#ill delete this later if i remember

[subcon--forest]

Bitches will be like "I want more morally gray characters!" then they cant handle Five Pebbles and either write him off as an irreemable monsterous villian or as a baby whos dumb and doesn't know anything and thus cant do anything wrong because he was a kid

#shoutout to the person who commented on my post about how the community hates mentally ill characters/people #saying i was trying to gain the 'moral high ground' #and said 'when did it say he was mentally ill. I don't remember that' #or something similar #dude. its stated multiple times #its implied too #do you have any reading comprehension whatsoever #did you even play the fucking game. did you get your lore from shitposts #rain world #five pebbles #delete later

[damconcha]

One of my favorite things about the ASL Brothers is the fact that Ace was the one brought out the sake and proposed becoming brothers.

Not Luffy or Sabo but Ace.

Ace, who believes he is unlovable, Ace who believes that his blood is dirty, Ace who believes that he didn’t deserve to be born, Ace who thinks that his life is worthless, Ace who believes that his mere existence is a crime.

And yet Ace saw these two boys and approached them without apprehension or fear of rejection even though he was proposing something as irrevocable, something as bonding as brotherhood

#not to mention ace had these thoughts bc this is how the WORLD sees him #that world put these thoughts into his head and made him believe that #but sabo and luffy only see him. not gol d. or even portgas d. but just ace. #the way ace knew that they wanted this just as much as he did #like he is theirs and they are his and he knew that #i remember learning that ace proposed it and being *so surprised* #cause we had just seen that ace had no self worth and hated himself #but he knew that they accepted him and that they wanted him in their lives #and he decided to make it permanent #they are his family. they are his safe place. they love him unconditionally. #DO YOU GUYS GET WHAT IM TRYING TO SAY #goddd these brothers make me so ill #it’s 2am so if this doesn’t make sense that’s why #i am thinking so many thoughts #i’ll probably delete this later #portgas d. ace #asl brothers #one piece #concha speaks #asl rambles #concha posts

[mikayesha]

someone please take my phone away

#i should be working on my school acTIVIIES IGHT NOOOOOWWWW #but i remember this au that i have been postponing yo draq for MONTHS #i hope everyone still remembers it? its alr if its not #phoenix wright: the last wish #im gonna name it that #its alr #ace attorney #ace attorney au #wrightworth #because FUCK yes #nrmt #i will delete this if i find it ugly later on because by GOD i speedrunned this mf #ill make something even better #okai #:( #fanart #pib:tlw #aa #ace attorney fanart #aa art #I WANT TO SCREAM #PLS ENCOURAGE ME TO DO MY ACTIVITIES OR ELSE ILL COMBOUST

[todayisafridaynight]

journalists underestimate the magnitude of my addiction and how far i'll go for the bit

#snap chats #im lying i physically could not marathon this i got school LMAO BUT IMAGINE #my god speaking of school i signed up for a japanese history class. because of course i did #i also needed an extra class and i didnt know what else to put LMAO but i might swap it or somn #thinkin i should get back into theater..... i got like two months to decide anyway #i was thinking about how im gonna play IW during streams... if the lord will let me i might stream for 2~3 hours or so #im putting such a small time limit due to Aforementioned School but also idk if my computer can record any longer than that #when i tried saving the video to my flashdrive it only lasted about two some hours right ? maybe 3 if i remember right #i decided to record to my computer's hard drive instead of the usb since it has more space so maybe i can record longer #ill prob do a test run later today and record a nonsense video. i WILL delete it i just wanna see what the limit is #cause my plan is to just Record One -> Upload It -> Delete OG yk. Lazy Susan type of plan #didnt mean to type out my whole gameplan in the tags LOL BUT HEY I WANTED TO TALK BOUT IT AT SOME POINT #my final message is that ive Hopefully preordered the ichi statue. i say Hopefully cause i am once again doing it through jp rabbit #and i didnt get the confirmation it was successful yet so I Will Simply Wait. #point is it was a lot cheapter than i thought it was going to be <3 yay <3 #ok im running out of tags tl;dr im gonna marathon IW until my eyes bleed BYYYE

[tech-obssessed-shark]

Explanation(Mental Issues+Questions) Under cut:

”Man do you think if I was a transformer I’d be a triple changer like Blitzwing?”

“Oh yeah cause those ones are really cool right?”

“heh”

“it-its because theyre just really cool right?”

*Cue flashback* ”Hey guys do you ever feel like you’re multiple people in one body but not in a DID way, like in a way where my personality changes so rapidly it’s like I’m different people. And I remember everything I do but my mind and mood change so suddenly. But like I refer to myself as We sometimes in a plural but not plural way- And sometimes it feel like there are multiple thought processes going on in my head Do you guys ever feel like that?”

“NO????”

#How to tag this #question #mental illness #help #TECHNICALLY #transformers #specifically #tfa blitzwing #like I know he has multiple personalities but is it exactly DID because I know tv logic and whatever #But he does seem to remember everything he does #Solving mental disorders through transformers #For real for real #might delete later #Blitzwing

[icarus-hawks]

Dabihawks nation I'm looking for a fic please help 😭

I can't find it because I don't remember the complete plot I just remember this scene where hawks tells dabi something like "you become your mother when I'm angry and your father when you're angry" because dabi had these habits like Rei like fiddling with his hands when he was afraid? Does anyone recognize this?

This is so vague ajdhdj but this line has just been in my mind for the past week and I can't remember which fic it was from and it's driving me crazy I've searched like variation of this line but cant find it

#i know this is very vague i cant remember much else T_T #this is just a shot in the dark in case someone remembers #dabihawks #dabi #hawks #bnha #mha #dabihawks fics #tags for visibility #ill probably delete them later #my hero academia #mha fics #dabi x hawks #touya todoroki #keigo takami #hope.text

[us-costco-official]

tw: vent, mental health discussion, bad parents, written in second person for some reason

hi.

let me set the scene for you. you, a 14 year old boy, have always struggled with people. they’re so complex and confusing and you hate most of them. you have two sisters, an older sister, the scapegoat and a younger sister, the naive one. and you. the golden child.

two mentally ill parents in the process of getting a divorce. you find yourself on your mother’s ‘side’. your father…is bad? he wasn’t involved in your life much, or so your mother tells you. you don’t remember your young childhood very well, honestly.

your mother….hm. your mother is a terribly insecure person, and was subject to some form of emotional abuser from your father, as she very frequently reminds you. she relies on you heavily. **heavily**. not just for helping with your siblings, but for…emotional support, often in the form of venting to you about your father. you have a tumultuous relationship, somewhat, at least. often very close, but it can turn harsh very quickly. your mother has few friends, and rarely leaves the house, making you one of her main forms of interaction and connection.

your father. your..father. you don’t know where to start with him, really. not like it’s a dramatic thing, you just….dont have much to say about him. apparently, he is an abusive person and a narcissist (to be clear, i am not a person who thinks ‘narc abuse’ should be a term that’s used). that’s what your mother says. and maybe he is. he probably is. but, as previously mentioned, not much of your childhood can be recalled, so you can’t be sure for yourself. he clearly favors your younger sister, and makes your mother and older sister out to be terrible people. where does that leave you? it’s subject to change. everyone always stays in those positions, but you. you fluctuate in his mind. sometimes he tries to keep you ‘on his side’ and sometimes he sees you as siding with your mother. you haven’t figured out why you were singled out. you may never.

so what is there to do? you are a mentally unhealthy teen who daydreams about violence and spends far too much of his life online and withdrawn. you want to change this, but you can’t. you just have to wait until you can leave your family, or at least distance yourself.

#tw vent #vent post #vent #bad parents #umm #sorry guys #mental illness #trying to tag stuff so it doesn’t catch anyone by surprise #violence ideation mention #very brief though #delete later #anyone know why i can’t remember stuff ?

[autistme]

Coheed and Cambria performing at the KPNT 105.7 Ho Ho Show at the Pageant in Saint Louis, Missouri December 15th, 2007 Photos by xambellinax on DA

#claudio sanchez #coheed and cambria #ill queue up some more of my da findings to be posted eventually #i went on a deep dive months ago but only remembered my stash yesterady #also a gaggle of these are from final cut for the enthusiasts out there #i forgot to hit post then like an hour later accidentally deleted the entire post. trials and tribulations

[moenmomentsthemoe-en]

id like to make a formal apology to both the dca and wizard101 fandom (GUYS I SWEAR ILL NEVER DO THIS AGIAN I SWEAR _)

#fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf dca #fnaf dca au #fnaf sun and moon #fnaf sun #fnaf moon #moen art #uhh the game the au is based off is. wizard101 #guys i swear ill never do this again i just had to get it out #i am cringe but free #explodes #ok im going back to watching my w101 gameplay 2hour livestream #DELETE LATER DELETE LATER (SHAKING MYSELF BY THE SHOULDERS) GOD REMEMBER TO DELETE LATER #okay back to horrors

[kanrix]

Love you, and hope you’re doing okay.

Thanks anon

#im never doing ok at this point but I've learned to deal with it (<- not really) #sorry for being melodramatic on main gyus 😺 #i always get surprised when i get serious asks them i remember what i posted seconds before #THEN* #yeah. no. sorry no one really takes my feelings seriously in real life so uh it's weird to answer these ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯ #delete later #one day ill explode #manden ayufa #ayuda

[frecklystars]

missing TF so much it physically hurts. jesus. i am throwing myself at ryan's characters rn. my horseshoe necklace came in the mail and the weight of it resting against my heart where the red energon necklace used to be is both devastating and yet such a fucking relief at the same time. i want to keep hoping i'll feel better going back to TF one day but i was triggered recently and can't fall asleep so i'm having a hot girl moment <3

#vent #I WILL FEEL BETTER WHEN I SLEEP!!!!!! #sleep deprivation and not having money for food is whats killing me rn but ill be fine #im getting better if it fucking kills me!!!!! i'll keep saying it!!!! #when im sleeping and eating regularly again ill feel so much better. right now its just extra extra hard. and thats ok #[grabbing my brain and shaking it violently] REMEMBER SHOCKWAVE LOVES YOU APPARENTLY #IF HE DOES EVEN WHEN HE'S SO VILE!!! THEN SO DOES EVERYONE ELSE!!! OK!! OK!!!!!!!!! #UR WORTHY OF LOVE EVEN WHEN SOMEONE CLAIMED TO LOVE U IN A WAY THAT WAS HARMFUL!!!!!!! #DOESNT MEAN EVERYONE WILL LOVE U IN A HARMFUL WAY. U JUST MET A SHITTY PERSON WHO ONLY LOVES THRU VIOLENCE. OK!!!!! #[wraps my brain in a blanket and tucks it in bed] now lets watch blade runner 15 more times until we get that plot #cant write a self ship fic w/ K if we dont know what the fuck is going on <3 #delete later

[pepprs]

ngl it’s genuinely kinda crazy how much of my life i have lost to mental illness :3 lol

#purrs #not time wise necessarily but like… aspect wise. like talking to my friends and pursuing hobbies and doing things that give my life meaning #and the very nature of the mental illness reinforces the detachment and fills me with so so so much shame for having lost these things that #it deters me from fighting to get it back. i feel like my life has gotten so gaunt since covid hit and sometimes it occurs to me how many #terrible things ahve happened and how im still pushing forward and everything is fine except for when i Remember. im feeling it now mr krab #delete later #like i used to be someone who hung out with my friends at least once a week and texted back and wrote poetry and played piano and kept my #room clean and took great care to stay organized and connected. and now at my own hands i am spiralling through space. im fighting my way #out of the quicksand i really think i am trying to but im still very much in the quicksand 😻 #side note idk if anyone else is having this problem but lately tumblr has been adding two hashtags to tags which keeps knocking off an #extra character to the end of my tags and it’s fucking annoying. i meant *krabs not krab lol

[archived-cat]

I want to write a piece about the guy who rejected me over the weekend but I’m not sure how to open that can of worms. He was so lovely and charming. I’m grateful to have met him and gutted he doesn’t want to pursue me.

I’m glad to be human and that I can experience these small weird loves from time to time, in spite of the hurt they invite

#first date #poetry #writing #english literature #bad poetry #poem #poems on tumblr #original poem #actually mentally ill #mental health #poets on tumblr #i’ll probably delete this later #i promise I’ll remember you forever ben

[steampoweredskeleton]

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Ignore

#delete later #i have three medical appointments in the work day in the next three weeks #one on Thursday then two mid/late January and i know that its good bc i need these appointments but i get so #anxious that ppl ay work are mad at me for having so many #im also scared about thirsdays one bc its for my ankle and hand pain and ironically the hand is way better and the ankle is also #more stable. something clicked again a couple days ago and fixed the pain in half of ky foot. no idea what happened there but #the click itself hirt like a bitch which is new. most of my pain doesnt start with a click and most clicks are painless #so fun #im just in a permanent state of being afraid i wont be taken seriously. my physio wanted a scan on my foot so om gonna #relay that but like idk what theyre gonna say. also if they do want to swnd me for a scan that's gpnna be ANOTHER appointment #so fuck me i guess. at the very leasy its not like severe psin any more so they wont send me to a and e for an x ray like they did #with my hip that one time. that would fucking suck to explain tp my manager #hey julia im fine but ive been sent ro rhe hospital for a scan so i guess ill be back when im back? #fuck me im anxious. and i hace so much apprenticeship work tp do i want to scream #also was distracted by my aching hands bc often they just ache abd successfully triggered myself so bow time to play what #is actual acge and what is remembered ache oh joy #one of the other appointments is gender clinic appointment abd im hoping to get referred for top surgery now ive been on t #for 9 months. waiting list gonna be like four fucking years but debating saving like mad abd going private bc jesus Christ #i cant bind bc of sensory problems and constantly aching ribs and last time i taped i ripped chunks of skin off so kinda #think i shouldn't do that again but like it sucks. not as bad now that my voice is dropping abd shit but still not fun #we'll see!

[todayisafridaynight]

time a flat circle why the hell am i usin the same loafers i bought for one cosplay of my fave antagonist for another fave antagonist

#snap chats #can i even call it cosplay. why are police sirens going off in the bg oh my god shut UP #anyway yeah ill elaborate. Super Snap Stalkers will remember my p4 era and will remember the time i did in fact do an adachi cosplay #i deleted the og post like an hour later. plus that blog's gone. but im sure some freak can find it if they dig hard enough #ew i think i was 17/18 in that pic (not at all that long ago) ok anyway. #i use the same loafers for my aoki outfit. and yeah i do Regularly wear my rgg outfits i TOLD YOU its functional cosplay i QUIT #just funny that like.... damn everything always goes back to square one LOL #these busted ass old ass loafers still rockin with me years later #if im feeling cheeky i think i will post all my rgg outfits actually. for halloween #hang on gotta be depressed and cringe for a moment #cause ive always liked cosplay but whenever i did it it never felt. Good Looking #like i always just felt like my face never worked for the charas i wanted to portray and so thats why i say with a heavy heart #that aoki's round-ass square-ass head is perfect LOL it makes me wanna throw up looking in the mirror #i got the same weird lips. ok not that squished Similar but Its Awful that he makes me feel comfortable with my face now #at least my eyebags arent double deckered... i at least look like i get sleep.. some days. #breaking !!!! objectively one of the most vile bitches in this franchise makes you feel comfortable with your body and existence #NAW to continue from last post if i had a webcam i prob coulda done a cosplay y7 stream LOL thatd be funny #anyway since this tag ramble is just pure cringe let me round it off with a final bit of cringe #the Forbidden Mention of my trans masato hc cause one reason why i have a Teehee over the thought is how raspy his voice is #and i only really now realized how right i was tonight because my prof called on me to speak and when i tried speaking DAWG. #the forbidden acknowledgement of Myself GROSS #BUT DAWG MY THROAT WAS FUCKIN CRUSTY it felt like sandpaper EW?? WATER FOR YOU?? christ. i hope that was just a one-time thing #ok im leaving now BYE

[justewil]

i think im good now .not sure what happened but i think it stoppef .it was like .my chest felt weird and then all of a sudden i was just Really Sad .idk its almost 5am might just be tired

im gonna try to sleep ^_^

#maybe it was a panic attack .but i havent had one in a While so i dont really remember what theyre like #also i dont think theres anything to Cause one .i was just lying in bed ?? #idk .im tired its probably that #talks #maybe delete later maybe not .hmmm (ill probably forget)