, I'm sorry to admit It, but my partner became unattractive to me.

Similar interests and views are needed at the beginning, to bond with somebody, and later, to simply enjoy spending time together (thanks Captain Obvious). I mean... chemistry and good will are not enough for a relationship to last. Don't get me wrong, I don't think you have to be identical and agree on everything - some differences can be inspiring, balance your relationship and teach you something new. It's also ok and even needed, to have some separate hobbies, things that you like to do on your own. There are also other important things, like, if you equally care about each other and if you are on the same page in general, but I can't imagine not agreeing in the key points and things that are the most important to you. And the only person who can decide what is the most important is the person who is in that relationship, no matter if It's about interests, philosophy or religion. But beside a romantic relationship, I think It's good to be surrounded by different people and listen what they got to say.

8. if there was one mystery you alone could learn the answer too, what would it be?

The mystery of life in general. Why we are here, is there any destiny, how we are connected, how this universe works, what happens after death...

9. in your opinion, is there anything more important than love?

No :) (I'm not talking about putting your relationship before other things. I'm talking about love as a big force and meaning of this universe)

10. describe a new planet you would live on, if you could.

I want things to be diverse, monumental... Maybe another moon, why not. As a concept of the world, I wish there would be peace :) everybody has their safe place to live, will to live, passion, purpose, someone to love and who loves them back. Amen.

Questions from @mybloodiedvalentine 💕👯

1. What is an unpopular opinion you hold you about which you feel strongly and with which you seem to notice a lot of people disagree?

Nothing specific comes to my mind at the moment (that I haven't mentioned before). I sure have some, but what's unpopular opinion in general and what's unpopular opinion on tumblr, are two different things. Maybe, that the "tumblr positivity" is not really helpful. Like: "in case you need to hear this: you are smart, you are loved... ". How do you know that? Those are just empty words. But It's better to spread positivity than negativity, of course.

2. What is the nicest thing a stranger has ever told you that you can recall?

Oh, I had a few situations like that... This is so lovely, when a stranger wants to just be genuinely nice, not just catcalling you...For example, when I was with my 3 girlfriends at the club and 2 ladies in their 40s where like: "excuse me, we just wanted to say that we can't stop starring at you all, cause you are the priettiest girls in the club." And we were like: aww, omg, you are beautiful too, come dance with us. And we were all dancing in our witches circle ignoring all sweaty men around us, haha. Or when my mom went to the the same hair saloon as me and asked hair dresser if she remembers me and she said that she does and that I'm nice and intelectual. I'm her faithful client now ;_; (Sorry for sucking my own dick, but It was nice to remind myself about these situations).

3. Has a piece of art or music ever made you cry? If so, do you remember a specific moment?

Crying to music is my passion. The latest intense moment was few days ago. I was loading a dishwasher at night and I played some music and then "lover you should've come over" by Jeff Buckley came on and sudden wave of lonelliness hit me so hard, that I just had to put down the plate, hide my face in my hands and weep ✌

4. What’s your favourite piece of clothing?

Idk, maybe my Penny Lane coat :)

5. What’s a random childhood memory that fills you with a deep sense of comforting nostalgia?

Sledding with kids during a very cold winter in my home town, until It got dark and snow looked like sprinkled with glitter and having my freezed feet warmed up with a hair dryer, when I came back home, haha.

6. What is/was your favourite thing about your mom? If not your mom, your dad? Or best friend?

My favourite thing about my mom is that she's tolerant and open minded. I didn't have to lie to her or pretend I'm someone I'm not because of that. My favourite thing about my dad is that he actually cared about being a parent, even tho my parents divorced. I respect that he has unwavering morals and huge knowledge about a world - biology, astronomy, music, art...- subject doesn't matter- but he is very modest about It.

7. What’s something you learned on your own of which you’re proud?

Playing guitar

8. When was a moment in your life you remember laughing the hardest?

I was playing cards since I was a kid. After few years, when I was about 13 y. o. I got the first poker, a royal flush. When I saw my cards, I'm not sure why, I just coudn't believe my luck, I started laughing so hard I almost died.

9. What do you like to do when you’re having a hard time mentally that invariably calms you down?

Really depends of the kind of situation and if It's triggered by something or just a longer period of time feeling in a certain way. The is no a magic trick, but some things might be helpful. When It's concrete situation, at first, when the feelings are really intense, then I just can't calm down. Every try to do so, has a reverse effect. Like, I CAN'T THE FUCK CALM DOWN and It makes me even more angry. Brain needs about 20 min to chill, if It's not triggered, so It's better to be left alone and just go mad a little until brain will have enough haha. Have a good cry, listen to some music, have a lonely walk, write my feelings down etc.

I like to listen to Teal Swan on youtube. She's a spiritual teacher. I know, It might not sound encouragingly, but she actually seems very down to earth. She has a video about like, every emotion and every problem ever. She's very good in naming feelings, rationalizing them and It makes you feel more understood. And It calms me down as result. ASMR doesn't work for me, but I remember that at some point I liked to listen to sounds of the nature, like rain, waves etc + guided meditation to fall asleep.

Music always helps in general - listening, playing guitar, singing. I also like to take an oil and do a face massage. I'm really sorry if I sound like an instagram influencer 🤢, but when you feel bad for a longer time, you frown and there is a tention in your jaw, it can be really relieving. I follow instructional videos on yt.

When I have a longer period of going into downward spiral, then every way to distract my brain is good - TV shows, internet content that is not related to my life situation (although, sometimes It's good to distance yourself from social media), for example, I like criminal podcasts, cause they are occupying enough to distract a miserable brain, meeting somebody, going to a place I've never been before. + any kind of shedule, reason to leave the house, any goal, anything positive to look forward to and having even the simplest things done, is a blessing (even if sometimes It's the last thing I wanna do). I also tend to be much sadder in the evening, so I just go to sleep. When nothing works, then It's time for the professional help.

10. Do you have a favourite holiday memory?

Discovering Cocteau Twins.

Best regards if u actually read all that chatter, but those questions were so interesting, that I couldn't limit myself to one sentence answer (in most cases).

My questions are:

1. Who or what was the most influential for your music taste?

2. If you could time travel, where and when would you like to go first?

3. If you could be someone from an opposite gender for a day, how would you like to look like and what would you do?

4. Do you have a style icon/inspiration? Or a favourite designer? Desribe your dream clothing style

5. What's the song by a band/artist from your country that you could recommend? (From your hometown or state eventually)

6. What is the most rebellious thing you've ever done?

7. Has ever something in your life happened, that you coudn't explain with logic?

8. What 5 objects someone could use to summon you?

9. What is your favourite name from your culture's language? And outside your culture's language?

10. What's a song you normally wouldn't admit you like or different from music that you usually listen, but still enjoy?

I tag: @winterdryad @bowiepop @nightmare @confusion-in-the-sea-of-sorrow @l0w-budget @numberoneblind @mirandasinclairs @mysticbride @leperwitch @comeacrossthedesertnoshoeson @hexafu @mielmelancolie @arcane-delight

#don't reblog this or any of my personal posts please #and thank you

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lorelaigilmo · 4 years

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tagged by @iwishwecouldgoback, thank you 🥺⁦❤️⁩

rules: tag 10 people you’d like to get to know better

name: maayan

gender: female

sexuality: uhh probably pansexual? I don’t have a definite answer on that one yet whoops

hogwarts house: ravenclaw

cats or dogs: cats

favorite animal: I love a LOT but I used to have this huge thing for tigers so I’ll go with that. also bit shoutout to elephants because they are CUTE

current time: 11:41am

dream job: idk I think biology research but the kind that properly pays my bills and allows me to keep a social life sjdhgk

when i made my blog: oh wow somewhere between 2011 and 2012

reasons for my url: I love lorelai gilmore. like, A Lot™

tagging @haylewilliams, @lorelaileighs, @iveknownplaces, @robinbuckley, @carolairds, @lukesdanes this isn’t 10 people but I really felt like reaching out to mutuals I love but don’t interact with much SO no pressure if you don’t wanna do it 💕💕💕

#tag games

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mrschandlerbing · 4 years

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Goodbye 2019, You were eh... remarkable.

I started my 2019 totally different person. And I could probably speak for everyone we are different people now.

But why am I writing this now? I will explain that to you now. So grab something to eat sit back and relax.

My bad year actually started back in September 2018. I started 5th grade in high-school. I was unexceptionally happy about the fact I was starting in that class it meant that I was about to learn a whole lot. Let's just say that I did.

Not only subject matter but also about myself.

Like I said I started my year in 5th grade. I thought it was going to be my best year.

That was until everything went downhill...

I was sat in a class of with 3 others. (I go to a special school for people with physical disabilities that’s why the groups are small) All of them were boys one of them I’ve known for about 10 years (Let’s call him Landon) and the others (I call them Nate and Zach) I’ve known them for around 4 years so I kinda knew what they were capable of. ( turns out I REALLY WASN’T prepared for the storm they were about to put me through)

For the first month, it was quite alright. it was fun and games. Good teacher, guys joking around throwing some harsh jokes, sometimes on the racist side (I will get you back on that.) But everything started to go downhill when preparations started for the internship we were about to have, starting in September 2019.

We were asked to dig down and find out our best and our worst qualities, our talents and the things we were absolutely bad at. That’s quite innocent I thought back then. Every now and then we had to share something with the class. All okay. But with exposing yourself comes a certain vulnerability and I felt that I was walking up against my own walls. For years I thought I was living quite alright that I had myself figured out. Once I realized that this was nothing like it, I started to fall into that endless pit.

I suppose you're wondering where did Nate, Zach and Landon get into this story?

I'm getting there...

it’s not a secret that these days people are actually fearing change. That our society is filled with fear that our society is run by it. The strong are fed by fear. It’s no secret. WWI and WWII were huge examples of that. Oh, hell what am I talking about, no! Look at ISIS. Men and women severely brainwashed and played upon by their fears. Where did it lead them?

Imprisoned, crippled and still left with the idea that murdering people because they’re different because they love differently or believe differently in the name of God.

As a Muslim myself (IDK if I can call myself that TBH seeing I know more about what it is to be a Christian than a Muslim and it’s Ironic and I feel a huge amount of guilt now that I am writing it. I think this is a disadvantage of attending a Christian school).

You know, let’s just say that I’m a believer. Sound good? Thought so. Anyways, this brings me to my next point.

Up until a few months ago, I was loud and clear about my beliefs I used to wear with it proud. Don’t get me wrong I still do, I always will, forever!

But that faith has gotten a serious dent by my surroundings, by social media and my classmates. Why was that? Because I was laughed at.

I believe that God as put me on this planet for a reason. For a purpose. Even though I haven't found my purpose yet. We humans were originally created to take care of each other and our surroundings. (WE ARE FAILING BADLY AT THAT).

Anyways it's not my point.

I was already falling Into that endless pit. And my classmates made it harder for me. Like, weeks I was trying my best to make my classmates like me. I would do that in ways that were hurting my values. The biggest one was, being myself. I felt like I had to change myself to meet up to their standards which lead me into making bad decisions.

This leads me to the part were my fear consumed me. That fear was being forgotten. Not being noticed. and I started being very impulsive saying things, my opinions if you will, about everything dear to my heart at the time. Giving your opinion there’s nothing bad with that. But I have to admit I did it in a way that is not considered polite.

To finally got my point, if you’ve read this far Thank you, you’re truly remarkable.

I wasn’t feeling very good in my skin. Everything that felt like the slightest insult to me made me go off like a nuclear bomb. It would scare off my teachers and my classmates. also, may I remind you I was the only girl in a class full of boys and GOD FORBID A WOMAN TO BE SMARTER AND STRONGER. My classmates, especially Nate, saw that I was struggling. So, for him, it was fun to racist comments and bring down my whole belief system. and often he would drag along Zach with him to make it worse. Landon would often keep himself hidden in the background often being ashamed of his friends but not standing up against them either.

I can’t blame Landon though, it’s hard being in a group where toxic masculinity rules...

Anyways, I’d often apologise for my behaviour and I would often admit that I can be very impulsive. That I can be very mean at times. But I think for them hurting me was a fun game. because half of the time they would throw parties invite everyone except for me. Put pictures on facebook and laugh their asses off about something that happened back at that party. (May I inform you that one of those guests ended up naked on a bathroom floor peeing himself because of the amount of beer he drank? :-] ) But for me, that was a hit.

I was sat there crying my two best friends around me. So you might think What is this bitch complaining about now? If you do, you’re not the first. My classmates thought too. The thing was just, I didn’t feel respected I felt like dirt for them. Because there were countless times I’d help them out with their homework or send them my notes so that they could study easier. but here I am rejected and humiliated.

Once I recovered from that disaster. I tried to get my shit together it went well for a couple days. They laid off.

But who could’ve said a simple cardgame would’ve given me my breakpoint? Exactly no one. Neither did I.

Bear with me on this...

At that time we had a substitute teacher. He originally studied to be a biology teacher. So having to teach a class who has to make PowerPoints and Word documents daily must’ve been something new for him. It was no surprise to me he was overwhelmed half of the time and he couldn’t navigate in the cold claws of my classmates. He wanted to be the cool teacher and he was, he still is.

But my point is he was lost and I was fearful. The teacher was explaining what was about to happen.

So, basically, it was a normal card game. My classmates had to give a card with every 5 good qualities and 5 bad qualities. I even jokingly said “Oh, oh” implying something bad was about to happen. oh, boy is my gut feeling always right.

It was fun at first. I was kind. I was lifting up my classmates up only giving them positive once. But then Nate kinda caught up and took it as his moment to suck the attention to him. So Nate started tossing bad cards. Zach thought it was funny cause I was pretty much unarmed. I had no intentions of hurting my classmates. Never.

But once Nates started Zach kept adding. Nate kept adding. Landon was quiet. The teacher was completely lost for words to not knowing to interfere. They kept adding and adding. Landon started placing cards too, bless the boy's heart only good once.

I was lost for words. My throat was hurting. I felt tears come up. The teacher looked at me, asking if I was okay. But all I heard was them laughing them adding cards.

complainer

mean

weak

cryer

sensitive

not funny

boring

They kept coming. I felt humiliated. The remaining parts of my confidence were shattered. There was nothing left

BOOM.

I reached the bottom of the pit. There it was complete darkness. All I felt were tears streaming my breath was gone I couldn’t breathe.

Was I being overdramatic?

Perhaps, a little.

But did it hurt?

YES, IT DID.

That incident lead to my mother coming to school with me the following day. My teacher looked at us really confused when she saw my mom. I’d say it was normal. But that one day made my trust in adults really hard it was practically gone.

Instead of calling them out. She looked at me. and the one thing she said. “I will discuss this with other teachers. Because I have a feeling that is what I have to do.” My blood boiled. My mom wasn’t happy either but what were we supposed to do?

Indeed nothing. like yeah, we could talk back. But it was no use. I had a feeling she didn’t want to do anything about it. and nothing really happened. Things stayed like they were. I felt dead inside and I’d often cry. For every time I had a day off or I had a break. I’d be in bed most of the time or I’d try to distract myself by working for school.

It changed ‘till one given day where we had religion. To close up the year the teacher asked us what hurts us the most and what faith means to me.

So wrote it down and gave my answer. At that moment I basically exploded. the class fell silent. Not a word was said again. I was crying so hard I was literally choking in my own words.

As I was explaining the whole situation my teacher smiled kindly at me and she just said. “You know sweetheart. People will always have an opinion about you. Always. It doesn't matter what you do and what you don’t do they always will. Have an opinion.” She started. “It’s only up to you what you let inside. I think it’s time for you to let go because you’re a remarkable girl. You’ll only be able to do that if you make this wall for yourself where you filter out the negatives and I’m sure you’ll feel much better.” she ended. It sounded so simple. But it took me a while to get there. But the first step that she let me take was to write a letter to myself first. a letter where I told myself how amazing and remarkable I am.

and from that day on my mental health has only approved. I’m still in the same class with the same people. But none of them dares to open their mouth anymore. because I’m better and stronger than ever.

This year was for me a year I’d rather bury deep and forget because now I am only looking forward and trusting on my own gut feeling. Because I know that I am amazing. I am smart and from now on no man will get me so low again. NO ONE WILL.

2019 you were ehh.. remarkable, but nothing is the same anymore. Thank you and GOODBYE.

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#the end of all things #goodbye2019 #2020

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World: Alternia

Name: Eunoma Lesedi

(The Greek goddess of law and legislation, name translates to good order/governance according to good laws + the word for light in South African)

Age: 9.5 sweeps

Theme/Story: Law/Politics/Mutation? I think I just thought it was a cool idea for a mutation and liked the backstory I came up with for her

She is a rare fuchsia with an even rarer mutation, which would under normal circumstances entitle her to a culling. That is had she not been taken pity on by her mother. She had no idea why she showed her such kindness. It was probably a combination of the similarity of her look to that of the rainbow drinker and the opportunity for the mother to insure a proper ruler was raised for a change. She was raised in the caverns by her jade guardian with other jades acting as sisters but now that she is old enough to take care of herself she has been sent off to live in an old abandoned desert hive which long ago belonged to a jadeblood who raised a virgin mother grub like Kanaya. It is deep enough in that sandy deathtrap that she doesn’t have to worry about anyone finding her. It gets pretty lonely and she misses her mom and sisters but it also allows her to focus on her work and studies. (There is A L O T going on in this backstory, but I think it’s kind of workable? I think there needs to be considerable intent in why she was saved, however. This isn’t the kind of thing a Jade (especially not many of them) would do lightly. Eunoma might not learn why yet, but there has to be a motivation, a goal they’re trying to achieve. Perhaps the Fuschia blood is part of it? Maybe they’re some Jades who wanna stage a full on rebellion and want to use her as a figurehead? An albino Fuschia taking down the Condesce would be a potent political symbol.)

Goals: One of my ancient OCs I wanted to fix up but turns out I need some help! So a general overview/everything (Alright, here we go!) (As a heads up, I took pity on you and am not deleting the other trolls you submitted in rapid succession, but for future reference- please don’t do that.)

Strife Specibus: 3dentkind

(Uses a trident she made herself with the help of her mother) (I’m really getting “Raised to be a political symbol” out of this. Why would she be raised to be just like an Heiress if there wasn’t a purpose behind it? Logically she’d otherwise be raised to be more Jade than anything.)

Fetch Modus: Idk honestly

Blood Color: Fuchsia

Symbol and Meaning: Pira, Sing of the Visionary

Handle: luminousJurist

Quirk: Ta|k in a ca|m yet cønfident vøice. (Proper punctuation, replaces L with | and O with ø) (Like this. Simple is often the way to go.)

Special Abilities: Her mutation, which would best be described as form of albinism that mimics rainbow drinker looks and abilities (meaning she can stay out in the sun) (hmmmmHMMMM I am unsure how exactly this would work- Kanaya could just go out in the sun before she was a Rainbowdrinker. I guess you can just handwave it as “unlocking dormant parts of the Fuschia genome” or something. Trolls have a tenuous link to biology as it is.)

Lusus/Guardian: Raised by a jadeblood in the caverns with other jades acting as her sisters before she left, mainly because she was always presented as a mutant jadeblood (which is also why she is hiding her sign, wearing it as a necklace under her shirt) by her mother in order to have her be more accepted (My main gripe with this is that it’s very unlikely, unless she never really interacted with the other Jades, that they wouldn’t know she’s not a Jade. Troll tears are tinted, and wrigglers are highly pigmented. Also all it would take is a slight cut and the jig is up. I think you’ve got to make them more complicit in the hiding and raising if this backstory is gonna come off as plausible.)

Interests: The crime, mystery and legal drama genres, whether it be books, movies, shows or games. She is also fascinated by law and the legal system and she loves studying about it, writing reforms and planning how to bring justice and order into Alternia when she claims the throne. Calligraphy is also something she finds fun to do while brainstorming. Her only non work related hobby is collecting plushies. (I like this a lot. I bet she reads about Redglare and gets mad all the time. Maybe she’s a big Summoner fangirl? He was a mutant who raised a rebellion against the culling system.) (I’d ordinarily recommend having more hobbies that aren’t “work” related, but given your character’s history, it makes a lot more sense for her to be fixated on it, even if she doesn’t realize that quite yet.)

Personality: Eunoma is obsessed over making the right decision and being a fair and just ruler. She has first hand seen and felt the cruelty of Alternia and while she is honest to a fault and rather blunt, she does this not to hurt feelings but because she feels it is the right thing to do. She is pushing herself into indifference and molding herself into the perfect middle man, erasing any opinion which might sway her judgement. Still she is disciplined and harsh, mainly on herself but also others, a strict believer in following rules to the letter and always scrutinizing her own actions. She thinks she can always do better, a perfectionist to whom nothing will probably ever be enough. She is uptight and antisocial, awful at working and even just talking with other trolls, as social cues tend to go over her head and even her own emotions very much confuse her, not to mention those of others. But on the other hand lies and motivations are something she understands and sees through all too well. She is good at predicting what people will do and spotting a liar or faker from a mile away. (We got a Mind player here! I’ll talk more about this later but you’ve got a solid character written in here. But I think you’ve got something mixed up in here: You open saying that she’s opinionated and blunt, but latter say she’s indifferent and grey-aligned?) (I think you meant “impartial” as in, “having no bias”, though. Which would make a lot more sense. Obsessed with being equal- having a character flaw of not quite getting the difference between Equal and Fair would help flesh her out, especially given that she’s right at the age where she’d be viscerally learning that difference.) (I think “follows the rules to the letter” is a little... odd? For someone who’s only course of action on the current law system would be to die messily. I think her having her own code of ethics that she strictly follows would be much better (especially with her classpect) than being a blind rules follower. She’s a path-maker, not a path-walker!)

Lunar Sway: Prospit (I think an interest in that “genetic destiny” thing that Trolls love would do her some good with this. Get her a little more going with the flow, taking threads of the past and weaving them into changes today. Seeing herself a bit in The Sufferer and The Summoner and other ancient rebellions would do her a lot of good, I think. Give her some motivation.)

Title: Mage of Mind

(She suffers form being an overly logical outcast and needs to learn to not only let loose but also let people in, she is way too defensive from having to hide her whole life and needs to learn to open up and allow herself to feel emotions) (I do think Mage is the way to go with her. The Active Knower, the Leader and Shepherd as opposed to Seer, the Teller and Teacher. She’s someone who NEEDS to get up on her soapbox and tell the world that this isn’t how it has to be, that we can make other choices, and she’s making those choices right now.) (Pathwise, I think she needs a bit more spirit of her own. Her Dolorosa-stand in needs a firmer hand in her development if she is to grow as well. There needs to be an interplay of “I know you THINK you know what’s right, Mother, but I KNOW what needs to be done, and I’m going to DO IT my way” by the end of her arc.)

Land: Land of Forums and Debate

(The Denizen has devided the people of her land and pinned them against each other. With corrupt politicians, censorship and high tension in the air, this whole place is one wrong word away from a civil war. It is her job to fix the corrupt system, unify the people of the land again and open up constructive discussion.) (She’s gotta win the arguments and lead the people! A pale girl in a world of fountains and marble! It’s pretty classic, but it fits her development as already-being-half-there on her Classpect, but needing the extra push to really do it.) (This was a much easier review than I expected, my comments are mostly for guiding this vision of her to completion as opposed to full overhauls. You’re most of the way there!) -SA

#fuchsiablood #tyrianblood #seadweller #submission #SA Review

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marlexxrcs · 6 years

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My Crazy NMAT Experience!! [+tips!!]

Hello! I know this is just one of the many blogs about NMAT but I’m still going to share my crazy experience last October 2017 NMAT! If you’re not interested, then just move on to the tips part below!

Although I haven’t registered, I started reviewing (reviewing kuno) August. But it wasn’t a serious review. I just brought out my high school chemistry books and refreshed some concepts like electron configuration and covalent bonding and such. I really took time because I couldn’t remember anything from high school at all! But because of the lazy person that I am, I ended up finishing only 2 chapters. (Good riddance, sobra, you’ll find out later sa tips part!)

First semester of the school year came in 2nd week of August and it got me so busy with my thesis that I absolutely had no time to review!! Of course, it is also the same case with my other classmates, so we registered within the last week of registration period. I swear this is not a good idea and I’ll tell you later why!!

After registration, you’d think we’d start reviewing for real but when you’re working alone on a thesis and cramming to meet deadlines in school, you’ll have no time to review talaga. But the good thing is, we had 1 week break from thesis after we submitted our data to our statistician for statistical treatment. And it so happened that, that 1 week break was the week prior NMAT. YAAAAAAY! But sadly, that was also the week my family and I were going to be in Manila and won’t be home until Wednesday night. PSHHHH. That left me with only 2 days to review (Thurs and Fri) because we traveled to Baguio Saturday morning (IT TOOK US 7 HOURS FROM VIGAN WOW) and NMAT day was Sunday.

And NMAT day came! As soon as I woke up, bad news. It’s the first day of my monthly period. And it means… painful menstrual cramps. I also got allergies from the cold too. During part 1 (morning session), the cramps weren’t painful yet but it was distracting. My runny nose was distracting too. It was making me feel lazy. There’s even a reading comprehension part, and I had to re-read every passage because I couldn’t focus! Re-reading like there’s no time limit huhuhuhuhu but I’m really glad I was able to answer all questions just in time!

Lunch time came, the cramps were getting worse. I took meds and put my all-time favorite white flower. It was still bad during the afternoon session, but thankfully, it got better and better.

What is my NMAT score? Secret. :((( It’s not high but I passed the cut off for the medical school I’m going to (which is not a top med school so don’t expect a high rating haha). But yeah, it should be okay because of my crazy experience lolololol

And the most awaited part… the NMAT tips! But before anything else, I’d like to notify you guys that some of these are tips I got from other blogs which I found really helpful during my NMAT experience pero can’t remember na kung saan ko nabasa huhu. I’m not taking credit for anything though unless otherwise stated XD

NMAT Tips

Tips for when you don’t know how to start reviewing for the NMAT:

Register early. After registration, the CEM will send you a practice set for the NMAT (in pdf format). The earlier you register, the earlier you get your practice tests, which would mean more time to review.

Your primary review material should be the NMAT Practice Set, and not your high school textbooks. I trusted the blogger who said this and it didn’t fail me. This is important to follow because the NMAT practice set has the same exact format as the actual NMAT test booklet. During the actual exam, it will cost you less time trying to find out what the exam is like because the practice set has already made you familiar with the format. In short, you already know what to expect. You already know your way around.

Answer the NMAT Practice Set and Rationalize your answers. You can start reviewing by answering the practice set yourself. Check your answers using the answer key included in the set. From there, you’ll know which topics you need to improve on.

Google the question verbatimly to get solutions and answers. This is really helpful especially to physics, math, and chemistry problems. If you don’t know how to solve a problem from the practice set, type the question in the google search bar verbatimly (as it is). There are people who asked the question in yahoo answers or in quora where netizens replied with complete solutions. From there, you’ll know the formulas you will need to memorize. As you can see, the practice set and the actual NMAT test booklet mostly share the same concepts, only having different questions.

Spend greater time reviewing subjects you are weak at, and lesser time for subjects you are good at. If you’re a psychology major like me, you can skip reviewing for social sciences. Or if you’re a physics major, then physics will be a piece of cake for you.

Practice Inductive Reasoning. There are a lot of practice sets for inductive reasoning (the one with figures) on the net (but I didn’t practice huhu). The ones on the NMAT practice set seemed easy to me so I thought I was already okay with that. But when NMAT came, it confused me a lot.

Do not review the day before the NMAT.

Tips during the NMAT:

Be in the venue early. My friends and I arrived in University of Baguio really early and the line going inside the university was already long. There’s a long line because our personal bags will be left at the gate and we had to be body checked by the officials. Idk if the same thing happens in UST and other testing centers.

Obey the rules. Gadgets are not allowed inside the building, including your personal mobile phones. One examinee was caught bringing her phone in and got banned from taking the NMAT for a period of time. CEM website has the rules, and they email it to you too, I think. Make sure to read them and obey!

Bring candies. I had candies with me during the test and I ate all of them. For me, it was relaxing. When I ate my candy, it felt less formal inside the room HAHAHA

First things first. The proctor may not tell you that you can choose which subject you want to do first, but yes, you can do that. The morning session is the aptitude test which consists of 4 parts: Verbal, Quantitative, Inductive Reasoning, and Perceptual Acuity. You don’t have to answer them in the correct order. It is best to take on first the subject you’re most confident at because there is a higher probability that you’ll get the answers right. On the other hand, leave the subject you’re weak at on the last part, so just in case you lack time, i will be okay because you’d probably be guessing anyway XD As for me, perceptual acuity is the easiest, so that was the first thing I answered. You can do the same thing in the afternoon session (Special Area) which consists of Biology, Physics, Chemistry, and Social Sciences. I placed Chemistry at the last part because I’m not good at it. XD

For the reading comprehension part (under verbal), read the questions first before reading the passage. This is helpful because you already know what you’re looking for while reading the passages. Unlike if you don’t know the questions prior to reading, you’ll have to read the entire passage again to look for the answers.

For the number and letter series (under inductive reasoning), answer this part by using a scratch paper and write the entire alphabet in a horizontal manner and write a number below each letter (1-26 in chronological order). In this way, it is easier to see patterns. (Scratch page is provided!!)

For the identical information (under perceptual acuity), don’t compare each choice to the given information. Instead, compare the choices with each other.

Bring your baon for lunch. You can actually just go out and buy lunch from nearby restaurants and carinderias, but you should expect that these “kainans” will be packed because of the huge number of test takers. You’ll only have less than 1 hour to have lunch because you have to go back to the gate immediately because there will be another long line before entering the building. So it is better to bring your own baon. (Idk how it works in other testing centers, but if you plan on taking it in Baguio, bring an umbrella because it can be really hot waiting outside the building after lunch, plus a cellphone game or a k-drama or a movie to keep you entertained while waiting). I was watching an episode of While You Were Sleeping when we were in line so I was kilig before the afternoon exam HAHAHAHAHA (I love you jung hae innnnnnn <3)

Tips After the NMAT

If the testing center is far away from your place and you have to take the bus home (e.g. I’m from Vigan, the closest testing center is in Baguio which is 5 hours away), go straight to the bus terminal after the test, catch the earliest trip if you want to travel home on that same day. Test-takers come from different provinces, and they are also going to ride the bus home. If you want to make sure you can get home that night, get the earliest trip. Most of the test-takers will take a later trip because they will tend to explore the place first before going home.

Pat yourself on the back. You were brave enough to take the NMAT. Regardless of how you think you performed, treat yourself for doing your best.

Don’t torture yourself. The NMAT results won’t be out until 2 weeks (or more!!). So relax, and don’t keep wondering if you achieved your goal or not. Go back to your normal daily routine or start doing something new. Don’t think about it XD

If you think it’s time to get the results but you haven’t received anything, check on twitter. Just type on the search bar “nmat result” or simply “nmat”, and all those people who are also wondering why their result is not out yet will be there assuring you that they also haven’t received their email from CEM.

When results are out, check yours immediately. If you passed the cut-off you want to achieve, celebrate! If you got a not-so-high rating but passed the cut-off for your prospect med school anyway (like me), cheer up! What matters here is you passed the cut-off and you can get into med school. If you didn’t pass the cut off, or if you got a low rating, it’s okay. It’s not yet the end. Don’t give up. You can take it again. It doesn’t mean you are not capable of being a medical student. Remember, a successful medical doctor is a medical student who never gave up.

Hey, we have to remember that NMAT doesn’t measure how much we deserve to become doctors, neither does it predict how good we will be as medical doctors in the future. As they say, there are a number of successful doctors today who didn’t have high NMAT scores before. And there are also those doctors who did have high NMAT scores. So regardless of scores, every doctor we have right now worked really hard to get to where he/she is now. So don’t be discouraged!! :)

#nmat #medlife #nmattips #med #medschool

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nyodrite · 6 years

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hp college au

Because I would like to know if someone is trying to poke me about this and I am not the op of the series of reblogging.

Is Dumbledore the Headmaster/Dean here or just a really old guy who make a hobby out getting a new degree every few years?

McGonagall is a professor, always.

Ooh, maybe Newt is around somewhere teaching a class or two in between writing a book and going off on expeditions (Charlie and Tonks go with him as students and maybe Hagrid is an assistant??) to study creatures.

Are we talking full on college dorms? Like each House has their own dorm building?

And someone mentioned everyone lives, so is Harry going to college with his parents also? Because that’d be hilarious if his parents are around trying to be cool and just embarrassing him.

But the biggest question of all:

Is there magic or not? Is this a full on No Powers AU or a world where Magic Is Know and has integrated in the muggle world to the point there’s mixed colleges for magical and muggle classes?

because I vote for the later bc so many more shenanigans can happen with magic!

I mean just imagine, Padfoot racing across campus because he’s overslept {and there are anti-apparition wards on campus for security reasons} and other students have long since grown used to this either laugh about sleeping in or cheer him on to make it because Professor Grindelwald is notoriously strict about tardiness.

Or there being rules against flying brooms on campus outside of certain areas/times {such as Quidditch practice} but Harry is like one of the people who just has to ride their skateboard instead of walking, he hasn’t been caught…yet.

(Basically a college HP au is loads of fun but keeping magic just makes it 💯 times better)

Charlie (and Tonks, who’s in it to be a supportive friend but mostly for the LOLs) waging war against various departments for various reasons - like Biology and dissection - about their treatments of animals.

Newt is constantly harassed about their antics - because everyone knows who it is but there’s no proof - and is just “I have no idea what you’re talking about, my students are perfectly well behaved.” while his house is full of various rescued creatures the two smuggled there.

Hermione and Lily meet one time when Lily came over during the weekend to stock up Harry’s fridge while Hermione was over tutoring him.

They get along fantastically.

Harry and James are low-key freaking out about this.

Ron and Harry meeting due to dorm room assignments, where basically the entire Weasley family is fussing over him when Harry stumbles in all alone - because he’s an Adult Now and he can go to college alone.

(This lasts like barely two weeks before Harry runs out of clean clothes and he calls Lily to ask how to wash clothes; not until later, too late, that he finds out that Ron knows how

{The reason being thus; Molly has multiple kids in college, by this time she has it down to a science just what kinds of things they need to know before leaving home})

Harry taking a class Voldemort teaches and. Just. Their hatred for each other is known across campus, Voldemort constantly trying to get Harry expelled while Harry is just “there’s something fish about that guy”and “he’s evil mum! why do I have to be nice?”

Hermione and Lily do some kind of rally or organize a student protest that becomes a legit social movement because these woman cannot be tamed.

(McGonagall is so proud of her students)

Lockhart teaches drama, Harry winds up there while lost and accidentally gets a lead in a play - afterwards Harry just low-key swears vengeance against Lockhart.

Umbridge is a guidance counselor that Harry gets arrested the same year he meets her.

(whether the same thing happens to Voldemort eventually or Tom is there to eternally be Harry’s sworn enemy until graduation idk yet)

Remus teaches a class there but Harry only is able to take it for one year and is sad, though they do talk.

Sirius is the only Marauder actually going to college instead of hanging around for various reasons - he lives off campus though and rides his motorcycle there.

Peter, Harry swears to his his parents and the other two Maruaders multiple times, is on campus as Voldemort’s minion in Evil. They don’t believe him because they never see him and he’s out of the country for work.

(Sometimes Peter just sits there, grading papers in a corner during class, and just stares at Harry.

Harry then runs to Remus or Sirius - depending on who is closer - and tells them about it and how he certain this means Peter and Voldemort are Plotting, then screams when they are all “Harry, Peter isn’t in the country how cane he be on campus Plotting with your math teacher?”)

@sailorcrazypinklady said:

Are there cameras? With timestamps? Because Harry can get proof Peter is in his class when he is supposed to be out of the country.

There are but, since I have decided - right now because I am apparently fond of Peter being a low-key villain for the express purpose of trolling Harry - that this au still has magic, Peter makes use of Time-Turners, Polyjuice Potions and Magical Travel to basically be in two places at once.

So, the one time Harry got photographic proof of Peter being in class, Peter had it dismissed via alibi of him being out of the country at work when the pictures were taken.

So. No one, except the students living in the same dorm - House? Basically this au’s equivalent to Gryffindor also I should probably talk about the houses a bit too - as Harry, i.e. his friends, believe that his father’s friend who works out of country is sitting in his math class grading papers.

@ssilverstreak reblogged:

Okay, so, I need a huge fic about this, because this is comedy gold. Also Snape keeps getting stuck teaching General Chemistry 1 and 2 and Intro to Potions every semester instead of the higher level courses and he’s Salty™ about it. Though he doesn’t pick on Harry here because Lily would straight up kill his ass and he knows it, Harry still sics his mom on Snape for picking on other students.

Snape complains about his classes and then swears to get rid of the other potions professors so he can take over the higher level classes to Professor McGonagall who’s sipping her coffee - she has a lot of early morning classes to teach, alright, and tea is just not enough - like it’s fine wine during this.

(ofc Harry overhears and decides that Snape must be Voldemort’s minion in Evil also.

Also, Voldy actually goes by Tom Riddle but back when Sirius was taking his class - along with his cousin Bellatrix who got a really creepy crush on the guy - and decided to give him the nickname Voldemort. Never will he admit exactly where that name came from, only it involves drunken shenanigans and waking up in a jail cell with a hangover.

Sirius commiserates with Harry over Voldemort’s Evilness, he still doesn’t quite believe Peter is there too though.)

#hp college au #college au #hp #harry potter #hogwarts university of magic and shenanigans and magical shenanigans

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Tag 17

Rules: answer 17 questions & tag 17 people you want to get to know better.

Tagged by: @castieltheredfox

Nickname: Domino

Zodiac sign: I'm not going to tell you the year, so Scorpio & Gemini

Height: 5'7" ish, 168cm or smth

Hogwarts house: trans rights

Last thing I googled: define utopian socialist (I was doing a social studies test)

Song stuck in my head: rn nothing, but yesterday I was crying on the floor of the washroom bc I couldn't get my bandaids to stick and I was late going to bed, & while I was having the mental breakdown, I was singing "cotton eyed joe"

Following & followers: like 10 each maximum. On my old blog I had 170 ish followers across all my blogs & I actually made content for them before I got terminated

Amount I sleep: I try to get 7.5hrs, but since my injury I've needed 9, but also I can't fall asleep (gotta love adhd) so I've been getting more like 6 lately

Lucky numbers: I was about to say I don't believe in luck, but now I'm a witch so... 9, 7, 13, idk who cares. I like hexagons

Dream job: all of them. I want to do everything. Gotta love adhd. But tbh I'm working towards being a culinary teacher/instructor. I get to help raise kids w/o having or adopting my own kids & raising them for a score of years. I get regular hours, instead of working evenings & holidays like chefs & bakers.

Wear ing: an ugly hand me down button up that I can take off without lifting my arms above my head so as not to tear my stitches, some hand me down jeans, no socks, an oversized black zipper hoodie, a sports bra bc I've already worn my binder for 8 hours, female underwear w a pad, dressing over my stitches, a digital watch & a Chinese breacelet I got as a gift, two black hoop earring in my left ear but none in either of my lobes, the skin of my enemies

Favourite song: I don't believe in favourites. But I have an emotional connection to mama by mcr

Favourite instrument: my favourite instrument that I play is my violin. My other instruments aren't as good tbh

Random fact: today one of the phys ed supervisors jokingly asked if anyone could lockpick (there was a crowd waiting outside the locked gymnasium doors) & everyone was shocked when I said I could while I was heading to biology. So yeah I can lockpick several kinds of locks.

Favourite authors: I don't believe in favourites, but I really like Amanda Buddha Brawn (I think that's her name)

Favourite animal noises: I don't believe in favourites & this is kind of a weird question, but I like the sound of cows bc they remind me of the farm. Expect I hate the sound of cows in the morning bc it means they've escaped & we need to round them back up

Aesthetic: I graduated from my emo phase to my repressed emo punk phase. Then I had a soft boi phase. Then I had a Victorian steampunk phase. But I'm just kind of mixing everything in. I dress to pass. But I'm in love with the nonbinary aesthetic of just the wackiest crap, I love the novelty button up shirts. I keep switching my aesthetic based on my hyperfixation.

Tag 17 other blogs: no these things give me anxiety & I don't want to give anyone else anxiety.

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16, 17, 20, 23 for Violet, Sayara and Aelia's

16. Is your character the athletic type or more of a couch potato? What are some sports/games that they like?

Sayara and Aelia are both pretty athletic! Aelia’s the sportiest, but Sayara’s incapable of sitting still, so she’s fairly active. Violet does not like to move, and will whine if asked to lift more than like a tenth of her body weight.

Aelia does martial arts, which I’ve talked about a lot, that’s her main athletic thing. Sayara is no longer invited to participate in organized sports, but once upon a time she played a Feian sport called flectorball. She was very good at it. She was too merciless for the fledgling leagues, and has since been banned from playing in any formal flectorball organization. “Sportsmanship? idk her”

17. Does your character have dreams of getting married and/or having children?

Violet absofuckinlutely does, she’s a hopeless romantic. She wants to get married to a cute guy who will give her what she wants when she wants it, he must be taller than she is, he must be patient and understanding and good at hugs, she wants a big ceremony on midwinter where she does her hair up all fancy. All of this is very important.

Sayara’s sort of on the fence, she’s never thought about it much before. She’d like to fall in love and get married, but she doesn��t like thinking about it in detail because it’s a long way away and she has a lot to do first. Looking that far ahead scares her.

Aelia wants to raise kids because she has a lot of opinions on how to do that right, and she wants to test them. She’s not picky about when or how that happens.

20. Does your character like animals? What are some of their favorite animals? Would they want pets? What about mythological creatures?

Violet doesn’t really trust a lot of animals, because she wasn’t raised around them and big animals make her nervous. she’s a little bit scared of dogs, which is understandable in Feilan where dogs are horse-sized. She doesn’t object to birds, though, her family has an aviary that she helps with sometimes.

Sayara is fascinated by wild animals but also has a healthy respect for them, since she grew up right near the Tsi deeps, which are full of terrifying apex predators. everything in the Deeps wants to kill you. She’s never had a pet, but she thinks cats are nice, and she’d like to learn to ride a dog. She wants to fight a dragon just for the hell of it, so she could say she’d done it. While she has respect for wild animals, she doesn’t have nearly enough fear of them. She likes to make up stories about fending off monsters under the palace. Sayara also knows a ton of random animal facts, because she practically lives in the library, and she’s read quite a few biology treatises.

Aelia has no strong opinions on most animals. She likes cats and also tamed reptiles, especially snakes. She has a weird relationship with the Storm Herald, which has appeared for her once or twice during the story. She isn’t sure what it wants. All she wants is for it to leave her alone.

23. What is your character like when it comes to school? What subjects are they good/bad at? Do they get in trouble a lot or are well behaved?

Violet’s an average student in most areas, but she’s fairly smart. She’s very good at abstract concepts, one of those few people who doesn’t have much trouble picking up algebra... I don’t know how advanced the mathematical knowledge is in Feilan, but I know Violet would pick up math and theoretical physics very well. She’s good at thinking in abstracts. She’s bad at the arts, because she gets frustrated and starts breaking the art supplies. In canon, she’s excellent at her psychic training. Other than the occasional massive temper outburst, she’s pretty well-behaved, and usually she keeps the nuclear tantrums for after school. She respects her teachers and doesn’t want to make their days more complicated, it’s the other students who push her buttons. On the rare occasion that a teacher does become the target of her ire, she won’t make a scene of it, but it will be very very obvious. You don’t bully people in front of Violet. she will do her disproportionate retribution thing and annihilate you. even in an AU without magic, she’d still be very intimidating, it’s something in the way she holds herself.

Sayara is a difficult child. A lot of the traits that make her a driven protagonist and successful individual (independence, constant need to be Doing Something, total lack of social norms/peer awareness) are absolute hell in a public school setting. She’s very smart, she reads a lot in her free time, and if she gets bored then she starts goofing around and making trouble. She’ll doodle in the margins of every paper you hand her, and she’ll make weird toys and gadgets out of her school supplies, you ask her to empty her pockets and it takes fifteen minutes because she’s jammed them full of marbles and string and sparkly things she found on the ground. She’s a good writer and she LOVES history, but she doesn’t have the patience in any class to listen to repetition. This makes math class living hell. Once she understands the equation or the theory, she wants to move on, and if other kids in her class aren’t getting it then she gets frustrated and bored and starts making trouble. When she gets made fun of she either doesn’t understand the joke or reacts with physical violence. If a teacher tries to make her do something she doesn’t want to do and won’t explain why it’s necessary, she’ll bring everything to a screeching halt until she’s given the explanation. Sometimes she gets distracted and makes weird noises during class for no reason. She also finds loopholes in pretty much every school rule, and then she exploits them when she finds herself in trouble for any of the aforementioned chaos traits. She’s REALLY charismatic, and somehow manages to be popular despite (or perhaps because of) how weird she is, but she’s pretty freaking weird. All in all, the universe is lucky that she spent most of her childhood with a private tutor. She’ll be really excellent at classes in thoughform magic.

Aelia’s a jock. She’s average in most of her classes, but does well in gym and music. She’d be great at art, she has excellent physical awareness and she thinks in 3D. Mostly, though, she’s very very average. She’s easy to make friends with and probably has a wide social circle, so she’ll get distracted in class, but she tries her best. I think she and Sayara would gravitate to each other in a high school AU simply because Elli’s one of the few people who would go along with Sayara’s shenanigans. I honestly think that in said high school AU, she’d be a cheer captain. It just feels right.

#taz talks #feilan #aelia #sayara #violet #thanks for asking! this one got long because i overthought it lol #i used to roleplay high school au fairies a long time ago #that was a weird time #pixiesandwonder

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