#is my obsession with them healthy?

[mundivagantsoul]

Debating if I vocalise my thots and headcanons of bookshopist moonboys because all I do during my shifts is think about them and working with them

(Not my gif)

#i doubt anyone will see this #but oh well #is my obsession with them healthy? #absolutely not #but hey it’s fun #and shitty customers aren’t #steven grant #marc spector #jake lockley #moon knight #thoughts

[stil-lindigo]

bedside bouquet.

--

a sapphic comic about a village girl and the fae she fell in love with.

creative notes:

#i didnt really have to struggle that much with my sexuality since once i realised it was an option i jumped the comphet ship immediately #but i wouldnt have reached this conclusion without the help of the queer women in my life #so. shoutout to them. i adore you #and i know the queer community is rife with infighting a lot of the time #but we shouldn't forget the simple joys of being known and acknowledged and empowered by people like you #those are just my thoughts #also #this comic has girls kissing in it #shock!! horror!! etc!! #im returning to my brand which is queer comics about relationships that are dubiously healthy #a romance has to be the slightest bit obsessive for me to really get into it unfortunately <3 #fae #sapphic #lgbt #lesbian #comics #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics #hearteaters

[tangledinink]

new gemini update was so good as always but I can't stop thinking:

big mama: there's nothing wrong with my sons

splinter: you fucked up two perfectly good kids is what you did. look at blue. he's got an eating disorder

wwhhhattttt? nooo, don't be silly. leo doesn't have an eating disorder.

leo and donnie have eating disorders--

#this is a Joke but also No It's Not #it's just different flavors lmao #but both of them have absolutely fucked relationships with food #my poor babies... :(... who did this to you...? #(it was me i did) #leo spends a lot of time worrying about whAT hes eating and how mUCH hes eating and if hes eating the rIGHT thing #largely due to his mom and also just being a celebrity/child celebrity in general #but also in part due to: #donnie has a lot of food sensitivities which have really never been accommodated for at all and as a result he just #has a very negative association with food and eating. he doesnt LIKE eating and he avoids it a majority of the time. #its stressful and unpleasant and he doesnt like it #which ofc only gave leo another reason to hyperfixate on food and calories and nutritional value etc etc etc #which leads to #ironically #leo (who def has an undiagnosed ed and restricts/denies himself food regularly): worrying abt making sure donnie eats enough #donnie will do the same thing back sometimes but not with the same obsessiveness that leo does #esp because the ideals surrounding eating and dieting set up around them really kind of just #lead them both to believe (at least to an extent) that leo is fine and eats a totally healthy and ok amount of food (esp in comparison to d #(no he doesnt)(and even when he does thats not the point) #tw eating disorders #cw eating disorders #eating disorders #tw disorders eating #cw disordered eating #disordered eating #gemini au asks #asks #anon

[cursedbygacha]

I love fakers. I love characters who hide their true selves behind masks to please others. I love characters who mask to fit in. I love characters who put so much effort into their act to seem effortless. I love characters who’ve been masking so long they don’t know where the line between their mask and their true self lies anymore. I love characters who think that this is the only way to survive and try to buy into their own act but bits and pieces of their actual selves poke out.

#this is about cater diamond but I am also always thinking about my boy Allen Walker from dgm #this is not a healthy coping mechanism HOWEVER #these types are messed up and I am obsessed with putting them in Situations #twisted wonderland #cater diamond

[corpsentry]

a love like burning

#my art #my stuff #art #comics #comic #original art #WOAH i have nothing to tag for this since it's just mine!!!! so cool #revolutionary concept even #already went ham in the instagram caption (@ corpsentry same username) so i dont rlly wanna ham again #i would prefer to Tofu Based Substitute in the words of the ideological west #tofu is really just its own thing i dont know why theyre obsessed with making it a Healthy Vegan Food #your Mom is vegan shut the fuck up karen #anyway . we will do a shortened version of it #i am from a place and community and society wherein being vaguely unintentionally homophobic Is the norm #i am also Gay #what this means is if i cut off everyone who was even a little in disagreement with my identity i would have like 1 person left in my life #and that kinda fuckin sucks. but i also love them. my grandma is cool af #And So. we Carry These Contradictions In Us And We Keep Peeing or whatever #ill leave you folks now adoo adeu adobe acrobat etc #its summer im drawing again! thats right baby #bye #updating this to say if you’re not from southeast asia and you call this hypocritical in any way ill cleave your ass in half with my tongue

[sciderman]

dr peeper blocks ur peeper

😔

#sci speaks #found that one out the hard way #guys i'm telling you. please quit all fizzy drinks. full sugar. sugar free. zero calorie. all of it. quit them now. #they bring absolutely nothing but misfortune to your body. #my dad earlier this year: stop drinking artificially sweetened drinks. they give you cancer. #me: hahaha yeah whatever old man. #the doc: you have a tumor on your right kidney fam. #me: a. #me obsessively reading all the studies that yeah. #there are studies that show a correlation between diet soda intake and kidney abnomalities in afab people. #look upon me and do not make my same mistakes #drop that dr pepper immediately!!! #i have such a healthy diet otherwise. it is the soda that did this to me and i know it.

[keshetchai]

As someone who enjoys religion blogging/discussions, I've come to realize that it's a good practice to be aware of the general signs/symptoms of religious-OCD thinking (aka scrupulosity), because if the conversation is taking on all the hallmarks of scrupulosity, it's actually a definitive sign that we cannot meaningfully and compassionately engage in a conversation about religion in a healthy way. I've actually had this play out a significant number of times online, and when I realized what it was, I also began to realize that the intrusive thoughts/obsessive and compulsive thinking are only ever fed by continuing the discussion with that person.

[[ Important edit to clarify why I am saying it's not healthy — made after I went back to look for more concrete facts about OCD or anxiety (I have GAD, not OCD, but many resources overlap since they're both anxiety disorders):

When Reassurance is Harmful — this explains how/why reassurance-seeking specifically about an OCD fear is a compulsive behavior, and engaging with reassurance-seeking interferes with recovery/management/treatment.

This table from the Anxiety Disorders Center lists key differences between Information Seeking and Reassurance Seeking.

This IOCDF page on Scrupulosity info for Faith Leaders identifies "symptom accommodation" as enabling. Two of the examples of doing this by participating in the OCD behavior are: "Engage in excessive conversation focused on if-then scenarios (e.g., "If I did this, then would X or Y happen? And what if Z was involved? How about W?")" And, "Repeatedly answering questions about ‘correct’ religious or faith practices."

That page also goes on to outline more info about reassurance seeking. "Although providing answers to (often simple!) questions may seem harmless, providing reassurance serves to maintain the anxiety disorder cycle." (This BMC psychiatry article cites a lot of related studies establishing this.)

The IOCDF page on What is OCD and Scrupulosity? ]]

Imo, the responsible thing to do is to recognize that (even if the other person hasn't outright stated it/isn't diagnosed)* the conversation is not about religion, it is about needing mental health support from professionals and experts. Talking to me, the layperson who enjoys chatting theology and my religion — is not only not helping, but is actively harmful. I'm not just talking about the person who I replied to today, either. Like I've said, I've seen this happen dozens of times in various online forums.

*[while I am against diagnosing strangers on the internet, it's important to realize A) lots of people don't know what Scrupulosity is, so it's possible they've never considered this is a mental health concern that could be treated, and that B) for the purposes of my concern, it doesn't matter if they actually have diagnosed OCD. The only thing that matters is that their thought-process causes them genuine distress/fear, and every response given to them seems to only incite new/additional distressing questions/thoughts, or further entrenches the original distress.]

Ultimately, any discussion aside from "you might want to speak to a mental health professional about scrupulosity OCD" seemingly puts me in the position of feeling as if I am being used for their self-harm. I hate that feeling. I do not want to be leverage for fear and pain. I have GAD, I despise the idea that I am making things worse.

No matter how much I love religious discussion, the answer in these cases is always "please reach out to an OCD specialist/mental health professional. I am not qualified to discuss this." And then to stop there. I have never once seen anyone stuck in this compulsive thought spiral be reassured or feel any better by hearing from someone else's approach to theology handled with things like empathy, compassion, logic, or even atheism. It doesn't matter what we say, how we say it, or how we relate to our own religion. The urge to engage in this kind of conversation in order to chat about religion is a sign that we are not equipped to help.

You can't have a conversation here, because intentionally or not, ten times out of ten, you are adding fuel to the fire. Just like people can't simply tell me something that would erase/talk me out of my ADHD/depression/anxiety disorder, you also cannot simply argue/reassure/persuade people out of scrupulosity. We should not try. We have a responsibility to consider that it's outright harmful to do so, and to disengage.

#this is a massive pet peeve of mine #im not mad at the people who responded about religion and religious thinking bc it took me time to realize what this was too #like im sure i used to view these kinds of questions in a more...idk flippant light when i was a teenager and maybe even in my 20's #as i became more educated about my own mental health though i started to realize the pattern in these fears #and like many of you i probably originally started replying to people with scrupulosity or similar religious anxieties genuinely #not realizing at first that replying to their fears or questions was inevitable harmful #not realizing that hey actually this is far above my paygrade #ocd/obsessive thinking and anxiety spirals can be crippling life ruining and immensely painful #and unfortunately my love of theological discussions sometimes tripped me RIGHT into what was essentially self-harm #so im not mad at other people for also making that mistake - but i am asking everyone to think about this actively #its too easy to leap in without considering if the discussion is healthy to have for our discussion partner #its definitely too easy to contribute to the pain and fear while only meaning to genuinely help what is misunderstood as a mere “worry” #bc these arent just small fears or worries but thoughts that are causing them immense pain

[freedominthedarkmp3]

This morning I went to a hairdresser who specializes in curly hair and yall this is life-changing 😭 my hair has never been this curly in my life and she barely touched it, just treated them in the correct way & taught me how to do it by myself at home 😭 I'm so happy

#turns out my natural hair is v curly and voluminous when I take care of it. I'm obsessed #She also told me that if I keep taking care of them they will get healthy and probably even bigger than this

[noahsbsf]

As promised: here are some icky alenoah sketches!

GUYS LETS ALL REMEMBER NOAH CANONICALLY HAS A BIG HEAD.

#total drama #fypシ゚viral #td alejandro #idk how to tag this #alenoah #td noah #my art #yuck #yuck yuck yuck #hate them #jk #obsessed with these two #it’s not healthy #td alenoah #total drama world tour #tdwt

[kicktwine]

made a ninjago oc but all it wants to do is party

its name is WULFTRAX (all caps) and it’s playing this with zane extra info belooowww

pronouns: IT'S PRONOUNCED WOLF TRACKS LITTLE MAN (it/he/they) species: WULFTRAX. digital? like, it HAS skin, and a skeleton, presumably, just… not a human head. likes: game, rave dislikes: no rave wants: to party character motivation: biggest loudest party backstory: we think it came from prime empire, but that’s all we got. maybe an unused rhythm game dj…? strengths: WULFTRAX does everything at 100%, and it doesn’t tend to stick around after a fight. it isn't fighting to win, it's fighting to go hogwild. on its back are one to six doc ock-like arms made of wire and interwoven with the stuff in season 9 that triggered everyone’s elemental powers. weaknesses: can only attack on the beat, will only fight if there’s music. it’s actually not that strong, its robot arms and machinery do all the fighting. it prefers to fight/party using someone else — elementals party pretty hard, all their colors and glowing and exploding is its favorite. alignment: very chaotic neutral. it does things on impulse and regardless of morals. he doesn’t seem to want to hurt anyone, just wants to party, and if hurting someone is how you gotta party, shrug! you can sway him pretty easily with the promise of a better rave. it’s not that clever, there is no scheming with this thing, but it does somehow get a lot of machinery and builds massive batteries and speakers and light shows

speech conventions: IT TALKS LIKE A FRAT BOY MET A CHRONICALLY ONLINE GAMER. NOT THE MOST COMPLICATED SENTENCES LMAO.

it also yells like everything it says due to the speakers in its mouth. its favorite people to mess with are kai, jay and lloyd. they have the shiniest explodiest powers, and are more split-second competitive.

#WULFTRAX #my art #‘I have made an oc to help/be friends with the ninja’ I have made an oc to fight them. I have made an oc to pummel them #people have done this before HAHDIDBDHDH except WULFTRAX is 1) a horrible fighter and 2) stupid #ninjago #ninjago oc #honestly it’s definitely someone you could/should use as a henchman. He won’t even realize. He will also destroy your lair #and then go OH MY BAD DUDE and that’s the end of that topic. Now it’s in your fridge #the second two images — it wanted to play DDR with jay and then went BRO YOU WANNA HELP WITH THIS SET so now Zane tricked it into - #bargaining to let jay out of the battery and it immediately agreed and then said WE’RE PLAYING OSU and didn’t leave room for argument so #now zane is playing a rhythm game he’s never played to let jay AND KAI out of the batteries and stop the rest of them from dying in #human osu! which was going to be its dance floor (it forgot people die when they’re hit by lightning) #And ALSO now they should probably stop it from holding the most dangerous rave #if the stuff they have is enough to send an elemental into superpowered overdrive it’s probably not healthy for a regular dude #as a meta note. #it’s obsessed w thrillseeking and adrenaline because he’s been alone for so so long that any new sensations are obsession-worthy #obsessed with feeling things and being real. doesn’t know how to regulate its obsession with something bc it has no sense of moderation #its primary purpose is to make big noise big party like programmed into it is its DJ sets. So now it makes the biggest loudest brightest #sets not understanding that this much noise/power can hurt someone or itself bc hurt is in fact an interesting sensation to it #it doesn’t KNOW this or underSTAND it. And it wouldn’t listen if told. BUT! that’s its pathology #IT HAS NO CONCEPT OF DEATH THERE IS NO THIS IS TOO DANGEROUS. THERE IS ONLY DA PORTY #it and porty mk would be besties #rule of cool with this thing. its cars are big its sets are big its music is loud and it’s got a giant flamethrower and a piano to drop #It broke from its programming but that doesn’t mean it broke from its programming yfeel #hrmmm.... yes........ self indulgent shiny loud digital dogmanthing #ill tag three of em theyre getting situations #kai smith #zane julien #jay walker

[toaster-fire-art]

There's something to be said for shades of gray

(they have consumed my every thought)

#bare with my i'm going through it #my art #toasterfireart #different than the usual but idc #good omens #crowley #aziraphale #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #im unwell #i'm obsessed #a healthy amount but yk #i read the book and i binge watched etc etc #i love them so much #they're so silly #i can't #i would have been a differet person if i chose to read good omens as a kid instead of neverwhere but both are so special to me #i read neverwhere in middle school and i adopted my gender from islington #so now i think angels and go: genderless #and here i am #gay

[lycanr0t]

its funny to ship something but have 0 interest in exploring it in art/etc.

i do ship chil/senshi and love cute art of them but i genuinely think they would be so good for each other in a normal healthy way that its completely boring for me to explore myself since i favor the strange and fucked up

meanwhile i think laios and chil COULD be healthy i guess if the stars aligned but its more likely to be a unbalanced complicated obsessive mess where they hurt each other and need each other and get so tangled in their feelings for each other they basically eat each other alive 🤷‍♂️

#NO shame towards chil senshi shippers btw there is a place for sweet healthier ships and of course someone out there probably- #-has figured out how to make senshi and chil a little fucked up and strange #i just personally see them as too healthy for my taste in what i like to think about obsessively . which is why chil laios captures me so #rot posts

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#man ive never seen an eating disorder kill someone else besides a parent infecting a child but my nana is really trying #shes like 1000% orthotexic. will not eat anything not filled with vegetables or fat. and my grandpa is 87yo with a heart condition currentl #in the hospital for covid bc thry went to Christmas church and dont believe in being vaccinated and my dad is so frustrated #bc he knows his mom is not gonna give his dad hearty foods. he needs to eat like protein shakes and meat and ice cream. anything thats not #her cooking which sucks on top of being extremely healthy. except its not healthy bc they dont eat a balanced diet #so its my nanas eating disorder killing her husband and shes so fucking frustrating. im like 99% sure she has obsessive compulsive #personally disorder bc she fits to a T and has zero insight. she may have full on 0cd bc talking to my dad he has more obvious 0cd #compulsions than i do. he used to say phrases before going to bed and would take 2 steps across the floor to prevent bad things from #happening. so like im pretty sure my nana is where i get my perfectionism and 0cd. god. i wish i could express how fucked up she is #like my dad said at least he had a stable home to grow up in but like she has zero sympathy for other people. cannot look past herself. wil #not wear a mask bc she doesnt care enough abt other ppl. my dad was like: u would not have survived in that house. which is fair bc i am #barely keeping it together coming from a stable home with two sympathetic parents who i know love me #and like its sad that they're suffering the effects of buying into the fox news bullshit and its killing them #but also. genuinely. i think theyre not very good ppl. theyre the type of people who think they're better bc they're religious. white. and #thin. and theyre not better thsn anyone. their grandchildren cant stand them. well cant stand her at least. papa is just quite so its hard #to say what hes thinking. apparently he was confused last night and saying something about eating dinner on the golf course. which sounds #nicer thsn being in the hospital lol. ugh. he seems not long for this world tbh. may he pass peacefully to b with his 1st wife who died of #brain cancer at age like 20 or something. so it goes. bleh. how many funerals are intended for me in the next 5 years? hopefully none but #that seems improbable with the unspoken drain circling that seems to b going on in this family. old age and like almost 10 years of cancer #defying the stats but for how much longer? #i dunno. its just so weird to watch these things happen and not talk about it directly to the other ppl who see it #i worry that ill come off as too callose or inappropriate bc i have that tendency when something bad is happening but thats everyone else #excuse? idk i just feel like its better to talk abt things #unrelated #ed mention #i tell u this so i can say these things to someone and also bc if i were u. i would like to hear the drama #bc im nosey and i assume other r too ;-]

[morverenmaybewrites]

I dont wanna say this but girl we should stop being obsessed with dead people. It's unhealty

What do you mean, anon? Do you mean Yoriichi Tsugikuni?

Or Kyoujurou Rengoku?

Because let me tell you, anon, I am not on this site because I have healthy coping mechanisms. Like. At all.

#ask #anon #this made me laugh #bec when it comes to being unhealthily attached to dead people call me yuta okkotsu #what do you mean stop being obsessed #i am laodamia my voice cracking with the weight of grief and leaping into a fire so i can follow them into death #i am orpheus with his lyre descending to the underworld to bring them back so they can feel sunlight on their face once again #and in failing either i am a nameless nymph who will weep over their deaths until my tears have turned me to stone or a tree #or perhaps a rush of reeds beside a riverbank and should a poet make a set of pipes out of me i will play only the saddest of songs #let my grief be such that it will break the hearts of kings long after i am gone #I AM NOT ON THIS SITE TO BE HEALTHY

[hadesknockedupintheunderworld]

Mmmmmm thinking about Nine the fox walking around with his two bodyguards (Alpha Grim Sonic and Chaos Sonic) again

The fox and his most devoted halberds who are also possessive bitches

No but like but like I need you to understand

Chaos Sonic who was originally revived to take Sonic's place, to fill the hole in a frienship Nine came to believe as fake, and yet clearly held onto so dearly. Chaos Sonic, who was supposed to be the same as before, except made to be Nine's devoted best friend who would never betray him.

Alpha Grim Sonic who Nine reportedly modeled after the hedgehog he (foolishly) thought of as a friend. A robot copy of Sonic who would not talk back, who would not think, who was only made to serve and protect Nine.

Chaos Sonic, whose time spent with Nine turned programmed allegiance and care into some form of love (obsession and possessiveness)

Alpha Grim Sonic, who was not supposed to think and feel. And yet, with time spent serving Nine and opposing Shadow, he begins to feel and to think (a budding soul forming within his metal frame and existing beyond his programming). A robot created to protect and serve, whose feelings for his creator and master begin to grow over time.

When did his internal drive shift from playing the role of Nine's best friend? When did he begin to resent Sonic for what he did to Nine? When did he begin to want to see Nine happy and safe and accomplished (rather than just simply alive and able to complete his goals)? When did he begin to crave Nine's attention and to make him stop thinking about Sonic?

Wasn't he programmed to be no more than an unfeeling robot, a set of algorithms designed to allow him to fight, protect, serve, and strategize only as needed? Why does he want to hurt Shadow so much (is it really just out of the drive to protect Nine, or is it to make the hedgehog pay?)? He'd follow Nine's orders to the ends of the earth, but why does he worry about Nine when they’re separated? Why has he started to covet Nine's smiles and bouts of happiness? Why does he feel annoyance when Nine converses with Chaos Sonic like he's also not there? Why is he starting to understand why Chaos Sonic resents Sonic, beyond the fact that Chaos Sonic has always fancied replacing him? Alpha Grim Sonic has never wanted to replace the real thing, never understood why Chaos Sonic would, but he's starting to understand jealousy (in the way one begins to feel things they cannot put words to).

Chaos Sonic would tell you it's because he and Nine are best friends. Alpha Grim Sonic would tell you that it's because Nine is his master. Yet, deep down, the two have begun to want to be useful and important to Nine. They want to protect him and see his goals through past any loyalty programming. It does not matter whether such an outcome was inevitable or not (based upon their programming or the holes Nine made them fill in his life), only that they believe that they'd choose this even if Nine tried to let them go.

And Nine... Nine who creates distance between himself and the two robots almost instinctively, as if he's trying not to grow attached (ironic, given the roles he placed the two in, the holes in his life he made them fill after he believed that Sonic had backstabbed him). And yet, just as much as he insists that Alpha Grim Sonic is cold and unfeeling and programmed to serve or that Chaos Sonic is just like that (given the personality programmed into him and his similarities to Sonic) and was programmed to follow orders, he finds himself beginning to value the two as more. He should see them as tools, he tries to think of them as tools. And, yet, over time, the two become irreplaceable agents of his will. He can’t allow himself to believe they really care about them, but he wants them to know that he likes having them around, that no other robot can fill the roles he programmed them for, and no real mobian could be as effective as them (even if it's embarrassing to admit). They become...a comforting presence, especially when he's stuck in the Grim post canon, practically alone, closed off from being able to see Sonic again

Do you get me do you get me?

#sonic prime #sonic the hedgehog #miles nine prower #nine sonic prime #nine the fox #chaos sonic #alpha grim sonic #chanine #nine x alpha Grim sonic #alpha grim sonic x nine #nine x grim sonic #grim sonic x nine #chaos sonic x nine #nine x chaos sonic #crystalbondshipping #crystalbond #For now that's my on the spot Alpha Grim Sonic/Nine ship name #i just be ramblin #Gaaaaah I'm just lowkey obsessed with these relationships that only exist in my head #What's more delicious is that none of these three really know much about love (and Nine and Chaos Sonic barely have a leg up in having some #sort of understanding of best friendship) #So all three of them just have complicated feelings regarding each other. All the robots know is that they want Nine to be happy and healthy #and safe‚ all Nine knows is that he doesn’t want to see them destroyed #‚ and while Nine is coming to terms with wanting those two at his side always‚ the other two know they just want to be beside Nine as long #as they live #And by god the ways Alpha Grim Sonic and Chaos Sonic mirror and foil each other gets me‚ even down to their design differences and the way #Chaos Sonic was intended to be like Sonic‚ while Alpha Grim was intended to be without personality and feeling #Or even just the way that Chaos Sonic and Alpha Grim resent and have a thing for fighting Sonic and Shadow respectively #But just as much as there's fun in Nine embracing his devoted robots (power thruple)‚ there's inherent tragedy in those two being unable to #escape or surpass Nine's memory and feeling for Sonic the Hedgehog

[unforth]

I would give so much to never have to see Jiang Cheng discourse again.

#unforth rambles #cql #ive curated my mdzs experience effectively enough that i almost never see jc antis anymore #but i just found a new one and its just wild #how antis think theyre the only unbiased ones and argue in such bad faith #bUt ItS jUsT cAnOn #look if you hate a character so much that you make an entire blog to tell people who like that character that they are wrong #it doesnt even matter if youre right or wrong about canon #youre still an asshole and you really need a new hobby #like seriously in what universe is that a good or mentally healthy way to spend your time #just block the people you disagree with and focus on what you like #instead of obsessing over ~debunking~ what other people like #youll never convince them youll just marinate and end up surrounded solely by other people who are also full of hate #what a depressing life #anyway i was able to block like 8 new people #blocking jc antis is a point based game and i am winning