#it won't change anything about the world at all - only my own personal experience living in it

[reverieaa]

To long

Longing is a concept people in this community are very familiar with.

It eats away and tires you out it breeds doubt and fear, fear of delusion, fear of failure, fear of rejection, even if it's it coming from ourselves.

You entered this community, and you were told what to do, what to think, and how to act. You were told that as God, you could make your own decisions, and you made the decision of not being that God, not until you've consumed enough info, not until all your desires show up in the 3d.

Like me, you went into imagination whenever you're hungry and leave starved. When this happened, i would spiral. It felt like I would see the food in front of me, but im unable to eatit. There was always a barrier between me and my desires. I'm sure this is how u feel, too.

I learned that I spiral only when I push myself to do something when I do something I'm not meant to do. Like changing things in the 3d or worrying about time.

Seeing a lot of loa blogs when I entered this community, I looked back at the info I consumed and realized what was making me spiral. People would talk about keeping track of your thoughts, making sure you feel it right, and make sure you persist. But all that teaches us is how to beat yourself down even more. That's because you're not meant to micromanage your life. You're not meant to make sure everything is perfect and you're not meant to make your desires happen.

One day, I gave up and told myself I couldn't manifest, and it ended up being one of the greatest things I did. Because it made me realize that manifesting has absolutely nothing to do with the 3D, I cannot make things show up here as it is not my job.

The only thing you and I can do is accept and imagine. Accept your imagination as true because it is, it's where u lie, and it's who you are, that is all you can be.

You're not a desperate person dreaming of a better future. You're not a sad human making things come out of thin air by thinking about them, you're literal imagination, and once you accept that you'll feel free to imagine and feel what you wish. That's literally all manifesting is.

You can only fully feel in your imagination. You can only experience there, and you can only be imagination.

I told myself that I, as I am, can do nothing. I can't fly here in the 3d, but I can in imagination, I can't wake up in a different place in the 3d, but I can in imagination. This what loa bloggers mean when they say you can manifest absolutely anything.

When we say assume, we mean k the inner world, and that's all you need because that's all there is. Reality can only live through you. It can only thrive through your attention, your gaze, and approval. That is your power.

Whatever you do, do not make the 3d your enemy. You'll be turning yourself against yourself, and that will make you spiral. Pay attention to the deepest, most vulnerable parts of yourself. They lie in your imagination to the outer, and they are absolutely beautiful.

Loa is about taking care of those parts about learning that forcing and pushing will only result in you being forced and pushed, that focusing on the wrong will make life itself focus on the wrong, because it is only a reflection, it is you.

Perfecting loa is not about how fast you can manifest and how good your self-concept is. It's about revealing who you are. Beyond religious scriptures and materialistic objects. Have a day where you have fun in your 4D, get to k ow yourself and who you are in there, I assure you, you won't care for the 3d, not when you realize it can't bring you the joy you can bring yourself.

The only way for your state to change is to admit your current one and realize it can only live through you, give yourself that power, and shamless permission to move on. Let intrusive and doubtful thoughts pass, the only way for them to stop bothering you is to not identify with them.

You want to manifest a new house in the blink of an eye? You did now, you want a brand new self? You did just now. They all showed up in your imagination because that's your only responsibility and power, yourself.

This is why a relationship with yourself is the base of loa, when I accepted I can only work in the 4d, my self concept sky rocketed.

Did I spiral after that? Yes, it's only natural when you live your life differently for a long time and you're learning somthing new.

But I still managed to come back up to a good self concept because all the loa lessons you read all come to one thing, there is nothing to change but self because there is nothing in this reality but self.

After you learn this, if there's one thing in this whole law rather is impossible in your mind, it's to long.

#loa #law of assumption

[ukulelegodparent]

hey i just wanted to send an ask as someone who has been like really struggling with this for a while. it was your tag on post about white south africans that went something like people acting like having ancestors in europe gives them some magical tie to that place. i see a lot of posts telling people like me to reclaim their european roots rather than appropriate stuff that doesn't belong to me. is that really the answer? i just feel like i don't l have another option. seeing people with cultural ties that they can draw pride, inspiration, wisdom from and then looking at my own lack of any of that just kind of opened like a deep pit of dread in me as i thought about it more and more. idk even know if you have the answers necessarily its just been eating away at me and that tag kinda just kinda made me really wanna ask on the off chance you had any sort of answer.

Hey, I mean I'm no expert on the topic and can only really speak from my own experience which is mostly as a European interacting with Americans. This won't necessarily match your situation, but I just know more about the situation in the US bc of well. The everything of it.

I mean embrace your roots all you want and look at the culture of your ancestors and keep what you want and leave the rest. It's yours. But let's take someone who is German-American. Their ancestors came there in the mid 19th century and that is their latest direct cultural tie to Germany. Or German lands or whatever. It's the middle of the 19th century. It's complicated. Point is those ancestors left a society where their specific culture (whatever region they were living in) was the majority and went into a culture where it was the minority. So either they assimilate or they form a smaller community with other Germans. Either way at that point they are cut off from the main bulk of what they consider their culture. They themselves will have strong cultural influences from the culture that surrounds them and even without that the culture on it's own will slowly warp and change. So too will their language. Maybe they stop speaking German in the first generation, maybe during one of the world wars, maybe there are still parts of the adult population of that community that speak a form of German. What that German-American person would consider the traditions and culture that were passed down to them from the German side of the family might have very little to do with anything that was part of the culture of those initial immigrants to the US. Now while all that was happening German culture in Germany also changed a lot. Between Unification, a world war, the establishment of a democratic system, the absolute turmoil of the 20s, female emancipation, fascism, another world war, a refugee crisis, another dictatorship, a lot of immigration from Turkey and Italy, the establishment of the EU, reunification etc etc. German culture in Germany is also drastically different from what it was in the mid 19th century when those ancestors left.

So that is the one slightly odd thing that like. People talk about their what they consider their own culture and they call it eg "German" or "Polish" or whatever, but the culture they have has just been through a lot of washes. Which is fine, but it is a bit silly when people post pictures of two old women on a cemetery and they want to call them 'sweet ladies' but end up calling them 'old hags'. But also by calling it like a culture that has a whole country attached to it it's a bit like they're declaring themselves experts which. I mean it leads to miscommunication is all I'm saying. And also there's the point that ethnicity just doesn't work like that in Europe. It's just not carried down that far through the family. I might have had Polish or Dutch or Danish ancestors in the early 19th century but I literally would never know. So it's odd to us here for people to build their identity around something that lies so far in their past. Again. This is the part that is just a little odd, will get people made fun of etc. Maybe a little annoying at times but whatever. 'you have yours over there and we have ours over here' is the name of the game.

The frustrating thing is when people with this history act like they have any sort authority on these things. And especially the frequent (Especially American) 'Bull in a China shop' moments you get where people then base their entire personality around stereotypes and come here and act like they belong. And just. There is sometimes this deep unawareness with especially Americans that they are foreigners here. Of course with Americans the cultural imperialism plays into the frustration here but I see it even with my cousin who grew up in Aotearoa and who also just. I mean both of her parents are German, a lot of their friends are and they've visited almost every year she's been alive and yet, when she says she wants to study here all I can think is 'Girl you will have the biggest culture shock of your life' and her parents literally barely have Kiwi citizenship.

And it might also be from the European side an attempt to remove oneself from colonialism, though I don't think that's the case. There is a huge cultural divide, especially between continental Europe and the Anglosphere. But mostly I mean culture is a living breathing thing that people have to actively participate in to be a part of it. And wherever in Europe your roots may lie, by nature of living on the other side of the world you cannot participate in those traditions and you will be part of a different culture. Like my culture to me is Easter Fires just as much as getting a Döner after a long night out and getting fresh bread rolls from a bakery on a Sunday morning and not being able to go shopping on a Sunday and terrible terrible Apres-Ski music (that I must admit I indulge in sometimes) and the stellar parody dubs of 2010 German Youtube and hearing church bells, and the architecture and the language omg the language, the beautiful poems, having to suffer through Faust in school, the supermarkets, the way towns work here, the way winter smells, the way my grandfather talks and the way my great-grand aunt talks, the forests, the mountains, the fields, not going to the Oktoberfest, not because I don't have the means to but because growing up I was taught to despise it and all things Munich with it, good Brezen, amazing lentil stew (from the can of course), the list goes on and on and on. And some of these are really specific to me and some are more general. And like if you want to connect with your roots, I'm genuinely happy for you, have fun! But for our hypothetical German American, whatever sits at the heart of German and European culture (bread and a certain grumpiness seem to be a big component of both) it will probably never be truly hers. Even if she were to move here. And that's fine. I mean. Idk which post you saw bc there actually were two where I left comments like that in the tags, but one of them listed a lot of examples of what culture can be and of why the 'haha white people have no culture' thing is inaccurate. Maybe it's just that it's hard to see sometimes when your culture is so squarely the majority you never ever have to think about it. Idk. I look around me and even between the regions I've lived in there are such stark cultural differences. Culture can be the songs you sing for children to fall asleep, what the most prominent mode of transport is, where you go to eat, what you eat, what you cook, whether you cook at all, whether you go to church, whether there are crosses hanging everywhere despite rarely anyone ever going to church, what you wear, especially outside of traditional clothing. Maybe at the core of this discomfort I expressed in those tags is also the big question of 'why are you looking here for guidance? You are so different.'

#this is chaotic but I hope it was at least a little helpful? #it's also very long #feel free to add to it or whatever #I will go get groceries now #ask #anon

[kaurwreck]

So I was reading your bsd analyses, and I want to ask - do you think bsd will be as enjoyable and riveting as intended to someone who knows fuck - all about these Japanese authors and their lives / milieu ? Won't Asagiri's commentary and deconstruction and playing - around - with- irl - facts yada yada be lost on someone like that ? For example in my case, I love some aspects of bsd (the characterisation) and think others are subpar (the plot. Eg i felt 55 minutes is 3/4th infantile shenanigans until the end). Is it because I lack this knowledge?

Yes, inevitably, much of Kafka Asagiri's references, commentary, and deconstruction are likely to be lost on someone who doesn't have the knowledge necessary to recognize those things. But whether that makes bsd any less enjoyable or riveting, I think, depends on the person.

I choose to read depth and commentary into everything I read or watch because that's how I experience the world. I do not and never have been able to engage with anything without grappling with where it exists relative to my own existence. From the very moment I began learning how to read, I only wanted to read materials that might help me better understand the world and my place in it.

Thus, if I'm not able to engage with material metatextually, at least in a way that's satisfying to me, I don't find it as enjoyable or riveting. But this is a preference of mine and doesn't reflect on the story itself.

Lots of people love bsd, and I'm very sure not everyone who loves it is super knowledgeable about modern Japanese literature and history. I knew next to nothing myself when I began bsd, and I watched the anime multiple times before I began to seek out more information. So, I clearly found it riveting enough for that much.

It's also important to remember that we all have different lenses, and that's why stories are so compelling and beloved. They aren't static or closed: they're dynamic and wide-open, spilling far beyond the boundaries of their original conception to change and transform and expand and contract with their audiences.

The story that's received by people who don't have the same knowledge or context as the author or the author's anticipated audience is not inherently inferior or lesser; it's just another of the many incarnations through which stories live and breathe.

#bsd #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #storytelling

[cursedvibes]

As antagonist who do you think is better between Sukuna, Kenjaku, or Toji? Why? How will you rank them?

Hm, that's a bit difficult. Toji's character arc is already over, while Sukuna and Kenjaku are currently at the height of theirs, meaning a lot could change for them. Toji is also only a minor antagonist. His presence has a broader effect on jujutsu world, but more because of his heavenly restriction and lineage not as an antagonist. I think Mahito would've been a better pick in terms of comparable roles in the story. But anyway, if I had to rank them, I'd do it something like this...

(Toji >) Kenjaku > Sukuna

Toji

Toji is the antagonist of Hidden Inventory and I think he did a good job with that. Geto and Gojo are supposed to protect the Star Plasma Vessel and he challenges them in that and also fundamentally alters their life through their encounter, forcing them to re-examine their values and change as a person. His existence affected Gojo until the day he died, even after his own defeat. By killing the Star Plasma Vessel permanently he also has an effect on the broader world and nicely helps Kenjaku with their plan. So yeah, he did what he needed to do very well. Don't really have anything to complain here that's why I put him first, but I don't think you can compare him that well to Kenjaku and Sukuna.

Kenjaku

Kenjaku is the main antagonist of the story. They push the narrative forward, without them jjk wouldn't have much of a plot, and they also propose structural challenges to the entire system. Their actions change the world so fundamentally that there is no way to return to status quo. They force the protagonists to act and question the system they were used to, while also evolving on a personal level through the many challenges they live through. Kenjaku also poses a threat that goes beyond them as a person. Killing them won't fix the damage they have done. It won't stop the Culling Game (might make it even harder to do that with the current rules) and it likely will accelerate the merger too. Contrary to Sukuna, the protagonists are forced to consider the structure of their world to stop their plan, it will take more than just pure strength to really defeat Kenjaku. Fitting because Kenjaku is not very strong compared to all the power houses on the protagonist side and was never interested in fighting either. Instead the main characters have for example the challenge that destroying the Purification Barriers around Japan could stop the Culling Game and the merger, but it would also increase the ferocity of curses and would essentially forever destroy the foundation of jujutsu society.

What also makes Kenjaku a good antagonists that goes beyond merely the chess master archetype is their improvisation, love for chaos and novelty, and personal attachments. The accomplishment of their long-standing goal is tied to giving up a close friendship, the person who probably understood them best, and we see Kenjaku struggle with that decision after they have done it. Takaba's appearance makes them question their approach and goals and shows us readers that Kenjaku is actually after very simple things that can be summarized by their requirements for friendship: have an equal friend by their side and be entertained. This makes them a lot more human and their drive more understandable beyond simply fun in seeing destruction, chaos and suffering from a detached mastermind position.

Yuuji fits in there as well. He shows that despite the trauma Kenjaku puts him through, they care on some level and he isn't merely one of many test subjects. The motherhood angle gives Kenjaku another layer of investment in the actions of the protagonists and again breaks their actions, despite their wide-reaching world-altering consequences, down to something personal. It also emphasizes how wrong and cruel Kenjaku's experiments are, since they are capable of hurting someone they care about and consider a son.

My only complaint with Kenjaku is exactly their connection to Yuuji, however. That relation has been used very well to give Kenjaku more depth, but we have been getting absolutely nothing for Yuuji. As it stands, Kenjaku didn't need to be Yuuji's mother, he could just be a test subject they really like, and not much would change, certainly not from Yuuji's perspective. He's been thrown around by Kenjaku's schemes like a ping-pong ball and yet doesn't seem to care nor hold particular disdain for Kenjaku. That needs to change. There needs to be some sort of interaction between him and Kenjaku or for Yuuji to at least reflect on the connection they share. Kenjaku is a great main antagonist, but how good of an antagonist they are for Yuuji is still up in the air. All depends on how well what has been set up about their relation will be executed.

Sukuna

Sukuna is a good antagonist for Yuuji. Not as good as Mahito in my opinion, but still very effective. His mere presence alters Yuuji's life and both when becoming his vessel and when having that role ripped away from him, Yuuji is forced to reconsider his stance on his own life and death and what he wants out of both of them. How he wants to live and how he wants to die. Especially taking Sukuna out of Yuuji was a very good idea. First Yuuji grappled with what it means to essentially become a sacrificial lamb and have his whole being objectified as being merely a convenient way to kill a dangerous foe. However, he started to settle into those circumstances and adopted the cog mentality. By robbing himself of personhood he protected himself against others doing it and it was also a way for him to see his life and death as valuable. By making his life worthless he can improve those of others. But then that role was taken from him as well, just when he had resolved to his death. Now he is searching for a new purpose and seems to have found it in killing Sukuna with the help of others and saving Megumi from being Sukuna's new vessel, even or especially by giving up his own life. We have also seen that this has forced Yuuji to take on a more active role and not just let himself be lead by what Gojo or Megumi want of him. He is taking the lead role in planning on how to take down Sukuna and so far his plan has been very effective.

Back to Sukuna, I think he is best in short explosive moments like his massacre in Shibuya or when jumping from Yuuji to Megumi. These are brutal, shocking and shake Yuuji deeply. He heightens Yuuji's guilt with both actions and makes him question everything, all his convictions. However, I think the longer Sukuna is around, the more he loses that effect and often turns all too quickly from threatening to school yard bully. I don't mean that as him having a particular hate for the power Yuuji holds over him (something which is especially humiliating with the importance he puts on strength and weakness) and acting petty because of that, but I mean in general. Especially during the current showdown in Shinjuku I think he very easily becomes a quite generic Big Bad Evil Villain. Doesn't help that we don't know a whole lot about his goals and ideology yet beyond "meet people who can challenge him" and "might makes right".

I think what we need with him is similar to what we got with Kenjaku, meaning make it more personal. Less "stop Godzilla from destroying Tokyo" and go more into depth on the connection between him and Yuuji. Make him face the power Yuuji can have over whim and have him be the one to question his beliefs for once, since he so firmly classifies Yuuji as weak, even if he acknowledges small improvements in skill. Something like Higuruma's domain would have been the perfect set-up for that because they are on an equal playing field there. But as we saw, Sukuna ran from that opportunity. Seems like we now have to wait for the numbers to dwindle for Yuuji and Sukuna to have a meaningful confrontation where we get a real clash of their principles. Think the finale of Yuuji and Mahito's fight. Mahito was such an effective antagonist for Yuuji not just because he was cruel, but he was also a very personal challenge for Yuuji and both of their beliefs were altered through their fights. That's what we need for Sukuna as well. Throwing ally after ally at him in the ever-same dusty landscape is getting a bit boring. Narrowing the scope would help a lot I think.

#asks #jjk spoilers #kenjaku #ryomen sukuna

[hearttohaato]

Encanto OC Event Week 2

Part 1: Tomás Herrera & The Madrigals

For this week about OC relationships, this'll be a perfect opportunity for me to introduce a couple background OCs that I wasn't able to last week. In order to prevent an insane amount of clogging I've decided to split the info into multiple posts, starting with the Madrigals' relationship with my favorite Just Some Guy: Tomás Herrera!

Tomás, like many other villagers within the Encanto, has lived his life understanding that the Madrigals were special people with incredible abilities. He's grown up respecting them as such, but eventually he'll come to find himself being taken in as one of their own and adopting their name - and their legacy. But though Tomás is happy to marry the love of his life and join her family, doing so comes with some difficulty adjusting to the new environment: he's gone from a household of four, to three, to two, to over a dozen. Everything gets so busy and bustling so quickly, and initially it's a little hard to keep up; for the first few years under Casita's roof, Tomás feels decidedly "un-ceptional" and like an outsider who is a Madrigal in name only. But as years go by and he gets more comfortable with all the new activity, responsibilities, and magic, he'll come to accept himself as being where he belongs just as the rest of the family already has.

In regards to Camilo Madrigal:

Tomás and three of his good friends (Santiago Torres, Cristián Vargas, and Rafael Molina) bond with Camilo as they and the rest of the town help to rebuild Casita after the events of the movie. Camilo had his own friends his age, of course, but there was something special to him about being taken in by a patch of older boys and being considered one of their own. He's simply Little Brother Shaped!

Though all four of them have their own dynamics with Camilo, Tomás and Camilo grow very close despite their seemingly conflicting personalities. Camilo aims to help Tomás loosen up and come out of his shell in ways he likely wouldn't attempt to do on his own, and in return Tomás offers Camilo stable and level-headed advice that is a welcome change in perspective from the kind he gets at home.

Of course they can get on each other's nerves, namely when Tomás won't budge or when Camilo's joking goes too far. But all in all they're a bulletproof duo, where Camilo gets the older brother he never had and Tomás gets to be the older brother he should have had.

Art by LintuShadow.Art (left)

In regards to Luisa Madrigal:

The experiences Tomás had growing up alongside Luisa Madrigal weren't unique nor exclusive only to him. He's hardly the first or only villager she's extended her hands to over the years - but from mundane favors to quite literally saving his life, everything Luisa has ever done for Tomás has meant the world to him, even if to her they were simply her duties as a Madrigal.

But despite what he may have believed, Tomás hadn't been completely invisible to Luisa. She knew him well enough as someone she grew up and went to school with, and though she was indeed doing what she needed to, she never really forgot any time she helped him (or anyone else). If anything, he was a friend to her!

What really sealed Tomás's fate was a moment he witnessed something he wasn't meant to, one that helped him recognize that someone as unremarkable as him and someone as special as her actually could have something in common: the mindset that one's own feelings could be ignored when there were more important things to worry about. From there admiration blossomed ruthlessly into a hopeless crush, and though it took him a while to be able to pull it off, he relayed his feelings to her through a simple gift: a hand carved wooden dove for her 20th birthday.

As a couple they compliment each other nicely, though in a different way than Tomás's friendship with Camilo. They are each other's pillar; his emotional stability allows him to support her in her time of need, whereas he feels safe and at ease when she's around. Luisa can very well take care of herself, this she and everyone else knows... but sometimes it's nice to sit back and let herself be treated like a princess, something Tomás is always more than happy to oblige. There's little room for arguments or disagreements between them, provided they don't try to out-martyr each other - sometimes it is necessary for one to wring true feelings and thoughts out of the other like they're pulling teeth. But they can't hide from each other, and over time it becomes much easier for them to be open and accept that maybe their feelings do matter when someone is willing to listen.

He is her osito. She is his paloma. he's so in love with her it makes him look stupid

Art by mushroomflood (left)

In regards to the other Madrigals:

Bulletpoints to make things go a little more quickly--

Julieta, as his future mother-in-law, is the closest thing Tomás has had to a mom since his own's passing. He's bashful around her for a while, even moreso when he gets the greenlight to start calling her Ma. He comes to enjoy helping her in the kitchen periodically, as he already has cooking experience from living with his father.

He wants to make a good impression on Agustín very much, despite how remarkably easy it is to get on the man's good side - all Tomás really had to do was promise to take care of his daughter and Agustín was sold. Tomás would like Agustín to teach him how to play piano but he doesn't know how to ask.

Mirabel, by virtue of hanging out with Camilo a lot, ends up getting close to Tomás as well. Tomás doesn't know how he ended up with not one but two teenage ducklings following him around but he's not mad about it. When Tomás and Luisa become engaged, Mirabel gifts him with an embroidered vest that he wears all the way up until the wedding.

The only problem Tomás has in regards to Antonio is that he's terrified of wild animals. Antonio himself is a perfectly sweet kid and Tomás is kind to him when he wants to socialize, but he'll be a little on edge if Parce decides to tag along. It likely takes years for him to get used to having the denizens of the jungle waltzing around the house, but he comes to trust Antonio to keep a handle on them.

Alma intimidates the hell out of him, especially since he's in a very Agustín-like position of probably not being her first choice to wed one of her grandchildren. But he'll prove himself to her in how devoted he is not only to Luisa but to Camilo as well, and eventually earn her blessing (to which he's both grateful and relieved).

Similarly, Isabela is a little tough on him at first and is the one to give him the third degree when she finds out he's involved with her baby sister. She recognizes he's kind of a marshmallow soon enough though and eases up on him after that. There's a cordial mutual fascination between the two and their skillsets, given Isa's ability to conjure trees and Tomás's ability to turn those trees into something new.

Tomás and Dolores are shaking hands over being exasperated by their goofy little brother Camilo, but beyond that their lowkey personalities mesh quite well. Oddly enough, between Dolores's Gift and Tomás's natural observational skills, the two tend to have enough information between them to quietly discuss goings-on around town.

Pepa and Félix are a little more removed from Tomás due to him being a cool color family addition, but as housemates there's still interactions to be had. Félix's extroversion brings a lot of energy Tomás doesn't always know what to do with and Pepa's storms take some time to adjust to, but all three of them readily agree on how much they care about Camilo and that's all that's really needed to keep the harmony.

Bruno keeps to himself more often than not and Tomás wholeheartedly understands. That said, once Tomás gets a good read on how Bruno operates and how best to approach him, they're able to have a rather polite rapport. The rats skeeve Tomás out a little but they're no big deal compared to things like jaguars and anacondas, thus Tomás can be convinced (by Mirabel and/or Camilo) to offer his talents and build little sets for Bruno's telenovelas.

Mariano is in the same boat as being a mundane marrying into a very non-mundane family, and with the added history of being casual friends beforehand Tomás ends up gravitating towards him as they adjust to their new lives as Madrigals. They, along with Camilo, end up becoming more or less the second generation parallels to the Madriguys that came before them - Tomás's Agustín to Mariano's Félix to Camilo's Bruno.

Art by cringecanto

Part 2 will be coming shortly! Then, as I'm fairly certain it's already technically Week 3, the post for that week's prompt will follow sometime soon after.

@encanto-extended-edition

#encanto oc event #encanto oc appreciation #encanto oc #tomás herrera #haato art #friend art #sorry for being oc/canon on main

[thequietkid-moonie]

Taking someone's place searching for safety

[ ONE-SHOT ] [ Touya Kinomoto ]

[ Card Captor Sakura ]

This idea has been living in my head for a while now, and I FINALLY was able to write it down!!! I totally loved the idea but im a little afraid that you won't

Is well known that a near-death experience can change a person, he knows that, still he doesn't really believe that excuse when it comes to you, you have been his friends for so long and he knows that something is off with you

Touya doesn't want to distrust you, specially when you have just survive an accident that almost killed you, but he can't help but feel weird when seeing you, even when you act like always it looks unnatural, like if it wasn't you, but then again, you always came with the excuse that almost dying can change anyone

Once the fuss over you finished you finally started to feel more comfortable and were able to try and start living in this new world, and, honestly, it was a little bit dificult, since you have all the knowledge that the other you had, still that doesn't make it all easy, despite having all the knowledge this was the first time you do it, so it take you a while to get used to this world. As well there was the curiosity of the new world, you wanted to see everything and experience a lot of things, but you always tried to cover it up or bring it up as a simple comment to your new friends, Yukito seem to don't mind it much while Touya always noticed your intentions but never says anything about it, at the end, you always managed to get to do what you wanted without really having to make a big deal out of it

Touya is incredibly smart and perceptive, plus with his own magic it will make it imposible for you to trick him, it didn't take him much time to understand that actually you aren't you anymore, someone else was pretending to be the one who used to be his friend, and even if he kept his guard up whenever you were around with time he got to know your true nature

Touya quickly understood that your intentions wasn't even close to be malicious, and even Yukito mentioned how you have been acting like a curious kid, so he decided to leave you be, but the desire to get to know the truth never left him, he was still worried about his friend and your attitude was so curious, besides he had start to notice that sometimes, when you are with them or even the first time you saw his sister and her friends your expression changed completely, even if it was just a second that you let the act fade away, letting him see such melancholy that even he felt like he was missing something

It was obvious that you won't say anything about this on your own, so when he couldn't hold his curiosity anymore he decided it was moment to ask you, he make sure you two were alone in a comfortable enviroment, this wouldn't be some kind of court, he just wanted to know, and he actually makes clear that he just want to know, he already know that you aren't exactly who you say to be and he will like to know why do you pretend to be his friend

He tried to be as calm as posible, but for you this was like a death sentence, you have being warn that it could be dangerous if someone found out so you tried to act innocent and ask what he was talking about, but when he insisted that he already know you couldn't do anything but start crying and apologizing, what immediatly startled Touya since this wasn't his intention

Touya did his best to help you calm down, assuring you that he only wants to know the truth, he won't tell anyone else if you prefer and even apologize if he came across as rude, after a while you finally calm down a little (thanks to his helps) and just give up, deciding to tell him everything

The truth is that you are his friend, but at the same time you're not, you are the version of them from another world and you managed to travel across the dimensions to take their place, they was supoused to die in the accident, so you just took their place that day and continue with their life

You intentions have never been bad or malicious, honestly, you just wanted to have the opportunity to actually have a life, you came from a world where even living seems like a sin, a world so hostile that everyone is searching for a way to escape, to the point that they are even willing to wander the universe for an eternity if that means getting away from there, and you were one of those who tried to escape across the universe, what you have done was an experiment, one of the first tries so there was a high chance that you soul wouldn't reach its destination and will wander around the stars until fades away at the end, and the only reason you overcome your fear and accepted it was to help the project improve and give a better change to your friends and family

You admited too that now that you are here there is no way to go back to your world, so you decided to live this new life and enjoy it since you know your loved ones will have the same opportunity soon, but is more likely that you won't see them again, at least not the ones you used to know, that is why seeing the versions of them of this world sadden you but at the same time comfort you

You know this is crazy and he probably won't believe you but that is the truth, although, at the end he believes you, or decide to do it, he knew you weren't the one he used to know, but now you are his friend too, and what kind of friend he will be if he didn't help a friend when they need it. From that day Touya started to silently help you in whatever you need, he is already used to notice those little hints of you struguling with something that is rather simple for this world (since is new for you) so now he just help you with whatever you are struguling with without even you having to ask, as well he start to bring to the conversation things that he thinks you may like and even lets you stay close to her sister if it remids you someone important

At the end Touya can't help but grow to care for you just as much as he cares for his little sister or Yukito, at the end (and thanks for telling him the truth) he grow closer to you and considere you like family, what lead him to also be protective over you in his own way

#card captor sakura #card captor sakura x reader #ccs x reader #touya kinomoto #touya kinomoto x reader #touya x reader #x reader #x gn reader #anime x reader #manga x reader

[risingshine]

MINI CHARACTER PLAYLIST

Share at least five songs that remind you of your muse, or that you associate with your muse's character arc. Including lyrics is optional.

Love Generation - Bob Sinclair

Peace on earth to everyone that you meet Don't you worry, it could be so sweet Just look to the rainbow, you will see The sun will shine 'til eternity I've got so much love in my heart No one can tear it apart, yeah

This song is full of chiasa vibes: a woman with love she wants to share with everyone, and a belief that the world is better with love in it. Even if she doesn't know you, odds are she loves you anyways - despite everything that's happened to her.

2. Soap - The Oh Hellos

I’ve heard if I werе tougher Then maybe I’d makе it alive I got a tender side I’ll need a harder shell to survive But if seeing is believing I don’t know I’ve seen a thing grow Without an open coat Not without a softness showing

This song is about chiasa's hope for people - people keep telling her that you need to be hard to survive, that people can't change, that only the strong make it in the world: and life being about being stubborn about the exact opposite - the best things in life come when you have a soft side.

3. Humanity - Dan Bull

You’re a cell in a body of a humanity That will expand beyond your mortality You say you’d like to live forever Then give whatever it is That makes you bigger and better Whether it’s just having written a letter Or knitting a sweater Or developing interstellar inventions Bringing us fresh frontiers to venture into, get up Through effort and sweat and in grit and endeavor These are things that bring us together From king to beggar

This is a perfect representation of Chiasa's beliefs: that people as a whole are beautiful and the most powerful force in the universe - and that the power comes from collaboration and relationships. Her kindness isn't just because of a piety: its because she knows it will bring another up, and they will aid others, and so forth until helping one person could aid hundreds.

Many hands make light work, and enough people could move the mountains themselves. Her relationships are far stronger than aything she could do on her own.

4. Strangers Like Me - Phil Colins (Tarzan).

I can see there's so much to learn It's all so close and yet so far I see myself as people see me Oh, I just know there's something bigger out there

I want to know, can you show me I want to know about these strangers like me Tell me more, please show me Something's familiar about these strangers like me

Chiasa's Curiosity! She is an endless excitement to learn things, especially from other people! She wants to learn all she can from people she knows, and experience what the world has to offer.

It is also a feeling of separation yet familiarity, being a 'yokai' that wasn't anything like the other yokai she knew. Even becoming a Kami, she still feels separate from the gods she has worshiped for all those years.

5. Who Do You Know In Heaven - The Ink Spots

Who do you know in Heaven That made you the angel you are Who did you see I wonder That made you just the cutest little charmer by far Where did you get those good looks Those eyes that glow like a star It seems they made the sun shine only twice In your sweet smile and Paradise So, tell me, won't you, Darling Who do you know in Heaven That made you the angel you are

Chiasa's just a romantic at heart, and is a sucker for old-fashioned loves: this is the kind of vibe that her heart gives when she's in love with someone.

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tagging: @ira-sturm @steel-forged @dethdvncer @puelluna @pure-patissiere and you!

#a sunny dog; chiasa

[mbti-notes]

Anon wrote: Hello, 16yo girl here. I had been questioning what my MBTI type was between ENTP and INTP for quite a long time - I had known that Ti and Ne were always at the top of my stack, but not which one was stronger... until yesterday, when I reflected back on my sheltered upbringing and I came to the conclusion that I was an ENTP, just one with very marked introvert tendencies and possible developmental delays due to combination of a stifled dominant function and possibly autism.

That stifling of Ne is also probably why I have only become more reclusive as time went on - I spent most of my time as a child either at school, the same small private school I've been going to since 1st grade, or at home, mostly on my computer. While in the surface my time on the internet allowed me to have easy access to novelty, it is still doing the same thing over and over again on a grander scale.

Meanwhile, I never managed to truly "fit in" at school, and after starting to make amends with my old friends at the end of sixth grade the pandemic happened, which pretty much meant that the only thing I'd be doing for two years was basically staring at screens all day. Once I returned back to school, I started feeling 'othered' again, and even as I found out it was partially over my own immaturity, I still feel like I will not actually become part of the group right now, that I should just grind it out until it ends, that college, due to the new environment and size will be the time I'll truly begin to shine - further proven by how excited I was when I went to one of the unis I was considering's open day recently.

Meanwhile, my ISTJ mother won't stop comparing me negatively to my brother and on how he was so similar to her in personality compared to me, always implying that I turned out "off" in some way or another, even if she's usually well-meaning.

Thoughts?

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I don't guess at type. You've only speculated about one possible function, which is nowhere near enough info to draw any kind of sound conclusion. I generally won't comment on type assessment unless people follow the instructions on the contact page to submit a proper profile of themselves. In short, I won't have any "thoughts" if you don't give me enough to analyze.

You've basically described typical adolescent adjustment issues that anyone of any type can suffer. It is not uncommon for teens to have trouble fitting in. Why? Because they are still in the process of learning good social skills. When you're at the "beginner" level of learning anything, your ideas tend to be very primitive or crude. Thus, from the teenage perspective, socializing often boils down to the idea of "approval", which is taken to mean EITHER be like everyone else OR be an outsider.

Either/or thinking is a form of illogical thinking that creates a false dichotomy, essentially reducing your world to only two possibilities. You said that not being able to find your group right now, maybe it would be better to just leave it until college - once again, your world only has two possibilities. This kind of oversimplified thinking is normal in children and teens, but it is considered a sign of cognitive immaturity in adults (as their thinking hasn't evolved since adolescence). It's not something for you to be concerned about but, rather, something to be aware of and gradually improved upon.

When compared to full-formed adults, young people (<25) are limited in several ways:

They lack life experience, so they haven't had enough time to learn all the knowledge and skills they need to live life well.

They lack cognitive resources to understand complexity because the brain hasn't reached physical maturity yet.

They lack emotional resources to cope with difficulty because the brain is still feeling the effects of changes that began in puberty.

They might also lack confidence due to too many environmental factors being out of their control.

They might also lack direction due to not having access to enough learning resources they need for self-development.

They might also lack purpose due to not having enough access to positive role models, guides, or mentors to help them see the bigger picture of life.

I mention these things not to make teens feel shamed and ashamed for what they naturally lack, but to make them aware of where their potential lies. Your "weaknesses" are just as important for realizing your greater human potential as your "strengths". Weaknesses make plenty of room for learning, development, change, growth, evolution, and transformation... BUT this is assuming you know how to confront weaknesses in the right way. So, reflect: How have you responded to your weaknesses, as signaled through your mistakes and failures?

How do you respond to lack of life experience? Do you keep it that way by locking yourself away? Do you waste your time with trivial experiences? Do you seek out meaningful learning experiences?

How do you respond to lack of cognitive resources for understanding complexity? Do you just reduce everything into oversimplistic ideas? Do you avoid complex situations? Do you study them to grow your understanding? Do you get help for understanding them?

How do you respond to lack of emotional resources for handling difficulty? Do you numb yourself? Do you run or escape from negative feelings? Do you seek appropriate help and support? Do you set out to learn healthy coping skills and strategies?

How do you respond to lack of confidence? Do you shit-talk yourself more and more? Do you write off your future? Do you assert more independence? Do you take more control whenever possible? Do you improve your knowledge, skills, and capabilities?

How do you respond to lack of direction? Do you give up on yourself? Do you resign yourself to the status quo? Do you learn how to make better decisions for yourself? Do you learn how to set and achieve more fulfilling goals?

How do you respond to lack of purpose? Do you settle for less? Do you resign yourself to being small? Do you ignore existential pain? Do you seek answers? Do you set higher aspirations? Do you commit yourself to greater ideals?

Adjustment issues are very likely to get expressed through auxiliary development problems. Since you're unsure about your type, the most I can say is that healthy Ti encourages people to 1) analyze and learn from mistakes/failures, and 2) identify and acquire the knowledge/skills required to eventually succeed. If your response to failure is dismissal, evasion, withdrawal, or avoidance, it means you are choosing to get stuck at a low level of competency indefinitely.

If you are able to get past the beginner level in socializing, you'll start to realize the false dichotomy and how self-sabotaging it really is. Socializing is much more nuanced and complex than "insider vs outsider", and there are more options available than "conform vs rebel". This raises the question of what other options are available to you - it is a question for your Ne to answer.

Yes, it's true that you can't be friends with everyone. But you don't need to be friends with everyone, do you? You only need a handful of close friends who understand you in order to have a satisfying social life. They don't have to come from school or the usual places. They can come through other activities. They can come from all demographics or backgrounds.

Growing up in a small environment puts you in danger of thinking too small all the time. The key is you have to recognize that the world is a big place, so you have to start putting yourself out there to find the friends of best fit. The more people you meet, the more you increase your odds of success. Whether you try now or later isn't the right point to focus on. You're not going to find what you're looking for as long as: you don't actually get up to look, you have absolutely no system or plan for proceeding, and/or you don't have the skills to keep relationships even when you do find good people. You need real-life social experience if you want to improve your social skills. The sooner you get started, the better. It's unrealistic to think that you'll magically be great at relationships just because you started college.

I know options can be limited at your age but 16 is generally the age when teens really start to venture out into the world on their own (without parents/guardians). In many places, you can drive and work at 16. You can start exploring places you've never been to around town. You can join more extracurricular activities/clubs that would put you in contact with people beyond your school. I shouldn't have to tell an ENTP to go out and explore, as you should simply follow your natural Ne motivation. If that motivation is absolutely nowhere to be found, then perhaps reconsider your type.

#entp #auxiliary ti #social skills #adolescence #typing #ask

[roobylavender]

in terms of character deaths i know youve spoken about bruces death but who else do you think will also pass for a reason other than old age and how will they die? in my head everyone lives (except technically jason who then obv gets revived) in order to see bruce die because i want them to grapple with that <3 but thinking about a batkid dying early as well is too painful…. even though its definitely more realistic

i'm sure this is a severely unpopular opinion but if we're talking about the bats specifically i think for jason's death to have any kind of gravitas it has to be the only one of its nature. which is to say that it has to be the defining moment for bruce through which he realizes he can't prioritize the emotional whims of a child over their actual safety. and i think that's still something you can rationalize tim's subsequent indoctrination—for lack of a better word—within bc at the moment tim becomes robin it's not that bruce doesn’t recognize that tim is delusional—he does—but that everyone around him believes tim is rational in comparison. which is a bit silly bc anyone looks rational compared to bruce following jason’s death. he’s in a crazed state of grief letting himself get beat up all around town. and obv that situation changes over time and bruce processes his grief about jason and his own inability to save people, and that presumably sets him up to be.. somewhat more sensible. enough that he starts to visibly care about the impact of being robin on tim's personal life regardless of how the latter actually reacts to that interest (eg blowing up at bruce when he tells steph his secret identity). in an ideal world that leads to a tim retirement arc bc there really is no way to rationalize him being robin. he doesn't need to be robin. that's never been true. the takeaway from his 90s arc regardless of however chuck dixon (or anyone else) wants to rationalize it is unmistakably that entrusting robin to a kid as some kind of legacy deal that comes packaged with being batman is absolutely absurd and it has to end. permanently. that much i agree with starlin on albeit for obv wildly distinct reasons and to different ultimate effect

but to circle back to the original point. all of this is to say that i don't think tim should die, nor damian, nor cass, nor steph, nor anyone really. cass and steph i don't treat the same as robin bc there are very distinct reasons as to why they do what they do. spoiler is to steph the way robin is to dick in that they are distinct identities birthed of their own experiences (which is why i am personally neither a fan of steph being robin nor batgirl). cass is a legacy character in the truest sense of the word in that it's less about trying to stick someone into a mold where they won't fit (robin) and more about truly rising to the occasion of espousing the same principles and values as your predecessor bc of shared experiences and subsequently birthed ideology. there's not really a narrative purpose to killing either of them if that's understood about their characters

the idea of bruce dying an early death stems from the fact that he carries too much of the burden on his own shoulders and it is realistically not possible for him to do that forever. it’s likely denny o’neil understood as much when he posited the idea. but the kids’ circumstances should be different. in an ideal world where the purpose of the batman mythos isn’t to drive its every character into an inescapable prison of everlasting trauma, there's every reason that the kids should get to live in comparison. and if anything an early death for bruce should only emphasize on that further, bc they won’t make the same mistakes he did

#i will say outside the scope of the kids i do like the idea of talia dying. like with the romeo and juliet symbolism #but other than that i don't think it's really necessary for anyone #outbox

[loveyourlovelysoul]

How to make better types of friendships?

We all want to have deeper and better relationships, not those that stay on the surface and last a few messages, but we're not always too open for them. We also expect others to start giving to us, asking us, through our half-open doors. But we rarely initiate an interaction. Now tell me, if everyone keeps waiting to initiate, how can we actually have a conversation or even start a friendship? It's good to take a step back, open our door a little more and be the first one showing interest in another person. It's safe to do that, despite our minds sometimes tell us the opposite to cause... we fear rejection. And historically (when we used to live in tribes), being rejected by others meant basically be in a huge life threat. But things have changed nowadays. If by any chance the other person will close their door on us, it's fine: it means we're not for them. But we can survive anyway, and it will still be worth to try. It'll help us as well in making experience for when our people will come in. Rejection is okay, it doesn't mean we're not worthy of any type of releationships on a world-wide scale. We're not in danger. It only refers to one person. And do you know how many people live on this Earth, right? So just try. Contact 5 people you'd like to talk with and see how things go. But remember to show interest in them, so keep the convo going (unless the other tells you differently ofc).

We have self worth issues: we don't feel enough, we have social anxiety (to an extent), we feel like losers, not interesting, boring, too sad, too whiny... and whatever other negative adjective you want to add. If we start this way, we may even just get that: we may really look like losers or too sad or closed off. All this is never of help in letting people in and be curious about us. Start seeing yourself differently: list 10 positive traits, or things you have achieved. Every little thing counts (even getting out of bad on a very tough day, or drinking a glass of water when you needed: you took care of you, and did amazingly). Be more proud about your small achievements: we tend to focus too much on negative parts of ourselves and life, and that's cause of some twisted up self preservation habit (think about wild animals and how they need to survive to their predators: if they kept thinking about being eaten, they would never have the chance to enjoy anything, to even live. That's what we do though: we keep thinking about being eaten by some strange enormous being -that is only inside of us. So we may even fight it and show it we can actually do anything anyway and nothing bad will happen). Starting from seeing ourselves as not good enough for relationships, we assume nobody will like us. This is where we should make a 180° turn. Let's try assuming someone will like us. Let's be propositive and happy. This way, we become unconsciously more open, warmer, welcoming.. all traits that attract people in and make them like us. Ofc there will still be some people that won't, no matter what, but that's okay: we're not made for everyone anyway.

We tend to overthink about what other think, mean by saying a specific word or sentence, or with a specific act (e.g. they cancelled our meeting so they must hate me; they aren't answering immediately to my text so I have hurt them or they hate me). This is where we lose it all. Doing so, overthinking through our self perception and our own life experience (and possible traumas/triggers), we may even end up misinterpreting the other's true intentions. And forget others do have a life of their own as well, so they may even be busy studying, working even playing videogames... just living, but it doesn't mean they hate us or don't care about us. They need time to do things for themselves exactly as we do. Making assumptions about others is rarely of help in understanding them and their true intentions. So try to be objective, get away from your own point of view on a fact, and try to be neutral. Try to see the world from the other's eyes, but even better, ask. Talk. Communicate about your insecurities, fears, worries... Keeping them inside won't be of help in understanding the other, it will just rot inside of you, hurt you, possibly cause pain and mine the relationship. To be open and vulnerable, also mean be ready to have some tough convos on emotions, feelings, experiences, problems. And to be ready to say you have been wrong or have judged the others to ofast based on your own past experiences and fears. Life it's not all about flowers and candies... there's also the other side of it. But having a deep relationship based on trust and security, will help you find common ground and be clear with the other through communication. No fears. No masks. And being understanding of each others' need for space. Focus on what you can control = YOU. How you express yourself, your thoughts, your perception of who you are and what you are saying and doing. Set your values and stick to them. And also remember to set your boundaries and be in control of your ground: you can be kind and still say no to things you don't want to do. Do not people please: this won't bring you your dream friendship or relationship, but only someone toxic taking the best of you. Relationships needs to be balanced, we need to leanr to be open and giving to receive as much. It's also about respect for the other but ourself as well. Show up as the type of person you'd like to interact or have a relationship with. Show yourself what you really deserve. And be ready to only have that back. It's not being picky, is being self respectful. And ofc it will take time and effort, lot of practice, but you'll get there. Trust yourself and your own worth. Know what you need in another person, and be ready to ask for that. You aren't needy, people has needs.

#words #healing #positivity #important #self love #positive thinking #thoughts #healingjourney #self healing #love yourself #relationships #life #life lessons #reminders #emotions #emotional health #emotional growth #recovery #mental health #mental issues #loneliness

[katyspersonal]

Hi! Can we get some headcanons or theories on Old Hunter Vitus?

HEY who is pulling that prank where people act like they want to hear my thoughts all day again?! xd /j

🧭 Okay, first things first - he was one of the less strong Old Hunters, that I am basing on the fact that his right-hand weapon requires Strength first of all but this is his lower stat (along with Arcane). He also has average build of the body; sliders are all on 128- I mean, Henryk whom I often see perceived as smaller has larger body according to sliders! Also both of his weapons are upgraded to full +10. Basically, he had to rely on agility, skill and upgrading weapons with Old Hunters' gimmics (with blood gems).

🧭 He is also a bit stuck-up and would not trade his weapon for anything else even after better ones were invented, despite Beast Cutter being far from perfect, especially for him. He is the type to latch onto the first thing he obtains until its end that can't and won't experiment.

🧭 It was @val-of-the-north's idea that the Chalice Dungeons go under ocean's level at some point, that might be further supported by the skeleton of a whale you see in Fishing Hamlet found in the dungeons too, and them being wet in general. We headcanon that Vitus is one of the 'still alive' cooperators, and he ventured down in the dungeons to try and find the exit in the 'real' world approximately in New Loran (or at least 'real' Yharnam) despite the long way. He's been looking for the exit for many years and has the most elaborate (and even semi-useful!) maps of the dungeons. Honestly, absolutely insane idea, but at the same time it might work. Eventually.

🧭 Him being slightly rigid and non-adaptive to new ideas played a very good role in keeping him sane and focused despite spending years in the dungeons. In communications and relationships with other people, though, he is like that one grumpy grandpa who thinks only his generation knew shit and younger people are too spoiled, though would offer advice and listening ear in good faith. Think of Narrow-minded Man but quite skilled and educated, and not shaming any category of people in particular.

🧭 He has Fire Paper, so I presume he has been there when Old Yharnam was burnt:

🧭 So, he left on his journey under assumption that Healing Church had it together and didn't need Old Hunters' help anymore- heck, he thought burning Old Yharnam was able to seriously hinder the beasthood spreading! But more importantly, he felt severely demotivated to stay after Gehrman's disappearance. He knows he is a dunce and needs an authority figure, that he simply didn't acknowledge in Ludwig. Like I said, he hardly can adapt to a change. Just eternally cursed with the duckling effect.

🧭 For this reason, he had many good, decades-long friends in his life that he still feels are bond to him despite their departure (or even death), but never was able to find a couple. He'd not venture unless he could find absolute commitment, but he was getting all too serious about living whole life and working together too soon, that'd push women he met away - sometimes it felt like 'rushing it', other times he just felt like the most boring guy ever. He just lacks this 'romantic' and emotional aspect, and quite basically just looking for a companion.

🧭 He knows a lot of stories, both his own and ones his friends told him, and could tell them in precise detail, down to year, month, day and hour like it happened today. Really good person to sit at the fire with.

🧭 Earlier, he used to run into other roaming hunters or Tomb Prospectors though, and would give them really cool items he found in the dungeons, to deliver to the surface. Currently, in his loneliness, he even learned to speak with Loran Clerics that would have the braincell to not attack him. From the audio files @val-of-the-north sent to me, Pthumerians have an unusual "language".. and I swear, Vitus is dangerously close to be able to teach it :') He tried to write a book of sorts on it, but it was unfinished and abandoned in one of his nooks. He doesn't stay in the same place for too long, and he tries to not carry too much unnecessary stuff with him.

🧭 In Loran Dungeons, there are a few followers of Irreverent Izzy that seek "enlightenment" she (or he, either works) found there once, by trying to communicate with its ancient beasts. Like Josef! They wear Charred Hunter set not because they once were those hunters, but because Charred Hunters were once chasing them with murderous intent, then killed and robbed of clothes for its incredible protection against the fire. They know to be scared of Vitus, since he doesn't spare them. He doesn't aspire to kill them, but will attack on the spot, it is 'you can live if you can run fast enough' attitude.

🧭 He read every book in the Old Hunters' workshop. That was his normal hobby outside of the hunt. By the time of the game's events, he'd need reading glasses though, since old age and spending too much time in hardly-lit areas reduced his eyesight a lot. The adventurous stories going into further detail about tech or nature or history were his favourite! I think his favourite author would be Jules Verne.

🧭 He was one of the people telling Maria to 'just drop the pretend and be herself' when she joined the Old Hunters, presuming that there was no way an aristocratic, noble woman from Cainhurst would willingly look modest and even masculine like other Old Hunters. He believed the nobles to be "all the same", but kind of overcame his doubts about her after the day of seeing her all bloodied and dirty, dragging Gehrman that just lost his leg all by herself and showing quite the leader skills growling at the others to get their shit together. It is just one of the examples of where he'd only drop a stereotype when something jaw-dropping happens. It is also one of the examples where he obtains a respect to a person that doesn't fade through years; if you show yourself to be very worthy and strong to him once, this effect will linger probably forever, even if you fall from grace afterwards.

🧭 Yeahhhhh I know I am making the 'quite rigid mind and if he remembers something fondly it is forever and also eager to learn' his whole personality, but I think he is understandable by now! I do not have much complexity for him, he is just another old man! ...well, he was middle-aged man in Old Hunters' prime, but you get my point!

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Thank you for the ask! Some of the points I've made existed for a while now and just were forgotten, so it was nice to blow the dust off the old ideas.. Honestly, other Chalice Dungeons summons could use my attention too at this point.

#bloodborne #ask replies #old hunter vitus #bloodborne headcanons

[bosquedemel]

long & depressing personal vent post under the cut bc i've been thinking about this since last night and need to write it down

i literally haven't done anything in life and even like my knowledge of stuff is not as expansive as i imagine it to be. i'm continually faced with the fact i'm a loser. i am, really. it's okay

i'm 30 years old (soon 31) and i live with my parents and have always done so. i have no career and no prospects. sometimes i feel okay about this but other times it obviously scares me because precarity is bad and you can't make long-term plans and it's also the reason i can't move out.

even at this age, i really don't know what to do with my life. this is mostly because of my personality which is not conducive to success. not only am i an introvert but i'm an extremely resigned person. i resign myself to any situation and then have no motivation to change it. i fall into comforting habits and routines super easily. i never had friends outside of school and i've always done things alone so i've had a pretty small life. excepting work, i feel like i have the life experience of a 19 year old. and i don't feel like a person who lives, but as someone who merely exists, day by day, week by week, time passing me by. it somehow doesn't bother me to the point of hopelessness that i'm this old and never had a relationship or a good job. it's like its just my lot in life and i accept it.

(i think part of why this is is that i can relativize anything. yes, i live in a small, boring place but it's beautiful. yes, i live with my parents but they're fine and we get along. yes, i don't have a career or a steady job but i have savings. etc. so ultimately i come to the conclusion that i'm a privileged person despite it all so maybe things aren't that bad. whether that's a conclusion that just feeds into my resigned nature is a question for another day)

it's already april and for the past 6 months i've been unemployed and barely leave my neighborhood. in fact, 90% of my life has taken place here. days - a week - go by without me leaving the perimeter of the 3 streets i exist in. again, somehow this doesn't really bother me until i realize other people don't actually live like this.

my life is so empty and unfulfilled and yet i'm incapable of realizing that and doing something about it, even though i have the material conditions to do so. why? because it doesn't register as a problem to me. it's just my normal. the same as it always has been. this is the crux of my problem. i'm in too deep.

i live in my own world and have always done so since i was a kid. i won't go into details but the extent to which i'm withdrawn and insulated as a person is kind of impressive. i don't even register the fact i'm lonely, most of the time, even though i spend most of my time in my room, in my house and in those same 3 streets, always alone.

to me, this is already so ingrained that it doesn't even affect me emotionally in my day-to-day life; despite all this, i'm a very calm and relatively happy person. because this life makes me happy. because it's what i've always known and what is normal to me.

now, with all this in mind, 2 things scare me the most:

1) that i'll somehow be "forced" to care for my parents when the time comes so i'll effectively live the rest of my life in the same house i grew up in and in the same town (which, regardless of my parents, is a strong possibility) without being able to leave.

2) that i'll have a health condition - mental or physical - that will suddenly affect my life and prevent me from enjoying it or doing the things i can still do to change it.

then, i also avoid thinking about the fact i might never get to experience love or that i'll die alone and forgotten. but those aren't as prevalent in my thoughts probably because i subconsciously realize that things like love, relationships & real friends are for other people and not a part of my world. i could never have those things because my life as it is simply can't lead me to them - consequently, this is why i don't even feel their absence, it just doesn't register to me (which is why i always see them as something that could happen not to "me" as i am, but to "me" in an alternative universe where i'd be completely different).

i dream about them and i so wish it would happen but i simply Know it will never happen if everything remains the same. it's cause and effect and if the cause remains the same, then the effects will too.

anyway, i don't really want answers to this or solutions, i just needed to put it into words so i get it off my chest and mind. i know what i need to do and i know it takes years (things have already improved a bit since i started therapy in 2015 and age also helps with some things) but hopefully, once i start working in may, things will at least improve somewhat. they will

#text #personal

[foggynitefic]

drop them bones, 22! (for the ask game )

22. Does personal experience ever inspire your fics? What about this particular fic?

Personal experience inspires my writing all the time - I think writers are by nature social and cultural magpies! It may not be in a literal sense, but bits and pieces work their way in, from love of another to sarcastic quips to financial considerations, etc.

For Drop Them Bones, it's one long character study, so I think personal experience has influenced my approach to the characters more than any plot points.

Sanji and Nami, I can see the influence of growing up in poverty, learning how to make food supplies stretch, worrying about nutrition, going hungry, learning how to safely forage. Feeling isolated as a child who accompanied adults in their occupations or chores because there was no other child care available and you had to learn to entertain or educate yourself. Figuring out how to get even a little bit of money or barter for something because it might seem like pocket change to others but is the difference between going to bed hungry or not. Always planning with an eye for the rainy days you know are just one bad turn of luck away. Those types of things.

Same with Usopp and his ingenuity - being taught how to look at something and figure out how you can get more out of it, or make it last longer. Learning how to take care of the few things you have because you can't afford to replace them if they break; you can only hope to fix them but even then they won't be the same, so take care.

With Zoro and Sanji, it's that streak of protectiveness- knowing how quickly real life can go sideways, from injuries to just bad luck to deaths, and wanting to stand between your people and the harsh world.

With ZoSan, it's the foundation of being in a relationship for over 25 years with an equally sarcastic/snarky person and (hopefully) knowing what lines you can/can't cross in that type of dynamic.

Luffy is the hardest to write but my approach to him is influenced by my partner, although their favorite character has been Shanks ever since he uttered "It's just an arm" because that truly encompasses their approach to life and both our pragmatic natures. I can see them in how Luffy accepts everyone until they're proven unworthy, how he unwittingly inspires and encourages just by being himself and living his life on his own terms.

Otherwise, my personal experience with food prep and kickboxing, maybe? I can still filet a fresh catch even though I haven't gone fishing in decades; I sous chef for my partner in the kitchen, too. I did kickboxing at an MMA school in my 20s and things like Insanity workouts to stay in shape (now paying for that because Genetics).

I can't think of anything else, lol. Thank you for the ask!

#one piece #drop them bones notes #I guess? #asks

[psychewritesbs]

hi again!! wishing you a really good week, and thanking the stars for having sent you my last ask; thank you so much for your reply!!! got so excited reading it, your words, taking your time to reply me, it really means the world to me..!!

"there's meaning in everything but if only we choose to create it in the face of the existential dread that is the chaos of the human experience" ohmmmfff!!!

loved that you got so Jungian with your reply, really into it and always curious about it!

"Gege has created a character that is a container for exploring ourselves creatively" yes!!!! not only Megumi got me thinking about the consequences of undermining myself, but also the implications of not asking for help, risking everything to save someone else, and asking myself who is worthy of being saved. even if doing everything you can to save someone you love is very admirable, i think Megumi creates this *illusion* to himself that he has the power to both save and decide who should be saved, and i can relate to that. at the same time, he doesn't seem to deem himself worthy of saving, disregarding his own life many times... i've been wondering for some time now: if for Megumi there are the good people, who should be saved no matter what it costs, and the bad people, who shouldn't be saved, while he himself doesn't seem to value his own life/finds it hard to ask for help... then which one of these, "bad" or "good", is he (to himself)? what does Megumi think he is worthy of, what does he think he deserves in his life?

"I wasn't scared to face what I saw in myself". i think this is a really really powerful process in our lives that Megumi's character can bring to surface - by us being open to it.

and i can see him going through *the tip* of this process, specifically after his first killing in the culling games, when he asks himself "what am i doing?".

"You made me realize I want to see him believe in himself again. When Megumi believes in himself, literal magic happens. (...) I cannot wait to see Megumi wreck Sukuna from the inside." holy sh*t yeah!!!!

i'm trying hard to trust Gege in showing us more about Megumi as he "re-negotiates this new philosophy about himself." cause i think, if not before, now this process is even more inevitable.

"I personally love how Gege has gone out of his way to show how immature Megumi is compared to other characters who share the same trope." yes!!!! that's a huge part of why i am so invested in Megumi. with the first glimpses of his philosophy about the world and himself, in the very beginning of the manga, i thought "damn you'll really have to reconfigure all of this and it. will. be. painful. and i'm here to see you deeply change your way of thinking - growing. bc it will be for the best, and it is inevitable".

i LOVED the list you made about the aspects you want to see Megumi grow in. really good!!!!

"I want to see him get pissed off, like really pissed off and fed up with his fate, and I want to see how that changes him and what he makes of it." shit. this is IT!!!

"And then maybe perhaps come to realize, once again, that he can't manipulate others because they too have a free will of their own." this is really hard, coming to terms with our limitations in regards to our own power... can be tough. it is tough. but once we realize it, it also starts to work the other way around: we too have a free will of our own, that's why we can say "fuck this fate", i'll make the best of it with what i can do, and i won't have to be alone through it.

"I may be projecting here but... Megumi's manipulative tendencies and the way he relates to others, it feels like it comes from a place in which his inner-child has not learned that it does not need to do anything to fulfill his need to be loved. Megumi is beloved, and its a real tragedy that he hasn't figured that out about himself." i... i actually cried hard reading this, thank you so much for your reply, jt really means the world to me, all of it, thank you so much for reading my ask and taking your time, your words and analysis are really powerful and much needed!!! this was a blessing to read, thank you thank you 🙌🙌🙌 !

ps: have you seen/read Monster? yesterday i cried watching this really good scene where the main character - who i think shares a lot of personality traits with Megumi, despite the huge differences - is told by an old man about how he lost the blessing of being close to this forest's birds after killing someone there. a bird lands in the main character's arm and the old man gets really emotional, and promises the bird that there won't ever be blood spilled in the forest again. Monster deals a lot with themes like saving/killing people too... xxx!

hola hola ♥️!

aaaaaah, te escribo en español por que sé que de una manera u otra me entiendes aunque sea un poco. Que linda! Obrigado por tus comentarios tan bonitos 🥺. Me da gusto saber que mis palabras tuvieron algún impacto en ti.

Ok back to English because even though Portuguese is very similar to Spanish I don't want to confuse you more lol.

My reply to you under the cut...

i think Megumi creates this *illusion* to himself that he has the power to both save and decide who should be saved, and i can relate to that. at the same time, he doesn't seem to deem himself worthy of saving, disregarding his own life many times

oh I love this observation about Megumi *thinking* he has the power to save others. It's like trying to grasp at air or water truly.

Also, the fact that Megumi does not look after himself is one of the most tragic things about him.

which one of these, "bad" or "good", is he (to himself)? what does Megumi think he is worthy of, what does he think he deserves in his life?

I'd say he doesn't think he's worthy of anything good?

This is why I love Megumi--as a character he's a great example of a clinical application of Psychology. A kid who is abandoned is likely to grow up with a very similar mindset as Megumi.

and i can see him going through *the tip* of this process, specifically after his first killing in the culling games, when he asks himself "what am i doing?".

Megumi is an interesting character to me because he, literally and figuratively, represents the Jungian shadow. Basically, his character is a repository for everything we don't like and deny about ourselves.

A theme that has been consistent in Megumi's character is the dichotomy between good and evil and how he rejects both aspects in himself.

Also, not sure if you've noticed how people only see Megumi's actions during the Culling Game as "self-preservation". To me, this is trying to justify his actions with logic because fandom can't fathom Megumi is anything other than a good person.

Truly, the road to hell is paved with good intentions.

So I love what you've said here because it shows Megumi growing from coming to terms with the extremes within him and acknowledging what he did wasn't exactly good or bad.

i actually cried hard reading this

ah! totally did not mean to make you cry, my bad. But yeah... very relatable, isn't it?

The wound at the core of existence...

thank you so much for reading my ask and taking your time, your words and analysis are really powerful and much needed!!! this was a blessing to read, thank you thank you 🙌🙌🙌 !

🫣 you're so kind and I too am grateful for your kind words to me. Thank you for reading my nerderies. I am grateful to know anyone ever finds them powerful and much needed. Makes me want to continue writing. I like the idea of being able to help others have moments of insight about their own nature through my words.

Kind of interesting how I am a Jungian author... just about anime and manga loooool.

ps: have you seen/read Monster?

I have not! I think ma 🍒 has? I gotta ask her because she keeps mentioning an old manga that she loves and finds very impactful. Might add it to my ever growing, never ending queue of manga to read.

OBRIGADO again for all the kind words and for reaching out! Hope to continue hearing from you 🙏🏼.

#ask the mental gymnastics anime girl

[enchanted-tatas]

Hi! Your Hivecraft server looks really interesting! I've seen someone play on a server modded with what is essentially a first person rpg version of Sburb, but I've never seen anyone do an Alternia based map before! That's really cool!!!!! I have a few questions about it tho:

1. Will you be able to choose if you're a Human or a Troll?

2. If you can, will you be able to choose your blood colour as a Troll? Or is there some kind of mechanism for that?

3. Will Trolls have lusii? And if they do, can you choose what they are?

4. Will the server be private?

5. If it's not, will it be only PC accessible or will there be PC and Mobile versions?

6. Will you add the Minestuck mod or is this more of a 'Slice of Life, Living on Alternia' kinda thing?

7. Any unique resources like Sopor Slime?

8. Will there be any Persterchum or Trollian-like thing on to allow players to communicate?

9. Even if there isn't, can the players still have speech quirks?

That's all of my questions for now! Hopefully you'll have time to answer them!

Thank you! I've heard of people doing stuff like that but I was always more of a fan of the alternia themed world building etc. This is my first time playing Minecraft though so this project is sort of a learning experience.

Lots of good questions here so I'll do my best to answer

1. I don't think that's something I'm gonna manage for people, they can change their skins if they want or make custom models but I'm not sure that I could implement that for other people myself

2. As far as I know I don't think Minecraft has any sort of blood effects unless a mod or resource pack is installed but I don't have anything like that here so far. I AM planning to make some placeable items that look like blood splatters in different colors though

3. I can make mobs of lusii in the future that just act as animals do in game so I'm sure people could tame them and give them name tags so they don't despawn. I've already made some purple bees and I do wanna play with custom mob models later

4. I think I'll probably make a discord for it later where I can see how many people are interested and get it opened once things are more built out. It'll be open publicly then but I don't wanna pay for server hosting every month so it can only be open if I'm actually online

5. I think Minecraft in general is capable of cross console play?? I could be wrong but I'm working on PC so idk how well mobile would work especially with resource packs

6. I've never heard of that mod before tbh but I'm trying so far to not use mods and only use resource packs I'm making because that way everything can be server side and people don't have to download to join. This might change depending on what I wanna put in though. I sort of imagined more as a "slice of life thing" in survival mode. Just a fun alien sandbox for people to play in

7. FUNNY U SAY THAT I did TRY to make a sopor liquid in MCreator and technically succeeded. It had its own properties and everything

Unfortunately, MCreator only works on 1.19.2 and I've been making everything else on 1.19.3 😔 I tried testing it out in a 1.19.2 world but it just didn't wanna cooperate. I'll probably just have to wait until MCreator updates to 1.20...

8. I think just the current in game chat will be what's used or people can discord each other if they like

9. They can if they type that way sure! I think there's websites where u can basically "translate" whatever you type into a custom quirk but it won't be implemented in the server specifically. People will have to type that way themselves, same as making skins

Thanks for your interest! I hope these answers were helpful I'm not experienced enough to put in all these gui type ideas lol but maybe someday 🤷 I'll be posting updates here and there on this blog so keep an eye out 👀

#hivecraft #homestuck #ask #asks #rambles #minecraft #ive got a few things i have files for that just...havent been wanting to work lol #the sopor and blood splatter items being two examples

[tadara2022]

Love yourself, even if you find yourself delusioned.

A dear friend asked my opinions about checking idols' energy and many fans seeking help for the chaos they experience due to reading such posts, especially topics like future spouses.

Well when it comes to energy checking, I would personally suggest asking for permission of them before picking card or at least before posting. Otherwise it could drains energy of them and yours, and more possibly you won't get the right answer when they are highly protected.

And whatever you experience, when you think you are obsessed with whoever or whatever, idols, games or aliens, when you think it's destroying your life, you think you can't concentrate, you can't see anything else other than them, please keep this in mind:

love and accept every moment and every side of yourself.

If you could practice so, the knots will be cut by itself.

Can't concentrate on learning, only wanna look at Jungkook's face, it's ok. Then just concentrate on his face.

There is actually nothing more valuable or less valuable without judgment. You think something is meaningless, so you feel tortured when you find yourself putting energy in it.

What's the difference of looking at Jungkook, reading books about mathematics and eating ice cream? We all die sooner or later, at the end.

How strong is the attraction?

Well, strong or weak, it will change and disappear. Just a piece of cake for a short time in your whole life, why so strict with yourself?

If you could really allow yourself to accept these "bad habbits", you could live with it, then you would spare your energy to do something else than it.

I don't believe there would be anyone just looking at Jungkook for 24 hours and 7 days so.

Whatever you are doing, if you could love yourself and observe yourself, there is a profound meaning behind this action.

Lovesick for an idol you don't even know in real life? So what? Most of us have, are or will experience lovesick because of somebody, it doesn't matter if it's a person in your life or not, what matters is you. The feeling, the thoughts, so true, so strong, aren't they just beautiful? How many times would you fall in love so sincerely in your life again?

What matters is, you are learning about yourself, so you are learning about others and the world too. What could be more meaningful than this self learning?

Even people who you stan have to go through lovesick too, why so shame about yourself? Just cause we don't earn money or get praised for what we are doing, as long as we aren't hurting others, so what? Why stick that much to the capitalism thinking?

That's what I think about the issue, and if anyone reads this is truly confused by this happening, I hope you could be nicer to yourself and define yourself by your own mind, not a value system shaped by the society.

#bts tarot #kpop tarot