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elijahsvampylover · 1 year

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i hope you got your happy ending. p.4

Elijah mikealson x reader

warnings - kiss?

summary - You and Elijah were lovers back in 1820. He left you one night because Mikeal was after them. You moved on, found a boyfriend and got pregnant of twingirls. He didnt want children so you stayed as an single mother. A few years later, you go on a small vacation with your girls. when youre looking for an restaurant, you bump into an strange men. Someone you expected never to see again.

ps: English isnt my first language. And if you dont like my writing you can leave. Thankyou already for reading. <33

The day flew by yesterday. 2 days after my meeting with the mikealsons are over. Today is the day, the day im going to see Elijah. Bel called last minute that she could watch the kids. so that i can go alone.

it was 12 noon. The bar wasn't far away from here. I got into the car and drived for about 10 minutes.

As i walked trough the busy crowd in town seeing the bar. i already saw him sitting outside at a table with some coffee. As i walked to him, he offered me a warm smile. ''Hi, im glad you came. I want to tell you everything, if you give me the chance for it. Would you like something to drink?''

I nodded. ''Just a tea please.'' He ordered the tea and it was silence for a moment. ''So, are you going to explain it?'' i reminded him. He looked for a second to his feet and looked back to me again.

'''Well, First of all. i never wanted to leave you. And i swear, if i could, i had took you with me. I did not left because i wanted to, but i had to. Father was after us and we had to run. Again. When i left you i was heartbroken. After that i swore never to fall in love again with another person...''

It was silence. You didnt knew what to say. '' And that girl, Hayles or something like that?'' He chuckled. ''You mean Hayley. Yes, she carried Niklaus's child. I believe she has a crush on me or what do they say now?'' You smiled. ''Yes, a crush.''

''I cant say i return her feelings. Im not healed yet. I dont think i'll ever be, y/n..'' He said with a sad face. Before you could answer, he asked you something.

''I am a little curious, Y/n. How did you get children as a vampire? thats impossible.'' You looked up at him. ''I dont know, i was just pregnant from my boyfriend. He did not believe it was his, so we went to a witch. she could assurance that he was the father and i was really pregnant.'' there was a silence. ''but he didnt want the children, so he left. Before he left he tried to kill them. But i could just save them in time but now they stay so young forever. When i was on my 7th month i heard he died.''

''im sorry. But im glad you did got your children, you always wanted them as i can remember.'' He answered you and offered you a kind smile.

You guys spoke a little about when you guys had an relationship, what you guys did and which places you have seen. After that there was an akward silence.

''Were do you live actually? Do you have a Job? maybe a new lover?'' you looked back at him. ''i live in New york, I Have my own Make up brand, and my own clothing line. Next to that i am a singer, maybe you once heard me. And when im free i like to travel with my kids and Belcallis.''

''The dress im wearing, is from my brand.'' i added. He looked me up and down. ''its a beautiful dress i must say.'' That got you a little blushing.

''thanks'' you smiled sweetly. it reminded Elijah of when he first met you. how you would always smile at him after he gave you a compliment.

''When are you returning back?'' he asked. ''In 6 days. i've got work to do.'' he looked at his feet, eyes filled with guilt and sadness.

''Cant you just stay?'' that shocked u. ''u-uhm..why i dont have a reason.'' he made eye contact with you. ''i can give you a 100 reasons. reason 1, the most important one. Do it for me, and Rebekah, Klaus and even Kol. We have all missed u, y/n.''

''Elijah, pleas dont do this. We had one talk. i've mourned for a century. I can't do this Elijah, i have to choose for myself and my children.''

with that i stood up. ''i have to go and get Aliyah and Stormi. Have a good life Elijah.'' with that i turned around. ''Wait!'' Elijah shouted behind me. As i turned around i feel his lips smashing against mine.

after a second or three he let go. ''Just know, i love you with all my heart. I could not let you leave again before i said this and spoke my mind. You're free to leave now, y/n. But know, that i'll wait. wait for you. And please think about it. i'll be here.'' He then sped away in a flash.

I ran to my car and drove as to Belcallis. Why did he always have to make it this difficult for me? He knows im a love foolsick and yet he kisses me. Because he knew, he knew if he did something like that, it was harder for me to leave.

i parked the car below the appartment Bel currently was staying in. I walked up the stairs and knocked on the door. ''hi, they are back there with Bel.'' I looked the boy up and down. Damn, really something Bel woud choose. ''Thankyou.'' i politely gave him a smile as i walked in.

''Baby Girls?'' Stormi ran out the living room and hugged me. ''Your back mommy.'' she smiled so sweet. such a cutie. ''I am back baby. where is your sister?'' i asked her. ''Asleep.'' Ofcourse, she loves sleeping. that lazy baby. ''Hi gurl" i turned around and there she was. Bel.

I smiled at her. ''We really have to talk.'' She looked worried immediately. ''Whats wrong?'' i gave her my 'it happened' face.

''OMG'' ''I cant believe it!'' She almost screamed. ''Mommy?'' Aliyah stood at the hallway door. ''Hi baby'' i picked her up as i put stormi down for a sec. ''How did you sleep?'' she was rubbing her eyes. ''Good. we watched Elsa.''

The girls took their little backpack that i made this morning with their ipad, extra pair of clothes + swimwear, some toys and 2 candies. ''Listen i'll call u tonight. We have to talk about this.'' I nodded. said goodbye to her 'boyfriend', and went to the car.

As far as i knew, there was a cinema here. ''Girls, who wants to go to the cinema?'' ''Yes we want to go mommy!''

''Alright give me a second i want to look which movies there are.'' i scrolled down. God, there are so much movies me and belcallis would love to see rn. ''Okay girls, there are a few choices. choice 1, Moana. 2, The lion king. 3, Mulan, or the last one, Finding Dory.''

i looked away from my phone and looked at them. ''finding dory.'' they answered. ''Alright lets go then.''

''Hello miss, what kind of snacks would u like?'' ''one medium pocorn, a little bag of m&ms, and some doritos please.''

We watched the movie and it was fun. you headed back to the hotel and bathed them. Tommorow youre seeing Rebekah again. But now, now you were tired and wanted to sleep. Before that you called Bel. She said that you have to think about it and you could make a new start here. Not only for the love but also for yourself. I mean, she was right. i've been in New york for 6,5 years. But.. i loved New york, so its a difficult situation.

For the Girls it wasnt a problem, they love it here. You could move your building to here and buy a nice house. But you werent sure if you wanted to. The only thing you wanted right now , was sleep.

#elijah mikealson x reader #elijah mikaelson #elijah x y/n #twin girls #the originals x reader #new orleans #new york #rebekah mikaelson #regret

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gojuo · 2 years

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Hello can i ask you a quick question can i have your opinion of the strong bastards please i know you don’t enjoy them and i personally think they are hollow af and without substance but what do you think im curious

Hmm I don't hate them really. I think they're spoiled and protected from consequences all the time, which is bad parenting, but the worst thing about them is their parents in my opinion. Rhaenyra and Harwin knew very well what trying to pass off bastards as trueborns set to inherit the Iron Throne meant (exile/death), yet they still decided to have children. Jace could have been an accident, fine, but then they went on to have 2 more kids, which is just awful. A good parent that actually cared for her children would never put them in such a precarious and deathly situation, yet Rhaenyra and Harwin still did it. Not once, not twice, but three fucking times. Rhaenyra having bastards is not high treason, it is the fact that she tries to pass them off as trueborn which is. The way to prevent her children's execution/exile would be to abdicate from the succession and just live her life as a normal noblewoman, yet she did not do this, therefore making sure that her children would always be on death's door. Jace, Luke and Joff did not deserve that. I don't believe that children should have to pay for their parents' sins and in the show we know that both Jace and Luke know they are bastards. I imagine growing up with the knowledge that at any moment in time you could be executed just for being born was extremely damaging to their psyche, but it was also made very clear to them from a very young age that they would always be protected by the crown. Which led to their sheltered/spoiled upbringing (less noticeable in Jace than in Luke). They got away with everything, with maiming and permanently disabling the king's son, with being bastards who by law cannot inherit yet still being pushed to inherit the IT & Driftmark, with never apologizing for any of the wrongs they have committed, etc. The example set by the adults around them led to Luke (less so in Jace's case and Joff is still a little child so let's forget him) getting away for years with his awful behavior towards Aemond. Aemond is the king's son, Luke is the king's grandson. In all fairness, Aemond is closer to the king than Luke is, yet Viserys clearly and publicly showed the entire court which of the two he actually gave protection to and which one he did not grant such sympathies towards. It's what led to Luke getting away with not once in his entire life apologizing for permanently disabling a prince. That's pretty fucking horrible. Losing an eye is not the same as getting a cut on your arm, yet Luke never had to face any consequences for it. It happened and that was it for Luke, but for his victim, for Aemond, his entire life changed. Then he had the gall to scoff at an ancient bullying joke right in Aemond's face. Like ???? Who tf even remembers such a memory from back when you were 5 ten years later? It just goes on to shows how Luke was unrepentant of any wrong he has committed against Aemond, and that's awful. Aemond deserved an apology. Aemond deserved multiple apologies actually and he deserved acknowledgement. But he never did. Everyone just moved on like it never happened, but Aemond has the permanent psychical evidence of why he could not just "move on". He was only 10 years old...

I'm lukewarm towards the Strong children. Jace is an ok character, even though he is just your average nice guy with little personality outside of being nice. I don't have any strong feelings against him. Luke is a different story as you've just read. I don't hate him, but I hate that his parents raised him to be this way. I don't think he deserved to die while terrorized, but I also don't mourn him. Joffrey is just a little kid so no opinions on him really.

#hotd spoilers #anonymous #answered

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pl4st1c---h34rt · 2 years

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Honesty i love Stranger Things like im obsessed but season four, volume 2....man. Idk how im gonna recover. idk how the duffers are gonna revive the show like. Tbh the only reason i'll watch season 5 is to see how it it turns out. Anyways here my rant. SPOILERS FOR SEASON 4.

Theres so many things to adress but ill start with eddies death. He litterally died for no reason. The bats wouldnt of reached the creels house before the three killed vecna. And also, steve got attacked buy bats while SHIRTLESS and all he needed was a little first aid but eddie died within minutes of being attacked!? I dont understand why the duffers keep adding in new loveable characters and then killing them off. Because they are scared to kill of the main cast?? Because they are scared to change the plot and make the show different?? Its so annoying. Also. Joe and gaten had to film their bits on a different day cuz joe only had 10 minutes to film his. Like how messy is that. It (his death) was was so rushed and unnecessary. Why did no one mourn eddie except for his uncle and dustin?? No one cared. No one spoke abput him. Mile probably doesnt even know man. And one last thing. Is he in the Upside down??? They just left his body there? It was bullshit.

Why did the duffers say they were gonna adress wills sexuality??why did they ASSURED us that would happen. That we would finally have an answer. But NO. The duffers are scared to actually include more than one queer character/relationship and its annoying. They queerbaited us and used will to make a straight relationship 'stronger'. Why cant they actually have will as a actual MAIN character?? Like he doesnt really have any other character traits other than he is a scared, traumatized boy whos been kidnapped by monsters. Idk i feel like he needs to actually have more recognition. They also have completely ruined Mikes character. In s1 and s2, he was a caring person. He cared for will. He could tell when he was having an off day and would comfort him but im s4 he cant notice will SOBBING while sitting right next to him??? His ily speech was so...bad. it wasnt powerful or moving and didnt deserve the praise that it got.

In this season, i was so so so annoyed with lucas and ericas character. He plays basketball and cares about it even though NEVER showing an interest in it at all??? And erica... i love her character but there has been no growth. She is still has like that sassy stereotypical attidude that every black girl has in movies. Why hasnt she moved forward? Why???? Like they both have no character growth and are SO stereotypical Also. When that older white jock guy tackled her to the ground and jason held a gun to lucas's head-OH HELL NO. BITCHHHH.

Also stancy. Bitch its so annoying. It happened 2 years ago. I thought he was over her. In my opinion, its so toxic for steve. Nancy fucks up then steve has to apologise. At first i shipped it in s4 but then i started to think about it and now i hate it. Like the kids that steve said talk was lowkey weird and also idk i just hate it.

I love argyle but why is his only personality traight getting high. Hes also stonned and once again i feel like its a stereotypical thing. Like the only brown person is a stonner?? Its annoying. Why cant he be like the others where he is smart and isnt ALWAYS stonned ???

Steve was completley out of character v2. He barley spoke a WORD to dustin, he didnt hug him before he left to fight vecna, he thought he was inlove with nancy, he let robin run around in the UD by herself and he didnt address eddies death???? Why do they do this.

The duffer brothers successfully managed to ruin their plot and characters in just four hours. Please make it better. Ill find more stuff to rant about later.

Bye

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rangers-are-cool-moved · 2 years

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Peter Whitlock

Peter was born on 15 January 1890 in Houston, Texas, to Nathan and Sara White nee Bell. He was the eldest of two children, with the youngest being Isabelle Sara White. He adored his mother and sister but his father was a different matter altogether. For the 14 years that Nathan was around, Peter often ended up becoming the target of his anger so that the other two White members were protected.

In 1902, Nathan was called to war and ended up becoming the meal of a hunting vampire in 1904, so he never returned home. When the news of his father's death became known, the White family relaxed although they still appropriately mourned Nathan's passing. Quiet, patient and kind, Peter was someone who many wanted their daughters to marry but he denied all marriage requests and remained single. For he knew that his time was coming.

"I ain't NOTHIN' like the Major's brat. I get random bits of factual information that are set in stone. I just know shit an' it's not a gift. The Pixie's ability is based on decisions. It shouldn't be relied upon all the time fer each new vision seen may not happen, if a decision is changed."

15 January 1913 Peter had always known that he would drop his sister off at her friend's house and then never see her again. His claircognizance ability had warned him of that. Later that night on the very day that he had turned 23, Peter Martin White died and turned into a vampire by Major Jasper Whitlock. Newborns (newly turned vampires) in Maria's army in the Southern Vampire wars were mainly used for their first year of being a vampire and then culled. But Peter had been saved from that fate by the Major.

He, and his alternate personality the General, had become Jasper's second in command and that was how it stayed until 1936, when he escaped from Maria's army with a newborn called Charlotte. Someone who he thought would be his constant companion but it wasn't to last. Peter returned for Jasper in 1938 and helped set the older Texan on a path that would eventually make him happy. But in turn, it would also spell the end of their friendship and cause Peter to avoid his maker.

"Do I regret goin' back fer the Major? Never. Do I regret lettin' 'im go afterwards? Aye 'cause he is no longer the vampire I once knew.”

in 1958, Maria came after Peter & Charlotte in an attempt to get Jasper back but was met with a resounding "Not on my life." response from the General. But Charlotte, in an attempt to save her own life and not knowing where Jasper was either, handed Peter over to the very vampire he had helped her escape from nearly 20 years before. 10 years of hell later, it was Demetri and the Witch Twins who freed him from Maria's torture and put him back together again. In return, Peter helped them to destroy much of the camp and most of the vampires apart from a few of the older ones who had been acting as informants. Nowadays, Peter spends his time either helping out on the old Whitlock family farm that he brought back in 1942 without Charlotte's knowledge, or going Nomadic. Although his information network is international, no one actually knows who owns or runs it as he's only known by the name CAPTAIN. Which does cause Aro some amusement as he occasionally finds that not even the vampires know who the Captain is.

Basic information and stats about Peter are below the cut

BASIC FULL NAME Peter Whitlock HUMAN NAME Peter Martin White NICKNAME(S) Pete, Whit, Captain, Cap'n, Mart, Ghost ALIAS The General | Peter's alter personality REAL AGE 115 | 2005 / Does depend on RP DATE OF BIRTH 15 Jan 1890 PLACE OF BIRTH Houston, Texas NATIONALITY American GENDER & PRONOUNS Male | He/him RACE Vampire

PHYSICAL HEIGHT 6ft3 WEIGHT 50.5kg EYE COLOUR Human: Ice cool blue | Vampire: Dull red usually, Dark red - lust/anger | The General - pitch black HAIR COLOUR Silvery blond HAIR STYLE Shoulder length DOMINANT HAND Right ACCENT + INTENSITY Thick Southern SCAR(S) Millions of scars caused by vampire bites, two straight scars running parallel down his spine CLOTHING Old blue jeans & black long sleeved shirt JEWELLERY Whitlock Clan crest ring on his middle finger MEDICAL PTSD from his years in the Southern Vampire Wars

PERSONALITY MORAL ALIGNMENT Neutral TEMPERAMENT Calm, Easy-going, Sarcastic, Tactical ANGER Doesn't anger easily | Just don't fuck with his loved ones LIKES Travelling, visiting his friends and family, helping people, horse riding, reading, remembering his human family, practice fighting with the Volturi Guards, annoying the crap out of Aro DISLIKES Dealing with certain vampires, his loved ones getting hurt

BACKGROUND HOMETOWN Houston, Texas CURRENT RESIDENCE Whitlock's Ranch, Texas LANGUAGE(S) Polyglot - mainly speaks English, Quileute and Spanish BASIC EDUCATION Home taught MOTHER Sara White nee Bell | 1870-1930 FATHER Nathan White | 1868 - 1904 SISTER Isabelle Sara White (later Swan) | 1897 - 1963 OTHER FAMILY Jasper Swan (Brother-in-law) | Geoffrey Swan (Nephew) | Charlie Swan (Great nephew) | Bella Swan (2nd great niece)

RELATIONSHIPS STATUS Single | Happy on his own ORIENTATION Bi | Prefers men after what Charlotte put him through CURRENT None FORMER Charlotte THE LA PUSH PACK Neutral but unlike other vampires, he's allowed to cross the treaty line freely because he doesn't cause them to Phase. Due to a quirk of nature. THE CULLENS Rosalie & Emmett are the only two he actually gets on with. | The others don't want him around in case he makes Jasper have a relapse. THE VOLTURI It’s odd relationship with the Volturi that’s for sure.

VAMPIRIC FACTS TURNED: 15 Jan 1913 (his birthday) PERMANENT AGE: 23 MAKER: Major Jasper Whitlock (Hale) | 1844 - "Last I knew he was still lettin' the brat tell 'im what ta do." BLOOD: Human | Peter only feeds from the lowest of the low like murderers & high end criminals STAYS IN ONE PLACE OR NOMADIC? Nomadic mainly ABILITIES Claircognizance or "I just know shit." as he puts it, is his main gift. He is also a mental & physical shield, much like Bella for it comes from the White family line. | Unusual lack of a presence/scent so no one knows he's there. | No thirst to speak of THE GENERAL Cold, calculating, doesn't bat an eyelid any anything, is always awake. Was created to protect Peter when he was first turned as cannon fodder for Maria's army | Also known as his inner vampire self.

ODD FACT Severely allergic to animal blood that is linked to his Claircognizance ability. If Peter drinks animal blood at all, he'll go into a coma-like state. He will get stuck inside his own mind due to an information overload & needs human blood to bring him back out of it. Unless Jasper is nearby.

#~|| i always knew jasper would be my death ||~ :: peter #~|| fight me and you most likely won't survive ||~ :: the General #twilight rp #secondary canon character #new muse on here #oldest canon muse i've written #started writing him in 2006/7 #bios for crossovers available #got lost along the old forest road :: queue

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3dayweeknd · 5 months

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this is gonna be another dumb rant. its giving privileged

no tw

during the middle of dinner we were talking about if I move out will i take the dogs and I said if im aloneand long distance at vet school i dont think i could handle it. like maybe right now if it was me and my brother sure but not if its just me while im literally in med school. anyway all of the sudden my dad is all serious like mom if you hate them so much we should get rid of them genuinely. like im serious mom u hate them soo much we should get rid of them. like what the fuck that was so random. shes like no we're not gonna do that like i'm exaggerating i dont hate them etc etc whatever. and he just kept fucking going like nuh uh i know u hate them and if it makes so u mad we should give them up. and shes like ok lindsey is sitting right there. let's not traumatize her by suddenly getting rid of the dogs. and shes right. and hes like i dont give a fuck i'd rather lindsey has to go to therapy to deal with it than see u escalate your "hatred" of the dogs. like what the fuck dude. thats actually fucked up. first of all my mom would never hurt the dogs. she gives them more care than you have ever given. second of all, what the fuck. what the fuck happened to you hating me being in therapy. I know real fucking well that if you for some reason did go through with it, you would tell me to deal with it on my own. you would shame me for needing therapy and for mourning. i never want to be like him it makes me so mad. you got these dogs by your own choice when i was a child this is on you because you were a grown man and you for some reason did not think to discuss with or even notify your wife that animals were coming home. and you think living beings are so easily disposable you are so fucking privileged you think you can drop your animal off with strangers and never think of them again well fuck you. you should have thought of the commitment when you brought them home. and promising your children things just to constantly threaten taking it away is yet another fucked up thing I never want to do and i hope i never have children so you never get the chance to do that to them. oh lindsey let get a dog, oh now you (a 10 year old) won't walk them well lets throw them away. oh lindsey here's a rabbit you love rabbits well guess what even though you're 10 years old i'm making you responsible for a whole living thing. oh no why are you mad at me years later oh no why do you face constant guilt as an adult about some dumb fucking rabbit. stupid fuckinghhhhh it makes me so mad. you can't promise things and use them as threats you cant promise things and take them away you cant promise to care for a living being and act like it's disposable. it's a dog its not a toy its not an accessory you cant abandon them when you are perfectly capable of giving care. you're not even a caretaker you walk them once or twice a day and maybe feed once. you have never seen a vet bill in your life you've never seen a medication in your life you've never trained in your life you don't know anything about my dogs. you never listen you never want to help. if i get the chance i will be getting them away from you. i never want to see you own another animal i never want you to discuss my animals with me again.

#vent

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mottemotte · 11 months

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Surveys I Stole!!!!!!!

mostly stolen from lyric mwa mwa

tag yourself: what ice cream flavor are you?

made by lady glamcat ⚜️

chocolate

() your name begins with c.

(x) you have a serious sweet tooth.

() you’re a night owl.

() you like mystery/thriller movies.

(x) you have brown eyes.

() your hobbies include music or art.

total: 2/6

vanilla

() you enjoy taking baths.

(x) you read romance novels.

(x) you have stuffed animals.

(x) you don’t like drama.

(x) you think you’re boring.

(x) your bed sheets are white.

total: 5/6

neapolitan

(x) you’re terrible at making decisions.

(x) you love pop or emo music.

() you’re wearing three different colors.

() your favorite number is 3 or contains a 3.

() you played a sport in school.

() you mix soda flavors together.

total: 2/6

mint chocolate chip

(x) green is your favorite color.

() you have an unusual pet.

(x) you want an electric car.

(x) you often spend time outside.

(x) you brush your teeth 3 times a day.

(x) you enjoy cooking.

total: 5/6

rocky road

(x) you love rock music.

() you workout often.

() you watch reality shows.

() you collect rocks.

(x) you’re kind of messy.

(x) you like vintage things.

total: 3/6

result[s]: THE FACT THAT MINT AND VANILLA ARE MY FAVOURITE FLAVORS TOO. ICONIQUE

also im so torn. do ice baths count for vanilla? and what is an unusual pet. ive had turtles, birds, chinchillas, miniature horses, a near-immortal goldfish, hamsters. also tried to keep a bell cricket once but mom said no

random questions survey

made by jody marie ✿

what is your current ringtone?: if i knew how to set my own, itd be everywhere by fleetwood mac, or the intro of kids by mgmt, but alas im fucking stupid so its the generic "retro love" one my phone came with

what is your zodiac sign?: ur gonna have to try harder than that to get my birthday scrub

what are your preferred pizza toppings?: none :,) im like cheese

are you currently single, in a relationship, or married?: LOL ME? MARRIED? im single never dated. i shoot myself in the foot like its a party trick

do you have any pets? if so, how many? (you can include names if you want): 10+ i cant fucking count!!!!

what is your favorite season?: everytime a new season comes i fall in love with it. ah. the beauty of the spring. and the beauty of the coming summer. could you imagine if we were stuck in one forever. h e l l

how tall are you?: short, but i think im not short enough to be made fun of anymore? i had a mini growth spurt (SOMEHOW?? SO MANY YEARS LATER???? I HIT PUBERTY IN 4TH GRADE) and i learned how to walk in heels nya

what color are your eyes?: guess i kinda outed myself in the last one huh

if you eat salads, what is your preferred salad dressing?: R A N C H but one time i had this rasberry thing that was good but R A N C H

are you a morning person or night owl?: morning dove 🕊️ (i thought that they were morning doves and not mourning doves bc i always saw them when it was just me awake in the morning!!! :,) dude i was so cute)

do you have any tattoos? if so, how many? (you can include what they are of if you want): no and i think if i ever did it would go horribly bc 1. committment issues 2. i have skin issues.

do you have any piercings? if so, how many? (you can include what kind if you want): can you believe i used to be a pussy about pain!!!! i had my ears pierced as an infant (my bio family had a single visit with me and said fuck it, stab her) and i never wanted to get them pierced again UNTIL NOW and i have no idea where to get them done woooooooo

have you ever broken any bones? if so, what did you break?: never bitch!!!!!!

have you ever had any surgeries? if so, what kind?: ive had idek how many dental surgeries. yes im insecure about my teeth (I LITERALLY SAID I BRUSH 3X A DAY I WASNT JOKING)

do you play video games?: DUH i played the classics like loz and pokemon as a kid, nowadays... still loz (i got that limited edition tri-force 3ds when it came out!!!) and hades but mostly sky. i dont have as much time to play anymore :,)

what is the last thing you had to eat?: leftover pizza woooooo.........................

what is the last thing you had to drink?: ORANGE JUICE

what is the last tv show you watched?: intentionally? no idea. against my will? whatever fbi show my parents watch non-stop.

what is the last movie you watched?: i think the breakfast club? it was a while ago...

what is the last song you listened to?: Two Out of Three Ain't Bad

have you ever had braces?: dude my dentists can never agree - i had a retainer/spacer thing for a while, then new dentist said nonono u need braces, then new dentist said nonono u need this removed asap, now my new-new dentist says if i dont want braces at my age he understands but he recommends braces. CAN YALL JUST-

have you ever dyed your hair?: i have virign hair. 10000% untouched. never trimmed, never dyed, never permed or anything but im thinking abt a perm.... just maybe. but if youve ever seen a photo of a victorian woman w her hair down. my hair is genuinely that texture/appearance, just shorter (still long but not on the floor alas)

have you ever rode in an ambulance?: yes, i actually wanted to be a paramedic for a while and i did a ride-along and my car-sickness said FUCK NO (i almost threw up on so many old people you cant imagine)

chinese, mexican, or italian food? (pick one): ITALIAN ITALIAN ITALIAN ITALIAN ITALIAN ITALIAN

what are your plans for tonight?: im thinking abt watching league of their own? or but im a cheerleader. not sure

what are your plans for this weekend?: fuck-all (actually maybe cleaning. but. e w)

why did your last relationship end?: never dated lol. but part of the reason ive never dated is i live in the middle of nowhere, which u think means slim pickings, but what it really means is every time i see someone whos hot i think ayyyyy and then they talk to me and i find out they wear tinfoil hats in their spare time. (this is why my friendships end. yes i think finding out someone is diet racist is an ok reason to drop them)

have you ever been to any concerts?: i actually dont get the appeal of concerts at all? i hate people who sing over the music. like shut the hell up i didnt pay to hear you!!!!!!

what is the last thing you spent money on?: ice cream for my mom :)

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moonrisecalamityretreat · 1 year

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worldly desires obstruct our view || hanji || trial 3 || re: my tummy hurts

Hanji blinks.

"Well. Ya heard 'em. We've been in here fer a while, and y'all still think morals matter here?"

Sure, they could've just kept shut to be respectful, but even if they did take time to honour Hisakata before the inevitable, it seemed as though they still didn't give a shit of how other's thought about their actions.

This was a lesson better learnt now than later, after all.

"Morals or laws or fairness never existed in these games in th' first place. It was never th' point. The point was always fer us t'kill an' die, no matter what.

It's obvious that these games were specifically designed to reject 'em an' have us stripped of 'em. They're not specifically lookin' fer immoral an' unethical actions, just responsibility. Just anythin' to make us upset. Any straw t'grasp on t'make us miserable and fuel that misery. 'Cos I reckon us bein' miserable benefits the mastermind, th' same as Izana Sakurai did."

Why was Hanji saying all this? Was this the time and place? Especially with everyone else mourning and grieving already, all dreading to see a well loved friend fall to their death for no reason but a shitty carriage and horrible luck...

But just because they were pointing out a harsh fact, it never meant they had to lament over it. No one was telling anyone that they could still look up from the ground.

"That's why we shouldn't fall fer it. The one behind this... they prob'ly want us to be mad an' upset an' shit, an' it's easy to when there's nuthin' we can do about it. But, uh... Don't be sad it's over, smile 'cos it happened... is th' sayin', right?

Even if we can't go back, or convince th' bunnies, memories of and with Imai will always be with us now. We're now all proof that he is and was here. In our heads, an' I guess hearts too fer some people. Maybe even personality."

Recycling some of the words they said to Hisa months ago, they look at him with that trademark blank expression, before it slightly curls into a grin.

"Y'won, Imai. I'm jealous. I should'a confessed 10 years ago to 'im when ya made fun o' me fer it. 'Cos unlike me, at least yer goin' out wit' closure wit' sum'un y'love an' more."

Maybe that was something insensitive to say to an outside witness, but Hanji spoke from their emotions. They only jsut hope Loic says everything he wants to say to Hisa before he goes...

"All that t'say I agree that it ain't immoral t'wanna live. But whatever. We're forced t'be victims to this game, like I said. We need t'remember that."

If there was any game Hanji didn't want to lose to-- no, if there was any game Hanji didn't want everyone and themself to lose to,

it'd be this one. To not lose to melancholy.

#ch3 #hanji #submission

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88088-8 · 1 year

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Forcing myself to make an entry. I’m really tired but i want to make a habit of writing every night. Even if im out of town or doing something out of routine. I want to make an entry. Even if it’s brief. Just mention what happened throughout the day, and my mental state.

(And if im somewhere without my iPad i can always type on my phone or use talk to text if im feeling really weak or need to vent to someone)

I just want documentation.

But anyways, today went okay. Me and Caleb got into it at one point and he called me names again. I’m not going to mention exactly what they were but just know they were the typical run of the mill insults. The non original, bullets that have no effect on me anymore. If anything i feel like im beginning to mourn the death of the love we shared. I’m praying that this is a phase because ultimately i want to be with him. I want to feel loved by him. I don’t want to compromise myself, morals and ultimately my soul for anyone. Especially not a person who can’t even name some of the things that i like. Or repeat what i said when i ask him what i had for breakfast. I can’t remember exactly how the conversation went but it wasn’t manipulative. When he came outside i had told him what all halie and i had for breakfast. And a few minutes later he was talking about going to get food and I said we already ate, and he was like what did you eat. Like sir i told you 10-15 minutes ago. And i asked… you don’t remember me telling you what we ate? And he literally sat there and told me that i never told him anything. Then after jogging his memory he named 1 of the 4 items i named when first speaking..

Conclusion: he tunes me out as soon as i start speaking. And that just gave me hard evidence.

I tried to explain that to him and he always sits there and weasels in and out of the subject and manipulates the conversation. While i was foggy brained i was easier to manipulate. But im starting to learn him, and his behavior, and his patterns. And it sucks but i just don’t think that he is aware and if he is, then he doesn’t want to change. I have been repeating myself for coming up on nine years and i have seen very small progress. For a long time he was able to manipulate my prospective and make me think that i was just gaslighting myself in a sense.

But all the things he’s been yelling at me for years, is what he’s doing to me. Using me. He doesn’t listen to me. Even the times he was accusing me of being unfaithful/talking to others.

What makes me the saddest is, that is who my child’s father is.

That why i just want him to do better, and have to do everything in my power to try to make that happen.

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figuring-myself-out-url · 2 years

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I feel like if I said this irl I'd get weird looks so here's to hoping I won't here.

I feel like im mourning my own body. I have eds and I don't know why but my joints have been getting "worse" and looser overtime. I used to enjoy alot of things that were really active and required alot of strength, gymnastics, climbing, etc....

Needless to say I can't do those anymore, I'm 16 and I cannot do the activities I enjoy. I hope that I can one day find a method to start doing archery again, I can't handle the thought I might never shoot a bow again. It's such an integral part of me and my life. I started doing archery with 10, I don't want to stop just 6 years later.

I am mourning things I used to do.

#neon vents #chronic illness #chronic pain #actually disabled #disability #chronically ill #ehlers danlos

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theriverbeyond · 2 years

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i keep thinking about how mercymorn and g1deon and augustine and all the rest of them researched lyctorhood for like 200 years and then mourned for 10,000 more, and only two of them (g1deon and anastasia) managed what palamades/camilla and harrow figured out in like, 2 months: basically, how to achieve lyctorhood without destroying the other soul. and g1deon did it by accident.

granted, harrow and pal/cam both achieved this through very different processes, and harrow cannot be really described as a ‘success’ in that regard, and palamades and camilla might spend the rest of their infinite life never being able to speak to each other directly every again, so it’s all very tragic, but it’s still 2/3, a full 60%, versus 25% . and as john said, the OG lyctors were “adult necromancers in their prime” or something, and our friends were all like, teens/early 20′s.

i dont rlly know where im going w this tbh. i started this post thinking about how it seems kind of unfair to the OG crew that this new generation of lyctors figured workaround out so fast, but now that i really think about it, the original group may have just been less inclined to think of that as a posibility -- they may have thought the sacrifice terrible but necessary in a way our group just didn’t..

and i think part of it might have to do with the situation they came into lyctorhood from -- the houses do seem to have had some amount of intra/inter house drama, and they’re in a forever-war against “unnamed insurgents” (BOE), but like any imperial core, things are pretty safe and stable within the nine houses thewmselves. (despite (because of) the chaos they create elsewhere) so pal and harrow and the rest of our crew were, i think, despite the personal kind of trauma they’ve experienced, just not....... desensitized enough to the sheer amount of loss-of-life and similar things that happened around the ressurection.

versus the OG lyctor crew and their cavaliers, who I think came to be in a signifigantly more unstable time. they might not remember the resurrection, but they would know on a much more intimate and direct level that there used to be 10 billion people and now there... weren’t, anymore. the houses were being formed, and everything was probably much more chaotic and different culturally. Harrow considered herself a war crime at 200 dead souls, but cassiopeia (+ others) killed 500 to create the canaan house servants/priests and there was no mention of any kind of guilt/regret in the laboratries they left. (which. i mean idk abt u cassie but if I killed 500 people and then erected the laboratry that i did it in as a shrine to be discovered an unknown amount of time later, i’d leave some sort of note about it. but u do u ig) the OG lyctors were ruthless. the OG lyctors invented planet murder. idk what the point of this mini essay is but ive put too much time into it for it to languish forever in the drafts *hits post*

#tlt meta #txt #tlt thoughts #wish i was smart enough to make this into a more coherent point ugh

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itsmekalou · 3 years

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jjk manga spoilers!

the fact that i loved gojo first but then i met getou and then shit happens and now im here mourning for them two because gojo had to fckng kill his own best friend, soulmate, boyfriend, because if he didn't things would become more worse and it was his duty as the strongest. getou, the literally only person who understood him best, the closest person to gojo, had to turn against them, become a curse user, disappear years later only to meet each other again after 10 years or so for it to be their last *bitter* meeting

#satosugu #jjk manga spoilers #jujutsu kaisen

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honesthammie · 3 years

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Te amo

I am working on a few of the other prompts and a part 2 to prompt 4 the soulmate au I just recently got another puppy and I still have uni work to do so I'm a bit behind schedule with these and I'm so sorry. Hopefully this little kinda songfic makes up for it.

13th doctor x female reader

Warnings: swearing as usual, fluffy, sad thoughts, twist the original songs meaning, long as fuck.

Probably terrible as its my first songfic

I don't know much Spanish so some of the examples later on are Google translated and I know it can be wrong so I do apologise for any mistranslations

This is based off Rhiannas song Te Amo but I'm switching it up a little. I dont why 13th doctor came into my head when I was listening to it but it gave me this lil oneshot idea so enjoy! The picture is not mine but the rainbow effect added is done by me! Same for the picture later on.

I've been travelling with this amazing alien for a whole year now. The adventures are always amazing if she's there! The others sometimes complain and say its boring, especially on a junk planet but to see her face light up with excitement makes my day and it well worth the dirt we cover ourselves on by the time we are done. And when she finds something that she thought was useful and it turns out, it's not her scrunch is amazing.

Okay, I'll admit it. I'm in love with this alien. I know, weird, a human and an alien together? But I can't help it! I'm completely besotted with her. If she even looks in my direction, my legs go to jelly and I get butterflies. I know, cheesy. But thats exactly how I feel around her. I barely want to touch her because I nearly fainted the last few times. And I fear she may pick up on how I'm distancing myself from her. I don't want to break her heart and leave, the thought of her look kills me as is so I'm trying to get her to kick me off.

It doesn't seem to be working though. I've been distancing myself since I found out about how I feel, which is now 6 months ago and she's trying to get me to be as close as I was with her.

I'll tell her. On one of our amazing adventures but I can't do it straight forward, it's making me sick with anxiety just thinking about it. I'll fancy it up, make her work it out. Whenever we are next to each other and the moment is right, I'll tell her in another language!

I finally get out of bed after I finished writing in my diary. I slip some comfy clothes on and head out to the TARDIS library and hope no one is there, especially her. I'll be distracted and right now, I need to concentrate. I wonder the warm halls, grateful that the TARDIS had considered my preferences. I think the TARDIS likes me more than the others because I talk to her and show her gratefulness for taking us somewhere amazing and I chat to her regularly and I try to involve her in my conversations. The others find it weird, except for the Doctor, she just smiles and joins in with me. Im still learning how to translate her but I think I've sort of got it.

I reach my hand forward and grab the aged bronze doorknob and open to the giant room. There were so many floors that an elevator had to be used to access some of them as the Doctor said "walking would literally take weeks to reach some floors". Thankfully the TARDIS organises them to make them easier to find. I looked forward and saw an interactive map in front of me. My hands touched the screen and many subjects and categories came up. Anything ranging from kiddie tales to straight up smut, I have a feeling either River or Missy are to blame for that addition.

I've never met them but the TARDIS showed me videos from her database and brought books to my attention about them. They both seem very dirty minded people so I'm not surprised those are there. I wonder if the Doctor has ever stumbled upon this section or is it for none Doctor eyes only? If she does know about them, has she ever read one? No, don't go there you stupid brain! She probably doesn't know!

I quickly stop that train of thought and catch my breath. I've never thought about those kinds of things about anyone before. Stupid Timelord, making me go all weird and think dirty things. Now my face is all red, I really hope I'm alone in here. I quickly focus back to the task at hand, finding a new language to learn. The TARDIS seemed to know where to go and blue arrows appeared, guiding me to the right section in what could be a maze.

As I walking, I felt excitement rise within me. What if she felt the same way? What if she was impressed by how far I wanted to go just to say those 3 words? Would her hazel honey eyes sparkle with delight? Would she scronch her nose in amazement?

Before I knew it, I'd arrived at the language learning section and there were many alien languages but the TARDIS seemed to have a better idea of what would be perfect for me as a white hardback book fell off the 4th shelf onto the wooden floor. I picked it up and noticed how smooth the cover was and how old yet unused it looked. The white was a little off, almost a dull cream from ageing which made the gold writing harder to read. The title was simple:

Spanish basics and need to knows.

I did always find Spanish in school fun to learn, more than French or German anyway and I don't wanna stereotype this into a typical French is the language of romance. I never really found it romantic sounding compared to Spanish.

I picked up the book and quickly flicked through to the right page and took a note on my phone as to what the translation was and put the worn book away. I quietly thanked the TARDIS and rushed out of the library and back into my room where I could practice without getting caught.

A few weeks have passed since I picked up the new words and practiced them until I was confident and had the TARDIS' approval that I was saying it right. Today the Doctor wanted to take us to this party in the 18th century and we all decided to dress for the part once we landed.

Yaz was wearing a beautiful black and red ballroom gown, accented with little bows around the bottom and lace cuffs. She had her black hair curled into a ponytail. It was simple and cute, much like her style normally. Graham and Ryan wore similar suits but Graham wore green accents and Ryan wore yellow accents.

I let the TARDIS pick my dress. She picked a black and dark blue ballroom gown with blue roses on the bottom. It had black lace underneath and blue lace as the cuffs. The gown also seemed to glitter slightly in the light making me sparkle very subtly. I put my comfy boots on as you couldn't see my shoes as I walked anyway so why did it matter? With all the running we do, I'm not risking my ankles with heels, thank you very much. I had my (h/c) hair in (fave style). It suited my dress perfectly.

I nearly choked on oxygen when I saw how hot the Doctor looked in her suit. It took me a few moments to realise we match. We both blushed at the realisation. Of course the TARDIS makes us match! No wonder why she was more than eager to help me pick an outfit! Stupid sentient ship, shipping us already!

I quickly cleared my throat and complimented everyone on how amazing they looked but I just couldn't take my eyes off the Doctor for long. She was like a magnet for my eyes. Someone help before she realises!

"Don't we all look brilliant? Perfect for the party! 18th century Yorkshire to be exact! What a great century for you guys. Now then, this party is for Nobles and higher, as per usual in these times. Ryan, I suggest you keep in mind about any racist comments that may come out. But as long as you say your Graham's personal butler, you should be welcomed with little resistance. And Yaz, I want you to be (y/n)'s personal maid. That does mean you'll have to follow your so called "masters" around and do anything they ask unfortunately and Graham, (y/n), please act like the others around you and use them. Unfortunately this is the only way all 5 of us can join the party. You'll be fine as long as you bite your tongues. Now the Noble Edward Collins is the host so be sure to thank him for inviting you, even though you technically weren't. And try not to get too drunk, I know what you humans are like! Now follow me." The Doctor explained. I was going to tell the Doctor today, but I guess, I'll have to wait.

The Doctor opened the doors and we were in a cupboard under some gorgeous marble stairs. As we walked towards the party I noticed some family portraits along the walls. They were a very beautiful looking family. The mother had long blonde hair and pale blue eyes. The father was buff, long brown hair and daring brown eyes. There were two children, a girl and a boy. The girl had long brown hair and sparkling blue eyes, whilst the son had blonde hair and brown eyes. They also had a brown greyhound dog laying by the sons feet. The son must be the host, Edward. He looked not much older than 10 in the last painting but the daughter was no where to be found in the portrait and theu all looked mournful. Is she dead and is that the picture capturing the moment of grief? Why would anyone want that? It's so strange, even for this time period.

The Doctor held me and Yaz close, stopping us in our tracks. My heart was racing at the simple touch. But as soon as the touch was there, it was gone. "I hope its okay with you (y/n) but you're going to have to be married to someone."

My heart stopped for a moment and I nearly choked on air. "What? Why?"

"Because women like yourself would have been married as young as 13 or 14. Now your only choices are me and Graham. You can't choose Ryan as he's supposed to be a butler and you can't choose Yaz as she's your maid. The choice is yours, I just need to know wether or not I should refer to you as my darling wife or not?"

What. The. Fuck.

Why did her even calling me that l, turn me on? Obviously, I'm going to choose her but I'm going to have to perfect my reasoning here.

"As much as I love Graham, it's going to be awkward if I have to kiss him or anything because he's like my grandad! I guess you'll do Timelord. Come on then husband, we don't want to be late to the dancefloor!" I spoke clearly hoping she didn't notice how excited I actually was to have even a hint of a relationship with her. It may be fake but ill take anything when it comes to her.

We arrived at the welcome committee and handed our cards over, aka the psychic paper. We were going as Mr and Mrs (last name). The Doctor was holding my hand this entire time and it's driving me insane. I don't know if she can feel my racing pulse under her fingers but if she can I hope she puts it down to excitement! We walked down the most grandest staircase you would ever lay your eyes on.

First we walked around, greeting everyone as they came up to us or if she dragged me to someone she knew, but not personally. She was cute when she was fangirling over these people. Yaz found it annoying as she just wanted to party but I couldn't help it. The way her eyes shimmer with recognition was more beautiful than any galaxy she could ever take us. Sometimes her eyes flickered with admiration and it did make me have jealousy for just a moment before I remembered, I'm staying with her and they aren't .

As the party moved on we met the host Edward. He looked a lot different than in his paintings. He was around 20 years old now and his blonde hair was below his shoulders. He looked a lot like his father with his muscley build. And he was very charismatic which I did not like as he poured all his charm into the Doctor. Does everyone here know that he's gay or does he see through the Doctors disguise? Either way, it was rubbing me the wrong way. I quickly excused myself with Yaz and walked into the bathroom.

"I did not like him. I do not like this Edward guy. Something about him rubs me completely wrong. He's handsome but something is telling me he knows the Doctor isn't a man."

"I felt the same way. He knows something we don't. Before we go out there again, do you mind if I ask you a question?" Yaz asked. My mind was racing a hundred miles an hour. She knows. The jig is up with Yaz. "How do you feel about her, honestly? One minute you 2 are inseparable, then you distance yourself and now you are a nervous wreck around her! I won't judge but I just want to make sure my theory is correct."

Shit. I guess I really was obvious. Does she know?

"If your theory is about me falling hopelessly in love with the Doctor then you'd be correct. I can't help it. I'm going to tell her how I feel without being completely stupid. I just need a right moment to say it." I spoke with a heavy sigh. Hopefully, Yaz can help create that moment thay I need. She nods her head and opens the door. We walk back to the Doctor and notice Edward has gone to other guests and she was talking to Graham. I looked around and saw Ryan flirting with a pretty lady near the food table. Why am I not surprised?

A few hours had passed and the Doctor seemed bored with standing and talking so I made a plan in my head. I grabbed her hand and pulled her to the dancefloor as the next song came on. I didn't quite know how to dance properly but I knew the basics if it. She has to lead and I simply follow suit. It took a few moments but I got the hang of it with the Doctors help. Soon we were dancing so gracefully underneath the most beautiful candelabra that lit up her face perfectly.

Her hair swayed to our perfect dance ever so gently. Her eyes sparkled with amusement and her lips were in a permanent smile. She even laughed a couple of times. Then as the music slowed down to a pace that was perfect, I grabbed her waist and looked her. My heart was going crazy and my legs were about to buckle but I had rehearsed my lines. I can do this.

"Hey Doc. Its been an amazing time with you but I can't continue this without being honest with you. But everytime I get close, I back down in fear. So I'm going to let you figure it out. Doctora te amo. Entiendo que si no sientes lo mismo y me iré si quieres. (Doctor i love you. i understand if you don't feel the same way and i'll leave if you want.)" I spoke with as much passion and intention as I could. I looked into her eyes and saw her confused and trying to work out what I said. I would find it cute if my heart was beating right out of my chest. "Well, I've had a great time but I'm fucking knackered. I'm calling it night. I'll be heading to the TARDIS if you need me."

"I'll come with ya. I'm knackered as well and we both need each other to undo the corsets and mine is starting to hurt a little bit. How we used to do this for a full day, everyday, is beyond my understanding. As beautiful as we look, I don't think its worth the pain this will bring in the morning." Yaz spoke with a slight mumble as proof of her mental state and finishing with a yawn. I chuckled at her state and walked back to the TARDIS with a small amount of chat along the way.

She is right though. These corsets really do hurt you after a while, I'm glad I chose not to wear heels or else I'll be fucked for in the morning. I would literally scream. I think the Doctor had the right idea in wearing a suit, no pain. I do feel bad for leaving her but I just need some space after basically admitting everything that's been built up within me for too damn long. Maybe I should tell Yaz how it went and maybe she can help determine if the Doctor is happy or not.

We walked back into the wardrobe room and I helped Yaz out of her corset. She immediately sighed in relief. She finished getting herself into comfy clothes and started to untie my ribbon.

"So did you tell her?"

"Sort of. I basically told her everything but in Spanish. I just hope it doesn't change anything, except in a positive way, of course! If she wants me gone, I've told her that it's fine and I understand. She's very socially awkward and as cute as I find it, it may not help me in this situation. Do you have any clues on how she may react once she figures it out?"

Yaz stopped untying my corset for a moment and placed 1 finger upon her chin in thought. Her eyes were almost shut and seemed almost completely black in the light. After what seemed like forever, she took her finger off her chin and beamed a toothy smile. Her eyes sparkled as she remembered something and seemed to gleam slightly menacingly. A smirk replaced her smile soon after.

"There's a few times she's shown affection towards you. And I mean romantic affection. She always chooses to hold your hand over anyone else's if given the choice. She always steps I'm front of you when an enemy threatens to kill us all or hurt us in anyway. When you go wandering around on your own, she's terrified thats she's lost you forever to an enemy we don't even know of!" Yaz starts explaining carefully as if she's worried on how to word it.

"Those are just friendly affec-"

"I wasn't done. I was warming up." Yaz interrupts me as I was about to go into a self deprecating speech on how I'm just a friend to everyone and never a lover. "She always looks to see your face on adventures because she secretly loves your reactions, bad or good. When the Master revealed himself, she looked straight at you for support on how she should react. When she came back from the Kasavin, she ran straight to you and made sure you were ok first before any of us. When we were in the Tsungra medical ship, the first person she asked for was you! Whilst she was unconscious on board the ship, she kept mumbling your name, over and over again. When she saw how gorgeous you looked today, I thought she'd take you right there on the spot! She fucking loves you (y/n)! You're just so unbelievably blind to it all!"

Yaz was almost red with rage. Did she really do all that, for me? The TARDIS mustve read my mind and seemed to hum positively in reply. If everything Yaz said is true then she'll be so happy about it and maybe we can be a thing! But then again, maybe losing so many in a similar position as me will turn her away. Maybe her soul is awry and she's asking why right now.

Once I had gotten changed I went to sleep almost straight away, I suppose all that dancing and social ques having tired me out more than I thought.

I woke up to a soft knock on my door. I rubbed my (e/c) eyes and told them I'd be a few minutes as I've only just woken up. It wasn't until I finished brushing my (h/c) hair that I remembered what happened yesterday. All the panic rushed within me at once and I nearly threw up. I took several deep breaths and opened the door.

"GRAHAM THANK FUCK ITS YOU!" I almost shouted at him. He looked a little bewildered for a moment before he seemed to remember what brought him here in the first place.

"Hello Love, I'm here because Doc wanted to speak with you privately in the library. She says that the TARDIS will guide you to her location. She seemed a little off after you and Yaz left. Did something happen? Is everything ok?" Graham asked cautiously. He must be so confused.

"Sort of. I'll explain more when I get back but what do you mean by "a little off"?"

"Well she seemed lost in all sense of the word. She kept muttering "Te Amo" all the time. She was all over the place aswell. She got me and Ryan back here not long after you guys. Something about not trusting Ryan to not get alcohol poisoning without her around. She hasn't really left the library since if I'm honest. She's been in there for 12 hours. I only know she wants you because she whattsapped me on my phone. Whatever is going on, please sort it out, she's starting to really worry me. She hasn't been the same since that Master guy came around." Graham spoke clearly, albeit confused. I nodded my head and walked in the opposite direction to him and hoped the TARDIS would take me there quicker than normal. I want to treat this like a plaster, rip it off in one go.

Sooner than I realised, I grabbed the all too familiar door knob of the library. I took a deep breath and walked in. A blue line appeared towards the interactive map. I awakened the console and I saw a black screen with a few words on it. It looked like a message with how it was presented.

Hello (y/n)! Don't walk until you calm. Breath deeply and try not to panic. I promise you, all will work out in the end. I see more than you realise and I know my thief better than anyone whoever stepped foot into my being. I know of her main problem about the situation. If she loves you, drink this. It won't hurt, she'll know what it is.

The TARDIS

I should have been surprised by this new knowledge that she could speak to me, in a way, but I've seen so much and I am so tender hooks so I didn't take much notice of it. I quickly sat down and tried to control my breathing. After about 5 or so minutes, I felt calm enough to finally meet up with her and hear what she has to say.

I followed the blue line carefully until I spotted her in a comfy room. She mustve gotten changed at some point as she was wearing her usual rainbow outfit, minus the jacket. She was sat on a deep purple sofa, legs curled into her body. Her shoes were on the carpeted floor underneath her, seemingly forgotten for the moment. There were many books surrounding us from many cultures and spieces. One wall had a cozy wood burning fireplace crackling within the silence that surrounded us.

Her face was scrunched within deep thought. Her eyes sparkling with an emotion that I couldn't quite put my finger on; hope, sorrow or excitement? Her lips had a small smirk gracing them and her teeth had bitten a small part of it. Her hands were holding a book in a way where I couldn't quite see what it was.

I didn't want to disturb her as she looked so ethereal with the warm glow of the fire highlighting her in the perfect way. Unfortunately, it's plaster time and I wanted this sorted sooner rather than later. I took a deep breath took in the picture for memory.

"Hey, Graham said you wanted to talk to me? Is everything ok?" I asked gently and as softly as I could so she was carefully brought out of her little world. I didn't want to scare her. She raised her eyes from her book for a moment and bookmarked the page she was at with a little TARDIS paperclip. She placed the book on the table at the side of her and patted the seat next to her.

As I sat down my nerves were through the roof. She gave nothing away as she stared at me for a minute, as if assessing something about me.

"Why are you so nervous? Calm down. You are right, It is to do with last night. You left pretty abruptly after basically confessing your feelings to me. I was so confused, not just about what you said but about myself and what I wanted to do about you." The Doctor spoke monotonously. Did she mean get rid of me? "I had to first of all, find out what you said, well done on learning a new language by the way, one even I'm not fluent at. I'm guessing the old girl had something to do with that idea. Not that, you aren't smart enough but you don't know what languages I do or don't know."

The Tardis seemed to chuckled at the accusation and I simply nodded my head. "I wanted to buy myself time and to impress you."

"You impressed me a long time ago Miss (l/n). That is just a cherry on top. After I figured out what you said, no thanks to my old friend here, I went through a lot of thinking. I've not been in many relationships and you know my history regarding the ones I have been in. You know, River and Missy? And I have such a bad past with it ending in nothing but tears for me. I always lose those I care for deeply." She spoke with tears spilling from her gorgeous eyes. I grabbed her face gently and wiped away the stray tears that managed to escape their home.

"That was when you were a man. You're a woman now, everything is so different. Relationships can be heartbreaking. I know what you're main problem is and the TARDIS has a solution to that. I just need you to tell me the truth. How do you feel about me? Do you want me to stay or not?" I stated holding the small shot glassed amount of liquid in my hand. The liquid was golden and sparkled slightly in the light. There were specks of orange and silver within it and it was as hot as a nice cup of (hot drink). Her eyes sparkled with hope and shock. Her lips were smiling wide. And she seemed to giggle at the sight of it. She held it for a moment as if examining it like a rare artefact, maybe it was. Either way, I trust her judgement and if she's happy about it, then so am I. Once she had analysed the drink, she practically leapt into my arms and pushed me down on my back. She smelled of custard creams and the TARDIS which was odd but completely her and I couldn't imagine her smelling any other way.

"That does solve our problem! What she has just given you is the rarest liquid in the universe seeing as only one thing in the entirety of space can produce it. That drink is known as the nectar of the chosen ones. It's rare as the race that used to make them has practically gone extinct. There's only 3 left in the known universe and you're living in one. That drink is the blood of the TARDIS. It grants you immortality if you drink it. It is said to resemble your favourite beverage no matter who you are. However, it only lasts 100 years and you must drink it every century or else your body clock will kick in and you will age and be as mortal as you are now." She speaks with a warning as we sit up holding holds.

"I have no problem with that. I would sacrifice everything if it meant I got to call you mine. Just please tell me and I'll drink it." I told her with adoration in my eyes.

She held me close and planted a soft and gentle kiss to my lips. It was short but it sent more fireworks than you can imagine through my body. I knew I had found her. She grabbed my waist and whispered next to my ear:

"Te Amo"

#13th doctor #thirteenth doctor x reader #13th doctor x reader #female reader

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tehohaews · 3 years

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Hi :-) I read your tags to my post <3 I think (dread) what will happen is this: Teh will get everything he ever wanted: the brilliant career as an actor AND he will get Jai, the boyfriend who wants the same things Teh wants and who understands him in a way Oh-aew doesnt (barf). The show has spent most time this season on building up Tehjai and I think they believe this is the new grand love story we're supposed to root for (thus the longing looks between them). We'll get a final conversation between Teh and Oh-aew after the next time jump where Oh says that Teh really is better off with Jai and should totally fight for him. Oh-aew himself will get an office job which is the final image we'll see of him. No love story for him obviously. I honestly don't see any other way this season could end...

I had more to say in the tags of that post but i reached the tag limit 🚶‍♀️🚶‍♀️🚶‍♀️. Anyway i keep remembering what oab said about his role that "Jai is a character that is there to test ohaew and teh's love for each other" so idk i dont see a tehjai endgame cause of that. But tbh yeah they really spent more time developing tehjai than they spent it on showing teh's and ohaew's relationship. But idk i dont see jai choosing teh cause jai has high ambitions and he doesnt want to be tied down with someone (hence why he left james in the first place and omg bitch even had the audacity to mourn why james didnt come to his play). So in ep5 unless Teh is hugely successful or smth i dont see Jai choosing him, but if Teh really is HUGELY successful you bet Jai will be the first person who'll come running lol. And i dont think Teh will be HUGELY successful so i dont see a tehjai endgame + oab's words. So my prediction for ep5 is that there will be a timejump of one year (as much as i want it to be 10 years, they said it was a story spanning 4-5 years? So yeah 😩). Ohaew, my son, the loml, my sunshine, is doing amazing in life and got a nice job and is living his dreams 🥺💞💞 when one day he has to work on this project with Teh. And like Oh Aew might be the one whose trying to be professional and out some distance and Teh is just like bestie its been a while i miss you lets grab a bite and my son agrees. So in the talk Teh is like i have grown™ and have changed™ and im sorry™ for everything (itsay ep1 ending 😚) and ohaew might be like i m okay with being friends again but idk if i can be more than that (itsay ep1 ending again 😚) and then they might leave it at that AN OPEN ENDING that's what im saying lol. And they might show us a few of their moments later like yeah besties something will happen between them later lol. Idk to me that's the only route this could take cause ik this is nadao but i really dont think (after my ambulance) they'll completely disband (lol) tehohaew. But the real thing I'm worried about is that they'll not give Teh the redemption arc cause if ep4 was supposed to make me feel 1% for him im sorry it didnt work. I dont buy that he is remorseful even when he went to Q's to apologise to oh. He did it cause he has no one now and like i said earlier, if jai reciprocated his feelings, ohaew would've been a passing thought. The line "i never thought you’d break up with me" was so fucking stupid like yeah I'll go and kiss other people behind your back but i wont break up with you 🥰🥰. And imo they tried to victimize teh by showing how lonely and miserable he was (also there's this clip linetv released where teh had a convo with his mom and he was like mai i got the role but im sad). So yeah teh's redemption arc might not even happen they'll just throw it under the rug with a time jump. If they did the breakup earlier in the ep then they could have showed us more of teh's suffering (🥰) and make him realize his guilt but yeah ig tehjai longing scenes are more important 🥰🥰

#asks #london-2001 #ipytm rel #also another thing that came across my mind is that #the song they sang at the bar scene #that might be the song released after ep5 #it sounds hopeful and it might go with the open ending theory #i think we'll definitely get that song at some point #but lmao teh sang that song looking at jai and if this is the song for ep5 tehohaew its just wrong #im just so tired of all of this #one bad choice on top of the other #did someone even watch the entire show after it was done like let's see what we have here #they focused more on the plot and how many problems they could create #rather than the development of its characters #ohaew is even less than a side character now i really thought this ep would be from his pov but ig we csnt have nice things #ep1 and ep2 were so good they were heading in the right direction #they knew what they were doing and where they were headed #but ep3 and 4 are like 😀😀😀 what is the point of this what am i gonna learn from this #i heard that billkin said when he got the script he was confused cause he did not get teh's actions at all #and if someone who literally plays the character doesnt get it idk what more to say 😀😀😀#im sorry ive had enough of people trying to justify everything and say that this is art™ and the fact that this is making ppl feel sm is #extraordinary or smth #like you do you folks but i have accepted that this sequel just sucks and no meta or anything can change my mind #also i wish ppl would stop bringing itsay teh into this #itsay teh and ipytm teh are two different entities #im just hoping for all of this to end soon so i can go to therapy and forget about it #i dont want it to ruin my memories with itsay #sad tho :(( we'll have them for 6more days only but i cant enjoy it :((#also another thing ipytm standalone is a good series with good cinematography and such #but as a sequel to itsay this is just not it

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the-nubiest · 3 years

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If I was a Love Interest in Sweet Elite

In the game, I’ll be a highly fictionalised version of myself, my personality stays the same. Also, I am a WOC (woman of colour), so I am going to reveal my ethnicity. Also im rich as fu-

(following the student file format)

Student File

(General Information)

Name: Amara Olalia (my scholar’s name, so im using it here)

Gender: Female

Department: Fine Arts

Concentration: Screenwriting and Filmmaking

Height: 5′6/167 cm/1.67 meters

Ethnicity: Filipino

Nationality: Filipino/American (dual-citizen)

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(Skills)

Creativity: ⬛️⬛️⬛️⬛️⬛️ /5

Academics: ⬛️⬛️⬛️⬛️ /5

Teamwork: ⬛️⬛️ /5

Extracurricular: ⬛️⬛️⬛️⬛️ /5

Technique: ⬛️⬛️⬛️⬛️ /5

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(General Comments)

“Amara is a highly creative storyteller with intricate characters and symbolic cinematography. Her witty and very relatable dialouge in her scripts makes it feel real. Despite that, she is quiet, asocial, and hates working with people. Her concentrating in filming and writing is a weakness, if she doesn’t tell those her ideas. As I know it will be better than everyone else’s. What I have seen in the classroom, she is empathetic and emotional, which is one of her best traits. If she learns how to trust others with those exact qualities; where she can comfortably open up and reveal her plans, she can win awards with her future work.” - Prof. Robert Boss

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(Academic Record)

Strengths: Humanities, Fine Arts, Performing Arts, History

Weaknesses: Mathematics, Physics, Chemistry

Notes: “Amara knows how to tell a story through different perspectives, more talented than other aspiring filmmakers. Thanks to that, she knows how to build off the ground well. But she daydreams often.” - Prof. Robert Boss

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(Health Record)

Highly prone to mental burnouts

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(Awards & Honors)

Won in National Film Festival for Talented Youth

See comprehensive list of won short story competitions

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(Disciplinary Action)

Detention for not wearing uniform

Special permission: Can wear own version of uniform (as long is wearing pin or emblem)

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(Extras)

Works with the Fine Arts Department student led newsletter (Arlington News)

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My Character Arc (insert dramatic anime music)

I’d mention that I have a strong attachment to my family, especially my extended family (its true). It started when I became closed off and prone to crying, scholar and the 10 will become increasingly concerned, but Ellie was the first to find out. Scholar know that I never reveal too much about myself, but I know too much of others (like Neha’s status). When I finally open up that a close relative of mine passed away, the 10 finally saw how I actually feel for once. My emotions cannot be handled in a healthy way, so I just lash out. Eventually getting in a fight with Karolina. She said that seeing me geniunely angry was one of the scariest things she had ever seen. Scholar will soon confront me, and I’d let it out. On how I can’t go back home to hug my family and properly mourn. The 10 help set up with a virtual funeral, so I can still be there. My arc being resolved. Learning to open up about my issues and saying my actual opinions.

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My relationships with the Main 10/Other things

Besties!!!: Tyler, Ellie, Tegan (TENT BITCH)

Besties, but won’t say anything about it to Karolina until later: Neha

Close; Karolina, Raquel

Good terms: Alistair, Claire, Axel (mixed)

Its confusing, but we like each other: Tadashi

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Notes from relationships

Tegan and I play Smash Bros a lot to settle our arguements (i main byleth and roy)

Tyler, Ellie, and I dramatically act out my stories

Neha and Karol often invite me to go shopping with them

Karol actually tolerates and likes me, because of my relationship with Neha

Axel doesn’t like it when I criticise his new music, but he takes it as constructive

Raquel and Alistair watches sports anime with me (both get hyped while watching Haikyuu)

Claire gives me some plants she grew so I can send it to my mom as a gift

Tadashi and I have a brother and sister relationship (but he attacks me for not wearing my uniform at all)

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Uniform (but I actually despise uniforms)

I wear black boyfriend jeans, with an oversized college sweatshirt with the school’s emblem over the collared shirt. Wears white high top converse with shin high wool socks. Sometimes I would wear the skirt with black thigh highs, but its very uncommon. (in my first year, Tadashi and I had a fight about it. It’s where I first called him Nakahoe)

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Yeah, I'm rich as fu-

My family would own a software engineering company. Both parents would promote my creativity. I was born in America, but parents from the Philippines.

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Favourite/Least Favourite things

Likes: TV shows, movies, writing, family

Dislikes: Entitled people, hierarchies, science class

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Would Scholar like me as a friend or love interest?????

They would like me because I often make jokes that fits any kind of scenario (I actually do that). I would often rant about my stories, so they might find me endearing or cute because I love my characters from it. I’m also emotionally intelligent, so I often comfort Scholar, and know how they feel (I’d do that for my friends).

Why they would not like me, is because I never reveal anything personal. Compared to the others, who casually mention it sometimes (ie: Tadashi saying he is part of the Nakano family). I wouldn’t say about how I’m actually feeling or issues, but after my arc; I’d slowly open up.

#sweet elite #dulcet games #dating sim #english otome #otome game #this is so fun to write

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